#that i really have no interest in reading? but dont want to get rid f

[officialbillhader]

#awesomepie3221 #ive realized my bookshelf is majority filled with books i had to buy for school or have read. or just books meant for middle schoolers #that i really have no interest in reading? but dont want to get rid f #most of books that i havent read but need to are not with me rn #i also have realized that i simply cannot read books on my phone. as much as i try #even kne book i really liked i could only manage abt a quarter of it #i just dont like reading on my phone

[deathmcth-archived]

☢ 𝘒𝘕𝘖𝘞𝘐𝘕𝘎  𝘠𝘖𝘜𝘙  𝘗𝘈𝘙𝘛𝘕𝘌𝘙  𝘞𝘌𝘓𝘓  𝘊𝘈𝘕  𝘗𝘖𝘛𝘌𝘕𝘛𝘐𝘈𝘓𝘓𝘠  𝘔𝘈𝘒𝘌  𝘞𝘙𝘐𝘛𝘐𝘕𝘎  𝘛𝘖𝘎𝘌𝘛𝘏𝘌𝘙  𝘈  𝘓𝘖𝘛  𝘌𝘈𝘚𝘐𝘌𝘙.

REPOST DO NOT REBLOG !!

& DASHBOARD FUN ; mun addition ✧˖*°࿐

●  name ; cloves is fine!

●  pronouns ;  he/him and they/them!! either of those or switching between the two is 👍🏼

●  preference of communication ; DMs are ok! i only give out discord to ppl i’ve been rping with for a good while tho 😔 i’m not SUPER talkative but i try to reply to everything as best as i can!

● names of muse(s) ; ayalon!! i also.. have a canon character mutli-muse blog that i haven’t really done anything with.. maybe i’ll finally do something with it

● experience / how long ( months / years? ) ; i’ve been rping since i was 13, but for tumblr rp specifically i started in 2015!! and then took a much needed break from 2017-2019. i’ve always loved rping but the rp community back then was uhhhhh not as supportive of trans ppl or characters. it seems to have gotten better tho

● best experience ; i think anything i’ve done with my friend @carnivorarium // @phantasmaw!! i can’t really pinpoint a specific experience, but plotting and rping with them has been really fun and has really helped me get back into rping as a whole. IDK i was just so nervous when i first came back but she was super cool and nice and our characters hit it off super well!! 

this isn’t a tumblr rp experience but back in 2015 me and a friend created this huge fantasy world with all kinds of characters and we had the whole rp plotted out till the very end. i cant remember much of what we established but i remember it being really in-depth and thought out LSJHGKF i was always so excited whenever we both found the time to sit down and toss replies back and forth to each other. but then a few months later the website we rped on didn’t exist anymore and we ended up losing contact. i really wish i could go back and read everything we sent each other but im pretty sure i cant 

● RP PET PEEVES / DEALBREAKERS ; 

i actually have a lot and that’s why im so selective LDJFHK like the tumblr rpc has gotten better, yeah, but there is still so much room for improvement. 

1. being needlessly mean/high school bully level pettiness. Like bro there’s certain ppl on this website that do nothing but frequently make these long ass posts complaining abt how their oc(s) are better than everyone else’s, bc everyone else’s aren’t as “thought out, original, interesting, ect enough” and like? i just dont get it. i genuinely do not understand why ppl are so willing to kiss these specific kinds of ppl’s asses. the MOMENT i see any kind of “my oc is better than other ocs and here is a list as to why:” i refuse to interact. be proud of ur characters, but dont act like ur better than everyone else? i’ve also seen someone make a #girlboss post abt how “yeah there’s certain ppl on this website that want to avoid me so i go out of my way to befriend all of THEIR friends so they can never get rid of me :)” yeah ur weird. u are full on weird. u have not matured past 14. 

2. any complaining abt mlm and wlw. this includes ‘gay ships are so popular online that m/f just doesnt exist anymore.’/’everyone just wants to have gay ships so i’m going to get back at them by only shipping m/f.’ i dont think i should even have to explain why complaining abt gay ppl finally being able to indulge in fictional gay relationships is a fucked up thing to do and yet ppl still do it. stop having this ‘i have to get back at gay ppl’ mindset.. it’s gross

3. when i say no to a romantic and/or sexual relationship and all interest from the other person is lost. im not hurt when this happens, but it gets so annoying. if i say no to a ship and all interactions are suddenly cut off, it is so obvious to what ur intentions were and i really don’t appreciate it. my characters aren’t shipping fodder for yours. i know it can suck when someone says no to a possible ship, but it’s also so shitty to take that ‘no’ and then deliberately ignore the person just bc they refused u. it’s obvious, and i do notice it.

4. this is a personal preference ig but i dont like the ongoing trend of ‘my trans character was SA’d for being trans’ that is suddenly so.. popular within the tumblr rpc. it really grosses me out and i cant stand seeing it and i dont want mentions of that on my dash at all. it’s a no-no for me. 

● MUSE PREFERENCES ; fluff, angst or smut ; all three! tho i’m kinda selective with angst and even more-so with smut. i like to get a feel for someone and their character first before i rp angst, bc there’s been a lot of times i’ll be rping with someone and they would pile angst after angst on top of their character over and over again to the point it just got.. kinda ridiculous. like i love angst but sometimes ppl just get too caught up with making their characters go through the most fucked up shit as much as possible as a plot device. listen i love dragging my characters through the mud too but after awhile it gets repetitive and boring ;;v;; 

i love writing smut but given that ayalon rarely feels sexual attraction to other ppl and when he DOES he’s too busy just bullying them so. smut writing here might not be that big of a thing LKJDHFK fluff is a free for all tho!! he wants to knead on everyone like a cat and pull on them like laffy taffy. that’s ayalon being soft. 

 ● ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S) ;  i think everyone’s got a little piece of themselves in their muses!! it’s hard not to. but damn i WISH i was a giant goth dude with great hair. i guess the biggest thing we have in common is that we’re both pretty stubborn when we have our minds set on something

tagged by: no one in particular LJDKFG i just saw a lot of ppl do it 

tagging: do what i did and steal from me. it’s ok to tag me too <3

#( .MEMES. ) 𝔑𝔬 𝔡𝔦𝔯𝔢𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫 𝔟𝔲𝔱 𝔞 𝔣𝔞𝔦𝔱𝔥 𝔦𝔫 𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔡𝔢𝔠𝔦𝔰𝔦𝔬𝔫 .⊱ #yes i AM a bit of a hardass .. go men acai 😔 #'we're both stubborn when we have our mind set on something' can u guess my rising sign LKJHDK #time to eat something and then.. back to drafts 💪🏼

[private-bowling-ball]

i keep talking about this but the 4kids yugioh dub is so bad and i like the noises that my keyboard makes so im gonna start ranting and blabbing about yugioh gx and stuff, i dont kow what will come of this i cannot forsee it. in the yugioh gx 4kids dub they got rid of a WHOLE ASS SEASON!!! and i was like, "they fucking killed judai? that make no scense?" bc 4kids doesnt kill people i think and also the 4kids on piece dub, im not even going to say anything i hate it way too much i cannot express it in words. and also a little bit gay i think bc yubel is a spirit and therefore has no gender so is gender nutreal or non'binary i dont know muck about the lgbtq community and differences between certain things sorry. but they cut out the entire season 4 wich gives alot more johan who i have a massive cruch on and i bet that whoever is reading this f anyone does than they'll be like wouldnt that make you gay? well im a gay 16 year old male and im actually bi wich means i like both genders and i laugh when i see torture and gory scenes in anime like when kaneki was being tortured by yamori i just thought the concept of a toe bucket was funny bc he was putting kanekis toes in a bucket i really like typing about things on my mind and it feels really good bc i like the keyboard noises and i already said that but no one is gonna read this so aklso hwenebver i watch a anime i set my heart on a ship at the very beginging if their's anything promising and then i see the chareters evolve a nd see if it would still work or work better and i thing that in bl animes should be more direct some times and when the seaon two of yuri on ic ecoems out im gonna fucking die bc the people making it might make ships more cannon and my gay ass gets to see more of pilitski and is it just me or when yuri is wearing his glasses does he look kinga like fiuery from fma and fmag im aware that i spelled his name wrong but i dont know how to spell it so that sucks for me i keep writing about loosely related topiccs and i looked into yugioh gx 4kids dub more and i found out that they were dubbing it wthout paying or without concesnt and then htey got sued by the original company making the yugioh anime so they had to cut off seasson 4 and give i ta shitty ending and i really hate sho hes a stupid asshol and hes stupid and also theirs a guy in beyblade name sho i think and he did a thiing with his hair one time and that made my 9 yer old self feel gay wich i am 16 now i just watched that when i was nine and i was denying tthat i was attracted to a male charecter and i ememebetr when i was twleve i watched death note for the first time and i thought misa was hot and i was thibking that ii wanted to band her so bad, i was a really impure child wich i sitll am a minor but my best frieng jessie s two years older than me so he isnnt and also yknow judai from yugioh gx? well hanako from toilet boung hanako kiuns blue ghosty orby thingy is called haaku-joudai or somehing like that and i fing hanakos mental state very interesting to rad about and im buying the manga nad im so damn exited i read it onling eaarlier on crunchyroll nd i dindnt finish the manda but ive seen he anime three times and i noticed that hanako has the same sub voice actor as izuku midoriya from my hero acedamia and i thought that that was cool and i should stop ive been writing for over tn minutes and i keep a little record of my anime ants and me typing about stuff on my phone wich is difficult to type on bc its an old flip phone wich reminds me of this old show i used to watch aboutdragons that ate flipphoes and i forgot the rest but im using my family's computer rn and im not on my account so i should fuck off by :)

[candychronicles]

carve // k. bakugou

A/N: hello and welcome to my take on the all about bakugou bnharem collab! this is a potential intense read so please heed all warnings! 

this is a continuation of quarantine that i wrote last year for a harem collab. it’s not required to read in order to read this story but feel free to read if you’re interested!

i am so sorry that i solely write for collabs now lol 

CHARACTER PAIRING: bakugou katsuki x f!reader

WORD COUNT: 3,050

WARNINGS: heavy knife play (mentions of blood, wounds, weapons), super intense emotions, oral (f!receiving), good ol fashioned penetration, implications of a lighter skin tone if you squint

SYNOPSIS: your boyfriend suggested to try a new kink over quarantine yet life was beginning to resume some semblance of normalcy with no excitement in sight. what was going on? 

want to enjoy more bakugou? i mean, c’mon, who wouldn’t? 

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you did not, in fact, try anything risker. bakugou balked at the thought of hurting you once he got over the high he was in, lusting over the fact that you were able to put him in his place so easily, though he would never admit that. he wouldn’t admit a lot of things, in fact, like how he was afraid he was going to slip and cut too deep, how he thought you secretly didn’t trust him, how he wasn’t and never would be good enough. all these thoughts kept running through his head as time went on, as quarantine sunk deeper and deeper into chaos, as he got called back into action much sooner than expected and never really got a chance to spend time with you like he really wanted to.

over a year had passed since the last first and last time he had ever brought the knife up. you had asked him plenty, showing him different blades, trying to get him wound up, but he always pushed the thought away, fucked you into submission, or if you were being particularly relentless, let you fuck him. it kept you at bay for awhile but you both knew that things wouldn’t stay quiet forever.

it was on a normal tuesday evening that you sat him down for a serious chat. he had been gone for awhile, quarantines lifting up left and right, people getting vaccines and life returning to as normal as it could be after what everyone had went through. he was distant, stressed, unsure of life and frustrated with how he was feeling and you could tell. he didn’t, however, know that you were that observant and he was sure that you were going to kick him to the curb. honestly, how could he blame you with the way he was treating you, acting like you were some fragile doll that needed to be kept at arm's length wrapped in bubble wrap your whole life? fearing he would break some sort of trust between you two or worse, snap you in half. it wasn’t until he felt your gentle hand on his own that he realized he’d been consumed in his own thoughts.

“Katsuki, what’s wrong?” you finally asked, not one to beat around the bush.

“nothing’s wrong babe, just tired, you know i’ve been working a lot,” he brushed off, going to stand up.

you didn’t give him the chance though, yanking his hand so that he was pulled forward, slamming into the table.

“don’t. lie. to. me,” you commanded, anger evident on your face, brows furrowed and eyes challenging straight ahead.

he sat down with a sigh, not sure of where to begin or even if he had the strength to say anything to you, but before he could, he heard your voice, unusually meek, ask “was it something i did?”

his hand tightened around your own before he realized he was squeezing harshly, quickly letting go and rubbing his fingers as if he had burned you, which he might as well have with the way you recoiled at his actions.

“Katsuki, please, if there’s something i did, at least tell me. i’m going crazy watching you run away from me without me even knowing what’s going on.”

fists clenching under the table, he huffed, attempting to collect his thoughts once more. he knew now that there was no running from this, no more hiding his feelings or wallowing in his own despair and pity.

“i’m afraid of hurting you. during sex, especially. with the knife kink, ya know?”

you cocked your head at his, eyes squinting as you tried to analyze what he had just said.

“i’m not made of porcelain. i think that, as adults, you and i can have a conversation about boundaries, safety, how to keep in communication and what to properly do during aftercare. it’s really not any different from the conversations we’ve had before in any part of our life, really.”

“but what if i go too far?”

“then i’ll just embarrass you by going to the hospital and telling them that my boyfriend’s monster cock split me in half. m’sure they’ve heard worse,” you teased, reaching out to poke at his forehead that was set in a permanent wrinkle, face scowling at how nonchalantly you were talking about this.

“i’m serious, what if i fuck up and cut too deep or nick an artery or accidentally slip and stab you or you sneeze and stab yourself or-”

“hey, ‘Suki,” relax. it’s why we’ll educate ourselves and take it slow. you’re not putting a knife to my neck after all. we’ll learn and talk together so that we’re both feeling safe and if you still don’t want to do it after then that’s fine! we have a great sex life as is. i don’t need every one of my kinks fulfilled to be happy and satisfied with you.”

despite the insecurities and confusion that settled in his brain like a thick fog, he nodded his head, agreeing to learning and trying this new experience with you. secretly, he was ecstatic, his cock twitching as he thought about carving his name into your body, but the logical part of his brain still wasn’t convinced. 

you two spent the night educating yourself, figuring out what blade you wanted to purchase, how to keep it clean, how to safely take care of wounds, both minor and major, safety do’s and dont’s and going over boundaries and safe words. it was hours later that you both collapsed into bed, thoroughly tired yet satisfied after the conversation and education that had just taken place.

three days later, a nondescript package arrived at your door, simply labeled with the postage and address. you quickly grabbed it and rushed inside, careful to close the door quietly. Bakugou had the day off and spent most of the morning doing paperwork, only now choosing to workout in order to get rid of the boredom that was already seeping into his brain. 

you tore the package open as quietly as possible and shimmied the box tucked inside the package out, careful not to damage anything, popping it open and smiling at the sight inside. a shiny blade stared back at you, hilt a forest green, deep and inviting. you pulled the object out, running your finger along the cool metal, admiring the way it glinted in the harsh kitchen light. 

quickly, you scrambled into the bedroom, eager to see what Bakugou would think but when you peeked your head inside the room, it was dark. you frowned before realizing he had already sat down at his desk, tolling away at the mounds of papers he had to go through. sighing, you gently placed the blade down on the dresser, forgetting about it as the day went on.

it was only when you were in the shower later that evening, ready for bed, that you remembered you didn’t put it away. you hurried to finish, barely throwing a towel on yourself before whipping the door open only to see he had already spotted the object. 

Bakugou was twirling it in his hands, testing the weight, prodding at the tip with his fingers, letting out a sharp hiss when the blade nicked his finger.

without thinking, you stepped forward, taking his hand into your own before slowly lifting it up to your lips, sucking on the wound, the taste of iron and his own sweet flavor hitting the roof of your mouth. you watched him with hooded lids as your towel dropped haphazardly to the floor, body still dripping from the shower.

“princess, you’re playing a dangerous game tonight.”

you only hummed around his finger, stepping closer to him, pressing your wet body to his, shivering at the warmth he radiated. he pulled his hand away from your mouth, choosing instead to cup your chin and bring it closer to him.

“are you sure you want to do this? do you remember everything we learned?”

“i’m sure, Katsuki, i promise. we have our safety words if things get out of hand, yeah? but i’m sure it won’t,” you reassured, blinking up at him with such sincerity it nearly took his breath away.

with the knife tucked firmly in one hand, Bakugou led you to the bed, laying you down gently, propping your head up and settling into your thighs, kissing, biting, sucking.

he took one deep breath, hands trembling, before the coolness of the blade just barely grazed your skin. you took a sharp inhale of breath but before he could ask what was wrong, he heard you beg for him to do it again.

his tongue came out to press flat against your clit and you jolted, his one hand coming down to hold you still and the other using the knife to trace lazy shapes along your thighs, up your pelvis and around your stomach. 

you struggled to maintain your breath, the sharp scratch of the knife as it tickled your skin contrasted with the soft and soothing tongue of Bakugou as he leisurely lapped at your sensitive nub. you begged and pleaded for more friction, white knuckling the sheets as you tried to keep your composure but all he did was sadistically smile and hum, the vibrations driving you crazy. 

he kept up that pace for a while, the blade leaving behind bright pink swirls on your skin, tickling and pinching you at the same time. it was all so exhilarating, knowing that something bad could happen and yet being at the complete mercy of your boyfriend. 

Bakugou, on the other hand, was stalling for time. he wanted so badly to claim you as his own and yet he was still convinced this wasn’t what you wanted. he thought you were faking it or doing it for his own pleasure and yet in this moment, all he wanted to do was please you, make you feel good, make you know that nobody would ever lay a hand on you besides him, that you were and would be his forever. he felt so strongly about you and about you being his that he didn’t even notice he was applying more pressure to the blade until you let out a gasp.

immediately he sat up, blade dropping clumsily to the bed as he examined your hips, realizing he had nicked the thin skin on your pelvic bone. he stared blankly at the red welt, a pinprick of blood seeping out of the cut. numbly, he looked up at you, ashamed he had hurt you. before he had a chance to open his mouth and apologize, however, you surged forward, crashing your lips against his own, teeth gnashing. he was sure he tasted blood but the way you were kissing him, he didn’t think he could stop even if he wanted to.

“Katsuki, i need more, please. i need you, all of you, need your name carved into my body, need to know that i’m the only one for you.”

he paused, hands coming to gently push you away, looking into your eyes to see what kind of game you were playing but all he saw was that same sincerity and desire as always.

“i just hurt you know. what if i go too far?”

you grabbed his face fervently, squishing his cheeks with your hands. 

“I trust you with my life. I always have and I always will. I am yours as you are mine. I want, no I need, this from you. Please.”

his heart practically squeezed in his chest, an unusual lump forming in his throat as he stared at you, at the way the tears pooled at your lashes, how you looked at him like he was the sun, how your warm breath caressed his face and your soft hands held him so tenderly. it was in that moment that he finally realized how much you loved him, trusted him, needed him as much as he needed you.

no words were spoken as he wiped away the tears from your cheeks, laying you back down gently on the mattress, knife picked up firmly in his hand as he splayed his other across your stomach, stretching and pulling at the skin to make it taut. he didn’t even think before he put the blade to your skin and began carving the first line in the K.

the first cut stung, a slow, agonizing pain as he sliced straight up and down, pinpricks of blood following in the wake of his actions. he looked up at you, making sure you were okay, but you were already placing your hand on the blade, urging him to continue.

the next few lines continued to sting but with it came an utmost sense of security and pride. he was carving you, embellishing his name into your body, carving you, marking you, molding you to become a piece of his own flesh. you were his canvas, his artwork, the beauty that was brighter than the stars. he was the sun, hot, fiery, full of temper and you were his moon, patient, calm, full of emotion. together, you two worked in tandem, balancing each other out, keeping each other in line, never able to fully connect but never being able to stay away from one another. but today, on this glorious evening, the sun and the moon meet, an eclipse in the night, destined to become one, and as the blade finished slicing you, the final stroke, the “I” to end it all, your souls merged.

Bakugou stared back at his own name, his first name, carved along your skin, rivulets of red pooling along your skin, eager to be released from their confines. his hand came to gently wipe away your skin, wincing as you hissed.

“let me get you cleaned up.”

he tried to get up, he really did, but when you reached for him, your voice wanton, begging him to fuck you, pleading, saying that you needed him now more than ever, he sunk back down onto the bed, his shirt flinging over his head, clothes kicked off to the side. gingerly, he climbed on top of you, not even getting a chance to adjust or make sure you were okay before you were trapping him in your legs, pulling your bodies practically flush, his cock sitting heavily against your aching cunt.

“baby, please, i want you too, so fucking bad, but i need you to tell me you’re okay first, need you to talk to me before we go any further,” he begged, eyes searching your own frantically to make sure you didn’t get lost in the emotions.

“m’okay ‘Suki, promise. just need y’so bad, please.” 

he breathed deeply through his nose, cock twitching painfully, before he situated himself properly between your legs, gently thrusting into you, nearly gasping out as you sucked him in, soaking wet and eager for his touch.

“fuck baby, you’re so wet. been waiting for me to fuck you senseless, hm?”

you only whined out in response, hands curling around his neck to pull him closer to you, sealing him in a kiss and wriggling your hips.

he obliged without question, too consumed in the feeling of you, your scent, the stickiness of the blood, your hands in his hair, everything about you was driving him crazy. you were everything to him and he could feel in the way your body reacted to his touch, the way you cried as he kissed you, how you whispered over and over again how much you loved him, how you wanted to spend the rest of your life with him, how you needed him at your happiest and darkest moments in life, how you two would meet in every life and love each other no matter what, he felt it all. so much so that his own tears began falling, soaked in your soft skin, slipping between each kiss, sealing your fate with one another.

his thrust were slow and deliberate, taking his time, savoring every breath that he stole from you, every gasp and moan and cry and prayer as you worshipped him over and over again. your body was on fire, adrenaline making your toes curl and fingers tingle, head dizzy from lack of air but you couldn’t stop, meeting his thrust with your own, legs locked tightly around his torso, hands pulling him impossibly closer, loving the way his body set you on fire. you were drowning in the flames and yet only wanted to sink deeper into heat, consumed by the tranquility it gave you. you were at peace, body alight with pleasure as your chest met his, back curling off the bed as he rocked you through the most intense orgasm you had ever had.

it only took a few moments of your cunt clenching around his cock before he came, thrusts becoming sloppy as he rode you both through your high. breaths were caught, bodies untangling from one another as you came to your senses. after a few minutes, Bakugou gently began stroking your cheek, bringing you back to reality, going through his checklist as he made sure you were okay after what had happened.

after he had gotten you some water and began tending to your wounds, you looked at him, hand coming to gently grip his, stroking the calloused palms of your lover. 

“thank you, Katsuki.”

he looked at you like you had two heads before scoffing, claiming that he only did what you two wanted to do before finishing cleaning you up, going to the bathroom to take his own shower and wash the blood off of himself. you laid there, donned in one of his shirts, taking in your emotions, when the door opened up, Bakugou stepping out dressed in sweatpants, flashing you a rare soft smile as he took in the name carved on your stomach.

“y’know, that’s just the beginning,” he started, coming over to lay down next to you, gently pulling you into his side, kissing the top of your head and watching the way you looked at him, expectant and full of love.

“you’re not going to just have my name carved on you, princess. soon, i’ll give you my last name too.” 

#bakugou x reader #bakugou katsuki #bakugo x reader #bakugo katsuki #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #mha #bnha #my hero academia x reader #boku no hero academia x reader #tw: knife

[lovecolibri]

Remember when we were all 'an entire episode focused on M*ria? No thank you!' thinking that it's going to be just one Episode centered around her and not the entire Season?? 🤡Hollier and RNM writers sure dont know how to read a room. Like even if this is still a leftover from C*rina - after all she did start out writing s3 and gave the outline for it - it has to be what Hollier and the rest of the writers want or at the very least are not terribly opposed to. Once again this is Roswell NM: White Guilt & Wasted Potential.

You said it! And I think they mentioned changing some of the outline for the season and we all thought after episode 1 that meant getting rid of f*rlex early and not dragging that out forever but at this point I'm betting it has something to do with them thinking if they wedge m*ria, or her bar, or mention her in every scene, and have everyone only showing concern for her at all times above everything else, that it will make up for her character being entirely superfluous. Instead of, you know, actually addressing her character's flaws and using that to move the story forward and giving her storylines that make sense for her character. And at this point, even the people who didn't like her last season but were hopeful for her getting some redemption under a new showrunner are getting frustrated with everything centering on her to the detriment of other characters and storylines. And since they haven't dealt with even the most basic of her issues from last season, all the other characters falling all over themselves for her makes no sense, and it's keeping Malex from being able to move forward. Alex and Michael are going to HAVE to address the m*luca elephant at some point as they address their other issues in order to build a foundation and progress the Malex storyline but because the writers are refusing to hold m*ria accountable or address any of her issues, it's forcing Malex to stagnate even more which has been one of the major frustrations about this season. Wedging m*ria into the middle of everything and shoving the idea down our throats that all the characters love her because she's absolutely perfect while also showing her being pretty darn awful (has anyone told Liz that her supposed BFF was going to kill Max or die herself trying? I'd have loved to see how that conversation went down) is detracting so much and causing so many issues for a season that is otherwise really fun and interesting but is impossible to watch without getting smacked in the face with the "m*ria is perfect" agenda. Which is a shame because as I said, this season IS interesting and fun but watching storylines that should be going to Liz, or Isobel, or Rosa, and watching characters twist themselves up and ignore important things for their characters in order to prop her up just make it even more glaring that they have no idea what to do with m*ria's character because she isn't actually needed, because c*rina never though her character though past being someone to give info to Liz about Rosa in season 1 and to be an obstacle to Malex.

#my sweet nonnie friends #roswell nm #season 3 spoilers #anti maria deluca #carina wrote them into a corner and they have yet to successfully figure out how to get out of it #so instead of backing up and calling her character out and then shifting direction #they just keep digging further into the corner

[bloomyn]

Can I request a f!reader x giyuu where Giyuu always says he has the worst luck and then he ends up with the Luck Pillar for an S/O? And maybe Giyuu doesn't have that bad of luck after all 🥰 you can make it fluffy or smutty but just Giyuu with an outgoing extrovert s/o. Pls. 💛

lucky ; lucky

pairing: giyuu x reader

tags: fluff

a/n: awwwww soft giyuu makes me soft (for lack of better wording) + whole bunch of word vomit

｡･:*:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆

sanemi practically doubled over.

“TOMIOKA! TOMIOKA-SAN WHAT HAPPENED!”

the water pillar clenched his fist. 

“nothing.”

it was, not actually nothing. this last mission had left with with half dyed hair and  pink stained skin. dont ask him, he had no idea how it happened. 

“is that you giyuu - san?” mitsuri chirped. he sighed, reluctantly turning around to face the love hashira only to be met with not only mitsuri but you as well. immediately, he flushed, turning back around and completely forgetting that sanemi was still dying on the floor laughing at him.

“i-i just have bad luck.”

you laughed, flicking a rock at him. “hey! im right here you know!”

he just wanted to curl up and die.

---

giyuu crept into the estate, annoyance written clear on his face. it hadnt been a great week. no, he hadn’t been killed and yes he had been able to defeat the demon but wow did it come with its consequences. it wasn’t dyed hair or skin, or a knocked tooth, or falling into cow dung, no, those had all happened last month. he could already hear other hashira’s laughter about his situation, if the universe was at all listening he was practically begging for a bit of decent luck-

“giyuu-san? what are you doing?”

he froze in his tracks. frick, he had been so close to the infirmiry too. 

“giyuu-san?”

he rolled his shoulders back and took a deep breath. of course, of course it had to be you. the one hashira he didn’t want to run into. no, it wasn’t because he hated you, it was, quite the opposite actually. 

he felt your hand on his shoulder and thank god for the darkness because if you had seen the dark flush run down his face he would’ve died and ascended into the sky right then and there. he looked down at his feet, trying to come up with the right words to say, but he didn’t have to.

you had already grabbed his wrist and started to drag him down the hall.

“i know you don’t really want to draw attention to yourself so you can rest in my room for now!.” you whisper-yelled. “i already have some supplies.” he wanted to tell you that well, yes he didn’t want to draw attention to himself but with you around he probably would anyway. not that he minded of course, he secretly loved the way you managed to keep a bubbly persona even if he couldn’t reciprocate it.

he was hit with a waft of sweetness as he stepped into your room. 

“take a seat!”

“ah, ne, [name] - san?”

you hummed, turning around to get the supplies out of your kit. 

“how did you know i was there?”

“where?” you asked, “in the court yard?”

he nodded. he had silenced his foot steps and breathing, and he knew he was good at slipping around , so how had you managed to catch him?

you shrugged. “just lucky i guess.”

he sighed. “would you mind sharing a bit with me?”

at that you laughed, a full on laugh not just a slight breath through your mouth. and on the inside (he would never tell you), it made him feel a bit warm inside. you sat down, taking a seat in front of the blushing water hashira. when he finally peeled off his uniform, and no, you weren’t staring at his rippling abs and toned pecs, you practically fell over.

all over his chest were dumb smiley faces and markings, some good some not so good, hilarious nonetheless. but before you could even mutter a word, the man in front of you sighed.

“i was unconscious. there were some kids.”

you bit the inside of your lip. could you laugh? were you allowed to laugh?

“you can laugh.”

and you howled, your face was all scrunched up, your body keening at the thought of little kids drawing on the oh so scary demonslayer. infront of you, giyuu was red all over.

“awh giyuu-san its okay. they were only little kids.” you said fondly. he groaned, leaning forward to rest his head on your shoulder. 

“please dont tell anyone about this”

---

that was two months ago. and he’s really starting to believe that you actually sent him some luck because he doesn’t want to sound cocky but, he’s been on a roll. no dyed hair, no pesky kids, no accidents.

“tomioka - san!” rengoku boomed. “i heard you managed to get rid of those two demon moons!”

he nodded curtly, “mm”

“all that bad luck seems to be wearing off huh?” rengoku smirked, tossing an arm around the younger man.”

yeah okay, so what if he was spending a considerable more time with you than anyone else? so what if he had unintentionally fallen for you even more? the only issue with those questions was that the answer to both of them was yes and just the thought of you had him red. 

and also, maybe he had read that the interesting about those who practiced breath of luck was that they were able to spread their lucky energy, but only to those who they were truly in love with. 

---

you sighed. “mitsuri-----”

the love hashira rolled over, facing you, a bright smile on her face.

“so did you finally come to your senses and admit your deep loving feelings for our very own tomioka-san?”

ah. of course she knew.

“...yes.”

she squealed, rolling on top you and squeezing your face in between her hands. 

“thank god! i mean i already told him that you were in love with him but--”

you gaped, flipping the pink haired woman over.

“you WHAT.”

“i-i mean he’s in love with you too so...”

“when. did. you. tell. him. this.?” you managed through gritted teeth

she held up a two.

“weeks or days.”

she looked away, “hours.”

you jumped off the girl and sprinted out of the room. oh crap oh crap, you were the luck hashira how was this even happening--

“[name]”

you stopped. 

“g-giyuu - san”

you felt him come up behind you, and then next to you.

“I NEED TO APOLOGIZE--”

“i’m in love with you.”

you choked on your spit, hacking up air and nothingness. giyuu crouched beside you, patting your back. once you’re breathing had returned to decently normal you took a seat next to your crush.

“i wanted to be the one to tell you, you know.” you whispered.

“hmm, i think you did though.”

you furrowed your eyebrows

“breath of luck users can pass their energy off to those which they love, and , um particularly this month i-”

you blinked.

“i didnt think you’d be able to feel it. i thought it was a myth, you could feel it?!”

giyuu nodded, smiling a little at your blushing face.

“i could feel it.”

“AUGH.” you groaned, “thats literally so embarrasing i was trying to project as much as i could onto you because i thought that maybe it wouldnt actually make a difference but you actually found out im so sor-”

a pair of lips on your cheek cut you off.

“dont be sorry, i thought it was”, he coughed into his arm, “romantic.”

you swore you passed out.

“well.” you started, “at least one of us thinks so.”

you turned to meet his eyes and you both dissolved into giggles.

“does this mean im going to get lucky all the time now?” he asked innocently

“g-giyuu!”

---

you swung your laced hands back and forth. besides you, your boyfriend was an entirely new shade of pink. grinning, you planted a kiss on his cheek.

“giyuu- dont be embarrased! im just spreading my luck to you!”

“i shouldve never told you about that.”

#giyuu x reader #giyu x reader #giyuu tomioka #giyu tomioka #giyu #demonslayer #demonslayer x reader #kny #kny x reader

[lnarizakis]

a two-player game (2 lives left!) | k. kenma

masterlist

2 lives left! | a two-player game: kozume kenma x f! reader 

STATISTICS

PLAYER ONE: KOZUME KENMA.

SHOCK: — — — — — 5/5

OBLIVIOUSNESS: — — — 3/5

ADVICE-GIVING: — — — — 4/5

FRIENDLINESS: — — — 3/5

IN LOVE: — — — — — 5/5

PLAYER TWO: (L/N) (Y/N).

SHOCK: — 1/5

OBLIVIOUSNESS: — — — — 4/5

ADVICE-GIVING: — — — 3/5

FRIENDLINESS: — — — — — 5/5

IN LOVE: — — — — — 5/5

(U/N): hello? u still there?

(U/N): hellooooo

(U/N): afk much? haha

(U/N): u didnt finish what u were sYing\

Kenma stared at his screen, wondering what he should say. His mind wandered, thinking about the fact that (Y/N) was somewhere out there, in the comforts of her own home, sitting and playing the same game he was playing. He thought about how she was probably sitting cross-legged, or slouched, or her back completely straight as she probably wore headphones over her ears, or earbuds tucked in the confines of her ears, or blasted the game soundtrack through the speakers of her computer. Kenma sighed, as he slouched back in his chair. A blush crept over his face. He was talking to his crush over a video game. It was practically like texting her. Kenma began to type once more.

applepi: yea im still here

applepi: so abt my crush

No, no, no! What was he doing? He couldn’t possibly tell his crush about his crush! Why? Why would he do that?! He immediately typed in a “never mind.” Despite some protests from the other person, the two pretended to forget that ever happened.

—

All throughout the weekend, Kenma sulked and sulked. There was no particular reason, but he just felt so uncomfortable knowing that he told his crush that he had a crush on someone. There was also the factor that (Y/N) didn’t seem quite interested in what he had to say about his predicament, unlike past times where he could talk about anything he wanted and she would gladly contribute all she had to offer to help the poor boy out.

And so the terrible weekend had ended. It was a nice break for Kenma, being away from everything and everyone; he immersed himself in the virtual world as he let go of all of his worries. But now he had to face reality once more - he had to face (Y/N), the terrible final boss. He had so many more enemies he had to defeat (his teammates, according to Kenma), but the powerful weapon of ignoring them always beat them in the end.

He wanted to stay in his bad mood for the entire school day. It was his plan, and it was a really good plan, but (Y/N) just had to ruin it.

Kenma sat at his desk in his classroom that morning they returned from the weekend. He stared at the nothingness that lay before him on his desk until he heard the sweet sound of (Y/N)’s voice when she came through the door to the classroom. He heard her laugh as she greeted those around her a good morning. He relished in the music as she walked towards her desk.

“Good morning, Kenma-kun!” (Y/N) chirped, as she sat down. Kenma jumped at the sudden words, and he felt warmth everywhere, especially in his cheeks. He smiled at the sound of her greeting, and said one back. God, no one could make him feel the way she makes him feel when he’s around her. He took a deep breath, knowing that his unrequited love consumed his whole heart. Ah, if he were only as smooth as Kuroo was and knew his way with words.

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

Kenma frowned; from a mile away, one could tell he was clearly in a bad mood. He hung his head down low, as he was reminded of (Y/N)’s date last weekend.

“Kenma-kun, are you okay? Is there something wrong?” (Y/N) asked, her voice laced with concern. Her eyes studied his face, discontentment written all over it. She wondered what she should do; if only she could consult applepi in this situation. The setter faced (Y/N) and he smiled.

“Ah, it’s nothing, (Y/N)-san, please don’t worry,” he murmured, hoping that she would get the feeling that he would like to be left alone.

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

And so for the rest of the time they sat next to each other during class, (Y/N) thought about everything that applepi had advised her to do with every problem that she had:

(U/N): help!!! i cant decide between buying a sword or a dagger from this shopkeeper

applepi: hm get a sword bc u will get more gold out of the enemy

—

(U/N): theres this one friend i have & i feel like she rlly hates me??/?

applepi: are you only focusing on the small details?

applepi: look at the big picture & notice her behavior around u,

applepi: is it different from when shes around other ppl?

—

(U/N): do u think its weird that talking to u feels like an escape from reality?

applepi: no i feel the same.

applepi: i think that talking to someone u barely know is a good way to let loose bc they dont know who u r

—

(U/N): how do you get rid of the feeling of missing someone?

applepi: i talk to them thru text as if they were sitting right next to me

applepi: like how im talking to u right now

...

(Y/N) looked down at her notes to see that she had written nothing compared to all the complicated words written on the blackboard. She had been staring at the blackboard daydreaming about how she had fallen in love with her internet best friend. (Y/N) thought it was silly, really; it was stupid how she had fallen in love over text on a screen. But those words, all of those words that some guy out there named “applepi” had accompanied her throughout her best and her worst times. She could stay up all night to see them up as well, fighting away enemies to clear the level. From in-game items to wise words of advice, (Y/N) owed so much to this person.

And Kenma had no idea that his crush liked him back.

+1 OBLIVIOUSNESS!

—

(Y/N) was a very friendly person; everybody in the volleyball club could see that. It seemed to Kenma, of course, that (Y/N) was the friendliest with Kuroo Tetsuro, the captain. All throughout practice they would constantly make jokes with each other, teasing and pushing each other around. It hurt Kenma; it really did. But (Y/N) did not know that.

In fact, after that dreaded date over the weekend, (Y/N) and Kuroo promised to each other that they would not go out on a second date. They realized that they were better off as friends, for Kuroo could sense in (Y/N)’s eyes and her words that she had the ability to break Kenma out of his shell, even further than Hinata had done. She also told off Kuroo, telling him that she couldn’t date someone who had such weird bed-head hair, much to his disdain. He couldn’t get rid of it! And besides… she already had someone in her heart.

But the point of the matter is: Kenma was taking this completely the wrong way. He watched with jealous eyes as Kuroo and (Y/N) shared playful banter. Her beautiful laugh rang in Kenma’s ears for all the wrong reasons.

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

As they practiced serving, Kuroo used this as an opportunity to try out his jump serves. He was consistent, but the one time he hit it into the net, (Y/N), who was watching for stray balls, called out to him, teased him to no end. The other teammates laughed on, especially Haiba Lev, whose serves were just as bad. Kenma mentally cursed at Kuroo, for stealing away (Y/N). He could never possibly curse at him for real; everyone would be in shock at his sudden outburst and ask him what was wrong. (Y/N) would ask him what was wrong. And if that happened… he would freeze up and definitely lose another life.

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

When they began practicing receiving, Taketora called out to Yaku to try out Karasuno’s libero’s “Rolling Thunder,” or whatever it was called, to which Kuroo made a sarcastic remark that Yaku could never pull off something as flashy as that. (Y/N) laughed, despite not knowing what the “Rolling Thunder” move was. Once again, Kenma mentally told off Kuroo to stop saying funny things that (Y/N) could laugh at. His jokes were the ones that made (Y/N) laugh; he knows this because she laughed at all the jokes he made over their chat in their video game.

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

During their water break, Kuroo and (Y/N) played a little chasing game as she playfully refused to hand him his water bottle. She tossed his bottle to Taketora, who then threw it to Fukunaga, handing it over to Yaku. Kuroo chased the libero around, who passed it on to Inuoka. He gave a hearty laugh as he tossed it to Lev. Silly, clumsy Lev called out to Kenma as the tall boy threw it to Kenma, who with his slow reaction did not catch it in time. The lid of the bottle flew open, and water poured out everywhere. Everyone else watched in shock, but the initial shock passed by them as they all began laughing.

Kenma thought they were all laughing at him.

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

The same ordeals continued even after the water break, and after a millennia later, the practice ended. Kenma, along with everyone else, helped clean up after practice. They also cleaned up the little water spill, which (Y/N) thanked Kenma for helping clean up.

Kenma changed his clothes in the club room. He was the only one inside, as Kuroo and (Y/N) were outside waiting for him. He could hear their laughter through the doors. Then they suddenly went silent. Kenma groaned, knowing that they were probably making out or something, as he buttoned his uniform back up.

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

He opened the door, and to his surprise, Kuroo and (Y/N) were actually not exploring each others’ mouths with their tongues. Instead, he opened the door to see a smirking Kuroo and a very, very flustered (Y/N). She gasped slightly when she caught sight of Kenma and she turned her flustered face away from his prying eyes. Poor Kenma thought that he had accidentally caught them making out and they pulled away right as he opened the door.

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

And so he walked away, leaving them in the dust.

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

He thought he heard her call out, “Kenma-kun, wait!”

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

1 LIFE LEFT! FINAL LIFE!

—

hello! thank you for reading! next part is the last part, so please comment if you want me to tag you on the last part! whatchu guys think so far? lemme know! i also take requests too........... B)

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[allbeendonebefore]

Any headcanons for Oliver? I read the list of headcanons for some of the other provinces that you did and I’m very curious.

oh boy those were ages ago i’ll dig up a few so i can remember the vibe of the things i wrote

for those of you just joining us, my past headcanon posts

BC | AB | SK | MB 1 + 2 | NB

while other provinces are torn between living in one city or another or out in the middle of nowhere, oliver doesn’t have that issue. he lives in toronto and holidays in one of an entire network of cottages across the province and does not feel conflicted about that in the least. and he doesnt live “in toronto” in the gta, he lives IN toronto in some old annex style house and good luck getting rid of him.

he LOVES living alone, he relishes his independence, he does NOT miss being trapped living with jean NOT ONE BIT!! he does NOT create fake arguments over what should go over the mantle or what to make for dinner with the chattery squirrel outside because he’s LONELY.

Self indulgent headcanon but since he understands how difficult it is to live in the city and how valuable a good education is, he will occasionally rent out the basement to a quiet and tidy university student or two. He has a soft spot for kids who are trying to find their feet and figure out who they are away from their parents (as long as they do their chores).

Despite his downtown living and his urban elite image, he has experience working in factories and on farms and that tends to catch people off guard. He knows his way around milking a cow and he loves to tinker with machinery, getting his hands dirty doesn’t bother him even though he does love to mope and solicit pity. 

he just cannot physically help being overdramatic and bitchy, it’s just the tough outer layer he developed trying to survive american assimilation (and jean’s cutting words lol). he thinks his sarcasm is among his most endearing quality, since the people who Get It always laugh.

OF COURSE THERE ARE GRADES OF MAPLE SYRUP ??? why Wouldnt there be

he thinks his most relatable story is tfw you cut the bag of milk too open and it sloshes everywhere and doesn’t get the mixed reception at parties

It’s not that he doesn’t drink or that he’s against drinking, per se, at least, not anymore. He just likes being the designated driver because he likes the moral high ground, not because he’s secretly a mother hen who wants everyone to get home safe. 

he grew up in the southern... peninsula (you know that... sorry i get so confused about whats north and west in ontario.)Anyway it’s not that he doesn’t Also represent Northern Ontario, it’s just sometimes hard to pry him out of his original comfort zone and he sometimes gets stuck in his own head in the south. 

it’s not like mani would know what to do with all that space up there anyway, it’s just best that he takes care of it, it’s always best that he be left to manage things, he’s just more organized, he’s the brains, he’s the one with the vision, no he does not accept constructive criticism, what kind of leader would he be if he was openly questioned... that’s not how he was raised at all. imagine, entertaining other people’s ideas. 

Ollie likes to think he’s the rational one but pretty much every move he made in his early days was out of fear and anxiety; he can sometimes be overly cautious and people who just go out and do things just baffle him. 

He’s really open with his feelings (particularly when it involves complaining, which he loves) but he’s horrible at delegating tasks or asking for help. He also gets easily frustrated when people have given up on helping him without him having to ask, but he still insists on trying to do everything himself.

is it weird i cannot fathom him in anything but an mlm relationship lol

He won’t forgive rude behaviour, even if he appears like a doormat to an American. He remembers when he’s been rude to and compensates by being overly polite. The only person who’s immune to this seems to be Jean, who always seems to be getting away with being rude...

that said he drops way more f-bombs than most of the others and americans always either think it’s either adorable (and make fun of his perceived accent) or are SO SHOCKED that their INNOCENT BABY FRIEND would have such LANGUAGE!

has such. a weird. distorted. romantic idea of what road trips are. i dont know if he knows how to travel in places where rest stops arent cleaned every couple hours or if he’s ever had to pee in the bush or stay in a place without electricity in the time that he’s owned a car. 

he’s always been a huge natural history nerd, he loves spending time in natural history exhibits and geeking out over weird birds and fish and minerals. 

shakespeare in the park anyone?! shakespeare in the living room??? shakespeare over zoom conference? reciting shakespeare while outside oil painting the fall colours?! DID SOMEONE MENTION SHAKESPEARE.

he also loves sailing and swimming and he’s got a weirdly extensive canoe collection squirreled away somewhere. 

had a LOT of pressure on him as a kid to be the Good and Perfect child, not like those nasty yankees. He’s not very good at acting out and being rebellious, but he will absolutely stand his ground on an issue that’s dear to him, particularly if his control over something is threatened. 

anywhere you can’t take a train to is fake adn should not have been counted

he’s still an avid tea drinker and has lots of opinions about tea time and has been making the same recipes for literally 200 years (jean puts up with this because he cannot be assed to make his own little fine cakes, ok, and if ollie has extra for him to take home its to his advantage. if oliver makes extra specifically because he knows jean likes them, that’s for him to know. and same with homemade fudge and butter tarts and candy and ice cream, neither of them outgrew their sweet tooth) 

also he’s somewhat motivated by jean’s blunt reactions to his baking because thats how he’s going to survive the blue ribbon baking and jam making events against those tough and bitter old ladies, jean is perfect practice (although some of his best and most nuanced insults don’t translate very well)

his french is not bad nor is he embarrassed of it, he’s annoying in both official languages.

he gets mad when you say he’s practically interchangeable with matt but he still seems to think the things he does are things that all canadians do or like or have, i mean, why wouldn’t they? but they still owe him for that.

he compensates for his relative lack of interest or seeming inability to ask the others how they’re doing (because thats rude! and prying! and he’s sure they’re just fine! he doesn’t meddle anymore because people get upset when he rearranges their pantries) with an almost weird obsession with his self image and what’s happening internationally

#IM SORRY I TRY TO MAKE THE HEADCANONS NOT ALL SALTY AND BITCHY OLLIE BUT #pc: ontario #pc headcanon #hapo rambles #hapo replies #Anonymous

[the-trth-untold]

now its ur turn. do all of the sweetheart asks.

god jsjsjhdjk im just letting u kno these answers r gonna be BORING but hhhh THANK U 

1. Talk about your first love.

i’ve never been in love, never been in a relationship before. BUT i can vaguely remember my first crush back in 2nd grade. all i can remember was that his name was kyle and he was the only boy who ever spoke to me and my brain just went !!! 

2. What’s the most beautiful song you’ve ever heard in your opinion?

Break My Heart Again - FINNEAS or What Was Our Love All About - Adrian Milanio and Marylou Villegas 

these are just two that i can think of there are A LOT of beautiful songs

3. How’s your heart feeling right now?

fine??

4. What kind of self care is your favorite to do?

i dont really do any self care things?? 

5. What’s your skincare routine?

i dont do any skincare routines either... ik im a monster

6. How did you get to be so beautiful?

u must be blind if u think that 

7. Do you have any stuffed animals?

i used to have over 50 stuffed animals, i would always place them all over my bed neatly but i got rid of them now :( 

8. Best trip you’ve ever been on?

Myrtle Beach, SC because it was my first vacation spot and i was so happy seeing two dolphins close to the shore

9. Favorite thing about your room?

the color of my walls and blankets lol mint green and peach colors

i dont have anything cool in my room

10. Opinion on love?

i mean, it’d be nice to experience it some day and i hope i do but right now im content being by myself

11. Are you affectionate?

if i know you very well i can be, if not im very awkward and will barely make any eye contact with you

12. Who do you look up to?

i look up to people who have struggled a lot in their life, people who can be optimistic in any situation

13. Favorite poet?

i dont read much poetry, but i loved reading some things Emily Dickinson has published

14. Song that makes you happy? How about one that calms you down when you’re in a bad place?

honestly any disney song makes me happy! im a huge disney nerd and listening to any of those songs makes me feel nostalgic.

when im in a bad place, any slow, ballad sounding song can calm me down

15. Do you play an instrument?

i played the flute in middle school but dropped it after less than a week LOL

16. Do you do art? Using what (pencil, watercolor, etc)?

i like doing digital art but im not good at it and i dont have adobe illustrator anymore so i haven’t done anything recently

17. Do you dance? What style of dance?

i cannot dance and no one will make me

IM TOO EMBARRASSED EVEN IF IM ALONE HAHAHA

18. What’s your zodiac sign? Do you believe in astrology?

im a libra

i somewhat believe in astrology, i know there’s more to it than just your sun sign and there are different placements that make you different from the stereotypical traits people use for each sign

a lot of the “things about each sign” can be used for anyone because the responses can be very vague and many people can relate to 

19. Favorite old film?

too many

the shining, the breakfast club, carrie, pretty in pink, etcetcetc

20. What’s your hairstyle?

idk its a mess

curly/wavy and i have hardcut bangs 

21. What weather is the most beautiful, in your opinion?

fall weather, where its like 50 F (or 10 C for all u weirdos out there), cold enough to put on a flannel and boots

22. What upsets you most about the world?

i only have two hands but there are so many cats and dogs. i cannot pet all of them. (IM SORRY THIS WAS UR ANSWER DASHA BUT IM KEEPING IT ITS SO CUTE AND FUNNY AND I RELATE)

23. Are you in love right now?

no

24. Do you have a crush? If so, talk about them!

i dont have a crush lol

25. Do you have pets? Talk about something sweet about them!

yes!!! i have two gorgeous puppies!!! if u wanna check them out u can follow my instagram i post them all the time @ the.moon.atomic

they’re such dorks but they fit my household idk how to describe it they just belong in my house hahha

26. Do you have a lucky number?

i dont really believe in lucky numbers 

27. Have you ever wished on a star? What about on a fallen eyelash?

no, and i never heard about wishing on a fallen eyelash haha

28. Do you believe emoji spells to work?

no???????? i dont even know what that is

29. Do you believe in magic in general?

no

30. What’s the most beautiful thing in life, In your opinion?

when people finally stop hiding their true selves, show their real smiles, and laugh so hard they snort 

idk i just love people, well, most anyway sjsjhzjdsk

31. Opinion on the color pink? What about baby blue?

love them 

theyre such pure colors and they just remind me of newborn babies hahaha

32. What instrumental sound is your favorite?

piano definitely

33. Do you like the sound of wind? What about the sound of rain?

yes! yes to both! i love rain more though, sorry wind

34. Who makes you happy?

my friends, family, and my mutuals 

35. What makes you happy?

listening to music

36. Imagine your ideal life, the life you wish to make, what will that look like?

ohh well i’d be living on germany for starters hahaha

id like to have my own house, maybe living with a best friend

definitely like 5784538902 cats and dogs, i love them 

at some point id like to have a relationship LOL

37. Do you wear makeup? If so what’s your favorite type of makeup or specific makeup product? Favorite store to buy makeup? 

only on rare days ill put on makeup, i only use eyeshadow, liner, and mascara and ive never gone to a store thats just for make up, i just go to a pharmacy lol

38. Do you wear dresses? If so what’s your favorite dress you own?

only if i absolutely have to, the dress i wore for my senior pictures is my favorite

39. Ever been heartbroken? How do you deal with it?

noo, ive never been in a relationship 

40. Who’s your closest friend? What do you love about them?

i kinda really dont have one, not irl anyway

@neo-bangtan @mini-pretzel are my closest friends online, i love everything about u guys

41. Introvert or extrovert?

introvert

42. Do you like MBTI? What’s your MBTI?

im isfj

43. Would you be a fairy, a mermaid, a vampire, a siren, or an angel?

uh idk?? i wouldnt want to be immortal so 

44. What’s the best song a friend has ever introduced to you?

acid jazz singer - the fratellis 

45. Parlez-vous français?

no my french sucks

46. Most beautiful place you’ve been to?

honestly i cant think of any place pennsylvania sucks ahhaha

47. Where/when do you truly feel at home?

home...... my bed...... LOL

48. Does smiling put you in a better mood? Try it right now, you’re smile is gorgeous!

only if im not looking at myself lol

49. Favorite shoe you own?

slip ons or my new balance 

50. Can you walk in stilettos? Do you like them?

N O i am so accident prone i can barely walk barefoot without tripping 

51. Do you feel loved?

kinda? sometimes?

52. How do you express love to those you care about?

just giving them a hug lol or saying i love you

53. Favorite term(s) of endearment?

no ones ever called me any but i like baby, im a simple girl 

54. Most romantic thing someone’s ever done for you?

nothing?

55. When is the happiest you’ve ever been?

meeting new people who share the same interests 

56. Are you happy right now?

im pretty neutral atm

57. What makes you smile?

really awful jokes that ARENT EVEN FUNNY AND TALKING DASHA AND KARINA 

58. Do you laugh a lot?

i guess??

59. What’s your favorite kind of aesthetic?

soft vibes i guess haha

60. Do you want to marry for love or for some other reason (like money)?

i dont see myself marrying but if i would it would definitely be for love

61. What would your dream wedding look like? Do you want to get married?

i dont really want to get married, most of the time it ends in divorce and theres just a lot of paper work and its a hassle i dont see a point in it 

62. Favorite flower?

hydrangeas 

63. Favorite artist?

edgar degas

64. Favorite music artist?

bts lol

65. How kind do you think you are? Is kindness important to you?

i try to be kind to everyone, i dont know if others perceive me that way but i think kindness is very important to me

66. Ever made a playlist for someone?

once and i loved it, pls ask me to make a playlist for u

67. Do you have anything you do to physically comfort you when your sad? Such as a favorite blanket? Or a relaxing bath?

music and a soft blanket 

68. Early bird or night owl?

early bird

69. Morning routine?

wake up, look in the mirror, look away from the mirror, go back to bed. (AGAIN THIS IS UR ANSWER DASHA BUT IM KEEPING IT HHAHAHAHA)

70. Night routine?

shower and watch netflix until i fall asleep

71. What is the most lovely quality a person could have in your opinion?

being humble

72. Do you cry often? Does crying help you get the emotions out? Do you feel better after?

yes yes and yes

im such a cry baby i will cry at everything if u yell at me or if disappoint u im so sensitive 

73. Do you like hugs?

yes but i dont receive many hugs

74. When was the last time you kissed someone?

never

75. Are you small or tall?

small, 5′4 or 164cm

76. Do you like wholesome memes?

who doesnt

77. Favorite thing about the past?

anything that makes me feel nostalgic 

78. Do you ever wonder about the future?

yes

79. Have you ever lived in a different country than you currently live in?

nooo

80. Do you like plane flights? Airports?

ive never been on a plane

81. Sunrises or sunsets?

sunsets

82. The beach or a forest?

beach

83. What time of day do you tend to be in the best mood?

when im sleeping lol

84. Do you push yourself to act together and in a good mood even when you aren’t?

i try to 

85. Favorite kind of tree?

what kind of question is this i dont know anything about trees

86. Do you care about the health of the Earth?

i want to but i dont do anything for it

87. What did you like most about your childhood, if anything?

fieldtrips in school

88. Do you read a lot? What’s your favorite book?

i try to read more, my favorite book is more happy than not 

89. What are you most nostalgic for at the moment?

disney, i just put my christmas tree down and the ornaments are disney characters

90. What’s your favorite personality trait you have?

honesty i guess?

91. List at least ONE thing you love about your appearance.

my eyes

92. When was the last time you truly felt calm, without much of anything to worry about?

after i bathe 

93. Do you worry a lot?

yes all the time

94. The dazzling lights of the city or the relaxing countryside?

dazzling lights of the city

95. Ever changed the shoelaces on one of your shoes? For what reason?

no 

96. Favorite pastry?

??????????? i dont know??????????

97. Do you like doing little acts of kindness?

YEAH

98. How’s your day/night going?

fine so far, i dont have to work today so im just chillaxing 

[lokbobpop]

Flee

intransitive verb. 1a : to run away often from danger or evil : fly The family fled from the war-torn zone. b : to hurry toward a place of security Refugees fled to a neighboring country.

comes from the Old English flēon. The related Old English word fleogan means “to fly” (and is the basis for fly). Humans can't fly, of course, but flee implies the quickness and urgency with which a bird flies away.

Flee flea f lee

Writing flee

To leave in great hast to get out fast because of danger comes up like if shit hit the fan in china we would have ot flee but where would we go how would we go waht would we do i see this is an underly fear of mine this what keeps me up at night like the tidle wave thing what would i do ho will i flee the scene so an interesting one her of fear and being in a situation of fearing for your life yes this comes up for sure. But if this happens someone has to experience this i see if not me another within life we have to pay for our consequences wha we have aloud ot happen its not like there is death just change and i want my change here on earth i want to be able to be me fully please first after that i wont even mind im sure ok thats a lie id like to help many others like me.

Reading flee

Whe you see hundreds of people fleeing the country of there birth looking for safe refuge and how this then causes for some problems in new countries with different life styles and how some just dont mix and you get all people good and bad coming into a country crime goes up and the problems begin not all but some will make it bad for others who really need help want help and will fir in then the newspaper will show you how to separate from these few people who cause the problem for all others fleeing looking for safety.

The picture of dead children on the beach was horrible i wont for get how sad this is for millions of people in war torn countries and starvation but it is mostly men i dont know if they send men because for work first but i think we need more women not men men have to change become for feminine and women more stronger.

Saying flee

I first think os a flee as in a flea on a dog that you cant get rid off as they just keep coming back again and again biting the dog making them scratch all day long being in misery with themselves poor dogs they suffer to on this planet along with all other animals we eat.

Sf

Does this definition support me no fear of having to flee here does bring up fear for sure of not knowing what to do and people tha are fleeing war torn country’s every day with starvation seeing us al eat and drink with ease while they suffer and have nothing and have lost everything.

Flee fl see

Flee

The consequences of our actions how we have to live out these and some /many will suffer and are suffering right now

To leave behind what is not needed to let go of all restraints of live and belongings as in emotions

Shit is going to happen you have to deal with all best you can fro the best of all.

I will live this word to help me live life knowing i have to do whats best for all to leave or to stay i need to do best fro all to only leave behind my emotions and retake with me myself thats all thats needed to flee the mind and its fear.

[motherofkittens94]

tagged by @greyjoysea and @staryjoy 

GOT PREFERENCES

Do you watch the episodes when they air? usually not being a brit who doesnt have hbo  i watch like a day or two later when it airs on sky Atlantic  or on now  tv the first three i watched on dvd from a friend who had the boxset it was when we were sharing a house walked in  the logue one  Morning and she watching it and its that bit where the mountain cuts off the horses head and im like what the hell are you watching ?? i just woke up i wasnt expecting violence this early in the morning ? and then sat down and watched it with her and im like and watched the whole rest of season   one and im like what the hell is this show  ??  ....is there more ?? btw my brother said he got half way through season one and said it  was boring im like season ones the best ?? and hes like oh i dont enjoy  historical drama im not interested in medieval history and im like face palm he thinks this is historical and he also doesnt like history wtf i mean  how am  i related to this fool but yeah thats tangent  and i told him get to ep nine so he could see ned stark beheading he said maybe but if i agreed to watch stranger things with him lol :/ 

How often do you rewatch it? Do you rewatch it from season one? ive re watched all the way  it through a few times but usually would only watch my fav episodes ive seen the red wedding so many times though because wed always watch it with some friend whos just getting into and hasnt seen that one yet so we can see their reaction 

Do you rewatch the previous episode before the next one airs? Not usually on each  occasion but my aunt and uncle always do so when i watch with them i do  

Do you eat anything while watching? if so, what do you eat? not usually a proper meal but  i might have snack like crisps or popcorn unless its a glory scene 

One character that everyone seems to like that you don’t care much for hmm cersei ?? and i didnt lime petyr baelish much but he seemed popular at least among my friends  but i do agree he shouldnt had a better death scene they took all the cleverness out of him and though i hadnt liked him it was a shame in a way like the couldnt find way him to go down in a clever interesyting way so they had to dumb him right down  book pb wouldnt get caught like that people like show euron apparently me  hmm not show much to put it nicely also ave mixed feelings about stannis book book and show wise and i like jon but hes not the ultimate  hyped favourite like he is with a lot of people and perfer theon to him tbh 

Your 3 favourite pairings Throbb theonsa jon ygritte jaime brienne thats four but theres two theons so 

Favourite scene: robb getting crowded any scene where theon smiles  theons monologue  theon and sansa hug jon and sansa arya sansa hug jon and ygritte kissing on the wall jaime jumping to save brienne theons speeches both tyrions speeches both but the one in season one was really funny tyrion dragging the chair across the room when everyone is is science idk that cracked  me up bronn duelling for tyrion the one where Catelyn announces to everyone that (she thinks)  tyrion tried to kill bran cause that was the first ep id seen thats the bit that got me hooked  theon getting back up and fighting that ironborn guy pdrick saving tyrion  and i still maintain that viserys had the best death also not to be a basic bitch but that first time dany does her fire thing in season one i was #stunned 

One character you wish got more appreciation: theon duh #nomoredickjokes2018 but also meera and jojen too i suppose  and shireen and sansa and they could've (shouldve) done more with myrcella and tommen   and brienne too was underused and gendry also idk if if i like the way the tried to iron the grey parts out of tyrion and jon  and bran i wish they done brans story better and wed have got that tree scene with theon also as a disabled gal  certain comments some people make about uselessness of bran sometimes make me uncomfy tbh 

Fanfic or nah? i usually only read theon based ones and thats usually just theon robb theon sansa or sometimes theon jeyne p cause i cant do bolton heavy stuff im a whimp  but i read the occasion jon / ygritte or jaime / brienne and once i tried theon jon  but i wasnt sold soz :/ i read theon ygritte once as well  that actualy worked surprising well and theon domeric .. aha  thats mine  and @blueagia s baby  

but i guess id be open to others maybe 

Favourite quote:  from just the show ?  meeras some people will always need help that doesnt mean theyre not worth helping  also tyrions death is so final but life is full of possibilities and   mind needs books as a sword needs a whetstone if it is to keep its edge. That's why I read so much Jon Snow also sansas not a killer .. not yet anyway sansa - or maybe hell give me yours theons sy he is is theon greyjoy again also i like that quote about theons smile but obvi thats not in the show bronns this is bronn son of .. you wouldnt know him  just because it was funny 

Do you avoid spoilers? :  i do because im a blabber if i know id tell everyone omg this happens and that - i dont do on purpose really not with the intention of spoiling it for people  i just blurt it out like  i ruined he Rains of Castamere for someone once by saying oh is this one where robb dies ? and i didnt realise she hadnt seen it  yet and shes like robb dies :( :( and im  like oh umm i meant ...  rob - ert baratheon obviously ! haha whoops and i told someone else about jofferys death because shed said she seen it all  but she said later  i wish joffrey would die and  i was lil tipsey then so im like  .. but he does die ? youve seen it right? in season 4 ? hes poisoned ?  at his wedding ? to Margaery?? and shes like ....thanks beth ..... turns outs shed only  seen season 1-3 whoops again but hey i was drunk  that time so i  now avoid spoilers to avoid spoiling people and when i read the books my then housemates told me not to tell them what was different in case they wanted to read the books later on and didnt want me to spill and i did try to keep to it but i blabbed a few things tbh 

Favourite house words: We do not sow greyjoys ftw 

One character you’d bring back from the dead: ygritte shireen  robb maybe catelyn  and hoder !!

One character you’d kill, or kill sooner than they were killed balon greyjoy also ramsay but i wouldve done  it differently and theon shouldve been there or at least known about it also randyll tarly like fuck that guy ive seen people defending him and im like no offense but you are serious me and a friend had a bet on the boltons i bet against roose dying and he bet against ramsay dying we both lost lmao 

Direwolves or dragons? Dragons 

Which was more satisfying: Ramsay dying or Joffrey dying? hmm i actually joffrey probably because it was more unexpected i didnt see it coming i didnt think hed die  -i wanted ramsay to die and i wanted to like ramsay dying  and wished i had liked it more but it wasnt  done  the way i wanted it and it seemed so obvious like it wasnt a shock like joffrey dying was  i think in a way they over did ramster and just ran out f things fro him to do that he hadnt already like i was like hmm sewating nevously what can we do now ...err  kill your dad! kill a baby! kill  a stark  kill .. jon snow ...??  aye fuck it get rid of guy ay 

 i liked season six   better than season 7 or 5 but it made me lol in a way cause it seemed like they went ok ok you didnt like it last time when we killed all the women we heard you! we did ! weve changed things yes  so how about this instead ...   the woman kill everyone ! yea ? you like that ? we good now ?  sweet as ! put more women killing eveyone into season 7 dave we on the money 

Wildlings or the dothraki? Wildlings

Favourite lannister?  Tyrion but jaimes growing on me 

Favourite stark? i think sansa tbh 

Would you rather be able to be resurrected anytime, but gain scars and all like Beric, or become a faceless man? Resurrect any time like Beric

Would you rather have the rebellion tv show or the conquest tv show?  id pefer Rebellion but id watch a conquest show i think 

tagging @saltwaterwoods @whiteladyofrohann  @unamatta  @wedonnotcare @faller1344 @starkrysis @iladylittlefinger if you want to :) 

#bethans pals #personal stuff #long post #sorry i rambled on #you dont have to if youve already done this one

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Hugo Stiglitz

 NSFW ALPHABET  DONT LIKE DONT READ  WARNING: FIRST POST EVER BEAR WITH ME DARLINGS

I found that there was almost zero Hugo Stiglitz material and since I think he’s the bomb i thought a contibute. 

WARNING: FIRST POST EVER BEAR WITH ME DARLINGS I found that there was almost zero Hugo Stiglitz material and since I think he’s the bomb i thought a contibute. 

GIFS are NOT mine, credit goes to original owners/makers. If you see one of yours and would like it credited please Message me. Thanks! <3

Also the idea of an nsfw alphabet is not mine either but idk where it started so same goes for this.

A= Aftercare

Aftercare with Hugo can vary quite a bit.

For example, when a particular lovemaking session was rougher, at first he’d plop down next to you panting. After this he’d pull you to him, making you feel safe as you feel asleep in his strong arms.

But when sex was slower and more sensual, he’d pepper kisses along your jaw and cheek, showing you rather than telling you about his appreciation.

 B= Body part.

When it comes to your body, he finds picking difficult. He likes your hands, because they’re much smaller and delicate compared to his big and calloused ones. They make him feel loved when you touch him. Speaking more sexually he totally has a thing for your ass. Hold it, squeeze it, slap it, he doesn’t know exactly why, but your ass always releases a primal side of him.

 C= Cum

Hugo always prefers to come inside of you, whether it be your mouth, cunt or ass. Its practical, so clean up won’t be much trouble. It also makes him feel like he’s marked you as his own. He doesn’t dislike cumming elsewhere he just don’t bother much, so if you request him to, he’ll happily do so.

 D = Dirty Secret

Even though he would never admit it, he loves seeing you hold your own. Whether you’d be telling another bastard like Aldo to fuck off when they’re teasing you or on the battlefield. When he sees you knocking down, stabbing, shooting or basically being a badass he always has to fight his hard on.

 E= Experience

Sure, Hugo didn’t go off to war a virgin, but to say he has a load of experience would be wrong. He is naturally shy and usually doesn’t show interest in women. He knows the basics but has lots to learn and you’ll be damned if you didn’t enjoy teaching him. After all, he does learn quick and is a very passionate lover.

 F = Favourite position

He does likes missionary because of the contact and closeness it provides, but his true favourite would be the reverse cowgirl. It gives him an opportunity to sit back and let you dominate him and an amazing view of your jiggling ass and wet pussy bouncing on his cock.

G = Goofy

Hugo is not a goofy person. He simply doesn’t see it ; why people should laugh over the most mundane things so it would take quite something to get him to laugh during sex. It did happen once, when you were in a particularly rough session and tumbled right outta bed together and you both broke into a fit of laughter. Apparently it got the attention cause all of the other basterds barged in thinking he’d gone insane. You Still cringe at the memory. Thus, doing the do is usually more serious than goofy, but he can’t help but smirk whenever something takes a pleasant turn.

 H = Hair

Being the military and disciplined man he is, he keeps himself well groomed when possible. Just like his hair, short and dark.

 I= Intimacy

At the start of your relationship, Hugo was far from ‘intimate’. The shy baby was scared you wouldn’t think of him as good enough and didn’t really dare be so vulnerable. Though, when he started to realize you weren’t ever going to abandon him and how much you enjoyed being with him, he started opening up more and more. Hugo prefers to ‘make love’ actually, thus is all being more intimate. Unless he needs to let off some steam, then prepare for a good ‘ol fuck.

 J= Jack Off

Hugo prefers not to, afraid of being caught in a time where privacy is scarce. So he doesn’t do it often. Only when its really necessary he uses it as stress relief. When he does, he pictures your body, your voice and your soft touch.

He’s very shy about it though. He’d much rather get rid of his frustrations by making love to you.

 K = kink

He definitely has Some kinky streaks . When things get rough after a difficult mission and you tease him he loves yanking on your hair and spanning your ass. He definitely gets dominant from time to time. Asking you who can only give you pleasure. In these moments he often switches to his mother language. Speaking of, he adores it when you do this, speaking german, especially if its dirty. Not to speak of his earlier mentioned instant boners when you get all badass and got your enemies blood all over you. That is when he gets more submissive and just Lets you take him however you want.

 L = Location

Hugo is very picky when it comes to this and always goes for the place with the most privacy and least risks. Except for that one time where your team was staying at in a big barn and he took you behind it outside standing between stacks of hay.

 M= Motivation

Now, there’s actually a lot that can turn him on. He has a naturally high sex drive and a lot of kinks, though something not previously mentioned is how he loves how you are and look when you wake up next to him. Disheveled and with a tired grin on your face. Trusting, loving and innocent, when only he knows how much of a little minx you actually are. He Also loves it when these mornings turn into Some cuddlefucking. He likes how close you are to him then.

 N = No

Anything humiliating or hurtful either on the giving or receiving end. He would never hurt the one he loves.

Also nothing to do with bodily fluids other than your wetness or his cum.

 O = Oral

Though he loves being on the receiving end and enjoying your rather talented skills, he thinks nothing beats watching his lady coming apart at his touch. This and he just loves the way your wet pussy tastes and pulsates against his mouth when he’s doing well.

When he is the one receiving he’s a bit afraid he’ll hurt you though you’ve told him plenty he wont.

 P= pace

He always starts of slow. Making sure you’re wet enough and Well prepared to take his cock.

However, when he thinks youve become adjusted to his size he quickly speeds up

 Q = quickie

He prefers a proper love making session over a quickie. Sure, they’re fine and convenient, certainly because you don’t get much alone time.

But he prefers to spend more time with you. Dragging out foreplay and teasing, making you feel loved at uncertain times.

 R = Risks

He thinks he takes plenty risks when ‘in the job’ and therefore thinks he doesn’t need to when in private. He isn’t keen on getting caught and others seeing you in a compromising position. He wouldn’t affect your honour negatively.

 S = Stamina

Though he hasnt been with many women many times he does have decent stamina.

He usually doesn’t come before you do (and always try to have you come first) like a true gentleman unless you got him really worked up. He usually manages more than one round depending on how tiring his day was.

 T = toys

Neither of you owns any or thinks they’re needed. If you do feel like needing something to spice things up a cloth or rope for binding arent that hard to come by.

 U = Unfair

He doesn’t really care much for teasing you, only if its to build a bit suspense and doesn’t take long.

He doesn’t mind being teased, At times it calms him actually. When he’s annoyed or angry and you start teasing him, secretly or not, he cant really stay mad. It takes the edge of. Also it makes it al all the more rewarding when the teasing turns into action.

 V = Volume

Hugo isn’t a particularly Loud man in general and this is Also the case in the bedroom. He usually makes soft grunts, moans and other sounds of appreciation. Hed rather concentrate on the lovely sounds you make. The only times hes Loud is when he really loses control.

For example when you use your tongue on him in unspeakable ways his almost pornographic sounds can easily be heard through the walls.

 W = Wildcard

What sometimes really surprises you is how sudden he can become either dominant or submissive. Usually its when you’re in the middle of foreplay and you say something or a certain action spurs him on to take on a role. Then he can suddenly become the most dominant ‘sir’ youve ever encountered ordening you around and all or become a sub that loves being called a good boy and get ordered around.

 X = X-Ray

He’s average in length but a little thicker.

You like to joke that he’s custom made for you since his cock fits perfectly, as it has a a bit of a curve to it that makes it hit a spot in you that makes you see stars.

 Y = Yearning

You two don’t always get to chance for Some alone time but when it does happen, he’s always ready to go. His sex drive is higher than average and he’ll always give you what you want.

 Z = ZZZ

He usually falls asleep quickly after sex, but never after making sure you’re comfy and safe in his arms.

#hugo stiglitz #inglorious basterds #inglorious #basterds #bastards #quentin tarantino #smut #reader #hugo stiglitz x reader #hugo stiglitz imagine #ni #inglorious basterds imagine #Hugo stiglitz imagine

[mino177]

The Curious case of Heiman  part1

(loooong post)

As I promised you guys I am trying to make sense of this relationship and also what is going on with Cartman and why does he behave the way he does.  But first to answer these questions we need to remember that Eric isnt the most mentally stable person in South Park, heck he is one of the most f*ed up one. I did some research on the net to try to find what kind of mental illness/disorder he has and how this affects his relationship with Heidi. My best bet is to go with conduct disorder but he also has some kind of delusional disorder which makes his conduct disorder worse.

Conduct Disorder

At this age Cartman isnt a sociopath/psychopath because these disorders can be diagnosed if somebody is over 18 years old and there are other examples that rule them out fe: saved Kyle and his whole family, helped Stan and Butters and he seems overly emotional . Conduct Disorder is the precursor of these disorders but also the result of an untreated ODD.

There are some examples in the cartoon from Cartman’s past (and present)that point in the ODD’s direction fe: When the boys were in Pre-School and light their teacher on fire Cartman didnt even know how to make fire and he was the first who started to put out the fire. He genuinly felt bad about their teacher at that time and he didnt even realized they could get into trouble until his friends started to panic. This isnt the case anymore and he doesnt seem to care about their ex-teacher or what they did, the reason is because his disorder became worse.  But he still has problem with focusing and paying attention and in many cases he is still more underdeveloped than the other boys fe: with girls, relationships (friends, family).

The symptoms of Conduct Disorder

1.      Aggressive behavior that causes or threatens harm to other people or animals.

We saw Cartman many times hurt or bully others fe: when he handcuffed billy turner’s leg to the flag pole, gave him a hecksaw and poisoned his lunch milk and made him believe he need to cut off his leg to get the antidote or he will die just because he called him chubby and we also saw him hurt his cat in the past although he became nicer to it and to other cats.

2.      Deceitfulness or theft, such as breaking into someone’s house or car, or lying or “conning” others.

There were many occasions when Cartman used his charm to manipulate others, his friends, classmates and mother fe: In the Casa Bonita episode when he tricked Butters who believed the world had ended and Kyle because he wanted to go to his favourite place.

But as time goes by he is getting better and better of it. In the past he had to hurt himself to cry but nowadays he can make himself cry on purpose.

And we also know that he broke into Kyle’s house many times and he had a mission impossible kit that he regulary used for who knows what.

  3. Serious rule violations, such as staying out at night when prohibited, running away from home overnight.

Those things are also true. Cartman has a hard time to follow rules and obey others and he distrubted his class many times. And he also run away from home fe: In the Tsst and the cthulhu episode.

4.      Many youth with conduct disorder may have trouble feeling and expressing empathy or remorse and reading social cues.

The show many times bring our attention to this, Cartman simply doesnt know or doesnt understand empahty and emotions and how they work. Sometimes he doesnt even know if he hurt others or he doesnt care because he is incapable to put himself into others shoes.

 fe:

a.)    Casa Bonita episode, his conversation with Kyle

K: That isnt it Cartman.

C: What isnt it?

K: That is just putting up a nice sweater.

C: I dont understand the difference.

K: I know you dont.

 b.)    He also asked Jimmy how does he act nicely to people and that shows that he believes everybody acts who is nice because he cant be genuinly nice. He also panicks and beats up Jimmy and tries to excuse his actions by blaming him and how rude he was to Kyle who he tries to manipulate again.

 c.)    His conversation with Stan:

 C: Maybe Kyle’ s got a disease and died that would be so awesome

S: dont joke about that, it isnt funny.

C: Who is joking?

 d.)   His whole actions against Butters. He manipulated Butters and managed to get him out of his way but he forgot  that other humans feel compassion and they would try to find the boy instead of having fun.

e.)    When he thought Mr. Mackey made his mother cry instead of him

f.)     In the chtulu episode he also questioned his mother about his feelings and what to do to fix his problems.

 6.      Often misinterpret the actions of others as being hostile or aggressive and respond by escalating the situation into conflict.

He does this all the time and his vivid imagination (which can also be because of mental illness) doesnt help. fe: when he imagined that Token tried to kill him or when Kyle tries to help him. The problem that Eric always reads Kyle’s actions wrongly and cant imagine that the boy tries to help him. Even with Heidi Kyle was the only one who tried to help him out in his own way but because he doesnt trust him he ignored his advice because he thought that he just wanted to ruin his relationship.

  7.      Conduct disorder may also be associated with other difficulties such as substance use, risk-taking behavior, school problems, and physical injury from accidents or fights.

We dont really see Cartman using any drugs maybe because of her mother’s influence but we saw him overeating, maybe instead of drugs and alcohol (like Stan) he gets his fix from food or he still uses the coughing medicine as a drug sometimes:

And we also see him get into fights because he cant express or even realize his emotions fe: He always teased Wendy after their kiss and probably had a crush on her but because he doesnt know how positive feelings work and how to adress his issues he bullied her which ended in a fight.

How this disorder affects his relationship with Heidi and how will it end?

Well for this I looked up how sociopaths/ psychopath behave in a relationship because as I said before conduct disorder is a stepping stone for it and it lines up pretty well what happened with them.

Stages of psychopathic relationship:

1.      Love Bombing= Honeymoon Stage: That is the time of the perfect, idealized relationship. When the victim feels that their match was made in heaven and that she found her soulmate.

At the beginning Heiman was just like that. Cartman toned down his behaviour and pretended to be PC and care about the same issues as Heidi, although the whole thing can be the end result of the beat up he received from PC Principal and his friends’ betrayal, he still behaved differently and praised Heidi all the time, either to be on her good side because he didnt want to lose her too or because he cared for her. It is hard to tell because he imagined their life on Mars so there is a huge possibility he loved her. And even in the past he seemed to care about her fe: when he was happy to be paired up with her and when he asked Mr Garrison to give her a better grade, he even made a picture of her. So he had some kind of interest which probably got stronger when he started to date with her.

 2.      Devalution Stage

That is the stage when the psychopath’s fascination with their „loved” one start to lessen and they try to pull away. They starts to behave hot and cold because they still want to keep the relationship alive but at the same time want to get rid off their partner. They starts to devalue and abuse their partner while still try to give some kind of attention to keep her/him hooked up. This is the stage of manipulation. The psychopath’s behaviour is getting worse and worse until their partner starts to blame him/herself for their failing relationship and starts to feel completly worthless.

I think Heiman is in this stage right now. Cartman tries to pull away and break up with Heidi because he doesnt feel the same admiration like he did in the past but he still value her in a way and wants her back, he isnt ready to get rid off her yet. He balmes Heidi for his losing interest and he tries to devalue her and make her as miserable as he is, maybe to make her feel that she is the one who doesnt deserve him. He manipulates and abuses her. But there is a difference tho instead of balming Heidi he starts to put the blame on Kyle which is pretty strange. Maybe he genuinly feels that Kyle is to blame for his failing relationship or he just uses Kyle to manipulate Heidi. The first one seems more possible after the whole Dumbo and other references part:

The victim also start to realize that something is wrong but they deny it because of their good memories of the first stage. They question themselves and their relationship all the time.

 3.      The Stage of Contempt

The psychopath feel hate towards their partners and they dont feel any remorse for hurting them both mentaly and physically. At this stage the victims feel worthless and they endure the abuse because they blame themselves for everything. They are completly broken at this point. 

As things going right now I think that this is where Heiman is heading in the future. We can also argue that they are in this stage already because Cartman seemed to start to hate Heidi and even tried to get rid off her although he seems to be more depended on her and tries to be on her good side instead of treating her as complete dirt and actually hurt her physically (he wants others to do it tho). We will see but I think his treatment towards Heidi will become really cruel and I am not sure if I really want to see the complete realization of this stage. :(

4.      The end- break up. After the abuse of the last stage the psychopath will discard and throw away their victim as a broken toy. Probably this won’t happen because either Kyle will manage to convince Heidie to broke up with Cartman or she will do that by herself and she will kick Cartman’s butt.

There is an other way to look at their relationship which is less sociopathic but very close to conduct disorder:

At the beginning he was interested in Heidi but it wasnt as a big deal as his  other interests or crushes fe: Wendy or  friends or games but after his other interests disappeared and Heidi approached him and started to spend time with him he developed a crush on her or at least some kind of fascination, maybe even love because he seemed pretty into her or maybe being an outcast also stenghtent his feelings for her.

In a way he became pretty depended on her and he seemed content with that until Butters put the bugs into his ear with the whole girls dont need you and they will just use you speech and we all know how vivid Cartman’s imagination is and how badly he can read people and social norms so he believed Butters.

He realized how smart and amazing Heidi is and how people will follow and befriend her easily while he will stay in the shadow and how easily she can use and leave him. Heidi doesnt need to be alone, she chooses to be that way while he was cast out by others and he can never have the same realtionship with others like Heidi has. In a way he envies her and because she is too good for him he tries to devalue her to make her stay and appreciate him more.

And there is an other problem, lots of things in their relationship is based on lies. Cartman isnt PC and he doesnt care about the same issues as Heidi and sometimes he hates those things that she likes (fe: movies, healthy diet…)  but he faked his interests maybe because at the beginning he also wanted to change (because of PC Principal) or to be closer to Heidi, who knows? One thing is sure he got tired pretending that he is somebodyelse and he was afraid that this would change their relationship and Heidi would get mad and leave him.

But instead of clearing up his mistake and admit his lies (which Heidi probably knows already) he started to put the blame on her and others. I think Cartman feels guilty but because that is a pretty new feeling for him, he tried to distance himself from Heidi and that is why he tried to escape with Alexa because he could be himself and didnt have to think about his emotions, problems and guilt.

And because of his disorder similar to introvers he needs space and the more Heidi tried to get involved and spent more time together the more he started to get annoyed, fustrated and yes even started to hate her and what introvers do when they are overhelmed? Well normal introverts would try to talk with their friends and partners about their issues (but people with conduct disorder are different, they have hard time feeling empathy so they dont know why people might want to spend too much time together and how to solve their issues) but if that doesnt help and they reach their breaking point they will ditch and ignore you like you dont exist. I think this was also the reason why Cartman broke up with Heidi at the first time and why he felt happy+ he got rid off his guilt. But after he had some alone time and could regain some of his energy and himself he wanted Heidi back because he missed her.

In a way Cartman in his mind at least he still thinks he loves Heidi but because he causes the failing of their relationship he tries to get rid off his own guilt by blaming others and as I said before he wants to force Heidi to stay with him because he knows that Heidi is too good for him so to make her stay he has to make her as ugly and miserable as he is which is f*ed up.

But after Kyle tried to step in we saw his broken heart which can mean that either he doesnt love Heidi anymore and he will focuse on his rivalry with Kyle or that he blames Kyle for his ruined relationship eitherway he will use Heidi up to get back at him, no matter what.

And I think we all know how this will end. Cartman will hurt and abuse Heidi but at the end he will fail and Heidi and the others will beat him up and maybe Kyle and Heidi will get together (which I wouldnt like that much because Kyle doesnt really like Heidi and she doesnt need an other bad relationship).

Or (which is unlikely but I am hoping for) Heidi manage to confront Cartman and he will break down and tries to tell the truth and fix his failing relationship with her. I would personally like a healthy Heiman relationship similar to what they had at the beginning but based on truth and actual caring.

Cartman can change and can have a normal life and realtionship but for this he would need real therapy fe: Psychotherapy and behavioral therapy (not anger management because that doesnt help people with conduct disorder) and the help of his mom and friends and classmates. We saw from the Tsst episode when the Dog Whisperer taught Cartman’s mother how to behave in front of her son and how to discipline him, we saw his behaviour changing because that is what he exactly needs. A healthy home, a normal mother and classmates. And he could keep these changes up if his mother didnt ruin the whole thing. His friends arent really good at helping him because he learned many of his behaviour from them and they usually just ditch and ignore him. And his classmates bully him. We saw what happened to Clyde after he took over his role as the fat kid in his class. He almost broke down and he became as agressive as Cartman.

I wouldnt mind if Heidi could help Cartman out with his issues but that is a huge burden for a little girl like her.

#eric cartman #heidi turner #heiman #south park #what went wrong? #cartman's side

[lunardragon00]

Really

Working at a hospital was difficult. First came the internships that were a complete ass. Then the residency, which was nice because it involves more hands on surgery. Then being an attending. Practically the top dogs. It was fun. Being around the same people everyday, you get to know them, and become friends. Just like you and y/f/n. Best friends since internship. You and y/f/n we’re almost opposites, but helped each other through everything. Y/f/n was married now with a little baby girl while you were still looking for your McDreamy.

“Oh come on y/n, not one guy here has interested you?” Y/f/n exclaimed.

Speaking of relationships.

“No, nada. None of them interest me. Sure I’ve gotten a drink or two with some of them. But they’re not boyfriend material. For me at least.” She always bugged you about finding a guy. And you knew she just wanted to help and make you happy, but no such luck has happened.

“What about the new guy, was it Dr. Schneeplestein. He’s cute.”

And he was, he was handsome. But also, a little too crazy for you. But you were positive he would make an amazing friend. Actually, he is an amazing friend.

“Are you kidding me. He may be cute, but honestly, he seems to have a few screws loose.” One of the nurses walked up to the table you and y/f/n were currently sitting with your coffees.

“Dr. Y/l/n, Dr. y/f/l/n. Dr. Bailey has assigned you to take dr. Schneeplestein and Dr. iplier for a tour of the hospital.” Unbelievable, wait, iplier?

“Why us? And who the hell is iplier?” Y/l/n just shrugged and got up. You did as well, grabbed your coffee, and followed the nurse.

“So do you know anything about these doctors?” Y/f/n asked.

“Dr. Iplier is a close friend to Dr. schneeplestein. They’ll both be attendings. Dr. Schneeplestein is part of cardio while Dr. iplier will be in Pediatrics.” A cardio expert and a kid doctor. Wow. The nurse stopped at the nurses station and told us that the two said doctors were in the lobby, having just arrived. As y/f/n and You walk towards the area, she decides to continue the annoying conversation about your pathetic love life.

“I’m just saying. There is someone out there for you. You will not die lonely.”

“Oh how would you know. You have a lovely husband and an adorable little girl. You’ve lived. I haven’t. And I never will.” Y/f/n just rolled her eyes. Approaching the lobby, you spot the German doctor with yellow/green hair. Y/f/n was still rambling on about helping you find someone. Meanwhile you couldn’t hear a single word that was coming out of her mouth.

Why?

Because beside the weird, psychotic doctor, was a very handsome one. Dark brown, nearly black hair with deep brown eyes. He was also muscular, since the grey muscle tank showed off his body, along with his white sweats. You didn’t realized you stopped walking until your best friend was in front of you.

“Hey, earth to y/n? HELLO?!” You blinked your eyes and looked into her e/c eyes.

“Umm. What?” She looked in the direction you were dazing off too. Once she was facing you again, she had a smile planted on her face.

“Could it be. Have you actually found someone?” She had a light laugh escape her mouth. You just continued walking.

“For all we know, he could be a complete douche. But he is attractive.”

“Oh honey, he’s not just attractive. He’s freaking McSteamy right now. Let’s go meet him.”

Once you finally approached the pair, they stopped their conversation and faced you.

“Vhy hello Dr. y/f/l/n and Dr. y/l/n. This is my vriend Dr. iplier.” Iplier bowed his head and smiled softly.

“Hi I’m y/n. This is my best friend y/f/n.” You stuck your hand out towards iplier. Once he shook it, you swear you felt calm and sparks. You two made eye contact and you fell into the deep brown void of his eyes. You both let go and he shook y/f/n’s.

“Well let’s get this tour started shall we.” All of you nod and start walking.

Y/f/n led the way throughout the tour. Schneeplestein paid attention a majority of the time. Both him and iplier asked questions here and there. But both you and iplier were too distracted with each other. Both of you stealing glances at each other the entire time. ~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~ It’s the end of the day and you and y/f/n were on your way to the parking lot.

“So, is he McDreamy yet?” She asked. Wiggling her eyebrows.

“Not sure about if he is McDreamy. But he sure does look like a McDreamy” you both laughed and linked arms exiting the hospital together. ….. ……..

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_________________

(3 months later)

It’s been 3 months of conversing, flirting, and getting to know dr. Iplier. Every day, you fell in love with him. You couldn’t resist him. He’s just charming, and his personality makes him 10 times more charming. He’s definitely a McDreamy.

But what you don’t know is that he feels the same for you. Ever since he first saw you he knew that he’d fall for you. How could he not when you have such beautiful h/c hair, e/c eyes, and the perfect body. You two were now best friends. Everyone knew you guys at the hospital. You were the amazing group of friends everyone wishes they had. It contained you, y/f/n, Schneeplestein, and Iplier. While everyone knew that scneeple was a player with the ladies, they also knew that you and iplier have this unspoken love for each other. Everyone wishes that you two would just get together.

During break, you went into the on call room. You had just finished a surgery on a little baby, fixing his lungs. You specialized as an OB GYN. It was something that you loved doing. But it was also very depressing when little infants did on you. Thankfully, the newborn survived the operation. Now you just wanted to relax and get rid of the stress. Your head hit the pillow and you closed your eyes. Only to have them open again when the door opens and in walks the man that made your heart pound.

“Oh, hey y/n.” He smiled softly at you and you returned it. He sat down on the edge of the bed you were currently laying on.

“How did it go?” You asked. He had a 7 year old patient named Mason that needed surgery. He had an illness that no one has succeeded at healing yet.

“He made it through the operation but were keeping him over night to watch over him.” You nod and closed your eyes. A small smile was left on your face.

“Hey y/n? I need to ask you something.” You hummed to acknowledge that you heard. All the sudden your hand felt soft, and war hands holding it.

“So I’ve been having these feelings lately. I asked my friend Bim, Dark, and Goog what it could possibly be. They said that the feeling was…..maybe love towards someone? I dont know. But I was wondering. Maybe me and you could go out to Joe’s tonight. Or somewhere else. I know you like ferrys. We could ride one.” By now you are seated up straight and eyes wide.

“Oh, umm.” You honestly didn’t know what to say. You were too surprised.

“Or you know. Just completely forget I said anything. I should probably check on Mason anyways.” He started getting up but before he could fully stand. He was brought back down onto the bed and was engulfed into a hug.

“Of course I’ll go on a date with you.” You giggled into his chest. His arms wrapped around you and you felt the vibrations from his chuckle. You felt a soft kiss to the top of your head before being let go of.

“Great. I guess we’ll just go after work.” He said. A bright smile plastered on both of your faces. You nod and looked down at your lap.

“Well I should go check on Mason. Been a while since I checked on him last.” He got up again and looked down at you. You looked up at him and nodded. Once he left the room. You laid your face on the pillow and squealed into the fluffy item. ….. ……..

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_________________ ( 2 years later)

Since all of marks ego’s lived in one big mansion. Iplier decided it was a good idea to let you move in with him there. Of course you agreed. Meeting the other boys was very…..interesting. All of the ego’s can agree that you were good for the doctor. Ever since he started working at the hospital, he’s come home much more peaceful and always happy and smiling. They thought the reason was because he liked it there and the people were nice. Well, that was a small portion of the reason why. Once they all met you, they realized that YOU were the light in his eyes. The way you two looked at each other was so full of love and care. And that was before you two became an official couple. After you started dating, it was overwhelming. The boys adored you, they would never intentionally hurt you.

So when Wilford went to get the mail, he saw an envelope that had all of the ego’s names on it. Except for Doctor ipliers.

“Hey guys, we’ve got mail.” Will said loud enough so everyone heard. The men gathered around and listened as will read the note. Once he was finished reading, they started decorating the living room and kitchen. They wanted to celebrate.

What the note said you ask?

~•~•~Please join Dr. Iplier and Y/N Y/L/N for their wedding

April 30, 2017 6 o'clock in the evening ~•~•~

….. ……..

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_________________

( 2years later.)

Doctors Mark and Y/n iplier are proud to announce the arrival of Jax Mason Iplier and Vilu Esme Iplier into their family. The happy couple, now with twins, seem to be succeeding at life. Iplier and Y/f/l/n hospital had been up and running for over a year now. Hopefully they keep up the good work and continue being happy.

....................... (55 years later)

We are sad to announce that Dr. y/n y/m/n Iplier has passed away due to natural causes. We will keep the iplier family in our thoughts and prayers. ________________________ (7 months later)

We are sad to announce the death of Doctor Mark Edward Iplier. At least we know that him and his love will be together once again. We will send our prayers out to the Iplier family.

#dr #Iplier #markiplier #dr.schneeplestein #jacksepticeye x reader #jacksepticeye imagine #markiplier imagines #markiplier alter egos #markiplier tv #darkiplier #darkiplier x reader #wilford warfstache #wilford warfstache x reader #markiplier egos #bim trimmer #google #red #blue #green #yellow #bing #silver shepherd #ed edgar #yandereplier

[teamkaiforever]

TOO LONG TO REALISE

(requested by anon) Kai Parker x Reader word count : 4 737 warning : possible triggers summary : Reader is hopelessly in love with Kai and confesses her feelings but he rejects her. Later on however things change … continues after the cut ☺ *gif by christophwood note : i twisted the request a bit , hope you dont mind and still like it ☺ _____________________ Y/N sat on the sofa at the Salvatore’s gazing longingly at Kai standing at the opposite end of the room. He looked hotter than ever with his slightly messed up hair and those jeans and t-shirt fitting him perfectly. Each time she saw him , her breath got caught in her throat. Falling in love with him hadn’t been intentional , but it had been happened. There was something about him that drew her in the moment she first saw him. It wasn’t just his looks , it was his entire personality. He was dangerous , hot as hell , dripping with sex and the more her friends told her to stay away from him the more she seemed to fall for him. Her thoughts were consumed by him always , he was in her dreams every night and no matter what she did , there was no way to shake him. His smile could brighten the darkest days and he somehow always knew what to say to her to cheer her up. When Y/N first met him , he had just gotten out of the 1994 Prison World and all her friends had warned her about him saying he is a sociopath , a murderer who doesn’t have a sliver of good inside him. Even after the merge with his brother Luke. Y/N didn’t want to believe that. There is light and darkness in everyone and she was sure there was light in Kai too. He wasn’t evil , he was just – misunderstood. Most times all he needed was someone to talk to. Still , none of her friends liked him much but they preffered it when he was around. That way they could keep and eye on him and make sure he doesn’t murder anyone. Weirdly though , they still refused to believe that there is actually good in him even though after the wedding he had pretty much changed completely. Like somehow getting his revenge had calmed him down and he was finally free to be who he truly was and not who everyone expected him to be. He was nicer to people and even tried to help them sometimes. If Kai wanted he could easily slip away without any of them noticing and do what he wanted , but kind of like her - he was hoping they’d finally believe there is a new version of him. Y/N’s eyes followed him as he made his way around her friends and sat on the sofa next to her. She tried hard not to stare at him , but it was nearly impossible - she couldn’t tear her eyes even if she wanted. His eyes were bluer than usual and him standing this close to her was making her heart race so fast , she was pretty sure everyone in the room with supernatural hearing and even those without one , could hear it. Y/N glanced at him and noticed Kai looking at her , making her breath get caught in her throat for the billionth time that day. “Hey. What are you going ? This is supposed to be a fun get-together.” said Kai looking at her with curious. “Put that book away.” Y/N was reading one of her favourite books , or trying to at least. With him around it was hard for her to concentrate on anything else but him. A smile tugged at the corners of her mouth seeing Kai smile at her. His smile was so beautiful , like literal sunshine , it always took her breath away. “I only have a f-few chapters left to read and I should’ve returned the book yesterday.” “Don’t you ever stop reading ?” he wondered , passing her a glass with bourbon. “Drink ?” “No , thank you.” Kai studied her face. He and Y/N were friends , sort of. Y/N was the only one who didn’t appear to hate him or judge him for all the things he had done. Whenever he needed someone to talk to she was always there ready to listen. Y/N was the only one who could stand his constant talking without creating some excuse to go away or finding a way to get rid of him. Though their interests didn’t appear to connect much. To him she seemed a little boring. Maybe he didn’t know her well enough but to him that’s how things seemed. Y/N always had a book in her hands , she’d never drink or smoke. He knew she is a chemistry major and she seemed to really like it , he could tell because sometimes when they talked she’d start talking about the elements and get so completely lost in the subject , ending talking about it for hours. “God , why are you always like this ?” he wondered out loud. “Like what ?” “You never appear to have fun. Come on. Live a little.” he said passing her his glass. “A sip wont kill you.” “No , but a sip usually leads to a glass and then another and before you know it - your liver is sick and you die.” Kai rolled his eyes. “As if anyone here would let you die.” he said. “I wouldn’t.” Y/N smiled at him grabbing the glass , taking a sip. Her eyes squeezed shut as the alcohol burned on its way down her throat. When her eyes opened she saw Kai looking at her with excitement in his eyes. “Woww that – burns.” Kai laughed , taking the glass from her hands noticing Stefan starring at them from across the room. He raised his cup slightly and finished it off under the disapproving stare of the Salvatore. Y/N followed his gaze , waving for a second at her friend. “He thinks I am corrupting you.” said Kai amused. “I was just a sip Steven , relax. It’s not like I made her drink the whole bottle. Then I’d understand it – actually no , I wouldn’t understand it even then.” Y/N couldn’t help but laugh , glancing between Kai and Stefan who rolled his eyes and went into the kitchen. Most of her friends had somehow scattered , which was surprising considering they didn’t trust Kai. Perhaps they thought that with their vampire hearing things can’t get bad. She was willing to bet every single one of her friends was now listening in on their conversation. Of course they knew about her feelings. As if it wasn’t obvious. Everyone else seemed to notice but Kai. It escaped her how someone as smart and perseptive as him would miss this. Or maybe he saw it and just didn’t feel the same way. Kai poked her in the stomach , snapping her out of her thoughts. “Smile. You are too serious for your own good.” A small smile showed on her face and she took a deep breath , getting on her knees and reaching for one of Damon’s fancy alcohol bottles on the table behind her. Kai looked at her with curious eyes and took the bottle from her hands. “Hey I was going to -” “No. I don’t want to get killed because you got drunk on my watch.” he said putting the bottle as far away from her as possible. “You saw that disapproving stare , he’d rip my heart out without blinking.” “You are the one who said to ‘live a little’.” “A little. A sip maybe two , not – a bottle.“he said a little amused. Kai put his feet up on the coffee table. Y/N tried hard not to laugh at the image of the face Damon would have if he sees Kai doing that. Y/N gazed into his eyes , getting lost in them for the millionth time. They were so blue she felt completely mesmerised , somehow in that moment they reminded her of the ocean - so calm most days until the storm hits. Carpe diem. she thought. Y/N didn’t know if it was the alcohol talking , though she was pretty sure a sip can’t do much to her , but she made the decision to tell Kai how she feels. It had been months and every time she thought maybe the right moment had arrived it was quite the opposite. At least in that moment they were alone , sort of and he seemed in a good mood. Her eyes fluttered closed for a moment trying find the right words. Many times she had imagined what she’d say to him and as usual the words tried to escape her again , only this time she didn’t plan on letting that happen. Y/N looked at him , finding him watching at her with curiousity in his eyes. “Can I tell you something ?” “Sure.” he asked studying her face. “You seem nervous. Don’t worry - I’m not going to bite you or anything.” he winked at her. The corners of her mouth twitched for a moment and she relaxed a little , though her heart kept pounding so hard she could almost feel it stuck somewhere in her throat from all the nerves. “Arh , I - I don’t know how to say this.” she smiled nervously , deciding to just come right out and say it. “I like you.” “I know.” said Kai smiling. “Why else would you stand my obnoxious self with my constant talking. I don’t ever shut up , do I ?” “No.” she said looking at him with a serious look in her eyes. “No , thats - thats not what I meant.” “W-what did you mean then ?” he wondered , scooting over a little closer to her. Kai could hear her heart racing and could tell she was starting to hypervenilate. He couldn’t understand why that was. It seemed to happen a lot when he was around her. He felt as if he was missing a crutial piece of information , like something kept slipping his mind. “Come on , you know you can tell me anything. That’s what friends are for right ?” he said smiling. “ Friends? she thought , unsure if she likes the term he used. “I like you as more than a friend Kai.” she said looking at her hands for a moment before meeting his eyes. “I’ve um - I have feelings for you.” ‘Ohhh…’ he mouthed. Now it made sense to him - why her heart always beats like that around him , why her eyes keep following him around the room. How had he missed it ? Kai liked talking to her and Y/N in a way was his only friend but he had no idea how to tell her her feelings are one sided without making her hate him. There were so very few people he could stand to be around and who could stand having him around , he didn’t want to risk losing her. “I like it when you are around. I like listening to you talk and talk , seeing you smile and the excitement in your eyes when you see something you like or when there are cupcakes around.” she smiled nervously. “I can’t get enough of it or you. When you are around it just - everything falls in place – and I hope maybe we can try and be more than friends ?” “Y/N I - I think you are amazing , kind and absolutely the best in every way but – I’m sorry.” he said quietly. “I don’t like you this way. You are my friend – more like a sister. No wait , scratch that. I actually like you , but never liked any of my siblings. I just - I don’t feel the same way about you. I’m sorry.” Y/N swallowed hard , feeling tears starting to form in her eyes. It had always been 50-50 chance that he’d reject her , but a part of her had hoped he might feel the same way about her. A tear rolled down her cheek but before she had had the chance to wipe it away herself , Kai did it for her. Her heart cracked so loudly at his words , she was pretty sure Stefan could hear it all the way in the kitchen. “I never meant to hurt you.” he said quietly trying to pull her towards him , find a way to calm her down. Instead Y/N pulled away from him. “Y/N -” “No. No its um - its okay.” she said putting on a smile , trying to mask away the pain and failing. Her tears were giving away her true feelings in that moment. “I understand. I -” Y/N lifted her gaze noticing Stefan standing at the entrance , looking at her with worried eyes. “I - I should um – I gotta go.” said Y/N grabbing her bag running away from both of them. “Y/N wait -” called out Kai but she didn’t even hear him , as the door had already closed. Y/N placed her hand on her stomach , feeling just about to crumble. Tears had started falling down her cheeks but she didn’t even bother to wipe them away. What would be the point ? It’s not like doing that would somehow change what Kai had said. Instead she ran , as fast as her feet could carry her , stopping by the large oak tree in the end of the driveway , bracing her hand against it. Y/N ran her fingers through her hair , turning to take another look at the house. Her heart was hoping Kai would go after her but he didn’t. Stefan did. “Are you okay ?” he asked placing his hand on her shoulder , rubbing gentle circles on her back. “Do you want me to take you home?” Y/N looked at him through tears and he pulled her into his embrace , stroking her hair and trying to calm her down. He hated seeing her like this. Stefan didn’t like Kai much and now he liked him even less. “Mhmm …” she mumbled. “Oh-kay.”

Kai stood by the window , watching and listening in. How it was that Y/N had fallen in love with him of all people and how had he missed it ? Out of everyone he knew , hurting her had never been his intention. Sure she was a little boring to him but there was no one even willing to stand in the same room as him for more than 5 minutes without trying to find an excuse to leave. And Y/N had spent hours listening to him talk at least 3 days a week. He closed his eyes for a moment , the sounds of her sobs breaking the silence. A few moments later he saw Stefan help her get in his car and they drove away.

“Do you realise what you just did?” asked Stefan. “You broke her heart.” “I didn’t mean to.” said Kai quietly. “What was I supposed to tell her ? Lies ? I did my best to let her down easy. Or do you think it doesn’t hurt me seeing the only person who ever gave me a real chance in pain because of me.” “I don’t know the answer to that question.” said Stefan. “All I know is that I have to go make sure she doesn’t do something stupid.” “I’ll go.” said Kai getting up but Stefan placed his hand on his shoulder , pushing him back onto the sofa. “No. I’ll go.” said Stefan. “You are the last person she’d want to see in that moment.”

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Whenever Kai tried to talk to her in the following weeks , things never ended up the way he wanted. Y/N would still smile at him but it wasn’t her smile , he knew she was putting on a brave face and he wanted somehow to make it up to her for breaking her heart. Her friends were always around and every time Stefan or Damon would drag him away but not before he had seen the tears in her eyes. Over time Y/N started spending less and less time around her friends. Kai felt as if its his fault so he distanced himself from them to give her the chance to reconnect. A few months passed and Kai found himself drawn to her , wondering what she is doing who she is with. He stopped by the Salvatore’s to talk to Stefan or Damon or anyone really. He needed to know how Y/N is. If she had forgiven him or moved on. “Knock knock.” he said opening the door. “Anyone home?” “And to think I was just having a good day.” said Damon , flashing before him a few seconds later. “What are you doing here creeper?” Kai put his hands in his pockets ,trying to take a peek into the living room. There was someone else there but he couldn’t figure out who it was. He took a step aside but Damon blocked his way. Kai sighed. “You are not going to let me take another step inside are you?” “Nope.” “Oh-kay.” said Kai. “Is Y/N here? I - I need to talk to her. Please , I feel like if I don’t talk to her I’ll die or something. I don’t know whats wrong with me I just - I need to see her , to apologise - ” “Y/N is not here.” said Elena getting up from the sofa. “About a month after you broke her heart , she stopped answering her phone and the only times any of us had seen her is at Whitmore but Y/N doesn’t want to talk to any of us.” Kai looked at his shoes , swallowing hard realising he had unintentionally done this to her. As if he couldn’t hate himself more for hurting her. “She still goes to Whitmore?” “Yes.” nodded Elena. “But I would keep my distance if I were you. I don’t think it’s wise to go looking for her. Y/N was so heartbroken after you rejected her , it was hard to get her to do anything. If there is any part of you that care about her you will stay away to avoid causing her more heartbreak.”

Damon practically kicked him out the door shortly after. Kai got in his car and drove straight to Whitmore. He needed to see her , not talk to her just see her at least once to know that she is okay. About two hours later he had cloaked himself and was sitting on the steps at her college , holding his head in his hands watching the students walk by , waiting just to catch a glimpse of her. Days passed and he kept doing this day after day , week after week. Every time Kai saw her his heart did this weird flip and he felt this weird warm fuzzy feeling spread through his body. Y/N appeared to be happy , smiling at everyone and he didn’t want to risk breaking her heart again by letting her know he is there. However he couldn’t stop himself from going there every day. Kai wasn’t sure how or when but he had fallen in love with her.

Almost a year went by since Y/N had confessed her feelings to Kai. On the outside it appeared as if she had moved on , but things were different. The feelings were still there , not going away no matter how much she tried to shake them. Sometimes just when she thought she is starting to get over him something happened and it all came rushing back. Her friends had tried to support her and be there for her , but everything reminded her of Kai and it didn’t help much he was still around. To save herself from more heart break she cut the connections to her friends not realising how lonely her life would get. Y/N missed Damon’s snarky comments , Caroline’s control freak behaviour – she missed everything. Even the Grill’s soggy fries. Some days she’d sit in her car with the keys in the ignition , thinking about going back. Every time that happened something stopped her. It wasn’t like she didn’t have friends at college but things were different , they didn’t know her like the people she had grown up with. Her life had changed so much in the past year and a part of her wished she had never told Kai how she felt. Y/N couldn’t even be upset with him about rejecting her and leading her to cut connections with her friends - thats how strong her feelings for him were.

Y/N sat in her car that morning starring through the front window. Everything hurt her and she felt more alone than ever and making it through the day was becoming harder each day. Her fingers grabbed on the seat belt and she hessitated for a moment. Maybe she could stay home , avoid reality just for a day. “Another day … just – make it through another day.” she muttered to herself. Her eyes fluttered closed and she threw her head back. It was almost the end of the semester , if she could just make it another week and take a break afterwards – but somehow she doubted a ‘break’ existed. Y/N wasn’t a vampire or a witch. There wasn’t a way to shut away her feelings or cast some kind of a spell and put herself to sleep for a few months to get the break she needed. Finally she put her seatbelt on and drove to campus. Y/N sat on the grass in the front yard of Whitmore watching people her age laugh with their friends , hug their boyfriends / girlfriends or just sit there studying in groups while all this time she was sitting alone and something inside her snapped. She got up , taking her back and headed back inside unable to take any of it anymore. There weren’t many people inside and she make her way upstairs to the second floor where the chem lab was. It would be easier to try and end it some other way but during her time studying she had found there are elements that could ‘fix’ things quicker and painless. Y/N tossed her bag on her desk and started looking through the cabinet for what she needed , grabbing a few small bottles while fighting the tears. Y/N pulled out her phone and typed a quick message before starting to mix the chemicals. “What are you doing ?” asked a familiar male voice behind her. A few tears rolled down her cheeks but she didn’t turn around. Y/N knew exactly who it was and the last thing she wanted was to see his face and have that image in her mind when - “Y/N?” he asked again , gripping her wrists. “Whatever it is you think about doing - don’t.” Y/N looked up at him. It had been the first time they had seen each other in almost 9 months. Kai was looking at her with worried pleading eyes , his hair was a little messy and his grip on her tightened with every passing second she struggled against him. “It’s a bit late to care , don’t you think?” she snapped. “Let go off me.” “No.” “Malachai. Parker.” she raised her voice. “Leave me alone. I don’t want you here. I don’t want to see you or hear your voice or anything. Just GO.” Kai let go off her wrists taking a short step back from her. Y/N looked so hurt and desperate , he couldn’t stand to see her like this for another moment specially knowing its probably her fault. There had to be a way to stop her , to change her mind. He couldn’t lose her , the thought alone made him feel like his heart was being ripped out of his chest. “Fine. I’ll go.” he said. “But there is something I have to say to you before I do that. Two things actually and you are going to listen to me.” “Didn’t you hear me ?” she said through tears. “I don’t want you here.” “You can delay 5 minutes. After that you can do whatever you want. I won’t stop you – but I hope you will change your mind.” said Kai looking her directly in the eyes. “I am an idiot. The biggest idiot that has ever existed. I broke your heart and because of my actions you lost your friends. I will never forgive myself for any of this. Never. I wish there was a way to turn back time and undo all the pain.” “Me too.” she said quietly. Kai took a step towards her , watching her hands shake holding the small bottles. “I’ve spent the past few months watching over you , trying to convince myself that you are better off not knowing the truth but I can’t keep this from you any longer. If you want to die then you should die knowing how I feel about you.” “I already know h-” “No, you don’t.” said Kai brushing the palm of his hand against her cheek. “Look at me , just for 5 seconds , please. I need to see your eyes when I tell you this. You need to see me when I say what I am about to say.” Kai waited almost a whole minute before Y/N finally looked up at him with tears in her eyes. He took a shallow breath , wiping a way a tear from her cheek with his thumb. The pain in her eyes was so visible he wondered how he had missed it. “I love you Y/N. I fell in love with you.” he said with a small smile. “You are everywhere - in my thoughts , in my dreams – ” “You are lying. You - you are just saying things to change my mind.” “I am not lying. ” he said only then realising she had left the containers on the desk. Kai took her hand and placed it over his heart. “Do you feel my heart trying to escape out of my chest ? It’s because of YOU. I’ve spent the past few months watching over you. At first I just wanted to make sure you are okay but then I couldn’t stop. I’ve been here every single day and somehow I convinced myself that you are better off without me. That you have moved on and are happy.” Y/N could feel his heart racing like crazy and he sounded so honest , she believed every word he said to her. Or maybe she believed him because she wanted to believe him. Could he really have been by her side this entire time ? “I’ve been so blind for so long Y/N , not realising the best thing in my life had been standing right under my nose this entire time.” he said with a small smile. “I love you and I don’t want to lose you. If you die , I die. That’s how I know what I feel is real.” A smile tugged at the corners of her mouth and Kai could feel her starting to change her mind. He was almost there. “If you give me the chance , I will prove it to you.” said Kai resting his forehead on hers , not taking his eyes away from hers. “I will prove it to you every minute of every day for the rest of my life – which means forever.” Kai kissed her forehead gently and took a few short steps away from her. “Make your decision. I’ll be waiting here and if you chose to end it all , then I go with you because I don’t want to live in a world where you don’t exist anymore.” Y/N glanced at the containers on the desk barely an inch away from her. It would be easy for her to finish what she had started. But why would she ? For the past almost two years ever since her eyes had first met Kai’s all she had wanted was to be with him. He had rejected her and maybe he was lying to her but if she ended it now - she’d never know the truth. What if she could have it all ? “D-do you mean what you said ? Or are you just saying all this to change my mind?” “I meant every sylable of every word.” he said with a small smile on his face. “It took me too long to realise I can’t be without you , I just wa-” “Kiss me.” she interrupted him. “Ki-” In a flash Kai cupped her face and his lips crashed against hers. He scooped her up , seating her on the desk not breaking the kiss for an instant. It hadn’t hit him exactly how much he loved her until the moment he had almost lost her forever. He made a promise to himself , to her - “I’ll never let you go. Never.” he whispered. MASTERLIST - SMUT MASTERLIST - FLUFF

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In which OFSA kinda sorta switches fandoms and tries to explain it all

So most of this is super duper rambly, and if you don't want to read this entire thing, long story short, is I'm jumping ship fandom wise and this blog is going to start reflecting that.

A lot of you guys have probably noticed that I don't really post anything here anymore-- at least a lot less anime gifs and a lot more original stuff like fanfiction and art. But I can't write and draw as fast as I can reblog, so that's why I've basically disappeared off of Tumblr's radar. Well, there's a reason for that.

I started this blog off as exclusively an anime blog. I remember when I first started this, I was super into the seasonal anime stuff (right around that time that Tokyo ghoul and Zankyou no Terror were premiering) and tumblr was sort of like that output for that episodical excitement.

I also remember that I was quickly unfollowing anything that wasn't anime, as I felt that, at the time, it unnecessarily cluttered up my dashboard.

So I guess you're wondering where all this is going. Well, I'm jumping ships.

I don't even remember the last time I watched a full season of anime. It might have been... Shokugeki no Soma? I actually can't even think of it. I've basically fallen off the radar for anime. So that leads us to the larger question: What replaced anime for me?

I've realized that I've turned into complete and utter kpop trash. But it's not even just a general kpop thing-- its very specifically BTS. So I'm going from the world of weeaboo to ARMY land.

There's also the large question of why I didn't simply jump blogs, and keep this one like a sort of graveyard. And I really can't come up with any rational reason other than I'm simply attached. I don't want to throw this all away. OFSA is my handle for EVERYTHING online. And I don't want to get rid of that. So it felt wrong making a new blog for kpop.

I wrote all this out for two reasons: Firstly as an announcement. I didn't want people wondering who the heck this ofsa is and why they're posting WINGS theories six months too late to these people that are most definitely not two dimensional. But more importantly, I posted this because I feel like I owe the very small amount of followers I have an explanation for why I jumped ship, and this is my apology.

Past this is just me rambling some more about the reasoning for everything and how this even came about in the first place.

My journey into kpop wasn't even on purpose. I was browsing Archive for some reading one night, and decided to try a different fandom on-- specifically kpop. At the time, I was reading mainly CanonxOC pairings, and while Archive is much less abundant with OC firs than fanfiction.net, that was the only site I knew of that had a kpop category.

So I went about my happy way, sorted by kudos and tags containing OC with F/M pairing only, and clicked sort.

It just so happened that the first story that popped up was a BTS story under the name of "To Sleep Perchance to Dream" which was a Taehyung/OC piece. I was happy with any Kpop group, and this story just happened to be the first one that wasn't in second person.

So I read the story. It was nice and fluffy and made me all nice and happy, but it wasn't like the stars aligned and I realized that I was going to completely drop anime forever. I think I tried to find some more OC stories for BTS but wasn't happy with he quality, so I didn't bother.

Well, that was the starting point. It wasn't like I stopped reading anything else. I still read Pokémon and Tokyo Ghoul and tons of other fandoms. But Kpop had popped onto my radar.

I dont even remember when I started listening to it on YouTube. I had already been exposed to it thanks to FBE and youtubers react to kpop, but I had never actively searched it out.

Enter a website called reddit, and a smaller section of reddit, /r/fanfiction. Different fanfiction authors go there to discuss various things, and I vividly remember one of the fairly common posts mentioning a website called asianfanfics.

I recognized that any website called that was guaranteed to be as big of a mess as Wattpad, but I was curious. And I wanted another BTS fic.

Curiosity killed the cat.

It wasn't even like I had struck gold or anything. The first story I read wasn't even BTS, it was EXO. I could barely keep all the characters straight, and the writing was only barely above Wattpad in terms of quality, but it had definitely reignited my interest.

Short disclaimer here: I really don't like asianfanfics. It requires users to make accounts, and oftentimes, authors would require you to "subscribe" to stories to read the full chapter. And that's basically a personal offense in my book, but that's another post for another day. But beggars can't be choosers.

I read a variety of stories on there, mostly gang AU's because it surely beat slice of life, and read a wide variety of stories. They were still barley decent as far as my standards went, but I had already lowered my standards.

Sometime during this whole thing, I got a very dangerous mind set: I can do better than that.

Which really began the decent into kpop. I already had a very clear image in my head at the story. I just had to chose my fandom, which at that time, was BTS. And then the research. OH the research. The story I had/have planned follows the life of the idols. So I had to start learning about them in anyway that I could (and considering I couldn't put a name to a single face in BTS, it was going to take a while.)

So I dived headfirst into the fandom. Bangtang Bombs, reviews, theories, oh lord it was so much. And it still is.

That's where I am now: watching BTS crack videos and slowly planning out this monstrosity of a story. Thanks if you made it this far, and I'll see you guys in the world of kpop.

#ofsa personal #sorry to everyone #I'm not gonna blame you if you unfollow me #have fun with kpop #to those of you who are staying