#that clearly only makes you upset?

[snxpdragons]

I really don't understand how parxies can hear watch what happens next and say its just awsten singing about how selfish he is/how he only wants money. As if thats not the exact reaction he's criticizing ...

#like yeah of course he wants money and wants his art to be profitable #everyone wants that. everyone wants to be able to make a living off of the things they love doing #and the song really reiterates this too. people only want his art on their terms- if he has the 'right' attitude about it #and doesnt complain about it #not to mention the fact that the song is also pretty blatantly in regard to his previous label stealing his art and not paying them #its so crazy to me how people insist theyre waterparks fans and spend so much time complaining about the directions awsten takes w his art #and the things he chooses to talk about in his music #like yes sure your faves arent immune to criticism but if thats all youre gonna do why do ya bother? why dedicate so much time to something #that clearly only makes you upset? #anyway. thats just me #i could go on for days really #txt.exe

[loriache]

"I've been waiting for ages for somebody to unmask them."

This moment tends to elicit negative reactions in a first read through, and I've got some opinions about why where Kabru is coming from here actually makes a lot of logical sense. So I thought I'd elaborate on that.

I think people hear this and go, "He thinks they must be hiding something because they gave money to someone? What a cynic." Or "he dislikes them because they did charity?? What's wrong with this guy!". And obviously, a lot, a lot is wrong with him. But I think this makes more sense than it seems at first glance! What people evaluating this judgement miss is why Kabru is paying attention to Laios and co to begin with.

Kabru knows of the Touden siblings because (he's a little bit of a stalker-) he is keeping an eye on all the relevant parties in events developing on the island, in order to be able to guide them to his preferred outcome. This includes adventurers because they are the ones actually exploring the dungeon! He's well aware that something as minor as internal tensions between party members could be key to the historical events that are developing. (He would love the assassination of Archduke Franz Ferdinand.)

His desired outcome is that whatever the rewards are of breaking the dungeon's curse, whether that's kingship or the ancient elven secrets of dungeons, are claimed by:

A) a short lived person

B) Someone who will be a good, effective leader and/or use those secrets and the power they carry wisely, with foresight, and to establish a political bloc for short lived people.

The person he can best trust to do this is, of course, himself. But due to his PTSD regarding dungeons and monsters, he's not able to develop the necessary skills to conquer the dungeon. Once he realises this, he starts looking for someone else who he can support to that end.

But most of the adventurers don't have any intentions of conquering the dungeon, don't have the skills, or are unsuitable in other ways. In fact, it seems like some potentially suitable people are the Toudens. There are a lot of good rumours about them going around - they actually seem to have a very positive reputation! That's what Kabru means when he says "unmask".

So when Kabru is observing something like them giving money to an old comrade from their gold-peeling days, he doesn't consider it a problem because "they're giving money to this person who doesn't actually need it" or because they must have some dark secret if they act superficially nice. I think he actually understands this situation and what it implies about Laios (in particular) perfectly well.

Laios and Falin gave money to an old comrade who got injured and couldn't work. That person then healed up but kept taking their money. Then he used the money to start smuggling illicit goods to the island.

The key is that for Kabru, the problem here is the same as with the corpse retrievers - people using the dungeon's resources to fuel dangerous, selfish, or violent pursuits cause problems for the island, attract more criminals and people with motives other than breaking the curse, and increase the chances of the whole situation ending in tragedy.

Kabru is willing to work with the Shadow Lord of the island if it gets him to his goal - he isn't scrupulous - but the criminal element of the island increasing is something he sees as a major issue.

Also, when you're evaluating someone as a candidate for power, riches, secrets, potentially kingship - then being curious about how the money you give to people is going to be used is kind of a relevant trait!

Interpersonally, Kabru's actually very easygoing - I mean, Mickbell isn't exactly an upstanding guy, is he! But Kabru likes him and they get along well. These traits wouldn't be a problem at all in a friend, or a comrade, or someone Kabru was confident he could use. But he can't get a handle on Laios, and Laios is someone who has the potential to be a major player!

On Laios' end, this is the same as with the marriage seeker who joined their party. She kept asking for things and he gave them to her, because he tries to be nice to others. He even gives her money! It's the exact same thing.

That's fine, but it became a problem because he basically wasn't interested in her motives, didn't notice she was trying to manipulate him, and it also didn't occur to him that the other party members would notice or be affected. We can assume the situation with the gold peeler is the same. When Kabru says that "It's not that they're bad people, they just aren't interested in humans," he isn't wrong.

The extent to which this is true of Laios is linked to his autism imo, (because it isn't just disinterest - he genuinely isn't able to notice nonverbal cues that people are lying to him or have ulterior motives) but to a greater or lesser extent I think it's a very common trait. Most people aren't actually that interested in other people who aren't close to them. Kabru is the weird one here. It isn't an issue except as a leader - which is why we see an immediate comparison to the Island's Lord, because that's how Kabru is evaluating them.

And disinterest in/lack of ability with people to the extent Laios exhibits it, it does, actually, make him a worse leader... it's just that as we see in the story, people can help him out. The rest of the party tell him the marriage seeker is taking advantage of him so he tells her he can't give her special treatment anymore. They're pissed and it's a crisis point - he couldn't have recovered their trust without Marcille and Falin - but that's exactly the point. With Marcille and Falin, he was able to recover their trust.

And he has other good traits that make up for it, such as his intelligence, strategic knowledge, open-mindedness and sense of fairplay.

Kabru doesn't disqualify Laios as a candidate based on what he sees about him from afar, though - he still tries very hard to get close to him, obviously hoping that if he manages he can steer Laios to defeat the dungeon and make up for his lack of people-skills in the aftermath. (Which... he does eventually achieve that goal!) He completely fails until the events of the story, so... definitely I think "They just aren't interested in humans" could also partially be a stung reaction to Laios' complete disinterest in him.

Anyway, that's my read on what exactly Kabru's "issue" with Laios is. Obviously, once he does find out what Laios' true nature is like - about his love for monsters - he develops an entirely new set of fears about Laios' priorities. But since Laios kept that a secret until the start of the story, he has no idea of that yet.

Given all that, I think it's interesting that he says that he doesn't think that the Toudens are suitable to defeat the dungeon, and that he's hoping they'll turn out to be the thieves. As some of his few potential candidates, people who he thinks may play a big role in the island's future, you'd think he'd hope they would be good people!

I suppose it's better, in his eyes, because it means that he's involved in something "interesting". They haven't just had their stuff stolen by regular criminals (boring, puts them further away from his goal) - they've been caught up in the beginning stages of "a historic event". The desperate and dwindling group forgetting morals in their quest to retrieve their lost comrade probably appeals to his sense of melodrama. Because he also just... loves drama.

Despite it being "uglier than anything he was expecting", he still pursues Laios as the person he wants to conquer the dungeon pretty much as soon as it becomes clear that he won't be able to do it himself and they are out of time. That's because... well, to be fair, there aren't any other options. And he fits standard A: he's short-lived!

and Kabru still hopes he can fit standard B, too, and be persuaded to use the power he wins for good. No matter how many nightmares he has about Laios, or whether he thinks about killing him. He doubts him, but ultimately he puts his faith in him and seems happy after the manga's ending that he made the right decision.

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #dungeon meshi meta #kabru of utaya #laios touden #labru #laios x kabru #dunmeshi #og post #kabru is such a big picture thinker. and he evaluates people more than he judges them imo #the hater jokes are funny but the people he judges most harshly arent laios and co. they're people like the island's lord. #but you don't see that as clearly because he isn't interested in the island's lord. he understands him. finds him contemptible but useful. #whereas laios lives in his brain rent free because he WANTS to understand him but doesnt quite. #even though he sees the elves as a major threat to his ultimate goals and dislikes the way they treat short lived races #he still understands and evaluates mithrun as an individual based on his own merits #he's one of the characters who is least judgemental in that sense because while he's always making judgements and evaluations #he's also constantly revising them whenever he gets more information #my beautiful machiavellian prince <3 #it's genuinely a really laudable way of understanding others imo. #the only problem is that because he's driven towards his goals by his PTSD and survivors guilt #he pushes himself into situations (the dungeon and also interpersonally) that trigger him or even just upset him #without regard for what he authentically wants or his own wellbeing.

[sciderman]

Demanding more lisp

posts in which it is imperative that wade be read with a fruity obnoxious little gay lisp:

#ask-spiderpool #she's a LETHSBIAN harold. #hoh-moh-SECKS-ssuals... #i love wade intentionally having the most ridiculous pronunciation in the world for certain words. #penetration... penatracione... pen-ah-TRRAh-see-oh-neh #it's very important you roll the Rs... #your erectioné in this directioné... #i hate this man and his mouth. #i have such a vivid and stupid voice for wade wilson that lives in my head and i hear him so clearly #and im just like so. so upset that i can't manifest this voice and have all of you hear it #he has the MOST stupid way of talking ever and i so want to animate to it. #it's something like robin william's genie from aladdin. an animator's delight. he's so. so theatric. all the time. #and he's constantly changing and shifting accents and impressions and mannerisms. #just whatever he can to make the delivery as funny as possible. #he has this universally ambigious accent all the time. and he's so. so good at accents. #he's just totally brilliant at mimicry. you should hear his peter parker impression. it's perfect. he nails it. peter is so mad about it. #he absolutely can answer the phone as peter and nobody is the wiser. #if he dons peter's tights nobody would discern from voice alone. they'd only be able to tell by the different body types.

[lucreziaborgiagf]

i don’t talk about bridgerton on here but just to clarify. i will not be having ANY eloise hate on this account. i will bite.

#eloise bridgerton they could never make me hate you!! #addressing the normal talking points one by one to get them sorted: #- ​no i don’t care that eloise called pen some names after the discovery. she was devastated and furious. #she can apologise in the future but in the moment of course she said it #- ​yes pen did write about eloise as a way to save her but that doesn’t mean it hasn’t possibly ruined eloise’s life #- similarly: eloise isn’t (just) angry that she was written about. daphne also went through whistledown and it very much terrified her #so have many other women including marina #- eloise is betrayed because she told pen everything and is realising pen told her nothing #(and she’s probably thinking about any secrets she might have said to her best friend that could now be used against the ton and her family) #- as claudio said: being regency gossip girl isnt a moral girlboss thing its deeply harmful tbh #- ​pen did have reasons to become whistledown! that doesn’t mean that she’s innocent or right! #- eloise isnt now friends with cressida to spite pen lmao she’s alone and scared and cressida was the last person who offered her friendship #she has no idea how to manage society by herself #(and she needs someone to improve the reputation of her and her family) #- im also convinced she has other ulterior motives for befriending cressida. like she’s keeping an eye on her or smth #- eloise didn’t just ignore anything pen said and that’s why she only just figured it out. pen deliberately didn’t speak like lw to hide it #the moment she did eloise was like huh that’s weird she doesn’t normally talk like that. and THATS when she figured it out #- eloise just found out her best friend has betrayed her and been hiding this massive secret #but she hasn’t told anyone. not even her own family. im not hearing out any accusations of HER of being disloyal #- also pen clearly wasn’t that upset at writing about eloise bc the moment eloise and colin upset her she went straight back to it lmao #side note but no i don’t think the queen is going to name her the ‘emerald’ or anything because she’s suddenly in the spotlight #eloise is tbh the only debutante she actually consistently recognised (for good or bad) #a new dress is not going to be interesting for charlotte to change her whole tradition #tl;dr i love eloise and i will die on this hill #eloise bridgerton #bridgerton

[04tenno]

so why can't mine be bi?

I mean... I would rather people think he's bi than outright deny his attraction to Daigo. If I've ever said he "can't be bi" at any point, it's not because I don't think anyone should be allowed to interpret him as bi, or because him being bi is entirely out of the question. It's because the concept of him being bi is diametrically opposed to my personal analysis of Mine and the concepts his character portrays.

He's asked out by twenty different women (notably, he has never asked a woman out himself and explicitly says he has no interest in doing so) and he never once shows any enthusiasm when he agrees. He goes to hostess clubs and completely ignores the actual hostesses in favor of the men who drag him there, spacing out entirely the rest of the time when they're not talking to him.

He's also one of the only characters who explicitly talks about sex, in that in he says in Japanese he could sleep with as many otherwise desirable women as he wanted (again, emphasis on the number)... within the context of a list of things that he feels should have made him happy, but didn't.

The one and only time he doesn't act like he's being subjected to abject misery when interacting with a woman who's clearly attracted to him is at the end of his Okinawa character story, but that's... not really saying anything. People aren't gay because they've exclusively had bad experiences with dating. In fact, many people realize they're gay because they've had the "ideal" experiences, but still don't feel fulfilled. Which is exactly the sentiment Mine expresses in the finale.

Like… it's not for lack of trying, or lack of interactions with women. At some point it's just no use looking for the "right woman," because the "right woman" is never going to come along for someone who's not attracted to women in the first place. For Mine, the "right person" was Daigo Dojima.

#asks #my analysis #anonymous #yakuza 3 #yoshitaka mine #mine yoshitaka #can't really gauge the tone of this ask tbh #like fair enough if genuine; i've tried to explain as patiently as possible #but otherwise...? #like. you can headcanon what you want but i'm not here to validate your headcanons regardless of whether i agree myself #and it doesn't matter if i do. you don't need the blessing of Some Guy with (frankly) next to no following #but personally i just think interpreting him as bi is willfully ignoring the fact that this is. #very clearly the story of a closeted gay man prone to seeking happiness in things he subconsciously recognizes won't make him happy #very clearly portraying the equivalent of compulsory heterosexuality #and sorry to get heavy but it's genuinely a huge part of his character. his “selflessness” that only leads to hurting himself #like if just the dates make him miserable then what about when it escalates. to a relationship. to sex. #and he's continuing to agree to something he doesn't want... for what? the off chance he'll finally be happy? to avoid upsetting partners? #these are experiences SPECIFIC to being gay. #bi people can have bad experiences when dating but the sheer enormity of what's being portrayed with mine is something else entirely #his okinawa card. the one that's intended as fanservice for women and which has him pursued by women. explicitly states he “looks unhappy” #that being the case i just think this interpretation is... not true to his character #you're free to disagree #but i don't see what you expect me to do about that

[bl00dw1tch]

Ive been having lots of talks lately with my mom abt politics n the state of the world, Good conversations to be sure, and theyre great bc we both make good points and can compare different experiences and all -- but good God the fact that she's still seems to have. More subconscious faith in the moral integrities of the nebulous concept of a government or corporation More than she has faith in the the moral integrity of the nebulous concept of our societal peers. She talks about it like the Second a group like that is founded, its set of ethics just Miraculously appears out from the ether + just happens to Always be morally sound by default. I cant seem to find a way to word things that with like... idk. Help it Click that those corporations are still run by People and are therefore just as fallible 💀 technically More so but she's convinced capitalism is Never going to go away so she doesn't care about the whole "company's and governments in power, as they exist today, Have A Monetary Incentive To Lie To Us As Much As They Can" thing cuz shes such a damn pessimist and assumes All people have been doing that Forever 💀💀💀 SIGH it's nbd i just needed to put it in words bc its been on my mind on and off

#horse.txt #vent // #not extremely sad just like. huffy. #i love my mom to pieces but. man. we all have our issues ig 😔 it would just be nice if she wouldn't talk to me about how #the world is only every going to get worse within my lifetime #with a shrug and a laugh like 'what can ya do?' like ma. to your own adult child's face? when im already clearly upset with the state of #the world? not when im trying to talk about the kind of changes that other people are proposing we make to our overall society? #she gets so bitchy at me for always complaining but never Doing anything to change the world #but then She complains and agrees with me?? and then ALSO denounces all the Suggestions i tell her abt bc 'oh that would never work lol' #and then when i ask her 'ok well what would You do?' and she go well i think we need to get rid of credit cards and the debt system we have #and im like ok sick!!! keep going!!! #and then she goes OH but we cant get Rid of the debt system Completely bc people still need to borrow from lenders to get houses n cars #and im just. MA #shes been stuck on this metaphor of America being 'a house' #and she says all the ideas of overthrowing the government and replacing it with Anything else would be 'burning it down' #and that if America is already On fire then we should just put it out and try to rebuild it #like 1.) America is not a House it is a Cult. America is a group of people on an area of land. not a fucking House. #2.) THERE ARE PEOPLE RUNNING AROUND THE CULTHOUSE WITH FLAMETHROWERS AND GUNS TO SCARE AWAY AND/OR KILL ANYONE WHO TRIES TO PUT IT OUT. #ITS GOING TO BURN DOWN ANYWAY

[leatherbookmark]

a thing i have JUST realized, isn't the human brain amazing lol -- is that we talk about izzy's thoughts and feelings on ed, on blackbeard, about how he serves one but not the other, etc, etc, and how it means he never loved or even respected the True Man Underneath It All but rather the bloodthirsty legend of a pirate--

e x c e p t izzy is not the first person who makes the distinction between edward and blackbeard. it's ed himself, when he says "actually, i want to be called edward from now on".

before, when he was with stede, it didn't bother him at all that the crew called him blackbeard. that was his name! he was blackbeard, what else would they call him. only stede and izzy got to "ed" or "edward" him, because they were closer -- stede was his first close friend, izzy was his friend and first mate for decades. (note that fang was with ed the longest, but he doesn't call him by his name! you gotta deserve it.)

izzy doesn't do anything inappropriate or out of proportion when he snaps at the crew to call him blackbeard or captain -- that's who ed is, is supposed to be, to them. they're not friends! they even call stede captain, and have you seen that guy?

it's ed that makes the connection between his current state: draped in fuchsia robes, singing sad songs about how sad he is, showing his vulnerable and emotional state in front of people who are supposed to respect and trust his authority. and by that he splendidly loses that authority, to the point that wee john calls him ed, and when izzy snaps at him for disrespecting his captain, ed goes no, actually, yknow what, do call me edward! and then he goes on to encourage the crew to sing as well and hey, actually, why are we being pirates! we should do a talent show!

the distinction is clear here. before all that, in izzy's eyes, his boss was blackbeard, captain, ed/edward -- different names for different occasions, but one and the same guy. but now? this guy singing songs in a pink bathrobe doesn't want to be called blackbeard, he's edward! ed time now! we're going to eat marmalade and express our feelings in front of everyone! and hold talent shows! Ya Hoo !

yeah, it's no wonder izzy doesn't want that. he wants his competent captain back, and this current dude, edward? he's not him. so, uh,

#shrimp thoughts #AND it's not izzy that's the final nail to magenta ed's coffin. it's the lads calling for EDDIE to come and sing for them again #right after izzy -- his first mate! the guy who followed him for all those decades with only mild complaining and an occasional #fed up tirade here and there -- tells him he has no reason to respect him the way he is now. if that's the way with izzy -- then fuck! #what about these guys? those basically strangers to whom he stupidly bared his soul? who are treating him like a source of entertainment? #man's just lost izzy's support. he doesn't have stede (the guy who has the sort-of loyalty of the crew). and the crew respects and admires #blackbeard -- but ed? eddie? uh oh. #look at his face and body language before and after the 'hey eddie give us another song!'. before: he's clearly upset by what just happened #but he starts to fix the robe on himself. starts trying to deal with it and stuff. but the second he hears that one sentence? he freezes. #he turns his head towards the source of the voices -- the crew chanting his name -- very slowly. his eyes are barely moving #this is not to say that izzy's words had no effect on him because they clearly did! but he did not go full kraken to make a point that izzy #is wrong and actually pink and karaoke are good. he goes kraken because attack is the best defense. and it's so fun when #everyone laughs at your jokes and claps when you sing! it's just that people are fickle as fuck :/ #tl;dr the bekrakening is a complex process that doesn't have its source in one grumpy first mate who just wanted everyone to do their jobs #but rather in a fuckton of factors from which one was -- yeah -- stede abandoning ed after he bared his feelings to him. leaving him a #confused raw wound. which would be fine if ed was a teenager but unfortunately he's a scary pirate who loves a good maim #this post is soooooooo long oh my god i could have fit it in three short paragraphs probably

[lucy-ghoul]

I just realized what's wrong with the Targaryen wigs in HotD: they don't look like Targaryen hair, they look like they were stolen from the Malfoys. They all share one (1) or at best two wigs in toto and it makes them look like freaking Lucius Malfoy clones

#jokes aside episode 1 was quite good (yes i finally caved in and started watching the fire lizards show) #there were many nice touches that made me go 'mmmmh good stuff.' #1. the juxtaposition of aemma's horrific death in childbirth/the knights killing each other at the tournament #clearly reminiscent of that quote from one of brienne's chapters... heh now i can't fully remember it in english #2. THEY NAME-DROPPED THE SONG OF ICE AND FIRE (which was never even remotely referred to in got) #the whole thing about aegon and the prophecy has been a particularly favorite fan theory of mine for years and i'm happy it's canon #fake lizard monarchs haters gonna hate :)) #tho it's VERY bittersweet considering the got finale... like the prince that was promised was *spins roulette* #a stark all along? like randomly? (and no obviously i'm not talking about jon. he *is* half targaryen after all) #and let's not forget about the true heir being put down like a mad bitch because d&d liked jon better (since he's a man) #and were like 'revolutionary who wants to help people/actually abolished slavery in another continent bad. let's enforce the status quo :))) #(also the double standards. war crimes are okay only if other nobles do it - especially the starks. if you have a dragon and are a woman #and dare to be slightly mortally grey and/or ambitious... in 2 days you're gonna burn children alive!! because ofc.) #..... *cough cough* okay salty rant is over. let's go on with val's hotd first impressions #2. i didn't hate matt smith as daemon and he's particularly good at looking upset and/or sad but i still think he was miscast #3* #like he CAN act and it shows. but it's as if he were making an effort to appear more believable for this role #idk maybe he'll grow on me in the next eps. also his interactions with rhaenyra were a++ but that's nothing new #can't wait for this girl to fuck her uncle ig (...... what did i become skskksks) #4. i also liked rhaenyra&alicent's interactions. this is gonna be another tragic former besties to worsties for me to cry on :((( #5. i mostly liked the costumes. i liked how this is all about the patriarchy (at least so far). i liked the slight but still noticeable #references to the main show (the music. rhaenyra being an obvious dany lookalike. #lord stark pledging his fealty to her while viserys' voice over is speaking about the threat in the north. #viserys telling her 'promise me rhaenyra. promise me' in what i believe is an echo of lyanna's last words to ned... i think? #like it can't be accidental) #god i missed being excited over this stupid and gorgeous series #obv it helps that i actually never read fire&blood (should i?) and i'm only familiar with the events/characters from twoiaf #house of the dragon #val speaks #txt

[the-kipsabian]

gonna badly rate my taxi driver brb

#i usually dont do it i always only rate stuff and services when i have something positive or extremely negative to say #this man was condescending as fuck to me (blaming his card reader not functioning on my incapability to push buttons??) #and refused to let me ride on the backseat with my cat in her carrier. insisting on putting her in the trunk instead #without taking any safety measures to make sure her carrier would stay in place or be safely in there or anything #i was so upset the entire ride like. hes very lucky my cat isnt a hyperactive nutcase when shes in that carrier (i think she only cried out #once while in there but it was really hard to hear) and then he dared to be like 'see its okay' when we arrived and im just UGH #why take a drive gig that clearly states the passenger travels with a cat if you dont have the compassion to deal with one! #thankfully shes safely at home now but god im so mad and upset rn #fuck #night is an absolute mess on main

[iguessweallcrazyithinktho]

You really the only person pressed about Jack's friends lol, they're not famous so it's hella weird for you to be in their business like that. And more so, the fact that you just continue projecting your disdain for them on Jack. As if the microscopic glimpse you get about them on social media is enough for you to decide they're toxic and that Jack should drop them. Take a moment to realize how shallow that is.

Take a moment to realize how much I donot care 💀

#tagging this so all the rest of you see #jack harlow #clearly if I'm getting other anons i must not be the only one who talks about it #because im not sucking and choking on their dick that makes you upset #hm ok #if I'm considered toxic then I'll take it but before you call me toxic make sure you spend a day on Twitter when Jack's friends tweet dumb #shit

[biolums]

why not mewhynot me whynotme whynotMEwhy Not Mewhy not me whynot me whynotme Whynot me WHYNOTME why not me. why not me

#irls please dont read this. sorry #im so overwhelmed rn. and i fucking feel like im going to die #like yes we all know im soooo unlovable that nothing new but god. i just want to be intimate and have someone be my safe space again #i KNOW its unhealthy and its not like its ever gonna happen again. but its all i can fucking dream of #i wwnt to be all someone thinks about just like how i always think about them. maybe i just want to be equals in a relationship. because #CLEARLY my last relationship i was the only one feeling anything!! and CLEARLY I PUT ALL THE FUCKING WORK IN AND I LOVED SO HARD. AND #IT WASNT EGEN AN UNHEALTHY RELATIONSHIP IT WAS THE HEALTHIEST ONE IVE EVER BEEN IN. BUT IM STILL TOO MUCH 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 #even now i cant think about that too much because i literally think were soulmates. and its Too Upsetting to think about that #when she broke up with me and said ‘i had a lot of fun with you’. we dated for 11 months. you met my family. donyou know how mucch ghat #CRUSHED me #i was doing so well. and i was having healthy relationship thoughts! and i was telling myself that i was just insecure those last few weeks. #and then i fucking spiraled OF COURSE I SPIRALLED. #hahahahahaha im not even talking about the other thing i think ill really kill myself if i think out that at all #whatever i dont even have time to be having a breakdown right now!! haha hahahaah i literally cant imagine making it to the end of this week #jace.txt

[unbornwhiskeyy]

nothing makes me sadder than finding a fellow trans girl utterly insufferable on the internet but i guess that means we’re really all just people ;_; 

#she clearly writes nonsense for cis approval tho #i could not tell you why i find the 'kurt cobain was trans' discourse upsetting #but i just like distrust all forms of backward projection especially when it is impossible to talk to the person in question #and i don't find it helpful or even necessarily interesting to think of a person whose art i love as a secret trans person #the art itself? i love thinking of that as trans #sure #i'm really just thinking in circles here #anyway #viscerally upsetting to me to muse on whether a person we don't know is trans would've not committed suicide #if they had access to gender affirming healthcare at the time #why is this so upsetting to me #well #no one can seem to make a case for his transness without extremely fucking targeted projection #and 'been a son' is a VERY important song to me ok #so again #idk #i'm just upset #and i wish the person who was making this case wasn't such a bad writer #(i'm the only person on earth who thinks she's a bad writer)

[emometalhead]

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#I just need a small rant #I have intentionally not been talking about my mom's health so please don't ask about it. just let me have my rant. #my mom's memory issues are really frustrating #on one hand I understand that it's a side effect of her medication #on the other hand she had memory issues before this health issue and medication #sometimes I really can't tell if she is forgetting things because of medication or because her memory was bad to begin with OR #because she straight up just doesn't listen to me to begin with sometimes #for as long as I can remember she's often decided at the beginning of me talking that what I'm saying isn't important so she won't listen #or she'll say she assumed I wasn't talking to her even when she's the only person in the room and I'm clearly looking at her #it's upsetting and I don't know how to process it #it's been a point of contention for a long time #I've been doing my best to not be rude or start any arguments given how traumatic this year has been for us both though #hence complaining here instead of starting a screaming match ♡ #idk it makes me feel like I don't matter when she doesn't listen and it sucks to have to repeat myself a bunch of times #like okay whatever you forgot we had this conversation but why aren't you listening now that I'm trying to tell you again #ashley rambles

[captainfightingflower]

God the sticker sheet is going to be just as atrocious as Job Job’s isn’t it?

Y’know, why put in the effort of designing original Yõkai when you could just jerk yourself off and shove references up the wazoo? It’s not like doing this strips the game of it’s own identity and eventually everything you make is going to be so malnourished from the constant coprophagy that you’re going to have nothing going for you. No, because why should you try anymore when you could pander?

#as you can clearly tell: i fucking HATE the direction Tee K.O. 2 is going #Jackbox games #the jackbox party pack 10 #tee K.O. 2 #impact font meme #The fact that Job Job didn't have an identity of their own was my biggest gripe with the game #and now it's happening with Tee K.O. 2 #i'm so fucking upset #God all this makes me want to show you the idea i came up with for a Tee K.O. sequel...because it's certainly better than this bullshit #Jackbox games is a soulless husk of it's former self that only cares about making money and not artistic integrity #but hey. companies aren't your friends: even indie ones #i lost my respect for them looooong ago #(which was last year. btw)

[cryptidcalling]

Literally only using Disney Plus to watch Bluey. Talking about all my feelings in the tags (sorry, I didn't realize it would get so long)

#I freakin love this showwww like it's just so simple and wholesome and sweet #I love how the family feels like a real family but theyre still all so loving and kind #I love how it shows that sometimes parents make mistakes and its important to encourage your kids to communicate their boundaries #I love how bandit is always trying to teach them life lessons in fun ways and even if he doesn't really succeed still loves just having fun #I love the complete lack of gender stereotyping #I love how much I can relate to bluey and bingo even as a college student #I can see mu own childhood struggles so clearly in them #especially the way Bluey wants to have control over games and has a hard time explaining why it's important for her for things to be a- #-certain way. The show never belittles her for wanting things to go her way or disregards her upset feelings. #Instead it just shows ways for compromises to be made or ways for her to feel comfortable going through new experiences #I used to feel so humiliated and guilty as a child because of just... the way i was. I suspect now that I have ADHD but at the time #I had no idea. And I'd have these big reactions to things as a kid and even when I calmed down i would #feel the need to keep pretending to be feeling those big feelings because I knew if I stopped an adult would tease me about how it clearly #wasnt a big deal. And no. I know it wasn't now. But at the time I still was having these big feelings as if it was a big deal. #And my parents did find compromises. I would get really upset when I was told to leave somewhere immediately but with a 5 minute heads up I #would be perfectly fine. Being told to clean up immediately was upsetting but saying 'after dinner you need to clean' was easy #So on and so forth. But even with those compromises those big feelings still became a source of humiliation. I didn't realize how long it #stuck with me until I was 16 and I cried in front of my parents for the first time in YEARS bc my permit was going to expire and I didn't #know what to do. And I was so ashamed and humiliated and I was expecting them to make fun of me and call me dramatic like they did when I #was little. Even when they didn't I was still scared. I had to ask my dad directly if he thought I only cried to get my way. #He said that he didn't think that and that's the only reason I started to feel better about it. #And lets make it clear; my parents were never ever ever trying to hurt or upset me. It was all just meant to be teasing. #But it stuck with me for SO LONG even when it was all supposed to be harmless. They're amazing parents. #And watching Bluey really warms my heart because Bandit and Chili never go out of their way to make their kids feel- #embarrassed about their big feelings. You have the big feeling until its done and then you keep on going. #Such an absolutely wonderful show.

[berrymeter]

damn the way ppl interpret king from deltarune is. interesting. wild how i did not get any of this from the text at all

#perth.txt #yeah hes shit in a cartoonishly evil way but i think yous are reaching lmao #i dont think he doesnt care about lancer i also dont think hes a good dad #but i really. REALLY doubt he was physically abusive. like come on. #'he mustve known lancer can bounce somehow' HES THE SAME SPECIES. HE WOULD KNOW. #LIKE? HOW UNLIKELY IS IT THAT *HE* WOULDVE BEEN THROWN OR WOULDVE FALLEN AT SOME POINT IN TIME? #queen is also the only person hes entrusted lancer's safety with #i dont think 'do what you please with him' is supposed to be him not caring #they clearly know each other & i personally read it Very differently for that reason. #he didnt even entrust lancer to rouxls. #king fucking sucks but like. idk this is all very comical to me #also nothing to say about literally everyone else attacking kids? why is it only wrong when he does it?? #queen literally mind controlled people if we're going to be like this... does she not get any scorn for this? #idk. i dont interact in fandom spaces for that reason lmao #they all have a reason for attacking kids & that reason is 'if the dark fountain gets sealed they cease to exist' #at least that's what they all assumed before being brought to castle town. which was never a guarantee. #like if some kids get in my way to make me stop existing yeah id be pretty upset too. think abt it