#that are hard to avoid this time of year especially

[writteninlunarlight-years]

~~~~ HEADCANONS ~~~~

This is a lovely commission from a moon of mine. They wish to be anonymous, but I do have a brief description of the headcanons. I would like their reactions to finding out their s/o is self-harming, how they would try to help them day to day, and what new coping strategies they would suggest/get them to try. I'd like this with Lucifer, Alastor, and Vox. Romantic Lucifer, Alastor & Vox caring for Reader

TW: SELF-HARM MENTIONED, COPING SKILLS (These may not work for everyone), ANGST/FLUFF

Lucifer:

When Lucifer found you that day, he was devastated. You were so frail and small in his arms, and it hurt his soul.

He cleaned you up carefully and bandaged all your wounds. Holding you close to his chest, telling you how much you mean to him.

It was common knowledge to everyone how much he cared for you and how he compared you to the angels in heaven themselves.

He didn't leave your side for weeks, helping you through every emotion and thought that crossed your mind.

He was honestly a little overbearing, making you feel worse that he was dedicating his whole life to you.

When you brought this up with him, he calmed down on the clinginess but still routinely checked up on you.

He enlisted Charlie and Vaggie, two of the people he trusted most in the world next to you, to find better ways to help you avoid reverting to harm.

He took the learned material seriously and began helping you set up healthy routines again slowly.

He helped you with big tasks that felt way too much at the time while still giving you the independence you needed.

He made sure you two went on 'hot girl walks' once a day to help you get more vitamin D.

He conjured a whole gym area for you in the hotel after learning the endorphins in exercise would help.

If you ever had a dark day or a bad event, he would re-cling himself to you.

Even if you protested, he was right there, ready to go and assist you.

He told you daily how much he loved and cared for you and helped remind you how needed you are in this realm.

Alastor:

Alastor rarely felt broken in his human or demon life. Not often did anything shake him to his core.

The day he found you, though, near death and fading, he was a broken man indeed.

You were not allowed to leave his arms no matter how hard Charlie or other inhabitants asked him to let you be looked at by another.

He had years of wound care experience, so he took to cleaning and tending to you.

Was it mentioned that he was in complete demon form the whole time? Well, he was, and he was so angry at the world but so gentle with you.

He wasn't as clingy as Lucifer; instead, he was a silent observer, only coming when asked.

He refused to let you out of his sight, though, making sure that if you weren't physically with him, his shadow was nearby.

He basically destroyed your room by looking for anymore harmful objects. He made up for it, though, by getting you brand-new everything.

"A brand new you is refreshing, my love letting go of the bad.'

He helped you dye and cut your hair when you decided to go with the whole new me look.

He took your eating habits to heart and ensured you had three meals a day, all prepared by him.

Good nutrients would significantly improve your mental health and give you more energy and stamina.

Every morning, when he woke by your side, he would remind you, "You are never fully dressed without a smile, my love."

Vox:

Vox is a big baby on almost anything, especially when things don't go his way or play out how he expects them to.

He never expected to be serious and somber about anything detrimental until he found you that day.

He was terrified of losing you, and his immediate reaction was to hold you close and get you to a hospital.

Man has every tech device in Pentagram City, but he knew what you needed was far beyond his scammy gizmos and gadgets.

Once in the hospital, he was pacing the room, wearing a grove into the floor.

Once you were cleared and ready to go home, he asked you simple fundamental questions, ranging from a simple "why" to a more in-depth "How can I help you?"

He knew that when you answered in shrugs and 'I don't know,' he would have to do the grunt work to help his love.

He talked to doctor after doctor and scoured the web to find all the best remedies to help you.

He took up yoga with you, and right after yoga ended, he would sit with you in a warm bath and talk about what you thought.

When you fully started opening up to him about the dark thoughts clouding your brain, he was already prepared to help.

He helped you cleanse your social media and even recommended good, worthy shows to distract you from your thoughts.

Vox loved you more than life itself and couldn't imagine a world without you in it.

He made sure every day you knew that you would look in the mirror at him lovingly holding you and remind yourself of that, too.

#headcanon #x reader #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel x reader #hazbin #hazbinhotel #hotel hazbin #hazbin alastor #hazbin lucifer #hazbin vox #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel lucifer #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin hotel fandom #alastor #alastor x reader #alastor the radio demon #hazbin hotel lucifer x reader #lucifer hazbin hotel #lucifer morningstar #vox x reader #vox #vox hazbin hotel #lunarwritings #moons

[digitaldiarystuff]

Secret

soo i know this is the shortest thing i’ve ever written but it’s like a introduction of (possibly🤞🏻) a series so please let me know if you’d be interested in this 🥹

any and all comments would be greatly appreciated 💖

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pairing: Pablo Gavi x Y/N

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“Baby I’m home.” you announced to your boyfriend after coming straight from uni. Today was a hard day especially with the finals taking place but you were finally having a little off time and couldn’t be happier. The stress and anxiety was put on hold for a whole week and also, you were finally introducing your boyfriend to your whole friend group. Of course he’s met your closest girls, Val and Maria but this was the first time he’d be in a big group setting with you since everyone in the group had been super busy the last couple of months. You and your boyfriend had been officially together for two months but it was actually going so well that you spent most days and nights together and the relationship only grew stronger each day.

“I’m in the shower, baby.” he shouted and you headed over to his bedroom to get ready already having stuff at his place. You put on a nice going out top with straight fit jeans as your boyfriend joined you in getting ready.

“How was the exam, love?”

“It was actually okay, surprisingly.” you laughed and applied more blush.

“I told you you had nothing to worry about. I’m the one who should stress about today, I’m meeting all your friends at once after all.” he joked.

“They’ll love you.” you said as you hugged him from behind.

“Is there anyone I should be concerned about?”

“What do you mean?” you stiffened.

“Well every friend group has that overprotective one.”

“Oh yeah definitely.” you said while nervously laughing.

“Is there someone like that?”

“No, I don’t think so.” you avoided his gaze and finished getting ready leaving for your uber.

Once you arrived to the bar you met up with pretty much all your closest friends and their significant others, you were childhood friends for the most part but had some additions along the way over the years. It was pretty much like friends the series, where you met up as much as possible and knew everything about each other. As you scanned the table, you realized someone missing.

“Isn’t Pablo coming?”

#football imagine #football #football oneshot #football x reader #football x y/n #football x you #football blurb #football one shot #football angst #fc barcelona #football fluff #pablo gavi oneshot #pablo gavi x y/n #pablo gavi x you #pablo gavi x reader #pablo gavi blurb #pablo gavi imagine #pablo gavi one shot #pablo gavi

[didalexiabreakupwitholgayet]

Is supporting Barca a cultural thing? Like if you’re Catalan and support Real Madrid is it offensive or traitor behavior lol?

hi anon - i've talked about this a ton on my blog, but short answer, yes. supporting barça is a symbol of catalan pride, especially given how tied barça has been to the catalan independence movement and its history over time. (as opposed to real madrid and the other barcelona based team espanyol, which have historically been associated with franco and the center).

there's a reason why we have a specific senyera (catalan flag) shirt as part of our official collection, and why the captain's armband often uses the senyera too.

now of course, things have changed since the franco regime, but resentments still linger, especially after the most recent 2017 violence and arrests for the pro-independence movement.

liking real madrid doesn't automatically make one a traitor, especially given how international football has become, but it's very hard to separate catalan identity with barça. to me, it's like one and the same.

in the vast majority of cases, culers aren't hating on a player simply because they supported real madrid in the past. like you said, it's almost always something else that's driving it, like with athenea, ivana, olga, lucy and others.

take tere abelleira or caroline weir for example. lots of culers have nothing against them personally and yet they are two of real madrid's best players. i have no problem with either of them and personally think tere plays very well for spain.

but as i outlined above in the ask about cultural identity above, for a current barça player to support real madrid is a hard pill to swallow because it goes beyond a mere rivalry.

also, there's a huge difference between hating on someone and making a joke about them being a madridista, like what people are doing with ewa pajor. culers love to give madridistas a hard time and talk about how they will cure them once they come to barça.

vox is a hard, right wing party in spain that's anti-everything good in this world. they are fascists, misgoynistic, homophobic, and oppose immigration rights and want people like me and leila ouahabi to go back to where we came from (even though moros have been in spain for hundreds and hundreds of years🙄).

but they hate autonomous communities, and oppose catalan and basque independence movements and rights, and want us all to speak spanish only.

basically, they are the absolute worst and should be avoided at all costs.

#fcb femení #fc barcelona #real madrid femenino #catalan independence #futfem #woso #spanish culture #athenea del castillo #vox

[mpregjohnwinchester]

on the subject of how friend breakups hurt just as much as romantic breakups... i'm sure someone was on the subject somewhere lmao... i'm having sads tonight even if it was fucking ages ago technically and its my own fault bc I read through some messages idk why i havent deleted... or why i did that. meh. i need a good everything shower and an early night.

#this person hurt me more than anyone ever has in my life and I still miss them #and then there's the guilt for not handling it well #and the fear that they'll slide back like nothing happened which they did SO many times #and idk there's still a lot of reminders #that are hard to avoid this time of year especially #and just the ruminating... were they the problem or was I or a secret third thing where we just brought out the worst in each other #I've grown as a person since we were friends. a lot #and I think not having them in my life is a lot to do with that #but god it still fucking hurts sometimes lol #yeah I'll probably delete this later when I've got over myself lol

[blueskittlesart]

Feel free to ignore this but as someone who also goes to art school, I find it really interesting how other art schools also have a “don’t date your peers” sort of faux pa. Like so many people I know (including me) refuse to date anyone else who goes to my college 😭

I wonder why that is tbh, small school thing maybe?

being so serious i didn't have anything against dating other art school peers when i first came here and i think most freshmen dont but once you have one or two art school relationships under your belt you realize why all the upperclassmen avoid dating each other like the plague

#it sounds so good on the surface. like when am i ever going to find this many lesbians concentrated into one place at the same time #but unfortunately in order to go to art school you need to be 1. in your 20s and 2. have something wrong with you #also especially as you get into years 3-4 i think maintaining a relationship just becomes SO hard. bc we're all in the trenches #AND ALSO. from experience. this school is SO small that you CANNOT avoid your exes. if it ends badly fuck you you have 4 classes with her #anyway obviously this doesnt stop me from looking for. things. on tinder. i just dont swipe right on anyone i recognize from class #and it ALSO does not stop you from WANTING to date people in your classes. this tinder girl is nowhere near my first art school crush i jus #do not act on them anymore <3 lmfao #that being said tinder girl if youre reading this i didnt mean any of it baby you're so pretty and im so stable please dm me

[toastsnaffler]

I was on the wikipedia page for phobias just for fun but just discovered theres an actual word for a fear of being touched.. 🥹

#haphephobia.... and they list guts from berserk under pop culture references 😢😢😭😭 thats my guy.... #not gonna lie i teared up a bit i didnt realise it 'counted' as an actual phobia #i find it really difficult to talk abt but i have a complicated relationship w touch/physical contact (likely trauma babeyy) #and while i do crave it a lot i also have a very physical reflexive fear response especially if its intentional + i dont expect it #which can sometimes even get triggered just being in proximity to ppl bc like. even the possibility sets me on fucking edge #it would be nice to be as physically affectionate as i naturally want to be without dealing w my fight/flight/freeze but alas #its weird bc there are some random situations where it doesnt get triggered at all but its so unpredictable every time #and varies wildly person to person for seemingly no reason. there r strangers im innately more comfortable with but also friends ive known #for years and will never be comfortable around. i think part of that depends on how strongly the other person communicates and whether- #i feel as if theyre demonstrably able to respect boundaries not just mine but their own too + understand theyre not always fixed #ideally i need to have had this conversation with them so i Know they understand. which is rly difficult i find it so hard to admit #and i have a complicated mental block where i need the other person to naturally bring it up which very very rarely ever happens #idk just an atmosphere of safety yknow. i think its intentional touch that specifically makes me panic bc im usually fine w like- #bustling crowds or even expected social rules like handshakes at interviews. bc its not like they're Trying To Touch Me its just rote idk #hopefully eventually ill reach a place where im able to unpack it and reduce its severity bc man sometimes its fucking heartbreaking to me #bc i do genuinely really like physical contact im an incredibly physical person its my main way of interacting w the world #and the way having to force myself to avoid it meshes w my rsd too augh.... its a clusterfuck #even just having one person im completely comfortable with. maaaaan. #almost makes me miss my ex. at least i was mostly cool around them #god its sucked lately ive been having weird vivid dreams related to it. but whatever its so far down my list of problems to prioritize #and at least i dont get it w my familys dog so i can cuddle her :^) i miss her i cant wait to see her next month :D #anywayyyy thats enough im so tired goodnight every1... #.diaries

[minamotoz]

do NOT talk to me i just remembered how tragic of a character kc guthrie is

#degrassi #hi im rewatching season 10 for the first time in lile a year and ahalf #the more i rewatch the more i become a kc apologist even thoigh i was already a massive kc apologist #hes just So tragic to me and its hard to watch with the knowledge that he never gets a resolution to any of his trauma #he repairs his relationship w his mom but he never truly heals from her neglect #we're jusr supposed to forget that he was groomed and nearly molested ????? #i know he acts like a massive shithead throughout the entire kenna pregnancy arc but i still cant help but feel bad for him then #bc hes been forced to grow up so fast as a result of his neglect #and now that hes about to become a father hes realizing hes about to lose his childhood entirely #like yeah being a massive dick to the girl carrying your child and them cheating on her/avoiding parenting ur child #is a massive dickhole move no shit #but IDK. im sympathetic. especially when he realizes that hes become his Father when they put their kid up for adoption #so he tries so hard to make it work and to keep in touch w his son even though its futile at that point #AIBDIEJCUSLXN fuck. kc isnt even in my top 10 favorite degrassi characters yet i could talk abt him forever #the way his traumas are downplayed and never resolved the way his gifted-ness effectively disappears during s10-11A #people just write him off as an asshole cheater and yeah he is one but jes so layered and tragic to me

[mickgaydolenz]

the world loves me so much and said here asia we would like you to have your cluster cycle start on new years eve this time :) . also to anyone out there that suffers with cluster headaches, i fucking see you dude and it fucking sucks and i’m so sorry

#i also love having one of this chronic pain issues. that is very hard to be diagnosed because it is cyclical #*those #and mine is especially small given i tend to have 1-2 cycles a year predominantly falling around late august- january #when i brought it up to my doctor she essentially was like hmm that’s hard to deal with so no point getting any diagnosis 🤷‍♀️ #so thanks girl. but mine are very typical cluster. always on the right side of my face. the violent stabbing pain behind my eye #i also have the nice after cluster hangover headache tenderness that just fucking knocks me clean off my feet #rocking and counting tend to be my go to distractions. not that they do anything. but when it’s really bad i unfortunately tend to hit #myself for some fucking relief :s #oh also i get the classic wake up from a dead sleep clusters. and mine are reliably every two fucking hours :) #and usually i get anywhere from 1-8 a day during my cycle period. although 4-5 is pretty average for me #my last cycle was hell. my clusters were lasting upwards of an hour. that is really what i’m hoping to avoid this time around…. #sorry i just really needed to rant about this it fucking sucks. they don’t call them suicide headaches for nothing #cluster headaches

[palms-upturned]

Gentle request that if u would like to add my tags to a post for whatever reason, pls copy/paste rather than taking a screenshot so that the post remains accessible to visually impaired users! If you’re on mobile and can’t copy/paste, I’m always happy to provide a transcription :]

#meg talks #i don’t wanna sound all high and mighty especially considering it’s really just been this past year that i’ve been learning abt these things #but yeah i do try to make this blog as accessible as i know how to #so i would prefer that if people are going to post my tags which are… err… a part of my blog i guess #then they pls do so in an accessible way #not that i ever mind reblogging and adding an image description #it’s not that it annoys me or smth #but if i do that then there’s still an inaccessible version of my post in the reblog chain #ppl might see the version w the screenshots but not my description #if that makes sense #coughs anyway #oh also aside from the fact that the text can be read by screen readers #there’s also the fact that users can to some degree customize the way text posts are displayed #to avoid eye strain or triggering migraines and such #but that’s not smth you can really do for images #a lot of the time i see tags screenshotted in day mode w the light gray text against the white background #for some ppl that’s quite hard to read #if not tiring/painful to try #personally at one point in 2020 i was so sick that even having my eyes open for very long was exhausting and painful #and this went on for A Long While #so i would have appreciated these kinds of things and still do when im dealing w migraines #also i just moved into an apartment and didn’t have wifi for like a week!! #image/video descriptions were super helpful bc a lot of the time nothing would load at all #tl;dr there’s lots of reasons someone might need a transcription

[pepprs]

ok update i just finished making my card and i said / drew (lol) basically everything i wanted to say in it (except for the things i definitely can’t say now that this is happening lol). so i think maybe i might be ok with not saying what i want to say directly to her. but then when i say that im not ok with it at all LOLLLL so i think i need to sleep on it and maybe see what tomorrow brings

#purrs #sobbed hysterically writing the message and that was like 4 hrs ago (yeah.) and im still like dizzy and puffy eyed from it. i am not having #a good time lol. and it’s only going to get more intense this whole week and i don’t know if i can handle it. ive been overstimulated / #sleep deprived for like 2 straight days bc yesterday i was doing everything in my power to avoid thinking abt it and today i was doing #everything in mt power TO think abt it including being subjected to things that were hard and ofc the walk being a flop kinda lol. but omg. #mutuals i know it’s so deeply cringe but i have been vagueposting abt my work life since before i even got the fucking job. i know i look #mentally ill about it and i definitely am but my colleagues past and present are my best friends and my number 1 reason to be alive #actually. so this is just. idk. this feels very……. especially when this is someone who was never supposed to leave this suddenly. who i thou #thought i had years and years left with. and it’s just over like that and we have to say goodbye and i know it’s not even that big of a move #but it’s actually killing me. like physically. that this is happening rn. i don’t know what the fuck im going to do. and we aren’t even f #gonna be able to grieve openly at all but we are grieving and she doesn’t even.. like idk. maybe it just hasn’t occurred to her that we are. #but we literally are and its soooooooo bad. it’s so bad. i feel like im having a bad dream every day. i already felt like nothing was real #anymore and this helped abt -50000% with that sensation. like wtf is going on rn. she’s LEAVING. ON FRIDAY. FOREVER. FUCK! #but uh yeah the point is i do want to talk to her and if it was anyone else i would. but when it comes to emotional stuff and being honest #w each other abt how one makes the other feel… we are incompatible im afraid. she doesn’t want to talk abt it and all i want to do is talk b #but im shy and weak so i cave and just do everything in my power to give her what she needs and then i feel shattered for the rest of the #day / week / whatever. it fucking sucks and im not like that w anyone else in my little irl world (except my p*rents ofc LMAO) but it’s like #onmgggggg. can we please just talk abt how it is so painful you are doing this and comfort each other in it somehow. LOL! like i am in so mu #much pain i can’t even speak and she didn’t even look at me when i flicked my eyes over to her during the silences. CRINGE! girl she doesn’t #care about you 😭😭😭😭 except she does. idk. it’s just sooooo. idk. my brain is not right it hasn’t been since i got the news. i think im dying #delete later #OMG ALSO it is now the wee hours of july 26 which means that 3 yrs ago right abt now i did something so very stupid that made me have my #first very bad breakdown ever and it led to me realizing i needed counseling again. so maybe in the spirit of this anniversary i will do #this stupid thing (of asking to talk and then saying what i want to say even though i wrote it out) and then have a very bad breakdown and t #then go to counseling 🥳✌️

[hpdgirlfriend]

i hate my attachment to orbit actually it;s kind of fucked up that i got attached to him in the first place since he never and still doesnt pay any kind of meaningful attention to me and yet! it doesnt go away and he's so so intimidating to me anytime i try w him i feel ill and so anxious i could explode and it never even amounts to anything and yet im obsessed w him why am i obsessed with him. whyyy

#and its been a full year now and this hasnt gone away. even though i got another fp who is. much better!! and worth the idolization!! #not thistle btw i. am too mad at him all the time to idolize him #and the explanation might be as simple as 'i was having an especially hard time w thistle so i latched onto someone else to cope' but i don #remember if the times for that line up. im pretty sure thistle started his shit w me AFTER i latched onto him bcus the Reason he avoided me #was bcz he was jealous of orbit. so it kind of wouldnt mke sense but my memory is foggy enough back there #anyways. whatever. i wish he would pay attention to me or die #diary #orbit tag

[morzowo]

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#it's so fucking heartbreaking to go through my dash and it's just post about CN taking down their animated shows 20 times in the row #I would say it feels unreal to read about lost media in 2022 and it's not about 80s animes but cartoons that were still in production #but animators and studios specialising in animation were always fucked over #there are so many shows that are lost media #bc network never literally NEVER cared about them as something more than money machines #there are countless cases of creators wanting to share projects they and their teams worked so fucking hard #but didn't see the light of day bc of fuckery that are copyrights laws focused on avoiding taxes rather than profiting artists #and nowadays artists aren't so anonymous anymore they share their joy of creating on twt or ig or tumblr #and are so so happy to interact with fans #and it is so fucking heartbreaking and soulcrashing to see them real time lost their spirit and passion bc of cruel capitalistic industry #and there are kickstartes and patreons and people going indie on youtube #but it isn't sustainable #they shouldn't be forced to think about new options of getting their art out there every other month #it's sad and sickening and infuriating and terrifying #keeping this ramble in tags bc it isn't well written but I had to get it out #especially with what was happening in recent years #ehhhhh

[mars-ipan]

i’m having a moment of boiling rage over the way my obvious neurodivergence has been handled by my doctors and attempted therapists

#marzivents #thought one vent post was enough. it is not i am angry #like. ok i’ve known i had /something/ for as long as i can remember #i remember talking with my mom as a kid about whether i should go to therapy #(i for some reason thought it was a thing for older people? idk why) #my main suspect has changed over the years. from social anxiety to gad to depression to adhd to maybe autism? #but that’s not the important part #the important part is that it’s something. and i’ve literally always known this #but every time i try to bring it up. oh you’re fine. oh you’re okay #even my favorite therapist dodged it! she did however acknowledge that yes i was exhibiting Real Symptom but she avoided drawing conclusions #which. honestly fine she can’t technically diagnose me #but it is so frustrating #especially when i compare it to my brother’s experience #my brother was diagnosed with autism at 2. 2!!! #he’s faced a fair bit of ableism from classmates and teachers and i am not going to glorify that #but he’s also always had access to accommodations and he doesn’t need to justify needing anything #i mean it’s to the point where he feels babied. he wants to have his autonomy respected #once again. i’m not glorifying ableism. it genuinely sucks that he’s going through that/has gone through that #but god at least he has a word to call it! he never had to question why some things were hard for him and others were incredibly easy #he never had to question whether he was making all of it up #he never needed a reason to need help. if he needed it that was it. there were no extra questions #i never got that. and i’m not envious of him. but i am a little angry at the fact that i never got that #i doubt myself all the damn time. i hesitate to say that i’m probably not nt #if i’m struggling suddenly it becomes ‘what happened’ and not ‘what’s bothering you’ #instead of ‘we’ll work on it’s i got ‘try to fix it’s #i’m so sick of constantly having to justify it. feeling the need to apologize every time i ask for help #it’s maddening. it drives me crazy #god. i gotta get that fucking diagnosis i’m gonna die at 30 from sheer frustration #i know this about me. i know it. will people please fucking listen #sigh. curse of being afab

[gandreida]

Wanting to upgrade my computer so I can more reliably play games w/ friends is a feasible goal which is awesome ‘cause for the last few years my main goal has been “don’t kill yourself” so having this as a goal shows improvement in that I actually want something other than to simply not die by my own hand

#also it gives me incentive to go to work #I was sick this week so I missed like 3 days of work as a result of me trying to avoid giving myself asthma #but as luck would have it I made the conscious effort to go to work every day last week #not to mention this was a really fast sick span #it only lasted from Friday-Most Tuesday #outside the bread coughs and liquids down the wrong holes i’ve been doing swell #so swell that I feel comfortable going in to work tomorrow #my position right now tho worries me #I’m not sure how long I can be a pick-off as it hurts my shoulder but I think if I were to stretch more diligintely before work I could #potentially avoid it #but regardless it just sucks in general to have be like this ‘cause loading hurts my knees and those just hurt regardless #plus I got a bigass hill I have to climb after work every night and that doesn’t do me any favors #and on top of that if I don’t climb it fast it measn getting home like 30 minutes later half the time #and I’m not fond of waiting for the bus that late at night #especially since a couple of weeks ago I had a dude harassing me #like I have to walk down side streets that are largely unlit to sit and wait at a bus stop that no one really goes to like ?? #I just need to buy a few things for the computer namely RAM and a 1TB internal SSD #that’s pretty cheapo in comparison to the rest of the computer #hell the RAM isn’t even necessary tbh that’s why I’m going for the SSD first #A 2TB SSD would be better tho like it could fully replace my 9 y/o 2TB HDD that’s Very Much So At The End Of Its Life #truly tho I need a car #but it’s hard to save for a car when I have so much debt to pay every month #I think I can actually start saving for one like mext year tho ‘cause at the rate I’m going by feb next year I could be cleared of all #personal debts #then I can save up like $120 a month guarunteed rather than trying and failing to save even like $50 or somethin #I could actually help people too #I could be comfortable and help people w/o throwing myself under the bus financially #that’s what I really want

[gregmarriage]

SUCH a ‘do everything you can in certain areas of your life, so you can at least feel like you have something resembling control over it’ girlie x

#going away in 11 days so i’m preparing and getting ready #i need to make a list of stuff to pack #i need to decide what clothes i’m gonna take to wear #i need to control things to avoid the anxiety #or at least try to ease it #idk i’m always nervous something will go wrong lately so i’m trying to prepare for the easy stuff and the stuff i can control #gonna try to figure out my nausea and how to deal with sitting in a car for hours #i just need to get ready™️ #gonna try to swim for the first time in years #especially since i became disabled and i’m wondering how that’s gonna work #but idk i’ll try #gonna work out going out in public with my walker some more #gonna go on the beach!! #for the first time in years!!! #if i think about it too hard i feel like crying #i have sooo much nervous energy #i’m both excited and scared #trying to convince myself it will all be fine #and i can still live my life #bc recently i’ve felt like i don’t have one and that i can’t get it back #mania my beloathed #idk maybe stay tuned over the next couple weeks as i post anxious bullshit in the lead up and then maybe cool shit when i actually go #i say 11 days it’s actually more bc i’m joining everyone out there later but still #it’s not long now #gwen rambles #gwenposting

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Oh my god I'm sooooo mad right now

So. I have no business telling people not to collect wild plants/materials.

I do it all the time.

However.

The words "wildcrafted," and "foraged," even "sustainably harvested," are terrifying to see in an ad on Etsy or Instagram

There is a such thing as the honorable harvest where you ASK the plant if it is okay to take, with the intention of listening if the answer is NO. Robin Wall Kimmerer talked about this, She did not make it up, it is an ancient and basic guideline of treating the plants with respect.

Basically it is not wrong to use plants and other living things, even if this means taking their life. But you are not the main character. You have to reflect on your knowledge of the organism's life cycle and its role in the ecosystem, so you can know you are not damaging the ecosystem. You have to only take what you need and avoid depleting the population.

Mary Siisip Geniusz also talked about it in an enlightening way in her book Plants Have So Much to Give Us, All We Have To Do is Ask. She gave an example of a woman who was on an island and needed to use a medicinal herb to heal her injured leg or she would not survive the winter. In that situation she had to use up all of the plant that was on the island. This was permissible, even though it eliminated the local population, because she had to do it to save her life. But in return the woman had the responsibility to later return to the island and plant seeds of that plant.

And what makes me absolutely furious, is that there are a bunch of people online who have vaguely copied this philosophy of sustainability in a false and insulting way, saying "wildcrafted" or "foraged" materials to be all trendy and cool and in touch with nature, when it is actually just poaching.

If you are from a capitalistic culture the honorable harvest is very hard and unintuitive to learn to practice. I am not very good at it still. This is why it is suspicious if someone is confident that they can ethically and respectfully harvest wild materials with money involved.

So there's this lichen that is often called "reindeer moss." It looks like this:

It grows only a few millimeters a year.

This is "preserved" reindeer moss.

It is from Etsy, similar is also sold in many other online shops, many of which have the audacity to describe it as a "plant" for decorations and terrariums that needs no maintenance.

It is not maintenance-free, it is dead. It has been spray-painted a horrible shade of green. The people buying it clearly don't even know what it is. It is a popular crafting material for "fairy houses," whatever the hell those are. So is moss, also dead, spray-painted, and wild-harvested. Supposedly reindeer moss is harvested sustainably in Finland, where it is abundant, for the craft industry. However poaching of lichens and mosses is absolutely rampant.

It's even more upsetting because there's hardly any articles drawing attention to the problem. This one is from 1999. And the poaching is still going on.

There is a "moss" section on Etsy, and it is so upsetting

These mosses and lichens were collected from the wild. Most of the shops are in the Pacific Northwest or Appalachia, which are the major locations of moss and lichen poaching. There are some shops based in Appalachia selling "foraged" reindeer moss.

Reindeer moss may be abundant in Finland, but in Appalachia it should NOT be harvested to be sold on Etsy as craft supplies! Moss doesn't grow quickly. Big, healthy colonies like this took years to grow. Some of these shops have thousands of sales, all of bags and bags of moss and lichen, and thinking of how much moss and lichen that must be, I am filled with horror.

Clubmosses do not transplant well, and these ones have no roots. The buyers do not realize they have bought a dead plant because clubmoss stays green and pliable after it is dead.

This is especially awful because in Mary Siisip Geniusz's book she talked about clubmosses being poached so much for Christmas wreaths that they had almost disappeared from a lot of forests.

I don't even know if this is illegal if it's not a formally endangered species so I don't know if I can report them I'm just. really sad and angry

#moss #lichen #poaching #environment #sustainability #negative