#tagging both because both are relevant

[dappersautismcreature]

ik a lot of yall like things to be evenly laid out and known but im sorry the lore right now is wavy and weird and gray. and that is ok, you will survive i promise.

not everything has to make sense, there will be mistakes, retcons, imperfections, jokes that get turned into canon, etc. its a story made by HUMANS, not everything is written down and remembered and edited like a book or script. this is rp.

if you are mad at bad for "messing with canon" consider that the admins gave him permission, he is trying to continue lore that has been put on pause like three times by now, and create fun content while helping gather cookies so eggs DONT DIE

gray area, it doesnt have to make sense, you dont have to connect everything to purely fiction or purely out of character. i promise you it doesnt, its not that important, mistakes can be made, things can be weird. this isnt a purely serious all intensive highly edited tv show, its a roleplay with like 30+ people all with pcs with individual lore.

calm the fuck down. yall are acting like this is the Final Sin. its just,, content,, you will be ok, the story will be ok, THEYRE ADULTS they can sort out their own issues if a cc doesnt like another cc including something in canon.

#i started this out sympathetic #but thinking of all the pathetic whining about 'my canon ToT' is getting on my nerves #its not yours #you dont get to decide anything #and its not making the story worse until we see it damaging the integrity of the story #wait for that and then we can talk #even then #moreso on the admins than the players #qsmp #qpurgatory 2 #tagging both because both are relevant #fandom neg #crit

[mumbledramblings]

[Trigun OC]

Team "would rather die than admit something's bothering them"

So for the first good chunk of their relationship, Bad Luck and Vash were more "fucking" than "dating". Bad Luck was really apprehensive about romantic entanglements, and had been taken advantage of by a friend, in the past. (While not THE reason he was kicked out of his community, it was definitely related.)

However, Vash-- aware of Luck's hesitance but not of the reasons why-- already had a little bit of a crush on him. So when Luck stupidly offered a FWB situation, Vash accepted, thinking he could be chill about it. He quickly realized, no, he could NOT be chill about it, and spent the next few months relentlessly pining and feeling guilty and wanting to broach the subject, but never saying anything.

Eventually, Vash's crush gets revealed, and by that point Bad Luck has kinda fallen in love with him and they get together and Bad Luck insists that it's all fine, water under the bridge. Truthfully, though, he feels a little betrayed, and has this sense of "why the fuck would you think that's a good idea" towards Vash, hanging over his head. But he also thinks he has no place feeling this way because he never told Vash why he was so hesitant (and still hasn't), and also he does love Vash now anyway, so there's really no point bringing this up now and messing with the status quo, right?

And that's just the beginning of their relationship. There's a whole bunch of other plot-related problems they never talk about until after things boil over. Eventually, they'll get their acts together and talk through everything, I promise. Eventually. It just, might take until after the plot's fully resolved for them to get there.

#typing up this post for the THIRD TIME because i'm FUCKING STUPID and ACCIDENTALLY DELETED the last one #to the person who left the nice comment on the other one i'm so sorry i just accidentally posted it while i was still typing and i panicked #trigun #trigun stampede #trigun fanart #vash the stampede #mid draws #oc - bad luck #trigun oc #mid writes #copying the tags on the other post bc they're relevant and i want them to be seen #working title is “i hope we both die” #which doesn't explain exactly what's going on between them #but i hope it helps you grasp how much they Dont Talk about their problems #you can tell whenever i have a mental spiral because i turn all my favs into the most terrible people to have a relationship with #i love you vash and i know you're a good boy in my heart #but i firmly believe he's never had a healthy relationship and he's not about to start now #/end #If anything is worded/formatted weird do not tell me. it's 3:30am and i typed this in a panicked frenzy #i'm going back to bed

[bonebrokebuddy]

I am shocked and appalled that there isn’t more comic flash & comic spider man fic crossovers.

Like? Barry and Peter would get along so well?? And no one has taken advantage of this??

I need a fic pronto of them meeting at a biochem conference, a villain attacking, leading to Barry catching Peter changing into his Spider-Man suit in the bathroom in a classic silver age crossover “the heroes immediately figure out eachother’s identity” type fashion. They team up and take down the villain together and promise to keep in touch.

#marvel x dc #dc x marvel #barry allen #Peter Parker #no marvel only spider man #spiderman #marvel #dc #marvel crossover #dc crossover #listen. they’re both characters originated from the 50s with the atomic age blasting an importance and relevance #of science heavily in their characters and lives #i just want two semi-retired heroes who have horrible luck and still get pulled into hero shenanigans frequently because trouble just seems #to find them. the only ‘retired’ part of it is that now neither of them are actively seeking out villains. #that’s the job for those that have taken up their mantle #but trouble just finds them anyway #god I miss pre cw flash & mcu spiderman characterizations. they’re so hard to find nowadays #bones talks #bones prompts #bones talks in the tags #i just want to commission a biochem grad student and have them vent in a fic about the troubles of being a biochem grad student #that’s thinly guised as a peter parker fanfic #is that too much to ask?

[emry-stars-art]

I’m wondering (and not sure if this has been talked about yet in a post I simply missed) about how Abram copes with Andrew’s physical affections (or lack thereof) in your lovely royal AU. With the history behind ‘pretty’ that you described for Abram in that last post, I feel like there is so much potential of him expecting to be touched, even before they are courting (but especially during/after), and wondering why Andrew doesn’t—especially once it’s established that he thinks of Abram as ‘pretty’. They are of different station so it would be so easy for Andrew to act entitled to Abram’s body like so many before, especially with Abram in a position where he’s basically serving him in some way. I wonder if it makes him relieved (due to professionalism/personal comfort at the very beginning) or anxious (due to having no ability to tell what is coming for him/later due to doubting if he is really wanted that way if Andrew doesn’t act the same as his point of reference) or a little bit of both for different reasons.

I imagine Andrew to be both a very tactile person and not necessarily so because he is so very aware of boundaries and only crosses them with invitation or purpose. I wonder how that translates here and how his touch plays into how Abram perceives him (and honestly there’s the whole part too where it’s something they have in common, trampled boundaries and bad associations and bone-deep understanding of such) or if they would ever have a conversation about that where Abram wonders about the curtesy of distance and space he is being given.

I’m like two seconds from passing out bc it’s pretty late here so idk how much sense this ask really makes but I’m having thoughts. I love your AU and your work and hope you have a wonderful day <3

YOU GUYS ALWAYS FIND THE MOST INTRIGUING THINGS TO EXPLORE I LOVE YOU (and your comments/etc, apostrophe-philosophy, are always a joy to read hehe)

(First: find the royal au writing masterpost here 💕)

I’ve been working on/thinking about this ask long enough that I’ve straight up forgotten if this was a thought I had when writing that first post (here) or if you brought it fully to my attention but we can safely assume it’s the latter so thank youuuuu for that truly. I love exploring Abram’s slow inch (and Andrew’s, but he’s had more time to get adjusted) towards finding a healthy relationship with touch 🥲 and oh my GOD don’t let me forget to tell all of you about Abram and gloves

I wrote a scene/lil collection of scenes about Andrew clearing things up here too because I’ve been wanting to explore Abram’s POV for a while 👀 there are references to canon abuse, so take care. As always, sparknotes version and additions below

I LOVE your points about Andrew, I totally agree that once it’s established and he’s allowed, he’s very much a tactile person, he just needs to get there first 💕

We all know for obvious reasons that it never once crosses the prince’s mind for Abram to be anything more than a professional bodyguard, even if he does find him attractive. He’s very good at courtesy and polite distance. How I imagine this goes down in the timeline is this:

1) Nathaniel shows up at Palmetto and he’s never allowed close to important people. Certainly never allowed close enough to touch. Totally safe there. It doesn’t take him long to understand Day really won’t take advantage of him since he never did in Evermore either, so that’s safe. There’s not much else to worry about for that long stretch of time.

2) Nathaniel/Abram becomes the prince’s guard. There’s probably a little anxiety just because there’s plenty of opportunities for the prince to try something, but as time goes on and Andrew keeps the previously mentioned distance, even acting apathetic (as he does), Abram starts to assume that the prince is straight/doesn’t care. It wasn’t as if every single person in Evermore was trying to get at him. Just the ones that wanted to. Obviously, the prince doesn’t want to. It gets to the point that Abram feels comfortable and doesn’t try to constantly watch his own back when he’s on duty.

Then the prince, perhaps feeling a little bold or hopeful or just wanting to say something so he doesn’t keep feeling like he’ll explode, makes a single comment on Abram’s “pretty face”. Even something that could be brushed off as friendly jest, if he really wanted. But Abram completely freezes up. Andrew, of course, notices. He doesn’t try to ask about it then, but he definitely notices. But he assumes that Abram took it as the genuine compliment it was, and that Abram is entirely uninterested or even wary of those advances. So he makes no more comments, he leaves the entire concept as far away as he can get it.

Now that Abram knows the prince finds him pretty, he’s just waiting for Andrew to be the same as everyone else. He didn’t even directly answer to the nobles in Evermore and they were still so bold - but he’s Andrew’s servant in the most direct way, and Andrew is a prince. Surely the prince is even more entitled to him than they were. (When he realizes this is what’s happening, Andrew tells Abram in no unclear terms exactly what is and isn’t expected of him. It takes longer than that for Abram to shake the anxiety he grew up with, but at least after that he can start repeating the prince’s words to himself when he needs to.)

3) that’s cleared up well enough, but then (much, much later) the prince wants to court him. At first Abram can’t think much beyond “there’s no way this is real” but then the more he thinks about it, the more nervous he gets again. He doesn’t know Palmetto courting traditions, what if he’s expected to do something he isn’t ready for. What if now that he’s accepted the courtship he can’t tell Andrew no anymore. It wouldn’t be fair of him to, he thinks, he shouldn’t have agreed so quickly.

But there’s a time they’re out doing whatever courtship things (maybe another horse ride for funsies idk), Abram’s getting nervous about it again, and when Andrew asks for a kiss or to hold his hand, Abram doesn’t answer. He’s also a little confused when Andrew doesn’t just do it anyway, because he hadn’t said no, but Andrew is watching him in the way that usually means Abram is acting too much like he’s at Evermore again. He tells Abram, “Nothing’s changed. You can say no.” And Abram does immediately - not because he doesn’t want whatever he was offered but because he scared himself. Andrew’s still watching him. “Don’t forget that again,” he says. Abram takes a shaky breath. “Yes, prince.”

But as soon as Abram’s past that anxiety for the second and probably final time? Andrew is still as tactile a person as before and gods know Abram is touch starved to hell and back, he’ll take any kind words or touches he can possibly get and he craves them. Specifically from the prince. Who loves to give them.

I’d love to come back and make a fluff post specifically about that point in the timeline if we can collectively come up with enough ideas for said fluff 🥰 for now thanks again for the ask, swear to GOD we’re gonna get these idiots a happy ending, but I’m having way too much fun in the meantime 😂

#hand studies doubling as relevant art to post 🙏 #this was such a good point #your half delirious tired thoughts were INCREDIBLE #i didn’t get to the point about Abram thinking Andrew doesn’t actually like him because he won’t touch after they’re courting #but that can definitely be part of it #I just also think that past a certain point Andrew is asking every few days or frequently enough #that Abram realizes both that Andrew *does* want him like that #and that he really is allowed to refuse if he feels like it #based on the few times he does and Andrew moving on without further comment #very casual I feel like #idk I’m not making very much sense either in here #I wrote the post earlier than I’m adding tags #tag-writing emry has a headache 🥲 #ohhhh but if Andrew is asking and Abram never does…. #Andrew doesn’t wanna be pushy #that’ll be fluff that’s later #I need to be done here #fan art #my art #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #andrew minyard #andreil #royal au #my writing #asks

[rosebotrezi]

kidswaps that i'm making. dave plays the sims models them after his friends and mother and psychoanalyzes them and rose would have listened to 100 gecs if 100 gecs existed in 2009. thank you

#they are a rogue of time and prince of light respectively #technically rose's sprite is the equivalent of dave's scratched shirt sprite i just put it here because she looks cooler here #both of them have deep and intense Issues dave is a typical spoiled rich kid but also has attention issues and rose is intensely neurotic #dave's symbol is meant to be the side of a headphone but i couldn't really figure out how to do it and the last thing i tried looked vaguel #phallic which is kind of relevant but not exactly what i want. #i've made june harley but i'm not super happy with her so i'll probably post her with jade egbert. after making edits. if i get around to t #that #dave #rose #dave lalonde #rose strider #art tag #kidswap #rose lalonde #dave strider #rose is transfem by the way. by assignment from my friend. don't worry about it ❤

[atypi-cals]

The queer urge to go to pride vs the exhausted disabled apathy towards the event

#i know its going to overstimulating and physically exhausting and painful and loud #this is about autism and physical disability feel free to relate from either or both sides #we're both excluded as hell ESPECIALLY us level 2-3 autistics #autism #disability #physical disability #autistic #high support needs #higher support needs #autistic adult #lgbtq pride #lqbtq community #queer community #(tags for reach im not personally using them all to id myself tho theyre all relevent to a post abt my life yk) #(because when i talk abt inaccessibility at pride i want it to be seen yk) #viktor.exe #cass.exe

[leupagus]

So I'm sure there's different versions of this

But the one my cantor* told us when we were in Sunday School was this one:

Two rich men go to a cloth merchant's shop. This merchant is known for having beautiful silks, even though he has but a small humble store in the outskirts of town — so small that his infant son is sleeping on one of the chests!

These rich men want to buy these silks, so they demand to see them at once.

The merchant says, "I am sorry, they are not for sale today. Come back tomorrow and I would be happy to show them to you."

The rich men, knowing that this merchant is a Jew, think "ah-hah, he wants more money!" So they offer him a tremendous sum.

"I am sorry, they are not for sale today. Come back tomorrow, good sirs."

The rich men are puzzled, but they double their price. Quadruple it. Anything this merchant wants, they can give him.

"I am sorry, they are not for sale today. Come back tomorrow, if you please."

So, the rich men leave, annoyed, but they present themselves the very next day and sure enough, the merchant goes to a chest and pulls out the most beautiful silks that these rich men have ever seen. And when they offer to pay, he will only accept the price that he himself has deemed fair — many times less than even the first offer these rich men made.

"But why would you not give us these silks yesterday?" they ask, happy but baffled as they (or more probably their servants, but the cantor didn't get into that) pack up the silks to leave.

Just then, the merchant's wife comes in from the back, carrying their infant son. The merchant smiles and says, "Because my child was sleeping on that chest, and I did not wish to disturb his slumber. His peace is more precious to me than all the money you, good sirs, could ever provide."

#I am tagging this as #ted lasso #because I've been thinking about this parable in the context of Ted and Henry and Rebecca's offer #and I'll admit that this is an incredibly Watsonian interpretation of the text — treating Ted as a person rather than a character — #but I do think that it's relevant to how Ted thinks of Henry #as needing peace and rest and above all HIS FATHER #and how Ted coaching at Richmond would still be Ted very much absent from Henry's life #even if Henry and Michelle did move to London! #like yeah football coaches are usually dads and probably some of them are good dads! #but I don't think Ted thought he had it in him to do both #and I think the show REALLY fell down in not making that more clear #that he was choosing because there HAD TO BE a choice #I loved season 3 but I loved my interpretation of it — and the show did not do enough groundwork for pretty much anyone's interpretation #and that's a failure of the show's creators #(the people who claim that Flying dutchman was a rapist are a notable exception — in that case they are the ones at fault because WHAT THE #anyway #believe mothereffers #* to explain: my childhood temple was very #very #VERY poor #and could not afford a rabbi #and in the end we couldn't even afford a cantor #but man those songs were great

[luckycharms1701]

#sam and i are both writing #this just struck me as funny again because it’s relevant to what we’re both writing #talking tag #LMAO

[sihtriggyr]

If coming across or engaging with posts with an opinion that differs from your own in the HotD fandom (where there are two very distinct sides) has you feeling so strongly about it that you feel the need to go into the OP’s inbox to insult them and send hate- please reevaluate the amount of time you’re spending online and in this fandom and remove yourself from the space because it is not normal to behave in this way.

The block button (including for tags) exists for a reason.

#I’ve tagged both teams because I know this is happening and relevant in both spaces #house of the dragon #hotd #pro team black #team black #pro team green #team green

[ndostairlyrium]

We did it Carla, you got avenged!

#playing replaying #I always start with the northern hunter she's the least problematic dragon of the game for me lol #now let's pray for ankh's liver for a moment #she doesn't drink like at all #but I had to do the following cutscene with bull to celebrate it because if you don't drink you don't deserve closure with your companion #when it comes to something relevant for the both of you #I know it's not too deep and I'm totally projecting but #I don't think it's fair? I should be able to listen to him talk and sip some tea or whatever instead of having alcohol #'u don't wanna celebrate with alcohol? you're no fun go away' #wasn't bull one of the most understanding characters in the game tho lol #I guess we're drawing the line when it comes to alcohol #sry to those who read my tags I just found out and I had to vent for a moment lol

[bobombun]

Out of the Elder Scrolls games, I've played Morrowind, Oblivion, and Skyrim. And somehow only Morrowind truly captured me, and I've wondered why.

At first I thought maybe it was just the nostalgia, since I played it first, and started when I was, frankly, too young to really play it. That maybe it was just those fond memories.

But now I think it's probably the personality of the world. Let me explain.

Morrowind is a fantasy game, set in a fantasy world. You see that obviously from things like magic and gods existing, but also in the nature. The Telvanni mushroom houses, the floating jellyfish-like somewhat bug-like netch, the whale-like sounds making large insectoid silt striders... It all makes for a world that is so distinctively its own, you see a nix-hound anywhere and immediately think "ah, that's from Morrowind." I love that. It makes you want to explore, learn about this world with nature almost alien to ours, and it makes you feel like you truly are in a different land.

Oblivion and Skyrim on the other hand are let-downs in this aspect. Oblivion's nature looks like any other medieval fantasy world, and the most common enemy is wolves. Skyrim... if I wanted to talk to bearded blond dudes in the snow about whose land we're on, I'd just go outside. I live in Finland, I could go to the woods right now and find tracks of bears or wolves myself. Technically, that is. I do live in a city. But the point is, that's not exciting, that doesn't pull me into a magical adventure that I'll want to learn more about. It's just a field trip to a historical site where I larp as a viking.

Now granted, viking stories have just never appealed to me anyways, and Oblivion's basic European medieval fantasy land is probably easier for people to jump into than everything Morrowind has got going on.

But I adore a world that truly does feel different from ours. Please make me feel invested and curious in your world, please try something different. Thank you Morrowind, for having done that.

#tes #tes morrowind #i probably shouldn't tag the other games since this rant would show up in the tags of people who like the games #also something morrowind did is that now both my brother and i love bugs #it's not clear if it's because of morrowind or something else but i think morrowind definitely helped #but like man. I'm so curious about morrowind's everything! it captures me. top tier aesthetics right there #I'd love to meet like someone in-game who tries to categorise all the creatures or whatnot #tell me if the houses in ald'ruhn are made of chitin or what #I've also played ESO but i didn't think it was relevant for this

[flashhwing]

this is not a promise to publish because who even knows where my writing ability is rn but if I WERE to publish a fic about Warden Hawke during Awakening, should I tag it warden/anders or no? I would tag warden/morrigan since their romance is very much the like canonical warden romance in dao, just happens that hawke is the warden, but for Anders it feel like. disingenuous? despite being technically accurate

#these are in addition to hawke/anders and hawke/morrigan #also was thinking ‘no you can’t put morrigan in the ship tags when it’s a past relationship’ but a) she literally would be in the fic #(witch hunt would be a major plot point in the fic) #and b) her relationship with Hawke would be like. both extremely relevant and not quite ended yet? #and even where it leaves off in witch hunt is a little ambiguous #post dao warden hawke and morrigan is like. they’re not together but they’re not broken up either #if they meet again after witch hunt they could pick up where they left off #(assuming both morrigan and Anders are cool with sharing) #(which they would be because I’m the writer) #warden hawke au #this has been a post

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

there really needs to be a name for the trope where a piece of media makes a very obvious fantasy stand-in for an irl marginalized group--or just straight up people from an irl marginalized group--so they can conflate them with their oppressors, whether directly or with sly innuendo and imagery to evoke it. this is never used as an opportunity to explore lateral violence, let alone done so with sensitivity; it's bait dangled in front of an audience who's just aware enough of political movements, structures, and ideologies to go Ideology Very Bad and instantly shut off any examination of the messaging behind it.

(which is, often as not, either shifting the blame to marginalized people so the audience can hate demographics they're already comfortable with hating instead of grappling with the discomfort of real privilege being called out or held accountable, 'so the horrific and violent bigotry leveled at that group irl is totally justified and we should Do More of That Actually,' or both.)

like. i keep seeing this over and over and over. don't get me started on how SF/F media in particular seems completely unable to restrain itself from having at least one black character in a setting that breathes anywhere near fantasy racism say and do just the most ungodly racist shit ever. every time, jesus fuck, it's awful.

this trope is not at all limited to racism or antisemitism--it shows up for pretty much any marginalized group you can think of, BOY i have rants in me about a lot of portrayals of abuse survivors in various media i'm into--but it seems to pop up most blatantly and obviously for those. and fascism in general, which, i HIGHLY recommend these excellent essays for a more articulate and in-depth analysis of than i could give in a paragraph of one post. they're fantastic go read them and come back. especially the second one.

more specifically, it's a special favorite of these fucking people to evoke this with nazism. so the closest term i've got to what i'm describing is naziwashing, which i think is still useful as a descriptor of a subset of that phenomenon but again does not nearly cover all of it. so i'm a bit stumped.

#tagging #sdmi #mystery incorporated #scooby-doo mystery incorporated #professor pericles #in this one because i have OPINIONS about that in a reblog but this is a general trope thing and pericles is very much fandom-specific #i also want to be clear that this is not an invitation to bring Certain Current Issues into it on this post #they are in some ways very much relevant to this and a lot of other media crit i've talked about before; and maybe i'll discuss that someday #but there's a time and place and i am super not going to make that about fandoms right now #for now this specific trope has been on my mind a lot for years but especially since i started revisiting sdmi recently #and have finally been really registering the ways in which i am incredibly pissed off about how both the show and fandom treat him #anyway. #nazi mention cw #racism cw #antisemitism cw #anti-survivor mention cw #queerphobia cw #antiblack racism cw #the salt files #the crit files #sdmi tag

[thebaffledcaptain]

I’m going to sound like a filthy british bastard by saying this but one of the things I think turns me away from this heavily fandomized tumblrification of the american revolution is genuinely the lack of british perspectives. I obviously don’t fault tumblr for this being the case (it goes without saying that it is a far deeper issue than just that… cough cough american nationalism and exceptionalism and the effect that has on the media) but in spaces like this there really just isn’t… any nuance at all to this conflict which was so undeniably nuanced in so many ways. it’s all about gay founding fathers and cool spies which. I understand the appeal but at a certain point I’m genuinely not sure how much of it we can call history

#one of the reasons I don’t have qualms with amrev reenactment is because it was almost entirely a political conflict #you can make arguments for both sides #which is part of why I reenact british #but beyond my general interest in british military history that I don’t see here #amrev tumblr is just a standing testament to the way historical media has been americanized #I don’t particularly associate myself with either side of the war because of this nuance #I don’t feel like any of us are really in a relevant position #but it’s much deeper than ‘british bad america freedom’ etc etc #either way #daily reminder that i am a redcoat bastard #if only because it represents another perspective on this deeply nuanced period of history #there is way more to talk about here but I can’t keep doing it in the tags #amrev #I feel like I’m just the daily killjoy in the amrev tag sorry lmao #historyposting #this is your captain speaking #historyroasting #awi

[ojirocardigansniper]

ouguhhh just read the summary and article from this post about alexandre baril's work on suicidism (oppression of the suicidal) and the opening paragraph of the conclusion in the full article. thoughts. rotating

i was thinking about the. thick white gloves. while reading. remembered that one post about how csa being horrifically taboo to talk about compounds survivors' trauma and shame and went Maybe something similar re: suicidality and suicide... the suffering multiplied by the silence, the risk of dismissal or instant change in perception in anyone you tell... and even in 'mental health' spaces the perception that suicide as a topic is dangerous to talk about- that it could be triggering instantly and automatically- is like. i think there's some paternalism there and there's some shamefear and there's some oversimplification and there's the fact that it plays well into the existing well-taught impulse to avoid the discomforting. but like. this post also about how getting through suicidality is maybe only possible by considering the option thoroughly. i am just thinking. idk. yall know me yall know i think about this topic a lot

#chat #as someone who HAS mostly recovered from passive suicidality- mostly recognizes its suicidal intrusive thoughts as demands for life change- #im def one of the people who can be susceptible to recovery-only mindsets when like assisting or relating to suicidal people. so i need thi #me and one of our stranger sysmates (maze-body) were reading the article together and it kept standing against my reflexive questions + #discomforts because it understands suicidality as both an experiencer (in a weird way) and an already-dead thing; it could confidently- #dismiss my concerns as both fixable and less relevant than the experience and autonomy of the suicidal party. #its whole thing is being- not anti-recovery but like. unrecovered and incurable. which is a perspective we need to remember and have spoken #no matter how much harm reduction + barrier lowering + healing we go through. it as a frank eternality will still remain+need recognition. #its a weirdass way of coping with the inevitability of pain and suffering while not giving up on our locus of control but we're doing it ig #and i think theres a lot there you can relate 2 chronic/passive suicidality- just a companion no matter how much you make life worth living #whatever. anyway #suicide / #in case anyone has. tag blocking but not content blocking fsr

[tompettyscontroversiallyyounggf]

one thing i think it would be kind of nice for rpgs like bg3 to implement is like, a flavor thing where the companions you leave at camp get a little background banter when you come back to camp talking about some little exploration thing they did while you were gone. obviously it can't be consequential. but like. lae'zel could complain about how gale wouldn't budge from some crumbled old library they found in the grymforge all day. or wyll could talk about a brief skirmish he and the other campbound companions got into with whatever generic enemy npcs are relevant to the area while surveying just west of the camp or something.

like i just feel so bad leaving them behind lol. i want them to have a productive, busy day! but i also have to have someone who can pick locks, disarm traps, and not die immediately if we get ambushed, and ideally heal if necessary and that does limit who you can take in particular circumstances.

#i'm exploring the grymforge and i really want to take gale because i think he'd be kind of fascinated by the whole thing #also wyll bc the devil army stuff is relevant to his interests #but i have to have astarion because of the traps #i need someone with great perception and who can tank and karlach is the best of both worlds there #and shadowheart is relevant to both the story here and heals so like #i'm pretty much set in with this group #idk rpg woes as usual lol #coiffure texts #bg3 tag