#stop existing and start living

[isitjustangst]

Life really just hurts. Why is it so painful just to exist? How do people say “stop existing and start living” like I can even find my feet below me to take the first step there. One step at a time? I’m drowning. And I don’t know how to swim.

#drowning #stop existing and start living #but it’s a lie

[animatedtext]

requested by dreamingsolo 

#i want to stop existing and start living #gif #animatedtext #wordart #transparent #dreamingsolo

[femme-dor]

I see myself in a career where I attend all types of exclusive elegant events, network & befriend many important, influential people (not influencers) over wine and expensive plates, fly to major cities around the world & stay in luxury hotels, dress expensively, be involved in important executive meetings, and retiring to my house in the hills. 💖

#I don’t know what that career is #but I can’t stop thinking about this as my future #it excites me but I have no clue where to start #I’d I don’t even know what the job even is #I think it’d involve me living in Cali? #oof #luxury #black women in luxury #black femininity #high maintenance #queue are so beautiful to me #black girl luxury #luxurious black women #my thoughts #thoughts #desired reality #dream job #dream future #i claim it #speak it into existence

[muddlemore]

instead of supporting disney's latest cash grab can i suggest watching The 7D instead? it's a spinoff series that came out 9 years ago that disney cancelled prematurely during season 2. it's hilarious and well animated and some of the writers worked on Animaniacs so that's how you KNOW its good.

#u guys are gonna have to sit back for this cuz the 7d was my first tumblr fandom #snow white and the seven dwarfs #the 7d #when will the live action reboots stop bro come on #its actually amazing how disney finds ways to screw the 7d over tbh #like leaving them out of the anniversary tribute for starters. dont even get me started #thankful it exists online in good quality so we dont have to depend on disney+ ever deciding to acknowledge the series #actually for some reason its on the japanese disney+ but not american

[maranull]

greek far-right 🤝 greek communist party = opposing same sex marriage

this would be a comedy if I wasn't living here

edit: to be clear, the bill passed

#greece #sure this is a win politically #the issues are more cultural than political but whatever #the gays and lesbians and the bis can marry and adopt #(not trans folks though cause as everyone knows we don't exist in greece) #it's as if this bill is more to show how “progressive and modern” greece is and not actually about the queer people living here #folks will still be attacked (verbally and/or otherwise) in most areas but look we are progressive now 👍 #i'm sr i try to be positive but this is greece #maybe if cops now start stopping queer murders that are taking place right in front of them i might be more cheery #but i don't think that's gonna happen

[mayfieldss]

"There's a reason why Olivia got to perform on the main stage and Sabrina did not..." and there's a reason why you're still at fucking preschool. Grow up.

#stop pitting two bad bitches against each other #let them live and be hot and iconic without starting some non-existent beef ffs #fucking hell guys #eva rambles #olivia rodrigo #sabrina carpenter #vmas #vmas 2023

[batcavescolony]

I'm back talking about Harry Potter and Snape's worst memory because while I hate the author y'all bug me.

Snape worst memory isn't James bulling him or string him up in front of the school, (that was bad I'm not saying it wasn't) it was Lily ending her friendship with him because he called her a Mudblood. With evidence.

To prove my point we have to go read the Deathly Hallows when Snape gave Harry his memories! We get to see the scene again but this time the thing that sticks out the most is Snape calling Lily a Mudblood. Now if that's not enough proof the next memory goes like this.

*Outside Gryffindor Tower*

Snape: I'm sorry

Lily: I'm not interested

S: I'm sorry!

L: save your breath... I only came out here because Mary told me you were threatening to sleep here.

S: I was. I would have done. I never ment to call you a Mudblood it just-

L: Slipped out? It's too late. I've made excuses for you for years. None of my friends can understand why I even talk to you. You and your precious little Death Eater friends- you see, you don't even deny it! You don't even deny that's what you're all aiming to be! You can't wait to join You-Know-Who, can you? I can't pretend anymore. You've chosen your way, I've chosen mine.

S: No-listen, I didn't mean-

L:-to call me a Mudblood? But you call everyone of my birth Mudblood, Severus. Why should I be any different?

*Lily leaves. Memory ends*

The next memory is Snape becoming a turn coat for Dumbledore so he could keep Lily safe because Voldemort wouldn't spare her.

Snape has had worse experiences then a teenage James Potter being a bully (even if it was shitty). so we look at the rest of the memory and lo and behold what do we see? The actual worst moment of Snape life, the moment he lost Lily forever.

#I just saw someone say they hated Lily because he's was too hard on Severus all he did was call her a Mudblood. #Yeah just called her a slur...And found it funny when dark magic was used on someone. And joined a hate group that would kill her. #And would've let her child and husband die if it ment she lived. bffr 🙄 lets put this in real world terms! #you're a minority (pick one) and you go to a school but their are some people who hate you for existing. but its ok you've got your bff! #now years go by and bff is still your bff but theyve changed. they're hanging out with those aforementioned people who hate you for existin #and yeah you dont like it but they're your bff since for ever so you make excuses. but then bff starts calling people like you slurs... #now bff hasn't called you slurs so maybe its just peer pressure you let it slide its your bff. now you find out that not only are there #people who hate you for existing there is his hate group and they want you and people like you dead. obviously you dont like his. now bffs #friends they want to join this hate group... and bff doesn't deny it. ok thats not great. bffs friends who wanna join the hate group have #now moved passed just calling people like you slurs. they've went and beat the shit out of a person like you that you considered a friend. #and bff.... they say that it was just a joke. but are again not denying wanting to join the hate group that wants you dead. you love bff so #you just keep your mouth shut. now the day comes! bff has now called you a slur. and you cant make excuses anymore. they're just like their #friends and you cut your losses because again bff and their friends want to join a hate group that wants to kill you!!! #its not poor litte Severus its poor Lily. she thought she had a friend and HE betrayed HER! but but but why didnt she stop him from joining #she was a child! she was in a new world with no idea! she was in a whole nother house! and its not her fucking job to fix him! he joined th #hate group HE KNEW HATED HER! if he truly loved her he wouldn't have joined. but but but its not that- ADROMADA TONKS could be a Slytherin #and not be a Death Eater and her family was pure blood. she could do it! so could Snape. #severus snape #lily potter #snapes worst memory #the marauders #harry potter #the deathly hallows #lily evans #put some more respected on her name. #fuck jkr #james potter #slytherin #how can you be a snape stan and not like lily that 80% of his personality. #snape

[bylertruther]

some of you never grew up in a small conservative town as a (gay) nerd that was bullied, harassed, and excluded for years on end for not fitting in and for visibly and enthusiastically liking geek things—geek things that then branded you a satanist in everyone's eyes and as something Other, Lesser, and Undoubtedly Unworthy of Basic Human Decency even though you were literally just an actual child with harmless interests and not a satanist or an evil disgusting subhuman thing, and it shows.

you cannot apply modern views and beliefs to a show that is set in the eighties, especially not when it's set in conservative midwest eighties which is a whole other beast. being a socially awkward and nonconforming geek is something that people STILL get bullied for if you don't do it in a way that the majority deems "acceptable", especially if you live in a conservative, religious area.

your experiences are not universal and your inability to relate to a certain motif or story does not make it "lesser" or "bad writing."

#stranger things #mike wheeler #<- tagging and then disappearing into the mist again bc i don't like it here lol. #girls when they love stranger things because they finally see characters just like them with the same exact experiences written with such #care and respect for those that have been Deemed Other but people who have not had those experiences refuse to believe that they're #realistic and STILL happen to people bc if they're fortunate to have not gone through that then clearly that means that it doesn't exist #and if it does then it's not Traumatic Enough or a good enough plot to cause such inner turmoil in the characters who experience that #💥🛼 #i got bullied for being a nerd in the 2000s and 2010s. you can absolutely get bullied for being a nerd and being a nerd is enough reason #for social exile in some places. when dustin said that no one was nice to him or mike? when lucas said that girls laughed at them? and it's #all because they're deemed freaks and satanists for liking fantasy things? that's Real and it doesn't hurt any less just because you think #it's not a good enough reason to bully someone. #i was called a satanist to my face by adults. people acted like i was some Creature or whatever just because i liked fiction and wasn't #interested in what the majority was interested in and wore dark clothing sometimes. like.. hello. school shooter jokes? the way #that neurodivergent people get treated when they're visibly ''different'' and enjoy things passionately? the way that liking star wars was #a thing to ridicule until it suddenly became Acceptable and Popular to like? i feel like i'm living in a different reality than so many #people here with the way that they talk about certain things in this show. and don't even get me started on the way people approached #the angela and el situation.... #maybe just be glad that these things did not happen to you and stop acting like it's lesser or a bad story bc of that? just a thought.

[qsmprambling]

I was starting to write an essay but long story short:

The safety systems currently in place for the Eggs were created in response to the injury, threat-to, and death of previous eggs, and none of the current islanders will every quite be able to understand the old islanders fears/concerns.

#They don't worry about the Federation stealing their children in the night and returning them broken and terrified #They don't worry about the code flying in out of nowhere to kill their kid #They don't worry that another player would intentionally try to hurt or even kill their kids #And they don't know that all the safety systems they have are built on the suffering and death of the original eggs #Roier and Bad started babysitting because of the neglected eggs who lost lives #The no slashing weapons rule existed because of what happened to Tilin and Juanaflippa (before Etoiles found the bug) #NINHO exists because of the code attacks #the Sharestones were discovered and Dapper's Subway and the emergency exp exist because of Bobby's death #just #sometimes I see later players making comments about the older players'' fears and I get defensive oops XD #also wasn't it cellbit who made a comment when watching the recaps something like 'That death counted? They didn't reverse it?' #nope... it didn't matter that they didn't know the command to pick Ramon up #or that Bobby and Leo were attacked while their parents were afk #or that Tilin and Juanaflippa died to a bug #Dapper's and Tallulah's first death's were completely unwinnable fights - there was nothing Phil or Bad could do #because the plot demanded they die - so they were attacked until they did #aaack I am going to stop #2am rambling

[welcometoteyvat]

xingyunners on twt getting surprisingly pressed at a non-xingqiu chongyun ship what's new

#open at will: hater behavior #half joking but not ^_^ xy the bane of my existence sorry #me: finally? a probably impossible but also potentially healthy ship for my boy?? #twitter: #like okkkkkkkkkkk idk what universe you're living in but my xq is a bully and a silly little devil of a friend #ship is - 100/10. chongming exists so that people can stop dragging xq w cy and start opening their eyes to ht xq instead #ramblings! #this post doesn't convey the full extent of annoyance i'm feeling but oh well! some thoughts are better not to say out loud :)

[starrbar]

bro if u think fantasizing about taking advantage of/hurting vunerable people (minors for example) doesnt make u a potentially dangerous person then u need help. and this doesnt apply to people whose invasive/intrusive thoughts involve those things, this applies to people who call it their ""kink."" those people are dangerous. not "omg i cant stand to breathe the same air as them" dangerous because thats silly? theyre just fucked up people who no one wants to be associated with. thats it. lol.

Nah, don't pretend that isn't the attitude all you people have. :) I've seen it WAY too many times.

Here's a tame example that DOESN'T include death threats, suicide baiting, telling people they deserved their abuse, etc. But you're welcome to browse my ever-growing catalogue of totally "normal" behaviors that people justify because of rhetoric EXACTLY like yours.

I've already written extensively about the reasons you're fucking wrong, so feel free to read those if you're so convinced that I'm dangerous for fantasizing about BEING THE ONE taken advantage of as a green cartoon creature. (I personally like this post of mine, as well as this one. Or, again, you can skip over me and just go research it yourself.)

Educate yourself before you come over here and tout as fact your headcanons about what you think other people have in their hearts. <3

(Disclaimer: All links lead to either Twitter, Tumblr, or a Carrd page with further sources.)

#answering asks #doveshell #proship #anti harassment #literally so done with these people #I'm done justifying my existence to strangers who think they know me lol #you don't know shit #and your take goes against professionals who've dedicated their lives to this but y'all don't care #you never do #if you're “different” than the rest of the control freaks I'll wait #I doubt it #was I bad faith in this response? mmm yeah kinda #generalizing people's opinions isn't usually my thing #but I'm SO tired of this #literally last time I tried to give someone a chance they started victim blaming someone at me and making wild assumptions about my intent #so ya know what take what you dish out #if you're not who I assume you are then it's on you at this point #you blend in perfectly with the rest of them #so if you want to do good then do it #don't let me stop you #realworldblues #anti vs. pro stuff #starrspeaks #my ask tag is not consistent at all RIP

[sso-montana]

ok so I know most peole usually have characters from shows and books that kinda influence their oc which I've been trying to figure out what characters influenced Montana and none of the shows that I watched really fit the bill

and now while looking for songs bc moodboard posts I went through my playlists I made when I was 14 (bad idea I know) and realized she isn't influenced by characters that I liked BUT INSTEAD by my music taste

because that bitch is SO Against The Current and Icon For Hire coded it's not even funny so uh yeah

what kind of music genre/artist/band influenced your oc's

#sso #ssoblr #sso oc #montana opalheart #mo talks shit #listen I needed a depressing song for once of the boards and that playlist had a lot of them #I reaaaaaally wasn't in a good mental space back then huh #the songs still slap tho and I will start listening to them again #only reason I stopped is because I tend to focus on a bunch of songs and forget others also exist #but yeah if montana was a band vibe it would be Against the Current #which I'm going to see the first time live this year 13 year old me is SCREAMING AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #it's also my first concert ever so yay

[dearjeonnn]

I WANT TO LIVE!!!!!!!

i want to stop being plagued by worry and anxiety and memories and fear I WANT TO LET GO!!! this world is so wide and so vast i have so much to do, so much to see, i’m overwhelmed with experiences i have yet to have. i want to make memories with people i love and forget the painful times of my past. i want to be confident enough of myself to forgive those who hurt me and those who have yet to. i want to stop existing and start LIVING. i want to be so incredibly in love with being alive that i never return to my self destructive ways. i want to be kind. so incredibly kind that it radiates off of me and inspires people to be their best selves. i want to mean something to someone. I WANT TO MEAN SOMETHING TO MYSELF! I WANT TO LOVE MYSELF! I AM SO YOUNG AND I HAVE SO MUCH TIME! I CAN LEARN TO LIVE!!!!!

#quotes #slow living #i want to live #recovery #im learning #to live for the hope of it all #hope #memories #stop existing #start living #quoteoftheday #incorrect quote #this is my first post #i’m scared #i have time

[frecklystars]

oh my god i love being triggered at 3:29am on a monday ten minutes after jolting awake from a horrific nightmare

#ive been either not sleeping at all. or sleeping for only 2 hours a night #for several nights in a row and i can feel it making my body deteriorate #my chest hurts. my eyes burn. im always lightheaded. i really hate living like this #im never going to recover man it just doesnt stop. this never ends #its been over a year i thought this would be so far away from me but it just gets fucking worse #i remember sitting on my bathroom floor and crying when my ptsd was starting #and i was telling myself. one year from now this isnt going to hurt as bad #i was so fucking wrong. it got worse. i cant look at *anything* TF related #i cant look at TF artists i cant even look at the word half the time #i wish it didnt exist i wish i never ever got into it. none of this was worth it #if i never got into it i never would have met my abuser and she wouldnt have used me for such a long ass time #vent #delete later

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hhhhh i just wanna lay in bed watching movies all day. i need some sort of wizard to turn me into a salamander so i dont have to do my job #it takes me all day to relax and for what? its Sunday and i have to grade at e #least 45 lab reports and make a presentation about photosynthesis so i can teach tomorrow so that i can barely tread water #im so behind on grading. and thats not to mention all the other bullshit i should b doing. ugh. i just wanna not do anything #i got covid vaccinated yesterday so im kinda exhausted on top of preexisting exhaustion. anf i would like my problems to stop existing #also i forgot how annoying it is to live in a place with mice. like stop scurrying around in my walls! stop trying to make mouse holes #dont make me murder u bc i will. ill buy mouse traps and thdn youll b sorry #but id rather not do that bc itll b annoying to check the traps and dispose of the bodies. bleh #i just wanna watch surreal movies abt self destruction and cosmic horror #so annihilation and maybe sunshine bc i havent watched it and oh god whats that polish movie uuuuuh #i can't remember. it starts with s i think but all i can think is susperia which is not correct. solaris? i cant remember if i watched #it or just read thr book. idk i like surreal slightly pretentious movies. under the skin is another i lov #god. i dont wanna get up. i still only got 7hrs sleep. i just wanna lay here and decompose #fuck. i have so much to write for Wednesday. and i think i have to share a paper Friday. fuck. #unrelated

[silbeni]

Brewing an alt timeline w Ryoma in the Rohan live action

#idek if duwang gang exists in that universe even so #its a lot more ryohan focused #in da lore Ryohan gets art block and starts to live in squalor #izumi visits him and shes like damn you live like this and either she sends a house keepers or he does #he gets a list of candidates and Ryoma is in that list #shes notably less qualified than anyone else and she got there by recommendation #blah blah blah Rohan starts interviewing the potential housekeepers and he doesnt like any of them until ryoma #Rohan tries to read Ryoma but it activates gadzooks and starts making him into tape instead #eventually Ryo gets gadzooks to stop and theyre super apologetic #but Rohans like. THIS IS THE ONE (thinking he can get inspiration from them) #i believe thus spoke rohan kishibe rohan (live action) doesn't knows about other stand users #so this would be exciting for him. ryoma would be so confused to be accepted but thankful bc they really needed that job #their relationship starts out distant and professional but morphs into something more casual as time goes on #to the point ryoma is essentially just being paid to be his friend skabs they still try to do work but he doesn't require that of them #ryoma feels bad not working.. like shes just being a leech #around this time ryoma gets upgraded to working 24/7 there so they basically live together #rahh im just thinking of cute stuff now <3 Rohan gets sick and hes a huge drama queen about it. ryoma doesn't mind pampering him though #but of course there are also evils. thinking of an episode plot where a creature attached like. a time bomb to Ryoma. paranormal stuff #saw trap ish? blow yourself up or i explode all of morioh type thing. (or wherever the heck they live) #not sure if rohan lives in morioh in that universe yeah #Anyway gn