don't you love when you're like, okay now I'm going to leave this sorrow in the old year so I don't turn into a crotchety bitter person over it, and then you walk on feeling all refreshed and bright no longer carrying it on your shoulders, but then the sorrow wanders after you like a child who was lost in the supermarket weeping its eyes out and it says to you where did you GO I was lost! I was lost and I missed you!!! and you can only sigh and take it by its hand and say to it very well. here's your seat. I'm sorry I left you behind, I promise it was with the best of intentions, but I want to do my best by you, so let's sit together and try to figure out what you're saying to me.
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Thank you for the tag @tonguetyd! My spoons are indeed low but my sleep schedule is GONE so. Random burst of energy let's go.
I didn't know what artist to pick because I didn't want an obvious (?) one, so I'm going super niche and choosing Bright Eyes because it's been a minute since I've talked about them, and they're one of my favourites 💙
Artist: Bright Eyes
How do you feel: Nothing Gets Crossed Out
What is your gender: Bowl Of Oranges (obviously funny but also it's a beautiful song! poetic storytelling!)
If you could go anywhere: Lua
Favorite mode of transportation: Driving Fast Through A Big City At Night (yes that is the title)
Your best friend: First Day Of My Life 🥹
Favorite time of day: Sunrise, Sunset
If your life was a tv show: A Line Allows Progress, A Circle Does Not
Relationship status: I Won't Ever Be Happy Again 🥲
Your fear: Waste Of Paint
Idk who made this or not so I'm tagging randomly, no pressure to do this whatsoever! @dearscone @corviisquire @hookedhobbies @politemagic (hi!) @leonsleftbicep @melit0n
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oh there's something particularly painful about my mister in that dong hoon tells ji an that as long as no one knows, it's no big deal, and there's something particularly painful about how ji an tells dong hoon that sometimes, i want [my secret] to play out on big screens for everyone to see, and there's something particularly painful about how the second dong hoon meets the loan shark tormenting ji an, he starts screaming and yelling about how she's just a kid, how could you do that to a kid, and there's something particularly painful about how dong hoon doesn't even let ji an know he did that, but ji an knows. she knows because she was listening in the entire time and she just starts crying because someone actually knows this ugly, sad part of her and still took her side, and something particularly painful about how my mister started with as long as no one knows, it's no big deal but really concludes with there is so much risk in having someone know who you are but there's also so much comfort and peace to be found in that, too and maybe you shouldn't isolate yourself and maybe you should reach for that kind of comfort in being known and loved anyways
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Okay but like - Nicky Hayden is so - I don't know, exceptionally to me.
Because I was 12 when he died and at that point I knew nothing about motogp. I didn't even know motogp existed because my family wasn't into racing beside the occasional f1 race.
But on a random Tuesday morning I heard about a former motogp rider and the 2006 champions that had died the day prior after 5 days of fighting his injuries. I remember sitting in the bus listening to the drivers radio because I had left my headphones at home, thinking about the news.
I've always knew a little bit about f1. The 2012 Vettel title. Nico Rosberg winning the 2016 title. The sky accident of Michael Schumacher. Those were event you couldn't not learn about in my home country. But MotoGP was never in the news. I was sad that the "Kentucky kid" seemed to be only worth mentioning to the media when he passed.
So the memory of Nicky Hayden got burried in my mind. And when I started discovering the wonderful world of motogp I read the name and it felt weirdly familiar. And I remembered that moment. Now I feel like he's smiling at me in my memories cause I finally got to know the story of the man that passed away 7 years ago in Italy and I can finally say 'I know who you were. We won't forget you.'
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I wish I could go back and tell younger me that I would in fact find that place one day full of people that I adore deeply and who I know love me in return. Who make me feel wanted and cared for and appreciated in a way I never thought would be possible. And none of it required hiding, or forcing myself to be a person I’m not. And I still have that space even though I’m aroace.
For the first time ever, I see a future where I’m not alone. And I wish I could go back and tell my younger self it would happen. It’s possible to not be constantly lonely.
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Did you break but never mend?
Did it hurt so much~
you thought it was the end?
Lose your heart, but don't know when~
And no one cares,
there's no one there~
But did you see the flares in the sky?
Were you blinded by the light?
Did you feel the smoke in your eyes?
Did you see the sparks filled with hope?
You are not alone~
'Cause someone's out there,
sending out flares~
Kyle Crane, the man who saved my life.
I’ve been looking for an artist to bring this to life for me for years. Then @drawinglinestoconstellations happened. And I found peace.
During my darkest time, playing Dying Light kept me going. Which is why I’ve got the whole Kyle saved my itsy bitsy life thing everywhere. And, back then, there was one particular song that I’d listen to a lot while in the slums and Old Town: Flares by The Script. It became all tangled up with Kyle in my head and ever since I’ve wanted THIS. Now I got THIS. Thanks to @drawinglinestoconstellations. I’m very. Very. Grateful.
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