#so much time and effort goes into it too like i cant be bothered LMAO

[maplecornia]

was also thinking of redecorating this blog but I feel like I'm too lazy for that...

#maple 🍁 #maple speaks #so much time and effort goes into it too like i cant be bothered LMAO

[kleinstar]

Plotter

been planning on doing since like ...... before last event started which is the main reason i originally postponed this, another is just that brain empty

but yeaaah the usual stuff: if you like this i have a permission to bother you (if i manage whelp im on some social recline lately) in DMs or wherever etc, also i can send you meems as well as bother you during events for some plotting...

as for what relationships i have to offer .... under cut, we can even go pre-estabsh if you like and stufffs (idk when ill contact)

FRIENDS / REALLY GOOD FRIENDS / SMTH ELSE ALONG THE LINES - is what it sounds! eiden's not a hard guy to befriend he's happy to bother you (to the point of nuisance? depends a bit...) He's happy to offer advice, happy to support even total strangers... really he's a guy that loves to do stuff for people from the bottom of his heart! this is true even if your character's a little on questionable moral side (like at reasonable amounts, depends whether you want to keep it lighthearted or not).... he's not a TOTAL pushover but he's also very much a people pleaser -- on the flipside he CAN in fact be a menace himself! Lighthearted pranks and all (he feels bad if he goes too far lol)... - generally though they'll just do with what friends would do !

BUSINESS ASSOCIATES - idk like whatever stuff business you would have with adult toy store but lol well you can always just be material supplier etc. but anything else goes too

COWORKER - he's got adult toy business (eidensspot is the url im too lazy to link) and well, he'd be your boss?

SOME SMALLTIME GIG THING? - you manage to get eiden roped into any job you can think of

FOES?? / ANTAGONISTIC ?? - its less that he would just trust anyone but more just... due to wanting to see things from all sides eiden might give people a little too much leeway sometimes so it can make him easy to screw over (but he wont give people endless chances either tho lol). it takes A Lot from him to dislike person but like if you treat him like dirt he'll have some problems lmaoo. guiltrip, gaslight, manipulate.... whatever works.

IT'S COMPLICATED/LETS TAKE SOME TIME - maybe you just start a little bad and so they have to make some real effort for them to understand each other? eiden might be willing to work it out with even more difficult people. He's very like to try to seek compromises and so on but there's just something that doesn't sit right with either of them... Maybe they just end up kind of arguing when they meet, etc.... things like that. this can be kind of on antagonisic side too ? but for some reason there is this will to work whatever this is out!

MENTORS/CONFIDANTS - Eiden is yours or you're eiden's! In whatever? Eiden's usually pretty put together but it'd be fun to have those people that will kind of challenge him sometimes too, in ...whatever? (ofc friends can be this too lmao but yknow like primary purpose...thing? idk how to put this) Take that more serious side out of him sometimes!

YOU KNOW SOMEONE HE KNOWS AND SOMETHINGS UP or uh something like that? maybe nothings up at all - like... self explanatory? common ground i guess! eiden's great mediator too if needed (tho you can also accidentally end up relying him too much if you like???? or something like that) and so on, self-explanatory enough

SPICY - i cant believe i almost forgot this, we can have it be pre-estabsh or not?

SOMETHING ELSE??? - not here? tell me! maybe its a mix of things ?

#isola rp ad #might as well make this permanent plotter

[elysianslove]

the little things ; haikyuu boys

synopsis; the little things he does that show just how much he loves you

pairings; karasuno x reader, aoba johsai x reader, fukurodani x reader, nekoma x reader, shiratorizawa x reader

genre; fluff

warnings; will make u hate being single <3

karasuno ━━

sugawara koshi; whenever your hair gets caught in anything, he’s so gentle yet quick at fixing it. if your hair is long, and you pull a bag or a shirt and your hair gets tucked in, he’ll wordlessly pull it out. if your hair is short and a bracelet or zipper gets caught he just continues whatever he was doing (talking to someone else for e.g.) while helping you out. also always makes sure your hair isn’t bothering you; if you’re leaning over writing something, he’ll always tuck it behind your ear so lovingly ahhh

daichi sawamura; massages. he’s descended from heaven for this purpose only. his hands are rough and like hard on your muscles, but it’s so perfect. he’ll approach you when you’re in school sitting anywhere, from behind, and just knead his hands into your muscles for a few seconds. euphoric. or if you live together, he always greets you with back/shoulder/neck massages in the bathtub hvjkwkd.

nishinoya yuu; always makes you try his food. always. whether it’s with a group of people or just you two, he just goes “hey babe open ur mouth” with this face 😏 bc he’s cheeky, and just shoves a mouthful of food. spoiler alert, it’s always way too hot. but it’s just tradition at this point. he takes a bite of his food, decides if it’s worthy enough for your mouth or not, then just. yeah.

kageyama tobio; buys you a snack whenever he gets his milk. if you’re special special, he’ll buy you your own carton of milk. he goes up to the vending machine and automatically thinks of you when he sees your fave snack, and it’s like mindless at this point he just routinely does it. it still surprises you to this day, even when he’s so nonchalant about it.

tsukishima kei; kisses your forehead. tsukki is not too big on pda, and even privately he’s not very touchy feely either tbh. but just a simple peck on your forehead grounds you, and it’s a small reminder of the fact that despite his outward coldness, he really does love you. he rarely does it in front of others, but sometimes, he’ll indulge both you and him, and settle a small kiss on your temple just randomly.

asahi azumane; anime jesus always has a hair tie/clip carried around for you on his wrist/in his pockets. i mean he’s always needing them, he just stocks up when he starts dating you. somehow he’s always there when you’re frustrated with your hair all over the place what a savior. later on it evolves to him carrying around your scrunchie and yes the boys make fun yes he blushes but no he does not take it off.

tanaka ryunosuke; carries you on his back, or your things, when you’re too tired to walk. whether that be if you’re too tired because of your heels or you’re just lazy, he just loves helping you out what a respectful gentleman. honestly it just becomes that every time he sees you he like barricades over to you so quick and flips you onto his shoulder or spins you around. anyways. walking with tanaka means walking empty handed bc he will never let you carry anything. ( shifts pile of bags on one arm just to hold your hand ).

hinata shoyo; learns hairstyles to try on you. whether it be short hair or long hair, expect his youtube search history to look a lot like “how to make a french braid” or “cute hairstyles for short hair for your cute girlfriend”. he’s always so entranced by you and watches so carefully whenever you do anything on your hair, and he gets do excited whenever you let him try and he gets it right. also !!! a lot of the times you’ll sit between his legs and he’ll just softly card his fingers through your hair or lightly braid it.

yamaguchi tadashi; buys you flowers a lot. he doesn’t overdo it, just so it doesn’t lose its value and worth. but for example, mondays suck ass and he knows how much you hate them, so he always makes sure to either leave a single rose on your desk/in your locker or give it to you himself if he can. it’s so endearing and motivating honestly, and the constant reminder every once in a while is so cute. continues to do it even like 3 years in, which is so fkn sweet honestly.

nekoma ━━

kuroo tetsurō; plans the best dates. seriously. like not one moment spent with him is dull. i don’t think being with kuroo entails a high energy relationship, i just mean that even a walk in the park is fun with him. he also always knows when to plan a fancy dinner and when it’s just something casual. like he always puts in so much effort, gives 120%, for every date with you. is your favorite band/singer/artist in town? he’s got tickets. the weather is amazing? you’re going to the beach. you’re sleep deprived? nap dates. 10/10

kozume kenma; he teaches you how to play his games. the fact that he’s letting you touch the console in itself says enough, but whenever he buys a new one, and learns it thoroughly enough, he will always sit by you and teach you its ways. picture you sitting in his lap while he guides your hands <333 if you’re not a gamer, he’s actually v flattered by the fact you’re willing to sit through this w him. but if you are a gamer, expect daily competitions. oh and if you beat him? you’re dead to him :).

haiba lev; instead of reaching for things that you’re too short for to grab it himself, he just lifts you up lmfao. i mean w the way he teases yaku, i can imagine he’d be v teasing with you as well if you’re even an inch shorter than him. but fret not! it’s all in the name of love. he’s very loving though, and if he sees you struggling he’ll just wordlessly hoist you up from your waist or something. at first it’s terrifying, but later on it just makes you giggle cause he’s like so willing to do it and it’s effortless for him hehe.

yaku morisuke; always makes sure you’re taking care of yourself, but kinda aggressively? lmao anyways. like he’s always “babe have u eaten” and if u say no expect him to start yelling like “what do you mean no??? are you insane???” v dramatic but honestly <333 he’s always texting you after parting ways “did you get home safe” or on weekends where he cant meet you, he’s asking how it was, if you indulged yourself a bit, relaxed. it’s very sweet and he makes sure it’s not overbearing. he just wants his baby to be healthy and happy.

yamamoto taketora; walks on the side with the cars. it’s not a very noticeable thing, but you see it, and you recognize it. he makes sure he’s always walking where cars are speeding by, a hand on the small of your back guiding you away and to the other side of him. it’s the little notions of protectiveness like if he’s driving and stops suddenly, he’ll put a hand out to keep you from lurching forward, he pushes you gently out of the way before you bump into someone. things like that.

aoba johsai ━━

oikawa tōru; he doodles in your notebooks, or on your skin. if you have class with him, and sit next to him, he’ll always be doodling on your notebook like little hearts or stupid, cute things like your initials + his in a heart. or if you’re at a study date together, and you’re focused on your laptop screen, he’ll leave little encouraging messages on your notes for you to notice when you’re revising. sometimes you’ll be sitting with him at lunch or even if you’re out w him and a bunch of other people, and he happens to have a pen. expect a little smiley face on your inner wrist, or a heart plus his initials ( o.t. )

iwaizumi hajime; he helps you take off your make up/takes it off for you. if you’re too sleepy, he’ll just take the products he’s used to seeing you use and start following it step by step after he props you up next to the sink. while he stands between your thighs he just so gently starts rubbing at your skin and washing away the make up. if you’re already asleep, he’ll have to like google the steps oh my god im gonna cry hes so cute. if you don’t necessarily wear make up, then he’ll just help you do your nightly routine, or even your shower routine, like using a body scrub or a face mask or, bruh, even shaving lmfao.

hanamaki takahiro; saves everything you buy/send/make him. i mean everything. has literally over two thousand photos of you, all the polaroids or postcards are saved in a little box he has under his bed. anything you make him (unless it’s edible) he has. if you make him a small embroidery thing he will literally attach it to his sports bag or something. any chain you make him is automatically added to his keychain. that flower crown you made with him on one of your first dates? he still has it. the flowers are dead but the memory loves babyyyy

matsukawa issei; carries extra clothes of his for you to borrow. hey have i mentioned that mattsun is big? 😃 because he is 😃. meaning regardless of your size or height or whatever, his clothes will drown you <3 i see him as preferring more oversized or just loose shirts rather than tight ones, so yk. on you???? if y’all are just hanging out and you even think about being slightly cold — here have five options of mattsun’s clothes to choose from. he always makes sure they smell like him too. it’s self indulgent really, because he loves the way they look on you, and he loves that it leaves a trace of his scent on you. territorial? i think yes.

fukurodani ━━

bokuto kōtarō; always hugs you like it’s the last time he’ll see you. sometimes, even if he doesn’t know it, you need his hugs badly. y’all are gonna try and tell me bokuto doesn’t give the best fkn hugs??? yeah get outta here with that bs. he SO does. he either kneels down and wraps his arms around your waist, picks you up, and spins you around, like he hasn’t seen you in 3 years, or he’ll just wrap his arms around your neck and pull your head to his chest, cradling it, and just sighing like he won’t see you for the next 3 years. his hugs always make you feel so much better, even if you weren’t feeling down to begin with.  

akaashi keiji; plays with your hands and caresses them. it’s the delicate feel and gentleness of it all. akaashi’s generally an anxious person, leaving him very fidgety. but once you two get together, and he starts being comfortable with you, expect to find your hand always between the two of his, just fondling with him. he’ll trace random figurines on the back of your hand, or have his fingers ghost over your wrist and up to your fingertips. if his hands are especially shaky, expect him to just grab one of your yours and hold it tightly between the grasp of two of his. it conveys trust, and all you have to do is kiss his knuckles gently and he’s melting.

konoha akinori; he has your reminders app linked with his, and sneaks in small, motivating messages. every once in a while you’ll get a notification from the app that tells you to drink water or have a snack (or text konoha he’s bored and he misses you). also always sends you pictures to distract you from stress. like it could literally just be a picture of him smiling with a thumbs up and you’d just ,,, melt bc you love him so much.

shiratorizawa ━━

ushijima wakatoshi; he has so many plants that are named after you, or your nicknames, and he’s like so gentle with them too. like strokes their petals and speaks to them so softly, the same way he does with you. you’re honestly so curious how he hasn’t run out of names, but he’s just a genius like that. whenever you go over to his place, and he’s bought a new one, he’ll take your hand and guide you to where it’s growing and just be like “look it’s baby y/n” and you just 🥺🥺🥺

semi eita; he has a playlist on his phone, that’s constantly being updated, for you and him to listen to. the first time he showed it to you, you were stargazing and he took out his phone and headphones and was like “i made a playlist for you wanna list” and every part of your body lit up in flames im not joking. now, a lot of the times, you’re coming back home on a train, and your head is on his shoulder and you’re sharing headphones listening to the playlist. when either one of you is driving you’re blasting it (a lot of the playlist is the hsm soundtrack)

satori tendō; tendo reads people so well, and being in a relationship with him means he will read you so well. so a lot of the times, in social situations, he’ll recognize the signs of you wanting to leave, for example, or if someone’s bothering you, he’ll know exactly how to approach it too. this also entails having a lotta inside jokes hehe, and also just like. talking with your eyes. yk that thing. yeah. all you have to do is look at him a certain way, and he just knows exactly what you just said.

goshiki tsutomu; he buys the both of you this small plushie, and whenever you’re missing each other you just. squish it. and he squishes his. he would rather die than let anyone know this, but you’re not too keen on letting anyone know yourself tbh. it’s just this little thing you have, and it means a lot more to you than just this. when he first bought it he was like “look we have matching plushies” and you passed away on the spot ❤️

shirabu kenjirō; loves trying out new recipes with you. he’s not too big on cooking or baking, but there’s just something about doing it with you that really — hits the spot yk. nowadays, whenever he comes across a new recipe on social media that he thinks you’ll like he just automatically sends it to you like with no words no texts just the post and you’re like “OMG CAN WE DO THIS” and he’s like “why else would i send it. yes we can :)” hvskwkeke

end note;  thank you sm for the love on my last two posts!! i’m glad you guys enjoyed them sm. if you have any requests, they’re open and i’m happy to deliver, mwah!

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[retroaria]

Sapnap: Fluff Alphabet

cc!Sapnap x reader

pronouns: gender neutral

warnings: just swearing

here’s my 500 Follower Event ^o^

A is for Affection (How do they like to show affection?)

sapnap would give you so many compliments omg. he loves making you all smiley and blushy :) he just wants to make sure that you are always aware of the fact that he thinks you’re the most perfect thing to ever exist

B is for Bond (What kind of bond do you guys have? What could your relationship be labeled as?)

the best friend couple!!! sapnap tells you literally everything. any drama going on or any strong emotions he’s feeling, you know about it. most of the time, the second something happens his brain immediately goes “omg i have to tell y/n”. you guys always complain about the same things and get excited over the same things. you are genuinely one of the most important people in his life and he doesn’t know how he’d do it without you.

C is for Comfort (How do they comfort their s/o?)

he will literally drop everything just to hold you and not speak for like hours if you so needed. he strikes me as a naturally comforting person to the people he really cares about so I say he gets an A+ in this department

D is for Dates (What are dates with them like?)

dates with sapnap are either really chill or super fun. he’s the type of guy that would take you to play laser tag or to an arcade or a trampoline park. he’s like a little kid i love sapnap :3

E is for Emotions (How do they express their emotions around you?)

he’s a pretty expressive person when it comes to certain things. at the very least he definitely wears his heart on his sleeve a little so it isn’t hard to tell even if he does try hiding stuff. and like I said he tells you everything.

F is for Fiancé (How long into the relationship before they propose?)

I feel like he’s so young and he really just wouldn’t be thinking about that too seriously for awhile. like he loves you and you guys have talked about having a future together but he isn’t in any rush at all. hell just do it when he feels is the right time not matter how long it takes.

G is for Gentle (Are they gentle?)

it depends on the situation. he’s definitely the type of guy to pick you up from a super comfy position and just body slam you on the bed. but if he can tell you’re not in the mood to play around like that he’ll just sit down and hold you, so yeah he can be gentle. but most of the time be prepared for playful fist fights and getting picked up and thrown every now and then lol.

H is for Hand Holding (How do they like hand holding?)

sapnap always holds your hand. in fact he makes an effort to search for it whenever you aren’t holding hands. and sometimes he’ll even get whiny about it especially with like a lot of people around he’ll be like, “babe, why aren’t you holding my hand :( what if I get lost how are you gonna find me this place is big”

I is for I Love You (Who said “I love you” first?)

he did !! the first time sapnap said “I love you” was probably one of his most confident moments. he was so proud to be able to say it and so sure of himself and his feelings for you.

J is Jealousy (Do they get jealous?)

YES OH MY GOD. he gets super jealous and it’s so easy to tell omg. his attitude starts to get like super bad and he is very clearly annoyed by the situation. he won’t ever be too overbearing about it and if you ever feel like he is once you sit him down and explain that he’ll back off a bit. but he’s still gonna be bothered by it so just always remind him that he love him and no one else.

K is for Kiss (What’s kissing them like?)

THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IM ACTUALLY GOING TO BE DESCRIPTIVE SO IM SORRY IF ITS CRINGE. anyways, he’d be a pretty deep kisser but not like full on making out every single time. he just likes to make them last and he isn’t one to just give you random kisses all throughout the day so it always feels special. kissing him makes you feel all warm and happy inside.

L is for Love Language (What’s their love language?)

sapnaps love language is quality time or acts of service!! i’d say mainly quality time. even while long distance he just likes having you on call while he does stuff or even just complaining to you about how tired he is while actively not going to bed so he can keep talking to you lol. he just likes having you around it’s a huge comfort for him. i say acts of service because he would get so giddy and happy anytime you did something special for him. he would show it off and brag about it forever and it would genuinely mean so much to him aahhajdxh i love sapnap

M is for Memories (Their favourite memory with their s/o?)

For your first time seeing each other irl, sapnap flew to where you live and you guys spent a whole week together. his favorite memories are definitely from that first week of seeing each other in person. of course you guys already had an amazing relationship while long distance, but there’s something so different about finally meeting the person you’re with in real life. it felt like he had to start over from scratch and you guys had to get to know each other all over again. also the idea of now having to build a physical bond. it was just such an amazing and beautiful experience. definitely the one that made him realize he really is in love with you.

N is for Nicknames (Their favourite nicknames given and received?)

IM SO BAD AT THINKING OF CUTE NAMES USHSJDH. probably just babe tho lol. for fem!readers, i can totally picture him using princess in a slightly sarcastic tone.

O is for Open (At what point do they start opening up to you about their life and feelings?)

mmm i’d say he actually starts opening up to you pretty early into the relationship. If you guys were like really close friends before hand he’s definitely already opened up to you. He doesn’t really have that many people in his life that he doesn’t trust.

P is for PDA (Are they into PDA?)

not really but he isn’t like super shy about it if that makes sense ??? like he’s 100% fine with hand holding, hugging, and light pecks when saying hello or goodbye.

Q is for Quiz (How much do they remember about you?)

I don’t think he really tries to remember stuff but he just does and he’s always making connections to you and things he sees and stuff it’s so cute :)

R is for Romantic (How romantic are they?)

he tries but he isn’t exactly the most romantic boy. like I said before you guys have a best friend type of connection so when it comes to romance he doesn’t go too above and beyond because he just doesn’t feel like he needs to. but on special occasions he will do something nice for you. He likes taking you out places !!

S is for Security (How protective/possessive are they?)

very much of both. once again, total sapnap vibes. i’d say he’s a lot more possessive than protective. he would never stop you from doing things like going out without him and having guy friends or making flirty jokes. he trusts you so much partly cus he’s a little narcissistic LMAO. but when a serious threat comes about he can get kinda crazy.

T is for Try (How much effort do they put into the relationship?)

GAAAAAA HE PUTS SO MUCH EFFORT IN!! you would probably be like his first ever serious partner so he would try his best at literally everything. in the beginning of the relationship you could totally tell how nervous he was at times but as you guys got more comfortable he just became an effortlessly amazing bf

U is for Uphold (How do they show you they’re proud? What kind of support do they give you?)

he talks about you so muchjahsjxjxh mostly to dream and george or on stream and he brags about you too. he can get pretty cocky about it but his friends can’t get mad because it’s literally adorable how whipped he is.

V is for Vaunt (Do they like to show off?)

YES OF COURSE !!! it’s sapnap guys…come on. literally any little accomplishment you make is turned into a way bigger deal than it should be because of him. he’s so proud of for literally just existing and he talks about all the cool stuff you’ve done all the time

W is for Wild Card (A random fluff headcanon.)

you guys really like going to different food places and eating different items compared to other places. THIS IS SO RANDOM LMAOO but like…sapnap would definitely have fun doing that

X is for X-ray (How well can they read you and your emotions/feelings?)

mmm he can usually tell if you’re acting strange or being distant. he cant always figure out exactly what’s wrong but he knows it’s something and he would confront you about it like almost immediately or whenever he thought would be a good time for you

Y is for Yearning (How much do they miss their s/o when they’re gone?)

he literally talks about you non stop when you’re apart. and when you guys are on the phone he comes up with all these plans for you guys to do when you see each other again and he always wants you to join vc on his streams if you can. in conclusion he misses you like crazy

Z is for Zebra (What kind of pet would they want with their s/o?)

A CAT!! or like a bearded dragon lol.

IM SO SORRY IVE BEEN GONE FOR LIKE TWO WEEKS HAGSKDHD

school is literally kicking my ass so hard man 😔

i’m gonna try to write more, working on a karlnap weed fic rn too LMAO

I’m taking a major creative writing class rn so between writing for school and writing for tumblr i am so drained but i promise i’ll get back into the swing of things soon :)

love you guys, thank you for everything and stay safe <333

@crackityy @fantasy-innit @joyfullymulti @k-l-a-w-s

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[spookberry]

Wait, no, keep talking, HANS was done dirty?? I'm not judging I could care less but I am intrigued

LOOK, Anna and Hans had a lot of chemistry!! And literally every reiteration ive seen has just made him better and made their relationship more wholesome(except ouat lmao) And im not saying they had to stay together or even that he truly loved her but his 180 into villainy just isnt good writing!!! Its 2am idk how good im gonna be at words but

In the broadway version they spend even more time showing him to be a good and kind ruler, that couldn't be an act! He had no reason to be nice to these people and to be kind. For all he knows Anna just left to get herself murdered by her sister. The jig is up, he isnt getting shit out of this now, they weren't even really engaged cuz the Queen said no. And he even calms Weselton down at first!! Like the guy thinks the rulers are evil and need to be killed(musical has him suggest Anna is in on it but even in the movie Hans still focuses his efforts on helping Arendelle rather than bothering with Elsa at first). That is until he discovers in some way or another that something bad befell Anna (her horse returning/someone finding her frozen and soaked clothing out in the woods). Its only then that he goes to avenge her and kill/capture Elsa(note he doesnt actually go to kill her at first because he still believes he might be able to talk her down) and only decides its best to kill her later.

Which leads me back to the fact that he has NO reasons to be doing this!!! If Anna is dead and Elsa has commited treason, he isnt getting shit!!! The second he thought Anna was dead is the moment his role here became moot. Arendelle is a whole kingdom! Its gonna have its own line for next in throne should something happen to Elsa and Anna which something did! And Hans isnt on that list, because he isnt from Arendelle. At this point he's just doing what he believes is right and helping this kingdom out in whatever way he can.... potentially because he is very much stuck here now that Elsa has frozen the fjord.

The issue crops up when Anna turns up alive still but on her way out if she doesn't get this act of true love. And here's the thing I could 100% believe that Hans had ulterior motives and wasn't actually in love with Anna, what I CANT believe is the way his personality changes so abruptly into someone so cruel and uncaring. Like?? Dude has 12 older brothers who are all assholes to him? And he meets Anna and they get along and she's a little naive but he sees a way out. A way into the life he believes he's always deserved.

He never looks or reacts to Anna like he is irritated or thrown off by her. The camera even stops to show him watching her fondly when she can't see him!!

So here's my idea of how it'd be better. When Hans reveals he doesn't love her. Just have him say sorry, maybe they even do kiss but nothing happens!!(Personally i think the build up of the kiss but then nothing happening eould be cool) It'd be so easy! Basically nothing would change. He just says sorry and comes clean to using her, that even though he likes her he isn't actually in love with her. She’d still be heartbroken over it, maybe she even angrily shouts at him to leave. And the window bursts open later anyways so bump it up a bit sooner and her hands are too frozen over to open the door to grt out herself til Olaf saves her.

And like! The rest of the movie would play out the same, he'd just be doing everything with the genuineness that he had the entire time before the Reveal. He goes to punish Elsa for committing treason and killing the Princess. He tells her Anna is dead because she probably is seeing as he couldn't save her. (Also i just dont see why anyone would believe him about them managing to say their wedding vows like?? Aren't there rules to that kinda thing? Vows dont mean shit if there isnt someone there to be like "yeah this checks out theyre married now." Tho idk maybe cuz theyre royalty? What do I know)

Then rather than punching him Anna just breaks up with him lol.

#also even tho i love kristoff and think hes a very fun character he and anna have no romantic chemistry #she spends the whole time thinking about Hans and Elsa #and Kristoff has no reason to have fallen for her either??? #like if they had time together maybe.... #but its just dumb #i like that the movie ends with him asking her on a date rather than them just Being Together #but this is some allohet bullshit #why cant they just be friends? #why cant they have real chemistry outside oh woe poor dainty lady requires a mans help so as to not perish in the snow #frozen #ask

[denqis]

hii ! i saw that requests are open, can i request for h/c of a few of the captains (of your choice) with a short fem s/o (im like 4’ 11 so—) cheering on them for a game and after? (it can be sfw or nsfw or sfw leading to nsfw sksksk) if you do take it, thank you!! ❤️

thanks for requesting bb!! i can't really relate since i'm idk 5'9 ish (175cm) lmao so sorry if this doesn't meet your expectations! enjoy💗

super short s/o x various captains!

daichi sawamura

- he saw you immediately

- basically senses your presence even before you arrive

- he'll be so flustered when you loudly cheer him on though aw aw aw

- well at first at least

- goes all out RESPONSIBLY

- so focused

- it's almost scary

- but after the game he'll let loose

- poor first years were hella scared

- he was so smiley and happy and dreamy???

- will lift you up and carry you out of the hall bridal style

- gosh i love daichi

- "baby you really bring out the best in me."

- very exhausted after games

- so he just big spoons you

- plays with your hair until he falls asleep

- you love it, being covered by his body

- but,,,, huh??

- sOMETIMES, you'd suddenly feel his hands wandering

- ????

- "you were so great out there, cheering me on."

- he wants to reward you for cheering? hell no

- you want to reward HIM for being so great

- just wholesome, lazy sex

- but when karasuno looses

- shit, you better prepare yourself

- pounds into you, RECKLESSLY

- you'll be going all night, scary dom daichi

- "you may be tiny but i know you can take it princess."

- almost all pda is reserved for home though, he doesn't want the others to stay focused on volleyball

kenji futakuchi

- this bitch

- he kinda forbid you from watching

- inoffically, because aw deep down he was nervous

- officially though, he didn't want his DIRTY team mates "close" to you

- ignores you throughout the whole game LMAO

- or at least tries to

- but shit

- you never let anyone tell you what to do let alone ignore you??

- so you just piggybacked your bestie

- screamed his name as loud as possible

- he was kinda embarrassed kinda turned on

- blocks so many spikes it's insane

- hides you in his arms after the game

- no one is allowed to see you

- very possesive kenji!

- shit i love him so much

- man's hot and bothered after matches tbh

- but he's also very lazy in bed

- too lazy to bend down to kiss you properly even

- psh, asshole

- but please

-please please please at least TRY to suck him off while standing up straight

- he'll bust the hugest nut

- a bitch, he'll purposely let you do all the work

- "i worked hard today, i deserve this."

- knows that the team is close so he prefers to get down and real dirty at home

- but just sometimes when he CANT HOLD IT ANYMORE

- when someone *cough kamasaki cough* riles him up he'll make you his

- like, HIS HIS

- ragdoll typa deal

- but he has this hella soft side too?

- when he'll take you out for dinner and demand cuddles and massages

- thankful BABY

- he often doubts his abilities as a captain so having you there, cheering like he's a champ

- his heart is just so full

- he's your human blanket

tetsurou kuroo

- fucking bitch thinks he's so smooth

- ACTS like he doesn't notice you

- "kuroo y/n's here to cheer you on?"

- he'll act surprised but he knew

- puts in extra effort tho

- extra extra effort

- super strict to impress you on the low

- even after the game's ended

- looks over your head and acts like you aren't even there

- remind you again, why were you dating this idiot

- eventually just hugs you

- almost suffocating you tbh

- you always scold him for being sweaty so this time he PURPOSELY poured water all over and needless to say he's the only one laughing

- you've had it

- you started playing with the hem of his pants IN FRONT OF EVERYONE???

- it had the perfect height so why not

- he choked and lost his cool, finally

- you'd try to pull out his limp dick numerous amounts of times before, especially in front of the first years to mess with them

- kuroo in bed.... an adventure

- he'll be eating you out so good

- holy shit he's the master of oral, periodt. fax.

- you wouldn't be cumming anytime soon

- he was twice, thrice your size, he loved his power

- never ever forces him onto you tho

- he's so aware of how much bigger he his

- ATTENTIVE BABY

- passionate and wild sex

- or heated makeouts and cuddles

- "you were almost as cool as me today, babe."

koutarou bokuto

- LMAO

- this idiot i sWEAR DOWN

- let's be real

- when akaashi first told him you were in the crowd

- HE DIDNT EVEN SEE YOU DJSNSBS

- but

- once he DOES oh my god

- sO DISTRACTED

- you just look so so pretty beaming and screaming his name and he knows you're his

- always steals lil glances

- that's until konoha literally almost snaps his neck when he misses a spike

- boy's on his a-game after that

- hits one spike after another and boasts EVEN more than usual

- you'd be buried under him after this so he gave even more than his all

- his thighs were burning, heart racing but when you fell into him after the game

- a new fire was ignited in him

- where the fuck does he get his stamina from

- if he won, quickie

- where he praises you for cheering him on so well

- but PLEASE PRAISE HIM LOTS TOO

- he'll be putty in your hands when you praise him

- does literally anything for you

- you wanna please him, rewarding him for playing so well

- but he has you up against the stall, easily holding you up with one arm

- thanking you for being so amazing

- hE GRUNTS

- but oh no when he's lost

- not in the mood for anything

- call him bo or kou pls :(

- heaps of reassurance

- "i can't even fuck you right, i bet someone else is better for you."

- you've HAD IT OFFICIALLY

- you try to push him against a wall or onto a bench or his bed or whatever really

- but he's too strong, you eventually just stare up at him, frustrated

- "only you can make me scream, ace."

- and there he was again

- trace! his! muscles!

- angry, sloppy blowjobs/fingering

#anime #haikyuu tsukishima #haikyuu sugawara #haikyuu kenma #haikyuu one shot #haikyuu oikawa #haikyuu yamaguchi #haikyuu tobio #sawamura daichi #daichi x reader #kuroo x daichi #kuroo imagine #kuroo tetsurō #kuroo x reader #kuroo testuro #haikyuu #haikyuu!! #nekoma #fukurodani

[scorpcorpse]

5/18/20 - type time 732-822pm

so yesterday i went on tinder just like i always do when im feeling extra bored and lonely. well anyway i matched with cute looking boy so he messages me. 

PS im writing all of this here because i feel weird telling my friends what was all said. i told them a bit but not everything.

so we end up talking, and surprisingly it was a good conversation. it was very random though. im laughing and smiling at my phone. my conversations die fast or are about topics i dont really care for. im always into the conversation though no matter what especially because i like talking to people. moving on, you cant send picture on tinder so he sends me his number while reassuring me that he wont be sending dick pics (yay). he’s ranting on and on, flooding my phone with compliments. we’re talking this whole quarantine to him thanking the universe he’s glad he’s talking to a person who is pretty and cool. we talk about all the weird interactions we’ve had on this app and how everyone is soooo horny. he goes to tell me he loves my hair, he says i look like the type of girl, in a show, if i had just gone through hell, and i were to run my fingers through my hair it would just fall back into over my face so perfectly. i was like wtf. i didnt know what to say because that is very very very far from the truth. i would just look like hell. we go on to talk about our personalities and whether we are more introverted or extroverted. he’s more introvert while im more extrovert. i told him though it kind of changes depending on the situation like if i was on a date or getting serious with a person. we talk about how we hate it when people are mean to others by telling others to be quiet when theyre being too loud when it isn’t bothering anyone (does that make sense) like if youre having a good time by yourself and someone tells you to shut up or be quiet because it’s annoying them. he said he would never ever tell me to be quiet. he’s only really loud when he’s excited or passionate about something. we talk more of our dating life, he has a bigger dating pool than me though. he asks me again for the fifth time later; how am i doing, are you bangin, are you sewing sweaters? he wants to know everything. this all has me confused and intrigued. is it weird that i feel like he is very interested in actually talking to me. he asks me if i would be willingly to break quarantine to hang out. i tell him quarantine is okay eh.. im holding up okay, i do need to worry about my big head that only has two brain cells left. i also tell him im the biggest broke bitch he’ll ever meet. he says i wont ask you to pay for anything so dont worry your big head. he understands i dont want to go out. he says we can just talk and hangout over facetime. he proceeds to ask if he can ft me right now. its 2am and i look like a fucking mess. i say im a catfish he says fuck it, im half awake and im not looking for looks. next thing i know he’s calling. we talk for three hours. 

what happens in those next three hours is weird. i dont even know what happened. well immediately i ask him about his tattoos so he gives me the whole run down of his tattoos on his arms. there super cool i like them. my favorite word is yuck and apparently that’s his too because he has that tattooed on his wrist. the meaning is sad kind of he said thats how he felt about himself when he was younger so that drove him to doing that tattoo to himself. he has another arm tattoo where he throws a small detail of him having it to remind him of his friend, his old life of being on the streets and being addicted to drugs. this threw me off because he brushed over it like it was nothing. i didn’t know what else to say. i said uh okay. i wanted to scream are you okay? are you sober now? how are you? but nothing came out. he talks of his other tattoos. conversation changes to him complimenting me again. he wants to see my while face instead just my eyes and nose. i tell him about piercings. he talks about his band. he talks about the punk community. he’s rambling but it doesn’t bother me because i like how soft and soothing his voice is. he continues telling me how pretty i am, like he doesn’t stop for like two minutes. at this point i tell him im not going to respond to you anymore, im not going to take it. he tells me to take it. i take it. i dont believe him though. he can’t see my body, he can barely see my face. i have ance and my face is fat. i know i look disgusting. as he continues to say nice things about me i feel like he’s lying because no one does that. i feel like he’s saying to just make fun of me. im hating all of this. i try not to blush. im smiling. i always change the subject when he makes me feel weird and uncomfortable by saying okay or alrighty anyway. he asks me where are you from, whats make me, me? i try to think of things to say. i tell him about my being in california with no family. i tell him that the one thing that matters the most to me if my relationship with my little sister and all my friends. he agrees because same. he goes on to relate and tells me he’s all alone too. he tells me his dad is gone, his mom is too. he’s an alcoholic. he’s sober now he’s been sober for a year now. he’s okay. i tell him im sorry. im proud of you and how far you have come. im always here if you want to talk. he says no no no no dont say any of that stuff. i tell him again and that i mean it. i really do mean it too. (IF NONE OF THIS MAKES SENSE AND YOURE STILLING READING THANK YOU AND ILY, IF YOU KNOW ANYONE WITH OBSESSIVE OR ADDICTIONS please be there for them, it gets super hard to be there but try and help them push through another day) we go on to more random talking. before i finally get sleepy and he says he’s gonna let me go and sleep. he asks if we can see each other. he tells me when he first saw me he wanted to fuck me but he knew that wouldn’t make him feel any better. he’d still be alone. he then decided to message me because he actually felt like putting in the effort to get to know me. not just for sake of fucking me but to know me like he seems to do a little now. he doesn’t much know about me though. he asks if we can talk tomorrow. he says i hope we can actually meet up and im totally cool with just hanging out with you and just vibing. we dont have to do anything. i just want to chill with you. i tell him thanks for telling me all of this. i appreciate it because many guys dont say any of this. i say yes we can talk tomorrow, i’ll text you. we can be friends and once this all settles down maybe we can meet in person. he then tells me, im only going to say this once and im never going to remind you again. im cool with friends with you but that’s not my intention. i want to be more than friends, i want to your person, your boyfriend. but until youre ready after a while of us talking and when it crosses your mind where you like me and think of me differently then we can move on to being more. i was just sitting starring at my phone in shock. i didnt know what to do or say. i was confused. in my mind i wss like okay yes we have a 2 hour text convo and a 3 hour phone call but what. you cant say of this after that can you. i agreed because it was the only that could come out of my mouth at the time. he says okay, my name, i’ll you go and sleep. goodnight. i tell him goodnight. we hang up the phone. now i turn my body around to my back on the bed starring at the ceiling saying what the hell just happened. i fall asleep. 

IM sORRY for my ramble. i was in shock and im confused and scared like what if turns out to be bad for me. but all the compliments, the soothing voice, the small hints well actually big hints of his battle with addiction. ps he also tells me about his anger issues and therapy. i feel weird. i slowly started to be seduced by him, like he started to seduce me. iykyk lmao. 

#rant #ramblings #scared shitles #addiction #new guy #ana #bulimja #skiny girl #i'm sad #loneliest #quarantine

[keycrash]

figured i’d discuss my thoughts on all the panels and my post-ztd ideas behind them for the song comic since i did it on twitter and i love overexplaining. ztd spoilers

intro

so, carlos kills delta. i’m actually a little pleasantly surprised that most of the fandom headcanons this for him— i do, of course, but with a ‘nice’ character like carlos you often expect people to insist they’re not one for violence. but yeah it’s in large part pantry fragment that makes me so certain he’d do it— carlos kills akane bc akane is dangerous, and carlos even kills himself when he thinks he’s dangerous. he’d feel guilty just by the sheer fact of taking a life when all he’s done his entire life is save people, but violence is on the table as a last resort and they cant afford to have delta alive, so he’d take that burden of guilt so as to spare everyone else

i don’t have many in depth hcs for how the gang leaves dcom so i figured akane psychic calling aoi for a ride made some amount of sense. aois yelling at junpei and phi to buckle up. akane already is like a good girl.

Q team

mira’s in jail catching up on philosophy reading, eric’s in therapy thankfully. imo the... Magical Change mira has in the epilogue files is a bit... of a jarring change of heart as far as realism goes so i feel like given her circumstances she’d probably have psychotherapy as well

sigma has tons of robotics experience, so... he builds sean a head so he can operate in society a bit easier. i had bree’s sean design in the back of my mind so i wanted to give credit there.

C team

my babes. i love them. i love th.

i figure there’s some point where junpei and akane are working on crash keys business w catching the terrorist but carlos has to stay behind to rehabilitate maria; so junpei and akane on a business trip to japan, finding a few spare hours to call carlos despite the timezone difference... the epilogue shows that they haven’t really been in much contact, so i feel like it’s probably a result of carlos not being used to having deep longstanding friendships. he doesn’t want to bother junpei and akane when they’re busy with crash keys business and their relationship, meanwhile they’re like Carlos Hasn’t Called Us In Weeks Is He Dead Or What

also that panel has a beer in the back because i feel like it’d take a while for everyone around junpei to realize that his alcoholism is like, Alcoholism, and then even longer for him to get a handle on it

the second panel is the moment maria wakes up after carlos spending half his life trying to get her back... cries......................

and then Junepei Is Beautiful And Dysfunctional: A Dissertation. they love each other of course but junpei’s severely traumatized by akane’s actions and akane has trouble adjusting to normal life especially with all of that being brought to the surface again; she doesnt know how to process guilt or help junpei, she cant even tell him she was wrong to apologize bc she doesnt think she was, she just regrets that he had to be caught up in it. anyway not directly related but i hc that they break up once it gets too much to handle then go back for another try after they fix some things. they’re a mess but they dont care that they’re a mess because they’re so hellbent on being together because having each other is a sign of victory and safety and theyll learn to exist together eventually

... again, just general post-ztd, but junpei would be resistant to any kind of medication/therapy for his struggles but i feel like if people he loved expressed their concern enough he could be convinced

also they date carlos later thank u.

D team

sigma’s panel is a reversal of the end of vlr; instead of being young and discovering his old reflection, he’s old and looking at his younger self, realizing he’ll be in this mismatched body forever, for better or for worse

diana’s panel is ambiguous about if she’s moving out of her old home or into a new one, but either way, it’s a positive change for her, finally escaping the looming threat of her ex husband and building new friendships to help her through it

and phi’s was a little hard to get across, but she’s calling her foster parents. one of them is a different phi clone, after all, and they Knew— so phi wants answers, and she wants to tell them she found her biological parents, and she wants to tell clone mom she found HER biological parents too. ... also i want her college dorm, it’s so aesthetic

outro

please dont make me decide where gab lives. that plant’s named kyle, though.

the crash keys HQ panel has phi in the back, who else could pull off that vest. a few of the details have aoi and junpei arguing through notes and drawings on the desk, lmao. anyway i figure this is a breakthrough on the terrorist after tons of sleepless nights bc akane’s a workaholic; though i do headcanon that there’s no terrorist due to the fanatic bio r/fabrication anagram

of course, sean busts mira out of jail and they go back to Fix the timeline... i was thinking abt using these panels for something else but i figured they fit too well to ignore. that epilogue is a beautiful mess. let me tell you though, itd immediately turn akane from super accomplished in the last panel to Furious; i feel like crash keys & the SOIS would unite for the taking down free the soul/the terrorist efforts, and in doing so would also give mira legal help/resources in exchange for information about delta etc, but they all know mira’s kind of a wildcard and they’re happy to have her in jail, especially for akane who’s quickly come to discover that mira was a contributor to her parents’ deaths. so mira escaping is like WHO LET THIS HAPPEN

anyway... that comic took up my life for like 4 days so i needed to air out thoughts. there we go. one motivation in making it was because i’ve shit on ztd a lot in the time since it came out; i’ve mellowed out since, and yeah i still have bitter feelings, and it’s not like i suddenly think its writing decisions i had gripes with were good, but i figured for all the negativity i’d put out there i should try to highlight ztd’s merits where it has them as well

#ze talk #peko.txt #alcoholism ment #999 spoilers #vlr spoilers #ztd spoilers

[kookaifoundation]

i should write my feelings down in the journal i got for that specific purpose so i can organize them enough to explain them to my therapist in under an hour but thats not about to happen so you will all be subject to my pathetic attempts to gather them in one place LOL

i am so sick of being surrounded by shit i hate and feeling compelled to keep it there because some unseen force says i Have to or makes it so that i dont have the energy to remove it..... like as i type this my family is making their fucking mouth noises and they never ever seem to stop. i dont even hear words nor do i regard it as talking anymore. the simple act of hearing certain voices and sounds causes me pain and so does too much light or my hair drying the wrong way and feeling bad or seeing someone make a stupid expression or BEING LOOKED AT even

i hate all of my clothes and cant bring myself to get up before leaving the house until the last minute let alone put on some shitty outfit that's both masculine enough to keep my family from bothering me about why i'm wearing "girl clothes" and pleasing enough to keep me from crying when i look in the mirror. even then the fabric probably feels horrid and i want to take it off the moment it goes on. but i wear it anyway.

i hate what im studying. at this point looking at monitors makes me want to die. computer science is obviously great for that! you know what it's also great for? inclusivity! if i manage to get a job i'll feel amazing surrounded by white cishet men who will without a doubt see me as a woman and get apprehensive and quiet around me because i am black and trans and gay after all! and i sure as hell cant wait until i face discrimination at the hands of whatever stupid fucking algorithm these white cishet men are training to discern between worthy and unworthy human beings!!

i hate my primary mode of communication with people! tumble dot hell is okay since we Are ultra undesirable to advertisers and therefore it is my primary social media but everywhere else is becoming increasingly filled with hate and ads and elements designed to make the platform inhospitable so that your attention will be directed to this other element on the page (usually an ad), or so that youll pay this amount of dollars to get rid of it, or do whatever the hell they want you to do. theyll get what they want. capitalists have REAMS of research on what people do in any given fucking situation and they will use it to get your money!

i hate feeling like i have no rights! my future is up to a set of laws written by people with lives thousands of degrees of separation apart from my own!! will i be allowed to correct legal documents? will i be allowed my hormones? will i be protected from discrimination? can i donate blood? can i use the bathroom? can i reproduce? is it legal for someone to kill me after finding out i have an F on my ID? who knows!!!! LMAO. and even if shit does get better legally who can say my life wont end early due to hate?

and i am so fucking sick of being behind in life in terms of sexuality, in terms of maturity, in terms of experience, in terms of a million other things!! this one is just too much for me so im going to copy and paste what i said about it the first time i got upset about this:

i suddenly feel so bad about it but im so tired of not having control over my own sexuality and sexual development.... like im completely fine with most of my own body and i definitely think i am desirable but i feel like im forever going to be either sexless or an object to other people because of my anatomy and the only way im ever going to be seen as desirable is if you tack an extra clause onto me that reads "*you just have to ignore... That" whether "that" is my gender or my body. and then if someone does see me as a whole being and not just a gender and a body as separate things then theyll want to begin the process of Healing Me or what the fuck ever when theres nothing for me to heal from. i dont need to learn to love my body i already do. i want make fuck NOW there is no shitty emotional component to that. allow me to have power.

and then there's the thing about ANY amount of effort being put into your appearance being female to cis people. i am a faggot i like to dress up and put makeup on but if any cis person sees me like that their little brains get overloaded and they think woman! i want to be beautiful! i am beautiful! i am the most beautiful man in the world! but cis brains CANNOT HANDLE IT and unfortunately they make up the vast majority of people! what the fuck am i going to do! without beauty and control over how people perceive me i feel fucking helpless but i cant have those two things at the same time.

#OF GIVING ME THE HRT NOW!!!!! NOW!!!!!!!! OR I AM GOING TO DIE

[thataspdfeel]

i really hope this isnt too intrusive but i was wondering if you have any tips on keeping up a good relationship/friendship as someone with aspd? ive gone through so many friends and partners over the years and i always end up alone like i am right now and im honestly lonely and my therapist doesnt really understand because he just said its for the best because abusive behaviour is common w aspd which made me scream and i dont know anyone who actually has aspd either :/

long answer so under a cut

ive kept this in the inbox and stared at it over and over again because of that fucking last bit like

fuck your therapist like deck him in the face. aspd etc people arent inherently fucking abusive thats not how that works. we have a really hard time connecting with people due to low empathy and have low tolerance for bullshit at least imo

oh also dont worry i dont find many things too intrusive. frankly, if anybody wanted to know how to keep a sex life nice, id answer that shit. like i have 0 concept of too intrusive lmao

also if youre lonely id honestly start out with a pet or two. that sounds really weird but if you get used to some asshole who cant communicate living with you, you start to tolerate others more. plus less lonely so win-win

THIS IS GOING TO SOUND HELLISHLY BIZARRE BUT TRUST ME WHEN I SAY THIS: try dating sim games. this isnt to make you less lonely but to help you get better at communicating with others. like this is an actual scientifically studied thing. i cant remember where i found this out cause my memory is bullshit but hubs pointed me to it. its how he managed to keep my attention for so long. he knew how to properly engage with me and keep my interest through practice via dating sims. and when things are stale, he goes back to the dating sim textbook. like brings me flowers or goes back to wooing me AND IT WORKS

thats not to say his feelings arent genuine cause they absolutely are. these dating games just let him interact with me romantically easier for him. especially because hes like the human embodiment of golden retriever puppy with sunshine out its ass and he can EASILY come across as waaaaaay too much and these sims taught him how to tone himself down. whereas for people like us, theyd help us to play ourselves up so to speak. or just generally interact with partners easier

now if actual interaction isnt your problem, that you make friends or get partners easily but have a hard time with the maintenance, now thats a different problem and requires a different solution

first, find people you find interesting. it's so much easier to pretend to give a shit about people when you find them interesting because you actually listen to them when they talk to you. and this sounds like bullshit like ugh why do i have to pretend. well you do. you have to with everybody until you make a connection. the key is to find somebody interesting you dont mind listening to

make sure they dont mind listening to you either or they at least pretend to this is because relationships whether romantic or otherwise all rely on communication and listening to each others problems. ive had a few "friends" who expected all kinds of emotional labor from me but would turn tail or come up with excuses if i needed them. those arent friends tbh. those are leeches and dont keep those people around. also dont be one of those people cause emotional labor should go both ways

communicate. communicate. COMMUNICATE!!! ALWAYS!!! EVEN IF ITS PAINFUL!!! even if opening up is the last goddamn thing you want to do. in order to connect with people and to keep connection alive, you need to open yourself up and be vulnerable. and it can suck! it really can! but you dont have to cut yourself open just for a connection. basically share what youre comfortable with at first

later, once youve established honesty (and honesty is the key here) later, if youve got an issue with them? you can bring it up and be like hey it bothers me that you leave your socks everywhere. or i hate that you seem to only need me when your mom is being shitty. this lets them confront you too about things that make them uncomfortable. and, yknow, change when they mention something (so long as its not ridiculous like you drink too much coke or i hate that you have blue eyes)

AND ON THE HONESTY THING be honest about your dishonesty. what that means is letting the other person know you lie if youre a chronic liar like me. you have to be like ok so i lie a lot and usually its about stupid stuff and heres how you can tell. anybody who gives an actual shit about you will be like oh ok thats irritating but ok. just dont EVER EVER lie about big shit EVER like cheating or something like that (i mean dont cheat in the first place but you get my point) 

ive had like an empty bag of chips in my hand and hubs will be like "did you eat the chips" and i'll be like "no?" and it kinda goes back and forth like "i see the bag in your hand right there!" "no you dont" until about half an hour or so later im like "sorry i lied about the chips" and hes like oh its fine i get it. but he knows that while id lie about that or brushing my hair, etc i wont lie about if i took my meds or not etc etc. like be honest about your dishonesty dont hide it or itll create problems for later

let the other person know when you need space. because we all need space at some time or another. be like hey imma need to flake for like a day or so my life is a clusterfuck and i need some time to myself. or, like with one of my partners, im like do you mind if i just chill in the other room with video games/books/netflix/whatever for roughly x amount of time. i let them know its not them (even if it sometimes is at which point, i do let them know later what the problem was) and that i just need to be by myself. and yknow what? its made us all so fucking close when we've told each other when we need space

be honest about needing connection too. sometimes your life just goes all to hell and you need a cuddle buddy or somebody to go to coffee with. its scary making yourself so vulnerable and admitting that but honestly? the payoff is awesome because you have somebody there for you who will hold you through those times. and if they wont? walk the other way

and if it werent already clear, YOU HAVE TO MAKE A RECIPROCAL EFFORT because its not fun to be on anything one-sided. you dont have to magically develop empathy or wanting to be around people 24/7. you just have to make the same effort you expect with others

anyway those are the basics to making things work imo. IF NONE OF THIS IS HELPFUL or not the case for how to make things work for you, message again with specifics and i’ll do my best on the advice thing. just your ask was kind of broad so i answered it broadly

i hope this helps!!

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is your most fun times and all of my old friends are having good time but i dont and i hate going that school entering those buildings doing the same routines over and over. i dont even study my gpa is bad. im a loser in every aspects of life. i didnt dream it this way dude. it hurts to think that i'll be like this forever,im scared bc i know i cant handle one more year like this... im sorry for this negativity,i just had to tell this to someone... thank you for listening :)

hey, it’s okay. i totally get it. first of all, don’t believe all that ‘college is the best time of your life’ bullshit. that’s not necessarily true and it’s not like only one portion of your life is going to be happy and golden, that’s just a myth perpetuated by middle aged people that are stuck in the past tbh :/ i’m really sorry to hear that things didn’t turn out the way you thought they would. it always hurts when that happens and it can sometimes feel like you’ll never move past it, but the simple fact is that you will. life goes on, it doesn’t stop for anybody and that can be a good and a bad thing.

you said that your first year of college was super difficult, right? and yet you still managed to get through it, you were still strong enough and resilient enough to make it to the end of the year. that’s really something that you should be genuinely proud of. however, that doesn’t mean that this year will be as bad as the last one - and even if it is, now you know that you can rely on yourself to get through it. but try not to get stuck in the negative mindset of just expecting things to turn out wrong, bc that just makes it more likely that they will. if you look at the upcoming year with a fresh, upbeat approach then it’ll be easier to handle. even if you have to force yourself to do it at first. whenever you catch yourself worrying about it, make the conscious effort to combat the negative thought with a positive one. change your internal monologue so that it helps you rather than stresses you out. make a list of all of the good things about college: amazing opportunities , the chance to meet new people, the chance to make a difference. 

when it comes to the issue with your friends, i can totally relate. finding people that you really truly click with is really difficult, a lot harder than most people realize. however that doesn’t mean that you won’t ever find them, you know? try to keep putting yourself out there. you don’t need your friends to join clubs with you, join them on your own and see if there’s anybody that you really get along with. you have to take that first step, it’s crucial. and i know it’s scary, i totally understand that. but your brain is making it seem a lot worse than it will be. it’s just a club, and if you hate it or if you don’t like the people then you never have to go back again. but it’s definitely worth a try. all you can really do is put yourself into situations where meeting new people is likely, even if it feels nerve wracking and weird to do so. just try to be yourself and approach everyone with an open mind, and then others will be drawn to that and to you. making real friends is one of those things that just has to occur naturally and there’s not really a lot of advice to give about it bc i also struggle with it a lot lmao :/ but just keep in mind that great people can walk in and out of your life in a heartbeat - it just takes time, and patience. 

okay so this is the really important bit - you said you’ve been struggling with depression for 2 yrs now and honestly that must be really fucking hard to deal with and i’m sorry you’re going through it. since it’s a mental illness that will only get worse if let alone, i’d really REALLY recommend talking to someone about it if you haven’t already. i know you probably don’t want to but that’s genuinely the best way forward, and you want things to change, right? whether it’s the college counselor or your usual doctor, just make an appointment and see how it goes. they’ll be able to asses you and give you the care that you need, whether it’s therapy or medication or general support and advice. you don’t have to do this alone and there are A LOT of people that are going through what you’re going through, believe me. you have to treat it like a broken arm or a physical illness - it’s just as serious and it needs just as much attention from professionals. once you’ve talked to someone it might be a lot easier to talk to people and to let yourself enjoy things a little more, you know? it all comes back to your mental state and how you’re dealing with it. you need to make yourself a priority, okay?

check out these links if you want bc they might help - 

http://www.bestcounselingdegrees.net/10-great-tips-for-dealing-with-depression-in-college/

https://www.trade-schools.net/articles/college-depression.asp

http://www.learnpsychology.org/student-stress-anxiety-guide/

at the end of the day, you don’t know where you’ll be in a year. nobody knows what the future holds, so why bother torturing yourself over it? it’s probably going to be both good and bad, most things are. all you can do is take it one day at a time, and if that feels like too much, one hour at a time, even one minute at a time. stop thinking about the bigger picture for a while and try to focus on right now, on the present moment. you will handle whatever struggles and hardships you have to face this year, just as you did last year, and it WILL be okay. just breathe, know that you’re so much stronger than you think you are. try to get some help with your depression and just do what feels right for you, okay? that’ what matters here. i hope you’re alright. hmu if you want to talk more about it. i’m always here.

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prime numbers for the valentine's ask ;)

2.Have you ever been deeply in love?

Yea,, with you, dork.

3.  Longest relationship you’ve ever been in?

current relationship! its been over a year

5. How is your relationship with your ex?

i have 3 ex’s

ex #1: idrc, like… i hope she’s well? we never talk i dont know where she went i have no emotional attachment to her at all

ex #2: i hope she’s doing okay! i wish we talked more but she lives across town and just is part of a different kind of crowd than i am

ex #3: i hope she fucking realizes how bad she hurt me lmao i hate her so much

7.  Have you ever cheated?

no, and i never will

11. When you are dating someone do you believe in going on “breaks”?

uh… i mean, no, not really? i’ve dated the same girl twice but it wasnt really a “break,” like. we were broken up for like a year.  i dunno like i think its ok to try and rekindle something but i also think if someone wanted a “break” it’d just be kinda saying “i dont want this relationship but i also dont want you to move on from me so i can have you back with no competition” and thats lame

13. What’s one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?

in my second relationship, i regret not dealing with the breakup in a better way, i think i hurt her more than i realized and that was a mistake. i wish that i had trusted in her and myself more to be able to handle things and maybe it might’ve worked out longer. that used to bug me more but i’ve moved on now but back then i probably could have done things better

i also regret being too much of a pushover with my 3rd girlfriend and letting her ruin me lmao

17. Do you believe it’s possible to fall in love on the internet?

definitely!

19. How do you know it’s time to end a relationship?

if it hurts more than it makes you happy, for sure end it. if you spend more time worrying about what you’re doing wrong, have a talk and/or end it. if they lie to you or control what you do, end it. if they refuse to take responsibility or make any decisions, end it. if you make all the sacrifices with no effort from the other person, end it.

23.  How many relationships have you had?

good question. people i’ve dated? 4. Time chunks spent not being single?? ummm….

1 with girlfriend numero uno, 2 and like a few random reunions with some emotionally stunted kissing with girlfriend 2, and then what started as a polyamorous relationship but im now only with one of those people bc the other was terrible

so like. 4.5?????

29. What do you notice first about another person?

i think mostly if talking to them is easy. if i feel like im forcing myself to think of things to say it’s not really enjoyable for me.

31. Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?

not at all. i mean… i do get distressed when i can’t help, even though i know that isn’t My Job i still get stressed when i dont know how to help, but thats a personal problem and any sort of mental illness wouldnt make me love a person any less.

37.  What’s more important: Looks or personality?

i’d be lying if i said looks didnt matter at all, but ultimately personality is most important. i mean, i was crushing on my current partner before i ever saw pictures of them, and then seeing them only made me crush harder.

41.  What’s your imagination of a “perfect date”?

hmmmmm… that’s hard. honestly i cant think of anything super fancy that would be better than just curling up in bed and cuddling all day

53. Are you jealous of couples when you’re single?

im fuckin jealous of couples NOW bc im in a long distance relationship. im ALWAYS bitter about people being all Couple-y in front of me

59. Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner’s birthday or your anniversary?

i am so fuckin terrible with dates but i dont remember significantly forgetting anything recently

61.  Who’s more important: Your partner or your family?

hmm this is a hard one, you know? like… if i think about the Future, I know i probably am going to prioritize my partner over my parents, y’know? but i do adore my family a lot like my sibling is my best friend so its not like there’s a competition of LOVE. just. different kinds of love. i do hope my life goes down a path where i’m with my partner, rather than living with my mom for longer than i have to

VALENTINE’S DAY | ASK SPECIAL

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