#plus there’s been stuff outside of classes that are stressing me out

[lunajay33]

Change Part.2

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Summary: Y/n is a loner but loves ballet but her family doesn’t have enough money for her to dance at the studio, Daryl is a redneck who hates people and prefers bikes, until one day these two run into eachother and their lives change drastically, will Daryl toughen her up? Will y/n soften Daryl? Or both? How will things go when people start coming back from the dead

Pairing: Young Daryl Dixon x f!reader

A/n: This is going to be a series, it’s gonna start with how they met eachother and their lives before the apocalypse, eventually it’ll blend with twd story line!!

Part.1

•Masterlist•

It had been a week since Daryl and I’s first time hanging out and things have been nice, if that’s the word that could describe complete peace and acceptance around him, he’s the first person to ever see me for me and treat me normally, like o wasn’t a burden or a weirdo quiet loner

At school we’d help each other throughout class, well mostly me helping him when he didn’t know the answer to a question on our daily biology work book, and he started to sit with me on the bench behind the school bordering the towns woods, same as today

“So what do you have for lunch?” I asked as I sat cross cross facing him

“Just a sandwich, sucks” he said shrugging his shoulders

“Here you can have my chips” I said handing him my little bag of sour cream and onions chips

“Nah it’s yers” he said waving his hand

“You’re having them” I said placing them down next to him so he couldn’t refuse

“I’m not that hungry anyways so it’s fine” I said as I took another bite out of my green apple, I don’t know why but I’ve just lost my appetite lately, maybe it was the stress at work plus home life plus school stacked on top of each other but I tried not to think about it too much

“Ya sure? Ya should eat more” he said squinting at me

“I’ll be fine I’ll just eat when I get home maybe…..maybe if you’re not doing anything would you like to come over?” I asked hesitantly, we haven’t hung out, outside of school since Sunday and now it was Friday and I was just crawling to be alone with him again

“Sure, I ain’t got nothing going on” he said as he ripped open the chips but I swear I saw a faint smile

The bell rang signalling the end of the day, I went to my locker, pulled on my coat and stuff my textbooks into my bag for the homework I had to do over the weekend, I closed my locker jumping when I saw Daryl already there with a smirk

“Jerk you scared me” I said laughing as we started heading for the exit, the gust of fall air felt amazing, fall was always my favorite the leave turning to burnt orange and falling to the ground, the wind with the aroma of wet leaves it was comforting

We got some weird stares from people like the snotty preppy girls but when I looked at the football team all huddled by the car lot by heart dropped, Jackson looked at me with so much hatred and I knew it was because he hated the dixons, I wasn’t embarrassed of Daryl, he’s my friend I was just scared of what Jackson would do

We continued walking towards my house, it was silent most of the way

“So….how much more money do ya gotta save for ballet lessons” he asked his hands stuffed in his baggy cargo pants

“Well the lessons are a hundred dollars a month so for a year it would be twelve hundred a year so I’m really far off, I only get paid 9 dollars an hour at the dinner and i don’t get that many shifts so it’s starting to become just a dream plus I’m probably too old now” I said upset knowing now that doing the math I’d probably never get to be that ballerina I always craved to be, to dance in those pink slippers and tights, to feel the music move me

“I can help ya, I got some extra money” he said with these hopefully eyes I’ve never really seen on him before and it made my heart thump

“Are Daryl I can’t have you do that, it’s your money you worked hard for, it’s okay I’ll just watch Swan lake over and over again” I said laughing pathetically trying to make this situation not as awkward and sad, but wasn’t that just me? Awkward and sad

“But it’s yer dream”

“Ya it’s just a dream but it’s fine Daryl, I’m sure I can find something else to make me happy” I said smiling at him as we finally made it to my house, we went straight to my room dropping our bags and stripping our jackets to flop down on the bed and just look at the ceiling

“Show me this swan lake yer always talkin ‘bout” he said as he laid his arm behind his head looking at me with a smile that warmed my heart, if this is what having friends was like I’m glad I finally had one

“Okay!” I said as I jumped up and put in the vhs into my dingy old tv hearing the tape wind up and appear on screen all grainy but beautiful, I sat back down next to Daryl as we watch the whole dance I knew every move, every turn of music notes it was amazing

The black swan was devastatingly beautiful, and the song change when she appears hits me deep inside and my skin shivers with amazement every after the numerous amount of times I’ve watched this, then it was over and the tape cut off

“So how did you like it?” I asked excited for his impression

“I ain’t one fer this kinda thang but it was…….cool”

“It’s kinda like us, I’m the white swan that everyone runs over and you’re the strong black swan, sad and beautiful” his face turned red as he cleared his throat and looked away

“Nah stop that” it was cute making him embarrased in a sweet way

“Well it’s true maybe you could learn it and dance with me” I said 100% joking knowing that would never happen but would be funny to see

“I ain’t gonna do that, but…..I’ll watch ya dance” he said looking back at me the pink tint still lingering on his cheeks

“I just need slippers first” I said laying back down next to him

We must have fell asleep because we were abruptly woken up to my door slamming open and Jackson and his one jerk friend coming in, we shot up in bed and I instantly felt scared

“Jackson what are you doing?”

“Really a Dixon, I knew you were a slut” he said as his friend laughed

“What no he’s my friend, just leave”

“If you’re gonna sleep with whoever what about my friend here” his friend came up to me grabbing my arm and trying to drag me off the bed but I held on tight to the sheets

“Leave me alone, let go” I said panicking, I felt his grip let go and when I looked Daryl had him on the ground punching his face in, Jackson grabbed him and threw him back

“Get the hell outta here, ya ever touch her again and yer dead, I swear I’ll kill ya” Daryl groaned as they both left shutting the door

Daryl led me back to sitting on the bed, his touch was comforting and warm compared to the harsh cold grip I was just in

“Are ya okay?” He asked making me look at him as he wiped my tears away

“I think I’m gonna be sick” I whined the anxiety so high I didn’t know what to do

“Shhhh yer safe now just breath”

He helped me relax but that thought of not being safe alone scared me, what if Daryl wasn’t here? What would’ve happened?

“Daryl….will you stay with me tonight?”

“I don’t know ya sure ya want me here”

“Please I’m scared to be alone with them here”

“If that’s what ya want” he said getting up and taking some blankets from my closet setting up a makeshift bed on the floor right next to my bed, the adrenaline crush was hitting me hard and I was exhausted, I laid down facing him, seeing him sprawled out just as tired as me

The moonlight from the window was bathing Daryl in a silver hue, he looked almost ethereal and I felt my heart thump again, I’m glad I met Daryl and that we were paired in class, he feels safe, he feels like……like my hope

“Goodnight Daryl”

“Goodnight ballerina” he said huffing a little laugh but my heart filled with joy hearing that, this was my first sleepover ever and it wasn’t how I thought I would start but I’m glad he’s here non the less

Part.3!

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[yccoffeesimp]

𝑊𝒉𝑦 𝐷𝑖𝑑 𝐼 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑂𝑘𝑖𝑒 𝐷𝑜𝑘𝑖𝑒? | ??? 𝑋 𝑅𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑟

Prolouge:

Warnings: Disturbing Contents Blood/Gore/Obsessiveness/Manipulation/Mentions of suicide/Knives/Violence/mentions of mental illnesses (like depression)/Dan Heng & Blade being in the same atmosphere/Character Deaths/Gaslighting

Please if you are triggered by any of this. Consider not reading.

"Y/n! Wait up!" You heard a familiar voice from behind you. Turning your head, you saw your childhood, and only best friend, Gepard running towards you. For the past year , he's been sleeping in and making you wait for him every morning. At first you didn't have a problem with it until he started sleeping in way too much which nearly caused you to arrive to school late. You weren't dealing with angry teachers for your tardiness so you left without waiting for him.

The blondie finally caught up with you when you finally stopped at the cross walk. "You-You really gotten faster." He breathlessly said as you placed your hands on your hip.

→ "Maybe don't sleep in next time."

You say. The blonde stood up straight, nervously scratching the back of his head. "Apologies Y/n," he said,"I'll try not to keep you waiting."

→ "It's fine. I guess."

You said. Gepard smiled shortly at you before he looked to come to a sudden realization. "Oh Y/n! I almost forgot. Have you decided what club you want to be in for this year?" He asked.

You froze. It dawned on you that you promised Gepard to join a club this year, and you entirely forgot."Y/n? Don't tell me you're planning not to join one."

→ "Uhhhh- I was totally planning to join one. Just not now?"

You explained. You heard the blonde sighed, crossing his arms and shaking his head. "Y/n, you promised to join one this year. How can you get any friends when you constantly are playing on your phone ,and refusing to socialize?" He said, you rolled your eyes.

→ "Says you." You say. Gepard looked shocked and yet slightly red. "Well- I'm trying too and plus I've been able to make more friends ." He said.

→ "Uh huh, yeah sure. Say that when you have other people to sit with at lunch."

Gepard sighed. "Look, will you at least actually try to? Your happiness matters to me Y/n. I don't want to see you alone, and plus I want you to have others around you when I can't be." He said, causing you to sigh.

→ "Fine, I'll actually try. But I can't promise that I'll join one."

Gepard smiled. "I'm glad you're at least trying."

You felt a smile on your face. Seeing Gepard happy, made you feel happy too. He's been stressed with school and home so to put a smile on his face and his mind at ease was something you were proud and happy about.The nice moment was ruined of course when in the distance you both heard the school bell ring. Both of your eyes widened before immediately dashing towards the gate. Out of breath as you both managed to get to school before the gate closed. "I guess see you at lunch?" Gepard asked, wiping off a bit of sweat from his forehead. You nodded.You both waved bye before heading your separate ways.

-X -

The end of class bell rang as the day flew by. You were sitting at the back of the class of Bio when it rang. 'I should probably start looking at clubs now. *Ugh*I might as well start with the gaming club.' You were spacing out when you felt a tap on your shoulder. Instinctively you immediately went to hit whatever it was until you saw a familiar blonde with blue eyes male.

→ "Hey Gepard."

You said, relaxing a bit. "Hey Y/n, sorry to disturb you but I was gonna meet you outside but I saw you in here doing nothing alone." You looked around, seeing that you were the only one there, heck even the teacher was gone.

→" Oh-"

"So have you taken into consideration what club you wanted to join?" Gepard asked, helping you get your stuff.

→ "Not yet."

You lied, you were thinking about joining the gaming club. It was fun and would be less boring plus you don't think anyone would bother you anyways. It would more than likely be filled with introverts and nothing more but gaming challenges etc. "Then how about you join my club?" He smiled.

→ " Your club? What is your club even about?"

"Well it's the literature club-"

→"No."

You said with no hesitation. "Come on, it isn't that bad plus..." Gepard seemed nervous.

→ "Plus what?"

"I kind of promised everyone that I'd bring a new member.." He said, rubbing the back of his neck. Right then and there you wanted to facepalm yourself.

→ " That's a personal problem."

Gepard rolled his eyes.

"Come on, please Y/n. You don't have to join- Just at least give it a chance." He said, looking at you desperately. "Dan Heng already made tea and a tray of desserts for this." He continued.You looked at him at the mention of food and tea.

→ "Fine, I'll go see your club."

Gepard's face lit up. "Wait- Really?" He asked. You nodded. He smiled brightly the entire way you both went up to the fourth floor of the school.It was primarily used for storage and club activities, plus the teacher's lounge was located here too. You both walked until you reached the end of the hallway to which Gepard stopped at the room to the left. He looked back at you, probably checking to see if you were ready, before opening the doors.

The classroom had three bookshelves filled with many genres and a back closet. It seems to have 20 desks, a teacher's podium in the front with a whiteboard on the wall with a reminder. 'Festival is happening soon!' You were too busy looking around the room to pay any attention to the three insanely attractive men in front of you before Gepard spoke.

"Hey guys, I brought the new member!" He announced. Your head snapped at him.

→ "Don't call me the new member."

You muttered.

"Welcome to the club." You heard a voice say, you turned to see a black haired male with cameo blue eyes and two translucent turquoise horns. "Mhm..." Another black haired male hummed, the ends of his hair faded to a tint of red and his eyes were an orange red.

"Everyone, I want you to meet my friend, Y/n." Gepard said. "It's lovely to see you again." A familiar voice said. Immediately you turned to see the one and only perfect student, Jing Yuan warmly smiling at you. "Y/n meet Dan Heng, Blade, and I assume you already know Jing Yuan?" Gepard said, introducing everyone. Jing Yuan nodded."We are fairly acquainted already." He chuckled.

→ " We both had Mr. Svarog for homeroom last year right?"

You asked. "Indeed. I'm glad to see you taking interest in the Literature club.""I am as well, I'm Dan Heng by the way." Dan Heng said. The one you assumed to be Blade didn't say anything but simply stared at you. Then there was a high pitch whistle as Dan Heng immediately went to go get the tea.

"Please take a seat at the table Y/n." Gepard smiled. At the near back there was a table with four chairs. Blade then moved an extra chair before Gepard could and motioned for you to sit.You sat down beside Gepard as Dan Heng set tea cups in front of you all, pouring the perfect amount of tea with Blade setting down a tray of sweets and pastries.

-x-

"So tell me Y/n, what made you want to join our club?" Blade asked, obviously glaring at you. You glanced at Gepard, you already knew that if you told the truth he'd be in trouble so you came up with the only excuse you had.

-> "Well I was looking for something to occupy my mind for a while and Gepard seemed to enjoy this club so I wanted to give it a shot."

You lied, putting on the fakest smile you could. "Well I'm glad you decided to join us." Jing Yuan smiles at you again. You felt your face slightly heat up. Having one of the most attractive and popular boys smile at you so warmly and genuinely made you feel some time of way.

"It's nice to see you join, we've been trying to get others to join as well but they won't give it a chance." Jing Yuan said as Blade nodded. "I made this club with the intention of having others show and have their love for literature grow, to be able to express ourselves if that's easier to put it."

"Our goal is to make the Literature club popular before we graduate next year. "Mhm." Dan Heng hummed, taking a sip of the tea. Gepard nodded alongside Blade.Dang these guys seem to be serious about this club. "So what books do you read anyways?" Blade asked, still glaring at you.

→"Well I don't read a lot but the few I have were fantasy or adventure fiction, but a lot was fanfiction."

Dan Heng's head perked a bit at the topic but he didn't say anything.

→ "What about you Blade?"

Blade kept quiet before Jing Yuan spoke."He reads horror novels and books a lot. Some vampire ones too from the books I've seen him read once or twice." Immediately Blade glared at Jing Yuan, obviously not liking how he spoke for him. It was obvious from the moment you met Blade, he was a loner and probably someone who causes fights easily, yet to see someone with that kind of attitude about them read was kind of cute in a way.

"Oh- Dan Heng, I forgot to mention earlier but at the last meeting you seemed to forget your notebook." Jing Yuan spoke, before sliding a notebook with maple leaves on it to Dan Heng.

"Thank you Jing Yuan.." he said. "Isn't that the notebook you were writing that novel of yours in?" Gepard asked, Dan Heng nodded. "It's still a working progress.."He explained. "Really? I thought by now after 6 months it would be at least done by now." Gepard said.

→ "You write your own novels?" You ask Dan Heng. He nodded.

→ "That's quite impressive, not gonna lie." Dan Heng slightly smiles. "Perhaps one day you can share it with the rest of us." Gepard said. "Speaking of writings, Blade, don't you write as well?" Jing Yuan asks him.

"No-" Blade was cut off by Gepard.

" But I saw you writing-"

"Shut up." Blade snapped at him. "Seems that we have to give you some confidence. Say this gives me an idea." Jing Yuan said.The three of you looked at him expectively. "Tonight we go home and write a short story and at the next meeting, we read them aloud. Plus since we have a new member now, it would give us a chance to learn more about each other." Jing Yuan said.

→ "Actually about that- I never said I was joining. I might've come to see it but I still have other clubs to- Uhh."

You froze, seeing the four boys slightly sad and rather disappointed faces. "I see, apologies for assuming you were joining." Dan Heng said. Blade was still glaring at you but more intensely. "Well- This is rather unfortunate but I do hope we can one day welcome you as a new member some day." Jing Yuan said, the disappointment in his voice was clear. "Y/n.." Gepard looked at you with a solemn expression, he was obviously hoping you'd actually join.

You felt a sting of guilt and shame as you sighed. Today is the day you sell your soul just to see some hot dudes who read and tea.

→ "I've decided... I'm joining."

Their faces immediately lit up as Gepard pulled you into a tight hug. "Thank you y/n." He whispered before pulling away. "Well then welcome to the Literature club, Y/n l/n. Alright everyone, I think today's meeting can end on a good note."

After that you walked home...Unaware of the new surprises you'll now face...⁠♡

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[safety-pin-punk]

Hi!

I’m sort of still getting into punk and learning about everything. You’re blog has been really helpful with resources and everything. Plus your cool.

Okayyy, now my question. I’m a junior in high school and I want to go to college. Pursue further education and all of that stuff. Learn more about the world and critical thinking. But I don’t want to pay a ton of money to a bunch of old ivy dudes.

What’s the right direction to go in for this? Is college a good option if I want to learn? What schools are good places? Where do I learn more about this stuff?

Sorry if this is a lot. Thank you though!

Hey! Thank you for your kindness!!

First off, Im going to stress that you are a junior and you have PLENTY of time to think about this. So dont stress too much right now.

Secondly, I want to preface this with the simple fact of college isnt for everyone. There are SO many ways to survive and thrive in life without it. And thats okay, good even! That being said, this post is just gonna be me talking about college. Under the cut of course

OKAY! So, is college a good option if you want to learn? My answer is yes! I learned a lot at college, both inside and outside my classes. I learned a lot of life lessons, I met people from all over the country (and a few international students). And I learned how to challenge my own beliefs and try to see things from perspectives that I didnt even know could exist prior to college.

But Im sure you were referring to the educational aspect. And truth be told, this heavily depends on both your school and you. Some examples: My school had a phenomenal chemistry program. You couldnt walk out of that program without having learned things if you made it through. But my school also had a very poor fine arts program. And to be quite blunt, I often wondered why any art student chose to stay. But going even further, it depends a lot on the individual as well. I was admittedly not the best student. I wasnt that interested in lab or research compared to some of my classmates, nor did I apply myself as much. And the difference is clear to see when others could rattle off different solvents and what reactions would occur from memory and I would be sitting there dumbfounded.

Next question, what schools are good places? Again, that fully depends on what you want to go to school for. But I’ll tell you what I did and how I chose my school. When I was a junior in high school, I found a list of every 4 year university in my state (I knew I wanted to stay in state, but you can do this for wherever you want to go). I then went through and gave each school a ranking out of 5 (based on vibes, chemistry program, education program, cost, and surrounding area). Once I had it narrowed down to only a few schools, those were the ones I toured. And I chose where to send applications from there.

Though, I cant stress enough how beneficial community college can be. A lot of people get all their gen eds out of the way either before they enroll in a university or over summers. Doing this will save you money and time. Literally not a single person on a university campus would look down on you for this. If anything, they will praise you for being smart. I took a few classes over the summers between semesters just to get them out of the way (and also avoid certain professors).

Where to learn more? Google. Google schools near you. Google schools where you want to go. Google schools ranked nationally in xyz. Google affordable universities. Google universities that have good financial aid programs. Just google so many things. From there, spend time exploring university websites. Read about their community and their academic programs. See if they have virtual tours uploaded. Check out their student activity board social medias to see what it would be like to be there as a student. Sign up for tours. Do an overnight visit if you can!! Or even, just walk around the campus without a tour guide

Best of luck to you on your academic journey! Hope I was a little helpful here

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[marnz]

2023 review

an extremely long post re: thoughts on this year

2023 was an extremely weird and fun year of a lot of personal growth! Late last year I had to take leave from work due to some health issues originating from burn out, and going into this year I was extremely nervous about returning to work. I was also determined to do more events and activities this year, which was my ~covid resolution~. And this year turned out to be way different from anything I could have imagined! Not only was returning to work successful, I could quickly tell that the time I took off was instrumental to my health going forward. The skills and perspective shift I practiced and worked on quickly proved themselves to be really important and I felt much better in just about every situation with them on board. I don't want to pretend that this year wasn't difficult--it was, it was stressful and full of a lot of hard work and uncertainty because I did a lot of stuff I had never done before, and tried a lot of new things, and also tried to make some decisions regarding my future. But all of that growth led to some really good things, which I wanted to document.

Good things:

got my driver's license

started doing yoga, which has been great for stress relief. now at the point where I have started to do it independently instead of relying on a class

got back into knitting and knit my first sweater!

saw several shows this year! and I went to a lot of them with friends

befriended some people at work! I always find it challenging to make the leap from work-friend to friend, but turns out going to concerts with people makes that happen. This is also nice bc a lot of my local friends have moved away due to cost of living

made a lot of training progress with Piper. Walking her is so much easier & enjoyable now, and I think our relationship has gotten even better. This has been a multi year project.

read 63 books this year, 13 more than last year. Audiobooks have been a life saver, and reading didn't feel like a chore the way it did at the end of last year.

returned to work successfully, started working on cool projects at work, and have gotten some recognition for it!

went to europe! on a sort of delayed honeymoon

wrote a couple more short stories and worked on original long term fiction a bunch

spent more time kayaking! and more time outside in general, hiking, walking piper, running, etc

got elected VP of the union and became a shop steward, which has been both very rewarding and very challenging

set clear financial goals that I am making progress towards

started being able to eat eggs again! not sure how this happened but it's been a life saver. thank you, immune system.

survived getting covid 😩

started adderall and oh my god....a game changer.

got better at setting boundaries

next year, I would like to work on:

becoming a morning person! I used to be a morning person and then when I got really depressed I lost that power. I know it's possible for me if I take the right steps. I've already started working on it because i'm a masochist

running. I hear it's so good for stress relief and it is so common in my field, plus it is a more attainable form of outside time than hiking (requires driving long distances, waiting for weekend, etc) or kayaking (seasonal, requires buying kayaks, waiting for weekend). my psych also told me that apparently exercise helps stabilize mood and adhd! two things i could def benefit from. i started running today and uhh we'll see how it goes lol. also, i don't drink, i don't smoke, i don't use substances of any kind, give me that fucking runner's high

driving more. driver's license or no, driving still scares me! i want to get to the point where I feel comfortable driving long distances alone, such as being able to take someone to the airport if the train isn't running

continuing big projects at work. honestly I am still considering law school and these projects will give me the chance to think deeply about whether complex litigation is for me.

writing. to be honest, while I still think about my writing projects almost daily, writing just isn't a priority right now. And that's fine. I want to give myself some space and time. i would not have been able to say this a year ago...

using my phone less! something I've noticed is that my phone sometimes makes me feel pretty agitated or i feel overwhelmed by notifications? and that I am happier and able to focus better if my phone is in the other room. for example, when i take a bath I typically put my phone in another room and then i am able to read for hours. I would like to work on this.

continuing creative hobbies. such as knitting, doing more wood working, learning how to sew, etc. brain feel good...

moving & creating a home. we are moving early in the new year, which I am stressed about, but I'm also really excited because it will be a great new space and the location is really, really good. i want to work on making sure this place is as cozy and happy as possible, and also set it up so we can host guests so loved ones can come visit more easily

continuing to build a wardrobe i am happy with! I think I have written before that a lot of my work clothes make me feel like I'm wearing drag, and I'd like to fix that and also continue to knit myself customized pieces I love. like, a sweater vest to wear with a white button down, etc. gender wise i am just vibing but I like menswear more and I would like to continue exploring that

this year I have spent more time talking with my dad and my partner about the future, and while I am still considering law school everyone, including me, is worried about my health w/r/t that, let alone financial shit. my thoughts on this are...I need to have a solid stress management infrastructure in place to be a happy person, regardless of what I do in the future. Knitting & yoga & taking Piper on very long walks daily, plus having stuff to look forward to (shows), has really helped me this year, so I would like to continue exploring that.

as far as work...well I would like it to dictate my life less. right now I'm working from home (office is being remodeled) and I feel like the most boring person alive because I am just. home all the time. I do find work novel because last year I was doing high stress complex litigation and absolutely falling apart over it and this year I'm so chill while doing the same sort of thing. mainly because I have spent so many hours building stress management processes, working on perfectionism, getting perspective, and i've recovered from burn out. game fucking changer! my workload is way too high really high right now, which I don't love, and I keep being put in extremely challenging situations! but that's okay.

anyway. I don't want to misrepresent my life and claim it was exclusively wins this year...there were some really difficult months. December in particular has been so hard. but I'm really happy that I tried so much new stuff this year and I'm excited for 2024.

sending love to y'all! <3

#currently #long post tag #also should i make a post about books i read in 2023 and the best and worst ones?? lmk

[yutafrita]

hi nat!! 😊 hope you've been well <333 i've been sick the last few weeks 😔 but i had some time to start under the blue flames :'') 👍 can i request a halloween-themed drabble or short fic with taeil pls? :> -🚀

Hiiii!! Aw man I’m sorry to hear that, I really hope you’re feeling better! Being sick is the worst. I wanna say I’m mostly okay- just a little stressed out with some stuff at my job atm 😵‍💫 thank you for checking, this really made my day ♥️

Ahhh Under the Blue Flames!! I'm so happy you're getting around to reading it- that was my first NCT fic and was a big undertaking lol. I hope you're liking it!

You absolutely can request Taeil- here you go :)

[11:27pm]

Pairing: Taeil x Reader (she/her) Word Count: 1,311 Warnings: Alcohol consumptions, mentions of a fraternity

It had been two months since your ex dumped you, and your roommate was sick of you moping around the apartment- it didn’t help that all of the ice cream in the apartment was gone.

“That’s it, you’re going to the Halloween party with me whether you like it or not!” She shouted, irritated by the empty freezer.

“Why can’t I just give out candy to the kids in our apartment complex?”

“Because there’s only like, two kids that live here.”

So, now you stood in the middle of a packed party with a red solo cup in hand, and and a stupid bow in the other. Your roommate had insisted in shoving you into her costume from last year, not at all pleased with your idea of reusing your Princess Peach costume.

You scrunched your face up, grossed out by the messy concoction of alcohol the freshman fraternity boy has handed to you. You took another sip, hoping the unpleasant drink would dull the ache of the cheap wings digging into your shoulders.

Your roommate was in the corner of the crowded living room, chatting up one of the older brothers of the fraternity. You knew she would dump you when she got one drink in her system- but you didn’t mind too much. You needed to go out again and remember that you were allowed to have fun.

“Cupid- that’s a cute costume,” a voice behind you manage to say over the blaring music and chatty party goers. The owner of the voice moved in front of you and you couldn’t hide the smile on your face.

“A witch, very original,” you chuckled before tilting your head. “Don’t I know you from somewhere?”

“We had physics together last year, I’m Taeil,” the man reintroduced himself and nodded as you jogged your own memory.

He sat a couple of rows ahead of you in the class, but typically he was always the one answering the professors questions. He was smart, cute, and was always nice enough to help any classmate who asked.

“Ah, so you could ace physics but not think of a better costume?” You taunted, earning a chuckle from him. The music drowned out his laugh, and was really killing your attempt at being buzzed. “Hey, do you wanna go outside?”

The backyard of the frat house was surprisingly well kept. Taeil explained that every week different pledge classes would draw lots for chores in the house, but the freshman were typically the ones who pulled the unlucky straw of cutting the grass.

“You guys definitely rig that against them. Poor freshmen,” you leaned back on the lawn swing you two shared, watching the gentle lights of the party go.

“We don’t! Plus, I usually get stuck doing the cooking,” Taeil defended.

“My roommate usually does the cooking,” you hummed. “Although, I make a mean mac and cheese.”

“A six year old can make a mean mac and cheese,” he teased. You stuck your tongue out in defiance, and you both burst out laughing.

“So, why were you dragged here tonight?” He leaned back in the swing now, his eyes level with yours.

“Hm, my roommate thinks I need to be more social,” it was partially true. In the past two months, unless you were working or in class, you hardly interacted with anyone besides your roommate. Not like you had many friends before your breakup, but you would at least study with different classmates. Now, you refused to do that, preferring to wallow in your own self pity.

“Had a bad breakup?” Taeil guessed, raising an eyebrow.

“No way it’s that obvious,” you pinched the bridge of your nose, your eyes shut in embarrassment.

Taeil shrugged, “his loss. Now, I get to sit with a pretty girl dressed as Cupid.”

You turned your face away from Taeil’s gaze to hide your blush. Even with the silly makeup he had on for his costume, you knew he was handsome and while you may not feel your best, he was with you as if you deserved all the attention in the world.

You had rejoined the rest of the party at some point, smiling and giggling with Taeil as you did so.

“I was looking for you everywhere!” Your roommate popped up in front of you, her baseball cap askew. She saw the man to your side and furrowed her eyebrows, “who are you?”

“I’m your ride home tonight,” Taeil half laughed.

“I’m definitely sober enough to drive,” you whined, noting the small stumble in your roommates step.

She slung her arm over her shoulder, and whispered (although, her whisper was still clearly loud enough for Taeil to hear), “I think he just wants to spend more time with you.”

Taeil had dropped you off at your place, and before he walked back to the fraternity house (it was about two blocks away), he made sure to get your number and schedule you for a coffee date the following day.

*****

“I hate when Halloween is on a weekday,” you yawned, firmly holding the large coffee in your hand. Sitting with Taeil at your school’s coffee shop, you noticed a few things. Every two minutes someone new would wave hello to him, and he would always greet them back with their full name. You also noticed how oddly organized he was- the planner he had set on the table that detailed all of his time down to the minute, the tablet that had every class perfectly structured, and his hair was perfectly styled despite the visible exhaustion from the night prior.

"I don't understand how you can still look good despite being up so late," Taeil flirted, his eyes not shifting from the schoolwork before him.

This would become commonplace with Taeil by the third date you two would go on to the bowling alley. Random flirtations mixed in with playful teasing and childish banter. In every way, he was a breathe of fresh air in the pitiful routine you had formed after your breakup, but after he dropped you off at your place after bowling, you realized you two still hadn't even kissed.

"He's just flirting and hasn't even tried anything?" your roommate asked afterwards, not looking up from her psychology homework. You had burst into her room shortly afterwards, arms folded and in distress.

You shook your head, "he didn't even do that cheesy thing where he pretends to help me bowl and is just actually rubbing himself against my back."

"Oh," she frowned, "he sees you as a bro."

You pretended to be okay with him just seeing you as a friend- you had just gotten out of a relationship- but you found it tough to not be bothered by this. You liked being around Taeil beyond the confines of a fraternity Halloween party, but you were beginning to worry about him not feeling the same way.

"Taeil?" you met him after chemistry one day, a routine that became commonplace quickly.

"Hmm?"

"Do you see me as like... just a bro?" you asked, feeling stupid immediately after the words left your mouth. He stopped walking and shot you a confused look you hadn't seen on him before.

You tightened the grip on your backpack, now speaking a mile a minute out of sheer embarrassment, "BecauseMyRoommateSaysThatYouJustSeeMeAsaBroAndThatsFineIfYouDoThatsOkayButIJustWantToBeOnTheSamePage-."

Taeil stopped your word vomit but gently grabbing your face in his hands and dropping a small but affirming kiss against your lips, surprising you before you kissed him back in the now empty university hallway.

"I didn't want to make the first move," he admitted, scratching the back of his neck sheepishly, "but, I do want to... potentially...actually explore us as a couple- only if you are."

You giggled, a smile now on your face you swore you lost as you then nodded at the man, "I would like that."

Masterlist

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[moonjxsung]

ALSKDKDJF OKAYYY !!! I’m glad it’s not a bother !!! I overthink sometimes alskdkjf

urgh so I am having A WEEK :( I hope it’s okay I rant a bit … alslkskdj

helurf okay so after midterms last week, I’ve been trying to like relax and give myself time to rest but IVE HAD SO MANY ASSIGNMENTS :((( and I’m so tired and burnt out and stressed cause I need to start studying for finals and ahhhhhh alsksjjdjf :(

okay now for some more fun updates!! i had fun at uni yesterday!! we had a super fun soil science lab we got to go into soil pits on the farm our campus has and analyze soil (ph, diagnostic horizons, colour, structure, texture etc) !! It was a lot of fun I’m gonna miss the class and my prof :( (it was my last lab)

another fun thing is its art market week at my uni so time to drop a ton of money on prints, stickers and crocheted animals !!! :D

AND okay so I made it into a special like abroad research kinda program/course in like that’s usually only available to upper years students but somehow I made it in alskkskdjdj . Anyways, we get to go to South Africa from like May 14-June 9 to do research and stuff in the field!!! and like IM SO EXCITED??? So anyways, the 19 students that also made it in (it’s a highly competitive program to get into) we had our second group meet up plus our prof (who taught my favourite class by far last term) yesterday and it was a lot of fun and we got free dinner which was super super yum and I can’t believe I’m actually going ahhhhh

and then I went to a friends house for dinner (yes, dinner again) which was fun we like catch up at least once a month and yeah

Anyways sorry for the truck load of information about my life weh

HOW IS YOUR LIFE STAR!!! I WANNA HEAR ABOUT YOU!! (With whatever ur feeling comfy sharing 💗)

🌱

UGH I always forget how close together exam season is WHYYYY ARE UR FINALS ALREADY RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER….. 💔💔 I believe in you angel manifesting all the best for you frfr you’re smart I know you got this 🫶🫶🫶🫶

AHHHH UR UNI LAB SOUNDED SO FUN I love labs where you just get to go outside and do stuff in nature it’s fr so healing 👼 I took a geology course in college where we got to go to this creek near my school and like test the ph balance of the water and it was so much fun being outside instead of cooped up in the lecture hall fr one of the best labs we ever did. AND the art market this week???? RAHHH HAVE SO MUCH FUN we used to have something similar at my uni and I would drop SO much on stickers not even joking my laptop is covered in them still :’)

ALSO OH MY GOD??? TO THE STUDY ABROAD PROGRAM?????? STOP THAT SOUNDS SO FIXKIFNT FUNNNNN IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU WYAHWJDNRJ CONGRATS ON GETTING IN BB ‼️‼️ I didn’t have to do study abroad when I was in college bc covid hit but I can’t wait to hear all about yours and live vicariously thru ur updates AHHHH and it’s coming up so soon !! WOWOWOWOW HAVE THE BEST TIME ILY ILY THATS SO FUN

My day was honestly vvvvv boring but it was productive! I had work and then I had a shit ton of laundry to do but I was tired as fuck and I have cramps bc my period started today so I got coffee first to wake me up and then after cleaning the apartment I caught up on Ateez vlogs and now I’m simultaneously writing and watching Zelda gameplay 👼 I think my emotions are like ten times worse rn because of my period so I’m just taking it easy but I have a huge party to go to this weekend and a lot of my friends are gonna be there so I need to get my shit together and stop being sad bc I don’t want to bring the mood down ☹️ why do I always have a party in the same week I feel like shit LOL the last time I had one my situationship and I got into a huge fight and my sister had to be checking on me like every 5 minutes bc I was borderline crying the whole night it was so embarrassing 😭 (I am so tired of crying over this same girl oh my god)

ANYWAYS I LOVE U ANGEL IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND I CANT WAIT TO HEAR ALL ABOUT UR STUDY ABROAD TRIP RAHHH THATS SO EXCITING CONGRATS AGAIN ILY ILY 🩷💖💞💘💕💓👼

#🌱 anon #ask

[sanyu-thewitch05]

The Academia Life

White Uniforms

Princely Behavior

Side Effects

The Little Things

Hoarding

A/N: Sorry I took so long. I went on vacation for nine days. I also want to try my luck on making original stories again, so I'll be taking a hiatus so I can plan everything out. All I will say is that it features a foggy gothic town, a vampire in love, and a girl who eventually has to escape the bloodsucker.

Idia wakes Yuu up and brings her to the cafeteria for breakfast. Idia and Yuu sit with Ace and Deuce while eating their food. 

"Have you noticed the Diasomnia members have been showing up less and less?" Ace asks, looking at the lack of green in the cafeteria.

"We're not thinking about that right now. I'm not putting Yuu under any more stress," Idia says, trying to redirect the conversation.

"I know, but Malleus has been borrowing and buying a lot of stuff lately. Plus, I'm disgusted to say this, but he's starting to smell," Deuce states, shivering at the memory of PE class with Malleus. "Not only that but Sebek has bug bites all over him. We should investigate."

"No-Yuu? Yuu, where are you?!" Idia exclaims, not noticing that Yuu has run off with Ace, Deuce, and Grim to Diasomnia. "Why won't that girl listen to me?!"

When Ace and the gang get to Diasomnia, they pound on the doors begging for someone to open them.

"Hey! Open up!" Ace yells, banging on Diasomnia's doors. "You know what, fuck it. We'll enter through a window. Deuce, give me a boost."

Deuce puts Ace on his shoulders while Yuu watches from behind. Ace crawls into an open window and pulls Deuce, Yuu, and Grim inside.

"Holy Crap! There's nothing but junk!" Yuu exclaims in shock, looking at all the clothes, trinkets, and jewels stacked upon each other in the hallways. "You don't think there's something in the trash, do you?!"

A rotten soup can falls onto Yuu's head, and its contents drip onto her. Yuu dreadfully looks above her and sees a pale white hand in the mountains of trash.

"AAAAHHHH! OHMYGOD! A DEAD BODY!" Yuu shrieks, hugging Grim and backing away. 

The body moves, and trash starts to fall from the mountain of junk. 

"AAAAAHHH! ANOTHER ZOMBIE!" Yuu screams, running away with Deuce and Ace. "Oh no! It's got me!" 

"Quiet down, would you? It's early in the morning," Silver says, releasing Yuu's hand. "What are you guys doing here?"

"We decided to investigate when the Diasmonia members stopped coming to school. Though it's clear, there are more pressing issues," Yuu answers, looking at her surroundings. "Why is there trash everywhere?"

"Shh-shh! Don't let Malleus or Sebek hear you! Malleus started going through the possessive part of dragon puberty. We thought he would get possessive over you, to be honest, but instead, he started a hoard of treasure that has now spread," Silver explains, "Don't even try talking sense into him. He gets upset."

"Where's everyone else?" Ace asks, getting frustrated.

"Either stuck in the trash or locked in their rooms," Silver responds.

"I got it! Silver, you wake Malleus up. Deuce, Ace, and Grim, you guys stay here," Yuu exclaims, the lightbulb in her head going off.

~~~~~~

"So, the princes at RSA want to meet me?" Malleus asks, walking down to Royal Sword Academy. 

"Yes, they want to meet the famous future ruler of Briar Valley," Yuu lies, hoping the princes follow her plan.

I hope Malleus is distracted long enough for Ace and Deuce to help clean out Diasomnia.

"I highly doubt that, but I'll take your word for it," Malleus responds, making Yuu nervous.

"We're here! You wait outside while I tell them you've arrived," Yuu says, rushing inside to tell everyone her plan. "Everyone, I'm ba- what happened?!"

"Your bodyguard happened. He tore up the school looking for you," Ambrose explains, fixing Chris's damage. " Anyway, Neige has all your school work in your room."

"Listen, I know you guys are the help the desperate and poor type, so I need you to help me help this desperate person. Please, help me distract Malleus so my friends can clean out his hoard?" Yuu pleads, getting on her knees. "I swear it'll probably count as community service."

"Sure, you can never help too many people!" Neige exclaims, doing his signature smile.

"I don't think that's true, but I'll take it. Malleus is outside. Are there any gargoyle structures on campus?"

"We have humanoid gargoyles."

"That's even better. Everyone, go, go, go!"

Yuu opens the doors, and Malleus walks in, squinting his eyes from the bright decor.

"So this is what Royal Sword Academy looks like, it's so bright," Malleus says, blocking the gleam with his hands. "Well, what activities do you have planned?"

"We're seeing the humanoid gargoyles. Neige, lead the way, please," Yuu answers, holding onto Malleus's arm.

"Please don't take all day!" Yuu mentally yells.

~~~~~~~

"AAH! Lilia's possessed by one of the spirits in the amulets!" Silver screams, terrified at his father hitting on Epel.

"Why is your father hitting on me?" Epel whimpers, trying to pick up trash while running away from Lilia. "Help! He's got an unhealthy obsession with me!"

"Speak for yourself! I accidentally cracked some cat necklace and Rook won't leave me alone. Not like he did before he was here helping Diasomnia, but this takes it to a new low. What the-that bastard cut my hair!" Leona shrieks, whipping his back and forth to find Rook. 

"This is a disaster, and it's only been 5 minutes. I should've known this wouldn't go well," Vil gripes, rubbing his forehead. "I hope Yuu is having better luck than us."

"Vil! Help me! Make Lilia go away!" Epel screams, hiding behind Vil.

~~~~~~

"I didn't know your school had so many gargoyles! Never have I been so delighted!" Malleus squeals, looking at the garden of gargoyles.

"There's my baby!" Chris yells, running out of the pushes and hugging Yuu. "I'm glad to see you back at school!"

"Oh, it's you. I thought you and your partner left..." Malleus scowls, looking at Chris.

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#malleus draconia #twst diasomnia #twst wonderland: lovesick au #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland fanfic #idia shroud #chris redfield #ace trappola #deuce spade #neige leblanche #ace deuce and yuu were lowkey acting like the scooby gang for a hot minute

[prismaticutie]

I've officially been learning Japanese for about a year now! Let's talk about it!

Language learning is a marathon not a race and it is SO important to know that going into it.

It's a long process, and it takes a hell of a lot of dedication. You have to put a lot of time and effort into it, and you ABSOLUTELY have to practice everyday, reading AND writing.

That sounds obnoxious and unbearable but hear me out

I cannot stress enough how important writing is! You will not learn kanji/kana any other way! You will not be able to familiarize yourself with it as well otherwise! It will make it more difficult to read if you don't write it! Writing it helps you recognize it outside of one perfectly consistent font, so if you see it in other fonts you have a better chance of recognizing it than if you just read it digitally in the same font all the damn time!

If you are going to learn a language, especially one in a different alphabet, you HAVE to write. And make corrections when you mess up, to. Correct your mistakes. That's how you learn.

And when you're learning, it'll take more than Duolingo! Fuck Duolingo! I don't use it and I think it's utter hogwash.

My current resources involve:

- two different types of textbooks (Marugoto and JBP1) (note: I do not recommend Marugoto, stick with JBP1 if you can)

- a separate kanji workbook (basic kanji book)

- two notebooks for my own writing (dollar store ass loose leaf notebooks. W some dollar store ass pens ofc)

- an online jp-english dictionary (Jisho.org)

- youtube videos (Japanese Ammo with Misa)

- whatever homework assignments I had in my classes (a lot of fucking homework)

- whatever powerpoints my teacher sent us (👍)

- plus I'm in a Discord for Japanese learning where we send each other resources and help each other out (it's a school server tho so you can't join if you're not a student)

It's a LOT. And it can be overwhelming and hard to know what to do!

My advice for starting out is to take academic classes and yoink all the resources they give you. I regret not downloading all the stuff my professors gave me cause now I don't have access to it anymore.

Classes give you a sense of guidance and plenty of resources to get you started, plus the resources generally have some credibility since it's coming from a (hopefully) reliable source.

If you can't take classes, go to Youtube. Look up baby videos in that language. Learn to count. Learn your ABCs or whatever the equivalent is. Baby videos help. A lot.

Additionaly there are channels dedicated to helping people learn languages! The main one I watch atm is "Japanese Ammo with Misa", and her videos have been SUCH a help.

These videos are extremely useful, especially when the creators are native speakers of the language because they understand nuances of it better than anyone. I watched one manga reading video from that channel and learned SO much more than I would have been able to learn with a dictionary or just by googling.

(Ex. In the first chapter Yotsuba says "sugee" instead of "sugoi". The Youtuber clarifies that this technically means the same thing (sugee=sugoi=cool), but "sugee" is a more informal and masculine way of saying "sugoi". Just to test my theory, I tried looking it up on Jisho (jp-eng dictionary) and sure enough, it could not define it for me.)

I really did get a lot of resources from my classes. If I hadn't taken them, I definitely would not be learning Japanese efficiently at all. If you can't take classes yourself, and don't know where to start with Youtube videos, I highly recommend talking to people who are learning the language and asking them what they did to get to where they are.

Talking to others is so scary especially if they want to practice speaking with you or gauge how far along you are. Then you have to admit to knowing nothing. But that's the first step to learning so brother it's time to humble yourself.

That's why, after a year of taking Japanese classes, I'm starting over from the beginning.

I don't feel like I ever had a solid foundation. Now I have the resources I need, but I don't have the stress of grades looming over me. I can go at my own pace and take things as slowly as I need so I can learn properly.

It involves a lot of time. And it takes daily practice. Seriously. Learning a new language is a huge time sink. And it's extremely humiliating and humbling.

It's difficult it's challenging it can be tedious it makes me feel really really stupid at times yes all of this is true. But persistence is key.

I really hope I keep up with it because I did just totally take a full week off from practicing it ehe. Oops.

But as intimidating as it is I really do want to keep up with it. I want to keep practicing so I don't have to open every conversation with "すみません。 私 の 日本語 は 上手 で和 ありません。" (I'm sorry, my Japanese is not very good.)

I copy and pasted that from google translate bc I don't have a jp keyboard on my phone so the "wa" in "dewa" of course got translated to kanji when it shouldn't have been. What fucking ever I hate Google translate btw. It's useful but only if you want a really rough idea of what a sentence says. Never rely on it for language learning. Btw.

Overall it's tough. Consistent effort will be rewarded. Write and read and speak and listen to the language all the times. Even if you will never realistically need to write it ever. Write so much. It helps you learn I promise.

Practice daily. Use a variety of resources to mix it up so you don't get bored. Try translating random things you see in the other language, like song lyrics or twitter comics. Translate using an online dictionary. It won't give you the full picture, but you may glean some meaning.

Watching shows and reading comics in the other language might help (especially for Japanese, what with anime and manga being popular). Watching anime with subtitles on (Japanese and English subs at the same time if possible? But just English is fine) helps you learn common phrases in the language and familarizes you with how things are pronounced and what a natural speaking cadence sounds like.

Just don't be afraid to mess up. It's part of learning. It's not easy but everyone has to start somewhere.

...Even if it means starting right from the beginning despite having taken classes for the past year (<- Talking about himself)

I like learning Japanese I think everyone should learn a second language if they can! Especially you Americans because your country SUCKS fuck you (myself included).

Another important aspect that I didn't touch on is culture! While learning language it's also important to familiarize yourself with the culture of the language's place of origin! It gives you such a different perspective on things and a much better appreciation for it.

I sincerely hope I keep to my jp practice and I take it seriously etc etc this was a spur of the moment post and I don't know how to end it so ummmmm byeeee

#This is long but read it maybe #It's my ramblings on language learning #I have a love-hate relationship w learning language bc yes its fun but god DAMN it's work #And brother. I am lazy #Whateverrr I'm tired and can't think coherently

[cecisinjapan]

Multi-Day Catch-Up Post!

May 9, 2022

Honestly, a pretty boring day of class. I do really like the teacher we have on Mondays, but since we’re buckling down ahead of next week’s midterm, everything is a bit of a slog. We finished grammar section 42 finally but the plan is to finish 43 and 44 ahead of the midterm next Tuesday. That’s a lot to cover.

After class, a group of us went out to grab lunch. Unfortunately, we had a hard time deciding, so the Korean girl in the group made the decision. She loves McDonalds, so we went to grab McDonalds. I wanted to get the burger with the rice bun, but that’s apparently dinner only, so I went with some sort of chicken burger. It had a very Japanese flavor to it, so I’m glad that’s what I chose. It would have been boring to just get a standard BigMac or something. But it was fun to finally hang out with the Korean girl outside of class. She usually goes straight home after we finish, missing out on the random bonding experiences we have wandering around and getting food.

But then it was time to go home and do my homework. Riveting stuff. When I finished, I treated myself to a little bit of anime time. I had zero energy. For some reason, the weather was super chilly today (as in a high of around 60 Fahrenheit) and I’m ready for the weather to get warm and stay warm.

—

May 10, 2022

Finally not just another boring day of class—both for good and bad reasons.

First off, one of the Chinese students who has been online for the entire time so far finally joined us in-person. She’s like actually a model or something? But for some reason, she attached herself to me and kept complimenting me? It was a little overwhelming. Plus she was super touchy—something I think is partially a culture difference. I’m not used to people grabbing my arm while talking to me. Honestly, though, I was just glad to finally have another tall woman in the class. It’s awkward to be a full head taller than every other woman around me. And, of course, it’s even better to be making yet another friend here!

Unfortunately, class was not all good though. A lot of people spend too much of class messing around on their phones and just not being present or putting in effort (I don’t get it… this isn’t cheap, and there are better language schools to pick if your goal is to come here to mess around). Today, the teacher got fed up with those people and gave a lecture about it. I understand his frustration fully. From a teacher’s perspective, it’s hard to teach to a class that isn’t mentally present. But also, from a student’s perspective, listening to a lecture like that is just uncomfortable. Really makes me think about the times when I got frustrated at similar behavior (though at least my students weren’t paying for the privilege to be there). If I do ever go back to teaching, I want to keep that feeling in my mind. Honestly, I now think that every teacher should go back and take classes in a true classroom setting like this (preferably with a teacher similar to themselves) to really understand what it’s like.

After class, the Chinese model invited me to go with her to lunch, and I agreed. I’m really awkward in one-on-one set-ups, but I did my best. I still don’t really understand, but she kept complimenting me throughout lunch as well. I don’t know if I’ve been called beautiful this many times before. It’s a little embarrassing.

But then I went home and did four hours of homework/studying (two tests Wednesday!) with a short nap break in the middle. I’m really not used to studying this much.

—

May 11, 2022

Double test day. At the start of class, there was a kanji test. I’m feeling a 100 this time (I got a 95 last time because one of my kanji was slightly misshapen—oh well). We’ll see though. Then, at the end of class, we had our conversation test. Thankfully, I was paired with a good partner and we were given a relatively simple scenario to talk through. It was super stressful, though. But it’s over now, and I can be thankful for that.

After class, I signed up for some events coming up in the next few weeks (one involves making traditional Japanese sweets, so I’m hoping that’s fun), then tagged along with some people going to lunch.

After lunch, the others had plans to go watch a movie. I walked with them to the theater, not really intending to actually go in with them, but I changed my mind and joined anyway. So I ended up watching the new Doctor Strange movie with Japanese subtitles (that I could read a surprising amount of) at the movie theater with Godzilla peaking out the top. Kinda cool.

By the time we got out of the movie, it was already 6pm. By the time I got back to the dorm it was practically 7. So I went to pick up food at the supermarket before taking care of homework again. The joys of being a student.

But on a fun note, I did get to see a toad tonight! It’s always a good day when I see a toad!

[damselindigress]

Hoping the luck I didn’t have this week went to one of y’all and that maybe you had a spectacular week :D

#my teacher doesn’t give exact deadlines #and I was missing a couple things I needed for a project that I was planning to finish that night #and she’s like “haha PROJECT TIME” and I just blurted out “I DONT HAVE ALL THE PAGES #in front of my peers #I almost cried and I think the mortification of realizing how much dignity I just gave up so easily took a few years off my life #but a lot of other people bombed it too because if one thing is off #you get no points... and she’s like “you had all year!” and I’m like yes but ma’am I also have 6-7 other classes with a ton of stuff #but enough people failed that she made it so we could come in today and fix it. thing is she sent that out online and I didn’t see it #until after hours. so #I’ve made the decision to go into dignity debt and message this woman #practically begging her to take this project from me. because I don’t exactly need the points but half credit is better than no credit #and I’d rather not have extra stress when I know I’m probably going to fail an exam in another class. #plus there’s been stuff outside of classes that are stressing me out #and idk. really hoping Lady Luck is out here on y’all’s side this next week. she can’t help us all lol #anyway. #I took the class as an elective because I was actually enjoying learning about the topic #but now I’m just not. Really feeling into it. I wanted to learn and enjoy the class :/ #anyway sorry for the really long tags and the oversharing. some good stuff has happening too #so even though things don’t feel Good right now #there are still things that spark joy. gotta keep moving like a river. I ain’t gonna stop for no jagged rock #im gonna roll right over it. is the sleepiness coming through over this? #probably. im gonna sleep #have happy days y’all

[mango-bango-bby]

Heeyy Mango Boo! I read again your Hawks Masterlist and that one with Hayato wanting a sibling made me think: image Hawks darling having twins? Like, they looks like her clones but like male version. And she just like 'im going to be the only girl in this family?' Love your work honey!

♡ Twins!? ♡

(A/N: I know one of my last fics was a domestic fic but I loved this idea plus I’ve been in a domestic mood lately!! I think this idea is really cute 💖 I hope you like this!! I apologize for not having a fic put out on Thursday, I’ve been busy with classes and work and the Holiday Cheer Event)

Content Warning ⚠️: Yandere, domestic stuff, kids, hospitals, birth

Summary: You give birth to twins! (Yan!Hawks x Fem!reader)

Masterlist ➸ ♡

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Hayato really wanted a little sibling. He was always asking you and Keigo if you could give him a sibling. And he had been practicing counting down the days until you’d finally give birth to his younger sibling.

Ever since he found out that you were pregnant, he had just been waiting until the day. Honestly, Keigo has been waiting for you to give birth too! He was excited to meet his next child, plus you wouldn’t be in pain because of your pregnancy anymore.

Hayato jitters in his seat as he waits, he’s so excited to meet his siblings. Keigo comes out of your hospital room to check on his son. He was a bit hesitant at first, afraid you would somehow be taken away from him or you would tell the hospital staff how he kidnapped you but he knew it was the best decision.  

“Please, please, papa! I wanna meet my little brother or sister!” Hayato whines, pulling on his fathers pant leg so he’d hopefully let him see his little sibling. “Bud, mama’s gotta rest, I can ask her if you can come in but it’ll be the third time you’ve had me ask her in the past ten minutes” Keigo says, bending down a bit to ruffle his sons hair.

“Ok, I’ll wait!” Hayato says, jumping back into his seat outside your hospital room to show Keigo that he could be good and wait. Keigo smiles at him before going back into your room to see what you’d say.

To Hayato’s delight, Keigo comes out to tell him you said it was alright for him to come in now. Both of them enter; Hayato rushing over, quietly as not to disturb anything, to the two babies in different cribs. Two babies! He had two little brothers! One has the name Takami Tsubasa on the crib and the other is named Takami Kaito.

“Twins!? They both look like you, papa!” Hayato whisper yells, looking over at both of you. “This one looks a bit more like you” He continues, looking over at you and pointing to the one that seemed to have got your hair.

You smile at him, motioning him over. “Can I hold them?” Hayato asks you, crawling into the hospital bed with you. “Let the babies rest, Haya” You say, not acknowledging your sons pout.

“Hey birdy, you think all of our children are gonna get my wings?” Kei asks, snickering a bit. Hayato had been born with the same quirk as his father, and it seemed that Tsubasa and Kaito did as well. Although Tsubasa’s wings were a more pastel red than Keigo’s.

“I hope not, I’m gonna be raising three sons who all have the ability to fly” You say to Keigo, laughing a bit at your own words. Even if you knew it would be stressful sometimes, you loved your boys and you love Keigo even if it took a while to get to were you are now.

“Don’t worry, baby bird. I’m sure the next one will be a girl. And maybe she won’t have my quirk” Keigo says, reaching over to push back some of your hair.

“Wait- the next one?”

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#soft yandere #domestic yandere #yandere bnha #yandere!hawks #yandere hawks #yandere hawks x reader #yandere!keigo #yandere keigo #yandere keigo x reader #yandere takami keigo

[arctickat2400]

Stress & Cheering Up <> Harry Styles

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Y/N/N = Your Nickname

You’ve been very stressed lately, and the boys were not helping. You’ve been going out of your mind trying to get your story done for your creative writing class, but the boys were being a bit too loud for you to concentrate. Not to mention you’re 5 months pregnant, you feel much more anxious and insecure than usual, and the baby’s been kicking so much throughout the night to where you can barely get any sleep. Meaning, you were exhausted as it is, and that plus the boys loud, obnoxious messing around made you want to scream, cry, pull your hair out, all at the same time.

You’re sitting at the kitchen bar by the living room where Harry, Niall, Louis, Liam, Ashton, Luke, Michael, and Calum were hanging out. Why they had to hang out today, and here at yours and Harry’s house, doesn’t make sense to you, but you couldn’t do anything about it. Trying to work on your story, you were having too much of a hard time doing so as the loud noises in the room behind you started to make your head hurt.

You were distracted by your thoughts until Louis popped up next to you, making you jump slightly. “Hey, Y/N, what percent is your phone on? My phone’s almost dead and I forgot a charger,” He asked, gesturing to your iPhone that was connected to your charger which was connected to your laptop.

You check your phone, just barely moving your head towards him in order to minimize the pain in your head. “82. Have at it,” You murmur quietly, but with an annoyed tone. It wasn’t directed to him or anyone else in particular really. You just had a ton on your mind and life was driving you crazy. You unplugged your charger from your phone and laptop, placing it in front of him before he took it along with a charging box and left back for the living room, not missing your scrunched up expression.

“What’s with her?” Louis asked Harry as he joined his friends. He just had to ask the question. All the boys turned toward Harry for answers. They could all tell you had stuff going on. But boys could be very stupid and ignorant sometimes, and this was just one of those times.

“”She’s just been really stressed lately. She’s going crazy trying to get her story done and she hardly gets any sleep these days ‘coz the baby keeps her up at night,” Harry answers, looking over to his wife sympathetically. He wished there was something he could do for you, make life easier, or at least manageable. The boys nod in understanding, feeling a bit sympathetic themselves. They’ve loved you ever since Harry met you several years ago. You were like a little sister to them, although sometimes you’d be more of a mother figure when the many, many situations occurred.

The boys continued to talk, laughing about who knows what about who knows who, when you jump in surprise as Harry’s hands wrap around your waist. You relax, knowing it was him, as he smooths his hands over your protruding belly, rubbing over the sore spots with his thumbs.

“[Are] You doing okay, baby?” Harry questions, placing kisses over your shoulder. You breathe in and out deeply a few times before answering, trying to calm yourself down so as not to be short with him like you hated that you were with Louis.

You offer him a small, forced smile, even though he could see through the pain in your expression. “Yeah, I’m fine. Don’t worry about me. Go hang out with your friends. I know it’s been awhile since you’ve all been able to hang out outside of your music and such,” You tell him. He knew you weren’t fine, though. But, it seemed you just needed your alone time.

“Baby, why don’t you go upstairs? It’ll be quieter up there. I can make you something and bring it up when it’s ready,” Harry suggested. But, that didn’t seem like an option to you.

“No, no, it’s okay. I’m afraid if I go upstairs, I’ll see the bed and then I’ll lay down and then I won’t get any work done, so I need to be here.” You replied, leaning back in your chair, relishing in the feel of your husband’s hands on your belly.

“Okay, well just let me know if I can do anything for you and I’ll tell the boys to keep it down,” Harry mentioned, pressing a kiss to your temple.

Just before Harry pulled his hands from you to walk back to the living room, “Hey, Y/N/N…” You both hear the troubled voice that was Calum. You sigh heavily, knowing something went wrong. You look to the side and see Calum with your charger in his hands.

“I guess you could say we were playing around and Niall tripped over your chord and it broke,” You look down at the chord and see that it was split in the middle. How you didn’t hear all that commotion was beyond you.

You feel tears sting your eyes as you reach out for the chord, taking it from Calum as you hear him and the rest of the boys in the living room say, “Sorry Y/N.”

You didn’t have the energy to do anything about it. Once Calum walked away, the tears began spilling down your cheeks as you let your head fall back against Harry’s shoulder. You felt his arm wrap gently, but comfortingly tighter around your waist. You could feel his movements as he silently sent the boys outside to the backyard. He wraps his other arms around you, pressing a kiss to your forehead.

“Baby, I’m so sorry. I really wish there was something I could do to help you. Please, what can I do? Anything and everything,” Harry almost begged as you could feel his lips move against your head. You sniffle as you cover his hands with yours over your belly.

“I don’t know. I feel like I just need to sleep. But, I’m afraid I won’t be able to and I really just need to get this story done. And I feel really hungry, but also not. I need help, Harry,” You cry out softly to Harry as he turns you around and holds you in his arms.

Harry thinks about ways he could help you and decides that he’ll make you some brownies, knowing they’re your favorite, and to get you to relax, to convince you to take a break. It was hard, but after some compromising, he allows you to attempt a bit more at writing while he makes the brownies. Once in the oven, Harry decides that you’re done writing for the day and closes your laptop. He helps you from the barstool, wrapping an arm around your waist, the other holding your hand as he helps you upstairs to your room.

Settling you in bed, Harry makes the room as dark as possible, helping you get comfy, piling pillows and big, fluffy blankets on and around you. He turns on the tv, handing you the remote so you could choose what you want to watch as he turns the fan on so you wouldn’t get too hot.

Just as Harry was about to walk out of the room, “Harry, where are you going? Can you stay with me?” You request, pulling a smile from him.

“Of course, baby girl. I’m just gonna go tell the boys to come back another time, alright? I’ll be right back,” Harry answers her, kissing her forehead before leaving.

Soon enough, Harry comes back with the tray of brownies in his hands, knowing that his girl could eat a whole tray if she wanted to, so this way you had the option. You were eating for two, so no one could judge. You smiled when he walked through the door, and he was happy he was able to get a real, genuine smile from you, no matter how small.

Placing the brownies in front of you, Harry curls up next to you as you turn on an episode of Friends. While you eat and watch, Harry snuggles up beside you and gently lays his head above your belly, placing a kiss there, wrapping his arms around your waist, holding you close as he massages your sore tummy.

One thing was for sure, you could always count on Harry to make you feel better, no matter what.

#harry styles #harry styles imagines #harry styles x reader #fluff #angst #louis tomlinson #niall horan #calum hood #luke hemmings #michael clifford #ashton irwin