#or bother me if i stopped

[inkskinned]

the thing about art is that it was always supposed to be about us, about the human-ness of us, the impossible and beautiful reality that we (for centuries) have stood still, transfixed by music. that we can close our eyes and cry about the same book passage; the events of which aren't real and never happened. theatre in shakespeare's time was as real as it is now; we all laugh at the same cue (pursued by bear), separated hundreds of years apart.

three years ago my housemates were jamming outdoors, just messing around with their instruments, mostly just making noise. our neighbors - shy, cautious, a little sheepish - sat down and started playing. i don't really know how it happened; i was somehow in charge of dancing, barefoot and laughing - but i looked up, and our yard was full of people. kids stacked on the shoulders of parents. old couples holding hands. someone had brought sidewalk chalk; our front walk became a riot of color. someone ran in with a flute and played the most astounding solo i've ever heard in my life, upright and wiggling, skipping as she did so. she only paused because the violin player was kicking his heels up and she was laughing too hard to continue.

two weeks ago my friend and i met in the basement of her apartment complex so she could work out a piece of choreography. we have a language barrier - i'm not as good at ASL as i'd like to be (i'm still learning!) so we communicate mostly through the notes app and this strange secret language of dancers - we have the same movement vocabulary. the two of us cracking jokes at each other, giggling. there were kids in the basement too, who had been playing soccer until we took up the far corner of the room. one by one they made their slow way over like feral cats - they laid down, belly-flat against the floor, just watching. my friend and i were not in tutus - we were in slouchy shirts and leggings and socks. nothing fancy. but when i asked the kids would you like to dance too? they were immediately on their feet and spinning. i love when people dance with abandon, the wild and leggy fervor of childhood. i think it is gorgeous.

their adults showed up eventually, and a few of them said hey, let's not bother the nice ladies. but they weren't bothering us, they were just having fun - so. a few of the adults started dancing awkwardly along, and then most of the adults. someone brought down a better sound system. someone opened a watermelon and started handing out slices. it was 8 PM on a tuesday and nothing about that day was particularly special; we might as well party.

one time i hosted a free "paint along party" and about 20 adults worked quietly while i taught them how to paint nessie. one time i taught community dance classes and so many people showed up we had to move the whole thing outside. we used chairs and coatracks to balance. one time i showed up to a random band playing in a random location, and the whole thing got packed so quickly we had to open every door and window in the place.

i don't think i can tell you how much people want to be making art and engaging with art. they want to, desperately. so many people would be stunning artists, but they are lied to and told from a very young age that art only matters if it is planned, purposeful, beautiful. that if you have an idea, you need to be able to express it perfectly. this is not true. you don't get only 1 chance to communicate. you can spend a lifetime trying to display exactly 1 thing you can never quite language. you can just express the "!!??!!!"-ing-ness of being alive; that is something none of us really have a full grasp on creating. and even when we can't make what we want - god, it feels fucking good to try. and even just enjoying other artists - art inherently rewards the act of participating.

i wasn't raised wealthy. whenever i make a post about art, someone inevitably says something along the lines of well some of us aren't that lucky. i am not lucky; i am dedicated. i have a chronic condition, my hands are constantly in pain. i am not neurotypical, nor was i raised safe. i worked 5-7 jobs while some of these memories happened. i chose art because it mattered to me more than anything on this fucking planet - i would work 80 hours a week just so i could afford to write in 3 of them.

and i am still telling you - if you are called to make art, you are called to the part of you that is human. you do not have to be good at it. you do not have to have enormous amounts of privilege. you can just... give yourself permission. you can just say i'm going to make something now and then - go out and make it. raquel it won't be good though that is okay, i don't make good things every time either. besides. who decides what good even is?

you weren't called to make something because you wanted it to be good, you were called to make something because it is a basic instinct. you were taught to judge its worth and over-value perfection. you are doing something impossible. a god's ability: from nothing springs creation.

a few months ago i found a piece of sidewalk chalk and started drawing. within an hour i had somehow collected a small classroom of young children. their adults often brought their own chalk. i looked up and about fifteen families had joined me from around the block. we drew scrangly unicorns and messed up flowers and one girl asked me to draw charizard. i am not good at drawing. i basically drew an orb with wings. you would have thought i drew her the mona lisa. she dragged her mother over and pointed and said look! look what she drew for me and, in the moment, i admit i flinched (sorry, i don't -). but the mother just grinned at me. he's beautiful. and then she sat down and started drawing.

someone took a picture of it. it was in the local newspaper. the summary underneath said joyful and spontaneous artwork from local artists springs up in public gallery. in the picture, a little girl covered in chalk dust has her head thrown back, delighted. laughing.

#writeblr #warm up #this is longer than i wanted i really considered removing that part about myself and what i went thru #but i think it really fucking bothers me that EVERY time i talk about being an artist #ppl assume i just like. had the skill and ability to drop everything and pay for grad school. #like sir i grew up poor. my house wasn't a safe space. i gave up a FREE RIDE TO LAW SCHOOL. for THIS. bc i chose it. #was it fucking hard? was i choosing the hard thing?? yes. #but we need to stop seeing artists as lazy layabouts that can ''afford'' to just ''sit around and create'' #when MANY - if not MOST - of us are NOT like that. we have to work our fucking ASSES off. hard work. long and hard work #part of valuing artists is recognizing the amount we sacrifice to make our art. bc it doesn't just #like HAPPEN to us. also btw it rarely has anything to do with true talent. #speaking as someone with a chronic condition i hate when ppl are like u have it easy. like actively as i'm writing this my hands r #ACTIVELY hurting me. i haven't been posting bc my left hand was curled in a claw for the last week #this isn't fucking luck. after a certain point it's not even TALENT. it's dedication & sacrifice. #''u get to flounce around and do nothing with ur life'' is a narrative that is a direct result of capitalism #imagine if we said that about literally any other profession. #''oh so u give up 10 yrs of ur life to be a doctor? u sacrifice having a social life and u get SUPER in debt? #u need to work countless hours and it will often be thankless? well i wish i was that lucky'' #we should be applying that logic to landlords ONLY #''oh ur mom and dad gave u the money to buy a house? and all u did was paint it white and rent it? huh.''

[captainjonnitkessler]

I truly, TRULY do not know how to say this, because the fact that I have to say it makes me feel like I am losing my grip on reality. But no, in the post-capitalistic anarchist utopia, I will not be relying on “autistic minecraft girlies” to be building inspectors because - and this may shock you - one of those occupations takes years of education in how to read and interpret hundreds of thousands of lines of regulations based on complicated math and physics that were the result of decades of tragedy and death, and the other one involves playing a children’s video game.

#i am begging this website. BEGGING it. to stop acting like building codes are state oppression #and please stop reducing blue collar jobs to 'so easy any handyman could do it with a youtube video' #that's how people fucking die #i didn't spend five years learning how to do my job safely to watch people online tell me it could've just been a course in high school #i know that this is like. a minority minority opinion and not really worth getting worked up over #but it's so annoying to see supposed leftists denigrating blue collar jobs like this #same poster also opined that we won't need garbagemen #because 'if the trash is bothering people they'll figure out a way to clean it without having to pick it up' #like what??? does that even fucking mean???? #construction

[hermit-frog]

#Interview with the Vampire #claudia de pointe du lac #Lestat De Lioncourt #iwtv #iwtvedit #tvedit #Vampterview #*gif #had to take this out of my system. been bothering me since i saw that trailer. idk if it was made before #loui u let ur man to yell at ur man (who's also his man)? rip his head off #lestat got that ghost movement effect. interesting. like some stop motion

[ahbogman]

tfw you’re stuck in a defective portal of truth w one of your worst enemies and you just had to eat a boot to survive

#first time legitimately drawing ling alert!!! #and now i just wanna draw him more!!!! #the fact that ling was wearing white pants and they weren’t completely stained with blood always bothered me so i fixed it a little bit lol #i actually can’t stop making fma art it’s a problem……. #fma #fmab #fullmetal alchemist #fullmetal alchimist brotherhood #fma fanart #edward elric #ling yao

[samipekoe]

who up drawing human pearl hit like

#i didnt realize its 4am oh god #splatoon #pearl houzuki #i love herrr rahhh rahhhh!!! #i drew the bottom one first but you can see another drawing bleedin thru on the top #so that bothered me and i didnt it again #and i cant stop cooking...bc they both rock

[heckling-hydrena]

watcher moving to their own streaming service is such a hilariously bad decision I'm actually in shock. 3mil subscribers averaging 500k views on videos that aren't ghost/mystery files with an audience that skews young and all while the economy is struggling for its life... brother you are going bankruptttt

#not fr #I stopped watching their stuff a long time ago ironically enough because the increase in production value bothered me #and I'm still like. what. what? #watcher

[citricacidprince]

Y'all need to be fucking nicer to men/masc queers

I was talking to an old friend/short lived boyfriend from highschool and the topic of sexualities came up. He identified as bisexual throughout highschool but told me that recently he doesn't know what he was and just preferred to remain 'unlabeled' until he figured it out. I told him to his face "thats valid man and being unlabeled doesn't make you any less queer than when you were labeled"

God you should've seen his fucking face, he looked so happy and also like he was about to goddamn cry. He told me that no one ever told him that. That he tried to join queer spaces but they said he didn't fit in cause he wasn't 'gay' enough. Told me that I was the first person to ever confidently tell him he was queer and that he didn't need to change himself to 'fit in'.

I gave my friend one of my mini pride flags I had lying around and the dopey grin he had on his face while waving that thing around for the rest of the night made me smile too. When he finally went home he thanked me for the flag and for reassuring him when he felt insecure for 'not being gay enough'.

I want y'all to know that whole time he telling me about people not accepting him for "not looking queer" made me fucking pissed. Oh, because he's not petite, feminine, and white he can't be queer? Because he doesn't look like a fashionable and conventionally pretty gay on you'd find on your TikTok homepage he can't be queer?

THIS ISN'T EVEN THE FIRST TIME I'VE HAD THIS CONVERSATION WITH A FRIEND BEFORE

In highschool I had ANOTHER friend who had this same problem but in a different font. He liked cute things, he liked flowing fabrics and skirts, he even liked being called princess! But because he was fat and not conventionally attractive he felt like he couldn't be queer. Because from what he saw, queer people don't look like him.

If you're one of those people who would gatekeep ANYONE who doesn't fit into your Pinterest board ideal version of queer from the LGBTQ+ community, you can fuck right off because anyone who would just shut of someone out of our community for something so petty and dumb and ignorant doesn't deserve the keys to the fucking door in the first place.

Start treating people who don't fit into your saturated and commercialized view of queer with more respect and kindness before I start biting off your fucking arms

#i made this at like 7am cause i was in am anger spiral so theres probably spelling errors but i cant be bothered to check them #this has been nawing at my brain for days now and i dont get it one paper its gonna kill me #im not gonna tag this with 'que slur' or whatever you guys are tagging it now cause its not a slur stop treating it like its one #its an umbrella term for the whole gay community and i will smack you witb a broom of all you take from this is 'oh you said a slur 😶' #i will attacka and killa you dont test me #im not normally this violent i swear; i just get violent when people start upsetting my friends #lgbt #lgbtq+ #lgbtq positivity #masc enby #masculine enby #masc nonbinary #queer #queer representation #queer community #tw cursing #tw swearing #tw arguing #tw aggressive #prince rambles in this chilies tonight #lgbtqia #nonbinary #non bianry #enby #amab nonbinary #amab enby #prince's gold star posts

[youngpettyqueen]

was talking with someone irl about Star Trek the other day and this person really hates Discovery for many stupid reasons (misogyny) and he was whining about like. casual swearing. in Star Trek. like he was mad they said fuck. and he looks at me and he's like "it completely sucks you out of the experience right??" and I just looked at him and went "no it makes me want a modern DS9 show of some kind cause I think Kira Nerys deserves to say fuck" which wasn't the answer he wanted I dont think

#star trek #like to be clear this guy really just hates Discovery because 'every person in power is a woman' #and the casual swearing. apparently #I will no longer be talking Star Trek with this person dfhskdjfhjksd #like no sorry casual swearing doesnt bother me and I think Star Trek has used it fairly well #people need to stop being lil bitches about casual swearing #'it takes me out of the experience' this is an adult show for adults. perhaps go watch cocomelon. #grown ass man btw #several years my senior #anyways give me a DS9 continuation just so Kira can say fuck

[anervousmirrorball]

labyrinth - taylor swift

#girl what the fuck #girl what is this #girl get help #girl stop #logging out cause i cant eben bear to look at the mess that this is #tswiftedit #midnights #labyrinth #taylor swift #taylor swift edit #taylor swift midnights #midnights album #tswiftart #tswift midnights #tswiftgraphic #tswiftlyrics #ts art #tsedit #ts #this was more as a result of me trying to not think about something bothering me and its honestly a mess idek what was going on in my head #i feel like this has been done before but i dont even remember and i tried searching stuff but there was nothing like this #its been happening a lot with me so idk #anyways bye #going to the lakes not gonna come back im embarrassed

[adobe-outdesign]

browsing through Pokemon fan discussions is so strange because people will insist that every time that "[update] will fix/improve the game" and then it doesn't happen and then people buy it and are disappointed and then they go "well [update] will fix/improve the game" and it's like buddy you're Charlie Brown and GameFreak is Lucy with the football

#pokemon #pkmn #pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon sv #outdesign posts things #like I really enjoy the base game don't get me wrong #but stop pretending like GameFreak is ever going to fix stuff like performance issues. you knew what you were getting going into it #not sure if I'll bother with the DLCs they seem kind of underwhelming. maybe if I get some eshop money for the holidays

[justepilepsy]

Okay uhm - I need to say this because I am noticing this a bit in the responses to Somerton's "Apology" video. Do people really think, just because ableism in the workplace is forbidden, that workplaces don't discriminate?

Even if insurance stuff covers your health issues, I won't put it past an employer to let you go with the made up argument it doesn't. Because non-epileptic people are generally very uncomfortable with seeing seizure activity and some of them will prioritize their comfort over sticking to anti-discrimination laws.

I think Somerton's video is full of BS, but I am even more uncomfortable with how happy people are to dismiss Somerton's medical history/symptoms, just so they can argue against him. As if people with disabilities can be absolved for being dicks by accepting their stated medical and discrimination history.

When you don't even have to do so to point out the harm Somerton's logic does?

I mean - I think it's warranted to question James' statements because of his complicated relationship with telling the truth, but I am just kind of bothered by how people argue "this could not have happened because laws/policies" No. Let it have happened. It makes his apology worse if you choose to believe him on this, trust me.

If our response to disabled people acting terrible (stealing other people's material and presenting it as your own), is to accuse said disabled people of lying about their symptoms and diagnosis, I think we are missing the point and problem.

#epilepsy #james somerton #actually epileptic #youtube #ableism #i did write a script on this and i will record a video on this because i am annoyed at somertons video but also annoyed at this reaction #i do think he is possibly exaggerating parts of his story but i can not tell because what he is talking about is stuff #that shows up in the epilepsy community fairly often #how am i supposed to tell he is lying about these things when these experiences HAPPEN and can be found online #sorry people i swear i will stop writing about this but it bothers me

[stuckinapril]

am i being dramatic for making sure that every blog i follow is pro palestine? like even sending asks to check?

No, not dramatic at all! In fact I think there needs to be more pressure on blogs to spread news and fundraisers about Palestine, especially if they’re on the bigger end. This is my stance and I stand by it. Anyone who’s being completely silent—especially anyone on here with a platform—is showing a gross lack of disregard for human life. You don’t get to “this is my blog and I post what I want on it” your way out of a genocide. This is an aggressive stance because it needs to be.

#And don’t bother sending me anons on this i said what I said #Being silent on this is fucking weirdo behavior #I’m not saying blogs should stop posting what they regularly post as well #But that’s not the same as saying nothing

[supanuts]

i'm a gun, i'm a gun, til the day that man destroys me, i'm a gun

#today i bring you: more kenta feelings #pit babe #pit babe the series #garfield pantach #benz atthanin #pitbabeedit #sasa gifs #you really don't need to listen to the song lmao #but if you must #1:10 onwards #no one knows what it means to be held in a hand; to be pointed and triggered to kill #to be labeled a gun with no power to stop all the blood that man shooting will spill #oof #free kim #as in there's kim in one gif but also #PLEASE FREE KIM #the last two gifs being so similar is bothering me a bit but they're both important ok

[babygirlificationn]

Ace attorney au where everything is the same except smartphones and social media are a thing that exists.

#ace attorney #aa #miles edgeworth #phoenix wright #manfred von karma #dick gumshoe #fanart #digital art #my art :D #art #meme redraw #kdksks kinda wanted to do different versions for that first one #like one where miles sends the photo of vk to fransisca and she goes pls stop using papas mugshot as a reaction pic #and one where francisca is the one who sends the photo to miles #but I can't really be bothered to do taht so. one version is enough. #tried really hard to capture miles soulless stare hope i did it justice ✨😘❤️ #it took me two days to realise that the was a random horizontal line in the middle of the vk mugshot meme. when were yall gonna tell me #anyway i fixed it now but god damn #redraw edgeworth #1k

[sad-endings-suck]

“ew no, 😫 i hate that ship!”

okay?? so go cry about it. tf you want from me?

#if it bothers you that much then filter the ship name and stop interacting with the content #i ain’t got shit to do with you fyp algorithm. you did that #fix your ‘you problems’ on the tag for ‘you problems’ instead of on the tag of the ship you ‘’hate’’ #idk what you want from me i just go here #fandom ships #blue eye samurai #avatar the last airbender #the rings of power #fandom shenanigans #fandom shitpost #zutara #taang #taizu #taimizu #sydcarmy #brio #kastle #matt x elektra #v x takemura #ruby x otis #fandom #fandom shipping #fandom stuff #cyberpunk 2077 #the bear fx #sex ed netflix #good girls nbc #the punisher #daredevil netflix

[boyvibrator]

T4T detrans kink not from transphobic trauma but from the longing of feeling desirable when you used to be a girl, when cis guys would want you. when you had long hair and hardly any body hair and straight boys flirted with you.

but you were trans. you felt awkward in that mold of girl and boy. you were probably gay too, and you liked these boys. but not in the same way they liked you, not the same way other girls around you liked boys. and you missed out on a lot of fun experiences growing up because of this

and now you’re on T. and that’s amazing. and maybe cis gay guys are even into you, and that’s cool. but they just… don’t really get you. and you don’t really get them. sometimes you kinda wish you could be that young girl again, and have the guys you’re interested in wanting your attention and putting in the work to have you as their girlfriend. you used to have that, but you missed out on those opportunities

and let’s say you try to hook up with straight guys. the problem is. not that many are gonna be into you, you’re too hairy, too many, voice too deep, and even if they are okay with that they just wanna fetishize your trans body. they’re not seeing you how you want to be seen. you want to be GIRL. you want to be feminine again and wanted

but with a trans guy? happily seeing you as a girl? seeing right through you, loving those curves and your soft skin and recognizing the girl underneath your transition? he understands and he gets it. and you see HIM how he needs to be seen. as the young man going after girls like he never got to when he was young before his transition. because cis girls just don’t get it. but you get it.

#detrans kink #detranskink #ftm misgendering #ftm girl #ANYONE ELSE OR JUST ME???? #like i understand liking this kink because you have trauma but #I don’t have that experience I’ve never been bothered when cis society misgenders me #or puts me down or puts me through that sexism bullshit and wants me to stop transitioning #I miss the girlhood. I miss what I didn’t get to have because I was an akward trans kid #I miss the boys o didn’t get to date because something felt off #and I miss the girls I never got to date because I wasn’t seen as a boy #closest I had was middle school lesbian dating #but even then it wasn’t quite right