#several years my senior

[youngpettyqueen]

was talking with someone irl about Star Trek the other day and this person really hates Discovery for many stupid reasons (misogyny) and he was whining about like. casual swearing. in Star Trek. like he was mad they said fuck. and he looks at me and he's like "it completely sucks you out of the experience right??" and I just looked at him and went "no it makes me want a modern DS9 show of some kind cause I think Kira Nerys deserves to say fuck" which wasn't the answer he wanted I dont think

#star trek #like to be clear this guy really just hates Discovery because 'every person in power is a woman' #and the casual swearing. apparently #I will no longer be talking Star Trek with this person dfhskdjfhjksd #like no sorry casual swearing doesnt bother me and I think Star Trek has used it fairly well #people need to stop being lil bitches about casual swearing #'it takes me out of the experience' this is an adult show for adults. perhaps go watch cocomelon. #grown ass man btw #several years my senior #anyways give me a DS9 continuation just so Kira can say fuck

[oatbugs]

my research partner and i are huddled in a blanket in paddington waiting for a too-late train i already miss you and you and you

#he keeps falling asleep almost on my shoulder and waking up and readjusting but i want to tell him its ok weve seen a lot #of each other ive seen your brainwaves you called me crying a few nights ago. research partner right now is a potentiality #friend is a certainty. i met a banker passionate about finance. he said his advice made the lives of others better and he likes the numbers #more than he likes anything else. on a high rise near canary wharf the view was wonderful and the people even moreso #he said i loved her but i spent 33 grand on her and i cant do this anymore. his voice cracked talking about her. he did love her. #and she talked softly she grabbed my hand she bought me a pack of Marlborough gold she told me to snap #the russian menthol cigarettes of the tortured polish man near us with my teeth i kept staring at her teeth #bright white and sharp. i couldnt find her heartbeat but i did find warmth and i did find her lips and i did feel #how she felt pressed against a wall. a pretty boy held my hand and i gave him my number. i couldnt stop smiling about her no matter #how many runways youve walked on how many collections youve designed how many students youve taught. senior lecturer teaches me how to do #very unethical things ethically over a double shot of vodka made by the half-persian with broken farsi. she talks softly #and she says her eyes are hazel but they appear a shade of red. pure gold on her hands and leather on her back and her fingers on my lips #(she talks softly sees through me she says something i cant hear but i wont forget the way she flies) she talked to my research partner #about the possibility of moving to sunny dubai with the rest of her family and my heart felt pierced. on her arm i traces a tattoo of a #knife passing through a rose. she told me she thought there was romance in severing so i kissed her some more. #he sat me down and asked me what i loved and i told him and he said no romance no person no tragedy will take that from you. #the room was filled with a collection of people in love with something that wasnt a person and i kept looking at her. #red eyes bitten jawline beautiful hands. it is 3 degrees Celsius my head is on his shoulder i miss my friends #we walked out the lecture hall with arms linked a photo of two years ago and we both said #jesus christ. i miss you all. and i miss logic metatheory lectures. im glad i get to stare at the depth of your eyes #i wish i had met you years ago. #crushposting

[moregraceful]

accidentally invented a new form of no bedtime called 11pm glass of emergency-c + 4pm latte + 8pm cup of black tea + 9pm cup of black tea

#the real question is can i go to church on less than 5 hours of sleep and still function lol #i unlocked my instagram bc church wouldn't stop tagging me to direct people to me for stuff but that meant i had to delete a bunch of pho #tos AND rewrite a bunch of captions for photos i didn't WANT to delete bc i was too mean to random sharks prospects #which is fine if it is u know the anonymity of tumblr but not public instagram where my church won't stop FULL NAMING AND TAGGING ME #''anonymity of tumblr'' i doxx myself on here like 80 times a day in front of more people than i went to college with #anyway my point is i was going through deleting all evidence of politics pens fandom and legal documents and i was like damn #my attitude towards my team SUCKS. i gotta be way less of a hater!!! #what did my prospects ever do wrong besides everything NOTHING. the system is BROKEN. i am sorry i will be so much nicer guys :( #also if u really want to be humbled. scrolling back to 2012 on your instagram and re-experiencing senior year of college. BAD #i've deleted i think everything that would reasonably get our nonprofit status pulled but what a horrific journey it was #two full hockey intermission periods of deleting shit plus another hour at home doing several more passes and then rewriting captions #so that some poor 21 year old prospect randomly searching their name doesn't see me full ass call their teammate cringe #their teammate IS cringe. but i love him. but the nuances are lost on instagram people don't understand these things they take everything #at face value #don't know why i just assigned shakir mukhamadullin they/them pronouns #i think i need to go lie in bed with a blanket over my head until i suffocate #this ALWAYS happens i get too hype about mackenzie blackwood and start listening to selena gomez and then it's like almost 3am and i'm just #fresno oilers.txt #oh and. a friend sent me screenshots of the girl she's been flirting with on a dating app and they are SOOOOO cute #i hope they make a good run of it i really do bc it was SO cute. living vicariously through episcopalian lesbians as one does #but then i was trying to figure out how to edit my dating app profile to dissuade chasers but still honeytrap guys who are tall enough #or athletic enough to pick the tangerines at the top of the tangerine tree. bc i couldn't reach this week #but there were still like god maybe 150 tangerines on the tree. i was like this could be feeding people but i'm TOO SHORT #and my life will be like this. FOREVER #icb the future of this garden is so psychologically burdensome that i'm having to build it into a dating app profile lol #well now that i'd treated this entire tag set as twitter for and hour and a half #time to go try to lie in bed and stare at the ceiling and then wake up in [checks notes] four hours

[emcant]

25 years later, I pieced together something about my first fandom:

Beezus. Honey.

Your art's not in the corner of the bulletin board because it's bad ... Your last name is Quimby. It's set up alphabetically. It's not a reflection on you. Relax!

#granted you are 50 years my senior but ive never met an elementary teacher that petty #but i have met several that organized #beezus and ramona

[smallboyonherbike]

a special one bc it's 30 year anniversary of these songs!!

#poll #polls #tumblr poll #music poll #i made this whole poll then realized i missed the year in the title #and it bothered me enough to re do it lmao #anyways i did skip several songs to incl show me love bc my bff introduced #me to it years ago and i love it and house music in general so much now #also. this is the year i was born i sure am turning 30 soon huh #tumblr senior citizen

[the-cat-at-the-theatre-door]

Many, many thanks to all of you who participated in Elder Cats Appreciation Week! I cannot express the extent of my appreciation for those of you who participated, both big and small, every day or just one or two. It was wonderful to see a variety of new content and positivity for the older cats, and look at all the different ways you all contributed. This was so much fun and I hope to do this again sometime in the future!

I do encourage you that, in spite of the appreciation week being over, to continue playing with these characters and including them in your stories and HCs and fun - to reflect on why they are often left out/reduced to singular and otherwise flat roles/antagonized either due to their inherent age, or argued younger because they’re more “well liked” over others.  At the end of the day, the goal of this week was to shed some light and appreciation on characters that are often neglected in fandom, and the best way to continue that work is to open yourself further to those you may not otherwise consider. Even just a little bit. That’s how we continue to broaden our horizons.

Happy days to all <3

#anyway yeah - thanks for coming into my world for a little while <3 #oldiesweek #extemporize back chat #i have two more art pieces that i was late in producing that i will be posting soon in makeup - unfortunately my jobs made it #so that i didn't have enough time for all of them - but i will not neglect them <3 #i feel a little guilty but also i need to come to the realization that i produce the majority of content for these cats anyway #i also encourage you into looking into senior and adult cats in your area that may be in need of homes over their kitten counterparts #should you have the means to care for them #and - if you have older people in your life who you care for - to educate yourself on the current state of the elderly where you live #elder people are amongst the top neglected portions of the population in North America #1 in 10 individuals in these groups have reported abuse and neglect #10% of Canadian seniors are victim to crime every year with the number rapidly growing #and covid *severely* increased some of these statistics in cases of casual verbal abuse and violence #that the theatre and performance world greatly under values older actresses especially unless they are within a prime of diva-hood #and remember though it may seem far away - someday you will no longer be in your teens and twenties #your life does not end when you are 30 40 50 and beyond #opportunities in your life should not be limited as you age - your *worth* should never be limited or affected by your age #because if there is nothing else i hope people step away with it's education #anvil-y? yeah but some anvils need to be dropped

[seaswalllow]

it's September you know what that means

#<- has spent most of the day in an anxiety attack severe enough i basically dissociated out of my emotions #only to break down crying over the van gogh scene #....senior year is going great why do you ask! #delete later

[canichangemyblogname]

Shaking my head to myself today because I’m remembering this conversation I had with a girl (against my will) my freshman year of college. She insisted that *everyone* was solely attracted to the person, never the body, and that *no one* felt an exclusive or a primary attraction to only one gender. Her philosophy was that if you fostered a strong-enough relationship with someone, you would fall in love regardless of who they are if not for society.

I reminded her that her worldview was very singular and very specific to her own experiences, failing to consider anyone else’s lived experiences. For example: when I foster a platonic relationship with someone, my feelings for them stay platonic. I won’t ever fall “in love” with every last one of my friends. I then reminded her that it’s important to respect same-sex/gender attraction. Many L&G individuals have their sexuality disrespected through rhetoric similar to what she was using.

Not only did she then tell me that no one is “truly gay or lesbian,” but she then doubled down on *insisting* that everyone is attracted to everyone. She tried to prove this by asking my (still closeted) trans ass a series of questions. It went something like the following:

“Have you ever admired the shape of a girl’s breasts?” “No. I don’t think I have.” “You’ve never thought: wow, I wish my boobs looked like that?” “Gosh, no.” “Never thought: I wish my body or my hair looked like hers?” “Afraid not.” “Never wished your style or clothes looked like another girl’s? Or that her clothes looked on you the way they do on her?” “Definitely not.” “You’ve never admired the way clothes look on other girls?” “I really don’t think so.” “Have you ever even so much as appreciated your own features in women’s clothes?” “No.”

A part of me looks back at this and I kinda wonder, if she had asked me the inverse of those questions, would that have cracked my egg earlier? Instead, the conversation veered into left field as she began talking about great apes and incest.

#She apologized to me Senior year for this conversation #Telling me: ‘I still had a lot of growing to do.’ #I had a good friend at that table with us during this conversation #who delayed coming out for several more years because of it #she internalized a lot of what this girl was saying about queerness #to the point she doubted her own queerness #A part of this story is like ‘ha ha. 🥚 moment’ but I often keep it in mind #to remind myself #of the importance of seeking many perspectives #to be a better member of my communities #It’s possible to genuinely believe in something & for that belief to harm others #there are many out there who believe that genuinely believing something makes it a good belief

[artificialkids-2k23-official]

I actually was in the Artemis Fowl fandom, insofar as I was able to be in any fandom, when I was in high school... but there were only I think four books out at that point.

#i started with eternity code and then me and my friend did some scurrying to get hold of the other three so we could read them #might also be misremembering the number #okay just looked up the list because i was curious #it looks like they were up to opal deception when i read eternity code and then lost colony and the graphic novel came out my senior year #RIGHT after i had swapped my interest to something else #so while i read it i didn't internalize it the way i did the other four at the time (and couldn't get hold of the graphic novel) #i also don't remember what arctic incident and opal deception even are #i vaguely remember the first one and eternity code #maybe i SHOULD reread #also i do have COPIES of the books up to opal deception because i grab them at used book sales when i can #because i knew i'd want to circle back around #but all of my books are in storage right now #so they're not doing me any good there #but i DO have a copy of eternity code that i picked up at goodwill several weeks ago #because i thought i might like to reread it again #because it is the one i have the most fond memories for #partly because of the butler incident #...okay mostly because of the butler incident #me reading the butler incident at sixteen years old: boy i sure hope this doesn't awaken anything in me

[fearfaesims]

you ever get caught up in life and don’t go on socials for a while and then the idea of opening the app gives you so much anxiety months pass without being active and then one day you’re sick and bored and you’re like hmm I wonder what I’ve missed so you finally log on but you know this is just a brief break until the cycle starts again? yeah me neither

#aka I will only be active on here during summer and winter break #because I severely underestimated how much senior year at uni would kick my @ss

[divinefaultline]

best part of high school lit classes was being forced to act out the shakespeare plays we were reading which obviously resulted in some of the most lackluster performances of all time. i am forever bonded to my performance as donalbain from macbeth

#my best friend was malcolm (we planned this) #im also forever bonded to lady capulet but my ninth grade performance sucked tbh. i would slay it now #im just saying not EVERYONE can be a lady macbeth or a hamlet. SOMEONE has to be donalbain for his frequent appearances and minimal lines #had several other funny roles on account of taking a dedicated shakespeare class senior year but those are the big two for me #kells.txt #being donalbain was just me and my bestie walking up to the front of the class and her saying a few lines and then us sitting down

[lightsaber-life]

i need to be writing my nano project so badly, im two days behind but i have all day to write and could catch up no problem, but im avoiding it so hard that ive worked on projects ive been avoiding for LITERALLY A YEAR

#like all i have to do is write in 40 minute increments spread out over several hours and i'll be all caught up #but instead i am editing a teaser for my senior thesis film #which i've been meaning to do since we got picture lock LAST YEAR #the thought process behind this post is that hopefully if i complain publicly that'll convince me to work on it #but who knows #i'll report back in 3hrs and we'll see if i've made progress #im setting a timer now

[arthur-r]

going mildly insane while online thrifting somebody help me (/lh but /gen)

#i need: enough pairs of jeans for two living spaces. stuff to make the apartment feel like home. a record player for there (want not need #but i want it really bad. and also this way i could get one that i take with me for the rest of my life and my mom gets my black victrola #and there’s this combination radio-record player-cd player-cassette player and i kind of really want it for the future #cause like i just have a couple cds but i’m a record collector and radio enjoyer and very close friend cd collector #and anyway there’s the charity gala coming up (winter semi-formal at school) and then senior prom in a couple months #and last year i wore a donated beige suit like that i got for free because i couldn’t get one on my own #and now i have slightly more means but still not going to spend as much as a prom jacket costs and so #that’s how i ended up scrolling poshmark for upwards of an hour looking at everything in the world #there’s also some really cool neckties and t shirts that i really like. for me and presents #oh and there’s these incredible converse that i’m obsessed with like the opposite of my other converse #i have these really cool burnt orange and gold that i’m obsessed with that make me tall and have sparkly #and then there’s these really comfy looking brown and orange converse for not very much and they look so comfortable #but so the point is i genuinely need more items in my life if i’m going to live like this. but i’m also going overkill #and then i still don’t have like. a winter coat that keeps me warm i just don’t have one. and i could really use one but all of them make me #want to cry. because of my stupid color everything. and so it’s like. i’m willingly going cold in life because everything hurts too much #and it’s just kind of. i’m a little bit useless and ridiculous and i hate it. not having a good time of it #anyway i need a shower and then i’m doing a thing with my sister and then i’m on zoom about the script i didn’t sign up to write #and then maybe i’ll eventually have some clarity about what i actually need and what’s stupid #but yeah. idk. it’s just been some several hours of this while listening to dazey and the scouts radio. music to go insane to /gen #anyway i might need help choosing between suit jackets eventually. that’s something i really want to work out for me #and also maybe record player advice actually shdhdf. probably a lot of advice #but yeah i’m just a little bit been-in-my-bed-for-12-hours feeling. wish me luck #ask to tag. just shouting out into the world as my shopping problem (which does not extend to a buying problem) continues #does that make sense???? like i put hours of my life into online shopping. i don’t buy things and that’s not my problem. but i have this #obsessive way of being and i will just go through everything someone has ever sold and just repeat and repeat and it’s a problem. just not #the problem that people tend to have. when it comes to shopping. but it’s been true since i was like ten on wayfair it’s how i waste my life #and so here i am stuck inside that again. for good reason but still not doing it in a normal person way. again wish me luck #with being normal about it and also with finding the things i need. cause i physically don’t have enough clothes here to last me a week #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[legofemme]

My knees have a weird amount of flexibility and i can twist my leg around 180 . But not everyone knows that. Thinking abt when my foot got stuck on the field during band practice and my leg twisted around before i fell and everyone who saw thot i legit broke my leg or ankle. But all my sectionmates were like.no his leg just Does That

#vani verbals #like dont get me wrong band is what actively tanked my mental health to the point of having severe delusions my senior year #but sometimes it was good and fun #i still love playing but like. the drama and bullying.

[lesbianwilby]

howdy wil! Answer any or all of these if you want :D

violet— do you like to cook or bake? if so, what is it that you like to make?

azalea— what is the most recent song you listened to? how do you feel about it?

lotus— what is your favorite color and in what shade? e.g. sage green, navy blue, ect. dahlia— do you like to follow current fashion trends or do you have a particular style that you prefer to stick to?

HELLOOOOOOO thank u for adding the questions w ur ask i an in the middle of watching youtube videos n i dont have the brainpower to copy/paste these LMAO (so sory i didn't for u i do not think very well)

violet: i do sometimes!! theres not a lot of food or ingredients n shit in my house n cant rly buy like .any n also massive lack of energy so i cant a lot but i love cooking n baking even if its usually just helping my mom 🫶 im very fond of making things w chicken massive safe food 4 me in many ways

azalea: salamander by deco*27‼️ i adore this song SO much i just have to ignore that its about cup noodles and im good .most recent english song tho would be electioneering by radiohead which!! is actually my current favorite song off of ok computer :3

lotus: this is such a hard question for me to answer bc im so odd w colors 😭 i think?????? probly like a dark brick red.. overall i tend to stick more to color schemes vs specific colors n .all my color schemes tend to center around either red or neutrals so

dahlia: RAHHHHHH FASHION QUESTION so. for me its kinda a mix of both? it REALLY depends on the trend n who i see in it n how accessible it is to me n if i actually LIKE it.. like im not going to sit here n deny that my style has never been influenced by or even changed by trends bc thatd be a goddamn lie but also its not been like. a permanent change ig???? leme like share examples to fully explain

so heres two outfits i wore in 2021, first was sometime in summer second was during october or september probs?? now obviously these aren't like the same exact style but like in my brain n for how i dress they come close enough (also yes i had my hair dyed red two times in a row .no they were not the same shade or anything. btw think in second picture i already had my mullet why didnt i wear my hair up wth was up w that)

these r some more recent outfits!! first one is actually the most recent picture i have of any of my outfits i wore it to a job interview :3 and yes the three others have the same exact top and yes i am wearing the same two pairs of pants in these and yes i did wear both my necklace and pocket watch with them all and yes i did carry the same bag .my style has been toned down a LOT recently tbh n im ngl its def been at least partly influenced by trends.. i dont mind it tho its comfy n cute n i dont have to think much

however sometimes i do still go back to my "old" style that never rly left tbh (in the og pics the only thing i dont have anymore is the skirt n thats bc i dont wear those colors rly anymore).. first one was sometime this summer? second time i think was last month actually!!

n like even still w my toned-back style n shit i still make 3d kandi cuffs n i still listen to music that someone who would see me in passing wouldn't expect n even if these outfits r "tame" bc im way too lazy to go n find pictures from high school (my kandi cuffs used to get worn almost daily + my beloved reflective galaxy platforms have gotten so scuffed from the steps to the front 🫶) they're still pretty different in my mind i think to what i wear now so like .yeah what i wear out has been influenced by whatever trend i see on tiktok however its never been fully based on that 4 many reasons n the old parts of my style never rly "leave" they just get pushed back until a later time

#out there #i still have all of my bows n hair clips that overflow my accessory drawers n my tutus n my t-shirts from hot topic #bc even if its not me rn it was at one point n probs will be again #ngl. i very easily could've explained this both better + w/o these pictures LMAO #i just love showing off my outfits even old ones even tho these r TERRIBLE examples #unfortunately i don't have a lot of older examples bc i used to be rly insecure so i never took pictures EVER #so a lot of those outfits rly got lost to time #do have quite a few more recent outfits tho #including several where i wear my bralettes as tops .man those r cute outfits i love every single one #anyways .rly did use this as an excuse to share some of my (not greatest unfortunately) outfits oops ! #ty for asking that question at least tho 🫡 #ive always been a bit w fashion but it got a lot more extreme during my senior year #cuz yk .2020 tiktok had an impact on me n my style LMFAO #n that slowly ran out probs towards very end of 2021 where i never rly went out anywhere n if i did it was usually a basic outfit #n then .now again kinda following trends ig at least in what i see but to me its just like #ive always thought these styles were cute n now this gives me the push i needed to start wearing them #yk? #i think im rly just saying shit my brain is mush #ive had todays alpharad gold upload just paused on my tv while typing all this LMAK #pls dont judge my outfits too hard 🙏 #ik theyre all kinda copy/paste esp w the items i wear #n to most people on here u wouldn't call any of these n tbh i wouldn't either #but in my defense i have always struggled with very low energy levels SO #done rambling if i forgot something ill edit idfk #ty for the ask again btw :3 #ask #sparksnevadas #also fun fact! on tumblr mobile when answering asks u cant see ur whole tags w/o posting or saving to drafts #so if this seems very incoherent its bc i literally forgot what i just said n had no way to check n tried not to repeat things

[pinkandrainyclouds]

Anyway, I got out of work like four hours ago and I’m still pissed off

#and weirdly enough hurt #bc I still remember the time my coworker met my parents and told them they couldn’t have a ‘more excellent daughter’ #and now look at how she treats me!!! #constantly making passive aggressive comments… #let this be a lesson to you all: never befriend your female coworkers who are like 40+ years your senior #and start to think of them as someone you can confide in/someone to comfort you when you’re struggling at work bc truth is #they will betray you and start treating you like shit even though it’s blatantly obvious that they are partially to blame bc they #severely lack organizational skills and show up late every fucking day!!!!! #personal lol