#mean lesbians are at it again

[mygirljunhee]

In exactly the way you're not allowed to look at lesbian ally Choi San or I'll throw you in a pit

I’m sure if San saw how you harass me every day he’d be a lesbophobe 😔

#he just doesn’t KNOW #mean lesbians are at it again #hanya

[inkskinned]

yesterday while feverish i wrote about how boats can moor next to each other like pigeons, cooing with the gentle rap of water against their hull. you once said that that the way i see things - birds in the water, feathers in marina paint - was "childish and naive." you said i'd been misdiagnosed - "it can't all be adhd. you might be just kind of stupid and lazy."

i still do certain things like how you taught me - turn the pillow case inside out before putting it on. drive defensively. hate myself entirely.

the prompt for this poem is "mahler's fifth." i wish it wasn't, but mahler's fifth was our song. it ended up in my book. every person that knows your name has promised me they'll give you one swift rabbit punch, right to the face. dean read the book and showed up on my front porch, drenched in sweat from running the 8 miles at 4 in the morning. he was shaking. pacifist and gentle - he works with children - i'd never seen him furious. a punch isn't going to do it, he said, and then said i'm sorry. i had to come to see if you were okay.

mahler's fifth was mine first, like my girlhood. i like the way each movement piles onto the next movement, each instrument bleeding into the next. i like the horn version the best. before i met you, i danced to it on grass still-wet from sprinklers.

later you would tell me that the way you heard it was somehow better. you understood something in it that i couldn't quite wrap my fingers into. once, on our anniversary, you asked the classical music radio station to play it for us. we missed hearing it because we were fighting. one of the things people get wrong about abuse is that sometimes victims are, like, brutally aware of the stupidity of our situation. what do you mean that you thought i wasn't good enough for you? you? you're just... nothing.

sometimes people can pull the poetry out of your life. i watched my words become clothesline, and then thin out into kite twine. i watched you chew through every good syllable of me. so many good songs and places and moments were ruined. i am glad you didn't like most of my music - less to tie back to you.

but still mahler's fifth. the music swells, and i am 21 and throwing up in a bathroom on my birthday. a woman i will later refer to as lesbian jesus runs a cool hand down my back, her perfect pantsuit starch-pressed. she told me to leave you. she said - and this is true, and not an invention of rhyme or fantasy - i'm you from the future.

i am 22, and i got home from an award ceremony, and i remember you telling me - you act so proud of yourself when you're actually so fucking embarrassing. i took you to disney world. you took my virginity. i gave up visiting spain for a week with my family - i instead choose you, to spend the time just-cuddling. you called it "our fuck week." the music swells. it probably should have been a red flag that for about 3 years - i just gave up on crying. my grandfather died and you said nothing. my uncle died and you ghosted me for 3 weeks. you said i need to protect myself from your ongoing tragedy.

every so often i come back to the memory of one of our last afternoons in person. i had just told you that i wasn't going to law school, despite the free ride - i was going to join a creative writing program. master's in fine arts. i was going to finally do it - i was going to follow my dreams. this blog was already internet-famous. however reluctantly, i would occasionally refer to myself as a poet. i got into umass amherst's writing program for fiction authors. it is one of the the top 5 programs in the country.

wait are you seriously considering actually attending that? dumbfounded, you turned completely towards me in your seat. for the 3rd time in our relationship, you almost crashed the car. you actually want to be a writer?

the first time i went viral, it was for a poem i wrote about you:

he wants to say i love you but keeps it to goodnight because love will take some falling and she's afraid of heights.

every time i see that, i want to throw up. you weren't in love with me, you were in love with the control you had over me. a little truth though: i am afraid of heights. you caught a rabbitgirl and skinned her alive.

mahler's fifth still makes me sick.

give me that back. give me back music. give me back everything i had before you. give me back fearlessness. give me back bravery. give me back a scarless body.

give me back what you took from me.

#nosebleed club #sorry stephen not ur fault #just like. thinking #writeblr #spilled ink #warm up #every time nat is like - oh let me get that for u #im like .... this is a trick right like ur gonna be mean now bc u did something nice rn #so obviously if ur being nice now either u did something mean and im about to learn about it #or you're going to BE mean #or ur gonna hold this over my head forever and i'll never get a nice thing ever again? #and every time nat is like .... babe i just actually like u #lesbian jesus story is 100% real btw. she also told me not to be an event planner #literally changed the shape of my life

[mysweetsinfulobsessions]

Fletcher in Becky's so hot

#let me give you a taste of what this blog is like with this gifset #lets try this again #damn this is hot #i mean do I have a crush on girls with big lips? maybe most probably #is she trying to drive me mad cuz it’s working #legit can’t believe she did this in a video #if you search fletcher you can get all 3 of these in one gif which was my first try #not to be a lesbian but oh my god #fletcher #cari fletcher #beckyssohot #fletcheredit #beckys so hot #becky's so hot #lgbtq musicians #musicvideoedit #music video #lgbtq media #lgbtq songs #lgbtq #girls who like girls #gay #girl of my dreams album #lgbt

[bloomeng]

Commission based on @chocolatepot’s fic: https://archiveofourown.org/works/53244787

It was so charming. Love a good historical au. Highly recommend :)

#ofmd #our flag means death #edward teach #stede bonnet #gentlebeard #blackbonnet #edstede #ofmd au #ofmd genderbent au #rule 63 #genderbend #regency au #turning the gay pirates lesbian again #fic recommendations #fic #my art #comm

[stil-lindigo]

craters.

a comic about a love story between two girls who only have each other, and take a chance on it.

Buy “Soliloquy Down To Three”, an anthology of blood stained sapphic comics (including this one) here.

#cw: implications of suicide #comic #lesbian #sapphic #lgbt #original art #this is the last sapphic comic i have in my tank #for this anthology i mean #lord knows ill draw comics of women being in love until the day i die #but this closes out the set i planned for soliloquy down to three #and i couldnt be prouder #this came out exactly the way i wanted it to and im very happy about it #i dearly hope at least one of you felt a pang of emotion reading that last line #it was definitely a personal goal to make at least one tearjerker out of all of these #i love these two girls #their names are painter and muse #personally i think they jump and escape without a scratch #and then they live out the rest of their lives together peacefully #but thats just me #once again thank you for your support #and of course #thank you for reading #stillindigo art

[celluloidbroomcloset]

Two heartbreaking things about "I was a whim. Yeah, just a whim to you, like your fancy toy unicorn boat and your wife."

Has Ed been imagining that he was just a part of Stede's pirate fantasy and that Stede ran off when the fantasy ended and all he was left with was Ed?

We see in the same episode that Ed knows Stede is gay and would not just randomly make out with a woman, so the fact that Stede left to go back to Mary means it was Ed that Stede didn't want (also brings up the "I'm sorry if my horrible naked chin disgusts you so much").

#ofmd #our flag means death #stede bonnet #edward teach #gentlebeard #ed teach #gif #such a good episode #maybe i'll watch it again tonight #it has everything #middle-aged pirates who are also teenage girls #mean lesbians #heartfelt love confessions #homoerotic stabbing

[mymarifae]

i think the most important thing in the world is vbs being best friends who love each other so much and are super affectionate with each other like. listen to me:

- when toya hugs kohane he'll pick her up a tiny bit (a tiny bit is all he can manage. noodle arms) and she squeals with delight every time

- toya just really likes hugs in general. it's suuuuper common for him to just come up behind akito or an or kohane and wrap his arms around them and lean his head against theirs. hello and goodbye hugs with him always last a good 20 seconds because he won't let go sdjfjsnfkd

- kohane loooooves to tuck her hand in the crooks of her teammates' elbows while they're walking together. this way she won't get lost <3 sometimes she'll hold onto like, akito's elbow with one hand and an's with the other. it's very cute. and as vbs has grown closer, she's started to switch to hand holding. (don't tell anyone but akito's her favorite to hold hands with because he swings their arms as they walk and it's cute)

- also, kohane's hair tends to be messy because of her damn hats and this bugs akito so he spends a lot of time fussing over it. he'll just sort of...tug her closer and take out the pigtails and comb through it with his fingers. at some point she starts packing a brush in her bag to placate him. i like to think akito knows how to do hair because ena will sometimes make him do hers so after a while he stops just rebrushing kohane's hair and starts pulling it up in different ways... braiding it... etc... and he starts keeping things like hairspray in His bag. yknow. jic

- the hairstyling extravaganza extends to an and toya too. (i mean there's only so much akito can do with toya but he tries...) it's a calming thing for him - fiddling with his teammates' hair as they plan setlists or wait backstage. and having your hair played with is always nice <3

- i think shortly after teaming up an started giving kohane little kisses on the cheek. not as a romantic gesture - just simple affection! and after a while, she starts kissing toya and akito too. toya is always happy to lean down so she can pepper his face with little platonic kisses, but she usually has to wrestle akito. it's all in good fun and he'll always relent and let her kiss him in the end

- speaking of platonic kisses, i ALSO think that akito gives toya little kisses from time to time. it started back when they were still BAD DOGS. toya wasn't having a great time one night and after soothing him with a good sturdy hug, akito kissed the top of his head. it completely floored toya and akito blew up when he realized what he did. and they never fucking talked about it <3 but since toya didn't seem MAD about it, akito decided to stick with it and kept giving toya kisses like that. it's not common, and he ONLY does it when they're alone. except for when they make up after their little divorce arc in the main story. IGNORE the gunjo sanka mv and listen to me. they HUG after their heart to heart. and akito kisses toya's cheek. right around where he punched him

- but an's overaffectionate nature kind of rubs off on akito after a while. so he becomes less stingy when it comes to kisses and starts giving them to kohane and an too <3

- they lean against each other while sitting like kohane might cuddle into toya's side or an goes and lays her head on akito's shoulder

- and they have sleepovers and they fall asleep comfortably tangled up together (or not comfortably. at all. seriously cuddling while sleeping can get so uncomfy but it's worth it to be so close to someone you love). ken's taken quite a few adorable (and sometimes really funny) pictures of all four of them passed out on piles of blankets and futons. just dad things

i could go on forever it's just. platonic affection is so important to me and it's so frequently Ignored in fandom spaces. and in the case of vbs and the prsk fandom specifically, there's a tendency to separate vbs into akitoya VS anhane. which is so 💔 because the whole POINT of their story is that while they started off as separate duos, that's no longer the case! they've become such good friends. they're inseparable.

like even jokes about akito and an being "wlw and mlm hostility" are starting to wear on me because... they're friends, guys. they're incredibly close. akito is always looking out for an and is right by her side to support her through all the shit she's currently struggling with. there's no "hostility" present in their relationship. like, if you actually look at the game's text, an... rarely teases akito. the person who teases him the most is actually toya but you know... whatever... gotta reduce an down to a mean lesbian amirite... completely ignoring that she's one of the kindest characters in the whole game...

idk. i juuuuuust wish that this fandom wasn't so defensive and obsessive over shipping akitoya and anhane (mostly akitoya while anhane is a second thought but YOU KNOW) because it results in so many people watering down vbs as individuals And as pairs - because all they care about is shipping. like i promise that the other dynamics in vbs are worth exploring (both platonicallyand romantically but too much of this fandom still feels threatened by m/f vbs ships). and hell, explore akitoya and anhane on a platonic level, too! don't just jump to shipping them because teehee boyxboy and girlxgirl. take the time to understand what draws them together in the first place

i love friendship. i love when friends outwardly express their affection for each other and it doesn't have to have any romantic implications. can we talk about friendship for once like this game is literally The Ultimate Friendship Simulator feat. Hatsune Miku

#it's so dark in here #project sekai #akito shinonome #an shiraishi #kohane azusawa #toya aoyagi #vivid bad squad #kind of a cross-post from twitter i'm just thinking about these dorks again... #every day i become more and more partial to akikoha and antoya over akitoya and anhane. like i'll always love vbs every way but #the set up of akikoha and antoya more clearly represents how much their friendships have grown. yknow. i'm going to cry #also antoya is so funny because it's like the only an ship where she gets completely disarmed and becomes an easily flustered mess #and toya isn't even doing anything. he's just standing there being a corny dork and an's like AAAAAA AKITO HOW DO YOU PUT UP WITH HIM #and akito just laughs. and gets a pillow thrown in his face for it #polysquad and m/f vbs ships are GOODyou are all just mean. #also if you ask me there is no 'm' in vbs anyway akito's a lesbian and toya is. um. all of it.evrry gender but also NONE of them 💖

[femmealicent]

i don’t understand the argument that alicent seeking out rhaenyra is “not feminist” or the question “why can’t alicent just be a strong independent woman >:(” in what world is alicent completely transgressing the expectations of a mother, queen dowager, and supposed enemy of team black not a radical act? how is her conscious choice to seek out peace and potentially love in the face of insurmountable odds not exercising agency? tell me how a woman who acts on her true desires lacks “independence?” the push and pull between rhaenyra and alicent is a narrative tool used to illustrate the deep connection between women and solidarity in a shared experience despite repellent extrinsic forces. accordingly, alicent’s merit as a representation of women is not diminished by her passion for rhaenyra but strengthened; her persistent love for rhaenyra is her connection to freedom, self-determination, and liberation. rhaenyra and alicent are not “codependent,” and their shared love does not minimize their independent worth. two women seeking comfort together among the cannon fire and clanging steal of a war begun by men is not "inconsistent writing" or "bad feminism;" they are each other's connection to hope and true autonomy. when you expect alicent to be unfeeling and self-serving and disregard love (free love, not love imposed by duty), you're inadvertently expecting her to act like a man; you're not delivering her from the shackles of oppression, now you're the one "making a window in the wall of her prison."

#the tragedy is obviously that they rediscover each other too late but that doesn't mean it didn't matter #also like rhaenyra doesn't have some supernatural control over alicent making her do things #everyone is okay when alicent is acting on her love to support her children (coincidentally also conforming to the expectations of a mother #but when faced with the idea of alicent acting on her love for rhaenyra (a love that is a choice not a duty) #suddenly alicent doesn't know what she's doing she's going crazy she's codependent she can't think for herself or its bad writing #she's an adult woman mother of four was married for 20 years and managed a kingdom as her husband rotted #i think she has the ability to think 'hey i'd like this war to stop and i want to see my best friend again' #women do not have to and should not desire power over others #feminism is not women acting like men its women liberating themselves from the patriarchy #how has a brain become so rotted you think a lesbian love affair on opposites sides of a war is anti-feminist #i have issues with the feminism in the show its not 100% awesome all the time #but the general broad strokes of rhaenyra and alicent's relationship are the most interesting thing that the narrative has to offer. #hotd #rhaenyra targeryan #alicent hightower #rhaenicent #hotd spoilers

[stackslip]

lots of really good criticisms about sbb and dtwof coming out on the dashboard which are all great to see, but honestly i'd feel hypocritical for reblogging them because it would feel like going SEE I TOLD YOU MY HATE FOR THEM WAS JUSTIFIED when my distaste for these works didn't have anything to do with the actual good criticism here on my dash. no, my distaste for them has always been primarily driven by the behaviours of the people who tend to uphold stone butch blues and dykes to watch out for as The Two Seminal Lesbian Works That Every Dyke Must Aspire To Or Else, when these same people have always tended to minimize the prevalence of transmisogyny and whorephobia in lesbian communities while wailing that it's lesbopobic to even imply that this might be an issue, while simultaneously swearing by the works of transmisogynists and whorephobes such as rich/dworkin/mckinnon. also participating in transmisogynistic whisper campaigns (and throwing away trans girls the moment they become a bit of an inconvenience or feel too "male" to them), backing deeply reactionary movements and tendencies, and treating bi women like the dredges of the deep lmao

#again for years i did not wish to id as a lesbian specifically bc of these people! #and i was told it was lesbophobic to even say so--after all sbb and dtwof both have trans characters! #which means that transfems have ALWAYS been accepted by lesbians (what a way to phrase that btw) and it's ahistorical to say anything else #so how dare you even imply there might be a transmisogyny and whorephobia issue. read stone butch blues. #eli talks

[wis-art]

Women, so pretty, so shaped, i am so lesbian,,,

#im also incredibly dysphoric tonight #but i was told by my coworker im incredibly feminine by her earlier #and i mean yeah #..... #i am a tall weird internet woman who likes to draw #so funny how i thought i was bi #I'm just really into women... #my ex is a trans guy and he told me he thinks im lesbian and i had a “holy fuck this explains so much moment” #we broke up but we still have a weird queer relationship outside of social heteronormative norms that is hard to explain and only we #can really understand #im not into men because you know #im a lesbian #had a weird period in my life when i was dating a guy and said im a lesbian and i felt sooooo scared #turns out when youre on meds and your brain is working right you just stop caring about such things #i went on a parade wearing big lesbian flag and girls loved it :) #i dont really know if i ever want to date anyone again #but i think if you look at my art you can really tell my sexuality quite easily lolol #funny how love can be so complicated sometimes #i mean it was kind of inevitable we break up cause we're kind of incompatible but tbh #it was better for us #hehe

[xshrimpcake]

spotted canoodling with the enemy

#oh my god yotsugiri in 2023??!?!?! #imagine my surprise when all six of you show up at our biennial yotsugiri get-together #anyway i miss them #i miss stormblood #i mean we got mama athena in 6.4 i guess #but where's my angery lesbian tensions squeenix!!! #when will zero demand aether from y'shtoa again!!! #FFXIV #Yotsugiri #yotsuyu goe brutus #yugiri mistwalker

[dovahkiining]

local man makes everyone listen to his deranged crows parallels, part one.

or, theseus' ship & the bite of a mutt.

love letters or suicide notes - doc luben | domestication syndrome - dhole b | margaret atwood | clarice lispector | @/maybe-itsforthebest on tumblr | in a dream you saw a way to survive - clementine von radics | david foster wallace | the short stories - f. scott fitzgerald | little girl looking downstairs at christmas party - norman rockwell | fingertips - fortesa latifi | jen mazza | jendy nelson | insurgent - veronica roth | boot theory - richard siken | @/lgbtunis on tumblr | natalie diaz | shining night - joseph feely | ophelia - constantin meunier.

#six of crows #kaz brekker #wylan van eck #soc #web weaving #webweave #webweaving #web weave #spiff weaves webs #spiff rambles #yes i see kaz as a he/him lesbian. next question #not ky / lan but again w the gay lesbian post i think thats clear #nothing against it this is simply a parallel post. my two stray dogs who dont know what to do when loved #merchers mutt vs the local stray thats better fed than the housed dogs #dont ask me what that means actually

[oceanwithouthermoon]

people who hate female characters cuz they "get in the way" of their gay ships r so weak, im gonna transify ur blorbo and make them lesbians

#this is about ruinene but applies to a lot of things #lesbian ruinene lesbian terusai lesbian zelink :333 #zelink lesbians in every damn universe idc what anyone says #miphlink even... mayhaps... #midlink lesbians too mwahmwahmwah #uhhhhh payalink lesbians? i miss them :( #payalink is real to me idc idc #OR UH IDK IF YONA AND SIDON HAVE A SHIP NAME BUT THEYRE LESBIANS NOW #yonasidlink lesbians actually tbh like thats real #pinkie pie and cheese sandwich are also lesbians #thats like the reverse of this cuz ppl hate cheese for getting in the way of lesbian pinkie lol #idc im keeping it here #ummmm toyanene emukasa mizurui lesbians idk im done #have i made this exact post before? yes and idc #i'll make it again #i mean it #meows post

[abyssal-wonders]

got back into obey me again

i missed being family therapist for the demon bros

#obey me #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me leviathan #obey me levi #obey me satan #obey me asmodeus #obey me asmo #obey me beelzebub #obey me beel #obey me belphegor #obey me belphie #my art #traditional art #styx scribbles #i am not immune to familial love eueueueueue. their dynamics and family bonding mean the world to me #'never drawing their demon forms again' (<- does it again 🙃) #playing this game as a aroace lesbian is so funny like let me love these silly demons platonically. they are like siblings i never had <33 #of course that's just me but yknow #they make me sad (affectionate)

[sydsixxftm]

Having nonbinary lesbian sex gave me the strength I needed to finish out the year

#I am recharged #life has meaning again #nonbinary lesbian #lesbian ftm #t4t nsft #nonbinary nsft #nonbinary ftm

[transsextual]

had a really incredible moment this evening. went to my campus art market where one of my friends was selling the tank top i'm wearing - another friend bought it for me and i'm so overjoyed to have it. usually a fit that leans more Traditionally Masculine feels like a costume but tonight it just felt deeply correct and honest and warm. took the opportunity to take some indulgent little pictures because i do not think i have Ever looked more like myself. so happy.

#im like. slowly gently exploring butchness & ... what it means to me & ... trying to release the idea that it requires Masculinity.... #ive always felt pretty disconnected from masculinity as a whole but i'm starting to find points of entry that resonate really deeply #& along with that is like... esp when it comes 2 kink & leather & butchness - which r not intrinsically related but to me they r connected #theres this idea that like. i'm taking myself too seriously. and that nobody's gonna take me seriously. and that i'm too little too young #that im like #obviously inexperienced and a joke and failing and looking stupid . #but ... realized recently that . that's really just the trauma talking #and that i can just like. try shit out. and notice how it feels + what comes up #and then try it again if i so wish #and nothing i try has to be permanent or defining ... and that like . my desires and comforts and joys and needs Should Be Taken Seriously #soooo much of my like. impostor syndrome . has to do with worrying that im not doing it right when compared to other men #but like.... most of the kinky men / leathermen i see are 35+ and cis . #of course im not doing it like them . #so . looking to the queers i know. especially my fellow transmascs as well as lesbians . for like. reassurance and inspiration #has been very healing . & good for my heart & my soul. #:) #yeah . #i think i gotta go read butch is a noun. ... yeah #goodnight :) #speak #materialization #ok2rb