#like what am i supposed to go do now.

[glo-shroom]

hey guys I just read vol 10. um. promise I did not just sit and cry my eyes out about it <- lying

#the way i thought seeing these panels dozens of times would save me from the full impact. nay #its the way vash realizes he wants to spend his tomorrows with wolfwood right before he catches him in his arms and realizes #wolfwood isnt going to make it #its the way wolfwood gets that welcome home confetti that one last time #the fact that vash BURIED HIM ALONE #vash saying 'its what he would have wanted' and 'if we dont stop knives all of this will have been for nothing' and 'i want to do him proud #GOD. WOLFWOOD DESERVED TO LIVE. IM SO FUCKING DISTRAUGHT #mine #i Need to yell about this somewhere im SORRY #trigun #trimax spoilers #like what am i supposed to go do now. #im so drained man wtf

[mad-serotonin]

Take It Easy☀️

#haikyuu #hinata shouyou #haikyuu fanart #anime fanart #fanart #madsart #digital art #anime #I just finished the Haikyuu manga #good god #what am I supposed to do now???? #go work for all my hopes and dreams????? #literally the best manga ever #I’ve never felt so alive #so happy #I cried like 7 times #just between the nekoma match and the end #god #so good #a masterpiece #I’m so very proud of Hinata my baby

[gloriousmonsters]

love when you can ask the Narrator why the Princess is a Princess and he's like 'well i uhhhh YOU did that. maybe it's because uh... something something about her being above you... but still approachable... look i don't want to analyze or anthropomorphize your--' my guy. i am a primal being of Order and Eternity and Shaping. You're the one who convinced me I was some dude and were quite willing to take credit for shaping my view on the world through narration five seconds ago. Are you gonna look me in the eye and tell me the desire to interpret something worthy of adoration and more powerful than me as a dommy princess is written in the very nature of the universe or are you going to show me your browser history like a man

#this is a joke but the 'so where did i get the Idea of a princess from??' still stands #since we remember nothing and don't seem to have many ideas about like. what the world looks like #but when given the conception of 'we're a hero' from the narrator's Quest #we immediately go to 'so the thing you're telling us to kill is a Princess' -> i.e something I'm not SUPPOSED to kill #and in fact am supposed to respect and cherish #and/or pledge eternal loyalty to #(and then on a deeper level we KNOW that we're the dragon #we're the biggest threat to her we're what has the power to trap her and keep her here #we're a monster just like her) #but my point remains. as a god-entity stripped of memory where did we get the idea of a (human/like) Princess. do we still have like... #the threads of common narratives sort of built into our structure b/c we're the god-half concerned with Shaping and Naming and Order? #that would kind of slap #anyway uh. dragging myself offstage now #slay the princess #slay the princess spoilers #stp spoilers

[triptychofvoids]

@emmetofthestars shes not having fun and doesnt want to be here

plus an additional thing

#aughh what am i supposed to do now that ive drawn all of your blu team.. #i suppose ill just draw them some more sometimes #because i like drawing things for my friends its fun :] #i wanted to draw iris about 50 more times but i also didnt want to wait too much longer to post this either sp #..later :] #anyway i want to study iris like a bug #can i do fucked up evil experiments on him pretty please #doodles #tf2 #emmetsis blu #and medic but im not going to put it in the main tags aheh

[rileyclaw]

ohhh hh you two wanna fight an oversized goop slug in the woods so bad....

#what if we held hands and got jumped by belos bc we remind him of caleb and the witch #[[gets mobbed by 16 thousand people]] #ANYWAYS . i LOVE hunters new hair and his dorky comfy sweater. i have a sweater exactly like it actually #and i do wear it a lot so this is great for my gender ! #willow park #hunter toh #huntlow #the owl house #toh spoilers #toh season 3 #it feels so good to use those tags again holy shit #my art #how am i supposed to be normal until october 15?? a month from now?? i feel sick NOW with anticipation #i have no idea what willows fit really is supposed to look like so im going with this until canon proves me otherwise !! #same with their shoes im like convinced theyre actually wearing canvas sneakers but i think boots are cooler

[lokioftheloch]

RULES OF BEING OTHERKIN #1

Being authentic and true to yourself is the only way you are 'supposed to be/act like' (insert entity). If anyone else disagrees it only tells you about them.

#going to start a small 'series' where I document stuff I learn that is otherkin specific. This is for myself as well as anyone who might #be struggling with things I used to/am working on(otherkin specific). hopefully this will reduce any mental pitfalls other otherkin may #fall into as they explore their identity and help out someone. #this 'rule' took a LONG time to fully understand and grasp. for the longest time I would consciously or subconsciously #think I was less Loki if I did or was something 'Loki would never do. until i realized I do exactly and experience exactly what Loki does #and experiences because...Im literally Loki. (talking about incarnations here). I felt pressured to be a certain way because 'Loki would #never (insert). being aroace is on of them. i tried to convince myself I wasn't aroace #and when I finally ran out of reasons i felt i was 'less Loki' because mythologically hes like the opposite. but Loki IS aroace. because #Im Loki. and Im aroace. so loki is SUPPOSED to be aroace because Im loki and im being exactly how loki is being. because im loki. being #myself. therefore being exactly like Loki. again - incarnation. #anyway....if anyone else struggles with this I hope this helps someone. its a really sucky place to be in honestly. #godkin #deitykin #alterhuman #otherkin #divinekin #nonhuman #alterbeing #therian #I think I will be learning a LOT more as I keep exploring and I will note down any 'rules' I learn - more like lessons but rules personally #sound more right for me. rules i will live by (yknow unless i find out im wrong but...im going to trust myself more and right now i feel #like this rule is true. so im using it as such unless i find out im wrong in future.

[thirtenth]

You know what this means, right?

#dwedit #doctor who #power of the doctor #the power of the doctor #thasmin #thirteenth doctor #yasmin khan #dw spoilers #doctor who spoilers #potd #jodie whittaker #mandip gill #* #sorry if this looks bad i cant see through my tears #theyre literally gone like what am i supposed to do with myself now lol #going to miss them more than anything #i want a thasmin spin off immediately #and i want bbcdoctorwho to post the kiss scene that they forgot to add in the show haha xx

[keepthetension]

this was made especially for those of us who cut ties with our shitty families, huh

i cried so much this whole episode. i know that i can't be in that house and be who i am at the same time, but the guilt and shame never really go away. i love that this episode said, wholeheartedly: fuck what society says, you should be wherever allows you to be happiest

anyway! you always hear that family estrangement is rare in asian communities, but i did it! and you can do it, too! dump your shitty family! i believe in you~

#tsukuritai onna to tabetai onna #it's incredible like i don't think i fully realized how ashamed i feel until this episode had me ugly crying into my blankie #especially because the abuse was invisible and people say: oh everyone's family says harsh things! it's because they care! they love you! #and no matter how hard you try to explain the magnitude of what was done to you people still shrug and say but they're *family* #not that there was ZERO physical abuse but like. that's just How It Is in the community i grew up in so it's not a Reason reason #and that's all aside from all that's expected of me as the child of an asian family (that i am simply doing none of) #FUCK i guess i just compartmentalized all of this so securely i didn't think it could bleed out anymore #thanks tsukutabe. i guess? #this show is RELENTLESSLY coming for me this season too like explicitly stated asexual rep? a treat for me personally! #idk i never expected an asian drama to be so clear about this especially because kasuga's abuse was invisible too #and the idea of not sacrificing yourself for your parents is COUNTER to what you're supposed to do #i am just VERY EMOTIONAL right now #i love kasuga so much and it was rough to see her going through it but i am SO HAPPY that she's accepted and loved

[screwpinecaprice]

Reposting a connverse I made in 2021. Well, specifically posting this again after editing a few stuff.

I had been so bothered with how I kept editing Steven until I made his silhouette floppy-looking. So I fixed it a bit.

And that this was suppose to be flipped in the first place (which was why Connie's nose piercing was on the right side on the original.)

#I think I chose to keep it flipped then because I recognized Connie's silhouette was much stronger and sometimes I wanted my stronger parts #on the left side of the image. #connverse #Steven Quartz Universe #Connie Maheswaran #SU #my shiz #repostober #I'll be deleting my uploads for repostober by the end of the year except this one. #Editing it despite me saying I am not going to do anything two years ago. #I saved a speed paint of this on Youtube and you can clearly see I kept editing Steven worse and worse. 😵 #I got his legs fixxed into a better stance at least. #What I specifically had a problem now is Steven's arm and jacket. #Like I think I can make his torso look more sturdy. #But I don't wanna dwell on it too much. #Steven Universe #Eugh this was suppose to be a scheduled post. and it just disappeared while editing it. I'm guessing I accidentally pressed the 'post now' #button? #teal

[holocrone]

—You have become the very thing you swore to destroy! —It's already gone too far, Sam. If I didn't you know... I would wanna hunt you.

ANAKIN SKYWALKER (Star Wars) | SAM WINCHESTER (Supernatural)

#🥰 #spnedit #swedit #samedit #samwinchesteredit #sam winchester #anakin skywalker #star wars #supernatural #userparallels #supernaturaledit #starwarsedit #😮‍💨 #* #a lot of people got it worse #posting this is like watching your child go off to college. what am i supposed to do now

[hideitaway]

i just found my beautiful wife dead (ao3 is not loading)

#like are you really going to do that to me at 1am????? #what am I supposed to do now??? just go to sleep???? #ao3

[doodleodds]

Happy Valentines, Akira. Happy Valentines, Asshole.

If you can’t read what Akechi’s secondary inner-dialogue says cause I obscured it too much behind his regular dialogue, here’s a transcription in panel order: Hello, you fucking- Ah- Hello, Akira! Fuck off, why should I tell you- Just a soda- there’s a new flavor.

I don’t want your shitty gift. Oh- haha! You’re so sweet.

I hope I choke. They’re lovely, thank you.

Like hell. Likewise. There’s no way it’s just a coincidence. Still though, it’s a funny coincidence.

#p5 #akeshu #akechi goro #kurusu akira #wow- me?? posting a valentines comic... actually on?? valentines????? wack. absolutely wack #it's a short one! I purposefully tried to keep it short. it was a challenge and it still ended up being 3 pages. but i blame my canvas size #also in case u can't see what akira is holding out to akechi: theyre chocolate covered strawberries on sticks! #i saw them irl and was like oh god i want those. i am going to project that feeling on my favorite characters so help me god #and now! here we are! but my shitty-ass coloring & line quality make it hard to discern them so. sorry about that lmaooooo #ANYWAY i don't do enough post-maruki stuff so. i made this one a little bittersweet. :) #why did i put akechi's scarf in a bow? honestly i dont know! i think i saw some art a while ago that did that too and i thought it was cute #well. plus i guess there's the symbolism of 'akechi being alive and reciprocating your feelings (however involuntarily) IS a gift' part #hence that hes wrapped up in a bow. like a present. :) #also god. the first panel is supposed to be akechi's reflection in a vending machine window. I could NOT get it to look right #so for reference!!! just so you guys understand!!!!!! thats what that panel is supposed to be!!! he is NOT in fact a ghost. (sigh) #hope you enjoyed and had a lovely valentines!! for my part i have eaten nothing but sweets today and hoo boy will that have been a mistake #ALSO in terms of the audience-participation comic...hopefully coming soon. if i can ever gain the will to draw it. #but at least tumblr has polls now so i can do the audience-choose-y bit without needing to use a separate website! so thats good i guess #anyway anyway anway thanks for listening to me ramble if you made it this far! have a lovely rest of your day and hopefully see u again soon

[kirkenovak]

Man, I love fandom. 💜 I love being in fandom ❤️ All is good all is great 👍 😊 hunky-dory peachy great 😌 damn, don’t you just love the fandom. 💕 Warm and fuzzy feelings and heart full of joy. 😃 ❤️

*listens to Adele’s 21 on full blast for 17 hours straight*

#LIKE WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO DO WITH MYSELF NOW?! #IF GOD HATES GAYS WHY DO WE KEEP OH WAIT NEVER MIND #GONNA BE SICK #DO NOT TOUCH ME IM SCARED #I JUST WANT TO GO HOME #good omens #the Witcher #our flag means death #what we do in the shadows #radskier #ineffable husbands #nandermo #blackbonnet

[puppetmaster13u]

More Possessed Doll Au (the au was created by @phoenixcatch7 so go check them out they do great stuff!)

Honestly this would be early-ish I am thinking into Bruce doing his vigilante work with the doll body. Or he just straight up has thick eyeliner/raccoon makeup lol.

#batman au #batman #dc #dcu #cryptid batman #possessed doll au #art #sketch #I like to think that the lil bat hoodie was made for him as a gift lol #Completely unrelated but I am just rotating like #Bruce's friends like Diana and Clark learning about the fact that he has two bodies #Also just Bruce finding each of his kids and doing his best not to scare them when his body and the bat itself is supposed to invoke fear #Just #Slowly coaxing the terrified child over to check them over for injuries and then they end up clinging because once he registers as safe #he is SAFE like wtf would try and attack this THING to get to a tiny child? Nothing in their opinion #Scary dog privilage but it's the 10'+ giant puppet and the dozen or so kids clinging to him #Gosh y'know what I am now rotating the league learning that the Bat isn't human the first time again and the aftermath of it #If you haven't checked out Phoenix's writing for that Go Do It Now #bruce wayne #ibispaintx #why does all my good art happen when I am sleep deprived or in the bath lol

[kindahoping4forever]

📸: Ryan Fleming

#ok listen. we all know I'm Going Thru Something when it comes to this man. so. this is. i am. i just think that. *dies* #5sos #5 seconds of summer #luke hemmings #luke #the 5sos show tour lisbon #ryan fleming 2023 #Instagram #band ig #kh4f post #i just. feel so unhinged sometimes in such brand new ways it surprises even ME #🧛🏻‍♀️ #like #WHAT AM I MEANT TO DO WITH THIS INFORMATION #DO U SEE THAT CHEST HAIR #THE COLLARBONE #IT'S JUTTING #DO YOU ZEE THE JUTTING COLLARBONE #AND I'M JUST SUPPOSED TO SIT HERE AND FINISH THE EMAIL I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF WRITING?? #FITTINGLY IT WAS TO MY THERAPIST SO ACTUALLY MAYBE THAT WORKS OUT 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩 #that necklace jfc i am. i am fine. don't worry about it I'm actually doing great thanks #and the beard #i'm 🤸🏻‍♀️ doing 🤸🏻‍♀️ okay 🤸🏻‍♀️ #THIS IS CERTAINLY PHOTOGRAPHY #GONNA LEAVE NOW THINKING ABOUT HOW MUCH I LOVE AND APPRECIATE VISUAL MEDIA #the 5sos show tour

[stuckinapril]

I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc

#And to be clear I have nothing against therapy. I’ve seen it do wonders for other people #I think the reason it’s a point of defeat (just a little) for me to be like ok. I need a therapist. Is bc I’m admitting to myself that I #need one to begin w. And I get it’s not healthy but I always liked to think I could handle anything by myself #That was even the whole point of this blog. It was supposed to serve as a conduit for these feelings #And I’m not saying I don’t have a support system. I do. I have many wonderful friends #But I struggle to be vulnerable at all tbh and whenever I am I’m guilty ab it bc #I understand so many people have busy lives & I feel like an emotional burden on them by venting #Despite them telling me that it’s totally fine. Obvi a therapist is literally paid to listen so no guilt there #And I think that’s what I need #I’m not like on the brink of a psychotic break or anything but it’s just little things. I think it’d be nice to sit in someone’s office for #One hour a week and just go. That did bother me actually. I am tired actually. I do feel that way actually. #Rather than just burying my feelings w school and a busy schedule #I don’t think therapy will make me any less of a workaholic anytime soon but it’ll at least allow me to slow down one hour a week #And also not bottle shit up so fuckin much #But ya all of this is to say I’m drafting the email to her RIGHT now . #Starting the day off strong by oversharing on tumblr dot com