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writingforatwistedworld · 2 years

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Yandere x reader

I do not take any responsibility for you reading this no matter which age group you are from!

WARNINGS: Yandere themes, manipulation, marriage, parenthood, kidnapping, obsessive behavior, possessive behavior, imprisonment

Ruggie/Jamil/Sebek-Running errands to demonstrate your admiration for them

He is, most of all, thankful

His schedule is already busy enough with his employer

So knowing that someone care and even admires him is something great for him

At the same time be can't shake the feeling of weariness off

You are doing this so that you have something in your hand against him, right?

Be isn't a part of the Octavinelle dorm but he also knows how ruthless the world of favours can be

But if we look away from his distrust there is also a lot of worry

What if you get hurt during the errands?

He is a beastmen which allows him to have advantages in the physical department (although they can't be seen that much)

Not to mention that he is already used to this kind of hard work

Look at your hands!

They are all soft whilst his have callouses!

Cutting yourself whilst carrying something is so much easier in your case

So, even though he is happy for the fire minute break his mind is still filled with worry

But this also has some... rather extreme side effects

Our friend over here is already whipped enough for you but now?

He sees this subconsciously as a sign that you are happy to share the workload between you two

So a future with you is already a given

Ruggie is a very realistic person

He knows that you two as still very young but he can't push the feeling of wanting a family with you away after this

Even if you can't produce them he would want them and the slums always have enough kids searching for a loving family

So please don't be so heartless and deny a child a possibly bright future

But, like I already said, he is realistic

Children need a good home and as it is at the moment he couldn't provide for a hamster, being busy bringing his family through the year

But maybe he can. Show you his vision of your joined future?

So he invites you over, showing you that even if he is poor he always does his best

So just say yes. You wouldn't want to disappoint those hopeful eyes after all

This man is happy about every single helping hand that he can get

But this also flusters him quite a lot

He was born a servant, being called to the role even before being able to voice his thoughts about this

So you should be able to understand that he reacts like that after someone finally listens to him and sees all of his hard work

But this is also the only time you will be able to see him like that

I would also call this the beginning of his... interests (can I call it that?) in you

Prepare to be met with a smile that looks like more than just that after the second time you do this

He is aware of your impact on him but he can't speak freely

Not yet at least

So after everything was finally said that needed to be said things might turn better in his life but worse in yours

You know, this servant isn't just having a signature spell that is very convenient when it comes to making people what he wants them to do but he is also a master manipulator

Most of the time he also just uses words to make you do certain things

This leads to you not running errands anymore but being oddly close to him

There are certain... topics though that need a bit more than just buttering you up

The Viper bloodline had been servants for generations and he needs to have a partner

Not really blood-related children but definitely a partner

People would raise eyebrows if a man like himself wouldn't have one, servant or not

One of the burdens his bloodline has laid upon him

So this is one of the cases where he is using his signature spell to make you say “yes”

Only if you deny at the first time of course

That little thing you did escalates now

Be is just so happy that he isn't a mere tool for the first time in his life!

Not just a servant in fancy clothing

Even if you don't take up a career in the palace you will live a lavish lifestyle

You can't tell me that doesn't get paid with high numbers

He knows that this life isn't the most comfortable one, especially with all the eyes on the two of you, but he will try to make the best of it

So don't worry. Just give your very soul to him and everything will be allright

Do you truly wish to do this to the poor young half-fae?

He is someone that would never dare to see himself in a position above serving you

The thought alone makes him shudder

Sebek was raised to be a protector, a servant to the worthy

And now you are... seRvInG HIM?!

If you ask me, no that is not serving someone buyer all know the young man and his antics

First time he is too stunned out of surprise

The second time he is still stunned but able to stutter out a “thank you”

Third time he is barely able to look you into the eyes

And finally the fourth time he tells you that you shouldn't do this

Even though you are “just” a human Sebek can't bear the thought that me could be a reason for more stress in your life

But don't think too highly of yourself

He would never leave Malleus

But you know what he would do?

Have a happy, perfectly normal relationship with you?

Uh no

Normal is a far cry for what is about to happen

At least his plan A is to talk to you about marriage, living in the valley and being his

I know, it's a bit young to discuss such stuff but at least he tries to walk the path of the pacifist... at first

Say no and... oh dear... you look tired. Do up you wish to rest?

Don't worry about the fact that you woke up in a room you have never seen before

His salary of being his highnesses guard is 100% higher than that of a average fae

Maybe things would have been better if you just said yes

Sebek doesn't even do this to “keep you all to himself”

Remember when I told you that he would never leave Malleus?

Yeah... his biggest concern is rather someone using you as a weakness of his

A attackable knight is a weak knight, if not a useless one

So cozy up! You won't leave this place for a long time

#yandere twst #yandere twisted wonderland #yandere twisted wonderland x reader #yandere twst x reader #self aware au #yandere jamil x reader #yandere jamil viper #yandere ruggie bucchi #yandere ruggie x reader #yandere sebek x reader #yandere sebek zigvolt #tw: yandere #tw: obsessive behavior #tw: possessive behavior #tw: unhealthy relationship #tw: manipulation #tw: marriage #tw: kidnapping #tw: imprisonment

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throwaway-yandere · 2 months

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i don't know if anyone ever ask this but imagine if darling has the ability to reset. Like 'Save and Load' type ability.

Cause I once played an otome game in an emulator, an in emulator it allow you to do save freely in any part of the game and load it. And I kinda abused that kind of system, so whenever I meet with choices, I saved it first before choose. And if one of the choices lead me to a bad situation I can load it back to the previous save file.

But sometime my save file couldn't load and lead to corrupt file

Oh my dear comrade I STILL play otome games on emulators lmfao. I think the last one I played was Vampire Knight DS English Patched on Drastic lmfao. I recommend Tokimeki, real. Hell, I finished Princess Closet even hAHAHAHHA I am a lot more otome obsessed than yall may think

I wouldn't spoil much, but there are "canonical" characters in this AU who can manipulate the Save & Load states. There's LIs who can do just that. Server C!reader isn't one of them. This brainrot has been going on for YEARS between three friends and we have three separate readers for 2 otome games and 1 light novel. We barely scratched the surface lololol. Yall have yet to meet Villainess!Reader & Tyrant!reader from the same universe :D

In this current "game", OG!Princess Lumine can save and load. She's the heroine after all. But she has grown tired of repeating the same routes and romancing different men only to ultimately FAIL to find her missing brother. There's a reason why in the story, she is said to be trapping herself in the castle. However, she only has a few save and loads left. She has given up on hope. It doesn't matter anymore if Dainsleif, Albedo, Ajax, Diluc, Ayato— hell even Venti would seek out and help her.

As for if one of the readers can save and load...

Let's wait and see :)

#This is a 1-2 yr long brainrot yall have just tasted the iceberg trust me hAHAHAHAHA #Like most of my fics- villainess- tyrant- and server c reader are different readers living in the same world #“can Server C canonically save and load?” idk can NPCs save and load??? HAHAHAH- /silly

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chuuyrr · 2 years

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Yooo!! Just gonna say i love your scarwitch fushigiro series! and i also wanna ask, can we have one where the tables get turned and its mikey protecting his y/n? 👍

sano "mikey" manjiro protects scarlet witch! fushiguro! reader

jujutsu kaisen x reader x tokyo revengers

masterlist of the series

╰➤ CW(s): possible spoilers for tokyo revengers, themes of fluff, mentions of violence and scarlet witch's powers

╰➤ PAIRING(s): mikey x reader, platonic! toman x reader (mentioned) dad! gojo satoru x teen! reader (mentioned)

hello!! thank you so much for requesting and for being patient. your feedback means a lot. although this post is a tad short, i honestly fell in love at how fluffy it turned out to be in the end. i hope you enjoy this, anon dearest ♡

you keep a close eye on your boyfriend and his gang, especially his closest friends. you're always there to protect them, from bigger and older delinquents to special grade curses. in fact, you're even there to help them if they get too hurt and don't want to admit to a hospital.

when it comes to your almighty chaos magic, you don't rely on it all that much because you don't want to become too reliant on it. although you could always use it to get whatever you want because it can warp realities and manipulate psionic energies to help you fight curses, it's not in your book to abuse it, and that's one of the attributes mikey admires in you.

you're the scarlet witch, a harbinger of chaos, a being capable of anything, but you're so humble about it. even when confronted with a difficult situation, such as someone deliberately irritating you, you choose to be kind, especially given that you stand up for yourself without having to heavily rely on your near god-like powers (since you still use it to amplify your punches sometimes).

it is something you learned after letting your emotions amplify your chaos magic and cause it to go haywire numerous times as a child with no proper experience or training.

mikey is well aware of your abilities, but he can't help but feel protective of you. you're his to love and care for, and it's usually pretty easy to keep himself from beating up someone who dares to hurt you in any way and simply lets you deal with it on your own, but this time, he completely lost it.

your boyfriend rode his CB250T to your campus, the non-jujutsu school you enrolled in, as usual, to pick you up after classes. now, mikey, being mikey, would have preferred to pull you out of class and be with you, but in order to respect gojo's wish of not interfering with your studies in order for him to allow you and mikey to continue dating, he comes to you after school instead. to avoid a commotion, he doesn't even wear toman's uniform when he picks you up from school. instead, mikey dresses casually.

mikey was incredibly happy. his day is incomplete without you, which is why he always looks forward to picking you up or at least seeing you for a few moments if he needs to go somewhere, but today, toman isn't fighting with anyone, which means he can freely pick you up, spend some time with you, and fetch you home himself without having to rely on takemichi or any other toman member on doing it for him.

mikey had picked up your favorite takeout for you before heading to your campus gate, parking his motorcycle to the side to look for you when he noticed you weren't by the gate as you always did as time passed.

"huh, that's strange. [name]-chan didn't mention anything about club or extra classes today," mikey muttered to himself as he looked at the time on his phone.

though mikey doesn't mind waiting for you because he has to pick you up from school or see you in some way, he couldn't help but feel something was wrong. you'd at least text him to let him know you'd be late. with his mind racing, mikey decided to go look for you on campus by himself.

did you possibly fall asleep in class? was there a last-minute project that you had to work on?

mikey eventually found you, but it wasn't the way he expected. you were in the back of the school with a group of mostly boys and a few girls who surrounded you. his pupils dilated. they were all yelling at you as you stood your ground calmly, and as he listened, he realized you were arguing about toman, sano manjiro.

"oh, wow! look at you, fushiguro. you're so brave now, thinking you're the shit now for dating the invincible mikey, eh?" one of the group's boys shoved you hard, causing you to stumble backwards and nearly fall on your bum, "bitch!"

mikey noticed your fingers twitch and your hands tremble, but you kept it in, but this, this was the final straw, at least for him. words were something he could always take, but these people getting physical with you? certainly not.

as you calmly stared at each of them with closed fists as they continued to harass you, preparing to take action, your boyfriend stepped in right before a swing of a closed fist could reach you.

"what do you guys think you're doing to my girlfriend, huh?" mikey's voice hardened, going full "leader of toman" mode as he emphasized you're his. at that moment, your boyfriend had become something atrocious. his eyes were seeing red.

everyone's eyes, including yours, widened. you were so preoccupied with these idiots that you didn't notice mikey was already there. he moved like lightning. he was now standing protectively in front of you, his hand firmly gripping the wrist of the boy who was about to hit you.

"hey! let me go, you wimp! you don't scare me at all!" scowled the boy, but instead of releasing him, mikey yanked his wrist painfully before thrusting his leg up, sending him a harsh blow to the face that sent him to the ground in a matter of seconds by a single high-roundhouse kick.

the group of people began to tremble in fear at that point. it appears that mikey should have been feared after all. your boyfriend flitted his eyes up to them and glared as he gently held your hand—a stark contrast to the dark side of him he was displaying to these people.

"the next time you dare to fucking mess with my girlfriend, you mess with me. got that?" mikey sneered angrily, "now, scram."

everyone nodded before scurrying away, dragging their comrade who had just been knocked unconscious by mikey's fearsome missle-like kick. as soon as mikey turned around to face you, his charismatic and absolute leader aura reverted to his bubbly and childish self.

"[name]-chan, are you okay? i was so worried about you!" mikey grabbed you and threw his arms around you, engulfing you in his embrace. "you're not hurt, are you?" he asked, patting you all over for any injuries.

"i'm fine, mikey, but i could have handled it myself, you know," you sighed, softly chuckling as you patted his back, "wiggly-woos magic aren't my only thing."

"i know, i know. i'm sorry but i couldn't just stand there and watch them harass you like that." mikey's face contorted into a pout, "do you.. deal with this kind of thing everyday?"

"it's not that often, but there are people in school and such who can't seem to stick their noses to just themselves," you sighed, waving your hands in the air, "it's all good i promise! those guys were saying bad stuff about you and toman, and i just couldn't help myself either."

"why are you such an angel?" mikey embraced you and began to sway you side to side, "no seriously, why are you so perfect? huh? but really, [name], i appreciate you looking after us even here at your school," he said with a smile.

"no, thank you, mikey." you returned a soft smile, muffling your face against his shoulder as you wrapped your arms around him. "really."

"you're always there for me and toman, it's only right that i'll protect you too, [name]." mikey turned his head and kissed the top of your head, saying, "i love you."

"i love you too," you immediately burst into giggle as mikey cupped your face in his hands and peppered your face in kisses, "that tickles!"

"i'll fetch you home, okay? i even got you your favorite takeout, but please don't tell gojo-san anything." mikey kissed you on the lips before pulling away to clasp his hands together, "he'll infinite void me."

you zipped your mouth before bursting into a small fit of laughter, "not a word, i promise. it will be our a little secret as always."

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marshmallowprotection · 11 months

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More RAE thoughts: crying over Endless Struggle playing when he finally confronts Rika on day 3 and a version of I Am the Strongest playing when he confronts Saejoong. Each part of him fighting the monster he almost turned into--the one so afraid of being abandoned that they turned to manipulation, possession, and obsession to prevent it; and the one who saw a dog-eat-dog world and crushed others without hesitation to survive/get what they want (not to say Rika didn't contribute to Suit bc we all know what she did but I digress)

You're right. Ray and Suit Saeran suffered from the torment of Rika AND Saejoong Choi.

However, it is important to note the very things GE Saeran knew he needed to confront are distinct to how he has to heal. Ray suffered heavily under Rika's thumb as he tried to prove himself to someone who would never be proud of him or approve of him no matter what atrocities he committed in her name and teachings.

When Rika confronts GE Saeran, she demands the return of Ray because she wants a son that will do everything she says no matter how that affects him.

A son so afraid of being destroyed and abandoned that he would never question her orders. So, what GE Saeran needed was to tell her he would never be her unyielding son. He understands now that Ray... was always worthy of love and the torture he went through to prove himself was not okay. Love isn't a goal you dangle like a carrot on a string. It's given to those you adore freely.

When Saejoong stands against GE Saeran, it's the amalgamation of the monster Suit Saeran thought he needed to be to survive.

A monster in a suit who stood towering over everything and everybody with every intention of snuffing the light out of the twins forever. He has to face the very thing he feared becoming. Suit Saeran thought he had to be strong... and strong in Mint Eye meant that he had to be the scariest thing he could think of... why do you think he donned a suit? GE Saeran had to be better than his father. He had to look evil in the eye and choose kindness to feel free from his fears.

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lawain-dimensional-heroes · 11 months

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As members of Temporal Remedy, each Time Guardian has their own Time Dial that helps them in their mission, with each member having a different ability in their Time Dial compared to each other, but all of them share the same theme of time. Each time dial also is built to undo temporal anomalies.

Also F.Y.I this is kind of me just thinking about their abilities quickly so some might be up for change!

In Kevin's case, his Time Dial allows him to manipulate the temperature due to him manipulating how fast the energy in each particle gets released. Codename: Temporal Kelvin

And in Vill-V's case, her Time Dial allows her to temporarily stop time, allowing herself to move freely through the world. Codename: Temporaltation

Milena's Time Dial allows her to call upon/summon legendary heroic figures of the past to aid her in battle. Codename: Lord's Urgent Command

Mobius' Time Dial is made to be able to alter the opponent's age, like slow down their aging or speeding up. Codename: Aging flow

Edward's Time Dial allows him to alter the flow of time of his opponents, but it isn't built to stop time. Codename: Time flux An additional ability the Time Dial has for Edward is one that has been an experimental ability, a dangerous ability that requires all limits of his Time Dial to be removed. Once the ability has been activated, his body and mind are removed from the natural flow of time, allowing him to travel through time, yet never staying permanently in one point of time. When he's present in a timeline, his body exerts an immense warping in time around him as physics tries to prevent anything from touching him. Yet all will one day end up at him, like the part of a black hole that has given this ability it's name.

Experimental Codename: Singularity

Elysia's a different case though. While she does have a Time Dial - one built to revert someone's physical state and heal the other-- with the Time Dial's codename being the same as the team's name. While she does have the Time Dial, in reality she did not need it, n'or did she need any Time Dial to being.

In a way, she is her own Time Dial, with her powers being Time Manipulation, she is able to replicate their Time Dials' abilities, though there's one ability that they would give it a codename due to it's relation and deviation to time - one of memories. Codename: Temporal Climax - serenity dreams

#out of aura #long post?

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otherworldsjt · 1 year

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Death's Fury Chapter IV: PRP (Pt.2)

"Trik, no. I am 100% organic. If I weren't, I'm sure you'd know by now." I couldn't allow him to ask me something that stupid. How can he be so informative about most things yet gullible to his own foolish ideas?

"Right. Right," he replied.

"Still, do you by chance possess one of these?" A small space on Trik's chest began to open, revealing three crystals – each the size of a pen – floating, emitting a green light. They were beautiful and looked familiar somehow. They kind of looked like...

"Oh, wait!" I reached inside my spatial bag, "Just a sec...I think...I might..."

After scrambling in my bag, I finally pulled it out. It was a necklace with a crystal pendant my mom had given me before we left—the same kind of crystal inside Trik, except smaller and transparent.

"Like this right," I said, showing the necklace to him.

"Yeah...where'd you get this?" Trik asked, taking the necklace.

"My mom, she gave it to me before I left. She said it'll protect me. It's the same as the ones inside you, isn't it?"

"Somewhat," Trik replied, scanning the crystal. "You're familiar with rupture prisms, right?"

"Yeah, they were lined within the walls of the DIM room back home; they prevented me from using spirit manipulation during certain portions of my training. I never actually saw one before receiving the necklace, though. Just knew a little about their purpose during my training."

Trik shook his head in disbelief.

"Negating others' spirit energy is what it's commonly used for now, but what makes them truly special is when gathered in large quantities, they can absorb the most immense energy around it and disrupt all other energy. So, for example, in the room you mentioned, your spirit energy was disrupted, meaning–"

"Meaning there was a larger energy source inside the room beside mine or anyone else who entered the room," I finished. "...The lights. They were, at first, way too bright – blindingly so – but quickly dimmed to normal brightness. The crystals absorbed the light."

"Right, and in small quantities, and with the right preparations, it'll steadily absorb a little of the user's spirit energy, creating a space around that person that greatly weakens other forms of energy that enter it. Energy such as a Primordial's spirit energy, for example. This, however," Trik held out the crystal for me to take back, "is a pure, authentic rupture prism and is very rare, unlike the ones embedded in me, which were manufactured. It also doesn't have the flaw of just taking whatever energy's around it and causing undiscriminating negations. Pure rupture prisms must be activated by flooding it with the user's spirit energy; the more you flood it, the larger the disruption field becomes. Once the crystal has your spirit energy, it'll take 12 hours before it's depleted. It's this process scientists tried to recreate with the manufactured crystals but failed. Instead, the crystals they created continuously absorb and disrupt the energies around it, so organic creatures can't utilize them as effectively as technological beings – such as myself – who have near-infinite power sources."

"So, it won't just absorb all of my strength if I keep it around my neck?" I asked warily.

"No, you have to focus and charge it with your spirit energy to activate it. Once it's activated, you're good for 12 hours or until you decide to reabsorb the energy you expended. Oh, and don't worry, once it's activated, it'll recognize your energy signature so you can still use your spirit energy freely without it being negated." Trik closed the patch on his chest, concealing the crystals.

"Oh, okay... But wait, if your crystals are constantly absorbing the most immense energy and negating anything weaker, how were you going to break the hold of Death's spirit energy just now? If I understand this correctly, you'd have to have a larger energy source for the crystals to disrupt it. You have an infinite energy source but not necessarily a large one."

Trik smiled.

"I'm glad you were following along, Lisa. You're correct; my energy source is nearly infinite but not large. You see, my body is made from a special metallic alloy that, when completely encased, is capable of trapping energy that's already inside me. There's also a removable cover made of the same alloy, protecting the crystals. Once the cover's removed, the crystals continuously absorb the most immense energy inside my body. Even with the Primordial's invading spirit energy present, my energy core is the most immense within my body. All other energy around me is then severely weakened. I would have to open my chest panel, directly exposing the crystals to the Primordial's spirit energy, for the crystals to absorb his instead."

"Wow, I see why you're so expensive," I said, amazed. "Okay, so all I have to do is charge it with some of my energy. Sounds easy enough."

After placing the necklace around my neck, I clutched the crystal in my fists and concentrated on making my spirit energy active. Once it was, I willed a good proportion of it towards the crystal in hopes of "flooding" it, but nothing happened.

Feeling a little disappointed, I was about to ask Trik if I'd done anything wrong when the crystal abruptly lit and began sucking in a lot of my spirit energy. I could feel my energy pooling into the crystal – leaving me weaker but giving the crystal energy it needed to operate. Then it stopped just as suddenly as it began.

"Note to self," I said, bending over to catch my breath, "don't flood."

Trik hovered over while trying his best not to laugh.

"I didn't say throw half your energy at it," he chuckled. "But here, take a look. Fully charged and ready to go."

The crystal now had an aqua glow as it hung from my neck, the same aqua as my spirit energy. Makes sense, I mused. The crystals take on the color of the energy it absorbs.

"Now that we have protection, you ready to try entering again?" Trik asked.

"Yeah," I said, gathering myself, "let's give it another go."

We walked three-fourths of the field before approaching the edge of Death's spirit energy again, staying just out of reach. I'm pretty sure it could sense our presence since it was practically reaching out toward us like it wanted nothing more than to reclaim its escaped victims.

Some of the tendrils entered the dampening field my crystal emitted, and I could actually see the tendrils weaken. They didn't entirely disappear, but I could tell that touching them would have little to no effect on me now.

I sighed heavily.

"Here goes."

#anime and manga #superpowers #supernatural #fantasy novel #fantasy

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edoro · 2 years

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I find it particularly interesting that Belos let's Hunter have free will. If he really is a grimwalker and needed for some kind of sacrifice or magic, it would be just as easy to lock him in an enchanted sleep or brainwash him so that he's compliant to belos as an abomiton.

Whatever this ritual belos needs him for, Hunter has got to do of his own free will, and I can't help but shudder at what kind of job that would be...

it is interesting, isn't it? there are a lot of different tunnels branching off that particular rabbithole.

we've seen he has access to some form of mind control via Terra, although it seems to have side effects and need personal attention, so who knows how easy or feasible for long-term use it is, or if it can be used on multiple people at once?

it seems to more suit his style, too. he's happy to use brute force if he has to, but he seems to prefer getting people to do what he wants 'of their own volition' (for a definition of 'their own volition' that often includes, uh, quite a lot of duress lmao) via manipulation and mind-games. he seems to prefer to come across as pleasant and charming, and he prefers to bargain for what he wants rather than simply demand it.

and i do feel like if Hunter is a clone of Wittebro (which seems heavily implied, to say the least) then there's something going on there more than just him being a sacrifice. that might still be the ultimate goal, but i can't help but think he's fulfilling some other, more abstract and emotional need for Belos there too.

so if that's the case, then it could be a matter of needing Hunter to perform his role of his own free will, or the role Hunter's meant to play otherwise just not being something he can do if he's brainwashed or mind-controlled, but it could also be a matter of wanting Hunter's 'freely given' love and loyalty and obedience.

either way, it is definitely telling that for whatever reasons, the benefits of allowing Hunter free will outweigh the drawbacks. and i am SO concerned for my boy.

#hunter toh #emperor belos #toh spoilers #kind of?#meta #asks

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habeascorpseus · 3 years

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Where the FUCK is ghostbur. That's what I'm really wondering. Through it all, ghostbur has managed to make at least one appearance every day to tommy, but ever since he was supposed to invite people to tommy's party, he's dissapeared. And I'm pretty sure it's because Dream did something. First off: he's been trying so hard to keep tubbo and tommy connected. He's talked to tommy about tubbo and tubbo about tommy and gave tubbo his compass the SAME day tommy suggested throwing his beach party. He SAW tubbo go in tubbo's house with ghostbur and come out with the compass. There's no way he wouldn't connect the dots to tommy's own compass, given to him by ghostbur. From today's stream, we now also know someone is stealing the books ranboo leaves for tommy and trying to make it harder for them to correspond. Dream has been trying to cut tommy off from his friends, and Wilbur is a direct obstacle for that because unlike tommy he can travel freely and deliver messages wherever. Second off: he makes tommy feel better. He's a comforting presence who gives soothing words to anyone who needs them and has spent much of his time in Logstedshire cheering tommy up. His gifts are the only gifts besides his new disks that tommy has accepted as kindness and not pity. And unlike dream, he doesn't take away beforehand. If ghostbur is there to give tommy gifts and be kind, tommy will have enough contrast to realize dream isn't his friend, and that cannot happen. And finally, third: he's the only one who knows exactly how dream treats tommy. Ghostbur is the very definition of having "loose lips", cheerily talking and giving out information to anyone who might ask. From ghostbur saying, "and tommy's.... alive" we can tell that ghostbur is able to discern healthy behavior from unhealthy behavior, the implication being from the beginning of his sentence (talking about how everyone has improved and is happy) that he can't say anything good about tommy's state at the moment. If anyone were able to be directly told how bad tommy is getting (tubbo has only heard vague allusions from ghostbur and absolute lies from dream), they'd come running to tommy's aid immediately. And ghostbur, poor, sweet ghostbur, who only wants the best for tommy, directly threatens the fact that no one really knows how bad tommy has gotten. He has to go in order to keep tommy low enough to manipulate. Now, ghostbur is gone and tommy doesn't seem to notice yet, too busy wallowing in a depression that conveniently only dream can comfort. Nobody else on the smp seems to notice either, though that's probably because they expect him to be with tommy and not in L'manburg. Whatever the case, something has happened to the one other constant tommy has in his life and if he doesn't come back soon, tommy will have no one but dream to lean on.

#dream smp #ghostbur #tommyinnit #dreamwastaken

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traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors · 2 years

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hi im looking for some validation :/ tw csa, incest, and nccsa

so when i was nine my older female cousin molested me, but im not sure if this was a single incident or smth that happened several times. i actually kinda repressed this memory for years. and then when i was 17 and 18 i began messaging men online, sending them nudes and videos, calling them, letting them tell me all the awful things they wanted to do to me and getting off on it. i feel like none of this is a valid reason for my (diagnosed) cptsd tho, especially the molestation. im like what if i made it up and the stuff online was all with my consent, i actively sought it out, so why does it still make me feel so sick?

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Hi 🔸️,

You're not alone in how you've been coping with the trauma you endured as a child. Childhood trauma has an immense, enormous impact on one's life, so be kind and compassionate with yourself.

What you have gone through is definitely a "valid reason" for your PTSD. I don't think you made up your childhood trauma and actively seeking something out doesn't mean you're consenting to it. Consent isn't as simple as that. Many survivors have sexual experiences that, later, they recognize as self harming, nonconsensual, etc. Sometimes we realize that, in the past, we didn’t have the information we do now, and we would make different decisions today. We can only do the best we can with the information we have at the time.

Freely given. Consenting is a choice you make without pressure, manipulation, or under the influence of drugs or alcohol.

Reversible. Anyone can change their mind about what they feel like doing, anytime. Even if you’ve done it before, and even if you’re both naked in bed.

Informed. You can only consent to something if you have the full story. For example, if someone says they’ll use a condom and then they don’t, there isn’t full consent.

Enthusiastic. When it comes to sex, you should only do stuff you WANT to do, not things that you feel you’re expected to do.

Specific. Saying yes to one thing (like going to the bedroom to make out) doesn’t mean you’ve said yes to others (like having sex). Source

Many people who have gone through trauma use sex/sexual activity to self harm. That doesn't make you at fault for the people seeking to predate on you and your vulnerability. There are abusers out there actively seeking out young, traumatized, vulnerable people to engage with sexually. You are not alone in your experiences.

You are a good, worthy person. The things you have experienced do not make you bad, dirty, or disgusting. Acknowledge that you feel shame about these things and that you're blaming yourself. This shame and blame are not justified, but they are worthy of processing so you can move on from these feelings. I highly suggest talking to a therapist about these feelings and that you feel you caused your nccsa. It's important to process these emotions and forgive yourself, grieve for your childhood, and develop a positive self image.

Take care.

- Misa

#trauma talks #mod misa #🔸️#tw sa #tw abuse #tw child abuse #tw csa #tw incest #tw self harming behavior #tw nccsa

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someoneintheshadow456 · 2 years

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Valkyria Chronicles Meta

It's been a year since I first played VC and sure enough one of my mutuals has been compelled to play it and it brings back memories of the whole roller coaster ride that I went through then, and now he's going through the same thing.

It's also made me realise that a significant portion of the people playing this game seem to be missing one of its most revealing and important conversations - the cutscene with Selvaria and Maximilian just before Naggiar. At first glance, it looks like bad exposition, but deeper reading reveals a chilling level of manipulation on Maxie's part that went on offscreen. And this is the scene that changes the players' perception of Selvaria from "yandere henchwoman" to "victim of domestic violence."

And I've had it with going to each person and explaining so I'm making a breakdown of it.

Spoilers under the cut:

The game chooses to go with the most revealing line right off the gate - "I exist because you exist, one aside the other. You go with my trust."

Up until now, at this point, it was assumed Maximillian didn't know how Selvaria felt about him. So Selvaria's obsessive and very unsubtle romantic gestures thus far came across as just highlighting how unhinged and villainous she is.

However, the moment he said this... all the bets were off. This statement was way too carefully worded to be by accident. It's very evocative of marriage vows. In most cultures that have marriage vows, they always allude to the couple standing by each other's side through thick and thin, neither existing without the other, and complete and mutual trust.

If he truly had no idea how Selvaria felt, there would be no need for him to say something that beat by beat, alludes to marriage without even saying the word, especially in the context of giving orders to a subordinate.

At this instance, the player wonders if maybe Maximillian and Selvaria are lovers, and just don't show this relationship openly due to their positions and being at war.

And then we see Selvaria's reaction:

The change in expression is almost night and day - widened eyes, softer lines, and more submissive body language. Even her voice noticeably raises in pitch, and becomes more emotionally charged.

What's also notable is the shock when she heard it. If they had been mutually lovers, marriage would be a given, and alluding to it should not make her practically swoon. If it does, it means that praise and affection from Maxie are not given out freely.

Then you remember that "you go with my trust" was preceded by "you have never failed me in your loyalties thus far." And you realise, Maxie doesn't just not give affection freely... he gives it out conditionally. She only "goes with his trust" if she succeeds in her endeavors.

If you have played Selvaria's DLC before this, then you'd get even more context. You'd know that when not in Maxie's presence, Selvaria is an intelligent, competent, and powerful commander who is strict and caring with her soldiers. She isn't the unhinged, nuke-toting yandere that you thought her to be when you fought her at Barious. It's just that love causes her to behave irrationally, as love tends to do with all of us.

So then, you ask yourself, why would a woman like this put up with such cold treatment? Anyone with her level of competency, upon seeing that this is how she's valued, would obviously just leave, would she not?

But that thought leaves your head quickly, as your question is answered right that second.

And it is here where you realise that Selvaria has very good reason for her fanatical devotion to this man. It is well known that people with trauma in childhood have difficulty leaving abusive situations. Because while they know that their current situation is bad, what came before it was far worse.

But if Maxie rescued her from evil scientists in a corrupt research lab, it means he has a kind side to him, and isn't as evil as he seems. Sure, he's stringing her along, but it can't be much more than that. Well, the game unfortunately chooses to leave out this bit of information from the supplementary wiki that puts everything into perspective:

If it was indeed his own research facility where she hailed from, then "rescued" would be a poor term to describe what happened to her. It means that Maximilian was directly responsible for her situation to begin with. It's likely he knew he would need a Valkyria in his conquests, and kept a close eye on what was going on in this lab so that he could eventually purchase one.

Yes, purchase, as though she were a weapon sold by an arms dealer. Selvaria was bought and sold to her merchant's most wealthy patron, and lied to that she had been rescued. This means that if she so much as put a toe out of line, she would be reminded that Maximillian "saved her" from the evil scientists. That she "owed him" for "all that he has done for her." He could even threaten to send her back on a particularly bad day.

And sure enough, he ends up proving that with this:

Notice that when Selvaria described herself as "a worthless wretch" before she met Maxie, he did not correct her or reassure her as a loving partner normally would. He basically tells her that if she was truly grateful for having been "rescued" from the lab, she would awaken her powers for him. When she spews her backstory like this, you'd think this is lazy exposition. It's not. When you remember that Selvaria was purchased, it becomes clearer that she was indoctrinated to think this way about herself and parrot it back so that she would remain loyal.

Maxie also says that he has "betrayed the trust he placed in her." A lesser known tactic used by abusive spouses is to tacitly admit to having mistreated their partner so that they can offer reassurance and categorically deny it. By saying that he did not betray her trust, and that she awakened her powers because she wanted to, she is giving him exactly the reaction he expected of her.

(Continued...)

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Come Back Home (A Kim Taehyung Mafia AU) // Part 6

Summary: You were dead. Or at least that's what Kim Taehyung thought. But love never dies. A myth, yes. And maybe that's why when he finds out that you are alive, he may have already lost you.

Pairing: Mafia!Taehyung×Reader

24th January, 2019

10:46PM

This is my first entry ever. My name is Y/N Y/L/N and my life has been a little too happening for the past 24 days. I came to live with my best friend in Korea, only to be kidnapped by a dangerous man who called himself Kim Taehyung. And these 24 days, I have been living with him. That's right. Living.

I have to admit, I was scared shitless at first. I thought I was pretty much dead and there is no way Yoona can save me. But can you imagine my surprise when Kim Taehyung turned out to be a sweet gentleman? And it's not just him. All the people who work with him are just as nice to me. Especially, Jungkook. He makes me feel like I have known him for a long time. It's not really bad living here. Taehyung's house is like four times bigger than Yoona's house and I sometimes get lost. It gets boring when no one's home but I manage. I think my little complaint made Taehyung buy me this diary. It's really pretty and it has my name sewn onto the hard cover. He says it's an apology present but I know he's probably annoyed with me. He just wants me to keep to myself. It isn't my fault, is it? Kim Taehyung is just a very…. intriguing man. I find myself being pulled to him all the time. But this is a secret. Between you and me.

Yours Lovingly,

Y/N

A knock on the door made you close the diary and hide it under your pillow. You cleared your throat and pulled the covers up to your neck before mumbling a 'come in'. Minho's head peeked in through the door, a small smile gracing his lips as he took in your form. He slowly got inside and closed the door.

The sun was shining through the windows, the chirping of the birds outside giving you hope that today's gonna be a good day.

"Hey." He mumbled, glancing at his feet and leaning against the door. You gulped, the awkwardness in the room becoming very obvious. You hadn't spoken to Yoona or Minho the day before. Jungkook's words had left you anxious and suspicious, if it wasn't for the diary then you would have surely lost your mind. Since you were too tired the previous night, you hadn't touched your diary at all. But your curiosity had you waking up early and flipping open the pages.

Strangely, Minho hadn't bothered you since you fainted and you wondered how your relationship with him used to be.

"Hi." You replied, mustering a small smile and sitting up straighter.

"Did I wake you?" He asked, wincing a little at the thought. You immediately shook your head, your hands itching to grab your book and read more of your thoughts.

You could feel the headache coming, clearly, the information of you having been kidnapped was too much.

So Taehyung became your best friend after he kidnapped you?

That's the only possible explanation. And also, he doesn't seem to be lying either since your entry made sure to tell you how much you liked being in his presence.

Wow ...what an interesting story.

"Y/N, are you listening to me?" You snapped out of your thoughts, mentally slapping yourself for completely forgetting about Minho.

"I-uh yeah... I'm sorry I'm just... there's too many thoughts." You apologized, biting your lip and shaking your head slightly. Minho smiled apologetically at you, his hand enveloping yours. You blushed, gaping at the sudden gesture.

"It's okay, I understand. I just came to tell you that Yoona has gone out for some work. So I was wondering that maybe we should go out and you know, not let you get too cooped up?" He asked, raising his eyebrows at you.

You blinked at him, thinking of ways to say no but you couldn't do that to him. As much as you lost yourself, everyone else did too. What they need is for you to tell them that you aren't gone completely. You'll be back. You are on your way.

Reluctantly, you nodded, eyes narrowing at Minho's hand on top of yours.

"I'd like that." You said, giving him a comforting smile. His hand was warm against yours, the kind of warmness that Jungkook had brought to you. It was so...brotherly.

He's your boyfriend.

You cleared your throat, pulling your hand away from him. Minho noticed your uncomfortableness and stood up, giving you a nod.

"Okay then. Uh.. I'll wait for you downstairs. Take your time." He said, waving at you before leaving you alone.

You sighed, leaning against the backrest. In all honesty, you did feel a little grimy. You had barely gotten out of bed since yesterday.

You pulled out your diary, running your fingers across the hard cover. There was a certain amount of hesitation in your heart. You didn't really know the story that was hidden between the pages. It was like you were getting to know yourself from your own perspective. You couldn't tell if you were ready or not.

💔🖤💔🖤💔🖤

"Fucking hell!"

Taehyung's voice echoed through the house, making everyone turn their heads towards the study. Namjoon frowned, nodding at everyone to let them know that he was gonna check up on what exactly Taehyung was doing.

He dragged himself up the open staircase and leaned against the doorway of Taehyung's study, frowning on seeing the mess. The room reeked of alcohol, an empty bottle of whisky sitting on the table which used to be a lot more cleaner in your presence.

Namjoon's heart ached at the thought. Such a shame that life is so quick to take away important people. The only thing Namjoon was grateful for, was your existence. At least, you were alive.

Taehyung rummaged through the cardboard boxes in the room, throwing out everything that he wasn't looking for. Namjoon sighed, concluding that Taehyung was, indeed, drunk.

"What are you doing?" Namjoon voiced, watching the younger male with a cold expression. It was absolutely demotivating to see Taehyung slowly spiralling back into the darkness that he was saved from. As much as Namjoon wanted to do something about it, he felt helpless.

Taehyung closed his eyes, sitting down on the carpeted floor and rubbing his eyes. He hadn't gotten a wink of sleep last night, his mind too busy replaying his encounter with you.

"I can't fucking find her diary. I swear I had packed it up in one of these boxes.." Taehyung replied, his words sounding very unstable.

Jungkook stood outside the study, peeping in from behind Namjoon and wincing on seeing Taehyung's state. There was absolutely no way he could tell Taehyung what he had done. Taehyung would probably get mad that Jungkook had done this without telling anyone. But what could he do?

He seemed to be the only one worried about your sanity because you were staying with Yoona. Something had to be done to save you. To make you feel like you still had control over your life.

"You're too drunk to be looking for anything. Go and get cleaned up first." Namjoon ordered, kneeling down beside his brother-like friend and patting his back. Taehyung shook his head, his red rimmed eyes begging Namjoon to help him.

Jungkook decided that he should probably step in. So he did.

"You really should go and clean up. We'll look for it." Jungkook stated, walking in with his hands in his pocket. Taehyung sighed, reluctantly nodding. He stood up, stumbling on his own feet but Jungkook caught him.

Taehyung nodded at Jungkook in acknowledgement and Jungkook cracked a small smile.

"Just, please find it. That diary makes me feel like I still have her even though I don't." Taehyung requested, glancing at both the men before making his way out.

Jungkook frowned, looking down at his shoes. Should he have not done that?

💔🖤💔🖤💔🖤

Yoona shivered, her body still hot and bothered from what she had done moments ago. The silk sheets beneath her body felt cool, her fingers tangling themselves in the red satin. Her eyes followed the man across the room, smiling at him with all the affection she had. But he seemed to be unaffected, too focused on putting on his clothes and lighting up his cigarette.

"You're leaving so soon?" Yoona voiced, disdain evident in the way her shoulders slumped. She knew that Eunho had a life apart from her but she couldn't deny the liveliness she felt when he was with her. She felt special. She felt like she was doing something right, even if the world didn't believe that.

Eunho shook his head, running his fingers through his brown hair.

"I'm not going anywhere, you are. This is my house and I have things to do so get out."

Yoona's jaw dropped at the harshness delivered to her. She could hear the shattering of her heart, her chest tightening as she sat up straighter.

"Why are you saying that? I...I don't understand." She frowned, pulling the sheets up to cover her body. Eunho sighed before chuckling bitterly to himself. He turned towards Yoona, taking a long drag from his cigarette and sitting beside her on the bed. He tilted his head, mocking her with his pitiful eyes.

"You stupid stupid girl. Did you think I'd keep you with me forever? I must admit, the sex was amazing at first but now, it's just boring. So, give me back the money you took from me and get lost." He stated bluntly, crossing his legs and staring at Yoona in amusement.

Yoona's breath hitched, her eyes warming up as tears began to pool in them. All these months, she had thought that Eunho was the one for her. Even though he was a gang leader, he was nice. He was better than all the others she had met. She had trusted him with all her problems and he had also given her money when she had to pay Taehyung back.

This was not something she expected. She leaned forward and held Eunho's hand, tears freely falling down her cheeks.

"No, Eunho, I'll do whatever you want. Don't end this here. I don't even have the money. If I had it, I wouldn't have borrowed it from you!" Yoona begged, her voice cracking in the middle.

Eunho was her pillar and maybe she had been naïve enough to let him manipulate her but she was in too deep now. She was in love and she knew that. She just couldn't believe that Eunho could say such things to her. He only wanted her for her body? Bullshit.

Eunho yanked his arm away and stood up, throwing icy glares at Yoona as he crouched down to her eye level.

"You don't have the money? Hmm...then we have just two choices." Yoona's eyes lit up with hope. This was good. There has to be some way in which she could repay him and convince him to stay.

At her lack of response, Eunho smirked and leaned closer, placing his fingers under her chin. Yoona could feel his breath on her lips, the smell of his cologne mixing with that of the cigarette.

"Either you get me the money somehow…." Yoona's breath hitched when his hand trailed down to her neck, his fingers wrapping around the skin.

"...or you get me the girl who was in the middle of all this."

Yoona's eyes widened and she immediately pushed Eunho away. Her breathing became heavier and her jaw clenched.

So he wanted Y/N?

Eunho could sense the anger he had planted in his dumb lover, a wave of satisfaction crashing over him. He loved seeing Yoona getting so riled up over nothing. Because how much was her best friend really worth?

Nothing.

Eunho just wanted a taste of the girl who had captured Kim Taehyung's heart. It was just mere curiosity and he was sure that he'd let her go after one night. But if she was really special, then maybe he'd have to keep the little birdie with him.

What was her name again?

Y/N Y/L/N

"You're sick! I'll fucking give you your money, one way or another but you'll never ever get your hands on Y/N!" Yoona seethed, rushing to put on her clothes. All of her trust and affection was thrown out the window in a span of seconds.

"Oh? Okay then, I guess you wouldn't mind if I informed Taehyung that this whole kidnapping thing was your doing."

Yoona froze, her jacket clutched tightly in her hands as a shudder ran down her spine. She gulped, slowly turning around to look at the pathetic man who was threatening her after using her to his heart's content.

"You wouldn't." She mumbled, her tone cautious and doubtful. As much as she wanted to call it a bluff, Eunho's eyes told her otherwise. He had always been a competitive man, his ego too high to please and too easy to hurt.

Eunho raised an eyebrow, taking a step closer to Yoona.

"You think, baby? Fine, don't come to me when Taehyung sends his people after you."

Yoona shook her head furiously, her jacket falling to the floor as she swallowed thickly. Her stomach churned and she wanted to throw up. The smell of Eunho's cologne was now becoming intoxicating. She couldn't stand it.

"You can't pin this on me. I asked you to hurt Taehyung!" She yelled, pointing at Eunho while he simply smirked.

"That's the point, baby. You asked me. You let your friend rot in Castillo's basement. You decided that she needs to be given electric shocks to forget Taehyung. So tell me. Who's the bigger culprit?"

The tears that had dried up made a comeback, endlessly streaming down Yoona's cheeks. This was low, even for Eunho. But it was her fault for believing him in the first place. You used to be a cautious girl when it came to men and Yoona used to think you were being too stuck up. Now she understood why. She had made a big mistake with no way to undo it.

Eunho tutted, wrapping his arms around Yoona and letting her cry. He patted her head and rocked back and forth.

"You have two weeks. Get me Y/N and we'll all be happy." He mumbled, his soothing tone contradicting the warning of his words.

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Look at this family, we really growing, huh? How do we feel about the plot twist? I hate Yoona 😔

Tell me if you wanna be tagged! As much as I think this was a bad chapter, I hope you guys still liked it!

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Pink Diamond: A Character Study

So in Steven Universe it never explicitly states what happens between Pink Diamond and her original pearl to separate them but we can assume that they had some kind of "inappropriate" relationship

We see in some of the flashbacks that Steven has that Pink Diamond doesn't just want her pearl to entertain her, she also wants to entertain her Pearl

This isn't so unusual if you consider Pink's relationship to the other diamonds; They talk fondly about how Pink would tell jokes, dance, and sing them songs despite being a diamond herself

The Lapis Lazulis in another episode mock Lapis by saying, "you want us to sing and dance like Pearls?" Which implies that entertainment is reserved for certain gems

From Pink's perspective it must be a little confusing being told her entertainment is something they love but not something she cant do freely

The diamonds also didn't take Pink seriously.

We know that pink had a problem controlling herself. In Volleyball, we learned that Pink had violent outbursts when she didn't get what she wanted. We Also see Pink smashing a mirror when she was denied a colony and we know that Pink's been locked up on multiple occasions for her disruptive behaviour

It is possible that her Pearl was taken away because 1) She did not act professionally around her Pearl or 2) The Diamonds were angry at her and aware that she had a fond relationship with her Pearl so they took her away as punishment for Pink's shenanigans

It was likely a combination of the two where she was taken away to teach Pink a lesson and also in hope that around new company she might become more mature

She wasn't only given a new Pearl, but also a Spinal. It's clear that by giving her a compliant Pearl and a Spinel for entertainment, that the goal was for Pink to become more focused without depriving her of what they thought she wanted.

We were all mortified that Pink left Spinel like that but Spinel was, in essence, a replacement for Pink's dead/imprisoned friend so its understandably hard for Pink to be around her

Because Pearl has never experienced one of Pink's tantrums we can assume that the punishment made her a little more secretive and emotionally reserved as well

Pink's calmer attitude may be why she was given a colony. It was also likely that Blue and Yellow felt a little bad for her after losing her Pearl.

Pink wasn't given a colony until after these changes were made and we saw her personality shift significantly.

In the Diamond day episodes, blue talks about how things used to be when they were all close. The way she says it implies that they stopped hanging out together long before Pink left homeworld

Probably there was tension between White and Pink that drove them all apart

Which brings us to Pink's final chapter

Earth was something Pink always wanted but it's not what she expected. She doesnt have any friends by her side and she isnt permitted to explore or do anythng exciting

Shes sees an opportunity for escape and freedom and she takes it because there isn't anything really tying her to Home World or the Diamonds anymore

I believe that she truly thought others wanted the same thing and that she wanted freedom for everyone

But she was undeniably manipulative and flawed

She lied to Home World and to the Crystal Gems. She couldn't lie to pearl about most things because Pearl was constantly by her side. She kept what she could from her and she took advantage of the fact that Pearl had feelings for her.

I dont believe that Pink was a bad person at heart but I think that she had little regard for those around her.

When she got angry she didn't think about how she might end up hurting Vollyball

When she acted out she didnt think that Vollyball might suffer the consequences

When she disrupted events she didnt think about how Blue and Yellow would get in trouble along side her

When she left Spinel she probably didnt think thatd she'd be there for all eternity

When she faked her shattering she didnt consider that the Diamonds would take their anger out on the Earth or that they would mourn her for centuries

When she flirted with Pearl she didnt think about how emotionally invested Pearl would become

When she had Steven she didnt think about the fact that he would have to tie up all her loose ends

She did a lot of good and she did them for good reasons but she chose not to consider how her actions could impact others

I love Steven Universe because there are no villains, just complex and flawed characters who make mistakes. Pink wasnt good or bad. She caused some really terrible things to happen and some really great things to happen but neither cancels the other out

#steven universe is among the best shows ever written #each character is so 3 dementional #steven universe #su #steven universe future #steven universe the movie #steven universe movie #spinel #pink diamond #pink pearl #pearl #Vollyball #su theories #kind of #rant #character study

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frostythefelix · 5 years

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Blessings Wait For You

Summary: When the Dragon Clan begins terrorizing the kingdom again, your life spirals out of control, somehow landing you a spot at the royal family’s dinner table and a spot in the prince’s heart.

Chapter 3

A nervous sigh leaves your lips as you smooth out the skirt of your pink dress, your right leg shaking with anticipation. Isabelle woke you up at exactly six o’clock that morning with your breakfast. She actually ate with you and spoke to you almost casually. You smiled, happy that she was treating you like a friend rather than a superior. You had always felt strange and awkward about class differences, especially when that person was about the same age as you. After you finished eating, Isabelle then helped you get ready for the day, insisting you have to look your best for your meeting with the king. She pulled a lovely day dress from your room’s closet-- you definitely did not bring that with you. You had brought several formal dresses, skirts and gowns (and even snuck your favorite pair of riding pants) but you had never owned something this bright and silky. She helped you slip into the dress and even did a bit of your makeup, choosing to leave your hair alone for the most part.

You zone back to the present. Now, you are sitting in the king’s personal office, alone with the exception of a guard by the door. You are mildly disappointed he isn't the curly haired guard from your first meeting. The king is running late. You guess since he’s the king, that means he’s still on time. The clock ticks, doing nothing but increasing the feeling of anxiety that is building up inside. The king is the most intimidating man you have ever met, reasonably so, and you are not excited for this meeting whatsoever. You try to distract yourself from your nerves, passing the time by thinking about your new friend and the dress you are wearing that hopefully isn't stolen from someone else’s wardrobe.

Finally, twenty-three minutes after you were told to be there, the king walks in. He does not acknowledge your presence, taking his seat behind his desk. He fiddles with some scrolls, picking them up and dropping them back onto the desk a couple times before folding his hands in front of him and making direct eye contact with you.

“Do you know why you are here?” He asks, voice monotone. Startled at his directness, you open your mouth to respond only to close it again when you can’t find your voice. Your eyebrows furrow.

“The Dragon Clan want to kill me,” you reply, sounding like you are asking a question more than answering his. He chuckles darkly, shaking his head.

“You have information that we need. We will need you to answer some questions later today and describe the man you saw to a sketch artist.” You nod at his words. This isn't a surprise to you, you knew you would have to do it at some point. To catch the Clan, you need more than just your vivid memory, but it is the best lead the palace has right now.

“I know you probably know who the men are. You have seen them in your town before, but I want to go into more detail so that you comprehend why this is such a serious matter.” You frown, but nod anyway to show him you are listening.

The king continues explaining. “The Dragon Clan have been around since before I was born. They have come into power and gone back into the shadows several times, each time returning with the same goal: to overthrow my family and put one of their own men on the throne.” He laughs, a sound you infer isn't full of joy. “You saw one of their faces. If we can identify him that will bring us a few steps closer to ending them for good.”

When you don't respond, he clears his throat. “You will be treated as a guest during your stay here with us. Until we know you are safe and that everything in the investigation is under control, you will remain here and provide assistance to the investigative guards as necessary. For your security, there will be certain guidelines to follow. You have already met your personal handmaid; she will inform you more of those rules. I hope the castle is fit to your liking.” You almost let a laugh out at that, if the castle does not meet your standards, you are truly out of luck, but you stifle it with a cough.

The king bids you farewell, and you take leave of his office. You take that time to explore. You have no clue where anything in this palace is, so you figure you should discover them sooner than later. Who knows how long an investigation into a decades-old rebel group would take; you could be here for years! And even if your stay is only for a couple days, you doubt you will get another chance to freely explore a palace in your lifetime. You aimlessly wander corridors, admiring the intricate artwork lining the seemingly endless hallways. On your fifth corridor, you hear grunts coming down the hall to your left. You debate turning around and picking another hall but then you hear a familiar shout. You smile to yourself, recognizing your best friend’s voice and following it. The room you come to is all wood, a striking contrast to the rock walls of the castle. You can see wooden swords on a shelf from where you stand at the door, real ones displayed above them. You hear another grunt and poke your head in the open doorway to see who is inside.

Minho is there, just as you suspected, kneeling on the ground in a tank top and shorts, an attire you are too used to seeing him in. Prince Felix and another boy, assumably the Hyunjin Felix spoke of, are doing push ups on the wood floor. For an instant you freeze, in your excitement to see your friend again you totally forgot what Minho’s job at the palace was. You don't know why, but seeing the boys-- the prince!-- in their tank tops and shorts feels like a sin, like something you are never allowed to see. You let out a squeak, turning to run, but Minho sees you lurking, a laugh bubbling from his mouth.

“Y/N, are you spying?” he teases. Blood rushes to your face, eyes wide. Prince Felix and Hyunjin lift themselves from the ground, goofy smiles on their faces as they stretch.

“No!” You protest. “I heard you and came to say hi, but I did not realize you were busy. I was going to come back later,” you explain, hoping you don't come off as a creep to the prince.

“You can stay,” the prince calls out, directing your attention to him. Your face reddens as your eyes automatically trace his sweaty, exposed collarbones and then travel down his arms. This is wrong, you should not be interacting so casually, you remind yourself.

“Oh, I cannot-”

“Yes, you can!” He argues playfully, sharing a look with your best friend that you don’t catch.

“Okay,” You reply awkwardly, not wanting to upset the prince. Hyunjin plops down on the floor, Prince Felix following suit. You hesitantly take a seat as well, searching Minho’s eyes for confirmation that you are not overstepping your boundaries, at least any more than you already are by interrupting their practice. You can tell your discomfort is amusing to your friend and you desperately want to punch him for it.

“So, what were you guys doing?” You ask, paving the way for an easy, comfortable conversation between the four of you. It takes you awhile to warm up. There is a prince right in front of you and the other two are acting as if he were just a normal guy. You don't understand how they are so casual around each other.

“You can relax, Y/N. Felix isn’t going to bite.” Minho chuckles. You glare at him, softening your expression with the help of a flaming blush when you catch the prince’s gaze. He gives you a toothless grin, a smile that shows genuine kindness.

“I’m sorry,” you mumble, letting your eyes fall to the floor. “It’s just that you are the prince. It’s kind of intimidating, even if you are so nice.” The three boys laugh at your response as you flush even more.

“I understand. I prefer to be friends with my staff, though. It is a lot more fun working with your friends than it is strangers,” Prince Felix says. You smile, understanding exactly what he means. After all, you did say the same thing to Isabelle last night. “So, please, treat me like your friend, not like I am the prince. And call me Felix. Prince Felix is way too formal.” You smile and nod, if Prince Felix-- no, Felix-- was ok with you acting casually, and told you specifically to do so, then you have nothing to worry about.

Hyunjin eases the group back into a less tense conversation, telling stories of his adventures with Felix in the castle. He’d been there since he was seven when his father was given the job of Head Guard. He and Felix became friends immediately, playing together and with the other staff’s kids, whenever they could. To you, growing up in the castle sounds like a dream. There was always someone to play with so they’d never get bored. As an only child, you had only ever had Minho to play with. You can’t stop the flicker of hope in your chest that maybe you could find friends within the palace just like Hyunjin and Felix did.

“Let’s play a game,” Felix suggests about an hour later when the conversation begins to lull.

“Absolutely not,” you respond. You are sure the guards are coming to find you soon to work on that sketch, and you think it would be best if they found you alone in your room, not in the workout room with two sweaty boys and the prince. You don't even realize that you basically just told the crown prince to shut up.

“You can’t say no to the prince, Y/N,” Minho sarcastically shouts.

“Stop telling people that!” Felix gasps, laughing as he hits his friend. You roll your eyes. Minho is always so dramatic. And after teasing you so much earlier you feel like this is just his karma.

“Fine.” Minho sighs. You wonder if he uses that excuse to manipulate people a lot. Probably. You agree to play the game, though you are not really sure what you are getting yourself into. Thankfully, Hyunjin explains the rules for a game they call “Charades”.

“You have never played before? It isn't really that difficult, you just have to act out a scene in complete silence. Your teammate has to guess what it is, and whichever team gets the most scenes correct, wins!” You doubt you will really “win” anything other than bragging rights, but Hyunjin’s energy is still contagious and you find yourself smiling. You go to grab Minho’s arm and pull him in to be your teammate, but Hyunjin karate-chops Minho’s arm. Minho shrieks, pulls from your grasp and glares at Hyunjin. You are both shocked and puzzled, is this a part of the game Hyunjin forgot to explain or something?

“Nice try, but you two definitely cannot be teammates.” You go to protest, but Hyunjin cuts you off. “You have literally known Minho all your life, you know each other too well, it would not be fair to the other team.” You and Minho share twin pouts, but you accept the fact that it would be too easy for you to win. Over a decade of inside jokes between you is perfect material for this game, too bad you will have to wait to try it out.

“So who’s team am I on then?” Minho asks, still bitter about being hit.

“Mine, and Y/N is with Felix.”

Of course you don’t mind being on Felix’s team. You want to get to know him more since you are going to be spending a lot of time in his home. It’s just that you literally have known him for a few days. Your team is definitely going to lose. You smile at Felix, jokingly reaching out to shake his hand.

“I am sorry in advance,” you say in a mock apology. Felix is a good sport and matches your fake despair in seconds, returning the handshake with a cute pout. Maybe you will be better teammates than you first thought.

Your team is up first since Felix suggested the game. Hyunjin whispers a task in your ear and you try to act it out for Felix to guess. You feel like an idiot acting out doing laundry. Has Felix ever even seen it done before? He has apparently, because he guesses it right within seconds, to the dismay of the other two. You guess they thought Felix didn’t know how laundry was done just like you had assumed.

Hyunjin is up next. Felix whispers something in his ear and Hyunjin begins to act it out. You have no idea what he’s doing, but you don't get to find out. Chan walks in while Minho is shouting incorrect answers at his younger friend, who is growing increasingly frustrated with each wrong guess. He smiles in amusement, coming over to where you are standing with Felix.

“Having fun?” He asks. You chuckle, glancing at your crazy best friend.

“If that’s what you want to call it,” you reply. Felix laughs next to you, diverting your attention to him again before Chan speaks up.

“They need you now. I’m sorry to take you away from--” he cocks his head to the side as Hyunjin begins furiously hopping up and down-- “this.”

“Good luck!” Felix shouts as you begin to follow Chan. You smile, waving back at him. Your heart hammers in your chest. You aren’t sure why you’re so nervous. There isn’t a reason for you to be. All you are doing is telling your side of the story. Chan places a comforting hand on your shoulder, assuring you that you’ll be fine once you stop in front of the door.

“Ready?” He questions. You nod thrice, breathing in deep and letting it out.

“Ready.”

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