#kinda a commission too since i put down hours for this

[onion-existence]

Made this for my virology students as a prize. Remember the Taiwan CDC gijinkas of infectious diseases? I made a drawing in that style but for the disease they were studying, the Infectious Pancreatic Necrosis Virus (IPNV)

#my art #i guess my ocs? #my ocs #kinda a commission too since i put down hours for this #commission #art #artwork #illustration #microbiology #tw animal sickness #tw gore #infectious disease #molecular biology #virology #viruses #virus

[cambion-companion]

hi!! binge read all your raphael stuff and i think it added more worms in my brain!! :D thank you!!!

raphael idea: artist!reader (or tav/durge) that raph commissions to paint a portrait of him. maybe how the sitting would go- would he be monologuing? would he be looking over contracts? would he be sneaking fond (in his own way) glances at the lovely little artist sitting in his foyer putting so much passion and concentration into capturing his devilish visage?

or maybe smth like he can't make it to a sitting one day so he sends haarlep to do it expecting that the artist won't be able to tell the difference. instead, his artist refuses to start working since that's CLEARLY not her patron!! his facial structure is off!! that piece of hair doesn't flow down like that!! and his gaze- clearly not!!! so raph comes back hours (or even days) later to find the little artist still in his house, waiting for his return so that they can resume work <3

I LOVE this!

Thank you for reading my work and for sending this lovely message in! This idea kinda ran away with me but I hope you enjoy this drabble!

“Where is Raphael?”  You squinted at the devil lounging on the gold embroidered cushions.

On first glance, it appeared to be the cambion you’d met yestereve. He had commissioned you to paint a self-portrait for him, showed you the many that already hung from his marble walls. You’d begun your work, sketching the lines and filling them out with practiced dexterity.

Due to time constraints, the devil was a busy man it seemed, you had to cut your painting short, determining to begin again the following day.

Now you sat again, upon the small stool, staring in consternation at the creature who would have you believe it was Raphael.

The fiend stretched, feigning a languid uncaring composure.  In all but those burning eyes, focused so sharply upon your frowning face.

“Whatever do you mean, little succulent?”  It was Raphael’s voice as well, though something was off about the cadence. “You have everything you need right here.”

You shook your head, frustrated, lowering your paintbrush from where it had been poised over the canvas. “No, this isn’t going to work. You aren’t him.”

“My, quite the perceptive thing.”  The devil straightened, looking displeased. “How very annoying.”

“What…who are you?”  You asked, a slight tingle of fear running down your spine.

“I am Haarlep.”  The devil’s long tail swished to curl around his feet.

“That’s an odd name.”

“Isn’t it just.”

Your frown deepened, an annoyed breath hissed through your clenched teeth. “Well, I cannot continue until the real Raphael returns.  When will he be back?”

“The master will not return for quite a while.”  Haarlep rolled his shoulders, looking equally put off. “I do my job quite well. What exactly is the issue?”

You set down your tools and folded your arms, still wary of whatever this creature was. “The way your hair falls, the cadence of your voice…”

“All aspects I am sure you can rectify without too much issue.”  Haarlep interrupted with a petulant gesticulation, but you spoke over him.

“And your eyes.”  Your own eyes narrowed in concentration, focusing on the burning embers within those inky black orbs. “Your eyes are wrong.”

“I’m offended.”  Haarlep deadpanned, then tilted his head with a curious smile. “Explain.”

“I cannot.” You shrugged.

“Then work on painting everything except the face.” Haarlep repositioned himself upon the sofa, his eyes rolling slightly in bemusement.

“For professional reasons, I cannot.”  You didn’t budge. “The master of the house didn’t notify me of this change.”

“The master of the house apologizes.”  Now that voice you recognized, Raphael’s.  Deeper and with more presence than the voice Haarlep used.

Raphael, still in human form, strode into view and offered you a wry smile.  He bowed slightly at the waist, his brown eyes never leaving yours. “I admit to not foreseeing your powers of insight. What a delightful discovery, my dear.”  

He turned and observed Haarlep with mild amusement for a moment. “You’re slipping.”

“Nonsense.”  Haarlep stood from the chaise and flexed his batlike wings. “You know as well as I, some things cannot be replicated.”

“Such as?”  Raphael directed the question to you.

You shifted, your behind slowly numbing from the uncomfortable stool. “Well, the way Haarlep carries himself for one.”  You said carefully speaking the other’s name. “The eyes are also completely different, not in shape or color but the nature they hold within them.”

“Fascinating.” Raphael put his hand to his chin, a slight quirk to his lips. “The eyes.  Windows to the soul.”  He laughed, short and rough.

You didn’t quite understand the joke but smiled politely. “Have you time now?  I can come back later.”

“No.”  Raphael shook his head and placed a firm hand on your shoulder, taking a moment to inspect your canvas. “This is important work. I am at your disposal.”  Raphael’s human form melted away. His hand on your shoulder grew in size and sharp claws bit through your shirt to your skin. Hellfire eyes looked down upon you, familiar, calculating. “For as long as you need me.”

#haarlep #raphael x tav #raphael x reader #raphael bg3 #raphael baldur's gate 3 #bg3 drabble #cambion vs incubus

[kamiiba]

agahagahh what am i doing🙏

i kinda got bored and i wanna do itto headcanons☺️ (not exactly a headcanon idk)

gn!reader

SO. we're talking about the sweetest, handsomest, funniest and sometimes most annoyingest boy in INAZUMA!!

ARATAKI ITTO !!! (but he likes u and u dont know it... maybe)

we r gonna b talking abt how he acts around inazuma when ur right by his side cause ur his right-hand man yk and he needs you by his side cause he genuinely can't do everything by himself even if he says so

every morning itto likes to bring u crimson staff, his beetle battle warrior (it's a poor excuse just to talk to you)

he talks as if he won beetle fights (when in reality, u won the fights for him. he just wont admit it because he'd hurt his pride if he did)

when going to restaurants, he's gonna make u do a taste test just to make sure that there aren't any beans. what a nightmare.

he actually just wants u to taste it first cause he likes ur reaction to the flavors (he's not stupid enough to order food with beans)

he's such a sweet boy, he'll protect you even if ur just walking on a perfectly safe road

like, he'd suddenly jump in front of u at the sound of leaves rustling or a twig snapping

he would adventure with u, looking for onikabutos and then would say “(name), look, look!! i found an onikabuto instead of some stupid lavender melon!!” and then would proceed to say he's the best onikabuto hunter in all of inazuma

you actually just put the onikabuto there cause u felt kinda bad that he keeps finding lavender melons

when the two of u got some alone time together, he would take advantage of that and would take you to his special and favorite spot in inazuma city, hoping that you'd like his favorite place too

eventually, it became a little ritual of the both of u to visit his favorite spot whenever the gang was away

in return, you brought him to your favorite spot as well, giving a breathtaking view of... of i-dont-know-where, but definitely a stunning sight

itto swore he felt his heart explode into millions and billions and trillions of butterflies when you brought him to your favorite spot, and that made him feel special

we are getting sidetracked

when he and his gang are together, itto is very, very chaotic, always suggesting something dangerous that could possibly get the tenryou commission involved

well.. that's only until you're around. he gets very shy (sometimes)

when you're with him and his gang, he's suddenly calmer, only suggesting activities such as playing hide and seek, looking for onikabuto together and beetle fighting

and he'd often make up fake stories to impress you, and it works like a charm

when you're away for longer than an hour, he'll start whining to shinobu, complaining about how it's so lonely and gloomy and depressing without you

and if you catch him in the middle of his crocodile sobbing and he'd see you, he'll get embarrassed but will cheer up nonetheless, talking about how it's been ages since he'd last seen you

sometimes, when you're away, his gang (mostly akira) would immediately start talking about how itto should already confess to you, causing the others to agree

of course, itto would get far too flustered and would immediately turn down their suggestions in fear of rejection “oh, what? h- pssh, no! nonononono NO! they aren't gonna like me back, no! (name) already thinks im annoying enough!!”

the gang would just roll their eyes. they know and you know that you like itto, too

at some point, they'd managed to convince itto into confessing his feelings for you, saying that someone else would steal your heart and that he'd lose his chance

god knows how itto managed to believe them in spite of their very obvious dramatics

“c'mon, boss! y'gotta tell 'em at some point,” exclaimed an agitated mamoru, following an obviously anxious oni around as he paced back and forth in an obviously nervous manner. in the background, akira could be seen catching a fainting genta in his arms. shinobu merely watched in slight amusement.

akira said something incoherent, followed by genta who nodded along in agreement, so mamoru decided to mimic genta's movements. “uh-huh, what akira said!”

with pursed lips, itto stopped dead in his tracks and placed his fists on his hips, feigning a look of false determination. “yeah... yeah! i'll confess to (name)! in fact, i'll confess to them right now!” at that, his gang cheered (with only shinobu sighing in exasperation).

it actually took a while for itto to muster up enough courage to meet you.

the oni genuinely didn't know where you were so he merely roamed the streets of inazuma, whistling a tune in hopes of easing his nerves.

but then he saw you, making him panic and have a mini heart attack. itto had half a mind to jump into a bush and hide instead of confronting his feelings.

when you looked at him, he wanted to turn back time because he's already regretting agreeing to his gang.

“hey, itto.” you greeted him casually with a small wave of your hand, a bit concerned with how his face is so red but decided to just ignore that altogether.

itto, in the meantime, was panicking and geeking out at the same time. he wanted to giggle, to scream, to pull his hair, to kick his feet like an absolutely infatuated middle school girl, but he also wanted the ground to swallow him whole.

“h.. hi...” he mumbled shyly, which is quite unusual. your brows furrowed and you began to grow a bit more concerned. “are you okay? y'don't look too good.” you murmured, sounding incredibly concerned.

inhaling deeply, he gathered what little confidence he had left, and blurted out his feelings in one breath. “ilikeyousomuchithinkaboutyouallthetimeandyou'resofunnyandprettyandamazingandfunandhonestlyyou'rethebestpersonininazumacauseidon'tknowwhereiwouldbeifihadn'tmetyou—”

you hastily cut him off, which was a good thing because he might waste all of his breath just to tell you something. “wait, wait, slow down! don't just.. i can't understand you like that. can ya' say that again?”

the oni immediately went silent, clasping his hands in front of him in a polite manner as he stared at you awkwardly.

“um,” he started in a meek voice, averting his eyes from your pretty ones. when he looked back at you, his face turned as red as his makeup (if that was even possible) and he looked away again.

eventually, he sighed and decided to just say it. this time, he was bold enough to meet your gaze. “i like you, (name). i've always liked you.” itto stated quietly, then pursed his lips, anxiously waiting for your response.

you merely stared at him in shock, then started laughing in disbelief. the sweet, sweet oni was caught off guard and looked at you, then pouted. “don't laugh. i'm actually being serious here.” he said sternly. but your laughter and smile was so infectious that he couldn't help himself and smile as well, a quiet chuckle escaping him.

you soon calmed from your laughter, then gave him a huge smile, your face also turning a bit red. “i like you too, itto.”

at your words, he wanted to just “AAAAAHHHOH MY GOD. THEY LIKE ME. OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OHMYGOD.”

BONUS:

giggling and laughing and smiling, itto brought you to a secluded area, then plucked out a pretty looking flower from a bush and put it on your head cause he didn't know how to put it behind your ear.

“you're as pretty as the flower,” commented your sweet boy, his bright smile accentuating his blushing cheeks.

your face reddened a bit and you smiled softly. “and you're as handsome as the sun.”

normally, that would've stroked his ego.

but instead, he's geeking out, squealing and running away and running back to you, only to run away and jump up and down like a kid.

he's a silly guy, but he's your silly guy.

ok guys bye thats the end of the video make sure to like and subscribe

#genshin impact #genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader #genshin fanart #headcanon #genshin itto #arataki itto #itto #itto x reader #☆⋆｡𖦹°‧

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Ghost Learns That Patience Runs Out

Ghost x Gn! Reader

W/n: Ghost angst cause i said so. This is also very OOC mainly because I like some angsty and fucked Ghost concepts. Im basing some of this off of his comics since there are some concerning scenes with him having very concerning behavior towards vulnerable people. DO NOT TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY (P.s. Commissions are open! You can commission me through my ko-fi. Dm me for details and commission specifics. Kofi Link Here!)

Summary: You love him, a lot. You are always so quiet and patient with him, wanting to make sure that his needs are met before your own. When he comes back from deployment you cook and clean for him. You make sure that everything feels relaxed and stress-free but its too much at times. Sometimes he looks at you and sees someone whom he hates. Sometimes he yells and breaks down while you're in the middle of helping him get clean. You take the verbal lashings and the occasional remarks in stride but you've hit your limit.

W: Unhealthy relationship, Simon "Ghost" Riley has issues, Break up, Hurt/ No Comfort, Hurt Ghost, Hurt Reader, Sad Ghost, OOC Ghost

You made sure everything was spotless. You knew how grimy and dangerous his work was, how much it weighed on him to do it and you wanted to make sure that your partner if that's what you could even call him, came back to a clean home.

You both hadnt said it out verbally, not that you thought you needed to, but you were together. Kinda. You knew he was only seeing you and he knew that you were only seeing him. It made sense to you to say that you were together but he never really enjoyed labeling your relationship. It started off as a mutual agreement to help each other destress but here you both were moving in together and sleeping in the same bed every night.

You did the laundry an hour before you knew he'd get home just so he'd have something warm and fresh smelling to put on once he took off his gear. You cooked something that would be rich in flavor and aroma while also being easy to eat since he didn't really take his time eating his meals.

You did everything to make the place feel like home to him.

Instead, when he opened up the door the first thing out of him was a grunt followed by his silence. He took off his gear, toeing off his boots by the door before taking off his socks. He was silent and had his back facing you but you didn't allow it to deter you.

"So, how was the flight back? I hope it wasn't too stressful. Im still cooking so you can go ahead and shower before eating, ok?" He didn't honor you with any response and instead walked into the bathroom, shutting the door behind him and turning on the shower.

You're used to it, his cold gaze and his uninterested attitude. You cold usually get him to relax with a meal or a quickie in the kitchen while your trying to cook. But you're tired, and your body is sore from working earlier in the day and preparing for his arrival.

"I'll set the table for us so you don't need to wait to eat!" You called out but you doubted he heard you.

When he came out of his shower, he was wearing the clothes you had set out for him and was toweling off his hair. The eyeblack was mostly removed but still stained around his eyes.

He said nothing, just sat down in his chair, and began to eat all while ignoring you.

"Did things go smoothly? Are John, Kyle, and Johnny ok?" You attempted to start the conversation again but were met with the sound of utensils scraping against the ceramic plate.

"We can talk about it later so you can unwind." You cut the conversation short and ate your food all while holding back the urge to cry.

His absence from your shared home was noticeable his presence was overpowering. He wasn't affectionate but he at least would answer your questions. He would at least touch you and pressure you that he was home. He would at least say a quiet "thank you" for the meal.

Instead, you both cleaned up the table and cleaned the dishes. He finished his and walked straight into the bedroom. You follow him once you finished cleaning the kitchen and began to undress. Maybe he wanted to have sex tonight. Maybe this would get him to speak to you or pay attention to you.

"Simon, I want you." You did your best, you even put on a bit of a show for him. But he wasn't looking at you. He just lifted up the sheets and laid down.

Maybe you were being too overly sensitive but his rejection hurt. It had you questioning if you were good enough for him if your body was pleasant to look at or to even touch.

You put on your usual sleeping clothes and joined him in bed. You slept with your back facing him. Sleeping next to him felt suffocating.

In the morning things weren't any better. He was talking to you but he was being crude and rude about the smallest of things. You had to go grocery shopping for something small and he began to berate you.

"How did you forget to buy more cooking oil? You're the only one in this house that cooks." It was getting annoying. His eyes never left you and it felt like you were a caged animal that he was keeping an eye on.

"I'm sorry, ok? I forgot. I was just excited that you were coming home and I forgot." You wanted to be patient, he was stressed all the time. He had to watch people die as part of his job but it didn't stop you from growing more and more upset with him every time he started these petty arguments.

"You don't leave the house most of the time. You're always here or at work. How could you forget something so basic? This is incompetence, Y/n." He had his face mask pulled down so you were able to see the majority of his face. He looked disgusted.

"Simon, please. You just got back, can we please just enjoy that? Can we enjoy that you're ok and back home for once?" You had the car keys in your hand, you were ready to head out to grab what you needed but he wouldn't leave it alone.

He snatched the keys from your hand and pushed you to the side.

"Why should we? I can't even trust you when you're alone and now you think you can go do it now?" He slammed the front door as he walked out.

The silence was deafening and relieving. He was gone.

You cried. You used to do it often when he would leave for a new assignment or when he would go without contacting you for months on end. But this was different. He was here. He was home. This should be the happiest time for you. Instead, it was painful. You wished he wasn't here. You wanted him to go away again.

You knew that he was nicer, calmer, and more understanding with his colleagues than he was to you. You knew this because of how he would talk about his coworkers. They were his family, his anchor. You wanted to be that support for him, to be his anchor that removed him from all of the gore and violence of his world.

But you weren't that person for him. You were his punching bag. His toy to fuck and use. He wasn't always rude but it was normal for him to be. You wanted him back, the man you fell for, the one who held you and told you that he adored you. You craved Simon back but it seemed that all that remained was his facade. His mask.

You didn't want to do this again when. he got back from the store. You didn't want to argue anymore with the person you thought you were committed to. He had problems and you weren't going to blame him for it but he wasn't the man you loved. This was not the person you met all those months ago.

You packed a bag with the essentials and started clearing up some of the mess that had started to appear since last night. You took everything you thought you might need for at least a few nights at a motel. You were tired, your body begging you to take a moment to breathe and relax but your heart was pounding in your chest and the. tears began to flow out.

When Simon got back, he noticed that the lights inside your guy's home were off. He stepped into the home, toeing his shoes off because he knew how much you hated cleaning the floor. He called out for you, he walked around the first floor of your home before placing the groceries on the table. He had bought some flowers and your favorite snack because he saw that you were low on them. He also felt like an ass for having been rude in the morning. He shouldn't have been mean to you. You were just trying to accommodate him. He did a around the house, calling your name.

The house was empty.

All of a sudden the space was too big and too small all at the same time. He was suffocating in his own skin, the air too hot for him. He ran up the stairs and barged into the bedroom. Some of your clothes and your suitcase were gone, and so was your toothbrush. But everything else was there, it looked like home. Yet, the picture you kept framed of the two of you that was on the nightstand was faced down and your keys were gone too.

He called your phone repeatedly. Message after message was sent to you and after a while, they stopped going through. He put on his shoes and ran out the door to see if he could find you in the general area but you were nowhere to be found.

You vanished into thin air and he was left to go back to an empty home just as he would have you do.

#simon riley #simon riley ghost #ghost simon riley #simon x reader #simon ghost x reader #dd speaks #call of duty #modern warfare 2 #mw2 #cod mw2 #cod #mw2 fanfic #ghost mw2 #mw2 141

[your-local-hoemie]

ꕥgenshin impactꕥ boyfriend head-canons. Number 2 Liyue boogaloo~

The first one I did got so much attention like thank you so much, I’d die for you all ^^

No I didn’t put xiao first because I was too excited to write him and no I didn’t get carried away with his scenario. Shut up.

I’m still super busy, I kid you fucking not I’ve been trying to get fired but it isn’t working for some god damn reason and I’ve had like four hours sleep in total since my last request so I apologise if this is completely incoherent, I am rapidly becoming very unhinged <33

This was just for funsies and to keep me sane so I still apologise for not get to any requests at the moment :(

Summary: Just the Liyue boys as your S/O uwu

Warnings: fluff, swearing, established relationship, gn!reader, a little suggestive (childe), not proof-read.

Characters: Xiao, Zhongli, Childe (I know he’s from that Russian place I can’t spell for the life of me but shush).

I really wanted to do baizhu but I just pulled him and I wanna go through his story so I can really get his character traits, I’ll be doing my fruity baby in the future~

Xiao~

Oh my sweet baby

My boy

The man, the myth :(, the legend~

He’s the reason my standards are too high

Curse his pretty face

Absolutely oblivious before confessing

Everyone around him could tell how different he was around you

But no matter how much they mentioned it he’d just be like

“Adepti have no need for such feelings, you mortals have such foolish ideas and no respect”

Meanwhile he’s trying his best to stomach the cake you made him just because you made it for him

At first he genuinely thought you were kinda annoying lmao

Always being so nice to him and wouldn’t leave him alone

Only when you went away to Inazuma did he realise how much he grew accustomed to your strange daily rituals of bringing him qingxings that you picked yourself just to follow him around like a puppy

I actually don’t think he’d appreciate being given too much almond tofu

Even though he likes it better than any other food can you imagine being fed the same thing everyday non stop :/

Proceeded to ask his dad Zhongli for advice

He doesn’t understand why he feels all weird and tingly

Genuinely thinks it’s his karmic debt

Zhongli proceeds to be a shit and tell’s him to “find out on his own” for some kind of moral lesson or something idfk

When he accidentally brings it up with Goldet, things get fun

Well not really for him but for everyone else’s entertainment, yes

Even with exTREME reluctance he somehow gets roped into “how to express emotions 101” lessons

Has to practice having a full conversation with a scarecrow that Goldet ever so kindly dragged in for him :)

Embarrassed, Humiliated, overwhelmed

And yet still he persists for reasons unbeknownst to him

It isn’t until he overhears some rumours about a show down between the electro archon and a mortal that he realises he might like like you

That and the constant teasing and encouragement from Zhongli and Goldet

Boys distraught

First of all he can’t have feelings for someone

He’s just going to hurt you!

He has a duty to uphold!

Only after brooding to himself for a few days does he accept it

Take it slow with him please, he may be a demon killing yaksha but he’s so scared and paranoid

Red flags? Nah we colour blind here

When you get back from Inazuma it’s very clear that your patience is thin and energy being nonexistent

Fuck you tsurimi island I hope you burn

So seeing when returning to Wangsheng Inn to find the one person you’d be holding out to see after so long, not there and a letter left to you telling you to head to the top of gingyun peak

You were not happy to say the least

Thought it was another commission and almost didn’t go

Curiosity got the better tho and that’s where he awkwardly gave you his own qingxing flowers and a amusingly bad attempt at making your favourite food

Tries to hide how red he is

Seeing you cloaked in the moonlight, leaves and fireflies framing your pretty face~

Boys a mess~

He doesn’t even have to say anything, you just pull him in for a hug and after the initial shock of it he decides then and there that you’re now bound together <3

Rarely openly admits he loves you

Too scary

At least for the moment

He is a bird

So you know what that means?

Bird behaviour goobery activated~

Brings you flowers, pebbles, crystals and anything “pretty” he comes across during his day

Pda is a no unless you want him teleporting away and pouting for a good 48 hours because he got flustered

When you’re alone though he’s more open

Hand holding, forehead kisses, sometimes even cuddling if the planets align and his karma isn’t bothering him as much that day!

He’s so touch starved he just needs to get used to affection ;-;

Stalks you romantically

He just wants to keep you safe, he’s lost so much and gone through unimaginable pain

It took some time for him to be ok with you being so close to him since he’s scared of his karmic debt hurting you

Gets super red when talking about you~

“Hm? Y/N? Well they’re..um..very important to me I suppose”

Poof. he’s suddenly “needed” somewhere else

Even if it doesn’t seem like he cares too much I can assure you that he treasures you

You’ve given his life filled with pain and loss so much meaning and even though he’s bad with expressing his emotions he’ll always find some way to make sure you know how special you are to him <3

I don’t think he’d use much pet names

Either calls you by your first name/Qingxing/sweetheart/love.

Zhongli~

Mmm fancy gentleman

British but if British people weren’t a mistake

Sighs in being British

He’s such a gentle dude ;-;

Always pulling chairs out for you or kissing your hand while holding a door open

Don’t be mistaken though

He’s an absolute smug little shit

He just hides it very well

Teases you in the most unholy of ways only to look at you with confused innocent eyes

Impossible to be mad at istg

Sliced fruit dad™️

Teaches you how to traditionally make tea after he noticed you using tea bags

Genuinely mortified him

Likes to take you on walks around Liyue and tells you stories from his life as a archon

Speaking of which I’m 100% sure he was completely unhinged when he was younger

When he first realised he was falling for you he was the sweetest person

He’d take time to somehow “accidentally” cross paths with you and just so happened to be there if you needed help

Brings you the prettiest bouquets of flowers all personally arranged by him

He has experience to a certain degree

We all know the back story and if you don’t I’m not spoiling uwu

When he decided he had dragged it on for long enough he decided to finally confess

Surprisingly nervous

Man had to keep adjusting his collar and tie and absolutely wasn’t sweating just a little

Made casual conversation while walking with you to that big crystal tree where he kept his traumatised dog

Held both of your hands right as the sun spilled golden sunlight across the mountains and probably end up cupping your cheek with the softest smile ;-;

“I have witnessed many beauties in my time but the warmth of your smile truly is the most awe inspiring sight I ever have and ever will lay eyes upon”

Xiao gets so tired of hearing him brag about you

Even Hu Tao is wearing thin 💀

Doesn’t get jealous

He knows he has nothing to worry about between his trust for you and his not very subtle ego

Tries to be better at earning and holding money just because he wants to treat you!

Doesn’t want to give Childe the luxury of knowing his money is the cause of your happiness

Not that it necessarily is anyway

It’s just the experience of seeing how your face lights up when you try that really expensive food you always wanted or find that adorable plush you’d been eyeing up, on your bed

But of course that being said it’s truly the small things you both enjoy the most

The walks and stories

Teaching him how to be more accustomed to mortal life

He loves to hold your hands or pet your head!

Also loved it when you randomly peck his cheek or nose when he’s being adorably oblivious

Good luck to anyone who tries to hurt you btw

Man will summon his pillar so far up their ass they’d legally be a lollipop

That’s a threat I swear

If you come home hurt he’ll immediately roll his sleeve up and grab the first aid

Probably scolding you for not being careful enough but he really can’t keep the act up for long

He’s just worried ;-;

He’s lived for so long

You don’t even begin to understand how much he adores and admires you for bringing excitement and warmth back to his life~

Pet names are darling/dear/love/sweetheart/jewel.

Childe~

Someone slap him please

I love him but good god

Clingy™️

I know deep down he’s a really nice boy and very soft very caring yes very nice 10/10 boyfriend

But you need to housetrain him

Dead ass would sit on the couch covered in blood and put his feet on the coffee table and get so confused to why you were mad 💀

Do not flirt back

Don’t even attempt it

Not unless you want to encourage him and make it 20x worse

You will nEVER live it down

Is actually very sweet though, if not a little dumb sometimes

Immediately knew he liked you the second you met

How did he go about showing he liked you?

Pestering you constantly

Buys you lots of things too

Have to literally threaten him to stop

Which ofc turns him on hardly works

There’s really no winning with him

That is until you realise you can bring the mighty Tartaglia, 11th of the Fatui Harbingers to his knees by just kissing his cheek or holding his hand

He’s so immune to his own teasing that he forgot to consider that affection is a pretty good way to get people to warm up to you

Jealous boy

Well sort of

He trusts you but he gets easily insecure under his cronchy ego front

Casually talks about the most fucked up shit and then laugh it off

Indirectly asked Zhongli for help confessing

Reluctantly Zhongli finds out your favourite food/hobbies/Ect.

Yeah help him but not Xiao, betrayer

I’m not getting salty at my own headcanons shut up

When he invited you to dinner, you already knew why

He’s not subtle

Quiet is the last thing he can do well without cracking up every now and then

Either that or it was the candlelit table surrounded by roses that had been set up for you near the harbour and a very nervous ginger waiting for you with the biggest, goofiest grin imaginable

He’d be on his very best behaviour ;)

Stares at you in the candlelight before you ask him what’s up in hopes to make the tension a little less overwhelming

“I have won countless battles but none have meant quite as much to me as winning your heart does”

Congrats on become Liyues new power couple

He’d be lying if he didn’t feel at least a little smug seeing people gawk at you both

You’re so pretty together, how can they not?

Some dude tried to hit on you one time while he was drunk

Somehow Dottore magically ended up with a new play thing

When he introduced you to his family he was so happy!!

Tonia, Teucer, and Anthon all adore you!!

He does get a little jealous though when you play house with Teucer and you tease him by purposefully refusing to be his spouse

Good job keeping that act up for too long

Has absolutely sent piles of letters to his family telling them all about you!

His parents probably know pretty much everything there is by now

Though if you have boundaries he’ll respect them :)

He loves to show his affection to you no matter where you are!

Teasing kisses, hand holding, hugging

He’ll often barge into your room and plop his head down on your lap just so you can play with his hair while he talks~

If you fall asleep then he’ll wrap you all up and cuddle you uwu

Had to decide if he should tell you about his occupation

He was so scared that you’d leave him or become scared ;-;

Sure, you and the fatui aren’t exactly on close terms but it’s different with him

When you asked to have some time to think he was terrified

Please give him hugs and reassure him when you return

He’s even seemed to calm down a little since you got together

Of course he’s still a battle crazed maniac that gets hard just off the thought of being challenged

But he’s devoting more of his time to cherishing you and spending time together <3

Gets so excited when you ask to spar him

Does the whole thing where he’ll stand behind you while he shows you how to hold his bow

All steamy and shit

Elbow him

You also have to admit his status has its plus points

You never have to worry about being in danger while on commissions or having enough mora to survive

Romantic idiots 3.0

Though you’re probably a little less unhinged

Probably not by much if you’re dating him tho~

When you’re tired or don’t have the time to deal with his neediness he’ll go full pout mode

All whiny and touchy

Give him a head pat and a kiss that lasts maybe a little longer than it should and he’ll satisfied

Expect for the times he carries you back home to enjoy your attention a little more~

Honestly a 50/50

He always makes sure to tell you how much he loves you and how much happier you’ve made his life~

If you look close enough you might even see a slight sparkle in his deep blue eyes that never used to be there <3

Pet names areeee: cutie/babe/baby/honey/droplet/spark/love

I know xiaos was long enough to be it’s own post but let me have my silly little obsession with my silly little traumatised men!

#genshin fluff #genshin headcanons #genshin imagines #genshin scenarios #genshin boyfriend scenarios #genshin drabbles #genshin impact #genshin impact fluff #genshin impact headcanons #genshin impact scenarios #I’m very aware Xiao’s could be his own post #I’m so in love with this fictional man it’s legitimately unhealthy at this point #Genshin #xiao headcanons #Xiao #xiao scenarios #zhongli scenarios #zhongli headcanons #zhongli #childe scenarios #childe headcanons #tartaglia #tartaglia headcanons #tartaglia scenarios #childe

[kazenomegaminowanpisu]

When I fell in love with my two best friends

Warning:SFW, Fluff, falling In love into a two person, Poly relationship,commission

Feat:Zoro x y/n x Sanji

Thank you for commission @tinyyellowtoad I really appreciate. And I'm happy to write this beautiful piece for you. My art commission and so do my writing commission is still open. So you can take a slot if you want💕💕

The fic is under the cut

Its been months since you joined the strawhat Pirates, they are all good person, when you were still new into their ship. They didn't make you feel uncomfortable. Some of them always talk to you when they have free to spare. Sanji which is the cook of the ship, he always cook some delicious food for you while the first captain which is Zoro loved to help you with some heavy chores.

One morning, you open the door of your room and saw the two of them fighting again. "What's going on?" You said approaching Nami who's getting irritated on the two, "You know what y/n, can I kick their ass?" She ask you, but you didn't answer cause you that nami will hurt the two. "Shut up!!!" Nami raise her fist And hit sanji and Zoro up. Nami walk away leaving the too with some swollen face. You can't help but to laugh at their faces and just can't take it. Zoro and Sanji got a small blush on their cheeks and they felt something new. "Umm y/n" Sanji said with a blush on his cheeks. "Oh boy, I need to go" you said leaving the two with a red face. Zoro and Sanji look at each other. "Mine!!" Both of them started a another war.

A few days later the ship docked into the a small island. The three of you, Sanji and Zoro, are assigned to find things that you can use in your ship. "You must return before sunset!" Nami said pointing the way. zoro yawned, "come on you two!" you said as you walk away. sanji and zoro immediately follow you.

After that, you immediately looked for things you could use on the ship. "Hmm~~" sanji pick up a small mushroom. "wow this is so beautiful" you said as you pick up a small flower. "what's that?" zoro said looking at the flower you were holding. "See its beautiful" zoro took the flower from your hand and put it on your ear. sanji on the other hand was furious as he saw zoro flirting with you. "Get ready for me marimo!!"

only a few hours passed and you finished looking for the things you needed for the ship. "You alright?" sanji ask you, you look at sanji and smile. "My foot hurts from walking" you said as you sat down on a big rock. "it really hurts sanji" sanji smile at you and He told you that you can ride on his back. "no sanji, I'm kinda ok" Sanji smile and he insist you to ride on his back. "come on miss y/n" since sanji insist on carrying you on his back you ride on his back. "I'm sorry sanji if I was a burden" sanji smile, "miss y/n when have you never been a burden to me or to anyone" you felt so flatter at his words. "your so kind", you said pinching his cheek. while you were walking back to the ship zoro suddenly appeared in front of you, "oi marimo!!" Zoro looks at you. "please don't get me wrong, it was just my foot hurts and I can't walk" zoro approach you. "come here" sanji kick zoro away. "you bastard!!" zoro attack sanji, sanji put you down.

"Stop it you too!!!" You immediately screamed out from the top of your lungs. Sanji and Zoro look at you with a surprise face. "Why are you always fighting!!!" You said approaching the two. You immediately hit their heads before you walk away. "It's your fault!!" Sanji said pointing his hands to Zoro. "It's not my fault!!" He said angrily.

You went back into the ship and you saw nami and Robin sitting at a small chair. "How's your small task y/n" nami ask. You sit down next to them while pouting, "wait did something bad happened?" Robin ask, putting his coffee down the table. "Can I ask you something?' nami smile at you, "go ahead" you turn to nami and ask her. "Why Sanji And Zoro always fighting?" Nami start laughing so loud. "Well they didn't like each other" she said taking a sip from her juice. "Since the day they move here, they don't like each other!" You stood up and look at nami. "well" you said looking down into the floor. "What is it y/n" robin ask. You smile at them and bow your head. "I shoot I need to leave!" You said walking away from the two. "Shut up!!" But when you leave Sanji and Zoro got into the ship. "Did you do something wrong to y/n" nami ask the two. Sanji and Zoro look at each other. "He stsrtiit' pointing each other. Robin giggles at Sanji and Zoro's reaction.

At your room::::::

You were laying into the bed. Reading some books, about some great adventures of a great adventurers that wrote their good and beautiful adventure, you were silently reading some books. When some gentle knocks on the door can be heard. You immediately stood up. "Who is that?", You ask as you walk towards the door. "It's me Sanji" you got surprise and you immediately open the door. "Do you need something?" You ask, Sanji smile at you. "If I did something wrong please forgive me" he said offering you a cute small cupcakes the he made and it was your favorite. "Wow" you said with full of happiness.

You immediately take the cupcake and ask Sanji to enter your room if he wants. "Oh I'm sorry y/n, I wanted to have chat with a beautiful person like you, but I have so many things to do" he said Patting your head. "Oh ok Sanji-kun" Sanji smile as he walk way. "He is kinda sweet" you close the door and lock it, so no one can disturb your sweet peace alone in your room. Eating the most delicious cupcakes in the world. "Sooo delicious" you said to yourself while stuffing your mouth with so much cupcakes.

"I think y/n likes it" he said while washing the dishes. After that day you started hanging out with them. And you feel very comfortable with Zoro and Sanji. But they always fight. But still you accept the thing that they are a good person.

"oi marimo!!!" Sanji screamed when he saw that Zoro stole one of the expensive liquor the he bought for himself. "you stupid!!!!" Sanji immediately attack Zoro and you suddenly open the door. But the time didn't stop and your the one who's getting hit by Sanji's kick. You fell down into the wooden floor. While Sanji and Zoro was surprised and nami And the others approach the three of you. "Oi y/n!!!" Chopper immediately approach you. I'm so sorry y/n-chan!!" Sanji immediately approach you too And pick you up. Nami Ang the other's help you out and Zoro too.

Sanji immediately bring you into the kitchen and put you down into one the bed and lay you there. "I'm so sorry!!" Nami hit Zoro And Sanji's head. "look what you've done!!" She said angrily. Robin let out a sigh. "It's his fault!!" Sanji point out Zoro. Zoro look at Sanji. "I just drink your liquor!!" Zoro said pointing back at Sanji. "Stop it you too!!!" Nami scream at Sanji and Zoro. "Both of you need to be punished!!" Nami said before she leave the room. "well nothing back happen at y/n" chopper said. Wiping the blood on your nose. "But please be careful next time!!" Chopper said angrily. Robin giggles and so the others. Zoro look at you And approach you. "I'm sorry!" He said holding your hand. "I'm really sorry" Sanji wanted to push Zoro away but he didn't want to make chopper and everyone angry again. So he remain calm and didn't attack his enemy.

That afternoon you woke up. You felt a little bit of pain on your cheeks. And you didn't see anyone on the room. "Umm" you stood up but still you felt kinda dizzy. So you decided to remain sitting on the bed for a minute. "What happen?" You said to yourself. The door open and you saw Zoro standing into door away. "Your awake" he said before closing the door on his back. "What happen?" You ask Zoro. Zoro knew that you didn't remember anything at all. "Well it's my fault" he said looking down into the floor. "I didn't mean to steal that ero Cook's liquor" he said looking at you. "Even tho I can't remember anything, I forgive you" you said smiling. Zoro felt some emotions that was very new to him. He touch his chest while looking at you. Seeing you smile made him very happy, "thank you" he said approaching you. "Well who is the one that hit me?" Zoro sit down next to you. "Well that is the ero cook" he said touching your face. "Sanji?" You said with a slight surprise words. "Well he attack me and suddenly appear and accidentally hit you" you got surprise and touch your face. "That's why I fell asleep" you said touching your swollen face. "Well chopper told me that if you woke up I need to call him" Zoro stood up. "I need to call that doctor" he said Patting your head. "I need to leave" he said leaving the room. Still can't believe that Sanji just accidentally kick your face. "Why am I still alive?" You said to yourself.

A few minutes later chopper arrive into the room and so do the other member of the crew. "How does it feel?" Luffy ask you. You look at Luffy. "It was painful" you said looking at Luffy. "Well I know that feeling" he said pouting. Chopper smile and put some ointment on your swollen face. "Where's Sanji?" You ask. Chopper let out a sigh. "Well he told me that he didn't want to come here" chopper said. "Why?" You ask. Chopper look at Luffy. "well he told me that he doesn't want to see you like this" you felt sad and you wanted to find Sanji to tell him that It was ok. "Where is he?" You ask chopper as you stood up. "well he is at the kitchen cooking something" you let out a sigh before opening the door. "I need to talk to that cook" you said leaving the clinic. "Wait!!" Chopper said before he follow you.

You went into the kitchen. You let out a sigh before you gently knock into the door. Sanji hear your knock. "come in" he said without any idea that it was you. You open the door and enter the door. "I told you Luffy that it was sti not cook" you smile. "Well you know that Luffy will not knock into the door when he can smell that delicious aroma" Sanji got surprise when he heard your voice. He didn't turn around knowing that he still can see the bruise he put into your beautiful face. "Umm do you need something?" He ask without looking at you. You know that he is sad. "Sanji look at me" you said approaching the Cook. Sanji felt so sad that hit the you. "Sanji-kun?" You said putting your hand on his shoulder. "Please leave" he said. You know that he really felt bad on what happened that he got into the point of not looking at you. "It's ok" you said. Sanji slowly put down the knife and look at you. "Well it was my fault" he said with his voice trembling with fear. "It's not your fault" you said cupping his cheeks. You can see that sanji was trembling. You hold his hand and it was cold. "I'm really sorry y/n-chan, I didn't mean to do that" you know that this man is really sincere. "I know sanji-kun" you said smiling at him. Sanji touch your face and You felt something new and it made you happy. "Well I'm happy that your not mad at me" he said. You smile at him once again. "How can I be mad into a good person like you Sanji-kun" Sanji got a small blush.

"Can you please stop flirting to each other??" You and Sanji got surprise when Zoro spoke up. "Tsk" he said approaching you. "Chopper is calling You" he said pulling you closer to him. You look and Zoro and got a small blush. "Oi!!" Sanji said grabbing your hand. "don't pull y/n like that!!!" He said pulling you to his side. Zoro clench his fist and he was ready to punch Sanji's face. "Oh boy!" You said. Zoro pull you closer to him but Sanji was holding your other hand. "You stupid cook!!" Zoro said angrily.

Suddenly the door slammed open and chopper was there holding some sticks. "Both of you let y/n go!!!" Chopper immediately transform into one of his form and he pick you up. "Both of you was like trying to fight over a toy!!" He said while you were smiling and a proud mom over this cute doctor. "I'm sorry y/n about this two idiots" he said leaving Sanji and Zoro behind. "Did chopper just leaves us behind?" Zoro said with a surprise and kinda proud face. "he did!" Sanji said hitting Zoro's face hard. "Idiot!"

A week's later your face become ok and it gets back to normal. "Why are you always doing that??" The little reindeer asked. "Well I to take care this cute plants" you said giving the curious one a smile. "Well I'm eating that one when I was a little deer" he said sitting on your side. "Well I love this" chopper look at you. "Hahahaha" you start laughing and pat the chopper's head. "Oi are you done with that??" Zoro spoke up before he flick you forehead. "oh, Zoro!!", You scream in pain with your hand over your forehead. Zoro look at chopper. "Why are you here???" He ask. Chopper told Zoro that he was kinda bored. "bored?" The green haired guy asked. "Well your not going to bored anymore, cause Luffy is got nose bleeding" you And chopper got surprise. "What happen?" You ask. Zoro look at you. "Nami punch him straight to the face! That made his nose bleed" chopper immediately leave. "Poor boy" you said stooding up.

"Where are you going?" He ask. "Well I need to go to Sanji, cause he told me to go into the kitchen" Zoro got Confused. "Why?" He said. You approach to him and pinch his cheeks. "Well Sanji and I will bake some cake for tonight's party" Zoro smile. You walk and away and went into the kitchen.

When you reach the kitchen you gently knock on the door. "sanji-kun?" Sanji immediately look at you with a smile on his face. "Your here y/n" he said giving you a sweet and warm smile. "Yes I am" he approach you and hand over you the apron. You immediately put on the apron. "I'm all set up Sanji" you said giving the cook Ang thumbs up.

Sanji smile at you while he was giving you the bowl. "nowni understand why y/n loves in here" Zoro spoke up. Both of you look at the man behind you. "Ooh that looks good on you" you smile and pull zoro inside of the room. "Let's bake together!!" You said with a smile a on your face. "What!!" Sanji and Zoro look at each other with a full disgust face. "Come on wear this apron!" You said giving Zoro the apron.

After Zoro put on the apron. The three of you start baking. You And Sanji was focusing on making the dough while Zoro was just watching. "I think it's too hard to do that y/n" the green haired man says. "Yes it is, but it was enjoyable" you look at Zoro. "Well you can try if you want" suddenly Sanji Burts out laughing. "No, no, please stop y/n chan!" Sanji said while laughing So hard. "why are you laughing!!" Zoro said angrily. The cook immediately got back to his posture and look at Zoro. "Let me see what you can do" you look at the two. "Ok, what if we have a cooking Contest" Zoro and Sanji look at you. "What??" Both of them react using that word. "Well both of you were saying that your good at that thing, so why won't we try" you said. Sanji look at Zoro. "I accept the challenge" Zoro said taking the knife on his side. "How about you ero cook" he said smirking. "I accept this challenge too!" Sanji take the knife on Zoro's had. "See you can't even hold a knife properly"

Zoro immediately got very angry. "Shut up!!"

The cooking Contest begin. You were observing the two on what they were doing. "Ooh Sanji that's cute!" You said with full of amusement. After that you turn to the green haired man. "Umm Zoro?" You said. Zoro stop and look at you. "I know it's now good but please don't say it" you smile at him. "Im just going to say, how beautiful that little cake of yours is!!" You said with your arms open. Zoro got a big blush and he immediately turn around to hide his face. "Stop it!!" He said while blushing a lot. "I'm just saying the truth" Sanji look at Zoro's cake. "Well yeah, j guess it's cute" he said picking while he was putting some icing on his cake.

After the whole time of baking. Zoro and Sanji approach your table and put down their cake. "Ooooh it's sooo beautiful" you said. You immediately pick up the fork and start to eat Sanji's cake. "Hmmmmm!!" You said as your poor taste buds enjoyed the moment on the cake on your tounge. "Sooo delicious!!" You said before taking a small piece part from Zoro's cake. "Hmmm!!" You said. "Well it's just taste the same!" Zoro and Sanji approach your table again and taste the cake they made. "well I think your kinda good at it!" He said. Before he tasted something disgusting. "Ugh!!" He immediately run towards the sink and vomit. And a few seconds later you started to feel something too. On your mouth. "Ughhhhh!" You immediately run towards the sink to wash your mouth. "What the hell!!" Zoro take a bite on his cake. And he run towards the sink to puke.

After that the three of you drink some hot tea. "I'm sorry for being not a good cook" he said with a embarrass tone. "Well I will not let you in my beautiful kitchen again!!" Sanji said as he stood up. "Stop it boys!" You said looking at Sanji and Zoro. "Well it taste good at first" you said looking at Zoro. Zoro look at you. "Dont worry you will be good at cooking, if you practice more" when Sanji heard what you said, he immediately burst out laughing. "that guy won't learn!" He said while laughing so hard. "Hahahaha!!" Zoro stood up and attack Sanji. Sanji dodge the attack and you stood up to stop them. "Both of you please Stop Fighting will yah!!" You said pushing them away to each other. "I will call nami!!" You said. Zoro and Sanji look at you. "I need to leave to work on some chores" you said giving Sanji and Zoro a head pat. "See ya later!!" You said. You leave and work on your chores. "y/n is the one" Sanji said with a smile on his face. "If y/n likes you back" Sanji got surprise while Zoro was walking away. "this fight never ends" Zoro stop from walking And look at Sanji. "I will fight for y/n-chan" Sanji said full of confidence.

After that day the sunny dock into a small island. And it seemed that the town on that island is very busy. "What's going on?" You ask nami with full of curiosity. "Well I don't know" nami respond. "I think something is up, cause they put so much decorations on the house's" robin said. "I want to see what are they up to" you said. Nami smile at you. "I think we should stay for the night" you immediately jump and hug nami. "Thanks nami!!" Nami start laughing. "Oi!!" Chopper run towards you. "Sanji and Zoro is fighting at the bar!!" You and the others got shock. "Oh god!!" You immediately run and wen into the bar to stop the two from fighting.

When you reach the bar. You saw Sanji and Zoro with some blood on their faces. "What happened?" You ask while touching their faces. "He started it!!" Sanji point out Zoro. "I don't give a fuck on this cook!" He immediately grab Sanji's collar and look him in the eye. "don't you ever say that word again!!" Sanji Push Zoro away. "I deserve y/n better than you do!" Zoro clench his fist. But he didn't attack Sanji anymore. He look at you before he leave the place.

Sanji leave the place too. "What happened?" You ask ussop. "I didn't know?" He said. You scratch the back of your head. "Well you need to fix this" nami pat your shoulder. "Why me?" You ask. "Well I think they started fighting because of you!" You look at nami with a curious face. "You need to figure this thing up" you let out sigh before you leave the place too. "What should I do?" You ask to your self.

That night the people of that island was having a big party for their festival. "Wow!!" Chopper said with full of amusement. "Its Soo beautiful" you said with full of amusement. "It is!" Nami said. You look around to see if Sanji and Zoro was there. You saw Sanji was busy on cooking. While Zoro was drinking some Booze. You smile before you approach Zoro. "Oi" you said. "Do you need something?" Zoro said with his one of his eye brows raised up. "Are you hungry" you ask. Zoro look at you. "Kinda hungry" wait I'm going to call Sanji. You stood up when suddenly Zoro pull your hand and hug you tight in his arms. "Can you please stay?" He said with a sad tone. "Zoro-kun" you pat his head and smile. "Sure, I can stay here aslong as you need me" you pat his head and hug him back.

A few minutes later. Sanji went into the dining area and he was confused cause you were not there. "Where is y/n?" He ask. Nami look at him. "I didn't notice that y/n leave" she said. Sanji smile at nami. "Ok, I will fine y/n my self" he said before leaving.

He look around and he was surprise to see you hugging Zoro. The two of you were laughing and it made Sanji's heart ache. "Why?" He said touching his chest, "why did you smile for him" he said hitting his chest. You felt that someone is looking so you turn your head. You saw Sanji looking at the two of you. But then he walk away. "Sanji!!" You call him name. Sanji stop from walking and look at you. "y/n-chan" he said turning back. You smile and walk towards him. But Zoro grab your hand and stop you from walking. "stay" he said. You look at Zoro. "But I think Sanji need me?" You said getting clueless that Zoro didn't want you to go into Sanji. Sanji let our sigh as he approach you. "oi!" He said reaching that two of you. "What do you want ero cook!!" He said pulling you close to him. Zoro pull you back at him. It was like a drama. That both of you friend fall in love with you. But it seems that it was still happening in real life. "Oi!!" Sanji look at Zoro. "Umm boys my hand please" you said. "Mine!" Both of them pull your hand at the same time. And you were like toy that this two idiots didn't want to share to each other. "Please stop!!" You take your hand back and look at them. "why are you always fighting!! Can you please be good to each other for just once?!" Before you could even walk away Sanji and Zoro call out your name. You stop from walking and look at the two man giving you a smile. "please stay" suddenly a beautiful firework explode into the dark sky. "Wow" you said with a amuse face. "It was beautiful" Zoro and Sanji approach you. "Well you are more beautiful than that" you immediately turn into a red. "Stop it both of you!!" You step backwards when suddenly you got slip. "y/n!!" Sanji and Zoro immediately catch you. Both of them were holding your waist. "Sanji-kun, Zoro-kun" Looking at this two made you feel that love is in the freaking air. You stood up and got your posture back. "I'm sorry for being so clumsy" Sanji and Zoro pat your head. "We know" Sanji and Zoro said. You clench your fist and pinch their cheeks. "Bastards!!" You said walking away.

After that you went back into your room. "I need to sleep" Sanji and Zoro nod their heads. "ok good night" you kiss Sanji and Zoro's cheeks before you close the door. "Did y/n just kiss my cheek?" Sanji look at Zoro. Both of them immediately turn to red and can't believe that the person they like just kiss their cheeks. "I dont know if I'm able to sleep tonight" Sanji said with his heart eyes.

Both of them leave with some butterflies on their tummy. While you were laying down to your bed, reading some books. When you remember how happy you that day. That I made you smile a alot. "Am I really feeling this right now?" You said to yourself. Putting your hand into your chest. Thinking about Sanji and Zoro made it your heart beat fast. "Wait!!" You screamed. "Why am I thinking the same person at the same time?" You said getting curious at what you feel. "Is this love I am feeling?" You said. "Am I falling for Sanji or Zoro?" You immediately realize that when you think about them your heart start getting flatter. "Am I crazy?"

You get back to your bed and close your eyes. After that night. You woke up early to help others do their task and so do yours. While walking down into the stairs. You saw Zoro sitting into the side. Reading something. "Zoro?" You approach the Green haired man who's reading on the side. "What are you doing?" You ask. Zoro immediately hid the back on his back. "what?" He said as if he didn't hear what you ask. "Well I said what are you reading?" Zoro stood up and throw away the book in to the ocean, "I'm not reading anything" you look at him. But he just give you a small smile. "I need to go!" He said walking away. You let out a sigh before you went back into your works.

After You finished all of your works. You sit down on the side and wait for the others to finish their own task. "Ah y/n, is this yours?" Ussop spoke up asking you if the book he was holding is yours. "What is this ussop?" You ask. "Well it was floating on the side of the ship and I take it, cause I thought some of you just accidentally drop this book" ussop said. Putting down the book. "If someone wanted to take it, please give it to them!" He said before he walk away and leave.

You pick up the book and it was very wet. "Ooh" you stood up and went into the kitchen to ask Sanji to help you dry out that book. "Oh sure y/n-chan" he said. You sit down on one of the chair to wait for the book to get dry. "Coffee" Sanji put down a cup of coffee. "Thanks Sanji-kun" Sanji hold your hand and kiss it. "Your welcome y/n" he said. You got a small blush on your face. You take a sip of the coffee and it taste really good. "I love it" you said. Sanji smile and pat your head. "I know you like it" you give Sanji a wide smile. That made him happy. "I will be happy to make that coffee for you" you smile pinch his cheeks. "Thanks Sanji-kun" Sanji smile as he walk away.

A few hours later. The book is fully dry and you told Sanji that you need to leave. Sanji let you leave and you immediately went back into your room to read the book. "hm" you sit down into your bed and open the first page of the book. "Wait" you said. Seeing some phrases that was about courting someo. "What?" You said to yourself. You read more about that book and tooked a whole a hour of reading.

While you were reading you heard a loud footsteps towards your room. "huh?" You stood up and put down the book into your bed. The door suddenly open and you saw Zoro panting, "are you ok?" You ask. Zoro look around. He saw the book on the bed. "Where did you get that?" He said pointing the book on your bed. "Ussop gave it to me" you said sitting back to your bed. "Can I have it?" He ask. "No" you said. Zoro approach you and take the book. But your grab the book back at you. "Can you please give it back!" You look at Zoro for a minute until you remember that he was reading a book earlier and when you saw him reading it he throws it away into the ocean. "Is this the book you were reading earlier?" You ask. Zoro immediately turn red. "Well tell me!!" You said smiling at him. "Y-yes!" He said embarrassingly. You stood up and start teasing him. "This book is about courting someone!" You said while you were laughing. "Tell me who is that person?" You ask. Zoro look away with his face red. "Tell me!!" Zoro turn around. "The book is yours!' he said. "Zoro-kun tell me!!" You said getting annoyed because he still didn't tell you. "You will know Sooner" he said Leaving your room. "This man is Soo mysterious" you said to yourself.

After Zoro leave you lay down to bed and rest for a while. A few minutes later you felt something on your chest. "Zoro like someone?" You said to yourself. "Wait why am I feeling this feelings!" You look at the book. "Am I jealous?" You immediately cover your mouth, getting shock on the words that just came out on your mouth. "What the hell!!" You said to yourself.

That night the crew held a party on the ship. Everyone is eating and drinking, having their time together. "oi y/n" you look at nami, "come on drink with us" you smile at nami and take a cup of liquor and you drink it all. "Are you ok?" Robin ask. "Did something happen?" Nami sit down beside you. "Nothing" you said. You stood up and went into the kitchen.

When you reach the kitchen. You saw Sanji sitting into one the chair. And he was looking at the window. You gently knock into the door. "Sanji?" Sanji turn his gaze in you. You give him a smile. "oh y/n-chan" he said. Sanji stood up. "Why are you here?" You close the door behind you and approach Sanji. "Your suppose to be with the others" you sit down next to him. "is it bad to be in here?" Sanji give you a small smile. "I know y/n-chan" you smile. "But why are you here?" He ask. You look at the window. "I just wanted to stay here for a while" you said.

Staying with Sanji made you happy. He is a good story teller and he was good at some jokes. "That's so funny" you said while laughing so hard. "But you know what, I'm planning to confess my feelings to the one that I love" when Sanji says that words you felt that your heart is breaking. "What?" You said. Sanji look at you. "Well I like that person for a long time" he said smiling. Seeing him getting happy because of someone made your heart ache so much. "I want that person to be mine" you look down and stood up. Sanji got shock when you stand up. "umm y/n are you ok?" He ask but you didn't respond. "I need to go" you said walking away. Sanji felt something that was up. You leave the room and Sanji was the only one there now. "I hope you notice that you were that person I was talking about" he said as he take a cigarette on his pocket. "you will be mine soon"

After you leave the kitchen. You walk back into your room but when you reach your room you saw Zoro waiting there. "what are you doing here Zoro?" You ask. Zoro turn around and he was holding a flower. "Wow" you said with amusement. Zoro smile as he approach you. "For you" he said giving you the flower he was holding. "It's for you" you take the flower and can't believe what's happening. "Thanks" you said giving Zoro a smile. "Your beautiful tonight" you look at Zoro with your face red. "What?" You stutter. "I said your beautiful" Zoro approach you and tuck some of your hair behind your ear. "Your beautiful y/n" it made you blush a lot, "thank you very much Zoro" you said smiling. Zoro got a small blush on his cheeks. "Well I'm happy that you like em" he said while averting his eyes from you. "Where did you get this?" You ask. "Erm- I picked it from robin's small garden" he said. "Well this one is my favorite color" Zoro smile at you. "I'm glade you like em" you immediately kiss his cheeks, "thank you" Zoro pull you closer to him as he hug you tight. "I'm happy that you like them" he said. "But you should give this to the person you like" you said. Zoro look at your in the eye. "You still don't get it?" Another time that you got curious at Zoro. "What?" Zoro touch your face. "The reason why I read that book is because of you" your eyes widen up. "What?" You step backwards. "Because of me?" Zoro grab your hand. "Because I like you!" And the word has been said by Zoro. "Why me?" Another question came up in your head.

"So you confess your feelings before me" you got surprised when you heard Sanji's voice. You turn around to see Sanji standing there. "Sanji-kun" Sanji slowly look at you before turning his gaze to Zoro. "are you planning to take y/n away from me?" He ask as he lit up his cigarette. "Take me away from you?" You said approaching Sanji. "Oh you didn't notice!" Sanji said as he pull you closer to him. "I did everything for you, just to show my love for you" and there you realize that Zoro and Sanji had a feelings for you. That's why they always wanted to be with you this whole time. "B-but" you stutter. "Give y/n to me!" You remain silent as you look at sanji and Zoro. "but I have feelings for the two of them" you said in your head. "y/n-chan" you look at Sanji. "Sanji" you turn your head to Zoro. "Zoro-kun" you move away from Sanji. "Well it was hard to explain my feelings" you said touching your chest. "It was really hard" you said. Sanji and Zoro approach you. "Look I didn't mean to feel this way" you look at them and your tears began to drip down your cheeks. "I'm Sorry!" You open the door of your room and close it. "Please leave me alone!" Sanji wanted to talk to you but Zoro stop him. "Let y/n be like that" he leave the place and so do Sanji. "This is not happening!" You said burying your face into he pillow. "What should I do!!!" You scream.

After that night, you start to avoid Sanji and Zoro for a reason that your still confuse on what happening into you. "ok, I need to put it on the top shelf" you look at the shelf. "So so stupid" you said. Cause you can't reach it. You let our a sigh. When suddenly someone pick you up into floor. "Put it on the shelf!" You got surprise to see Zoro. "Oh ok!!" You put the bag into the shelf. "now your ok?" Zoro put you down but you immediately leave. "oi!" He call you out but you didn't look at him. "What's wrong with y/n" he ask himself.

After that you decided to went back into your room. But while you were walking towards your room. The door suddenly open and you saw Sanji. "Huh?" The blonde haired guy saw you and he tried to approach you. "Good morning y/n" you immediately turn around and start walking away. "Wait!!" He said. Sanji grab your hand to stop you. "are you ok?" He ask. You didn't respond. You take back your hand and walk away, "You dont need to know it!" You said. Sanji felt so bad when you says does word.

That day the ship dock into a big island. That island was full of beautiful cherry blossoms. "Wow so beautiful" nami said. You look at the beautiful island. As the wind flows and it made you feel more comfortable. "Can we stay for the night?" Nami and the others agreed at your simple idea.

After that you told nami that you will you just look around the island. "Are you sure you wanted to be alone?" She ask. You nod "yes" nami let you off and you leave without anyone with you.

You look around the island alone. And you saw a big Tree of cherry blossom. "Its So beautiful" you said as you take out a camera and start taking some pictures of the place. When suddenly. You turn around and you saw Sanji and Zoro standing behind you. "Ah!" You scream as you step backwards. "Why did you leave with us?" Zoro ask you. But you didn't respond and you just walk away. But is seems that they know what your doing. "Are you going to run again?" Sanji pull your hand. "We know what your doing y/n-chan" Sanji look at you in the eye. "We know that after that we told you that we love you, you started to do something weird and you were avoiding us" you Clench your fist and look at Sanji. "Its not your fault idiots!" You said. "It's me!" Sanji and Zoro were shock. "What are you saying?" Zoro said getting curious. "It's me!!" Sanji touch your face. "It's because I love you too!!!" Your tears began to drip down your cheeks. "It's my fault! I fell in love into both of you!!" Sanji and Zoro look at you. "Please don't cry" Sanji wipe away your tears. "We love you too" you felt very comfortable after you confess your true feelings. "We understand you y/n" Zoro hug you. Sanji Pat your head.

After that the three of you sit down under the cherry blossom tree. "I'm sorry for not telling you guys" Sanji smile as he hug you tight. "So you like us both?" Zoro ask. "Yes" you respond. You stood up and look at Sanji and Zoro. "Can you two be my boyfriend's?" You ask them confidently. The wind flows and your hair sways with it. "I'm really happy to be you guys, can you be my boyfriend's?" Sanji look at Zoro. Zoro stood up and smile. "I would love to be with you" Zoro hug you tight. Sanji stood up. "Oi!! Me too!!" Sanji push Zoro away and hug you tight. "I will be ok to be your boyfriend y/n-chan!!" You smile and Sanji kiss your forehead. "I love you y/n-chan" you giggles. "Oi!" Zoro pull your hand and he kiss your lips. You were surprised and so do Sanji. "You idiot!!!" Your lips parted from Zoro. "Oi!" Zoro smile and look at sanji. " You little jerk!!" You pull Sanji's hand and kiss his lips. Sanji's eyes widen up when you kiss him. Sanji hold your waist. After the kiss. Sanji start twirling around asking for more. "Sanji-kun!!" Zoro hug you. "Stop it!!" Sanji look at zoro. "So y/n we are your boyfriend's now" Zoro said. You smile and hold their hands. "Yes you are my boyfriend's now" Zoro and Sanji kiss your hand. "We will promise to take care of you" you smile and hug them tight. "Finally" you you said. Sanji and Zoro hug you tightly in their arms.

After that the three of you went back into the ship. And you manage to tell everyone what really happened. All of them were surprised and can't believe what happened. "So you were telling me that you and Sanji and this Zoro had a relationship?" Nami ask while looking at the three of you. You say yes at nami. As she let out a sigh "well if you really love each other, we can't stop you from doing that relationship" nami smile at you before she hugs you tight. "Congratulations y/n" she said. While Luffy and chopper was still stuck in their curiosity.

After that session with nami and the others. You decided to go back into your room and take some rest. "I need to sleep now" you said. Zoro kiss your forehead and so do Sanji kiss your forehead. "Have a good night sleep love" Sanji said. You smile at them and you give them a some good night Kisses. Sanji and Zoro was very flatter. After the Kisses. You close the door and rest.

"finally I got y/n" Sanji said. "You mean we" Zoro said while he was walking away. "Shut up idiot!!" Sanji attack Zoro.

You were laying down in your bed, still thinking that everything is just a dream. "I wish this moment is not a dream" a few minutes later you fell asleep.

The next day. You woke up and you saw Zoro sitting next to you. "Good morning y/n" he said hugging you tight. "Good morning Zoro" you said Kissing your boyfriend cheek. "Can I have some kisses too?" Sanji open the door and you open your arms as he hug you tight. "good morning" he said kissing your forehead. "I cooked some delicious breakfast for you" he said. "I love you" Sanji said. You got a small blush on your cheeks. And your happy to be with them. "Starting to this, I will be your bodyguard" you smile and cup his cheeks. "Well I don't you to be" you said Kissing his nose. Zoro pull your hand and hug you tight. "we will protect you" he said. You pull them closer to you and hug them tight. "I love you two" you said Kissing thru forehead.

A few weeks later since your relationship with Sanji and Zoro became official and your happy with them. Seeing them happy together with you.

"Sanji!!!!" You scream while you were running. You open the door of the kitchen and you saw Zoro and Sanji fighting again. "Stop Fighting please!!!" You said as you pinch their ears. "Ouch!!!!" Sanji and Zoro scream because of pain. "Stop!!" Zoro said as he tried to remove your hand into hsi ear. "We are found a island, so we need to prepare ok" Sanji and Zoro immediately agreed into you before you let go. "Oh ok, I need to go" you said as you leave the room.

A few minutes later the thousand Sunny docked into the big island. "Wow, Sanji-kun!" Sanji immediately approach you and so do Zoro. "Nami I'm going with my boys" you said holding Sanji and Zoro's hands. "Come on boys" Sanji and Zoro kiss your hand. "I'm kinda starting to get jealous into their relationship" nami said to herself.

You, Sanji and Zoro walk around the island. Until you found a small bar. "Let's check it out!!" You immediately open the door of the bar and you saw some weird looking and some fierce pirates. "well I think they look good people" you said as you sit down on a the chair. "I think the crew should see this?" You look around when you realize that some people were looking at you. "Do I look weird" Sanji sit down with you. "Can you please stop entering this kind of place" Zoro said as he sit down on your side. "Let me take our food" you said, you stood up. "Let me place our order" this two can't stop you, so that's why they just sit back and wait for you.

"Umm thank you" you said as you take the food you order. "Well, well look at this beautiful" you look at the person who said that and you thank him. "I need to go" you said as you walk away when that person pull you closer to him. "Done leave yet!" You look at that person. "Please remove your hand into my arm" you said. That person just smile at you. When suddenly that he blown up in the air with some cuts on his body. "Sanji and Zoro!!" You said as you look at them. "remove your dirty hands to our y/n" Sanji said as he pull you closer to them. "you jerk!" He said as he approach that person. "I'm sorry!" That person beg for his life. But Sanji and Zoro just look at each other. "Well no" both of them give that person a death glare. "You put your dirty hands into our treasure" Zoro and sanji got their posture back. "Umm y/n-chan?" Sanji said as he approach you. "Please go back into our seat, me and marimo will be back" Zoro look at you and he give you a nod. "O-ok" you said as you turn around and you get back into your table.

Sanji and Zoro went outside with the man that just didn't respect you. You sat there alone and eat some of the food you ordered for your self. A few minutes later Sanji and Zoro arrive. "What happen?" You ask. Sanji and Zoro look at you. "nothing" they said. You told him to sit down now and eat, "let's eat!!" You said as you eat the food with them. "Is it tasty??" Sanji ask. "Yes it is" Zoro drink some Booze. "What did you do to that person earlier?" You ask. Zoro and Sanji look at each other. "He might be sleeping" you look at Zoro. "Wait what??" You said. Zoro hold your hand as he try to explain everything to you. "We just wanted no one to hurt you", you felt flatter and happy but that man just got his ass kicked by your boyfriends. Sanji hold your hand and press a kiss on it. "We just wanted that no one will hurt you love" he said pressing a kiss in your hand once again. "Oh ok" you said.

After you ate on that club the three of you walk back into the ship. but while you were walking with them, you still can't believe that this two fell in love with you at the same time and so you are fell in love with them. "What id I didn't met the two of you" you said as you look at Sanji and Zoro. Zoro smile. "Well if you didn't met us, you might fell in love to someone and not us" Sanji and Zoro approach you as hey hold your waist. "Remember that we chose to be with you" sanji said as he hold your hand. "We will stay at your side forever" Zoro press a kiss on your forehead. "Well why don't you Catch me first, if you catch me you'll have two kisses!" You said as you run away.

Thinking that having this man in your life always made your day perfect.

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[masschase]

M-A-T-T-M-I-L-L-E-R

I finally commissioned @whoredmode 😊

There was a stunned silence, his eyes searching her as if he was still trying to process. She gave him a hopeful smile. God, if he somehow rejected her after all of this, she was going to run straight into the simulation and shoot everything up for a month.

I just can't stop staring at it. This is exactly how I pictured this moment in my head. Amazing job, thank you so much Ted.

Full context and excerpt below. But TLDR... Casey decided to give an a more accurate answer to Matt and Shaundi's questions at the start of GOOH.

To set the context, after the whole Matt-getting-shot-love confession thing(I wrote about that in an ask answer here), Asha appears in 2016 after Casey in 2022 remembers and sends her(though not before having to be physically restrained from going to rescue him herself and risking erasure from existence), and manages to jump Matt back to the ship in time for the Zin to treat him.

They put him in a medically induced coma which is supposed to last up to 48 hours but ends up roughly double that as Zin estimates for that kind of thing tend to be off. But (once she's gone after the perpetrator, who unfortunately gets away for now due to her heel snapping at an inoppurtune moment) she barely leaves his side until he wakes.

When he does though, after they talk for a while she asks if they want to go back to "what we were doin' in 2016" and he looks like he's struggling with it but turns her down, saying he can't go through that again and that their friendship is too important to him. This throws her. She's crushed and leaves in rather a hurry.

When she relays this conversation later, Asha points out she made it sound like she was interested in another "sex only" arrangement, and that if she really wants to be with Matt she's going to have to make a very clear statement that she's looking for an actual relationship. Possibly even be romantic. Johnny, having talked to Matt after Casey did, is pretty mad at her for not just telling him how she feels when she knows he loves her.

Jane helps her talk through things and when she admits that she's not surw which version of her Matt's love confession relates to, even though she knows it makes no sense for it to be the younger her. She told Jane her feelings for Matt must have started to develop since she came back from hell; with her making Matt her lieutenant and the two of them spending more time together. Jane tells her she believes Matt has had some form of attachment to her since at least that time, because of the question he asked the Ouija board at Kinzie's party.

From that comes her idea. That, and the candles she happened to think he looked so beautiful in two weeks ago when they were cuddled up together during a powercut. She also makes pecan pie because she found out in 2016 it was his favorite, and it's the only thing she can cook, and sets Last Dance to come on at precisely 8pm. She is throwing everything at the wall here.

So it's no surprise that around 7.45, Ms. "I-don't-get-nervous" finds herself waiting by the couch they spend every Friday night on, growing incredibly nervous.

God she hoped he was going to show up. He’d better fucking show up. She shouldn’t have come down here so early. She was fucking pacing. Maybe she should’ve worn something sexy, not her usual spacesuit. Maybe she should have gotten some booze to loosen them both up first. She couldn’t do this. No, she could. She had to. Ugh it was all stupid. No it wasn’t. He’d love it. He’d turn her down again. FUCK. She took a second to try and stop overthinking and just breathe. When she opened her eyes, he was just coming around the corner, hands awkwardly tucked behind his back much as hers were. “Hey!” she greeted. “Alright?” he replied, smiling, then stopped in his tracks. “Bloody hell, that’s a lot of candles.” She nodded. “Yeah, kinda.” She had dotted them all around the couch. At least three times as many as when they’d cuddled up together there two weeks ago. Thank god they were flameless; she could barely be trusted with fire inside the simulation, let alone outside of it. Looking around her reminded her she had gone too far to turn back. Looking at his beautiful face in the candlelight reminded her that she didn’t want to. “Are we... expecting another power cut?” “Uh... no... uh... hey, are you... feeling ok?” she checked. “Should you be standing?” “Actually it feels nice to stand for a sec. And the Zin physio is fantastic.” “Lucky you.” she commented, remembering her own unpleasant post-coma recovery. “Oh I... I didn’t mean to be insensitive.” “No... it’s OK...”. She smiled. “I’m... I’m glad they were able to fix you up so fast.” “Yeah.” he said, sounding unusually awkward. “I um... I didn’t see you at dinner.” “Oh...” she replied. “Yeah.”. It was true, she'd been so preoccupied by what she was doing that she hadn't eaten since Shaundi had brought her lunch to Matt’s bedside. Actually she’d barely eaten anything for the past few days. “It’s OK.” “Oh... well... I um... I got you something.” She looked at him, intrigued. He was kind of making her more nervous here by making him wait but she’d be damned if she ruined it. He smiled and pulled out a Freckle Bitch’s bag. “You don’t have to share if you don’t want to, though.” “Matty, that’s so sweet!” she exclaimed, a smile lighting up her own face too. “You’re... you’re always so nice to me.” “And um...” he said awkwardly. “I... wanted to thank you for... everything you've done and you said no-one had ever really bought you flowers before so um...” he pulled out a small bouquet of white roses. “They um... reminded me of your hair and...” he glanced down at them. “I don’t know.” He’d bought her food and flowers. The most ridiculous grin spread over her face. It took all her strength not to run across the room and kiss him. But she was in the middle of something, so instead she lingered awkwardly. “So, Nyte Blayde?” he checked, taking a step towards her. “I’m guessing you only watched one last week so we’re on-“ “One second.” she blurted out, interrupting him and halting his advance across the room. He frowned ever so slightly. “Everything alright?” “Yeah, I uh... just want to talk to you about somethin’.” “Oh... ok?” “Uh...” she gave him a nervous smile. “Matty, you uh... you remember that Ouija board you brought to Kinzie's party?” she asked gently. “Um... the one that led to you being dragged into a massive portal into Hell?” he replied, grimacing. “Hard to forget something like that.” “Yeah... that one.” she confirmed. “Do you remember... how all that shit happened?” “Um... I think so...”. He stared at her, obviously trying to work out her intentions. “Are you about to finally make me take the blame?” She laughed a little. “No. Just wondering if you still remember what you asked it.” “Oh... um... yeah.” he said, looking confused. “I asked um... “Will the President slash God-Emperor-for-life, ever choose a partner to reign alongside them?””

She hesitated. Was she really going to do this? This was fucking lame. But she'd made the damn thing now. She pulled out the shitty fake Ouija board she’d drawn on a piece of card, and the bracelet Johnny had leant her. She held it up for him to read, and slid the bracelet to ‘Yes.’. His face turned from slight confusion to utter bemusement. “And then you said...”. She rolled her eyes as she continued, imitating his sing-song tone. “Someone’s gettin' married!” “Right.” he laughed, looking embarrassed. “And you said “Shut up Matt.”” “Can you blame me?” she asked with a smile. And then uh... Shaundi said... uh...” They both paused for a second, thinking. “She asked it... um...” Matt said nervously, then looked her straight in the eyes. “Who will... tame the Emperor’s... wild heart?” She paused, staring back at him. She angled the board a little so she could see what she was doing, and slid the bracelet across it to spell “M-A-T-T-M-I-L-L-E-R.”. There was a stunned silence, his eyes searching her as if he was still trying to process. She gave him a hopeful smile. God, if he somehow rejected her after all of this, she was going to run straight into the simulation and shoot everything up for a month. “I just want to check this means... what I think it means?” he asked, sounding apprehensive. “I wanna be with you, Matt. More than anything.” she admitted. “If you want somethin’... like... a real... relationship... y’know... whatever that... would be...” she added in a mumble. He seemed to freeze up completely at that, his eyes wide, his mouth a little open. She wanted to beg him to say something, anything, but the silence forced her to continue. “And look... I uh...” she sighed. “I'm never gonna be able to give you the romance you deserve because I’m shit at talkin’ about my feelings and... I know I’m thirty-one now, and I’m kinda an asshole, and I’m sure not as cool as I used to be but y’know, I really think-“ She was interrupted as he walked straight up to her, threw his arms around her and kissed her passionately, dropping both the bag and the roses onto the couch behind her. She brought both arms up around his neck as she returned the kiss, the badly homemade Ouija board crumpling and falling and the bracelet clattering to the floor. It had been so long since she’d felt him kiss her like this. Like he fucking adored her.

(Which is the moment I drew here.)

Thanks to some creative use of Casey's obsession with Jane Austen on Matt's part, she was able to overcome her issues and confess her love for him that night, too.

Of course, the Freckle Bitch's was ruined after being dropped so suddenly, and the roses got left on the couch overnight.

But unsurprisingly, neither of them gave a shit about that.

#now everyone go commission ted this is your sign: go go go #sr boss: casey clark #matt miller #sr fanfic: out of time #saints row 4 #gat out of hell #saints row #commission #matty x cass (mass)

[crissiebaby]

Stepmother Knows Best, Pt. 3

DISCLAIMER: This story contains diaper usage, humiliation, domination, crossdressing, masturbation/diaper sex, and other ABDL themes. I hope you enjoy!

Commissioned By: Anon

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“Oh, he is just going to look so precious in these!”

“Please tell me you got the biggest you could find!”

As Rachel and Deloris fawned over the contents of the bags that Sara had ferried into the walk-in closet, Ryan’s dreadful anticipation only grew. At first, his concern had remained mild, assuming whatever Sara had brought over must’ve been an extra girly outfit or something. However, as time stretched and the girls kept digging and digging, his concern began to rise slowly and steadily until it was so intense that he could barely stand still.

“I’m almost kinda nervous. I’ve never done something like this, “said Rachel, fanning her flushed face as all the excitement had sent a wealth of blood to her cheeks.

Rubbing her hands together, Deloris did not share Rachel’s anxiety in the slightest, “Relax, I’ll take care of…that part. It’s been a few years and he’s a bit bigger than I’m used to but I’m sure I can still manage.” She turned her head back to look at Ryan, making sure her words were deliberately vague enough for him not to understand.

Perhaps the anticipation that Deloris was setting up for Ryan was a tad too much, though, as a very frustrated Ryan finally got fed up with waiting for the big reveal. Stomping across the closet with his green velvet dress only half on, he shoved an unprepared Rachel out of the way before tearing the bags open. “Will you quit it with the theatrics?! Let’s just get this over…with…” said Ryan, his words petering off as he stared into the void of the bag, terrified of what was staring back at him.

Without hesitation, Ryan made a break for the closet door. It didn’t matter how he was dressed or what his dad saw anymore. It would be a cold day in hell before he’d willingly let the girls put him in something so fundamentally psychotic. Where did Sara even find that stuff?! Grabbing onto the door handle, he was instantly accosted by all three women, who gleefully dug their claws into his body with every intent of restraining him for what was to come. In spite of Ryan’s best efforts, three against one was not a fair fight. His fingers held onto the little, golden knob for as long as he could but eventually, his digits gave out and he was forced to the ground on his back. “N-NO! I-I did everything you wanted me to! You can’t do this to me!!!” he screamed, writhing around on the carpet as the girls did their best to pin him down.

“Deloris, go get the package! We’ll keep him down,” said Sara, placing a knee on Ryan’s chest as she used her entire body weight to keep his arms at his sides.

Simultaneously, Rachel was being thrown around by Ryan’s legs as she rested her body on top of them with her arms hugging his lower appendages to her chest. In a way, it was a lot like riding a mechanical bull, only much bonier. “P-Please hurry! He’s killing my boobs!” she groaned Rachel as Ryan slammed his feet against the floor, sending shockwaves up through Rachel’s poor, defenseless mammaries. 

Rachel’s words only encouraged Ryan to thrash harder. He didn’t like the idea of hurting a woman physically in any way but since he was essentially a hostage, desperate times called for desperate measures. Sadly, thanks to being kept in Rachel’s closet all afternoon, the last meal Ryan had eaten was breakfast, which at his point was nearly seven hours prior. Additionally, he’d also been made to cum multiple times today, weakening his body tremendously. Because of this, it only took about 45 seconds of jerking his body around for the exhaustion to kick in. With no more gas left in the tank, his body went limp all at once as his breathing became haggard and weary.

“So much for all that big man strength,” said Sara, giggling at her own poor impression of Randy Savage. Having taken care of Ryan, she turned her attention to Deloris, sinking her teeth into her bottom lip as her grand revenge scheme began to unfold. Since there was nothing he could do now, she leaned in close to his ear, wanting to make sure he understood precisely why this was happening, “Looks like Soggy Sara is the one who gets the last laugh.”

While Sara may have been on cloud 9 after revealing why she’d been harboring vengeful feelings for so long, Ryan’s confusion only grew as he had zero memory of the birthday party incident that had plagued Sara’s soul for so long. Tragically, it mattered little what he did and didn’t remember because he was going to pay the price for his past self’s actions whether he wanted to or not. 

“Alright! Time to say goodbye to those big girl panties you love so much,” said Deloris, snickering as she sat down on Ryan’s thighs, taking the pressure off of Rachel a little. She wrapped her fingers around the waistband of the lacy, vibrating panties and pulled them down, maneuvering them through her legs before passing them off to Rachel to do the same.

Then came the moment that made Ryan’s heart stop as Deloris raised an unfolded adult diaper for Ryan to see. “At least we won’t have to worry about you making sticky accidents in Mommy’s dwesses anymore,” she said, cooing at Ryan with a babyish affect like any good mother would. 

After a bit of finagling, Deloris managed to slide the soft padding under Ryan’s rump. This triggered him to begin wagging his hips around in a last-ditch attempt to make this as hard for the girls as possible. Unfortunately, Deloris had seen this coming and had already thought up a perfect solution. As his hips were moving around, she reached down and clutched his dick and balls tightly, forcing the emasculated Ryan to let out a sharp yelp as his body went stiff and rigid. “That’s enough of that. There’ll be no more fussing about until Auntie Deloris gets you changed. Is that clear?” she said, giving his boys a test squeeze to show Ryan she meant business.

Wincing in pain, Ryan once again went limp under Deloris’s very serious threat. He felt his pride shatter to pieces as he willingly let his butt rest atop the fluffy diaper. “Th-This is the last one, right?” he asked, praying that this would all be over soon.

“Of course,” said Deloris, her condescending smile filling Ryan with little hope that she was being true to her word. Sadly, as much as he didn’t believe her, it was the only form of hope he could cling to at this point. 

Squirting several long streaks of baby lotion into her hand, Deloris pressed the gooey substance against Ryan’s cock, smothering his sore penis in creamy goodness. Her fingers ran down the length of his shaft and balls, ensuring a thick, even coating. She then added more lotion to her hand before applying coverage to the rest of his front diaper area, running her hand between his upper thighs and across his budding pubic hairs. “I’m almost kind of shocked his bikini area is so well groomed. I half-expected to find a forest,” she said, lightly pinching at his curly hairs with her fingertips.

“I can answer that one,” said Sara, her chipper voice striking fear into Ryan’s soul over what she might say next, “I think I mentioned to Ryan like a year ago maybe that only virgins don’t keep their pubes trimmed. Guess he took that to heart.” The three women all cackled at Ryan’s attempt to appear experienced, further fueling the blush in his cheeks. 

“Well, I certainly appreciate you making this easy for me, Baby Ryan,” said Deloris, giving his actively swelling shaft a final once over before turning to Rachel, “Alright, we’ll need to lift his legs to cover the booty. One, two, threeeee-Ugh!” With a soft grunt, Deloris and Rachel pushed Ryan’s legs into the air to expose his smooth buttocks. Knowing they couldn’t keep him held in this position for long, she pushed the bottle of lotion close to his butt and began slamming down on the pump, exploding a plethora of lotion onto Ryan’s ass. She then used her free hand to rub it into his skin, spending an extra amount of time running her open palm through his butt crack.

As a parting gift, as Deloris finished getting him all lotioned up, she let her middle finger slip inside Ryan’s puckered anus. The reaction was instantaneous with his body convulsing wildly from the rear intrusion. His body may have been weakened but having his back door played with was enough to wake his muscles up momentarily. He twisted his legs free from Rachel and Deloris's grasp as he crashed back down on top of the open diaper, panting heavily.

“Well, at least that part’s over,” said Rachel, chuckling as she wiped the moisture from her forehead, “So what’s next?” Looking around the nearby area, Deloris let out an annoyed sigh. “Shoot, I must’ve left the baby powder in the bag. Keep him held while I go grab the bottle,” she said, helping Rachel shift so that she was sitting atop his legs again facing his feet with her hands clutching his ankles tightly.

Left alone with Ryan’s upper half, Sara ran her fingers along his chin as she whispered, “See? This isn’t so bad, is it? I’ll bet all that lotion feels extra soothing.” She reached across his body and brushed her hand against Ryan’s lubricated cock, enjoying the way his body quivered from her touch.

Lightbulb!

Looking back and forth between Rachel and Deloris, Sara realized that this was the perfect opportunity to kick Ryan’s humiliation up to the next level. Tucked away in her pocket was a special tool that she had picked up from the CrissBaby store along with the diapers. She pulled a small vial out and held it up to her eyes. Its label read, “CrissBaby Diaper Aphrodisiac - Rose Scented.” Just a couple drops of this would keep him as hard as a rock for hours. Unscrewing the cap, she set the dropper aside, opting to pour the entire bottle onto his slightly stiff member instead. She quickly spread the liquid all over his naughty bits, rubbing it into his skin so that Rachel and Deloris would be none the wiser.

Ryan, meanwhile, had no clue what Sara was up to. From his perspective, she had randomly decided to start playing with his penis. Over the course of five seconds, his mind ran the gamut between having his wildest fantasies realized with Sara and the fact that he was still wrapped up in a green velvet dress with a fresh diaper under his ass. Unsurprisingly, his dick was nowhere as conflicted as his brain was as it expanded to a full erection in no time. His moment with Sara didn’t last long, though, as she quickly pulled her hand away before Deloris could return with the lotion.

“Oh my! Someone seems to be having more fun than they’d like to admit” said Deloris, her eyes falling on Ryan’s pulsing hard-on. Her words prompted Rachel to look behind her before flopping to the floor in hysterics.

Knowing his arousal was all Sara’s doing, Ryan wanted to argue that he wasn’t enjoying a second of this. However, after the number of times he’d been made to climax from the vibrating panties, it wasn’t likely his words would hold any water anyway. Instead, he furrowed his brow and looked away from the three giggling girls. “J-Just do it already,” he said, unaware of how much his anger looked like bratty pouting.

“Worry not! One last step and we’ll get your lil’ buddy swaddled up in something nice and cozy,” said Deloris as she got to work sprinkling powder all over Ryan’s crotch. Thankfully for Ryan, the powdering process was much more expedient than the lotioning had been. The girls pushed his legs up again and scattered the linen-scented substance across his bottom before pouring some directly onto the diaper. Laughter was once again jump-started as she lowered his butt back onto the diaper, causing a poof of white powder to waft into the air. It was all over from there, as she unceremoniously lifted the diaper up between his legs and taped it down tight over Ryan’s stiffy. 

With his diaper now secured, Ryan went numb, unable and unwilling to accept the crinkly plastic that his hips were wrapped up in as reality. Unfortunately, the numbness was soon replaced by an odd tingling sensation that began to emit from his privates. It wasn’t unpleasant but it was unnaturally hot. He began repeating the word, “No,” over and over again in his head as the pleasurable warmth induced his inflating cock to strain against the fluffy confines of his diaper, something that did not go unnoticed.

“Well, would you look at that,” said Rachel, finally lifting herself off of Ryan’s legs as she honed in on his tented padding. She gave the tip a tiny poke, amazed as just the slightest touch nearly sent him over the edge, “I don’t believe it but I think he’s even more turned on by this than the vibrating panties! Did we accidentally stumble across your secret fetish?”

Hell was starting to look like an all-expense paid vacation compared to the unreal humiliation that was being inflicted on Ryan. What was happening to him? He stabbed his teeth into his tongue and scrapped his fingernails against the flesh of his hands, doing anything he could to lessen the euphoric tingles that were enrapturing his dick.

While Ryan was fighting a war of attrition against his own arousal, the girls moved in with the final piece of Ryan’s sissy baby wardrobe. “Since you couldn’t get enough of all those fuzzy, girly feelings, I figured this would be right up your alley,” said Sara, holding up a powder blue, taffeta party dress with poofy sleeves, an extremely short skirt, and a built-in petticoat. Unlike the other outfit that Ryan had been coerced into wearing, this one was by far the shortest, looking more as though it had been made for a ten-year-old, “Of all the outrageously girly things my mother made me wear as a kid, this was the one dress that even she couldn’t force me into! So don’t worry about returning it! It’s all yours, Baby Ryan!”

“Wow, thanks,” said Ryan with a heavy dose of sarcasm. Feeling utterly defeated at this point, he allowed Rachel to lift his arms up so that Sara could slide the dress onto him. It was by far the softest and smoothest thing he had worn so far. The buttery fabric hugged his torso from every angle, pinching his waist a bit due to the fact that the dress barely fit past his fairly broad chest. As the dress’s delicate petticoats brushed against his sensitive thighs, he could swear he felt his penis growing even harder inside his diaper. What was happening to him?! He didn’t enjoy this…right?!

Elated by the conflicting emotions that Ryan’s face was zooming through, Deloris stepped in behind him and took hold of his extended hair. “It’s okay if you’re starting to enjoy this, ya know? You’re one of the girls now, Riley” she said, gifting him a feminized version of his name to match his appearance. She suppressed her giggles at Ryan’s expense as she began shaping his hair into a pair of adorable pigtails.

“You sure about Riley?” asked Rachel, pondering over if Deloris’s new name for Ryan was precious enough, “What about Raelynn?! Then we can call him Lynn for short!”

Placing her thumb and forefinger on her chin, Sara chimed in, “I’m more partial to Rain if we’re being honest. It sounds like something a trendy girl would pick out for herself.

As the ladies argued over what Ryan’s new girl name should be, Ryan could only stand in place and gawk at his own reflection. Gone was his father’s wealthy slob of a son, replaced by a little diaper girl who didn’t even look old enough to drive, let alone take over his father’s company someday. Speaking of his father, he knew based on the way the sun was hitting the master bedroom window adjacent to the closet that it was pretty late in the afternoon. “H-Hey, c-can we please be done now,” he said, cutting off the girls in the midst of his renaming summit. He choked back tears as he pleaded for mercy, “My d-dad’s gotta be getting home soon.”

Looking back and forth between Sara and Deloris, Rachel spoke up. “Oh yes, I’d say we’re done. This’ll be perfect. Thank you for being so patient with us today while we figured out your new wardrobe,” she said, stepping toward Ryan slowly like a predator stalking its prey.

“That’s right! It took a bit of trial and error but I’m with Rachel. This is the perfect basis for your new look! Now we can pick you out a bunch of new clothes and accessories!” said Deloris, positioning herself so that she was in the way of Ryan’s most direct escape route.

Circling around to Ryan’s side, Sara pressed her fingers together, unaware of how much her posture was akin to a cartoon villain. “I have plenty of old dresses just like this one that you’re free to wear whenever! And don’t worry if Daddy cuts you off! You can always come stay with me and be my 24/7 dress-up dolly,” she said, closing in on Ryan and placing an arm around his shoulder, “Doesn’t that sound sooooo fun?!”

Shaking his head, Ryan reacted much like any cornered animal would. He broke from Sara’s casual hold on him, making a mad dash for the door. To his surprise, the ladies allowed him to break through the closet door. He sprinted around the bed as fast as his diapered legs could waddle. If he could just make it back to his room then this whole nightmare would be over. Racing down the hallway, he approached his bedroom door at the far end. “Hahaha! Go fuck yourself, Rachel!” he screamed at the top of his lungs as he grabbed the handle to his bedroom door victoriously.

*Rattle!*

In an instant, the cheerful and relieved expression on his face disintegrated as he jiggled the doorknob, only to find that the girls had locked it from the inside. “N-No! Nonononono!” he shouted as he desperately rammed his shoulder into the door multiple times.

“Oh, Raelynn!” said Rachel in a sing-songy as she and her two cohorts stepped out into the hallway, cornering Ryan in an even tighter space, “Did I hear you say a potty word about Mommy? That’s a big no-no.”

Folding her arms with a satisfied smirk, Deloris was more than happy to respond in Ryan’s place, “Sounds like someone earned herself a big punishment! And we were just about to get you changed too.” Both she and Ryan knew she was lying but teasing Ryan with his failed escape attempt was too delicious to pass up on.

Turning around slowly as if he was a final girl in a horror movie, Ryan’s heart filled with dread as he saw the three women slinking toward him side by side, ensuring that the entire hallway was blocked by their bodies. “Y-You three are fucking insane-HEY!” he yelled as the girls easily wrestled him to the ground before lifting him in the air, “Put me down! W-Where are you taking me?!” His fingers scraped against the pure white balusters, hoping to grab hold of anything to halt the girls’ campaign, even if only for a brief moment. Sadly, his arms were too constrained to do any real damage to their plans, allowing them to carry his body downstairs to the living room without much of a fight.

“Let’s get him tied down right here,” said Rachel as she and the others sat Ryan down in front of the tea table. The girls then proceeded to use a set of Rachel’s silk scarves to bind his ankles and waist to his seat.

Meanwhile, Sara and Deloris got to work subduing Ryan’s arms. “Keep a hold of him for a sec, Deloris! I’ve got the perfect way to keep him pinned,” said Sara, making sure Deloris had a good hold on Ryan before racing back up to the walk-in closet, only to return in a matter of seconds with a fluffy, pink teddy bear in her arms. “Remember, Mr. Fluffles? You made fun of me for having him in my bed the one and only time I let you into my room. What was that you said? Only toddlers sleep with stuffed animals? Guess he’s perfect for you now.”

Nestling the plush bear into Ryan’s lap, Delrois and Sara forced Ryan to wrap his arms around the stuffy before tying them into place, binding him in much the way a straight jacket would. With his arms, legs, and waist fully bound to the seat, the most he could do was wiggle in place, unable to shift his body more than a handful of inches in any direction. “What?! Are you bitches gonna make me have a stupid tea party with you now?!” he said, his mouth existing as his only source of defiance.

“Such rude language for such a proper lady,” said Deloris, who by this point was done with Ryan’s foul words. Thankfully, she’d done some digging through Sara’s goodie bags and found the perfect solution to this problem. Pulling out a pink pacifier with a massive ball in place of a mouthguard and four laces attached to it, she stormed up to Ryan and plopped it into his mouth before tying the laces around his head to keep it secure.

For Ryan’s effort, he attempted to spit out the pacifier or at least dislodge it in some way but without his hands, there really wasn’t much he could do. “D-Dish ish shtoopid!” he screamed, muffled by the wide bulb of his shiny, new binky.

“That’s enough out of you,” said Deloris, grabbing the pink orb that was attached to Ryan’s paci and giving it a hardy squeeze. This caused a rush of liquid to push out of the bulb in Ryan’s mouth, coating his mouth in a thick, berry-flavored syrup. With nowhere for the liquid to go, he was forced to swallow it, much to Deloris’s delight, “CrissBaby makes so many fascinating things. Who would’ve ever thought to make a pacifier with a dispenser attached to it?” Nodding in agreement, Sara was feeling quite proud of the purchases she had made. “I know right?! You filled the bulb with that oral numbing agent I bought, yeah?” she asked excitedly.

“Of course! That should keep our little girl sounding sweet for the foreseeable future,” said Deloris, relishing in Ryan’s agony, “The bottle says not to leave it on too long unless you really, really want it to be permanent. Funny how they worded it that way. It’s almost like they know it will be used to turn sissies like you into lispy, little pwinceshesh! Hehehe!”

Sure enough, it was only a matter of seconds before Ryan could feel the light prickles of numbness invading his mouth and tongue. “D-Dish shtuff betta wash off!” he said, uncertain if it was the pacifier or the numbing agent causing his lisp at this point.

“Oh, hush. Your mouth may say one thing but your body is saying something completely different,” said Rachel, who had finished with Ryan’s ankle restraints just in time to grope his diaper-encased hard-on for dramatic effect, having no idea that his unending erection was the direct result of Sara’s sabotage.

Whimpering as he wiggled his hands and feet fruitlessly, Ryan was utilizing every ounce of resistance left in him to keep from enjoying his stepmother’s loving touch. Why did diapers have to feel so good on his cock?! “D-Dat doesn change…nuffin! I neva wan-ned any of dish!” he shrieked, his voice cracking under the pressure of perverse pleasure.

“Sorry, sweetie but it doesn’t matter what you want anymore,” said Rachel, giving Ryan’s diaper front one last good squeeze before reaching into her pocket and pulling out his favorite lacy, vibrating panties, “This is your new life now, so get used to it.” Without warning, she pulled open the waistband of Ryan’s diaper and shoved her hand with the panties inside before carefully wrapping the silky undergarment around his stiff pecker. Standing up with a smug smirk imprinted on her face, she pointed the vibrator’s remote at him and clicked it on to full speed. She then let the remote fall from her hand to the floor before lifting her heel and crushing it, making sure the panties would stay on until the battery was drained.

Ryan’s eyes went cross as his dick was engulfed in unmitigated pleasure. Everything from the way the dress moved against his skin to the thick diaper that soaked up every ounce of seed that dribbled out of his penis was designed to ramp up his horny femininity. He bellowed out a deep moan into his pacifier as he began to mount another climax.

*RUMBLE!*

Suddenly, the sound of a garage door opening captured everyone’s attention. “He’s home! Quick, girls! To your positions!” said Deloris, circling around the table hastily and taking a seat at the tea table directly across from Ryan.

Rachel and Sara both joined her, placing themselves in the two seats neighboring Ryan’s so that all four were now taken up. “Care for some tea?” said Rachel, lifting the teapot and pouring the warm liquid into her glass before doing the same for Ryan’s teacup.

“Yes, please,” said Deloris, lifting both her teacup and saucer and holding them out for Rachel to pour into. As her cup filled with tea, she glanced over at Sara, “And Sara, you should join us for tea more often! We’d love to let you in on all of our juiciest gossip.”

Snagging a couple of cookies and setting them on her plate, Sara nodded to Deloris. “I’d love to! Besides, I’m sure I’ll already be over here a lot to babysit,” she said, turning her attention to Ryan and giving him a soft pinch on the cheek, “We’re gonna have so much fun together from now on. I’m so happy that you’ve decided to be my prissy sissy baby forever.”

Watching his adult male life slipping through his fingers like grains of sand fluttering in a warm, summer breeze, Ryan shed one final tear for his manhood, knowing his life as he’d come to know it was officially over. His wrists and ankles twisted in place as a hot load of cum was squirted into his diaper right as his dad opened the door.

“Honey, Ryan, I’m…home…”

THE END.

PART 1 PART 2

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[hakkais-hoe]

I was gonna serenade you myself but then I realized I couldn't sing so have this song in my stead (also would make for an interesting fic about Sanzu and his once innocent S/O now being bold, wild, untamable, and overall deadly; even enough to put his ass out of commission if she ever wanted to)

https://youtu.be/6NdbIoLOFoc

Better serenade me properly next time 🙄 Jkjk anyway yessss this song is amazing I’ve been listening to it on repeat since you sent it absolutely love it.

Gonna do it from Harus pov for a bit, not sure this is what you actually meant but I think it kinda works, I hope 🥲

Age warning: none but don’t read if ya don’t like violence.

Warnings: Kidnapping, violence, torture, guns/deadly weapons, swearing, Sanzu being a pain n his pill poppin habit.

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My Lioness

Fuck, fuck, fuck! This shit hurts!

“So Haruchiyo Akashi is it? Or do you go by Sanzu still, you piece of trash?!”

Kidnapped! What a joke, me of all people managing to get his arse kidnapped by these basic hoes… god I need a pill!

They can sit there and shout at the bubblegum haired man all they want, but how could he answer with a cloth gagging him to the point of his voice muffling and the cloth starting to cut into the scars at the side of his mouth.

His arms are bound behind him to the chair along with his legs with a rope that won’t stop ripping at his skin, the blood from now open wounds drips down to the floor creating puddles of hot red liquid below him.

He’s getting woozy from the blood loss from his limbs and the open wound on his head by now, the feeling of sleep deprivation is kicking in but he knows if he sleeps he won’t be getting up anytime soon.

“We sent a ransom video to your pathetic colleagues, not like Bonten will ever pay to have their loyal max dog back they have your pretty little lover for that now, eh?! Guess what Sanzu she’s not coming! No one is they don’t need you you’re expendable to them. You’re little lover too she’s probably moving on as we speak!” The man above him laughs to himself before bringing the mallet down on Harus hand, shattering his fingers and pulling a grumbled shout from his gagged lips.

His laughing kidnappers rip the gag from his mouth hoping to hear his scream from the pain they’re inflicting.

“Don’t speak about my darling with your filthy stinking mouth… I’m gonna fuck you up when I get outa here.” Sanzu grits through clenched teeth. All he can think about now is how much he missed his baby in the past few hours even though you’d both spent the morning arguing and screaming at one another.

Sooner or later, babe, you’re gonna come for me

Once upon a time was the only thing to ease your pain

“Awe it’s adorable that he’s so worried about his partner so much! How sad that they haven’t even come for you! What a joke, they’re all probably laughing about not having to save your useless arse!” Kidnapper 1 replies with a boot smacking straight into Sanzus abdomen, sending him and the chair clattering to the harsh rock ground.

“FUCK! Shut the fuck up you don’t know shit they’ll come get me or I’ll get myself out nd fuck you up in the process motherfucker!” Harus voice is scratchy and pain filled from the violent fall and a blow to the head, his vision is begging to blur from the pain but he knows he has to stay awake.

“HARU!”

“SANZU!!”

“Fuck, you poor dickheads you’re so dead now.”

Familiar voices fill his senses, you’re voice then Rindou and Rans intermingled voices followed by a chuckling Kokonoi mocking the kidnappers.

The sight of your rage filled blazing eyes sends pure relief corsing through Harus body, all he wants to do now is feel you holding him but without a second word you have one of his favourite guns pressed against the head of his kidnapper.

“You’re so fucking dead, you thought you could beat the ever loving fuck out of my man without me coming to fuckinh kill you then you’re done!” You’re voice snarls cutting the stuttering whiny man off.

And I saw you change into a lioness

A beast in the wild, unbridled

I could see it in your eyes

You could've eaten me alive

Just to show me you could

A hunter on the prowl

“Damn baby you really do love me~ Could do with a hand here though m’ startin to go fuzzy…” Harus voice is quiet and wavering when he speaks up into the blood soaked room, the four heads in the room snap back to the injured man in question. His mouth is cracked into a small smile yet his eyes are filled with pure pain from the puddle of blood forming below him. You’re in front of him before he can think, helping Rin and Ran to lift the chair before they help cut Haru free from his restraints.

“You once told me you’d burn down the world for me, Sanzu, guess it was my turn to show you I’d kill anyone for you my love~” Your gentle coo in his ear has him grinning widely against your shoulder, lithe heavy body going limp against you in exhaustion.

“I don’t even have the energy to hug you back but I love you so much, my feral queen, my everything.” Sanzu mutters quietly against the crook for your neck, blowing a heavy sigh against the sensitive skin clearly ready to head to bed.

“Yeh love you too, we better get you to a hospital eh darling?”

“God yes please I think I’m dying, not even being dramatic for once…” Haru grumbles succumbing to the intense need to sleep.

Waking up to bright lights and the sound of beeping monitors was definitely not knew to the pill popper but he really didn’t want to be alone.

“Good morning sleeping beauty… Ran n Rin are picking up some food for the ride home. How are you feeling? You had surgery they said you had internal bleeding or something and a few broken bones.” Your quiet hum is music to his ears as he reaches out for you silently, you take his hand in yours laying a kiss over his broken fingertips wit tears in your eyes you look at his sleepy form.

“So pretty~ my baby’s so pretty… I feel okay , better now I know I’m not alone… they… they said you wouldn’t come… they said you’d move on and none of you needed me… I’ve never wanted to kill someone so bad I- you- I won't forget the way that you looked at me, I won't forget the way that you shook, straight rattled my bones when I saw you come blazing into the room you looked like a goddess in my eyes…” Tears form in his beautiful eyes but never fall, he goes to grip your hand, forgetting that his grand is throughly shattered, a loud squeak spills from him along with a few tears of pain.

“Haru-“

“Well that was adorable! Be nice to us as well Sanzuuuu~ we came to save you from the horrible men! Even carried you into this shit hole.” Rans mocking voice breaks the loving atmosphere between the two of you, you shoot him a glare as Rindou gives him a whack in the stomach.

“Shut up Ran, we’re glad your okay Sanzu. Even if you are annoying as fuck we still need you… no one else likes cracking knuckles as much as you.” Rindou grumbles walking into the room with a bag filled with Nando’s for the group.

“Shut up both of you, lousy mother fuckers, just get the fuck in the car we’ll be out in a bit.” You snap already throwing random objects at them. Sanzus loving gaze follows you on the way to throwing them out the doors

“You're tickin' like a time bomb fit to blow up everything… I could see it in your eyes, You could've eaten me alive… fuck I love you, you psycho.” Sanzu mutter far too quiet for you to make out the words.

“What was that baby?”

“Noting my dear Lioness~” He coos yanking all his IVs out and making his way to the door like usual.

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Hope this is okay love!!

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trans! 1-2-3 Kid/Razor Ramon

hi! On my bullshit again but god I've got Kid/Razor on the mind and I wanted to write something purely self indulgent between commissions. So here's some absolutely dripping in personally inspired trans narrative Kid.

Anyway I got to talking with Scotty and we talked about how getting your first suit as a trans man is such a big thing, and I thought it'd be sweet if Razor bought Kid his first suit.

I have a whole list in my head of headcanons for this version of Kid I may or may not post?

Also loosely related to Xentex's lovely standalone fic for his trans Diesel muse.

TWs:

needles/injections in the first part, nothing descriptive, internalized and mentioned transphobia, NSFW content.

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Kid was laid flat on his stomach on the cushy hotel bed as he watched Razor tapping away air bubbles from the syringe in his hands. Ever since he began running with the Cuban, he insisted on doing Kid's t-shots for him. He had said it was something nostalgic for him. Kid was a little annoyed at first, but he was quick to relent given that Razor was a hell of a lot better at injecting him than he was. It sucked to have to do his shots in his thighs, and having to wrestle right after usually would put him in a ton of pain.

Instead, having the shot done by his hip was just more comfortable.

"What're you wearing to the charity dinner?" Kid asked, smushing his cheek against the pillow he was resting on as he caught Razor's eye.

"Eh, maybe just gonna throw a white suit over the usual on and call it a day." Razor shrugged. He was already replacing the needle. Kid didn't know how Razor had it all memorized. It basically took him half an hour to get through all the steps, having to consult the worn out instructions sheet he kept with the vials. Sure Razor had a good memory, but he did it with so much ease.

"Man, even you're wearing a suit?" He pouted. He'd basically asked every wrestler what they'd be wearing at this point. Shawn was gonna be in a suit, Diesel was going to be doing just a button up with a sportcoat, hell even the Bushwhackers had suits! Kid didn't even own a button up. Most events Vince made them do were casual enough he could get away with a t-shirt, jeans, and his leather jacket. But this one was all fancy, way more formal and stiff than anything Kid had attended. The last time he wore a suit must've been…never. He frowned more, realizing he'd never owned a suit.

Razor ruffled his hair, taking him out of his thoughts as the taller man rounded the bed. He pulled Kid's waistband down, wiping the injection site down with an alcohol pad.

"What, you're not?" Razor asked, waving his hand over the alcohol to dry it off.

"I don't have a suit, Raze. Never did. Always had to wear dresses to big stuff." Kid sighed. He couldn't help the way it made him feel. His mom had always spent so much on those dresses, he never had the heart to tell her he didn't want to wear them. He knew how important having a daughter was to her; for a long time he was worried he'd just break her heart so he kept quiet.

He was thankful puberty never hit him too hard, though. A loose enough shirt usually got the job done to hide his body.

Kid came out to his mom when he first broke into wrestling. He couldn't make himself wrestle the women's division, or in any women's promotion. His mom had struggled with it. They fought. He moved in with his grandparents who were somehow more understanding.

The King had helped him out a ton, too. He owed him for being the reason he got to wrestle in the men's divisions.

"Ready?" Razor's voice brought him out of the past. He nodded, the slight sting hitting him as Razor pushed the needle through the skin he held taut. "So you never had a suit? Never been fitted for one?"

Kid shook his head as Razor pulled his hand away, depressing the plunger. "Never Raze. Makes me kinda nervous, going to buy a suit. I mean I can get one off the rack at Macy's or something I guess, but I can only afford the discount stuff and all that's too big on me. I'll look like a kid playing in his dad's clothes."

"Then get one tailored, chico."

"I don't think I need to tell you why that makes me nervous." Kid scoffed, rolling his eyes as Razor pulled the needle out, replacing it with an alcohol pad held gently against his skin. "Like, y'know what if they take inseams and they like…notice."

"If you pack they won't." Razor took care of disposal as he spoke, gently pulling Kid's waistband up.

"I don't know man…you know I usually don't anyway.

"Oyame, chico. I'll take you to my tailor. He won't say shit to you, he made suits for Vinnie. Does suits for dykes too. I'll explain it to him, okay?" Sharps disposed, Razor sat on the edge of the bed with a smile as he looked down at Kid.

The young man wouldn't admit it to his face, but he loved when Razor actually smiled. Not that slimy smirk of his, but a real smile. He couldn't help himself from smiling back.

"Alright Raze, but I don't know if I can afford that."

That got him a smack to the back of the head.

"The fuck you think I am? I'm gonna make you pay for this? It's a gift, niño. From me. You wear that shit and if anyone asks, you tell them Razor Ramon got it for you, got it?" He had pulled the toothpick from his mouth, pointing it at Kid as he spoke, making him laugh.

"Yeah I hear you big man. Mr. Ramon so kindly bought me my suit."

"Damn straight." He leaned down, pushing Kid's curls back as he placed a kiss to his forehead. Kid stuck his tongue out in response, before sighing.

"Thanks Raze."

"You're running with me. That means you get the best, or nothing." Razor patted him on the back, "we'll go tomorrow, all right?"

"Alright. You're the boss, Mr. Ramon."

"Damn right I am."

—

Razor managed to pull off a pretty comfortable experience for Kid's first time getting fit for a suit. Measurements weren't any different from when he would get fitted for wrestling gear, there was just a lot more to measure. Thankfully, his tailor offered private rooms so Kid didn't have to deal with any of the anxiety provided by someone potentially walking in.

He also couldn't deny the way it made him feel a lot more like a man to even go through the experience of getting fitted.

To save time, they had picked out a premade suit to be altered, given the charity dinner was that weekend. Razor had been pretty upset he couldn't pay for a suit to be made for Kid, but Kid reasoned that he didn't even need to wear them all that often in the first place.

Come Friday morning, the suit was ready.

Razor had picked it out, not that Kid had a problem with that. It was navy, with a black trim on the inside. According to the big man himself, he chose it because cool colors suited Kid more than blacks or anything warm.

For the most part, Kid had no idea what Razor would be going on about so he just nodded along and agreed.

Still, trying it on was something different. Razor had pretty much picked out everything else: the dress shirt, shoes, tie, belt…

“I’m worried I’m going to look stupid.” Kid was frowning as Razor was tying his tie for him.

“Ay niño, you look handsome. You look like the man you are.” The taller man chided him, speaking with a cigar in his mouth as he tightened the tie up to his neck. “That comfortable?”

Being called handsome by Razor of all people always made Kid’s chest swell with joy. “You really think so?”

“Don’t be stupid. The fuck would I lie to you for?”

Kid grinned as he was scolded, putting on the coat jacket as it was handed to him.

“There’s three buttons, you just button the top two.”

“Got it, boss.” Kid rolled his eyes, secretly appreciative of how much Razor gave instruction. If it wasn’t for him, he’d end up going to the dinner looking like he rolled in right off the street and Vince would’ve had his head for it. Slim fingers worked on the buttons before straightening the jacket out. He had to admit, it was a lot more comfortable than he expected. There was something nice about having the layer of the jacket to hide any awkward bumps the dress shirt wouldn’t.

“Alright. Now that’s a handsome guy. Turn around.” Razor was grinning at him pulling his cigar out of his mouth as he looked down at Kid. With one hand, he gently turned Kid around to face himself in the mirror.

Kid normally tried not to let his emotions really get to him in any big way, but this time he couldn’t help it. There was just a prick of tears in his eyes as he looked himself over in the full body mirror. Head to toe, he looked like he actually belonged in men’s formal wear. The pants gave enough of a drop near his crotch he wouldn’t be too uncomfortable even if he did pack, the jacket drew away from his chest and gave him a boxier looking frame instead of emphasizing how petite his body usually looked. Even his shoes didn’t look too small. He couldn’t help but smile as he checked himself out in the mirror.

“That’s not all. Here.” Razor pulled a small box out of his pocket, giving it to Kid. “Open it, c’mon.”

“Geez man, just like wait a second.” Kid huffed, pulling the golden cover off of the small box. Inside was some actual gold; two gold cufflinks and a chain. He was stunned, mouth slightly agape as he looked down at the gift and then at Razor.

“It’s real gold, chico. We’ll have matching cufflinks. And I figured you can wear the chain with just the shirt sometimes. When I take you out, I mean. You’ve been rolling with me this long. I can't have you without at least some gold, yeah?” Razor looked real proud, moving closer to Kid, pulling the cufflinks out of the box and affixing them to the ends of the sleeves of the jacket.

“Raze, this is too much isn’t it?”

“What, you stole my money and now you’re too good for my gold, huh? This shit is as real as it gets, chico.”

“Okay you like, already got over that. And I mean, this is different. You bought this for me. This must’ve been expensive.”

Razor took a puff of his cigar before he pointed it at Kid. “Nothing is too expensive for Razor Ramon, comprende?”

Kid huffed, before grinning. “Only because it’s you Raze, am I even worried that you spent money like this on me. I’d be out the door with anyone else.” He looked at the cufflinks, admiring the way they complimented the deep blue of the jacket.

Razor just shook his head in response as Kid looked himself over again in the mirror.

“I almost don’t want to take it off.”

"Mm. I can help you with that niño."

Kid watched as Razor put the cigar out in the ash tray. The larger man stepped in closer, pressing himself flush against Kid's back. He rested his chin on Kid's left shoulder, clearly scheming something.

Kid watched the two of them in the mirror. For once he didn't feel like he was fighting to look like a man, especially next to Razor. Not that anyone said shit to him ever since they started rolling together. Anytime some jobber even whispered that Kid looked "girly" in the locker room, they'd suspiciously have some injury and never end up on any of the shows.

Razor's rough hands began wandering around Kid's body, undoing his belt buckle as he watched the reaction of the younger man. Kid squirmed, feeling his face get hot.

"Razor…" He huffed, watching his belt being tossed aside as his dress shirt got pulled out. His coat jacket was pulled off next, laid gently on the ottoman to their side, and Kid wasn't sure if he wanted to be transfixed on the image in front of him or look away. "I can undress myself, c'mon. You know I don't like looking at myself like this."

"Kid." Razor's voice was stern, and the lack of a nickname made the slimmer man stand up a bit straighter. "You look so fucking handsome. C'mon, look." He grabbed Kid's face, turning him towards the mirror.

Kid's eyes met with his own, struggling to face the feelings stirring inside him. His eyes wandered down as Razor's deft hands undid his buttons, one at a time. Exposing skin. Before he undid the last few buttons, Razor slipped a hand in to cup his chest, calloused fingers rubbing at his nipple. Kid bit his lip, trying to stifle a moan as he looked away. Quickly, a rough hand turned his face to the mirror.

"Don't look away." It was a command.

The reflection was uncomfortable. His clothes were the only thing that made people see him as a man. Some days he didn't mind looking at himself. Hell, usually he didn't, but it wasn't like he spent time checking himself out in the mirror naked.

Kid watched his flushed face, the way he kept biting his lip, the lazy but hungry look in Razor's eyes as he fondled him. He kissed up Kid's neck, sending shivers down his spine. Wet, sloppy kisses to his ear made his knees nearly give out.

"You look so handsome, niño." He was practically purring into his ear. That low, rumbly voice was made of wet dreams.

"I look–"

Always a little dramatic, Razor pulled the dress shirt apart, fully exposing his torso. "Like a man."

The shirt was discarded as Kid looked on at himself. The way his chest curved. Razor grabbed at each pec, squeezing them, playing with him. Kid whined, leaning back against the broad chest behind him.

"Remember what I told you. If anyone tells you you ain't a man, you come to me?"

He nodded. "Yeah, I remember."

"That counts for you too. Cause you've got more machismo than half the guys we work with. This chest? This face? These hips? All a man's." With each body part, Razor put his hands there and gave a squeeze.

Kid was happy he wasn't prone to tears, because he'd be crying just about now. He knew he was a guy. A man. Not just some boy. And he knew his body was a man's body, but being around a bunch of cis guys who were bigger than he'd ever be, comfortable being nearly naked in a way he'd never be; it would give him some pause sometimes. Maybe Razor noticed. Maybe he saw how Kid had been lately and knew he needed his.

"Alright don't get a big head about." There was that smack to the back of the head to ground him. He shot Razor a nasty look, getting a slimy grin in return. "Sit."

He was gently pushed back onto the chaise chair, until he sat down on it.

Razor kneeled in front of him in a sight that Kid wished he could take a photo of. He watched as the man at his feet undid the laces on the oxfords, slipping them off his feet and placing them to the side. He lifted Kid's heel up to his mouth, kissing his ankle.

Kid wanted to squirm at the sensation. He held his breath watching Razor, who looked up at him and gave him a wink. He pulled the dress socks off before moving up, kissing at Kid's thighs through the fabric of the pants. His hands snaked up the outside of Kid's thighs until he was grabbing a handful of his ass, kneading his fingers into it.

His lips made it up to Kid's stomach, before kissing back down to his happy trail. His hands slid around to undo the fly as he looked right at Kid. Razor pulled his pants down, until they were completely off, and laid them next to where Kid sat.

The Cuban firmly pressed his lips to Kid's crotch, eliciting some small moans from him. His fingers snuck into the waist band of his boxers, pulling them down to expose Kid fully. Razor tasted how wet he was, his tongue licking through his folds and up to his clit before sucking on it.

Kid couldn't keep himself from moaning then. He panted, Razor working him up quickly. His hand found it's way to that slicked back, curly hair as he pulled Razor forward. It didn't take long for Razor to make him come, fucking him with his tongue and sucking him off like he was.

Climax overwhelming him, he tried to wriggle away from the overstimulation but strong arms kept him in place. Kid bit down on his own hand to keep himself from nearly screaming. He collapsed backwards, feeling his muscles twitching as they tried to relax, not even noticing that Razor had pulled his boxers back up.

Breathing slowly, Kid slowly sat up. He didn't know when Razor had grabbed his cigar and relit it, but he sure had.

"Gotta say of all the guys I've given head to, you're my favorite." Razor teased him, taking a puff of his cigar before blowing the smoke in Kid's face.

The smaller man frowned as he waved the smoke away. "Oh shut up."

He stared down at his legs for a moment.

"Thanks Razor."

"No problem niño." Razor ruffled his curly hair, before stepping away. "Get dressed, let's get outta here."

"Sure thing, Mr. Ramon."

#d is writing #razor ramon #123 kid #the 123 kid #wwf #wwf fic #this was probably the quickest ive written a fic to be posted in a while! #trans!123 kid

[forgottenluck]

So just a small update on me in general

ADHD is really kicking my ass right now, and i'm either hyperfocusing on tumblr for 3 hours, or getting distracted by youtube for 4 hours. There's no real inbetween.

That being said, my carrd has been updated (thanks to a certain someone *stares*) which has prompted me to look at some things. I need to update my pinned post and some stuff. Not sure when I'll get to it, but it is on the plan!

Everyone has pretty pinned posts and mine's just kinda junky. Though there's good reason, I've found that a lot of people wouldn't read my rules unless i put them there...but now it's just kinda blocky and i don't like it. And long. So i'll probably streamline it.

I also need to finish editing Koun's icons to the new format. I'm missing a lot of my icons and keep having to use the same ones. I need VARIETY which i technically have, just have to edit them LOL.

I Am going through some bad shit right now irl, some stuff only a few people actually know and I'm not really up to talking about it just yet. I've got a therapy session next week so maybe i'll be a little more open afterwards. Either that or i'll completely shut down. One of the two. But it's not good, and I may end up having to ask for some monetary help due to not being able to cover a lot of what's going on.

If you want to go ahead and see about helping me out, feel free to DM me, i'll take whatever help i can get....however, due to my ADHD and life events any service i provide will have to wait for a bit. (I already have two commissions i'm trying to force myself to work on and can't get myself to even open SAI due to the overwhelming idea of it all.)

These events ARE effecting my ability to be on Tumblr right now. Mostly the irl stress is setting off my ADHD and executive dysfunction and depression. It's causing me to hyperfocus on specific threads or randomly not reply to things, and I just wanted to say that I'm not angry at anyone, i'm not dropping anyone, i'm not ghosting anyone. I'm just really stressed and not able to focus on but one or two things at a time. I'll get over this, and finish the stuff i need to do eventually, but bear with me guys.

I know this is really spacy and not well put together, but i just wanted to give you all an update on what's going on with me since i'm not replying to everything i need to reply too and can seem to be dropping or ghosting people when I'm not. I can't begin to express how much i love you all for putting up with my spotty nature, and i look forward to getting better and being able to actively work on things again!

#{Out of Luck} OOC #Will queue this up for tomorrow too since it's an update

[yukiwrites]

Hardworking RedHeads

Thank you for the support @authordgaster! I hope you like it~

This is a support chain C-A between Leonie and Annette during the Azure Moon route in 3h!

Commission info HERE and HERE!

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C SUPPORT

Leonie, alone: Ugh... maybe carrying all of this at once was a mistake... Just a little... more, though!

Annette, alone: Hhhng, you can do this, me...! We can carry these back, just like how we took it all at once!

Leonie & Annette: Using time effectively, is what I always say!

Annette: Huh?!

Leonie: Wha-?!

Annette: Wa-watch out! Hyaaa-

Leonie: Careful!

(crash)

Annette: Huff, huff, whoa, nice catch! W-wait, I mean, I’m really sorry! I Should’ve looked where I was going. Are you okay?! Oh no, all your stuff went flying! Look, some went there, let me help you pick it all up!

Leonie: Hey, it’s okay, I’m just glad I managed to catch you before we both fell down those stairs. Are you alright? You could’ve gotten really hurt back there. Well, not that I’m any better, I crashed just as hard on you.

Annette: What? No, I’m fine, really! Look, I can even pick up this huge bag you were-- urrrgh?! Wha, what’s even IN here? I can’t move it an inch! How were you able to carry all that in your bag and still hold more bags in your arms? *Gasp* Don’t tell me you’ve mastered the Gravity magic I’ve been secretly researching to help me carry more stuff at once...!

Leonie: What? Magic? No, I was training. I mean, I was running some errands, but I can always sneak in some training in my daily routine, right?

(If C Support unlocked with Shamir) Shamir helped me realize that.

Annette: Training? Like weight lifting? I wish I could carry tons of stuff like that, too, but I’m tiny and weak so I gotta focus on my forte, which is magic! But I totally get where you’re coming from! We gotta work efficiently so we don’t waste the day, right?

Leonie: Right! There are only so many hours in the day, so we gotta do what we gotta do to improve ourselves with the time we got.

Annette: *nod nod* I get it!

Annette: But wah! Let me help you get your things, it’s like a hurricane exploded around us, so much stuff...

Leonie: Uh, yeah, I went and did some more errands than I could manage, I guess. But now that everything’s mixed up like that, I don’t know which books are mine or which are yours... Wait, did you get some scrap cloths, too?

Annette: Oh no! And I thought all of these were mine. Where did you get these? I asked the kitchen ladies to tell me where they found theirs and they pointed me to a dressmaker in town...

Leonie: That’s the same place I go to for scraps! I didn’t know she gave them out to more people... Huh!

Annette: Heehee, that’s so weird! Guess we have a lot more in common than just our hair colors, huh?

Leonie: True. I didn’t think we were alike at all when we first met, but now I see you in a different light!

Leonie: Though I don’t think we’ll be able to sort everything out right here and now. What do you say we just carry everything to my room and we can sort it out there? It sure as heck will be hard to go up to your room carrying all of these by yourself, so after we’re done, I’ll help you out with your share.

Annette: Would you? Really? Thank you so much, Leonie! Yeah, we can’t just leave all this stuff here forever, so let’s go!

Annette: I think I know which books are mine, but I spy some others in your pile that I kinda wanna read, so after we’re done, if you wouldn’t mind...?

Leonie: Nah, you can have them, don’t worry! I just didn’t know what to do with them, but I didn’t wanna see them in the trash either. Break a leg!

Annette: Thank you so much, Leonie! This is gonna take a while, but thanks again for the help!

B SUPPORT (unlocks after chapter 11)

Leonie: I know you said you would pay me back for the help when we crashed at that time, but you didn’t need to barge into my room to put make-up on me!

Annette: Aww, but we had a lot of fun, didn’t we? Mercie is really good with make-up and sewing and crafting things, and since we were doing Ingrid’s make-up, we might as well come and do yours, too!

Leonie: I don’t suit this girly stuff, though, okay? I don’t wanna waste time on something that doesn’t go well on me when I could be doing something productive.

Annette: B-but it was the day of the ball! Were you gonna train even during the party?

Leonie: I can always be training, you know.

(If C Support unlocked with Shamir) Not all training requires a weapon.

Leonie: Besides, I was just gonna stuff my face with food, anyway. I can’t do any of these noble dances.

Annette, sad: I’m sorry... I didn’t think you’d hate it that much. I thought we all had fun that night, but...

Leonie: Look, I’m not-

Leonie: *huff* I’m not mad, okay? I’m just- agh, I’m just uncomfortable. You mentioned how we had more similar things than just our hair color, but I think that was it, basically. Sure, our phylosophy of life might be similar, but I’m a kid from a hunting village who’s just trying to survive while you’re a noble, overachieving kid.

Annette: Over- hey, that’s a bit mean...

Leonie: Aren’t you, though? You can have anything you want, anytime you want, but you cram more and more things in just for the heck of it. You’re cute, small, smell nice and have a nice hair-

Annette, blushing: Wait-

Leonie: -So you can’t just say the hair I basically shaved ‘cause it was in the way is similar to yours when you take such good care of it. Also, I’m doing my thing out of necessity, not to just look good or whatever.

Leonie: Anyway, don’t gang up on me with this girly stuff again, alright? It doesn’t suit me and I don’t wanna waste time with it.

Annette: What, hey! ... She left. What’s wrong with her? One moment, she’s criticizing me, then complimenting me, and then criticizing me again... What was all that anyway?!

A SUPPORT (Unlocks after chapter 18 of Azure Moon)

Leonie: Phew, for a sec there, I thought we were doomed.

Annette: I don’t wanna say ‘me too’, but kinda me too. I wanted to believe from the bottom of my heart that Dimitri would snap out of it, but seeing the way he had been acting, I... I dunno, I was just doing my best to help overall.

Leonie: Oh yeah, speaking of that, I wanted to apologize.

Annette: Muh? For what?

Leonie: You know, for what I said back then after the ball. You were just trying to be nice and include me with our friends, but I overreacted like a kid.

Annette: Ahh, but that was a long time ago, it’s fine, already.

Leonie: It’s not fine. If I don’t apologize for my mistakes, I won’t ever be able to face Jeralt in the after life.

Annette: Heehee, that’s a bit harsh, but okay. It just shows how much your respect Captain Jeralt and his legacy. Was that why you were always training without a break?

Leonie: That, too. I wanted to be strong quickly so I could catch up to him quickly. It’s always been my dream to make a mercenary band and be its leader like Jeralt, you know? After the war ends, it’s exactly what I’m gonna do.

Annette: Mhm! That’s a great dream, and I’m sure there will be a lot of work even without war.

Annette: Heehee, look at us, making plans for after the war when we’re still in the middle of it!

Leonie: I think that’s exactly because we’re in the middle of it that we can plan on what to do after. Cause we remember how it was like before. And now that we’re older, we can finally put all of our training to use.

Annette: Yep. I wanna help my dad and Dimitri in Faerghus after everything is done, but I also wanna see the world and experience a lot of it! I wonder if I’ll ever have the time to do everything I want.

Leonie: Gotta cram in as much as possible with the time we’re given, right?

Annette: Right!

Leonie: Say, Faerghus’ gonna be a ripe place for mercenary work after the war, so we could still hang out after the war, don’t you think?

Leonie, blushing: Besides, now that I’m putting a bit of effort in my hair, I’m gonna need more help maintaining it from the masters.

Annette: *gasp* R-really?! You mean it? Of course!! Wow, I know SO many plants that make the hair glossy and wavy and feel good to the touch! Not to mention the sunscreen potion I’ve been researching with Mercie’s help... We got a lot to catch up to, Leonie!

Leonie: Hahaha! Count me in! Each new information will just make me that much stronger!

#support chain #leonie fire emblem #annette fire emblem #fe3h #fire emblem three houses #my writings #yuki's commissions

[pikminpediaart]

Hop To It! : Year of the Rabbit

            The horizon darkened in the city. Civilians started to turn on the lights in their windows, dotting the city with a plethora of twinkling lights. Xenon sat on top of the building, examining everything below. He was looking for the signs of… something. He didn’t know what yet, but he figured it would happen tonight.             “If only there were more clues,” he muttered, lifting a hand to his muzzle. He gently stroked the whiskers on his lip, feeling their tingling sensation with each wave of his finger. “I don’t think I could stand this for more than a month.”             “Really? I kinda like it,” a familiar voice whispered. Startled, Xenon turned to face the newcomer. In the window of the nearby building, he saw a rather tall, portly figure standing in the darkness. Once it noticed he was staring, it kicked off the window sill, landing on the rooftop with a large thud.             “Makes the fat man more mobile?” Xenon asked, trying to display a hint of teasing in his voice.             “Hardy har har.” The character retorted, rolling their eyes in disdain. “What’s it like actually having a mouth? Biting off more than you can chew? Which is honestly just… fruits.”            “Sassy today, aren’t you, Sarge?” Xenon grimaced, looking up at the portly rabbit that used to be a werewolf.             “Only as sassy as you’re being,” Sarge said, sticking out his tongue. “Saw you were up here… thought I’d come say hi.”             “Company is always appreciated. Stake outs can be… awfully dull.” Xenon put a hand to his chin. He felt short strands of fur brush against his cheek, making him recoil. “But no, I don’t have a mouth still. Seems this mystery poison only changes certain physical characteristics. Selective, if you will.”             “Meaning someone wanted to turn people… into rabbits?” Sarge asked, lifting up his hands. “Okay, well, why do I now only have four fingers instead of five and you still have three?”             “Can’t give me what I didn’t have to begin with, I suppose?” Xenon lifted his hand, examining it. It was odd to him to see his fingers were mostly the same while Sarge’s lacked one digit and were stubbier to boot. “What poisoned you?”             “Salad. I’d be damned if I let a good salad go to waste,” Sarge snickered.             “Wait, you actually knew what poisoned you?” Xenon looked over at Sarge, incredulous toward the werewolf’s words.             “Speculation, really. Salad tasted off, even as far as a potentially bad salad goes. Last I checked, a ranch dressing doesn’t taste like cherries. Color was off but… I assumed it was one of those weird pink dressings I’ve been seeing around.”             “Emulsified dragon fruit, right?” Xenon asked.             “Think so.” Sarge shrugged. “But that’s beside the point. How did you get poisoned?”             “Injection. Not as tasty as your assailant’s method, but effective I suppose. Got me in the back while I was walking to the office.” Xenon lifted a hand to rub his back where the injection happened. After the assault, the rest of what happened was a blur, as he was in too much pain to recall much information. He never realized that antennae turning into ears could be so terribly uncomfortable.             “Explains why you were out of commission for a week. Only thought to come here cuz this is your usual stake out point.” Sarge sat down next to Xenon and placed a hand on his back. “How long you been here?”             “Hours. Since the sun went down. Assailant hit me at the stroke of midnight, so they must go under the cover of night,” Xenon nodded.             “And their attack frequency has been every single night for the past two weeks. If you counted mine and yours, that would be the Monday and Wednesday of last week.” Sarge lifted a hand and stared at it.             “I was the first. But why? Why did they target me?” Xenon wanted to question this more, but he was running into a dead end. He’d run into multiple of those with this case. “It’s too exactly on my schedule for it to be a mere coincidence.”             “Probably trying to get you out of the way… or from my experience, just wanting to experiment on you.” Sarge’s voice grew somber as he peaked over the edge of the building. “’bout the eighth time I’ve been forcibly T.F.ed into something.”             “T.F.ed?” Xenon asked.             “Transformed. Werewolf, mutated werewolf, mutated androgynous werewolf, mutated idiot werewolf, mutated idiot werewolf with a penchant for eating anything in sight…. The list could continue.”             “There’s three more to go. Seems finite.” Xenon said, taking his eyes off the street to look at Sarge. “What of your jacket, though?”             “Jacket?” Sarge asked.             “Isn’t that a special device of sorts that cloaks you as… what was its name? Chunky? Chornbee?”             “Chomby?” Sarge asked. “I mean, I guess? It really is a transformation, though I don’t mind. Been getting used to it.”             “It has a time limit, right?” Xenon asked.             “Yeah. Two hours. If I don’t unzip the hoodie by that time, I’m stuck like that forever.” Sarge looked over at Xenon and smiled. “Of course, I know what you’re going to say. No, I don’t think it’s too risky to use. If I get stuck as Chomby, then I’m stuck as Chomby. It’s not like I hate being a big, round, huggable… doohickey thingy with a penchant for music. It’s a lot of fun. Makes dances livelier!”             “Much more exhilarating than a rabbit, I’d reckon?” Xenon asked. “Rabbits and Wolves are mammalian, so there’s not much difference.”             “Field of vision, I guess? Eyes are more aimed toward the side of my head now… but I’ll manage. Got used to it after a few days,” Sarge shrugged again. “Thematically, it fits, though!”             “Why’s that?” Xenon asked, turning his attention back to the road below as he saw someone walking under a streetlight with a bag of groceries.             “Well, werewolves don’t eat salad… conventionally, anyway. I do. Now I’m a rabbit. Eating salad seems to be a given.” Sarge huffed, bending his leg so he could rest an arm on his knee.             “I thought you were going to say Year of the Rabbit, actually,” Xenon admitted. “I don’t think you should be confined to only eat one thing if you have the ability to eat what you want.”             “Tell that to everyone else,” Sarge said with a dissatisfied smirk. “I was an oddity to them on all fronts. Werewolves aren’t fat, werewolves aren’t vegetarian, werewolves don’t wear clothes, werewolves don’t enjoy being surrounded by people… werewolves aren’t biologically hermaphrodites through a bunch of weird mutations.”             “I get the vegetarian thing for rabbits, but the rest seems to be unrelated.” Xenon lifted a hand to scratch his ear. “Ever tell those guys to mind their own business?”             “Nah. I let them have their fun. Worst they do is poke my belly… and give me belly rubs… and ask me when I’m due,” Sarge shook his head. “Well, since we’ve been turned into rabbits during the year of the rabbit, do you think we’ll have good luck?”             “Sounds a bit silly. Almost like Zodiac signs. What was yours before now?”             “Was and still is a dog,” Sarge said.             “Oh… that’s coincidental.” Xenon looked away.             “Very,” Sarge agreed, looking in a separate direction. “So, what does this guy look like?”             “The subject change lets me know I may have upset you,” Xenon looked back at Sarge. “You know I am honored to know you, right? Aside from Tony, you’re the only person who’s not afraid of me.”             “Hard to be afraid of a guy like you,” Sarge said, still looking away. “You look like a giant grasshopper or something, but you have the personality of a cinnamon roll and smell like lavender.”             “And you are someone who has a keen sense of observation and has a level head in rough situations,” Xenon said. “You also have the personality of a cinnamon roll made by a cinnamon roll… and whether werewolf or rabbit, you look like a big, soft, squishy cinnamon roll anyway.”             Sarge put a hand to his mouth to prevent himself from laughing. “Do people actually say that about me?”             “More often than you’d think. Of the two of us, you’re the one who brings people in with your charisma. Everyone talks about you… just wish more would think better of me…” Xenon sighed, watching another person walk by in the dark.             “Does it matter what they think? You get the job done no matter what. People come to you because you’ve got skill and reputation. That should be admirable, right?” Sarge asked. “Besides, with the serial rabbit-transformations happening, you don’t have to cloak yourself anymore. Maybe try being yourself more? Now’s as good a time as any to try.”             “Do you really think they’d like me?” Xenon asked.             “Why wouldn’t they like you?” Sarge asked, looking down at the street again. “I like you.”             “You like everyone Sar-” Xenon started.             “HEY! I think we found our perpetrator!” Sarge hissed.             “What?” Xenon asked, looking around the streets. Sure enough, he could see a figure slinking down the street… toward the woman carrying groceries.             “I’ll see you down there, Xenon,” Sarge said, immediately bounding off the rooftop onto the wall of the adjacent building.             “I’ll keep an eye out until you get to him, then I’ll be down,” Xenon nodded.             Sarge smiled. Lifting a hand, he gave Xenon a salute before letting go of the wall and falling. Xenon heard a thud, followed by another thud, then another. In a few moments, he saw Sarge bounding down the street toward the woman and the assailant while zipping up his hoodie. As he saw Sarge grab the hood of his jacket, he noticed Sarge’s shape began to widen and expand. Sarge then pulled the hoodie over his snout as his body continued to shape into a strange, green and black creature. The creature put its hands to its ears, pulled them back… and dashed forward at blinding speed, covering the ground between the creature and the assailant within mere seconds.             Xenon took a deep breath as he stood up. “Thanks, Sarge.” Taking a step toward the edge of the building, Xenon looked at the street below. Seeing that there was no one underneath him, he jumped off the building and fell the ten stories to the ground below. Landing on his feet, he felt his backbone absorb the impact of the fall – a perk he was thankful he kept before being turned into a rabbit. Once he could stand up straight, he started to run in the direction the creature and assailant had gone, ready to crack the case of the Year of the Rabbit. ~~~~~ Seems I wanted to draw something to celebrate year of the rabbit? As such, have Sarge and Xenon as rabbits! :D ~~~~~ Artwork/Story/Xenon/Sarge (C) Me

#rabbit #year #alien #detective #werewolf #transformation #bunny #anthro

[keefwho]

April 09 - 2024 Tuesday

11:19pm

4/10

This morning I cleaned my toilet like I said. I spent a chunk of time figuring out that my spray bottle can't spray vinegar for some reason. I took my shower and made breakfast stir fry again with sausage this time.

For work I warmed up with rabbit sketches. I picked a sort of relevant animal to start practicing since I want to get better at drawing furries in general. I work on 57's commission and it got stressful at the end because he wants me to go above and beyond with the fluids. Its difficult and time consuming.

Before lunch I got in VR and was searching for a cozy wooden bathhouse world to do some writing in. I couldn't find one and settled for a more grand, stone bathhouse. I spent some time writing some thoughts down that I need to communicate soon. For lunch I made a chow mien ramen bowl in the pan with my own mixed vegetables and an applesauce.

The request today happened to be for DS on Unicorn Day of all days and it wasn't even rigged. I did a quick little lineless doodle after looking around for inspiration. Then I started working on my own stuff for an hour. DV wanted to call me while I worked to get some things off his chest regarding that SN person of his. He pointed out some things to me that kinda got me upset but he definitely didn't mean to. I listened to him until he had to go eat and I finished up my work. Then I finished BR's NSFW avatar edit before quitting for the day.

I spent my evening poking around Twitter and watching Twitch. I didn't do much of note. I was mostly waiting for DS since we were gonna do a furry tier list. When she became free, we did that and a couple other tier lists while she job searched. I took great enjoyment doing a live Cartoon Male Hotties list but it was too long for us to finish.

In bed we did puzzles and jumped straight to KH2 since it was so late. I only got a little further in Hallow Bastion. After she was asleep, I had some 'me time' I'm ashamed about because I keep fantasizing about scenarios where I'm put down. It's fun every now and then but continuing to do it has been hurting my self esteem. It seems easy enough to just think of something else but it's hard when I don't even feel worth it in my own fantasies.

~~~

Today was going well until the afternoon. Then I started thinking about some things and spiraling a little bit. And feeling really shitty about my life in general. I realize I'm not proud of any period of my life prior to maybe 2 years ago. I think usually when I say I hate myself, I hate past me. There really is not much to like about how I was back then. I REALLY hate that old me. I am chock full of regret.

On the opposite side I've been thinking about how I really do deserve someone that makes me feel wanted and is heal over heels for me just like I am for them. Its also just starting to seem possible that I could even accept a reality like that. Slowly growing my self worth is opening up a lot of possibilities.

#journal #diary

[kyogre-blue]

For the last couple weeks, I've been on a big grinding kick in Genshin again... it's been something, that's for sure. But I got a lot done (for some reason).

On alt:

Obtained Baizhu C2

Obtained Ayato

triple crowned Diluc, Kaeya and Zhongli, with also enough books for Childe to be triple crowned whenever I finally get him

Did the Narzissen quest line and explored a good chunk of Fontaine

...bought some cute wings...

I'm more or less finished off the Mond book domain. There's only Anemo Traveler left at 6/6/6, but since swirl scales from EM anyway, the talent levels aren't important enough for me to do another 114 gold books right now (for context, that's two weeks or so of doing the mond book domain every single day).

I did buy Welkin, so I'm going to keep logging in for the next few weeks, but I'm going to take it easy otherwise. My only current plan is to mess around in the teapot. I've finished another of the farming achievements, so I'll take the opportunity to rearrange the second area of Emerald Peak (since I can remove those fields). That should complete it, since I finally furnished the fourth area, and I've got some plans for Floating Abode next.

For future grinding, I should do artifacts (Deepwood/Gilded, then Emblem) and also the slow march to triple crown the next batch (Baizhu, Qiqi, Ayato). For future pulls, my priority will be Itto, Childe, and Neuvillette (for his kit lol), but since I don't care about the 4 stars now that I have C4 Thoma, it's just a matter of dumping everything I have into whoever comes around first and whether I get them or not isn't really pressing. The pity will carry over anyway. (Alhaitham and Wriothesley will be skips for now.)

On main:

prefarmed Navia levelling stuff (no artifacts or weapon for now, pending what the build guides will say)

obtained Kirara, currently finishing her last ascension

done most of Fontaine exploration, with every area except the Court at 100%

finished all world quests that aren't gated by the archon quest

finished all achievements except the commission and archon quest ones

Man, Genshin exploration is so... you just turn your brain off, and then suddenly it's six hours later. Repeatedly. Still kinda fun seeing the numbers go up though. Hopefully, the final region will be pretty small and easy to complete... But I'm 8 hydroculi short, which is not a good sign, since I can't get the resonance stone formula (no archon quests = no reputation).

The world quests this time were kind of a mixed bag, but mostly a miss. I liked the stuff about the Melusines and Elynas, very uh Durin-style. Generally, the Melusines kind of grew on me, though I still don't like their design, especially the bottom half. I liked the Pahsiv quest too, and unexpectedly the final little quest with Lanoire. (The handling of the camera on the small interactions at the very end?? Dang, who knew Genshin could do that kind of fine detail.) However, I really did not care about the Narzissenkreuz at all, or the Fontaine Research Institute stuff. The Narzissen fiasco was especially very tedious and convoluted. I know it's setting up Sandrome, but like... a perfect example of the issues with Genshin's lore and how it negatively warps the current day storyline, plus the worst of their excesses.

I'm going to be rolling for Navia in 4.3 because she is Geo (easy guarantee to get her, with 150 saved wishes, 10 pity, and 22K primos), and I'm considering the weapon banner. I think it'll come down to what the 4 stars will be (I really want Akuoumaru refines, so I might decide based on which half it's on). I did also fish for Kirara on the Ayato banner, and I did get her within 20 pulls, so that was great. She was the last pre-Fontaine 4 star I was missing, and I wanted to go ahead and build her. I'm not taking the Fontaine 4 stars past lv20, and now the only "backlog" character I am missing is Dehya.

I also... got Qiqi C1 in those twenty or so pulls. So hey, guarantee on Navia, which will put me quite a bit over budget. I can save for supposedly-Geo Chiori and Arlecchino, who has actual pants, holy shit. (That said, where's my Mond boy, Mihoyo??)

This 4.2 patch and the upcoming 4.3 one have some nice QoL updates, which bring some much needed minor conveniences. For me, the most impactful was probably the ability to quickstart weekly bosses. (Farming Apep on my alt to finally get some Dendro crystals, god...) But shout out to being able to unlock but not start story quests, and being able to replace daily commissions with exploration or events.

For next patch, we'll be able to one-click collect and resend expeditions and start at the key when doing a domain multiple times. Tiny things but holy shit, they're finally actually updating something. Man, if I drag this out enough, maybe they'll let you quickstart reputation too. And maybe even a goddamn skip button one day... we can dream.

But I gotta say the most exciting thing for next patch is probably the annual Lost Riches rerun with the new water-capable mini seelie. Really want that for my alt, where I have almost no pets.

#playing genshin

[princess-pill-enjoyer]

#19

Took 150 cause my mind would not stop thinking about it. I figure that's enough to feel something off it but not where I'm out of commission.

AFTERMATH

Took another 150 and I did that weird don't feel like I'm high thing. My throat has been burning from all the pills I swallow. My stomach is really not appreciating it. I didn't really eat yesterday either. It lowkey slipped my mind. Ig not eating plus constantly belching has cured my bloating for a bit. Very weird buut hey you know. es what it es. Aside from that no real symptoms. Just my stomach being fussy

NOTES/EMOTIONS

Yeah uh. Most definitely spiraling now. I'm taking them so often compared to the beginning when I thought I'd still be getting off them soon. I kinda see why? Money problems.. again

The place I interviewed for didn't call back afterall. I thought I had it in the bag but noope. I'm officially starting this work from home call shit soon. I need the money atp. My student loan shit is finally charging me as it's been 6 months since I've been in school. So that's 77 right there. Then my university finally got their shit together and changed the amount I owed to like 2k which is a lot better.. only thing is the most the most they'll allow you to stretch it out to is 12 months so I have to pay them 200 every month. Plus I was kinda counting on the rest of my birthday money to pay off this shit I borrowed on cashapp.

I like to borrow the junk on there when I know I'll be getting the money/have the money to pay it off soon after as they increase my borrow limit when I do that. I've gone from my max being like $20 to now I have a limit of... I believe 125? Not that I ever really need it but it's nice to know in a pinch I have 125 of "free" money that I have about a month to pay back. It's helped me out so many times. I was buying this mirror and I didn't realize my spotify subscription already renewed for the month so I didn't have enough on me to buy the mirror technically. BUTT I borrowed like $30 for it and the other bs I was getting, paid it off like 4 days later then boom more money available. It's been going good aside from two incidents.

I'm sure I wrote about it in my intro but basically I started balling out the week I thought I was gonna kill myself cause I figured it didn't really matter and I'm sure if they explained it to them they'd cancel the shit. And even if not, I mean it was like what... $100? It wouldn't be that big of a deal either way. But then I ended up staying so that was a thingg. I never thought I'd be there to that point so I fr didn't have the money to pay it like.. at all. I got lucky the like final final day it was due was 2 days after my birthday so with the birthday money I got I could pay it off. This time was kinda the same?

I bought this figurine I've been looking at for months now out of like.. I'm gonna get it anyway. I've been wanting it and talking about it since prolly like. December now. And I didn't have enough on my card but I thought that was fine cause I had like $150 in cash so I was just gon go to the bank and boom. Only to be a dumbass and buy shit the times I had to sit at the mall for my sister. Then I went to pride and spent the little bit I had left on food. I kinda thought my aunt would pay for me too as she invited me and like.. not THAT damn grown but nope. I ended up spending $70 on food alone and then the rest of it went to getting into this one club and these stickers I bought to support this group working to get better conditions in animal shelters and stop dogs from getting put down over small shit that's mostly on the owner. The stickers were $6 already which stung a ilttle but what really killed me is the damn club

Sigh. I won't get into specifics cause I've already been babbling and I still have a lot to say. Basically, my aunt let me smoke her weed with her but it was so so strong and 3 hours later I was still kinda gone. I wanted to go to sleep but the motel we (me, my aunt, and her bsf) were staying at for the night was hella shady and they didn't want to leave me there on my own. So they sent me in the gas station to buy an energy drink and I was just to.. keep it pushing so they could go to the club. But since I'm a "minor" I got charged $10 extra. I'm 19 so I'm assuming they just call anyone that can't drink a minor? But that was already bad enough. I paid $30 in this short amount of time but I'm just like alr. Never been to a club before maybe it'll be worth it? No.

They literally went to the bathroom and I wasn't allowed to be alone so I had to shuffle around with them the whole time when I didn't even have to pee. But after standing in line and getting situated for like 20 mins we grouped up and shimmied our way through the crowd only for them to decide it was wack then we went to the outside part and just sat there pretty much alone. It was so fucking annoying. I'm not a huge partier my damn self but they were entirely too focused on fitting in. I'll admit that yeah, we did stick out alot. There were mostly hispanic ppl there and the music they were playing was in spanish and shit but at the same point? Why not make our own fun it woulda been 10x better than just sitting in the back and striking up 5 min convos with randoms. I wanted to go back in but atp.. I knew they'd say no to me going in on my own and I didn't wanna force them to be in an uncomfortable situation for my sake.

But yeah overall. $100 in food and stupid shit. I wasn't expecting to spend like absolutely nothing but I wasn't planning for that all to be gone either. Losing that money kinda screwed me. I really don't have any money like... at all. I have about $11 on my card and $14 in loose cash.. and I have to come up with $300 by next weekish. I have to pay back the money I borrowed for the figurine and I have to pay my 200 for my university debt. I really don't want to talk to my parents about it. I know they're gonna be mad and tbh I can't blame them. I should've saved some of it and I shouldn't be planning my money that hard that one event can royally screw me like that. That $200 they're supposed to give me is one thing. I wasn't expecting to not have that and I wasn't expecting my uni to want $200 a month at minimum. But the $125 I owe? Entirely on me and I just... I don't want them to rub it in rn

Uh money shit and my best friend lately. I dunno. I feel like she's a whole different person nowadays. And the more I think on our talk before the more I'm losing my feelings. Or that's what I think it is.

I've always had a problem with feeling abandoned and ever since my childhood. Dad and step mom used to be in their room 24/7. We'd do big stuff together and everything and that was nice and all but when it came to just spending time with us?? Almost never. We used to beg them to play with us all the time and they'd say yeah and just forget. Everytime. They rarely just played with us just cause. We had to beg and bother them so much for it. They always had to have some big ass event and all this special shit to care to spend time with us and it's just.. we just wanted to spend time with yall.

My mom mom wasn't much better tbh. She didn't really talk to me unless she was telling me what chores or basic, basic shit. Back when I was doing the two years on two years off thing, she actually never called either. I kinda forgot she was my mom at times. I used to be alone a lot too. When I lived with her, she had to work during the day but when she got back she would just go off and do her on thing. Even on her days off tbr. I'd be alone all the time. I used to try to ask her to play with me too but oftentimes I was on my own anyway

All that shit just made me hypersensitive to abandonment. I grew to hate that they could just withhold their love and affection until they felt like it. And when they did half the time it was some big giant thing. It made me feel like they were doing it more for the act of doing it than being with us you know?

I never want to have that again. I never want to be in a position to beg someone to give me attention. To love me. I'm just tired of doing it.

R is kind of putting me in that position nowadays. We don't talk as much, we don't "hang out" (I mean we're in completely diff states so not exactly exactly hanging out), we just occasionally joke around and parrot out the same old same old. I've talked to her about how much it bothers me on multiple occasions and she hasn't changed things at all. It just makes me feel so stupid. All this time I thought possibly we had the same feelings for each other but it must've meant literally nothing to her. She said that she would treat her girlfriend "like she treated me" which has been eating me up. She knows what she's doing atp and she's too busy kekeing with her girl to care.

I'm just completely done. I've spoken my piece and things haven't changed. I refuse to let anyone dangle their love over my head whenever they feel like it. Including her. I'm tired of always having this happen and I'm done trying to improve our relationship. You can't just cast me to the side as you please and expect to come back to the same closeness. You're just blatantly telling me you don't care. I don't ask for much. I just want to spend some time with her time to time whether it's playing a game together, having actual conversations instead of the constantly on 10 hehe haha bs, or the occasional call just to catch up. But nah. I see how it is atp

I'm just ready her to snap out her trance cause atp it's ridiculous and I don't get how she doesn't see it. Her girlfriend gets so possessive and insecure to the point where she really can't maintain any friendships period. I swear she wants R to give her attention 25/7 and whenever she doesn't get it she's worried that she likes them better.

God I'm just. I can't talk about this anymore. One one hand her girlfriend is so fucking manipulative and R shouldn't feel this much pressure to keep a tunnel vision on her. Or give up on everything she likes to do to appease her. Or feel such a fucking rush to get through all the relationship milestones all in one go. But on the other hand, R isn't blameless either. She knows how much this affects me and she promised that she would never let her girlfriend get in between us but now look at us. You've ignored everything I said to appease your partner. I don't need your attention all the damn time but I wish you would stop treating me as the aftrthought. I shouldn't have to beg to hang out with my friend. That's all I'm asking. I want you to actually want to fucking talk to me instead of doing it cause you're used to it. Cause you said you would. You don't care about how distant we've gotten cause for you you can just get it from your girl right? You don't care about how it makes me feel. You're all about your partner and I just have to accept whatever breadcrumbs of shallow conversation you decide to throw me. And I'm supposed to stay the same towards you or it hurts your feelings..?

lol. when you don't tend to your friendships we grow apart. Don't get mad about that. Why do you always get jealous aand worried about me replacing you when thats literally what you did to me? Am I meant to be eagerly waiting for you when I have friends that genuinely care to keep in touch? And even the ones that only occasionally talk to me, we at least don't pretend that we're close. We catch up, chill for a little while, and gon about our day.

I'm just. imm done talking about this. its never fully satisfying. i astill have so much to say but. at the end of the day. just. done. im crying atp and i just want more pills

#dph #benadryl #diphenhydramine #dph addiction #vent #trip reports #excessively long