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#just do the thing
flinxypie · 3 months
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Me: *acknowledges needing money*
Me: *acknowledges should open commissions*
Me: *acknowledges to do that, needs to make a pricing sheet*
Me: ….ehhhh, maybe tomorrow. *does nothing forever*
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beenjen · 2 months
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I was reminded this morning, after a lovely yoga, that I haven’t listened to this album for a long, long time.
This was the first time, in weeks, aside from transit to and from work, walks at work, the rare Monday of late that hasn’t been absorbed with appointments, projects, etc, etc, that I had an outing. I met some friends at yoga -
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It’s a free class my studio puts on at a local brewery. Then I grabbed a latte, and headed for a facial. It was so amazing. Something I needed so much.
When I got home, all of my happy was completely stomped all over. Its so exhausting having to wear all the hats. I can’t step away ever. I can’t let go ever. If I do, everything comes crashing down. It makes me bitter and resentful. It’s hard not to stay there, mentally. To just keep my chin up sometimes.
I shared that the spring break snuck in there - which I’m not sure ‘snuck’ is the right word, because I don’t think it was a surprise for everyone, just for us, and I say ‘us’ lightly, as I was informed I would need to take care of everything, childcare, etc. so, as ever, I have.
The kids, my dad and I are headed to Cincinnati in the morning. We are hitting the Smale Riverpark, have a hotel with an indoor pool, and it’ll be fun. Then we are meeting my nephew and family at the aquarium to pet penguins and sharks, and I want to be excited, because it think it will be fun, I’m just so tired and feel I’m making motions at this point.
Quick Up and back, I will work Tuesday, have childcare sorted…. Then I’m off Wednesday for dads infusion and have to bring the kids with, which is fine, they can’t go into the actual infusion area though, we will sit in the waiting room, then Thursday, I have child care sorted and will have to work, then Friday I have them solo while working from home. I’m nervous about that because I have actual video confidential appointments and my kids do not give a fig about that shit. So, I’m sure it’ll be great - fake smile.
it’s just a thankless job at this point. Everything. Being a parent. A wife. Homemaker. Truth be told, I feel more appreciation from my patients than I do anything else. Running all over for my dad, making special trips to the grocery to get things for hubs while we will be out of town, extra effort for the kids lunches/career day, it’s all MORE. On top of work, trying to take care of myself, keep friendships alive, and no one ever acknowledges it. It’s expected.
I’m fucking becoming a bitter bitch and I don’t know how to stop it. Like, I’m a fucking happy person. I do not live with a happy person at this point. The kids, if you know kids, they are just bumming about, and oblivious. It’s not intentional on their part, which is par for the course. And I will say hubs did it up for valentines, and I was not expecting that, it was a complete surprise. Outside of that? I can’t even.
The worst part? Everyone I know, who is in a similar situation, feels exactly as I do. Somethings gotta give, and I’m tired of it being me folks. I’m not putting myself on the back burner anymore. I’ve take steps to negate that.
When the kids are out for school and I can, I’m just taking them places by myself.
I’m not waiting anymore for someone else to make plans. I’m just doing that shit myself.
I’m making my needs in the top 5. Why should what I need always be at the bottom of the list? Fuck that. Nope.
I have commitments to myself, to take care of me yes, but also, to show my kids how things SHOULD be. I’m their example and I have to do better.
I’ve been walking again at work. Making the time.
I’ve been making yoga a must - it really is, for my mental health.
I started light lifting again. Some Functional strength training. Because it makes me feel strong and capable.
Let’s not lose ourselves my lovelies xx
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Guys help I have an exam tomorrow and I NEED TO STUDY and all I wanna do is not study
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violentviolette · 7 months
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not me standing in the middle of my room like an npc having a 12D chess battle with my brain to shower i know i need to shower and i want to. i know i'll feel better after and i already did the prep of cleaning the bathroom and my bedroom and washing my sheets. i also even have the time and space i need to trim up my hair like ive been wanting to for the last 2 weeks. and then i can shower right after and then i will feel great
and yet here i stand. still not showering
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pacific-rimbaud · 11 months
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Full interview here
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inhayara · 6 months
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sometimes I want to shake my brain like a maraca
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faeriefully · 2 years
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There is an inherent difference between “look, I create and I made this thing I really like” and “look, look, I create so that I can show you that I create and look at me creating because I create- please be impressed I create and tell me how cool it is that I create bc did you see that I create!!”
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strawberrybajablast · 2 years
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Filbo seems like the kind of guy who would be too nervous to hold your hand, like what are you waiting for lil guy? Whatcha staring at them hands for? just hold em!
This post is sponsored by me, a filbo lover.
Should i make a poorly made doodle to emphasize my point?
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crowleyhasfeels · 1 year
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hunnybadgerv · 2 years
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Want to write, but sitting here paralyzed by the inability to choose what to write.
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penmanshipeb · 2 years
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Live life with no regrets. Don't look back and say I should have done that. Especially when it's just a matter of getting out of your comfort zone and when what's being contemplated is nothing wrong.
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smzeszikorova · 2 years
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I’m absolutely not in a position to promote anybody, but check out @adrielcastlyre’s posts. They post a greater variety of stuff than I do, so you’ll get fanart and stuff, but also you’ll have to look at even more P&K (our current WIP) content, so I’m the real winner here.
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katakarambles · 2 years
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My computer overheated and shut down the day before yesterday. As it restarted it told me "Windows couldn't be loaded". I restarted it again, same thing.
"I'll open and clean it properly, so it doesn't overheat again and then ask my dad to fix my windows." - me, two days ago.
Two days later I still haven't cleaned my computer. But I managed to collect most of my plastic trash I had lying about while mostly just scrolling through tumblr and reddit.
(My dad's a professional computer everything. Maid for everything but for everything computer related but with his own firm that consists of only him.)
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craftheaven · 2 years
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Don't let others tell you you're not able to do something...you won't know until you try.
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butchfalin · 5 months
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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lazylittledragon · 3 months
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can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024
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