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captainhawkbuckwrites · 2 years

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Lil fish

Hey, so I haven’t wrote anything in a while and I have been overtaken with Stranger Things recently and this lil Drabble that turned into whatever this is came to me a few weeks ago and I like reading and re reading my stuff to make sure I am happy with it before uploading so hence why I am only just uploading, I am still not 100% happy but I am hoping you enjoy it.

Also as a bi lady who is more interested in girls than guys in real life it is wrote slightly based off things I have been told whilst dating. Also sorta made Vickie the bad guy here, I do apologise because I love Vickie but it just made sense in this instance.

Warnings : bi phobia, maybe a tad homophobia, swearing and a lil bit of smut, but you have to be looking at it with a magnifying glass.

It was no secret Robin wasn’t the most confident person in the room, but when it came to her girlfriend of 3 years (you) spending time with Eddie whilst she was at work at Family Video she became insecure, and in total Robin style, with a lil help from new pal Vickie, concluded that she was holding (Y/N) back from what she really wanted.

You had come into Family Videos to see Robin, it had been a month or so since you had last surprised her at work, spending any time she was there with Eddie. You had enlisted him to help you surprise Robin. To cut matters short you wanted to propose to her, legally you couldn’t actually get married but it was the thought more than anything, you both leaving to go to college in the fall, starting a new life together outside of Hawkins, you wanted her to know she was your forever and always. You had everything planned out and you knew exactly what song you was going to do it to. Eddie being the only other person you knew other than Robin to play guitar, he was the perfect candidate to teach you, it also didn’t hurt that you got on really well.

“How’s my favourite Family Videos employee?” You grin as you open the door immediately clocking her sat at the desk staring into space.

“Y/N? What are you doing here?” She asked shocked, straightening herself up.

“Came to see you of course, you dufus! I miss you”

“Where’s Eddie?”

“Um I don’t know, why are you asking about Eddie?” You return the question, confused.

“Uh.” She pauses, almost as if to gather her thoughts, or check for customers, most likely a combination of both. “ I think we should break up”

“What?!? But-“

“You- you like guys and girls, you’re you, you are normal, you have a choice.” She cuts you off, word vomiting at you. “you are just going to end up with a guy anyways, so you don’t need me being me to bring unwanted attention to you”

“Robin, where is this coming from? I love you!” You shout, at this point not caring if anyone was in the shop, you would rather everyone in town know than break up. “I want you! I don’t care if I get hurled abuse at for the rest of my life, I love you!” You caught her hand over the desk.

“Well, um” Robin stutters pushing away your hands. “I don’t know if I love you”

“Robin, this is not funny, why are you saying this?”

“I don’t, I just I don’t” she stutters out, just hoping you leave, this was hard enough for her. She knew it was the right thing to do, Vickie had convinced her it was the right thing to do.

“It is her isn’t it? I fucking knew it! I never had you as a fucking cheater Robin!” You could feel tears like a tsunami down your cheeks.

“No, I haven’t cheated on you, I would ne-“

“Stay away from me, I hope you and Vickie are truly happy together” with that you rush out of Family Video to your car and drive off into the distance. Robin wanted to move, she wanted to run after you, but she was frozen, for once in her life speechless.

That was the last time Robin saw you. A week passed and you hadn’t been at school, you hadn’t even been at home, she went as far to check Eddies caravan, no one had seen you. Robin knew she had fucked up the second you stepped out of Family Video but as time went on she started to wonder if she had done more than fuck up, if she had pushed you to the edge.

Eddie being the loyal friend he was, knew where you was, he made sure you were safe, fed and on evenings, under his own supervision; high. You had never done drugs before, but after a 48 hour drive after driving off from Family Video, you had gone out of state, back again, you realised you could run, but the hurt would always be there so why not try gods own antidepressant.

Another week had passed and, thanks to a lil pep talk from Eddie, you were back at school. You avoided Robin like the Plague, you avoided everyone. The times were you couldn’t avoid her it was like you didn’t exist anyways, Vickie would always be there, whispering, glaring, as if you was the bad guy.

“Hey sweetheart, are you doing ok?” Eddie taps your shoulder, you were paused at the door of the French class. Vickie sat on Robins table staring daggers at you whilst holding Robins hand. Tears started overflowing as you noticed that small minor detail. She was holding her hand, IN BROAD DAYLIGHT. You had been dating 3 years, and she would have never dared in public. “Hey! Y/n wake up, earth to Y/n”

You quickly look away and wipe your eyes before replying.

“Not really, have you got anything on you?” You wisper.

“You know I have but you are not having it” he held his hand with his lunch box in behind him, away from you. .

“What the fuck? All of a sudden a good boy?” You more or less shout at him.

“Keep your voice down, you need to sort out your shit, you can’t just use it to disguise it “

“Well thanks for that Ed” you huff, moving away from the door way to let some other students in to the class room.

“Y/n I am not letting you turn into an addict on my watch” Eddie scolded, following you, he knew he was talking shit but he knew he had to get you and Robin back together, or Steve would try to whip his ass. “Maybe talk to her? Harrington told me she fucked up?”

“Eddie does it look like she fucked up? She has exactly who she wants. I am going home” you turn on your heels. Before he could question it you were half was down the corridor. Cutting his loses he heads to take a seat in the class, but not before dropping by Robins desk to tell her just how much she had fucked up.

You had done as you had said, you got in your car and drove home. Your parents had been out of town for the past month and were not showing any signs of returning any time soon, so no one cared what you were doing. You got home, grabbed some snacks from the fridge and headed to your room. Opening the windows and taking off your shoes before face planting the bed.

You hadn’t closed your eyes for more than a couple of minutes before you hear a car pull up outside. Presuming it is one of the mums down the cul de sac you pull a pillow over your head in preparation for the screaming child that usually came after the shutting off of an engine. But it never came.

“Y/n?” Robin voice floated into your room “I know you probably don’t want to see me but can I come in?” You look up, more curious to how she could be soo close when you definitely locked the door behind you. Removing the pillow from your head you sat up looking around your room, before your eyes landed on the open window, more specifically the tree outside that was currently carrying the weight of one Robin Buckley. Why had she climbed the bloody tree.

“Why are you in a tree? Why are you here?!? How are you here!?!” You panic, walking towards the window.

“Eddie, he gave me a lift” she pointed down, almost asking you to go and look at the proof of him sitting outside your house in his van, causing her to wobble on the branch.

“Get in, what are you doing climbing a tree!?!” You rush to help her in before she falls, as you lean out of the window you spot Eddie sat in his van with a shit eating grin on his face.

“I needed to see you” Robin gasps as you guide her in.

“I have a front door Robin” you check she is ok before returning to your window to flip Eddie, who is still parked up, the bird. Eddie taking it as a signal to leave.

“You would have never answered, and I don’t blame you. I fucked up. I love you y/n it has always been you and I got scared, scared I wasn’t enough. You was spending time with Eddie and I saw him as a threat I guess, because you like guys and girls and I let her get in my head and convince me that liking both means you would cheat, and I don’t want to be that girl who likes girls but doesn’t like girls that like girls and guys because I do love you and I shouldn’t of let my jealousy and her, let me think like that, because you are too good to me, you are just good and you would never cheat on me and you liking girls and guys doesn’t mean you are going to cheat on me and I know that but I let it get in my head when I shouldn’t of but I love you, I love you so damn much. y/n please forgive me” Robin stopped for breath, and finally looked at you.

“Who got in your head Robin?” You question after a few moments, nervously sitting on the side of your bed.

“Vickie” she answers shyly, starting to pace. “It was never like that though, I never wanted her, I was stupid to listen to her, it just was stressing me out and one day at band practice it just, it just came out. And she was there and listened and I thought she was helping, I thought you wanted Eddie, she convinced me that what I was doing was for you, and it was hard y/n it was soo hard. I never wanted to.”

“But you did Robin, why?!? Why could you of not spoken to me? I am supposed to be your girlfriend! Not Vickie” you stand in a hope to ground yourself and stop Robin from pacing.

“I know, I know and I am sorry. I am a dufus, I was just soo scared of losing you, I thought you were already gone. I thought it was best cutting you off and letting you lead the life you wanted.”

“And what because I am bisexual you thought I wanted Eddie?”

“No, because it doesn’t make sense, but why would you want me?” Robin finally stops pacing and looks at you, tears in her eyes.

“Fuck, Robin, have I not shown you that I want you?” Now you are the one crying, “That I love you?”

“Nooo, you, you do! You did!” Robin takes a step towards you reaching for your hands, keeping them in hers as you both let the tears roll.

“Then why?” You wisper. “ What could I have done?”

“Nothing, nothing y/n you are perfect, it is me, I should of never of listened, I should've spoken to you. I promise I will always come to you first in future y/n I love you, I trust you, I should of never doubted your feelings, I had no reason to, I am sorry, I am soo sorry”

“Hey, hey” you take your hands out of hers, wrapping your arms around her, pulling her into your embrace, letting her cry into you neck. “Shhh it is fine, we will work through this together, ok? I am here”

“I quit band and told her to never talk to me or you again” she sniffles as you walk her to the edge of the bed to sit together.

“what?”

“she is part of the reason we broke up, if I hadn’t told her, we would be ok, I wouldn’t of been fed lies and doubts. She tried to be you, but you're the only you I want” she whispers, holding you closer.

“Even if I like girls and guys?” You ask, sarcastically.

“Especially liking girls and guys! You have double the pond to fish in and I am still your fish, if you still want me” she questions, looking up at you, unsure.

“You’re still my fish, Robin” you look her in her eyes as her face realises what you have just said, releasing the biggest smile across her face. Before you could say anything else her lips are on yours, pushing you backwards on to the bed as your lips mold to the others,2 weeks of separation not allowing you to be close enough to each other.

Robin throws her leg over yours, straddling you, whilst one arm keeps her bodyweight off yours and the other caresses your face.

“I missed you Y/N” Robin whispers as she pulls away from your lips and slowly kisses up and down your neck, gently using her teeth to nip skin from time to time earning moans and little sounds of joy from you.

“Robin, I love you” you finally manage to whisper, your hands finding their way on to her chest to fondle her breasts over her clothes. Her lips finding yours again “Also I don’t care if she is there, you are carrying on with band” you smirk against her lips.

“Huh?” She manages to mumble as you deepen the kiss. Before stopping suddenly.

“You are not giving up something-“ you get over taken with her lips again, leaving a hard kiss on top of her lips before continuing. “Something you love doing because of her, I love seeing you play” you press another kiss on her lips. “I love you” you confess again causing you both to break out in big goofy smiles.

“I love you too, lil fish”

#captainhawkbuckwrites #robin buckley #robin buckley x reader #robin x reader #stranger things #stranger things 4 #stranger things writing

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alister312 · 1 year

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WHAT ARE YOUR CHRISTOPHE SHIPS ALISTER!

OK SO I'VE GOT A BUNCH ACTUALLY

well, it's more that i think i could find a way for most any christophe ship to work? as long as it's gay. i appreciate all the bi christophe lovers out there but that man is a homosexual to me <3 i think he and bebe could have a brief fwb thing tho

ANYWAY MY CHRISTOPHE SHIPS:

#1 gregstophe, literally godtier above anything else ever for me. if given the chance, i will never shut up about them. which is why i'm running a week for them next year lol. i've spent this past month writing fics and meta and a song and im still not DONE!!!!!! my work with them is never finished.

#2 is damstophe (or dristophe as i know many people also call it). my damstophe fic i wrote is probably one of my favorites?? because i just so adore their dynamic. chaotic and angry and blasphemous but at the end of the day, it's mostly just a front bc they're both so scared to be vulnerable.....

#3/4 flip flops between kenstophe and tophlovski (aka kystophe). i think tophlovski is easier to imagine and more likely to happen, but i don't know if it could be as ultimately stable and healing as kenstophe could be? probably because i am such a diehard style fan as well.

#5 is corstophe (aka corey lanskin/christophe). i went more in depth on it in a prior ask but anyway, minecraft gamer/mercenary hacker corey lanskin my beloved. he and christophe talk dirt and cigarettes.

#6 is tweekstophe/twole/christeek, whatever the hell you wanna call it. it's a shockingly old ship that most people only thing came about due to hellpark. the first instance i've found of it is back in 2010! anyway, something something coffee and cigarettes?? or religious imagery involving imp tweek?? yeah

i'll admit, after those ones, i tend to get less enthused but i'll still likely agree and highly enjoy it simply because christophe is there. if i had to pick some honorable mentions though... craigstophe (as casuals), clydestophe (my pal process has a really cute ship idea involving the two of them!!), petestophe (i saw inklings of it in this one fic and i liked the idea), and buttstophe (the name lmao)

#i will give christophe trauma and then i will give him a boyfriend instead of therapy that's just how i roll <3 #south park #christophe delorne #sp ships

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waltrp · 1 year

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welcome to the first official monthly announcement of 2023! happy new year, everyone!! the admin group at walt is so excited to announce a new year full of changes to help better the writing community we have built here for the ease for both our members but for the admin team as well. we know that members are used to seeing this in the discord, but, since there are many changes being made to different pages on the main and to guidelines and that this post will be rather lengthy we decided these would be changes that needed to be announced on the main.

as normal we would like members to like this post but also react to the announcement in the discord server so we can assure you have read. we are also asking that any questions be sent into the main or directed to the question channel in our server.

𝙰𝙽𝙽𝙾𝚄𝙲𝙴𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃 𝙾𝙽𝙴:

bea is joining the admin team!!! with the new year and many exciting things we have planned for the group we decided it was time to grow as an admin group and bring in an extra hand. thankfully bea accepted graciously and we are happy to announce she’s working back on the admin team! we’re so excited to see the new ideas she brings to the table and cannot wait for you to enjoy it as well.

𝙰𝙽𝙽𝙾𝚄𝙲𝙴𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃 𝚃𝚆𝙾:

relaxed activity has ended! alright, pals. as the holiday season comes to a close we will now be resuming our regularly scheduled activity. our first activity check will be on January 15th. if you’re in need of a slight refresher on the guidelines for activity please check out our rules page for a full break down. we are also just giving a gentle reminder to our closed starter / open starter rule. it’s just something we’ve noticed and would like everyone to be aware of to make sure we aren’t bubbling.

but, to put it simply we are going back to four post a week per character. meaning by activity you will have eight in character posts/threads by the end of the two week activity period. again musing posts and reblogs do not count towards activity. only active threads / starters. we are also no longer including eight posts the day before activity. we’re asking you post four replies/starters per week each character.

which means we will also be changing the way we do our activity checks. we will be keeping the same bi-weekly schedule. we still are doing away with the “red” and “yellow” we had before. but, we will be tweaking the posting so that you are aware of how you ended up on the check so there is no confusion on how we are doing this.

𝚎𝚡𝚊𝚖𝚙𝚕𝚎:

penelope hainline: 2 posts (week one), 1 post (week two) jim hawkins: 3 posts (week one), 2 posts (week two) leo hamato: 4 posts (week one), 1 posts (week two) beckham teague: 2 posts (week one), 0 posts (week two). 42 hours to post or unfollowed. wally axiom: 0 posts (week one), 8 posts (week two).

if you land on activity check 3 times on any of your characters then the admin team will just be reaching out to check on you. if you’re on hiatus we aren’t going to count that time against you. but if you come back in week two we are expecting 4 posts.

it just makes our jobs easier as admins and it also helps keep the dash flowing actively throughout the week.

𝙰𝙽𝙽𝙾𝚄𝙲𝙴𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃 𝚃𝙷𝚁𝙴𝙴:

as our members are aware we have currently closed all member apps. the reason we have done this is to help tweak our rules as far as applying goes across the board. we feel as though a month may not be enough time to properly develop current characters before applying for seconds. so, as of right now we have updated the rule for applying for multiple characters. we are moving the time period to two months since you last applied for a character. that way the admins can see the on dash development you have working or in the works for your character.

we are also adding a section for current members to the application. if you were here long enough you may remember the ‘interview-not-interview’ we had members do with an admin before applying for a secondary. this time we are adding questions specific for members to the end of the application. being fully transparent the interview was a great idea. it gave us a good idea of what you had going for your current character(s) and what you had planned but the flaw is it left things up to a sole admin if a member should apply. we are a team and we want to decide as a team if your activity and on dash development has been enough to pick up another character.

we also are asking to see on dash development specifically. because if it is not on the dash we cannot see it and it technically hasn’t happened. we are unable to see things you plot in dms and such. we need to be able to see that proof if we go onto your character’s blog. we are also being more selective when it comes to new member apps as well. because we want to make sure you are all getting the same type of quality writers that you are.

𝙰𝙽𝙽𝙾𝚄𝙲𝙴𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃 𝙵𝙾𝚄𝚁:

new pages!! so, the admin team has been busy bees trying to work on different pages and the lore behind the walt universe. we’re excited to announce two new pages that have been in the works.

elias lore, an all in one page that shows a time line of events, different lore, and also a breakdown of different areas of locations of elias.

outside locations, different locations located outside of elias that are mentioned in bios or often by characters.

these pages will be continually updated as we go through creating new characters and more world building.

again we’re being fully transparent with you guys as to why we are making these changes because we have such a great team of writers we want to make sure the group isn’t lacking anywhere. and it helps with activity. we will never hold any members to a standard we wouldn’t hold ourselves to. if you have made it all the way to the end you deserve a hug. any questions please send them to the main inbox or questions channel.

#waupdate #waadmin

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in-maidjan · 1 year

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hooooooooooooooooo nelly haven't done one of these in a while lol tagged by @impossibletruths <3

3 ships: okay okay aight okay - garrus and shepard from mass effect 10/10, 100 emoji, fire emogi, you know how it goes | you reminded me of one mentioning kingdom so i obliged to list seo-bi and pathetic meow meow boem-pal | eugenides (gen/eddis) and irene (attolia) from Queen's Thief

first ship ever: god this one stumped me trying to remember lol honestly think it might be dru & graves from a YA series called strange angels i read like over 10 years ago?

last movie: i'm going to say The Northman (which i loved) bc otherwise its just spotlight which i throw on for funsies like at least once a week

last song: alrighty aphrodite by peach pit

currently reading: the Iliad, but this weekend when i start my vacay I'm going to restart Thick as Thieves from the Queen's Thief series!

currently watching: just finished TLOU the other day, and started up Troy: Fall of a City again because I'm in my greek myth hyperfixation period lol from tomorrow, hopefully Shadow and Bone S2!

currently consuming: pringles ayye

currently craving: mhhhhh strawberry sorbet something Fierce, my supermarket is no longer selling the brand i like :( (fun fact: not the first time they discontinued my fav icecream)

I'm tagging: friends, mutuals, countrymen - any interested tag me back if you do i'll have a read lol

#kite yaps #tag games #mutuals got tagged in other ones of these so i won't retag more or less but ty for the tag lovely <3

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gizmo1022 · 2 years

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KPTS Episode by Episode word vomit

HEAVY SPOILERS

Episode 1 Aka

Meet cute? Starring a hot bartender and Mafia boss.

Kinn is a dangerous cocky cutie. And Porsche OMG that open shirt and the CHARM of this boy like sir how dare you and your perfect face @ me like that.

Poor Big this is gonna be a life-altering injury you don't even know but cool action sequence and Kinn is cool as hell.

Yes, Porsche rescue the handsome rich guy you never met from weapon-wielding thugs it’ll open up so many new avenues for you.

Uh peeing in bottles is kinda ew but also kinda cool how he then used it as a weapon…that’s gross-out damage on top of glass breaking,

getting scammed at the pawnshop is a mood,

shitty uncles,

cute little bros,

the first rule of fight club,

and wtf never go to a second location Porsche! Not that you had much choice but this is how you get murdered,

Kidnapping the sassy boy,

fighting dirty…I mean seriously crotch shots and biting?!,

blackmail-ish lots going on here.

But now Porsche is gonna have a newfound family.

Episode 2 Aka

secondhand embarrassment galore,

Porsche stop. Be a good bodyguard please!,

bodyguards are butlers i guess?,

rich snobs,

point 1 for Kinn for that wasabi drink OMG,

Just call him William “Porsche” Tell,

fire hazard-Porsche,

getting choked by your boss,

mixing up the rich snobby kid with the help,

SO many work blunders makes we wonder why anyone thought he was a so amazing and would be a good bodyguard,

Kinns type is NOT beautiful lady assassin dumbass he's gay,

drunk on the job and in Kinns arms…this will be a thing huh,

the poor fish,

Tankhun is magnificent,

new boss is fun but Kinn is Hotand Hot for you so weigh your options and get your life straight my disaster bi boy.

Episode 3 Aka

Porsche's training montage,

Tankhun's STYLE,

Soap operas versus porn with friends - the debate,

biglittle brother Kinn takes care of Khun,

Kinns so gay Porsche how are you this dumb,

Porsches first kill,

Kinn hates seeing his future baby so upset over being a thug/murderer,

OMG they're doing the injury care thing,

Kinn you've got it bad already omg,

Kinn showing he can be fun too and brings his stlyish rich pals out,

bonding at the bar,

WTF Arm that striptease with the drink what happened???,

KP first kiss cute but kinda dubcon,

Use of music here was great though,

drunk Porsche can be soooo cute omg he blew the dirt off Kinns hand,

seconds ago! You slay me sir.

This show gets a plus over9000 for production value and wow KinnPorsche can ACT.

Episode 4 Aka

Say what you mean dumbass don’t just skirt around shit!,

kissmiss-understandings,

OMG the herbal spirits poor Kinn was so confused,

Spa day and ofc Kinn is magnetically and magically drawn to Porsche's location,

faceplant faint,

Pale lipped Porsche at DISNEYLAAAAAND,

Pete youre too cute,

Vegas meal showdown and wow that dramatic music,

No Vegas you cant have Porsche Kinn…er…Tankhun says no lol.

Auction wth are those glowy crystal ball things???,

Vegas speaking English again,

Yes Tae he's a hearthob keep telling Kinn so he gets his head out of his ass,

Also Tae that hair and outfit is smashing,

Porsche drugged by shitty bartender,

Vegas playing games at the auction,

noncon with Vegas thankgod it didnt go far,

dubcon with Kinn…but beautifully shot at least,

drugged Porsche is cute but handsy and bratty…

and listen…Kinn is trying SOOO hard and he’s SOOO tortured but he still shouldn't have done that.

Be the bigger man asshole.

Episode 5 Aka

THE AFTERMATH, Porsche you’re literally breaking my heart man you need to talk to somebody,

Kinn take responsibility and say the words!

What you did to Porsche was wrong and skirting around it wont make it go away!

shut your Korn mouth,

unfair punishment made me very uncomfortable,

Perth and Nodt how do you do it??? Be so bad when youre IRL so good,

although Big is still my love,

trauma-porsche,

the bathroom scene was so well done and edited but it broke my heart,

friendPete giving advice and getting Porsche out of his shell,

Nope your love life is now very decidedly stuck on THE ONE boys,

No more nameless bedwarmers (or alley warmers???)

dumbKinn is dumb and contradicts himself constantly,

He’s so jealous but in this cae he’s right about Vegas that fucker,

Vegas drugs and assaults Porsche and has the nerve to hide behind anonymity and be this fakesweet good guyn to him

DumbKinn is also TryingKinn thanks to his dumb heart and Petes advice,

Lol Jom and Tem ordering Kinn around and insulting him unknowingly had me dying,

and KP are kidnapped again,

That back of the truck chained fight scene was awesome!! Like the coordination and everything i had to watch it over and over and in slowmo,

Poor Big crashed and blames himself now its ok baby i love you.

Episode 6 Aka

WHEN YOURE LOST DONT WANDER OFF STAY PUT EVERYONE KNOWS THIS,

ok maybe hide a little because guys are after you but like you knew Chan etc were close so why wander a million miles away,

but yes wander off so you can have a cute romantic camping trip handcuffed to your crush thats good,

best episode by far i’m in love and will watch this on my deathbed

Their entire relationship journey redone and sped up in one episode

Start with antagonistic petty squabbles and posturing,

Becsome cute fighting and friendship/helping each other out,

Throw in some deep talks about life, childhood, fears, and dreams…ya know the big stuff,

Teaching eachother skills….well mostly Porsche teaching…and also teasing/flirting,

WTF Porsche with your damn lighter you asshole Kinn should be allowed to smack him for that one.

Random kisses and touches thrown in like theyre (mostly Kinn) trying to fight their love but just cant help it sometimes when their guard is down….like nope cant kiss him except uhoh i did it whoops lets just stop wth

Poor Apo was shivering in that waterfall guys that hug/kiss was lifesaving for body warmth,

Skull freaked Porsche out hes so cute,

Asleep inside the truck and Kinn’s content smile KILLED me thatw as the cutest everrrrr,

Also Kinn’s freaked face when he (stupidly) believed Porsche was poisoned by the fruit was SO cute and concerned,

Also Porsche is right Kinn’s smiles are fantastic and make him SO cute and handsome,

Moody serious kinn is dangerously sexy but smiling Kinn is cute and fun feeling,

Porsche is always cute. Or sexy. Or BEAUTIFUL that man’s is just gorgeous,

Ok so whyyyyyy did Kinn wait so long to take the cuffs off after the knife was introduced???!

You really gonna be like “it helped us bond”...your lives were in danger and what?

YES YES YES APOLOGIZE for THAT NIGHT! Be specific YES.

We love you but that was dubcon/noncon squicky and then you didnt talk and instead punished Porsche and played with his feelings and blamed him

(ok Porsche should never drink anything even water on the job he cant be trusted obv)

...but still dude he was traumatized and you made it worse and you took advantage and if he said he coulnt forgive you hed be in his rights.

Porsche is a brat and dramatic have i mentioned? But the scissors thing was sweet.

I guess the handcuffs and knowing how to get out of the ravine was payback for the lighter???

OMG your love is stunning Kinn…you’d let Porsche go and lie to everyone about it because you love his happiness more than even taking care of your own heart.

The actual definition of “if you lovehim let him go”,

That KISS was jawdroppingly perfect and now theyre both on the same page about their love finally but then Porsche LEAVES,

Kinn’s little tantrum after was so sad/cute I may have listened to him kicking dirt and swearing a few hundred times.

And Porsche comes to the rescue only to need saving…like who bodyguards the bodyguard???obv his love interest/person HES supposed to protect.

Sir its his job tot ake the bullets youre making Chan and Big and Porsches life difficult again.

Episode 7 Aka

obligatory mafia missions and nice action sequences

Hey its Pete from the title song!

Vegas being a buttface playing with Porsche to amuse himself and throw shit in Kinns face because he just can.

Kinn made an error letting his interest in Porsche be so obvious to Vegas…its a vulnerability to exploit and Porsche gets caught in the crossfire as an innocent casualty to their family drama peacocking bs.

But seriously WHEN did Vegas CLOCK that interest? Because it feels like he always knew….

Kinns pining and jealous ofc and he shows up at the minor fam house just to see Porsche and beg him to come back to him!,

lots of innuendo with guns and wow they’re such BOYS,

noncon again dude Vegas was gross and not smooth at all with that spill,

Pete are you team KinnPorsche already?? No because youre surprised in episode 9 when Arm brings it up….so why spy on Vegas and Porsche...did Kinn put you up to it???

someone keep porsche from drinking forever please,

jealous Kinn being even dumber than his usual dumb.

but i mean his drunk bf was shirtless in the bathroom with another guy after Pete said theyd basically been flirting,

can't blame him from being paranoid there but still dude chill,

BEAUTIFULLY shot romantic handjobs…but handjobs as an I��m sorry for not trusting you and slutshaming you nonetheless.

OKAY THIS SCENE I WATCHED SO MANY TIMES PORSCHE”S FACE IS SO GORGEOUS AND I LOVE HOW SMILEY AND CUTE KINN GETS DURING…

Like dude is really being himself and enjoying it not just physically but EMOTIONALLY,

Like you don’t see that shit when hes with boytoys that genuine.

"Episode 8 Aka

sneaking around honeymoon period,

Ah to wake up in the arms of your most beloved one in a fucking mansion skyscraper thing with automtaic blinds and room service Porsche youve finally made it.

THE BREAD AD omg Porsche

Like I hate crumbs in my bed….but that was cute and funny.

How are you so fooled Pete you're smarter than that and yet also the innuendo in Porsches line makes up for the denseness of Petes thought process…unless its an act?

Doubted.

footsie scene why are they pointing guns at the celing and the noises were hilarious

Also Kinn what do you mean whya are they stopping you slammed your hands on the table how are you not caught in the act yet youre not subtle!

smexiness proving they CAN do it all…lovemaking, bratty casual…and now FUCKING.

the CUTEST date…Porsche really researched how to date for this,

The pictures were toothrottingly weets and Porsche was so serious about getting everything right while Kinn was just relaxed and happy to be with him wow

and then it's nearly ruined by a ghostly sighting of a turd,

Thankfully beautiful lights, music and an underwater kiss saves the day.

How the hell did that guard not hear or see them getting into that pool….the splash….the echo….guard needs to be vetted better.

poor baby scaredy cat Porsche gets booted from movie night,

Only after dropkicking pol ofc.

Tawan is bad nope dont want him.

Episode 9

Aka No go away i don't like Tawan,

naughty couch scene,

at least Tankhun and Big have brains and distrust Tawan,

jealous Porsche for once also distrust him but for diff reasons methinks,

bless your heart Pete that entrance was the amazing and how can you sleep through THEM what are your dreams gonn be like?,

Ugh ofc Tawan tries to live up to the old Republican motto…accuse others of what you yourself are doing to take the heat off you.

I KNOW KINN DOESNT REALLY CHOOSE TO BELIEVE TAWAN OVER PORSCHE BUT THE TIME BETWEEN THE FRAMING AND THE REVEAL KILLS ME.

I cant watch them confront/take Porsche into custody i die if i try

I HATE these types of misunderstandings and secondhand embarrassments,

mole reveal,

KEN/Perth?! NO!

Episode 10 Aka

FU Tawan,

and Porsche please stop trusting Vegas you dummy god so lucky youre cute,

why must my babies fight? No Pete and Porsche you cant!,

Kinn just tell him the truth and to TRUST YOU! Don’t just drop your gun and let him go hes walking into a viper pit moron,

more kidnapping but this time its the babyest baby,

bare-armed Kim amd Big parkouring there way to rescue the Kittisawat bros,

dumb plan Vegas and super dumb Tawan don't you know Vegas is a dick and a player.

NO BIG NO!!!!!! BIGGGG!!!!! And like…his words show how loyal and devoted he was to Kinn boy oh boy Ken being the mole wouldve really upset him. I LOVE YOU and you WILL be avenged but apparently theres no funeral and only one like two more brief mentions of you,

asscheeks in the BTS,

Chay is big mad at his best brother and i guess i cant blame him,

mole removal including his head,

What's in the booooxxxx???!,

never trust the barbie doll even though Perth is perfect IRL

bed scene from trailer is gorgeous but also funny and gross….why are boys like that?

"Episode 11 Aka

Kinns confession was adorable,

But it puts Porsche in the principal's office,

Bodygurads aka team KP vindicated,

VegasPete getting weird and frisky,

IMO if thats your thing fine but idc it squicks me,

KimChay reveal and breakup thing

Poor Tankhun doesnt know the bomb he just dropped on that little spark of sunshines life.

Episode 12 Aka

Chaybaby takes heartbreak hard,

don't let dumb boys make you fall apart and skip out on your dreams,

though Porsche dropping Chay off was SUPER cute,

jealous Porsche couldve been handled better like ngl it was kinda awkward,

can't believe they spied on the boss wth that was too OOC,

but i'm glad they talked it out and Kinn is really growing up and being BETTER,

Korn is a lying liar who lies and also hes shit,

More VegasPete but better-ish…still stockholm,

RIP Hedgehog my new Fave Character lol,

Supportive BF Kinn and NOW malewife bread advertisement Kinn???!,

But he can't cook,

ALSO I'm sorry but ewwwwww bugs,

Sonic haired Chay going darkside so Kimm to the rescue?,

Korn being even more evil,

old man scapegoat and he was gonna just let Porsche possibly kill him???

Yeah that wouldve gone over well…like if Porsche kills the guy and one episode late finds out it was a lie and Korn used the old man to disguise his own actions???,

Proud BF Kinn wants to startover and my heart is aflutter,

shit uncle is back with a doozy of a tale and the plot thickens into real crazy soap opera type conspiracy land.

Episode 13 Aka

Abusive Kan making me feel bad for Vegas,

also vegas can cook wow,

Korn is EVIL I HATE him,

Kinn is reaaaaally growing…trying to communicate and be honest,

willing to side with porsche and learning when Porsche is holding back just by watching him and waiting for Porsche to be honest and open up to him.

Kinns sooo good now,

Porsche I know it's a tough subject but try to meet him halfway cuz he’s NOT Korn. He's your soul so trust him,

although Porsche tried to tell Kinn about his doubts once and Chan interrupted,

not Chan's FAULT but still,

try again don't drop it and hide,

Vegas lashing out at Pete after being abused…like stop misdirecting your feelings,

and FINALLY Petes missing Status is taken seriously Tankhun is the only one with brains in tis dumb family,

Yes Pete tell him off bcuz You're NOT a pet or his dman therapist,

Pete is his own savior,

Pete Tom Sawyers his funeral and scares the shit outta everyone especially Porsche,

burning money AND the FUCKEN ATM lmao,

Kinn looked SO hot in the funeral scene though omg that shirt and his pecs,

Pete protecting Vegas from the avenging BFF Porsche except Porsche is no dummy and he’ll get some retribution anyways,

Kim's got it bad now but pretty music often comes from pain,

Porsche punches Vegas but still trusts him with shit wth TRUST KINN,

KiinPorsche before the graves confessing but LOL that introduction…my boss…Porsche is a brat now and forever.

KP confessing to each other properly for the first time in a pool, THE POOL SCENE! And it was way more sweet and emotional than we thought ",

Episode 14 Aka

FU Korn I don't buy your bullshit,

Kinn is sooo conflicted but he'll side with Porsche if push came to shove i know it,

omg the soap opera-iness of this family wth,

Liar faker coward Korn can't take the consequences of his own actions stop faking it you shithead and die for real,

love the 3 brothers bonding though, and Kim comforting his big bros.

Tankhun just being soft and Kinn trying to keep it together for him with all the pressure on his shoulders and hes also sad,

so baby Kim is a good nong,

boss kinn can be kinda scary omg…lile…he just shoots dissenters in the meeting like its fucken nothing,

also WTF is Kan wearing to this rebellion????,

Chan is king…and…NOOO CHAN NO NOT AGAIN!,

Vegas speaking english always gets me,

bodyguard batallion but man they lost sight of Kinn fast and Pol got hit but hes ok.

battle husbands spinning around and groping like is a ballroom dance, love t

he FREEFALL english version playing in the fight scene,

Kinn freaked about losing Porsche more thanabout the gun in his face baby your heart is GLOWING,

Arms robots to rescue with flare and pizazz,

Erikaaaa!,

Like the Vegas Pete thing here and I AM glad he lived but he needs some seriour redeeming to actually get me to like him and them together,

Pete you're perfect ofc, I hate uncle and Korn idc who did it they both suck,

also mama are you for real right now? faking it? idk if i trust mama,

wth is going on,

soap operas again, Porsche as boss in the green suit is fine,

no longer bodyguard dating but mob boss dating,

i wanna be on that boat,

kinn makes drinks with his heart,

kim pouring his heart out in song and Chay crying,

Lovely ending but cmon history is written by the victors said by the victorious shithead Korn hes obv still a lying piece of garbage",

Sidestory Episode

Aka post camping adventure hospital scene,

Tankhun you jerk don't you see how sad youre making Porsche,

lol Pete trying to quiet him,

And Kinn wakes to the sound of Vegas creepily hitting on his boy, GO and take the flowers with you lol,

OMG Kinn is so smart scaring Porsche with ghost stories bcuz like Porsche is such a cute scaredy cat,

CUDDLES! YES. Even though Kinn is hurt he wants to hold Porsche.

#KinnPorsche the series #spoilers #kpts spoilers #word vomit

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Go for it. I'll listen🥰

omg. thank you

So while I've been working, I've been listening to the this is a libravox recording. all libravox recordings are in the public domain. for more information or to volunteer, go to libravox.org wow excuse me idk what came over me there. i've been listening to an audiobook of 1001 nights. the translation is from the 1800s and is even more racist and offensive than you would expect! supposedly there is a new better translation i am trying to get from the library.

anyway, when i'm working, im going more for quantity than quality.

but when the first orgy happened in excruciating loving detail???? in my workplace??? that made me stop. a lot of the stories are tame but every once in a while there is a sex romp. the story i have in mind (Tale of Tàj al-Mulúk and the Princess Dunyà) (rhymes with nunya) isn't a sex romp but it does throw in some bafflingly explicit scenes.

I should also quick say that this is a racist English translation of a compilation of stories that may have also been a translation so idk where any of this actually originated. haven't done the research

first off, this story has tons of queer themes. a princess who hates men and says she'll never marry. an inexplicable crossdressing sequence. two young handsome guys leaving their homes to be together because

Now Taj al-Muluk delighted in the company of Aziz and said to him, "O my brother, henceforth I can never part from thee."

Replied Aziz, "And I am of like mind and fain would I die under thy feet"

i heard that and obviously was like "umm... that's gay"

Also, Aziz has been castrated, which believe it or not, has been the main plot of at least 3 stories so far ("The Tale of the First Eunuch" "The Tale of the Second Eunuch" and apparently "The third eunuch does not tell his tale because they don't have time" lmao) but Aziz is the first one to make it a gender issue. Aziz introduces himself to Taj al-Muluk with the backstory of his castration and says "I wept over myself for that I was become even as a woman, without manly tool like other men, and there was no help."

they aren't even the gay ones. they are both bi. "but wait jordan" you may say. "our modern understanding of sexuality as being an orientation doesn't apply to other cultures or times" and i agree which is why i was baffled at this entire section.

the two men are with this older guy in the bathhouse who

was delighted with them and affected them with a warm affection. Now he was a great connoisseur of bewitching glances, preferring the love of boys to that of girls and inclining to the sour rather than the sweet of love...

even at this, i figured this was about how they were just guy pals??? because there's no way the story is going there, not through the lens of Bigoted White Guy?? the old guy watches them bathe and

...he sat down to await the twain, and presently they came up to him like two gazelles; their cheeks were reddened by the bath and their eyes were darker than ever; their faces shone and they were as two lustrous moons or two branches fruit laden.

Now when he saw them he rose forthright and said to them, "O my sons, may your bath profit you always!

Where upon Taj al-Muluk replied, with the sweetest of speech, "Allah be bountiful to thee, O my father; why didst thou not come with us and bathe in our company?"

Then they both bent over his right hand and kissed it and walked before him to the shop[...] When he saw their hips quivering as they moved, desire and longing redoubled on him; and he puffed and snorted and he devoured them with his eyes, for he could not contain himself...

When I heard the word "quivering" I finally stopped and took notice here and I marvelled with exceeding marvel. After reciting some love poetry:

When they heard this, they conjured him to enter the bath with them a second time. He could hardly believe his ears and hastening thither, went in with them. [...]

Taj al-Muluk taking him by the hand walked on one side and Aziz by the other, and carried him into a cabinet; and that impure old man submitted to them, whilst his emotion increased on him. [...] Taj al-Muluk ceased not to wash him and to pour water over him and he thought his soul in Paradise. When they had made an end of his service, he blessed them and sat by the side of the Wazir, talking but gazing the while on the youths.

and then there is a whole section of poetry about how awesome the public baths are.

i'm still mid-story so I don't know if this has any plot relevance but so far the answer seems to be no, except to show how handsome these boys are. (A little later in the text, an old woman um... well that description actually is nsfw, but it's an offhand mention and also doesn't change the plot.)

I just am not getting over the text explicitly saying that there is a man who is exclusively interested in men (and then presumably the "sour rather than the sweet" is a bottom joke)?!? Them calling him "impure" is as far as the text goes to shaming him about it, and sympathetic characters in 1001 nights have been called way, way worse

#peppapocalypse #again i have not researched the text and am making no historical claims beyond that this book existed in 1888 #long post

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jelliclekay · 2 years

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Tugger or munk for the ask game?

I'll do both why not

Tugger

1: sexuality headcanon: Bisexual icon. 2: otp: Tuggerlurina and Tuggoffelees (like anyone saw that coming wow) 3: brotp: Tuggerjerrie and Tuggerteazer 4: notp: I mentioned not liking him with Alonzo but also I'm not a big fan of Tugger x Demeter. I know revival Demeter is a bit more friendly with Tugger, but I prefer Demeter being annoyed with Tugger. 5: first headcanon that pops into my head: He's shaved like a lion and he shimmies a lot because he is always cold. 6: favorite line from this character: So many but the way he says "You would say we had nothing to do at all" makes me go stupid. 7: one way in which I relate to this character: I'm also everyone's hype man. I love hyping up my friend's. 8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character Haha dumb idiot gets stuck in the bureau drawer 9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave? I feel like he's right square in the middle.

Munkustrap

1: sexuality headcanon: Bi (women lean) 2: otp: Demestrap and Alonzostrap 3: brotp: Munkujerrie and Munkuteazer (I just love the Deut bros being pals with Jerrie and Teazer) 4: notp: Not a big fan of Munk x Misto personally. 5: first headcanon that pops into my head: He loves Dungeons and Dragons and has weekly dnd nights at the Junkyard. 6: favorite line from this character: Are you blind when you're born? It just goes so hard. 7: one way in which I relate to this character: I too am done with everyone's shit most of the time 8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character: Not second hand embarrassment per say but it is very silly how serious he takes the Pekes and Pollicles sometimes but I know he's just trying to impress Old Deut. 9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave? He is a cinnamon roll but will fight you if needed.

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guideaus · 3 years

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whoever came up with love triangles needs to see the damage theyve caused

#personal #aka be forced to read/watch everything w that #its soo dumb like just make them all get together #just 3 bi pals. done #im still watching kids on the slope and its not bad but like. its so frustrating #ik polygamy is galaxy brained i guess but god they all really like each other #and its turned into this forced pair predicament while they all like eachother...#its an easy fix!#*Polyamory not polygamy my bad lmao

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bnbc · 2 years

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Cyberask 2077

thank you for the tag @nightcityberries and @gloryride <3 <3 <3

1. When did you buy the game?

I preordered it in the middle of summer 2020 as a gift for finishing my probation at my new job :3

2. When was the moment you knew you loved the game?

When I started defending it.

You know, I love cp2077 but it IS imperfect. And if at the start I was just laughing about bugs and plot holes with my pals, later I caught myself more and more playing CP77 advocate, justifying both game and developers in the eyes of people. IDK when exactly it happened tho.

3. Which character did you romance in your first playthrough?

None.

One non-romanceable NPC stole my heart on the second day of playing, and I just couldn't go for "canon" romances. And tbh, if not for him... I'd be sitting here whining that Pan ain't bi and I can not romance her xD I just love struggling, okay?

4. Whose your favorite NPC?

Srsly how could I resist? xDDD

Goro is designed, written, and animated incredibly well, istg I haven't had such a huge crush on a person for YEARS. Caught me off guard tho, I usually simp more for women in games, but he just came and... well...

5. Did you have inspiration in mind when designing your V(s)?

...N O.

The first time designing V I spent lots of time fighting character creator 'cuz it was super inconvenient to me back then, so I went through options, picked some face features together, gave her cool lenses, then painted it all silver, and smashed the LETS GOOOOO button

The second time designing her new appearance (post-devil, new body, new face) I was more mindful and picked some face refs 'cuz I needed to give her a specific look... and basically ended up with most of her original features xD

Rachel's story is quite neat too, cuz I also didn't have anything in mind while making her but while looking through options I saw THE NOSE and was like "after all why not? why shouldn't I give my character my own schnobel?" and IDK what I was more surprised about — when people started liking her or when I started liking her myself.

life long nose struggle is real

6. What's your go-to vehicle?

Yaiba Kusanagi, beloved

7. What's your favorite gig/mission/job?

Where is My Mind?

I'm still in love with how great it was designed to provide a feeling of isolation, fear, insecurity, doubt, regret, uncertainty, mind loss, hope, despair and devastation. No wonder I picked the devil ending as canon for my V.

yeah yeah I had hots for Goro but I also had hots for this ending. okay? xD

8. Which NC radio station do you switch to the most?

I don't remember any favs honestly.

Tagging @vvizjer @blishie and anyone who haven't done it yet but wanna jump the train!

#cyberpunk 2077 #gigs talks #tag game

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meear · 3 years

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HOW is reibert still not canon (long post oops)

1. there was literally no reason for reiner to look this salty. is this how y’all look when you tease a friend about their crush???

2. we KNOW yumihisu is the one ship confirmed canon af and this whole arc they’ve been trying to protect the other what’s not clicking

3. BRUH

4. you can’t possibly think Reiner was being subtle in any way. it’s him. he’s talking about himself because he is the CEO of projecting onto others and we know that

5. projecting onto Annie again

how many times did Bertholdt rush to save Reiner from a life-or-death situation. hint : a lot

the fact that reiner both consciously and unconsciously called for him haha anyway

6. you’re all aware by now but if Ymir doesn’t like men and she’s always with Historia it doesn’t take a genius to understand how she and Reiner parallel each other

7. this line exists but go off I guess

(the look he gives her though)

he’s literally only thinking of Bertholdt. funny how he later worries about not being able to protect him against the titans when they had already lost Eren huh

8. by the way, right after Reiner says that about Ymir, Bertholdt worries about him dissociating again.

it’s interesting how Bertholdt immediately associates Reiner’s crush on Krista with Reiner not being himself and Reiner knows it perfectly. it literally can’t be more obvious, otherwise it doesn’t make sense for Reiner to say “I’m a warrior, so I’m not interested in Krista because she’s cute”. how out of the blue is that??? people still think Reiner is bi. he isn’t.

Bertholdt really isn’t amused by Reiner’s bullshit and honestly same

9. remember the rushing in to save Reiner thing ? and how “if you lose you die, if you win you live” is a motto in this series?

mikasa swears to win for Eren’s sake

historia literally tells ymir they’re going to live for each other

“he has his own reason why he can’t lose” lmao so... Reiner is his reason to win?to live????? just say you’re in love and go

10. remember how RB’s mission would have succeeded if only Ymir hadn’t suddenly stopped everything to go back for Historia? how that gave the survey corps the time they needed, and how RB basically helped the SC??

Bertholdt stopped for Reiner and gave the SC the time they needed to get away from the explosion. if he hadn’t done that, he definitely would’ve killed them all

Bertholdt is a hypocrite lmao

11. nothing to see here just dudes and gals crying for their bros and pals

12. we know Bertholdt is a much more capable warrior than Reiner and that he mastered the colossal titan immediately. there is no way Reiner would’ve been able to fight Mikasa like Bertholdt did. Isayama said that Bertholdt ��could do anything physically”. sure, Reiner ranked above Bertholdt and Annie during training, but when you look at their childhood, i think both of them could’ve surpassed Reiner if they had been 100% serious. this is just my interpretation though, it’s also possible that Bertholdt’s lack of initiative and Annie’s unability to work with others hurt their grade. i think hand-to-hand combat (Reiner’s weakness) wasn’t graded either

at the very least Isayama’s literally saying that Bertholdt would let Reiner win if they fought

wild how reibert keeps on paralleling characters with confirmed romantic feelings

(Ymir slacked off on purpose too)

+ Bertholdt waiting for Reiner as they race

13. Ymir and Bertholdt are two tall dark-haired shifters who are both really tired of their smaller blonde partner retreating into their fake persona out of a desire to be liked what is n o t c l i c k i n g this is so specific

14. reiner’s main reason for thinking Bertholdt likes Annie is that he stares at her and I mean sure

look I’m not putting every instance of RB doing exactly that because sometimes it’s just because the other happens to be talking lmao but these?? no explanation

bruh you can HEAR the stare

this one is especially glaring since Annie is also in the picture so why didn’t he just draw Bertholdt looking at her??? guess we’ll never know

Reiner has NO excuse for staring at Bertholdt here I’m sorry literally everyone is looking at Sasha and Connie teasing Annie. Bertholdt isn’t doing anything

15. Bertholdt’s development after accepting Reiner’s possible death and deciding to end it all is SO similar to Mikasa after Eren’s death in Trost. they’re both moving in this trance-like state before repeating that the world is cruel, but it’s really interesting because the events are in reverse order for Bertholdt. so it’s more like a mirror. i’ve tried to represent it lmao i hope it’s readable

there’s the same onomatopoeia for the heartbeat, and Bertholdt and Mikasa were making similar expressions. even if isayama’s drawings weren’t as good in the first chapters, you can see that Mikasa has that same blank, wide stare when approaching Eren (it’s chapter 9)

both seem to become another person as they move, though Bertholdt is much calmer than Mikasa (which makes sense if their “normal” personality has switched I guess since Bertholdt is usually the nervous one). He sees everything around him perfectly, but Mikasa runs out of gas because she wasn’t paying attention to anything anymore

see it’s funny because Mikasa literally loves Eren

only difference is after falling, Mikasa says the world is beautiful as well, which makes the omission in Bertholdt’s case (as he rises) obvious

anyway might as well put those too I guess, though i wouldn’t consider them direct parallels but we’ve made it this far lmao

it reminded me of Historia after losing Ymir and Reiner after coming back alone :

(btw the music when Historia cradles Ymir in her arms after she fought as a titan is also called Her heart still beating on Youtube, but I don’t know where that comes from because the actual title is AOTs2M他3... probably just a fan name, but that’s a cool coincidence)

16. this post i made the other day still not over it

17. if reibert not canon then why literal actual canon????

#no but seriously bertholdt and mikasa literally both embraced reiner and eren's body as they realised their heart was still beating #the fuck more do you want #reibert #yumihisu #eremika

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ur-riddikulus · 3 years

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You’re Worth It (Bucky Barnes)

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary: You are the resident therapist for the Avengers and Steve asks you for a favor. He wants you to have a therapy session with Bucky. Then you find out that Bucky wasn’t exactly aware of this plan.

Warnings: some cursing, Bucky’s angsty past, a couple small sexual innuendo. Also like a ton of angst but I promise that it does get better lol.

A/N: This is my first fanfic on here. I posted some Harry Potter ones before this, but I reread them and thought I could do better. So, here we are! Thank you for reading and if you want this to turn into more parts, I can totally do that. <3

You had been in your office preparing for your next patient when Steve walked in.

“Hey, Dr. Y/L/N, can I ask you for a favor?” He asked, putting his hands in a praying motion.

“Yeah, absolutely! I do have a patient soon, though.” You replied. You were glad to help, Steve is a great patient and has been improving impressively. So well, in fact, you didn’t know if he would even need to see you much longer.

“Do you know Bucky Barnes? He’s an old pal of mine. He has been against going to therapy for a long time, but you’ve helped me so much and Bucky needs some help too I think. Plus, he saw you around the tower and thought you were cute.” Steve says.

You blushed at that last part, silently wishing you didn’t. You had a rule against dating any patient or anyone in the tower, since it would just be awkward when you inevitably break up. Every relationship you’ve ever been in hasn’t lasted long, considering you’ve never been able to find someone you truly liked.

“Yeah, of course I know Bucky. You don’t shut up about him during your therapy sessions and I’ve seen him sulking around the tower myself. I would love to help him, but like I said, I have another patient soon. I will only have therapy with him if it’s his choice though. And I think he’s absolutely gorgeous but I have a rule against dating anyone who lives or works in the Tower.” You explained.

You looked at the time, Tony Stark, your next patient, would be here any minute. You were the sole therapist for Avengers Tower. There maybe should have been another one, but Tony had one session with you and said that you were the best he’s ever had and no one would ever dare be a therapist and step into his tower again. He even gave you the title of ‘Chief of Mental Health’ despite being literally the only person in that department.

Steve must have noticed you checking your watch, because he said ,”Oh, and I bribed Tony to change his appointment and give it to Bucky, so you kind of have no choice.”

You looked up, “What? Who knew that Mr. Captain America himself was a cunning little bitch.” You joked, shaking your head. You and Steve, hell, you and everyone in the tower had that kind of relationship. And, he knew you swore like a sailor, so he even ignored it sometimes.

At that moment, Bucky walked in. He looked so handsome with his shoulder-length hair and baby blue eyes. He even looked a little nervous. Well, that’s not surprising, you thought. Everyone, even you, was a tad nervous on the first session.

Steve put up one finger and said, “Let me talk to Buck alone for one moment.” You nodded and he walked Bucky out to the hallway and shut your door. You heard whispers being exchanged and was a little confused but whatever, you thought. You were sure he’s just giving Bucky encouragement.

You went over and sat down on your grey seat and picked up your chamomile tea. That was probably your favorite part of being a therapist, getting to sit down in comfy chairs all day with your tea. Besides helping people of course.

The door opened once again, with Bucky and Steve reappearing. “Thanks for doing this again, Dr. Y/L/N! Bucky will love you.” Steve said, patting Bucky on the back. You smiled and he exited, leaving only a nervous-looking Bucky standing there.

“Why don’t you come over and sit on the comfortable couch across from me, Bucky?” You motion, pointing over to the couch across from your current chair. He nods and goes to the couch. Well, at least he looks a bit more comfortable, you think to yourself.

“So, what do you want to talk about? Anything is on the table.” You say. You’ve found that not going straight to the tough topics help patients build their trust with you more.

“Well, doll, how about you tell me about yourself first.” He says, getting a bit more confident now. Doll? That’s an odd name to call your therapist. But whatever, you’re sure they used it a lot in the old days. Letting it slide, you try to answer his question.

“Well, I was born and raised here in New York City. I got my PhD. in psychology from NYU and I have an apartment in Brooklyn. I got this job after only one session with Tony Stark and now I am the therapist for the Avengers.” Sure, it was a lot of work, but you absolutely loved your job. Helping the heroes who risk their life to save yours and everyone else’s was the least you could do, you thought.

Bucky nodded and said, “I’m from Brooklyn. Looks much different now than it did when I lived there though. A PhD.? Damn doll, you must be super smart.”

You smiled at his compliment. “Thank you. It wasn’t easy, but it was definitely worth all the late nights studying.”

“So, anything else you want to know about me before we get started?” You asked, getting your notebook to prepare to write notes about Bucky and how to best help him.

“Get started? Damn, doll. I was thinking we could grab a coffee before we ‘get started.’ But it’s good with me, I guess the girls roll a little different in this time than the 40′s.” Bucky says, chuckling to himself.

You were in the middle of getting to the correct page in the notebook but paused when you heard what he said. What did he think you meant when you said ‘get started’? It sounded very different from your meaning. And getting coffee? It almost sounded like he thought this was a date? You shook your head at that thought. No way could he possibly be that confused. And Steve said he thought you were cute, but you seriously doubted that the Bucky Barnes would even consider going on a date with you. So no, it definitely couldn’t be that. But whatever he thought this was, there was obviously a miscommunication that you had to clear up.

“Uh, Bucky? I think you must be confused. Steve told me that he convinced you to have a therapy session with me this afternoon. What did you think this was?” You ask, a little scared of the answer.

At hearing this, Bucky seemed very confused. “What do you mean, Steve told me that we were meeting here before going out on our date?”

Now it’s your turn to be confused. What does he mean by ‘our date’?

“Uh, Steve never said to me that we were going on a date. He told me that he convinced you to have a therapy session with me...” You said, shaking your head in confusion. This made no sense, what was going on?

Apparently that was the conclusion Bucky just got to as well, because he looked up, a little embarrassed and said, “I’m so sorry. Steve told me that you wanted to go on a date with me and that we were going to meet in your office before going out. I never would have agreed to this if I knew what he was really doing. I’m just going to leave, I’m so sorry for wasting your time.” Bucky raced his hand through his long hair and stood up, walking to the door.

At first, you were a little stunned. The Steve you knew, the world knew, would never pull a trick on anyone, especially his best friend. You knew him enough through your sessions to know that he would only do this if he absolutely had to. Which means he must be desperate for his friend to get the mental help he needed. Also, Bucky was just so damn cute and you have had the biggest crush on him ever since you went to the Captain America exhibit in the local museum for a school trip. You always saw him in the pictures with Steve, his heart-stopping smile still doing wonders on you despite the worn black and white photo.

So, you jumped up right when his hand touched the door handle to leave and probably never see you again. “W-Wait!” You said, hating your stutter but just cringed and kept going when you saw him turn around curiously. “While you’re here you might as well just talk to me. If you hate it, you never have to see me again and can just ignore me in the halls. But, if this session does help you, maybe we can schedule a bit more and see where it goes. I really think I can help you, Bucky.” After you finish your awkward speech, you just smiled and waited for his definite and irreversible no. Well, at least you got the chance to help him, you thought.

He just sighed and shrugged saying, “Well, I’m already here I guess. But are you sure this could end at any time and that you even want to help me after my dumb friend tricked me into embarrassing myself?”

You smiled and that last part and smiled, just grateful for the opportunity to help someone so burdened and has done so much for the world.

Bucky walked back over the his chair and said, “So, Doc, how do we start this?”

You grabbed your notebook again and turned to the right page again. “This is your session, it can start with however you want. But it might help to start from the beginning. How did you feel when you got drafted into a World War when you were only 18?”

He looked deep in thought and said, “Wow, no one ever asked me that.” He sighed before adding, “Of course it was my duty to fight and all that, but I was angry at the world for forcing kids who just barely turned adults to fight their wars for them. I knew it was going to be an adventure, but honestly I was scared shitless, doll.”

You nod, your empathy for him skyrocketing even though you guys just started.

And that’s how your bi-weekly sessions with Bucky would usually go. You guys talked about a whole manner of things, like his past in the 1940′s, his brainwashing with HYDRA, Steve saving him, and his nightmares from everything included. You two were closer than you normally let yourself get to patients. You didn’t know if it was because of everything he had gone through, or maybe even that you finally got to talk and help the Avenger who needed you most, but you honestly didn’t care. Your sessions with him really seemed to help him and now he hasn’t had a nightmare in over 2 months. Bucky seemed a lot happier and waved and talked to you in the halls. Steve even said that he hasn’t seen Bucky like this since the 40′s. You thought that with all things considered, he had a ton of improvement. You two had only been meeting for about 6 months and his progress was truly great;

You tried to forget that in your first meeting he thought you were going on a date and even apparently called you pretty. You knew that nothing romantic should ever come out of your patient and therapist relationship since it was obviously wrong. Every therapist knew that under no circumstances should you date your patient. It would always hurt the patient’s mental health even more and that was the opposite of your job. You suppose it could technically happen if you stopped being his personal therapist but it wouldn’t be worth it. All of his hard work would have been for nothing.

But you couldn’t help but think what if? What if it ended up working out? What if he got another therapist and you could date him? What if he was the one? But no, you were getting ahead of yourself, you thought. Bucky was great and handsome and so, so perfect. He was honestly everything you wanted in a partner. And still, you couldn’t take the leap. If it didn’t work out and you were possibly the reason his mental health got worse you could never forgive yourself. So every appointment with him you just smiled and tried to ignore that pressing need, even though you were beating yourself up for either being a coward or for being so selfish that you wanted to take that chance.

One day you were in the middle of researching new ways to help a client’s recent mental health issue and trying to (and failing) ignore a certain issue when Bucky walked in with a bouquet of your favorite flowers and a nervous look on his face. You stood up, very confused but nonetheless making yourself known.

“Uh, Y/N? Could I maybe talk to you for a minute?” He asked. You’ve never seen him dressed so well. Normally he just wore either workout clothes or sweatpants. You two even often joked together that he owned no normal clothes.

“Yeah of course. I’m sorry I didn’t know we had a session today.” You said, cursing yourself for making such a mistake. Usually you were pretty good with schedules, even though working with the entire compound was a bit much to remember.

“Oh, we don’t. I just wanted to ask you a question.” Bucky said, biting his lip. A nervous tick that you soon discovered in one of your early sessions together.

“Sure, ask away.” You replied. You were getting a little worried. Surely he didn’t want to end your appointments together, right? Did you do something wrong?

“First of all, these are for you.” He said nervously as he handed you the flowers. You smiled, surprised that he remembered you telling him your that your favorite was y/f/f while complaining that the local florist didn’t have them during one of your bi-weekly meetings. “Thank you, these are absolutely beautiful. I love them.” You smiled and walked over to a window ledge with a vase on it and put them in, admiring how they looked in the sunlight.

When you were finished admiring them you walked back over to Bucky. “Thank you again, they really are beautiful. I don’t even remember the last time someone was so nice and got flowers for me.” You said and hugged him. You knew he wasn’t that great with personal touch but surprised you when he hugged you back pretty quickly. For a moment you just focused on being in his arms but then soon thought of how inappropriate it would look to an outsider and reluctantly pulled away.

“So, what did you want to ask? Is everything okay?” You ask, quickly remembering that something could be wrong with him.

“Yeah, of course everything is fine. You truly are a great therapist, Y/N. You’ve got a gift.” Bucky said. You blushed at his words and hated that your color would give away your inappropriate feelings possibly. His words did calm you down though. But if it wasn’t about therapy, then what else could it be about?

Feeling your blush go down finally, you nodded and urged him to go on, now too curious to wait it felt like.

He sighed and nervously ran his hand through his hair. “You have to promise me that if this goes wrong, our relationship won’t be ruined. It’s too important for me to ruin by being an idiot.” You immediately promised. Normally you would be cautious about such a thing but you have never trusted anyone this quickly and this much with Bucky.

After he saw your quick agreement, he went on. “So, these past couple weeks, well since we’ve started meeting actually, I was interested in you. I was never going to act on it in a million years but you’ve helped me so much and I think we could really be great together. And Steve might have noticed me staring at you and telling me I should do something about it.” He chuckled. “So, want to go on a real date? I would go the whole 9 yards, nice restaurant and everything. But I don’t want to pressure you into anything you don’t want to do and know that our relationship isn’t necessarily the easiest to become romantic. I just think you're worth it, doll. You're worth all of it.” He stopped and bit his lip again, waiting for your response.

Your heart soared when you heard his speech. No one had every made you feel this way. You were about to say yes, so close in fact, but then you remembered the real truth. You are his therapist, his doctor, his advocate. That was special and meant something to you. You knew he wanted this but it was your responsibility to make the hard choice, to do what you honestly hated to do but thought was right.

“No, Buck. I’m sorry but I can’t. I just think it could ruin all your hard work and that’s the last thing that I want to do. It just shouldn’t be risked.” You said. Telling him that felt like vomit was coming up and you felt even worse when you saw him look dejected and lose his smile so quickly because of you.

You moved your arm to touch his and try to support him the best you could within your boundaries but he saw you trying to do it and moved before you could touch him. And that really hurt.

You opened your mouth to try and say that you wanted to say yes, that it wasn’t him and just your job but he put up his hand to stop you and said,”No, I shouldn't have asked, I’m sorry.” before walking out.

After the door shut you just closed your mouth in surprise of how this could all go so wrong before falling on the ground and just sobbing. You were hyperventilating soon and snot was going everywhere but you just didn’t care. You were the therapist, the one who knew all the mental health tips and tricks but you were too broken to think logically and it felt good to just let yourself cry.

This stayed the same for two straight weeks. Bucky rescheduled every meeting and put himself into more missions, especially the more dangerous ones. You would cry yourself to sleep nearly every night and by the morning, your eyes were really puffy and swollen from the night before. Everyone in the tower knew something was going wrong and you could feel their stares of sympathy and worry. You felt terrible but what felt even worse was that you weren’t even speaking with Bucky anymore. And as bad as you felt, you couldn’t help but be even more worried for him. You were prepared to just wallow in your own self-pity and cry for the nth time when Steve knocked on the door and walked in when you were in your office, just drinking chamomile tea and looking at the flowers Bucky got you.

“Hey Doc, how’s it going?” He asked, sitting down and looking worried. You just looked up at him and decided to finally cut the shit and get right to what you were worried about. “Steve, how’s Bucky? And tell me the truth, I’ll find out eventually.” Steve sighed and said, “Honestly he’s not doing great. He looks like crap and is throws himself into missions. Bucky also keeps taking stupid risks that could leave him wounded or even worse. We’ve all spoken with him and he just ignores it. I think the only thing that would really fix him is talking with you. he’s never been like this before, I just don’t know what to do.”

You knew that he would probably tell you the last part, that he feels out of control. Control issues was what you most talked about with Steve during your sessions. Not that you could blame him, you would definitely have them too after everything he has gone through. But that could be discussed in your future sessions with him. Right now, you just wished everything was back to normal.

You nodded sadly, even more worried for him now. But Steve talking to you changed something. You needed to talk to Bucky. And right now. Your fear of rejection was high and you knew there was a fairly high chance that he was too hurt to trust you and that he would probably say no but you didn’t care. Even if he rejected you, you didn’t care. As long as he would be better and your relationship went back to normal, you could live with it. Even if it would take a long time to get better after this, he would be worth it.

So you just looked up, your mind set on what you had to do. “Where is he? I need to find him right now.”

Steve looked up surprised and said, “Uh, in his room I think. He just signed up for another hard mission and we asked him not to but he insisted. He’s probably getting ready since he will have to leave soon.”

After hearing this, you jumped up frantically while yelling “Thank you so much Steve!” as you ran out, not even caring to stop the door from slamming.

Now, even though you worked in a tower full of superheroes, you were only the therapist and still haven’t ran in a while. So you ran and ignored all the stares of the workers and Avengers. When you finally got there, you were out of breath and breathing hard. But still, you worked through your mini heart attack and knock on the door, still frantic.

You heard some rustling behind the door and a few mumbled curse words when he began saying loudly, “Steve, I’m fine. I’m going on that mission whether you think I should or no-” Bucky opened the door and once he saw you, a probably sweaty, red, and gross you, finished with a confused “-not?”

You put up one finger to signal for him to give you a moment to catch your breath. After that, you joked, “Guess I need to workout more.”

“No, I think you look great. Uh, n-not that my opinion matters or anything. If you think you need to work out then that’s what you should do.” He said, nervously stuttering but nodding at his final sentence like by catching it he saved himself from saying something wrong.

He cleared his throat before continuing. “So, how can I help you? I do have to leave on a mission soon though.”

It broke your heart how formally he was speaking, almost like you were complete strangers.

Maybe you should go, you thought. But no, you had to. Bucky was worth the embarrassment you could possibly face, whether you two were going to date or not. Forcing yourself to remember that, you steeled yourself and said, “I’m sorry Bucky, about everything I said. That date sounded amazing, it really did. I wanted to go and I still do. I was just worried about how inappropriate it would be for a therapist to date their patient. I didn’t want your mental health to backtrack and I honestly thought that I was doing the right thing. But I miss you, Buck. I miss you terribly. And you're worth all of the risks to me, you outweigh them all. So please don’t go on that mission, let someone else take the dumb risks. From what I’ve heard you have taken enough for a while. Please, just stay with me and we can talk?” You looked up at him pleadingly and saw him pull out his phone before shutting the door in your face.

That shut door hurt you, but you were prepared for it and sighed. It was too good to be true, you guessed. The fairytale ending, the white picket fence, the handsome husband. You turned around, prepared to walk away with the thought of going back to your apartment and drowning your sorrows in chamomile tea and tissues when you heard the door open behind you and felt a hand grab yours to turn you around.

And there was Bucky, smiling like an absolute idiot. And at first you thought that he was making fun of you, but even then you still thought he looked handsome with that smile. “Sam’s in. He’ll take the mission for me.” He said.

“What?” was all you could muster. You had no idea what he was talking about it sounded almost like... That’s when you heard Sam on speaker phone, “Yep, that’s right sweetheart. I’m gonna do the dumb mission. Kiss Bucky real good for me, sucks I can’t be there to do it myself.” Then you heard Sam make a bunch of kissy noises and that’s when Bucky said, “Enough of him.” And ended the call. Then he grabbed your hand once more and shut the door behind you. He backed you against his door with him so close to you that your chest was touching his.

You were still in shock of your luck when Bucky leaned in and kissed you. You were a little shocked but soon kissed him back, and hard. It was like you were underwater and he was the oxygen. The kiss soon turned rougher and you did not mind at all.

A couple hours later you were both laying on the bed, snuggling and watching a dumb movie that both of you weren’t even paying attention to. You were both just too wrapped up in each other’s presence. “Hey, I think you got some of that exercise you mentioned needing. Maybe we could even do some more if you want.” Bucky said, looking down at you and laughing.

You hit him lightly but couldn’t help from laughing hard as well. Only hours ago you thought that you wouldn’t get anything with Bucky. No happy ending, white picket fence, and with Bucky, the whole package. But no, you got much more than that. So much more.

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FIVE ALBUMS YOU NEED IN YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW!!!

aka, My Top 5 of 2020, but I didn’t want to seem too retro!

Yep, I have a classic rock blog. Yep, I think that the best rock and roll in history is being made RIGHT NOW. And yep, ALL of it is being made by women.

(Shown at top, Nova Twins by Ant Adams [x] and The Tissues by Michael Espleta [x]. I was planning to make a collage of all my faves in concert, but not all of them were able to play in 2020. Both of these photos are pre-pandemic.)

There’s been quite a bit of movement on this list, and all five of these have spent some time at Number 1 as the year has done (gestures broadly) All This™. Anyone looking for rock and roll is going to dig any of these.

Rocking out is just the start of it, though. Wrestling with my bipolarity and schizophrenia is tough on a good day, and there haven’t been too many of those lately. The plague has also taken its toll around me, with two family members dead and a third who’s doing better, but will likely never be all the way back. (Mask up, kids!)

I’ve written plenty about how deeply Taylor Swift and Phoebe Bridgers have moved me this year (and will do so again), but in those rare stretches where I’ve had enough spare energy to listen to music at all these days, I’ve mostly been looking for more than beautiful music. Heavy times need heavy lifting, and I find that in heavy music.

The five albums here have all helped carry me, pointing the way toward light.

1) BULLY, SUGAREGG

Alicia Bognanno is a force of nature as a guitarist, vocalist, composer, and producer/engineer. (While working on her degree in audio engineering at MTSU, she interned with Steve Albini, who remains both a fan and an admirer). A Nashville transplant from Minnesota, she’s still a natural fit in her home on Sub Pop: as heavy as Soundgarden, as hooky as Sleater-Kinney.

I was blown away hearing her searing honesty while working through her discoveries of her bisexuality and bipolarity (double bi!), and her triumphant roar lifts me out of my seat every time I listen.

“She sings the hell out of [these songs], her voice fraying to the point of combustion every time she launches to the top of her range. This is phenomenal music for converting anger and anxiety into unbound joy.” ~Stereogum, Album of the Week

Also, check this fantastic interview with Alicia in the New York Times talking about what she’s gone through to get here.

TURN IT UP!

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2) GANSER, LOOK AT THAT SKY

Ganser syndrome is a rare dissociative disorder characterized by nonsensical or wrong answers to questions and other dissociative symptoms such as fugue, amnesia or conversion disorder, often with visual pseudohallucinations and a decreased state of consciousness. ~Wikipedia #it me

‘Just Look At That Sky’ doesn’t presume to offer solutions; it’s an honest document of what it feels like to wade through anxiety, day by day, not a survival guide or handbook of answers none of us actually have. Whether or not you pay attention to this, Ganser are simply one of the most invigorating, exciting new bands. ~Clashmusic

I saw one very positive review compare Ganser to a cross between Fugazi and Sonic Youth, but I think they hit much, much harder than either of those. And as you can surely guess, I also deeply relate to their themes of mental illness and dissociation while trying to make it through All This™. But my god, are they TIGHT. This is a BAND.

Ganser has two fantastic lead vocalists, and on “Bad Form”, bassist/vocalist Alicia Gaines wrote the song for the voice of keyboardist/vocalist Nadia Garofolo. Alicia also wrote a FANTASTIC essay on the strains that making an album during a pandemic puts on the mental health of the entire band at talkhouse: “Writing, recording, reaching out, balancing relationships outside and within the band, I found (and still find) myself under-rested and agitated to no particular end. More than not doing enough, I was not enough.”

(If you can’t relate to that, I can’t relate to you, tbh.)

This video also does a fantastic job of showing dissociation. TURN IT UP!

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3) THE TISSUES, BLUE FILM

“Blue Film” is a ten-song shot of dagger-twisting electro-(s)punk. It’s completely addictive from the very first listen. The tour de force is “Rear Window”, an art-punk masterpiece of slashing guitars and mad caterwauling. Copious doses of jaunty poetics and social commentary reward the earlooker patient enough to untangle Kristine Nevrose’s hysterical meowing about intergalactic salt shakers and hysterectomies, but I’m too emotionally invested to look under the hood.” ~ Sputnik Music

“Rear Window” is in fact my most-played 2020 track. TURN IT UP!

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4) GUM COUNTRY, SOMEWHERE

It’s not all heavy! But even when I’m looking for something light and hooky, I need a bite, and Gum Country has done it with the kind of swirly, feeedback-laden wall of sound that Lush or Yo La Tengo would make if they lived in LA. (Recent transplants to SoCal from Vancouver, I do think that the sunshine has gone straight to their heads, in the very best way.)

Indie music nerds will know guitarist/composer/singer/front woman Courtney Garvin from The Courtneys, and she really does throw up a glorious wall of sound. I adore this video too! Sweet, swinging, fun -- and yes, the drummer is playing keyboard with one hand while slapping the skins with the other!

I mentioned earlier that all five of these albums have spent part of the year at #1 on my list -- I think that this one might have spent the longest stretch there. Like all shoegaze, even as hooky as this, the truth of these songs is revealed in VOLUME. TURN IT UP!

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5) NOVA TWINS, WHO ARE THE GIRLS?

Now, THIS is heavy! Amy Lee (vocals, guitar) and Georgia South (bass) are fucking LOUD, and insanely intense. A mix of grime, hip-hop, metal, punk, and good old rock and roll, they’re a harder-hitting, more theatrical Prodigy, with a pyre of intensity that recalls the heaviest howls of Rage Against The Machine. Indeed, Nova Twins spent a good bit of 2019 playing heavy metal festivals and toured as openers for Prophets of Rage. (Tom Morello has been a fan and supporter from the beginning.)

As you may have noted in the photo at the top of this post, their musical audacity extends to visuals too: they design their own clothes, hair, and makeup, they art direct their own videos, and more. They impress the hell out of me, and I’ve been a huge fan since hearing their first singles in 2018. I’ll plant a flag and say that Georgia South in particular is the most innovative musician on any instrument in any genre right now, but they’re both absolutely monsters.

I’m honestly not at all sure that #5 is high enough for this, but I’m absolutely certain that after this video, you’re gonna need to rest for a little. LOL

“Taxi” is the story of two gleefully and creatively violent women shaking up the local crime syndicate as they use a vintage cab for their moving murder scene. This is the movie that Robert Rodriguez wishes he was making with Sin City, if it were combined with Blade Runner and The Matrix. And gangsters. And a snake.

I’m gonna take your crown I’m gonna, I’m gonna bleed you out We demand it by the hour We devour, control, power

I’m gonna burn it down Even the, even the royals bow

So not the same kind of therapeutic work being explored on this rekkid, but you know what? Fucking shit up is therapeutic too!

Definitely take this full screen, and for the love of fuck, TURN IT UP!

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SO. Not done with the best of 2020 yet? I’m sure not! A lot of my favorite songs aren’t on albums (at least not yet), so for an unedited list of everything I’m finding, check out my Spotify list, 2020: Shuffle This List! 268 songs and counting, over 15 hours, and not finished yet. I’m still checking out everyone else’s Best of lists (including yours! Message me links to yours!!!), so will probably be adding to this for most of 2021, too.

And for more banging tracks by women from 2020, plus a few 2019 gems that I’m still grooving to, check out my more thoroughly curated Spotify playlist Women Bangers: A Tumblr New Classics Jam. (You’ll see a couple of these tracks there!) I’m working on a YouTube playlist and an essay to properly roll that one out. I’m also still tweaking the ending, but the three dozen or so tunes there are definitely bangin’.

Tell me if you hear anything you dig here, and tell me what YOU’VE found! We’re gonna get through this together.

Yr pal, Timmy

#me #new classics #classic rock #women in rock #best of 2020 #bully #ganser #the tissues #gum country #nova twins #essay #youtube #punk rock #punk

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