#ive mentioned it many times before

[oifaaa]

not to sound elitist but like when people talk about pit madness like it’s canon i always question whether they actually like jason or if they just want a “bad boy”

I think they like Jason they just want a more palatable clear cut good version of him - saying he was possessed by the lazarus pit provides a easy out even tho it makes no sense and quite frankly takes alot away from Jason's character imo - all of Jason's actions are his own there's no mythical goop whispering at him to do fucked up things - I especially hate it when people use it as a Jason wouldn't actually hurt tim if he was in his right mind like I think the titans tower fight is stupid and don't acknowledge it but I still don't deny that Jason would still not hesitate to hurt tim bc hes willing to hurt people around Bruce to mess with him and that's fucked up but its just how Jason is - alot of people use it though bc it is just easy it's easier then actually writing a Jason who's unhinged and genuinely wants to harm certain bats it's easier to sympathise with and its a easier way to end a story with everyone now a happy family

#ask #anon #and i hate it so much #also was that elitist #omg am i elitist #damn #tbf i think its fine as long as im only saying this stuff on my blog #lol #any way yeah #pit madness is stupid #its one of those fanon things i cant stand #ive mentioned it many times before #but i just #its so dumb #why do people like writing away the interesting parts of a character #like people who use it to undermine everything that happened in utrh #get outta here #jason came back wrong #thats like 90% of who he is #stop trying to take that away from him

[hindahoney]

So many of you are genuinely monsters and you think you're the heroes. Forgive me for not believing that any of you ever actually gave a shit about Palestinians, as you sit here in your pro-hamas rallies with swastika flags while you chant "gas the jews!" and tear down posters of kidnapped hostages. You glorify Hamas, the terrorist organization that uses and abuses Palestinians, that shoots them if they try to evacuate from zones that Israel has warned they're going to strike.

You have been silent for decades while Lebanon and Jordan keep their Palestinian population in refugee camps. You have been silent when no other neighboring country has given Palestinians citizenship status that would enable them to live a comfortable, normal life. You were silent when Palestinian Islamic Jihad and Hamas rockets misfire and kill innocent Palestinians. You were silent when Hamas steals aid meant for civilians. You were silent when Hamas dug up water pipes from the ground so that they could make more rockets.

If you were silent then, you're using Palestinians as a mask for your Jew-hatred. If you want to really advocate for Palestinians, keep the same energy for every country, not just the only Jewish state, and try to educate yourself on what Israelis have been doing to try to help Palestinians, because I promise you it's way more than you've ever done in your life.

#how can i believe or trust you if youre using photos and videos of syrian kids being killed and saying theyre palestinian #not to mention the fact that every single message i get from someone claiming to be a palestinian supporter is just straight up violent #the amount of times ive been called a kike and told that theyre happy my people are dead #how can i believe you arent a fucking monster if these are the messages im getting and this is whats happening #how can i believe you are acting in good faith if you are cheering on the death of jews #and if you havent done jack shit for palestinians before this #if you didnt do an ounce of research #if you watch these fake videos coming out of pallywood that have been debunked so many times and use the same actors #and you dont try to factcheck them at all #and you just eat up anything hamas says

[mishapen-dear]

genuine question but is there any fandom where a character is well written by the majority. im thinking about fandom culture and the spread of frustration when people dont write characters well but. honestly in all the fandoms ive been in there's only like, a Select number of authors who i trust to write Well, let alone write Well AND In Character. character analysis and writing and getting inside characters' heads are all separate skills (all of which are trained by roleplaying fyi can CONFIRM playing pretend with your friends is good for you). there's been more than once where I've disagreed with an interpretation that others agreed with, and then I turned out wrong. or i turned out right. like it doesnt matter WHO is right it just matters that differences in character analysis exist, so even if you DO write well AND write in character, your in character is still going to be someone else's out of character

there's this sort of. vibe. that to play in the sandbox you Need to be able to make a castle, and if you can't make a castle then you shouldn't bother, and it completely dismisses the idea that youre in that sandbox to PLAY in the first place. there's this Weight of disappointing someone if you can't build something that they like, but that forgets that you aren't there to build them a castle. like, be KIND. if you disagree with someone then please make an effort to do so kindly. i dont give a shit about fandom discourse but there is a reason kids get removed from sandboxes if they keep throwing sand in people's eyes. but if they don't like your misshapen sand pile, then youre not obligated to change it. even if you yourself end up hating that same sand pile later- youre not building a legacy. youre playing. and sometimes the result of that play is out of character drivel. theres a reason there are so many authors and so few who i like to consistently read and thats because everyone is Fucking Around in their hobby space. hash tag brag or whatever but i can build castles. ive built several that im v proud of. ive also dug holes in the sand for fun and then tripped on them when trying to get up. I often dug a hole and then got up and fucking- whoops, its a castle now, and i didn't realize i'd made something to be proud of until after the fact. the whole time while creating shit i was Convinced it was bullshit that didn't make sense. and then other times i was Convinced it was bullshit and then i was Right and i can look back and go. huh. ew. but it doesn't matter what the end result was, because i had fun playing in the sandbox

this wasn't meant to turn into a ramble but i have Feelings about bad art and art that's badly perceived and how public perception can screw with your head and how making art youre proud of is fucking. it's so difficult!!! it's hard!! it's really fun, which is why i try to make it, but i promise you it is Okay to not tryhard creativity. even if you CAN, it's okay not to do it all the time. or ever, even. fuck around find out have fun etc

#NOT a discourse post i am musing out loud #there's discourse goign around the dash rn or i wouldnt mention it #but the past few weeks ive seen a lot of “DONT fucking mischaracterize my guy my fuckign god” #which is one of the most frustrating pet peeve there is #but i think a lot too about little baby me #fresh on her writing journey #and how discouraged i would be if someone pointed out the mistakes id made #i made a Lot of fuckups #and i also think about this one fic where one of the characters was INCREDIBLY out of character #me today would not be able to stomach reading it #but baby me was so ENCHANTED #and it introduced to me the concept that you dont always know the reason someone does something #and it made me read even more #and because of that i eventually found Expert Skill level fics #which introduced me to MANY little tricks and fidgets ive tried to implement #there were so so many reviews on that fic that called it shit or complained about the bad characterization #but a decade later i still think about it #there were several very corny mine/craft horror fics i read #which back in the day would be called cringe #and those were what inspired me to write my first horror fic and now im Enchanted by the whole genre #theres a lot of stuff i dont like to read but i like that other people are enjoying themselves #i dont know how to be succinct i hope my point is coming across well #this ties into my thing where fiction is for you first others later #here are my credentials: bb/h fan since before the elections (hi i was the guy who noticed his lack of armour post elections) #and a cross-fandom comment trend of people going 'woa i can see this happening in canon' #im not talking out my ass i genuinely think its more important to have fun than to write accurate characterization #which. is a more 'duh' and clarifying thing than everything else ive written #but ah well c'est la vie #also also just realized this could be interpreted like that- NOT an attack on people who complain about mischaracterization either lmao #i do that too w friends. this is to reassure people who put pressure on themselves to create things Well all the time

[sukugo]

list of my urls throughout the years

nothingtodoinlife

explosionboyy

thotinhoekenshield

wolfgangoldenleonard

gojofucker

gosuku

sukuita

bottomgojosupremacist

rivaeren

stevetonied

thorlokis

anakincito

knivash

sukugo ᴺᴱᵂ

#this is mostly for me to keep track of them really haha #i think ill keep this and update it everytime that'll be cool :3 #tho there's a few times where ive gone back and forth between a few #f.txt #url list #basically yeah if u followed anyone of those...dat was me 🙈 #tho there's not many of u from before anakincito realy hahah #also i feel like im VERY LUCKY. i tend to always get good urls somehow afsgjdasagd #OMG SPECIAL MENTION TO elculodeanakin #which i had for like 5 minutes before i decided on anakincito asjdsahjdkk

[toastsnaffler]

in a hilarious turn of events my flatmate didn't even know I use any pronouns....

#i thought when she was talking abt how her parents thought i was gonna come out as trans and kept checking my name/pronouns- #that the joke was that im ALREADY trans but in ways they dont know abt.... but nope she genuinely didnt know 🤭 #to be fair. i dont rly let anyone in on my gender business unless we're close enough to be dating or its an anonymous online space #like im legally cis and thats fine. idc abt ppl using my name + she/her bc thats not my gender identity its just AN identity that i use- #to navigate the world without ppl being fucking nosy bc i pass as + am sociopolitically treated as a woman (if butch lol) #to ppl who are friends ill joke that my gender is dyke (true) and to friends whose gender falls on a similar spectrum- #or who are transmasc ill talk a little more honestly abt it bc theyre usually able to understand better than anyone else #other butch dykes w a weird gender going on are the only motherfuckers who actually Get It but theyre hard to come by tbh #to be frank i dont fucking know whats going on w my gender. and i dont rly care enough to do the introspection to figure it out rn #i have so many other problems in my life and im lucky that most of my beef w gender can be solved by presenting butch + binding #and using any pronouns around other queer ppl. its actually incredibly funny to me when ppl she/her me bc its like tch. this chump hasnt #unlocked my level of gender yet. pronouns and names in general are so far disconnected from the way i exist in the world... #its just smth thats fun for me to play around with + makes me feel weird sometimes but in ways i havent distilled yet yknow #and this has been my approach to gender for like?? 4-5 years now??? and likely will continue to be for a long while.. #anyway. its not actually that surprising my flatmate doesnt know bc shes cis so ive never felt compelled to have a deeper conversation #abt gender with her. but also i could sweeaaar its been mentioned bc almost all our other friends are trans lol #and also ive been introducing myself at queer sports socials w any pronouns and i swear i talked abt that w her..... whatever #and my pronouns are on discord and shes def seen my tumblr before but maybe i didnt have them in my bio at the time... i digress #i kind of prefer cis ppl she/hering me tbh. theyre not able to they them or he him or whatever else me in a way that matters..... #altho i do find it fascinating when she or other ppl elect to use neutral or masculine terms for me. raising an eyebrow and taking notes #like when she got a job and joked abt me being her househusband.. pulling up the fem/masc tally chart and chalking a line up #a la nona the ninth.... ive been trying to figure out whos inhabiting this body my entire fucking life with no luck girl #ANYWAY just smth to think abt. im so tired i think my brain is gonna start seeping out my eyeballs #im gonna watch some more pluto and read and then -> 🛌 #another 6:30 start tomorrow woohoo #.diaries #zzzzz

[ink-asunder]

Having demand avoidance in a medical setting is literally hell. Like, patient autonomy is already absolute ass. It's only made worse when doctors CONSISTENTLY tell you what to do and act like you HAVE to do it instead of consulting with you first like normal fucking people.

#also “”“”medical necessity“”“” is NOT an excuse here. #ive been to plenty of doctors that thoroughly discuss a range/timeline of treatment and explain it IN DETAIL before saying “thats what i- #-recommend“ instead of just going ”okay were gonna do this. im gonna explain the prep to you a mile a minute and if you have any follow up- #-questions im just gonna repeat part of my spiel with no clarification. and if i cant answer your questions too bad :)“ #not to mention how many doctors just force you to do things that WILL NEVER WORK #like one therapist tried forcing me to do emdr when i was only IN HER TOWN for the summer and i had no internet access when i was at college #im pretty sure emdr takes several weeks to work and i did not have that kind of time available to me. i couldnt just drop out bc of ptsd. #also the number of times ive had to decline an ESI is stupid. I've already had 2! they didn't work! i had a bad reaction to the meds! #why am i being forced to do it again? #also back surgery. i cant do that because i am a white trash rural kid and our home (which we built ourselves) CANNOT be accessible enough #for spinal surgery recovery. but i went to the surgeon and he was like “thats valid! and also surgery literally wouldnt help you so idk why- #-they sent you here.“ : l It's cool to be right all the time lol #its like. no wonder i developed medical demand avoidance after so much traumatizing and malpracticy bullshit in my life #demand avoidance #medical demand avoidance #chronic illness burnout #chronic illness #chronic pain #medical tw #ptsd #disability #medical neglect #medical trauma #vent #this might be too personal. if i do delete it ill have it rb'd on my boar-deer-whitetrashbutterfly blog first #idk i just havent really been able to find anyone else talking about this specific effect of being chronically ill/disabled.

[waterlogged-detective]

🌌🎭!

Oc asks!!

🌌 If your OC has a nightmare, what’s it most likely about?

Doe doesn't actually have nightmares! Or I mean, I guess in a technical sense he does but he doesn't really find them scary? They're just dreams to him, fear isn't something he can really feel, unfortunately. It's to his detriment when it comes to things like dying, but beyond that...he'd just find a nightmare annoying honestly.

He dreams about water a lot though. The Zee and monsters under the waves. They feel familiar to him somehow. Melancholic.

🎭 What is the one thing your OC regrets most? Would they undo it, considering how their life turned out?

Canonically not really, beyond getting kicked out of the University. He's only really annoyed about that because it means he has to schmooze in order to get a lab before he gets kicked out again, and he *hates* everyone there. He's so frustrated by the fact that something that could do so much good, could teach so many people, is overrun with petty drama and infighting. His plan is to get a lab and then maybe blow something up to get fired.

Beyond that sometimes he tries to think if there was something he could have done for Beatrice so she didn't get murdered, but for now revenge will have to do.

#i personally have a regret which is not paying as much attention as i should have with the mr pages early quest thing #cause i beat up the guy instead of giving pages a fake without thinking about it #which is super ooc for doe and not canon ive decided #much like the many times ive accidentally sold the plant... #asks #abstractkind #I think ive mentioned before but beatrice was his cat

[lesmiserablol]

killing myself over getting a stupid fucking cold right at the end of the semester

#that post thanksgiving break panic sure is killing me #ive said it many times before. ill say it again: fuck my stupid baka life #suicide mention

[tomfrogisblue]

Ya know, I've personally loved being drip-fed everyone else's previous lore. As a previously mainly Wilbur and Phil viewer, I knew their lore (way too much of it, Save Me) walking into the QSMP, but... not really anyone else's. Not even really the other English speakers. It's been a delight to discover the angst and batshit backstories of all the other cubitos

Cellbit's lore alone, bro. And I have such fond memories of Forever appearing on the island and simply terrorizing Phil for a while with his unrequited love left over from his ex, Phil being just as confused as I was.

I hope that anyone coming in from other places in the world has similar reactions to shit like c!Wilbur's Canon Family Tree (canon no matter how much Phil tried to make it less cursed, goddammit Wilbur.)

#going from only watching english creators to watching new horror games on Roiers streams first and watching a whole rpg series in portuguese #call that character development #ive had such a fucking good time discovering creators i never would have seen otherwise #and learning Spanish and Portuguese for like 7 months! #and theres so many talented artists animators and fanfic writers in the communities im so thankful for #its still gonna take me another 50 billion hours to get through Ordem tho. But im getting there! #the goal is to get so good at spanish and Portuguese that i can go back and watch Fuga Impossivel and Karmaland etc in their languages #(and then finally start french) #i am simply rambling to fill the void before the final purgatory event starts. im fine. #qsmp #qsmp lore #quackity #honorable mention for pac's history with cellbit specifically. like bruh.

[red-dyed-sarumane]

ASA FUCKING RTED MY ART?!?!!?!?? IM LOSING MY MIND I LOVE ASA'S ART THATS ONE OF MAGNETITES MAIN ILLUSTRATORS. RTED MY ANNI ART. AND THEN RIGHT AFTER WENT

HELLO?!?!?!?!?!!??' IM GOING TO CRY. AND THEN THEY RTED IT AGAIN TO THEIR SUB ACCOUNT TOO. BOTH IMAGES. HOLY SHIT IM GOING TO CRY. WAIT WHAT THE FUCK MAGU DID TOO WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK GUYS

this is it ive reached the peak of being an illustrator. theres nowhere left to go. to have ur fave vocap share ur art & then their artist u really admire share it TWICE & praise u this is it ive peaked

#woke up like aw hell yeah magu liked my art again. wait why are their so many other people too if they just liked it #so i checked #and now in LOSING MY MIND im going to cry #ECSTATIC. I DONT EVEN THINK THATS ENOUGH TO COVER THE EMOTION IM FEELING RIGHT NOW #I. GUESS THAT MEANS I REALPY DID GOOD THIS TIME. OH MY GOD #magu-san goto #anyway ive mentioned it before but its super cute how both asa & sena yuta are super into their songs #sena yuta's not in my notifs to be clear i'd be freaking out about that too if true but im just saying #both illusts post theories & such from time to time & get excited about things its cute

[ypipie]

i put this idea in the tags of a reblog but i wanted it to make it into a little drawing so i did

these were the tags btw

#deltarune #noelle holiday #jockington #catti #catti deltarune #jockington deltarune #bart #i kinda made up their casualwear #sorry catti looks a little weird i redrew her like 50 thousand times and still couldnt figure out how to #draw her right #ive never drawn any of them before please dont judge the designs theyre still a wip #idk how to draw deer #what if this was part of my au i mentioned in that one post lol... #kidding..only not kidding #oh my gott i put so many tags im so sorry i talk alot in these things #.hbvcb

[ichihero]

“i’m not looking for a relationship, i’m looking for a bottle of vodka.” (sweet little liar xD)

& @auburniivenus ! Substory unlocked: THE PLATINUM HOSTESS

❝ Really ? Let's order one, then! ❞ As soon as the words leave his mouth, Ichiban is already gesturing towards one of the waiters at the club. He usually lets her handle interactions like this one, but he's too excited to care about the proper etiquette in a hostess club. Even so, when the waiter arrives with their order, he lets Inoue take the bottle and pour its contents in two glasses. He tries his best to wait patiently, hands resting on his knees. The tension in his body speaks volumes, but it's not as bad as it used to be during the first few times they hung out together.

❝ Thank you, Hime-chan. Let's see... ❞ He takes one of the glasses, thinking of what they could toast to. Finding the perfect ice-breaker is always the most difficult part of the cabaret club experience. Things have been pretty good at work, but that's not out of the ordinary; helping at least one person every day is satisfying enough. Even so, toasting to that feels kind of selfish, like they're only celebrating his achievements. He needs to pick something they can both relate to.

❝ Oh! I know! Let's toast to- wait, what was the word the guys were using? ❞ It was something that had to do with being a better version of yourself, but using a much more complicated word. Maybe that's why Ichiban can't remember it. Seriously, he wishes the guys could give him advice using simpler phrases. ❝ Self-improvement! That's it, let's toast to self-improvement! I've heard that's a very important thing, even when you're not looking for a relationship. ❞

#☀┊ thank you for choosing Part-Time Hero! - asks. #auburniivenus #have smth sweet to accompany you before/after finishing IW :3 #ive played too many cabaret minigames #can you tell #he'd use vodka for a toast because he's just like me #alcohol mention

[lesbian4lqg]

one thing i really appreciate about svsss is that with anyone else in shen yuans role?

the system's lbh mood ring points (satisfaction, heartbreak, etc) would be considered an invasion of privacy more than the whole transmigration thing already is or at least a source of valuable insight but instead

its shen yuan. if anything the mood ring reveals make him more confused

#(wiping away tears) hes so stupid #no but really the ways in which mxtx crafts her narration to share info with/withhold info from her audience is SO fascinating #*are #and to do it w/out breaking suspension of disbelief! shes so talented! #like theres so many examples! #the systems mood ring points making many of lbhs feelings/motivations obvious #(or at least comprehensive enough to be follow-able) #to the audience while still portraying sy's obliviousness as genuine and understandable #all of the hints as to hua chengs identity that make you think youve figured it out long before xie lian only to discover that #1. hes known for ages and just didnt mention it even tho HES LITERALLY THE NARRATOR? #2. we as the audience arent even told when he figured it out. we find out that he knows at the same time hua cheng does #(<- this also happens a bit w nan feng and fu yao. we Know but does xie lian know? yes he just doesnt care.) #its like the jkr 'it wasnt mentioned bc it wasnt relevant to harrys story' thing but CLEVER AND TRUE AND ON PURPOSE #i havent read mdzs yet but based on what ive seen & on cql a similar thing is done w wwx&lwj solving a murder mystery #theyre revealing what happened while wwx was dead to the cultivation world and the audience but also much of what happened when he was alive #(tho most of what happened when he was alive the first time is only revealed to the audience) #like i know mxtx is hardly the first author to do this but like. i just enjoy it so much? #anyway thats all i love her #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #svsss #tgcf #cql #mdzs #mxtx #✌️

[incorrectskyrimquotes]

Sometimes I make posts but they're very Mad posts so i put them in my drafts where they can rot forever :)

#btw #i dont ever vague like. my mutuals or friends or anyone like that #at most im vagueing stupid tags/comments or my inbox #but a couple people have mentioned they were worried they annoyed me #and that i then vagued and no i promise #no one im directly interacting with annoys me #and i DO want to be friends im just awful w dms and generally a very excitable person #and as ive said many times (esp in the past week but even before that) #i dont WANT to be a discourse or drama or anything like that blog. i am here for fun #and you are here for fun #we are having FUN

[orcelito]

Worked on pictures for about 8 hours straight, stopping a few times for crying breaks, but it's done. I made the slideshow and sorted it real nice. The sorting was half the time by itself. But I think I did a good job.

Also emailed my advisor. Look at me go.

#speculation nation #negative/ #i guess. since i mentioned the crying. #ive been dissociating majority of the past week in that ive just not been feeling my emotions #oftentimes purposefully. a few times Very purposefully. #but sorting through the pictures like that. creating an entire timeline of my father from youth to recent #seeing him grow older (but not old enough) #it made me think of the full life he lived before now. so many experiences and so much joy #and then his death. sudden. clumsy. meaningless. #a man can live a full life with so much love #then one day. without any warning. he dies. #i think it was his girlfriend who mentioned us possibly being in shock. and i think she might be right. #such a sudden upheaval. and ive barely gotten the chance to process it #because theres so much to do so im kept plenty busy #but the times the veil lifts and i feel my emotions my heart hurts so much it feels like it's wrenching. #it's an awful feeling. so ive neen depending on the separation from my emotions to get me through. #it's done a marvelous job so far. but today. tomorrow. and especially saturday. i dont exactly have that option anymore. #i dont know what the next few days are gonna bring me #tbh i just want it to be over. #if im not gonna wake up from the nightmare of my dad being dead. then at least let it rest so it doesnt hurt so bad.

[evilmagician430]

some weird godboy. spence doodles to show what i think it would look like at full potential; what spencer was like at 12 (circa the cult of the mighty spence). this originally had text edited all over it added in mspaint explaining it all and labeling the drawings but i changed my mind and decided 2 just leave my signature and nothing else cause itz funnier that way.

#just know this thing COULD have up to 6 wings (3 sets) but i didnt feel like drawing insects wings that many times so i didnt draw them all #also not pictured is the cult itself ie the worshippers but i need 2 do more research on that cause ive nvr drawn them before. #venturiantale #venturiantale fanart #taleblr #spencer acachalla #the mighty spence #kidpix #god imagery #neon colors #cult mention #anthro #kidpix declared best medium for depictions of the Mighty Spence (the god). #out of the ones i use anyways. i havent touched a real REAL big boy art application in 4ever #images that are horrid to see and look at