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drvscarlett · 25 days

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Sweet Nothings (4)

Carlos Sainz x Pageant Queen!Reader

Summary: All that they ever wanted was sweet nothings but everything changed like midnight rain.

Sweet Nothings 1 2 3 4

A/N: the final installment for sweet nothings. thank you for your support for this one!! let me know your thoughts or send me an ask for blurbs!!!

2020

It was quite rare for the couple to stay at home. It was weird that they weren't out and about or even racing. Somehow they knew that this lockdown is taking a lot out of life out of them but they were still grateful to be spending it with each other.

Its also that period of time that Y/N has been asked a question.

"What do you want to do?"

A harmless question by Carlos. It was supposed to be something that asks her what does she want to do for the day but she ended up thinking about what does she want to do with her life.

She is 23, lots of people would say that she is still young and there's a lot of things to look forward to. But she can't help about what should she do as she grow older. There is this unspoken pressure that she has to do well before reaching a certain age.

"Carlos, mi amor, do you have plans?" Y/N asked

The man in question met her eyes, he was visibly confused by the question.

"What plans mi amor? Do you mean to ask if I have zoom meetings?"

"No, I mean what's your plan in the future?"

"Well, I'm planning to win a championship, then I'm going to marry you, we will build our family, continue winning, retire, travel the world with you again" Carlos enumerates.

She smiles at her inclusion in Carlos' plans for the future. It was not new knowledge for the both of them that they plan to marry each other and build a family someday. They have already reached a point in their relationship where it feels right to discuss such plans.

"Why did you ask?" Carlos wondered "any change of plans?"

"Not at all, just curious"

2021

Sebastian Vettel is a force to be reckon with. He speaks up to different issues and he won't allow anyone to hinder him. It was a stark contrast from the Sebastian Vettel from Red Bull which is why Y/N always call him the wise sage.

Carlos and Y/N have been invited by Sebastian for an outreach program. Y/N insisted on going and Carlos went along because there was nothing on his schedule for that day. It was that time that Y/N managed to speak to the children about their living situations and how Sebastian gave her an advice.

"You seem to be enjoying yourself" Sebastian noticed "First time doing programs like this?"

"I haven't done these in a while" Y/N admits.

Her very first experience with outreaches like this would have been in high school. It started out as a requirement for school where they have to do community services before they could finish the academic year. There were plenty of slum areas in her home country so she would always be participating in outreach programs or medical missions to help them. It was quite taxing but it was something that she enjoyed doing. She remembered how it was no longer a requirement but she still finds herself volunteering.

Y/N doesn't know how long she has been rambling,Sebastian was a really good listener.

"I didn't see you as that type of person you know"Sebastian said "It's a different side of you"

"What kind of person do you think I am?"

"For starters, I know you do modelling so you are a pretty face. It is a perfect match for Carlos, he is a pretty boy you know" Sebastian discussed.

Y/N has to hold a little laugh because she knows the topic is serious. She just know that Carlos will be elated to be called pretty boy by the sebastian vettel.

"You are always very supportive of Carlos and you cannot be associated without Carlos so I feel like its a good thing that you have a side of you that makes you seperate from Carlos"

The conversation with Sebastian seems to struck a chord in her heart. Everyone thinks that Y/N is a full-time WAG and she knows that it is true. But if someone ask what does Y/N do besides being a full-time WAG the answer is modelling. It still doesn't seem right for Y/N that she's not doing enough of an impact.

"You feel it too right? You know you have to get out of the box of just being Carlos' girlfriend" Sebastian worded it out for Y/N.

"Is that a good thing that I want to be more than just Carlos' girlfriend and create an impact just like you?" she wonders.

"It's not a bad thing at all" Sebastian assured. He would be the one to know especially when he has a wife that has been extremely supportive of him being vocal about his opinions. He knows a true partner would understand.

"But this might change things" and Y/N knows that she might lose Carlos in the process.

"Sometimes we have to sacrifice some things to get better things"

Y/N looked at the children who were happily eating. She wanted to bring more of that to the world. But then she also saw the glint of her necklace, a gift from Carlos.

Can't she have both?

2022

Carlos didn't mean to snoop around her things. It just so happens that he will be using the computer to email someone when he noticed that Y/N left her email open. He was about to delete the message he just sent by going through the sent tab when he noticed an email.

Application for Miss Universe Philippines.

Surely if Y/N is joining then Carlos would have known. So he clicked the email and was surprised by the contents. He felt like there was a cold bucket of ice poured over him.

"Mahal, you wouldn't believe the price of these mangoes I got from the market" Y/N entered the shared apartment "What are you.."

Y/N stops in her tracks as he noticed that Carlos was in front of her computer.

"When will you tell me about this?"he wondered

"I didn't mean to keep it a secret Carlos"

Carlos could feel a twinge as he was called by his name. It was going to end up to be a fight between the two of them.

"Why didn't you tell me that you want to be Miss Universe?" Carlos repeated

"It's not something that I have planned honestly. I just want to try something new and you know that email is just a shot in the dark, I don't even know if I'll be qualified to compete"Y/N explained

"But still, when did you start dreaming of being Miss Universe" Carlos asked.

Y/N started pacing as she tries to find the rigt words to say. Carlos looked at her with worry and he felt left out with the plans that she is creating. They both knew that this is a turning point in their relationship.

"It just happened carlos. I just wanted to use my voice to make an impact or change. I don't want to be just a pretty face and do nothing with my life" there was the frustration and floodgates opening.

Y/N felt herself collapsing after hearing the silence. This is what she feared initially that Carlos won't get her dreams and this will be the end of their relationship. She ruined a perfectly good thing.

But as million of things and scenarios are going through her head, Carlos slowly made his way to her. He takes her hand into his and lifted her chin to meet his eyes.

"Amor, do you think I will hinder you from your dreams?" the gentleness of his voice is the calm that she needs.

"You're not mad?"

"Why would I be mad at you?" he asked "I just wanted a little heads up. I just want to know what you are up to. Im happy to support you if this is what you want"

Bursting into tears,Y/N leaned forward to hug Carlos. Weeks of tiptoeing is over and all she had to do was come clean.

2023

It was the morning after the Singapore Grand Prix when Y/N received the message. She was utterly shocked upon reading the email that she was appointed to represent one of the provinces for Miss Universe Philippines. It felt like a dream so she had to make Carlos read it to make sure she isn't dreaming.

"This is amazing news mi amor!"

Carlos was in glee. He just won a Grand Prix and now his girlfriend is going to compete for her dreams. It was like he was enveloped in a high that he failed to notice the sad eyes that Y/N has.

"Why are you not happy? Aren't you supposed to be happy?" Carlos wondered.

The reality is sinking in that if Y/N accepts this then her whole world will change. No more attending Grand Prixs. No more spending all her time with Carlos. She will be very busy and Carlos will also be very busy.

"Its going to be difficult. There are trainings, meetings,and everything" she is feeling overwhelmed.

"Okay take deep breaths amor"

The couple sits down and Carlos fetched a glass of water for Y/N to drink. He understands how Y/N often has a tendency to overthink or overcomplicate things when it is within her reach.

"I don't think I deserve this"she says

"Nonsense."Carlos disagrees "You are going to compete with that amor. You are going to compete and you are going to win"

"If I do that then I will be leaving you behind mahal. No more hotel rooms,no more grand prixs,no more spontaneous date nights"

The smile on Carlos face falters. Y/N takes a heavy breath, she knows that its for the better. She cannot ask Carlos to put his life on hold for her. She knows that next year, Carlos will want to try to win the championship. She has long accepted that she is ready to free Carlos in case she cannot support him anymore.

"I think we should break up"Y/n dropped.

"No" Carlos' reply came swiftly

"Listen mahal this is how its going to end up. Were both going to busy and then we will fall apart. Its best to end it while were on good terms"Y/N rationalizes.

"Im not listening,no no"Carlos stood up and walked away.

Y/n went to chase the Spanish driver. Tears were already spilling in her eyes because she didn't want to do this and Carlos is not making it easier for the two of them.

"Mahal please,listen to me"

"Why are you breaking up with me? This doesn't change things between us"Carlos reasoned.

"It will change a lot of things."she answered back "Its not going to be the same and its gonna be difficult"

"But no matter how difficult it is,I refuse to break up with you" Carlos states "I love you Y/N and I cannot just stop loving you or let go of you just because things are difficult."

"But what about your dreams?"

"I'll continue chasing my dreams. You chase yours. I'll support you no matter what"Carlos assures.

Yes, it has been years since they got together. Y/N still can't believe her luck with Carlos. Sometimes she feels as if he is unreal and way too good to be with her.

"Are you really willing to put up with me?" Y/N wonders

"I have never been more sure of anything in my life"

His hands intertwined with her as he places a soft kiss on her forehead.

"We'll be alright"

2024

It was a busy start of the year for Y/N. Ever since Suzuka GP ended, she flew back to her home country to train and to prepare. It was honestly very draining but she finds herself enjoying the whole process.

Y/N and Carlos decided that it will be best to keep their relationship on the down low. They are still together but they just have to keep it lowkey for the timebeing so that they can both focus on achieving their dreams. Carlos understands how Y/N didn't want to win just because she is popular as Carlos' girlfriend, she wants to win for her advocacy. Technically they are not broken up, they are on a time out. Its not an arrangement that a lot of people deal with but then again they don't share that bond that Y/N and Carlos had.

They don't usually talk a lot these days since they are both busy but upon reading that article after her evening shoot,Y/N made a call right away.

'Lewis Hamilton moving to Ferrari in 2025'

Y/N couldn't describe how pained she feels for Carlos. She remembered how Carlos mentioned it a few weeks ago that they have been arranging a contract extension. She remembered how she kept assuring him that Ferrari won't let go of him,not after he broke Red Bull's streak. There are no words to describe how much she feels terrible about the situation.

"Mi amor?" Carlos picked up "Its late there in the Philippines why did you call?"

"The article is it true mahal?"

There was a pause on the other line and Y/N felt her heartbreaking.

"I didn't know. It seems unreal but I just got off from a call with Fred and they are really dropping me"Carlos confirms.

"That's so so shitty. They are so fucking shitty. I'm gonna go and wage war with Ferrari. First they fuck up your strategies then now they drop you"she was seething.

"Amor, you can't be rash. There's nothing we could do about it"Carlos, always the voice of reason.

"Where are you?" Y/N asked "Should I book a plane ticket now? I'm gonna give you a hug"

"Amor,you have duties there as a competitor for miss universe philippines"

"I don't care. You are somewhere half across the world and you just got dropped off and I need to be with you" Y/N's desperation could be heard from the phone.

There was a heavy sigh on Carlos end.

"Amor, I'll be alright. Your mere call is more than enough to make me feel like I am not alone"Carlos assures.

"Im sorry mahal,I couldn't be there" she says sadly.

"You are always here in my heart"

Miles and miles away but the two hearts have never been far apart from each other. They spent the entire night talking about their new plans with the following changes that happened.

ChiliUpdates just posted a photo.

ChiliUpdates CARLOS SAINZ WINS THE 2024 WDC! WHAT A SEASON CARLOS SAINZ!!!!

User3 man went from losing an appendix to winning the WDC

User4 OHMYGODDDDDD THAT IS SUCH AN ICONIC MOVE

User5 Carlos Sainz gets axed by Ferrari then wins the WDC then refuses to elaborate.

User7 EL MATADOR!!!! CARLOS SAINZ EL MATADORRRRRRRR!!!

User8 I really love this el matador nickname because he ended red bull's dominance

User9 he is so ICONIC!!!

YNjpeg just posted a photo

liked by CarlosSainz55, LandoNorris, and 762,987 others.

YNjpeg four different colors and there is never a moment that I didn't adore. You are now a world champion and there are no words to describe how proud I am of you. To see you transform into the man that you are today is an honor and a privilege. Never ever stop being you.

Once again, congratulations world champion Carlos Sainz!

CarlosSainz55 Mi amor, thank you for always believing me

User1 OHMYGOD WHAT IS THIS????

User2 TELL ME YOU TWO ARE BACK TOGETHER

User3 Y/N isn't even in the paddock a while ago but she wrote this message???

User4 GET BACK TOGETHER MY DIVORCED PARENTS

User5 Our Miss Universe 2024 and our WDC 2024, name a more iconic duo

User6 the respect that they have for each other.

2027.

CarlosSainz55 and Y/Njpeg posted a photo

CarlosSainz55 we survived the great war.

YNjpeg I'm always thankful for all my lucky stars that they brought you to me. I love you forever mahal.

User5 RUE WHEN WAS THIS????

User7 I DIDNT KNOW THEY WERE STILL TOGETHER??? WE HAVENT SEEN THEM TOGETHER IN TWO YEARS????

User8 is this real??? chat is this real?

LandoNorris FINALLY!

SebastianVettel what a lovely couple, you both deserve each other

Charles_Leclerc mate FINALLY!!!!

#f1 imagine #f1 x reader #carlos sainz x reader #carlos sainz imagines #f1 fic #f1 smau

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ldrfanatic · 5 days

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Slytherin Boys as 1989 Songs

+ bonus! the slytherin boys as romance tropes

I decided to shake this one up a bit and do all happy love songs

here's 1989 (tv ofc); which taylor swift album should i do next?

(mattheo riddle, draco malfoy, theo nott, lorenzo berkshire)

slytherin boys masterlist nav

mattheo riddle as I Know Places

best lyric(s) - "let them say what they want we won't here it" + "love's a fragile little flame it could burn out" + "just grab my hand and don't ever drop it"

trope - enemies to lovers :)

mattheo w a crush - in love, mattheo is somewhere in the middle between being sappy and just straight up insulting you. not like calling you ugly or anything but like "damn i didn't know it was possible to mess up such an easy spell" like kind of teasing. he's one of those guys that will be mean at first and then be like playfully mean and then finally, will start being nice to you but only sometimes. he just thinks you're adorable when you're angry.

mattheo as a boyfriend - now as a boyfriend, mattheo still teases the hell out of you but god forbid literally anyone else does bc he'll kill them. like actually. also the pair of you go through a little bit of a rough patch during the war and he keeps telling you that you have to stay way from him but secretly, he's really happy that you never actually listen to him because he doesn't know what he would do without you. he just kind of ignores all the whispers and hogwarts becomes your guys' like safe little happy love bubble.

draco malfoy as Out of the Woods

best lyric(s) - "the rest of the world was black and white, but we were in screaming color" + "when you started crying baby i did too, when the sun came up i was looking at you" + "I walked out I said 'i'm setting you free' but the monsters turned out to be just trees"

trope - everyone can see it except for you

draco w a crush - I think draco would be the kind of guy that actively avoided his crush. like if you were sitting in the very front of transfigurations, he was sitting in the absolute furthers corner in the back. If you were going on the hogsmeade trip, he was begging his friends would leave him to simmer in his affections for you. he's just so nervous and so certain you'll dislike him that he'd rather not talk to you at all. when he finally does work up the courage, he's extremely happy and like eternally grateful that you'd give him a chance.

draco as a boyfriend - i do think though that draco is not always the best at communicating just because he always wants everything to be so perfect and he doesn't want there to be anything that he says that could make you resent him so he'd rather not say anything at all. obv, this doesn't work out well for him cause like... communicating w you is so essential. y'all get into arguments fairly regularly but you always end up making up because he's always just creating those demons in his head and it's almost never that serious.

theodore nott as Suburban Legends

best lyric(s) - "you were so magnetic it was almost obnoxious" + "when you hold me, it holds me together and you kiss me in a way that's gonna screw me up forever" + "you'd be more than a chapter in my old diaries with the pages ripped out"

trope - hopeless romantic

theo w a crush - I think with a crush theo would be the kind of guy that just simps like a mf. like you need someone to carry your books, he's there, why would you even try to carry them yourself? just let him take care of it. or like, when you're not feeling well and you might need to spend a few days in the hospital wing, while you're sleeping theo sneaks in and leaves the notes for the classes you missed as well as your favorite sweets and flowers. (one time when michael corner made you cry, he beat the snot out of him and then the next day left this huge teddy bear outside your door with the note "y/n, that douchebag sucks. -tn")

theo as a boyfriend - theo's simp nature carries over when he's a bf so he's super freaking caring. he does literally everything for you. he'll brush your hair when you get out of the shower if you ask. or if you're like me and you have like thicker ethnic hair, he'll ask you to show him how to do your hair so that he can do it for you. he's also one of those guys that's like casually dominant. like hand on your lower back in a crowd, opening your doors, reaching up and grabbing things from the top shelf for you. naturally protective in the sense of like he always wants to sleep closest to the door in case something happens and like is also always making sure you eat and get enough water.

lorenzo berkshire as "Slut!"

lyric(s) - "and if i'm gonna be drunk, i might as well be drunk in love" + "and i break down then he's pulling me in. in a world of boys he's a gentleman" + "got love struck went straight to my head"

trope - friends to lovers

enzo w a crush - enzo is the kind of guy who's not afraid to be in love. he actually loves it. he loves having someone to compliment and shower in gifts and win over. where mattheo would tease you, draco would avoid you, and theo would lose himself in you, enzo is the guy who would bring you inexplicable joy and make sure you knew that it was him that was bringing you joy. not to say that he wouldn't do sweet gestures and such but he's the sort of guy that will make you his best friend and then make you fall in love with him.

enzo as a boyfriend - because of this, you and enzo are like those like childhood friends turned lovers type of thing. he just knows you so well and the love between you two comes so easily. he makes it his personal mission to make you smile at least once a day. as your boyfriend, he's just really playful. things like pillow fights and tickle fights. he's also that boyfriend that will do all those little stupid tiktok trends with you but like really energetically and not just like half-assed bc if it's gonna make you smile, he's going all in.

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4.25.24

wc 1k

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#slytherin boys #slytherin #theodore nott #theo nott #theo nott x reader #theodore nott x reader #slytherin boys x reader #draco malfoy #lorenzo berkshire #enzo berkshire #enzo berkshire x reader #mattheo riddle x reader #mattheo riddle #draco malfoy x reader #lorenzo berkshire x reader

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roo-bastmoon · 1 year

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Incredibly lucky to even be here

I just realized, exactly one year ago today (May 11th) I was diagnosed with endometrial stromal sarcoma and given less than a 34% chance of survival. I'm incredibly, miraculously lucky to be well and cancer-free today. I owe that to my amazing doctors, and also in a small way to BTS.

The moment I got told I had cancer, I immediately decided to only entertain thoughts of complete health and victory. It was a pure and immediate defense mechanism and I stuck to it. So no sad songs or movies or TV shows. No online drama. No negative nellies or naysayers. No stressful projects at work. No arguments, no entanglements, no regrets.

For months, I would focus only on laughter and quality time with loved ones and things that brought me joy, even as I had to deal with practical stuff like creating a will and a pet trust and filling out life insurance forms and undergoing test and surgeries.

BTS (and Jimin, as my "recruiter") gave me moments of grace and beauty and art and warmth and giggles--and kind ARMYs gave me a sense of belonging and community, especially during a dark and terrifying time, when in the quiet of the early morning hours, the sense that my own body was my worst enemy would eat at all my mental defenses. I could switch on my phone, go to the timeline, and ARMY and BTS would be there.

If I seem to be very Pollyanna-ish or boringly polite these days, it's because I decided one year ago to focus on what I want instead of giving energy to what I don't. I know bad things are very real and they need to be confronted--of course! But I also know that depression, anger, and fear can erode the myelin sheath wrapped around our nerve endings and weaken the walls in the chambers of our hearts; that toxic emotions can bleach our hair of color and rob our nails and skin of suppleness; that negativity can lengthen our immuno-response times to bruises and cuts.

So if other folks get a thrill, a hit of adrenaline, from drama and trash talking in our fandom, more power to them, I guess. It must serve them in some way I don't understand. Me? I find meanness and pettiness draining and damaging. So I'll never do that. I'll never rudely call someone out in public or go on their blog to rant or snipe openly about members or fellow ARMY. I will just keep myself to myself and do my best to be authentic and kind and hard working.

Doesn't always work. I'm human. I will absolutely make mistakes (case in point--the campaign idea yesterday that could have really harmed Jimin. I didn't think about all the consequences and I'm so grateful to the people who patiently set me straight.) Please know that if you ever feel strongly I'm going in the wrong direction, you can always speak to me--I'll ask a million questions, I'll hear you out, and I'll try to be flexible in my mindset. You don't have to hide behind throw-away accounts or talk to others about me. I will do my best to always be kind and act in good faith with everyone. (But I'll likely still make some mistakes, because my intentions are good but I myself am not perfect.)

By and large, I feel I'm just really astronomically lucky to be here. I know the kind of cancer I had is very sneaky and could come back at any time. So how I spend my time left in this life matters to me. I want to be a source of good in the world, help other people, experience bliss and celebrate good things. I don't want to be selfish or destructive. If I start to go that way, I know good friends will gently call me back.

Like BTS, I want to connect with people and help build something worthy. So if you're on board with that, let's be friends. And if you're not, let's part amicably.

I just... figured I should probably say that... out loud. So that's that on that.

Love you guys,

Roo

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mikunology · 5 months

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Hey!!! Congrats on hitting your donation goal first off, I'm really happy that you've got the money you need :3

Second!! At the hypothetical start of the story, where would everyone be in terms of development (like what challenges they need to overcome, etc)? Since i saw you discussing rin/len character growth things hehe >:)

hello!! thank you very much, I'm honestly really surprised I was able to meet the goal so soon?? but I'm seriously grateful ;v;

:0c!! good question! um, lessee...I was gonna write this out as paragraphs but my dumb brain isn't working correctly so I'm gonna bullet point it

Goals for Miku, summed up:

finding out what being a "hero", an "idol" and a "kind person" really means to her

become less of a coward, adapt to her new status as a heroine and realize the consequences of sitting idly/being too naive

stand up for herself and set better boundaries so that she doesn't drive herself to insanity trying to please people or letting people walk all over her

be more honest with the people around her about her feelings rather than keeping everything to herself/stop being afraid of ruining other people's images of her

learn to manage her anxiety better

Goals for Rin:

TAME YOUR EGO, MISSY. JESUS CHRIST

putting aside her self-imposed rivalry with Miku and realize that she doesn't need to be like Miku (or Len, for that matter) to be successful

learn to become more genuinely confident and not rely on bravado and arrogance

learn to be more mature and pay more mind to others' needs and desires (and realize that she can't rely on Len for everything)

learn to work better with others and handle criticism, both in terms of playing music and in terms of acting as part of the superhero team

learn to manage her temper. just a little.

Goals for Len:

STOP COMPARING YOURSELF TO EVERYBODY AROUND YOU I'M BEGGING

realizing that people (including his family) like him for the way he is and that everyone won't abandon him because he isn't perfect

learn to take himself less seriously and find more fun in doing things (Rin helps him with this)

learn to not get defensive and handle criticism as well

believe it or not, Kagamine Len. you are not always right

stop working yourself to death I swear to god

find genuine confidence in himself and his own abilities

Goals for Luka:

figure out what kind of person she wants to be and how to get there

figure out her own reasons for singing and fighting that don't just follow the others

learn to be comfortable with herself even if she can't be like the others

realize that logic and efficiency doesn't dictate everything and that she's allowed to have fun doing things just as much as everyone else

learn that just because she's a robot she doesn't have to put up with just anything done or said to her

learn how to better communicate how she feels and what she's thinking

I'll leave you with these for now!

#asks #vocal android verse #sorry this took a bit to answer!! had to think a little bit

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thelaundrybitch · 1 year

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Little Blue Hearts Update - Chapter 35

Well hellooooo Turtle Doves 😍

I hope everyone had a Happy Holiday Season!

This next chapter brings you a new POV...

Whaaaaaaattt....

18+ content - for mature audiences only!

Reblogs only, please!

Little Blue Hearts cover art by the lovely @leosgirl82

Diversions

~Michelle~

Operation Diversion starts almost immediately as we enter the kitchen.

Well…

Almost.

Liv-eonardo are having a moment.

And I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t cute as hell.

It actually starts as I’m sitting in the chair that Raphael has set up for me.

He's such a gentleman.

Sweet… Kind… Caring…

BIG… Strong

Good God, the things I would do to him…

Oh shit, where’s my brain…

Right there in the same boat with poor lovesick Liv.

Thirst First… Amiright?

"Proposal Cookies!" Ashley practically yells, eyes bulging out of her face as she fails to get Liv’s brain back online and off of Planet Leo.

By the 'pining-idiots-in-love' looks on their faces, I'm guessing nothing transpired between them last night when we left them with some alone time. Most of us had a meeting last night discussing our concerns about Liv's mental health after being out cold for nearly three months. We all decided it was best if she could get back to doing some of her favorite hobbies. One of those hobbies being baking.

The only ones not in attendance were Liv and Leo. Mike had corralled the pair of them to the movie room after Ashley mentioned we all needed to get going and that it had already been a long night.

I love how smooth she slips in a code and he just flies with it.

They really are perfect for each other.

I watch as Liv lands back on Earth with the rest of us, looking panicked as Leo whispers to her.

"Proposal Cookies?" I inquire, trying to help my girls out.

Liv's cheeks pinken but she smiles, glancing at me quickly with a grateful smile. "Yeah… I get teased by this one," she says, pointing her thumb over her shoulder at Ashley, "because every time I make them for a company party or community event, people always tell me they'd marry me on the spot or they ask for my hand in marriage after their first bite," she explains, looking down in embarrassment.

Leo's face goes from smitten kitten to unimpressed homicidal maniac.

I hear Splinter huff out a silent snicker at the sight of his eldest son's extreme dismay, before he pipes in.

"These sound like quite the cookies," He says, incredible intrigue dripping from each syllable while he tries to hide the devilish smile spreading across his face.

"Liv! You should totally make some for everyone!" Ashley says, a little too excited, glancing from Splinter to me, and then quirking a quick eyebrow at Mike.

"I can help if you'd like!" Mike says, smiling nervously as he checks to see if Leo is on the same page.

And, of course, Leo is right there, already understanding what we're doing.

"What do you think?" Leo asks Liv, giving her that signature Prince Charming smile of his. "I know I'd love to try these cookies."

"Really? You wouldn't mind if I used your kitchen?" Liv spins around asking Mike, eyes full of life at the thought of engaging in one of her beloved hobbies.

"I would be insulted if you didn't want to make these cookies in my kitchen," Mike tells her. The smile on his face is genuine and you can see tears of joy welling in Liv’s eyes.

Hallelujah

This poor girl needs a boost of inner happiness and self-love after all the trauma she's been through.

I glance at Splinter, who looks pleased as pie.

"I, too, look forward to these cookies," he says, pausing for a moment. "But perhaps we can rename them," he winks right before sipping his tea.

So smooth. I can’t help but smirk at the elderly Rat.

The kitchen goes back to its previous hustle and bustle as everyone retrieves a giant cinnamon roll from Mike, who is plating them at the island.

As I go to get up, Raph puts his hand on my back and leans in towards my ear, whispering, “Stay and relax. I’ll get you some breakfast.”

Oh, Holy Night.

The weight of his hand on my back…

His breath down my neck…

My brain is sinking fast.

Shake it off, Michelle. Shake it off.

I take a deep breath and feel a kick under the table.

Don is staring at me with an evil twinkle in his eye.

“Hey, Raph,” he calls to his brother, while still staring me down.

Oh, you mother…

I grit my teeth and shake my head at him in warning.

But this only provokes him.

Raph comes back to the table with plates for me, Splinter, and himself. The look of curiosity on his face is so adorable it’s taking everything I have not to kiss the shit out of him.

“Do you mind walking the ladies to work? I had something come up that I really need to look into…” Don begins.

Before I can open my mouth to tell him that we’ll be fine walking together, Ashley pipes in.

“Oh actually that would be perfect! I got a call from the nurse’s station about twenty minutes ago! Nancy needed to swap shifts. So, I’m working this afternoon instead of this morning,” Ashley confesses, giving me the same mischievous smile.

Liv turns her head and gives me a hopeful smile.

How can you love and hate people at the same time?

“I’d be honored, if you’d let me walk you to work,” Raph says with a tenderness in his voice that makes my heart do backflips.

I feel the heat sweeping over my face as I swallow hard and turn to look at him.

Fakhdnflajjerfl

Alsdkgfjanm

Lksjdfohandk

I’m gonna melt to the damn folding chair if he keeps looking at me like that.

“If you’re uncomfortable…” he says, hurt flashing through his eyes as I feel Don kick me again.

“NO!” I panic. “I want you!” I blurt out, making Don snicker. “To!” I try to correct my embarrassing blunder but realize I sound like a complete lunatic.

Raph raises an eyebrow ridge, a smirk plays at the corner of his sexy lips.

“Oh, good!” Splinter exclaims. “I am so happy that everyone’s feelings are out in the open now!”

“Wait, what?” I ask, looking from an exuberant Splinter to a now mortified Raphael.

“You want him, too… I’m assuming he has already confessed his feelings for you?” Splinter asks in obvious feigned innocence.

I’m pretty sure I hear the record scratch to a stop, as the entire kitchen goes deadly silent.

Again.

Looking at the beautiful man beside me, I see the dread on his face as he stares blankly at his father.

“No?” asks Splinter. “Well, I guess you two have something to discuss on the way to the hospital,” he chuckles, standing from his spot. “Donatello, I would like to accompany you to the lab. I, too, am curious about your findings.”

Don puts both half-eaten cinnamon rolls on one plate. He goes to grab what's remaining of their breakfasts, but Liv is already up and grabbing Splinter’s arm to assist him as Leo is grabbing the plate and some napkins, leaving Don with the hot beverages.

“You think we can hang it before I leave for work?” I hear Ashley ask Mike as they follow the others out of the kitchen.

Those rat bastards. They pulled a fast one on us.

And here I am, thinking we were trying to con Liv into making cookies to brighten her spirits!

“Is it true?” Raphael’s voice is laced with apprehension.

I can’t look at him.

Swallowing nervously, I nod.

“Good,” he breathes out, gently turning my face toward his and pressing his lips to mine.

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I'd just like to say I love your page, and I love your work im sure it takes a lot of time and effort I appreciate it thank u <3

Hello and thank you so much!! I appreciate all the support. I'm definitely not perfect, but I'm present/I always want to stay engaged here -since there are many issues going on in the world that we should be talking about/be attentive to/be aware of/be in solidarity with because there's a lot we need to be challenging and resisiting against -such as those oppressive institutions and systems.

Everyone has been so kind and supportive, and I'm genuinely grateful to the community I've found here, and I'm happy to share this space. Thank you and to everyone endlessly 💛

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rockofeye · 1 year

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The last three weeks of the year always feel like a dark night for me. Not in a bad way, really, but in a way that brings me a sense of profound stillness. It feels like 3AM all of the time which, for me, is kind of the magic hour when the noise of everyone else falls quiet and I find a deep sense of clarity in the silence.

I love my silence. In a perfect world, I'd be able to be up until those quiet hours and then be able to function in the morning, but I am no longer young and my sleep pattern will kick my butt. I spend most of the silent dark hours asleep and dreaming, but the the seasonal shift to a 3AM feel is like putting on a comfy sweater. It marks a descent into a period of expectation and rebirth, whether we have anything planned for that or not, and my eyes are looking for the star that is the light of a new year breathing forth.

It's imagery that I'm sure I carry from my time in church as a kid and the memory of when I needed the light more than anything else. In all honesty, it's not really a memory. Maybe now more than ever before, we collectively need the light and are seeking it. The world by and large continues to fail us at a breakneck speed and it can feel overwhelming. So, we fix our eyes on the star.

Sometimes this sort of meditative approach towards ending the year makes me feel contrary to everything else that's happening. It is Makaya time, arguably one of the hottest times of the year, when the world at large regardless of belief is influenced by one of the most important spiritual happenings in history; the divine comes down and takes flesh. There are no coincidences, and so the lwa harness that and transmute it for our benefit. They take this meteoric energy and use it to heal us through community and medicine and fire and the pilon.

Yet, I'm over here having my own meditative experience like the weirdo that I am. Over a decade ago(!), I had divination that communicated that I needed to be able to be able to sit in the midst of the storm and be unbothered and unruffled. Maybe I have learned that? Maybe I am able to sit in the (metaphorical) flames and not be burned. If I am, I'm probably not very good at it...if I were good at it, maybe I would say 'FUCK' less and not roll my eyes quite as much.

I am not doing what I would like to be doing tonight. Instead of tending a large lamp through the night and completing my baths and preparing tomorrow's meal, I am at one of my jobs watching over people who suffer far more than I do in my life, no matter what petty bullshit makes me say FUCK and roll my eyes. Instead of keeping watch on a lamp, I am keeping watch on the children of the lwa, because all people who suffer like my clients do belong to Gede, because he suffers with them. It is it's own vigil, even if it means I am sitting up in an office in comfy pants, versus sitting up in my badji in my new white clothes.

My husband tells me not to worry; he has prayed for me and for us and he has the lamps going. I will finish my baths tomorrow and he assures me (with a grin) that he will eat soup for me in the morning when I am going to bed after I finish my shift. I am lucky that we balance each other so well.

I am excited for this next year, which feels strange; the last few years have been such a challenge that it would be easier to give into dread, but the seeds of excitement seem to be growing and I for one am pretty grateful.

I pray for a continuation of that excitement to carry me through the year, and I pray for a heart that remains grounded in hope, which is the doorway for my growth as an individual. I pray for joy-filled anticipation of all the good things that are going to come my way, and I pray for perseverance when things are challenging. I pray that the lwa pour cool water on the parts of me that need healing and blow rum on the parts of me that need strength. I pray for ease when the road is difficult and rest when I am tired, and I pray for vulnerability and compassion when I want to close off and when I feel overwhelmed. I pray for abundance in all areas of my life and an overflowing sense of belonging. I pray that Legba will continue to throw open the gates for me and that I will continue to open doors for myself so that I may welcome my blessings and guide the blessings meant for others. I pray for my ancestors and for their vision for me, and I ask them to pray for me, too, for all the areas I may have overlooked.

I pray for the same things for you, too, and pray that your year brings you excitement, fulfillment, and overflowing blessings. May you wake up on the first day of this new year with hope, gratitude, and preparation for the road ahead.

#vodou #haitian vodou #new year #new blessings #spiritual work

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marshmallowprotection · 11 months

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Hello Kait ^^ it's been a while. I was wondering if you could do matchups with one of the boys?

So... I'm an INFJ, 22 years old and currently majoring in intercultural communication degree. I'm the eldest daughter out of four siblings and my love languages are act of service and words of affirmation. I can converse in two languages (Malay and English) and have quite decent knowledge in Arabic, Korean, Japanese and currently learning French.

I tend to describe myself as quiet, strict at times and observant. I'm also more of a listener than a talker most of the time. I don't have too much social battery so I need to recharge from time to time even when I'm hanging out with my loved ones. So I'm very grateful they're all aware of this and would let me be once they saw me getting quiet after a long day out.

Because of my observant nature, I tend to remember a lot especially when it comes to people I consider important in my life. I remember the smallest details about them; interest, hope, fears and dreams since that's how I show my love and adoration towards them.

I also tend to be strict partially because of the role I have in my family. You know, making sure everyone is taken care of and the family doesn't fall apart. This would sometimes lead people to perceived me as demanding or even controlling when all I want is for everything to be in balance.

I don't trust people easily and will have my guards up high whenever I met new people. It requires quite a lot of patience before I can warm up to someone. But of course, once my heart deemed you trustworthy, I'm more than glad to show a more colorful side of me.

I have a soft spot for my loved ones. And because I always have a hard time expressing my emotions, I tend to show my love with action and gestures rather than words. That's why I always prefer spending time quietly with each other rather than going out. But I'm in the headspace to talk and discuss things deeply, I can be talkative and even enthusiastic about the topic we're talking about.

I tend to be doubtful of people's intention or even my loved ones whenever I feel stressed or depressed. This would lead to me withdrawing and shutting them away from me as a mean to protect myself. That's why I think I need someone gentle, patient, thoughtful and considerate whenever my mind is not in a good place.

I'm very interested in languages, history and culture. My hobbies are reading, watching videos and I'm slowly getting back into writing as well. I'm a nerd and I know it.

I hope that's not too much? Thank you in advance and have a great day!

I match you with...

Jumin!

It's not for the reason you think it is. It has a lot more to do with your love language than anything else because you're the kind of person who takes a lot of satisfaction in not only having your personal time, but sharing that with somebody who doesn't make you do something you're not comfortable with at the end of the day. Which, makes you a perfect counterpart to Jumin. What he wants in a partner is somebody who can listen to him talk for hours and hours. As long as you're happy talking with him about everything and nothing all at once, there's nothing more that he could ask for. You know your limits and he would respect them more than anything in the world. There's something beautiful about that kind of dynamic that can only be achieved by being respectful to each other's needs.

He is the kind of passionate patience you need in your life because not many people in this world are capable of not only being understanding but considerate at the same time. Because you can certainly understand something that's going on in somebody else's life but you may not always be able to do something for it or even think to do something for it. Jumin does. I'm sure you feel the same way when it comes down to making sure that people are taken care of. Communication will be the key to having a great relationship with him, not only for your needs but his as well. The two of you share something and that is the reality of being insecure of the things you don't know without admitting it. It's a good thing communication can be not only a love language but a teacher.

The two of you are in control. The only place that you might clash is in that area because sometimes you may need to trade off who is in control of a situation or who is regulating what's happening. That isn't much of a bad thing, though. It's good to be proactive and aware.

#mod kait #ask #princessjung #matchup #matchups

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nguerrero · 11 months

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general info —

full name: natalie isabel guerrero

nickname: nat

age: 25

birthday: february 4th, 1998

sexual orientation: pansexual

residential area: downtown fairford

occupation: tour and event coordinator at her family's vineyard

gender: cis female

pronouns: she/her

traits:

+ Reliable, Independent, Knowledgable - Critical, Worried, Perfectionistic

about —

the youngest daughter of the guerrero family, nat was born into a life of financial stability and general comfort. she grew up in the farmlands, a huge estate that sometimes needed motorized transportation just to get around in it. (think of parker knoll in parent trap)

it was very clear to nat, from a fairly young age, that what the guerrero family had was a privilege, even if she didn't recognize it as such at that age. but she always knew she was lucky and knew that not everyone else had the same luck. despite her comfortable life, she never mistreated anyone based on their financial opportunities, although multiple times she has faltered and assumed that her daily commodities were norm.

unlike other kids, nat's room was always tidy and her school notes were color coded. she did not particularly excel in any particular subject, but loved english and languages. she still got by with decent grades and a lot of friends, despite the resting bitch face she grew into as she got older. she was in every single planning committee she could get into and helped coordinate multiple events in high school, as well as yearbooks and field trips. to this day, people talk about these events and remember them - and for good reason: nat would not allow herself anything short of perfection. a trait of hers that would end up developing anxiety and self-worth issues.

after graduating high school, her parents paid for her to study in barcelona for two years, but after getting homesick and struggling with her mental health, nat returned and finished her degree in business management in washington state. despite her threats and promises of moving away and traveling the world, she has never been able to leave her family and the fairford community for long.

she started working full-time at her family's vineyard as soon as she graduated college and is the best at hooking friends up with jobs at the vineyard too. she does most of the tour and event planning there, which is a big job - and it is surely burning her slowly, but nat claims that she loves it.

natalie loves her family and she's super grateful to them for everything they've provided for her, but has realized how coddled by them she's been her whole life, so she's on the search for her independence and her individuality, trying to figure out who she is outside of the guerrero bubble. she now lives downtown in an apartment, and is kind of struggling trying to figure out adulting by herself.

more!

although she's not the most creative nor does she really possess the skills, nat enjoys knitting. if she loves you, she has made you something.

she's a big people person and loves going out, aka huge extrovert. does things like paying for people's drinks as long as that means people are drinking with her.

speaks english, spanish, italian, and is learning korean.

some other hobbies of hers include: reading, travelling, wine tasting (duh), gym-going, and convincing people to let her organize their closet.

wanted connections —

members of the guerrero family. give her older siblings, or younger brothers, anything. pls.

adult friends! she's super outgoing and really loving once you get past the rbf.

one night stands/hookups

exes, failed situationships (from high school, college, or present day)

high school friends / lifelong friends: nat grew up in fairford, and her family is well-known.

gym buddy

neighbors in downtown

previous neighbors in farmlands

clients she's worked with at the vineyard

friends she's made traveling (barcelona friends would be cool but i'm open to more than just that!)

#fairfordintro #i am so bad at intros #like this and i'll slide into your dms for plots!

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fumbliesthots · 1 year

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2022 Review + Rezzo 2023

This post is almost a week late because I was trying to take it easy after my Bali meditation + fam vacation trip. This year end trip really made me appreciate the slow life where I was really trying not to overthink and over-plan. (Also, geez, what happened to me? When did I become this sort of person?)

It's only been 2 days into the new year and I'm beginning to feel tired of the super-fast pace of work life again. I must remind myself to take it down a notch, as John Green says. I'm not working in a hospital – nobody will die if my job doesn't get done.

But first, let's recap some things I'm really grateful for in 2022, in no particular order -

Gratitude list 2022

1. My parents: They are not perfect but they are always doing their best to care for us the ways they know how. I'm learning new things about their outlook in life recently. My mom is an optimist that makes the best out of every sucky unexpected situation because she just wants everyone to feel ok. I think I probably got that from her. My father cares a lot about the world at large. Although we have different views of what "good" is, I appreciate that side of him.

2. National Library Board: Ok nerd. I feel like somehow I'm reading more books than ever this year. And really starting to get back more into physical books. Although I still love Libby for its convenience, sometimes reading on digital devices can be distracting. So I really appreciate having such a great library system in Sg – I can choose either to hang out at a nearby air-conditioned library or just to lie in bed and scroll Libby on my phone. It's the top perk of being Singaporean IMO.

3. Authors: I cannot not mention the people that wrote those books I enjoyed so much from the library. Some of the books that moved me last year:

Jon Yates - Fractured: Why Our Societies Are Coming Apart and How We Put Them Back Together Again.

Brene Brown - Braving Wilderness, Dare to Lead, Atlas of the Heart (also her podcasts have helped me so much last year)

Hank Green - I don't read enough fiction so these YA books were a surprise pleasure for me: An Absolutely Remarkable Thing, A Beautifully Foolish Endeavor

Yanis Varoufakis - Talking to My Daughter About The Economy

4. The 3-Headed-Oracle: We completed 2 more writing challenges this year! I really appreciate the way we kept so consistent with this habit through the process, and got to know how each other thinks. I enjoyed learning how we see the world through different lenses, having their perspectives was really valuable and precious.

5. Workshops attended: Learning new self-awareness, critical thinking and communication skills at 2 in-person workshops which both happened at Common Ground - Facilitating Conversations for Change (by Shiao-yin), and Seeing & Shifting Systems (by Studio Dojo). These courses were so perspective-expanding that I wish more people would have the chance to attend. So I'm also grateful that my company has L&D funds for us to upskill ourselves.

6. Vipassana: Renewing my meditation practice at a 10-day course, and getting to disconnect from the world temporarily. Really amazing to have the opportunity to do that again after more than 6 years, such a privilege. This is my third time doing it but I somehow still gained new understanding and wisdom this time around.

7. XD Summer Offsite: Something about work - Meeting all my XD colleagues in person at our offsite in Prague. Even though this trip was expensive (they flew all of us in SG down) it was also necessary to at least start the process of gaining trust and building connections in the newly re-organized team.

8. Standing up XD Ops: Finally given the opportunity to upstand this new function officially in the group. I also learned that sometimes the right thing to do is to actively ask for things and not just wait for them to drop from the sky. Unsaid expectations and unset boundaries will just cause resentment. This is a huge theme this year for work. Clear is kind.

Intention review 2022

So what did I say I wanted to do last year? Balance? I regretfully say I did not achieve that. I was too busy balancing other people's priorities while neglecting my own. I was reading and learning a lot more, desperately trying to get more information about why things happen the way they do, trying to get more tools that could help solve the problems I see. As a result, I was feeling quite burnt out at some point, and people around me noticed.

I guess that was what pushed me to sign myself up to do a 10-day silent retreat again. I have to forcefully shut myself away and disconnect from the external world to find out what is happening inside myself.

A lot of things came up for me during my time meditating - the past, the future, imagination of things that has yet to come, assumptions of how things came to be. I have to remind myself, all these are anicca, impermanent. Stories in my mind that arise and will pass away. I am not the same person just 1 millisecond ago, what for carrying this baggage forward? What is more important is the choices I can make in the present moment, which is to sit here and observe my breathe and my body sensations. That's the only true thing.

Knowing all these theoretically is one thing, but the benefit of having these 10 day silent protected time is for us to actually start the process of rewiring our brains and stop the habitual impulse reactions of daily life.

But still, I guess these 10 days are not enough. I was refreshed and ready for the new year, yet, just 2 days in, facing all these unread emails and to-do lists leftover from last year, I'm starting to feel tired again. This won't do.

Intentions 2023

1. Spend more time practicing meditation. From past experience of previous retreats, my self-discipline has not been very strong when it comes to daily sittings. This a new strategy this time is to join a regular group. I've put a recurring event on my calendar to attend a weekly group sitting. Hopefully, this will help me maintain my practice.

2. Help my family be more healthy. In both body and mind. My parents are getting older, and although they are actively doing exercise by themselves, I think they would also benefit from learning Vipassana and begin the reduce their mental burden of growing old (and having the worrisome baggage of 3 single adult children lol). I'm also seeing how my bro is suffering from health problems because of an unhealthy lifestyle. He too could benefit from being more mindful of his habits. It may be a tall order to have them sign up for a 10-day meditation course, but hey, I've done harder things! 3. Turn things down a notch. I know it's counter-intuitive to say I have a deadline, but I've told my boss that I want to leave for my postgrad studies by the next year. So during this timeframe, I'm going to try my best to see what things I can create automated or self-running systems around, and maximize things that can be left undone. In short, how can I make myself dispensable? 4. Continue to serve others and build relationships, but be less "bottom". I used to think that there is a freedom that comes with being invisible and ego-less, and have used that easygoingness to get people to trust me and thus get what I need to be done. But I am starting to learn that doing things this way can be effective earlier in my career, but does not scale when I reached a certain level. Sometimes the right and kind actions are to actively set boundaries, keep clarifying situations, and align expectations. Don't try to be everything for everyone, instead, how can I help others learn how to help each other and help themselves?

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weareasthestars · 2 years

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I think a lot of people feel like the news could be the end of everything. Let me say after having been here for a long time, having cried and cheered with them and worked hard with their voices all around.

It's not.

The time we spent together can never be rewritten, it will always be there. Their music doesn't go away just because they're taking a break from being together. ARMY doesn't go away just because the members need something different from us and each other now.

I like to think I understand the nature of fandom and its machinery but I also understand more this very strange myth of perpetual growth and maybe more than that, the myth of perfection, and of being unilaterally better than everyone around you.

I'm always going to be proud of BTS for what they've done and what they've achieved, for their strength in getting here and for surviving what it took to make it to this point. The machinery they've had to fight against does not make living a life true to yourself easy but I think they have tried very hard to enable their own personal and professional growth even while receiving accolades across the world. (Honestly I don't blame them at all, and am not that surprised this news comes after three years of dealing with everything the American music academy and press circus has put them through... but that's another post and entirely my personal frustration about how they were continually treated in the music community, and how poc artists in the states and across the world are treated here...)

BTS have done so much to try and fill all our lives and to produce honest music. But you can't fill from an empty cup.

I'm wishing them the best and being so so grateful I got to experience even the tiniest bit of the community their music helped to build. I got close to two of my best friends from university through a conversation about the Wings comeback when I was otherwise too shy to approach them. I found another best friend partially through my new interest in Korean culture - her culture - and we are going to travel together this summer.

My wish for the guys is to rest well and be able to walk along the path they want to pursue next, for them to be able to dream more and to be satisfied with what they are doing, to be fulfilled, just like the rest of us living in this world.

As for myself? I'm going to keep living well. I know I have a quiet personality and not everyone feels this way, but I think one of the best things ARMY can do is keep being "representatives for youth", to be kind to ourselves and each other. We can keep reaching out to one another and to others who have never heard of BTS, all in their spirit of being "armor" for us against a world full of rigid structures and painful experiences. Keep teaching others how to hope, keep helping one another grow and make it to a kinder path. Keep your strength up and fight, slowly because growth is slow, and all at once because sometimes we need to be forceful in defending ourselves and others.

We'll see them again, in a different form, in different places, and singing different songs. What we had will never fade away even while time passes every year from June 13, 2013, until now. Remember, the Most Beautiful Moment in Life is yet to come.

#bts #bts hiatus #personal #long post #kim namjoon #kim seokjin #min yoongi #jung hoseok #park jimin #kim taehyung #jeon jungkook

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ally!!!!! i’ve always loved You Know Where the City Is but wow this is the best chapter by far! like i’ve gone from obsessed to mega ultra double obsessed. everyone talking about wrapping fic!matty in a bunch of blankets and feeding him some soup is so real- you always manage to make the most cozy sweetie pie characters no matter what the fic is about. (it goes without saying that fic! taylor much like the real deal is just perfect and i love her)

counting down the chapters till we meet fic!george. so intrigued to see how there relationship will play out since you said it might not be what we expect…. love a good surprise!!!!

im practically bursting with excitement to read the christmas fic and any of the prompts you have been working on but good things take time! please don’t feel rushed to give us new content you already do so much for the sickfic matty community lmao.

hope you have a happy holiday break🥹 sending love always (also don’t be alarmed if i reblog the majority of your prompts on here soon- i have such a bad habit of liking a fic and then scrolling past it once i’ve read it so i need to go back and hunt for them all and actually save them for next time)

Ahhh thank you SO MUCH for this lovely ask omg, and thank you so much for always being so lovely, and kind and supportive 🥰 I apologize this took me a few days to respond to- I usually try and respond to asks on my laptop because I find them easier to formate and alas I had not been back on desktop Tumblr until now.

I'm so, so, so happy to hear that you enjoyed the newest chapter of You Know Where the City Is! I went back and forth on that chapter a lot (an original draft included a trip to Target lol) but I'm really pleased with how it came out and am glad that other people like it as well! Fictional!Matty (and Fictional!Taylor) could REALLY use a hug oh my gosh. They are both going through it and the worst part is they don't even realize how unwell they all 🥺 Fictional!George will be making his appearance very soon! All I can say is that Fictional!Matty is an unreliable source of information 👀 I hope people end up liking how it plays out!

I'm so excited about the Holidays fics but WOW I hope I can actually finish them in time! I haven't even finished the first one yet and I feel like the holidays are getting closer and closer faster and faster 😩 one second is was the beginning of November and now suddenly it's the end of December?! Who allowed this to happen!? I'm behind on the little schedule I made for myself- but hopefully I'll get them both done! Of course my plot bunnies are like "ummm Ally we have all the inspiration for this completely unrelated project!!!" and I'm over here like "not NOW"

We will hopefully be back to our regularly scheduled prompt fulfillment and sickfic programing after the holidays! I'm sorry about the delay, I know people are looking forward an end of SATVB / IV situation fic and I promise I am working on one!! Alas I have just also been really busy with real life.

Thank you so much for the love and I hope you have the most wonderful holidays as well! If you're ever looking for all of the prompt fills I have filled - they can be found here!

Thank you so much again for your kind words, for reading my fics and for your support! You are just so lovely and I am so grateful for your kindness! I hope you are having a wonderful night / day and will hopefully have some more fic ready soon!

❤️Ally

#allylikethecat #ask ally #fanfiction #keep it kind #you know where the city is #thank you so much again #im sorry this took me so long to respond too #and that i havent gotten any of the sick fics out #but thank you so much for reading #and being so lovely in general #and im so happy you're enjoying the fake dating fic #i love it and them both so much

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bitletsanddrabbles · 5 months

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Has Anyone Else Noticed...?

Maybe it's just me, but I've kinda noticed an attitude developing on Tumblr that motive is everything and good motive must result it good results. I mean, motive matters, absolutely. However, there seems to be this attitude that if you make a joke or do something to try and be helpful or something like that, and someone responds by getting irritated or offended, they are absolutely in the wrong. How dare they not laugh at your joke? How dare they not be gushingly grateful about your help or doubt your expertise? Clearly, there is something wrong with them and they should apologize to you.

I'm sure I'm guilty of some of this myself, although having spent most of my life in various situations where if I make someone upset, I have to apologize, and if someone makes me upset, I have to apologize, I'm probably more likely to go "Right. Right. So sorry, I will try to never do that again, my bad. Very wrong of me to have been born, let me go flog myself." Still, humans in a culture will reflect that culture.

The thing is, good motivation does not erase all margin for error. The fact you were making a joke does not mean the other party won't find the joke funny, even if they did understand it. The fact you were trying to be helpful doesn't mean you were, especially if your help was not asked for. Generally I see this crop up with people who are absolute, perfect strangers. It's like people go "Oh, I've never talked to you in my life? I'll treat you like I do my besties anyway!" and then get all sorts of offended and butt hurt when this new person, with culture and life experience completely unknown to you, does not reply like your actual besties.

And it's difficult not to be casual on this site. All sorts of difficult. Everything about it is designed to make things feel communal and familiar. The concept of 'mutuals'. The ability to see entire conversations. The encouragement to put increasingly personal information in your header. (No you do not need to know my age, pronouns, or social security number, thank you!) The barrage of posts like "I love how everyone on the internet speaks sarcasm!" even though sarcasm doesn't always translate well through text and there are gobs of people out there who just...don't get it. It's so all pervasive that even if you know, you forget. I know, because I know I'm guilty of this one.

But if you are approaching an absolute stranger - not a mutual, not someone you've had conversations with, not someone you know from somewhere else - they are still a stranger, you are the one engaging them, and it's really not reasonable to assume they're going to respond well to your 'friendly' cues. I mean, it's not reasonable in real life, but it's even less so on the internet. It's the 'world wide web' after all, and what's polite in your culture might be all kinds of rude in theirs. Add to that you don't know what they're dealing with in RL, what their mental connotation of certain words is, any pet peeves, and yeah. You might not actually be the saint you think you are, and it might, in fact, be best if you apologize...or at least don't reply and give the cranky person some space.

Because demanding an apology for their "fucking unbelievable behavior" is probably not going to go over well either.

#this goes double if they aren't actually angry #and you are misreading a neutral response #or even a positive one that you don't recognize as positive

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parm4carm · 5 months

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Love you, Jade ❤️ And though I know it's not the most important thing right now, speaking out and often is more important, I do hope you are okay ❤️

hiii oh my god has it forreal been weeks since you sent me this?? i swear i just saved this to my drafts three days ago .. the passage of time truly fries my brain

first, this is so sweet of you to send to me and i'm so grateful that people still check in on me when i'm quiet online <3 i know i am a veryyyyy unreliable presence here but i really do appreciate all the love and i'm sending it right back to you <3

you've kind of given me the perfect jumping off point to just throw a lot of updates and ramblings in one spot bc truthfully i do not feel right posting normal posts and taking up space with things that are trivial in the grand scheme of things. i genuinely don't have the brain capacity for much else these days besides keeping up with palestine/congo/sudan etc related updates + the occasional few hours where i can watch a movie or a show without feeling guilty

(general life update dump below so beware bc i talk a lot)

brief mental state check in but i am not doing well! not just with the weight of the world but with everything else in my life lmao. pretty much everyone who knows me knows that the holidays/the winter are the roughest months for me so i'm usually radio silent :/ this year has been... so rough and i don't know why every year feels worse than the last but it really truly does! i'm particularly lonelier this year and it's honestly my fault. idk how to reach out to people when i'm so isolated tbh i feel like a burden at all times especially now that most of the people i used to talk to daily online and irl are doing way better than me and i'm just. always stuck here in this really shitty space i can't seem to get out of no matter how hard i try

i don't talk about my problems a lot online but like. after losing my childhood pet and then getting accepted to two different programs in one year (grad school and community college) and having to drop out of both AND dealing with a decline in my mother's health AND my grandmother's cancer scare AND my own financial issues AND unemployment i'm just exhausted. because of all of this i truly don't know how to function like a normal person or make friends or keep friends anymore i'm just miserable tbh

okay i know this is a hard pivot, but i thought i could just compile things that have brought me a little bit of happiness that i haven't talked about here! it's all on me to feel like this, but i have intense guilt about posting anything not related to current events, so this is my way around that! so.. enjoy i guess <3

personal stuff (you can send me asks to explain more if you want)

i beat my new years' resolution of watching 365 things this year – i'm up to 500 logs!

a lot of new tv (28 total, entire shows, rewatches, new seasons, miniseries, and documentaries included)

fixated on kpop this year and listened to 30 groups whole discography! i actually counted and it was exactly 30 lmao ask me ab my fav groups and biases if you dare

started drinking tea every day :)

redecorating my apartment and it's so much cozier now

i've become more of a snoopy/peanuts fanatic :)

to build on the new years resolution, i've added quite a few horror franchises under my belt :) my horror tag on letterboxd is roughly 250 now!

i think i'm finally breaking my lifelong nail biting habit??? fingers crossed!

buying more things secondhand and feeling way better about it! mostly clothes and dvds but me and my partner are huge fans of knick knacks

have tried a lot of new food this year :) and am cooking new recipes a lot more too!

went to the beach for vacation for the first time in ten years <3 went to this cool little record store and got a band recommendation from the owner that's now one of my underground favs!

celebrated ten years with my partner this year and although it's been such a rough year for the both of us and we're not nearly where we ever thought we'd be, we're more solid now than we've ever been!!! i really would not have made it through this year without them

honestly this year has been a blur 90% of the time so there's obviously been more little things that make me happy but! it's been a big year for consuming media bc i don't have much energy for creating anymore unfortunately

#asks #if you read this wow ily but do not feel obligated to ever read my ramblings LMAO

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jeremy-ken-anderson · 7 months

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The inimitable Noralities did an excellent video on being Tired of 1000-year-old Lolis.

I feel like a similar handwaving I'm getting sick of is Isekai Protags Who Buy Slaves.

There's a basic, and then a separate meta, level of handwaving there. And it gets really gross really fast.

A lot of them play it as, "well, he buys her and he releases her and she's grateful so she sticks around" and that's still got some notable problems and that is the least offensive of what I've seen.

Far more of them keep the girl as a slave and she buys into the social expectations around that so he doesn't have to maintain the aesthetics of her being enslaved - he doesn't have to keep her locked up at night so she won't slit his throat in his sleep. The slave girls in these stories never seek freedom. After all, they have one of the good masters! He's one of the good ones, ladies. And this is the thing. It's a callback to an imagined good ol' days when women submitted and this arrangement of kindly male masters and subservient wives clearly made everyone happier.

In some of these the guy even leaves on a magic mark that would act like a shock collar if she were disobedient. But she won't be, so it's no problem! Don't think about it. It's fine.

Some of them also dip into the Born Sexy Yesterday trope, with the girl having spent all her time in a filthy cage and therefore being socially inexperienced (oh but also having perfect skin. Didn't you know that being beaten and spending all your time sleeping on straw and stone gives you perfect skin?)

Anyway the meta bit is, of course, that part of why the protagonist is treating it as okay is because the world is often a close relative of some game he's played. Which means his real-in-the-narrative gross morals are being derived from his own poor reading of the moral situation around how to treat game systems if they become real?

Like, there's an argument to be made that if you could discern that you were in a simulation and the simulated entities were really not thinking or feeling, then acting out bad impulses wouldn't be harming any actual people. But a) these slaves are always treated as real people by the narrative and b) they're also treated as real people by the protags who buy them and then treat them as property. There is not an attempt made to judge whether they're false people, before the decision is made that it's fine to treat them as property. The protag just decides it's okay because everything else is running on game logic, so why not follow the local moral mores too?

My opinion is that the trope does well because of some pretty rampant sexism: a desire to treat a woman as property and have that be seen as morally acceptable - possibly even righteous - by the community. But this "righteous" vibe generally requires the slavekeeping system he decides to partake in to be more monstrous, and then most of these authors do a bad job of making the protag even show distaste toward the whole slave trade. Not even a "Wow, that's fucked up. Can't do anything about it as a level 2 fighter. Maybe I'll put a pin in that one and come back to burn this industry down when I'm more powerful."

To be entirely honest, I feel like fucking OVERLORD is on more stable moral ground on this front. He's got a bunch of obedient waifus, but that's because they see him as God, because he literally created them. Any sexism there is much more "man of the house" kind of stuff, and Overlord does a nice job of undercutting all the sex stuff attached to the trope by making the protagonist Magically Ace (seriously, when he encounters sexual situations a magical effect he has no control over snaps him out of being aroused automatically).

I dunno. I could probably keep going but I think I've penned enough of my thoughts for the moment.

#anime #black summoner #review

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