#it's 4 in the fucking morning

[n-hospital]

do you think god is aware of the pain he causes me? if so, does it care?

#n harmonia #it's 4 in the fucking morning

[mieczyhale]

woke up with a fever of 101.4

i literally cannot catch a fucking break 🙃

#grabbed water and crackers and took some acetaminophen #going to try and sleep more after i eat a little & check my temp when i get up #i havent been eating much lately so my stomach discomfort makes sense #and the nausea #doesnt mean i dont fucking hate it #my cheeks are really warm and i'm quite pale so i'm p sure i look like a victorian doll but one from a thrift store #like a quote unquote well-loved one #you know what i'm talking about #except i am not actually a well-loved doll i am a tolerable ill cryptid #coming to haunt a wooded area near you #listen. i thought i was on the verge of a manic-adjacent episode but maybe i've just BEEN sick and didnt put the pieces together #maison speaks #it's 4 in the fucking morning #why

[tizzymcwizzy]

AREN'T YOU HAPPY? AREN'T YOU GLAD? AREN'T YOU EXCITED THAT WE'RE FINALLY FREE!?

CAN'T YOU SEE THAT I DID THIS ALL FOR YOU?

#what a fucking episode man #anyway #its 4 in the morning i was not expecting to spend this much time on this but AAAAAA finally getting to draw for myself again!! #my art #miraculous ladybug #miraculous ladybug season 5 #ml #mlb #miraculous #miraculous ladybug spoilers #mlb spoilers #ml spoilers #emotion #ml emotion #mlb emotion #argos #felix fathom #chat blanc #chat noir #so #i have a new favorite mlb episode #teehee #NSBDBFJFKFKBDG #ml leak free #felix graham de vanily

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

I am officially existing at a constant level of frustration that's unmanageable.

#it's 4 in the fucking morning #I was woken up at 3:30 to go deal with something #this tuened into four other tasks and required a shower afterwards #i genuinely am approaching like #'oh. i guess i don't deserve to fucking SLEEP anymore either' #good to know #im so fucking tired #and im so fucking sick of handling every single thing withiut help

[emkini]

I think about Zuko and Ursa a normal amount

#atla #avatar #avatar the last airbender #zuko #ursa #atla fanart #em draws #illustration #I had heart of stone from SIX playing on loop while drawing both of these #because I enjoy hurting myself #I am on a fucking roll right now apparently #cannot go five seconds without drawing something #the stuff I've been posting is so incredibly self-indulgent but y'know what. I do not care #normally i'd have a modicum of shame but nope #if I want Zuko to look sad in his mom's robes then that's what he's going to do <3 #privileges of being an artist #yes it's 4:30 in the morning shut up #id in alt text #edit I fixed his wack ass face

[inkskinned]

it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.

yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.

it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.

how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.

chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?

how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.

"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.

i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.

#writeblr #warm up #i can't write rn but i have SO much words in here bc im reading the chorus of dragons books #(just started book 4) #and this woman's writing is just LIVING in my brain. let me out!!! #(i read roughly like 2-4 books a week usually bc i go on long walks with my dog but when a book is REALLY good like. it eats my life. ) #anyway ...... so like here's a story that idk i've tried to explain to other people as being wild #but maybe im the only one who thinks it is wild??? #so i play pokemon go (i just started in jan) bc i love pokemon and as i have mentioned i walk goblin for like an hour in the morning #and i don't like a lot of fitness trackers due to the fact it makes me .sad. but i also wanted the little digital rewards. enter pokemon go #anyway so they make you make friends to complete quests. so i used a reddit thread. i do not usually use reddit. i don't have an acct #i lurked. i just googled like ''pokemon go reddit '' and randomly added a bunch of numbers #i was on that page for all of 15 minutes. there are THOUSANDS of responses on that page. #here's what's wild: in that group of people. even though i am not on reddit and it was one random event once #it turns out one of those people lives in the town i live in. or at least very close. i only know this because #when we send each other gifts. it's from the same freaking area. #i can't ask them to meet up bc pokemon go doesn't have a messaging app lol but like . what are the fucking chances that #a random person posts in a random reddit thread and HAPPENS to get added by someone ELSE from their SAME TOWN #who by pure fucking CHANCE is ALSO playing pokemon go and looking for friends #i googled it there's only 42000 people in my broad region. the .......... smallness ! of the world!!!

[the-home-of-innovation]

Gambler

#watching the vod cause the dude decided to go live at 4 IN THE FUCKING MORNING #and started right when I woke up from a nightmare too #jaydraws #digital art #schlatt #jschlatt #sdmp #sleep deprived multiplayer

[sun-marie]

LRB but I'm replaying BG3 and Gale being on the knife's edge of Wholesome/"Dirty" is what makes him soo interesting to me. Like this is a man who, in two different versions of the same scene, can either sweetly and gently make love to your tav in a typical setting which transitions to a tasteful fade-to-black, or brings your tav's spirit along for a transcendent experience where he literally duplicates part of himself so he can have more parts to touch their parts in some crazy astral-soup sky world. And both are treated like valid expressions of his love!! Like the range they allowed him to express, he's not one or the other, he's both

#sorry it's 4 in the morning and i literally don't think I've ever encountered a character like Gale Dekarios #so i'm not articulating this as coherently as I'd like but you get the idea #there's other examples not relating to his romance throughout the game but his romance is what strikes me most #i think it's also why a lot of Hozier songs fit really well with him #it's that “my love for you is so powerful that it transcends words so we fuck nasty style” vibe #bg3 #marie speaks #gale of waterdeep #edit: not me spotting a typo after this post has already circulated.... #i meant LRB as in “last reblog” and not LBR as in “let's be real” 💀

[girlbossblackbeard]

episodes 4 and 5 have emotionally compromised me to a degree that is so severe every therapist in the world just felt a shift of their scope of practice

#I literally cried 4 SEPARATE TIMES #WHAT THE FUCK #ITS 4 IN THE MORNING I HAVE WORK IN A COUPLE HOURS #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers

[vala-dreams]

HELLO I AM ALIVE

So I know I haven't posted in like a year but @diedfromembarrassmentlikeasim and I were discussing this fic and then it spiralled into this discussion

Spread the himbo Bruce agenda folks

The most valid Bruce is the Bruce that goes from having a 100 life skills to 0 in one second. Look at him.

He knows how to hack into his FBI agent's computer. He doesn't know what red onions are. He can't kill people but he can kill houseplants like a professional. He knows how to create antidotes to any virus or poison. He doesn't know how to make tea without burning the mansion down.

Alfred has no hair and this is why.

#batman #battinson #i was picturing him while i was making this post #i love him so much #himbo bruce my beloved #cryptid bruce wayne #i imagine him standing like the standing man emoji while alfred teaches him how to whip up a decent meal for the 1000th time #and then fucking it up all over again #he eats shredded cheese at 4 in the morning and alfred has to come and whack him to make sure he doesn't end up sleeping in the fridge #bruce wayne #alfred pennyworth #jason todd #dick grayson #batfam #batman 2022 #bruce wayne is a good parent

[governmentmandatedryujinstan420]

releasing this from the hj discord dungeon because the public populace was in agreement also i'm chronically offline on tumblr and need to fix that for my chronically online ahh

#hand jumper #webtoon #sayeon lee #she couldn't even enjoy herself once she gets into the decent university because she got sent to the corps sayeon lee my giiirl #SHE'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO BASK IN THE GLORY OF VALEDICTORIAN BECAUSE SHE WAS CONSCRIPTED 😭 #bro she's built like those kids in school who dump social interaction the moment exam season comes around #she's built like and earned that first honours fr. #but the corps said nah so she did the one thing those kids do make life even HARDER for themselves #even if in context it's no even hard it's just a matter of survival in the corps so success is the only option lest you die #hj reminds me of kaiji a lot with how they handle this but they're like two different genres but i digress #so she created TWO short term goals that forced her to hammer down her if not reinforce her previous values/beliefs #and if you read fp or wait until this tuesday lemme tell you rn it gets worse #which force her back into her shell and wall she's built #which is fucked up bc juni's wall is coming down when cell 4 didn't die as quick as she'd thought and surpassed her expectations #sayeon try not to be any characters narrative foil/parallel challenge fail 1000% speedrun #this only gets worse in fp and while this was in my drafts since the morning #i will say i literally just had a conversation abt this with my g bigbrainmanyvibes before prematurely leaving for lunch #but i set an alarm to actually post all the memes i made here so imma do this one now then the rest later #JOIN THE HJ DISCORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND WAY EASIER TO USE!!!!![to me......] #PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #that's it for my obligatory plug for the hj discord you can stop reading now i you haven't already stopped because i make this thing a diar #anw GLORY TO SAYJIN NATION!!!!!!!!!

[buglaur]

@ravensim's upcoming toddler hair!

#ts4 #sims 4 #OBSESSED #i saw the post this morning and already decided i want this for the next macmahon kid #speaking of which... #guess who this cutie is 👀 #thanks for letting me test!!! my fav toddler hair ever #no exaggerations this is fucking adorable #ts4 cas

[compaculaaa]

Happy Mothers (or in this case Creators) day to all!!!

All these families have more than one thing to be thankful of their creators, so remember to wish your creators as well!

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#sparkling siblings au #transformers animated #tfa #happy moms day y’all #to celebrate are showcase drawings for all the creators of our lovely sparklings in the au #the prime siblings (with a little help from dad) whipped up a beautiful morning platter for their dear creator #playing with the sparklings all day can be tiring #luckily there’s creator to tuck you in after an exhausting day #creator can teach you all about new life #and how beautiful the world can be #but that doesn’t mean they won’t find a new adventure #with a little help from a cheeky little sparkling #yup the creators are all feeling very appreciated by their family #and could not feel any luckier #I am not tagging everyone here fuck u #and fuck me for wasting 4 days of my life on these drawings

[amoratheskeleton]

AAAUHHRHDGSGHGGHHH I LOVE HIM SO MUCH😭😭

#It's 4 in the morning and I haven't slept until now just drawing him #i love him bro #FUCK OFF MY SCHOOL I NEED TO DRAW HIM #Why can't he be real???? 🥺🥺 #error sans #shit why is he so beatiful

[nocturnal-birb]

IM GONNA START BITING EVERYONE

#i swear this morning is a wild time for me #AND I INLY REALIZE IN 4 HOURS FOR ME TOO HOLY FUCK AAAA #the band ghost

[neishroom]

cleo’s first day of school in willow creek :]

#tried out the crt thing in my new preset #i hate it and i didnt wanna redo their morning so fuck it im posting this #sims 4 #the sims 4 #ts4 #sims #maxis match #*pacheco legacy #*pacheco gen 2 #*ben #*cleo