#it was posted like last year? year before that? idk

[kidvoodoo]

When was the last time I made a text post??? Long time ago I guess

Anyway please stop sending me death threats and messages to kms I am mentally ill and at risk of self harm. this is crazy I e been on this site for over a decade and never had anything like this happen before.

Not tagging anyone or anything specific but if this has to do with art I posted recently idk what to tell you I am not on other social media platforms so idk what is going on

But at this point idc if people are going to act this way I suppose the safest thing to do is step away until everyone is calmed down

I apologize for the vague post but I’m not trying to start anything all the messages I got were anon and I haven’t replied to any of them, I guess some people are mad because I made art of Käärijä recently? People are mad at him I guess . I posted my art a while ago so I’m not really sure what has happened

Anyway for my own safety I am taking a break from Tumblr because this is a crazy thing to suddenly be told to die in my messages. Like I said I am a high risk mentally ill person who is also struggling with health issues rn and it has made me very depressed. I don’t know what to do other than try and not think about this event

I see in tags that ESC was boycotting I don’t watch because I am in America and they don’t stream it there, I watched last years but not the entire thing so I don’t know if I missed something in it? I had no intention of watching maybe only clips or peoples highlights reels truthfully I don’t have the energy to sit through a long show like that anyway

I see in tags that this is because of Israel competing and I also am mad about that I just don’t know what I personally did to warrant some people’s anger??? I don’t watch the show I made my art many days ago I don’t even get what is going on???

As I said that the beginning I haven’t made a text post in a long time I don’t really interact with anyone here so I don’t know what I even did wrong????

Please stop sending me hateful thing s I haven’t even said anything to anyone in this fandom, all I do it read the nice reblogs from people in my tags on my art I am too nervous to talk to anyone anyway

I feel like crying I’m so sorry if I hurt peoples feelings I swear I’m not trying to do anything except draw pictures of things I like and ideas in my head. I have been so happy seeing people like my art and this is like a huge shift from people and it’s really scary

Sorry if this post is long and rambling and confusing I am feeling very sick and am not okay mentally

#kidvoodoo #text post #tw mental health #I don’t know what else to tag this as #käärijä #Sorry if this should not be in this tag but the messages I got seemed to be about those art pieces I made #so if the anon\anons are in this tag please stop sending me things #I apologize if this is something people don’t want to see I just don’t really know what to do about it #I will try and figure out what is going on when I am in a better headspace #for right now I am sorry I am not in a good place to have any long conversations about what is going on #thank you for reading #again i am so sorry

[gojohater101]

does anyone else remember that one tiktok of that girl and tall masked man at a halloween fair having a moment with west coast playing in the background? can someone send it to me, asking for a friend

and sinner dont you DARE clown me for this 

#please yall im desperate #i cant do this #i physically cannot #i need it #no i mean my friend really needs it #it was posted like last year? year before that? idk #EITHER WAY i need it #i cant keep doing this #ive been looking for ages #tiktok #halloween #masked men #masked men.... #MASKED MEN <33333333 #IT KINDA LOOKED LIKE A REALLY TALL GHOSTFACE #one of those #girl what am i doing #just send it to me if you know what im talking about

[sinnabee]

Congratulations on your new semi-permanent experimental position as the Official Daycare Assistant and Attendant Handler!

Now, you may have heard from a few of your coworkers that the Daycare Attendant can get a little... overeager, at times. But we can assure you that these are merely rumors, and should promptly be ignored - after all, the Daycare Attendant is always excited to start the day off with a smile!

Welcome to the Fazbear Family! We're sure you'll love your time with us!

And remember: you have nothing to worry about.

#fnaf fanart #fnaf sb #fnaf #fnaf sun #fnaf dca #sona #sun x y/n #not a generic y/n but??? idk what other tag i would use? #anyway! hiiiii guys! #i actually finished this a while ago #tho i did make a FEW touch ups before posting just now #but anyway!!! yippee!!! #this one has been a wip for like months lmao #i started it last year Orz #BUT YAAAY ITS DONE AND IM REALLY HAPPY WITH IT #YIPPEEEEE #anyway. yeah im sure there's absolutely nothing to worry about #go ahead and make your 'he's smelling your hair' jokes its all been done alread #maybe my shampoo is just delicious #dw about it #funky little jester boys #my art

[fluffyartbl0g]

The one piece reread only makes the hardest moments hit even harder,,,, even when you’re rereading it poorly in portugese

Or AKA, i found out today that HINATA SHOYO reads one piece and I haven’t recovered since

#one piece #haikyuu #hinata shoyo #roronoa zoro #(kinda) #omfg okay time for my entirely SEPERATE POST IN THE TAGS #i only got into one piece at the end of last year... but ive been in the anime and manga scene for like. my entire life #i cannot understate how WILD it is that I havent noticed how everywhere one piece is.... #like once i read it... i started finding it EVERYWHERE #my sister gifted me an issue of shonen jump ages ago cause i liked act age and kimetsu no yaiba chainsaw man promised neverland etc #and it doesnt have like a one piece chapter in it actually (to my disappointment) #but IT DOES HAVE A LIL ADVERTISING SEGMENT AT THE FRONT TALKING ABOUT OKIKU FIGURINES AND OTHER ONE PIECE CRAP #AND IDK IT LITERALLY JUST BLEW MY MIND #ONE PIECE DIDNT EXIST IN MY LIFE BUT.... IT DID???? #I HAD ONE PIECE MERCH BEFORE I EVEN BECAME OBSESSED WITH IT??? (hahah if you can consider a tiny segment mentioning okiku op merch XD) #just imagine suddenly being obsessed with a piece of media. and then you look around ur room and U SUDDENLY RECOGNISE A CHARACTER MERCH??? #ITS BEEN IN UR ROOM FOR YEARS BUT YOUVE NEVER REALLY EVEN NOTICED IT OR JUST BRUSHED IT OFF WHENEVR U SAW IT #BUT ITS THAT CHARACTER!!!! ITS THAT MEDIA THAT UR MADLY IN LOVE WITH???? #also im being 100 percent legit when i say that the sense of comeraderie i feel when someone says theyve ALSO read one piece #is insane #discovering that domics and worthiikids and all these other big youtubers that ive known for years have loved one piece like me? #it makes my heart clench and my eyes water man #ive never felt so connected to the world... one piece really is peak fiction..... #i love one piece's community sm....

[reineydraws]

wanted: marine hunter takanome mihawk

#shanks: oh i want him alright #dracule mihawk #takanome mihawk #one piece #one piece fanart #op fanart #i accidentally went way extra on this than i intended to 💀 i got bored waiting for my brother + my phone was charging #it was just supposed to be a b&w sketch with his eyes yellow or red but it got out of hand when i was like 'maybe i'll do skin for funsies' #ah well. im really starting to get into painting with this one brush. one day i'll merge it with the style i use more #cuz rn i tend to break out the painting only when i wamt smth a liiiiittle👌 more realistic. #i stress that 'little' bc calling my style 'realistic' in any sort of way feels inaccurate lol #i digress #i love imagining marine hunter mihawk being some teenage punk between the ages of 17 and 23 #idk when he became a warlord but if he had this epithet even before roger's death that would put him in mid-to-late teens #since at roger's execution he was 19 amd already had yoru #so it's kinda funny to imagine the marines being hunted by some teenager with dramatic sideburns and an even more dramatic sword #last post of the year! :) #i had no chill this month. pls dont expect anything on my blog again till march lol. #(im half-serious; im going on vacation for all of february and i have some prior pieces i need to focus on in jan haha. we'll see tho!)

[mllenugget]

Hey remember when Baghera adopted Dapper like 8 months ago or did I make that up ? ────────────────────────────────────────── Support all the admins that spoke out (& do your daily click) ──────────────────────────────────────────

#idk why on earth i gave baghera knuckles- when i say i turn my brain off when I draw i mean it #i only noticed it after i was done with the shading and it jumpscared me #got me stuttering in confusion i have never drawn anthro arms/wings this way these dont even look like feathers wtf me ?? #..... sooo looks like ive got a new wa-cats type of fandom on my hands #as in i am still very emotionally attached to the memories i have from this no matter what i do itll keep coming back #but i havent read the books in several years nor do i plan to anymore and looking back i am so angry and disgusted #but also im still blown away by the creativity and the passion the fandom builds on its own #i wanted to go ahead and finish any art that ive been working on for the past almost year and decided this one would be the most fitting #i learnt last week that only the first 20 tags on an original post will show up in tumblr searches #and I think im going to take advantage of that #because i dont want to hype the server anymore and i have decided i will no longer be adding my watermark on top of my work #and i was going to refrain from tagging it because i dont want my related posts to show up #before remembering that some of my mutuals who ive been chatting to for years now #have these fandoms blacklisted #so im going to test it and hope it works #im still going to tag the characters i love though because i wanna show support to the actors and i wish them nothing but the best #baghera fanart #pomme fanart #dapper fanart #dappleduo #my art #mcyt #qsmp #fandom neg #tag this however you want #yap yap yap yap tlddr

[mattodore]

everyone say hi jordan ✌

#simblr #the sims 4 #sims 4 #ts4 #ts4 cas #river dipping #jordan lesaint #echthroi #🦇 #okay so for NOW this is jordan <3 tho this is subject to change... a little funny i'm already thinking abt switching his eyebrows lmao #but that's 2/4 of theo's friends done now :) jordan is the oldest of the group and he's a graffiti (mostly) artist as well as a musician #he's my little art school drop out vinyl record obsessed flower boy drummer MWAH #i should've given him a backpack bc he's always got one around his shoulder it's where he keeps his art materials yk #i also wanna find inhaler cc for whenever i make his apartment #he's either my oldest (inception not age) or my second oldest oc... actually hang on he'd be more like the second oldest or third oldest... #sunny was my oldest but i benched her years ago rip #i can't remember if jordan came before or after theo so idk if he's second or third but yeah <3 wasn't originally part of echthroi #bc echthroi is theo's story obviously but i added jordan to it later as one of theo's friends #anyway............... totally meant to post this earlier but i got caught up watching love is blind #i disliked last season but this one is really fun. my one (1) guilty pleasure reality show. #khadija mbowe put me on it with their ''love is...produced insecure and completely unhinged'' video essay <3 #me promoting khadija any chance what can i say

[fleouriarts]

feeling bad about my art lately. will probably not post for a while. but i wanted to at least dump some stuff here before i retreat into my hidey hole

#hivemind tv #hmfcu #riley savage #graydon weaver #quadeca #jane remover #eden burke #my art #2023 #fanart #doodles #furry #its like. augh. longtime fleouriarts followers are familiar with my eternal tango with posting art online #doing this since i was 11 has like rotted my brain and made me rely wayyyy too much on external validation to motivate myself #and every year or so it gets bad enough that i take a break. but the break usually only lasts a month before i miss the feeling #and come back and then the cycle repeats #its probably worse now bc this is a fandom where getting seen by the creators is not really that hard #so there have been times where im like 'well idk if i wanna draw this. but if i do maybe hivemind will rt it :-)' #NO!!! THATS NOT WHAT ART IS ABOUT!!!!! i cant keep letting myself get addicted to the numbers going up man i gotta get out of here #and i was reading a quad interview from around when idmthy got released. cus hes also brain poisoned like this. but he managed to get out #and now just kinda comes online to release music and then leave #i need to be like that. i need to take a break from art posting thats so long that i come back as a changed man odysseus style #idk. its been so long since i drew stuff that no one gets to see but me. all the art i keep to myself is just out of embarrassment #i need to relearn how to draw stuff just for the love of creation and not “maybe people online will like this one” #or “this new thing came out i need to prove my love of it by drawing it” #sometimes it leads to good art but more often than not it just makes me feel worse #whatever. if any of yall are in the hivemind jane or quadeca discord i MIGHT still post stuff there. but otherwise ill keep to myself and m #friends for a while i think #woooooo this is queued to post while im in orgo lab everyone wish me luck with my thin layer chromatography

[fru1tt0ast]

dear followers, today i offer you old man yaoi

tomorrow? who knows

#hosea is so trandsgdber to me... idgaf that man is soooo transgender #(i am projecting) #'the 30 year old women on tumblr dot com go crazy when i post old man yaoi' #< real thing i said while drawing this #i had a weird fucked up dream last night #and i think it was because i spent 3 hours straight drawing right before bed #i finished this at literally midnight and i don't feel like going over everything to check for mistakes so please ignore if you see any!! 😝 #also ik dutch's hand is super weird looking idk how to fix it and i don't want to 😭 #fruit toasts cool art tag btw #sorry y'all i'm just saying shit... i just woke up #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #red dead #red dead redemption #red dead redemption two #hosea matthews #dutch van der linde #vandermatthews #rdr2 dutch #hosea rdr2 #dutch rdr2 #rdr2 hosea #rdr2 fanart #rdr2 artwork #hosea fucks friday

[bitfruity]

i have never been so obsessed and in love with a man before in my life

like as a teenager i liked bands and thought some members were kinda cute but NOTHING has prepared me for the teenage girl in my 20’s level infatuation i have for this man

and then he had the AUDACITY to bring another one into the mix

words cannot explain the amount of gender envy tommy gives me do i want him or do i want to be him?? i look at some pictures of him and go THATS ME THATS HOW I SEE MYSELF

#WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?? #IS THIS JUST WHAT YOUR 20S ARE LIKE? #I AM DOWN BAD #i thought i skipped all this #i never understood all the girls that obsessed over celeb men #but now i get it!! #i kinda feel like i’m losing my mind #this 30 year old man is the only reason i smile #like when did that happen?? #tommy got me feeling some type of way #i cant quite explain it but he’s changed something in my brain #i am not the person i was before listening to racked #the amount of gender envy he gives me is unmatched #am i even a girl idk anymore #I AM SCREAMING INTO THE VOID #käärijä #tommy cash #fruity thoughts #i made this at 2am last night in a feverish state but i’m still gonna post it

[dotssu3]

santa jean

#before i made him bigger idk what is wrong with me like what the hell oh my god no waaaaaaaay #i drew this last year for christmas i just never posted it on tumble #jean vicquemare #disco elysium #fan art #my art #jean

[derpinette]

when i exchange a message whether i receive or send one i have to immediately shut off my device & walk some laps for a few minutes to shake off the adrenaline rush

#i try to forget that ever happened so i can relax because otherwise i get heart palpitations & headrush my uterus drops ETC #so i have to stay off of whatever site i just used for like an hour but now i have messages sent+received on every app #i can only escape to yourube & it sucks #also even anonymously i exit out of the thread/tab & ignore that tab for as long as it takes me to forget #& then i check back on the replies hours later or days even despite not ever posting bait i just get nervous #( but not always... خلّي أيامك أحلى ) #currently hamster walking everywhere in my house & it took me a day to reply back ( was too busy agonizing ) #could have been a month like last time. or year like the other two times before. IDK why i even bothered #WHEW #that one screencap i already posted before with the courage the cowardly dog picrel Shockingly not posted by me #but i might as well have i do the exact same thing & when people are nice to me i ride that high for a week if not more #the high i got from crushing it at scribbl with randoms in 2020 i rode for like two years & then the *** livestream in 2022 #i am still riding today & ALWAYS WILL best days of my internet life for Serious look forwards to it annually cured me completely #from suicidal ideation. THANK YOU WOMEN. ^_^

[authenticcadence18]

I miss the person I was a year ago. two years ago. more social. happier. doing more creatively.

#ya girl is just sad today #yelling into the void bc idk where else to yell #I was so much happier this time last year #even tho I have really good things in my life rn #I just think about like #April 2023 me :( #or! #fall 2020 me #she was living in constant covid anxiety sure #but she was also having the time of her life writing phinbella romance and sharing it with friends #now I haven’t updated that fic in nearly two years #and there’s friends I just don’t see much of anymore #which is no one’s fault that is just how life is #but it just aches #I just feel so sad #or 2021 me #she was posting so much art!!! literally living it up!!!!!!! #now well I mean #my newest pnf piece has gotten close to 500 likes on instagram which has never happened with my pnf art before #so that’s really cool #but I just #ugh #at least I have TTPD #I feel so disconnected from people which is the true reason I post art or fic or whatever #even tho I have lovely friends who I adore!!! they just feel far away #which isn’t anyone’s fault it’s just how life is and my own weird perception of the world #anyway #all this to say I do have a chfil chapter in the works still #maybe finishing that will heal me lmao #cadence rambles

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 124

aint that just the way though huh

#year 4 #it me #short version my grandma went to the er last week bc she was feeling ill #suspected it to be some long covid side effects. they put her on fluids & nutrition for most of the week #saturday she was scheduled to go home #mere hours before her discharge she fell and broke her hip #so she had surgery to repair it the following day #but post op she couldnt bear to eat anything and was very tired #so they did more tests #turns out shes like. terminally ill #in a kind of vague and nonspecific way related to being Just Very Old And Frail #but there is very definitely some stuff going on inside her that WILL eventually kill her #we just dont know when exactly #but we though maybe itd be sometime this week #but today she seemed to be rallying so now we are like #okay well do we send her to rehab for her hip or does she need to stay in like a more robust care facility #and its simply a whole thing #and we would really like for her to be able to go home before she dies so she can have unlimited access to her dog #who she loves very much and who is not allowed in the hospital #idk it is just ROUGH. not unexpected but on top of the other shit that has happened this year? #my aunt recovering from brain surgery still #my dog being very old and fragile #my fucking hamster died #its just a lot!!! #cw death #cw pet death #cw animal death #cw terminal illness #day 124

[alrightpetal]

in other news i finally got my dream bookcase

#literally over the moon excited omg #idk if you guys remember me envisioning it last year but i finally found the perfect woodworker to make it and now i can’t stop staring #the shelf i had before was so crammed (i have 105 books ish not counting my childhood picture books) but now i have space for like 500 #i gotta paint the base still and stain the ladder but i’ll post update pics or a video #sierra talks

[mattodore]

okay so because previous anons asked about sex, I wanna ask about aftercare, how they act after sex? oh and i’m curious how their sex life change after being together for a while

xoxo <3

their aftercare isn't always aftercare-101, if i'm honest. theo is very bad at it and doesn't really... ever... do that for matthias. and matthias may be very good at giving aftercare but theo is incredibly resistant to it. i mentioned earlier that theo really gets off on praise, but... he also flinches away from it. he's so twisted up about so much of what he wants and he's really, uh... well. he makes it really hard to get close to him and offer comfort despite how much he desires it. matthias can't say certain things without scaring theo off (and i mean, like, theo will quite literally run away), so he has to talk around what he wants to say and what theo needs to hear to prevent theo from bolting before he can bring him down.

matthias takes a long time cleaning theo up and massaging his muscles after, and he'll hum or talk to himself in polish so theo knows he's still there touching him (but isn't stirred before he comes to himself on his own by english he can understand). when he's finished, he'll ask theo very simple yes or no questions that let matthias know how theo's feeling without outright asking how he's feeling. he also checks on theo throughout the day, but he has to be even more subtle there or theo starts to feel smothered. is your body okay? do you want me to get you dressed? does your head hurt? do you want me to read to you? he focuses on asking about the physical and what theo wants to do rather than theo’s emotions. matthias has learned that asking if theo's feeling okay after is a quick way to trigger a very, very negative response in theo. it's one of the reasons why i think matthias is constantly asking theo in the heat of sex how he's feeling, because that's when theo is so preoccupied by the physical aspect that the emotional effects leak out without him fighting to keep them in. it takes a few months for theo to get comfortable with the feelings he has after sex with him before matthias can really give him proper aftercare. that’s why the sex they have early on is never anything too crazy. matthias coaxes theo into a better place first.

​i also think it’s important to clarify that it’s not like they’re always having kinky sex. still, theo usually needs physical touch after vanilla sex as well. matthias himself always craves conversation afterwards, so he waits for theo to stir awake (because he often falls asleep after sex) or come back into his body fully to talk to him.

as for changes to their sex life after they’ve been together for awhile… i believe i've talked about this before, but their sexual dynamic turns on its head after a few years. theo starts to take control of the reins and gets more comfortable asking for and doing what he wants. with theo he just has a lot holding him back and it's only after he's grown as a person and worked past a majority of his intimacy issues that he can act on the desires he's been burying waaay down. there's a sort of brattiness that theo starts to have a lot of fun with during sex—a lot of pushing and prodding, withholding, insulting... matthias is having the time of his life lmao, like he loves being challenged and pushed around. matthias takes on a more submissive role during sex as they age, which is fun for him. plus it's kind of the dynamic they've always had outside of sex anyway. of course, there are never any set roles in their sexual life so i'm not saying that it's always like that, but theo enjoys telling matthias what to do and how to do it. they have a lot of fun with it.

#river dipping #asks #anonymous #oc extras #nsft #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #finally done..... actually patting myself on the back for being able to answer all of these in a day and a half like #normally being asked anything abt my ocs takes me forever to get to bc i just take everything so seriously #......................................exhibit a: this reply jnjhkjfnghk #my ocs are just really complicated so i feel like i have to really expand upon each new bit of information #like theo is NOT ! well adjusted in the slightest #and while matthias can read people very easily it doesn't mean that there aren't times where he messes up #theo is very closed off and he will lash out at the slightest thing that spooks him #and he also... is not really experienced in having good sex yk? so he's so bad at aftercare which i guess is like. well. #good thing your partner is someone who's used to being left to his own devices after experiencing major physical and emotional stressors #matthias can usually take himself out of a scene just because of the nature of his past... #but i think theo does pick up on what matthias does for him after awhile and he tries incorporating it into 'aftercare' #but................. i don't think he really understands what all he should be saying and doing for a few years like not until he's #domming matthias more frequently and has taken the time to look at The Internet lmao jkfjnhkjn i imagine it shocks him a bit #matthias may be good at sex but he does have his blind spots and those normally involve himself… so he never told theo that what he does #for him should be reciprocated………… additionally matthias is very much a giver not a taker #like he doesn’t expect or even really want theo to ask how he’s feeling. but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t need that. #….have been rereading this for the last thirty minutes idk why this is what i’m like Yikes ! about responding to 😭 #whatever post ‼️ theo isn’t good at sex i’ve said it before who can be surprised he gives zero aftercare