#it doesnt forgive them hurting my best boy

[stevie-petey]

speaking of jon, can we get a blurb of how he was feeling when bug fell at the house and almost died by the demogorgon? i know that guy was close to tears

YES YES YES I CAN ABSOLUTELY DO THIS BLURB ANON

enjoy <3

"bug-" one second you're beside jonathan, the next you're on the ground, clutching your ankle. when jonathan realizes this, he feels the world stop. "bug!"

he starts to scream, tries to go and help you up, but a hand grabs at his jacket, stopping him. jonathan, blind with fear and rage, screams at the person holding him back. "no, let go of me! i have to help her, nancy!"

the monster stalks closer to you, and jonathan watches as you try to stand up but only fall back down. youre in pain. he can see it all over your face, the way you scrunch your eyebrows together as your lips quiver.

he has to help you.

jonathan cannot let you die.

youre the only person who puts up with his bullshit, who can take his shitty days and make them into his favorite days. youre his best friend, the first person who ever paid any attention to him. hes based everything about himself around you. his kindness is an extension of yours, his intellect is a result of yours, his humor a connection of you.

but youre on the ground in pain and nancy is holding jonathan back and the monster is inches away from your face.

even if jonathan breaks free from nancys grasp now, he'll never make it in time. you seem to know this too, and jonathan watches as you nod at nancy, accepting your fate as if this makes any of this okay, and jonathan just wants you back in his arms where nothing can ever hurt you ever again.

he loses his voice, screaming your name repeatedly. he cant do anything. he cant fucking do anything.

all jonathan can do is watch as you brace for your own death, the death that he caused. jonathan byers, the boy born from selfishness and greed, is what kills y/n henderson in the end.

the monster bends down, gets ready to lunge, and jonathan forces himself to look away. he cant watch. sobs wrack his body, he thinks hes about to die alongside you.

then, in a flash, steve harrington has his arms wrapped around you and carries you towards jonathan and nancy.

the second he sets you down, jonathans body collides against yours. his hands are everywhere. they sprawl all over your back, your sides, your head, your arms. every part of you that he can touch, jonathan does.

youre alive.

youre alive.

"bug." the nickname falls like a prayer from his lips. jonathan has never believed in a god, but he does believe in threads attaching everyone to each other.

and his thread connecting to you hasnt been severed yet.

your fingers find their way to jonathans hair and you tell him its okay. you soothe him and jonathan only then realizes that hes shaking. your body heat presses against him, a reminder that youre alive, and jonathans head buzzes with concern.

"did it hurt you, are you bleeding?" jonathans hands continue to run all over your body, if he misses any sign of injury then he'll never forgive himself. "there should be a first aid kit-"

you grab his hands and kiss jonathans knuckles. your lips, so familiar against his skin after years of being soothed this way, settle something within jonathan. the kiss seep into his bones, spreading throughout his body, and slowly hes able to breathe again.

"im fine, just twisted my ankle. if you help me up, im sure i'll be able to stand again."

jonathan helps you up in a heartbeat. you lean against him and he wraps an arm around your waist. youre still here. he has to remind himself of this. youre alive and thats all that matters.

but you almost died tonight.

jonathan had just almost lost you.

your hair is a mess, your shirt us torn and stained with your blood from earlier, and your ankle is the size of a balloon and yet jonathan thinks youve never looked more beautiful.

jonathan doesnt realize hes staring at you until you turn away, your cheeks flushed, and he hates the way his stomach drops. hes made you uncomfortable again, crossed some invisible line, but jonathan is so fucking tired of lines.

what matters is that youre alive.

your hand is in his, and jonathan knows that no matter what happens next, hes never letting go of you ever again.

youre his and hes yours. threads and lines and strings in all.

#ask #anon #m speaks #come home blurb #set in season 1 #m's writing #god i loved this #angst is my specialty

[luckyqueenreign]

BE WARNED - long, long rant incoming but i think i’m just looking for validation in everything i’m about to say lmao

OKAY, but as I think we’ve all gathered, the s5 writers are acting like they’re trying to write s2 with their eyes closed and a brief synopsis, BUT, i will say that the only thing giving me hope going forward is a little theory i’ve been thinking about

just going to throw in finn becoming noah 2.0 triggering my heartstrings really quick because his speech was arguably the best part of the season BUT ANYWHO

in season 2, after casa amor, whether you recoupled or not, if noah/lucas/henrik recoupled, they all made it kind of clear that they were interested in blake (more so with lucas and henrik) before it all fell apart and they returned to MC. this also happens majority of the time in the show, they get mad because the other recoupled and then find their way back to each other. they’re just too stubborn to admit it at first typically

another reason that i feel like the same thing is happening with suresh and why they all don’t seem all that concerned for MC in that situation is the fact that we have RECOUPLED with nicolas/jonny !!! not only have we recoupled, but suresh has absolutely no idea whether or not we’re romantically involved with them. i didn’t consider this until i replayed the game and mentioned kissing nicolas in bed and SURESH ROLLED HIS EYES. he’s annoyed. he thinks we want nicolas and he’s hurt and too stubborn to admit it. not to mention none of the boys know if we chose alfie/dana or suresh

when alfie was grafting hard on us and suresh thought we were into alfie, he grafted harder on arlo and tried to get us out of his head. it wouldn’t be entirely out of character for him to do the same thing but worse this time considering he literally doesn’t know how we feel about him and hasn’t spoken to us in days

i don’t know what the situation with gabi is going to be, and honestly, i’m not entirely sure if my MC is going to forgive him for it or not, but this is what i THINK of the casa amor situation. i may be very wrong, but i just wanted to throw it out there and see what you think

omg babe literally yes to every single word. yes yes yes. I 100% agree with you and I hope so so so much that you're right. the only benefit of this season and the lack of the usual LI structure is that we were able to fully hone in on these four characters - Finn, Alfie, Dana and of course Suresh. We learned their patterns, what makes them tick, how to get in their head, etc. So what you're saying makes absolute complete sense. Suresh is just following his normal pattern. he sees us standing there at the recoupling and we switch and what does he do? "Suresh moves closer to Lulu, trying his best not to react" Why is he trying not to react? When asked how his night was with Lulu he's visibly uncomfortable and doesnt know where to look. his unusual quietness these episodes, he's pensive! he's in his head rn. Because I think he's scared. He never told MC about his brief fling with Gabi and now here she is in the flesh. He probably thinks any shot at reconciliation is now gone 😭 so he doubles down on Lulu like all the dumb boys do after returning from casa, and in his case its 10 fold because he has all the other ex drama involved too.

can we just have one chat with him though...like please fusebox😭😭

#luckyqueenreignask

[walkingaftermidnight07]

Today's SOBH: let's chat yall

AKJS:DLJK:LKSJDF:KLJSFDLJLSKJDSLKJDSKLJSDLSDJLSLKJFLKSJDFLKSJFLKSJDFLKJSDFLJSLFJLKSJFLKSJFLKSJFLSJFLK

I AM SOBBING ON THE FLOOR RIGHT NOW I AM NOT OK

DEAR GOD I CANT DO THIS WHYYYYY

ok im trying to compile my thoughts as best i can but that's not gonna work so well so prepare for a very long, unhinged rant

first of all, livvy. seeing this update from livvy's perspective ripped my heart out of my chest and crushed it. i am already having all the feels. Hearing livvy describe kit being all grown up, it being a reminder that she will always stay the same....

I quit. im done. this hurts too much aksjf;jks;jfljslkfjlsfj

second, ty's reaction. my poor baby, he was so shockeddd

"I heard Ty take a breath like he never has before. Like he was gasping for air, like he’d been sucker-punched and he was trying to breathe and trying to breathe and he couldn’t."

kit may have fallen first, but ty fell harder for sure. this boy....he cares so much about kit that seeing him after everything that has happened causes him almost physical pain. he wants him back so much, but he doesnt understand why. or why kit has iced him out.

(sidenote: ty telling him that he's cleaning the gun wrong made me sob and laugh at the same time, because of course he would do that and i love him for it)

third thing:

KIT MY BABY WHAT THE HELL I GET YOURE HURT AND EVERYTHING AND I FEEL FOR YOU BUT YOUVE JUST HURT TY SO MUCH AND HES SO CONFUSED AND THIS ISNT HELPING YOU AT ALL

COMMUNICATE. I DARE YOU. TY CANT READ MINDS YOU IDIOT. HE DOESNT KNOW YOURE HURTING TOO. FOR ALL HE KNOWS, YOU HATE HIM

I LOVE YOU KIT, BUT DRU IS RIGHT YOU SUCK AT COMMUNICATION

“How long do you think it will take you to forgive me?”

“I don’t know,” he said.

“But not now,” Ty said in the smallest voice.

“No,” Kit said. “Not now.”

i just wanna hug them so bad oh my fucking god

THAT WAS PHYSICALLY PAINFUL TO READ JESUS CHRIST AND IT STILL HURTS. TYYYYYY POOR BABY

fourth thing: livvy noticing how hurt kit is too, but ty not seeing that

something tells me that livvy isnt going to tell ty about that, so as not to get his hopes up, meaning twp is going to be a long ride for them to get to the point where they actually communicate 👀😭

"Julian, I don’t know what to do. Ty misses Kit more than he thought he could miss someone. He misses him as much now as he did the day he left. He loves him the same. I think he always will and it scares me.

Kit is used to not needing people, but Ty needs people. He is afraid to need people but that is only because he needs them so much. He is not going to stop needing Kit. I don’t know if Kit will always need Ty. But Ty will always need him."

DONT SAY THAT LIVVY. KIT NEEDS TY TOO HE IS JUST SO FUCKING STUBBORN A:KJSDFLJSLFJLSDJFLSJFLKJS

no but i have to applaud cassie for this, because holy shit, this update managed to wreck me within the first paragraph. The overall tone, livvy's perspective and voice throughout the whole thing, the descriptions of our two lil baby idiots-----

I AM FEELING ALL THE FEELS AND I AM SO EXCITED FOR THEM TO FINALLY TALK IT OVER FOR REAL NEXT TIME

let me know what y'all's thoughts are!!! Id love to have a discussion about yalls theories and overall thoughts :D

#sobh #secrets of blackthorn hall #the shadowhunter chronicles #the wicked powers #twp #tsc #ty blackthorn #livvy blackthorn #julian blackthorn #kit herondale #kit x ty #screaming crying throwing up #i am not ok #i will never be okay #i need a hug now #i know i sound insane in this ramble but you have to understand #i am so attached to these two fictional characters its not even funny #im going to go cool down now #i need a good cry and some ice cream

[bigmac-macready]

You're All I've Got

First angsty Mac x reader fic hehehe. Yeah this has been sitting in my notes waiting to be finished, no tw

Despite my nights usually filled with images of what happened at Outpost 31, tonight I've had a surprisingly peaceful sleep. Until now at least. I don't really notice it at first, but muffled sounds make their way into my empty consciousness. Keeping my eyes closed I try to distinguish them, they sound like moans. It's strange but not enough to wake me completely– but a sharp yelp jolts me out of my sleep, a sound like someone being stuck with a hot poker.

"Mac! oh gosh..."

I quickly hop out of bed and move down the short hall to the living room. The room is filled with a muddled glow, as the TV is left on one of those scam commercials or whatever– I don't know. My gaze snaps to Mac on the couch, and thankfully at the right time. I grab him quickly as he nearly hits the ground, now twisting and turning as if someone is continually shaking him. And I do, gentler in comparison.

"Mac! Mac, it's alright!"

He moans lowly but as I touch him he yells again, his good hand gripping my forearm.

"No–! Don't touch them! Don't..."

I grit my teeth as his blunt fingernails dig into my skin. "Mac–I'm right here, you're ok–"

As I say this his eyes flick open, bloodshot and damp. "Y/n..." His chest stutters with exhaustion and he looks down to his hand locked onto my arm. "I–" He let's go and runs his hand across my arm, though merely bruised. And he clenches his jaw to hold back tears. "I'm sorry..." He lowers his head and wraps his arms around himself, and his chest stutters more with silent tears.

"Hey, no...it's ok." I sit down next to him and slip my arm around his waist. "It's not your fault."

Mac raises his head, his eyes red with tears. "That's all you ever say is that it's not my fault...I killed people I let people die. I–" He swallows and looks down at his hands to my bruised forearm. "I still don't know why you stay with me. It doesnt benefit you–it hurts you."

I can't help but sigh at this. Everytime this happens Mac always goes to hating himself. "Mac, you do know that it would hurt me worse not to be with you? A bruised arm is nothing, your nightmares are nothing. I love you."

Mac inhales shakily and lifts his head. "You shouldn't..."

My eyes widen and I can't help but grit my teeth at his stubbornness. "Mac, stop it."

My furrows his brow and huffs. "It's true, you shouldn't. I'm not worth anything."

Hearing this I stand up quickly, trying my best to not snap at him. I take a deep breath and try to push aside my own exhaustion and anger. "I know we go through this all the time...and you always forget, but you do realize you are all I've got? I'm not saying that's the only reason I stay, but when things are hard we take care of eachother. Sometimes it may feel like I'm just taking care of you, but we both do. I just want us both to be happy." I groan and drop my hands in defeat. "And I just wish you'd get that."

In that moment it seems like Mac changes right in front of me. No longer a scar and trauma ridden man, but a sad and lost little boy. Those striking blue eyes meet mine, welling up with tears again and filled with guilt. And I can't help but feel my heart crack. He rises slowly, even though he stands a good few inches above me at six feet, he seems so small. He squeezes me into a tight embrace and I feel his body shudder with more tears. "Y/n–" He clears his throat as his voice waivers. "Please forgive me, I just feel so stuck sometimes..."

I pull back and cup his face as his hands stay around my waist. I feel my eyes welling up with tears too and I try to smile, running my hands along his beard. "I know Mac, and it's hard for me too. But don't ever think that makes you any less worthy of me. I love you more than anything."

For the first time tonight Mac gives me a soft smile. "And I love you..." He kisses my lips gently and pulls me close once more. "I wouldn't still be here if it wasn't for you."

"Dang right..." I smile softly and run my fingers through his hair. Now that everything is settled down we can both at least try and get some sleep tonight. I break our embrace and take ahold of Mac's good hand, leading him to my bed. "Come on, let's at least try and get some sleep."

Mac drags his feet a little in protest. "No, honey–I'm fine." I shake my head firmly and pull him into bed. "It always helps you sleep the night through when you're with me, and I want to anyway."

Mac sighs with the shadow of a smile and slips in next to me. But his brow furrows as I wrap my arms around his waist. "What are you doing...?"

I smile and scoot a bit upward to where I'm holding him in my arms. "You're gonna be the little spoon tonight, bub."

Mac laughs softly at this and allows me to slip my arms around his waist. He adjusts himself a bit, and I feel his hand come to hold my forearm. "Is your arm alright?"

I smile softly and kiss his temple. "It's all good, don't worry about it." He rubs it softly for a moment and finally relaxes. My hands drift to his waist and rub his stomach and lower chest.

He sighs contently, but this turns into soft giggles and his hands find mine. "Baby, you're petting me like a dog."

"Do you want me to stop?"

"No, it's just–"

"What?"

Mac humphs and turns around to meet my gaze. "You don't have to do anything like this, but you do. And I never make it up to you– but I want to try harder."

I nod despite the lump forming in my throat, as I try to suppress the fact that he has promised me this before. "Ok..."

Mac notices this and tilts my chin up gently, and this time there is stern sincerity in his eyes. "I mean it."

I smile at this and Mac returns it, giving me a small kiss on the cheek, and I playfully cringe as his beard scratches my cheek. "Because you're right, we only have eachother."

Snuggling in close I kiss him once more. "I love you, Mac, and I believe you."

"I love you too."

#also cuz wanted to drop this before i get requests 💅 #rj macready #macready x reader #the thing #audria scribbles

[italofobia]

hello. answer all of the pre-relationship questions for leopine right gawd damned now (or not)

thank u adrian for sending this because leopine haunts me i have to talk about it at least once a day or i go insane mwah

1 how did they first meet?

it's so funny because canonically leona technically met the twst mc at the entrance ceremony and then forgot about it until they accidentally step on his tail in chapter one. so technically theirfirst meeting is at the ceremony but leona is too bored to notice pine, who internally is like "wtf a catboy?" but is too focused on the task at hand (getting the hell out of there) to investigate further. then i Think they might meet again in the same way as chapter one or in the same way as the novel (with leona "defending" mc ace and deuce from upperclassmen) but in both cases leona would noticeably more polite than canon because he sees pine as a woman. he still sniffs him to check if he really doesnt have magic and pine is extremely self conscious about his body odor so he's like "uh d-do i stink?". but yeah after that leona is called by ruggie and leaves (still calling pine "herbivore" because its hilarious im keeping that).

2 what was their first impression of each other?

pine: wtf a catboy? 🤨 > HE IS A CATBOY O_o > what a weirdo > WHAT A JERK (chapter 2)

leona: wtf a magicless herbivore? 🤨 > what a weirdo

3 did any of their friends or family want them to be together?

THATS A FUN QUESTION...for friends i feel like a good chunk of them would be oblivious because they are silly teenage boys who are also traumatized as hell. i feel like ruggie would be the first to notice they like each other even before they themselves realize it and hes like "oh my God they are so stupid", followed by rook who sees love everywhere but prefers to observe rather than actively intervene, then vil who sees pine as a personal project of untapped beauty of sorts and wants the best for him so hed be like "are you Absolutely sure you want leona kingscholar????" but then hed be supportive. i think another person to notice would be idia because pine often hangs out at the board game club and often talks about leona (ex: "if i had to kiss someone it would be leona but like as friends hypothetically not for real because we're just friends anyways can i roll initiative lol?") but because hes. idia he would find it eextremely cheesy. pine also tells malleus at some point and he is supportive for the most part but hes not very helpful with love advice.

as for family......okay i think leonas family would be supportive but i cant say for sure since THEY HAVE YET TO INTRODUCE HIS BROTHER AND HIS SISTER IN LAW IN CANON. but yeah i think that theyd be supportive overall.

pines family...well you know My family. leona pretty much represents anything pines parents dont want for him (long hair + tattoo + had to repeat a year + unclear future + thinks outside of the box + wears leather) but after learning that hes rich theyd forgive him for anything lol. not sure about pines siblings.

4 who felt romantic feelings first?

not sure....theyre both very mistrustful + their trauma convinced them that they're not meant to find romantic love...i think they develop feelings around the same time but are unaware of it for weeks. maybe pine is the first to realize it but idk.

5 did either of them try to resist their feelings?

YES BOTH OF THEM. pine tries to repress his feelings by trying to be "logical" considering that 1) they are very different and a romantic relationship between them wouldn't work 2) they are quite literally from two different worlds 3) leona doesn't like men romantically (he does but neither of them are aware of it for a while). leona initially represses his feelings by avoiding pine but this hurts both of them so he doesnt do it for long.

6 if you had told one of them that the other would be their soulmate, what would they think?

they both do not believe in soulmates or "fated love" so they wouldn't take it seriously lol

7 what would their lives be like if they had never met?

oh so like if pine never came to twisted wonderland basically? ok Maybe leona wouldn't have recovered from his overblot...even if he did he would have come out if it more injured and emotionally scarred than he did in canon.

pine would have probably stayed miserable forever most likely. not because of a lack of romantic love but because the twst cast as selfish and egotistical as they are made him learn how to stand up for himself. if he stayed home he would have continued doing what other people asked him to do forever...

#oc stuff #twst #leopine #ask game

[bitethehandthatneedsme]

June June June June do you have Sambrady headcanons or just.. Brady in general.. I cannot find more than like.. idk ten Brady/Sambrady headcanons and I’ve already liked every single one of them on your blog

been waiting 4 this question my whole life….

these r all just fluff hcs bc i want 2 be happy pls🙏🙏

• brady was an extremely physically affectionate person so sam always had an arm around his shoulders and always got a hug goodbye (even b4 they were together)

• brady was an incredible artist. sam was always in awe of his work and one time sam found a drawing of himself in his sketchbook (sometimes hes a little nosy ok!!!!). he never mentioned it to brady but he thought about it a lot

• because sam has, like, the worst self esteem on the planet, when brady tells sam he likes him, sams all “you really mean it???” (bc he doesnt truly believe that anyone could ever like him Like That bc hes ‘tainted’ and ‘wrong’ yk the usually sorry this is supposed to be fluff I’m Sorry pls forgive me😭😭🙏🙏), and bradys “yeah ofc i mean it ur the best thing thats ever happened to me :))))”

• whenever brady got hurt, sam would patch him up and brady would complain bc “im supposed to be the doctor sam wtf😕😕😕😕”

little sambradyluis bonus bc theyre my boys 4LIFE !!!!!

• sam and brady were each others first and only friends for a while!!! but then they met luis and they felt complete :)))).

sorry this is so short i have a headache rn but i wanted to answer as fast as i could i will totally add more to this tho when i can dw!!!!

#I DID NOT MEAN TO PUR THE DINOSAUR GIF WTF😭😭😭😭😭 #IT WONT LET ME REMOVE IT HELP #😘😘😘 #anyways #sambrady #demon lover #supernatural #answered asks #gay people

[doyoulike-whatyousee]

We broke up, because she wanted to us to work on things before dating again, but firstly why couldn’t we just date and fix those things? And secondly, she’s said she’s going to ask me out soon, but nothing has been fixed?? She hasn’t apologized for abusing me, she hasn’t changed any of her behaviour, she didn’t start therapy (only just started trying a week ago after over six fucking months, well actually it’s been two years if you’re talking about when she was first supposed to find a therapist) she didn’t make healthy friendships (that’s one of the things she wanted before we dated again, both of us to have good friendships which is possible for her not for me cause it’s literally impossible for me to have healthy friendships with her around but she hasn’t even bothered to try and make healthy ones, she’s only tried making ‘friends’ (most of the time is new boys to send photos and flirt with) in kink servers and mental illness servers and I’m sorry but… those just are not the best places to try to make healthy friendships.) and we didn’t work on anything, we had a couple discussions that I had to start, she never did, to ask where things are, and what we need to work on, but she could never fucking come up with things for us to work on. So we never fucking worked on anything! I think all it is is she’s managed to forgive me for all the ‘horrible things’ I’ve done to her like ask her to clean her moldy dishes that were making me sick and saying I’ll put them in her room in a couple days if she doesnt because it’s making me so sick and she gaslit me and said I’m always sick I’m disabled so can’t possibly be the mold and also that I’m threatening her by saying I’m going to put the dishes in her room since they’ll make her or her cat sick, but somehow It’s not the reason I’m sick? And it’s totally not her threatening me by leaving the dishes there? Oh and three fucking years ago when she would say shit to my mum that I didn’t like (she would be talking about sex or drugs or giving her too much information about my private life, she loves to forget that my mum traumatized me, but the only times I would do this is when she was saying stuff she KNOWS I’m uncomfortable with) I would (what I thought was) gently pinch her to try and get her to stop, I would try other things first like trying to interrupt or get her attention and give her a look or whisper “stop” or poke her or something but that wouldn’t work so I would gently pinch, it didn’t seem to hurt her but after a few times she told me it did, I apologized and told her I would stop doing it, and then I stopped doing it. SHE BROUGHT IT UP THREE MONTHS AGO I haven’t done it in YEARS, I stuck to my word and didn’t do it again, she’s NEVER done that and she said “well I can’t trust you because of that reason” because of the reason that I proved I can keep my word and not do things again when you express that you don’t like it??? That makes you not trust me??

[thepictureofsdr]

i saw your post about alastair and now im curious about all ut thoughts on Matthew

this ask. is like half a year old. I am So Sorry however i have thought about it literally every day bc my feelings on him are so… complex

i think i can break it down into two categories: 1. his character in context of the whole series, and 2. the bubble of his character, not taking into account his actions and impact towards other people

1. um. he makes me SO MAD. listen i have said time and time again that the thieves dont owe alastair forgiveness but that doesn’t extend to matthew actively trying to fuck up alastairs life. what pisses me off is that this whole agenda is centered on matthews wants, its not because he cares about his friends and wants them away from someone he thinks is bad. when he tells thomas about alastair at the party, there’s no concern for thomas. hes told at their best friends party, probably the first night of happiness since his sister was killed, while intoxicated and very much in public. math didnt take thomas aside or wait for a better moment. [I DONT HATE MATH I JUST LOVE THOMAS] matthew doesnt like alastair, so no one can like alastair, even if he has to hurt others to obtain that. hes very clearly stringing the other thieves along in this its just for him, they all like alastair or dont care about the past. kit doesnt give a shit, james respects alastair to a degree and thomas is head over heels. he even manages to make cordelia call his manipulation of alastair “kind.” he condemns alastair for spreading rumours yet he himself has deemed spreading gossip fun [i can’t STAND hypocrisy its a very easy way to get me to dislike a character unfortunately] he unconsciously blames alastair for the death of his sibling and now alastair and thomas are paying for it. understanding where a mental dip and lashing out are coming from can happen at the same time as not agreeing with it. i understand why matthew acts like this but that doesnt mean i can just ignore how matthew pushed alastair back down to his lowest yknow?

2. i adore him, and i sympathize with him, and he makes my heart hurt in every possible way. he was my tied fave character in tales, this young energetic boy who wants to be friends w the quiet kid, who stood up for his friends, and my heart SHATTERED when i read the poison story. at his core hes a genuinely good person, so i can’t even imagine the guilt thats been crushing him all these years. not only the pain of hurting his mother but killing the baby, my heart breaks every time i think about him and what he’s been carrying all these years. it hurts to even think about this burden hes placed on himself, the silence and ever growing self hatred and inherent belief that hes a problem. all i want is for him to receive that forgiveness hes been desperately needing for so long, and for him to see himself through the eyes of others, for him to see that goodness he possesses and the light he brings into the lives of others and for him to be loved as he so deserves.

there’s more but i cant lie im really scared of matthew lovers but also id feel so bad leaving this in drafts 😭 all in all my feelings on him are so complicated, i love him but hes also hurt someone else i love, hes a walking grey area. but i dont hate him, i feel like a lot of people are quick to assume any criticism is pure unfiltered hatred which clearly isn’t true considering my fave is ALASTAIR talk about someone who’s actions can be criticized 😭

#tysm for the ask!!! <3 #answered ask

[aeferkssr]

hello hello!! i just found your blog and it’s so lovely :D and i think requests are open, but if im mistaken then just ignore this!! its also okay if this doesnt interest you; always write what inspires you and makes you happy <3

i was wondering if i could request small fluffy headcanons for bennett, chongyun, and xingqiu, if you write for them? where the reader has a terrible attention span and it always gets them into trouble—like tripping a lot, running into things, and forgetting stuff all the time jagejwkhsjs can be goofy crack or hurt/comfort, however you perceive this and want to write it!

thank you sm if you decide to do it! also if you take anons, could i be your pookie anon? <3

hope you’re using dark mode!!

- INATTENTIVE READER HEADCANNONS

pairing(s) ; bennet x gn!reader , chongyun x gn!reader , xingqiu x gn!reader

genre ; fluff with a little hurt/comfort

warnings ; people laughing at you (????)

a/n ; OH BOY OH BOY I SAW TIS REQUEST AND I ACTUALLY JUMPED FOR JOY I RELATE TO THIS SO MUCH LIKE MY ATTENTION SPAN FOR LITERALLY ANYTHING IM NOT HYPERFIXATING ON IS IN THE NEGATIVES. so sorry if this would be a bit self-indulgent cause its mostly going off my personal experiences! also i wrote this in a modern au!! OH YEHA ofc ourse you can be the pookie anon!! HIII POOKIE ANON!!!

“bad luck? wow that must suck.” you say as bennett rubs his head abd agrees “i find ways to manage it though! like i always carry this four-leaf clover resin keychain with me!!” “ooo, did you find the clover yourself?” you asked. “yeah actually! but the next day i broke both my arms…” “!!???”

after the encounter you two had you guys started getting closer, you started to open up to him a little about how people treat you. you know, sometimes people don’t really believe you. when you say that you have a horrible memory simply because you don’t pay attention, people start to look down on you. saying that ‘how you would of done so much better at this if you would just focus’. and even when you try to write everything down in a notepad you forget about the notepad within a week! school isnt any easier either, its mainly about memorizing different formulas and answers and random thing that you’ll never be interested in, and therefore will pay it no mind.

after the encounter you two had you guys started getting closer, you started to open up to him a little about how people treat you. you know, sometimes people don’t really believe you. when you say that you have a horrible memory simply because you don’t pay attention, people start to look down on you. saying that ‘how you would of done so much better at this if you would just focus’. and even when you try to write everything down in a notepad you forget about the notepad within a week! school isnt any easier either, its mainly about memorizing different formulas and answers and random thing that you’ll never be interested in, and therefore will pay it no mind.

even thhough bennet couldn’t relate to your problem, he sure could relate to the mistreatment from others. people say that his bad luck spreads like wildfire, even if you make eye contact with him you’ll have a full day of non-stop bad luck. he has just learnt to live with the rumours and try his best to ignore them, but he can’t let it slide this time now that you’re hurt

he tries to comfort you in the best way he can, also providing advice on how you could remember things better, like writing it down on your palm with your finger three times and swallowing it or even bringing a pen in your school bag at all times so you can write down things you need to do on your skin. overall hes really good at making you feel appreciated and even forgived for not responding well.

CHONGYUN - FROZEN ARDOR

chongyun has been your closest friend for years now. ever since you were in kindergarten you two have been looking out for eachother. chongyun was there to make sure that you don’t constantly hurt yourself while you’re there for him when he needs to cool down.

you see, chongyun here is very sensitive to the sun. a simple five minute walk home and his face could be beet red eith heat. so yoyr job was to constantly make sure he had a normal bodh temperature! well, normal im chongyun standards simce hes also a little colder than the normal human being. what can you say? hes just that cool!

since you two have always been there for each other, you know what makes the person themselves! you knoe what makes them happy, you know whom they have a certain attraction to (or the strong urge to show a not-so friendly finger) and what makes them tick. so its no secret that you know what the other dislikes as well.

you really dislike people laughing at you. there’s something about people finding joy in your embarassing moments that makes you want to put yorself six feet under. it doesn’t help at all eith the fact that you just walked face first onto a pole doesntly help it at all.

crying out of embarrassment, while chongyun starts to shoo away the crowd, he gently cuops your face and runs his thumbs along your cheek as he tries ro calm down your silent sobs.

XINGQIU - JUVENILE GALANT

to be completely honest, i think he was one of the ones yeasinf youabout you innatentiveness. but when he found out that he was actually really hurting your feelings he stopped amd gave you a formal apology.

xingqiu was always a teacher’s favourite, probably cause he was sticking rich!! but then again he was also a good student who participated in class and gave in his homework on time, while you were the opposite. you would always be off in your little headspace and teacher would hate that you’re not paying attention

definitely calling out your name really loud to startle you back inti reality before they ask you a question that you definitely don’t know the answer to. then another lecture about how you should be paying attention amd how whatever grade you get here in class depends on your future, something that you should be worried about.

simce you and xingqiu got closer from his apology, you ended up ranting to him about how you wish you could remember something whithout drilling it into your brain 24/7. xingqiu did some reasearch about it and asked more questions about your inattentivity.

if its something that recently came about, he would ask about your sleep schedule. if it’s not the recommended hours of sleep be would say to try and go to bed earlier or even taking melatonin to calm your body. if its something you always had, you should try out different methods of remembering things like either writing it down on yoyr phone and setting it as your lock screen or even on your phone case. you really did appreciate the help he was giving you as the both of you saw it as an apology for his misbehavior earlier.

#{ #idolteyvat #} #genshin impact #genshin #genshin impact x reader #genshin x reader #genshin impact x you #genshin x you #bennet genshin impact #chongyun genshin impact #xingqui genshin impact #xingqiu genshin impact #bennett x reader #bennett x you #chongyun x reader #chongyun x you #xingqiu x reader #xingqiu x you #teenie.tiny.anons #pookie anon!

[rommahh]

Better

Word Count: 3.9K

Pairing: Buckybarnesxfem!reader

{This is for @metalbuckaroo's challenge. I had this brewing for a minute but college has got in a chokehold. I chose prompt #30 from the given prompt list. I hope y'all like this read. Love, R}

Bucky trailed behind Y/N as she ignored his calls. Her boots clicked loudly in the small hallway as she rushed towards their shared apartment. Her keys shook in her hand, body tense with anxiety and anger.

Bucky reached her at the door, his hands loosely gripping her arms. Y/N shoved the door open, her body snapping away from his. Y/N haphazardly throws her keys in the small bowl that sat on the hallway side table.

Her chest heaved with deep breaths as she tried to remain calm.

“Y/N please, what is going on? Why are you so mad?” Bucky questioned, slamming the door behind him as his own frustrations started to catch up with him.

“I'm going to bed.” Is all she said to him without even meeting his eyes. She was quick to enter her room and lock the door before he could say anymore. Bucky stood behind her door in confusion. His body still tingled with the lasting effects of the shots he took hours prior.

Sitting on your bed, Y/N finally released. Her shoulders dropped, her body hunching over itself as the tears started flowing.

Y/N had been looking for Bucky for what felt like hours. He was her ride back to the apartment and having been at this party for over four hours- she was exhausted. There was a twinge of disappointment that lingered in her caused by Bucky's disappearance. He invited her to this party tonight but quickly left her to her own devices the moment the both of them walked through the frat’s doors.

The house was mainly empty except for the few lingering bodies that were drunkenly wandering around. She climbed up the stairs that lead to a common room on the second floor. Y/N’s cute white go-go boots were tight on your feet, making her wince at every step. Fashion was a moment type thing, not a four hour long excursion.

Y/N heard a group of voices leading from the common room once you reached the top of the stairs. She listened out waiting to see if she could hear Bucky’s voice before walking through the doors of the common room.

“I don't know why you hang out with that girl Bucky.” Her ears perked at his name. Y/N almost walked through the door but she took a step back to listen to what they were saying.

“Yeah, shes fucking weird.” The group laughed. “I mean look at how she dressed tonight. She’s wearing a costume.”

Y/N looked down at her 80’s inspired dress with a frown. She thought she looked cute tonight, Bucky said she looked cute. She couldn't stop blushing after she heard his words.

“She’s a freak barnes. All she does is follow you around. Are you sure you guys aren't dating?” One of the boys asked with a chuckle. No one said her name yet but she knew they were talking about her. She could tell.

“Y/N’s not that bad. She just doesn't have any friends. I don't like her like that, not my type. She's got that weird anxiety thing.” Bucky's voice finally sounded out from the group. Y/N heart hurt hearing his words. Weird anxiety thing?

“Yeah, making her a freak. So you're just friends with her out of pity? Are you at least getting community service hours?” The group laughed again, Bucky's deep laugh standing out to Y/N.

“You have a lot of strength for a man who's not getting any ass from the girl he's keeping company with. Shes weird as fuck but her body is still bangin. Have you ever copped a feel of her tits? I would hang out with the loser if I got to fuck her too.” Someone commented. Y/N felt bile rise in her throat. She could feel a panic attack approaching having heard the sexual comments about her body. She stepped out from around the wall into the common room. All eyes snapped up to her, some eyes widening in shock. Bucky just looked up, not catching on that his roommate may have heard the horrid words said about her.

“I-im ready to go home, Bucky.” She hadn't looked up from where her feet were rooted on the stained wood floors. Bucky slowly wobbled up from his seat. The rest of the guys watching quietly, some snickering at Bucky's submissiveness.

“Here sweets, you're gonna have to drive.” Bucky says handing his keys over to Y/N. Without looking at him, she snatches the keys from his hands and quickly retreats to his car. Bucky stumbles behind her confused by her attitude.

Y/N walked to Bucky’s car, arms covering whatever they could cover on her body. Her mind telling her she was unsafe, her anxiety telling her even worse things.

Bucky eyes burned from the headache he had. He felt physically ill as he woke up from the living room couch. Last night's activities blur in his mind, no clear memories presenting themselves. He sits up to rest his forearms on his knees trying to calm his bubbling stomach.

The first thing he notices as he comes to his senses is the lack of Y/N’s noise. Normally the small apartment would be filled with the sounds of her sunday playlist as she cleans about. He also doesn't smell her extra dark and strong coffee that she only makes for sundays. He doesnt smell her out of the can cinnamon rolls either that she would normally wake him up with on a small tray with said coffee.

He finds it odd that her presence is lacking in the apartment. Standing, he makes his way over to her room knocking on it slightly. He hears shuffling from the other side but no one comes to open the door.

“Hey sweets, everything ok?” He knocks again to gain her attention.

“I-Im fine Bucky, please go away.” She stutters out to Bucky. Bucky is shocked by her statement not used to being pushed away by her.

“Oh ok, just let me know if you need anything.” He says quietly.

Y/N remained the same way over the next few days. She rarely came out of her room when she was in the apartment leaving Bucky on his own. She stopped making him meals out of kindness or filling up his canisters of water for workouts. She stopped baking him treats as midday pick me ups. She didnt wait for him to get out of classes so they could gossip about what was going on on campus. She didnt bother him at all.

Bucky felt uneasy about Y/N’s silence. He was hurt by her sudden disappearance. Hurt that she could just ghost him without any reason. But there was a reason, Bucky just didnt remember.

Y/N sluggishly walked into the apartment after taking an extensive exam in one of her classes. She tried to walk quietly throughout the apartment to not catch the attention of Bucky. She walks softly on her feet close to the opening of the kitchen.

“Hey.” A quiet voice makes Y/N jump in her spot. Her mission of going unnoticed failed. Bucky leans against the kitchen counter that is parallel to the opening of the kitchen. His feet are crossed in front of him, hands holding a cup of tea.

“Hi.” Her tone matches his. She turns her body to face his, hands fidgeting with each other. She slightly moved from foot to foot, a trait that had been acquired out of nerves. Bucky recognized her tic, his heart constricting at the thought that he might have done something to cause it.

“Y/N, please, what's going on?” Bucky can see that she's not wearing one of her normal outfits that are adorned in bright colors and fun patterns. Instead, her body is covered in a boring sweater that hides most of her body. She wears a large pair of jeans underneath, a belt tightly bounding it to her body.

“Nothing Bucky.” She dismisses. Bucky feels his anger peak. A range of emotion he tried to hide away breaching over its point. He missed his best friend beyond belief and all she could give was a few words.

“It's not nothing Y/N!” He snaps slamming his mug of tea on the counter. Y/N flinches at the sound. Her hands start to shake, not out of fear of Bucky but from unwarranted anxiousness. “I've given you your space but its killing me. I miss you Y/N. I dont get what happened?”

Y/N feels her eyes well up with tears.

“You hurt me Bucky.” It was Bucky’s turn to flinch hearing her words. He hurt her?

“I don't know what I did though.” His voice sounded childlike as he whined.

“At the party, you let your friends talk poorly about me. You-you let them call me a freak and-and weird. They made fun of my clothes and said you were hanging out with me out of pity and you just sat there and laughed James!” Her voice rose with every word. Bits and pieces of that night float around in his head. He can slightly remember the conversation but nothing is clearly showing in his head.

“I'm sorry they said that Y/N but you know that's not true. We both know our relationship, I don't know why you're letting them get to you.”

“They talked about my anxiety. You talked about my anxiety!”

“That's it? That's why you're not talking to me?” He exclaimed throwing his hands in the air.

“You let them sexualize me!” The kitchen filled with an uncomfortable silence. Bucky’s exterior softened.

“What?” His tone was drastically softer than it was earlier.

“You just sat and listened to them as they talked about my body. They talked about my boobs and if youve had sex with me and you said nothing. They said that they would hang with the loser if they could fuck me...How could you let them say that about me?” Y/N whimpered. Her hands cradled her face as she sobbed. Bucky saw the way her chest heaved with each sob, tears forming in his own eyes.

“I didn't know. I wouldn't have let them say those things sober. You have to know that.” He almost fell to his knees pleading for her forgiveness.

“You even said you wouldn't date me. I know its stupid but I thought you liked me back. You told me you loved me. You've taken me out on dates. You've kissed me for goodness sake!”

“I know and I'm sorry. I do like you, I don't know why I said that. I like you so much.” His knees buckled slightly but he held his ground.

“Obviously you dont Bucky. We should just stay away from each other from now on and I won't be renewing my leasing contract at the end of the semester.” She finalizes. Buckys whispers a small no in protest. “You really hurt me, Bucky. I would never let anyone slander you. I respect you too much to allow for someone else to disrespect you.”

With that being said, she gave Bucky one last look over before walking away. Bucky was knocked out of his thoughts at the sound of her door slamming shut and the lock being secured.

Bucky sat on the kitchen floor, the cold tile seeping through his pants to chill his legs. His face adorned with a frown, tears sliding down his warm cheeks. Y/N was his best friend and he ruined it by being a shitty person. He knows he should have defended her, defended their relationship.

Bucky’s rolly chair was his only source of entertainment at his desk in the lobby of the admissions office. Today was a slow day. There were only a few students who came in asking for help finding buildings or looking for the financial aid office. Some high school student came in for tours but his coworkers beat him to doing tours so here he was stuck in the quiet office. He had already stolen a large amount of guest snacks, a cold bottle of tea and a sugar cookie with the school's logo on it.

His chair spinning activities came to a halt when he heard the front door open with a small jingle sounding from it. He took a moment to let the dizziness fade away before he looked up. Bucky felt his breath stop in his throat.

There stood a girl with overalls and a bright colored top. She wore dark green converse, high tops, with frilly socks that peeked from the top. She had large glasses that framed her face perfectly. She was looking around the office, eyes wide with wonder. Her eyes finally met Bucky's, making a large smile appear on her face.

“Hi!” She exclaimed walking up to Bucky’s desk.

“Hey, what can I help you with today?” Bucky asked cooly.

“I just transferred here and I was wondering if you knew where I could apply for on campus jobs?” She placed her hands on top of the counter of Bucky’s desk. He admired her baby blue acrylics that had white flowers on them.

“Oh um, the admissions office is hiring. We do all of the tours for highschool students, or package and mail acceptance letters. Sometimes we plan scholarship events. It's an easy pay type of job. I just sit here and do homework my whole shift.” Bucky answers. “What's your name so I can get my boss to contact you?”

“Y/N Y/L/N.” Bucky quickly scribbled your name on a post it note and stuck it to his laptop as a reminder. “Do you really like this job or are you just trying to pull me in?” She jests with a small smile on her face.

“I mean it's a decent job but im sure with you working here it would make it ten times prettier.” Bucky smirked at the giggle that escaped Y/N. He wasn't normally a flirt but he couldn't help himself with this one.

“Oh really? How many times have you said that line to a girl?” Bucky put a hand to his chest in a fake offense.

“You think too low of me Y/N. I saved that one for the prettiest girl to walk through the door.”

“Hmm, ok. I'll believe it only because my ego needs this boost. Hey, you never told me your name. How am I supposed to write about this encounter in my journal if I don't have your name?”

“My name is James but I prefer if people just call me Bucky. Short for Buchanon, I know it's weird.” Bucky leans back in his chair, arms crossed. He can see her eyes checking out the way his muscles flex underneath his long sleeve shirt. He may have purposefully flexed a little extra for show.

“No, I love it. I dont think ive ever met a Bucky.” She counters. She leans forward, placing her elbows on the counter, her chest pressed against the front of the counter.

“Well I'm glad I'm your first Bucky.” He jokes with a small smile on his face. There was a small moment of silence shared between the two as they just looked at each other. Bucky couldn't help but think about how cute she was as Y/N thought the same thing.

“Oh gosh, I'm probably holding you up from your work.” She snaps out of her little spell rolling her eyes at herself. “I should get going.”

Bucky frowned at the idea of her leave, wanting nothing more than to continue talking to the new girl.

“Right, of course. Maybe I could get your number...so I can notify you about the job.” Bucky proposes. Y/N raises one eyebrow in question, a knowing smile placed on her lips.

“Sure thing bucky.” He hands her a pen and post it for her number. “I wouldn't be opposed to you using this number for things other than work too.” She suggested. She signed her name on the post it note ending it with a small heart.

“I will definitely take you up on that offer. No take backs though when I start sending you random shit.” She giggled, leaning up from her spot. Bucky basked at the sweet sound. He stood up to meet her on the other side of the desk.

“Well Bucky, it was lovely to meet you.” She stuck her hand out for him to shake, he reciprocated the action. Her hands were soft and warm, he thought. She gave him one last smile before walking away.

It was warm outside on the quad as Bucky sat by himself. He sat at the table that would normally be occupied by Y/N and him. Y/N would bring lunch- made by her. Anytime Bucky would try to help her by making lunch she would kick him out of the kitchen. Today, Bucky sat by himself, with no hand made lunch. He had a greasy bag of french fries and a large coke. He planned on eating his sorrows away.

“Hey Bucky!” A voice yelled out to him. Looking up from his fries, Bucky looked towards the sound that broke him out of his fries excursion. Tanner and Logan, his friends from the party, came walking over to him. They both sat down, throwing their lunch onto the table.

“Where's Ms. weirdo?” Tanner asks, mouth full of food. Bucky grimaced at Tanner's manners. He also felt the anger he should have felt on Saturday bloom in his chest.

“She's not weird.” Bucky snapped, fists tightening in his lap. Tanner scoffed, Logan laughing along with him.

“Says you. She is fucking weird. Did you finally get some from her or something? Defending her and shit.” Logan clapped Tanner on his back agreeing with him. “Shit, good for you dude. I would have fucked her a while ago. Probably would have kept her face down so I wouldn't have to see her-”

Before Tanner could finish his sentence, he was thrown from his seat from the powerful punch being landed on his jaw. His feet flew from where he was sitting, landing on his back with a heavy thud.

“Dude what the fuck?” Tanner stood wiping his face from the blood that started to trickle down from his bloody eyebrow. Bucky had never felt anger like this before. His heart was racing, his breathing labored. His cheeks were red and warm, eyebrows turned down.

“No, you don't get to make fun of her and make sexual comments about her.” Bucky snarled. Tanner rolled his eyes, walking closer to Bucky.

“Oh fuck off with that! You didn't defend her this hard on saturday.” Tanner's mistake after his words was shoving Bucky's shoulders back. Bucky reacted quickly by shoving Tanner with even more force.

Tanner threw a punch to Bucky’s jaw, making his head fly back. Bucky tackled Tanner to the ground, throwing punches left and right. Tanner fought back, hands flying landing punches wherever he could land them.

Logan was able to pull Bucky off of Tanner, warning the two that campus police would arrest them if they were caught. Both boys stared at each other fuming. Bucky snatched his trash and his backpack up, the scowl never leaving his face.

“If I ever see you looking or talking to Y/N, I will bash your face in.” Bucky growled.

Y/N felt better today. She found the strength to wear a cute outfit versus the oversized clothes she had been wearing prior out of fear. She didn't want anyone to look at her in any harmful way. She wanted to wear her cute outfits that were sometimes form fitting and short. She liked to wear her cute period pieces that had her own twist on them. She spent many years hating her body and the way she looked. She deserved to feel cute without thinking she is at fault for being sexualized and poorly treated.

She whipped out one of her favorite outfits today, loving the way it fit on her body making her feel confident. Sitting at the front desk of the admissions office, her feet propped up on the desk. Her shift was going by slowly, no one needing assistance this late in the day.

The door burst open making Y/N jump from her seat. She stood up shocked to see Bucky walk in with a huff. He wasn't supposed to work today but here he was. Y/N gasped looking at his cut lip and bruising eye.

“Bucky, what happened?” She maneuvered her way around the desk to stand in front of the beat up boy. She placed both of her hands on his cheeks to examine his injuries. He moved his face away from her tears brimming his eyes.

“I'm sorry Y/N. I'm really sorry. I should have protected you from them. I should've told them not to speak about you that way. You are more than some eye candy for men to act disgusting towards. You are beautiful and eclectic. You have a brilliant mind that shines brighter than anyone elses on this campus.” He spoke to her softly.

“I don't understand Bucky. What made you have this change of heart? You didn't give two shits about me last weekend.” She crossed her arms defensively.

“I know and I'm sorry. I don't know what I was thinking. Maybe it was the alcohol but that's no excuse. I love you. I love all of you. You're not weird. You're your own person and I love everything about you. You do so much for me and I feel like shit for not doing the bare minimum for you.” His words stunned her.

“You love me?”

“God, with everything I have. Since the day you walked in here with those overalls. I've spent the past four years loving you.” Bucky whispered. He grabbed her hand, thumb rubbing over her knuckles.

“I love you too, Bucky.  I really do and I'm hurt. I don't think the hurt will go away for some time. You let them speak horribly about me. If you loved me like I was your girl, you would have defended me.” She spoke sorrowfully.

“I know, I know. I can't change the fact that I did nothing but I can tell you that I'm sorry. I'm always going to protect you. I did today. Tanner may be sporting a nasty goose egg on his eye because of his dumbass words.” Y/N giggled softly, touching his bruising knuckles.

“Thank you, Bucky.”

“I want to go back to normal. I miss you in the mornings and-and during our lunch breaks outside. I miss you.” Bucky stated.

“I miss you too.”

Bucky watched her eyes drop down to his lip, busted and all. He leaned forward slightly hoping she would meet him in the middle. She met him the rest of the way pressing her lips to his. Bucky relished this moment. He relished to be even sharing  moments with the girl he's been in love with since the second he saw her.

“I'm gonna be better, I promise.”

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ramon arellano felix as a dad would include

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ok right off i want to mention ME MUERO imagining ramon with the mini versions of himself

like he would be the fun dad thats always playing with his kids and always wanting to be around them constantly :(

but also my heart hurts imagining this ball of emotions being so happy about having kids with you

like i cant with the thought of him in the very moment you tell him youre pregnant-

like this soft ass moment where hes just in disbelief,, holding your face- “embarazada? de verdad princesa?”

i just- him being so excited,, wanting to hear you say it again and again before he picks you up from so much excitement :((

wow would not even hold back before hes already walking you both over to announce it to all his siblings :(

and like enedina would be the most excited because you know she would :( and i just have a feeling dina is going to go all the fucking way to be the consentida aunt :((

wow? um she definitely gives me the vibes of her always being around you to make sure your ok,, making sure you and her little niece/nephew have everything available to you within arms reach-

because she adores you with mon :(

but also ramon being constantly worried about you when hes not with you even tho he knows youre the safest person breathing in mexico

and because he knows dina is there with you all the time puts him a little at ease-

like omg if something,, even the slightest look,, happens to you or your kid, he would shoot up all of tijuana becasue no one touches his familia- his overprotectiveness goes through the roof- i

i am crying at the thought of him always kneeling down and talking to your stomach,, like that is a daily thing he does all the time-

like :(( imagine him doing it right after you told him your pregnant or something :( i-

no but also because the very fucking moment he knew about his kids existence in you,, he would give up his crack usage :/

todo porque he wants to be the best dad figure for his kids :((

like he vows to that shit even more once he had his kid in his arms- excuse me let me go cry,,

im sorry this is supposed to be a dad hc yall im starting to get carried away-

BUt WOw i cant even explain the way i go soft imagining this cabron as a dad with his kids :((

because you know what i thought of that first came to mind?

UM NIEVE DATES WITH HIS KIDS ANYONE???

where he for sure would always give into them whenever they ask if they can get some ice cream for breakfast or something-

he would probably have his kids pinky promise to him to not tell you anything about skipping meals just to have an ice cream cone :((

and like having them happily eating their ice cream while he picks them up and sets them on his hip :((((

i am sorry,, but you cannot tell me park visits are not a thing right after having ice cream:(

like the thought of him pushing his kids on the swing set :(( or going on the slide with them is breaking my heart- :((

but ramon also being extra af with protectiveness with his kids :(

like him making sure everything and anything that could hurt his kids in anyway,, hes moving his kids away from them-

:(would make sure his mens guns and his own guns are away from his kids sights-

and moving a whole bunch of dangerous things away like in hard to reach places so his babies dont even get the glimpse of danger :((

all because he would never forgive himself if something he could have prevented hurts his ninos :(wow

:((((( AH he would love styling his kids hair all the TIME

omg i fucking cant at the thought of him having a daughter and loving to braid or putting his daughters hair in these little pigtails??? :(((

like him sitting her on his lap in the morning,, the both of them watching some kids show on the tv as hes just gently as fucking possible brushing her hair out :((( why do i do this to my s e lf

and he would like,, give her a little kiss to his ninas head like “mi princesa hermosa,, la mas guapa de la casa” :( WOW

or if he has a son,, the mini fucking version of him and dressing him up in those pinshis camisas :((

im just- holding in my tears imagining ramon being the dad that would love to bathe his kids :((

and like him having all these toys for them too,, playing with them all the time just to make his kids laugh-

fuckk- he would definitely do that cute shit where he would gather bath bubbles in his hands and place them on top of his kids hair :(( no one look at me

him def being the dad to like,, burrito wrap his kids in towels after their baths :(( carrying them around the house while they dry :(((

bro? picking out their clothes?? for them to wear?? because he has style??? :((((( im sorry

would always be seen walking around with his kids sitting on top of his shoulders when theyre old enough-

like my mon is a toll bby and his kids love getting upsies from him beacuse of that :(

wow would this one loving blowing all his fucking money if it means his kids have the best birthday party in all of mexico even if its like their first birthday loL

just christmas and birthdays especially being a mf highlight for him because he buys so much presents for them to have

decorating the house from top to bottom,, every year it’s somehow better than the last-

ok but also him buying everything and anything for his kids when he’s out with them

like before his kid even finishes their sentence that they want some car toy on the shelf

his ass is already shoving it into the cart because his little angels will get ANYTHING their little hearts desire ok?

i laugh because you probably scold him at times that he’s spoiling them too much

but he’s always on defense like “mi amor,, dime como les puedo decir que no a estas caritas preciosas????” :(( like low key tho he loves consintiendo his kids because he cant help it :(

oh my god??? you know what just attacked my mind that it made me start bawling??

the fact that mi ramon would love dancing nortenas with his kid/ daughter :((((((((

OR THE FACT THAT HE WOuld love taking you to bailes-

dancing with you all pegaditos to banda or nortenas,,, tu by los elegantes de jerez anyone??

AND HAVING HIS FUCKING KID IN BETWEEN THE TWO OF YOU :(((

im definitely not in the club crying my soul out at the thought of him kissing the top of his kids head and then you-

his stupid smile and heart eyes as he leans his forehead on yours and tells you “como te adoro princesa, por darme la mejor bendicion de mi vida” :(( someone pls come hug me

no :( i swear all i do is hurt myself because get this-

like do you guys remember when miguel angel killed off mi amor gueritos family?? holy shit could you imagine the way ramon would go fucking frantic to make sure that doesnt happen to his own family :(((

i kid you not he would go through anything to make sure you and his kids dont even get a single little piece of hair touched-

like im almost positive ,, family man ramon would fucking THREATEN to the max if miguel angel even looks or breathes in tijuanas direction-

wOW like when all the plazas got together and left in s2

and miguel angel saying some shit like “con cuidadito eh,, dicen que en tijuana anda bien peligroso,, no quiero que nada le pasa a esa hermosa familia que tienes, ramon”- ALL FUCKI NG SMUG WHILE MIGUEL THREATEN S HIM AND THE TJ BOYS FOR LEAVNI G-

good god- and ramon not hesitating for a second to try and pull his gun out,, all heated- im sorry for bringing that thought up

but overall just such a soft, overprotective family dad whos always going to be there making you and his kids as happy as possible :((

#narcos mexico imagine #narcos mexico imagines #ramon arellano felix x reader #ramon arellano felix #narcos mexico #narcos: mexico

[sunlightandsuffering]

Suffering hardships doesnt excuse the trauma Eren inflicted on Mikasa in the table scene. He made her question her entire identity and people tend to excuse it by saying Eren loves her and never meant it. But it still wasnt fair to her. And sex isnt compensation for his behaviour so he doesnt get anywhere near Mikasa until he cries like a bitch, grovels on the ground and begs for her forgiveness. Also cabin Eren faced the exact same harships but chose not to indiscriminately kill people.

K so what I gain from this response is that u dislike Eren? To which I ask why are you here? Like bruh I was talking about them fucking 😂 it’s not really that deep. ( or maybe he I mean it is 😏😏) I get Eren should obviously repent for his stuff, but tbh I think Mikasa killing him etc, was more than enough, that’s some Ancient Greek god punishment shit, to be killed by the one u love most, PAIN, not to mention his own psychological suffering, and it’s not like he did it for the memes either, but it’s pretty clear from ur ask u don’t really like him. ‘Cries like a bitch, grovels on the ground and begs for forgiveness’ like what?? Who says that about a character u genuinely like and want to ship with another character. Clearly u hold Mikasa much higher as a character and that’s fine, but idk why u would ship her with him.

Especially if u won’t view his actions through a lens of understanding, which is not to forgive him but give the kid a little slack honestly, his head was fucked and do u know how it probably hurt him just to say that shit? I feel for him so much, Eren is human and he makes mistakes and he did what he thought was best, what he was sure of. Cabin Eren is a totally different situation. Regardless, this is an Eren AND Mikasa blog, not a Mikasa Stan blog it is BOTH. So ur not gonna catch me having either of them cry or whine or snivel for fun. I’m not gonna bother discussing this in any more detail, not worth it. But as a little cherry on top I think if Mikasa had the choice between Eren grovelling +crying like a bitch and sex, think she’d probably choose the second option 😉 and I on my mostly horny EM blog think hot kinky sex with Eren is probably a solid start to our boy making it up to her lmfao.

[mikkokomori]

omori in the sunny dies au beating the hell out of basil specifically for his crimes of hurting (and killing) the baby

he doesnt use the knife though and im unsure whether thats better or worse

then he drags the rest of the gang across the town and throws them at the doors of a psychiatrist center

----

ok seriously now omori being actively aggressive towards some members of the group, especially basil since yknow, he killed sunny, would be a punch in the gut. you're looking at a remnant of sunny after mourning the boys death, who takes the form of a twelve year old, and the boy fucking hates you

alternatively seeing omori for the first time would be a shock for sure, whether he attacked or not.

hero probably wouldnt even believe it was real. he would think its a hallucination, something coming to taunt him for what he did, what he didnt do. sunny was the only thing he had left of mari, and now hes gone. and then it speaks, and he shuts it out, because he cannot bear the words it wants to say.

aubrey explodes in anger, at this desecration of her friend's loss, this body looking so much like him yet empty and dead (just like him, rotting in the ground), limbs stiff and yet fluid, carrying the steak knife (the one he stabbed her with, on the first of those days. she cant believe she misses that of all things.) even as she swings her bat, aiming right for the bastards head, it doesn't flinch- only disappearing into the fog.

kel cries. he's spent so long being positive, pretending everything is fine, and then his best friend is murdered. when this figure appears, its like his guilt explodes tenfold. he should've noticed that basil wasnt okay around sunny, he should've noticed basil wasnt okay at all. he should've done something, why did sunny go alone? he clings to the figure like a lifeline, the last remaining thing of his best friend besides his grave. it says nothing, it does nothing but stare as kel sobs into the spirits black tanktop, and kel doesn't know if thats better or worse.

basil, oh god this guy goes straight delusional. my thoughts are more scrambled here (just like this guys sanity) but a few scenarios i can think of are either him believing its sunny in grief induced denial which makes him have a total breakdown or catatonia. or, thinking its the Something that killed mari and made him kill sunny taking a new form which makes him attack it as well (with the monochrome and black eyes you get it). OR, thinking of its presence as a sign from sunny as forgiveness, making him try and kill himself to see sunny again.

yeah none of these guys are okay. omori's so done lmao

EATS THIS UP LIKE ITS MY LAST MEAL ANON you are so big brained and honestly very in character for all of them!!!!!

Omori can't seem to catch a break with any of them :( but he has to do what he has to do!!!

#omori watching aubrey attack him like *eyebrow raised emoji* #mw with basil hes just damn this bitch id crazy anyway #with hero he sees how the guy has kind of started picking up some similar mannerisms like sunny had when he was alive #and with kel?? uhm yeah cry in my shoulder ig *throws away the tearstained shirt for a new one* #omori #omori sunny #omori basil #omori aubrey #omori kel #omori hero #omori spoilers #what if? omori #anon asks #miko panta

[abittersweetsongforyou]

wtfock fic recs part 2

saddle up for pt 2 babyyyy

wtfock fic recs pt 1

the underrated (just read them trust me they're brilliant)

wishing, wanting and longing by dottori

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart by orphan_account This isn't our first time around by noobishere this is us, through your eyes by dottori - with yasminas season starting id like to draw everyones attention to this fic from yasminas pov its sweet and sentimental and lovely and the fact that it has under 100 kudos is a fucking crime Scary Monsters (and Super Creeps) by berrevy - i love this author so much and this fic is so good, i love the way they're written here, the description is beautiful, 10/10 A morning without you is a dwindled dawn by Createdforyou - so soft i love seeing them just living their lives together Elayna Aan Zee by zetaphiuchi(ryuujitsu) - this one is sad and maybe sander forgives too quickly but its beautifully written and i love it you're an angel in disguise (you're an angel in my eyes) by thekardemomme - this is so sweet and lovely and warm everyone should read it I do now. by irregardlxss - robbe tells jens about the hate crime dreaming of you by ivy_seas - just them being happy at christmas time hold all my cliches on the tip of my tongue by nbrook - they're dorks and they're too horny for their own good but they love each other very much i've never been in love (but i wanna be, i wanna be) by ladypeaceful - what if sander took noors place at the party in episode 1 we have the stars (and this is given once only) by merengue - military au but also childhood friends and its so soft and beautiful and they love each other so much Agents Sliding Down The Chimney by berrevy - i seriously cannot recommend berrevy enough this is a christmas fic thats a little sad but also a whole lot sweet and very real which is what i like

angst bby

I follow you (deep sea, baby) by emotionalgoblin - sander pines in my mind, in my head by cubedmango - canon divergence for s3 last two episodes

gonna help you be free, honey by lamourestout - aftermath of the hate crime

We're always gonna be contaminated by nbrook - sander fucked upppp and everyone is sad but they communicate so its fine

the night we met by themoongirl - college au, sad boys :(((

show me some stars (beneath this ceiling) by peaceoutofthepieces - five times robbe wishes he could wake up next to sander and one time he does You're always there for me by nbrook - the s4 car accident aftermath (don't want anything) but all of you by MajorAccent - s4 car accident but extra extra angsty i know someone who kisses the way (a flower opens) by romantiser robbe and sander see each other again after sander paints the mural

sander and robbe being so in love it hurts

he is the one by themoongirl - marriage proposal im soft

I'm holding my breath, as the seasons change by bruisingknees - robbe moves out of the flatshare

new year's eve by themoongirl - sander is sad but robbe is soft

all you never say by nothingbutniall - fluffffff

you're the one that i want by themoongirl - sander needs reassurance

dark paradise by luckycharmz - sander is coming out of a low and robbe takes care of him

i was grounded (while you filled the skies) by wafflesofdoom - theyre in love okay

If a June night could talk, it would probably boast it invented romance by allforyoumylove - theyre childhood friends and theyre in love

oh my sunlight, sunlight, sunlight by alsjeblieft - sander painting robbe

Early Morning Dancing by teen_content_queen - flatmates dance in the morning v v cute

(inside my head) I've been at war by nothingbutniall - they're so soft pls

The sun came up and I was looking at you by allforyoumylove

Baby, Home Is In Your Arms by clarecas - robbe comes home to sander after his exam

don't be scared, you are my rock by peaceoutofthepieces - sander is sad but robbe is there purple lips (underwater) by dottori - fluff so much fluff i love it sm

in all your gorgeous colors by nothingbutniall - sander paints robbe you're still the that i love (the only one i dream of) by thekardemomme - i couldve also put this in the angst category but they just love each other so much its so beautiful My darling, I'm rooting for you by allforyoumylove - sander is having a depressive episode and robbe loves him fully formed, ready to run by MajorAccent - sander is down and robbe just wants to be with him paper rings by thekardemomme - they love each other so much and theyre going to get married one day i've always wanted a (boyfriend) by thekardemomme - christmas is sanders favourite holiday and robbe doesnt love christmas but he loves sander Come lie with me by allforyoumylove - they're roommates but they cuddle and fall in love glimpses by foxsake5 - theyre just living their lives, being in love, as they should

boyfriends being boyfriends

I absolutely adore you but we're absolute beginners by nbrook - sander is adorable

boy, i fucking got you by noobishere - yeah its rated e but its so sweet okay

Lovesick by szamsson - sander picks robbe up from school

you're a wonder under summer sky by nothingbutniall - boyfriends go camping

memories painted with much brighter ink by nothingbutniall - Christmas gift giving at the flatshare

we're keeping it simple by noobishere - eenvoud babyyyyy

Meet me in the hallway by nbrook - ahsdka Milan

double date. by fockinglevendcliche - double date with amber and aaron

back to the beach house. by fockinglevendcliche - sander wants to get it on and robbe is weak but their friends are assholes

take me with your constant shame by peaceoutofthepieces - cute date hold me close by sincerelysobbe - robbe is stressed and sander is the best boyfriend you charge me up (like electricity) by howlingsaturn - secret boyfriends if you say swim by soundnvision - another date another pool Modern Love by angelboygabriel - okay yes this is e rated but their. boyfriends and they're happy they're just also horny mkay You make me feel like I am whole again by nbrook - robbe has a rough day but sander is there being all cute and making it better I've been looking so long at these pictures of you by nbrook - much banter very cute You're my favourite kind of night by nbrook - at a halloween party finally kissing the right people Show me a piece of your heart, show me a piece of your love by nbrook - boyfriend tag for the broerrrs channel, unfinished but so much fun thus far working double time by noobishere - sander is wearing a turtleneck and he looks hot in it Ground Control by angelboygabriel - christmas clinging and sex because why not oh and they're in love hopeless romantics by thekardemomme - it's their anniversary and ugh they love each other sm sander driesen versus a mistletoe by dottori - its christmas and sander just wants to fucking kiss robbe okay high for this by flowermaze - sander is drowsy and still finds time to flirt with robbe All You've Got to Do Is Win by berrevy - they actually do play that tennis match years kept in minutes by peaceoutofthepieces - they have traditions and its adorable pls love is the opening door by cryingcancer - robbe and sander facetime on their anniversary after sander was sappy on instagram Home by foxsake5 - sander is a massive simp and robbe looks hot in a robe You don't have to say you're mine by nbrook - robbe is a little insecure and sander is there to reassure him Distracting by sincerelysobbe - v v v cute jahsdjah sander is weak for robbe we all understand bro February 14th, 2021 by foxsake5 - no words bro just cute af if we can make it through december (maybe we'll make it through forever) by nothingbutniall - sobbe at the christmas market This = Love by nbrook - robbe is hungover and sander loves to tease him They ain't living life like this by Createdforyou - halloween but this year they're together

sexy times

Woensdag 16:36 by Anonymous

i don't even wanna fuck, i just like you by eversincewefellapart

Vrijdag 18:26 by Anonymous - hurt and comfort

video phone by tokyometropolis(mesohorany) - quarantine times

Don't know where I'm going from here (but I promise it won't be boring) by skamsnake

snakebite by Anonymous

Zaterdag 09:58 by foxsake5

Wildfire by sincerelysobbe - no smut just kissing but they steamy

come on (mess me up) by MajorAccent - sex but tender 🥺

The Teenage Trifecta by little_but_fierce

i glow pink in the night in my room (blossoming alone over you) by midsummernightoddity

life is a pop of the cherry by icedwhitemocha - the hotel

Ik Win by Anonymous

In his arms tonight by allforyoumylove

long may he reign by tokyometropolis(meohorany) - well considered smut jsdhjhd

Draw Me Closer by skamsnake

When I live my dream (please be there to meet me) by skamsnake

we click, we go boom! by strangeparties Dark Red by nancy_mcfly - friends with benefits play the game of grown-ups by Anonymous - they have a lot of sex but its because they're in love

#wtfock #wtfock fic #wtfock fanfic #wtfam

[waitformethistime]

Finally caved and read Fruits Basket Another (I typically dont like next gen stories) and my overall thoughts:

-Sawa's mom fall in a pit challenge (along with Ren because seriously why is that cunt still around?)

-I stan Akito now. The fact that she willingly keeps her distance from the people shes hurt and is just trying her best to be everything for Shiki that Ren shouldve been for her is just [chefs kiss]. As a kid, I always thought she got off too easy but as an adult, I can understand that repentance doesnt necessarily equal forgiveness.

-Shiki about Shigure, his own father: hes a bastard and a weirdo...but I guess hes alright (you're gonna go far kid)

-Mutsuki is THE best boy and its absolutely hysterical to me that hes like an Ayame/Kakeru hybrid (rip Yuki lmao but perhaps Yuki wouldve been similar if hed been allowed a normal childhood)

-Hajime looking and talking like his dad but having all of Tohru's nurturing, "mom friend" energy got me like 🥺🥺 (also him and Mutsuki are boyfriends dont @ me).

-Tohru and Kyo had 3 kids. Which means not only did they canonically fuck but they canonically fucked a lot (good for them tbh Kyos an absolutely hottie and Tohrus gorgeous)

-Sawas mom issues and all the anxiety that came with it hit a bit too close to home for me

-Sora and Riku...was Takaya-sensei playing Kingdom Hearts when she started writing this? 😂 (Soras a cutie tho and I feel like Rin wouldve been similar if she'd had parents who werent garbage people)

-This freaking panel (Takaya-sensei is self-aware)

-Hinata and Momo are both so pretty and I'm Gay 😍

-Okay look the idea of all these high school couples actually lasting til marriage and kids is laughably unrealistic but Takaya-sensei is a romantic and wouldnt it be Ideal to have your first love be the right one?

-Sawa and Shiki are cute but wouldnt she be like 15 at this point? While he would be like 12...I know the circumstance is a bit special and it does remain wholesome and the original manga certainly had way worse age gaps but that would be kind of weird in RL

-i do find it incredibly interesting that even though Shigure and Akito were quite a few years older than most of the others and sexually active, they waited the longest to have children (Shikis the youngest which would put Akito in her 30's when she had him). Their relationship was pretty unhealthy so I'm glad they waited a while before jumping into being parents. Hopefully they went to therapy in that time period (though it is possible Akitos physical health couldve also been a factor)

Overall, it was cute. I love that all these new Sohma kids grew up in loving homes because their parents broke the cycle of abuse and that their parents remained friends. And that Sawa is kind of a reverse of Tohru. Thank you Takaya-sensei for the extra dessert on top of the 5 course meal that was Fruits Basket

#fruits basket another #furubana #kyoru #akigure #akito sohma

[dykeza]

HI ANYWAYS IM ANNOYED BY C!TUBBO POSTS I KEEP ON SEEING. i am the expert not these c!inniters i keep on seeing.

LIKE. THEY R POSTING THE WORST TAKES ABT MY BOY. "why is he forgiving techno? techno hurt tommy" MAYBE BECAUSE TUBBOS LIFE DOESNT REVOLVE AROUND TOMMY??? HELP .????

Like. Yes they are best friends. Yes theyve been through so much together. Yes sometimes they dislike the same people. BUT THEY ARE DIFFERENT..???? and Tubbo is allowed to forgive techno and still feel off around eret !!! ive seen so much abt that

Because what Tubbo probably sees is Eret wanted the power, so he literally helped kill them all, vs Techno who was pressured into killing him, someone who had no choice. LIKE IK WHO I'D TRUST MORE IN THAT SITUATION WITH THOSE THOUGHTS IN MIND. i am so tired of ppl saying shit abt tubbos character when they dont know anything abt him at all...

Retweet #sotrue I am moments away from complete and utter insanity my tiny body is not made to hold this much rage but here I am. Bearing it. This is so true

#ask #Tubbo anon