#in fact I am going through something

[galaxyspeaking]

Tasting menu

#zosan #opla #zoro x sanji #roronoa zoro #are you insane like me #been in pain like me #i’m nowhere near normal about them #in fact I am going through something #black leg sanji

[ferociouslycreativemystery]

Have we mentioned how well cast these people are yet? ↳ Source

#I am so sorry michael but david's right #I love aziraphale with all my heart but the fact that I find that the hardest scene to sit through in all of s2 really is saying something #well done #good omens #good omens edit #david tennant #michael sheen #good omens spoilers #go2 spoilers #gos2 spoilers #aziraphale #crowley #maddie's go tag #maddie's gif tag #(yes these are from different seasons what of it)

[lagosbratzdoll]

This is a very very unfinished thought but I've been thinking a lot as I reread the books about how the women of House of the Dragon don't really get catharsis and how that'll likely be worse in S2. Say what you want about asoiaf but a number of named women there experience catharsis.

They kill their abusers (Lysa, Cersei, Dany). They regain some agency after a violation (Lysa, Cersei, Lady Stoneheart, Dany), and they refuse to forgive the people complicit in their subjugation (Lysa, Cersei, Dany, Lady Stoneheart, Jeyne Westerling).

Obviously, three or four isn't enough in such an expansive cast of characters but the point remains that they claw back their autonomy however they have to. They're allowed to be angry, bitter, unforgiving and cruel to their abusers in a way women in House of the Dragon just aren't allowed. They're allowed grief, grief that is violent and destructive.

The women of House of the Dragon don't get angry. They stand around and stare plaintively at the camera, they cry prettily, and they plead for peace and non-violence. They suffer and suffer and suffer and there's no relief.

#although dany doesn't really set out to kill her abuser #in fact she doesn't really think of him as her abuser #but the fact remains that her story begins with his death #she gains her dragons and agency through his death #lysa murdering jon arryn #lysa not going to riverrun when hoster is on his deathbed despite cat's letters #she denies him relief for his crimes against her and it's one of my favourite moments in asoiaf #cersei killing robert #cersei eating robert's children taking back reproductive autonomy from the man that hurt her #lady stoneheart turning her grief and pain onto the riverlands #she hangs freys boltons and lannisters uncaringly #it's a failing of the storytelling because this is supposed to be the feminist retelling of the dance #but instead the misogyny that leads up to the dance has been defanged. #the point of the show has been obscured behind endless arguments of the supposed illegitimacy of rhaenyra's first three children #the women fighting for power have been replaced by evil men perched on their shoulders telling them to do bad things #they're helpless victims carried along by the stream of inevitability #or something idk #also i am not including alicent trying to take luke's eye and injuring rhaenyra as cathartic because they are not the cause of her sufferin #house of the dragon #not asoiaf thoughts #daenerys targaryen #lysa arryn #cersei lannister #lady stoneheart #alicent hightower #rhaenyra targaryen #helaena targaryen #rhaenys targaryen

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Hello! I was wondering if you’d be willing to take commissions someday 👀. No pressure tho! I just love your art so much

The short answer: "not at the moment, but it is very possible in the future'!

The slightly longer answer: I would have to figure out a good pricing and payment system! PD-MDZS is also where most of my free time goes, so until my life settles down a bit, I would be on the slow side to complete them.

#Ask #Even longer answer: I technically do - but it's been people I know irl asking and handing me physical money/bank transfers. #I'm working on one right now but the tricky part with pricing is that they want the physical copy of it - which is different to online comm #Fun fact: I have gotten a fair amount of commissions from a local hobbiest quilting club. #They show me their pintrest inspiration board and tell me size specifications and I draw out patterns on parchment paper. #I am probably being undervalued by a group of 50-60 year old women but they call me handsome and say I'm doing a good job so... #There was also someone a while back who asked about a tattoo design and I was *so* enthusiastic but I just got too busy to commit. #I truly do appreciate people asking - It is *extremely* flattering that you like my art enough to want to commission something! #I will re-examine my situation in a few months! Someday really is the keyword here; I think I'd have a lot of fun with it! #(All the money would go back into buying more artbooks and supplies too! What a dream!) #Through this blog I've gotten to know a few people who do commissions for a living who I will probably pester for pricing advice #Time really is the only barrier for me right now B*(

[uncanny-tranny]

I was always enraged at the way capitalism has devalued some of the most important labour in human history, but now I'm even more angry since I have started getting more into crafts.

So many people are alienated from the world to such an extent they don't realize how fucking important textiles and construction and art and culinary labour is, because its all ubiquitous under capitalism: it is all profit, and if it isn't profit, then it is worthless. People don't realize just how revolutionary all of the labour was, how important it is, and was, to our survival. And that enrages me.

#politics #anti capitalism #the reason you have people going 'would it be $20 if you knit me a sweater' is because of that alienation... #...because of the fact that they're not used to non-exploitation and the fact that textiles are fundamental to humanity... #...because capitalism has so alienated them from the world around them they don't understand what goes INTO textiles... #...they only know that sweaters cost $20 at walmart and that price is rational for them #and that isn't to say that they are at fault but that they are the result of capitalistic alienation and exploitation #like i'm sorry for posting so much about crafts and shit but it really makes me think more about all of this you know? #and it's just made me think that all of this is so much deeper #DOES THIS ALL MAKE SENSE.... #i feel like no-bark noonan right now the way i am raving and ranting #the hobbyist crafter to even stauncher anticapitalist pipeline has fucking yeeted me through #yes i'm aware of karl marx's theory of alienation and i'm saying he was onto something

[itspileofgoodthings]

so many people have said that as you approach your 30’s things start to fall into place but I don’t feel that at all. the closer I get the more it feels that everything is dissolving and falling apart

#it’s not all in a bad way! #I’m hoping Wendell Berry is right and it may in fact be that when we have lost our way our real journey begins #and there is something where in the dissolution of certainty God enters and directs us the way He wants us to go #and reminds us that we’re not strong and independent from Him but children in His hands #but I would be lying if I said I didn’t miss the certainty of 2018/22/younger Maria #I don’t quite know this new self #except for teaching everything is uncertain and I sort of daren’t pick up the colored pencils of life to do anything with them #I guess that’s what makes me really grateful for teaching #it’s firm and sure contact between me and the outside world #but everything else is just drifting and I am at sea! #anyways I am so sorry for putting personal self-reflection and analysis on your dash on this Easter morning #ewww ugh disgusting blegh I’m sorry #but trying to gain some clarity through words #Happy Easter! thank you for listening!! praying for you all

[sunshinediaz]

snippet sunday 🫧

hi friends, i'm late but i'm here and once again i'm sharing something from hoa eddie because he's going through it and i like to make him be silly

“What was that all about?”  Eddie sighs. “She gave me a citation,” he answers, holding up the piece of paper for Buck to take. “Apparently, I joined a mandatory HOA when I closed on the house and the only way to get out of it is to sell and move.”  Buck leans against the door, too, close enough Eddie can smell sweat and sweet lemonade. “Well, that sucks,” Buck says, ever eloquent. “What’s it for, anyway?”  “We were being too loud.”  “She said I didn’t need to apologize for that!”  Eddie chuckles. “You don’t have to,” he says, turning his head so he can meet Buck’s eyes. They’re awfully bright, even in the dim light. “Me, on the other hand? Pretty sure she wants me begging on my knees.”  “You’d look good on your knees.”  Heat crawls up Eddie’s neck. “Fuck off,” he says, laughing, and shoves at Buck’s shoulders until he giggles and rolls away. “You’re not funny.”  “I’m a delight.” Buck tugs at the hem of Eddie’s shirt, the same place he was picking at earlier, and draws him away from the door. “Come share a beer with me.”  Eddie smiles, warm in his tummy from both the tequila and Buck’s superpower of making everything okay, and says, “Yeah, okay.” He allows Buck to pull him along, trailing after him into the kitchen like a loyal dog. 

i was tagged by @watchyourbuck, @honestlydarkprincess, @hippolotamus, @callmenewbie, @jeeyuns, @try-set-me-on-fire, @wildlife4life, @giddyupbuck, @exhuastedpigeon, @daffi-990, and @wikiangela and since it's so late the only person i'm tagging is @eddiediaztho because britt needs to see this scene

#listen. eddie's going through it but you can't tell right now. all of it's going to come together SO well in chapter 3 #and then it chapter 4 it's going to fall apart #why? #because evan buckley is inevitable to eddie diaz #and once eddie realizes he's in love with buck? well it just makes sense that buck's in love with him too right? #and maybe he approaches it wrong (it's not something that can be helped okay) #but he's doing his BEST #because buck? there's nobody after buck #he's a sure thing #he's the last person eddie's ever going to fall in love with and that's IT #but anyway yes eddie's goign to go through it but so is buck and as a matter of fact so am i #and so is bobby's lawn mower #sigh #tag games

[synonymroll648]

"And she [Sophie] couldn't help noticing how good he [Keefe] smelled—like wind and salt air and something a little citrusy."

hey guys remember when on page 646 of stellarlune shannon confirmed that keefe is a bit fruity (/hj)

#kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #kotlc shitpost #keefe sencen #soph ty for giving us this detail while you were off being a sophie-koala <3 #(sophie-koala is now a term used in canon once so far and i am taking it and RUNNING) #sokeefe #because this is from the sokeefe chapter we've all heard about by now (42) #but also. the fact that he smells like wind and salt air and something a lil citrusy? #using that for at LEAST one keefitz fic #actually that's just gonna be a staple detail about keefe for me now. keefitz sokeefitz sokeefe something else i WILL use a similar #description to this no matter what. keefe absolutely WOULD smell like oranges. to me. #just because i love the idea of him going from eating oranges to use the peel for a smiley face the way kids love to do in elementary #to do it for that and because he just likes the fruit #salt air is pretty self explanatory because he likes the ocean but like. wind? #i'm pretty sure the context in this one is that he was off flying w/ silveny but. i love the idea that he ALWAYS smells like wind #like wind in your hair on a roadtrip like wind whipping against your clothes in a summer thunderstorm like wind blowing through lonely #hilltops like wind trying to catch you when you're falling off a cliff knowing damn well it won't save you but trying anyway #wind is never here to stay. keefe's never here to stay. he's wired to always be on the move #keefe being equated w/ wind is just. yes #damn i kinda derailed from keefe being a fruit but. he can be both guys i promise

[meadowsofmay]

vax braiding vex's hair after they investigated the lake is so xbjbxksnsnshdiskw THAT is what i like. THAT IS my fucking shit. oh my god, i am in love to the point i can't even express my emotions with words.

this is important. so, so, so important to me, because that's some level of care and attention — in the middle of the end of the world, as they are trying to figure out how to bring dragons down, vax does not only follow his sister's very footsteps but he tends to her in ways that don't just narrow to wounds.

#hair braiding is special #just as it is #it's more special given the fact that i headcanon elves braiding each other's hair as a love language #it's even MORE special given the fact that vax considers himself an older brother who's purpose it to protect and care for his sister #and given the twins' history #him braiding her hair as part of caring and doing it so naturally as if it's not his first time and definitely not last #is something that i am going to hold really close to heart #may c1 watch through #ep 44 #vax'ildan #vex'ahlia #vox machina #critical role

[here-there-everyfuckenwhere]

I saw this post the other day that said something about how back in The Day, most sitcoms were about a group of friends or a family, and very little was ever said about their jobs and what they do for a living. And now all sitcoms are set in a workplace and very little is said about people’s lives outside of work and I just wanna say; Ever since I read that post, I have been ripping my hair out.

Because like. Yeah. That’s basically it, isn’t it? In the 80s and 90s it was all about hanging out with your friends at the coffee house or spending time with your family after work and on the weekends, and that was the most important thing in these characters lives, and now it’s just. Work. Friends outside of work? Don’t exist. Family outside of work? Don’t matter. “Workplace romances” is such an overused trope nowadays because these characters don’t meet anyone outside of work. And it’s never really fulfilling work, either. Normally it’s an office or someplace where people wish they were doing something else.

Kicking, screaming, biting ect ect.

#IM SO MAD ABOUT THIS #like this is literally the most upsetting thing in the world to me #the fact that even the media we consume nowadays reflects this weird grind culture thing #don’t meet anyone outside of work #all of your main milestones and celebrations in life revolve around work #your friends and family don’t matter as long as you have a place to work #I AM GOING TO CRY #remember that episode of Friends where Chandler realises he hates his job and just randomly quits #and then Monica is confused for a second and the. he says something along the lines of #oh well. it’s just a job. I’ll get another one. #and this all happened because they forced him to work through Christmas Eve so he couldn’t spend it with his friends or Monica.. ??? #remember how in TV shows a character working through Christmas Eve would prompt them to just randomly walk out..? #and realise their worth as an employee..? #and now it’s just A Cute Christmas Episode #because all these characters do is work #THIS IS UPSETTING #ray rants and junk #personal #the office #b99 #parks and rec #abbott elementary #superstore #also I don’t remember the original post or who made it unfortunately but they put it much more elegantly than I have here lol

[rainymoodlet]

Kiss Me in Komorebi+ 🌸

[ First Vacation: Nolan! ]

Oh, wow! A cheek caress, right out of the gate? It seems like Daniel really couldn’t keep Nolan off of his mind… but who knows? Can their newfound tension and old foundation stand the test of a previous elimination?

Part 2 of 5 🌹

@wastelandwhisperer

#ts4 #ts4 screenshots #ts4 gameplay #ts4 story #ts4 challenge #ts4 bachelor challenge #;kmik #sim: daniel #nolan langford by wastelandwhisperer #|| #me on the floor: these two… #they are so fascinating to me i want to watch them under glass like little bugs #daniel is categorically not attracted to (and in fact UNattracted to) young adults so the fact that #he has always found nolan extremely attractive has captivated me something awful #i think the first night they met and nolan wanted a hug dan was just pierced through with #dear god look at all of this kid’s moxie i’m a soul-sucking old fart what am i DOING #so it definitely colored nolan’s genuine excitement in his eyes #hopefully they can have a better chance this time around 🥹 #if nolan will stop going to every living bookshelf and grabbing a book before talking to daniel that is fjdjjdj

[chiropteracupola]

historically accurate trip to clifton's cafeteria!!!

[progress shots under the readmore]

#em draws stuff #SEND HIS ASS TO THE CLIFTON’S CAFETERIA! #I have been working on this image for More Than A Week and I feel like it has taken years off my life :] #look sometimes you get possessed by enthusiasm about fun comics you read and also nostalgia for bizarre novelty restaurants #due to the fact that clifton's no longer exists I cannot go there. but I can send the blorbos there by force if I so choose. #there's just something about old southern california restaurants with strange gimmicks and themes. take me away to there. #since I am very proud of this I will be using the full proper tags just this one single time [lying through my teeth] #swapping my usual format so there’s not just an absolute deluge of organizational stuff right off the bat #I think I said that the madness would probably go away soon but as you see that has not been the case (it's only gotten worse) #this is the most people I’ve put in a picture since I don’t know when #actually after a quick look-see through my files this might very well be the most people I’ve put in a picture Ever #the madness will do that to ya I guess. also the sheer raw clifton’s energy. #(altho' I got so tired in the end that about half the background is a very crunchy photo of The Real Clifton's...) #this is why my header is what it currently is and also why I posted that horrid 70s jello drink a week ago #many thanks are owed to jon dxppercxdxver for chatting with me about outfits and drink orders and such! #this is fanart for the weirder forefather of a rainforest cafe just as much as it is fanart for a videojame #I do not know what the typical tagging etiquette for this is but by golly I'm going to guess #clifton's cafeteria #team fortress 2 #spy tf2 #engineer tf2 #soldier tf2 #sniper tf2 #demoman tf2 #medic tf2 #heavy tf2 #pyro tf2 #miss pauling #scout tf2 #why yes I am tagging clifton's Like It Is The Piece of Media. what of it.

[calitsnow]

It’s always funny to me when I have the same reactions as Dante and I never feel closer to them than when I am just playing with my vision of this weird reunion of outcasts as a big and loveable found family, only to see that vision crumbled down and challenged every canto by a sinner or Vergilius who exclaims loud and clear and often vehemently that it will never be anything more than a employer / employee relationship.

At those moments I react exactly like Dante when they are like: « Maybe I am the only one who thought we were sharing something together ? Maybe all the sinners are only here for their own goals ? Maybe they would never want to make an effort to create a meaninful relationship between each others ? Was I a fool to believe that this was the start of a friendship … that we could have developpe a bond more or less deep, a feeling of belonging … that we could have been a family. »

First there is the pain of having your hopes shattered but then that doesn’t stop us to continue hoping for it to happen.

We are just two big delulu people

#limbus company #dante #canto V spoilers #I guess #I mean I know the story is probably going to go on the found family road #but since it’s project moon I can’t help but feel I am being delulu when I am faced with moments like that #because I fear they are just going to put us through suffering #and also maybe because some don't feel worthy to have this sort of relationship again #and that those moments are like a reminder to stay aware of the fact that maybe this is not going to end as a big happy family ... #but that's just a possibility ! #there is also the possibility that through this journey they WILL developp this kind of bond #and I mean the best found family are the one where they have to go through stuff together to get there #it's about living things and overcoming together #so I understand why Dante won't stop believing that a deeper relationship can bloom from this #and maybe I am delulu but #for me those moments are just hardships that are on the road which lead to something better and I mean #that's normal since this is a story where characters have to grow and it would be stupid to except the sinners and Dante #to become so close so fast #this is the endgame #and we already have the proof of that possible end with Yi Sang #Yi Sang is ready to create a new kind of bond with Dante and the sinners #he is ready to have what he had once with his previous comrades #because yes the problem is also that all the sinner are hurting deep inside and I have learned that it was better to stay alone #because caring for someone maked them suffered and now they don't want to start a new relationship where they could hurt again #better being alone that being the only one alive and being the one who has to remember and carry on #gosh I ended up talking a lot in the tags #Yi Sang is the best

[justjanusthings]

#icing someone out rather than telling them youre mad at them #justjanusthings #janus sanders #deceit sanders #ts janus #ts deceit #ts sides #sanders sides #fun fact i texted this idea to virgon and they asked if i was going through something (i was! still am? idk)

[knbposting]

at this point i have no idea if it's a headcanon or if it's just canon, but kagami's 24 maji burgers has got to come from somewhere. he generally eats a lot of food, my hypothesis is that he's a growing boy, he's a teenager, and he's really tall/strong, therefore his basal metabolic rate is probably really high. add onto that all the exercise that he does

kagami also goes all-out during practise. he's always training until he's out of breath, always striving to improve himself. on top of that, he talks about going on runs sometimes too (in order to help him think things through and regulate his emotions, my sweet boy). therefore i can only imagine he's hungry all the time.

his burgers are a particularly specific demonstration of him choosing to eat that, though. walk with me here. maji's/fast food joints are pretty inexpensive and they have yummy food. he didn't have a lot of pocket money growing up so it makes sense that he'd want to go somewhere cheap. then it becomes normal. then he starts buying more to the point that he actually feels full.

i think the 24 burgers thing is a gag. first and foremost, i think it's just an exaggeration for the hahas and i agree, it's pretty funny. it makes sense that someone so huge like old kagz would want to eat that many burgers in one sitting, but let's put this thought aside for a moment and consider alternative reasons for his 24 burgers. it is 24 burgers, by the way. two dozen burgers. mental

anyway. assuming that maji's is just a mcdonald's substitute, here's the nutritional information for 1 cheeseburger:

15g protein for 300kcal isn't bad imo. he's got a decent amount of carbs in there to fuel him, and honestly the fat isn't great but he's eating at maji's he's not going there for health foods. (also kagami doesn't care about health foods, king)

my belief is that he probably read in a fitness magazine about the importance of protein and calorie intake for building muscles, and thought of maji's. i reckon he doesn't track macros or calories because he doesn't want to have to do the maths, but he knows that if he eats enough, it doesn't matter.

kagz has mentioned before that when he's with people he thinks would care, or they've been weird about it before, he will order 12 cheeseburgers. let's say that this was his first solid quantity before he ended up raising that number, the bigger he wanted to get. in 12 cheeseburgers, there's 180g of protein (3,600kcal). hell yeah, dude! that basically covers his general intake goal for protein (if he was actively tracking it, which, again, i doubt -- but let's call it a ballpark). in 24 cheeseburgers, there's 360g of protein and 7,200kcal. that is definitely too much protein to eat at once and expect any extra benefit, but he's not eating this every day so it's not so bad. and again, i have a feeling his calorie requirements are going to be super high due to all the contributing factors i mentioned before.

in conclusion, i think kagami read one thing once about having to get over 200g protein if you want to bulk up (which he has always wanted to do, he's always aimed for being big and stocky), and ran with it. 24 cheeseburgers fulfils his protein requirement so he doesn't have to do any maths, and it leaves him feeling full.

i do just want to point out that mcdonald's cheeseburgers are, according to google, about 200yen each, bringing the 24 order up to ¥4,800 (£25GBP/$31.40USD) which is not an absolutely insane cost for eating out. of course he also orders fries and a drink but he seems to prioritise his burgers so i cba to look up those numbers. he's a king ordering like one fries to 24 cheeseburgers ratio tho. no wonder he likes maji's so much if it's cheap and cheerful and completely eradicates any concern for getting enough protein. we're talking GAINZZZZ BABY

#kagami taiga #tw food #tw calories #tw eating #hcs #i really love food n nutrition im very interested in it #i am now slightly worried about the state of this one anime boy's liver but i'm sure it's fine #kagami says something in late s1 when he's running on the beach #and it's like something something he was feeling like there was too much to think about so OF COURSE he goes for a run #which is really sweet (everything he does is endearing) bc i just love to think of him as trying really hard against his hot temper #and im not going to call kagami stupid because i dont think he is - i just think he doesnt LIKE thinking things through and takes everyone #really literally at face value #add in some translation issues and the fact that he goes through life assuming that people are picking on him #and of course he's gonna be somewhat highly strung #anyway. who had this meta on their bingo card for today

[itspileofgoodthings]

also I had a breakthrough today that I had in fact overthought a Specific Problem to Death and that I had created a monster in my own mind and that’s why it felt like I was being eaten alive every time I tried to solve it.

#not to put too fine a point on it but that’s what happened with the whole is Maria going to become a nun question tbh #and I needed a counselor to say to me objectively and yet also crucially without any knowledge of me or my past: #you have overthought this and now you’re terrified of it #anyway it’s so obvious but it came home to me today. slowly. #like it was just like. Oh. You did it again #you’re terrified of this because you have thought of every possibility and every outcome and every twist and turn and shadow—- #until it has become a bloated demon in your mind that is totally separated from reality #while made up of real facts and details! and tbh I know it’s a common problem #but the anxiety chokehold I can put myself in is something that is so impressive and so disturbing #I can render myself absolutely helpless through the meanderings of my own thoughts #and what makes it worse—immeasurably worse—is that I get OUT of problems through careful thought and analysis #I’m programmed that way #so I can’t escape it by the usual means. I have to back away from the monster and see it and NAME it and then it can die away. #and only THEN can I apply my usual ways of going about things. I don’t know it just all clicked today #these past few days have just been bringing it all to a fever pitch for me #anyway I guess it’s also important to me that I still be allowed to be analytical about it!!! I have to use my brain!!!!!!! #in my desperation I have tried to shut it off to feel only with my heart. To try to catch the whisper of God’s voice in the wind #but tbh I am meant to use the gifts I have! But only in the right context #and that’s only after the demon has been killed or more accurately —deflated #my counselor has been so good about this tbh. she’s so matter of fact and blunt and salt of the earth and also she sees how my mind works #and wants me to be able to use it!! #so I’m just going to tell her that I did the bad thing with this other problem and can she help me find a way forward #ANYWAY THE MONSTERS TURNED OUT TO BE JUST TREES