#im suffering im suffering im s

[jesse-cosay]

I wrote 22,000 words for a soulmate au that are 100% all build up just to randomly drop it for a fake dating au and I'm already 20,000 words into THAT

I just want to share it all so bad but I know if I post it before I'm done then I'll get performance anxiety

#they are both jesslake #AND FLUFF ALL FLUFF #i need to heal from the ghost au and atone for my crimes #i just wanna shake all my friends bc its like!!! #ITS SO GOOD!!! ITS SO FLUFFY!!! YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA!!!! I LITERALLY CANT SAY ANYTHING OR ILL SPOIL IT!!!! #rambles #im suffering im suffering im s #why is jesslake so brain-wormy

[deus-ex-mona]

real talk: lxl should continue to explore romance fantasy concepts in their songs. it’s clearly working for them~

#typical prince aesthetics in romeo/julieta and nonfan… and now historical rofan in meoto… #(and there’s also whatever’s going on in tsuki no hime but that has no mv :( sadge) #sorry guys i still have meoto on the brain pls suffer with me~~~~~~~~~ #but mannnnn. i was struck by sudden inspiration for a meoto au a n d #well. ig now i understand why they skipped over the falling in love phase. romance is hardddd #i want to subscribe to the meoto expansion pack p l s i need to know what their deal is~~~~ #bc man. how in the world did they go from complete indifference to promising to stay together forever hello #what happened???????? excuse??????????? #man. m a n. ok i think im done for the night. i hope #LXL MEOTO CRISIS 2K24 #(but if anyone here wants to get into the otome isekai genre in general… i recommend starting off with ✨s u r v i v i n g r o m a n c e✨ #(it’s a great story and it’s still modernised enough to ease into the genre. and after that…) #(you can just go for the series with the most interesting premise/prettiest art/both tbh) #(though i personally recommend ✨the perks of being an s class heroine✨ ✨the villainess’s stationery shop✨ for milder content) #(and there’s also some series with both isekai and regression.) #(like they isekai after their 1st life in 20xx-> live out their 2nd life in the fantasy world -> regress to a point in their 2nd life) #(for that type i kinda like ✨i shall master this family✨ though ngl i’m mostly reading it bc i think the aunt is very pretty) #(a nd there’s the occasional modern regression story but that’s pretty soap drama-esque and the one i read got ridiculous at times lmao) #(but ofc the ones with less romance focus are fun too~~~~ like stories with multiple isekai-ed people for one) #(b u t i digress i think i’ll stop here before i lose the plot any longer ahaha~~~~)

[b4kuch1n]

this cold med fucked me up bad I did barely anything but sleep and write this

#sherlock and co #s&co #john watson #sherlock holmes #mariana ametxazurra #I dont know what the point of this one is. I lied I do. Im not saying it tho #I feel like some of my best work went into the segments with john and mariana joshing around #to be fair this is cold-med-influenced opinion. might be subjected to change. not sure #I am straight up going to pass out now I held back on this cold for One day to do a Thing #and now im being punished for it but it was worth it. it was great #have a good night lads. hope ur not suffering a cold rn. be careful of the changing weather ok

[mwagneto]

imagine being stuck centuries and lightyears away from home waiting for the man you're in love with for several lifetimes because he's the only person in the universe who can maybe give you any answers and you're also just deeply and hopelessly in love with him and then you finally finally find him and he hits you with "did i? busy life. moving on." and "it's not easy even just looking at you" and "flew all the way to the end of the universe just to get rid of you". happened to my good friend jack harkness

#LITERALLY HOW ARE YOU MEANT TO GO ON AFTER THIS. FOR LITERALLY ENDLESS AMOUNTS OF YEARS COZ YOU'RE IMMORTAL #bruh im 7 minutes into utopia which I've already SEEN a million times and even I'm abt to set myself on fire #literally imagine being him it's so. im so glad he got to meet martha #suffered more than jesus because of 10's stupid ugly idiot ass club #doctor who #10th doctor #jack harkness #jackdoctor #3x11 utopia #oh and also you have his hand in a jar on your desk. as a little souvenir

[mitskijamie]

Jamiegender scholars should we discuss the recurrant emasculation by older men

#oc #also very interesting how much of this comes from Roy if you read Roy as a closeted gay or bi man #I actually read a really interesting article about the sharp left turn in attitudes towards homosexuality in men's sports #and how in the 90's (which wouldve been the height of Roy's career) <10% of male athletes surveyed described themselves as 'pro gay' #compared to 93% in 2022 #and how it's common for male athletes to kiss each other/share beds/outwardly express love for each other which didnt used to be the case #Roy was loved and valued his entire career for being angry and aggressive and soldiering through pain without help #('Your anger makes you the player that you are' Roy Kent will never leave on a stretcher' 'I played hurt all the time') #and Jamie (who he sees so much of his younger self in) is living in a much better world where that expection isnt nearly as heavy and I can #see the resentment there #I'm fine with him playing hurt I played hurt all the time. I had to suffer so should he. it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair #this makes NO sense im literally like a little girl playing insane dramas with barbies #jamiegender

[telebi]

I'LL BECOME KING OF THE PIRATES!

#love in the air #love in the air series #bldramaedit #noeul nuttarat #peat wasuthorn #they said noeul we're going to continue to drag (affectionate) you for being mixed #and peat we're gonna give you something for all your onscreen pain and suffering lmao #i loved rain being like wow you weirdo why would you want to cosplay YOURSELF like its only fun if your bf does it for you!!!??? #ok im done but please someone gif sig going off #tonnam is so funny.....i cannot wait for wish you luck i know hes gonna kill it #* #s: love in the air

[hawkeyeslaughter]

hawktrap x “ funny how time slips away “ , willie nelson .

#happy trapper tuesday !!!! #suffer my friends … suffer . #willie nelson creator of THE hawktrap anthems ever apparently #i . im so . i . #i miss them terribly ( this is why i’m dragging my feet on my s3 rewatch lmao ) #mash #m*a*s*h #mashposting #mash 4077 #mashblr #lgbt #lgbtq #hawkeye pierce #hawkeye #trapper john mcintyre #trapper john #hawktrap #traphawk #piercintyre #piercentyre

[daydreamycrustacean]

being into doctor who is so embarrassing. silliest campiest sci-fi show ever but if I think abt it too hard I start crying.

#auauauagh #this funny 900-year-old alien can fit so much love and suffering and kindness and loneliness inside of them. #sorry im being emo bc its been a hard few months and I barely have the time to make fanart #and so the Images are staying in my head making me sick. #rtd dr who is simultaneously the only thing keeping me afloat but also its ruining my life #still havent started to watch the rest of it properly bc 9 and 10´s runs impacted me so emotionally that I'm apprehensive to start- #the rest of the series. like yes its the same show. but also it isnt

[rotzaprachim]

fundamentally at odds with any us based franchise that fandomizes war as a money maker

#This is about sw actually. Looooong post in me about sw as rhe armchair leftist forever war #Because it is in fact a world in whiff the capitalist machinations of Disney mean that the war can literally never end #There has to be new trauma new suffering new real world pains metaphorised into fictional characters often #Whiter and/or paler and/or more goyishe than the people who bore and bear that pain in real life #And ultimately sw is a terrible franchise to use as source of leftist ideology or critique because it fails utterly to imagine what s #Liberated world actually looks like #Ultimately reiterating the worse of the both Neo liberal and armchair tankie ideology: #That liberation comes only in the violent battle to get there #Not what comes after #IM DONE #No one knows how to act rn but the sw fandom has been extra extra bad

[akikkobara]

You ever been so deep in a Fandom that you just randomly come across someone ranting about their mental heath problems and immediately go oh that's fictional character X.

The person was talking about unrecognized ADHD and the fictional character in question was Danny Fenton.

#random post #danny phantom #ADHD #correct me if im wrong #but thats one of the many disorders you can get after suffering an accident #im more than likely wrong #the only adult we see having anykind of worry for danny is professer lancer and even he kinda gives up half way through the series #danny went from “supposedly” having A and B+'s across the board to suddenly being a C+ student at best #having trouble paying attention in class #never truely staying in one place #so on and so forth

[munamania]

ok im a really chill and normal person and i get over things and am well adjusted but take a walk with me here. just give me my time to complain when im not in the absolute fucking trenches. and yes i believe i suffered more than those in trench warfare. it was literally a lesbian situationship with a bistraight girl come on. just. magenta choppy shag with the roots coming in. camo cargo pants black t shirt with red lettering and striped long sleeve (sign someone likes music. confirmed). lip ring big black stud earrings and nails. red docs. i think lesbians should be allowed to kill one dyke baiter in their lifetime idc

#and now we're gonna get into some quiet parts and youre just gonna let me have this #i. am so sick. first of all it was kinda funny how people ik ended up sorta surrounding her. felt good. but like we've shared a space #together since everything. i can like be in her presence it's seriously fine. that said. i do sometimes miss her #i say this after going through the really hating her guts period bc of her evil evil evil ways. and feeling like she's lame as hell bc she #s. but i mean it's me talking i have my problems too. i Hate the way we always so naturally act in sync. and i hate that we've both picked #each others' brains for hours so it's like. i knew you once and now we can't even look each other in the eye and that just really sucks #and i feel like. not that i strictly believe in these things. but we were sort of twin flames. i largely suffered for like. basically #falling in love w her. and i know i didn't leave as much of a mark. but i still hope it sucked a little for her #and i'll admit i think it'd be some sort of miracle if we could ever talk civilly. unfortunately we work in two ways #literally behaving in Ways and borderline fucking or not speaking. so. here we are #and i already humiliatingly tried to extend an olive branch this summer so im not gonna be fucking stupid. yk #but GOD how annoying. i did talk to situationship today and we were relatively normal so at least that's not deathly awkward #it's still. definitely um. stiff. but not terrible #i need to get to the club. pretend theres a cig emoji im on desktop rn #sorry for this. #film girl saga

[deus-ex-mona]

may you make the right choice, aizo~~~~~~

#it’s truly insane how lxl have done more couple-y things in canon than some already canon couples have #aquarium date… kissing practically every day… bridal carry… 2 honeymoons… given gifts (on yujiro’s end) on white day… dates on their day off #and they’re not even canon (yet???) y ’ a l l. they’re acting more like a couple at this point in time than the harucouple #im gonna be soooo annoying when the album drops with the honeymoon anime #anyways manifesting aiyuu canon (once again) it’d be very funny if ai-chizu became canon but. c’mon #aizo has suffered enough trauma already. don’t give him bonus trauma in the form of a stalker gf p l s #(bc ngl i kinda feel like some people are completely forgetting about aizo’s established trauma backstory. including hw sometimes tbh) #染BODY ONCE TOLD ME— #chizuutan chizpost

[study-lizard]

day 8 of 100 days of productivity! 1/22/24 i was actually quite productive today even though it was a low energy day for me

✿ 8am yoga - took it slow today bc of my low energy/mild pain ✿ did one hour of work accountability with a friend - bumped an email to some instructors about work i need to finish - schedule sent an email for my club - mentally prepared for my research meeting later ✿ went to the library to use a text for some outstanding classwork - accidentally took a nap, but it was a good nap - actually got a problem done for this class! - i've been struggling with motivation for this class specifically so im really pleased by this ✿ had a meeting with a postdoc on my research - it was really helpful and i know exactly what i need to do now - worked on my research for a bit after the meeting as well

been kinda just chillin since then, got co-op dinner and now burning a candle as i wind down with a cup of chamomile & a little chocolate :)

#also this is kinda irrelevant but im going back to being gf bc ive been physically suffering recently and oof #huge s/o to my celiac/intolerant siblings yall are so strong #(im gluten sensitive but usually just eat it out of convienience/taste) #my intolerance to it kind of builds up over time #hence recently reaching a tipping point #but its always so hard to restart the gf diet #anyways... #student life #studyblr #study #study blog #studying #studyspo #student #college #university #productivity #100 days of productivity #100dop #100 dop #productivity challenge #productive

[fogwitchoftheevermore]

but now my love is gone, and i am left here, withering

heard skizz talk about the way that he makes alliances all stemming from ren and martyn. thought about third life skizz again. blacked out. this was on my canvas.

#trafficblr #third life smp #skizzleman #everyday skizz gives me a Win for how i think about his character and for what. to make me suffer? #also the galactic is supposed to say “skizz blade” but the s is on the part of the sword in the altar #and im not very good at actually writing in galactic so it doesnt look quite right

[telebi]

#till the world ends #till the world ends series #bldramaedit #art pakpoom #best anavil #golf x art #* #they were happy for fIVE MINUTES!!!!!!! #im so glad art is having a career renaissance ive always liked him and his acting is good #the whole mew thing……i dunno man sus #is anyone else watching this…..talk to me #im suffering from week to week #and whats up with psycho murderer CP #s: till the world ends

[saltwater-selfships]

You and your f/o are idly going about your daily business, nothing special, you didn't think anything of it.

Across the room, their eyes are locked on you. Now distracted, you turn to ask them why they're staring.

They're quiet a second, like they didn't expect to get caught. Finally, they give you an answer.

"Sorry, I was just looking at the person I wanna marry."

#im binge listening to love songs and yall get to suffer with me #f/o imagines #imagine your f/o #romantic f/o #f/o #f/o x s/i #selfship imagines #comfort character #self ship community