#im screaming into the void dont mind me

[moosekababs]

ok storytime and i will make this quick. forgot my sleeping pills the night before last, got approximately two hours of sleep then got up at 1 am and did all my work for the day, shaved my head, took a shower, then layed down and read fanfiction all day until my dad came home and brought me graham crackers so i finally ate something. TOOK MY BEDTIME PILLS CORRECTLY this time slept good last night GOT UP.

GOT TO WORK.

hankering for soup. "i wonder if we have any soup?"

2.5 hours later i get up and check. we have soup, exactly the kind i wanted. one can. i open it. i make it. i sit down with it.

"boy this soup kinda smells funny... but i cant remember what food looks like. i am probably just being a little freak about food again its probably fine" TAKE A BITE.

its not . Good.

call my mom "hey could this soup go bad inside the can if the can was sealed" yeah probably but its not very likely, whats up with it? "bad smell. bad taste. looks weird." yeah ok don't chance it, toss that out

confused. pour the soup out. cry about it inside because it was the ONLY can.

check the can

best by date 4/22/22

FUCK.mp4

go back to my desk

have become lightheaded during this farce.

NOW IM SITTING HERE, NO HAIR, NO SOCKS, UTTERLY FUCKING SOUPLESS

its not fucking fair

#.readme #renrants #rents? #im screaming into the void dont mind me #man i just. wanted soup #i have only had graham crackers to eat in the last 48 hours #sorry for being a bad tumblrer

[a-wondering-thought]

oh hey look at that im finally making an intro post

(more like i got so bored that i decided i couldnt put it off any longer)

the most important thing is that im a Hozier stan and love him with every fibre of my being so please im begging you talk to me about him

okay hi welcome to my blog it can get unhinged at times but so am i so thats not much of a surprise

• I'm Sam but you can really call me anything i have a lot of nicknames so you are welcome to do that if you want

• im very very gay and im also aromantic, and i have no idea what my gender is and i might scream about it a bit, and with that being said i do use any pronouns

• im a teenager(so im a minor so dont be weird)

• im neurodivergent and mentally unstable but i dont really talk about it a whole lot

• i indulge chaos here and try my hardest to wreak havoc whenever i can

• as ive aready said i love Hozier so much he is the loml but i do like other artists like phoebe bridgers, girl in red and just a lot of others and i'll make a post with them to link here at some point

• hmu if you wanna be friends(asks and dms are always open, please dont be afraid to hmu i love talking to people)

#sam screams into the void are my original posts

Basic dni list

Free palestine

also i might edit this and say some of my mutuals later but for now @loulooser who is basically the same person as me but in a different font, you should go check them out, they are incredible and to the rest of my online best friends and friends you guys are great and i love you

#intro post #intro post 0.4 now i think? #idk #probably more like five #finally did it #sam screams into the void #also i used to go by vi #and i still kinda do #but that cause its what people know me as #and if you use it then i dont really mind #but sam is the main one im going by now #honey nut queerios #rory <3 #lou <3 #leo <3 #skate!! #red <3 #eve <3 #willow <3

[sketchy-tour]

Genuinely, I wonder if my fear of being seen as annoying by commissioning oc x canon is silly or not.

I always get so actually worried that the person I'm commissioning will think I'm weird or if it's an artist who's in the fandom with me I get all worried they probably already draw a lot of oc x canon of the character i like and maybe they're tired of it

How many times can one artist draw Wally Darling kissing a bunch of different ocs before they hate it? Dksjfjkskdjd

#text post #just rambling #IM JUST SCREAMING INTO THE VOID DONT MIND ME!!!!! #like please please i kno im cringe but i just want more art of them...holding hands #aaughfjfjsodidkbfkek #shaking myself for being a lil baby even though im always saying “Be cringe be free!!!!!” but i cant help it #like I already try and only comm people who are familiar with or in the fandom #but then i get all sorts of like “OH GOD THEY PROBABLY HATE DRAWING THIS”about it #im sure if they didnt wanna theyd just...tell me? i do ask. ya kno when i do try and buck up the courage. #“Hi sorry would you be alright with drawing my oc with this guy please its okay if not haha jk unless.” type shit gjdjfjkekdjfjeke #god im embaressing

[mydiazboys]

buck is grey, eddie is blue. eddie 100% used the last of buck's favourite expensive lotion which caused this convo the power of eddie's NAH

#911 abc #911 #911 fox #911 buddie #buddie texts #buddie imagine #evan buckley #eddie diaz #dont mind me #im literally STILL reeling over the fact that evan buckley is bi #LIKE CANON BI #NOT JUST HEADCANON BI #SJFKFGJDFKJFB #im screaming into the void rn #no i will NOT take constructive criticism on this post #thank you for your time #buddie

[copper-dragon-in-disguise]

how the fucking hell do I have a lower grade in honors history than I had in AP history????? how????

#i finished with a final grade of A+ in ap world #but currently in honors history i have a fucking. 77 #how?????? #i did the assignment!!!! its her own bloody dam fault she didnt have any clear instructions on it!!!!! #dont mind me #im just annoyed and screaming into the void about it #the saga of us history 1 honors

[fshenkoescape]

The whole Unity thing is such a cool concept because this playthrough i hated it because why would my dusty leave her LI but at the same time if I HADN'T saved him and he'd died, she would JUMP at the chance to do it all again. So like this playthrough I did nooot wanna do it but sitting and thinking about it it's cool how one mission played out would totally change my outlook

#starfield spoilers #im rambling dont mind me #i just have so many big feelings i need to scream #but id have to explain the whole game to my friends so instead i am screaming into the tumblr void

[predninja]

Not me drawing BG3 doodles before, giving myself more angst comic ideas. Of which I'm overdue in doing anyways

Hint: it has to do with Eligar's long lost bro

#pred talks #dont mind me #im just screaming into the void

[notmysunglasses]

What does it mean to be a woman?

Soft femininity, blushing and demure to those with masculine strength

Tinkling laughs and delicate blushes

Elegant and graceful, all curves and curls

Silky hair, plush skin, warm smile

Serenity and peace presented to the world on the most perfect of faces

Is that what makes a woman?

Gritting of teeth and biting of tongues

Crying, bleeding, shedding both the internal lining and deepest wants as the cycles change

Fighting and screaming for a place in the world, never to be heard

Going to bed beaten and sore just to get up and shoulder burdens others can never ease

World weary eyes, broken by the world that never allows for healing before the pain begins again

Maybe womanhood is found in the middle?

The fine line between delicate and strong

Independent but still submissive

Do it all, show no cracks

Take care of the world

All while on a tightrope with no net to break the inevitable free fall to cement

What will we tell the daughters still here and all the daughters to come?

Grow strong just not strong enough to be a threat

Use your voice till someone louder comes along

Relish in what changes have been made so far

At least we've made it further than women of the past

Who sit with haunted eyes of days gone by wishing to be young again

Has the idea of what a woman is been lost to complacency?

Women work, vote, drive, even own their own land

Women can do anything just so long as they stay in their station

Build up, but not beyond the reach of high heels

Because no good comes from reaching for stars

For just a brief touch of freedom

What does it mean to be a woman?

It means everything, yet nothing at all

It means to be praised in one breath and torn down in the next

It means walking the invisible line in shoes that were never meant to be practical

It means being alive without ever truly being human

It means living life, trying to swim in a world without ever being taught to tread water

What does it mean to be a woman?

#idk what to tag this as #poetry #sorta #idk man #im feeling some type of way #women #being a woman #femininity #questioning life over here #dont mind me #casually screaming into the void

[theviridianbunny]

OK but- what if I started to talk about book stuff? Like just rammbles about what I'm reading I guess [100% nothing big like reviews or anything-]

I only started to read actual books [as a hobby] the year before last ... I picked up reading mainly because I was very active on tiktok [and a few friends of mine read as well -!!] -

I don't read very often [mostly because my brain is full of too many things at any given time- ] reading for me mostly happens in the winter months- a hot bath and something to focus on whilst I soak and try and ignore the ache in my joints [at times!]

#bunny screams into the void #ugh im thinking out loud again dont mind me #book stuff

[tei-to-tei]

*shouts into the small void that is this blog*

hey you guys ever start coloring something that started out as a sketch but now has detailed lineart and then realize it's all a hot mess and then you debate on trashing the whole damn thing and rolling up like a little pill bug on the floor while the same song plays over and over again in your headphones because you're clinically insane or-

#art problems #someone send help and/or just magically make the idea in my head cone to life without effort #i just opened the lineart again and now im like “this is going to kill me why am i doing this to myself” ;-; #dont mind me #im just #i just needed to scream into a void #ripping my hands off sounds a little appealing rn ngl

[mutedeclipse]

"people dont appreciate my genius" it says, slaving away every day to draw the most deranged bomberman content for YOUR viewing pleasure.

Then again i dont do it for other people but itd be nice if there was more of the fandom here to feed me metaphorical cookies and tell me im doing a good job (???)

#lunar myth rambles #im deranged i just want more deranged people to follow me and like my shit and talk to me #i hate being someone with ACTUALLY nice artwork now because people get scared to talk to me :( #im unusual!!! im not normal!! for the record i love being insane you should gather that from my art #the pains of being in such a tiny community that 5 people consistently populate the tags for consistently with minor sprinkles of others #im screaming to the void dont mind me im going to go back to behaving now 🫠 #ok maybe not hold on one more deeep breath gotta yell something real quick #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i wish wish wish i saw more of my brand of content round here ...... like not everyone can be me and i fill my niche BUT #i just wish to see more content in general </3 #im hungry and thirsty but im giving my body to be the oasis others need in these trying times <3 #OK. BACK TO NORMAL. BACK TO BEHAVING. BACK TO MY CAVE. SORRY. BYE AAAA

[yourladystar]

Star's Engage Catalogue Day 24 (part 5)

I like how Alear and Corrin are parallels to each other with their stories and journeys, it makes me love them even more.

I still want male Corrin to be added though.

I know I sound like I'm banging a broken drum by this point, especially since the last DLC wave is out, but that doesn't mean it's completely over.

Engage has been a commercial and financial success and, even though people raised an eyebrow at it initially, the DLC has been well received. So it's not like they couldn't give us free updates or additional DLC for emblem bracelets of other characters fans want.

Plus, it's not like it would be hard to give the avatar emblems a gender swap. Just create the new model, get the voice actors to record since the emblems don't have a lot of lines, and create some mini-event where they demonstrate this power to Alear. Hell, the bracelet emblems confirm that they're from an alternate version of the Lythos we know, so they can incorporate that by having the avatar emblems tap into it and turn into a version of themselves from a different reality. One who went through different experiences, but is ultimately the same person.

I know I sound desperate, and I am! Make it happen!

#fire emblem engage #playthrough #first playthrough #fire emblem fates #corrin #fe corrin #m!corrin #f!corrin #Dont mind me just screaming into the void because im nuts

[torchstelechos]

Sometimes I hear people say that they would love to be adopted by Bruce Wayne. No you wouldn’t. Run. Get the fuck out of dodge. This man can not communicate his feelings or emotions at all and only verbalizes them with grunts and half-hearted hand motions that just make you more confused. And even on the good days its tainted by the fact that you know he doesnt love you for you, he loves you for a symbol. A status. Fucking leave. Fucking run. Do not let this man adopt you you will have daddy issues x10000 because somehow this bitch gets worse and then there’s multiple dimensions worth of him like what the fuck man

#Im projecting on Jason Todd but also WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU SAYING??? IF HE ADOPTS YOU THATS LIKE GETTING 5 MENTAL ILLNESSES FOR FREE #BUY ONE GET 6 FREE EXCEPT THE 6 ARE ALL DADDY ISSUES AND THEY COME BACK FROM THE DEAD TO GET YOU #jesus christ I lose my mind a lil bt #also my dad is so much like bruce in the communication department it kills me I want to cause a problem like HHHHHHHHHHH #I dont think this will pop up on main but let me know if it does and Ill delete this is suppose to be a scream into the void #I have daddy issues and I project on Jason todd about it someone end me

[rainbowcolored7]

Had some pretty devastating realizations this last weekend about myself as a nonbinary/trans person and what my potential future romances might look like, if I ever have any again. Yesterday was my dad's birthday, the second one since he passed, trying not to be but still very pressed about a LITA argument I had with someone, and I'm having basically one of the worst mental health weeks I've had in a long time. Cool cool cool.

#personal #dont mind me screaming into the void #yes yes i need therapy ik #would love for my anxiety to not be busting the roof out #but on the bright side and very tmi #i discovered i can come untouched a BAJILLION times if im really high on edibles with a crossfade #so you know that was fun #brb flinging myself into the sun

[anxiously-going]

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#i am in paaaiiin #my tail bone hurts #why has my body and ibuprofen betrayed me so #i crave iced coffee and death #i will give you gas money to hit me with your car #why are periods monthly #who decided this #i want gummy worms and to be cuddle #but also if someone tried to touch me right now i may rip their hand off with my bare teeth #not to be dramatic or anything though #screaming into the void #dont mind me #im juat awaiting the swet release of death

[woosansang]

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#jazzy talks #hmmm #i just dont think i get the same joy out of tumblr as i used to #and i know a lot of that has to do with the fact that the people im friends with slash enjoy talking to on here have also been busy lately #and it sort of just feels like im screaming at a wall #or a void #or a room full of people who are looking the other way #its like if youre a content creator but you dont put out new stuff every day or every few days #then suddenly people stop paying attention to you #and its nice to say i should gif things that i want to gif and not really care about them getting notes #but thats not the reality #maybe for some people it is but not for me #half of the reason i gif is bc i want to make something and half is bc i want to share it and show people #and yes its nice to get feedback too but mostly when i read peoples tags i just want to hear about the content more than my actual skills #like half the fun is seeing random strangers losing their minds over some guy #but people dont rb anymore #its hard #its demotivating #im so busy with work and i dont have that much time to gif during the week so when i do make something and no one looks twice #or maybe only a few mutuals look twice #it makes it even harder to find the energy that i dont have to keep making stuff #idk what im saying #i come here to scream about things i like and hear people scream back in solidarity in a way #and now im just screaming to nobody #which is just disheartening #idk #i think im gonna delete the app again for a bit #anyway check out my pinned post if you're reading this. and reblog please maybe? <3 #bye for now