#sorry for being a bad tumblrer

[moosekababs]

ok storytime and i will make this quick. forgot my sleeping pills the night before last, got approximately two hours of sleep then got up at 1 am and did all my work for the day, shaved my head, took a shower, then layed down and read fanfiction all day until my dad came home and brought me graham crackers so i finally ate something. TOOK MY BEDTIME PILLS CORRECTLY this time slept good last night GOT UP.

GOT TO WORK.

hankering for soup. "i wonder if we have any soup?"

2.5 hours later i get up and check. we have soup, exactly the kind i wanted. one can. i open it. i make it. i sit down with it.

"boy this soup kinda smells funny... but i cant remember what food looks like. i am probably just being a little freak about food again its probably fine" TAKE A BITE.

its not . Good.

call my mom "hey could this soup go bad inside the can if the can was sealed" yeah probably but its not very likely, whats up with it? "bad smell. bad taste. looks weird." yeah ok don't chance it, toss that out

confused. pour the soup out. cry about it inside because it was the ONLY can.

check the can

best by date 4/22/22

FUCK.mp4

go back to my desk

have become lightheaded during this farce.

NOW IM SITTING HERE, NO HAIR, NO SOCKS, UTTERLY FUCKING SOUPLESS

its not fucking fair

#.readme #renrants #rents? #im screaming into the void dont mind me #man i just. wanted soup #i have only had graham crackers to eat in the last 48 hours #sorry for being a bad tumblrer

[notafraidofredyellowandblue]

Oh so Letz is Till's PA and drummer now? I was wondering why I haven't t seen him around Richard much this year, and he's stopped posting the messages he put on Richard's autograph cards. To me he's always been associated with Richard and his band more so than with Rammstein so it feels weird that he's suddenly part of Till's crew now.

Joe has said in an interviews he has been friends with both Till and Richard for years.

Recently indeed he is drummer in the new Till band, afaik from the first gigs the band did early 2022, and i assume it will still be the case for the upcoming tour of the band. In this band he is often credited as 'Sandy Beaches'.

Joe was Richard's PA in 2022 until somewhere halfway the European leg of the tour, then he wasn't there anymore. When the American leg started, Joe wasn't really part of the crew, but he was shown often in behind the scenes and party photos, in Till's circle. (Richard had another PA, a lady with ponytail, she's called Shelley i think, after Joe).

In 2023 Rammstein tour he was officially credited as 'personal assistant' from Till, one of our Tumblrers too the time to watch the end-credits at a live shiw they went to and noticed it. (Andrea Marino being Richard's PA during that tour)

Officially nothing is stated anout PA's from Rammstein side, rumor has it that Richarc yelled at Joe and dismissed him, and Till felt sorry for him and took him along instead. But i'm pretty sure there is no bad blood between Joe and Richard, because indeed once or twice Joe could be seen handing Richard his cards (Andrea did it most of the time afaik) 🌺

#joe letz #from what i know..

[saphirafoxgirlspost1]

guess..i have to wait alone...

Bad Dark..and cruel thoughts that i want to ignore but couldn't : "hehe well well...looks like no one rp with you all day long~...guess anon was right about you...your a loser..you suck...you've done horrible in the past..and now look at you...all alone... waiting for someone to come and then..leave you into a dark..and your art..Pfft..don't make me laugh...your never a good artist..it has no values...your just a bastard..who wanted to improve..but no matter what...you'll never get your love back...after all..annmod was right All about you...your nothing but a "Toxic", "Evil", "Sicko"..Little Shit!...and your dumb as a Sack of Diapers as well..just like what "Bunch-of-once-lers" said to you after you unfollow them...they're so happy that you left them..they all "Hate" you so much...and Your No "Famous Tumblrer"...your nothing but a big dripped..who cause their friends so much troubles...causing triggers...and hurting others...and now being the most "Hated" Blogger in the world~ hehehe~...Face it..Ms. Fox...your "Nothing" but a Bottom feeder and a "People pleaser"...your sistery best friend celestie abandoned you..and called you toxic behind your back...such a shame...and other..who left you to dust...And Now...look around you....you lost...everything....and now..your forever..be..Tumblr INfamous now..and NO ONE Will Rp with you...ever again...plus..They hate saphira because they believe that she's a big fat whore..who loves to have babies and all..your sick in the head...tumblr is expected.."perfection" and well ordered...but you..to everyones eyes..you..are nothing but Smut queen..and it's.."Disgusting"...*laughs evily* I mean..the reason why your "Friends" Rp with you..is because..they felt sorry for you...but they never "Cared" about you...your horrible of rping..just like anons said to you...you should've listen to them...you should've quit while your ahead.. *laughs cruely..as it wrapped around me..and i felt heart sinking* Me:

Bad Thoughts: "and also my dear...No matter how many times..when you make an Open Rp..."NO ONE" will Rp with you....Even if they're busy...but to me...They're trying to Advoid you..because they knew what you did...and want nothing to do with you...ever~

And trust me my dear..... You'll never become an artist...or Tumblr famous again.. and believe me...you hurt everyone..and now...your...alll...alone... Me: *lower my head..and sniffles softly*

#my bad thoughts #Sadden #don't know why..

[doublethetroubleinlife]

“Oh People.”

*warning: sexual assault is mentioned, nothing gory but it is mentioned*

“Yes, people ebb and flow.” -Angus Tuck from Tuck Everlasting: The Musical (that's right I not only read the musicals but I also watch their bootlegs and let me just give a big shout out to the people who risk their lives, and limbs, to record something that costs a thousand dollars to go see, truly inspirational!)

No, but on a serious note mankind, that's too scientificy and mysterious- lets just stick with people. People surprise me everyday (literally I get scared easily and that's all my friends ever do is surprise me, and its not the good surprises either, they hide behind something and jump out when I walk past). But really I just had a tumblrer (that's not a word but we will make it one) who I do not know message me and say that she really liked the way I told stories and looked forward to reading more. First of all, thank you @secretsindisguise for your kind words, if I embarrass you or you think I'm weird I promise I'm only a little weird but seriously thank you, your words meant a lot to me. Its amazing how talking and meeting with strangers make the best stories. Take for instance Florida. I was in Florida finishing my training for my job in the military and while I was there I went kayaking at night (someone get my a publisher because this story is wild already!) and on my little trip I met two lovely people from New Zealand, one of which had never had s’mores before. I can’t remember their names (mostly because I don't think I ever asked, I was just impressed by their accents, you see it was the first time I had ever met someone from down under before so I was trying to soak everything in) but they were really cool and fun to talk to because of what they called certain things. A trash bag was a rubbish pile and a graham cracker was just a cracker (not a big difference but with their accents it was like hearing a brand new word). There was, I think, about nine of us that went on the trip and we had all gathered around in a circle after we ate our s’mores and I remember asking the woman that had never had one how she liked them and she said, in her accent of course, “to be honest...” and then just didn't finish her statement (I think she was expecting this sort of gourmet dish and all a s’more is, is just melted sugar stuck between to crackers so I can see why she was disappointed). It was all great fun and we all went our separate ways after that but it definitely got me thinking about what you could learn about someone if you only asked them a question (now whether they choose to answer is up to them so lets just hope they do). You can truly learn some amazing things if you just talk to people and take in what they say and, if you can, apply it to your own life. I'm not saying being a copier or anything, that's not what I'm trying to get at at all (if you thought that then I'm sorry, I'm also just rambling at this point so I apologize and if you want to leave you can). I met a girl while I was in basic training who told the story of how she was raped (sorry for the strong language but that is how the world is and you can’t make it any less by changing the wording) but it wasn't really the story of how she was raped it was more of what she did afterward. She said that she had never felt so helpless in a situation and so she changed herself. She started working out and developing her body to make would be sex offenders think twice about touching her. I ended up becoming really good friends with her and we still talk but her story inspired me to be the best I can be. You only get one life, one chance to do it right, yes things happen, terrible things happen to people who don’t deserve it but it’s your choice to live on and not let the bad things stop you. There are too many bad things that happen in life to live like you are entitled to something just because of your past, take it to your heart and then change it into something worth talking about. Inspire people. Make people see that the world is not always what it seems to be. It is not always good, nor is it all bad and it definitely isn't easy but that’s what makes life so amazing. Someone once told me (the world was gonna rule me, I ain’t the sharpest tool in the shed...no one? okay, moving on). Someone once told me that the most fun you will have will come from the most difficult things you do and that worker at Guitar Center was right. Life is too short to live in your own fears and in the fear what others might think. Your life is your own and you matter in it even if some people say that you don't. The secret to living the way you want to is not letting people get to your head and telling yourself that you are what the world needs, no matter what that kid in first period says. Because that kid in first period doesn't know you and never will unless he, or she, comes up and asks you.

#people #newzealand #smores #youmatter #humanbeings #mankind #guitarcenter #notgivingup #amazing #dontletanyonestopyou #livelife #life #stuffhappens #onelife #yolo #pushforward #inspire #good #bad #easy #difficult #itswhatyoumakeofit #musicals #bootlegs #live #funny #sugar #melted #cracker #grahamcracker

[passion-for-fit]

I am SO sorry I've been a little M.I.A this week guys!

I've been on spring break all week... but no I didn't go away. I got scheduled to work literally every. Single. Day. So I haven't had much time to be online. 

My classes start again monday though so I promise things will go back to normal then!!

Love you alll :) Stay beautiful!

#personal #sorry for being a bad tumblrer

[saphirafoxgirlspost1]

You know...i need something to get off my chest..so this is for the anons..who’s been putting me through hell..and had a small amount of Nice anons but..this is the Mostly On Anon haters..so..*Clears throat*..here we go..

*Inhale and Exhale* For those..hateful, evil, and cruel ass anon who’s been cruel to me..for the past 10 years..of my fucking life...You know... I remember you have the gall to tell me that I was acting like a “Villian” in the first place...well..Guess what?..i’m not a villian...you are...YOU always a villian in this entire tumblr for the past 10 years...YOU send me hates For 10 years..with no second thoughts..or remorse..on some kind?..And Everytime i asked “Why did you say that or Do that?” you always Comes out Silent because you knew that it was wrong..and you never Admit that what you did was horrible...and it’s not the “talking” part...is what you did to saphira...The most villianous and sick thing you did is You trying to “RAPE” Saphira with that thorny ass Dick I mean look at this link here!!

https://www.tumblr.com/saphirafoxgirlspost1/636234903266246656/rapes-saphira-with-a-thorny-cock-its-what-you?source=share yea Explain that huh!? that was 3 years ago..and you have the gall to call me a villian while you did THIS to my muse! not only that..but beating my Poor saphira like she’s your punching bag and treated her Like She’s a Biggest “Slut” in whole tumblr! well your the biggest Slut who threw Insults at everyone else just to make you feel better and cause Drama alot..like Oh how should i say “Me as annmod” The woman who ruined me..the woman that She and her friends Ruined my life..and thinking that I’m a “bad guy”..and a “Toxic” person...and also you have the audacity to Insulted me when i have aspergers...and me being an autistic spectrum..and you show No respect at all!..and you never ONCE Said that your sorry for what you Did..but that doesn’t matter anymore.. You abused, mistreat and berated me and saphira...My dream is to become a famous tumblrer...but..i feared someone else did..and my Dream was shattered into a Million pieces no thanks to YOU, ANNMOD, GENIEMOD and everyone else!..and foxymod apoligize to me..but i don’t Forgive him for what he did..but i forgive him as a person but not his actions...You! no...i don’t forgive any haters who mistreated Saphira and I For 10..years...10 years..During that time..i Survive the hurricanes..and what do i got..alot of hates..instead of saying “are you alright?” or any compliments.. All i ever wanted was my Stories to be notice..but not anymore...i felt like i was giving up..but you insulted my friends and My sister ariel! thats go too far..you can insult me all you want..but you better leave my friends and my sisters out of this!..i deserve better than this you know...and Also..one of these days..if tumblr decided to pulls out a tracking thing...I’ll find out who it is..and make sure that I’ll make you anon haters hell like you did to me and saph...*cross arms coldly*...and I will never forigve you at all..unless you want to apoligize to me and saph..thats fine..but i’m not forgiving anyone who put me and saph through...but my dream of being Tumblrer famous...is ruined..No thanks..to you..anon haters..i hope your happy now... and also...everytime i turn off the anon ask...and waiting for few days..i was Hoping that ya’ll can reflect for what you did...And I was wrong...Ya’ll never change...and you have the nerve..to say something that I don’t change...i think you should look in the mirror and tell me who hasn’t change for the past..10 years...And also..FYI...i lost my grandpa last month on the 8th of July..and You of all anons..never send me a nice one..because I knew behind that you were laughing like a devil itself...*Spits on the ground* Shameful...just...shameful..

#angry #anons.. #rant

[saphirafoxgirlspost1]

Me and Saphira's angry rant

You know...When i got angry...I Kept thinking about What annmod had Done to me..9 years ago...I was So Mad and angry...even Hurt as well.. Even When Saphira got Punched on the face By One of the "bunch-of-once-lers" Muses and Lost her teeth, and then Kicked Me and my muse out...and Since i unfollow..I saw of what Bunch of once-lers blog said behind my back, Saying that I was Dumb as a Sack of Diapers, and I told that mod that i was a huge fan of it and tell story..But..he or She..treated me Like i was a "Nobody" To Him/her...and then..what matters worse...Anons..took Saphira's kids away.."Claiming" That Saphira Is giving her kids away and all..Including Her Adopted one....It breaks my heart of seeing saphira Suffer a Broken heart..and being treated Like an Outcast, Calling her a Slut, whore, and so on....*Sighs*...No One even tell me that Smutting minors were wrong..and I made a Huge Mistake..Do they ever forgive me? Nooo!..they didn't...whats even more and more worse Is that..Annmod Blackmail me to make a Public apoligize after She False accuse me of Plaguarism and Sending anons hates that i didn't do that...and then...I made it 4 times..until i can't take it anymore...and then...She post it...and my life..of trying being a Famous tumblrer..just went down the Drain.... I Lost my friends..even my Sistery friend Celestie-nitrous... I was heartbroken and So does Saphira...I didn't deserve this kind of treatment....and so does Saphira!..and ya'll think that me and Saphira are Toxic people!?..Ya'll Don't know about me! and Saphira....You don't Know anything about me...in reality...I lost my love ones..Like aunt val..from cancer..12 years ago...yesterday was the anniversary of her death...and i was heartbroken...I try everything to Improve...I had good friends who help me improve it...and Foxymod...I'll never forgive him for this..Mostly annmod..who made a Biggest Humiliation for the past 9 years...and i'm still humiliated..i was afraid that I get reconized..being blocked..for something..that I didn't mean to..and didn't do anything bad...I'd just want to rp so much..just to escape reality..making stories is my thing too...Me and Saphira Deserve better than this..and Now me and Saphira are Emotionally Wounded and..I'm too afraid to interact with others now...I'd just..Don't know what to do...and for those..who still hated me...You SHouldn't judge me...unless you got to know me...because Other wise...it'll come back to bite you...and I'm going to say one time...I'm Sorry for what i've done 9 years ago..get over it...Hopefully You'll see the good side of me..instead of Focusing on the bad side of me..*shook head* Because Me and Saph....Deserve better than this...And I Am Not going to Spend another 9 years of the same treatment over again...*sniffles*...those Words from 9 years...Hurt me really deeply..like a fucking knife in my heart..Saphira Lost her son to that woman..and now he had nothing to do with her but just try to kill her and left her to die...*Sniffles*...Saphira is scar for life..of Losing her Only son who she was trying to fight for...and this is how she repaid...*Sniffles*...She loved her kids..and she will never ever! Give up her babies like that!...but all you did..is judging me and saphira..thinking that we're what? Pedophiles, that we're grooming and abusing them!...Ya'll know better than that...My muse and i will never do such thing....thats all i can say..and I hope you understand..how me and saphira are scar up for life...

#Rant #anger #wounded