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i hate how you get desensitized to the cool stuff in your WIP if you've been writing it for a long time so when you read back over it you're like "this isn't as cool as i thought :(" but it still is! you just read it too many times

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Instead of the Dark Side, there's always a voice at the back of Obi-Wan's head that whispers "aren't you tired of being nice? don't you wanna go apeshit start acting like Qui-Gon?"

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EXCUSE ME ???

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goat fight. non-negotiable.

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Redrawing an old art

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what a way to announce your skills issue anyway how long is y'all's longest internet friendship, mine is 14 years

#ive been friends with beautygrace almost since i joined tumblr back in 2016 and trekkele not long after that

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This ask has been along time coming but whenever you post artwork with Anakin in one of those stupid text shirts I can’t help but think that Ahsoka would 100% join in and poor Obi wan would then be dragged I

omg YES

(donation doodles! // tip jar)

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I didn't realize there were other verses to this song. The whiplash I just experienced.

Behind the Music 🎤 (This was a short video born after Joan brought it to my attention lol)

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I had a dream I was having a seizure and my dog came over to check on me, then immediately woke up to him winning to be let out so I guess I'm awake now

#screaming into the void #there's a minor chance i was actually having a pnes episode #it wouldn't be the first time it happened in my sleep and manifested in my dreams #but im still gonna be frustrated he dragged me out of bed after only an hour or so of sleep because it always takes me 2 or 3 to sleep again

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genuinely always forgetting not everyone reads bones as autistic and trying to keep that in mind but i cannot imagine that at all . your lives must be so empty….

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Here’s a more accurate representation of this year’s solar Eclipse! Artemis and Apollo are (hopefully) getting along well enough.

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i drew young tamika flynn! it was just supposed to be a few simple sketches, but here we are.

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cecil would frame and hang an important piece of info or graph of carlos' bc it looks pretty and carlos would go bonkers looking for it and walk by it 10 times before stopping short like an old cartoon character and tearing it off the wall.

carlos would also not take it out of its frame, and bring it to the lab framed and continue to use it, while framed. and everyone in the lab wouldn't question carlos' behavior because he is also as crazy as cecil and they'd assume he just really appreciated this one specific piece of science.

this is how they are made for each other btw

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Having a body is weird because I have a really unusual migraine today and I got curious and apparently the symptoms line up with dehydration, postural, and CF leak headaches.

I knee I had a few symptoms of POTS, but they've always been fairly mild or far between presentation.

I do have a choroid fissure cyst, but those very rarely cause any issues at all.

So I landed on dehydration and started hydrating. Which helped a small amount, but not enough to fully get rid of the headache. But in the process of trying to rehydrate myself I've become worried that I'm messing up my bladder because I recently saw a health video about the way "just in case" urinating can mess with how much the bladder can hold and how constantly going "just in case" can actually lessen the volume of fluid the bladder can tolerate. But also I've learned that holding it too long is not only unhealthy but it's also a really big trigger for intrusive thoughts and trauma stuff. But also I'm not always sure if I actually need to go or not because it doesn't always registered correctly in my brain. But now I've gone so often from drinking so much that I'm both worried about reducing bladder tolerance and triggering myself if I don't go just in case.

And also since pain meds, heating pad, food intake, and water intake all haven't helped I'm back to wondering if it could be related to POTS because I definitely know I have some of those symptoms and have been dealing with them long enough to know how to avoid them and especially because I know POTS tends to come comorbid with a lot of other things, some of which I have been diagnosed with already and some which I've learned about and have become suspicious of having that too, like hypermobility.

But also my elbows don't hyperextend like I've seen talked about and I'm boy super flexible anymore like I was as a kid, but then I did used to be able to pop my hip partially out of joint qhen I was younger and my joints are always making loud clicking and thunking noises, and apparently having acid reflux issues and thin flakey nails can be indicative of hypermobility and my trachea isn't meant to move side to side and I'm not actually supposed to be able to touch my chin to my sternum, so maybe I should looked that too?

But what if I'm just being a hypochondriac and blowing this out of proportion because I was always told as a kid growing up that I needed to pay special attention to my body because my NF1 meant that I could grow tumors in my brain and die and I'm actually fine.

#screaming into the void

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“Why did you follow this person ? uwu”

I’ve been here for fourteen years, do you think I remember? I don’t know who any of these people are anymore. I don’t know why they’re on my dash. I allow them to stay because they haven’t pissed me off enough to unfollow them yet. “Why did you follow this person?” I’m not sure I ever did. They’re just part of my ecosystem now.

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ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

#i write sins not tragedies