#im just screaming into the void

[yoondepity]

put his whole devil-ussy into it

#till the end of the moon #cdrama #tantai jin #im just screaming into the void #i need to let it out

[pharoahkingkiller]

I don't talk about living in a school bus a lot because I was homeless on and off most of my life and truly the most depressing thing is that I wouldn't have made a ton of effort in my mental health if I didn't have a safe and stable place to stay and now when something is broken in my house I can see how my mental state declines because in my traumatized brain my safety is in danger and its like no advice about mental health means shit if you don't have your basic needs met. Like nothing I see on the internet starts with make sure your basic needs met and as a filthy commie fag it's so fucked how much we don't talk about needing safety as a problem to mental health

#im just screaming into the void #pharoahspeaks

[suddenlytennant]

Mental health has been put behind a paywall so I'll just be over here rawdogging my way through life, if anyone needs me.

#i wonder if my family can sue the drug company for wrongful death if i kms #the thoughts gettin real intrusive in this bitch #the cruel twist of fate that decided i needed to run out of antidepressants right after my father died #cuz why not i guess #ignore me #im just screaming into the void

[dizzybizz]

having a crisis yall.

people who know of me irl shouldnt follow me here :(((

especially when i dont even know them?? or their views on queer and autistic peeps like myself??? wha thr esufu k??? qqqaaaaaaa its been hours but wtf no ewewew ew nonononononononononononmononononononono

#im panicking but what can u do right aahaaahaahaahhhah #im just screaming into the void #idk what to do #i dont trust that guy i dont know him hes just my brothers friend i dont want him knowing about my tumblr like that nonononon #fuckfuck #i cannot icantnono #aaaaaaaurghhhhh #ready to crawl out of my skin rn

[predninja]

Not me drawing BG3 doodles before, giving myself more angst comic ideas. Of which I'm overdue in doing anyways

Hint: it has to do with Eligar's long lost bro

#pred talks #dont mind me #im just screaming into the void

[cactuscas]

random character things from the production of newsies i was recently in

(these are all just silly little character choices we made that i wanted to share because i love them - dont take anything too seriously lol)

(I played Pulitzer and a background newsie i named Tabs. it was a blast)

Seitz was the real brain of the World, Pulitzer was the front man. Also, they were college buddies.

Davey *hated* Racetrack. With a burning passion.

Elmer was one of the only newsies that could read, but he did not know this. Everyone else just fully tricked him into telling them the headline and he never caught on.

Mike was the littlest newsie by far. Him and Les were buddies.

Buttons got arrested during the brawl but was also in King of New York, so we decided he made a daring escape from the cops.

Davey had a massive crush on Jack and thought Katherine was kind of annoying.

Elmer and Davey were "academic gentlemen" together.

Finch was by far the most well off newsie and mostly sold papers to make extra money for himself

Pulitzer previously tried to make Katherine marry Darcy, which is how the two first met.

Albert was from Wisconsin. (No i do not know why but this is the background his actor chose.)

Bunsen was, as we put it, the "biggest yes man to ever yes man" and it was great. intern of the year.

The woman that Les sells a paper to ("buy a pape from a poor orphan boy?") was actually one of the Bowery Beauties heading to the theatre. This is entirely because you could see the bowery beauty costume poking out from under the actors coat so we ran with it.

Mush was Irish!

Splasher became renamed to Slasher because our director misspoke once and we never let her live it down.

in Letter From the Refuge, during the "you tell all the guys, to protect one another", we showed Davey going to Brooklyn and talking to Spot. loved the moment you got to see of Davey stepping into his leadership role

Mike, Albert, Buttons, Splasher, Crutchie, Henry, and Race were some of the younger newsies while Romeo, Specs, Jack, Jo Jo, Elmer, Mush, and Finch were older.

Tommy Boy did not exist. Neither did Ike. Such is community youth theatre.

Crutchie's crutch was left behind in newsies square after the brawl, being the last thing left onstage before the lights went out. It was decided later that Specs would have brought it to him when he got the letter.

Les and Race were the best of friends. Davey was not thrilled about this.

Henry was one of the only newsies who regularly bathes.

Albert, Splasher, and Mike briefly left the strike and were scabs, this is who Jack would talk down during seize the day.

At the end of the rally scene, when Jack was leaving, Les would get up to talk to him and Jack would shove him down and stomp off. This would elicit the most heart breaking scream from Davey every night.

#newsies #davey jacobs #jack kelly #crutchie newsies #im just screaming into the void #idk if anyone will enjoy this but here it is

[imdoingsortagay]

every fic for my writing event are gonna be out 12:30pm pst ! 

first one out sunday is Nat’s first halloween !!!

#lizs writing #Liz thoughts 💭 #im excited #i hope everyone is #if not #im just screaming into the void

[bcyoureallthatmakessense]

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#about me #melismusings #my body aches and my anxiety is high tonight #i just want to be weightless in water #i knew this would come back to bite me in the ass when i came off this med but fuck i didnt think it would be this bad #i just want to be off meds that fuck with ny hormones so much #like atp i dont even know what my fertility looks like??? #bcs ive been on hormonal bc or an estrogen blocker almost every single day since i was 18? 19? #long enough #too long #once my surgery is done and figured out im asking to have my fertility tested bc i just need to know at this point #anyways if youve made it this far into my tags thank you for being here #im just screaming into the void

[sunnyanarchy]

THE POINT OF BEING GOOD ISN'T TO GET SOME REWARD, OR TO BE THANKED, IT'S TO BE GOOD, TO HELP OTHERS, TO BE ABLE TO MEET THE REAPER WITH PRIDE.

YOUR NAME WILL NOT BE REMEMBERED BECAUSE THAT'S NOT THE POINT. YOUR NAME WILL NOT BE IN A HISTORY BOOK, BUT IT'LL BE IN SOME STORY SOMEONES GRANDMA TELLS ABOUT A KIND STRANGER WHO HELPED HER AND LEFT BEFORE SHE COULD EVEN THANK THEM OR ASK THEIR NAME.

#hopecore #bad poetry #im just screaming into the void #maybe i just want to be a good person #poetry #i think #maybe

[localdiscountgoth]

haha, i might not have access to my meds by end of next week which will put me in the hospital because my pcp is being a giant turd and i guess would rather me be hospitalized than just GIVING ME MY DAMN MEDS

i dont want to go to the hospital. the psych ward fucking sucks and my dad will drag my ass back to my hometown. which maybe i shouldnt have left anyway cause shits hitting the fan and im tired

i just want things to be okay.

#sarah rants #ignore this #im just screaming into the void

[queeranddepraved]

Uhmmm, yeah, don't read this. Just need to rant about shit without worrying anybody...

Soooo my OCD for over two years now has made me develop this really annoying habit of weighing myself every single time I take a shower. Which like it a very unhealthy habit for me to have.

But like it was mostly fine cause I was almost always within the same 5 pounds or so and like not a big deal.

Uhmmmm well that's changed this last time and my brain is not liking it. 😭😭😭 and like it's really noticeable in my belly and when I'm wearing certain clothes and I hate it I hate it I hate it.

I hate it. Brains are stupid. Bodies are stupid. Existing is stupid.

#im fine #fr fr everyone please ignore this post #im just screaming into the void

[marsmaru]

Sigh, got rejected for the job. I'm at the point in my life that I'm just in limbo in work related stuff. I'm not good in math or science, I like to keep busy, I'm okay with technology, I'm scared of going into teaching. It's been difficult for me at the moment to keep going...

#marsmaru rambles #god i want to stop existing #plz ignore #im just screaming into the void

[devis-nonsense-n-shitposting]

I think about my like, two Castlevania posts that, for whatever reason people saw and got kind of popular. And I just think, how many of them realize that they are reblogging the insane ramblings of the weird kind of anarchist, goth, maybe a little punk sometimes, furry who just happens to be (slightly) obsessed with pretty people murdering monsters. Probably not a lot so I just think thats funny to think about. Anywho back to regularly scheduled screaming into the void xoxoxo

#devi thoughts #i dont knkw what the fuck to tag this with #im just screaming into the void #hello void? #its me Devi #and i am yelling intensly into you

[heybobbygirl]

my mom is making weird sarcastic jokes i dont understand and laughing when i get confused im too fucking tired for this shit

#vent ig #idk #im just screaming into the void #and then when i ran up the stairs about to burst into tears she suddenly acts sorry #like damn #the panicking wasnt obvious enough #i thought *i* was the idiot that didnt understand social cues #sorry i am being way too edgy lmfao #i am a mess

[the-hardened-pssy]

I've been thinking about death a lot.

And not in that, suicidal way, I've just been thinking about it. Like, random thoughts of "I'm going to die one day. What will I do until then?" Then I get sad and stressed. So, maybe it is in that suicidal way, but just in a different way than what I'm used to. Idk

I've just been thinking about death a lot lately, and what will I leave behind? Will Baby be okay? Will my siblings? What about my parents? Will I be okay?

I shoulda taken the weed frfr, I'm stressed

#death #im just screaming into the void #the-hardened-pssy

[vivitheanimaxen]

Being friends with people is so stressful like what.

I'm a very charismatic person and I also like getting what I want. But I'm also very good at making friends. not so good at keeping them due to some things about how i was raised but I am out on my own now and I have longterm relationships and new ones forming every day and this is the most terrifying thing to ever happen to me.

I feel like i have some sort of introvert attracting pheromones because I keep befriending them and keeping up with them and wow now i've had this friend for a year and we've cried together and laughed together and she is like the sister I never had.

And if i'm not careful I could destroy it all.

It's like holding a baby chick in your hands and realizing it came out of an egg you cared for and hatched and soon it will be grown up and laying eggs of it's own and in that moment of holding the helpless ball of fluff you could just squeeze and end it all and it's terrifying.

everything about humanity is like that for me.

friendships and romance and family and the way we live and laugh and cry and rage and emotions are the most messy, most beautiful thing in the world and ugh i have no words suitable for them.

humans are pure potential wrapped up in flesh and blood and skin. Lightning trapped in a bottle.

Man I would never wanna be anything else.

#late night ramblings #philosophical thoughts #dont mind me #im just screaming into the void #frienship #humanity is so fascinating #i want to study it under a microscope #this is why i write #writing is my microscope with which to view humanity