#im posting this just in case so ppl like Know cuz it can kinda be overshadowed with googling his name bc of the game

[hyponautica]

im kinda new to lifesteal and i havent really thought about other members bsides clown and branz but school is gonna enter a break so my brain has finally been alloted time to hone in on this. and i have some design ideas for a few members.

also feel free to tell me anything about anyone if u wanna give info cuz i would also rly appreciate it. im dead srs, i will read bible length text. anyway-

ash is so emo to me. he has that angsty teen in him. long sideswept hair with a bit of it brought over his left eye. im also gonna do that thing i saw a lot of ppl do of that glitchy thing over his eye but on the hair as well cause, it just fits with his skin. i dont wanna leave em too independent to what they actually look like in game

minutes skin is good enough for what i think he would look like! but he definitely has a bow motif on his skin that i wanna add a teensy bit more to! also his hair. not fire, just like, smoky. also a trenchcoat would be good i think. and ive heard some members call him a walking base so i ran with that idea and i wanna give him a suitcase with like infinite space inside.

i think redd is good being left nice and simple! i think the simplicity adds a lot in his case. but i wanna give him slicked back hair, kinda like crocodile from one piece but a bit messier and mb a lil curly to add a bit more uniqueness?? also small demon horns cause the red motif goes hard with that idea + the suit he wears. i also dont know if i wanna keep his face featureless or give him a mask thats a rly similar red to his skin

zam is such a creature. just some sleep paralysis demon creature thing. i like to imagine his head is nothing but an eerily smooth and perfect circle and he just sharpies that signature smile on his face and it really shows when it starts to fade away. also to add to the creature vibe i wanna make him rly skinny and bony, and he hides it with oversized clothes. tho his hands definitely give way to that fact

leo, i also wanna leave him simple but i wanna make him a cyborg. the details would probably be in his cyborg parts (mainly head to draw attention to it). his channel name is on his skin as if theyre initials so i wanna make it like the initials on the side of a helmet? in this case i thought why not make the theme like how ppl imaged robots in the 80s? i dont think i can explain my idea well thru text so i guess ill show ppl when it comes down to me drawing it. i just think the cyborg idea fits when hes basically a walking moai statue from what ive seen in his videos lmao

thats kinda all i have for now which are actual solid ideas in my head! im currently walking home from school rn so its hard for me to focus as much as id like. if i remember anyone else or think of em ill post it later :33 i just havent watched enough of the members currently, itll come to me soon enough dont worry

#lifesteal smp #lifesteal #text #ashswag #leowook #minutetech #princezam #reddoons

[meatsex]

I’d like to hear the reasons why you don’t want to post art ever again. I’m just curious, and I respect your decision not to.

im still kinda asleep so im gonna try to make this legible and also not too personal although it is tied to my art so i guess by default it is

tl;dr im embarassed and i think everyone looks at me weird so i kinda want to disappear some times

i cant avoid feeling like everyone thinks of me as weird because i make so much art of this one guy and 50% of that is because i can make art really fast so i can do a lot of it but then i also probably look crazy because i really do so much art but i can only pull off the "well i have autism" card so many times before it loses all meaning and also its not something i actually want to talk about

i try not too think about this too much cuz if it were true then i probably wouldnt have the amount of numbers i have in social media and i wouldnt have people sending me requests/ideas or people making art for me and i feel like im ungrateful that despite all of these things i still feel like im an outsider or that everyone secretly hates me but i kinda cant avoid it because im someone that inherently feels like a weirdo half of the time and then ill just say it again my first weeks in the vs community kinda sucked ass n all of my close people have always reassured me that these people were overreacting but

and then when i make personal art its like this cringefest gore nudity shit and thats been my thing for like 6 years now but i feel like it doesnt make me look any better even though i dont mix the two things

i really do all of the art i do out of appreciation, i know my way of showing it isnt drawing in a cute style that makes everything look beautiful or super happy but thats just not how i work and it kinda makes me feel like i dont belong or that im just looked at weirdly and its kinda hard not to say "i dont want to post ever again" because its the only thing ive been drawing

like i made a zine of all my art and posted it and so many ppl liked it but i was this close to ultimately not posting it because looking at it from afar i kept thinking "oh wow i look insane and i think everyone is going to think so too" so yeah im just constantly feeling paranoid over something at the end of the day i guess i cant control or whatever

i try not to fall into whatever concept people currently have of parasocialism cuz like i said some days i dont care about my art being acknowledged by the guy and most of it i do as fanart of him as a singer which is why it ends up looking kinda edgy but again how do others perceive meeeee lol lmao

alternatively you might not even be a vs fan so this means nothing to you in that case sorry anon if you actually read through all of this

#long post #no one gaf i should have written how i felt last night because now everything feels cloudy #im gonna post this before i keep adding onto it and if i need to ill just make a whole new post sorry

[heiayen]

EPISODE 7: SOMETHING SHE MIGHT LIKE... note: this chapter's written part is longer but very important, so! remember to read it

"No offense, but how else would anyone follow you?" Lumine raised her eyebrows as she put down the plate with dumplings, "If the person got a professional camera and all, then I don't think it would be hard for them to get a tracking device and just plant it in your car."

The main topic of the dinner was, obviously, who took the photos. You couldn't blame the twins for being curious and asking questions, the case was on your mind all the time, too.

"The car was locked, Lumine. Not a single sign or anyone breaking in." Scaramouche replied, annoyance evident in his voice.

"Then how else on earth?"

This was something that also bugged you. Your boyfriend was literally swearing he saw no one following you, and yet someone did. When Lumine first proposed the existence of a tracking device, Scaramouche disagreed instantly, saying how there was no chance someone broke inside.

But you couldn't help and feel like this was possible.

"Could someone put it somewhere on the car?" You asked.

Both Scaramouche and Lumine looked at each other, and then her gaze wandered to her brother.

"…I mean, someone could put it under the car? I saw people do it."

You looked at Scaramouche. Despite his usual frown, you noticed the uneasiness underneath it. To realize that someone was constantly aware of where you were going was a terrible thing, you could only imagine. You grabbed his hand under the table and gave it a light squeeze.

He squeezed back.

"I'll check later."

This was the end of this discussion. Lumine nodded.

"Anyway, I made two kinds of dumplings because I didn't know what you'll like…" She started and pointed at the plate, "Those are with meat and these are with mushroom. Oh, and Aether has his potato filling ones."

"With potatoes?" Your boyfriend asked. Honestly, you were kinda curious about them too. You never had dumplings with potatoes, out of all fillings…

"You want some?" Aether smiled, a dumpling already on his fork.

"No."

Still, the said dumpling ended up on his plate anyway. He stared at it and, honest to god, for a second you thought its about to get stabbed with his glare alone.

"Aether, can I have one too?"

"…sorry, Y/N, I have only six dumplings left…"

You glared at him, "So this is how you treat your friend… you pick their boyfriend over them…"

"No, it's not like this!" Aether waved his hands, a hint of amusement on his face. This quickly turned into a friendly bickering between you and him.

You didn't even notice when suddenly, half of the potato dumpling ended up on your plate.

When you noticed it, you smiled at Scaramouche.

a/n: i wonder what's the thing... anyways the dumpling lumine mentioned are actually rly good. yes im pushing my slavic twins agenda cuz i enjoy projecting. also! please if you have any comments theories whatever feel free to share them cuz i love listening what ppl think and yeah <3

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#genshin impact x reader #heia's writin' #scaramouche x reader #kunikuzushi x reader #wanderer x reader #dttmxreader

[zenosanalytic]

RazzafragginRigginFrigginFragga

So there's a really beautiful hope post going around again, and I'm gonna reblog it again cuz I DO appreciate its artistry and positivity, and I dont really want to tack this onto it cuz it just seems oddly contrarian and, Also, cuz obvsl what I'm gonna talk about is a kind of weird edge-case, and that post just doesn't apply to such cases, and saying what Im about to say would be MAKING it about those edge-cases, and it's a thing I've kinda talked about here and there before, but:

Hope is NOT a universal emotion or experience. I have NEVER felt hope in my life. Like idk maybe it's a trauma thing or a Depression thing or a Neurotype thing, but in my opinion it's a Genetics thing. I have NEVER done ANYTHING in my life out of hope, or for the sake of what I think it will create in the future(which I know sounds weird but that's just my emotional experience of Actions). I do things cuz they NEED to be done, or I think they SHOULD be done, or because I just LIKE doing them. I act out of DETERMINATION and SELF-EXPRESSION and NECESSITY; not for "Wishes" or "Outcomes". Idk maybe I'm just misunderstanding something here; I'm EXCEEDINGLY Pedantic personality-wise, so maybe I've just been applying a definition to 'Hope' other ppl aren't actl using.

I'm sure I'm not the only person like this, either. I'm also sure that all this hope stuff is Very Nice and, to the people who it can actually speak to, Very Inspiring. I'm not trying to knock it! I'm just saying: Not Everybody Is The Same, and no matter how universal you think a certain experience is, there are going to be people out there to whom it is completely alien, and I think that's important to keep in mind.

#Hope #Determination #Action #Ethics #Emotions #People #Life #Our Staff #zA Opinions #zA Thoughts #zA Writes #Hope Aspect #zA's Flabbergasting Curmudgeonry

[sipsteainanxiety]

not to be dramatic but i would lay my life down for holding out (just for you), you have this habit of writing the absolute sweetest, most enthralling bakugou fics and i will never not be excited whenever you post. your writing is SO good and its even better because the reader is so well written and likeable, i can’t tell you how much i love this dragon bakugo fic. thank you for sharing your writing with us and all the effort you put into your fics, i imagine writing can be difficult but you never fail to amaze me

AWWWW NONNIE U SWEETHEART 🥹🥹🥹 im a sucker for soft bkg i admit LMFAOO he just hits so much harder than mean bkg and i KNOW he’s canonically a big marshmallow inside 😌😌 thank you for reading my fics and taking the time to send in an ask!! it means a lot to me fr! 🥹✨❤️

yeah, for reader id wanted her to be like… chill but also not afraid to stick up for herself yk? and talk back against a mfing dragon LMFAOO which i think would attract bkg in a way LOL. bc like. who the FUCK is this puny human and why is she helping me? why isn’t she running away?! poor baby is so confused lol but also kinda intrigued?? with his injuries he’s forced to spend time with her and see parts of her personality that he finds captivating. the fact that she’s so easy to talk to (or listen to in his case) just makes him more attached pfft. bc he’s someone who prefers to listen at his core.

bkg’s culture is very… mmmmmm… strong. determined. they’re dragons/dragonshifters after all, so they naturally gravitate towards ppl who are also strong and tend to see those people in a favorable light!! but there’s a difference between the strength of his kingdom’s people and the strength of someone in the human realm yk? and bkg has to deal with this difference and expectations n such. cuz like… reader isn’t as fiery or powerful as one of the warriors in the dragon kingdom. she’s softer—not a pushover but definitely not as keen to throw hands. which is what’s kinda drawing bkg in 😌

anyways yaah LMAOO thats how my train of thought runs. feel free to ask questions abt anything LOL ✨

#sipping tea with shay #a nonny mouse #u touched me right in the kokoro 🥹🥹 #this kind of ruminating ive been doimg on bkg’s culture is not entirely definitive but #it’s where im heading towards as i write this next ch and plot out the sequel

[superchat]

Hey fathör. Genuine question. How do you get like okay with the idea of like "it's better if I'm alone"? Cause I really resonated with some of the posts you've made talking about that but like the idea of being alone also kinda makes me scared. Like how do you get over that feeling?

uhmmmmmmm, im not the best person to ask cuz i have Problems and have had zero therapy in my life. im on no medications and have no diagnosis i am confident in saying i have, other than general depression but even then i dont know the extant that i have it, or the ways i feel it or deal with it.

generally the feeling doesnt go away. for me itts an unhealthy battle of "will my selfishness win or my will?" cuz its always conflicting feelings of "i dont think i should be friends with ppl cuz i can be shitty and im not mature enough for them" vs. "i am lonely and want to talk and connect with ppl" and eventually my selfishness wins and i start talking to ppl again even tho i cant justify itt to myself so

ive always been kind of a solitary person, or someone who enjoys their alone time. over the years its gotten more? worse?

humhumhum i noticed a ttrend over time where i like. get in like, a better mood and then act like an ass in some way or another and that will knock down my self esteem and stuff

last year was very eventful in a lot of bad ways and after it ive had enough things settle in my head that its okay to stay away from others for my own good as well as theirs. i kind of live in a constant "i dont think im being a good enough friend" while also feeling very exhausted as if im doing a lot but like really, im not. after many months this is still the case so i think itts just the new standard for me

#a lot of times i am just a bad person and at the same time i have a hard time coping with that #i do want to be honest with who i am and not being a shitty denial manchild #i remember when anon would like. be so very exciting and make my heart rush cuz its like! someone wants to talk! or say hi! or w/e! #but lol after last year they just kind of hrm #sometimes dread fills me when i see one cuz im like ''what did i do now'' #or sometimes indifferent. if anons ever compliment me now and im like :| #nott to be rude to whoever compliments me cuz its very nice of them but also i just #dont feel much with it. like tyvm i recongize its a nice thing youre doing and i want you to feel validated in that #anways #is 1am thoughts #anon #asks

[cdmodule]

(OSC ask meme - IK I PICKED A BUNCH feel free not to answer all of them!!) 2, 3, 7, 13, 14, 16, 22, 36, 38, 39, 40

NO IM SO GLAD I LOVE ANSWERING SHIT I will put this under read more tho From this post

2 - Least favourite show? Already answered! (Its object terror) 3 - Underrated show? LEGENDARY ADVENTURES FOREVER ^^ Short so far, but REALLY funny stuff in that show. Some of the jokes can fall a Little Flat to me but its never anything bad LOL. GOT SOME RLY FUN CHARACTERS TOO If u have a bit of time to watch an object show Id say watch this one. Partially cuz of my Next Point (Honorable mention: ACTOE) 7 - Underrated character? Snowy LAF <3 I feel like a lotta ppl I know would like this guy. I tend to be Biased towards short high pitched voice Guys anyway (also hes gay. Like canonically. Just wanted to mention this cuz Its a Win For Me) 13 - How many characters do you think should be in an object show ideally? Something between 10 and 20 usually seems Fine to me. Anything above that kinda Crunches my brain unless Its a case like BFDI where its More Over Time Over Years but thats . Really just an exception to the rule TBH 14 - What do you care about most in an object show? Simple Answer probably but I wanna be able to tell that ppl are just Having fun and putting passion into their shows. Everything else I can Give Or take. Object shows are really just passion projects between very few ppl and should be treated as such I feel like memorable character designs could be pretty important too, this can be Tricky sometimes cuz No One Owes An Object but theres many ways to make em stick out from another Same object 16 - A show/character you love that everyone else hates? HFGHHHHH SPANGE . SPONGY. HE IS MY BABYGIRL. I would f/o him If I didnt already have two f/os. Both the show and fanbase treat him SO bad for no good reason (Him being mean after everyone bullied him is justified imo). Like Its gotten to a point where I hold back from talking abt him in servers cuz Im afraid of ppl making Annoying Uncalled for rude jokes or "well he sucks" kinda comments (yes this has happened before god fucking help me). I could go More into this but maybe thats for its Own post. Only maybe though 22 - What character has the best design?

Just two designs I quite Like cuz I cant think of other ones rn Mace the Merciless (Paper puppets take 2) cuz Im gay Love Lock (The Almost Valentinesly Object Show) cuz Im Gay AND I like the little lock mouth :) Also honorable mention: Loser <3 36 - Favourite scene? I could use one with one of my faves/fave ships but thats TOO EASY . So Ill mention the pin and coiny Pep Talk scene in bfb 6 cuz It makes me EMOTIONALLLL theyre the sweetest ever. Im sure theres other ones I like a Lot but this one just sticks with me the most 38 - Favourite rarepair? LEAFPIEEEE Leafy and Pie is a complete Crack Ship AND ALSO SNOWFRIES but both work GREAT imo. I brainrot abt these occasionally ESP SNOWBALL AND FRIES I was suprised that no one before me and nate (and sal hi sal) thought of this ship Leafy and Pie complete each other Very Well. Snowball and Fries make good Old Man Yaoi Also technically WinnerLoser is a rarepair cuz most ppl hc them as enemies or siblings LOL 39 - Favourite villain/antagonist? Four cuz I need them carnally etc (Ignoring post split cuz Its so lame how everyone just forgave him NO GET HIS ASS!!! HE SUCKS!!!!! THATS THE WHOLE APPEAL!!!!!!!!!!) I dont have time or energy to go Deeper into the Four Appeal but u can probably guess. Hes fun <3 40 - Overall thoughts on the community? I'm too old for this

#some of these i would love to go deeper into but EH #ask game #answered

[dejadoodles-101]

I need to come on here and rant holy shit I’m pissed. I don’t know how many ppl are gonna take the time to read this but if this gets 0 notes within 24 hours I’ll probably delete.

So last night I was scrolling through Facebook and I came across to a post that my friends dad was saying some pretty homophobic shit about using pronouns like they/them and how those pronouns are used for more than two things. Okay yes, that’s true, but people who are non binary are just called that because they don’t feel right about their gender identity. I mean what else would they be called? It/its? Kinda offensive imo (unless if that what they prefer to go by).

Idk man, it just pissed me off. So then I commented on his post saying that it’s not the right place to post that kind of stuff cuz ppl can find it offensive especially if you have friends on your list who are non binary or LGBTQ+ friendly or are a part of the group. And then he goes on and DELETES MY COMMENT. LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW?! That was just unbelievable to me.

So then earlier today he texted me through messenger and said that he was “not homophobic” and yada yada and that he doesn’t care. And then I responded with how I found that post offensive and that he really shouldn’t be posting that kind of stuff and really just keep all of that to himself and that I don’t tolerate anyone who’s homophobic.

And then (this shit gets real) he goes on and says that the pronouns of they/them implies to more than one and it’s proper English and that we should’ve learned this in elementary school. Yes he was right, but they/them could also just mean for one person who is gender less (I guess I can say). And then. AND FUCKING THEN

HE TELLS ME THAT HE HOPES IM IN COUNSELING AND THAT I SUPPOSEDLY “NEED IT”

LIKE WHAT THE FUCK???????

Why do I need counseling for this kind of topic??? Like I really only need counseling if I’m depressed or have anxiety issues. Or even if I’m feeling s***idal. Which in this case I’m not either any of those. Then I told him to never ever tell me to go to counseling unless if I do NEED IT and that was just rude of him to say something like that.

And I just came across to a post he posted just a little bit ago and that this generation of fucked up (which yes it is) and that if we get offended by what he says then we “need to grow up and get thicker skin.” Okay, maybe just keep your goddamn mouth shut. It’s really not that hard to shut up about your opinions on specific things. You know the saying “if you can’t say anything nice, don’t say nothing at all” Yeah, not that hard to do that buddy.

He hasn’t replied to my messages yet but I’ll keep an update for yall (if you even care abt this post). I just really hope his son (my friend) is also not homophobic because I don’t wanna lose any friends right now. And also just to clarify, they’re both rednecks 🙄 so ofc they’re gonna have an opinion about this controversial topic. Unbelievable.

But yeah I take my support on lgbtq+ pretty seriously and if you’re homophobic, don’t come near me. Don’t even come in my vicinity. Simple as that.

#rant post #controversial topic post #lgbtq+ rights #deja rants #deja speaks

[iiota]

other people pointed this out in the post, but Heisenberg's dog tags are also just what Romanian dog tags looked like. Dunno officially what the deal is and the design aint great bc of the potential n/zism but considering the game is set in Romania its worth noting

gonna link this thread i just read bc heisenbergs name is the exact same as an Actual Real nazi physicists name and also touches on how the romainian tag is also not good so yeah its worth a look through

https://twitter.com/scarIetdevils/status/1393324059249807366

#ask #nazi mention #its definately important to keep this in mind bc ive seen ppl like him as a villain #apparently theres a part of the narrative where ur supposed to be sympathetic of him and that is evil #bohello #im posting this just in case so ppl like Know cuz it can kinda be overshadowed with googling his name bc of the game

[nothingbutloveforyou]

well, I have a friend that Ive known from 5th grade. I am 18 now. We r not best friends.But after everything depressing thing happened to me in high school, she is the only one I talk to. Not too often. I don't even give likes to her posts. But when I see some hints that indicate she's having hard times or happy times, ill go and ask. But our conversation is kinda a bestie vibeeeeee.

We have a thing when it is our birthday, we usually, send wishes on 00:00 (midnight). And Small talk becuz we both have our business to do (it's midnight though).and then we say bye and don't talk for a long time.

but sometimes we have such a long interesting conversation and would literally video call for hours.

We don't talk for months. But when we talk, we just say " it was such a long time." and ask about each other life.

I usually ghost ppl and my fav emoji is the thumbs up because my sun rising scorpio and cap moon. and im not comfortable when i do that to ppl cuz i know they r gonna think i don't care about them.

But she is the only one I can just comfortably ghost and still don't feel awkward. maybe becuz she's CAP sun gemini moon.

Im sure it's a CAPRICORN thing.

But relationships are so special individually maybe u have one friend who cries when she has troubles and asks for help desperately cuz ur their friend and there's another friend who just keeps everything inside and doesn't bother u also becuz ur their friend.

U know humans are chaotic.

I don't know if ur friendship is healthy and just having an regular friends argument or it is a toxic one and u need to think about it seriously.

I hope this helps.

Yours cold hearted Cap Moon

thaank you anon for your elaborate answer! honestly, the friendship you're describing sounds so great, I always say that you do NOT have to necessarily see or talk to someone all the time to keep a friendship alive. if there's a bond, there's a bond. ( I know some people are different, that's just me :). btw this was NOT my case we are talking about here, it was a discussion between me and a friend who this happened to. again, thank u anon, and I hope you're good!

if you don't know what this is about, here's the post :)

#anon #asks

[rurifangirl]

aight. here somes the ask lore thingie

tw for ppl readin: mention of mental illness, father mention

firstly, how did rui end up meetin the rest of the gang? did they all have sum sort of run in? did they just happen to meet on exident?

also is the father a villain? i remember ya mention him, and was wonderin

and do they have a specific place where they stay? like in a dormstory, a single house, do they live in a single town, or in completly different places?

do any of them suffer from mental/physical illnesses? if they do, how does it affect their life/relationships w others?

Aight, so here we go, be ready cuz shit's long.

(1st part - The Rui n the gang meeting; The Shou meeting) No Tw

Honestly, I also kinda wanted to do this for quite a long time, so I'm gonna firstly talk about how the gang (w/o really mentioning the others name's since they're gonna get introduced soon) met itself and decided to form, and then I'll individually do It in Lyva's and Shou's case, specifically Shou's since i mentioned that his meetin was somethin id have to take care of in another post, so i will rn.

First things first, w the whole gang. Now It wasn't really casually, mainly because Lyva n Rui did meet up, but It was during a special occasion still, that being a really important manifestation in one of the main regions in my oc universe. (They don't have name's yet so pls don't bash me🤡) Them being primarly the Forest, where Rui eventually lives in after all of his past shit, the near-countryside part, where Lyva was living, a pretty much city living on water, where Shou's currently living, and many more, as such the dunes with which I'll introduce Qiran (hopefully tomorrow/today),The sea itself, some High up places and as I said many, many other more. Other than this brief intro, they meet up where Lyva used to live, but mainly because of problems and out of conviniance.

Everyone had something to take back from, so they agreed to help eachother to reach that end, so it's all really planned. Now i won't really go w Lyva, cuz i explained how she met Rui the first time n how they helped her, so I don't need to ramble more on this. Now I'm gonna go w Shou's part though.

This Is more of a note i wanted y'all to know first, cuz i really like how Lyva n Rui met him the first time (cuz the second time was when the gang then all agreed to form n all that jazz.). Basically, Rui n Lyva were out, n visiting new places as such, to prepare themselves further and to try and search for more weapons, cuz they both knew that they'd eventually get in trouble, and even though they still are good, they wouldn't stand much a chance, n since Shou's Place is known for its production they decided to go. N fun fact, there's many funny shit that happends, for example Rui tries to touch a fish, but gets SLAPPED by It. They're still mad >:[. Ajkskdj anyways, some other stuff happends n they just, lose themselves. They had a map ofc but still managed to do so. But Rui was usin It so, I don't really blame em for gettin lost.

Shit happends n they find themselves pratically in front of his shrine/palace. Shou's servitors (cuz he saw everything happend from afar n gave them the okay) brought em in, but rather than makin em idk some tea n just making them recouver, Shou rather put them under some "tests" w/o tellin em, to see if they were any use.

For example he brought them some cups of tea, but before drinking them Rui noticed somethin unusual in the water, so they gave Lyva a sign to not drink It, n as Shou asked as a reason why they just replied that they weren't thirsthy, leavin Shou in a kind of defeated state. Bitch if i love this part honestly, there's so much fun to seein all of their reactions, but I'm gonna go brief rn. So other of this tests pass later n Shou eventually gets upset cuz they're all winnin n seemingly makin fun of him, lettin him in a weaket standpoint, n a fight happends. Even though it's a 2v1 situation he can still manage pretty well, so It ends in a draw. They get to talk after this and get to understand that they don't have to necesseraly be on the opposite side, though Shou Is still unsure whether to belive in that or not.

After they leave him, pratically almost alone w only a bunch of servitors helpin him. He admits defeat n won't show up until the event and yadayada. (Also it's during this weak time of his he'll meet Qiran which i already have plans w so it's all goin to be said bout their relationship in their post.)

(2nd part, the father mention.) Tw:father mention

So it's true that w Shou i did mention his father, but I'm not entirely sure bout his involvment honestly. In theory he kind of is a villain itself, even because of his devilish nature, so it's true, but im not sure whether to make him an independent villain or part of a group of them. But rather than that yes, i do want to make him some sort of villain in the end, because that's also part of Shou's agreement to be part of the group. I will make concept art for him so he'll definetly be involved. Not gonna lie, mabye that bastards also involved w Rui's cult too in a way or another but im givin in too many details holy shit I'll never get outta this fuck

(3rd part- where do they live) No Tw

They live in their own homes honestly, but It would be no surprise if they'd all decide to sleep over someone in specifical, though they have their own place. I made some concepts for Rui's intern home, which here It Is 😤 (forgive me for the bad quality but it's 2 am rn 🤡) I made this a while ago but only did Rui's, so I'll do Lyva's, Shou's n the other one's too. They live in different places, for the exception of, atm, Qiran, since I'm gonna say that they're more of a traveller n don't have a stable home.

(4th part- the mental/physical ilnesses) Tw: Self harm and Mental ilness mention

Well, this Is gonna be a ride. They all suffer from Ptsd, which Rui n Shou suffering from It the most. It still affects them all, though in different occasions, so Imma just do them in specifical. (Also because i gotta add some shit to shou that i didn't wanna add because i thought It was too much honestly)

Rui-

It affects them really much. They use crystals n gems to avoid anything going w their past or anything remotely related It, as whenever they feel awful about havin those flashbacks when they still were a child. They never want to talk about what happened, n during their moments It gets really, really bad. Both emotionally and physically, as their body sometimes cannot handle anything so it completely shuts down. They never really got any help for It as Rui's too scared to share bout their experience, both because of trauma itself that doesn't make them say anything even if they wanted to and because of the cults influence, so either way they've got to handle It by their own.

Lyva-

Other than havin to deal w mornin sickness, which Is the least for her, she has to deal w her neglectful childood and how desperate she's always been for litteraly anythin, whether it's related about love,friendship, food, toys, anything. She tried to seek for help and semi found It, but as of now she can't keep up w It and has better things to take care of. It's still really bad overall, but she's hoping for things to get better. Spoiler It really won't.

Shou-

⭕Tw for sh⭕

It's... really fucking bad. I'm gonna get outta this w saying something i didn't want to add because it's really triggerin, but im gonna do It now. So basically, I've mentioned them acting feminenly for his own mother, but i didn't say what would've happened if he displeased her. She would just stare down at him and whispering some awful shit or names. This would happen especially whenever he'd slip off that mask of his or revealed even a tiny bit of his devilish essence. Note that he's still a child here. So, best thing he could to was to "punish" himself, which basically consists of him scratching his arms too much and, i don't really want to continue this, forgive me but it's kind of triggering even for me. But...you can guess what he's doing, since he even to this day still keeps sharp nails. I'm sorry for putting this, but it's another way to show how his mother fucked him up and now suffering from this.

I'm sorry for rushin the last part but i'm not personally vibing w it.

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[matoitech]

hello u dont have to answer this if u dont want, but ur situation with gender is scarily similar to where im at except im in the mindset that im nb wlw and dont rlly kno whats going on. I guess if u kno how to explain it, I wanted to ask how u made that jump or how u could tell it isnt just a "womanhood is like that" kind of thing and is actually "i am a guy"

oh man i wish i had smth that would make it Click for u easier cuz i def understand being rly confused abt this kinda thing.. i got a few Thoughts, idk if they will help u out but hopefully they give u some more thoughts to chew on that will maybe help anyway. this got so long oh hell sorry gbfhg

i think like the main thing as like a tip b4 we get in2 the Meat of it is it is good to relax and b open to thinking abt bein a guy as a possibility, i dont know if this will make sense bc i do not know how to explain it rly but when i was struggling 2 figure stuff out what i had rly needed 2 know was that being a dif gender can just feel like You (but as u become more comfortable w it, you but happier!) for some reason i thought u had to meet certain criteria to b ‘allowed’ to make what seemed 2 me at the time a Leap but thats not how it works lol. u as u r right now can b a guy if u want to or r considering it. u dont have to feel different and u dont have to think abt ur body a different way or anything. sry if this part doesnt make sense its difficult for me to verbalize lol

it was hard for me personally bc ppl would b like ‘if u Want to b a dif gender than b one’ but like i said in those last posts, for a long time i genuinely did not know i Wanted to be a guy/was a guy, or whatever. i had no conscious longing about it or anything, that came later once i was more comfortable w accepting it. i didnt have ‘i want to be a boy/am a boy’ moments i can rly consciously remember putting into those words as a kid, cuz i just did not care about gender on that level till i was a teenager. like i cannot stress this enough, ur life and feelings abt gender n whatever do not have to match up with what u have commonly heard the trans experience is about. once u figure stuff out and r more comfortable w urself u may look back and notice things that may b like that common trans experience, but remembering this stuff or having these childhood experiences or whatever in the first place is not a ‘requirement’. like i said, no requirements for bein a dif gender

for me like.. knowing it for sure... making the Jump as it were. like its kinda embarrassing but literally the way i Found Out was i was feeling all sorts of things whenever i watched promare and i just felt this INTENSE longing whenever i saw galo that i later realized was just me rly feeling the Gender w him and being envious of that.. it had happened w other chars b4 growing up, but i had never rly noticed to that extent till now. and one night i was thinking my usual ‘i wish i looked like galo i wish i could be a guy’ maybe for the first time in like a Conscious thought, when i had never rly heard it in words b4, and i kinda stopped and was like. what? i WHAT? and then it clicked and it was like a euphoric moment for me. easily top 5 best 2 ams of my life. it is kind of a hyperspecific experience but it is also not UNCOMMON rly lol

also figuring out my sexuality was intertwined in that bc i was iding as a butch nonbinary lesbian and i had tossed the idea of ‘maybe id b more comfortable as a man’ around a bit but the idea of being a straight man didnt feel right 2 me, but luckily i kind of made the connection of wait im a man and im attracted to men at like the exact same time, it had to b both at once for me personally to figure it out and b happy about it. idk if thats smth going thru ur head at all but it was for me and was part of my Journey i guess and may help to think abt it a bit lol

and while yes its absolutely about what makes u more comfortable at the end of the day, i think it wouldve helped for me to hear ppl say that just bc the idea of being a dif gender (in this case Man) might make u feel confused and maybe even uncomfortable rn, that doesnt necessarily mean u r not one if youve been struggling w this and wondering, it might just mean u havent had that clicky moment and r ready to rly think abt it yet. i have grown much more comfortable w myself over time as ive figured this stuff out and i am still open to figuring out more abt myself and i think thats a good place to b at! just b open to stuff like this that u maybe had never thought would have a positive effect on you or make you happier.

speaking from experience i think if ur confused and maybe even miserable telling urself that womanhood is just like that and u gotta suck it up and get used to feeling uncomfortable and bad, u dont have to live like that! im not saying that ‘oh im actually a guy’ is gonna b what everyone who is struggling w thats answer is cuz obviously thats not true- and im not saying how i just described it is even how u feel- but like. as someone who thought that same thing but less consciously. womanhood does not have to be a confusing sad experience, its not an inherently miserable experience, it is possible it just isnt for you and trying smth else might make u feel better. and that can b rly hard to figure out in the moment, cuz ur Used to feeling like this and even if youve heard it can b different it might b hard to have that ‘oh theyre talking to ME, it can be different for ME not just everyone else’ moment lol

also i dont know if this is relevant to u but im saying it in general 2 anyone who needs it i guess; being a man isnt a bad thing and it doesnt make u an inherently bad person, manhood and masculinity r not inherently or naturally toxic or something. thats a harmful mindset to have for multiple reasons and a whole nother post so im not gonna b like and now a word about transphobic red flags but like, worth mentioning that that can b harmful or dangerous to trans ppl, transmascs and transfems.

my god this got rly long... if anyone else has went thru a similar thing and has anything 2 add, feel free to :0 hope i somehow got around to answering ur question w all the rambling! i am just one guy and my experience may or may not b helpful to hear about, especially bc my memory is not the best lol <3 hope it helped at all tho!

#long post #NINE PARAGRAPHSSSS #fess replies #anon

[papaue00]

THANK YOU! Honey, I don’t like Iris because she’s kinda snowflake, this sAdNeSs thing and behaviour at home. And at the end, why they never spoke about what happened? Like, That’s their main problem which ruined their relationship. Aaaand like my mom says- if both people want it- they will got it. But not in that cost ;_; and second thing, WHY NO ONE WRITE FF ABOUT OLGIERD

WHY

ye, like, i like iris but i also can’t deny a lot of of what i like abt her are extensions of what little they give her

(for example idk in olgierd’s love letter he mentioned she liked singing bawdy songs to him while they drank from the same bottle and fucked around in that pub in oxenfurt till dawn or sth, which i find really cute and then i hc she’s actually more playful and laid back than she lets on in the game; not always the prim and proper princess that she appears. and i love the idea that she can be her true self around him, that he’s her enabler for those raunchy behaviors lol.)

i agree things might have turned out much much better if she listened to olgierd when he told her to elope with him—that’s a smaller sacrifice than selling ur soul to the devil lol, but then again, i also don’t resent her for not being willing to abandon her family cuz that’s totally valid. plus in such a dire situation it’s not always easy to make a right judgement anyway lol.

i dont quite get what ur referring to when you said “they never spoke about what happened.” if u mean the pact, she’s definitely aware of it because she told geralt (albeit in an optional dialogue iirc?) that she asked olgierd to wish for immortality for both of them. so ye she’s aware of the content of the pact (but we don’t know to what extent did olgierd tell her.)

i know i know im also constantly wondering why the fuck ppl don’t write more fics for him lmao. but i guess it’s bc fanfics by nature thrives more on unsatisfying executions of stories, and olgierd’s story imo (and i would say in many other ppl’s opinion) is pretty cleanly executed and kinda has no loose ends so it’s not like ppl are itching to fix it or fill in the gaps lol.

im reading a pretty dope (albeit a work-in-progress) fic tho which explores his life post-tw3. he’s not a main character and not a plot-driver in any way but the plot itself is really good and im enjoying the spicy slow burn gay romance (?) he’s having with a main character (who is an oc) 🥵 oh and he goes by a different identity too. just putting this out there in case anyone is interested.

#iris von everec #olgierd von everec #hearts of stone #witcher #ask box

[kathuichithouda-archives]

So you would like to see more of Sonia but just Her? Right? I wasn't in the fandom for that much so I don't know if it is really the case for Sonia but I do know that I hate when a character is only used as a pair with someone... I love Sonia and if there is so much sodam (is this the name?) that almost overlap the tag for both characters... I've only looked at fanart for now but there is really that much hate on kazuichi? Oh...

I love Sonia! I don’t wanna police ppl who make content of Sonia! I don’t even wanna police ppl who make content about Sonia getting back at Kaz! Cuz like! Again, they have a right to feel that way!  But I feel like everything I see about either Kazuichi, Gundham, or Sonia, is these three fighting over each other! And it’s not fun!  And it’s ppl like kinda hinting “Hey I don’t like Kaz and I don’t care if you like him I’m gonna keep jabbing at him!”  Which again! Valid opinion! If you don’t like Kaz, good for you!  But as a person who does like Kaz? It’s hard for me to sit through! All the time! Everytime I see content of them! Yknow?  Like, usually when I see sondam content (not all of it) it’s them like involving some sort of Kaz hate in one way or another. And it’s funny sometimes and other times its very old and overplayed...  That or they treat Kazuichi like a plaything or a cuck. (sorry if that’s a lil too nsfw to say but, it’s true)  And like... I don’t vibe with it! Personally!  But again, it’s their content and they can make what they want!  The overall issue that I have is!! People who poke the bear!!  Ppl who like, constantly have to mention they don’t like Kazuichi and don’t like those that do like him! All the time! When all Im personally tryna do is mind my own business! Yknow??  Strangers saying they hate me over an opinion on a fictional character?? Really stings!! Esp with someone who has RSD, so even if it’s not directed AT ME specifically I still feel like secondhand embarrassment or whatever and it ISNT FUN!  And usually it’s ppl who hide behind Sonia to do it! Or rude characters like Togami, Who I also do not hate btw.  The point of the post was; I don’t want to block Sonia out of my feeds or my mind. I feel like that would be really mean and people would miss the point of me doing that and accuse me of doing it because I hate her or think she gets in the way, Which I dont!! I dont think that at all! I like her!! She deserves better, and the world!! But I already had to block ppl like Chihiro out of my stuff because SO MUCH DRAMA about them. I don’t want another character ruined for me because of how the fandom treats them or directs them at me.  I hope this poorly written word vomit makes sense-- 

[narees17]

Dynamorph AU by @lulzyrobot

Decided to morph myself and my shiny zoroark. (might draw more of this on my laptop and color it, dunno when im sleepy it 6am lolol)

Trainersona: Narees

Partner pokemon: Zoroark

Moveset:

Night Daze

Focus Blast

Shadow Ball

Flamethrower

Ability: Illusion

Nature:

Zoroark’s nature is adamant

since the trainer is more relaxed and modest, it helps balance out her zoroark’s stubbornness.

Her pokemon’s stubbornness also gives her a form of self confidence, making her seem more fierce and unrelenting.

However, problems can occur when she’s being too adamant (depends on her mood or the situation at hand).

As a human, she would always hear two sides of the story to help find a solution. Now, in some cases, it may seem impossible to change her opinion on something and that may cloud her judgment

but she is not fully adamant, the relaxed nature helps balance it out, making her abit more open minded to other’s suggestions, as well as calming herself down if she ever lashes out. Making it possible, with the added effort.

Characteristics: Loves to eat. (m00d lol)

Physical features:

Dark Brown Puffy fur over the shoulders and above the chest.

Greyish Fur covering up to half the arms and legs. (Leg fur stops before the toes, similar to leg warmers, think of it like fingerless gloves but for legs)(Hands are covered fully)

Sharp purple nails to look like claws.

Big grey fox-like ears.

Mostly has human like features so it sort of looks like cosplay to some people.  

Purple eyeshadow-like markings, as well as lip markings.

Sharp fangs.

Hair grew longer and somehow its yellow scrunchy/orb thing is just tied on the lower part of the hair. (it doesn’t come off so its just stuck there)

Hair color would look inverted, so instead of long purple hair with brown tips, it would be dark brown hair with some bright purple tips, similar to the tied scrunchy part. (that part stays the same)(Edit:nvm it doesnt)

Eye color used to be full dark brown. Since the shiny colored zoroark has yellow eyes, it would look like a dark brown to goldish yellow gradient on the dynamorph.

Cat-like pupils.

Doesn’t wear shoes. (would sometimes wear if necessary but just wouldn’t wear them otherwise, the fur just feels uncomfortable with them on)

some days she could have sharper toenails like zoroark, but she would just file them down to make them shorter. They’d never grow as long as the pokemon’s.

Abit about the Dynamorph:

She is as kind as she is loyal. If she feels like she could be of use in a situation, then she won’t give up til its over.

She is still new to having powers/abilities, especially after realizing she’s ‘one’ with her best friend zoroark.

There are times where she should be more careful when handling with too much emotion. For example: if someone were to make her mad af, or extremely upset, it would trigger her illusion ability. Creating an illusion based on her mood which could negatively affect a large sum of ppl.

Be especially careful around her when that happens, cuz the next thing u know she’d use night daze or focus blast and blast you off to the wall.

Her illusion ability can help trick her foes into a trap as well as helping her hide in plain sight when necessary. Mostly used as a distraction, but won’t hesitate to use it against you as punishment.

Normally she would create an illusion of a thick fog if she needed to run away.(its easier, and remember, still new to the whole power thing, so she doesn’t have much practice. Overbearing emotion, example: rage will unintentionally trigger a fear inducing illusion, when she calms down it stops as if nothing happened)

Of course since she’s a pure dark type, its weaknesses would affect her. (its kinda why she got a variety of moves in her moveset)

Hobbies: Playing games, listening to music Drawing, creating minor illusions for entertainment. Sleep, sometimes cooking. When she isn’t doing any of these, she would go into a secluded part of a forest to practice her set of moves alone.

https://lulzyrobot.tumblr.com/post/610890677032747008/pokemon-dynamorph-au-masterpost

Thank you to @lulzyrobot for making this AU, i never felt so invested in a pokemon AU until now lol.🌺💜 its great!

Im sleepy gn.

#pokemon sword #doodlies #pokemon #trainersona #dynamorph au #pokemon oc #pkmn art #pkmnart #pkmn swsh #pkmn sword and shield #pkmn #pokemon au #pokemon zoroark

[orowyrm]

I fuckin love your hlvrai/wf au, and you got me wondering stuff. Like, is gordon a warframe? Or like, an operator piloting a warframe the same way a streamer controls a player character?

AAAUUUUUU IM SO GLAD!!!!!!!!!!! TYTYTY :DD

and he’s the operator, yeah! thats... the short answer, anyway. the full deal is pretty major spoilers so im gonna throw up a cut JUST IN CASE but

yeah, the main thing im running with right now is gordon being an adult tenno, piloting the frames! ive toyed with the concept of him actually being an umbra frame without an operator bcuz of the whole ‘the operators are children!11!!!!1!1!’ thing is kinda hard to work with, but its not uncommon to see ppl retcon their ops as being adults instead of liek....12........ plus i feel like it just makes more sense for this au :>  as far as Gordon Lore TM for this au, honestly, not much has changed-- he’s experienced all the events of the main quests, the only real difference is that he wouldve been running into most of the science team (sans coomer, since he’s his ship cephalon) riiight around. hm. definitely lategame, but im willing to bet before jovian concord, cuz vik and i had the idea of him only starting to suspect benrey of being a sentient after reading thru alad’s journals and finding out they can mimic people... so somewhere in there. post-sacrifice but pre-ropalolyst. 

i know he’s got an excal prime, but he uses the default excal skin cuz hes humble about it....... and he’d probly be like. steel meridian and ceph suda aligned? i doubt he’d vibe with the red veil after chains of harrow. he’s definitely in good standing with the ostrons and solaris, but i dont think he’s too keen on simaris. 

also joshua exists in this au as well! a series of unfortunate events led to his adoption, but he means the world to him and gordon somehow does a surprisingly good job of balancing being a space mercenary and raising a toddler (coomer helps as much as a computer is able to, but alas, that’s not much) 

#SORRY THIS IS SO RAMBLY im very tired after a long workday and this ask made me so HAPPY i couldnt contain myself #Anonymous