#im pathetic with people who i rlly want to please

[oscillating-fan-whore3]

I dont think anyone actually likes me. I try too hard for no reason.

#im pathetic with people who i rlly want to please #i try and i try and i try and then no one ever cares i put my heart and soul into everything i try so fucking hard to be liked and no one #cares if i just died right now would anyone even be bothered to come to a funeral #if i killed myself tonight would anyone really care #i know where rhe meds are ive done this research i know how many it wpuld take to kill me i just want to stop trying so hard and hurting for #five fucking minutes idec abt being skinny rn i just need it all to stop i hate myself i hate myself i fucking hate myself #i wish someone woudl just fucking kill me i really wish #imagine how easy itd be idk #gnna try and get drunk soon idk i wanna try jt out b4 i give in and do drugs or somethin #vent post

[rinstaro]

lmao idk if you remember but I mentioned in my last ask sky smacking around the reader- and here’s my vision

Imagine reader gettin a lil to comfy with some of his knight friends at the academy and the reader notices his annoyance but he’s a sweet boy what harm could a lil fun possibly do? (Right?)

so they start purposely flirting thinking they can get away with it until sky has enough and drags them back to his room and makes them s(cream) his name so that Everyone knows who you belong to.

Rlly he just puts you in your place <3

-💫

hi star <33 i love pissing off my boyfriend so this is such a fun idea!!!! i love being annoying!!!

loud enough

cw: jealous sky, degrading, fingering, im just obssessed with sky's hands specifically, wall/door sex? kind of? squirting, a tiny bit of manhandling, teeny bit of exhibitionism, like 2 spanks, doggy, reader has a vagina no pronouns

minors do not interact.

sometimes your curiosity got the best of you. its not like you were trying to piss him off. you were just hanging out with sky and some of the other knights at the academy. they were great at conversation and you were having a good time. apparently too good of a time for sky's liking. could you blame him? there's no way anyone could miss the way the knights would look you up and down, staring at your gorgeous figure and your pretty face. sky really wished you chose a different outfit for today.

he was getting quite annoyed with how hard you were laughing at their jokes. he talked to these people every day and they were definitely not that funny. with a sigh, he forced a smile across his face and grabbed your hand. "sweetheart?" you turned to him, eyes lighting up at your boyfriend's attention.

you were just a tad bit disappointed to find his smile, though it did seem a bit off to you. "let's go back to the room, yeah? im starting to get sleepy." you tilted your head, a cheeky grin spreading across your face. “you’re always sleepy, hun. mmkay, let’s go. bye everyone!”

you gave a flirty wave goodbye as sky dragged you down the hallways to his room. the entire time you talked his ear off about how nice his friends were.

once you entered the room, the door was slammed shut and you were pressed against it with your boyfriend pressed against you. he pinned you there with his chest to your back, his breathing heavy. “you really think you’re funny, sweetheart?” he mumbled. you smirked, wiggling your hips against hun.

“i don’t know wh—“ your snarky remark was cut off by sky sinking his teeth into your shoulder. he never bit you that hard. you were starting to think maybe you went too far, but you couldn’t help but be excited.

“you can play dumb all you want, i know what you’re doing. you don’t have to be a whore if you just want me to fuck you, okay?” he whispered into your ear.

you huffed, trying to cover up the nervous whimper you let out. his voice was so cold, but he kept that pretty dimpled smile of his. he slipped a hand into your underwear, rubbing in between your folds. “you’re all wet just from acting like that? that’s pathetic, sweetheart. let’s play a game, hm? i’ll give you my fingers, but i want you to scream. if i think you’re loud enough i’ll fuck you. if not, you get to watch me fuck my hand. how’s that sound?”

you nodded quickly, still pushing your hips back against him. "mhm, please!" without another word, sky plunged his fingers into your heat. you mewled, reaching up to grab his hair. you pushed back into his hand, urging him to increase his pace as he pressed sloppy open mouthed kisses into your neck.

you moaned so sweetly, but those weren't the sounds he was looking for. sky crooked his fingers, letting out a small laugh when he found the spongey spot that he was looking for. he suddenly started a brutal pace, making you squeal. "oh fuck, fuck yes, yes-" the wet noises from your cunt were making him lose his mind. you clenched around him so hard, he really couldn't wait to fuck you.

"you're so nasty, making a mess on the floor. did you want everybody else to see you like this? gonna give everybody a turn with you?"

"no! no, just want you, just you!" you cried. the heat in your stomach was only burning hotter with his cruel words. you didn't think he'd react like this- not your sweet boyfriend. you could tell he was jealous from the beginning. of course, you would've made it up to him with the best blowjob of his life, but this was much more exciting.

"you gonna cum for me then?" "y-yeah, please lemme- hnnng!" you came with a loud cry, gushing all over his fingers. sky hissed as you soaked the floor and his hand, whispering under his breath. "shit."

you panted, legs barely able to hold you up as you leaned on the door. suddenly you were hoisted up by your waist and thrown onto the bed. you barely had time to blink before sky's lips were on yours. he ran his hands up and down your body, desperate to take in as much of you as possible.

it wasn't long before your lover had started frantically removing both of your clothes. when you were stripped bare, you were flipped onto your stomach. he grabbed your hips, forcing your ass in the air. sky couldn't help but squeeze the soft flesh. you keened, arching your back further and pushing into his hands. "c'mon, hurry u- ah!"

both of your ass cheeks grew hot with a pleasurable pain. did he just spank you? you were sure you were dreaming. he rubbed the skin, soothing the flesh.

"im still not happy with you. do a good job and scream, maybe then you'll make it up to me."

your boyfriend slowly worked himself inside, one hand on your hip and the other between your shoulder blades. you whined into the pillows, drool dripping down your chin. sky gave your hair a slight tug, bringing your head back up before resting his hand on your back once more.

he drew his hips back to slam into you harshly, a yelp escaping your lips. your cunt sucked him in so good, he couldn’t help but fuck you relentlessly. your fingers dug into the sheets as you cried your boyfriends name over and over. he grunted quietly, releasing all of the pent up jealousy on your poor cunt.

“fuck fuck fuck, more! link!”

“more? sure you don’t wanna go talk to your new friends?” he said with another smack to your ass. you whimpered at the impact, the coil in your tummy tightening quickly.

“n-no! no, just want you! please, want you!”

that’s what he wanted to hear, and hopefully everyone else heard it too.

#kore.writes #link x reader smut #link x reader #loz x reader smut #loz x reader #legend of zelda x reader smut #legend of zelda x reader #star.anon

[shopcat]

ik this is a dumb ask to send on christmas eve no less but my family is annoying and im tired and need an escape so im just gonna be a bitch for a little while: i hate how much the stddie fandom feminizes steve while simultaneously equating femininity to being small and soft and submissive both sexually and in general. like its rlly telling that none of these people want to explore what steve could find interesting and comfortable in being femme (even though he's pretty consistently traditionally masc throughout the show in how he chooses to dress and what his general interests are etc) they just want him to be The Girl in the relationship. its the same with how like 90% of the fandom decided out of nowhere that he's a bottom and must also be a sub bc steve, the most sexually confident and experienced main character outside of the actual adults, would absolutely be a stereotypical blushing virgin bottom and wouldn't want to be in charge of his own pleasure regardless of how he's physically getting it

no for sure i actually have seen this a lot with other charas but it's particularly off with steve specifically because of the way people go about it is just concerning 😭. i've actually said before in passing that ppl almost tend to treat steve somehow misogynistically which is CRAZY but it makes sense because like one of the roots of homophobia is misogyny and at the end of the day it's just homophobia!! i think people want to indulge in the idea of him being feminine and simply get carried away and it's clear that their idea of femininity is tied in pretty transparently with soft submissiveness. and while it's true that men don't typically GET to indulge in these aspects of their own masculinity and getting to take this typically very masc character who has shown aspects of nontoxic masculinity can be a thing that invites nuance scrubbing him down until he's this like pathetic little waif of a thing who creams his pants the second the big strong man (in this case eddie but i know this is 99% of what h*rringr*vers do too) comes along to tell him what to do is concerning at the very best.

being gender nonconforming in any particular way is a complex thing and i would ENCOURAGE!! people to want to explore it with kindness and NOT as a way to at the end of the day sexualise and bastardise it to the point of no return. steve IS pretty and he is my babygirl and i do like saying he's a mean girl and he giggles and tucks his hair behind his ear and even wears the tinted chapstick and put him in pink outfits and perfume honestly like 99% of what people do with this i tend to ENTHUSIASTICALLY agree with but it's pretty clear when they're doing it to genuinely explore these things and celebrating the dissection of gender nonconformity and sexuality which has traditionally and continues to be dismissed/a marginalised aspect of being outwardly, clockably lgbt and when they're doing it ingeniously because they think it's like hot. and like yeah totally it's literally so hot but omg have some tact.. the hottest thing in the world is a gnc bisexual/gay man so it's understandable that ppl let their brains melt a little but let's give nuance the floor here for a SECOND please...

#asks #sts #also no problem i hope the rest of today and tomorrow goes well!!! #i legit just woke up and answered this hungoverly from MY christmas so we are all going Strong ‼️‼️ #ANYWAY i like to be careful criticising this specifically bc at the end of the day i will always encourage a feminine steve #and i've also said before that like i would rather be around the ppl who do it wrong than like idk actual homophobes #i just think it's a notable thing like u also noted it and it's something to be careful with BUT i do very rarely see it myself bc it's #one of the red flags i tend to avoid if that makes sense #i also just think it's a cop out in a way the weird direction ppl go with it like it's NOT complex to them which is crazy it's the most #layered thing in the world to me... especially if u hc him as any kind of trans #like transmasc or amab nonbinary his relationship w gender could be a really fun thing to explore and it IS #though here's a tip tbh i tend to avoid people who hc him outright as a trans girl when they're not trans girls themselves #and it's usually a red flag to me personally... i don't think tme ppl should be hcing men as trans women Ever and it's not the same as when #transmascs hc a girl as transmasc it is Just Different but ppl can't seem to accept that experiences aren't equal . whatever

[funnywormz]

mp100 or toh for the ask game :0c?

someone else sent me mp100 so i will do toh for this ask!!

blorbo (favourite character, character i think about the most):

eda....... i love her so so so much......... she's basically the embodiment of everything i could ever want from a female character and she's the sole reason why i started watching the show in the first place <3 she's funny and silly. she's so sad. she's loyal and cares so deeply abt others. she's rude. she's uncouth. she's feminine. she's masculine. she can turn into a badass huge beast. she's bisexual. she's a milf. she's a witch and a hag. she's such a tragic character and yet still so fun. she's deeply relatable. she commits so many crimes. she's everything to me.

scrunkly (my "baby", character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped):

hunter....... he's such a good character. the owl house always nails comedy AND tragedy and i think he's a perfect example of that, he can be such a (unintentionally) comedic character but when you think abt him for more than a few minutes you start to get Sad. ik he's very popular in the fandom but i can understand why, he's such a great character

im putting gus in this category as well bc he's so adorable and i love him so much. such a cute silly little guy. his backstory was very relatable to me and he reminds me a lot of my younger self, albeit more outgoing and confident lol. he's a rlly caring and sweet character at times and puts his own feelings aside for the benefit of others, which is a side of him we see in the human realm especially. he's so young, even younger than the other kids, and he's been through so much....... someone give this kid a hug please

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fav):

darius....... i know he's already pretty popular in the fandom but i just think he should be even more popular. he's my babygirl and he deserves it

gus (again). like with darius he's already pretty popular but i think he should be Even More Popular given that he's a member of the main cast and all. he's such an intriguing character to me and he doesn't get nearly enough hype imo

glup shitto (obscure fav, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and i won't shut up about it for a week):

this golden guard......... he only appears for like one flashback scene but he's fascinating to me. he clearly wasn't integrated into witch society and was going along with philip's plan to hurt/kill witches, which is rlly interesting bc later on philip seemed to take on the strategy of telling the golden guards they were witches and letting them view him as a witch as well. i wonder if the moment in this flashback where they stage the explosion was the moment that convinced this golden guard to rebel, when he saw how people were suffering because of philip/belos.......

obv caleb as well. we haven't even seen him get animated yet or heard him talk but he means so much to me and every time he's even vaguely mentioned i go rabid. fingers crossed that we'll see more of him in the next episode

poor little meow meow ("problematic"/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fav):

obviously it's fucking Phil. hate this guy so much but i cannot shut up abt him or stop thinking abt him. putting him in a blender biting him kissing him so passionately (who said that)

horse plinko (character i would torment for fun, for whatever reason):

kikimora. she is so pathetic and i think her suffering is funny sorry

eeby deeby (character i would send to superhell):

him again. i think he should burn in hell forever <3

#ask game #toh #the owl house

[huevobuevo]

Do u have any recomendations on series or manga or shows or ANYTHING im so bored

UMMM i dont wanna just outright say my hyperfixations but like <333

• I Expect You To Die is a vr spy game where you try to escape rooms and shit and do puzzles!! Rlly bad explanation but the characters are lovable as fuck and the humor is pretty top notch ‼️ ALSO THE INTRO SCENE IS FUCKUNF AMAZING GOD I LOVE THE THEME SONGS THEYRE SOOOO GOOD 💛💛💛

• psychonaurs is a really cool platformer adventure game thats abput psychic spies and a ten year old acrobat who runs away from the circus to join said spies!! First game is him in a summer camp for psychic kids where he tries to figure out who keeps stealin the kids’ brains and shit. Its also pretty funny with some really emotional moments (god especially in the second game & vr spinoff), though mind you it covers alot on mental health stuff since it DOES deal with going into peoples heads and dealing with Trauma™️- but its a cult classic and the second game is just as phenomenal as the first!! I recomend snapcubes playthrough for the main games and a regular no commentary one for the spinoff since its a relatively short game ^___^

• ELECTRIC DREAMS‼️‼️ PLEEEAAAASSSEE WATCH THE MOVIE ITS SO GOOD its a wonderful little 80’s flick about a computer learninf how to love and a pathetic closeted white boy but DO NOT BELIEVE THE SYNOPSIS OR POSTERS OF THE MOVIE!! The computy is NOT STEALING THE GIRL!!! HES LITERALLY JUST A SILLY LITTLE FUCKER MAKIN MUSIC WHO WANTS TO TALK TO A GIRL HE HAS A CRUSH ON!!!!!! Its like? THE EXACT OPPOSITE of what happens in the movie but imma let ya figure it out yourself ;]

ALSO I HAVE THE LINK TO THE WHOLE MOVIE ON YOUTUBE its a reslly good film to watch on the aide :]

• SAME THING AS ABOVE!! Wargames 1983!! Bout a highschopler who accidentally hacks into the military’s Big Computer™️ that can simulate world war three and almost convinces the government that the soviet is trying to bomb the US. Its pretty cliche and definetely something from the 80’s but like electric dreams its a funny little movie to watch on a nice cozy evening by yourself! ^__^

• MOON 2009 YOU HAVE TO WATCH MOON 2009 PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD its not as lighthearted as the past two movies but its silly and pretty cool and the story is genuinely intriguing also funny computer boy :]]]]

Its about this guy on the moon whose been there for three years collecting helium for an energy company. After an accident he starts seeing a clone of himself and the movie is about the two of them figuring out what to do. Its kinda confusing at first?? But it gets explained almost IMMEDIATELY and the banter between the clones is funny as hell :]

• SPLATOON YOU ARE NOT IMMUNE TO BIG MAN SWEEP

[bobzora]

GUESS WHO BEAT PEE3 TODAY (fes, the journey at least)

(lengthy) final thoughts:

ryoji is kind of. um. "that was my name for a while. i didnt mind it." hes kind of trans. is the thing. also bro 100% drew the shortest stick in this game lmao

obviously ryo/mina isnt quite the same as some of the other insane peesona gay people (2,5. 4 is gay but not rlly insane) bc like. in that form at least we only know him for like...two months?or so? but. u know what. they r t4t and both (kind of) dead. good for them.?

jumpscared by "the arcana is the means by which all is revealed." ive been seeing that shit in like. youtube comments since the day i was born. insane

nyx was like. pathetically easy. to the point where i felt kinda bad about it lol. at least its funny. this is what happens when u have level 99 protag + black viper lucifer (+ messiah for salvation for ailment healing. i could just use me patra gems but its more stylish this way). nobody ever got below half health and most phases (minus last bc of the halved non-almighty damage + gown) were a 1/2/3 hit kill. guys who overlevel because they just love the velvet room so so much (and im prolly not gonna do ng+, especially with portable port on its way (femc!). so trying to experience most that i can)

i did cheese the reaper a while back. used thunder reign strat. was actually harder bc new moon rebalance nerfed the shock rate so its not 100% lol. but took advantage of its ai to get it stuck in a break skill loop (akihiko dekunda sweep) the money was nice, and i spent soooo much time in monad levelling personas. wont be able to do liz fight bc not doing ng+. (slightly related: ive played pee5 so many times and ive never actually tried the twins/lvnza/jose fights. vanilla 1 time, royal 1 time, royal again for a friends playthrough but its not ng+, ng+ for 100% royal but only up to exams...royal for another friend's playthru. lol)

yuka/mitsu is real. to me. theyre even the colors of the lesbian flag

i maxed most social links besides magician (bc hes annoying. surt wouldve been nice tho), mitsuru (got up to like 8 then ran out of time), fuuka (trapped at rank 1. dont like her enough, not enough time. sorry. i played with english voices u know how it is), yuko (accidentally reversed her), justice (i know. who would have thought. started her wayyy too late.), keisuke (hes soooo cute like. i wanna look like that tbh. but fortune isnt useful enough and i ran out of time)

speaking of social links i literally hate how they work in this game so so so so much. i dont want to date all these girls! let me hang out with other girls please... this is the biggest example of romance making all these games so much worse. like. what the hell. (aigis is like. the only good female social link (that i finished) (maybe bc she isnt very much a girl))

another mechanic i hate: NOT BEING ABLE TO PICK INHERITED SKILLS. is every ps2 era megaten game like this? i love love love 'sona/demon fusion but it is so much harder to make stupid crazy builds when u have to reroll over and over again. literally just a timewaster. what could have been...i cant believe my lucifer is still weak to ice. WHO USES PEESONAS WITH WEAKNESSES. IN THIS DAY AND AGE????

the extremely strange continuity with 1&2 is fucked up to like. nickelodean sitcom cinematic universe levels. u know.

im still fixated on 5.i make that very obvious. and i do like 5's overall story better (royal being a very big portion of that). but GOD i love love love the theming of this game.

those strega guys r definitely fucking. i literally do not care about them but thats kind of just a fact.

the concept of artificial personas (that kill you) (that u have to take meds for which eventually kill you) REALLYYYY fucks me up what a BANGER CONCEPT. JESUS! JESUS. gg kirijo group.

chidori...(wretched)

akinari... (very wretched)

i dont think i have a favorite. tbh. like i like mitsuru because i like women and shes hot but character wise shes not actually super my type. i like ken because hes the most fucked up ten year old in the world (justice bias). aigis is crazycrazy theres stuff to be said abt her (characters who give metatron bias). yukari is a mean girl and i like that about her (lovers bias). ryoji doesnt have that much screentime for obv reasons but thematically hes cool (guys who beg u to kill them bias). i like the protag a lot (protag bias). yeah

OBVIOUSLY i knew we were gonna die. and when. and where. and how. but :( head in aigis's lap, brushing away her robo-tears... didnt cry but wow this game.

joshua peefee christ figure moment

kimi no kioku is the best 'sona song. period. nyx (avatar)&nyx (nyx) songs go hard too. but man!!!! kimi no kioku!! LOVE how its kind of a motif in so many other parts of the soundtrack, especially near the end...a unifying melody, an overarching theme.

forever from now ill prolly watch the movies just so i can make an amv. this game needs an amv. and unlike pee5 the animovies should cover most of what id want to say in one!

after the answer, ill finally be able to finish eternalpun. im so sorry ive neglected you guys, my friends...my pee2s....

kimi wo i will never leave you <3

#bobtalk #good game #if i missed a censor and u see this in the tags. sorry. lol #at least its so long nobody will ever read this. except me. because i know

[cookiewrites]

Hii im just spilling thoughts rn HAHA.

sooo you and changbin had a thing going on when u were younger,u stayed friends w his whole group but just kinda had beef w bin after it,n yall always bark at each other and just rlly are like mean to each other but behind closed doors yall do the nastyyyy

hate sex? yes please.

i can totally see this with binnie though, he seems like the kind of guy to hold one hell of a grudge - and even if you hadn't done anything wrong he'd happily blame you for it because it's easier than admitting how much he wants you. it may have been a legitimate reason to break things off when you were younger but the idea of you seeing other people makes him sick; you were his and will always be his.

but the poor man cannot communicate this for the life of him, so he settles for shoving you into cupboards at parties to make you choke on his cock, and calling you at three am to belittle you as he makes you cum on his fingers so many times you cry; because no one can make you feel like he does.

for binnie it isn't hate, per say, it's this primal need to show you no one will ever replace him and how dare you believe otherwise; so i see overstimulation far more than edging, and he wants to see you cry, he wants to see you sorry. and for you; well it's just sex, the best sex you've ever had.

sorry I've been absent and this has took me so long, i haven't been doing great, but this is my longest piece to date so please enjoy <3

say sorry

wc: 2.7k

cw: hard dom!changbin x afab sub!reader, unprotected sex (don't do this), slapping (face and genitals), dirty talk, degradation, little bit of dumbification, names (sir for changbin, princess, slut, bitch and hole for reader), dacryphilia, no aftercare described, no explicit consent, alcohol mentioned, sex in a strangers bedroom, chan is there and talked about, idk it just feels very intense so heads up

depending on who you asked, various people could be blamed for the fact your red wine ended up all over changbin's white shirt, staining him with you.

changbin would swear it was your fault, your glass, your attitude, your fault. you walked over and had so confidently dangled it in front of him, threatening him with it as you screamed at him.

'i don't fucking belong to you seo changbin'

'how fucking dare you tell anyone any fucking different'

'just because your pathetic ass can't get laid doesn't mean you can stop me from getting some'

'you obsessed possessive pathetic excuse for a man'

and next thing everyone knows his white shirt is now red.

you would blame changbin, you never would have wasted a whole glass of wine on ruining his pale attempt at a party outfit if he hadn't told chan you were unavailable. you were plenty available and were extremely interested in being available to him; going home with someone was the only reason you came tonight. knowing the charming australian would be there, and changbin had gone out of his way to tell your mutual friend that you were seeing someone. a fucking lie.

chan, of course, would blame himself. he should never have told you what changbin said when you approached him and asked why he was ignoring you; he knew it was a bad idea to mention his friend around you. but here he was, watching you pour your drink all over changbin and suddenly wanting to leave.

'what the fuck y/n?!'

'you're so desperate you're screaming about it to the party, such a classy act'

'shut up changbin! this is your fault, you selfish asshole, i can't believe you-'

your shouting continues, the pointing and gesturing fading into the background as changbin looks down at his top; he could see how ruined it was, the dampness making the fabric stick to his skin, it felt disgusting. and it was your fault. before he realises it, he's grabbing your wrist, fingertips wrapping themselves around and holding on far tighter than he has any reason to as he drags you into the first empty bedroom he can find; slamming the door shut.

'what the actual fuck was that y/n?'

'i could ask you the same thing changbin i was really looking forward to-'

looking down at the connection between you, the skin of skin so electric it almost shocks you, this always happens when the two of you touch, almost setting you on fire, the spark is so strong; fueled with mutual desire and disgust.

'-forward to what, princess? forward to chan trying to work out how the fuck to make you cum he has no idea what he's-'

'that's your fucking friend you're talking about changbin, you dick'

'and for fucks sake let me go'

and he does, throwing your hand down as he storms towards whoever's wardrobe it was, looking for something to replace his ruined t-shirt with.

'i know he's my friend, and that's how i know he wouldn't be able to please you'

'i would have liked to find out for myself'

'you'd like a shit fuck?'

'shut up changbin'

slowly the shouting between you becomes a rumble, an annoyed diffused conversation as the two of you calm down. peeling the wet t-shirt off his chest, he used the dry sections to wipe the remaining wine off himself, laughing.

'if you are so desperate you can just come and beg me to touch you, i always make you feel good'

'beg for you? i'd rather go home to my vibrator than do that'

'and yet you're staring at me like you want to eat me.'

you were, but you'd never admit it, instead, you scoff at the idea, turning to leave.

'come here and clean it up.'

clear and distinct, changbin wasn't messing around. this wasn't a question or a request, it was an order, said in the exact same voice that he used when he would instruct you to cum. the exact voice that made the submissive part of your brain scream at you to obey, to go clean him up.

'that sounds like your problem binnie.'

he was walking towards you now, throwing the ruined t-shirt on the stranger's bed, until he was face to face with you.

'stop being a fucking brat and clean me up.'

'no.'

and suddenly the hand that was harshly holding your wrist minutes before was grabbing your hair, pulling your head to the left, a loud whine leaving your lips before you can even think to stop it. leaning forward changbin now whispered in your ear, hot breath fanning down your neck in a way that set you alight.

'now, princess, i am going to tell you one more time what i want you to do, and you're going to be a good fucking slut and do it, okay?'

silence, and another hard tug on your hair, prompted you to respond with a weak;

'yes sir.'

'oh, so you can behave?'

'knees. now.'

he said before shoving you down, forcing your knees to slam onto the floor, cushioned only slightly by the carpet. you look up at him and you already look ruined; cheeks flushed bright red from a mix of alcohol and arousal, makeup smudged slightly from a night dancing, hair a mess from changbin's forcefulness. however, changbin plans to ruin you so completely you barely recognise yourself when he's done.

'you always look your prettiest on your knees for me, princess'

'always ready to be a useful fucking hole for me'

'so what you're going to do is let me use that mouth of yours, make it good for something more than begging chan to pity-fuck you, and if you're a good toy i might let you cum, only if you're really really sorry for being such a bitch'

'so, princess, i'd start apologising now'

'say fucking sorry'

as he started to undo his jeans, pushing them and his boxers down you whisper out a 'sorry' that you yourself could barely hear.

'oh no, princess, i need you to say sorry.'

'actually, i need you to scream it, let this whole party know how fucking sorry you are for misbehaving'

'that's the closest chan will get to fucking you, hearing you scream how sorry you are through the walls' he laughs.

'sorry changbin' you say again, a bit louder, the embarrassment making the red flush further down your chest. but it isn't that that makes you gasp. what makes you gasp is the clear, loud, firm slap across your cheek; changbin smiling wildly as he does it.

'again.'

'sorry changbin'. another slap, this time on the other cheek, at least he was being merciful enough to spread them out. the pain making tears spring to your eyes, threatening to fall.

'again, fucking mean it.'

'sorry changbin!' louder this time, a cry. another slap. back on the first cheek again, and it really hurt this time. you hang your head, partly in shame, and partly to hide from his assault; which he won't let you do, of course, pulling your head back to make you look at him again. tears now running down your cheeks, soothing the now sore skin. changbin always found your wet glassy eyes so pretty.

'and what are you sorry for, princess?'

's-sorry for a-asking c-chan to sleep with m-me'

'not bad, but not quite what i wanted. say sorry for being a slut, nice and loud for me y/n'

's-sorry f-for being a s...slut s-sir' you say, far louder than you would ever hope to say those words, but you were hoping it was loud enough for changbin to take pity on you. the laugh you hear above you is cold, and embarrassing, making you even wetter than you already were.

'god, you're so fucking desperate, barely need to do anything to make you obey, such a fucking whore, thinking just with that hole of yours.'

the spit that lands on your face shocks you, but you're almost grateful for it, the way it cools your cheeks is almost nice.

'open up princess, be a good hole for me'

and you do, and you are, letting him assault your throat, immediately fucking himself in your mouth slightly too deep; just to make you choke on him out of spite; your gagging and gasping making him smile. seeing you punished for trying to whore yourself out was always satisfying.

but soon it wasn't. as pretty as you looked crying your mascara off, eyes rolled back into your head, as he mindlessly fucked himself into your throat, he wanted more. he wanted to remind you why you'll always come back to him. so he pulls out, letting go of his hold on your hair and letting you catch his breath.

'where are your manners princess? did they disappear when you chose to play the slut?'

't-thank y-you sir' you managed to say, although far raspier than before, changbin's use of your throat clear on your voice - and fuck does it turn you both on. changbin ignores you for a moment, stripping himself of his remaining clothes and sitting on the edge of the bed, looking down at you; noting how you had not dared to move.

'behaving now i see' he says, wrapping his hand around his cock to lazily touch himself.

'get up off the ground, you're not a fucking dog' although he catches himself, laughing, before adding; 'you sure are a bitch though y/n'

'strip for me.'

you did, of course, peeling the skin-tight dress off to reveal the lack of any underwear; partly because of the dress you were wearing, but also because you didn't plan on needing any. what you thought was once a smart idea, was now another reason for changbin to continue this punishment; sitting silently staring at your naked body for just long enough to make you a little uncomfortable before saying something;

'couldn't even get dressed properly i see'

'you'd have let anyone at this party use you, bend you over and fuck you'

'apologise again, you sound so good begging for forgiveness'

'sorry for being a slut sir, please, i'm sorry'

he hums, continuing to stare, watching the way your arms tense as you tried to ignore the urge to cover yourself; knowing that would only anger him more and whilst changbin was so hot when he was mad, you needed to behave if you wanted any help with the throbbing between your legs.

'on all fours on the bed, princess' he instructs as he moves out of the way, allowing you to crawl your way on top of the covers. he marvelled at your obedience, particularly enjoying the way your arms shook from anticipation as well as holding yourself up.

what made you shake more though was the sudden feeling of his palm on your ass cheek, making you whine loud in the room. changbin stood back, enjoying the blooming red handprint mark you, knowing how sore that skin will be. he ignored the temptation to run his hand over the mark, soothing it.

this time he didn't even need to prompt your apology, as you sob out another beg for forgiveness. he smirked as he heard your voice, broken with hiccups, as he realises how far gone you are already.

silently he matches the handprint onto your other asscheek, seeing the way the force threw you forward and was followed by another apology as you steadied yourself, bracing for another impact.

instead, changbin surprised you, as he always tended to, and climbed behind you on the bed. lining himself up he rubbed the head of his cock up and down your cunt, spreading your wetness around as you whined for more.

'f-fuck me s-sir please!'

'princess i already know how desperate you are, since you wanted to whore yourself out to the whole party, so don't worry, i'll get there. i'm just enjoying myself.'

'...please' you whisper, unable to hold your needs inside you for a moment longer, not when he was this close. your inability to follow instructions the final straw of changbin as his anger bubbled up to the surface again.

'god do you ever shut up?! maybe i should go back to shutting that mouth up and leave you making a fucking puddle on the bed!'

's-sorry sir! sorry! sorry... please! sorry!'

and suddenly changbin fully seated himself into you, the stretch simultaneously delicious and painful. pulling himself fully out before bottoming out again, over and over, changbin's pace was nothing short of punishing.

'shut. up.'

'fuck y/n you're so fucking annoying'

'only good for this pussy of yours, i swear, just a fucking hole - ugh'

he continues to berate you as he filled you over and over again. if changbin was anything, he was a good fuck - always reaching all these perfect places inside of you, places you could never reach alone, or with anyone else. it's that, mostly, that always made you come back to him. no matter what he said to you, he always felt too good to forget. and as harsh as he was, once he'd broken you, he'd stay for as long as it took to put you back together again before you'd make him leave - something he never wanted to do.

'chan could never fuck you like this, ugh, could never fill you up'

'see how dumb you get for my cock, princess, only. ever. mine.'

'fuck, turn over, want to see that pretty fucking face'

you did just that, shakily moving and then sinking into the mattress, your mind floating away as you spread yourself for changbin to seat himself back inside you. his arms, veins on display, as he held himself up, hovering over you as he restarted his brutal pace.

'you're such a fucking mess princess, won't be able to walk out of this party without people knowing what a fucking slut you are'

'my pretty little slut'

'fuck - say sorry, you're so pathetic when you're apologising'

this last order was accompanied by a firm slap to your exposed clit, sending a pleasurably painful electric shock fire through your body. the way you screamed in response made changbin's cock twitch inside you, making the scream turn into the loud moan, which in turn became repeated apologies;

'sorry sir, f-for being a s-slut sir, s-sorry sir, sorry, for b-being b-bad, i'm s-so s-sorry...'

grabbing your chin with slightly too much force, changbin saw a new wave of hot tears break their way out of your eyes as you continued to beg for forgiveness and he realised it was time to let you cum, he was close enough to finish as soon as he entered you, he'd been holding on this whole time. this didn't mean he wasn't pissed anymore but he felt like you really were sorry for trying to share what was his; has always been and always will be.

'if you can cum for me princess, i'll forgive you'

'show me who this pretty cunt belongs to'

'y-you changbin! y-you!'

'yeah, princess, it's all mine, now cum for me'

you wanted to, so badly, but changbin just felt so far away, so you reached up and grabbed him by the hair forcing your lips to connect for the first time tonight. it was far too much teeth and tongue and aggression but it was what pleasure was between the two of you; biting and venomous and angry. it was exactly what you needed to start spasming around his cock, moaning his name between your attempts of kisses and somehow trying to catch your breath.

he pulled out and soon followed, cumming over your stomach as the once bitter kiss began to turn sweet - changbin always struggled to keep ahold of his anger once he finished. suddenly wanting to bundle you up and relax.

pulling back from the kiss he looked down at you, makeup nowhere near where it was meant to be, fresh tears threatening to fall over flushed red cheeks. and he thought you looked beautiful.

's-sorry b-binnie, s-sorry'

'shush princess, i forgive you, i'm always happy to remind you that you're all mine'

'y-yours.'

#stray kids smut #stray kids #skz imagines #skz smut #skz x reader #skz hard thoughts #stray kids drabble #changbin #seo changbin #changbin x reader #skz changbin #stray kids changbin

[hello-yue-here]

thank you @chiptrillino for tagging me in a wip game!

not quite sure what the rules are but based off of your AMAZING POST OF ART WIPS (check it out here yall chip is so talented) ive decided to just share some parts of my writing wips that i rlly like because i cannot draw whatsoever lmao

enjoy some lil snippets hehe

from heart don't stand a chance:

"Zuko couldn’t get over her eyes. She was looking past the camera towards the man who took it. Zuko could see clear as day the love she held for Sokka in her gaze.

It was a perfect moment that Sokka had captured. No wonder held it with him at all times. If someone had looked at Zuko like that, he’d never want to see anything again.

As he took in the photograph, Sokka sat next to him in silence. His hand was clutching the ring around his neck again in his fist, pressing it close to his mouth as he peered over Zuko’s shoulder to look. Zuko turned to him to compliment the picture and saw a sad fondness lingering in his eyes."

this is a scene i wrote a while ago thats gonna appear in a much later chapter. but yeah. more yue angst for you guys im so sorry.

from i love you (and that's all i really know):

"Mister Sokka," a little voice wishpered in his ear as he felt tiny pokes on his cheek, "Wake up Mister Sokka."

"Good morning to you too Izumi," Sokka responded wearily as he rubbed the sleep from his eyes. He looked towards the little girl who was standing on her tippy toes to see over the edge of the bed and poke his face until he rose.

She smiled at him once she realized he was awake.

"Can we have pancakes?" She asked shyly, hiding her mouth just below the edge of the bed as she looked up at him with hopeful eyes.

That look was going to be dangerous for him later on, he could aready tell.

"Sure thing, Izumi, just let me sleep for five more minutes, mkay?" He asked as he shut his eyes again. He was exhausted from last nights events, and the sun had barely risen. How did Zuko do this?"

this is a scene from the next chapter of this fic. so much sokka and izumi bonding you guys are gonna explode hehehe.

from cherry (the mailee fic i wont shut up about that is now a whopping 19 pages):

"Mai never had to guess with Ty Lee. She always knew when Ty Lee was happy about something because she would use an obnoxious amount of exclamation points. She would send gifs of people or cartoons making outlandish expressions whenever she wanted to react to Mai’s text with a specific facial expression. Sometimes Ty Lee would even send voice memos whenever her thoughts became too long, or she got too excited about a story that her fingers couldn’t type as fast as she could speak."

hehe i love mailee.

from yours (the mailee sorority fic that i promise i did not forget about):

"Mai lifted her head off the pillow again and met Zuko’s eyes. She studied his impassive expression, trying to figure out if he was joking or not. He did seem like he missed Mai and Azula, so maybe he did really just want to catch up with them.

But Mai wasn’t going to give up a golden opportunity like this.

“Tell us everything about the boy toy as well and you’ve got yourself a deal,” Mai said.

Zuko rolled his eyes and sighed, “Ugh, fine. And his name is Sokka by the way.”

“Nuance. You also have to wake up Azula.”

“No chance in hell,” Zuko scoffed, “You’re the roommate and her fellow ‘pong princess,’ wake-up duty is all yours.”

“If she murders me, it’s your fault. She’s a bitch when she’s hungover.”

“Whatever you say, Mai,” Zuko grinned before returning back to his phone."

i have decided that zuko is a little shit for this fic and no one can stop me.

from Where'd All the Time Go? (the yuekka fic that i have severe writers block with that i also promis i have not forgotten about):

"“Sokka I really think you need to take a moment and-”

“I am fine Aang, I don’t have time for a feelings talk right now. Right now I need to find the fucking chief of this damn place.” His words came out harsher than he meant, but he didn’t have the time to dwell on that.

Before Sokka could run off again to continue his search, a hand grabbed his arm. One of Arnook’s advisors, Malina, had started dragging him towards the podium.

“Do you not realize how late you are for this Sokka? The ceremony was supposed to begin with your speech nearly an hour ago-” she hissed at him as she pulled him along through the crowd.

“Malina I’m sorry but I really need to speak with Arnook it is urgent-”

“This damn speech of yours is what’s urgent right now Sokka, you can speak with Arnook later but the guests are getting antsy so you need to give your speech right. Now.”

“But-”

“Now.”

Maline shoved Sokka towards the podium and suddenly all eyes were on him. Every guest in attendance had their focus solely on Sokka."

homeboy is stressed in this scene. things are slowly going to shit in this chapter. i promise i will update this before the end of the year. i swear. im so sorry.

from a currently untitled jetko/sukka boiling rock fic:

"“Oh good, you survived after all,” She said in a mocking tone.

Jet didn’t answer. He knew anything he said would be used against him. He didn’t know where he was. He didn’t know what was happening. But he would be damned if he showed that weakness in front of the fire nation.

“I was told you were more talkative than this,” the girl mused. There was something familiar about her, “my informants were very detailed when discussing your little teashop romance.”

I knew it. Jet snarled in his mind, That bastard betrayed me."

i want this fic to be a little darker but idk how good i am at writing darker fics because i love fluff and humor too much. this could be good angst practice for me.

from a toph and sokka fic that i wrote a while back to help me cope w some shit that i dont know if ill ever post:

"“Sokka? Are you still there?” Toph asked, the slightest hint of concern began to slip into their voice

“Tell me a story,” he was trembling. Despite all of his efforts to sound calm, he knew his voice came out trembling and scratchy and pathetic-

“Is everything okay? You don’t sound too hot,” Toph said through the phone.

Breathe, Sokka, breathe. You don’t want them to be worried, you just need to calm down.

“Please, Toph, I just,” he said through shaky breaths that weren’t nearly deep enough for him to be getting enough oxygen, “I just need a distraction. I just need to hear your voice okay?”"

nonbinary toph anyone?

from a 10 things i hate about you kataang and zukka au:

"“What? Something on my face?” the guy asked deadpanned. He rubbed at his scar as if he were wiping off a smudge of mustard, and Aang’s face went pale.

“Stop scaring the sophomores Zuko, this one’s new. He won’t get your… humor… just yet,” Ms. Wu said as she waved Aang off again.

“I’m hurt that you’d imply I’m not funny, Wu. I’m hilarious,” the senior, Zuko, said as he walked past Aang.

Aang let out a sigh of relief knowing that this Zuko guy didn’t seem all that offended by his awkwardness, and darted out of the room."

zuko is a little shit part 2. the amount of sarcasm i have dripping off of heath ledger zuko is glorious. let zuko be a little shit. i havent added to this in months but when i finish some of my other wips i cant wait to get back to this.

i have more wips and drafts saved but none of them have anything juicy or funny or interesting yet because all of them are like less than three pages so far

but yeah, heres a good chunk of sneaky peakys from my wips!

I hope you liked them!

anyone who wants to do this can totally go for it. imma tag @ambykinns @lumities and @flowers-inthepieshop (only if you all want too!!) because this was fun :)

#liv talks about writing #liv talks ab fanfic #liv wips #liv fics #i love sharing my writing #especially when i have a bit of a block going on with well.... every fic #maybe this will give me inspiration!!! #i love sharing my writing im proud of these little snippets and i hope you all likes them as well :) #atla #avatar: the last airbender

[whumpasaurus101]

Not Quite There

i uh........ i cant rlly explain myself for this one tbh.... UDGHD so umm... content? *nervous laughs* also im sorry its short. but again... content? ehhee.

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CW: Whumpee being dissociative / Trauma / Flashbacks

Jack had noticed how there was something off with Asher for most of the day. He hadn’t seemed.. present. At each time he had, Asher would just stare off into space, and even when Jack tried to make conversation, he noticed how Asher’s eyes would suddenly unfocus and his thoughts would be anywhere but where they needed to be.

Jack didn’t think anything of it until suddenly Asher stiffened beside him with a small gasp. “Ash?” Asher shook his head quickly. Jack got to his feet and knelt right in between Asher’s legs, “Asher, hey! It’s okay! Where are you right now?”

Asher took gasps of air, continuously shaking his head and muttering nonsense under his breath. Jack gently rubbed his finger against Asher’s cheek, “Ash, you feel me? I'm right here okay? I'm right here and I'm not leaving. I need you to try and take some big breaths for me. C'mon Asher, please!” Jack whimpered at the end of his sentence but he chose to ignore that.

Asher wasn't here. Jack knew full well where he was.

---

He could hear the cries of Dylan outside the room. Danny looked at Aiden with pleading eyes, “P-Please, you don't have to do this.” Aiden looked at Danny and started laughing, “Oh you're funny. One minute you're defending your friend and next you're practically begging me not to hurt you! Tell me this Danny boy, who’s gonna get it, you or Dylan?”

Danny bit his lip, he had taken punishments for so many people by now. His back was a ruined mess and put Danny through hell even if he moved the slightest bit.

“M-me,” He sighed. Aiden chuckled, “That’s what I thought.” A shiver was sent down Danny’s spine as Aiden’s words echoed through his head. He squeezed his eyes shut.

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Once he opened them he was in a cell. It was so familiar and when he saw Mason a sudden coldness washed over him. Asher almost fell back from shock, shaking his head, “Y-You're not real!”

“How rude of you to say that! You collapse out of nowhere, I care for you and now you're saying I'm not real?!” Asher couldn't form words, “I- bu- I-”

“I- Y- w- Speak up!” Asher flinched, shutting his mouth and burying his head between his knees, hugging his legs, “I'm sorry, I'm sorry,” He muttered over and over again. “You're so weak! Just look at you!!! Absolutely pathetic!”

Asher knew he was. He really did. He thought he had actually left the institute. How could he have been so dumb?

---

Jack was crying as he shook Asher’s arm, frantically looking for a response. “Asher please, I'm begging you! C’mon!! Asher, it's me, Jack! I'm right beside you, okay?! It's uh- shit- it's- you're sa- you're with me!”

“Asher, come on!!” Who could he hear? What were they doing at the institute and- no. No, he wasn't at the institute, that was Jack!

Jack kept rubbing Asher’s cheek with his pointer finger, “Baby, focus on my touch, it's alright!”

Asher suddenly sat up with a gasp, almost headbutting Jack who quickly ducked just in time. “A-Ash?” Asher took a while, slowly sitting back down, eyes wide and breath uneven. He breathed fast through his nose and then started panting.

Jack slowly sat back down beside Asher, giving him some space. “I'm um… I'm sorry…I uh-” “Asher, you don't need to apologize, serious-”

“No. I'm sorry, I'm fine.”

“Can I do anything? Do you want to-”

Asher stood up, “I think I'm just um… I'm going to take a nap I uh- I just need to lie down for a… a wh-while.”

When Asher started to wobble slightly, Jack rushed to help him, only for Asher to push him away, “Get off, Mason!” He cried. Jack stumbled back, confused. Mason?

Asher’s face dropped and instant tears fell once again, “I'm so sorry!” He ran off into his bedroom of Rodger’s house and slammed it behind him. Jack just gulped and slowly sat down on the couch. Just give him some space. He just needs some time and he will be fine…. That's it…

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if you wanna be added or removed just lmk!! And thank you so much for reading!!! <3 ☜(⌒▽⌒)☞

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[wish-spinner]

For the FE ask game, what about 10, 14, 20 and 28?

okay wow this got stupid long but!!!!!!

10) A character you find underrated?

there are LOTS of characters i feel dont get enough attention so im just gonna list a few ghfdgh:

- edain (shes so nice and shes the turbomom and she gets NO attention in return)

- oifey (hes so good im sorry hes not as sexy as shannan)

- igrene (im fake and havent played fe6 but shes got such a good sad story and ppl only seem to care abt her for Boob and its sad)

- tauroneo (lowkey incredibly interesting. what if duessel was a pathetic divorced piece of shit dad)

- muarim (THE FANDOM SLEEPS ON HIM SO HARD. I ADORE THIS MAN LIKE LITERALLY EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM. his battle convos in por where hes actually fucking horrified abt mist and rolf being deployed. get em)

- rhys ([137594765 pages of in-depth character analysis] hes gay and sad lol)

- rolf (When I Write My Rolf Essay. Then You Will See)

- laurent (this goes for all the awakening kids but i like seeing how their traits + differences from their parents are related to the situation theyve been growing up in and i think laurents more concerned responsible approach to the Miriel Stuff rlly reflects that. also desert angst has had me fucked up since middle school and i think he deserves more attention).

also all the goldoans but u couldve guessed that already!

14) Something you really don't like about this series?

pretty consistently piss-poor treatment of major female characters as like... setpieces for manpain is. pretty bad tbh. like?? characters like deirdre and ninian and emmeryn and rinea and celica (in sov especially) deserve SO much more autonomy and attention outside of how sad some blue haired guy was abt them dying. obv some are better than others but ive rlly got my fingers crossed for fe4 remake that gives deirdre more,,,, just More. she needs development. ALSO [SHAKES KUSAKIHARA] MAKE YOUR FEMALE COSTUME DESIGNS NOT GROSS CHALLENGE. NOBODY SHOULD RIDE A HORSE WITH THEIR ASS HANGING OUT

20) Least favorite (canon) pairing?

WOW okay there are..... definitely a lot of ships i Do not like. i think a lot of the possible ships in some games are just plain BAD like. nobody should be dating nowi or donnel or dew or anyone who is very clearly like. a kid? ADDITIONALLY student x faculty member in 3h will always feel Bad to me. but in terms of like.... ones that are canon/pseudo-canon?? a lot of them are kinda boring + not my fav, like chrom/sumia or alm/celica or lewyn/erinys but like. the only game that has outright Rancid canonesque ships is rd imo. micaiah/sothe and jill/haar are actually viscerally awful. boyd/mist is Not that bad but it still feels,,, iffy. i did actually make a tellius ship tiermaker so if anyones curious i can do it and post it???

28) Because this fandom doesn't see enough discourse [citation needed], post a spicy hot take here🔥🔥

ik lots of ppl feel this way but the intensification of focus on the avatar characters in fe games is such a HUGE detriment to depth of story and character development. theres such a need to please and appease the player via the avatars interactions and influence over other characters and it feels so cheap and unrealistic. why would u being a good teacher make ashe want to stay loyal to the institution that killed his brother and dad, for instance?? it wouldnt but itd be inconvenient if for the player if he decided to switch sides. remember in por when shinon and gatrie left bc they decided they just Did Not Fucking Like the thought of working under ike. that was good. that was great. the goal of character writing is to make characters feel like people with motivations and ideals and the way fe games are more and more revolving around You is taking away from it imo

#ask #THANK YOU MUCHLY!!!!! #boy can i talk

[salty-selfships]

"I'll just stay here with you, i wouldn't want you to feel lonely." [One Piece OC]

Feeling like shit, failed 5 of my exams ahdgsbgs. it’s been a really tough month. Im rlly stressed out about school and other personal stuff, and i wrote this to make myself feel better yosh ahdusja. Ig it’s kinda a hurt comfort kinda one shot but eeehh. Please do enjoy tho- 🙏.

"Shut up, please, stop stop stop stop-" Fera sobbed as they banged their head on the wooden floorboards of their small room. The sounds and voices in their head were deafening. It was as if they were surrounded by crowds of people in their small room. Their body was shaking, their face was covered with tears, and their hair was a complete mess.

Fera tried to keep quiet while sobbing and holding back their screams. But the rustling and banging coming from their room were very noticeable. They were throwing things at the walls of their room. They threw their sketchbook, shoes, canvases, literally anything that was in reach for them in their room at the wooded walls. They felt dumb, useless, and just completely pathetic. The last few fights the crew had they never managed to help out anyone. They just kept failing and falling behind. They keep feeling as if they were ten steps behind everyone. Though, it wasn't just that feeling making them explode like this; They just had so much pent-up anger, sadness, and stress, now they're just fully breaking down.

Usopp who just wanted to pass by, heard the loud rustling coming from his partner's room. He frowned in worry for Fera; he rushed over to their door and knocked gently on Fera's door, trying not to alarm them "Hey, Fera, are... you okay?" He asked worriedly with a soft voice through the door. Fera's breath hitched, their neck snapped their head back up from the ground to face the door "S-shit! Was I being too loud? Damnit!" They thought as they tried to catch their breath again.

They don't know how all the overwhelming voices suddenly stopped when they realized someone knocked on their door. Fera crawled around the room, trying to find their glasses that they threw off their face earlier. "Fera, is everything okay? Can I come in?" Usopp said from the other side of the door in concern.

Fera put their glasses back on with shaky hands and tried to catch their breath. Their body was still trembling intensely, and their throat still hurt, but they managed to croak out the word "no?" In a questioning tone, not knowing if they were ok themself. Usopp's face contorted more in worry, he told Fera he was gonna come into the room and slowly opens the door to their room.

Fera was curled up on a beanbag in their room hiding their face behind their legs. Usopp quickly tried to make his way to Fera, while trying not to step on the stuff that we're thrown around by Fera that was now all over the ground. He sat down in front of Fera looking at them with a frown on his face "Hey, what happened? You okay lovebug?" He asked tentatively while placing his hands on Fera's shoulders and giving them comforting rubs. Fera shuddered at his gesture, making Usopp pull his hand back hastily "I-I'm sorry, did you not want me to do that?" He asked. Fera slowly pried their head up from their legs and shook their head "No, it's ok... can you hug me?." They croaked out. Usopp chuckled and gave them a warm smile before pulling them into a hug.

"Do you wanna...talk about it?" Usopp said while rubbing circles around Fera's back, trying to calm them down. Fera's body was still trembling, but they managed to hug Usopp back with their shaky arms "I... Don't know where to start..." Fera said weakly. Usopp felt bad for them, he nuzzled his head against their's "It's okay... you can take your time if you wanna talk about it." He said trying to comfort Fera.

Fera sobbed and buried their face in Usopp's shoulder, hugging him tighter with trembling hands. Usopp frowned and put his hand on their head and patted it to comfort them "Hey, c'mon on sweetie, it's okay...it's gonna be okay." He said in a comforting tone. Fera sniffled back their tears as they tried to pry off their face from Usopp's shoulder. They faced Usopp with tears still streaming down their face "why...are you so nice to me?" They croaked out as they let their hands go from Usopp's body. Usopp gave them a reassuring smile and puts his hands on their face. He takes off their glasses while mumbling "let's take these off" quietly and wiped the tears from Fera's face. Fera melted into his touch almost immediately, their face still covered with distress and worry as they shut their eyes closed. "I would say the same thing to you, lovebug. what's wrong, Fera?" Usopp asked as one of his hands moved from their face to hold Fera's hand.

Fera sighed, their body calming down more than before. They gripped onto Usopp's hand as they opened their eyes again looking at Usopp who was giving them a comforting smile. "I feel... Like I'm holding everyone...back-" they said in a defeated tone as their breath hitched in their throat. Usopp frowned "Fera, why would you say that?." Usopp asked as he rubbed his thumb on their face in a reassuring manner. Fera's face contorted in guilt as tears started forming in their eyes again.

Fera managed to sob out how they felt that they were worthless and they were scared that everyone would realize that they didn't deserve to sail with the crew. They sobbed out how they felt helpless, and how much they felt like a failure and a screw-up. They explained how the voices in their head get louder and louder every day. They felt so overwhelmed and just weak. They just wanted everything to stop, they just wanted everything to end, they just wanted to cease themself from existence. They were tired.

Usopp listened to them tentatively. He frowned as he looked at his partner who was breaking down in front of him because they felt worthless. He understands them completely, he's felt that way many times as well. He practically started tearing up too. He hugged them tightly and kissed the top of their head "It's ok lovebug, you're not a burden to anyone here. All right? I'm right here, it's gonna be okay." He said reassuringly as he hugged Fera tightly.

"Please...don't leave me." Fera sobbed as their gripped onto Usopp's shirt. Usopp's eyes widened "Of course! I'll never leave you behind, Fera. I wouldn't wanna lose you either lovebug." He said slightly louder than how he was talking earlier while wrapping his arms tighter around his partner. Fera let out a chuckle and nuzzled into Usopp's shoulder. Usopp sighed and pulled away from them to look them in the face. Usopp kissed their forehead, trying to reassure them. Fera managed to smile at him and sniffed back their tears. "Thanks... for listening to me. And I'm sorry that you had to deal with this, Usopp." They said while squeezing his hands.

Usopp shook his head and gave them a warm smile "It's fine, Fera. I'm just glad you managed to talk about it." he said kissing their forehead again. 

Usopp moved over onto the bean bag with Fera and hugged them. Fera looked over at him and tilted their head in confusion. "I'll just stay here with you, I wouldn't want you to feel lonely." He said as he nuzzled his head with Fera's. Fera chuckled at his gesture and hugged him back "Thanks... I love you, bug-eyes." They said melting into his touch. Usopp laughed at Fera and scooted closer to them "I love you too, lovebug."

#self shipping #self ship community #f/o #oc x canon #one piece #one piece oc #weird sticks and cool rocks #usopp

[trashlord-007]

What is strangers from hell? I’ve seen it a lot on your blog and it looks rlly interesting 👀

Ohohohoho it's a treat, lemme tell you.

Strangers From Hell (sometimes known as Hell Is Other People, or by its Korean title 타인은 지옥이다) is a Korean drama starring national treasure Lee Dong Wook and ZE:A member qtpie Im Siwan. The drama is actually based off a Korean Webtoon of the same name. They did take some liberties and change some of the characters and plot, though, so it'll still be worth the read (once it has an English translation).

The story focuses on Yoon Jong Woo (Im Siwan) as he tries to adjust to life in Seoul. An old friend offers him an internship, allowing him to move to the city. This brings him closer to his girlfriend as well. Unfortunately, Seoul is expensive so he has to look for an affordable goshiwon (고시원, where you rent a very very small room for a few weeks or months) within his budget... which leaves him with very few options. This brings us to the main setting of the story.

The Eden Goshiwon is the one he decides to stay in. It's quite rundown and isn't ideal and the other tenants are... quirky, but he just needs to stay long enough to save some money. He's planning on just a few months but... plans usually have a way of falling through.

It is inside this Goshiwon that we meet the a fair portion of the cast, including the mysterious Seo Moon Jo (Lee Dong Wook) who is a little too fond of the word 자기 (jagi; darling, honey, dear) and the amicable but pushy landlady Eom Bok Soon (Lee Jeong Eun, who you may remember as the original housekeeper in Parasite). It is also due to the actions of certain tenants that we get to meet So Jung Hwa (Ahn Eun Jin), a perceptive and determined police officer.

I won't say much else because, like, spoilers but every episode escalates. There's never a lull in the content. There's never a boring moment. You're left on the edge of your seat questioning just how much more one can take before they snap, and how bloody it will be once they do.

Every character has a story to tell and has their own motives, whether good or bad. Most characters are looking out for themselves and no one else. It provides an interesting social commentary and a look inside the minds of several mentally imbalanced individuals. It is due to this mindset of looking out for only one's own interests that pushes the story to greater and more terrifying heights with every episode.

There's also a decent amount of violence, so swerve on it if you're not into that.

Lee Dong Wook really brought his A game with this one (but when doesn't he, amirite?). I believe it was one of the first roles he's played that possessed this rather creepy and ominous vibe, and he absolutely nailed it. While he starts as a charismatic dentist who is well-liked and respectable, you'll soon find yourself on a rollercoaster of twists and turns as his true character is revealed.

Honestly, I could say the same for Im Siwan. There's much more hidden beneath his soft, almost pathetic exterior. It truly is a testament on how much any one person can take before they decide to take action. Learning about Jong Woo's past truly opens your eyes to the possibilities of his future, and trust me when I say you won't be disappointed with his character development.

This is one of the few shows, Korean or not, that I would recommended wholeheartedly. It's a 10/10 both story-wise and performance-wise. If you're interested in psychological dramas / thrillers with a dash of horror, this is the show for you. There's so much going on that it leaves no room for you to be bored. I mean, the stuff I touched on was just the first episode or two. You're always left wondering what will happen next, who will make the next move.

Truly a masterpiece if I've ever seen one.

Edit;; I just want to add that the ratings dropped at one point as it aired because it creeped people out! It was airing late at night and they found the show too scary to watch! It did such a great job conveying fear and terror and horror that people tuned out! It was actually a news article about this that alerted me to the show and made me wanna watch it in the first place. There is no better review for a show of this type than people having to turn it off because it scared them. What a legend of a show.

Edit;; it's come to my attention that I should probably include where you can watch it! Last I checked, it wasn't on Netflix, Hulu, Amazon, or Viki. It is on OnDemandKorea and that's where I watched it! There are ads though. I'm honestly not sure where else might have it. Please let me know if there's other places and I'll add them to this post!

Edit;, STRANGERS FROM HELL IS NOW ON NETFLIX!! GO WATCH IT! ♡

#WOW I rambled #i'm so so sorry lmao #bbinie ♡ #strangers from hell #hell is other people #타인은 지옥이다 #Lee Dong Wook #Im Siwan #lee jeong eun #ahn eun jin #seo moon jo #yoon jong woo #kdrama #long post #again I'm sorry but I really like this show! #10/10 recommend #kdrama recommendations #kdrama review

[r-truth]

Tag Game

Rules: Answer 21 questions and tag 21 people you want to get to know better.

I was tagged by @welltheysayimdifferent

Nickname: Delfi or Delphi! my best friend calls me Dal though. 

Height: 5′5′’

Last movie I saw: the back-up plan (i actually. rlly. rlly. love alex o’loughlin)

Favourite artists: musical kind? i don’t have “favourites” because i like the song rather than the band/artist themselves, but i’ll go with paramore, we are the fallen & vocaloid askjdas

Song stuck in my head: god of wine by third eye blind (i blame roswell new mexico for this)

Do I get asks? yeah! sometimes & when i reblog ask games (((:

Other blogs: 1, i haven’t logged in months!

Following: 230 >:)c

Amount of sleep: it depends on my mood. the more anxious and emotional i am, the less i sleep. usually i get 5-6 hours of sleep!

Lucky Number?: 8!

What I’m wearing: a white t-shirt that my mom bought for me on my birthday, jeans and flip flops (it’s still summer here!)

Dream Job: i never had one particular job bc im like, so lost in life i don’t know what i want to do. i do find myself working as a therapist to help people with mental illnesses!

Favourite food: milanesa de carne a la napolitana con puré mixto >:)!!!!!

Dream trip: anywhere that is not in the American continent! i’d really love to visist europe, more specifically, ireland or scotland!

Play any instruments?: neh

Languages: spanish & english! i know basic portuguese as well

Favourite Song: i have too many!! i will stay by we are the fallen; lost butterfly by rurutia; cage by hiryuki sawano ft tielle. my choices literally change every day

Random Fact: i have a cat and his name is Tommy and i love him so much i’d die for him in a heartbeat even though he wouldn’t care less

Describe yourself as aesthetic things: what i want to be: aesthetic. what i am: pathetic

Favourite colour?: green, (dark) teal & black!

You wanna fight? listen last time i tried to fight (as a joke) with my brother, my arm broke in half so how about i start taking care of my fragile bones from now on?

Tagging: @hardiacarrest @kingbarrett @infamousbobbyfish @icchampbalor @champ-asuka @adamscoles @redragonites & anyone else who wants to do it! please tag me!

#tag game #you don't have to do it!! don't feel forced C: !! #thnk micah!!!

[sagetaytay]

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2022. the future, so close yet so fucking far. i think ive lost everything now. i lost friends, i lost s/o's ive picked fights i cant win, just so i could try and make something of my pathetic ass self. too the point i dont exactly have a friend group to be in anymore. i dont exactly know who hates me and who likes me. realizing over the holidays how many people just forgot i existed when i stopped texting first, seeing how much some people actually cared. how much a person actually liked me rlly became obvious now. i dont know how to love people and i ask how but get no reply, said to be common sense but i havnt been taught. ive only been used for my body or made to feel like im no more than it. so thats all i know how to do, give my body away and try my best to please them, not knowing how to actually love somebody. thats how i know ill never find love. this year, this year i want to start fresh. so within a few months of school if stuff does not go well i shall be moving schools by choice. i want to be quiet and not talk only when spoken to, with few words and simple phrases. i dont want to be hurt or hurt others, but my family hasnt always been the best at teaching me on whats wrong to do in friendships or relationships really.

[countrygangrel]

hey i want every single one for sancho david and austin please and thank u :)

maria im hatefollowing u and i wouldnt help u with ur spanish homework /s

Does your character have siblings or family members in their age group? Which one are they closest with?

sancho: he doesnt rlly consider himself to have family but of the ppl who seem to sorta consider him family he likes marco the best

david: he likes diego the best smh

austin: he doesnt consider any of the ppl who consider him family To be family but mags is the closest

What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like?

sancho: Bad shes the reason he ended up homeless

david: he doesnt remember his birth mom but he loves marge : )

austin: he idealizes her and remembers her as being perfect but she was subpar

What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like?

sancho: he considers him a weak and pathetic little man

david: he doesnt remember his birth father but he doesnt like gabriel at all : (

austin: Bad

Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know?

sancho: he almost got murdered and he tries to avoid telling people abt it :/

david: Uh Yea and like everyone knows it got big in vampire scenes

austin: yea and he tells everyone smh hes an oversharer

On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?

sancho: a knife, one of those stupid pocket bibles, his phone, snacks he Probably stole

david: Garbage he doesnt rlly go anywhere and he also forgets to empty them out

austin: his phone, some cash, a couple ious to replace mags’s stuff when he takes it, his wallet

Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams?

sancho: he doesnt dream

david: i feel like he has dreams that involve weightlessness a lot. also cleanliness

austin: Hedonism. also idealized versions of his childhood

Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares?

sancho: eternal damnation

david: being dirty and also drowning. his abusers there

austin: honestly? Also hedonism. probably food

Has your character ever fired a gun? If so, what was their first target?

sancho: he misfired on a guy that he was trying to keep from coming any closer to him

david: he shot a book that he set up on a fence

austin: he shot a guy on Purpose

Is your character’s current socioeconomic status different than it was when they were growing up?

sancho: hes Worse off hes semi-homeless

david: hes? Worse off but a lot happier the weed money has him stable enough

austin: not rlly

Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?

sancho: more he likes layers

david: more

austin: less

In what situation was your character the most afraid they’ve ever been?

sancho: probably when he was being almost murdered. he didnt think he was afraid of death before

david: hes been in a Lot of situations that border on this but probably when his parents were murdered

austin: when he had to kill a werewolf for the first time

In what situation was your character the most calm they’ve ever been?

sancho: he Acts calm all the time but hes normally pretty stressed out. hes gonna grey early

david: Hes Never Calm

austin: hes pretty calm now in the face of danger like even having a gun in his face hes calm

Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?

dsjkdshds none of them r bothered by it now but david used to be. he got over it

Does your character remember names or faces easier?

sancho: neither he doesnt want to know anyone

david: names

austin: faces

Is your character preoccupied with money or material possession? Why or why not?

sancho: he Is hes very poor and concerned abt where hes living and if hes a freeloader or not

david: not rlly he thinks its pointless and hes gonna die Anyway

austin: yea hes a poor and greedy man

Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success?

sancho: success

david: success

austin: happiness

What was your character’s favorite toy as a child?

sancho: he didnt have any but he woulda liked stuffed animals

david: he had a stuffed bear that he carried around and didnt let ppl touch. gabriel took it from him and he stopped having comfort objects

austin: he liked his sisters dolls

Is your character more likely to admire wisdom, or ambition in others?

sancho: wisdom

david: ambition hes Jealous

austin: ambition

What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before?

sancho: he doesnt voice his issues but hes rlly insecure so he ends up sorta touchy :/ nd theyre working on it

david: he doesnt have relationships hes Way too shy

austin: hes got commitment issues and he ends up ruining relationships very quickly

In what ways does your character compare themselves to others? Do they do this for the sake of self-validation, or self-criticism?

sancho: all he does his compare himself to others negatively smh he has no self esteem and hes lookin for reasons people wouldnt want him around

david: its for self criticism he has depression and low self esteem. A lot of time its in ? physical aspects or how well they deal with interpersonal communication

austin: its for self validation most of the time. at least if hes Voicing it

If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others?

They all ? think they caused or deserved it but austin blames others Verbally

What does your character like in other people?

sancho: he has a soft spot for cute people :( he likes cute things in general. he? sorta likes mean people too smh he doesnt like feeling like people are lying to him abt liking him. overall he doesnt like people tho

david: he Also avoids ppl so he doesnt like ? like a Lot but he does like when ppl care abt him :’/ if u show him genuine care he’ll warm up pretty fast

austin: he just likes Attention. but in General he also likes people who arent that serious sdsdkhdsj he also likes people who’ll pamper him

What does your character dislike in other people?

sancho: he doesnt like ppl who r ? Overly nice or rlly try to pay attention to him. he also doesnt like having people ‘pity’ him (read: care abt)

david: he doesnt like mean people :( or at least people who r mean to Him hes rlly sensitive. he also doesnt like ppl who try to Force eye contact. also being tall white men makes u a no in his book

austin: people who insult him to his face >:/ or ppl who r mean to their families without Reason hes a hypocrite

How quick is your character to trust someone else?

sancho: he doesnt

david: it takes him a While and it depends on the person. atm he only rlly trusts 2 ppl tho

austin: he doesnt rlly Ever trust people but he lets his guard down anyway

How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

sancho: o Immediately. he does it Less if he knows u but :/ not much

david: he tries not to now but hes a very nervous boy

austin: he does it pretty fast but ? ignores what his guts tellin him

How does your character behave around children?

sancho: he has a daughter who he loves but he doesnt rlly know how to take care of kids

david: he tries to avoid them he doesnt know how to deal with them he gets overstimmed really fast

austin: he avoids them but he Loves kids. hes rlly worried abt being a creep and Hurting ppl

How does your character normally deal with confrontation?

sancho: he Stews and looks annoyed but doesnt rlly fight

david: he avoids it at all costs

austin: hes Fighty hell argue over little things

How quick or slow is your character to resort to physical violence in a confrontation?

sancho: sorta quick smh but he has to be pushed

david: he avoids it at all costs hes weak

austin: Very fast

What did your character dream of being or doing as a child? Did that dream come true?

sancho: i feel like he wanted to be a doctor :/ it Didnt happen

david: he didnt actually have much by way of dreams? he thought abt being an author or a priest tho. It didnt happen

austin: he didnt rlly have any he was just gonna farm

What does your character find repulsive or disgusting?

sancho: anything thats too clean. most like ? normal things to be disgusted by other than like gore. also himself

david: he finds most kinds of mess repulsive. hes still repulsed by gore even tho hes used to blood

austin: he doesnt find much other than like ? Excrement repulsive

Describe a scenario in which your character feels most comfortable.

sancho: having his own room with a window and several locks on the door. his cats r there

david: being able to be alone in his room while still being confident that his friends love and care abt him

austin: he wants to be Loved so hed be most comfortable surrounded by family who loves him :’)

Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable.

sancho: rlly being ? around people in general

david: being in public in general but Especially anywhere near a stage. he woulda been valedictorian if he went to hs modernly but the speech shit would kill him

austin: being ignored and on his own

In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve?

sancho: hes a cocktail of all of them :/ but overall hes willing to improve

david: hes willing to improve most of the time but he can be sorta :/ resistant

austin: hes Very defensive

Is your character more likely to keep trying a solution/method that didn’t work the first time, or immediately move on to a different solution/method?

sancho: keep the method

david: keep the method

austin: move on

How does your character behave around people they like?

sancho: hes ? nicer but overall he tries not to show it smh

david: hes more willing to come out of his shell and interact with ppl he likes

austin: hes a bit of a bully and Very clingy. he likes teasin ppl

How does your character behave around people they dislike?

sancho: he bottles it up and Glares

david: he avoids interacting with them more than he normally does

austin: hes a bitch tbh he gets Mean and Petty

Is your character more concerned with defending their honor, or protecting their status?

sancho: honor

david: status

austin: honor

Is your character more likely to remove a problem/threat, or remove themselves from a problem/threat?

sancho: remove self

david: remove self

austin: remove problem

Has your character ever been bitten by an animal? How were they affected (or unaffected)?

sancho: he has been and hes nervous around dogs now, especially bigger dogs

david: he hasnt been bit

austin: hes been bit but he doesnt care he still loves animals smh he also probably deserved to get bit hes the type to stick his face in animals’ faces

How does your character treat people in service jobs?

sancho: he does his best and over all tries to be nonintrusive

david: he avoids interacting with people at all dsksdjj so hes okay

austin: he works a service job So

Does your character feel that they deserve to have what they want, whether it be material or abstract, or do they feel they must earn it first?

sancho: he feels like he has to earn it but he can never do enough To earn it

david: he has to earn it

austin: he feels like he Deserves it

Has your character ever had a parental figure who was not related to them?

sancho: he avoids parental figures

david: yes! He has an adoptive mom who he loves

austin: sorta? kinda. he isnt sure how to feel abt her tho :/ 

Has your character ever had a dependent figure who was not related to them?

sancho: yea he has a bf and a child

david: no

austin: sorta? rlly depends. not rlly tho

How easy or difficult is it for your character to say “I love you?” Can they say it without meaning it?

sancho: its pretty difficult and he avoids it

david: its difficult but he can say it without meaning it

austin: its easy to lie but hard to say it proper

What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them?

sancho: he believes hes going to go to hell :/ but hes sorta accepted it. he is scared to die

david: he isnt sure what he believes but he believes it isnt good

austin: he doesnt believe in anything

#sorry yall dsjsdkhdkh #tinymush #austin #nettle #david #abuse ment ig #food ment #ask to tag

[saltyyui-blog]

Change 2.0

Okay this account is being changed againnnnnn... sucks to be me. It was mainly since some girl since primary school rlly hated me and had the balls to call me an asshole... but since I laughed at her and told her:

“I’m delighted to know that you have a nickname for me, but I’m disgusted you couldn’t find anything more creative you f***ing ugly hoe”

And that was when I realised... people should stop getting onto my bad side. And she still hates me for the record. 

Guys... practically I’m going to try be polite with you all... but please... my block list is longer than my friends list... which is probably bad but idk and idc. Plus sometimes, referring to the girl who still hates me and im not naming her because I’m too polite, but i think stupid people were put on the planet to manage my anger issues. And also, little pathetic primary school mate of mine, here is a one-lined letter I hope you never forget:

Dear hater, I’m flattered that I’m a trending topic in your life. Thank you, Saltyyui.

Also don’t think I’m a soft-hearted child for one second, and then turn around to talk behind my back. Do you really think I’ll stop you though? I’ll just sit under this umbrella in the sun and smile thinking I have a fan club.

Now for the most important statement:

LOVE YOURSELF 

Yeah I know I don’t love myself that much, but honestly loving oneself is actually hard. We put up such high standards for ourselves we don’t see the little tiny fairy-sized good things about us. And I guess.... bitch no I haven’t learned that yet.

Everyone! Go to heaven! Even the people who don’t deserve to be in heaven! Why? Cause I don’t want to see you in hell.

Also 5 things about me:

1. I love BTS, if ya got a problem with that then your existence is a joke.

2. Don’t get on my bad side, don’t piss me off. It surprises me that we have over 100 billion nerve cells and some people just seem to piss off every single one of them.

3. I’m not scary... I think.

4. I’m not a saesang.

5. I have a crush. Yes. For this point points at my crush if he is reading this stay at least 2 metres away from me? Why? To make me stop falling. And if you come any closer... I’ll run.

So....basically I’m changing my pfp to this now:

Enjoy the rest of your day/night.