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itrulyhatethisworld · 17 days

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i just wanna cut everyone off and rot away in my bed

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caligvlasaqvarivm · 3 months

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prince and prince friendship. this is my vision

#blood cw ////////#violence cw ///////////#erikar #eridan ampora #dirk strider #karkat vantas #dave strider #im just crazy about the idea that eridan and dirk would get along #theyre both fucked up in the head but in a way where they go ''theyre a freak but theyre basically OK'' about each other #eridan is too stupid/stubborn to manipulate and dirk literally could not give less of a shit about eridan's drama #so they have like a net 0 impact on each other #they do not make each other better. they also do not make each other worse.#they just get really bored and lonely sometimes #''do u want to stave off the ennui and beat the shit out of each other'' ''sure i dont have anything else going on today''#just super lethargic and almost transactional #since they only hang out when theyre both bored as shit. from the outside it almost looks like a moirallegiance thing #at least until they start trying to murder each other which is when it suddenly looks like a kismesis #but its neither #theyre literally just bored and love violence #eridan <> karkat btw

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boopicide · 2 months

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everything fucking sucks<<<<<

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ancient-romes · 3 months

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Kaikaina Grif doesn't have a name. Well, she does. okay not really. More like a title. Kaikaina. A word meaning younger siblings, younger sister. That's who she is, who she's always been, always will be. When mom wasn't bothered enough to soothe her cries it was Dexter who would hold her, his chubby hands holding onto her little fingers, he wasn't much older than her by any means and still he held her and whispered to her as she cried, my Kaikaina, my sister. So Kaikaina is who she became, the little sister toddling after her brother, following him all the way to a box-canyon in the middle of nowhere. Because she's his sister and that's all she's ever been. And when her teammates call her sister she wants to correct them, thats a title, a noun, not a name. But then she stops and wonders. Does she have a name?

#rvb #red vs blue #kaikaina grif #hi i wrote this under like 5 min cause im bored in class and missing the grif siblings #thinking of kai never having her own identity other than being grifs sister #both in the show and outside of it #how they just named her sister in hawaiian #how she felt so lonely without dexter she joined a war to find him again #idk they're very precious to me i could probably say more if i wasnt supposed to be working on a presentation rn

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theokusgallery · 2 months

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The problem with my art right now is that 1) the little drawing time I have goes to @daily-basil ; 2) I have phases, and am currently deeply unmotivated ; and 3) when I do draw what this blog is currently about (Arsenic) I draw him in a gay way (because I love him deeply) and not like the unhinged person he actually is. I'm sorry I'm so soft about him right now. Yes I want Sunny and him to tear each other apart but they also need to love each other so so so much first

#siiiiiiigh...#im sorry i need him to hold sunny gently and tells him he loves him and yes he'll say it in horrible unhinged ways BUT #poor man who does not know how to love and does not know he can be loved. he is convinced he needs to manipulate people to make them stay #writing down arsenic lore for tosteur like two days ago made me so emotional about him. shaking and crying #there's not even like An Event it's just that his whole childhood sucks and he's never been accepted by anyone and he's so lonely and #(starts crying)#he does horrible horrible things but all he does to sunny truly comes from love. deeply inhumane and twisted love but love nonetheless #(except when he's being a selfish ass who doesn't have any sort of morals and generally doesn't give a shit about other people. of course)#god he's such a horrible person (/simplification) i love him #he does not care about hurting other people and only cares about his own selfish desires #he thinks he can do anything he wants and if other people get hurt by his actions it's not his problem #don't you DARE touch a single hair on sunny's head. not in a 'i care about my bf' way btw.#but because if sunny gets hurt. he has to deal with that and 1) it's boring unless it brings him something and 2) that's *his* plaything.#even when he does nice things for sunny he doesn't make it just to make sunny happy #he does it so that sunny will associate happiness with him and stay.#that's what he thinks consciously at least. he always had ulterior motives for everything he does #it doesn't really make him calculating because it's automatic at this point. it just makes him deeply selfish #my poor little boy who has never had anyone genuinely care about him before...#which doesn't excuse shit of course but hhhh i love him so much.#(D if you see this. this is about the OC not the guy. of course)#arsenic #rant #sometimes i think about nick like a normal person ('he's so awful and interesting') and sometimes i just slhrflfbfb. (cries)

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leofrith · 2 days

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ooooooh my god i need some fucking joy i need some fucking joy NOW

#literally nothing is bringing me enjoyment right now NOTHINGGGG #(yes i know its the depression. whatever.)#i havent played bg in like three weeks. not even enjoying that anymore either #and i CANT FUCKING WRITE!!!!!#I'm so exhausted all the time I'm so bored I'm so lonely #and yeah I'm reading more lately which is great but I'm hardly enjoying myself I just #im so fucking bored im sick of killing myself to complete job applications just to hear nothing back im so. so tired #whatever!!!!! life sucks and then you die #pretty sure my birth control is gonna kill me anyway so whooo caresssss #idk what this post is about #tbd

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cowboy-robooty · 8 months

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no guys you dont get it itager isnt sweet and tender in the domestic gay lovey dovey way theyre sweet and tender in the BRO way

#im a crazy bitch okay i will be like yes theyre lovey to eachother yes thats true #yes i only get gay and shit for itager bc theyre true love and then see something sappy and gay of them and go THAT AINT RIGHT #im a freak okay im such an asshole about itager bc i think theyre lovey to eachother in a very specific way and all other ways are cringe #me when the only itager i consume is the official goddamn hetalia manga #and them doujins made by corolla that mf was the only person ever who understood them (even if they were misguided and believed in gerita)#i like to think in my heart of hearts corolla knew the truth it was just the wrong time.#like how i know bill and ted wouldve loved touhou koishi song its just they were born in the wrong era #but yeah like germany and italy are gay in that BRO way like. its hard to describe but its not gay its more like.... friendship adjacent #like when you deeply care about your bro and act gay with them in that way they arent about that silently looks at the moonlight shit #they look at the moonlight and italy goes 'germany is right now a good time to tell you i fucked your car again' and germany goes 'What.'#ITS A BETTER AND MORE AWEZOME FORM OF LOVE IN MY HUMBLEST OF OPINIONS.... I PERSONALLY PREFER IT #its domestic in the way of having your average daily life of dicking around with your bros and throwing grenades in cars n shit #instead of domestic settling down and being all serious and sappy all the time #its lovey dovey in the way of being like AHAHA IM HAVING SO MUCH FUN!!! yeah bro... i really like you too *hug* im glad youre in my life #i just think thats so much more swag because settling down just does not sit right for me #i think settling down sucks tf you mean theres no more adventures and always sunny shit?#i think fruk can get into that settling down domestic shit but im a firm believer itager cant #because their entire dynamic hinges upon italy coming in and making germanys boring ass lonely life fun by ruining it everyday #its not itager if they arent grabbing eachothers balls and acting like bros #ive said this to wiener but its the itager itapan juxisposition #itapan (japans onesided crush ofc) is great because they act gay but are just bros #and itager is great because they act like bros but are gay #idk its hard to explain the nuances of it all but just trust me when i say canon content and corollas sfw doujins are the only true itager #content #robooty asshole moment sorry guys somethings wrong with me #robooty kun

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silenthillbunni · 6 months

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yeah idk i just feel like im so lonely and i'll always be completely alone. i dont see the point in living if this is how my entire life's gonna be

#i hate talking to 'professionals' bc i just feel so..#like nobody understands me. im on an isolated and desolate island and i cant ever escape it #i dont even have words even if i wanted to vent bc i just feel so.. idk??? dejected maybe #well i needed to vent but turns out i have no words to describe it #just that i feel so lonely. no one understands me. i dont understand ppl or this world. i feel so unsafe around ppl. cant trust anyone #mostly i feel a loneliness so heavy it is slowly crushing me and will soon suffocate me #i'd rather die a quick death soon than walk around slowly dying for several years #if only my mom wouldnt be completely crushed by it. i know it'd break her. otherwise i'd be gone a long time ago #i dont have energy anymore. what am i even fighting for??? a boring empty and lonely existence? lmao. idek

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wantbytaemin · 3 months

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Wait what did you do in London?

well i was there for 3 months twice at one of their top unis as a visiting researcher broadening my scientific horizons learning new techniques acquiring new skills and such. so for like 10hrs a day during the week i was doing precisely that but during the weekends i fucked around (figuratively only you know we’re celibate around here) w sooo many men like idk how many even nor do i remember them all like people would come up to me in the street every damn time i left the apartment and i was lonely & bored without my friends so i started having fun w it a little bit 😇

#most notably perhaps i went to a restaurant w the owner of said restaurant whom i met literally straight off the plane just shopping for #food at a sainsburys LMAO and also went to see the Oxford library w a guy who BARKED (i shared this on tumblr too btw ana lore for those #who know) and also went out w a French model who was predictably gorgeous but kinda insane i mean so how it went is id go out w them once #and then ghost them JHOSJFO i know i knoooow listen. im allowed bc i was lonely and bored okay? okay. and then he got so obsessive like #KEPT texting and then he sent like a string of curses in CROATIAN even though he didn’t speak croatian so i was like ouuhhhkaaaayyy and #blocked him 😇 there was so many more but these are the most fun ones i think

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itrulyhatethisworld · 11 days

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taking applications now for someone to murder me

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iloveyouitisruiningmylife · 4 months

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i have done everything to make myself as tired as possible so i can sleep as soon as my head hits the pillow but im wide awake😭

#i woke up early after sleeping late cause early class and long day no nap studied for like 3 hours after coming home and still im not slee #they're planning a trip at work to an amusement park and i need to find an excuse to not go cause #hanging out with them pretending to have fun is too socially draining on christmas too 3 hours of playing games and stuff #and suddenly im home changing my clothes and out of nowhere i started sobbing??? like girl what why??#idk i think it just feels very isolating and lonely😭#so i don't think i can survive a whole day picnic #but i can't tell dad that bc he'll just say to try harder i can't tell anyone really bc everyone thinks im just not Trying hard enough to #make friends😭#even moms like tera weird superiority complex hai sab aise hi hote hai kahan rehti hai tu #but the girls are all so boring and flat and un feminist #and the boys are so. perfectly marvari family guy i love my parents types😭😭😭#fit in nahi ho rha #ok anyway now that i got it off my chest i can sleep

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newwave-lesbian · 6 months

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i kind of feel like i will literally never have any real life friends again like what do i even do i am touch starved and pathetic

#oh yeah and my social anxiety only goes away with adderall #and i'm like ohhhh im so lonely im so bored what do i even do #but then i was like yaknow i'll smoke weed and talk to myself as usual while listening to my little duran duran #let's go lesbians let's go #they should invent a drug that fixes me and costs zero dollars amirte #i think i am gonna do shrooms tomorrow though.......#like i think i have a need to just uh.... figure shit out #i need to make a change and learn how to do things but my brain just.... refuses #because that's the autism slay. i hate change even though my life is going down the drain at this rate #anyways. maybe more drugs will fix me....... hahahahahaahahahss #i only want to live and do shit after i've smoked and that shit is so expensive. im passing away

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readymades2002 · 5 months

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i do love analysing media and art and unfortunately this is where i am most confident talking and i am very bad at stuff like: talking normally and like a person fostering relationships in the world with other people

#it is easy for me to go on and on about media and art and themes and i love doing it #and ive had a lot of discussions that live in my head months if not years after the fact because of it #but it is also easy for me to hide behind because anything actually personal and friendly means #i have to be myself if i want it to mean anything and i want to do it but well i do not like myself #and i dont know how to interact with people as a person and not as a thought process. and it is both lonely (for me)#and DEEPLY annoying and offputting (for the other parties)#attempted to start a conversation with a friend id like to know better the other day and im pretty sure #i immediately scared him off by going on about the mechanics of a game and how they tie into the narrative and its good #for paragraphs. its so. UGH!!! UGH!!!!!#i want to connect with people i want to talk to people i want to engage in conversations with people so badly #but this is the only way i know how to do it. im fun if you want a quick and lively discussion about something niche youre interested in #but as soon as thats over...whats left? i dont know where to go after that #after that i am just some guy who is tired and in pain and doesnt draw much these days. looks at birds sometimes. BORING #annoying background character

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svengorsen · 7 months

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i felt so much better and then got rebound covid and it's like hmm 🤔🤔🤔 when does the misery end?

#im almost out of sick days at work send help #im also just so bored and lonely

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teruthecreator · 2 days

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btw yall can send me asks abt tfs if u want. or about anything. kicks a rock around

#ignorance cloud on #idk i see people get asks curious abt their projects and im like 'man i wish that was me'#but mostly im just lonely :-(#im definitely deleting this by the morning but for now im bored and lonely so. whagever

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raccoonfagdyke · 14 days

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I just wish people liked being around me

#i feel so fucking lonely #like i was yalking to my friend who was talking about how he was imvited to go out tonight #and thats never happened to me #ive never been invited to places really #unless i kinda invite myself tbh #ive never gone to a bar and then gone to a second location #i just wanna have people who think pf me when theyre doing things #i want people to want me around #and is some of this the DID talking ?? yes #i have parts who mever get to do things like that for one reason pr another #i want people to think im cool in some regard or at least interesting enough to keep around #but no #im just here alone on a friday night and i couldnt go out cuz im sick #meanwhile my partner is sleeping over at a friends place cuz hey shes got a car and is good at people #she gets invited to things all the time and im so fucking burnt out from work that i never get to fucking do anything i hate this so much #i just feel so goddamn alone and unwanted #i know the latter isnt true but it sure fucking feels like it rn #and im gonna be even more isolated this summer since im working 2 jobs #and none of my close friends like to do anything interesting #im just so bored and stagnant and lonesome #i wish i coul sleep

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