#i dont even have words even if i wanted to vent bc i just feel so.. idk??? dejected maybe

[milfygerard]

living in the inbetween hell where I dont hate or love ttpd enough to agree with anyone on the dash so im just sort of flinching whenever I see a post about it from any side

#barry.txt #taylor swift #im not disappointed bc i didnt have the highest expectations for ttpd #but im also not wowed #a lot of the songs are fun and interesting but the writing on most of these tracks structurally is hanging by a thread #a lot of the rhyme schemes are bizarre and awkward #in my least favorite taylor style where it feels like shes barely stringing them together into these sort of purple prose poems #where she really just wants to fit in words she likes to the detriment of the lyric itself #a lot of jacks production feels unfinished and unimpactful esp compared to waht we know he can do #it feels like a lot of interesting songs that only got like one or two drafts before getting recorded #and it just doesnt hook me #however i do like the songs other ppl hate #and i love that she gave a massive middle finger to the fandom even if its 100% not going to stick #and i love florence and a lot of the second album #i like i hate it here even if its weird and bad #i dont think its her most honest vulnerable or human album but it is her vent-iest like shes just letting it all out #idk #i hope she wraps up eras ant the TVs and then takes a looooong break and does intensive therapy and gets into TTRPGs and chills #anyway the black dog and the manuscript and clara bow best tracks. my final message #probably not bc j have so much to say but

[bunnihearted]

yeah idk i just feel like im so lonely and i'll always be completely alone. i dont see the point in living if this is how my entire life's gonna be

#i hate talking to 'professionals' bc i just feel so.. #like nobody understands me. im on an isolated and desolate island and i cant ever escape it #i dont even have words even if i wanted to vent bc i just feel so.. idk??? dejected maybe #well i needed to vent but turns out i have no words to describe it #just that i feel so lonely. no one understands me. i dont understand ppl or this world. i feel so unsafe around ppl. cant trust anyone #mostly i feel a loneliness so heavy it is slowly crushing me and will soon suffocate me #i'd rather die a quick death soon than walk around slowly dying for several years #if only my mom wouldnt be completely crushed by it. i know it'd break her. otherwise i'd be gone a long time ago #i dont have energy anymore. what am i even fighting for??? a boring empty and lonely existence? lmao. idek

[dandyshucks]

starting to think maybe i should turn rbs off on that post actually bc im having heart palpitations now fdsjgjkl why is this happening to meeee

#vent // #me when the paranoia is Getting Bad fjkfdsjkl #its stemming from m.oral o.cd i think bc i am mainly worried abt more eyes on my blog and ppl seeing me frolic here #and the brain gophers have been insisting that i am doing smth horribly wrong and not realizing it #and the worry is that someone is going to see that and bypass talking to me abt it and go straight to making a callout post #and i will be sitting here with Zero Idea abt it #and continue hurting ppl by doing the Unknown Wrong Thing #but i also am not sure how that would happen bc i overthink literally Everything i post #if u see me put tags on smth that isn't just a simple ''ough'' or ''hehe yay!!'' i probably sat there for two mins making sure it was okay #running thru the words at every angle i can conceive of to ensure its not going to hurt somebody somehow fdsjkl #and this paranoia has been so bad the past few days. and when it gets bad then i get worried bc maybe i somehow have a guilty conscience #without even knowing !!! just subconsciously having a guilty conscience somehow !! #which ... only makes the paranoia worse fdsgjkl its a very bad vicious circle #anyways. i have been lowkey avoiding being here lately bc of this but i feel like avoidance just makes it worse #so . hrm. i just do not want to have more crying breakdowns bc i tried to figure out what on earth i could possibly be doing so wrong fsdjk #not exactly a fun way to spend time FDSJKL but ... what can ya do i guess #like i can't ask ppl ''hey am i doing smth wrong?'' bc thats. very vague. and subjective. and also i shouldnt rely on other ppl like that #but my brain is so goofed up that i genuinely cannot tell when i get like this sdjfkl bc i feel so sure i must be doing smth wrong somehow #so every tiny thing seems like maybe its wrong in a way i dont understand yet... ough #ANYWAYS SORRY THIS IS . NOT A GOOD POST TO MAKE. LOL. but i feel like this is the only way im going to bust myself out of this cycle #hopefully if i just Say that i've been really worried then if smth IS actually wrong someone will let me know #and if nothing is wrong then !! i can move on from this continual paranoia spiral !! maybe !! #i feel like me posting this is going to be a Wrong Immoral Move but fdsjkl rly trying to just. break out of it rn fsdjkl #dandyshucks

[dragonji]

its time for yet another brain game of am i like fully neurotic or was this genuinely not a cool situation . prize is jack shite and yet im playing anyways👍

#j.txt #vent #just like. to preface. im not bringing any of this up im just going to stew in it for the night and then move on as per usual #alright disclaimer made now i can get to the point. So. tonight is my close irl friends bday right but she didnt tell me about any plans #so i naturally assumed she was gonna do her own thing and not really celebrate. Ive had work all day and while working get a text frm her #asking if we want to go to this restaurant i introduced our group to for dinner. so i respond saying oh im off at this time if yall want to #go even tho its late i can. Never get a response so i assume theyll bring it up when i get back. get home and no ones here not a word abt #whats going on. i do my usual unwinding get ready to chill etc which takes abt half an hour. she comes back with our other mutual friends #and theyve already gone to the restaurant which is fine i get it. but they get back and say oh now we're going to this themed music night at #a club we've all been to before as soon as (other friend) changes. and then just. dont offer for me to come along or anything and leave. #which like. whatever its happened a hundred times before im used to it but Still. does it not even occur that I might want to participate?? #if i had Any notice that this was happening I could have been getting ready instead of slacking around waiting for someone to get home #its so. i try extrememly hard not to be a downer or just invite myself to things bc I Know this is how they all operate but it does still #sting that it feels like im not even thought of if i dont happen to be in the room when plans are being made lol. #and obv I am Not bringing this up rn and ruining what im sure was a really fun night for all of them #its just truly a goddamn bitch of an unsatisfactory situation yknow. but such are the whims of fate and i shall endure as always✌️

[frecklystars]

today was way too overwhelming... it didnt feel like a day off at all 😔

#vent #my irl friends roped me in the middle of their fight and i refused to comment on any of it #bc i dont want to pick sides theyre both my friends #and then my dad and i got into a fight and he yelled over me like he always does #just out of nowhere he blows up at me and wouldnt let me say a single word #work wont stop calling me. work wont stop scheduling me on the wrong days #i have to meet ppl tomorrow... i dont want to... i keep having to Do Things #i have to meet ppl on wednesday too even tho that was gonna be my ONE day off #so i definitely cant draw anything for my HW anniversary this wednesday like i thought #im going to push it one more week. feels stupid and pointless but im pissed off #i never get enough time!!! to draw!!! #and i want to draw HW at least once this month!! this year!!! is that so hard!!! #i rarely get time to eat or sleep or do anything im always just working #and you'd think i'd make money! bc im working! but im not!! #i dont even make $150 per week and im always so tired out of my goddamn mind #i didnt even get paid this week. i worked 30 hours and got nothing #i cant. keep going like this but nothing in my life is changing no matter what i do #im so tired it isnt fair i didnt ask to be alive i just want to fuckign sleep

[ankhisms]

feeling the sad little pathetic creature emotions this evening suddenly. i dont really want to dwell in feeling bad but it is a familiar deep sad feeling u know. itll be ok i just have to let it out

#to the tune of ghengis khan dont wanna feel like nooo one believes in meeeeeeee im experiencing like. something thats #akin to my very specific paranoia of being paranoid of everyone secretly hating me and talking badly about me or thinking im horrible #secretly where its like my brain is telling me that no one believes in me including my friends and logically i know this isnt true. i have #so many people in my life who i love and appreciate and who have supported me through hardships and who i want to support #in turn. but thats the thing with my paranoia and delusions yknow i can be at least somewhat aware that im being irrational but in the end #that doesnt make it go away. and my brain is just like. no one believes in you when it comes to the creative things you want to do #like my art and acting and poetry. and then my brain tells me that the people around me just pity me and dont want to outright #say that everything i make or try to create sucks because they feel bad for me. and again i KNOW this isnt true. and i #feel bad and feel like im being unfair to my friends bc if this paranoia so i dony want to bring it up to anyone beyond venting like this #and also i feel scared that somehow bringing this specific paranoia up would be like guilt tripping people into like being nice to me or #somethimg my words are weird but my braim very much is like you are not allowed to ask for support or tell people about being insecure #and i do think this overall has something to do with my deep issues of completely lacking any confidence in myself or my abilities #which is due to a life time of abuse etc etc and its hard to build up any confidence in myself when i am still stuck in #my toxic home with no real options to get out at this point for various reasons. but its like #what if i just suck at the things i love to do? what if my art is just bad or mediocre even? what if im a bad actor or a bad poet? what id #even though i feel a deep calling within my soul to create and do these things what if even though i only ever feel truly alive #when i am acting or painting. what if none of it is any good. and no one wants to tell me that because they pity me #again. on a certain level i know this is all just my paranoia and is unreasonable. but its a feeling thats really hard to shake off yknow #anyway. thank u if you read this all i prommy ill be ok i just had to get it out 💖

[yelloworangesoda]

god babe im so sorry i cant talk about my feelings. i thought id be getting better at it by now but im not i hate it so much

#simons spouting #youre the only one who reads these may as well address you specifically. im so sorry that im like this. multiple times i have typed out #messages to you and then deleted them bc i was too scared #and i know its mean of me to think you would be upset with me but i just cant do it. its not that even its just #i dont know. i dont want to change you i dont want you to feel like you have to change for me. and i trust you to be able to handle that #yourself but when something upsets me i feel controlling for wanting to ask and i feel stupid for not having the words and i feel like im #too late if i dont get it immediately. and i dont know how to fix it i dont think i could do it if you held my hand and begged me. im so #sorry. im trying so so hard because i love you and i want to be fair to you but. oh my god i cant. i just cant #i dont know whats wrong with me #vent :(

[boyywithluv]

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#words do not describe how much i do not WANT to be at work rn #and i cant even feel good about getting through the shift bc i have to be back tomorrow. and the day after. #i literally only work 4 days a week and yet everytime i do i feel like im dying slowly it feels like my brain is melting #i spend all my time off stressing the fuck out over money and costs and other adult shit that has to get done #i just wanna lay down and make it all fucking stop #i just want to stop please fuck #i have no way to lighten the load everything i have to do has to be done by me i hate this #fucking kill me lmfao please i dont wanna do this for the rest of my life. #i miss having drive and energy. i miss not hating every second of the day im not laying in bed wasting away. #vent #delete later

[getoutofmytardis]

insane that i’m the biggest disappointment of a child for smoking weed but the child that’s emotionally abusive is fine

#i??? do not understand my parents #like ok yes it is bad that my room smells of weed and is messy #but! #feels real fucking weird that my mum gets more upset with me about that than my sister being the literal devil incarnate #and not in a fun way #like dinner last night i literally did not say a single word bc me. just speaking. apparently triggers izzy and i think i literally just #acknowledged a joke being made and she started her whole. you need to leave. get out. you’re the problem. everyone hates you. shtick #and my mums response is can you just be nice to each other #??????????? #GIRL I DIDNT DO A FUCKING THING #I KNOW YOU DONT LIKE CONFLICT AND THE CONFLICT APpArENtLy ONLY OCCURS WHEN IM PRESENT #(it doesn’t. she’s even worse to my mum but mum never. fucking does anything about it #which yeah i do get bc defending urself or literally just saying or reacting in anyway than what The Devil wants you to ends up a mess) #but maybe use two fucking braincells and realise i’m not the worst one here?? #i’m actually gonna go insane #also it’s like. lowkey so funny that mums disappointed bc she thinks i haven’t been smoking for months #which i have!! u just haven’t fuckin realised it bestie!! so maybe the reason i am being depressed and useless rn is related to uhh the #fucking demon that’s living in the house again??? #not because weed is so evil and brain rotting?? #also like i do completely get how silly of me it is to blame everything on my sister when i am aware that my mum hates me smoking weed and #i shouldn’t get a free pass just because my sister is worse than me #but also. #i would like a free pass:( #basically! i should move out lol #but unfortuately i have spent all of my savings #can’t wait to spend 12 hours in the car with all of them tomorrow!! #ah you know when u look back at the times you were gonna kill urself and wish you just fucking did #vent post

[confusedsiewmai]

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#vent #i hate having parents that shit talk my friends #no info about my friends in unweaponisable #idk why the fuck i still say anything #i mean... for the most part. if theres a friend i feel is particularly vulnerable i wont utter A WORD of their existence #but then... a friend's parents were supportive of them taking a gap year because they saw her hardwork and exhaustion in school #meanwhile my parents were just..... shit talking her decision........ #and im breaking down on the daily. and im fucking TERRIFIED of taking a break #because if i so much as stay at home for more than a month #my parents would just...... idk. take the opportunity to ruin my self esteem #it wouldnt even be a proper break #i dont think i can ever take a break in my life and sometimes i think the only way i can do that is by dying #which is...... hm. not great. #can u tell im slowly slowly sliding back into dark places? #its 5.30am at my side of the world. im srsly not okay. my sleep schedule is awful bc idk wth to do other than break down at night #i feel like i want tobjust destroy myself #i think the only thing stopping me is the fact that i want to complete school #what happens after? idk. maybe if i dun get a job.... #sometimes i get the feeling like if i actually attempted. maybe then. people will finally see how distressed i am #maybe then ppl will take me seriously #negativity #suicide tw

[bunnihearted]

❄️🐇❕

#i feel like im going insane and tonight it's esp bad so i need to.... vent :$ #some time ago i had the fortune of a very very wonderful person entering my life. and since day one BOOM i think of them every single day #im not even exaggerating.. like every single day i just think and daydream of them. i've had sm extra inabiloty to focus - #bc i just need to constantly stop and think of them..... #there is so much abt them to adore and admire. so much!!!! i didnt know someone like them could exist.. #i love talking to them and i just wanna kno everything there is to know abt them!!! everything regarding interests me #there's also the aspect of how i feel talking to them. i know they dont judge the same way as other ppl do so it's easier to talk to them #tho i still have avpd so i often start over explaining myself and get insecure etc etc. i need to get out of my head!!!! #idk.. idk... it has never been like this for me. so im also scared #what do i do.. how do i navigate this? i've never been here before and i feel lost even if it's def not a bad place to be in #every single day... i just wish that i could be with them more and more. this wish never calms down it just gets bigger #but. how? how do i break this loop and make it into reality? is it only gonna stay as a desire and a daydream? :(( i rlly dont want that #im scared too. bc what if i want and can make it my reality but it just wont happen? what if it just wont #im also not the only one in this equation that decides. what if... i have to face rejection.. what if im a disappointment. what if what if #i dont know!! i only know that i think of them all day every day. it gets more nd more intense each day. #i also get more sure that it's what i want... #anywayyyy. im actually.. driving myself insane with how obsessively i think of this #i cant quite put it into words but i had to get at least some of it off my chest #like how. do i express my feelings to them. how do i turn it into reality. how do i face that fear of the unknown and smth i've never done #but also how do i face that fear and prepare for the fact that even if i want smth dreams made into reality cant be certain. #there r so many life things that decide what happens too.... not just my will and desire #but as well as.. how do i prqepare myself to deal with the potential oh whoops maybe im the only one who rlly want this. #maybe this is onesided maybe my feelings just flew out of control nd idk how to reel them back in whoops. #like i dont know at all what could happen.. all i know is what i wish.. hmm gosh this is all just making my head spin every day.

[fathermolecule]

i also really need a shirt that says "i survived a homoerotic obsessive codependent best friendship slash relationship in my more formative teen years and all ive got was this shirt"

#i feel a little stupid that im still not over it but in my honest defense it was like 3 years of continous insanity and us making the other #suicidal #like ive only started to think lately that huh. that was fucked up! that wasnt a normal thing to experience! #normal as in. not traumatic. i still dont like using that word as a descriptor #because i was not a victim in that situation #i was just as awful during it as she was we made each other worse #so for years i thought it cant be anything too bad. i deserved it even #since i was no better #but. im still affected by it lol.??? #so i guess it can count as traumatic. begrudingly #i miss it sometimes bc i felt like a person at least #very sad and miserable one and i did try to kill myself once but a person!! nowadays i just feel like a ghost #going through life. not feeling much of it #which is why i think my brain has been yearning for more self destructive habits #because that feels like home. i feel more myself than i feel on most days #and it feels bad to talk about it #like how would i even start. any time i have mentioned it to a friend i wanted to stab myself from the vulnerability #so how else can i get over it #vent

[drowsymachine]

How are you supposed to cope knowing you might never be able to get the job you always dreamed of having?

Not in a selfish kind of way, but in a "the school system (among other things) failed me so hard I had no choice but to drop out" kind of way?

#a vent but like im VERY VERY open to advice if you happen to have any #dont get me wrong i dont regret dropping out of SCHOOL. but i do regret dropping out of an education #does that make sense? #school was fucking terrible for me but I wish there had been a way for me to continue my education at home #i always wanted to be a teacher. if you had told me this a year ago i would have denied it bc ofc a teacher isnt something you want to be #right? its just one of those jobs people happen to fall into right? like i was very in denial #but now that ive accepted it and im faced with the fact i might not even have the qualifications to GET the qualifications i need to have #because of circumstances out of my control im just... sad #like idk what other word i could use to describe how awful i feel about it #oh well #basil.txt #vent

[abyssmalice]

(sending one email shouldnt give me so much fucking anxiety but it does sdygcysdgduygdygysud i hate doing i.mmigration-related stuff)

#negative ; #tw: vent #ooc / on mobile! #(its not even the actuall immi stuff but prepwork for it but my god i feel sick anyway lmao) #(every day i curse my naive high school self that just blindly applied to random unis without thinking) #(I SHOULD HAVE STAYED HOME I COULD HAVE DONE THIS WHOLE IMMI THING LATER BUT NOOOO IM HERE NOW SO I CAN ONLY DO IT OR ELSE ITS A HIGH WASTE) #(AHHHHHHHH I WANT TO SCREAM OVER THIS but its also just 1 email AAAH THAT MAKES ME WANNA SCREAM MORE) #(if i rewind time i am telling my younger self to just go to a local uni bc sure i had a lot of new experiences but i also have anxiety now) #(and depression but i think that was always there and moving alone across the world really highlighted it) #(every day i live in the great fear that if i fuck this up then im gonna get kicked out and then where do i go lol india?? hell no) #(i dont speak a lick of hindi i would probs d word if i get sent there) #(the concept of geo-political units and restrictive assignment and segregation to such was a FUCKING MISTAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!) #(I HATE THIS WHY IS THE WORLD LIKE THIS REWIND THIS SHIT ALREADY SUHCUISICUSGSC)

[baekuras]

still not over the regular customer yesterday who was so proud to have been given a kids-glasses case for free (probably for being annoying), who was very adamant that my boss isn’t one of my colleagues because he is my BOSS (which fair enough but also this here is way more casual than he may be thinking) and who whined about paying 40cts for smth as a REGULAR and then gave it to me in 1 20ct piece, 1 10ct piece, 1 5ct piece, 2 2ct pieces and 1 1ct piece, looking very smug upon paying me....40cts for something he had to pay for and, idk “outdoing” a 22year old trainee who has been here for not even 3years yet (something he also scoffed at me for-for being “new”)

And if he had paid 200€ in 1ct pieces, we’d just have sat together there until I accurately counted it all out w/out him being allowed to leave, idc I am getting paid to be here till the end of the day-he isn’t

Manchild really

#txts #look just because he likes to get everything imagine shoved up into his ass doesn't mean i'm gonna peg him as well #he already got 1 free thing and I had to deal with his attitude of being smarmy and gross #know the man who look at you like you are a piece of meat or smth? yeah that's him #literal headache when i had to talk to him #his wife whom the appointment was actually for was a very lovely lady #ofc he kept interrupting us to go....idk feel good about his fragile masculinity? #also the glasses she brought were like 130bucks and he has another for nearly 200 waiting to be done sometimes next week #so him whining about 40cts rly isn't unexpected considering his....i dont even wanna call that personality but yeah #but it's still stupid #idc how much you pay for i rly don't #some ppl come in and feel guilty about not buying the most expensive stuff or having tp pay in 3...parts (forgot the word) #and like....idc I can only offer you my advice #and if you want smth specific but the better all around option is too much I can work w/ you on still getting you smth you want/need anyway #it's fine rly #unless you are an asshole-then idc(derogatory) #bit of a #rant #venting #bc lovely retail~

[dyemelikeasunset]

I can't sleep so I'm venting. for the most part i love my d&m readers, but oml sometimes i get qpoc blues so bad 😭😭

It's just liiiike. ppl either don't talk about Mor or completely misinterpret her personality. Like I can always tell if my readers are black or not because nonblack readers no NOT see Mor's significance, or just miss the mark when they talk about her, or they misread her personality. Like I don't understand what's so hard to understand about a cute and thoughtful artist??

AND LIKE LMAO Dom's sexuality gets brought up all the time but no one talks about Mor being a lesbian and how rare that is to find in media 😭 white lesbians are always talking about "we need more open lesbians in media!! ppl shouldn't be afraid to use the word lesbian!! blah blah" and i'm like "here you go!!" and no one claps at all lmao. Like I get it, i know why it happens, i understand racial microaggressions, i know how fandom spaces treat Black women, I UNDERSTAND BUT I CAN STILL BE UPSET. I have the right to be upset about it!!! 💀💀 And I know fem lesbians get ignored all the time, invalidated all the time, but it just sucks to see it happen to my character. I just feel like her being lesbian doesn't clock a lot of people, and I get asked to do more thirst trap art of Mor and I do want to but i'm also trying to be careful about like. Idk reducing a dark skinned fem lesbian to being validated only thru being sexy? LMAO.... Mor should be able to be attractive and lovable without tons and tons of thirst trap art (and it's not like I don't do it at all!! I'm not trying to be overprotective or deny her sexiness but I guess it's considered not enough?? give me a break)

And mannnn I was so mad actually that several comments voiced thoughts that essentially said Mor didn't "help" or "take care" of Dom enough, and that when Dom was finally opening up to her it was "Morgan finally doing something" LIKE HELLO??? HELLO??? It's DOM'S flaw that she can't open up? And Morgan does a lot??? I know immature ppl do not appreciate more soft and domestic/feminine forms of care bc they're used to taking their mothers for granted lmao but wooow I was taken aback. First of all, like, I try to show that Mor is the main cook, works just as much as Dom (let's go double income household), is always checking in on Dom's comfort as she navigates being queer, and is overall a very considerate girlfriend. AND SECOND OF ALL LMAO like even if she didn't do all that she doesn't need to have relationship currency to have a doting girlfriend, like the fucking trope of black women needing to suffer for love is so terrible I'VE HAD ENOUGH AND i"M NOT EVEN BLACK. Like there is NOTHING WRONG with their typical dynamic and I'm sick of people acting like there is. SOMEONE SAID DOM WAS LIKE A COMFORT PILLOW W NO AGENCY AND i"M LIKE WTFDYM???? She has TONS of agency and her sense of agency says she wants to LOVE AND DOTE ON HER PARTNER LIKE LMAO. WHAT?? Why is that hard to understand??? Is it because I made one (1) joke bout Mor being a pillow princess and the anti-princess squad are grinding their teeth in the bushes seething over it? Ppl are so twisted sometimes oh my goddddd. Like as an ace who was very confused navigating the lesbian dating scene as a teen and young adult I WISH i had met a pillow princess. Sometimes ppl don't realize that stone dynamics are very safe for aces!! Dom literally says she prefers it!! It's not Mor being selfish like lord please GOD ALLAH I'M TIRED I'M SO TIRED

and like on the topic of Domi overall she is more "popular" but sometimes I feel like people don't even really take the time to appreciate the significance about her either. She's not just a funny thirst trap 😭 and I feel like ppl dont acknowledge that she's asian half the time. I have so many white aces who only zone in on that aspect of her and it's like YEAH I GET IT, I'm ace and we don't have a lot of nuanced rep but she's also got more layers than that too. Tons of people related to her in the chapters where she talks about her childhood abuse yet very few people really, like, talked about the type of generational trauma that is very deeply embedded in her different cultures, no one saw that and oooof idk idk it felt inivisible. It's sometimes harder to talk about the racist microaggressions that Domi experiences thru my readers bc ppl will argue "well most webtoon leads are asian" but not many of them are asian in a way that like. talk about it. I'm born in the US so my experiences with being othered as an asian is just gonna be different and it's gonna affect my art and writing but it feels so unappreciated. I've had some queer asians relate to her but i can count them on my hand 💀 (I actually think it's two LMAO i"M SO SAD)

And going back to Dom and the comfort pillow w no agency comment lmao. This is another thing that rubs me the wrong way is once again, people are ignorant to the ways asians get pigeon-holed to media roles that have us being depicted as incapable. Maybe I want Dom to be more of a protector archetype bc I'm tired of meek Asian women in media? 🤔 Maybe I want Dom to be a prince-like character because asians get emasculated a lot?? 🤔🤔 Maybe I want Domi to maintain her prince persona instead of being "'physically' androgynous/masculine but really soft and girly on the inside uwuwu please treat me like a 'real' girl" because even in east asian media we won't allow women to exhibit strength and dependability??? 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔 Like why is a tough girl empowering but once we have a gentle and doting personality in a romance it's considered cliche and the flaw of her partner for being "too weak." MAYBE THEIR PRINCE/PRINCESS DYNAMIC COMPLIMENT EACH OTHER??? HAVE YOU CONSIDERED? I WROTE THEM THAT WAY FOR A REASON??

Good lord this turned into an essay but I have so many things on my mind always

if you read this all. Thanks. I mainly needed to scream into a towel and put this down somewhere bc I complain about these issues to my discord and they understand/validate me all the time, but I wanna give them a break 😭 I also lowkey wanna document my various feelings as I work through Dom & Mor so I can remember and also grow from it

#text heavy / #long post / #i am full of gratitude but also anger