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why do i have so many issues both physically AND mentally. wouldnt one have been enough

#is it bc im evil that i got cursed

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one of those days again [oh my god my joints]

#screaming in agony shitting myself pissing everywhere bc i moved my left wrist slightly bad #girls its so fucked. my knees my wrists every bendy part harts

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this has probably been done before, but i'm curious to see!

what is your gender identity?

cisgender

transgender

nonbinary

genderqueer

multigender (bigender, trigender, pangender etc.)

genderfluid

agender

xenogender

demiboy/girl/flux

multiple of these

none of these/other (put in tags?)

unsure/questioning

unfortunately bc of the 12 option limit i couldn't include everything, so i went with the ones i remembered off the top of my head!

#mostly nonbinary #i do fuck w bigender tho

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fuuuck my stupid gay tail all the ideal dogs point at laugh at my dumb faggy tail

#leo

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#leo

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if its a tumor ill go get alcohol poisoning

#im not strong enough for that. sorey

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if he dies im going with him

#jk. or am i

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not killing myself if they want me dead that badly they are going to have to kill me themselves

#IM NOT DOING YOUR JOB FOR YOU

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actually who gives a shit. do they even offer majimas pussy on the curriculum. NO bitch. then why should i care

#they dont even offer insane clown ass its basically worthless WHAT degree

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if one more thing happens today

#im not even gonna finish it. im tired #indomitable human spirit my ass

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oh my god i should just end my life this is ridiculous

#20 k for a therapist. and the free ones are all like sorry we are booked. kill yourself for real #ill just die then fine

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i love opening up project sekai and choosing the hardest songs in coop

#disband on me. i dare you

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sometimes i think i should put this blog on my main one bc i love attention and i wish to be understood but also that would be a horrible idea

#i dont need the judgement. i judge myselg enough

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not to be uber dramatic and corny but i do think something in me died along with him when he passed last year

#i dont think its silly to mourn and grieve over a dog or any pet at all #theyre family. you spend years with them #but i do feel a bit silly that his death affected me the most out of anyone #weve had death follow us around since i was in 5th grade #family be it distant or close #and im admittedly anxious whos going next #but i havent been this affected before. i cried sure. ive been to more funerals than i would have liked #but i feel so changed on a fundamental level. and for the worse #its weird #maybe it was the circumstances and the family disconnectioj during that time too #and how he was ripped away from me within a 2 week stress induced hell #that was one of the last times i remember when i felt like our family was. united though #still sucked. we fought and i remember wanting to throw up everyday #but it was something. now theres nothing left #he died and he took the warmth with him

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like we were so lucky. i doubt we will be that lucky ever again

#the kindest and goofiest dog to live on this earth #he never ever harmed anyone. not other dogs. not other animala #he was so silly with my tiny rabbit and i never had to be afraid that hed hurt him #or cats for that matter #he was so patient too. he cried so often but he was such a patient little man #he just wanted to be around us #i miss him endlessly #i hope he knew how much we loved him. and how much we willmlove him beyond the years he was on this earth #shelter dogs are such a gamble #even if theyre listed as friendly #and he was already 7 by the time we took him home #he lived more than half his life elsewhere #likely carrying past abuse if we go by how he acted in certain situations #and someone else definitely loved him before #but he still loved us so so much. and im happy that i got to love him #even if it wasnt for long

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looking at dogs again and realizing over and over that there wont be anyone else like him

#i really want a dog again #but also #it wont be him so whats the point

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who decided that you need to drink 2 liters of water everyday its the most important thing you should be putting in your body and then your stupid fucking szervezet just doesnt alert you like hey king! you are severely dehydrated! no it doesnt want to feel thirst ever. the only clue youll be getting is the acid youll be pissing out

#guys whos piss could corrode metal. its so fucking yellow