#im honestly tired

[princessmimi27]

After a full hour of sobbing I've come to the realization that I hate everything. I genuinely cannot remember a t8me I was asked out and it wasn't a prank. Seriously. It's been happening since the sixth grade. Every year since six grade with the exception of sophomore year (bc of covid) I've been asked out or asked if I would let a guy "hit it" as a prank.

Haha laugh it up it's totally funny to ask out the fat girl as a prank. It's not like it's been done before.

I'm so fucking done man. I'm exhausted of it. And then my so called fucking friends either ignoring me or not paying attention at all. And my parents constant nagging about me losing weight, the same old conversation since I was 11-12.

But above all I hate me. I don't think that's gonna change anytime soon, it's been a theme for a long time. I mean I'm fat, my ass isn't even nice and I have small boobs. It seems like I don't even fit the requirements for a cute fat girl. Its funny honestly.

#fat #Im honestly tired #beauty #fuck everything

[intogusmind]

i want your violence

your cruelty and silence

i want your bad

because i know you’re trying

i want the stuff

that you grew tired of hiding

be mean to me

hold you down while i’m crying

#daily poems #poemsdaily #poetry #sad poems #short poems #poems #poetsandwriters #short poem #mommy issues #im honestly tired

[drops-of-universe]

All i do is try try try try

#im honestly tired

[tawaifeddiediaz]

you know what boils my blood.

over the last 2 weeks, i've seen countless patients walk into my urgent care center, symptomatic for so many things, refusing to get tested for covid and flu, citing that they don't want to knowingly bring it to their holiday tables. i had a patient tell me, verbatim, "i don't want to test for covid, because i don't want to be the asshole who brings it on a plane."

i understand that - i understand that holidays are times where people look forward to meeting loved ones that they might only see once a year, or where they get a break from the hectic back and forth of their lives.

but here's the thing - whether they get tested or not, they will bring whatever they have to their holiday tables. it's pure recklessness to know that you're sick, and walk into someone else's house spreading the disease.

today, january 2, i saw 91 patients, many of them who have tested positive for covid and flu. many of these patients are the same ones who didn't want testing 3 days ago, until their events were over, and now, they will have to reach out to everyone they know to let them know that they were positive because they were showing symptoms well before their event.

the next week or two? we're going to see many, many more, all people with symptoms that started around christmas. these are the only two viruses we test for rapidly in our office, but they are potent and can be fatal in many people.

so here's why i wrote this post, and maybe it's a little late, but - if you care about your loved ones, please get tested if you know you're sick. it doesn't have to be at a clinic if you don't want it to, because the over-the-counter tests work just fine too (if you test within 5-7 days of symptom onset). just...please don't try to run from the knowledge that you might have covid, because immunocompromised people, elderly people, people with co-morbidities like asthma, pregnancy, diabetes, etc...many of them may not recover. and they may not be sitting at your holiday table in the future because of it.

#zee rambles #this isn't to guilt trip anyone #but im so so tired of people coming in and just refusing testing because they want to see grandma or whatever #and on top of that people are avoiding vaccinations and all that too?? #we all lived through the pandemic - everyone saw how many people unfortunately passed away from it #now because of vaccinations and some amount of herd immunity we're finding milder cases in healthy people #but that doesn't mean its gone #that doesn't mean it doesn't have long-term repercussions even in healthy people and that doesn't mean people aren't still dying from it #honestly i just needed a lil rant #and if this helps at least one person??? im all for it #also i can't sleep so here we are spilling thoughts into the voidddd

[nightwhite13]

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#im so angry at my mom now #nothing new but just.... #we've been trying to sell some housing stuff #and the housing stuff is like...10 years old and its been out in the rain for god knows how long #she didnt want to sell it cheap #and always said 'i bought it expensive' #like did you not understand the concept of secondhand stuff? #THAT SHIT IS 10 YEARS OLD NO ONE IS GONNA BUY IT ON FULL PRICE #AND SOMEONE ACTUALLY OFFER A GOOD MONEY BUT SHE REFUSE CAUSE ITS NOT FULL PRICE #i am so tired dealing with this family #either give me a job or kill me now #im honestly tired

[carlhoesainz]

I think that I will stay single for a long while. Dating and that is not for me. People (men) are just tiring me, they are actually jarring.

#personal #im honestly tired #exhausted even

[zprite-x]

Maybe he did fuck up a little

#only a little /sar #kirby #magolor #magolor soul #kirby rtdl #return to dreamland #kirby return to dreamland #kirby return to dreamland deluxe #rtdldx #my art #sorry i wouldve colored this but honestly im tired and #this has been in the back burner for a while #so i best post it before i forget about it yknow

[sasanyaustala]

#art #artists on tumblr #one piece #dofuwani #sir crocodile #donquixote doflamingo #op crocodile #op doflamingo #dofladile #im tired of these shitpost doodles honestly #its time to start drawing something serious already

[turtleblogatlast]

One of the earliest examples of Leo’s “I’ll do my own thing to accomplish our goal without discussing it with my team first” is in episode one. It’s super, super quick, and ultimately inconsequential, but it subtly sets up a great precedent that I think is very interesting.

When the boys need to grab the medallion from Splinter without Splinter noticing, Raph, Mikey, and Donnie huddle together with Raph taking the lead in trying to devise a plan to get the mystic device. Meanwhile, Leo slinks away and grabs the device by clocking the situation (by knowing his father well enough to predict his actions - something he does with each family member multiple times in the series) and making a move on his own.

It works out perfectly fine, and is ultimately the best move, and it’s honestly okay that he didn’t consult everyone for something so small when it’s such a non issue to get it, but it nicely sets up how this tends to go in the series, including how it goes in the movie.

To be honest episode one is actually really good at setting up a lot of things for each character in the long run, this is just one example that caught my attention, as small and unassuming as it is.

#rottmnt #rottmnt leo #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #im just ranting at this point feel free to ignore me I’m tired lol #anyway #Leo constantly just goes off and does his own thing #and yeah honestly his own thing often works??? but he alienates his brothers/team in the process #BUT also this isn’t necessarily a one way street #when Leo DOES try to consult his brothers or give his thoughts on matters he’s not really taken seriously #best example here is bug busters where he CONSTANTLY makes his worries and suspicions known only to have them ignored #so it’s almost understandable that he doesn’t often open up about his thought process when it’s easier to just do it #than to try and fail to justify it #after all it almost always works out for him when he does so why not? #and then the movie happens #and that line of thinking doesn’t quite hold up does it? #BUT ON ANOTHER NOTE #like I said episode one is super good at setting characters up #from showing off Donnie’s preference for tech vs magic/mystic #from showing Mikey’s innate talent for mysticism #from showing Raph’s anxieties and how easily they can stack up #there’s more but I’d have to do a closer deep dive on the ep and man am I tired #so off the head rambles it is for now #sorry everyone for my constant spam of Too Many Words into things that are prob Not That Deep #it’s honestly just fun haha #EDIT: bc I saw someone mention it! yeah all the boys have communication issues through the series and it’s super interesting and realistic #Leo in particular stands out to me here because his communication issues are a constant theme that pop up much more often #but each of them experiences this in some form

[vampirade]

🗡️🪞🍎

close ups❣️

#yay #i tried some different lighting and background #i like it tbh #my art #fanart #ever after high fanart #ever after high #dappling fanart #dappling #appling #darling x apple #so many ship names #dapple #darling charming #apple white #im honestly so tired drew this in half a day i know its not much but took me hours

[voiddemon]

a lazy identity piece (rest under the cut, it's longggggg)

thanks for readingg.

#I've kinda said what I am exactly in that one image but tbh #I'm not including it in words because I don't want to and I think it goes against the point #long post #doodles #Asexual #Asexuality #It's prettyy short honestly. Wish I made it longer but im tired :thumbsup:

[the-knife-consumer]

R u ready to roooock

#freddy is the shortest but do not be mistaken they are all terrifyingly huge #knife's art #doodles #digital art #fnaf #fnaf sb #ill draw the daycare guys and djmm later. im tired #five nights at freddy's #glamrock freddy #glamrock bonnie #glamrock chica #roxanne wolf #montgomery gator #honestly i dont think he can be criticized bc if i was named montgomery i'd probably kill someone too

[allastoredeer]

Hello, don't mind me, I just need to vent for a second.

First off, I just wanna say, as an aroace person on the ace-spectrum, feel free to ship Alastor all you want. Ship him with anyone. Have fun with it. Sex repulsed. Non-sex repulsed. Grey-ace. Demisexual. Pure unadulterated smut. Whatever, have at it. I love that shit.

Just please do it without infantilizing ace-aro people.

The amount of art, fics, and takes I've come across that's so patronizing to Alastor and his sexuality. Thing's like Alastor venting to Rosie about his feelings for a character with the caption "Alastor feeling love for the first time." Or Alastor wanting to have sex with a character and having feelings about that, and someone commenting "That's called a boner, sweetheart. That means you like them 🤭"

Like??? Like do ya'll not see how patronizing that sounds? Being ace-aro doesn't mean you don't know your own body. It doesn't mean you don't understand the functions of your body.

It doesn't mean you've never experienced intense emotions. It doesn't mean you've never experienced love before.

And, look, I know these are meant to be jokes. I know. People are joking. I laughed at the first few I came across, too. It's not meant to be harmful or condescending; no one means it that way. But there's been so much with such...bad takes recently, and I don't know about any other ace-spec people (I don't speak for all ace-specs. Hell, there are probably other ace-spec's who don't mind, enjoy it, or are making content like it themselves. I just speak for myself) but GOD it's getting uncomfortable.

Alastor is in his late 30's-early 40's in human years. That is the established age range we have for him. Do you really think that he'd go that long without ever experiencing "love?" He went through puberty just like everyone else, do you think he doesn't understand his own body???

Being asexual, or sex-repulsed, or touch-repulsed doesn't mean you automatically don't explore these parts of yourself. It doesn't mean he's never, once in his life, touched his own dick, or pussy, or whatever genitalia you're giving him. He can still very well be a "virgin" (which in and of itself is a social construct) while also knowing his body and confidently handling any "sexual needs" he has.

Do you really think he doesn't know what a boner is? That in all the years he's been alive and dead (on Earth and in Hell), he wouldn't have experienced these things once? (And you know what? Maybe he hasn't! Perhaps there are ace's out there like that! But you're telling me he doesn't KNOW what that is??? Really???)

Ah, no, it's all because he just hasn't found the right person yet, right? It's not until Lucifer/Angel Dust/Vox, whoever found him, and they gave him these feelings, and oh no, poor Bambi is feeling twitterpated and horny for the first time, isn't that romantic!

Honestly, not really. It just sounds like the same, stupid shit ace-aro people hear from family, friends, and acquaintances about their sexuality. You know, the tried and true: "Oh, you just haven't found the right person yet. You'll want all that eventually, you'll see😊"

Do you not see how frustrating that is?

Look, I am all down for Alastor exploring parts of himself. I want him to navigate different relationships, feel them out, figure out what kind of relationship he wants and what he's okay and not okay with doing. But there are ways to do that without treating him like a little UwU silly baby boy who doesn't know his own body, or his own emotions, or his own relationships with other characters. Like he needs someone to teach him about himself.

How about instead, he finds someone he feels comfortable exploring these elements with? Instead of them "teaching" him how to fuck, or masturbate, or whatever the hell you want to call it, they're giving him the room and safe-space to explore it at his own pace??!!

It comes across as someone who isn't on the ace-spectrum "teaching" an ace-spec character about their own sexuality which puts such a gross taste in my mouth. Or, at least, that's how it comes across to me.

And the thing is, I know people aren't going to stop. I know they're going to keep infantilizing Alastor and his aro-ace identity, and I wasn't originally going to make this post, because you can't control what people do in fandom.

So this is mostly just a post to say: HEY! Hello! Ace-aro person here! I hope you all are having fun and I love that you're exploring Alastor's asexual/aromantic identity! Especially those who may not be in the ace-spectrum themselves, as you're learning about us and our experiences! That's awesome! Can we just do that while also treating Alastor like the adult he is? Can we do that without being infantilizing and patronizing about his sexual identity? Please?"

That's all I really wanted to say. I just needed to get this off my chest instead of letting it fester. This isn't an attack on anyone, this is just the perspective of an Alastor multi-shipper who loves exploring his relationships with other characters (sexually and non-sexually) and deep-diving into the dynamics of the show.

Thanks for reading.

#there are so many different ace-aro's with so many different experiences #im sure they all don't share they same feelings as me #but while I wasnt originally going to post anything cuz i don't want to rock the boat #i came to the realization that HEY! Im ace-aro too! I can't control what people do but I can offer a different perspective #honestly I know the best I can do is block and move on #I just wanted to put this out there #im tired of Alastor being infantalized #I'm tired of asexuality and aromansticm getting infantilized #its grating on me more and more #siigh #thanks for reading anyway #asexual #asexuality #aromantism #aromantic #aroace #acespec #asexual alastor #asexuel #aromanticism #arospec #allastoredeer thoughts #hazbin hotel #alastor #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel alastor #the radio demon

[casavanse]

Okay so if there's something that gets to me every fucking time is that to pro-pals, if Bad People™ support Israel, then it just shows how bad Israel, right? It's proof that they're on The Right Side, that Israel is wrong.

But if said Bad People support Palestine? Ohhhh nooo, you get it wrong!!! You see, even the Bad People understand how bad Israel is, even they have more (((conscience))) than Israel, that's why they're supporting us! Absolutely no other reason!!!

Cut the bullshit. It's fucking disgusting.

#western hypocrisy #useful idiots #antisemitism #israel #jumblr #am yisrael chai #hamas is isis #ישראבלר #free palestine from hamas #טאמבלר ישראלי #god im fucking tired of all this bullshit #ive seen a post circling around about drug dealers that are “boycotting” Israel and the comments are more or less that #it was funny at first but honestly its just annoying at this point #for this is me

[mochiiniko]

Her heart was beating in her ears like a marching band

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I’ve been getting back into drawing stuff for Rhythm Doctor again because of the Act 5 hype, so here’s a silly comic based on Mic Check by ReneeDekobora2042!! It was one of the first RD fics I read when I first got into the fandom, and probably one of the best (definitely up there with Clipboard Notes, victor if you’re seeing this hi LOL) so I thought it would be nice to make a short comic of one of my favorite parts. More ramblings & bonus doodles under the cut :]

I started working on this about a month an a half ago, and initially I just wanted to work on this as a small silly wacky fanart project that was supposed to look more like this

So like every sane artist I decided to make it harder for myself

Also some unused sketches based on the Rollerdisco Rumble Reprise custom level by Kabii!

These were my favorite panels during the sketching phase but I had to change the last couple panels to reference 2-3N instead because it made more sense timeline wise. Might render these someday tho because I'm still attached to them lmao

Last but not least shoutout to my discord friends for being there for my slow descent into madness (now if youll excuse me im going to go collapse now thank you for reading)

#rhythm doctor #nicole ting #cole brew #chiimo art shenanigans #usually im talkative in the tags but honestly ill jusdt #add them tomorrow im really tired LMAO #edit: hi im awake now time to start rambling!!!111!!1111! #bro the STRUGGLE i had to go through to make sure it was exactly 7 pages #i saw the opportunity and SNATCHED IT #somehow the hands werent that hard to draw #but i struggled on the eyes instead????? #art is fun #ive noticed liek #3 inaccuracies #no ones gonna notice so its fine lmao #cocole has taken over my life i swear #ive got some more cocole art that i might post sometime #im so normal about them fr #cocole

[blubblubisdead2me]

CANT SLEEP DREW MARISA INSTEAD

#touhou #touhou project #touhou fanart #東方project #marisa kirisame #far too much confidence to post this #but honestly whats the fun in having a blog all to yourself and not posting spontaneous sketches #i do more embarrassing things every day #im so very tired but maybe what i need is actually tokyo active neets blasting in my eardrums #anyways lesbians #i love my wife