#i am so tired dealing with this family

[nightwhite13]

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#im so angry at my mom now #nothing new but just.... #we've been trying to sell some housing stuff #and the housing stuff is like...10 years old and its been out in the rain for god knows how long #she didnt want to sell it cheap #and always said 'i bought it expensive' #like did you not understand the concept of secondhand stuff? #THAT SHIT IS 10 YEARS OLD NO ONE IS GONNA BUY IT ON FULL PRICE #AND SOMEONE ACTUALLY OFFER A GOOD MONEY BUT SHE REFUSE CAUSE ITS NOT FULL PRICE #i am so tired dealing with this family #either give me a job or kill me now #im honestly tired

[bunnihearted]

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#it's so mentally draining nd taxing for me to live w my family... #they are never considerate towards me and always treat me like a bother #even after my surgery my sisters kept making sure i knew i was a burden and took up too much space #i could tell how sick my mom is of me too #it's just so exhausting #bc like now when i only slept 3hrs bc of tooth pain nd then couldnt sleep more #nd now still have tooth pain nd im rlly tired nd need to wake up early tmrw to call the dentist #my mom nd sister r in the living room watching tv #so i asked if they could plz be mindful of the volume #nd they sighed nd rolled their eyes nd said yeah yeah whatever #like im an awful demanding person for even daring to ask them this #it's just not fun to have to deal w constantly #sorry im in pain nd i wanna try to sleep as much as i can but i cant even try when i can hear u laugh nd talk etc etc #just rathet be alone :(( #but yeah idek if i'll be able to sleep bc the pain isnt fun #im trying to just breathe nd accept that it is there nd that hopefully the dentist can help T-T #am i bad for wishing to be shown consideration nd sympathy? sometimes i even wanf them to feel sorry for me

[kanene-yaaay-o-retorno]

Random au because I can't stop thinking about this:

On the doc Mike and Pac found in the prison said that if Walter Bob completed that specific task he would be free from the jail/no longer a prisoner, right? (MY memory isn't the best so maybe this is a bit wrong but that is what we have for today folks augstwfwywfrqcw)

So

What if one day he finishes the task and Cucorucho with a smile brings him to another federation building and asks him to get into a room

So

Days later Fit is asked to clean a room, no big deal, another day of honest work where he starts lurking around looking for anything that could be useful for him and his mission

And then, in another place that he isn't suppose to be, but that he got into anyway is a... something. In the corner. It's small, it's scared, maybe even trembling a little bit and tired, very tired.

It's an egg.

When he enters, it turns around to face him and Fit freezes for a second because now he can clearly read the name on top of the kid.

"Walter Bob"

Well, he isn't coming out of that building alone.

Also! For fluff purposes! Imagine he bringing him to show Pac and Mike, like, Walter Bob doesn't have the memories of Before but he can't help but feel at ease around those "strangers" and their vibrant, lively energy, especially because they seem to like be around him as well, always full of hugs and itens and new places to show around.

Ramon being a good older brother! Showing him how to explode things and being perfect to bring his more quiet and chaotic side.

The fact that before he couldn’t remember ever having a bed just the cold metal of the cell and the guards shouting and pain and experiments and cold cold cold

But now it's different! Now he has a family, people from everywhere smiling and talking to him and helping and saying strange, kind things like that their house is his as well and that if he ever ever need he could call

And then Forever reforms the NINHO to have another room and Bad calls him to chat while making his buildings and Baghera gives him a bunch of invisible potions so they can hang around listening to gossips and Philza is always chill in letting him visit and Foolish laugh and goof around like nothing could ever go wrong everytime he gets too anxious and Mike and Pac are there and...

And Richas gives him beautiful paintings to put in his room and Dapper show him all his cool animal collection and Leo take him to a train ride and Tallulah helps him to decorate his room and...

And and and

(And the hope is there, it hurts too much to bare sometimes, like it's a knife that already cut him before.

But little by little, with time, the wounds begins to heal)

#this is literally me in despair for any kind of fluff with Walter bob pls mah man already suffered SO MUCH #and yeah I feel like this outcome is very ooc but WELL OH WELL what is this??? logic in my au #??? no thanks I will take the domestic fluff #qsmp #qsmp au #maybe I will write an oneshot for this later #i really just want them to be a big family aaaaa ♡♡♡♡ #walter bob #ALSO THIS GIVES CHANCE FOR PAC AND FIT GET CLOSER I MEAN COUGH COUGH CO-PARENTING AM I RIGHT #watch Mike discovers that fit has a new egg and it's Walter Bob and suddenly getting all his things and moving to Fit's house #w Pac following behind like 'sorry sorry we're all like a package deal now yeah I don’t think Mike is gonna let him go for some time sooo... #Sleepover time :DDDD #(Mike would like to just get Walter Bob and run for it but he doesn’t want to wake any bad memory so :( #also the angst potential of them realizing that he holds no memory of his past. of what they have lived together in that prison. #of Walter Bob sometimes seeing the fed buildings he did and feeling an horrible dread overcoming him for some reason. #the way that he is tired most of the time and how visiting some places makes him have such a strong sense of dejavu #yeah yeah anyway I am. full of thoughts. #Pac #Mike #Fit

[thebirdandhersong]

hey will be off tumblr for the rest of the week - things are Happening again and my head feels ready to explode.........would really appreciate prayer again. I'm constantly feeling like I'm on the brink of something (I don't KNOW what) terrible and I need to figure things out without before my body really DOES decide to shut down from the stress and the strange depressive dread that has been very difficult to shake this month. I would like to not feel like crying or throwing up at certain points in the day and also would like to not be so exhausted in the heart and mind area so that I can actually deal with these things. Especially since finals are looming ahead

#wish i had my support network but what with all my friends being so busy #with school work engagements marriage pregnancies housing issues #and my priests both up to their ears in work and all my older sister figures #having issues and more important things to deal with and my family being one of the sources of high stress #i dont have anyone to talk to or go to at the moment #so i need to figure that out before i have another health crisis because my body's starting to give up on me #(again) #on top of that there needs to be planning in place for the summer and next fall and graduation #i just want to stick my head in the ground like an ostrich and stay there!!!! instead of wading through this mess during midterm season #and having to start finals the WEEK after midterms end #complaining again sorry #i am so tired and trying to be cheerful/distracting myself only lasts a few hours #im trying. i promise im trying. but the world seems rather bleak right now #and it is very hard not to feel so very alone #anyway i love you all and i'll see you soon

[starsailores]

being hard of hearing while young is like. people dont believe you. or they find a way of making it seem like your hearing problems are entirely your own fault. or they just dont give a fuck. and youre in this constant state of being unaware of the full extent of what is going on around you, and no matter what you say, it never fucking changes. i am so tired

#rare tumblr user starsailores vent post. i will almost definitely delete this later #feeling a lot of directionless rage courtesy of the comorbities and this one was easiest to verbalise semi coherently #been partially deaf for four years. it is a genetic problem and something i will have to deal with for life #and yet. no accommodations from family. every doctor i have seen has done absolutely fuck all. hell the nhs doesnt even fucking cover it #almost had a meltdown mid-seminar because of it i am so fucking tired

[bootyful-seventeen]

i am too mentally exhausted to even deal with this shit anymore with my mom and grandma and low key wish i'd go comatose for a few years to be left alone tbh

#had a clean up service come by to see the damage and give a quote on the estimate and my grandma wasnt having it #she got upset and started crying to them about she has only 1 daughter and is trying to help her and they're trying to tell her that keepin #all that junk isn't gonna be helping anyone especially my mom but she wasn't getting it and i said i'm not helping clean the junk that's #all around the house cuz i'm tired of it all and having to manage my emotions since i am for sure emtotionally stunted from my childhood #and have to deal with a schitzophrenic mom and an absent sister who's balls deep in denial while i'm struggling to find a job here #and my grandma always stressing me ot saying she's gonna kick me out isn't fucking helping here at all like she thinks it does #so when they left she spent all day sobbing on the phone how i'm a terrible granddaughter who wants to throw out good stuff #when i'm not gonna keep helping sell shit for my mom cuz my sister can do it as her family contribution since she did nothing since dad die #and the thing is i gave them all options on clearing shit out cuz i know this family by now and shit doesn't get tossed but it migrates #cuz i said months ago i can ask some friends if they could come down and help sort and declutter #grandma said no to that and said she'll kick me out if i do it and she didn't want to pay for my mom's shit to get moved into a storage uni #she leaves the clean up to my mom and i think the backyard got worse but she didn't call anyone to throw out the junk like she threatened t #so i call a fucking hoarders clean up service cuz that's what my family is on my mom's side at this point and the city will be called too #and she has this reaction cries all day and calls everyone to say i'm horrible and yells at me saying i'm the one killing her with stress #when she's already been doing that for months to herself when i'm just tired and possibly mildly depressed or something idk #i barely leave my room and don't go outside except to walk my dog but idk cuz my family's attittude was we don't go to doctors cuz #cuz they're for crazy people but of course it's gotta switch up for my mom and no one else and i'm just sick of it all #grandma doesn't accept free help and she won't accept help that i pay for myself with my money set aside for school so i'm done #unlike her when i say i'll do something i stick to it so i'm not doing shit anymore unless i can call a friend to help with this mess #it's gonna sound like such a horrible thing but i can't wait for my family to die so i can live in a clean home again and get help #like deep serious help cleaning and big time grief councelling cuz i barely had time to process my dad's death and being the one to find hi #and that was just this february like god i am going to need so much fucking therapy in my future it's almost rediculous #and probably say screw my mom's side and visit my dad's side a lot more since they seem to be the normal ones in this shit family tree #at least they're not stupid and leave junk everywhere where one neighbour getting sick of not being able to sit outside and enjoy their yar #without mountains of junk staring them right in the face and landing a notice from the city to clean up especially since #we have chainlink fences and at least 7 neighbours can see the backyard and everyone can see the front porch when passing by #i'm just tired of living in these suffocating households and even wanna file a report myself to kick them into gear #its horrible living like this and no one should live surrounded by junk and things they never use or even garbage

[soothingmoonlight]

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#i regret ever joining the silmarillion fandom.... #it has become nothing but a source of pain and frustration to me #it is a place for people who only like certain characters but not others #and i am so so SO freakin' tired of all the horrible takes on feanor especially in regards to his family situation #amongst other horrible takes on him of which there are plenty #now i understand why so many of the people i used to follow 5-6 years ago have deactivated their accounts and left the fandom #at some point you just give up for the sake of your own mental health #i will reblog the posts i have liked so far and after that i am done with it #DONE for good #i will never stop loving feanor for he will forever remain one my favourite literary characters #i will just stop dealing with other people's insufferable edgy hot takes #i will find other things to enjoy and be happy #personal

[scattered-winter]

i am so tired. so goddamn infinitely tired.

#the whooooole family is coming over tonight and tomorrow for the funeral and like i love most of them. #but i literally do not have the energy to deal with All The Chaos that comes with family gatherings. like PLEASE #i am literally hanging on by my fingertips rn it is taking every bit of my energy just to help with food prep and funeral planning #i am just sooooooo tired. so very very very very very tired. #winter speaks #personal #grief tag #still cant believe im gonna be going to 2 funerals in the span of a few months. #how the fuck do all the people i care about start suddenly dropping like flies. what the fuck

[girlwithfish]

im in a really irritable mood rn i dont know why. Lolol

#i had a good day but everything just feels off #🫡🫡🫡 #dont really want to talk to my family and i feel my mom is playing some passive aggressive shit ppssibly #idk its my adoption day today not rly a big deal but even my dad txted me to say happy family day to me but my mom didnt maybe shes salty #i wasnt home🥹🥹🥹😭 #Idk im jjst so tired #i wish i lived alone #And idk i slept really fkn ba dlast night idk #I am not comfortable or happy anywhere.

[nowendil]

whooooo having an anxiety attack about covid. again 👍

#cw negative #cw vent #nowe talks #it's hard to describe what about it is the worst source of anxiety for me. it's not What If I Get It. it's mostly just. it's just. #i sometimes feel like our society has just forgotten that it's a thing. or that society has forgotten that it's A SERIOUS THING. #like this thing that Kills People. #i know it's not lethal to most people but it still is a very serious thing! #why have we as a society shifted from “protecting the people most affected is a collective responsibility #(via vaccination and masking and not showing up to places sick)“ #to “well what if all the people belonging to risk groups just deal with this on their own and the rest of us go back to normal?” #idk man maybe i'm sensitive because my grandma died of covid a week before Christmas last year. #or because both of my parents are over 60 and my dad has another risk factor illness on top of that. #idk man. i just feel so. unsafe. unsure and scared and tired. i just dont want other people to go through what our family did last december #i want to stress that i'm not blaming any individual people for this. #my frustration is almost solely directed towards the goverment not taking covid seriously enough #and like i'm not perfect. i'm not sure what's the right thing to do and what's me overreacting. #i recognize that i am often incapable of thinking clearly about this subject #sometimes i feel like i am the only one in my circle (family included) who is this worried about it still. i'm not blaming my loved ones #i'm not saying i'm better than them that's not it. i just. sometimes i just feel so alone with this #and idk how to make it better? #like i have good moments and bad moments with this anxiety. it comes and goes. but. idk. #i think her death's anniversary coming closer combined with the rising covid numbers in my country is just doing a number on me

[anirudhpisharody]

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#alright these tags are super embarrassing but i needed to rant publicly so uh. you can read this but please don't perceive me too much #it is so fucking exhausting having nobody to share my life with #i have literally zero friends at this point bc ever since my grandpa died i've pretty much stopped trying to keep in touch with my hometown #friends and i cut off my 'friend' group that were racist assholes who treated me like a doormat back in october and haven't really made any #close friends at college since. and i just fucking hate that this is the same way i've felt for so many fucking years like you'd think it #would be bearable at this point and i'd be used to being alone and for a while i honestly was but it just hit me tonight how fucking lonely #i am and how tomorrow i have to keep on just doing the shit i have to do in life without anyone to talk to and share it with #other than my mom who's been pissing me off lately so i've been pushing her away too! #it's so tiring to have to go out and do things and have responsibilities everyday and not being able to share that with anyone idk it makes #it feel almost like i'm carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders which is SO dramatic i know #like today i wanted to talk about the stupid false alarm gas leak thing with my sort of friends in this club i'm in but i didn't get to talk #to anyone at the meeting bc everyone was just talking amongst themselves in their little groups of best friends and it just reminded me that #i don't have that and i've never fucking had that i've only ever pretended i had that #it's like all these years i've been pretending to be a person that has friends and knows how to live life normally but i never have #more than anything i just miss my friends from home bc they're the closest i've ever felt to having friends that are like family but. i #don't know how to talk to them anymore. i didn't tell any of them when my grandpa died and i think they just assumed that i've moved on so #they've probably moved on and i already know that they have their own lives and friends at their schools that are a lot more full than mine #wanna know the worst part about all of this? i just had therapy and basically told her everything's fine #and i won't meet with her again until 3 weeks from now so literally the only person i can talk to about this right now is my mom #which i am absolutely not gonna do bc she's gonna get so scared and worried for me and i can't have that rn #anyways yeah. this isn't even that big of a deal like i haven't had friends for at least the past 6 months it's not like anything's changed #i just feel extra sad about it right now. i need a distraction stat gonna go watch watch some tv goodnight #shut up hanna

[babisawyer]

cracking open a pibb like it's a nice cold beer

#🐇 #I am going THROUGH IT #I am so fucking tired of being the emotional donkey for my family lmfao #and it's like....I don't wanna shove this onto someone else either! like some fucked up stuff is happening and that's not someone else's #problem to deal with so I have to just like stew on it until I get over it I guess #and like unfortunately pilates can't fix this only like........an act of god can

[morningmask27]

i've accidentally been thinking too hard for the last two hours about my family and a trio of fictional siblings and the trauma's that I experienced and the shit they went through... Accidentally made some discoveries...

#morningtalks #Love psychoanalyzing myself at 3 am #I wanted to sleep early... #All that for wanting to fix my sleep schedule... #Anyways. I just stumbled upon the fact I had no actual parental figure in my childhood. #I had my mother who was working or at home tired from working or sick and dealing with Problems #My grandparents who dealt with my physical needs (sometimes to an overbearing degree) but I couldn't go to them #Not for personal matters anyway. #That was kinda still my mother's role. But simply because there was nobody else #And my own sister has this sort of weird stop where she kinda acted more like a weird aunt to me than a sister. 9 year age difference and a #But that was only in my teens and later. Before that I would go to my mother. Be briefly tolerated and then sent away because she was busy. #And I couldn't go to my grandparents so I was just Dealing With It. #Fun fact. I have had a serious gimmick of being a teachers' pet since I was 8 or so. It definitely came from my lack of adults that cared #For my emotional needs. I was going through DRAMA at school and they were basically the ones I had to turn to. #Ah.... Family. What a fun thing!

[justinefrischmanngf]

i need to get over myself and learn the languages i want to learn if i want to learn them like i just need to do it if i want to learn them then i should go out and learn them and like . fuck whatever else any of it means . yes it IS embarrassing to learn a language like the ones i want to learn as an adult but who CARES and yes i KNOW my grandparents will never want to speak to me in those languages but who CARES if it's important to me it can be important to me anyway

#had a moment last night bc i was apparently having an identity crisis which was random #but i had a moment where i was like well even if i learn all these languages no one in my family is going to want to speak to me #in those languages because of [insert reasons i don't need to go into here] and so ultimately none of this is like . cultural Really #it's just me wanting to feel as though i am connected to something when i will never be #and maybe that's true or maybe it isn't but if i want to learn them i should learn them anyway like . at the end of the day #i DO want to learn those languages and i think it would be interesting and i would love to be able to speak to people #in those languages even if the people i speak to aren't related to me and i would love to be able to speak languages that aren't english #and that all stays true even if i am not able to have the cultural connection through language with my own family #like i can go on and on about how disconnected i feel from my culture bc of everything that has ever happened in my life #but how i still feel alienated bc i'm Not White to white people and all of that is true but not learning a language doesn't make it #any better and maybe learning a language won't make it better either but i think it's a better use of my time #ALSO !!!!! NO ONE EVER GOES OH WHY WLD U LEARN FRENCH OR SPANISH [OR INSERT EUROPEAN LANG HERE] u have no real cultural connection to it!!! #so like why is it different bc i want to learn asian languages??? it's not! except in my head! or maybe irl too but i'm just saying #that i think i make all of this a much bigger deal than it has to be #that being said i did just try to look up classes and they r all for children and about keeping children culturally connected 2 their famil #l m f a o but that can't be ALL the classes ............. i'll work it out is what i'm saying and i need 2 get OVER myself #bc none of it is that deep and i can feel conflicted all i like but i should fucking DO smth about it at least #anyway i am posting this in the hopes that i can beat it into my own head bc i am sick and tired of being weird about learning #languages and i need 2 get over my weird cultural identity issues if i want to like . live a life where i don't want to explode and die

[ace-no-isha]

i’m literally a mother why am i enrolling my brother into a school rn

#eldest asian daughter yadda yadda yadda #i’m not even the oldest but i’ve always been the one who filled out the school forms #i filled out my OWN school forms since at least middle school #i always say my family functioned like two little sets of siblings for the longest #me being the eldest of the younger four and my older sister dealing with my brother #but i did HIS school registration too #screams #i’m the eldest daughter at home rn tho lol #older sister moved #i am so tired #i can’t wait to move out too one day

[thecatandthemoon]

so my car got hit and the people were nice enough to actually stay and tell me that they hit my car

anyway my car is being claimed as a total loss now and I’m just so upset, stressed, and frustrated at everything

everything from why I live in car-dystopia, to my family’s unhelpful suggestions, to the delay this has caused in everything else in my life... and yes, of course the financial burden

so you know what I go and do? I shut down go to sleep and cry a fuck ton because that solves problems

tomorrow I’m going to have to drag myself up by the bootstraps and actually deal with it because I have to be an adult

#screaming into the void #I'm just getting this out there #I'm so tired of not being in a walkable city where I can just walk everywhere I want #I had this discussion with my sister and she kept insisting that I live in the suburbs #WHY #I hate that I can't even reason with my family #and on top of this they're insisting I sue the family that actually didn't hit and run me #my dad's method of dealing with this is to immediately start shouting at everyone #and the worse thing is that I'm behind in my master's and don't know what I'm doing with it #and I've been commissioned to do art I'm not being paid to do or want to do #nor do they even care what my art style is and just want me to copy another style #and I can't say no because it's FAMILY #maybe I'll say my tablet pen broke so I can just cry instead of drawing #I know these are not real problems but privileged problems but yes I am upset anyway