#im extremely bad at explaining

[mineyardjostenrivalry]

You know I get it.

#let’s make this a chain post #everyone know this iconic sentence #so just reblogg and add the next sentence that comes after whatever sentence you just reblogged #im extremely bad at explaining #but you know what I mean I’m sure of it #let’s just create this entire speech with rebloggs #aftg #all for the game #mutuals #aftg fandom #neil josten #andrew minyard #andriel #aftg riko #Riko roast #you know i get it

[taegularities]

some men are textbook villains fr

#tw religion? #kinda need to rant.. kinda wanna explain what's going on #some ppl are part of humanity but don't know how to be humane... like the guy i started talking to almost 2 weeks ago #liked him a lot bc he was funny sickeningly sweet mature and understanding.. until he was not #tl dr version is that we somehow drifted to the topic religion and i told him im not too religious and don't believe in superstition much #i was extremely respectful and even when he said that he does believe a lot i was like 'thats cool!! different people believe in different #things!!' and at first it was a normal convo until man went all psycho on me (after one damn week!!!) and started talking about how #id have to be religious in a relationship with him.. my dude i barely know your fav food can we not talk about relationships yet #but he says he doesn't even need a woman who cooks/cleans just someone who believes.. n im like i get it but i can't change myself like that #and then guy moves to marriage and is all 'well my entire family is religious' n my mom and sister (who's 16) would be putting pressure on #you n force you to pray etc.. and I'm like???? who can force anyone to a thing like that are u kidding #things escalate and my absolute STUPID ass tells him about my deepest fkn trauma to explain what made me abandon religion bc #life just never got better and this trauma remained for yrs... and he gets so angry that he says he wants to stop talking to me just to spam #me all day next day.. he'd keep messaging me switching between 'i still want you we shouldn't throw this away i have feelings for you' #AFTER A WEEEEEEKKKK!!! and then goes back to 'i wasted my time with you you were so unnecessary im in a bad mood bc of you' #even said 'you'll never find a guy with a trauma and mindset like this. i will find a religious girl but no one will love you like that' #and the worst thing is that he told his friends and mom about the trauma i had just to spite me.. note that he promised to never tell anyone #(and then still asked for forgiveness and for me to rethink whether we want to end this after telling me 473626x he wanted to end it) #(nothing even ever started you bitchass) #also note that his mom knows my mom n basically most of my relatives.. so i was here trembling for days fearing they'd get to know about it #mom somehow convinced her to not tell anyone bc it's important to me and very very fucking personal.. #but he harassed me all day - i wouldn't answer and he'd send 55 messages.. multiple missed calls like dude i got so fkn scared #my heart jumped whenever he texted he was so fkn aggressive and SO MEAN #'you just needed to adjust and we would've been okay' 'tell me are u gonna fkn be religious or not????' 'you ruined everything' kinda mean #i just :') it was the worst time and i don't think i've ever seen someone degrade me so much or make me feel this defective #but.. it's finally over. his mom called my mom and mine was like pls teach him some manners.. n since i couldn't and wouldn't text him back #and literally avoided whatsapp bc of him she ended it all for me and now it's hopefully done forever #anyway i saw jks gcf performance yday n him singing still with you put a genuine smile on my face.. ill stick to THAT boyfriend honestly lol #def gonna delete later #but ty for reading if u did <3

[thisisadonaldduckblognow]

the way i rewatch any part of rottmnt and once again come away from canon leo wondering where the actual heck are people getting this “oohhhh he only thinks he’s good for self sacrifice or as a tool, he has absolutely zero self worth whatsoever” instead of the canon version who’s kind of a manipulative lil stinker and KNOWS he has stuff to bring to the table but isn’t sure how to be Seen

it’s not that he thinks he’s worthless or not wanted. i fuckin promise you that about rise leo. he does not seriously think he is unloved or unwanted or ~one mistake away from being dropped by his own family~ or whatever

what he IS is rejection-sensitive in the way that makes any time he fails feel like the end of the world to HIM (setting aside that time he messed up and it did literally trigger the near-apocalypse and near deaths of him and his family lol), so he’d rather not try than risk messing up

#rottmnt #if i woobified raph the way ppl do leo itd be like 3k word essay on how #idk #the ms cuddles prank was actually extremely cruel and insensitive and CLEARLY why raph had so many trust issues #esp w his dad laughing at him etc etc etc etc like #i dont get it i really dont!!!! #like even as far as the movie goes raph kinda. suffered.... more. yk. #im not big on suffering olympics but like. #raph also self sacrificed and got physically beat up in the big alien fight #AND tortured AND mutated AND mind probed AND controlled into hurting his own family #raph literally starts the movie trying to explain to leo how it is HIS JOB to keep their whole family safe and ready for the next struggle #his entire finale arc is about how tied into the identity of protector and carrying them all he really is and how bad that is on him #fandom makes me so mad when the canon material itself i always enjoy and want to pick apart even for leo #(who frankly im burnt out on! bc of the overwhelming attention he always gets!)

[soldier-poet-king]

Mmmmm reading systems collapse and the deep persistent ache abt murderbot and ART's friendship. Btw. If u even care.

#fran reads #head full of many thots but i need to finish the book first #but fundamentally. their friendship is absolutely my fave thing about the series #i am. very attached to them. #but like. emotions. non human personhood. extreme anxiety risk assessment constantly running #too many big bad emotions idk how to process so i am going to watch media about it #and then explain my life experiences via narrative features from said media bc idk how else to be a person or relate to the world #like!!! i get it!!!! my awkward not a real person ass is out here like!!!! i do that!!!! #its not bc i dont want to live and have real experiences its bc idk how and i was a weird isolated kid and a neurodivergent adult #and thats how i understand the world!!! #it is v big and scary and terrible and beautiful and having a frame of reference via fictional narrative to process ur owj experiences #its crucial???? #and i don't mean in a terminally online cannot separate ficiton from reality way #i mean in a storytelling is what ppl do way. not just to be entertained. but to reflect ourselves and understand ourselves. and each other!! #im!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #ART's you know i am not kind. to mb when it insists it wouldve been kinder to kill it #I WEPT

[macroglossus]

being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED

#which is dumb bc i have been formally diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses i dont think they can just take it back right????? #this is so stupid and cliche but what if i have been faking it........ all along........ Argh. #when i was in res i was put on adderall (bc the house psych just kind of experimented w meds LMFAO) and i had to go off them after like #two weeks bc it was affecting my appetite in a way i couldnt afford at the time lmao. but i do genuinely feel like it helped during that #time.... which is why i want to go on it again!!!! but im scared theyll just be like nah and i wont be able to take any of my meds anymore #is that crazy. am i being crazy rn. idk i truly do think most of my experiences w school and like. life could be explained by adhd and #when i was a kid they thought i had it but the two meds they tried didnt work for me so they just. kind of gave up #and i was really extremely unable to do school and graduated hs w an insanely low gpa and then dropped out of community college. LMAO. not #that people w adhd cant be good in school i just couldnt make myself do homework and couldnt listen in class bc i was too busy focusing on #listening. if that makes sense #IDK. idk. i know it's become like. a trend to have adhd is the issue and everything is being attributed to having it so im worried that ive #like. accidentally fallen in w that? even though ive thought i had it for forever and everyone has been like girl do you have this. IDK!!!! #idk. idkkkk im just like. genuinely scared. it's not the end of the world if im not diagnosed obviously but that means that #im just like this for no reason at all. and there's no way of helping it bc it's just the way i am. and i actually am just shitty n lazy. #epic. which incidentally is the proper name for how fucking long these tags are my bad. if you read this far sorry for being insane 👍

[iknaenmal]

okay. today i will go on a difficult mission. i might not come back (will ask i friend if they want to hang out)

#IN MY DEFENSE ILL SAY THAT SHES A REALLY COOL FRIEND OKAY ? #shes like. so easy to talk to and shes so cool and she is so funny and shes the only person i know irl who is into homestuck!!! #well kinda #and she has had an extremely good impact in my life as in !! idk she has made me more confident? idk how to explain that #THE THING IS. i met her less than a year ago but shes extremely important to me and i love talking to her #and i would love hanging out with her more #SO. today. im gonna tell her that im gonna go watch spiderverse this aaturday and im gonna ask her if she wants to come #i will see her today bc we both go to a club for neurodivergent people #but im not gonna ask her there that would be stupid. also i would feel bad for not inviting the rest of our clubmates (? as well #i already do but hngggn. idk #anyways im gonna ask her later when i come back home it will probably be p late but thats okay #or hm. i usually stay longer than im supposed to stay and she does too i could ask her then but i probably wont :/ #WELL WHATEVER. #honestly im p sure i wont actually ask her.. the idea is nice but i dont have enough skills for that i think. oh well we will see #ikna talks #oops sorry for rambling. sorry sjssnsjskl

[liquidstar]

I'm glad the "Satire requires a clarity of purpose and target lest it be mistaken for and contribute to that which it intends to criticize" meme is getting critiqued in its usage because... While the sentiment itself is absolutely true... I feel like sometimes, perhaps, it's not a work of fiction's fault that you're personally bad at picking up on satire

#im thinking about how i saw a person say futurama is bad because bad things still exist in the future #and its like. thats the point though? #the joke is literally the idea that if we never learn and grow from these problems as a society these are the hyperbolic extremes #that they would come to etc etc #do i think it was all well handled? probably not. it had a 14 year run im sure it fumbled lots of stuff and has shit that doesnt hold up #but i feel like dismissing it entirely based on just- #''but bad stuff happens. and i want the future to be better so this bums me out'' is just dumb LOL like thats literally the point #theyre taking the problems of today and making them into crazy hyperbolic extremes to mock them THATS WHAT SATIRE IS #there is a clarity of purpose youre just bad at picking up on it. NIXON WAS THE FUCKING PRESIDENT IN THAT SHOW FOR CHRIST SAKE #WHAT ELSE DO YOU THINK ''AMERICA'S FAVORITE SUICIDE BOOTH SINCE ****2008****'' COULD MEAN? #idk. this site is bad media literacy r us why take it seriously. but i am. bc its frustrating #bc that quote on its own is sooooo good at explaining why some ''satire'' is bad and doesnt work #but ppl who dont know how to engage w media beyond a surface level have taken it and turned it into like #''this is bad bc i didnt get it'' ok. sounds like a you problem. #but posting this is scary bc im afraid itll be used for the other extreme .-.

[aeide-thea]

truly just SUCH a typical tumblr experience but like.

Familiar Tumblr Name makes a post that's like: 'you know how fast fashion perpetuates itself by selling us clothing that gets dingy and grody really fast, so we have to replace it yearly?'

me: uh, no, actually—historically i've found that the few fast fashion pieces i acquired long outstayed their welcome, and were perfectly wearable long after i was heartily sick of them! but go on, i guess

FTN: 'let me tell you about this traditional domestic wisdom (implied: that's been lost because of, uh, capitalism) that will fix this problem (that you, too, definitely have) for you!'

me, googling: okay so this residue that FTN said was somehow a Fast Fashion thing is apparently generally caused by like. fabric softener and/or hard water. using discount detergents that skimp on active ingredients. using too much detergent so it doesn't wash out. letting your bedding go too long between washes. letting your washer go too long between cleans. etc. anyway. lots of specific factors here, many of which may in fact not apply to you in particular!

but like. why get specific when instead we could assert You Know This Problem, Right? This Lost Traditional Wisdom Will Definitely Help You Personally!!

#just like. makes me mad as rhetoric bc like. *i* can evaluate yr Dramatic Tumblr Post critically and do independent research abt it #and determine how much of it applies to me #and like. the answer is: basically none but it's a good reminder to clean the washing machine‚ thx #but like. there are loads of ppl in the notes just like. nodding along very wide-eyed #to whom this ALSO may not be applicable but who have lapped up yr sloppy demagoguery #and it's just like. [FTN] admits *in this post* that they don't actually know all the ins and outs of this #and it's just like. then probably you shouldn't be climbing onto your soapbox to explain it to people just yet!! #and telling people to get Righteously Angry that this has been Kept From Them #anyway. extremely specific subtweet and honestly the consequences of blindly taking OP's advice would probably not be too bad #but it's just like. i get really frustrated with these bloggers who want to Dispense Advice #but aren't actually experts themselves‚ don't provide any citations for their assertions‚ and claim that things are Universally Applicable #which is just. never true!! people's situations vary!!! #and like. if everyone were equipped to critically evaluate this shit it'd be fine‚ probably #but they're not! people are like 'oh wow you sound confident‚ okay‚ information integrated into my worldview now!' #and it's just like. i realize the subject matter here is relatively low-stakes but it's like. the KIND of rhetoric here is. weird. #very like. There's Been a Conspiracy and You Should Believe Me Because I Sound Confident and Friendly and Like I'm On Your Side. #Reject the Innovations of Capitalism. Retvrn to the Old Ways. #and it's just like. hm what politicians does that remind me of! #anyway. sorry for this very vehement very specific subtweet i just. idk. genuinely think this strain of tumblr demagoguery is pernicious #and like. lots of it is perpetrated by liberals!! most of it ime! but it's the same damaging dynamic even so

[punkshitposts]

something I think is actually hilarious is that if you go left enough you start having more stances in common with (individual) conservatives, and if you go right enough you start agreeing with (individual) leftists. like i have a pretty close friend who's self described as "just far enough right that I hate politicians" , whom I hard disagree with his overarching political stances. but the finer details of it... yeah we agree with each other. gun control/gun rights opinions taxation opinions pro-small government opinions slight separatist opinions anti two party opinions anti-corporation opinion ect ect ect.

we stand on opposite sides of a standard political compass but I genuinely think if I were to count stats, I'd agree with as many of his stances as I would a liberals/democrats stances. my hs gov teacher described the difference in right vs left to us as "everyone's goal here is the betterment of mankind, they just think the best ways to do it are different" and that's literally the best way, to me, to describe what the difference in right vs left is regarding anarchism specifically. we got ESSENTIALLY the same opinion but the ways we think are the best ways to go about enacting said opinion are what makes us different. and something abt that is really painfully funny to me. envisioning a world where an-something is the major world thing, not capitalism.... and there's STILL right vs left... but The Anarchist Versions. christ.

sorry for the book i wrote in the tags. ignore typos I am NOT retyping any of that to fix them xoxo

#this is a controversial post to post here ik. however i think can we all agree that echo chambers and bubbles aren't... good. #and i think something that gets forgotten a lot by leftists is that there ARE anarchists on the right #yes we are EXTREMELY different but its important to like. remember that should The revolution come in our lifetimes their still gonna exist #and political disagreement on an individual scale CAN and SHOULD be civil so long as neither party is coming from a bigoted stance. #as in.. no i dont agree with a good chuck of what his stances but by disagree i just think hes wrong abt economics bros not like. a bigot. #in this same vain i also think (myself included) people shouldn't conflate conservativism with racists and homophobes. t #theres proud gay conservatives and conservatives who are poc... erasing those people means we cannot know of how the other side works. #i genuinely believe that if i were to go read every political theory book on right leaning politics id fine something uniquely republican #/right/whatever that i would agree with and then adapt into my own politics. im sure at least one of the unique-to-the-right stances has #actually standing and isn't a load of shit (again probably something economic rather than social). #and thats not a bad thing and if you think it is a actually don't know how to explain it to you! we MUST critically but civilly interact #with political opinions mirroring our own to 1 understand other people 2 fully understand and develope our own stances and why we have em #i genuinely find political conversations with that friend extremely enlightening even if we both walk away still set in unchanged opinions. #because it means i understand WHY others drift to those options but more importantly why /i/ drifted to my own

[pepprs]

ok im back home. i had another huge breakdown last night as soon as we drove away from the airport (it really started waiting at the gate for the plane LMAO but i had to suppress the tears for 3 hours bc i was surrounded by people 💖) and when i texted my therapist she didn’t reply LOL and now i have to go to work in an hour and work a full day and catch up on everything i missed while i was gone and be extremely normal and act like i am not bleeding out from the open wound in my heart rn. really not doing good. i think i need to go on depression and anxiety meds and should have been on meds all along. i truly can’t keep living like this abd im scared of what will happen if i do

#purrs #im going to skip class tonight and see if i can have a session w her instead but i have to contact my professors and explain myself and also #my carpool and explain myself and i just . really dont have the strength to do that when im in the middle of whatever massive mental health #episode im having but it’s really bad. i want to just drop the class at this point. and we have a new staff member joining us today for her #first day so i have to be extremely normal but i feel like bursting into tears and sobbing hysterically and yet again i have to suppress it

[anti-transphobia]

What it's like being a narcissist in a group chat with other narcissists

#npd #narcissist #for people without npd who wouldn't get this and think it's just needlessly judgy: it's not #connecting with other people with cluster b disorders is great. it can feel like home to have other people that actually understand #however. narcissists interacting can be like holding up a mirror and it can be VERY annoying #and not even like. in a bad way. npd servers force you to learn to deal with that shit in a healthy way #pissed off because someone else is seeking attention and youre the only one who deserves praise? #well if you be rude to them because of it people aren't going to return the favour for you when you start wanting praise #narcissists love having traits that they hate to see in anyone else. and being around other narcissists helps force people to cope w that #so like. i love pwnpd. sometimes i see a post by someone with it and am like wow....just like me #other times im like 'wow thats extremely toxic/dumb/immature/attention seeking. im so much better than you' even if its also something i do #or if its something similar to what i do but not exact #im trying to explain it the best i can without rambling forever in the tags but basically: this is not hostility #this is simply a hilarious ‚ ironic consequence of having npd #and i post this with so much love in my heart #as a narcissist i think narcissists are a bit too full of themselves and i know they feel the same way about me <3 mutual respect

[themyscirah]

Started thinking about the Amanda Waller + Ben Turner relationship again.... fuck, I'm gonna need a minute

#I JUST- SHDIAUDJSHDSHEYEYRYRYRY guys. guys #i know none of you see my vision and thats okay. i will make you see my vision. i will force you to see my vision. i will- #like jesus fucking christ oh my god. its so interesting and gives me so many emotions and just!!! #i know im not making sense bc none of my moots are sui sq fans and also like half of the content fucking me up specifically here is in my #head because i cant stop thinking about my absolute power fix it au but like!!!!!!! #also the fact i have a fix it for a comic that isnt out yet is so funny to me. its literally fucking real though. god knows we need it #may my own content carry me through the dark times (extreme villain waller arc) #anyways this fucks me up so bad you dont even know. someday ill actually explain it #dc hire me to write a suicide squad ongoing PLEASE. i could do it so good it would be so fucking good dc PLEASE 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #also like this isnt me shipping them btw. like 110% not that. just to clarify. #i wouldnt even call it a friendship bc like. theyre not friends really. he has the most equal dynamic with her i would say but it still isnt #equal. shes v much his boss even though they have an understanding and respect there #like she believes and trusts in him much more than anybody really even himself. like she sees the good man and the leader even when he #doesnt. but she isnt nice about it. and there is a lot of conflict between them when there needs to be #like as much as ben is “wallers man”--the team leader she wanted from the beginning before rick flagg pushed his way in #ben i would say is still a very moral person even when lost and unsure of himself and his goodness (which is like one of his main things) #like i feel like while amanda can lean very into a “the ends justify the means” mindset in her worse moments and do bad things to get #herself out of a corner ben has like a deep and meaningful understanding of how the choices of your methods and how you act can weigh on you #like even though he was brainwashed and whatnot (thats still the story right? i cant remember) he holds a lot of guilt and baggage over his #actions and i think is able to temper amanda's worse tendencies in terms of that by calling her out when he recognizes that behavior #idk. i just really think that amanda waller and the suicide squad as a whole has lost its way without a more moral authority presence there. #like someone who can call her out and keep them more on track. which i really thing ben is and could be #i just very much am interested in their dynamic and how that would look like as equals and how i think they could help each other. #which ofc is what my wip is about and revolves around #blah #sui sq

[lith-myathar]

.

#ever find yourself over-explaining something you did because you feel like you're about to get in trouble? even if it's something innocuous? #and you're trying so hard to Not Get in Trouble you start to feel like you're lying EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE NOT #sometimes one notices a behavior and it's like ''oh yeah. i spent my whole childhood being constantly criticised and living on the defensive #and now any time i feel like i MIGHT have made a mistake #even if there's no reason to think i did #i'll start trying to prove it wasn't my fault and get out in front of criticism before it even happens'' #note to self to remember i do stuff like this next time im questioning how bad it actually was #i act in these weird evasive prevaricating ways for no reason #i feel like i have to hide something when there's nothing worth hiding #it's all these weird reactions to living for so long in an environment where if i DID do something wrong #the resulting harsh criticism and verbal abuse was so bad that i started to be hyper vigilant #and always looking for things to excuse whatever id done #it suckkksssss in adulthood because it makes you act squirrelly and weird (read: suspicious #to someone who doesn't understand that kind of anxiety) AND if you do genuinely make a mistake #it's really hard not to get extremely defensive bc you're expecting to be emotionally demolished if you admit you were at fault #it's not a gr8 behavior and i hate when i catch myself doing it #ive gotten way better about that one in the last few years but only because i now live with people who are capable of regulating #even when they are angry with me.

[nyanspirals]

hm for the record i am still very much a communist and still very much support countries like the old USSR and the DPRK and i am 100% against NATO in 100% of the cases because NATO is nothing but a tool of imperialism that is always working for its own self interest no exceptions, no matter what that might mean for innocent civilians caught up in the crossfire. but like you CAN be against something while also being against what theyre against yk. idk where this idea that im a russia supporter comes from lol ive never said anything of the sorts. being willingly provoked into retaliation by NATO doesnt make russia a good guy it just makes NATO a bad guy who was working out of self interest

#neon.txt #i dont bother to make posts about my political views because its impossible to discuss with people who refuse to debate out of good faith #like no matter what i say the moment they hear 'the USSR was not evil actually' all liberals will understand is #'communism is flawless and i love putin and stalin did nothing wrong ever and there were no mistakes in the old USSR' #its just 🤷‍♂️ pointless. ive gotten facts wrong in the past thats for sure but like everytime i end up correcting myself in the end #but people never wanna bring up those cases 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️ #im saying this because grape asked me to explain myself and i think its a fair request 🫶 #TLDR modern russia very bad NATO bad as well #USSR was not flawless obviously but half of what you know of it is propaganda or things extremely lacking in context #i am always willing to debate these things but i ignore and block anybody who wants to debate out of bad faith #i am a communist. and i look up to real communist experiences for guidance and inspiration. both for their flaws AND their hits. #because there is absolutely no point to being a communist or being against capitalism if you arent willing to actually Do something about it #and Doing Something means there will be mistakes eventually. as is discussing politics. as much as i wish that was the case i cant #get my facts right 100% of the time lol sorry about that but like i am ALWAYS willing to listen to people who arent being bitches about it

[soldier-poet-king]

Big emotional day for les mis letters readers who are both deeply religious and deeply pro rev & social justice but also stricly non violence, by which I mean me and maybe 2 other people on the face of this earth

1.1.10 is THEE crux of the book politically and also my entire life problem and philosophy and this conversation haunts me every single time

#les mis letters #like. growing more and more radical as i grow more and more religious #but im also extreme anti violence #but also like i GET IT #yes reign of terror was bad but like. in the beginning some points were made wrt the philosophy of the frev? #MURDER IS ALWAYS WRONG. #but etc etc grieve for the aristo if you will grieve for the poor etc etc #CONFLICTING AND EXCRUCIATING TENSION #how do i explain that im increasingly radical BECAUSE im religious #and yes the thunderbolt is horrible. but you cannot blame it without examining 1500 years of gathering clouds #im truly. too fuckin soft for this life #thinking abt. how the guillotine cannot be neutral. one cannot see it and remain neutral #i think the issue being from an anglo country and raised super catholic. both very FREV haters (perhaps understandably) #but my big dumb idealistic heart is all about atonement and redemption and reconciliation and justice and mercy #and balancing all of that is the hardest shit in the world #im just. the conventionalist. the ideal. the infinite. the divine. #i could keep rambling but in some aspects it boils down to an ends vs means and justice vs mercy debate #but ends and means also exists alongside apathy. and the status quo is also untenable and unethical #its about each and every single human person!!!! how am i supposed to deal with that!!!! how can i be Good in such a complex world #idk im not a frev expert i took like. 1 elective in uni. im a classics person #i am TOO SOFTHEARTED FOR THIS. once we get to the jehan description im gonna mcfuckin die #because for a whole ass decade ive grown and changed and i keep coming back to his love and philosophy and just. him. #the most me. and idk how to explain that prouvaire (canon not fanon) illustrates (imo) the same tension #but also the same goals i have. the same person i am trying to be

[moving-to-dreamwinged]

dude those tiktoks where it’s like “i like characters w good development” “i like morally grey characters” “well i like [other characteristic]” are making me realize there’s a specific archetype i always go for and all my favorite characters are basically literally The Same and i don’t LIKE THAT REALIZATION!!!!! leave me alone

#.mei chats #HDISNSSIDJXN #did i explain that right #it’s pissing me off so bad #when all my faves are on one slide im like oh… don’t look at me… #i swear i am extremely nuanced and complex. always