#idk what im trying to get at lmao

[oh-wow-im-still-here]

Currently thinking of a pidw native shixiong shen yuan au scenario where at the beginning of his tenure as a qing jing peak disciple him and shen qingqiu did have like a weird father-son esque bond. That like, slowly started to deteriorate as shen yuan got older and befriended binghe, slowly but surely being dissilutioned for his teacher/father figure/role model as time goes by and the more mature shen yuan is. Once shen yuan is like in his early 20s and is completely attached at the hip with luo binghe, shen yuan just. Finds it hard to love or respect shen qingqiu the same now after everything he's learned what he did to binghe and some other things he's done running the peak. But surely it can't get worse right?

And then the immortal Alliance conference happens. I'm thinking maybe either shen yuan missed out on the conference or wasnt around when the abyss opened, whatever the case, shen qingqiu comes back without luo binghe. Says he unfortunately died during the conference. And shen yuan privately thinks, for a horrible moment, "did he really?"

And because of that moment of doubt any sort of positive relationship between the two turns to dust.

#think of the angst! the drama!! #having the smallest inkling your father figure murdered your soulmate but havinf no proof? #and having to quietly live with that for years? pretending everything is fine?? #but you can never look at the man beside you the same ever again. #and now you just sit there. stuck. because where would you go? #the person who understood you. who you planned to take care of for the rest of your life is gone. #idk what im trying to get at lmao #gimme a fraught father-son relationship falling out with soap opera levels of drama plz!!! #svsss #scum villains self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #luo binghe #shen jiu #au plot bunny thought thing #text

[lilybug-02]

Bribed with Chocolate. The way it should be.

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--Full Series--

More to come as this is a two-parter. But you know how I am with schedules.

Bonus:

I think this was an equally possible reaction from Chara.

#Chara and Azzy have another talk #Finally Chara shows their mischievous side. #and Azzy knows Chara's language well #my art #deltarune chara timeline #art #bread #deltarune #ngl im so happy with how that chocolate shake came out. I want to eat it so bad #yay 6 pages of taking :') i hope you guys like that lmao #Glad I got this one done in basically a month and a week! Hah. I'm trying me best :') Halloween.. Exams and a ton of other things came up #surprisingly these backgrounds weren't terrible to do... I mean took more than two hours but you know what I mean #i struggled with how to frame the background though. I actually liked drawing it. But because both the background and my characters-- #--are super colorful I have to make sure I don't muddle the whole page. #Ive been thinking of doing the overworld in black and white recently... may help me actually finish the comic lol. idk i may make a poll #gonna try and get the new part out in maybe a month again? sorry. Thanksgiving and Christmas get me exhausted.

[incense-and-iron]

Having to do this on mobile because I HATE the new layout for desktop. Anyway I've been told I'm WRONG about the version of this pokemon I like >:( I won't say which one is better, but we all know which one is REALLY better.

#pokemon #giratina #i... think is the name of the pokemon #im not well versed in them and forget them very often lmao #but my friends and gf are trying to get me more into it all #you lookin for which one i like in the tags? im not saying >:) you get to wait #pkmn #idk what if the like 90 games its from sorry #also please dont worry!! my friends are only joking about me bring wrong. itd all light hearted

[breadandblankets]

duke is an excellent reader and a better writer, however he the things he remembers from books and movies are less direct quotes and more themes and messaging

if you ask him to name the characters from a book he just read he will just shrug at you, and he couldn't quote a line if he tried

he Will however use his powers to fuck with jason who Can quote things he's read by heart. jason an eighth of the way thru a college level lecture on the Lord of the Rings and PTSD and duke will interrupt him with: "How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand… there is no going back?"

jason will just stop in his tracks and LookTM (pride, exuberance) at duke, and duke will look blankly back, before jason realizes that duke just ghost visioned him and get soooo mad (he pouts dramatically for approximatly 0.5 seconds before duke asks a pointed question and the ramble continues)

#batfam #duke thomas #jason todd #listen i wanted to use that quote in a fic im writing so bad but Realized that duke is not really a quoter per se #so this is my explanation for it #and you all get to sit with trying to figure out the story that i would want to apply this quote to duke with aint that fun #duke is like my friend and just comes up with nicknames for everyone until mayyybe one day they know the names lmao #anyway idk do with this what you want #bread talk

[mistykaru]

i got stuff from the csp asset store and i wanted to play with it so this is a mess but i did have fun and i kinda dig the vibes

#andreil #aftg #the foxhole court #all for the game #i just thought the lil computer window borders were so cute #also okay listen my vision: #lmao i just wrote college au and completely forgot the canon story is in college pls #but like alt where neil does the photos bc he gets a camera #art majors???? #idk what's going on my vision is gone i am blind now #it was like a we pass each other on campus and a double take with warning signs is happening #i just thought the warning signs looked kinda cool #i also wanted the wavey thing to be a heartbeat w a skippy in it but i didnt know how to make it look nice it wasn't cooperating #and honestly i was getting tired of trying to figure out what should go in the space #i am not an aesthetic person idk how people do the fancy lil edits all the time #i draw i dont do graphic design i dont have the frog within necessary #myart #anyway im running away now bc idk how i feel about this bye

[hunterbunter3000]

the poor guys. sweetheart just loved to get them worked up (but we love it too. get it sweetheart) <3

FAACCTSSS

Like she's caught on with all of them, their longing gazes and touches. Their drunk confessions to her, and how fucking possessive they all are with her (AND TO EACH OTHER)

And as the little gremlin SHIT she is, she's using that as an advantage to kinda-- help one of them (or all of them) to come forward and tell her straight up "Hey, I love you and I wanna be yours"

But they ain't 💀 so until then, she's just gonna flaunt and tease~ cause that sounds fun LOL

#im trying my best to not turn her into a brat #because i cannot STAND BRATTY CHARACTERS #IDK WHAT IT IS I JUST GET SO ANNOYED #AND I WANNA PUNCH THAT CHARACTER AND MYSELF IN THE FACE #but idk whats going on anymore honestly #sweets is a baddie so she can be whatever 🤪 #LMAO #141 sweetheart #black fem reader #hunter's ask lounge ☕️ #hunter talkin out her ass 🍑 #cod x y/n

[camels-pen]

consider sanuso bodyswap where Sanji is of course "admiring" Usopp's body and Usopp is trying desperately to keep himself from getting worked up so that he doesn't light himself on fire.

Luffy and Chopper are not helping. They are in fact doing the opposite of helping. They've ramped up their pranks and are doing anything possible to get Usopp angry so that he combusts, freaks out, and then dives into the ocean to put himself out. They think it's hilarious.

Nami and Brook are Also not helping, since they're conspiring with Sanji to put on a fashion show with Usopp's body. Sanji called it "not wasting a precious opportunity to get him in something other than overalls". Usopp called it mutiny and he was gonna- dive into the ocean, holy fuck Sanji why is it so easy to catch fire?!

Best part about this is that Sanji assured him, several times, that his body doesn't get hurt by catching fire. Usopp still jumps into the ocean every time.

Robin pipes up at one point, asking if Sanji was immune to just his own flames or all flames. Sanji just kind of shrugs and said it depends. Franky, having just been leisurely watching all of this gets an idea. Would his Franky Fireball hurt Sanji's body or just give him more fire to work with?

He tries to coax Usopp into agreeing to test it out and, somehow, he manages it. Albeit, Usopp is all knocking knees and chattering teeth, a very odd sight from 'Sanji'. As part of the deal though, he can only shoot a fireball the size of his hand.

Usopp meant his small hand. The one Franky used for tinkering and fine detail work. He did not, however, clarify this.

So, when a fireball the size of Franky's big hand comes out, well. Usopp runs for his goddamn life.

It takes him a few moments- and the voices of his friends sounding distant and below him- to realize he hadn't, in fact, run to the men's quarters, but rather into the fucking sky.

And oooooh, boy he is gonna kill Sanji one of these days. Why was his body's first fucking instinct when running to go up, what the actual HELL-

Usopp lit himself on fire again.

He curses out Sanji as his Sky Walk fails in the same moment and he plummets towards the deck.

#one piece #sanuso #nemotime #usopp the first time he lights himself on fire: WHAT THE FUCK WHAY THE FUCK WHAT THE HELL OH GOD OH F- #oh ndvdggdvdv okay listen. listen. omagine Zoro's been asleep this whole time. and he misses the memo that there was a bodyswap. #and he wakes up to 'Sanji' kicking him abd immediately goes into fight mode... and then is really fucking spooked #bc 'Sanji' is blubbering about Zoro going to kill him and that he couldnt die this young and Zoro's just. Still as a statue. #Literally cannot compute. #and then 'Usopp' comes up to him. threatening him and calling him names the way he was expecting from 'Sanji' #Brook: oh dear he mustve slept through all the commotion. Zoro-san! Usopp and-! #Nami covering Brook's mouth: No wait i smell a money making opportunity #shes gonna con him. idk how or with what yet but shes definitely gonna con him #hes gonna be sooo pissed when he finds out she conned him but his usual outlet for physical violence is currently indisposed so. lol. lmao. #i like making zoro suffer idk why its just funny #wait wai what if Usopp didnt trip on him what if when he plummets to the deck he lands on Zoro lmfao #also Franky's standing there like 'Why did you dodge it?!' and Usopp is right back to trying not to light himself on fire again lol #oh n Jinbei gets roped into the fashion show stuff #where he incurs 'newbie's first debt to Nami' #damn now im thinking about him slightly concerned about all this spontaneous combustion and then Robin saying something to make it worse lol #ANYWAY MORE IMPORTANTLY the real tragedy of this post is that because Usopp's constantly worried about Combusting #it never really sinks in how blatantly Sanji is checking out his body + enjoying doing that fashion show #and because of Sanji 'enjoying the view' he never notices the brief moments where Usopp quietly does the same #before being interrupted by Luffy and Chopper coming out of nowhere wanting to roast marshmallows on Usopp's leg #okay im done were done im good its bed time gnight gmorning gday to all

[even-disco-baby]

YOU — “No. There is still a chance.”

DOLORES DEI — “You think so?” Her voice is weary.

EMPATHY — Everything about her is weary. She is the Innocence of weariness, of heroically borne suffering.

CONCEPTUALIZATION — That is the picture you have painted for yourself, at any rate.

YOU — “You looked back. That’s the memory, the moment, that I can’t stop returning to. You looked back. I had a chance, for just that moment…”

DOLORES DEI — She meets your eye, gaze still forever cast back over her shoulder. Time stops. The stars are stilled, the ocean silent. There is *nothing* beyond this memory. Nothing at all. All of infinity is contained in this single moment when anything and everything was possible.

“Oh, Harry…” She sighs, soft as eiderdown. “We never had any chance.”

And just like that, the wave of time collapses under its own weight, obliterating everything. This moment was six years ago. She is gone from here. Gone, gone…

PAIN THRESHOLD — You cannot leave. There was nothing outside of this moment, and now there is nothing at all. It’s all gone. There is no point. I’m sorry. I can’t do this any longer.

VOLITION — Please, don’t say that…

“Okay. Well, fuck me, then.”

“How would *you* know?! You gave up! You didn’t even try!”

“We *must* have had a chance, at some point… Doesn’t everyone get a chance, if nothing more?”

“How could you say that…?”

DOLORES DEI — “Because it’s true,” she says, matter-of-fact. “There is no moment in time that you can turn back to, no branching paths, no infinity. There is only what happened. I looked back… and then away.” She closes her eyes, turning her back to you.

“The moment ended. *We* ended. That is all.”

SHIVERS — A wave crashes against an unseen shore, ocean spray tickling the back of your neck. You shiver, but no one shivers with you. You are alone in this intersection. Why are you here?

“Why can’t *I* end?! Why can’t this all just stop? Please, make it stop…”

“Ended? I’ve barely even started! I got a chance to start completely over as somebody new! I don’t need you anymore! You’re just dead weight to me now.”

“No. That wasn’t the real ending. We’re a part of something so much bigger than this intersection, telling a story that encapsulates all of history! There’s *more* to this, it *means* something.”

“Then… What am I supposed to do now…?”

DOLORES DEI — “No, Harry.” She turns back to you again now, and she looks… sad.

“We were not metaphors. We were people. Our narrative was not intelligently designed. It simply followed the patterns of history, because those are the only patterns we *know.* We tried to create something new, but we failed. There is no narrative reward for our failure, no satisfactory ending. There is only the immutable past and the unknowable future.”

RHETORIC — There is no assurance of what is good or deserved or what may bring relief. There is no assurance of punishment, either. There is no assurance of anything. Not even of a future. I don’t know what to say to make this bearable.

VOLITION — Even so… As long as you live, *something* is promised. Can you live with that?

I can’t, I just can’t do this anymore…

I can. It’s enough.

I don’t know. I just don’t know.

I can at least try for a little longer…

VOLITION — That’s all I ask. That’s enough.

#disco elysium #harry du bois #dolores dei #suicide tw #ummmmm haha *twirls hair* #sorry this isn’t more of the dolores saga im really trying to get back into the swing of things 😭 #this is smth that won’t make it into the saga but that i was thinking about nonetheless #im not too fond of the whole ‘’dora is literally dolores dei’’ thing tbh #i feel that the mundanity is what makes their story impactful #and also just. makes it feel like somebody is kinda going overboard on projecting onto their proxy ex. lmao 😭 #idk like the metaphor gets a little TOO metaphorical for me. but that’s just my onion. im an rgu fan so who am i to judge #anyway this is more my take on the harry/dora story #which is that dora was Just Some Guy and ultimately we have to live w the fact that we’ll never get the full story #because she literally exited the narrative #we can speculate about what her and harry’s relationship was like and how much of the blame is on each of them #dora’s lack of class consciousness vs harry’s violent misogyny etc etc #and like. it’s not that there’s no value in examining those things bc there definitely is value in it #in examining what patterns you DO see repeating in your life and in the world around you #that is what politics is really… examining the system and all its moving parts #but ultimately the past is immutable… our perception of it changes as we gain new context and understanding but what’s past is past #and there is no way of knowing with any certainty what the future holds #that’s where the overlap of all of these political and personal conflicts is for me #and why it comes back to harry questioning whether it’s worth it to even live #it’s about whether or not you can live with the grief of the past and the uncertainty of the future #i want to learn to live with it… to work toward building a future that i want to live in #anyway. coughs

[jonny-b-meowborn]

Ohhhh god I got the motel scene everyone stay calm <- will never have a normal reaction to this scene

#thiss is my third time seeing it!!! oughf #going feral rabid wild #biting and scratching #i never have enough money to rent a room so idk how it goes when i have a normal place #but honestly. whatever it is i dont think anything gets better than jarod bringing me to his room from outside #because i cant be sleeping out there!!!!!!! #like i know that he actually just wants someone to help him get rid of the body or whatever but i prefer to se it as him being soft actually #and needing help with getting rid of the body #i cant imagine what is his excuse for taking you in when you rent a room lmao #i gotta check that someday #unless i can actually afford that rn honestly i dont remember how much is it #yeah no i dont have enough #and im trying not to get any bad karma this run i wanna be a good guy #gonna sleep on cardboard and have the man drag me inside like a normal person 👍 #road 96 #jarod road 96 #bee buzz

[sunsetzer]

On one hand, I want a final fantasy 6 remake, because the game is criminally underrated and the amount of fan content (which is all absolutely fantastic btw) is Not Enough for my neurodivergent, hyperfixating brain.

On the other hand, that would inevitably encourage more people to join the fandom, which would be great, except it seems these days the bigger a fandom gets the more toxic it becomes, and I really like what we have going on over here in our little corner. We all just love the game and its characters and nobody fights about who should and shouldn't date who or who you shouldn't like because they're ~problematique~. Nobody's trying to make one ship morally better than another, nobody's calling anyone names or threatening to doxx people who don't agree with their opinions. It's so peaceful and I love that for us. We're just vibing. Moisturized. Unbothered. In our lane. Flourishing.

#as someone who was in an extremely toxic and chaotic fandom and lowkey still traumatized #to the point where I'm afraid to mention which fandom it was/what my ship was #i have to say #i genuinely love it here #i was nervous at first sharing my ships and headcanons but everyone is so chill i was worried for nothing #thank you to everyone I've interacted with who has made this fandom a healing experience for me #i shudder to think about what some of the people i interacted with in a previous fandom would do with ff6 #probably would take edgar's flirting at face value and call him problematic for objectifying women #instead of considering the narrative and what we know about him and the way he actually treats women #my man drinks loving and respecting women juice he's not a creep #or that weird moment with relm that admittedly made me double take before i realized what he meant #theyd have a whole campaign against him lmfao #bc those people boil characters alive until they're just a formless pile of tropes and stereotypes #and seem to disregard all positive aspects of a character they don't like which is fine #but then they go and try to force other people to think like they do and ugh #theres a lot of silly moments in the game and aspects of these characters that make them well rounded and realistically flawed at times #and i fear that would get lost in the chaos if the floodgates opened after a remake #maybe im just jaded lmao #im jaded and i have anxiety so im always thinking about The Worst Case Scenario #the collective positive spirit of the dwellers in this fandom might actually foster a positive space if more people were to come in #ff6 #my post #i was gonna say maybe this is bc we're mostly adults #but that falls flat when i remember how some of the most toxic and immature people in some fandoms are grown ass adults #who bully each other and younger fans #and some of the most mature and cool people were actually younger #maybe ff6 fans are just built different lmao #also idk how old anyone else actually is there might be teenagers here i just don't think about it a lot

[queenhawke]

braddavid is so funny bc like. mq's main relationship (grimmpop) is so interesting and layered and complicated and is without a doubt the heart of the show yet so many people (including me) collectively went ummmm but what about the two funny middle aged men. what if they fucked

#mythic quest #like there are 40 romantic grimmpop fics and a wholeass 178 braddavid ones #and it could be bc the creators have explicitly stated that grimmpop will never be romantic but like when has that ever stopped shippers #bc lbr there is no actual romantic/sexual tension between brad and david and it will probably never be canon either AND YET #probably has to do with the general popularity of slash and the way female characters get shoved aside in favour of male ones #and i guess im part of the problem here but the thing is im a brad bakshi stan first and a lesbian second #so there #and also idk for me the appeal in writing fic about them IS the fact that there's nothing much there in the source material? #so i can just make stuff up and put them in my own little scenarios #like i loooove poppy but she's such a good well-rounded character that im like. i have nothing to add to this it's already perfect lmao #idk. what am i even trying to say here #im 6000 words deep in another braddavid fic is what im trying to say

[lesbianwithchainsaws]

I am thinking I might actually use they/them and it/its pronouns along with she/her?? ???? ?????

#i mentioned something like this a little while ago already but got kinda nervous and then pretended it just didnt happen lmao #idk why i get anxious about this stuff. it literally doesnt matter at all #especially on this website #idk i get overly nervous about everything but yeah i think that could fit. at least for now #im worried that I'll change my mind in the future and will feel bad about it tbh #but for now its fine? i think #okay fuck it I'll just do it #who cares what gender or pronouns i have (<- i care. i am an easily scared being) #okay fuck it #im having a whole ass conversation with myself here just trying not to overly worry about things that dont matter again

[pup-pee]

i have artblock

the 1st drawings r recent(when i get artblock i just try 2 study anatomy idk)

transcript;

bernard; ok, so, listeners ask; jay, how is ur hair not damnaged? what deal did u have 2 make?

bernard; yeah whats ur secret?

jay; would u believe asian magic?

bernard(@ the same time); i mean how can we b sure-

jay; ber-

bernard; wait-

jay; ber!

bernard; wait! yk what i meant!

(thers a jump here bc i was 2 lazy 2 draw)

jay; im coming out again; ive been exposed. my hair is actually from my deal w/batman whos actually the devil

bernard; shup up shut up shut up omg

jay; 50 video special ill b cursing ber. get ready!

baernard; i h8 q n as

#srry 2 bernard who i made look a lil stupid kinda not rlly #he wasnt talking about jays hair @ all #by the “how can we b sure” he means in a “how can we bsure u havent made a deal?” #bernard dowd #jay nakamura #dc #“y did u make this?” #IM SRRY IM SO TIRED OF PPL QUESTIONING ASIAN HAIR PLS #“how is ur hair not burnt off?” “shouldnt u use less?” “is that ur real hair color?” “is ur hair real?” #hcing jay as having anime protagonist hair tho #cause i wanna b silly #2 any1 whos ever touched my hair trying 2 change it & ive told u “yeah thats not gonna work” & THEN U DID IT ANYWAYS FUCK U #im a lil angry lol srry #do ppl not know what poc ppl look like @ all or????????? #no cause ive been complimented on my “tan”... #its just my natural skintone wtf so u mean? i spend all day inside IM PALE AF WDYM TAN???? #im ranting in the hastags LMAO GRRRRRRRRR #i just get rlly fed up w/just things i think #fksdlhgkjs idk wanna vent but i think i accidentally did a wiwltte whoops #oh “y did u make this” i wanted 2 color bernards hair lol #its such a dyable color!!!!!!! #colour?? #WHICH WAY DO U SPELL IT????? THEY BOTH LOOK FINE 2 ME #ive been eating bread slices its pretty good #puppeeart #yeah im just trying 2 like fill out the tags again bc i think its fun #weeeeeeeeeee #every1 eat potato bread its fluffy & cheap(@ least where i live) #also screw my mom 4 living in la 4 a bit & giving me some of her valley accent actually #how dare u!!!!!(its entirely my fault bc i pick up ppls accents all the time klfdhsjkhf)

[puppyeared]

#UAUHGG im havung oc thoughts. plaguing myBRAIN. i can feel my heartrate spiking holy shit #ok so. i rly wanna touch up presto and shuffles story without scaring myself out of it by overthinking it. esp the implications of #them having animal features and what they would eat. as well as worldbuilding character dynamics setting background characters ugghh. #constantly have to tell myself its just for fun. basically theyre rival magicians who keep their identities secret and fuck it up in #the funniest way possible LMAO. they rent the same apartment and the landlady accidentally gives it to both of them without them knowing #so they end up walking in on each other out of costume and have this weird tension around not revealing each others identities despite thei #borderline malicious rivalry. blackmail may or may not be involved i havent decided yet #they DO consider backing out of tenancy but they decide not to so they can make sure they dont reveal each others identities #thats the idea but its really abstract bc i dont have a direction or writing in mind. they just rattle in my head like spare change #other stuff i have rn is. they both consider each other a copycat and they have the same skill level of magic #but they have different styles and techniques theyre just too focused on outperforming each other to notice #presto likes to make people laugh so they probably include gags and impossible feats. shuffle is more elegant and focuses on #smooth movements and dangerous stunts. i want to make that reflect in their costumes but its hard bc stage magician costumes tend to stick #to suits and capes.. so idk. then maybe side characters like the landlady and other tenants but i havent given em much thought orz #i really should practice with concepts because i have a bad habit of making everything similar to the first try so its frustrating #and i suck at writing characters. but im doing this for fun so im trying not to get hung up on whether its generic or not #yapping #stares at the floor. maybe i should make a carrd for my ocs #oc talk #presto #shuffle

[oozeandgoo-art]

This is where I blog from.

#i have a really cooked version of this on my main blog #motormaster #softbody #transformers #valveplug #stunticons #red redesign g1 stunticons #is it valveplug? is it? #its kind of just t!ts. but idk #transformer x human #that's me i'm just trying to p!ss someone off with this though. #sorry for the censored is im trying to get it back into the tag lol #what... *is* the poisoned tag here? i'm confused #update! it was 'self !nsert' LMAO

[pepijopa]

I don't want to beg but idk what to do or how to survive anymore. I haven't been able to get any work for so long and I don't know what to do

#ends of the month are so extra hard #im trying my best but over a year now i havent been getting any work. i only had very few commissions from returning clients #they literally only ones that kept me afloat #but idk what to do if i cant get new work ;; and my art is only improving but i get less and less work #sorry for rant im just hungry and stressed lmao #sharing my art helps and thank you for everyone still supporting me ily