#idk idk i think its about balance

[boygirlctommy]

gazes off into the distance. maybe i should work on monster band again...

#my post #the wondrous oc tag #monster band #the lore is stored in the tags #shakes them (my ocs). i dont know what this story is About yet and i need to decide that before i really go anywhere else with it #idk idk i think its about balance #i dont think ive ever explained much about this story. so theres these 2 magical deer that are like. gods i think maybe #and one represents truth and knowledge and light #and the other is lies and secrets and darkness #and the light deer reveals itself to a group of people its decided have proved themselves Curious enough #and basically makes it their mission to. expose every secret. personal or cruel or even like magic shit #and they think 'yippee were doing the right thing :]' bcus the dark deer (which the light deer told them is evil) is getting weaker and the #light deer stronger !! but um as they continue exposing all these local secrets eventually they get caught in the crossfire and a few of em #are like 'wait thissucks actually' but its not until one of em exposes the secrets of the other members of the groups that the others are #like. wait this is fucked up you cant just do that. bro you cant out me to my mom wtf is wrong with you. #and and um that one guy is kinda far gone and practically controlled by the light deer and the others are like 'Hey Maybe These Twin Gods #Were Originally Equal In Power For A Reason' #and now they have to try to fix everything. but yknow you cant just un-tell someones secrets man so idk how they do all that #smiles. idk how to write endings #SMILES and they all even have names #zenith is light deer and nadir is dark deer #the sorta controlled guy is aster james (or just aj idk he goes by both) #and the others are nerris kal and day!! #kals full first name is kalideoscope :] and day's is yesterday :]!! #idk i like sillay names #fun fact i named aj Aster (latin for star) over a year before i added Astronomically named deer representing light and dark #it was his destiny to get possessed by the light deer....

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

thinking about puppet!Home. also thinking about that tidbit saying that Wally had to learn how to be gentle first as to not break things. combining both for maximum effect

#home: *struggling with suddenly having a body* #wally: FINALLY! THE STUDENT HAS BECOME THE TEACHER! THIS IS MY MOMENT! #i just think he'd really enjoy being the one Informing #hed be so proud of himself huh... #preening after telling home all about how to be a Person and then he turns around and asks barnaby what cheese is #hes doing his best. #and like... i dont think home has nearly as much to learn? #its mostly based in the physical aspect of existence #idk for some reason i see him as kind of the neighborhoods father figure?? #a very eccentric father figure. father/brother/guardian figure #but anyway mostly wallys 'teachings' has to do with like... how to control his strength. how to keep his balance. how to Do Things #once homes got it he is On Top Of Things #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #hm. am i about to make a little doc for the puppet!home that only exists in my head and in my lil scribbles #Yes! i Am! #boutta jot down his personality and relationships and blah blah blah #also: part (insert number here) of me being Entirely Unable To Draw Wally Consistently #i drew these wallys right after each other. back to back. #it looks like two entirely different styles lmfao

[ganondoodle]

i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with- #-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!! #im sorry :((

[puppyeared]

i feel like. theres designing a character with certain themes and motifs in mind, and then theres making a gijinka for the water bottle on my nightstand

#me when im the only person on the bus wearing a mask: i should make a furry plaguesona #its hard to explain bc. most of the time i try NOT to give my characters a 'strong' theme like making their whole design around #one thing like apples or even broad stuff like baking or cottagecore.. idk if its partly for flexibility or because i cant imagine them #making it their whole personality. not bc i find it cringe or overblown but more like ive learned to associate design with character depth #i had a cutesy uwu persona for most of highschool because i thought it would make me more. likeable? easy to remember? since #memorable character designs are easy to recognize. and one way of doing that is simplifying it with a theme or symbol so you form an #association. but since im a real person its exhausting keeping up that appearance all the time and denying myself things when they dont #fit my 'aesthetic' or 'theme.' i think ive grown past that bc i just collect stuff because i think it looks cool and dont let myself dwell #on how it might 'fit' with my image. but i cant help feeling bad doing it to my own characters bc it feels like im making them too one #dimensional. despite knowing that theyre not real and design alone doesnt reflect depth i cant help feeling like its wrong #despite that i love seeing motifs because it feels like it reflects the characters soul and paradoxically gives them depth. it makes them #interesting to look at too and honestly its pretty fun combining things that fall under a similar category when designing #i struggle find a balance between those two things #actually this reminds me of noelles christmas theme.. i dont remember her saying anything abt liking christmas despite a lot of #her design and character tying back to it. it makes me wonder if she would have feelings about that or doesnt think abt it too hard #or if its like a matching family shirts situation and shes just going along with it?? #maybe i should just do whatever i want with my character designs since theyre not real and im thinking abt it too hard #although. this probably has something to do with deep seated identity issues huh #yapping #oc talk #oc

[gayvampyr]

forgot for a second that oscillopsia is in my brain and not external and i almost tried to record what it looks like to me to show people what i mean

#the best i can describe it is like. when you spin around in circles with your head on a baseball bat and the world feels like it's #spinning sideways and you lose your balance #except im sitting and instead of the world rotating its shaking back and forth and i don't have very good motor control cuz #i cant sense where things are #i honestly think it's related to MS. it'd be one thing if this was an isolated symptom but i have so many others that align with it #especially the weird/obscure ones that aren't listed in mainstream descriptions. like i had to go onto MS forums to find people who knew #what i was talking about and had the same experience #and its not like i started there or typed 'MS' in my search. its just the only accurate results were from people with MS blogging about it #not to self diagnose but itd be nice if i could at least get tested and not immediately dismissed #ive also been dxed with peripheral neuropathy which could be related #idk #this got very off topic

[raccoonnutella13]

why are ppl always so mean about taz :(

#every time theres a new arc everyone who only liked balance is like 'oh if u dropped off after balance u have to listen to THIS arc bc its #JUST LIKE BALANCE' #every damn time. #it happened with ethersea a bit but especially w steeplechase and vs dracula #and u get ppl in the notes of these posts saying 'oh yeah i fucking hated everything after balance sooo glad theyre finally doing exactly #what i want them to!!' #like. its ok to have personal preference but dont be mean about it :( #and comparing every campaign to balance is rlly annoying sry #let them be their own thing #stop being so blinded by nostalgia ig #like not to be rude but. i think ppl think balance is the most Perfect Thing Ever but its rlly...not #all the campaigns have flaws but i aint canceling them for that #like what happened with grad #idk its like if balance came later ppl would probably be much more mean about it #bc they wouldnt be blinded by nostalgia as much or smthn #anyways #at the end of the day the mcelroys shouldnt be expected to make a replica of balance every campaign #and thats not what theyre trying to do. theyre doing what THEY personally want to do. like they clearly dont care abt what others think lol #theyre experimenting and having fun #its like. a free podcast with a bunch of silly dudes playing for funsies. they shouldnt have such high expectations or be demonized #in any way #my point being. if i see anyone being mean abt taz u get blocked #>:( #coon speaks #not tagging taz. i dont wanna see nasty ppl in my notifs ty

[copepods]

trying to make my iterator designs more biological, thinking about putting the little wall tendril thingies in the back of their neck? not sure what purpose it would serve, perhaps to monitor the condition back there and perform minor repairs since its the most major area of exposed inner workings

#constantly thinking about that developer line that biological and mechanical arent really distinct in rw universe #i feel that my current designs really emphasise the mechanical but arennt so biological. so im trying to balance it out #but its haaaard idk which parts to modify #fish wips #rain world

[hetaletmego]

To be a fly on the wall when France found out that Prussia's new son little brother that he's so proud of even though as with many of the old empires replacement means death to nations is actually the revived corpse of the dude he just killed and dismembered with his own hands

#and it's not an easy feat to kill a nation for good he was JUST bragging about it too #HWS France #HWS Prussia #HWS Germany #HWS Holy Roman Empire idk the HRE in general makes me feel weird #I guess I like thinking that many of the local POWERS *were* the HRE at some point in its history #France himself early on and then Austria and Spain and the various German states #and at one point it should have been Prussia's turn by right of conquest (regular Tuesday for nations) and that fucker went YOU KNOW WHAT #let's completely wreck the fragile balance of how we think our existence as entities works #he really was in his Frankenstein era 🖤🤍🖤 #Hetalia

[rawliverandgoronspice]

re: my last post, but I kind of have a good serving of criticism in my heart about the whole "gerudos as men r*pists*" trope that I've seen bouncing around in fandom since like 2008 at least (and before that I assume), but it's. not a particularly fun topic. so.

#thoughts #cw rape #gerudos #let's just say that #if we do need to go there #(and we Do Not need to go there particularly) #let's say this whole debacle ignores *a lot* of canon content that suggests where the power balance may actually lie #if it does lie anywhere #also the sexually aggressive/domineering brown people trope as another tool of dehumanization is not. yea #but idk I think it's an interesting takeaway to cultivate in the context of the overwhelming examples of #*hylians* being the ones to repeatedly overstep gerudo boundaries #gerudos don't capture men *men try to break in gerudo homes and get arrested* that's a pretty significant difference you guys #if gerudos were so aggressive about it wouldn't men rather be the ones to run away? #why are we keeping them out in the first place etc #anyway weird trope supported by almost nothing and often enabling VERY unhinged racist comments from its fanbase on the regular #can we talk about how the brown race is uncritically characterized as rapists --either ganondorf or his people #in spite of there being basically zero evidence anywhere in the games that this might be the case??? why is this an assumption we're making #idk man people be having weird hangups about all of this #also yeah sure the strong independant women has *got* to be man eaters that treat them like disposable garbage #and like #my dear Men of the Internet #maybe try to fix your anxieties surrounding women being self-sufficient and independant instead of projecting like crazy idk something #sorry the post is Unfun but it's been bothering me since forever #I remember being thirteen and reading a fic with this trope for the first time and being So Scandalized haha #but yeah I've been chewing on the thought ever since so here you go

[liquidstar]

wanted to post the royals and co. as a set for reference, though the only new things here are the king+queen and koe's updated design :p also most of them didn't get little infoboxes so those will be a first under the cut here ^_^

Name: Andromeda (Andy)

Name origin: The Andromeda Galaxy, named for the mythical princess

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 20

Title: Heir apparent

Weapon: Flamberge (Same as her mom's)

Ethos (Power): None

Flaw power is based on: N/A

Notes: She wants to go on adventures someday, and make a lot of friends, and be normal. So please drop the "Your highness" and call her Andy!

Name: Cepheus

Name origin: The constellation Cepheus, the king

Pronouns: He/him

Age: 54

Title: King

Weapon: Scepter

Ethos (Power): Authority (The ability to control people’s actions through his words, but not their minds)

Flaw power is based on: His controlling and paranoid nature

Notes: He prefers not to use his ability unless it seems necessary, but ends will justify the means.

Name: Cassiopeia

Name origin: The constellation Cassiopeia, the queen

Pronouns: She/her

Age: -

Title: Queen

Weapon: Flamberge

Ethos (Power): Alis (The ability to generate wings)

Flaw power is based on: Her overconfidence in her own abilities, ironically like a completely different winged mythological figure...

Notes: Before being the Queen, she was the Hero.

Name: Koeia/Koe

Name origin: The star Koeia, whose name literally means "Star"

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 20

Title: Maid/Andromeda's lady in waiting

Weapon: Twin Sickles

Ethos (Power): Blessing (She can make others more powerful through cheering them on)

Flaw power is based on: Her Obsequiousness

Notes: She assures you her devotion to the princess is strictly for non-homosexual reasons

Name: Perseus/Percy

Name origin: The constellation Perseus, the hero

Pronouns: He/him

Age: 21

Title: 1st Knight/Andromeda's personal guard

Weapon: Harpē sword

Ethos (Power): Divine swordstrike (An all-powerful swing of the sword with no limit)

Flaw power is based on: His incredible arrogance and show-offishness

Notes: He assures you that his showy devotion to the princess is as heterosexual as it seems. Also he's the cousin Io from Nova Stella

Name: Ursa

Name origin: Ursa major, the big dipper.

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 38

Title: Major

Weapon: None

Ethos (Power): Bear-handed (Her claws are unbreakable and can slice through any material)

Flaw power is based on: Her hyper-diligence. Her ruthless devotion and adherence. Literally nothing could ever stand in her way.

Notes: She’s the mama bear of Kochab (Ursa minor) from the timber scouts

#reason i wanted to change koe's design was bc i felt like the first one was a bit too basic ig? #wanted to give it more personality beyond being a maid outfit #so a funkier skirt and shorter sleeves and gloves and stuff. idk its more koe and less maid. but still maid #other than that obviously are the two wholly new characters #honestly designing them was interesting in a way bc it was like reverse engineering andys face #i think she takes after her mom more tho #but she also does try to emulate her so thats also part of it #honestly andy is really similar to amary in a lot of ways not just bc of the whole princess thing but the family dynamics to a degree too #there are still some pretty big differences (andy wasnt abused but her father is still really strict and constraining out of worry #and amary's mom was actually kinda the polar opposite of andy's and their emulations are completely different too) #BUT #look read cepheus's flaw. hes not going to be a good guy lol #hes the type that starts out nice enough on the surface but when pushed it will become. again. ends justify the means #very.... 'my way or the highway' type guy i guess. but with power #cassiopeia s more noble than that though despite any arrogance in her skills #its like one side of a balancing act lost #again look at her power. its wings! wings mean freedom! no restraint! touch the sky! #unfortunately kingdoms arent usually about that is the thing #maybe andy can fix it now though #but honestly andy percy and ursa are pretty much all just here for convenience #it wouldve been easier to have a ref post lumping all royals and andy's entourage together. and ursa i guess idk where else shed go lol #i thought abt putting her w the zodiac knights but their theme is too uniform. background color is the same tho so same affiliation #w the royals #also does anyone get my amazing joke. shes a major. major ursa. ursa major. i know i know #ill be here all week #finn's ocs #oc references #finn's art

[waterlogged-detective]

i wanna write lore about my characters but i am in the eternal struggle of how do i start

#the pain of wanting to talk about ocs but not what to say #s o b #forget art block how do i deal with oc block #id call it writing block but i always have that lol #vibrates #i wanna talk about my idiots #like the corpse trade in london #especially since depending on what youre reading on site people come back to their bodies or they dont #its not super consistant #like i know darcy wouldnt care but others WOULD depending on if you come back ot your original body #which i think is true??? #idk man its super unclear #but its super morally dubious and I KNOW det doe isnt cool with it at all think of the FIGHTS #couples arguments but make them about philosophy and the fact that youre both actually diametrically opposed to things and you cant always #have a healthy work life balance between the two of you #because even if it works most of the time darcy is going to end up working on someone his husband thinks deserves better #especially if he finds out about the burking darcy did on the surface #cutting out the middleman as it were #and cutting the middleman #anyway i wanna talk about ocs help

[sprout-fics]

i saw your reblog about makarov and i 100% agree im excited he’s a great villain but also dreading it all because i know for a fact people are gonna write fluffy cute fanfic for him, i’m fine with people liking the actor who’s gonna play him seen a few things julian is in and he’s really good and seems like a nice guy but like let’s leave it at that?? sorry for the rambling thoughts

Honestly, again, folks can write what they want. I'm not going to stop them, because this is fandom and we can do what we want. I personally will not read it for reasons mentioned prior.

I will confess I have considered writing for Makarov, but nowhere near a romantic context. The idea I had for him which I will probably not pursue is a very winter-soldier type affair where he manipulates the main character after they are MIA from the taskforce. He is meant to be written as manipulative and dangerous, and even after MC is freed he continues to haunt them. Romance is not involved, only emotional manipulation. It's an interesting concept, but I feel a sense of discomfort with the idea of writing it because I'm not particularly prone to dark fics. I'm thinking about maybe incorporating the idea into some Whumptober prompts, and leaving it at that

#idk I've been conflicted about a lot of this stuff recently #I think there's a balance between write and let write #and being acutely aware of the reality that villains are based off of #I've written for Graves and Valeria but I do not for a single second condone what they've done and the things they are based off of #and I try to incorporate into my writing that they are not good people and therefore relationships with them are not healthy due to that #but I know I'm not perfect and I own up to that too #idk I've been thinking about going low on fandom commentary for a bit because I feel like its asking for anon hate #and that stresses me out #If folks want to talk to me about this they are welcome to over dm but I don't debate anons #anyways as always please tag your fics appropriately so people can filter the stuff they don't want

[qualityrain]

dude theres something abt firefly wedding. marry ur hired killer so u dont die and the love interest is a crazy yandere but also theyre trying to make it work???? before sakoto confesses that shes been playing along and cannot marry shinpei he was like lets talk because youve been off lately is it because of me i dont want to do something that makes you sad because im bad at reading peoples and my own feelings. like even before this its like sakoto going excessive violence is bad! and the whole would shinpei treat anybody that accepts him the same way he says hes in love with sakoto. that perhaps his love for her is not different from loving a child or an animal. what is love anyway (baby dont hurt me- )

#the way its shinpei who wants to talk and communicate when all he knows is like killing??? ok👍 im fine and normal #the way its like the marriage is less abt actual marriage and more abt i want you to relyand care about me i want you to love me #which is what sakoto wants too #from the staft chap 1 its like oh sakoto wants to be married to somebody she loves and loves her in return #like like. Im normal. #twitter wasnt kidding they invented love in 2023 #yeah shinpeis a crazy yandere and its unhealthy or whatever but they’re trying!!!! #and its taking me out #my favourite part abt firedlt weddinf is fr just them talking #i think they have such good chemistry #that shinpei is very intense and sakoto balances him out #but she also has the capacity to be intense too #like it seems that when shinpei is doing crazy yandere things or being rlly intense sakoto is the calm one? or much less intense #and when like chap 12 when sakoto is crying and shes feeling intense feelings shinpei is the calm one #i say calm as in “calm” yk because he fr was just trying to look as indifferent as possible the harder she started crying #idk. idk. firefly wedding fr is somethinf. #firefly wedding #claude txt

[taakosleftshoe]

i wish people were more open to saying "its not for me" rather than being like "this is objectively bad and here's why"

#sierra speaks #this is about the taz subreddits but uhhh also about things in general lmao #i notice this shit so often and it is the one thing that grinds my gears #bc there are valid critiques of things but theres also recognizing that maybe it just didn't sit with you but maybe there are good things.. #like im sorry you hated devo... they were trying to tell an interesting story lmao #i get that people miss taz being a comedy but like... the mcelroys have changed w that ! they want to tell stories! #there are still goofs but there are also stories #and like... i fr think ethersea is just as interesting as balance #anyways this is just a view even outside of taz that has been very real to my mind these past few years #its like im.. extremely sick of negativity in general? i think we can critique things!! but it doesnt have to be an awful hellscape yk. lik #we CAN enjoy things or just.. not partake in them... #cause there are many things i dont think are objectively bad. but so many people out there will be like oh this is unlistenable and im like #idk dog i had a good time #i definitely think ethersea is the kind of season that is most fun when binged and less so when it's airing #whereas steeplechase feels the opposite! idk just what im feeling rn :]

[matchandelure]

i fear that the undercover top secret government assassins are growing on me (cp9)

#I HAD ZERO THOUGHTS ABOUT THEM AT FIRST #IN FACT I WAS DEVASTATED THAT THE WATER 7 QUARTET WERE ACTUALLY CP9 #BUT THEN??????? I READ CP9'S INDEPENDENT REPORT AND. I!?!??!?@?!? #the thoughts are endless ive been having one piece dreams every night for the past few days and they have all been cp9 related the brainrot #is so bad. i am sodgjkadhg #i love one piece there are so many characters with each new arc i get to i get some new characters to obsess over i love it i feel so alive #ive been fighting tooth and nail avoiding spoilers for the latest episode BUT GOD IM SO SO TEMPTED TO. TAKE A PEEK #anyways last night i was once again doing a wiki deep dive and i found some silly things on cp9's pages #JABRA AND LUCCI ARE THE SAME HEIGHT!!!!! THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY #CAN YOU IMAGINE?!?!?! the kid you've had beef with since he was 13 (maybe even earlier since lucci alreayd knew him when he was 6) who you #used to have a whole head over is now at eye level with you i would actually be so embarrased #KAKU IS FROM EAST BLUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS OS IMPORTANT ACTUALLY!! THE MOST IMPORATNT FACT EVER!!!!!!!!!!! #so he knows the strawhats are...also from the east blue right?!? right??????! and ik the wg steals these kids early on to train them so i #doubt he has lingering attachments to his home sea but i still think this so both so so sad and so important :'(( #also not getting over how oda's depiction of tiny kaku has him holding a toy boat BC ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!?! ARE YOU K IDDING ME #kalifa and jabra's favourite dishes are both lamb based!!!!!!!!! silly because her animal motif is a sheep haha #BUT ALSO considering how her father was also cp9 and she's probably been conditioned since birth to also follow his footsteps and how jabra #holds seniority in the current lineup id like to think that these two have known each other a very long time and there were influences #the most dysfunctional fcked up family ever. cp9 #blueno and jabra are both from the north blue!!!!!!!!!!!!! and that one falshbakc we see that the two of them plus 6year old lucci trained #together but also it would be so fcked up if the two actually knew of each other before being roped into the governemnt #idk how the wg works do they just??? routinely scout around and pick up a bunch of kids ata time???? were jabra and blueno taken together?? #also wondering if ... kalifa jabra and kumadori knew each other the longest as fellow agents or soemthing #i feel like im entertaining a gazillion thoughts all at once its so hard ot balance but we know both kalifa nad kumadori have #parents in the governemnt/assassin profession that also influenced them right #idk maybe one thing they can bond over #cp9 to me is just a fucked up family of some sort. they are not found family they are like some weird forged family where they were all #forced together and somehow made it work and they all love lucci and care for his wellbeing enough to raise all that money to get him to a #doctor and they cared about each other enough to get off enies lobby together without leaving anyone behind and they went cafe hopping and #shopping and bowling together and they all care for each other in their own way

[rigelmejo]

This is the lovely post by MoonIvy that inspired me to get myself back into reading chinese by the way:

And this is MoonIvy's other amazing post, which includes a list of everything they read so far in order of difficulty which is a great reference list if you are looking for something to try, and includes some suggestions on listening study things you can try too.

MoonIvy is part of the group managing the Heavenly Path site I keep mentioning, that just has so many phenomenally organized media recommendations, a good guide to starting to read, and lots of linked resources:

#rant #reading #resources #chinese resources #rec list #so in these posts moonivy mentions some good starting places for HSK 4 people to push into reading #and i agree at about hsk 4 you can handle 1 a ton of graded readers (from 500 hanzi to 2000 as you go) #and 2 u can eventually handle native novels at hsk 4. thats when i pushed into native novels #i would say though. my own difference in learning #is i personally found it motivating and enjoyable to read WAY above my level at times. #i personally always go between 1 easier thing for myself and 1 harder thing to read. i felt that kept my #reading level both progressively increase while also giving me easier stuff to practice extensive reading #and for me it was HIGHLY motivating to read 100 pages of priest in print 2 years in #HIGHLY motivatkng to read tian ya ke with a click dictilnary 10 months in. #to see chapters go from 1.5 hours to read to 50 minutes to 40 minutes to 25 minutes. #so for me. i would say if you WANT to read something way above your level? just go ahead #you can always bounce between easier and harder stuff #i find a good balance worked better for me. and also i tend to learn better when massively challenged ToT #idk why i think its just cause its familiar. id read my parents novels at age 8. ToT it feels #more like how i leafned my native language to simply read my foreign language the same #though i know it demotivates some people. in contrast i find keeping some harder stuff on hand #reminds me to challenge myself and not idle at the level im at. #so i say? assume u can do ANYTHING with success. and do it. and when it burns u out or is not fun anymore? #go do something easier u Know is Easy. (and it sure will feel easy after the Anything before lol) #then u get confidence doing it easy. and remember ur #still capable of Anything so try again when ur ready.