#i wish i smoked cigarettes

[dockaspbrak]

Smart part of brain: Your ability (curse) to ruminate is literally ruining your life!!! Inaction is action jfc

Stronger more pathetic part of my brain: what if i just think about if more

#ill just keep waiting and die on accident or less than on accident having accomplished nothing #😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 #i couldnt even be a lighthouse for my friends to eventually return to when the clown comes back #i dont know anyone from mt childhood except my sister shes nice #id probably throw up if anyone from my old town reached out again bc i had like. 4 friends and they mostly sucked #god also more realistically i was So pathetic to then id be humiliated if they saw how little ive ever achieved #i am so horrible im like a shell of a person good st nothing #oh lord im throwin a pity party i guess #i can draw a bit.....but idk. my style doesnt resonate w people i can tell from reactions its like #oh huh thats not very good haha theres just something there that isnt good #fucking. stupid loser ass emily fuck #i wish i smoked cigarettes

[cemeterything]

would love to have a chat with whoever wired my brain to respond to any form of stimuli with the abject terror of a prey animal but simultaneously be incapable of functioning without at least 5 things to occupy it at all times

#🐉 #god i wish smoking wasnt bad for you i NEED a cigarette

[demi-pixellated]

oh matsuda they hate you for your organizational swag and fat tits

#Paradise blvn #MatsuAzu #Matsuda #Azuma #Fanart #MSPaint Draw #cw smoking #matsuda was made in a lab for me #Only. apparently #that's fine - all for me! i was born to understand your intricacies and nuances #good end is blessed but also i will be thinking about 'curtain call' and 'lone king' til i die all 'round fantastic route! no notes! #one note actually: i wish he had a sprite with a cigarette like hongou did bc i would be just that much more down bad for him

[crybaby-bkg]

sorry I’ve been on such a Dabi high lately but I almost croaked earlier at the thought of being his college gf and just being so opposite of each other!!!!!! you’re all good grades and perfect attendance, easily approachable and sweet smiles. and he’s all grumpy faced and dark clothing, makes people nervous whenever he stands outside smoking right by the doors.

who the hell would’ve thought you two would end up together? it just didn’t make a lick of sense seeing you two from the outside. but when they get a glimpse of you guys together, alone, everything just falls into place.

he’s so supportive of everything you do, no matter how dumb or nerdy he thinks it is. he keeps count of your stitches for you when you crotchet, doesn’t mind being your model for a cropped hot pink sweater you’re creating, wears the knitted beanie around campus that you made for him. he hates not having your attention but he takes some of the same classes you take so that he can help you study, quiz you when you’re not too sure of the subject, maybe even help you cheat if you want (you don’t, but he always offers).

he buys you your favorite drink at the cafes and always carries an extra laptop charger in case you forget. he helps you pick out your outfits when you’re unsure, and loves the opposite aesthetic whenever you stand hand in hand with him. he praises you when you succeed, and comforts you with your failures. he looks like a dirtbag that hangs around campus to be a creepy bum, but he’s there for you through and through <3

#sorry I just cannot get enough of him #I wanna write another fic for him which is terrible #bc I already have like 8 on my list :( #but he’s just so :((((( #I want him to be my opposite but so supportive bf so bad #he’s all cigarette smoke and I’m all strawberry scented lipgloss :( #why is talking about self shipping so hard for me AKSJDKDJDJ #I changed I’m to yours and back to I’m like nine times lmfao #BUT SERIOUSLY I need him so bad or else I’ll combust #I don’t need to write another college bf touya au I DONT!!!!!!!(?) #I’m being tempted……..he is my temptress in my hero journey……….and I am weak…… #okay bye I wrote this at midnight but didn’t think anyone would see it until this morning anyway lol #I will attempt to do my own cluster lashes so wish me luck #if they fuck w my sensory issues then they are immediately coming AWF #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #dabi treats! 🍬

[cherra-cchd]

Pepsi Diet and cigarette best breakfast ever ✨

#anor3c1a #i want to ⭐️ve #tw disordered eating #ana bllog #ana rexx #ana trigger #i need to lose so much weight #i wanna lose weight #i wish i was weightless #tw ana diary #smoking #smoker #cigarette #calories #i need to be weightless #i need to lose this weight #i wanna kms #im going to kms #anorexies #anorexcya #anatumblr #ana rant #ana journal #tw ana trigger #tw ed diet #tw ed but not sheeran #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed #ana meal #ed disorder

[keyh0use]

no kook!barry thoughts, no rafebarry scenario, just wanted this photo of him here forever

#it'll never beat cut hands cigarette smoking long hair barry pic #but that's okay #I love him in every form #I wish they would let him grow his hair out like this for S4 😭😭 how I envision him in Peace #rafebarry #rafe x barry #rarry obx #obx #barry (obx) #barry obx #outer banks #nick cirillo

[alpacahat67]

are you even a lead singer if you don't bother your guitarist incessantl- DAVID.

#i do have a collection of photos like this and every time im like ok man you do that. #i wish i had the confidence david bowie did strutting around in a sparkly space suit smoking a cigarette and doing whatever this is #david bowie #ziggy stardust #mick ronson #glam rock #maybe hes playing guitar with his teeth but he didn't need to cop a feel while doing it. sorry. its just unnecessary. other places to hold.

[wazzuppy]

one of my favorite, like,,, i guess "background arcs" in community is how abed stops smoking in between seasons 2 and 3.

i can totally imagine troy and britta being the ones to pester him about it, especially since britta has struggled with smoking in the past. troy was definitely the one to get him onto those shitty, chalky little candy cigarettes, while britta helped abed with actual recovery and coping mechanisms. she may not be a great psych student, but she would know how to work through a smoking addiction.

#tara says stuff #community #community nbc #abed nadir #troy barnes #britta perry #have i mentioned that i love abed and brittas friendship? bc i do. so much #wish they got to have more interactions #smoking mention #cigarette mention

[kerryweaverlesbian]

The third in my Dean and Cas share a cigarette series. It's another miserable one lads! You don't need to have read the others to read this. This one is during thee fanfiction gap of Heaven Can't Wait.

Read it here on ao3. The opening is below:

The only motel in town is miserable, but it's worse outside - heavy rain chokes out the sky. The brown-on-brown hall carpet had squidged unpleasantly underfoot as they'd come through to the room, which Dean can only hope was from the weather. 

The room itself has a faux outdoor tea party theme, for some goddamn reason. There's even a couple of inexpert, off-brand Alice In Wonderland characters looming over the walls. Maybe the owner got a deal on the painted metal outdoor furniture that's posing as breakfast table and chairs. The bed groans every time Dean shifts on the end of it, and the bathroom door doesn't shut properly. 

Cas isn't talking to him. To be fair, Dean isn't talking to him either. The tv is busted, naturally, and anything else they have to bring up is only going to start an argument. Cas is staring listlessly at the plastic bag of snacks Dean got from the Gas n Sip, and Dean is staring at Cas. Overbearing, sure, but Cas doesn't seem to care. 

He's slumped in a way that he never had as an angel, like the few strings left pulling him upright have been severed. His legs are spread open, one straight and one bent, and his chin rests on his fists - the kind of deeply uncomfortable looking comfortable position Dean had found himself in countless times. Cas's hair is frizzing, from the shower Dean coaxed him into, and the black-and-white flannel Dean gave him lifts every time Cas breathes. And he does breathe. Just like everyone else. 

#smoking #cawis creates #sharing a cigarette #sharing a bed #deancas #destiel #heaven can’t wait #spn 9.06 #I didn't actually rewatch it lol the mood might be way off #you can picture it as a later but nearby miserable deancas hangout if you so wish

[hesterias]

Truly a perfect song.

#wish it was on spotify #i almost forgot to listen to this today #that lalalalala always gets me #arctic monkeys #cigarette smoke demo #mine

[fagbearentertainment]

Raghhh I’ve remembered this animator I loved in middle school who made this really good Two Time by Jack Stauber AMV of their ocs but they deleted their channel and it’s been so long I can’t remember the channel name to try to search for it 😭😭😭

#I think I remember a few bits of animation #like of the character smoking a cigarette and blowing out hen smoke #and a shot of one in bed and I think at a school (one might’ve been a teacher?) or restaurant or smth #yeah I think one character was a science teacher or scientist or smth like that #and another might’ve been a hit man? and they were gay maybe? or trying to kill each other? #gahhh I wish the channel was still up they were one of my fave animators ever like I vividly remember #commenting on tons of videos and them replying to em

[humble-decembre]

#thin inspo #thigh gab #cute thighs #thinspo #thinspiration #i wish i was thinner #coffetime #coffee #cigarette #smoking cigarette #cigarette and coffee #aesthetic #aesthe #aesthetic blog #grunge aesthetic #aesthetic girl

[thebreakfastgenie]

You guys should really cancel me for not saying a word about Billy Joel smoking lmao.

#is tumblr user thebreakfastgenie a hypocrite? yes!!! #i mean i wish he didn't smoke but what can i do about it #if people were saying 'he's so cool with his cigarette' i probably would post lung cancer statistics on that also

[deklo]

double fisting a beer and an aperol reading a book!!!! in public!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel so good the weather is so beautiful i can hear a fountain

#i’ve walked so much today and had an ~økologisk~ hotdog…..i am so happy #which makes me sad because. i want to live here but i only want to live here if i am unemployed and have endless amounts of money :) #and only if i spoke fluent danish ;) #which i do not ;) #everyone just takes their time when they eat out here #i feel like i’m the last few years the us started TIMING you when you ate in restaurants??? what about lingering??? settling??? chatting??? #:/ #i wish i smoked cigarettes so bad right now

[parasitefun]

my strongest agent trench hc is that without the directorial privilege of ignoring the no smoking rule he just has to have his comfort ciggie behind his ear to signify that he's about to run out (or to the bathroom) as soon as he can

#i forgot to post this here i posted it to twitter in october lol #zachariah trench #i wish i was smoking a cigarette right fucking now but soon i will be allowed to shmoke once more amen #agent trench #remedy control #parasitefun art

[themthistles]

haunted by unlit cigarette dongsik

like we never see him smoke on the show this is it

#beyond evil #wholeheartedly believe he was supposed to be a smoker in the original draft but then jtbc purged the script of it #they said you can have one (1) Cigarette scene and he can't light it #honestly a shame you know if BE were a netflix original or something they'd leave it in #reasons i wish they kept it: 1. with everything this man goes through you know he doesn't just smoke he CHAIN smokes #2. i can tell you the exact instances when he'd light one with a trembling hand and let out a shaky breath and we were robbed of this #3. juwon being a very neat put together person it would add to his initial dislike of dongsik #if his clothes also smell strongly of smoke #honestly they put dongsik through nine circles of hell but won't let him take a smoke break #weak