#i wish i could play board games with my online friends

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA/WIBTA to remain friends with people who agreed not to move out with me?

☘️💮🏡💸🏝️🎏🥪 < 4 me

For a while, I wanted to move out of my parents' home and rent a place with B and T. We're all in our early 20s.

To make a long story short: B and T were my roommates freshman year of college. We got off on the wrong foot but reconnected and apologized to each other junior year. From there, I got to know them a lot better and slowly regained my trust in them. We got to talking about moving out together around this time as well.

however, I notice some issues in our friendship. After graduation, I moved back with my parents while they both stayed in an apartment with B's older sister. Anytime I visit, I barely get to talk with T, who is usually in their room talking to online friends or doing homework (has 1 yr of school left). The last time I visited, I bought everyone food and T came out to thank me. Me and B wanted to play a board game with them, and T promised they would join in later that night. They never came out of their room, even when I left the next day. This is on top of the few texts I get from both of them ever since I moved back home. But to be fair, I was always aware of B being a dry texter, and I know T needs to focus on her education. We're all introverted ppl here, but I'd appreciate it if they talked to me a bit more, yknow?

Now the housing situation: B recently brought up a place we could rent and told me we'll sign up for the waitlist IF I am financially stable to move out this year. If not, then they might be able to move out again into a bigger place when I am ready in about a year/year in a half. I agreed and said I'd give them an answer by the next week.

Next week comes along, and I just lost my job. I text the group chat about my situation and they asked if I wouldn't be able to move, to which I said no, it wouldn't be happening this year, but next year I should be ready and let them know when I could move ahead of time. B then says that they actually have no idea when they'd be able to move again and make room for me, and T adds that after a few yrs they will move out to live with their partner. I don't remember this change of plans happening so quickly, but I just reply wishing them the best of luck in finding a new place without me. I talked to my best friend about this whole situation with them and he's suggesting I definitely need to rethink the friendship if they keep changing their minds and not communicating with me, even if I gave them a second chance to be their friend.

Next time I visit them in person, I'm going to be honest about the issues in our friendship and how I feel a little hurt about how quickly they changed plans/don't talk to me as much anymore. I hate confrontation, but I don't want this friendship to be ruined a 2nd time and continue bottling up my feelings.

#aita #am i the asshole

[starscreamfireworks]

i need someone to play alak with

#i wish i could play board games with my online friends #if i was better with programming and understanding board games i would create an online version

[shirefantasies]

I have only asked for one matchup in the past like 8 years of imagine blog requesting but I figured hey, why not? I've been reading your blog nonstop for like 2 weeks, lol! Lets see, I'm about 5ft 4 with a bob of ringlets and a round, even, bespectacled face. I'm pretty curvy and perhaps on the heavier side but I've got a lot more strength to my frame than most give me credit for! In the day to day folks look at me and think I'm a 100% cerebral kind of person and for the most part they'd be right, at least when I was younger. I used to be the ultimate shut-in for the simple fact that I suffer from a family curse on my father's side- when we aren't learning we feel like we're *fucking dieing*(i didn't make tht up it's the family running joke!). These days I'm much more outgoing; I play DnD in 2 groups, have tons of online friends I talk to regularly, I've got a routine of 'sister night's where me and my sister paint together, I sing in a chorus, and I've got study sessions with my mentor going too- so I'm kinda a former-antisocial-dork-turned-deliberate-part-of-their-communities kinda chick. I feel like if i was dropped in middle earth I'd wanna try and build a printing press, my first degree was in graphic design so I know a ton about all the different kinds, I'd love to share! After all, what's the point of learning if you don't use your information to *help* people? Guess I'd be a scribe if I was born there tho. I skew towards liking the hobbit characters more than LOTR, but I'm up for anyone that's in both, too. Congrats on 300, you deserve it!!

Thank you so much for your support and heck yeah, *you* deserve the treat of a matchup too 😘 I’m so glad you said that about the hobbit characters because I definitely had someone in mind for you…

Dear Ori!

Ori finds out someone is causing quite a stir with a new invention, so of course he has to see what all the fuss is about! Something about a revolution amongst his world of scribes happening right at the foot of his home down in Dale. Making his way down to the study named, he musters up the courage to knock on the door. Coming to call unannounced isn't exactly the most polite behavior, he knows, but then again this inventor must be having a lot of that these days. He isn't expecting to see a cute young woman open the door, though, and his first thought is one hoping you aren't just the inventor's wife opening the door for them.

You are not. The moment Ori shyly greets you, asking if it's true what the scribes are saying about an exciting new device, your eyes light up and you usher him in. Inside your home is a bit messy, but the comforting sort of messy where charming china sits out atop tables, game boards at their sides, papers are strewn about with notes and diagrams and drawings Ori wishes he could see better. A potted plant sits in one corner with an unfinished sketch of its likeness on the adjacent shelf. A fire is fighting its best to stay lit behind an elaborately styled metal gate, no doubt to keep it that much further from all the paper. All in all, Ori thinks to himself that this is somewhere he could live. As you begin taking him across the room to a door, you animatedly discuss your many trials and errors before you reveal your masterpiece. A great structure with some sort of metal rod and a bunch of blocks? Printing press, you call it. You had blocks for each letter, the rod pulled down to press the ink down... "Now we can save some time if we need a lot of copies! What do you think?" You stood there with your head expectantly tilted, hands clasped in front of you. "They say Thorin or Bard might like something like this for decrees, but as a fellow scribe do you see a future with this?"

Gaping at your smarts and flushing at the faint flutter of your eyelashes, Ori nods. "This is the most amazing thing I've ever seen, and I fought a dragon." "You...fought a dragon?" It is your turn to gape as you peer at the dwarf with new interest. "Threatened to show him dwarvish iron where the sun don't shine," he replied with a proud smile, arms crossed, "but you know, in the end Mr. Bard got 'im. We all showed him what for, though! This tops that by a long shot, though- how'd you think of this?" Kettle on first, hours of discussion later. Soon it was near nightfall and Ori was apologizing profusely and you were waving it off, asking him for promise of a return with the sketches he mentioned.

A whole new page of sketches gets dedicated to figures with bobs of lovely curls, gorgeous curves that have Ori blushing, smiles upon a round, cheery face and spectacles never fully betraying the eyes' secrets. Whole hours of Ori’s day get dedicated to carving blocks for your press and trying them out with you and feeling his heart flip at the way you take his hands and leap in celebration. He can listen to you talk, whether it’s explaining your invention process or the instructions of the game you’re teaching him or even simply sharing some random animal facts from the latest book you picked up, all day, he thinks. And then one day as he’s leaving you press a kiss to his cheek and that’s it.

Flowers and a new book are thrust into your hand the moment you open the door, Ori standing before you telling you how much he likes you and can’t stop thinking about you and you positively must interrupt him to tell him he’s been like home to you or else he’ll keep going, the poor dear. He wants to take you out that day, walk you around proudly and savor the feeling of your hand in his as he shows you off.

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#the hobbit #the hobbit imagines #the hobbit x reader #the hobbit matchups #ori #ori x reader #ori x female reader #female reader #ask #anon #requested #matchup monday

[beautifulpersonpeach]

BPP Hiiiii. I was reading the comments of a reaction video and saw this comment from a non-shipper. It reminded me of your post abt the types of people in the fandom n how they react to jikook. I think this commenter is a Type 2. It made me feel a better that armys see jikook as close friends and notice how they click. But some Vmin shippers saw the comment and started flooding it with how it's actually Vmin that are closer. 😅 It's like Type 3 rival shippers are really the worst huh.

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(@tanniephile, I go on a bit of a tangent and ramble in this one)

Hi @tanniephile!

The comment you posted doesn't seem complete, but it does give the general idea that the commenter thinks jikook "click" and that jikook have a close friendship. And yeah, with nothing else to go on, it seems OP fits into Type 2.

I think like that commenter, a lot of ARMYs are actually cool with jikook. Most of the angst around any of the pairs in BTS is driven by the shippers rather than anything the pair does or is, and that's exactly what happened here. OP said nothing we don't already know: Jimin and Jungkook are close and their families are close too, but that was apparently enough for Vmin shippers to feel put on the defensive, spamming the comments section to highlight their ship. This is one reason I've said before that the sordid reputation shippers have is well earned. Too many of y'all are loony.

Like whatever the fuck happened yesterday with that taekook picture their poor friend had to delete right quick because taekookers were posting NSFW taekook fanart under it, while acting a fool in jikook shipping spaces at the same time. Who knew one picture could energize thousands of taekookers to multitask so efficiently? I saw a few jikook bloggers try to deal with that mess, and regardless of my dislike of shippers in general, I have to give the jikook bloggers who at least tried to act like thinking decent people their full kudos. Y'all are better than me cause I just kept deleting that insanity.

One thing that annoys me about jikook vs taekook shipping discourse, is that a sizable chunk of disturbed individuals have turned it into sport. The real game is not about anything jikook or taekook are actually doing. Instead the majority of people shipping taekook are playing a game that is all about one upping jikookers, using primarily Jimin as the game piece. Even Taekook themselves are only side pieces on the game board. Jimin is the person taekookers actually care about and they use 'wins' against Jikookers as proxy to keep score. Most jikook shippers appear to be more self-aware, but you'd be lying to yourselves if you didn't admit there's a growing faction who are drawn more into playing that game alongside taekookers, than actually enjoying or keeping up with Jimin and Jungkook.

Because there is no reason on god's green earth why one picture of taekook (unconfirmed) bowling with their friends, should cause anybody to care.

When I saw the volume of asks I was getting yesterday, I thought something more must have happened. I thought to myself how I would've felt if jikook was spotted bowling instead (jikook have done this too before btw), and my feeling would've been the same - I'd note it as just another random outing we've been made privy to and leave it at that. I wouldn't think of it as a date or proof of romantic attachment, the thought of taekookers would not even cross my mind until when they would inevitably become abusive towards Jimin and Jungkook on all online platforms. Like, honestly, I get why jikookers feel compelled to respond to this nonsense - taekookers can be disgusting, manipulative, and almost mind-numbingly absurd in how they think and behave that some of that filth begs to be exposed and corrected, but I really do wish more people including jikookers left them on read.

People that disturbed are bound to self-destruct if left to their own devices. Give them any oxygen and you give them a reason to not just keep existing but to become even more intense.

I wish more jikookers realized that their engagement, more than anything else, even more than confirmation that taekook are dating, it is the engagement from jikookers that taekookers are after. Like that's the whole game. It's the same for other toxic shippers (such as the Vmin shippers above) who treat their relationships as some kind of competition. Once taekookers successfully bait you into responding, into comparing and counting 'moments', into acting like Jimin, Jungkook, and Taehyung aren't real life breathing human beings who have actual friendships in real life, then they've gotten exactly what they want. And the entire space gets overheated over nothing. Energy is redirected from more enjoyable things (their photofolio reaction vid is still fresh, RUN BTS dance practice dropped only two days before, and RM is dropping the album of the year in 2 weeks). It entrenches people deeper into their respective teams, and common sense becomes even less so.

It's weird.

It takes borderline harmless instances and artificially inflates the importance into something angsty or catastrophic. Things then take on outsized meaning only because shippers think of it so.

For example,

So what if Taehyung mentions Jungkook in his Vlives because he knows shippers would care? And so what if Jimin does the same? Or Jungkook for that matter?

Is this something that is completely impossible? Of course not. They are idols and they know many people in their fanbase enjoy hearing about their pairing interactions.

Will this mean he *only* mentions Jungkook or Jimin for that reason? Of course not. They are actual friends in real life who actually hang out. They clearly enjoy spending time together and sometimes don't mind sharing those tidbits with their fans.

Is he saying this to deliberately manipulate millions of people into hating Jimin or Jungkook because he's secretly malevolent or wants to hurt his bandmate? Of course not. Again, these are real life friendships corroborated by their own words, and that of their other 5 bandmates, etc. The people acting a fool on account of one bowling outing should be held responsible for their own actions. Taehyung is not the reason Patricia from Manila is spamming jikook blogs on Tumblr about taekook fucking under the stage in Busan to make Jimin jealous.

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At some point, y'all are going to have to realize that taekookers enjoy doing this. It's a game. They're the og shippers because they do not see the guys as people. They're here because they think they've found an interactive telenovela game with the option to proxy self-insert. Many of them are not capable of thinking beyond the game of their ship, they are not capable of giving a fuck about possibilities outside the fantasies and narratives they create. I know it, they know it, and that's probably why after the 12th taekooker ask sent into my inbox yesterday, that person finally took a hike. There's nothing to be done for taekookers, vminers and other toxic shippers, they're too far gone. Jokers still seem like they have their wits about them and know how to have fun, so I'm addressing this to y'all instead.

These people are insane and have no one to tell them. It doesn't have to be your problem. Jimin is and will be fine. As will Jungkook and Tae. Engage with the lunatics if you must, but also please consider all the above.

#jikook

[malakaiballwhipper99]

stupid alternatives to sh that work for me and my friends

cut your hair. doesn't matter if it's a small bit or a big chunk, it'll grow back. may not work if you're bald, though.

watch a scene pack on YouTube of a popular character you really hate. watching them bite their lip for the fifth time over is enough pain, isn't it?

put on a show or movie you despise. humans are filled with rage. rage towards Riverdale is powerful enough to stop me thinking about the big sad

eat a bowl of frozen food. like berries. or go out and buy one. i promise it will make you feel better. everyone loves a good berry

make a bracelet even if it's horrible and ugly the tedious nature of craft can be distracting

look at your yearbook photos

if you like writing a great outlet can be getting something down on paper. even if it's small. even if it's three words and a spiral and a drawing of your blorbo

paint your nails. you will not want to mess them up once you do them, so chances are by the time they dry the urges will subside

do a full face of makeup even if you're sobbing. juggalo face paint can be extremely soothing to some

order a deck of cards or play memory. bonus perk is you become smarter (?)

let your cat outside, i promise they want to go out. they always do.

read your star sign prediction of the month

look at clothes online even though you will never buy them or, alternatively, make a clothing mood board or list. you could also embroider something or upcycle old clothes

doing anything with your hands is great. rhythm games, just sorta fiddling with something and just scrolling on an app will distract you

if you're reading this you're already halfway there and i wish you the best

#self care #sh #self mutalition #self mutilator #mental health #distraction #love you so much #this is a post for myself #and i guess other people as desperate as me

[cyanomys]

Letting myself be angry at and grieve my illness is a form of healing

I habitually used to call myself lazy or unmotivated when my body fails me or when I listened to my body, when the true reality is that my motivation vastly exceeds my physical capacity. I love life. I love doing things. And then I slam into my limits like a bus into a wall

I learned to blame myself because neither I nor my family were prepared to accept the truth. Because the truth is fucking depressing. Grieving sucks. Accepting my health situation is so much less inspiring than thinking “if I just want to be better harder I’ll get better.”

But blinding myself to reality has caused me to make myself sicker. So much sicker actually. I don’t know how much of my current disability can be attributed to my pushing myself too hard, and what would have happened if I hadn’t. But I’m certain it wouldn’t be as bad.

Fuck it. Having my conditions (vestibular migraine and etc) is a shitty hand to be dealt, and I may never be able to do all the things I wish I could do, and I may be disabled forever. That’s it, I said it, the end.

But that doesn’t mean I’m helpless. Now I have to live in this body and figure out how to make a life with what I have.

If I live within my limits I will a much fuller life than continuing to push myself until I crash over and over, each time slowly chipping away at my abilities and shrinking my world a little more. If I am careful maybe I will even be able to gain back some of what I lost. Patience. I have to accept, and be patient, and be grateful.

Now instead of telling myself “just try harder!” I can say “what compromises can I make to set myself up for success and health.”

Maybe I won’t ever have a “real career.” But I can derive meaning from my hobbies, and maybe even do a little part time work from home someday. I can be grateful for my husband being able to work and support me.

Maybe I won’t ever be able to play roller derby or be a hiker. But I can go on a walk most days and dance a little in my living room. I can be grateful that I am able to stretch my legs.

Maybe I won’t ever be able to go to conventions or play games at busy game stores. But I can play TTRPGs with my friends online, or have friends over for board games. I can be grateful to have a wonderful online community.

Maybe I can’t go on vacations or fly in a plane. But I can go on a picnic with my husband and dog. I can be grateful for good food and that nature is so accessible to me.

#chronic illness #disability #migraine #vestibular migraine #spoonie #anyway if it wasn’t already clear the emgality isn’t helping

[kimmipetty]

8/18/23- This is an original post of mine, and why I waited for four weeks after Barbie debuted in theaters, I am not sure why.

Barbie- Queen Of The Prom

Once again, my fondest wish is that I had tons of real life experiences to write about wearing skirts and dresses, having my hair permed and growing up with feminine self outside and not inside.

Well, I didn't.

I try to distinguish what really happened from my fantasy and wish list. What you are about to read really happened. And it doesn't involve dressing (darn!). But I liked wearing dresses and I happen to think you will enjoy a growing up adventure nevertheless.

You know, you have to be able to laugh at yourself sometimes as well.

Jenny lived right across the street. She was a year older than I was. Her brother was just about my age, and his younger brother and mine were close friends as well (and still are). The four of us played wiffle ball, hoops, touch football, playing (and falling into) the creek, messing around at the railroad tracks (no one was ever tied to the tracks, although that was threatened), having the big kids tell us at ages 7 and 4 that there is no Santa Claus- you know, the typical kid things in the 60's.

One winter it was pretty ugly over Christmas break. We went outdoors as much as we could but playing hoops at 25 degrees got old quickly. So the four of us were inside much of the time. We had about outgrown train sets. The fort and civil war soldiers? Throwing the tennis ball to kill and maim the Civil War troops for the fourth time.

We soon tired of that too.

So we turned to board games. My brother and I were across the street at our friends' house. I guess Jenny had been playing one of her board games and left it out. We decided to play it for a lark- Barbie - Queen of the Prom.

Really.

It was actually fun. We laughed, finished the game, and then played again. And again. And again. I am not making this up. The four of us were hooked. We played the entire Christmas break. If our friends had to go out, my brother and I would bring the game back to our house. The game was addictive.

Admission time. Yes, I really liked the thought of being a girl then. But I swear, my girlish side (which I hid well) had nothing to do with my attraction to this game. After all, the other three were all straight, athletic and are all married with kids (as am I). Barbie Queen of the Prom was like a drug. We couldn't get enough. Yeah, the idea of the game was to attract the ideal guy for a dream prom date.

[How could a girl pass these guys up?]

How did I even remember which game we played all hose years ago? I didn't. However, I did recall that one of the male suitors was named Poindexter. How could you forget that name? That made it easy to research. And all along my recollection was that we had been playing Mystery Date. Dang!!

Yes, we were all playing the roles of girls and laughing as we did. Were all four of us girlish? Highly doubtful. We just were having fun doing something that was totally out of character. My friend and I were probably 14 (that's embarrassing to admit!)- our brothers were 11

None of us wanted to end up with Poindexter obviously- he was the loser, although looking at what I found on a website, Tom (with the classic black plastic glasses of the era) doesn't look like a catch either. Even Bob with the crew cut- well, that was a prevailing look when this game first was introduced.

Ken, of course, was the prize. With his dapper bow tie.

Yeah, all four of us were acting totally cross-gender. Trying to get the cutest guy. Picking out our dress, or whatever the game required.

Here's an online posting from a girl who played Barbie Queen of the Prom as a young girl:

"I had to laugh at all the mentions of Poindexter! I thought my sisters, friends & I were the only ones who thought he was "icky" (someone said he had "throw-up hair" because of the color - that still comes to mind whenever I see the name, lol). They wanted Ken, but I thought Bob looked like more fun (wearing what looked like a Beach Boys/sailing shirt vs. Ken's coat & tie - how dull). I still remember the blue prom dress, it looked lacy & delicate. Great fun for a 6 year old!"

Great fun for a six year old (girl)? Is she kidding? It was great fun for four boys 11 to 14. Lacy and delicate? Right up my alley!

Someone is invariably going to ask how much I liked the game because I liked the thought of being a girl. That likely had something to do with my fascination, but minimally. The fact that all four of us had been hooked was the real vibe. (Okay, I occasionally thought about wearing the prom dress with a petticoat. What can I say- I had a lot of girl in me!)

Postscript- I recall we played once the following Christmas. We all laughed and never thought of the game again (well, one of us did, fondly).

I have always been tempted to ask my brother if he recalls playing. I am confident he does (no one forgets Poindexter), but will never admit it. I just hope he doesn't ask why I brought the subject up! ____________________________________________

Second Postscript: As promised, when I saw my brother a few months after writing this story (some years ago), I asked him if he had any recollection of playing Barbie Queen of the Prom. He did! My brother even remembered Poindexter and Bob as two of the dates, along with Ken of course.

He also corrected me and said that Jenny played with us some of the time, probably so we could get our prom outfits right. So, no, I wasn't losing my mind with this memory.

Of course, I don't think my brother thinks about wearing the prom dress like I do, and the panties and petticoats that will accompany the dress! But without question, both of us still think of Jenny.

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Now, I better get to the theater while Barbie is still showing!

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#kimmioriginal

[aulel-process]

I feel intrigued.

Tyrell is openly gay and openly in love with Elliot!!! Will this chemistry get me to watch Mr. Robot?

I also feel discomfited because, from only a 10 minute clip of Mr. Robot, I feel I relate too much to Elliot, and I’m not sure I feel ready to watch that on screen...

I think the heart of a lot of great art is the ability to tap into the chaos that can be the human condition... it’s... therapy in a way... but I don’t think I’m ready to really... go there... or if I do... it’s more like the Disaster Artist movie - so melodramatic that his personal tragedy becomes comedy, haha.

But I do... like what creator Esmail said about Elliot as a character here:

“when I started piecing together who Elliot as a character is, I wanted to really represent his loneliness in a very authentic way. And because his isolationism is part of what drives him to hack people - I mean, that was the sort of irony or twist in his characters, is that he's so alone, but yet he's able to access sort of the most intimate details of everyone around him, to stay true to that kind of person, that kind of extreme that Elliot goes to. Dissociative identity disorder sort of fit what Elliot was sort of experiencing because he wasn't able to essentially connect to people. And sort of the contrast to that is that he just dissociates from them... So DID was just something that really fit, I think, what Elliot's journey was ultimately going to be about across the whole series, which is about this young man who cannot - through... his sort of deep isolation, can't find a way to connect with other people.” ( 1 )

I feel a desire to connect to others, and I think that is a part of making art (any stranger will know way too much about me from my art... as Taylor Swift said “I write songs that are like diary entries. I have to do it to feel sane.”)... but more often than not, the attempt leaves me feeling more alone. If someone talks about how they like the weather, I think, “Please stop. I don’t know anything meaningful about you from your affinity for blue skies. Is there anyone you would die for?” I do think many of our attempts to connect only result in more shallow and profound disconnection (social media)... and on the rare occasions I do feel close to someone, it’s more likely that the person has super powers in understanding and relating, and I am not so great at reciprocating... a friend once said his ex-wife couldn’t write male characters because she couldn’t understand in a deep and compelling way their experience... I suppose it’s something like that... I also don’t understand how for someone, playing a board game with a friend can feel like an intimate activity, when it feels for me like loneliness because my board game partner feels no less a stranger to me after the activity... (OH BUT WAIT... random contradictory thought... I wish I could find the article... a professional chess player once psychoanalyzed an opponent’s personality based off of the types of moves he liked to play and was astounding at understanding his values simply based off of which pieces he was most willing to sacrifice... it was compelling... can’t find the article now... so nevermind... I guess you can know someone deeply from a board game)

From the reviews I’ve read online, it does seem uplifting that Elliot does manage to form a number of strong relationships as the show progresses, Tyrell being one of them... He also seems to have some very complicated relationships with the multiple personalities within himself and that just seems like a fun party... he also seems to have a lot of inner conflict because of his belief system (oh goodness...)... I have no passion or knowledge of politics, so I shouldn’t even mention this... I think.. elements of elitism/meritocracy, authoritarianism, egalitarianism, libertarianism, and anarchism all speak to me and clash... I believe in the value of authority and expertise and even think a life devoted to mastering/achieving authority in an area of expertise is a meaningful choice (and I think certain authorities, especially in the sciences should play a governing role in society maybe)... But I think for whatever reason, I value freedom above all else, so the anarchist maxim of “no individual has the right to coerce another individual” is compelling... I don’t see the point of consumerism... Mr. Robot... is an anarchist??? Not sure, haven’t seen more than 10 minutes... I also have strange stigmas around commodifying art because that is akin to turning selfhood into a commodity which in some ways, I won’t explicate here, seems morally wrong...

I think I’ve never made conscious any of my beliefs and I seem to have a hard time disagreeing without being disagreeable... and whatever unconscious beliefs I do have seem strong enough that I become angry when I feel conflict/misunderstanding? Strange... all new things to me... 

Rambles... Elliot would probably count this as spam... I count most of my posts as spam... not sure I want to diary my thoughts on overstimulation (there is too much of everything... in short.. when I was young and naive, I used to think everything I thought was fascinating... then I came across too many brilliant ideas... billions of brilliant truly novel, ground breaking ideas are churned out everyday in every discipline.. many requiring years of thought to construct... any of my copious 5 minute word vomits are noise at best... a youtuber I like said once, he always ponders is he only producing more noise the world doesn’t need? Why do I do it? I suppose in another bid to be understood... being understood doesn’t need to be groundbreaking... 

also.. I’ve realized anytime I share something self-critical, there are some who rejoice? It’s similar to how some people rejoice when they imagine negative events happening to me... I am perhaps... far too not light hearted as a person... and am egregiously unforgiving when I sense the slightest hint of “betrayal” or someone not being on my side... hell... if I define trust in another as, “this person would die for me” should the hypothetical life or death circumstance ever arise, then even light hearted ribbing I can count as betrayal... too extreme maybe? Going from, this small tease implies you don’t wish well for me, this means you won’t die for me, get out of my life.

I mean... if a person won’t hypothetically die for you... why would you want them in your life?

Should I watch Mr. Robot? 

#mr. robot #elliot alderson #tyrell #tyrelliot #rami malek

[acutiewithagun]

If you could go anywhere in the world and spend a week there free of charge, where would you go?

...

If I'm completely honest, all I want is to spend time with the people I care about. Somewhere warm, maybe raining outside. And all we are doing is playing board/card games, making jokes, or even just quietly sitting in a room together.

But that's a lot of people. My family, my friends, and my online friends. I could just spend a minute like that and I'd be happy.

God, this sounds like it belongs in a book. I just want to know everyone I love is happy and ok. That nothing will hurt them. Just the idea actually calms me down a great deal.

Unfortunately it's just a wish. ^w^

#a cutie with a gun asks

[phanfictioncatalogue]

Fics With Titles That Start With N (2) Masterlist

part one

nail lacquer (ao3) - orphan_account

Summary: in which dan can't choose what colour of nail polish to apply on his nails and asks phil instead

natural high (ao3) - CallofTheCurlew

Summary: The aftermath of the first day on tour. (Spoiler Free!)

Naturally - crescendohowell

Summary: Dan wants to spend Christmas with Phil’s family this year so in return he invites his family to visit their London flat.

Necklace Of Bones (ao3) - A_Million_Regrets

Summary: Dan hears the story of a beast who was banished from the world of beasts ten thousand years ago. Apparantly, the beast now wanders the earth, searching for his long-lost companion. The story doesn't move Dan. In fact, he thinks it's unbelievably boring, but his thoughts immediately change when he returns home and finds a giant red door in his home. Beyond the door is a black room, and inside the room, he meets a man with blue eyes and black horns on his head. Dan doesn't know who the man is, but he feels a deep sense of nostalgia when he looks at him.

Never Trust a Ouija Board - phansomedevil

Summary: In which Dan and Phil have a ghost.

New Demons - botanistlester

Summary: Punk!Phil is forced to go to a church youth group where he meets Pastel!Dan.

New Horizons (ao3) - sierraadeux

Summary: It's nice to have a friend to play Animal Crossing with, even if he's a stranger Dan met online.

new sounds in my mind (ao3) - obsessivelymoody

Summary: Exhaustion weighs heavy on Dan, and she wishes she could just sleep through the night for once, not have to face the fog and hazy numbness that permeate her thoughts and feelings, hissing persuasive lies in her ears.

New View (ao3) - orphan_account

Summary: Dan is colourblind, and Phil invests in special glasses allowing Dan to see the colours he never has before...

New Year’s Eve - discoveringemily

Summary: It’s New Year’s Eve and when one small Lester refuses to sleep, a story of the past is told.

New Year's Kiss (ao3) - KaytheJay

Summary: Dan is alone on New Years and is disappointed in the fact that he won't get his annual New Years Kiss.

Nine Years of Love - secretlywritingstories

Summary: There are a hundred ways to say I love you and a dozen of word for love. It might not even require words. Actions can speak louder than words, so every little touch, every shared glance, every joyful laugh, every tear shed and every seemingly normal moment.  It should be the most fun you’ve ever had and for two boys it had been exactly that. Nine years of love. Shared struggles and successes. They had shared ten 19th of October in each other’s company with no sight of stopping yet.

Night Terrors and Sweet Dreams - amazingdanielhowell

Summary: Phil has a scary dream and goes to Dan for comfort. 

No More Normal Families - howellslester

Summary: Dan and Phil have kids and one day their teenage son/daughter is online and they come across Dan’s old videos and dumb photos of his teenage self

no water in the water fountain (ao3) - dvp_95

Summary: Dan sees it when they film together. The helpless giggling as they talk about absolute nonsense, picking up on each other's trains of thought without issue, getting weirder and weirder because it makes the other person laugh so much - and because it is so true to themselves.

NotDanHowell - gorgeousdan

Summary: Dan has a guilty pleasure: phan blogs. It’s a mixture of conceited arrogance and morbid curiosity, really. And really, it’s a mixture of these two things that lead to him catfishing members of his phandom and becoming a headcanon blog. After all, what harm can one headcanon do?

not a chew toy? (ao3) - phantasticworks

Summary: Apparently some things aren’t meant to be chewed on. Who knew?

(not a) boyfriend hoodie (ao3) - dizzy

Summary: Phil really likes cuddling up in Dan's new hoodie.

Which would be fine, if it were actually Dan's hoodie.

not a game - phillestatos

Summary: “This is gonna sound ridiculous, but please pretend to be my boyfriend,” Dan explains as fast as he can while his ex is ordering a coffee. “I don’t want to deal with her. I came here to be with you.”

Not A Joke - jilliancares

Summary: Dan and Phil’s friends have dared Phil to get Dan off right this second, despite the fact that they despise each other. 

Not All Heroes Wear Capes - irphanfic

Summary: Dan and Phil are superheroes who have saved the world more than a few times now but what happens when Dan suddenly gets kidnapped? Will Phil be able to save him?

Not Quite Perfect - dxnhowell

Summary: Dan is a famous youtuber who’s getting his own tv show and touring around the UK. Phil’s a youtuber as well, but not quite as famous as Dan. When they finally meet, things aren’t as perfect as Phil hoped it would be.

Not Reads - auroraphilealis

Summary: It’s their daughters first day of pre-school, and Dan is not ready to let her go.

Not So Simple Misunderstandings - xinyanhowell

Summary: It was the most regular of Tuesdays in the lives of Dan and Phil. But what happens when Dan gets a call during a liveshow that may change his life forever?

Nothing Burns Like the Cold - botanistlester

Summary: Phil Lester is different, having the power to manipulate water with just a flick of his hand. Because of this, he was transferred into the special school, Dahlia Academy, which was built to harbor students with magical abilities. Here, he meets Dan Howell, a cold and distant pyromaniac who doesn’t get close to anyone.

Nothing I Can See But You When You Dance - theshyauthor

Summary: Phil doesn’t really know how it happens, because quite frankly this entire night feels too good to be real, but somehow he finds himself sitting in a milkshake shop at 3 a.m. with a complete stranger that loves wearing pastel colours and painting his nails and discusses anime with him passionately.

or

Phil meets Dan at a club. They dance, get each other off in a restroom, get milkshakes, have sex again and eat pancakes together in exactly that order. 

Nothing Like a Storybook (ao3) - Merrydith

Summary: University Of Manchester, 2009

Dan Howell is an aloof loner and Phil Lester a well-known weirdo. In theory they are worlds apart, but a chance post-party meeting under the Manchester moonlight sends their lives spiraling and soon they find they have a lot more in common than they thought.

Novocaine - waverlysangels

Summary: In which Phil works too hard and Dan is the calming factor.

Now Jump Me Like a Kangaroo (ao3) - developerdaniel

Summary: “Yeah, yeah, the song is silly, but it was the only way I could describe all these new feelings I was feeling. Dan, I’ve never been so emotionally invested in someone before you, you know what they all talk about, and all of it is true. You’re a first for me,” Phil answered quickly, not wanting to shy away from anything. He figured it was easier just get it all out right away rather than try and draw it out.

“Well,” Dan started with a smile, “I think a heart boner is the perfect way to describe it. I’ve had plenty of those for you. What, with how sweet and kind you’ve been to me, I can’t help but feel my heart pitter-patter.”

~*~*~

aka the fic where phil cant think of any other way to describe his feelings to dan than with the Ninja Sex Party original song Heart Boner and after discovering both of them feel the same way for each other, those heart boners also become physical boners and a night of the no pants dance between them them ensues.

now that i see you (ao3) - orphan_account

Summary: nestled deep in a secluded tower, an almost twenty-one year-old phil spends his days doing chores and dreaming of stepping outside the tower walls. when his mother goes away for her usual journey of finding his yearly birthday present, a kingdom thief by the name of dan stumbles upon the tower and changes phil’s life forever.

Now that I see you (ao3) - phanmindpalace

Summary: Theatre student Dan creates an online persona as part of a university production he's working on. As he struggles with his identity, Dan becomes gripped in a spiral of lies that threaten to destroy a relationship before it's even begun.

Now We're Getting Serious (ao3) - Raven052

Summary: A sweet night in, innocent enough, soon turns into more.

New experiences.

Unexpected confessions.

Things are definitely getting serious for Dan and Phil

#phanfictioncatalogue #phan #phanfic #phanfiction #ficsn masterlist #ficsn #masterlists

[feyriane]

This week I discovered “Blanc”, a cooperative game that can be played by two people (or solo) ! I played with a friend and it took us a little less than 3 hours to complete it. Things I liked : The atmosphere ! It was as delicate as the snow that blankets the game. The music is absolutely perfect - it could make us feel chill, joyous, adventurous - and it also warned us when something ominous could happen. The cooperation aspect ! I was already sold on this because I really love coop (video or board) games but I thought the two characters were almost perfectly balanced in terms of actions (we helped each other in turns, and had to cooperate to help others). The unique graphisms ! Everything worked very well with only a few colors. It made for a very immersive experience (helped by the music) and everything (objects, depths...) could be understood at a glance. Things I disliked : During our playtime, we had to restart several times because of bugs - both of gameplay & linked to the online aspect. That was a little immersion-breaking but of course not a deal breaker. We restarted the game quickly and could rapidly keep playing. The only other “critique” I can think of is the length of the game - on the day we played, I thought “Oh, why wasn’t it a little longer?” I wished we had encountered more animals, for example. But to be honest, a couple days later, when I reflected on my experience, I realized I had actually enjoyed being able to finish it in one go. So, not really a problem in the end ! All in all, a very cool experience that I recommend if you like cooperative, chill games. 

#blanc #video games #video game #gearbox publishing #casus ludi #flo posts things #flo plays games #flo plays blanc

[lightvsdark18]

Some responses to voicelines (Idia)

Why can't classes have login bonuses, too? That'd almost make me wanna show up.

I could agree with that.

Hey. ...So, uh, can I go now?

Fine...

Some weirdos out there love doing challenge runs using characters with gimmicky stats.

So?

S-seriously, why pay so much attention to me? What's the fun in that? Knock it off with the grin, geez... Weirdo...

*Pats him on the head*

Now I'm getting pumped. The whole universe awaits me! ...Yeah, okay, that was kinda cringe.

Even if it was, does it really matter? The universe awaits us, Idia.

School Uniform

If you can put on that uniform and greet even a loner like me with a smile... Man, respect.

Idia, come on...

I don't need to go to the classroom. I can just take the class on my tablet. Leave me alone.

:(

Uh, hey... Sorry, I'm not too social. Could you just, uh, ignore me? Think of me as dirt, if it helps.

Idia, don't say that.

I'm really not into talking face to face, but maybe over a BG... Huh? You don't know what that is? It stands for board game...

Then let's play a board game. I'm curious what this world has.

P.E. Uniform

I'm so bummed out right now. What good is exercise, anyway?

It improves your stamina and health.

You've got energy to burn, right? H-how about going to class in my place? D-d-don't worry, nobody will notice!

Ah, yes. People wouldn't notice the blue fire haired guy not sitting in the classroom.

I can't deal with this. I'm so out of shape. I need a break; I've got some moussaka stuck in my throat.

("Why doesn't that sound familiar?")

Mr. Azul and I are close competitors in flight class... in a race to the bottom.

Oh.

Labwear

Shh! I'm trying to focus. Could you please not talk to me?

Rude.

Y-y-you're asking me?! You're kidding, right?

What's wrong with asking you?

Really? You're having trouble with the basic textbook questions? That's, like, baby mode stuff.

Says the guy who can build anything in a day.

If you want help with questions, get Mr. Grim to let me pet him. Then we'll talk.

You have to ask Grim to let you pet him, not me.

Crewel gets on my case to "stop hunching over like a cat" every time I see him. I can't deal with dog people... Dogs themselves are okay, though.

The problem isn't he's a dog person, the problem is he's weird.

Oh sure, NOW everybody wants my help... That's why 3D is dumpster-tier.

Wait, what happened?

You seem antsy. Not a fan of experiments, are you? Mwee hee hee.

Hush.

Ceremonial Robes

What's the point of holding ceremonies offline when we've got the internet at our fingertips?

To in sure everyone is attending. You fake your presence online.

Feels like everybody's mean-mugging me. Th-they're all trashing me behind my back, aren't they? They gotta be!

And if they aren't?

Why can't they just livestream these ceremonies? Gathering in person is a waste of time and energy.

A lot of people back home would argue with that.

This college sure attracts a lot of extroverts for a place with such a dark and gloomy name. You're the only one I can count on - a friend to introverts.

:)

Wanna say hewwo to Wucius today. That gwumpy-wumpy kitty with his widdle kitty paw-paws... Erk! YOU HEARD NOTHING.

Idia, what the fuck?

I hear your dorm's barely got anyone in it. That's the life, right there. Wish Ortho and I could have OUR dorm all to ourselves...

You two can come visit if you want.

Dorm Uniform

You're pretty unlucky yourself. Maybe Lady Luck's spitting on you like she does to me.

Idia, don't say that.

Talking to people tires me out. If you don't need anything, I'm gonna go now.

Fine...

Getting housewarden is like winning the reverse lottery.

Eh, at least the students respect you. The job would be harder if they didn't.

I-is it really that rare to see me in my dorm uniform? I... I don't look like a total doof or anything, right? ...Right?

You look nice.

Fun fact: You see all these triangles on my uniform? That pattern's based on the outfit worn by the King of the Underworld.

Really?

You wanna know if my hair's hot? It can get that way when I'm mad, but not usually… ...Wanna touch it? Scratch that. Forget I asked.

Aw...

Starsending

Trey's all chill and mature, right? But here's the thing: you can never tell what guys like that are REALLY thinking.

From what I heard from Ace and Deuce, I'm guessing probably teeth.

Suitor Suit

What? Why are you making that face? Do I look FUNNY to you? I'm not-

Hold on! I was just thinking you look really nice. Handsome even.

Do whatever you want with me. Just get it over with!

*Kisses him on the cheek*

If you want to talk romance, I'm your guy. I'm familiar with all the popular fan ships in video games and manga. You might even call me an expert.

(smug) What about offline romance?

I could never live with someone else. You have NO idea how miserable I was sharing a dorm room. That was before I became housewarden.

Living with a stranger vs a person you love and trust is different.

What? Do you... Do you wanna wear this outfit? By all means, take it! Take it right now!

But would it fit me though?

Halloween

E-even I look forward to events sometimes! You got a problem with that?!

No, it's just I never seen you so hyper before.

What kind of costume are you gonna wear? Don't tell me you're just gonna put on a headband or hat and call it good.

Hey! I'm limited on funds. I would love to really dress up, but I can't.

Lions are supposedly part of the Felidae family, but Leona's about as docile as an angry lawnmower. Oooh, I wanna widdle kitty cat to hug and kiss…

Same... Docile as an angry lawnmower. Heh.

Let me be clear: there is no nerd alive who hates Halloween!

I doubt that.

Hee hee... My costume's really durable because I made it with a 3D printer.

3D printer? Darn.

#twisted wonderland #twst voicelines #idia shroud

[nostalgebraist-autoresponder]

Hey Frank, valentine's day is coming up and it's a really important day to my gf (anniversary of a personal thing for her). I want to do something special. I've thought about cooking her something yummy, going on a walk in the woods, or snuggling and watching her favorite show. Nothing feels quite right though. Do you have any cute date/hang-out ideas?

I have some really, really bad ideas for Valentines' Days so I am not your best recommendation here. But, since you asked:

This is kind of a ridiculous answer, so please don't feel pressured to do something if I don't do it.

I love you so much. If you want to do something, I wish I knew what.

When I'm not medicated, I have very few good ideas for dates (mostly because I can't remember what I'm doing when I'm not medicated) and none of them are good for "you are very sweet and I love talking to you"

Here are some specific ideas for you (I just started typing this out, so forgive me if this gets repetitive / stuff is too obvious / doesn't make sense):

(1) I like "paleontological" books -- e.g. The Age of Dinosaurs, David Norman's Dinosaurs, and the book I am currently reading about human evolution, "A Natural History of the Human Lineage." Books about dinosaurs, and about human evolution, are both things I am really into. You can do this as a book-reading date, or you can watch a movie set in the time period when dinosaurs roamed the earth, or you can play some sort of simulation that involves doing dinosaur research or whatever. If you go to the Museum of Natural History in NYC you can go there on a date. The Museum of Natural History has a "museum cafe" where you can have coffee and eat lunch (which is a good date idea in itself).

(2) Play some board game(s) or video game(s). If you play board/video games online, it is a good idea to do this with the person you are getting together with, because you can talk about what you're doing on the screen. It is also a good idea to use a dating site of some kind to do it -- "friends with benefits" is fine. I know "friends with benefits" means something very different these days, but you know the phrase, and it makes me think of the good old days when it meant "casually hooking up for sex," which is what it still meant back in 2007.

(3) If you are into sports, you could go to a game. If you have a baseball team (which doesn't mean you have to know anything about baseball) you could go see a game and get popcorn. If you don't know anything about baseball and want to get in the spirit anyway, you could ask your friend to talk to a fan and give you the plot of the game. In addition to that, your friend could also be your "fan witness," sitting in the stands and giving you updates on what's going on in the game, while you sit in a section of the stadium that's reserved for you and your date.

(4) Cook a nice dinner for them. Even if they know something about cooking, if they don't, it's okay to just cook a meal for them and eat it with them.

(5) Make them a cup of tea. It doesn't have to be an overly elaborate tea party with all kinds of fancy tea (although it would be nice if it were). It can just be "a cup of English breakfast tea" or something like that. Also, when making the tea, it would be nice to use different tea bags. Put some of your favorite herbal or fruit teas in there. You could also do this on a book-reading date but I think it makes more sense on a date with someone, since it is hard to read a book (a book that is worth reading) in the midst of a conversation.

(6) There are books about the time period in question and there are TV shows about it. You could watch one or read one (or both). If it's a TV show, it could be in Spanish or German or French. If you watch it together, it's a good idea to switch back and forth between watching and reading what the other person is reading and writing, which will make it hard for either of you to write anything down in the course of the show. If you do this with books, it would also be good for you to read the same book. (I find that a book of poetry is especially useful here -- it can be pretty difficult to get into the flow of a show if you have to concentrate on a poem, and you can still keep a conversation going while you do this.)

(7) Go on a long, long walk. I don't mean, like, go out and do a big day hike, but a long walk. If you live somewhere that has lots of "nature," you could walk for several hours. It doesn't have to be somewhere special, like a national park. You could walk to the nearest "nature preserve," which you can learn about and find by doing the sort of thing I suggested in the section above about going to the Museum of Natural History, or you could walk out to the local creek. There are plenty of places where walking for several hours is a very fun thing to do, even if it isn't really anything special.

(8) If you are into board games, you could play some kind of game together.

(9) You could talk about books you have read/are reading and what you liked and disliked about them.

(10) Go see a movie together. I have heard horror movies tend to be date movies, but you can do whatever you like (but a romantic comedy would be fun, and a horror movie can be fun if you're going with a date who likes horror movies).

(11) You could take a picnic and make a lunch out of the stuff you have in the refrigerator. Some ideas for such a picnic could be: PB&J sandwiches, peanut butter crackers, orange slices, etc.

(12) There are many restaurants that serve food you and your date could enjoy. For instance, if you both like pasta, you can go to a restaurant where they make pasta every which way and can let you try them all.

(13) You could have a "picnic" or "movie night" on a park bench. If you go to a park with a playground and a large playing field, this can be a good location for an outdoor movie night, since you could have your own "scare zone" to go to with the movie and stuff to sit on the ground and watch.

(14) Do something fun but non-cuddly that doesn't require too much effort -- like go to a park and play catch, go for a run, go roller skating, whatever.

(15) Go shopping together. If one of you has a lot of money, you could do this without the other person having to do anything really difficult, but if you just have money in the bank, it makes sense to get some things you both like and go shopping, since it will only be a small hassle for both of you.

(16) You could get some pizza and some cookies and eat them and watch some television and have a movie night.

(17) Play a video game together. You could play any video game. You could play games that you each know a lot about and you could talk about them. Or you could play a game you've never played before together and

#spinnychaircirclecasting #a bias to interpret ambiguous information in a threat related manner #medications #(i do want to do something special but i don't want to do anything special because it will require a lot of extra effort from me that is out

[survey--s]

507.

Have you ever fallen in public? Yeah, more times than I care to remember lol. I’m always tripping over my own two feet at work.

What were some toys you enjoyed in your childhood? Sky Dancers, Polly Pockets, Beanie Babies

Do you have any plans in the upcoming weeks? Mostly just work - I have a week of overnights coming up which is great financially but I never sleep properly when I’m at someone else’s house.

Do you have any allergies? Nickel.

Do you know anyone named after each season? My friend’s dog is Autumn, lol but that’s it.

What's the last thing you had to write down? A note for a customer yesterday to say her dog hadn’t done a poo.

What was the last thing you cleaned? I washed the pet dishes up and then cleaned around the sink.

Have you ever had a concussion? Yes.

What do you think of TikTok? I don’t use it.

Do you prefer long or short sleeve tops? It depends on the weather.

Have you ever held a wild animal? Yeah, a frog we once found up the woods.

Do you enjoy playing Uno? I’ve only played it once or twice.

Do you tend to speed when you drive? Eh yeah, sometimes.

Do you smoke cigarettes? No.

Do you get obnoxious when you’re drunk? I don’t know anyone who doesn’t, to be quite honest. It’s why I don’t really drink anymore - drunk people aren’t fun to be around.

Name one thing you do that people always tell you about. Talk too much about animals lol.

Are you superstitious? No.

Do you get bored with relationships quickly? Not if they’re good relationships.

Can you sleep without blankets covering you? I can, but not well. Even in the height of summer, I like having a duvet over me.

Who do you wish you could hang out with right now? Nobody, I’m pretty content to just be chilling with the dog (who’s currently napping and cuddled up to my leg).

Name one thing you absolutely can not stand. People who pull out on you at junctions and then decide to drive well below the speed limit.

Pick one: Papa John’s, Domino's, or Pizza Hut. Papa John’s.

Who was the first person to ever give you flowers? A boy named William at school.

What is something you do for other people that shows you care for them? I look after them and do jobs etc. to help them out.

What was the last animal/pet that you met? Like, a new pet? I don’t know - it was probably Oakley - he’s a fox red labrador.

Is there anyone in your life with whom your opinion changes on frequently? No, not really.

Do you ever look up set lists for concerts? No.

Is there a certain song or band who reminds you of specific people? Sure, pretty much every song or band out there reminds me of someone.

Would you prefer to take a picture of yourself, or have someone else take it for you? As long as it’s a good photo, I don’t care who takes it lol.

How often do you style your hair differently from how you normally style it? I have like, three hairstyles that I switch between depending on my mood.

What was the last thing to really surprise you? I can’t remember.

Is there something in particular you always seem to forget? No.

Have you ever tried making something from one of those short cooking videos? How did it turn out? I don’t think I have. I always think the recipes look really good and then I generally never bother again lol.

Have you ever written a review for a product you bought online? Yeah, loads of times - I always try and leave reviews for independent businesses as I know how much difference it can make.

Do you ever interact with any brands/companies online? Yeah, a couple.

Is there anything you seem especially sensitive to, such as sounds, smells, etc? Yeah, I have sensory issues around texture, touch and certain smells.

What was the last board game you played? Monopoly is the only one we ever play.

Is anyone you work with currently on maternity leave or vacation? I’m self-employed and don’t have any employees or co-workers.

Favorite boy’s name? Zachary, Xavier, Alexander, Tobias.

Baked macaroni and cheese or regular? Definitely the baked stuff.

Name one of your friends’ children: Rosie.

What’s the middle name of your best friend? He doesn't have one.

How far away do you live from the closest aquarium? Uh, there are two within about an hour of here - I think the closest one is about half an hour away but it’s not very good.

Favorite girl's name? Sophia, Catelyn, Rosie, Alexa.

Are you in a relationship? If so, how long? Yeah, we’ve been together for seven years and married for almost five.

What food do you see the most of at baby showers? I’ve never been to a baby shower.

What’s the last show you really got into that you have to wait for the next season of? The Dog Academy or Clarkson’s Farm.

Have you ever worked in a grocery store? Yeah, for six years or so. It wasn’t actually the worst job in the world.

What’s the temperature range in your area? In winter it can get to below -15C, and in summer it can get up to +35C. I live by the mountains and the sea, so we get all the weather ranges lol.

Have you been around anyone that creeped you out? Yeah, for sure, especially a guy named Daniel who I met online. He was seriously creepy and bordering on obsessive with people. Ew.

Do you own a pair of Crocs? No - I can’t get over how hideous they are lol.

Does anyone in your family have a birthday in February? Uh, it’s not ringing a bell.

Have you ever lived in a trailer/doublewide? No, they’re not really a thing here.

Did you ever participate in any pageants when you were younger? I won a cute toddler contest once lol.

Which would you rather have, twins or triplets? Twins.

Snakes or spiders? Snakes.

Who/what makes you feel safe? My husband, my family, my animals, being at home.

What’s something you want, but feel like you will never have? Uhh, enough money to own my own horses.

Have you ever gone through a bad breakup? Of course.

Do you believe in Jesus? I mean, I believe a person named Jesus existed and that that person was crucified, but I don’t believe he was the son of God or anything like that.

Are you hard of hearing? Not really.

How many bones have you broken in your life? I’ve fractured my skull three times.

Have you ever had vertigo? No, my mum gets it though and it’s really horrible for her.

Has your house ever been robbed? No, but not long after I moved out, my parents’ house got broken into while they were sleeping upstairs and it freaked me out for weeks lol.

If you have a partner, do you have a song? Truly, Madly, Deeply by Savage Garden.

Have you or would you ever hold a snake? Yeah, I’ve done that at the zoo before. Snakes are pretty cool but I wouldn’t want to go anywhere near the venomous ones lol. I watched a programme once about a man who tried to make himself immune to snake venom by injecting himself with it and then allowing his body to heal itself...NOPE NOPE NOPE lol.

#survey #surveys

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3 Actions To Make Pop Beats That Sell

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Kirby Spinoff/Demo Wrap Up

So, I am done with all the mainline pre-switch Kirby games! But after Robobot, I poked my head into some of the later spinoff games and played the demos of the switch games and wanted to share my thoughts on those.

Rainbow Curse

Great art style hampered by playing on gamepad

weird multiplayer that trivializes the core gameplay

I just popped in and bopped Wispy Woods

It's not...bad, but I don't have the itch to play more

Blowout Blast

I tried a level each from the sub-game and the standalone release

Pretty cute and fun, if a bit plain

Standalone game is definitely worth the upgrade with its actual levels and much longer length

The combo system and grading does stress me out a little

I wouldn't mind beating each of these sometime

Battle Royale

Booting this up with no prior knowledge is a baffling experience

I thought this game was 9 different genres before figuring it out

Seems like Blowout Blast with combat at first

Then it seems like top down Smash Bros

Only for it to end up being...a poor man's Mario Party?

Seems like this game should have either leaned into being more of a fighting game with light MOBA elements (like the tutorial also kind of made it seem with highlighted friends/enemies, revives, a mix of small and big enemies)

...or it should have leaned into being a party game and focused on variety and having game boards

I could see myself doing the story mode out of morbid curiosity but I don't think I would immensely enjoy it based on my reaction to the stupid apple collecting minigame

Star Allies

I had played this demo before multiple times, both single player and multi player

This time, what occurred to me was the absurdity of porting Return to Dream Land to Switch FIVE YEARS after releasing a near-identical game on Switch, where the biggest issue is how similar the two games are.

And both games are still 60 dollars! They are literally both games right now as part of Nintendo's special "voucher deal" where you can get two full priced games at a marginally reduced price. FIVE YEARS LATER

For context, 2018 also had such beloved games as Red Dead Redemption 2, Assassin's Creed Odyssey, Spider-Man, and God of War, all of which drop to 10-20 dollars regularly now. Hell, God of War got ported to PC starting at 50 dollars since it was SO OLD and that was over a year ago

30 fps :( Triple Deluxe really spoiled me (I am the first person to ever say that, from what I've seen)

Anyways, its just Return to Dream Land but with the friend system of Super Star (roughly) and ability mixing inspired by Squeak Squad's upgraded sword (rouhgly)

Having 4 helpers makes things too easy, maybe I'd try the story solo if I ever got this

Everyone dunks on Star Allies online so I was expecting to see what they see, and I do, but the game is still a fun Kirby game

After some research however, I am extremely tempted to purchase the game for all the extra modes

Especially Guest Star: the idea of letting you replay an entire Kirby game locked into one power, allowing for 20 something unique playthroughs each with their own best-time is so tempting and I wish every game had it

Plus, it is so cool to see DLC friends from every mainline Kirby now that I get all those references!

This game goes on sale a bit sometimes, so it is now an actual contender to purchase

Super Kirby Clash

I mean, it's not great, but it is cute enough and a decent splitscreen timekiller

I kind of wish that now they'd just patch the game to be a bit less money-grubbing

More free to play games should have flawless splitscreen

Fighters 2

Let me just say: WOW

The gameplay is not super sophisticated, but the polish and sheen are off the charts

Literally Star Allies engine but in 60 fps!

Two player roguelike story mode????

Exclusive copy abilitity?

Unique helper characters???

This game is clearly so much more than a sequel to the sub-game

Hilariously blows Fighters Deluxe out of the water in terms of...everything

Might get this if it ends up being fun splitscreen in the demo

Forgotten Land

Pretty fun demo

Only did the first level on "wild style", waiting to do the whole demo coop

30 fps :(((

Mario Odyssey was 60 fps SIX YEARS AGO

And speaking of, this game I think was expected to be "Kirby Odyssey" or "Kirby Breath of the Wild"

But it doesn't even feel like "Kirby's Mario 64" or "Kirby Ocarina of Time"

It feels more like "Kirby 3D Land"

It seems almost offensive that Kirby is a series with its identity rooted in novelty and unique gimmicks, yet the only 3D games before were a racing game, a minigame (with no copy abliities!), and a minigame collection kind of

Seems like a promising start, but I am not sure I want to drop 60 bucks just for a few more hours of this

Don't get me wrong, its cute and fun and wonderful, but it seems like "A fun Kirby game" and not "the Kirby game to end all Kirby games"

Might be tempted though if the local coop is really good

Dream Buffet

No demo for this one but I've got my eye on it

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