#i wish I could hate you

[caffeine-is-the-only-drug-im-on]

What I really wanted to say tonight:

I hate when an ex tries to come back to apologize and says that the closure is for “both parties” like no. This is for yourself. You know what you did to me. You know how you tore my heart open. You’re apologizing for yourself. In the aftermath of it, you could’ve apologized then, I half expected that.

I never expected that 7 months post-break up, I’d see that number pop up on my phone again. Much less it be you.

I was doing fine really. I was healing and not even thinking of you anymore. But suddenly I get a notification and it’s you. You asking to apologize for what you did. And I let you. But don’t think for a second that I’m letting you waltz back in my life, because you don’t deserve that. Not after leaving me to pick up all the pieces that you left shattered at your wake.

And now that the conversation is over, I wish that I let the guilt eat you instead of letting you get your way. Guess that’s the bitter anger that took resonance in me when you left.

#relationship #heartbreak #im gay and stupid #maybe if i stop breathing it wont hurt as much #I wish I could hate you #I can never hate you not in a million years #bc you were once a person I loved more than the moon cherishing the sun #lgbt #spilled words #thoughts

[blugrlgroup]

You didn’t even give us a chance

#you were just so happy to fucking take take take everything I gave you #then throw me away #I wish I could hate you #I want to hate you so much #you’re a selfish cowardly asshole and I’m so angry at you I wish I never wanted to give you the time of day #I wish I was strong enough to just ignore you now #I don’t want you to win #you’re going to be just fine and that enraged me #I want to hurt you like you hurt me #but I know I can’t because you Don’t Care #bastard

[lonelyflowen]

i'll take the very fabric of the space and the time that you lack for me—i said it was fine and i'll sew you a pennant in lace and carmine embellished with all the fractures (hairline) that criss-cross my heart, a pitiful sign that i haven't let go, i'm still not resigned there's been no clean break, no hurts defined you're a gale force wind, i'm unravelling twine

(but the meter was off, the timing unright 'cause you're on the dock, and i'm a ship in the night)

#poetry #writing #wlw #wlw angst #love #sad #pining #sapphic #photography #sky #clouds #thunderstorm #i wish I could hate you #i wish i didn't care #i wish things were different #I'd tell you myself #but we don't talk anymore :(

[thetimelordbatgirl]

The police in Scotland have the chance to do the most funniest thing right now.

#anti jk rowling #jk rowling #come on grant her wish #though imagine seeing laws coming in to deal with hate crimes #and just instantly throwing a childish style bigot fuelled tantrum #cause you wanna keep being a bigot without consquiences #its all freedom of speech until theres consquiences for said freedom of speech #and of course her fellow transphobes are trying to say the truth isnt a crime...what truth? transphobia??? #it counts as a hate crime now not sorry if your in scotland #enjoy getting consquiences for your bigotry #also shout out to someone saying it'd be funny if they only did so they could raid a literal castle #i too think there's at least someone on the force itching to do that

[iveneverhadanickname]

i hate being your first.

i wish i was your last.

#i wish i could hate you

[thatsnotahoodjason]

imagine tim drake passing his english lit classes purely because of his stalkerish obsession with jason todd leading to him hacking into jason's laptop and reading all his old lit essays and book blog

#dick: you got an A in english lit? i thought you hated that subject. how'd you manage that? #tim: i had a really good tutor #jason finding out years and years later when he remembers his old blogs and logs back into it to find spams of comments from tim #like 'i got an A in my macbeth paper cause of you!!' 'youre the smartest person ik' 'i got another A' 'i wish you could actually teach me' #and jason freezes like.. why tf did tim find my blog 5 years ago and use it like a tutor #dc #tim drake #jason todd #batfamily #batman #robins

[memories-never--die]

"Acting like you'll never hurt me again"

#clinton kane #lyrics #music #i wish i could hate you #maybe someday it'll all be okay #spotify #personal

[mewnia]

Work doodles!

#In Stars and Time #isat #doodles #man I wish I could doodle at work more #I hate that the best way to make you motivated to draw is to be busyyyyyyy #mewnia's pawprints

[gunstellations]

In the world I love

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In a different world

#vanitas no carte #vanoé #doomed yaoi save me...save me doomed yaoi #play on the opening song + visual sequence + the fact that vanitas could only ever be happy in an alternate universe also #+ the other fun little fact we learn about him from episode one #i have complex feelings about this anime #its pretty damn fucking good #but im a leeeeetle iffy about the way it developed the female characters.....they had potential and i was actually excited to #to see some good solid female characters even the respective romances with their l/i's felt good at the start #not jeanne obv. they fucked up a perfectly good woman and her whole dynamic with v could have gone sooo well without the reall #really forced flirting behaviour.... i liked the more serious relationship they had it made me actually not hate what they had at the start #but yknow. whatever. sorry about going off about another ship on this but im just....i love jeanne a lot. i wish they didnt do her so dirty #my girl deserves better than this asshole #you want white/black dynamics??? let her get married to domi and then we can talk #i enjoy this show and i enjoy vanoe a lot #very yuriyaoi if you ask me #my art

[nonranghaes]

heads up: bad body image bullshit. struggles. vent fic.

seungcheol's arms are like home as they wrap around you, his lips pressing against the side of your head. even when you swear you're beyond calming, something about his cologne is enough to make you feel safer. he just holds you as you babble endlessly about the flaws you see in the mirror every time you see yourself. the things your own family picked on you for, and then backtracked with saying you couldn't "take a joke" and they clearly meant nothing by it. joke or not, it stung deeply each and every time it happened.

even now, seungcheol sees the way you pull your sleeves over your hands. the way you try to make yourself look smaller in his embrace, hiding away every part of you as much as you can. you don't even realize you're doing it. seungcheol sees you as radiant, as gentle, as kind. to him, you're attractive in your own way: there isn't a word that fits just right. you're you, and that's what he loves the most. but he knows the scars you have hide underneath your skin and go deeper than he can ever soothe with a kiss.

"i love you," he says, rubbing circles into your back. "i'm sorry other people mde you think you're not enough." he presses another kiss against the side of your head. "it's okay," he coaxes you gently, "i've got you now."

you hiccup, burying your hot, wet face into his neck. one day, he knows you'll see what he sees. it'll take time, but he'll be with you every step of that journey if that's what you need.

"cheollie..." your voice is broken when you finally break through the sobs to speak. "love you..." you murmur, hands grabbing at the back of his shirt. "just... hold me for a little longer. if that's okay."

it's always okay. he snuggles in, holding you a little tighter. "whatever you need. you're perfect to me, okay?" he holds your sleeves over your hand, though, when he takes it in his own: his words aren't going to fix you, and if it makes you feel better to hide, he'll let you hide until you're ready to be seen again. and then he'll stand with you when that time comes, proudly showing you off as much as you're comfortable with.

#nonranghaes.thoughts #nonranghaes.svt #seventeen x reader #seventeen imagine #svt x reader #svt imagine #seventeen x you #svt x you #s coups x reader #s coups x you #seungcheol x reader #seungcheol x you #choi seungcheol x reader #choi seungcheol x you #sorry im just. i hate my hands i hate my body i wish i could trade it in for one that my parents wont make fun of

[gaygreenranger]

Do you ever just want to see the person who broke you? Not to "fix" anything but just so they have to look in your eyes and see what they did?

I was 9 when you broke me and at 32 it still hurts this week And I don't even have it in me to hate you.

#i wish i could hate you

[guinevereslancelot]

what was with cameron house md she spends 90% of the episode saying she wants their patient to die bc he's a genocidal dictator and her colleague husband says "babe it bothers me for ethical reasons that you want our patient to die :(" and she said "hm maybe you're right :/" but when it comes down to it the genocidal dictator lays a finger on her in an aggressive manner and chase instantly commits medical malpractice to murder the guy and then when he tells her she LEAVES HIM bc boo hoo he's a murderer now like GIRL he killed a man for you!!! he's wracked with catholic guilt!!! he's being crushed beneath the weight of his sins because he chose his devotion to you over his devotion to god!!! he literally could not get any sexier at this moment in time!!!

#girl what are you doing...... #also just in general she did not deserve him honestly he was so good to her and for WHAT #just to be abandoned at peak devotion and guilt and hotness 🙄 #girl get OUT of my way i'm stronger than you #if she cared she could fix him or make him worse but i could love and support him no matter what 😌 #his muder is a part of him and its SEXY #robert chase #house md #malpractice md #i know the actors broke up irl or whatever but wtf..... #i should have ended my rewatch w their happy lil wedding at the end of s5 #s6 everything instantly goes to shit #and stays shitty #chase should be happy fr #he's supposed to turn into house basically but they should have made him the well adjusted version of house #like how nightwing is the well adjusted version of batman #anyway i have no real point here i just lowkey dont like cameron bc of this arc #also her obsession w house is so weird i wish they hadn't made that a thing #this has been a shitpost #anyway she left chase at the absolute peak of his sexiness wtf....... #anyway since this apparently needs to be said its not that deep this is a silly post if you send me hate messages i wont answer #i block and ignore anon hate bc i am too busy touching grass to be rude to strangers over a tv show

[blancherries-art]

It feels good to be back.

(A more risque version under the cut)

#Percico #PJO #Percy Jackson #Nico Di Angelo #it wasn't meant to show so much navel but as I kept correcting their arms Percy's kept going down -they were too damn short- #i hate having to state this but just in case it's not obvious enough no minors are depicted here #Nico has been aged up -and I tried to give Percy like 23-ish but I think I failed at that- #Also about the concept? There is no concept #I wish i could give you a cool one but this time I just wanted them to ovreflow with intimidating power couple vibes tbh #give them the story you want #it could be a twisted merman AU or a canon divergence where Nico actively goes after Percy idk #“Black Water” maybe? #Nicercy #Pernico

[demigods-posts]

I've seen a lot of discourse about Virginia Kull's portrayal of Sally Jackson in the Percy Jackson and the Olympians TV series, and I'd like to say that I loved her. Don't get me wrong. I love Sally from the original book series, and I, too, would fight the God of War on her behalf. But something that I enjoyed about Virginia's portrayal of Sally that we don't get in the books is the character depth. We don't hear much of Sally's backstory in the TV series, apart from a couple of flashbacks with younger Percy and that scene with Poseidon (Toby Stephens). However, those scenes do an excellent job of showing us that alongside being Percy's mother, Sally is also a young woman who fell in love with a man she could not be with and is enduring the natural consequences of having Percy. She struggles to communicate with him when she's frustrated, gets teary-eyed when she lies to him to prolong the inevitable, and actively sacrifices her happiness to ensure his safety. Virginia Kull's portrayal of Sally Jackson reinforces the character's humanity, imperfections, and determination, and it's everything to me.

#i once saw someone say they disliked the portrayl of sally jackson because she raised her voice at percy and I'm just #*sighs* #sally is essentially a single mom who is constantly being plagued with the notion that her son may not live to see sixteen #she has to prepare him for a life that she knows is going to break him like a bone #except she has to keep some secrets from him to ensure his safety for the time being #all the while #she is plauged with guilt knowing she and poseidon contributed to placing this burden upon him #and it is even more apparent when percy voices his disappointment in her behavior as a mother #and all she wants to do is be there with him every step of the way #but knows that she can't #and you're mad because she raised her voice at him???? #parents do that (and i wish they didn't) but they do #sally is not perfect in any way and i love her for it #give her some grace #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo text post #pjo #pjo tv adaptation #pjo tv show #pjo tv concept #pjo tv series #pjo tv spoilers #sally jackson #sally jackson appreciation #sally jackson appreciation post #sally jackson is amazing #they could never make me hate you #also virignia kull is an amazing actress and i don't know if it was clear that i love her but i love her in case it wasn't clear

[deerspherestudios]

Hello again! I see ask are opened! And from the previously answere asks, ive come to know that mychael loves lil funky doo daads! (Im so happy to know this fjwvdjdh i make quite a bit of these and worry that theyre actually useless in the long run ;u;). How would he react if the mc gave him a bunch of ducks? Ive made quite a few and i'd love to throw em at him/affectionate

Oh my god he would adore these!!! Little knickknacks and souvenirs are the best, and he'd definitely fawn over these. I can imagine him happily displaying these little lads and lasses on the fireplace calling them something silly like the 'Ducklings Siblings'. Probably give them names and backstories too (they change spots and stories every time you visit).

And the fact you handmade them makes it so much better! A gesture like that he'd want to return tenfold. He'd be cooking up something similar for you the next time you see him (since his love language is gifting):

#mushroom oasis vn #mychael ask #i wish SO BAD i could draw this myself but id hate to keep this in my inbox </3 #this goes for all the questions asking how he'd react being gifted a knitted item or anything really #he'd be in love with it instantly #and try to upstage you even

[icantdothistodaybruh]

yea sooooo I may have or may have not watched and instantly rewatched all kuro musicals in existence in a spawn of one week and now have roughly 40 screenshots to redraw from

I think I might be insane or something

#it's all sebaciel of course #god I wish I could erase my memory and rewatch the most beautiful death and tango on the campania #the latter I watched like 3 times but death I found a long long while ago so now it must've been my tenth or so rewatch #and I'm still so not normal about the final song and overall parallels between sebaciels and alan x eric i'm fijsdfdjfo #and sebastian is so dumb he is sO BLIIIINDDDD IT'S CRAZY #“me? going against my nature and principles over some tiny human? I could neve-” yeah bro mhm talk about it after the gwa and rciel reveal #also fellas is it gay to *pretend* to try to wake up your master just so you can have an excuse to carry him? #and then sing about how every night you fantasize about kissing him and holding him? #is it fellas?? #and the whole scene of alan's death when in his memories he and eric VERY PLATONICALY look at falling petals and he goes #“ah so beautiful it looks like snowfall :)” #and fucking moments later sebastian kills eric the souls are flying everywhere just so ciel could go #“ah so beautiful it looks like snowfall :|” #I'm going fucking insaine I hate it here every time is like the first #"some things are simply meant to be beautiful” proceeds to STARE AT CIEL FOR A GOD DAMN ETERNITY #I can't I literally can't I'm miserable #sebaciel #was so busy with my rant I even forgot to include the tag at first oh my god