#i want to in case someone has a trigger for those??? bc they're in the image???

[fairyhaos]

how seventeen help their s/o who's sensitive to loud sounds

requested by @cinnamoroxie: "hi yena, i have another request for you ^^ im really sensitive to loud sounds, ie music blasting over speakers, loud bangs or crowds. i also have small tics sometimes where i shake my head or slightly flap my hands a little bit, so maybe what svt would do in those situations? if this is too much, then just an s/o sensitive to loud sounds :] love u!! drink some water when u see this too! <33"

notes: decided to go for the broader idea, but i still tried to include little mentions of your initial request too <3

masterlist

seungcheol:

informs you on everything that might be potentially triggering for you, like outings to outdoor places, big events that are happening in the area you're walking past, anything at all. lets you cling onto his arm whenever you're in a big crowd, pulls you towards him like a reflex when something makes a big crash in the distance. also hides in the blankets with you during thunderstorms

jeonghan:

constantly checks on your condition n asks your status whenever the two of you are in large crowds. if he sees you're getting overwhelmed, he'll take your hand or put an arm around you to ground you to him and lead you to a clearer area as quickly as possible. has three pairs of ear plugs in his bag at all times. almost started crying when he left his bag at home during a loud event, apologised so many times as he led you out early

joshua:

if physical touch helps calm you down, then you can bet that this man has a hand on your wrist or holding your fingers whenever you go somewhere with loads of loud music. declines meet-ups that someone offers the two of you of it's in a place that can potential trigger you, and tells you he prefers spending a quiet night in with you over bad club music any day

junhui:

gets easily overwhelmed by loud noises with you, so as a rule the two of you avoid places where both of you can get startled. holds your hand bc he needs the comfort too, sometimes squeezes your fingers so hard that they feel like they're creaking together. has developed a habit of automatically reaching out for you to cover your ears when a sudden loud bang sounds

hoshi:

lowkey finds your reactions really cute? like when you suddenly jump a little in your seat and clutch onto his arm, making him melt a little and pat your hands wrapped around his sleeve securely. sometimes get surprised by loud noises too, but endures them For Your Sake (he's such a wonderful person isn't he) and coos affectionately when you flinch as if he didn't almost bite his tongue off in surprise

wonwoo:

another person to always have ear plugs with him. has them in separate cases labelled with your name(1), your name(2) etc. revels in peace so he's vv comforting when you want some quiet. lets you rest your head on his chest during quiet moments together so you can hear his heart beating steadily and calmly right next to your ear 

woozi:

gets startled by sudden noises too, so you're both clutching each other whenever a loud bang sounds somewhere. has composed + recorded so many songs with slow bpms to help calm you down when you're particularly sensitive after extended periods of time around loud sounds. moves really slowly n purposefully when he goes to comfort you when you're overwhelmed so you can see everything he's going to do

minghao:

never takes you anywhere where there could be an overwhelming amount of noise. scolds you (lightly) (out of affection) if you come home all sensitive bc you made yourself interact with loud sounds all day, and then gives you a hug and makes you tea to help you calm down. goes through breathing exercises with you, promises to help if you ever get too overwhelmed while he's there

mingyu:

if you startle or flinch at anything at all, he's standing protectively over you in an instant. it can't really stop the noise, but it lets you know that he's there and he'll help and you're okay, which is infinitely reassuring. when something loud crashes you're immediately running into his arms bc he always has them open to shield you n they're the comfiest pair of arms in the entire world (dw. i checked.) 

dokyeom:

how did you end up with this man like omg. he's the loudest person ever. has been gradually building up a habit of letting you (and everyone else) know when he's going to start bursting into song so that you're not too startled by it. when mingyu is being too loud and banging around the pots and pans or knocks something over with a loud clatter, he covers your ears and gives mingyu such an offended stare

seungkwan:

scolds the members for being too loud if you suddenly flinch next to him bc of dokyeom's yelling. also automatically puts his hand over your ears whenever you're walking through a loud crowd. whatever you do, he's going to do, so if you end up sinking to the floor bc you're overwhelmed then he's falling to his knees with you, hands over yours on your ears, murmuring softly that he's here for you

vernon:

sometimes takes your hand and up and leaves the room with you when the other members are being too rowdy. offers you a various range of ways to muffle the noise, ranging from ear plugs to noise-cancelling headphones to his fingers permanently stuffed in your ears. if you're really sensitive after a long, rowdy day, he sometimes engages in whispering convos with you until you feel better

chan:

so so caring genuinely like. you probably sat down w him and explained your sensitivity to loud sounds and he was listening so attentively, nodding n promising to help you w it. always reaches out very obviously to cup your cheeks when you're startled by the loud sounds, hands warm on your face, grounding you to reality and getting you to just focus on him. does simple breathing exercises until you start doing them with him too

request guidelines

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[time-is-restored]

ted lasso 3x11

got through the latest episode tonight, below are unassorted ramblings abt a kansas ending (which i, despite being almost certain is where the show is heading, am still ardently rooting against):

so i was talking a little with my family abt the extremely likely kansas ending*, and was mentioning how much i really don't vibe with it. i said smth like 'i mean, what's even there for him in kansas?' to which they said (fairly, and rightfully!) 'his son!'. like, that's a pretty bulletproof argument, so i guess im just writing this to figure out why i feel like even that isn't. idk. enough?

[*though if that is the ending, what's the point of the cliffhanger? it's the most obvious + expected outcome, how would it be a 'reveal'? idk, some part of me is still praying for one of those classic Twists™ ig]

like. we've known that ted has a kid since day one. we've known that he loves + misses that kid since day one. according to the text, the number one reason ted left kansas was as a last ditch effort to save his marriage, by giving michelle as much space as humanly possible. they were divorced by the middle of the season, and ted chose to stay at the end.

so like. idk. am i missing something? did he just stay bc he felt an obligation to the team? and now that they're doing well (absurdly, breaking the bounds of belief well), he feels okay moving on? like many ppl have already pointed out, that's a pretty standard plot line in these kind of stories: the mary poppin's style exit stage right. but, say ted goes home (potentially even without beard???? agh??). what's happened to him, these past few seasons? what's different now?

like, it kind of feels like im only gonna be hurt by reading in between the lines here, but kansas doesn't seem to hold a lot of good associations for ted w/o the bedrock of his + michelle's marriage. he's reduced to a morose, spaced out mess within 5 minutes of talking with his mother, he very nearly goes through the Extremely fucked up move of paying someone to spy on michelle after seeing her + jake together for an afternoon, and ofc if anything even remotely reminds him of his dad he gets triggered really badly.

and of course, maybe the idea is 'well, he's started to cope with that all now, and he's starting to talk openly with his mum + grieve his dad, so he has the tools to return' but like. does he???? his support system are EXTREMELY london based. setting aside sharon since he could always telehealth w her, all of the positive progress he's made in his 'home' life seem to exclusively come after he talks w his support group at richmond.

he ended up admitting he was mad at michelle after speaking with the diamond dogs, he was pulled out of his obsessive spiral by rebecca, and he was able to put words to his feelings abt his mum by talking w jamie. to be clear, those are all massively positive things for ted to have done, and i think they at least make a good case for ted progressive positively w his mental health (even if its all gotten a bit tell don't show in this last season). but like. what happens when all that's on the other side of an ocean?

to be clear, from the perspective of real life, it absolutely makes sense that ted would want to return to his son. but on a narrative level, im just. i feel like im being expected to take certain things about ted + henry's relationship for granted, when the text itself hasn't even tried to make those things apparent.

is henry miserable or even generally upset when he has to leave his dad/go back to his mum? not that we ever see! im pretty sure the only time we've seen henry explicitly upset is when ted was ignoring him while he was like five feet away which, yeah, mood! and last we saw, henry even sees more enthused abt richmond winning the whole thing than ted is, so its not like he thinks his dad is just going away to do absolutely nothing of import.

do ted and henry not spend a lot of time together/talk very often? technically we don't see enough of ted's daily routine to know for sure, but the casual mention of playing roblox seems to imply they spend a lot of time together! and ofc none of their phone calls ever have the vibe of 'i haven't spoken to you in ages, here's ALL THE THINGS you've missed!'. they're almost all abt stuff that happened that day.

is ted struggling with being away from henry? well... yes, duh, but i don't even think this season's done particularly well establishing THAT (incredibly obvious and free) piece of ted characterisation.

is ted capable of feeling anything other than vague nostalgia (ie: all of his annecdotes being set there) or extreme distress wrt kansas? apparently not! like, seriously, what is there for him? does he have any friends? a job? family that isn't his mother? where's he gonna live? does he miss the weather? his neighbours? like i am literally on my hands and knees give me ONE (1) concrete opinion ted has about the fucking place that isn't about its FOOD (<- ESPECIALLY coming off the back of an episode where ted was able to experience texan food So Authentic™ that it inspired a literal career-changing epiphany?? like HOW are we supposed to take that as anything other than 'ted is at his best when he acknowledges BOTH of his lives rather than cutting one out in favour of the other'???).

idk. i guess my real problem this late in the game is i can see so many POTENTIAL versions of this show, but what ive been given doesn't feel like it matches up with any of them.

i can imagine a story in which ted's avoidance + variations upon running-away tactics for dealing w conflict get thoroughly deconstructed and challenged while in london, so at the end of the show he's finally emotionally prepared to return to his life in kansas even though it's never going to be a fairytale picturesque no-problems-ever ending again.

i can imagine a story in which going back to kansas isn't good for ted, and will be a major sacrifice, but it's a sacrifice he will be making with the support of his new friends + family, and something that he is determined to make in order to be there w his son, all meaningfully juxtaposed w how he feels his dad 'quit' on him.

i can imagine a story where ultimately, the life that ted's made alongside richmond is just as important to him as his life in kansas, and so he + michelle work out a more equal and long-term custody arangement* with henry (it definitely seems like the 'you get him for the whole year and i get him on school break' was something haphazardly worked out while they were both still under the assumption he'd be in richmond for less than a year), and they alternate who goes to whose home for holidays and shit.

[*side note, why hasn't that come up at all? i'd personally think somewhere around the six month mark of working overseas i'd want to have a talk w my expartner + kid about a schedule that isn't so much of a 80/20 split? like, it's fine if henry moving isn't on the table at all for one reason or another, but at least take the time to actually SAY that??? like, what does michelle do for a living? why is SHE so happy to stay there? give me Literally Anything here gang!!!]

...but ultimately what ive actually seen on screen feels like it fits into none of those categories. eleven hours (in as many episodes!! HOUR! long! episodes!!!!!!) in and i feel like i know infinitely less about ted + his mental state than i did in s1. like, from episode to episode, the writer's aren't sure if he's stuck, or progressing, or going through that classic recovery 'one step forwards, two steps back' dance, or just completely and utterly depressed. there's no continuity. nothing that happens to him in one episode seems to have literally any bearing at all on the ted in the next episode. if u scrubbed all of the notable Ted Scenes™ of any overarching plot references, and shuffled them all up, i genuinely think you would end up w a plateau of scenes totally indistinguishable from each other!*

[*of course, this is my main critique of s3 for like. literally everyone, but it's paticularly damning when im left feeling this lost about the main fucking guy.]

i don't know. i guess after the past few weeks of being really genuinely hurt + angry + upset abt the choices made this season, the feeling im left with near the end of it all is. underwhelmed. and im really not sure what 3x12 could possibly do to change that feeling... even if i am still regrettably, but sincerely rooting for a last minute switcheroo.

#mine #ted lasso spoilers #ted lasso meta #ted lasso critical #ughghghghhhh. breaking up w a show is emotionally exhausitng one hasn't hit me this bad since s10 -> 12 of d*ctor wh*. #the potential :( the blorbos :( all doomed to languish in a fucking. lifeless enclosure. w no prospects or hope or vision for fucking #anything interesting to happen to them literally ever. bluuuuuuuh. #the only thing keeping me sane through all this is unironically the fact that the WGA are striking rn. i hope they all get $600 million #dollars and lifelong permission to rock up to execs + ceo's office with a Fucking Bat. #:(

[frecklystars]

Hey! :) are you still cool with sharing Ken as a romantic f/o? I wanted to ask because it seems like you're closer to him then you were in the beginning and I know you had some really fucked up experience sharing f/os in the past with that person who made self shipping a trigger for you. I wanted to share my story of how my Barbie meets Ken but I don't want to intrude especially when this is the first time you're beginning to self ship again in a very long time, I don't want to mess that up.

Oh gosh, well firstly anon thank you so much for asking in the first place. That is extremely considerate of you.

When a few of you first asked me "hey are you okay with sharing barbie F/Os" I was like "hell yeah!" and that was I think only after the first or second time I saw the movie, and I did not expect to love this movie as much as I do, I didn't expect to become so attached to these characters because I haven't felt attached to any F/Os in a long ass time. I didn't expect to genuinely start feeling joy again. I really thought they'd be "kissed and thrown into the pile" as I like to put it... but I've started really relying on them. And ahh like you said, I had a totally fucked up experience haha :') I really don't want to be an asshole who suddenly changes my mind about sharing when I said I was fine with it though

I mean, I've always been fine with self shippers interacting and talking with me even if we did share main F/Os (I have 500 F/Os, I am bound to share at least a few with people, surely) but with these F/Os specifically I feel a little apprehensive because this is the first time I'm actually Not Numb to self shipping in suuuuch a long tiiiiime and I have so much anxiety trusting people now after my aforementioned Fucked Up Experience... not just with sharing F/Os, but even people I've been friends with for 10 years that I should know would never betray me in any way, I'm on guard, in the back of my head thinking that everyone I care about is going to betray me eventually bc I was just so used to being betrayed and manipulated and lied to every single day by someone I was close to, over and over and over and over, and having my F/Os be used against me at the same time was the killing blow

If I didn't have the whole, um, [vaguely gesturing to the bullshit that has happened in the last 12 months] y'know, that experience, I wouldn't be so... cautious, with sharing Barbie/Ken, if that is the word I'm looking for?? Because the last time I shared my F/Os with a close friend, I started to associate every single hurtful action of hers with those F/Os, and I lost my TF special interest of 3 years and I am so, so severely depressed without them. and I don't know if I'll ever get them back. and I'm just now starting to feel a little bit of hope for myself, and I don't know if this hyperfixation is even going to last longer than just a couple of weeks because none of my hyperfixations ever last longer than a month (except TF and SBTM which lasted years, but I'm numb to them now). I am so, so, so scared of associating Barbie/Ken with the wrong person and all of a sudden losing them when they're helping me get back up when I've been knocked down for so, so long.

I don't know if I articulated that in a way that makes sense but I guess my answer is, uh... I am okay with sharing in very small doses and taking it slowly, and if it's not too inconvenient I'd appreciate being asked first before gushing (and the way you handled it here was very polite and I appreciate you, thank you for doing that). Also I extend that same courtesy to everyone btw, I am staying here in my own little corner. I never gush to anyone unprompted unless if I'm asked to do so. Idk if I had to say that but just in case 💖

#anonymous #asks #anon. thank you so much. also im sorry my answer was so long #short answer: yes depending on how my anxiety/ptsd is doing in that moment #i dont want to be 100% cutting myself off from sharing bc i used to love sharing! #but my trauma is making me so so so so hesitant. im working on it though!!! #trust me i have never worked harder on my mental health than i have in the last year #i have never been more determined in my entire life to heal from something #bc i have never ever been this low

[sirenium]

I know some people like to be funny and put "silly" pronouns up (like for example on Discord for the pronouns thing someone might put 'ban/ana' to be "funny") but I rlly dislike it bc (to me at least) it's (intentionally or not) making fun of neopronouns, or at least making it difficult for neopronoun users.

Like, how am I suppose to know those aren't ACTUALLY their pronouns? Yeah ok it's "obvious" they're joking around but what if they really did actually use those pronouns. But then I feel like if I actually use those pronouns just in case they're being serious, they're js gonna make fun of me for "actually thinking those are their pronouns"

Like believe it or not but I'm pretty sure these kinds of people are being kinda neopronounphobic (I don't think that's actually a term but you get the point) by putting "silly" pronouns on their bio/pronoun section just to be funny, and not because they actually use them

-the anon who wanted to talk about this stuff with someone (I'm just wondering what your thoughts are, not trying to start an argument or anything)

Yeah, that situation is definitely annoying. I had something similar happen to me yesterday, and I just assumed they were being dumb and not actually giving me their genuine pronouns. Really, if somebody has the most batshit pronouns, like [n-word]/[n-word]self (I can reclaim that slur I just don't want to end up triggering somebody), it's best to assume they're trolling.

And that sucks, cuz there are people who genuinely go by wacky pronouns (not like my example, but ya know), who are genuinely hurt by these types of people. But until these kids either mature or move on to something else to pick on, trolls are going to exist unfortunately.

[thedreadvampy]

cause I think the thing is. like. I try REALLY REALLY hard to give people the benefit of the doubt when I get Bad Vibes, and I particularly do when they're saying my partners bc like. obviously there's a) some need to keep things smooth and not fuck up my partner's other relationships and b) it's hard to vibe out where the closeness to the situation introduces unconscious bias.

h o w e v e r

and this is in and of itself a pretty biased view but

I would say that I have yet to have a situation where in retrospect I've been too harsh in my opinions on a partner's relationship, and I've had several experiences now where I have been un-harsh to the degree of really letting their partners treat not just then but also me real fucking shitty like.

I don't think I'm a particularly jealous person (for a current example I straight up love Kofi's boyfriend he's SO FUN AND NICE AND GOOD FOR THEM. in this house we stan). and I have really liked the majority of people who've dated people I've been dating tbh. I also think I'm pretty good at telling the difference between 'I like this person but I don't think their relationship looks great' and 'I don't like this person'.

but I get So Anxious about, even in my own head, being honest about the bad vibes I get about a relationship my partner is having. it's one of the trickiest things about poly, I think, and it's something I've dealt with probably 4 or 5 times now?

cause, at least in my model of polyamory, a relationship that your partner is having with someone else is theirs, not yours. Like a relationship your sibling or parent or best friend is in - you're potentially very close to it and have ringside seats, but you're not a participant and ultimately you don't get to make decisions about what it looks like.

But like those other types of second-hand relationships, you aren't uninvolved or unaffected by bad ones. Both because you have to watch someone you care about go through it, and because as someone very close to them you end up picking up a lot of flak. When someone you love (whether it's friends, family or romantic partners) is in a relationship that's toxic, abusive, or going through a lot of stress, that has a lot of knock-on effects on you - they're stressed, they need support, they may have less energy or time, they're likely to be more reactive to stuff that triggers bad vibes in their relationship, they may need a listening ear or someone to reassure them they're not being unreasonable (or tell them if they are), they need a safe place to go when stuff blows up, all that stuff.

and that's a difficult balance whatever their relationship is to you. We've all had that thing with a friend or family member where you're threading that needle of like "ok I need to reinforce that they don't deserve to be treated like shit but also I need to be civil with their partner and not make things worse and also there's angles on this I'm not seeing, and do I tell them what I think about their partner or will they turn round down the line and be like WHY SHOULD I LISTEN TO YOU ABOUT THEM WHEN YOU'VE ALWAYS HATED THEM." that kind of stuff.

but I do think there's a specific complexity to that in a poly context. because unlike with a friend or sibling or parent or child, in a poly relationship, you and your partner's other partner are kind of in the same space. You might not be in direct competition but you're approaching each other as equals and what you have to say about someone's relationship hits different because of that.

like for me it's often cut both ways too. it drives me nuts if a partner goes to their partner for advice on how to handle our relationship. similarly I really don't want to be implying that my way of being in a relationship with someone is the Right Way and their other partner is just Less Good At Dating Them, because obviously that's not the case, we have different relationships. and I don't feel that way about friends or family. and it's not really jealousy, I don't think, it's just there's a type of closeness bred of similarity that creates a possibility of competition (not necessarily fighting over someone, but competing to be the Best At Dating Them).

in my case I think I often overcorrect for that. hence letting a lot of stuff slide in how my partners' partners behave around me that I absolutely would not let pass if they were my friends' partners. but whether you overcorrect or undercorrect I think it's really hard to navigate tbh.

#red said #this isn't really specifically about my ex's partner tbh just general reflections #but also idk i think it's useful to talk about bc it's one of the trickiest poly pitfalls ime

[babyitsmagic]

How far is your OC willing to go to get what they want? Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC? Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?

for Sage, Naoise, aaaaaand Azazel

@ofviolentdeath || character dev questions (always accepting)

Sage:

How far is your OC willing to go to get what they want?

As far as it takes. She doesn't know how to do anything less than that. Not when Azazel is the man who raised her.

Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

No specific quotes or lyrics, but I do tend to wake Sage up any time I reread the crueI pri.nce trilogy bc the Jude/Mad.doc dynamic is. Not the same as Sage/Azazel but. There are strong parallels.

Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?

Oh, absolutely. Again, she was raised by Azazel, who has no chill about anything. She's the jealous type and tends to get stabby over it.

Naoise:

How far is your OC willing to go to get what they want?

Naoise has some limits, but he's fae so like... pretty damn far tbh. Like I legit don't even know where his hard limits lie, bc they're very circumstantial. He IS willing to murder, but only sometimes so it's kind of a weird, case by case basis thing.

Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

No but listening to Hades.town tends to wake him up for semi-obvious reasons lmaooooo.

Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?

Also circumstantial? Bc he definitely can be jealous and it can manifest anywhere from pettiness to cruelty, but he's also had a number of polyamorous partners before without issue. Jealousy tends to be triggered kind of randomly, but it's more likely to happen when someone is doing it on purpose, much to his irritation. He'd like to ignore it in those circumstances, but it's actually pretty effective.

Azazel:

How far is your OC willing to go to get what they want?

Azazel won't risk himself and that's it. There's no other limit. He will kill and torture and destroy to get his way and he's old and powerful and has been allowed to operate this way for millennia.

Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

I have two!

"No one suffers as beautifully as you." - from A Darker Sh.ade of Ma.gic by V.E. Sch.wab.

“take what you want, take what you can take what you please, don’t give a damn ask for forgiveness, never permission”  - The Tradition - HaIsey

the second one is obvious imo but the first one is just like. how he feels about wilder and i think about it any time i reread the book. but like. azazel has chosen to break people before and he will do it again but wilder doesn't shatter. he fights back. and that's fun for azazel. he knows eventually he can find the breaking point, but he's enjoying the game of it all atm.

Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?

Oh, absolutely. Azazel is the most possessive muse I have. What's his is his and he WILL fuck up anyone who tries to contradict that, including the partners themselves.

#answered;; #ofviolentdeath #sagecanon #naoisecanon #azazelcanon #canon;;

[blackberry-gingham]

💖because I'm curious

🤗because I need some

✨because you deserve it, queen

Rnskdkdo gosh, I feel so special 😭💖💖 thank you so much for the ask!!! Sorry this is another long one lol, but I hope you enjoy, these were fun!

💖 What made you start writing?

Oh gosh, I've been writing since I was 13 I think lol, so a little hard to say 😂😂 I've always had a really strong imagination I suppose, so when I'd consume a new type of media or "fandom" I always wanted to do so much more with the characters then what little I was given on the TV screen, so I started writing my own adventures for them :D

And look at me now 😂👍🏻

🤗 Advice for new writers?

Well I did answer here technically lol, but I do love to pretend I'm all that when it comes to writing, so I can drop another tip 😂😂

I feel like maybe this kind of relates back to the original answer I gave? but typing out a characters inner thoughts can be just as important as writing out their dialogue, ESPECIALLY if you're dealing with a particularly complex, or even disturbed, character. Yes yes, it helps build atmosphere and prose in your writing, but more importantly it gives us as the reader a chance to relate to or at the very least, understand said character and their feelings/motivations

How much or how little you let us peer into a character's psyche depends on how much you want us to either hate or else emphasize with the character, after all. For example Sabretooth, when written to his fullest, is an extremely disturbed individual of course- he doesn't see people or lives, he sees objects to maim and destroy. Killing is fun for him, and the bloodier the better.

You could only frame his mindset about killing for fun and not seeing people as people to make us despise him- that way we feel our emotional investment is paid off if/when he is defeated later on. On the other hand, sabretooth kills and hates people (*cough*humans) because he was severely and horrifically abused, even tortured tbh, as a child so invoking information like that and certainly his own memories of those times could be used to make us feel sympathy for him instead, if that's what you wanted.

Either way, it's all about getting your readers to feel- and no better way then to get your character to tell us what they're REALLY thinking by putting us in their heads 👍🏻

✨ Complement your own work, mwahahaha

Smskslsls another hard one 😭😂 Well a little secret of mine is that I will basically never write about a situation or story unless either I myself have experienced it, I witnessed someone in my personal life experience it, or I have taken the adequate time to become EXTREMELY familiar with the circumstances surrounding what I'm writing- simply bc I strive to write as realistic as possible for my readers

I guess I do like that a lot about my writing lol. Often times I'll read other fics, particularly reader inserts, and it just feels extremely obvious (to me at least) that the person writing it has never experienced, or at least never closely studied, the emotional situation they're writing about. It immediately triggers this very intense case of "real people do not and furthermore, would never, act this way in these circumstances" and pulls me out of the story you know?

So yeah, I'm proud that I pour out my heart and soul to try (with over all success, I'd dare say) my utmost to make sure my readers never get that jarring feeling while reading my work

#thank you bestie 😭💖💖 #ask game #writing advice #me irl

[golbrocklovely]

So I have a question, I’m in Texas and abortion has been banned, as a woman I’m at a loss for words still…especially coming from a family who cheered when the news broke out and having very different opinions then them I feel like I can’t speak on it….now they’re coming for the LGBTQ+ so do you or anyone else have any recommendations on other states to move to and/or any tips on how to move to a new state? I’m not part of LGBTQ+ but I have many friends who are and I’m so scared for them and most of us are trying to find a way to gtfo before things get worse….it’s sad but I can’t live in a state or around so many people who want to control one’s body or how someone lives their life.

first off, i'm so sorry you and your friends aren't in the safest of environments. if you can, keep your head low, save up as much money as you can, and gtfo asap.

colorado, in terms of closest to you, is the best state to go towards. they're both lgbtq+ friendly, and also have access to abortions safely. that being said, a lot of states surrounding have trigger laws, and bc of that, some news outlets (and also the state itself) expects a lot of ppl to either move there or travel there for abortions since it is the closest spot. so, keep that in mind, especially if you plan to look for housing soon. god knows landlords will be dicks and raise prices bc the state will be in high demand.

california would also be okay, but it's expensive. if you want a completely opposite place to go, like up north-east, delaware is surprisingly good. besides the fact it's surrounded by other states that rank high on the treating lgbtq+ well, it's also has a codified law for abortions. the only state that's near delaware that would kinda be a little unsafe, depending on what happens in the near future and who wins our upcoming election, is literally pennsylvania. so… gotta love that for me lol

two states that are closer to delaware, maryland and new jersey are also good places for lgbtq+ and safely accessing abortions. maryland just expanded their abortion laws, and new jersey also has plans to expand their abortion laws (and they also refunded PP after the previous gov slashed the budget).

the two sources i used to look up some of this info is here and here in case you want to look into it more. make sure to look at those sources on a device you can remove the history from, or at the very least an incognito window. maybe use a vpn if you have one too. stay safe <3

#ask #personal

[ruthlesslistener]

Okay so I'm def. not trying to defend Mohg here bc at the end of the day he's still a creepy son of a bitch who kidnapped someone so that he could have access to unlimited power, but this item description is really just driving home my theory that Miquella turned the tables on his kidnapping situation and started to use Mohg as a feeding supply for his maturation vs him just passively waiting for Melania to come return him to the Haligtree. The fact that Mohg's cult seems to be centered around simply giving donations of blood to feed Miquella to become a god paired with the fact that Miquella is particularly known for his ability to make people adore him so that he can get what he wants. ("The Empyrean Miquella is loved by many people. Indeed, he has learned very well how to compel such affection" - Bewitching Branch)

Which again- it's still pretty fucked up that Mohg kidnapped his half-brother to become his consort, there's no way it isn't- but claiming that he's a 'gay pedophile' who 'raped Miquella to death' like I've seen a lot of people saying really isn't something that I'm picking up here (even though it def. would be the case in Game of Thrones, which this is thankfully not). What I'm mostly getting here is that Mohg is a power-hungry, ambitious warlord who thought he got an easy way to become a lord, and was easily manipulated because of it. His sexuality has nothing to do with it, and he pretty clearly has zero attraction to children considering the fact that his goal is to aid Miquella's metamorphosis into an adult before he does anything (which just so happens to be something Miquella himself has been attempting to trigger for a very long time)

Other points of note:

-Despite Mohg being immensely powerful and having a whole cult of followers, he's simply waiting on Miquella for his dynasty to commence. Sure, recruiting is happening (just look at Varre), but actual efforts beyond feeding Miquella don't seem to be the priority- the focus on undoing Miquella's curse and raising him to a true god is. Which, given the fact that those were Miquella's goals in the first place and that Mohg himself is banking on the quite fragile assumption that Miquella would allow him to become his consort, and you have a pretty fragile setup for a dynasty going on right now. They're functioning entirely off of something that Miquella himself was already gunning for, with recruiting more followers for blood coming in second, and conquering lands for said dynasty coming in last. It's pretty suspicious if you ask me

-Miquella himself is actually growing within the cocoon. In the opening cutscene, where Mohg is taking him away, he's absolutely tiny (and kind of freakishly proportioned but that's usual with Fromsoft's designs). In the boss arena, his arm is huge, larger even than his sister, so even though he never responded to Mohg, the blood sacrifices are working

-Miquella has a very...eerie aesthetic going on, similar to his sister. While Melania's motifs are butterflies and fungal rot, Miquella's appear to be some sort of wispy, cobweb-like substance around him, and (in the trailer at least), an odd sort of iridescence. He gives me very strong insect vibes, and upon learning that there is a species of parasitic moth that would kill an ant queen and trick the colony into feeding it until its pupation or their death, I'd think that would match well alongside Melania's butterflies and scarlet rot.

-Him being heavily tied to insects would also work with his 'curse' of seemingly eternal youth, as many insects remain in their infantile form for the vast majority of their lives before they undergo metamorphasis, which Miquella himself appears to be doing in his cocoon. Pair that with the fact that there is a fungus that looks just like Melania's scarlet bloom, and that it blooms thrice in its lifetime + Melania is said to become a goddess after it blooms a third time, and I think that it's safe to say that Miquella's lifecycle mirrored that of a pupating insect

-Miquella is known to have the 'wisdom and allure of a god', and is considered the most fearsome Empyreon by Melania. Which, sure, could be her being a supportive twin, but the fact that she says that and then Gideon was like 'well as long as he's still sleeping then all will be well' + the few item descriptions we have for him detailing his intelligence and willingness to reject the Golden Order when it doesn't give him what he wants paints a picture of terrifyingly cunning god who would have the wits required to turn a situation into what he desired

-It really would not feel off for there to be a plot twist where the big bad creepy guy that looks like Satan with dire creepy plans to match ended up being the victim of the person that he captured. Biting off far more power than you can chew and then being consumed or used by it in the process isn't exactly something new to Fromsoftware's storytelling (cough cough healing church and the old blood cough)

TDLR: Mohg's absolutely a creepy fucked up dude, but Miquella himself is probably even creepier and is not nearly the innocent victim that most people think he is. Given how intimidating both Ranni and Melania are in terms of wit and sheer power, + the fact that his mind is more than his body, and I think that it's safe to assume that Miquella turned the tables on Mohg and twisted a terrible situation where he was vulnerable into something that suited his needs regardless of the circumstances

#elden ring #elden ring spoilers #mohg #miquella #mohg the omen #miquella the unalloyed #elden ring theory #elden ring lore #i am vibrating over this this is SO deliciously fucked up #not the rape and incest part ofc thats gross as sit #*shit #and why i dropped grrm's books #but the concept of miquella being a parsasitic god is fascinating #also dni if you ship mohg/miquella that was not my intent and this post is not for you

[pastafossa]

I don’t know if it was mentioned in the story or if I forgot, but is Jane on birth control? I think they’re both smart enough to be aware of the potential consequences if Jane were to get pregnant now. With the man in the coat still after her, a baby that could potentially have her powers (and who knows what Matt’s enhanced senses would add to that) would make him come after Jane more. And with the way the two of them are going, if they’re not using a condom and she’s not on a pill, it would happen sooner rather than later. Tbh I would really like to see Matt and Jane as parents, married, and just having a nice, happy life. They both deserve it so much. But I think it’s too early right now… maybe a baby scare? Even if she’s on the pill, it’s not always 100% effective. It would be interesting to see Matt’s reaction, but would he be able to tell? Sorry this is so long, but I’m curious :)

Alright, SO, outside of one line ("already taken care of"), I haven't really brought it up because I'm aware of just how delicate stuff like this, and I'm still not sure how much it's going to come up in the fic so I don't see a huge issue with talking a little bit about why she's so confidently having sex with Matt sans condom. Especially since this isn't the first question I've had about her and matt, re: bc/chance of pregnancy. Because you're right - they're both smart enough to be aware of the potential consequences if she gets pregnant. Especially her. You're also right on the nose with just valuable a kid with two enhanced parents would be to the Man in the White Coat.

First: I'm going to put this behind a See More tag just in case someone doesn't want eventual spoilers, or in case anything to do with fertility/birth control/mentions of a terrible scientist's 'breeding' program is triggering to someone.

Second: this is one of those things that ya'll free to disregard since I'm not even sure if I'm going to touch on it in the fic, and you're free to come up with your own answer for Jane's BC if you don't like mine! I'm fond of one reader's headcanon that Ciro talked to S.H.I.E.L.D. and got some super nifty implant for Jane. But if you're looking for what's in my head, re: TRT and birth control methods, well, here we go.

So you are correct. In my head, she is practicing a form of birth control, and it's something she had done a while back in Los Angeles, with Ciro's assistance. She was forced to run the same calculations as you, and much like you, she came up with the answer: pregnancy is a risk I cannot take. Even back then, before she'd ever met Matt, a kid with her genes would be valuable. I've made one or two vague references about the Man in the White Coat's plans for her genetic line ("‘I should have harvested that stupid animal.’ - chapter 35) but I'm gonna be a little more explicit: the Man in the White Coat has used breeding programs in the past in an attempt to fuck around with genetics, and he sees no reason not to do so with Jane, considering she's one of his greatest successes.

She knew that couldn't happen, even at 16. She knew what it was like to grow up as an experiment. The pill wasn't effective enough for her, considering it had to be taken the same time every day and consistently (not really something that can be done on the run), and as for condoms? Yeah, they break. And having an abortion would have potentially drawn attention as a medical procedure (and depending on where Jane was at the time, might not be accessible if she ever had to run again). The answer, to her, was obvious.

Ciro agreed, even as a Catholic.

So, she had a quick surgical snip, done quietly at a private facility that Ciro paid a lot of hush money to. If she ever wanted it reversed, the odds of a successful reversal were somewhere around 70% if she was still under 35. Lower if she was older. But that was a chance she was willing to take. No part of her - not her, nor any potential children - will ever be taken by the Man in the White Coat if she has anything to say about it. She controls that part of her life.

Matt isn't entirely sure what she's had done (and she's not sure how he'd take it, considering how Catholic he is) but he trusts her, and the smooth steadiness of her heartbeat, when she says that pregnancy isn't a concern. His thinking is some sort of implant, though he hasn't sensed one.

Now - could she become pregnant? Yes, even without a reversal. There's a low chance, but it's low enough that she's not really all that bothered by it, and Matt wouldn't be either, if he knew. And Matt would likely be the first person to know if that changed! I was going to leave whether they eventually have kids open ended because too much description of actual pregnancy makes my brain panic I wanted to let people decide for themselves what that part of their life might look like, since everyone's a little different. <3 I will say I'm definitely planning, even after the official conclusion of TRT, to have some snapshot fics of their mostly happy life together except for the snap fic, and there's also gonna be a wedding at some point because hello the potential for wedding hilarity is huge when one side is ethical vigilante heroes and the other side is full of mobsters.

#ask response #the red thread #con-tent warning (dodging banned tags): b-irth c-ontrol #con-tent warning: disc-ussions of non-consensual br-eeding programs #this is one of those things where there are a lot of potential routes #and I don't mind if people go 'uh no pasta i don't like this one' #like i have some readers who want matt and jane to one day have an army of tiny enhanced humans #and other readers who want them to lead that kid free life of quiet and peace and comfort when they aren't doing heroic things at all hours #so if end game happiness for someone is her and matt + kids then that's what happens #and if it's no kids then they have no kids #if you would prefer then jane has a super nifty S.H.I.E.L.D. BC implant #that she can just whammo remove when she wants kids then that's fine too #*how* she's using BC and whether it's permanent is up to you #and your headcanons #(although sadly White Coat's program is official canon since I've referenced it) #but either way a happy ending is in the cards for them and there WILL be a wedding so help me god #because that is an opportunity for hilarity that I can't miss out on

[merakiui]

Hey Mera! I just saw Milk Crown anon's twst concept and it kinda reminded me of the pixar theory, idk if ur familiar w it but basically it's how all the pixar movies connect and that movies like cars and monsters inc (movies w/out humans) take place in the distant future where humans no longer exist. (it's acc quite interesting i recommend checking it out if u haven't already).

(This is such an oc type of theory and most likey vry untru but I want to share it w u so ehe), kinda like what Milk Crown anon said, but what if MC acc came from the past (which would be our present time) and that twst is set far into the future. During MC's time, scientists discovered (or created, but in supernatural ways bc I like to believe that magic has always existed) a powerful substance that holds powers similar to the magic in fairy tales. At first the substance didn't serve as any threat and was experimented on, but it did radiate vry low and harmless energy that covered a wide radius (coming back to that ltr). However, over time the substance became dangerous and they weren't able to contain it anymore, and resulted in a giant explosion that affected everyone on the planet. It wiped out most living things on the planet and caused a lot of land forms to deteriorate, w many cities breaking from land and sinking into the ocean (cough twst ocean cities cough); we haven't seen twst full map of the world but from what's shown so far, a lot of them look like islands so hmmmm. The damage caused civilization to reset to the beginning (oh what if the explosion cased ppl to forget everything about human civilization and brought them back to primitive times). Most ppl that were near the explosion and w/in the "deadly" radius (like a nuclear explosion) died, however those that survived developed physical mutations that resembles that of fairies (wink wink) and the ability to control the substance, which would ltr be known as magic. Basically for those that survived, the closest ppl became what would be known as fae w the most magical energy (radiation lol), and from there it varied. Ppl that were farther away would develop magical abilities too, albeit not as strong in comparison to the former, with some developing physical mutations (ie. animal features), and other's retaining their human biology but still possessing magic. Ofc there were also some ppl who were immune to the explosions effects and remained magic-less humans. Same thing w animals and plant life w some staying the same and some becoming magic-like. (Idk but blot could be a side effect for using magic bc of it's overall deadly effects it had on the planet and that no one's biology is compatible enough w the magic so it festers in blot(?)

So what if , while the magic was being contained, MC was w/in the radius of the harmless range and absorbed some of the low energy, but didn't exhibit any side effects from it. However, when the explosion occured MC was put into a preservation pod, which would ltr be what we know as the black coffin from the beginning of the game, which protected them from the explosion and preserved their body for years. When they wake up in twst they are surrounded by a new world flowing w magical energy, which triggers the energy they previously absorbed to manifest into their ability to see those visions in their dreams.

Also as someone that was part if the fandom when the game first came out, then kinda left (bc of gneshin like most lol), but is coming back bc eeeee they're finally updating again! I rly do love this game, I remember interacting w other's in the fandom about theories, characters, events and stories ahhh such good times.

:O that’s a really neat theory!! Thank you for sharing it with me!

#twisted chit chat #omg that’s actually really interesting

[summonerscenarios]

[1] OKAY anon talking about Mc running off before they find out they're innocent. Okay Mc just wanted to cool down so they skip class and leave campus for the day for self care. BUT THEN they get caught up in app conflict bs like they do when game events happen bc its mc. Maybe helping out the outlaws or somethin- Mc sends the summoner group chat the fyi, that they'll be back. But three days later and the teachers are fucking panicking bc of the situation and they don't know shit AND now the-

OKAY ONCE AGAIN I’M GOING A LIL OFF ON THIS BECAUSE THIS IDEA IS JUST 👌👌👌👌👌 so as you can probably tell in some parts I definitely rambled lmao. I do hope I do it justice~!

And for anyone wondering the original request can be found here!

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Things had gotten too much. You were so fed up with all the stares, all the sympathetic glances burning holes into the back of your head and all of the whispered words of gossip and speculation like you were some hot topic or reckless wild child who couldn’t be trusted. Everyone was acting like you couldn’t see or hear them, which somehow just made it feel even worse; it was driving you up the wall, even with all of your friends standing by your side the moment you were accused it was hard to ignore everything that came with it. You were pissed, hurt, but the betrayal stung the worst out of everything that had happened so far - you’d put your complete trust in your teachers, looking up to them oh so confident that they’d believe and protect you should the need ever arise, because you genuinely believed that they saw the best in you, even in spite of your faults and encounter track record. You guess that just wasn’t the case though, as that encounter in the staff room still makes you feel sick to your stomach, thinking about the way those same teachers you trusted looked at you with pity and still deemed you guilty of something you so viciously denied. 

They still look at you with pity - Mr. Triton and Mr. Jinn don’t even try to hide it, maybe not even realizing that you’re looking at their expressions when they’d tried to start up a conversation with you. It frustrates you, because it feels like they have no right to pity you when they were the ones there in that meeting and they didn’t try to vouch for you. They didn’t even listen when you told them you were innocent! Surely they have enough faith in you to believe in you, right?!...right? Whatever the case the whole situation has you dreading coming into school everyday, and as the days pass you’re more and more convinced that things would be better if you could just get out of going at all - there’s plenty of other things you could be doing where you wouldn’t have eyes watching your every move, nor the weight that comes with them.

You don’t know if it’s luck or sheer irony that the teacher responsible for picking you up from class is late one day, but it’s the final nail in the coffin before you decide ‘fuck it, I’m out of here’ and skip class. For the past few days you’d felt pinned, suffocated with eyes constantly on you from the moment you step onto school grounds to the moment you’re out of sight, which makes it oddly freeing to be able to run around without those disapproving gazes - but you don’t want to waste time and risk getting caught, not when you’re so close to skipping and being free for at least a single day. Consequences be damned, you don’t care anymore. Even though everything is still weighing heavy on your mind stepping out of the grounds feels...liberating, and you only dare a glance back once you’re out of the school gates, catching sight of students still in their classroom completely oblivious that you’ve disappeared from their ranks. Telling the teachers where you were going was the last thing on your mind, but you at least have the foresight to send a message to the Summoner’s group chat before you turn off your phone and bolt from the premises, letting them know that you were going out for a day to clear your head. 

It was only supposed to be that one day, you swear, but things have never really had a penchant for going your way. If you had stayed just a few hours longer you’d have learned about the person clearing your name; you’d have seen the teachers’ mad dash through the school when they’d realized you weren’t in any of your classes; you’d have watched the outroar as the Summoner’s learned of the truth in your stead. But you’d missed it all, and spent the day wandering anywhere and everywhere instead - wherever you could go where you wouldn’t risk running into any faculty you went, stewing in thoughts and trying to forget just about everything that had happened for as long as you could before you were inevitably brought back to the school. 

Only that didn’t happen; you were able to crash at a friend’s house on the first night, called in a favor with a nearby guild for a place to sleep on the second night, and the hours in between were spent either wandering or getting dragged into fights - how ironic that even now you couldn’t avoid getting involved in other people’s problems even if you tried - it was seriously getting old. In the meantime, the Summoners are the only ones who get word about what’s happening, but even then you keep it vague so that you don’t worry them, not to mention you don’t want them to needlessly lie if they get questioned by the teachers concerning your whereabouts. Which is exactly what happens; the teachers are all worrying themselves sick by the time the third day rolls around without hide or hair of you, and it’s clear that there’s regrets voer what had transpired over the whole week. Jinn’s rolling your last encounter over and over in his head, wondering if there was something that he could have said that would have made you decide to stay put - maybe letting you know you had someone on your side - but the what-ifs won’t change the fact that you left. Triton’s still cursing how long it took for the news of your innocence to come to life, the thought of how you must have felt being looked at with such suspicion making guilt crawl up his spine and settle in his mind. And Mononobe doesn’t stop looking for you for a second - even if you scream at him or scold him or ignore him completely he needs to see that you’re okay and doesn’t want your last conversation with him being left on such bad terms. One thing is for certain though; they need to find you, and soon.

Things finally come to a head on the third day. Usually during after school hours you’d try to make yourself scarce in the area, but this time you weren’t so lucky. All too quickly you’re dragged into a spat with someone itching to boost their ego with an app battle, and though it was clear they’re all bark and no bite it’s tedious and you want it over with quickly. You just wish it was that simple, as the moment you ready your sacred artifact, watching your opponents prep to set up a battle zone, two figures block your view, standing almost protectively in front of you as they activate their respective sacred artifacts. You don’t even have to see them to recognize them - Mr. Triton and Mr. Jinn are both loud as they declare their presence, stepping into the fight in your stead. Before this week you would have laughed seeing the two of them standing side by side talking big about protecting you; but now? You feel your heart sink into your stomach - this could not have been the worse time to see them.

Mercifully, the battle staves off the inevitable conversation for a little while longer, as the three of you have to focus back on the fight at hand; your teachers are skilled, or at least driven by something to end the battle, and you aren’t willing to play around just to avoid what comes next, so it isn’t long before the person who challenged you and his friends to all back off, releasing the battle zone as they flee back into the crowds to nurse their mental wounds. You almost want to disappear into those crowds with them before you can get caught again, however the moment you turn you’re immediately accosted by Jinn and Triton, the two teachers fighting over each other to get the most concerned word in - where have you been? Why did you run away? Are you hurt?! Their concern is sincere, you can tell as much from their faces since hiding their emotions isn’t exactly their strong suit. And right over their shoulders you can see Mr. Mononobe too as he approaches to join the three of you, having not been involved in the battle zone for obvious reasons; but the sight of all three of them in the same place reminds you so much of that day you’d been accused and the emotions burn in your throat like poison.

There’s venom laced in your tone as you ask them why they stepped in, effectively silencing the two teachers as they share a brief glance and answer simultaneously. Hearing them talk about teachers protecting their students you have to bite your tongue because surely they know how hypocritical that sounds, right? But they keep talking, rambling on about making sure you’re safe and protecting you when you need it and it’s like a trigger, sending everything frothing to the surface. You laugh, bitter and sarcastic before asking if they’re serious - they've gotta be kidding - but you don’t even give them a chance to respond before your words claw their way out into the open and you just about lose it.

You don’t care about mincing your words as you practically bare your soul, everything that’s been welling up finally boiling over. You yell and scream and shout until your voice is hoarse because you’re so pissed that they have the audacity to talk about protecting you when they couldn’t even protect you from those accusations, from all those people thinking you destroyed something just because you could. They have no fucking right to even consider themselves your protectors when they looked at you with those same eyes full of pity, now turned to guilt in light of the truth that had come far too late, and you’re gonna make damn well that they know that you aren’t someone to be pitied - you’re vindicated, seething, and feeling so betrayed by the few adults that you were so sure that you could trust. But that trust was shattered - and that’s exactly why you left, because why would you want to be surrounded by people who couldn’t trust you?!

The emotion behind your voice is raw, and Jinn, Triton and even Mononobe seem to be at a loss for words - no words of reassurance, no advice, no words of wisdom - and that just twisted the knife in deeper when you’re met with no resistance whatsoever. You honestly don’t know what you expected - some kind of fight or rebuttal would justify these feelings that you have - but when you receive nothing of the sort in response you lose the wind in your sails and you choke on your shouts. Your words fail you, turning into sputtering and sharp gasps when you finally buckle and sink to your knees, wiping uselessly at your face as your eyes burn with the sting of tears - a feeling you’ve gotten so familiar with this past week it makes you loathe the feeling. If you could you’d still be yelling, but you just can’t bring yourself to do it - you’re tired, whittled down to your bare bones and you don’t even have the energy to be angry or care that you’re having what you’re pretty sure is a breakdown that wasn’t in the safety of your dorm room. You want to just curl up and disappear - just for a few days, that would be okay, right? Just until you can feel something in your chest that didn’t hurt like hell. The Summoners would understand, you think, they always did - they’d trusted you at least, when it felt like most didn’t. Why could they have been the ones to swoop in and help you? It’s a silly thought, but you feel like you at least wouldn’t be bawling like you are now if it had been them instead of the teachers; you can just imagine how they must be watching you cry in front of them.

Damn, this whole thing really was just a mess....

A hand touches your arm and another touches your back - you’d kick away if you could, but it’s like the touch saps you of all of your energy. Those hands have no right to be so warm, no right to feel so comforting, and yet they are and you want to cry all over again. You have no idea which teacher is the one who helps you to your feet as all three surround you with growing concern once your sobs filter off into broken sniffles, gaze torn between screwing shut to avoid looking at any of their faces and staring right at them so they can see all the emotions in your eyes that your words have failed to convey. When they talk about bringing you somewhere safe, back to the dorms or to the school to discuss everything that had happened, you’re in the right mind to run away all over again, but you can’t bring yourself to do it. Instead, you allow those hands on your back and shoulder and arm to guide your steps, ignoring the concern and grave expressions that the teachers share as the reality of what’s just transpired sets in. You don’t know what’s coming next, but you honestly don’t think you care anymore - all you can think about is how tired you are of everything, and this was apparently the last straw that you could handle.

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[cleumz-moved]

part 2 aka autistic dottore

uhh i dont think any tws? autistic meltdowns are mentioned for these hcs but idk if thats triggering to anyone

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Sometimes he gets so involved in his work that he holes up in his lab for weeks and forgets to take care of himself.

People have to bring him food (as well as remind him to drink smth other than coffee as gently as possible lmao) during that or else he forgets

He goes out of his way to avoid going to meetings even as the other harbingers come in to drag him out him

He's blunt without even trying to be and a lot of times he comes off as sarcastic or sassy when he's not directly trying to be

Hates being touched, especially during meltdowns. It makes his skin crawl and he's most likely to punch someone in the face for touching him

Extremely picky with foods. Likes seafood, hates peaches.

Always forgets to shower (and doesn't like it because of the water texture). Also hates the texture of slimy things and gloves barely help

The Tsaritsa and Pierro are his go-to people to get him out of overwhelming situations when he's having a meltdown. Most of the time this involves escorting him to a closet where he can hole up in until its over

Terrible with directions, has a map of the base just because he gets lost so easily

He never looks at people when they're talking, unless they somehow irritate him. In that case he stares until its unnerving. If someone says a metaphor he stares until they get it and explain

Loud noises bother him so much. Childe speaks loud without really noticing and it always makes him want to scream

He loves chewing on things and thats a great way to calm him down, but because of how sharp his teeth are they almost always get destroyed afterwards. Give him a pen to chew and expect it to be chewed right through in a few hours. (To help this problem, the Tsaritsa made him a chewy object out of rubber that acts like a chew necklace but less stiff bc those hurt his jaw)

Dottore hates bright lights. The lights in his lab are always turned off or dimmed, and if he really needs to see for work he uses a lamp

Gets really bad migraines as a result of too much stimulation

He has to have “alone time” to reset daily, and usually its around 2 hours because he's so cranky. After meetings or other social gatherings the reset period is longer because of burnout.

i have so many hcs for this idiot its not even funny anymore

also fun fact thats literally all just projection from myself and others from a server i was in

— specter

pt 2 of specters lovely fatui hcs <33

also.

dude.

ur gonna make me get 2 attached 2 dottore dammit (its a good thing tho)

#specter #radio static <3

[juupajaa]

1This is gonna be super long and I'm sorry but I gotta get this off my chest somehow and I would like your input. Also major trigger warnings!! I did a bad thing?? I know I shouldn't have but it's already been done. For context, my friend lives in a different state but we live close to state lines so we meet up pretty much every other weekend. She lives by herself because her parents kicked her out (they're homophobic) but my family loves her so she spends holidays with us.

2I've been in recovery for about 11 months now and she's been my rock the whole time. She stayed with me on the phone for hours when I was real bad, and she gave me plenty of space too. I don't really like it when people baby me, it makes me feel like a burden. When I told her about my ed she stayed the same she always had been so it was a relief to be around her. My family voiced their concerns and talked about recovery so much I felt cornered a lot and needed a break from it.

3She didn't treat me with kiddie gloves like others did and helped me by keeping things normal, and supporting me more quietly and I think that's something super helpful that people don't talk about much. I know it's important to talk to someone and actively pursue recovery but I really needed that sense of normalcy too.

4She spent another weekend here, but when she had a bath her phone rang and I searched her bag for it in case it was her work. The call ended before I got to it but checked the notifications anyway so I could tell her who called. That's all good, but I noticed a tumblr notification and checked it without thinking. My friend has an ed blog??? I was shocked but put it away so I wouldn't be caught snooping, that wasn't even my intention.

5When she left I just spent hours scrolling through her blog. I know I shouldn't have but the curiousity got the best of me. I wanted to know if she had posted about me at all, which she hadn't. I feel so bad for never thinking something was wrong. Her weight has yoyo'd the whole time we've known each other, but she's been normal weight for as long as I remember.

What fucked me up is that her blog is much older than my eating disorder, and I just had really disordered thoughts. I thought wow I'm a fraud, she's been in this for years, maybe I'm just pretending?? But then it got nasty. My mind went to things like, all this time and she's not even skinny yet? At least I became underweight and it didn't take long. She eats so much she can't have an ed. I thought about how she looks too but she's normal weight, her body is perfectly fine! but ed logic right?

I'm so conflicted. I can't even begin to imagine how she must have felt all that time supporting me? All the stupid disordered shit I said, and still do sometimes.God I'm recounting times I complained about calories even when she had just eaten. I must have made her body image worse too because I would criticize even healthy bodies when she was right there. I know my disorder is to blame but I feel horrible. A lot of those I would trash were smaller than her and I didn't even think twice.

I've obsessively tried piecing things together. A couple of years ago we walked downtown and she commented it smelled like sophomore year, vomit. The whole time I was in recovery she ate normally. It was easier for me to start eating again because others did, especially her because she never nagged about it like my family did. Does she prefer visiting because it's easier to pretend away from home??

When I stay over she doesn't really have food at her place?? Could be coincidence but we go grocery shopping whenever I visit. Maybe Fridays are just her grocery day. I never thought about it but now I'm worried. Does she not eat when she's alone? From her blog I know she restricts a lot, but when she's with me she eats normally. When I was at my worst I found satisfaction in it and compared our intake.I don't think she purges when she's here and that could explain why she's not losing weight.

(Last one) Please help me, I don't know what to do. I'm worried but I don't want to lose her. I know I betrayed her trust and all but I can't pretend like I don't know and let her suffer. And she's a sweet girl, and I feel like shit now. She never even talks about her family situation so I doubt she'd tell me about her ed, especially since I'm in recovery. When her family kicked her out she seemed so calm, but that shit hurts?? It breaks my heart, even more now knowing about her ed too.

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Yeah there's a lot of complicated stuff here but I feel like the first thing I should say is that you're beating yourself up for something that isn't your fault. I don't see you having done anything terrible here🤔

You weren't snooping, it's a very different thing to actively go look up other people's phones than to accidentally see something you didn't mean to see. And as for looking up her blog, if it's a public blog, you could have found it even without knowing it was hers. That's just something that we all need to realize when we make blogs and such. Even if your blog feels like a private thing, it really isn't if you put it online wide open.

And all that nasty disordered behaviour you did in her presence? You were sick and didn't know better. I know it's hard to separate these two sometimes, I struggle with it a lot too, but trust me, you're not a bad person for things you have done by accident or out of ignorance. And all the nasty thoughts you had about her are very normal ed thoughts. They feel awful and they're so intrusive and nasty, but they spring from your ed and not from your heart. You clearly love your friend a lot and want all the best for her, and your ed is just trying to hurt you through her when it spams those thoughts into your head.

And as for your friend, she's no doubt feeling horrible as well. I bet she must have felt like a fraud herself, watching you go to recovery while no one even notices that she's sick too. And as you said, she's been sick a long time and "still not losing weight", I wouldn't be surprised if she has been beating herself up for that as well. I feel like she's probably waiting for someone to notice her too.

To be honest, it sounds to me like you two need to have a talk. A really long and open talk that involves you both probably crying and hopefully hugging at the end. These talks are not fun to have but they clear these things up like nothing else. If you don't know how to set up such a talk, I recommend you open it with a text message and make some opening statements like "I really wanna talk about this thing but I dont know how to bring it up so here's a text. I know you're not doing so well and I want to support you like you've supported me. Can we meet up at some point and talk about this and this and this?"

I've had a few of these talks and every time I've had them, I've felt like I'm about to throw up, I'm sweating, I'm about to cry, but it is so worth it to go through with it bc it can solve such a huge amount of the problems that are festering. And after it's over, the relationship is so much stronger and both parties have an easier time to breathe.

If you have a hard time knowing what to say to her, just think about what you would want to hear in her situation. What you would have wanted to hear and what would have helped you feel better? You two share the experience and you both know exactly what words and gestures hurt you, and you also know what heals, what feels nice and what is needed.

Whatever you decide to do, I'm sure your friend would rather keep you and be happy and honest with you, rather than to let your friendship be rotten away by secrets and shame and guilt. Talking things through is hard but so are most things that will help you. Medicine usually tastes gross but it will help.

Good luck with it, I'm sure you can figure this out, just be honest with yourself and what you want to do and be so so so brave Remember to also take care of yourself and that you're still healing yourself ❤❤❤

#answered

[jiangwanyinscatmom]

So I saw your comment about xue/xiao on this post about cheng/xian and it occurred to me that's even ironic how xy, in his own twisted way of seeing things and according to wwx's deductions, killed Chang Ping bc he "offended" xxc when turning his back on him while jc, on the other hand, went killing people who reminded him of wwx/just in case they had a connection to wwx. And I'm not saying xy is any more right, he is that effed up (and the dissonance is so shocking too, as if it wasn't HIS fault in the first place, that. I'm sorry. but I find it amazing... that's what xy is in the end) but still if you're going to make a parallel with these two, I have to say that: it says a lot that xy, the psycho murderer, kills someone bc, again, in his twisted head he offended "the object of his affection" but jc, tsundere misunderstood grape, kills people bc he relates them to "the person of his affections".

Anyways, that aside but also related to something you mentioned about they not wanting the tragedy of Yi City... You hit the nail on the head. Look, ngl, I personally find annoying of course when people like that anon that also mentions xue/xiao talks about how horrid and how disturbed she finds people like them. I think it's unnecessary bc it's not even like this is about them but jc so why bring them out of nowhere to say such things? And sorry for the tmi but allow me to really make clear that I've never had not even a close to an abusive rs in my life so I hope people finally get that we know to separate reality from fiction and I guess the fact we aren't triggered by it it's also a sign some of us luckily can say irl we've never allowed any dangerous bs from another person.

ANYWAYS, sorry I digress. Back to the point, the truth is that while I find unnecessary to say things like that when the main theme isn't even them, I do understand if some people feel uncomfortable by it, I just believe there are certain fandom etiquettes and it's not the same to talk about how of a horrible person xy is, bc he is, than shading people for being in their corner shipping something problematic. And what's more important about xue/xiao shippers is that so far, in my experience, we are quite "content" with the result? We accept this is a tragic effed up story and we accept it couldn't end well. We aren't, idk, blaming wang/xian for what happens to xy when he and he alone dug his own grave, duh. We like it bc of its tragedy. And I think the best proof is that there isn't as much fix-it fics like people who maybe think this is about being apologists would believe. From time time of course we need some crack, some unrealistic result, some comedy even lol... but I think the reason our ship work for us is bc we like it bc of it is and not bc we project ourselves. Also, I thank God never saw MXTX being attacked by xy stans... I don't doubt there must be some cringey stans like there are everywhere but I'm sure they're a small number. I actually find amusing MXTX being like "why do you ship those, idgi??" 😂 but above all, I respect her bc it's her work. This is not about being a boot licker, I believe it's ok to have your opinions too and not necessarily agree with the author... Too bad that all the MXTX antis I saw are gross about her and they're far from just giving criticism. They're plain bitter haters. It's not like it personally affects me and as if she doesn't have the right to have her own opinions on her story and own characters just bc I happen to ship something I KNOW it's not canon, ffs... In any case we can agree to disagree bc it's also my right to ~romanticise~ whatever I want as long as it's fictional. All in all, I'm grateful she created this story that hooked and these characters I learned to love...

Sorry if this became long and if it's all over the place 😅 but I just couldn't help myself and wanted to bring some points on this whole matter...

So I will break down my comments point by point anon!

On the point of Xue Yang, I find him fascinating along with his relationship concerning Xiao Xingchen. They had built up a relationship on so many lies, and lived fairly happily in that all while Xue Yang was unable to parse out what his animosity was towards Xiao Xingchen his love for him, and his idea of honoring this same person. It is just a mess of a relationship with so much that can't actually be described because even the characters can't separate exactly what is going on there aside from the pain Xue Yang caused because he just does not understand kindness and empathy in a significant way that could have saved himself. It is a gorgeous plot point and awful bond. It's also just at the cusp of Xue Yang being in denial admitting that he DOES miss Xiao Xingchen and his build up of this unconscious guilt for having killed someone he learned to love and know. Especially next to Jin Guangyao who doesn't have this guilt but is very good at speaking like he is, and Jiang Cheng who is not regretful for what he did to Wei Wuxian.

On the topic of ship shit talk: I have no bone to throw here as a defense. I shit talk chengx!an and plenty of pairings with mutuals and friends as a vent, because I find ships ridiculous as much as others. Everyone in my eyes can do as they want, say what they want in terms of fandom made content. It's there in all it's non-canonical glory to roast or praise on all ends. I think the issue here in regards to all of this is the conflation of fanon being made to seem like actual canon and the line of where personal tastes needs to be made apparent. MXTX isn't big on shipping outside of her main pairs, I'm the same with mine for OC's and I am very very picky in regards to this, but fans are gonna fan and Rule 34 is there no matter what. Fandom curating is always the answer if certain pairs get to you that badly. I also think there is a fine line with accusations of romanticizing non-canon pairs and it's place in a real life context towards others individuals as I think morbid material has it's place to be explored safely within literature and entertainment without pearl clutching or holier than though attitudes especially prevalent in English/Western fandom.

People get far too invested within the fandom headcanon space and a lot of vitriol pours out from that. It's a double-edged sword especially claiming to love something from this while condemning a multitude of people (mostly always chinese mainland fans, or other LGBT+ people who do not share the same self-flagellation attitude towards an entertainment piece). Self-flagellation is hypocrisy in my eyes and just because some people tend to make a very loud note of this, does not make them morally superior in sharing the same content as everyone else no matter how they do this.

#mdzs #mo dao zu shi #fandom is not my life nor will it reflect mine #and it should not be a personality test either or morals test in the end

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