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b3achysurfur · 5 months

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I know I originally said in a comment at some point about how annoying the Logan war got (think it was in that post asking why we all suddenly backed off) but now I just find your posts humoring it's like "THIS LITTLE GODDAMN PIECE OF SHIT-" and it's the most innocent picture of Logan.

Love seeing it nowadays (cuz it's funny), but you have a good point that he hasn't furthered the story yet but I feel like Red might change that soon. Hopefully. Also how we haven't had his backstory but that also might change too (we've got a hint in one episode where they fought his bullies, something about how his parents didn't want him and he fact that we've only seen his grandparents but not his actual parents says something....)

Anyways something I need to ask you! What are your opinions on the others, what you like about them or dislike, favorite moments and what not. I'm curious!

Sorry this may have been long!

SEE NOW YOU GUYS ARE GETTING MY HUMOR , THIS ACTUALLY MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!! THANK UUUUU A LOT

also UR SO GREAT FOR THE QUESTION YOU ASKED!! I love talking about everyone else

I’ll assess them in order of: ashlyn, aiden, taylor, tyler, ben (not by order of how much I like them or anything btw). Some sections are longer than others because I’m bias BUT ALSO BECAUSE I got tired of typing and realized there was wayyy tm to read. Sorry!!!! if you don’t wanna read all this I put a short summary all the way on the bottom + feel free to me ask me specific questions ! now let me talk your ear off

ASHLYN:

I really like ashlyn because she has the most potential out of everyone (and that’s not to say the other characters aren’t deep, because that’s the opposite of true but bae is the whole reason we’re here). I think she’s also really relatable in the sense that she doesn’t like interacting with people but she can easily take the leadership role when needed. like okay queen I see you. also I really enjoy the fact Red made her dislike aiden at first even though they have a side romance plot going rn. bc that’s how it would’ve been if they were real. ash would not just become chatty out of no where and fall head over heels for him. and I really appreciate the slowburn. Ashlyn’s also higher on my favorites list because I’m bias and we have the same hair length 😣 usually when characters have long hair, authors tend to let their hair flow a lot, but red put ts in braids 🙏 and ask anyone with long hair like that, their hair is up 99% of the time bc it’s annoying, hot, and (personally) GRABS ONTO EVERYTHING LIKE ITS A THIRD HAND. I have a lot of headcannons for ash just based on small character designs / aspects that not a lot of people really think about. She’s so interesting and I really just love her. And since I have positives, I’ll give one negative about her. In the beginning, Ashlyn was really hesitant to tell the group anything. I understand where she was coming from, and given Tyler’s reaction, I don’t blame her for keeping things to herself. But mannnn ts was so frustrating sometimes. it’s ok tho bc all good stories stress you out.

AIDEN:

omg guys it’s my favorite ever. I know aidens really popular already so I’ll try not to rant on about him forever but hes just the best 😣 but mans really does not gaf EVERR.

now I could rant on and on about how silly Aiden is and why he’s so misunderstood as a character, because he’s not crazy like at all and if anything he’s one of the smartest characters in sbg, but I’ll save if for a better time. Instead I wanna talk about how observant he is of Ben and ashlyn.

it’s cropping weridly, sorry. but aiden’s eyes are always watching the ones he cares about most. I feel like this has to do with the fact Ben cannot voice his concerns/opinions so aiden always has to glance at him to make sure he’s not missing any important signal. But I also think it has to do with his childhood (I don’t have fast pass or anything this is just based off of theories/analysis based on his character bc I do that a lot 🤒). Anyways, he has a specific way of comforting people that I think it’s rlly niche. He uses his hands and gets the person what he thinks they need. Like in the attached images he gets ashlyn fabric to squeeze and distracts her with light conversation, and he immediately offers to take a walk with Ben and get some fresh air. If a person refuses or asks him for space, he immediately obeys and doesn’t question their decision. He’s very trusting and understanding. He gives people room to make mistakes and gives them room to ask for help. I’m mainly bringing this up because it ties back to something I’m gonna talk about in Taylor’s section. I just think that this detail is so important to his character and we always brush over it. I don’t wanna say he doesn’t like physical touch, bc he’s always touching everything around him, but I like to think his main love language is acts of service. When you really look at it, his actions speak a lot louder than his bickering and it really helps display how much each character means to him individually. what elseee. He’s able to quickly adjust and assess situations (like when he attacked the phantom or pulled up ashlyn in the bus). He’s very quick to his feet and always needs to be interacting with something to keep his hands busy. Aiden just really don’t gaf 99% of the time (unless it’s Ben / ashlyn) and honestly that’s why I like him. He doesn’t take anything seriously or personally. clap it up for my hb. Also I notice the sbg fandom has a habit of doing it with everyone, but I feel like Aiden is always reduced to his impulsive behaviors and ‘crazy kid’ persona. please guys. look deeper into Aiden Clark. Instead of wasting your energy trying to defend a NERDY FREAK like Logan fields, you should study more on Aiden Clark and his complex character.

yes. do that. rn. You want to so badly. I know you do. Do it. Go reread sbg and focus on Aiden. wowwww. I know you want to. (I’m hypnotizing you btw) Or just ask me I can talk about Aiden (or really any character) alll day long. Ask me anything about anyone and I’ll tell you what I think with proof and evidence. yes. I just need to cut it short because I have to talk about everyone else to. But study Aiden Clark. do it. really. really. Right now. Go. Go. Now. PLUS Aiden’s probably the least likely to die because he’s to cool for that + he’s better than death and injury. YAAA!!! MAKE AIDEN CLARK UR FAV BC YOULL BE SAFE FROM ANGST 🎉

only thing I don’t like about Aiden gotta be his fashion sense sometimes (usually beginning S1). like WHAT R U WEARING MAN???? 🙁

TAYLOR:

okay now let me talk about my shnukums Taylor. I love her a lot but her and Tyler had very different childhoods regardless of the fact they were in the same situation.

We don’t know a lot about Taylor’s version of growing up, so a lot of the details are vague but everything I say is based off of observations and analyses I have personally made, so please take everything I say about Taylor’s backstory with a grain of salt and understand that no matter what, both twins were majorly affected by the passing of their father and illness of their mother.

At first i thought of Taylor was the more lucky one out of Tyler and Taylor when it came to their childhood. Yes she struggled, I knew that, but Tyler was under a lot of stress. But that’s when I realized that she suffered just as much. Although she didn’t need to sacrifice herself to help her family survive, like Tyler did, she went though the most loss. She lost her mother, father, and brother all overnight. One second they were all happy together and the next she was all alone. Physically, her mother and brother were still there, but they were both shells. Her mother isolated by grief and her brother isolated by responsibility. She was all alone. Yes Tyler did his best to support her, but at the end of the day, there wasn’t much he could do to change the situation. Taylor suffered a lot, and since people mostly focus on Tyler, we never really see Taylor’s POV of it all.

Now her backstory leads me into the fact Taylor is the most socially smart character in sbg. She is also the most observant and supportive. This is not to say others aren’t observant/supportive, like Aiden for an example, but she does it much differently. I would attach a picture here but I’m close to maxing out the photo limit and I want to save it for later.

Taylor is very good at reading the emotions of other characters. She is also very observant. Taylor is often the first to notice when a charater is uncomfortable, panicked, or harmed. For an example, she’s the first to notice Ashlyn’s fear back at the house. Unlike Aiden, Taylor is able to verbally let people know she is there for them. She comforts them through words and physical affection. Taylor is usually aware of how much support someone is in need of and the best way to display it for them specifically. For an example when Logan was getting bullied, she defended him against Tyler’s mean words and held his shoulder for reassurance. This same tactic would not work for ashlyn, and Taylor is aware of that. So, when ashlyn broke down about the struggles of being leader, Taylor comforted her through words and reassured her fears. Taylor opened up a space for ashlyn to be scared and share her burden. She was able to do all of this in only a couple of moments. This skills also becomes a werid quirk when she is able to sense Tyler’s condition in the hospital, but maybe that was just twin senses? 🤷‍♀️ idk

Taylor is also very aware of everyone around her. We know that she is very social and has a lot of friends and connections, but she also educates herself on the people she doesn’t interact with. Even if she doesn’t know a lot, she makes sure to acknowledge their presence at the very least.

What does her ability to read emotion have to do with her childhood? Well, Taylor basically lived with a shell of a family. Tyler was under constant stress, which made him prone to outbursts. Her mother was disabled by grief. Taylor was in a situation that made her feel like she had to take care of her family mentally. It was, to her, the least she could do. So, she was mentally mature from a very young age. Although having to hold the burdens of others constantly is very unhealthy, I’m not sure if she’ll crack because of it.

Taylor being very social and having a lot of friends is also another example of how she’s different from Tyler and how their shared childhood affected them differently. Tyler saw people as distractions while Taylor sees them as her means to keep living. Taylor lives off of other peoples energy, and she maintains the energy of other people by being a supportive beam for them. This is also why I’m okay with Taylor being shipped with others. She’s use to being around people and can form close bonds with others while still only viewing them as friends. Tyler cannot do the same. Taylor is in a position where she can expand her horizons into romantic relations if she was interested in doing so. That’s why I feel as though it’s okay (if that doesn’t make sense I’ll explain it again, but I tried to condense it down)

Something I don’t like about Taylor is that we haven’t gotten to see her brain in action yet. We know she’s the president of the robotics club , but we haven’t had the chance to see her charater support the story in any other way but socially and mentally. The story is only at 60 episodes though, and I’m sure we will see it eventually. Im just impatient and want to see women in STEM shine 😣😣 I wish I could talk about her more, but we barely know anything about Taylor as of right now. I will say it’s interesting how she told her and Tyler’s backstory, but only talked about how Tyler was affected and not herself. Interesting… I hope we learn more about her experiences and I hope I’m right 🙏 also CAN WE TAKE A MOMENT TO APPRECIATE HOW PRETTY SHE IS??? UGHH I LOVE HER SMM

TYLER:

I feel like Tyler has been the topic of discussion for the past couple of months because his backstory was revealed and the end of S1 / beginning of S2 was all about him and his past, so I don’t have a lot to say that I haven’t already said. but I do really like Tyler. At first when he was in his jock era I was very , oh! about him. but he’s actually warmed up to me sooooo much since then. he’s so goofy I just want more interactions between him and Aiden. I think I good place to start is how much I HATE people shipping him with other members of the main cast. I talked about it a little in Taylor’s section, but him and Taylor had very different childhoods. Again, I’m not saying their father’s death and mother’s illness was not hard on the both of them, but Tyler was under a lot of pressure too. We know he isolated himself harshly, and stopped having fun all together. The way I look at it, everything, including living day-to-day, became a chore for Tyler. Ever since he was a little kid. His dad’s death changed his entire world overnight. He had to learn how to physically and mentally support everyone important to him, because if he couldn’t no one else would. Tyler had to learn everything about living life by himself as a baby just so everyone else could survive. He stopped having fun. Little kids find fun in everything. Tyler stopped himself from finding it. He didn’t do anything for himself anymore. He was almost like a empty shell doing automatic tasks so that his sister and mother could have space to grow, heal, and live. In a sense, it was self sacrifice (which he attempts again when he tells the group to leave him behind)

So when Taylor tells us that the main cast started to become an extension of the family he sacrificed himself for, it’s so heavy on his character. Especially because for once in a long time he started relating his ‘family’ back to joy and fun, not just safety and survival. That’s why it bothers me when people ship him with others. It’s so werid to imply he’d date any of the main cast when he sees them as his family. consider them blood-siblings if you gotta, but just stop shipping them. PLEAASSSSEEEEEEEEEEE. otherwise I’ll eat your dog. thanks! also him being friends with the main cast at all is such a huge step for him. I don’t think Tyler has time to get involved with romantic relationships when he believes friends are a distraction. I know a lot of people go to romance when they want to express how strong a connection is between two characters, but you guys are forgetting that Tyler considering everyone as his friends is sooooo much more complex and deep compared to (for an example) Logan saying he considers everyone his friend. ANYWAYS ENOUGHHH!!! let’s move on.

I also wanna talk about this scene (I was to lazy to go find the original scene so the flashback is all you get). I never really realized how much ashlyn ordering Tyler around must’ve affected him. He literally spent his whole life making decisions and taking leadership and all of a sudden some random lil girl is over here telling him to stfu and sit his ass down. I would imagine as mad as he was, he probably felt a least a bit of relief. For once the responsibility wasn’t on him, at least not only on him. He could share his burden with others, and he wasn’t suffocated by being responsible for the lives of everyone else. We see this same struggle affect ashlyn, as she feels like being leader strangles her with the weight of guilt, paranoia, and responsibility. Imagine if Tyler had been the one to bare that weight after everything he’s already been through? he would’ve cracked, whether we like it or not. so let’s clap it up for ashlyn rq!!! yasss girl 😋 I know I’m rambling a lot about tyler but I know a lot about him and want to talkkk 😣 but here is my last point: Tyler’s coping mechanism to the unknown and things that confuse him is denial. Just like his mother 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯

woww! do you guys remember when Tyler thought this whole thing was a joke? me too! he would’ve never thought this silly prank would almost kill him. Tyler’s mom probably thought her husband’s illness wouldn’t kill him either. oops! 😂 (I’m going kms). sorry. my point is they both refused to believe it happened (although his mom’s denial may have been more of a trauma response while his was just to help him cope). Even with evidence, they both couldn’t understand what had happened to them and pretending nothing was wrong. Tyler saw the picture of the phantom’s shadow and brushed it off to technology he couldn’t understand yet. he felt more comfortable with not knowing how technology worked rather than not knowing if he was in danger. his mother is similar. She couldn’t understand and cope with the death of her husband, even though he died in front of her. She felt more comfortable not understanding why he was late from work than understanding he was dead and gone. Guess it runs in the family? 🤷‍♀️ and since these are all things I like about his character, I will tell you what I don’t like. THAT STUPID ASS JOCK ATTUIDE FROM S1. okay I didn’t hate it, and it fit him sometimes, and I kinda miss it sometimes, but he’s like 5’5 and a stick, he is not beating no one’s ass 😭 respectfully. now he could probably rock me but he’s matured a bit since S1 so it’s different. Tyler’s not even my favorite idk why I talked about him sm , especially when I held off on talking about Aiden because I didn’t want to say to much 🤦‍♀️ whatever

BEN:

I have a lot to say about Benny boy, especially because he is SOOOOOO mischaraterized. Now I won’t go crazy like I did for the twins because I’m thinking about making a separate post just about Ben (maybe.. maybe not idk). plus I just reminded myself anon asked me to just say a few things I like and disliked about each charater not give crazy long paragraph about them. so, sorry Ben but you will probably have the most boring paragraph of them all. I still love you a lot pookie 🙏 I’m just tired AND MAXED OUT THE AMOUNT OF PICS I CAN USE EVEN THO I NEED TO TALK ABOUT U WHILE USING PICS 🤒 anyways enough rambling.

bens charater is often reduced to his backstory which genuinely makes me want to start tweaking out. if you expand on why his trauma affects him, then I will happily listen to you talk. But when most the fandom sees Ben as “music boy who hate bully, will fight you if you be mean” it makes me so SAAAADDDDD. no, Ben will NOT beat my ass for making fun of Logan. That’s like… the whole point of his backstory? He doesn’t like violence, at all. He’s ashamed of his anger issues. He blames himself for having to move and putting his family in danger. The only reason he got involved with Logan’s fight was because the phantom interference + no one was there to help calm him down.

also he doesn’t only do music. he draws too! he’s a very artistic dude. He also gardens. Ben be planting food and shit. which (as much as I HATE the ship) Logan n Ben shippers could probably use to their advantage. Yk bc Ben gardens and Logan helps his grandparents in their greenhouse? wtv. Bens prob growing flowers for Taylor anyways. Fuck Logan. sorry.

Ben is also very compassionate and gentle. He’s always thinking about what’s best for the group, even if it puts him in an uncomfortable position, like sharing his trauma. Ben is also very soft hearted. He gets flustered very easily, we see this when ashlyn and Taylor complimented him. He is very protective over those he cares about and he does not come to play, ever. Also his character development from S1 makes me so happy. He use to be attached to Aiden’s hip 24/7 and we could often only understand his emotions when Aiden would translate him to us. But we’ve seen lately that he’s much closer to Taylor, even putting her safety before his own.

wow, gentleman alert❗️if I didn’t run out of photo space than I would’ve shown more examples where he holds onto others as a way to comfort or protect them. he’s so respectful I might cry. maybe I will make a Ben-centered post. I need to show you guys pictures so you can understand what I’m saying. But Ben is growing and he needs more attention. thank you.

SUMMARY:

Ashlyn

pros:

- has crazy potential + most hinted at lore

- very relateable

-introverted but stands on business

-W relationship development between her and the cast, very natural and not forced

- her hair

cons:

- she is very hesitant to spill info (only in earlier chaps tho!)

Aiden

pros:

- silly

- observant of those he cares about

- acts of service love language

- trusting/understanding

- quick on his feet

- good at assessing situations/making plans

- he doesn’t GAF 🦅🦅 EVAAA

cons:

- often misunderstood / mischaraterized by the fandom

- has ugly ass outfits sometimes

Taylor

pros:

- most socially smart character in sbg

- good at reading emotions

- good at comforting others

- aware of her surroundings/the people around her

- supportive

- social

- super pretty

- wrote a paragraph on why it’s ok to ship her with the rest of the cast js cuz

cons:

- we don’t see enough of her robotics president side, show me women in STEM 🤬

- we never saw how she experienced childhood (yet..)

Tyler

pros:

- deep childhood trauma/responsibility

- sacrificed himself for his family twice

- not meant to be shipped with anyone in main cast

- sees main cast as family

- he finally made friends

- talked about the scene where ash tells him to shut his bitchass up

- copes by using denial (js like his mom)

cons:

- his jock attitude during S1

Ben

pros:

- hates violence

- angery at his anger issues

- ashamed of his past

- draws and gardens as hobbies

- compassionate and gentle

- soft hearted

- easily flustered

- very protective

- slow but steady quiet charater development

- a gentleman

cons:

- you guys mischaraterize him a lot (like someone told me he doesn’t change as a character bc he never speaks, ts made me mad asf)

THATS ALL! THANK YOU FOR ASKING!! again feel free to as me questions about anything at all even if you didn’t read allat. And if you did, thank you ur so sweet and amazing. Sorry for writing sm 😢

also everyone is open to their own opinions, this is just what I think. As always, I’m always down to debate.

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beanghostprincess · 2 months

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I wanted to rant about this to someone and I have nobody to so pardon me, you can ignore this

I have a lo to say about oda's work as someone who work in cinema, in animation cinema at that.

I hate how he's such an incredible story teller and has one of the best world building that I've ever seen but he can't desing characters.

Like Nami, I love Nami, she's so well written (too well that nobody seems to understand her at all) only to be reduce to boobs.

The same can be said about evry female character sadly.

Also evil female characters, they also follow the same patter of being more on the weird side of his designs and it saddens me a bit that he can only make variations of characters when it comes to vilians that you're not supposed to be attracted to.

This can be said for the men too but this whole post ts art style is a debate I have with "is it commercialism and the death of art under capitalism or is it that Oda genualy can't desing proper characters?"

But then again, pre ts style is also not that much better. Speaking of professionalism a studio looks how unique your style is and oda's old way of drawing his characters specially Robin or Ace were interesting and gave him something really unique and special (and that's on the socially attractive ones)

Now I'm looking at Nami copy n°10982 while all the men are getting beefier but at least they have more interesting and different designs.

It's something that makes me mad and it's not even the whole "no women in op has organs" way more of the "this same face sindrom can't go on for much longer" because at the end of the day his female characters tell us nothing about them wich tend to lead to people not caring for them or just going with "big boos=great character" because something really important in character design is that your character is clear and can be read from the siluette and acting and that is something no woman in op that's marketed as attractive has.

Sorry for the rant, character design is part of my job and if I were to present desings like oda has for his girls I would get fired and that got me thinking

Hope you have a great day :D

I agree mostly with this, but I personally think a lot of the damage was done because of Toei. Like, obviously Oda's style suffers from a lack of diversity when it comes to women and their sexualization, but Toei makes it SO much worse. Like- Right now I'm reading early OP (because I had just watched the anime and then caught up with the manga from Wano) and it was so much better back then. It got considerably worse with time but-- Yeah, I see what you mean.

#early op my beloved you will forever be remembered #nostalgic and beautiful artstyle with not that much of diversity but at least nami looked better #one piece

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mimssides · 1 year

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Ich habe 1.278 Mal im Jahr 2022 etwas gepostet

Das sind 372 more posts als 2021!

74 Einträge erstellt (6%)

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Ich habe 182 meiner Einträge im Jahr 2022 getaggt

#sanders sides – 72 Einträge

#eir writes – 41 Einträge

#roman sanders – 34 Einträge

#eir rambles – 31 Einträge

#janus sanders – 29 Einträge

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#ts roman – 23 Einträge

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Longest Tag: 126 characters

#<- you have talked to your financeee right? while they appear to be loganesque they do have a murderous remus spark in them/lh

Meine Top-Einträge im Jahr 2022:

Hey Eir! How about Logince for the ship ask game? <3

Who said “I love you” first Roman. Look, passion bubbles in his chest and his nerd is falling in love with him. He has to profess his love to him!

Who would have the other’s picture as their phone background They are both saps and have the picture of the other as background. Or maybe even matching ones with Logan reasoning that it is "only logical" and Roman totally supporting his boyfriend's logical thinking.

Who leaves notes written in fog on the bathroom mirror Roman. Logan thinks it's cute but sometimes gets annoyed at the smudges. but when Ro has a rough time, Logan might just draw a little heart on the mirror and it always manages to cheer Roman up.

Who buys the other cheesy gifts Logan. He's bad at love languages but also has the instincts of a magpie and knows "cheesy glitter things make Roman go brrr". Man has never bought roses but there are about twenty cat heart figurines in Roman's shelf designated for sappy gifts from his boyfriend.

Who initiated the first kiss Mutual effort. Just a look and both started to lean in. It was one of the few moments they just agreed on what to do next. Really they still often kiss like that.

Who kisses the other awake in the morning Roman kisses Logan awake. Both of them don't sleep a lot but Logan has the tendency to stay a little longer in bed when he has nothing scheduled. So when that occurs, Roman might get up first, make some coffee, prepare some breakfast, and goes back to bed to kiss his beloved awake. Logan does enjoy the pampering.

Who starts tickle fights Roman. Though Logan always wins and he still believes that one day he will end up the winner. He won't😌

Who asks who if they can join the other in the shower Roman. When he has a high need for affection he will ask for them to shower together. Usually, Logan complies since he understands that Roman needs some extra care. Also, sometimes it's nice to have cuddly (or a little horny) prince in the shower with you.

Who surprises the other in the middle of the day at work with lunch Roman started it but they regularly show up at the other's workspace just as a surprise. At Logan's workplace though nobody knows that Roman is Logan's boyfriend because Roman keeps it down a lot whereas everyone at Roman's workplace is very aware of their relationship because the first thing Logan did when he visits Roman is kiss him straight on the lips.

Who was nervous and shy on the first date Neither. Their first official date was on a dare and they bickered and tried to outdo the other the whole time only to realise at the end that they had a great time together. They were both a little timid on the second date though.

Who kills/takes out the spiders Roman. Let him be the brave hero he wants to be. Logan is very deadpan about being saved from the foul beasts but he lets him do it.

Who loudly proclaims their love when they’re drunk Logan. Roman is just whiny and clingy when drunk but Logan goes out of his way to loudly present Roman to everybody around them and says how beautiful and attractive he is, and how he is the best kisser, and that he loves him so very much.

Aah. I love them so much. Such good boys.

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“Fuck, Virgil, I can’t believe I say this, but stop cackling like a madman! I think we have a fucking problem right now,” Remus shouted slowly lowering his phone away from the lightly drugged deceitful facet in front of him.

Janus was still weakly gnawing at the huge not ostrich egg somebody, (thank you Roman) had left in the living room, and while he looked objectively adorable with his dilated eyes and drooling all over the shell but knowing now what the egg really was and considering how long Janus had already been like this, they may have had reasons to worry. Virgil apparently didn’t agree and was still cackling as Remus stopped filming and walked over to Janus and the egg. He stemmed his hands in his hips and sighed as Janus rubbed his face against the shell like a cat would do to claim its possession over the object of their choosing.

“Do the effects of the ‘snakenip’ always hold on that long?” Logan asked from the side.

By now the teacher wasn’t looking nearly as smug as in the beginning and Remus shot him a pissed grin.

“Oh having second thoughts on your revenge now?” he said lowly. “Drugging someone because they ate the rest of your crofters is such a funny thought, really! You’re the pinnacle of humour!”

Logan sputtered and walked up next to Remus: “Virgil reassured me that it would last barely 5 minutes! I even halved the doses he recommended!”

A sudden realisation hit Remus and at once Virgil was very still. In slow motion, Remus turned around to face the anxious side who suddenly became really small. Remus growled at him, ready to jump as Virgil promptly sunk out. With a scream Remus was about to run after him to his room, only stopped by Roman holding him in place and telling him that violence wouldn’t help the issue at hand. They would have to fix this first before he could deal with Virgil.

“You’re the one talking!” Remus snapped at Roman but turned back to Janus and his egg. “Why the fuck would you take the egg of a fucking DRAGON?! Are you out of your mind?!”

“The knights of the kingdom hat already slain the mother when I got there! And I couldn’t leave the egg! The poor thing would die on its one, and if not it would probably plot revenge against my kingdom for killing its mom, so bringing it here and hatching it, seemed like a reasonable choice at the time!” Roman explained himself weakly.

Remus just shot him a stink eye. He would have to kill some stupid knights. Or torture them, if he wanted to be really mean.

A grumpy snarl captured Remus’s attention back on Janus and he looked at his high gremlin and the egg. He had stopped trying to chew on it and was now full-on hugging the darn thing.

“That looks kinda cute,” Patton commented.

Remus didn’t think so though. Cursing under his breath he finally approached Janus and tried to pry him away from the egg. Unsurprisingly to Remus, Janus didn’t budge an inch. The imp was using his snake strength to hold onto the damned egg.

“Nerd get here and help me separate them before he imprints on that fucking egg!” Remus snarled through his teeth.

Logan didn’t move and Remus shot him an angry glare to which he answered: “Why me? I’m not known for my strength and what do you mean with imprinting?”

“You, because you are responsible for him being like this and because the other two idiots are going to prepare a nest for anthe egg-” he shot Patton and Roman a unquestionable glare to which both responded by rapidly scrambling away - “and ‘imprinting’ means exactly what it means! He’s gonna get attached to the freaking thing and we’re gonna have to deal with a baby dragon following him around 24/7 if we’re not doing something. Right. Now.”

That was all it took for Logan to get into motion and he ran to Remus’s side to help him pull Janus away from the egg. Logan slung his hands around Janus’s middle as Remus tried to pry away Janus’s arms from the egg.

“How on earth is he this strong? He’s half my size,” Logan groaned.

Huffing in agreement Remus managed to pry the gloved hands away which caused Janus to whine in dismay.

“Oh please,” Logan grumbled and yanked Janus away, “you’ll be grateful for this once your mind is back here with us.”

For a second Janus’s grip loosened as he heard Logan’s voice so close by his ear and the two mad scientists managed to pry him away from his snack/baby. Remus pulled Logan further away from the egg and motioned him to settle on the couch with Janus on his lap.

“Don’t let go of him yet. He might try to get back to it before we can get it to its nest,” Remus explained.

Before Logan could agree to it Janus whined on his lap: “you TAKE EGG from janus? you take his precious like the lollipop from the baby? oh! oh! jail for sides! jail for sides for One Thousand Years!!!!”

“Oh lord.”

“Shit. Now he’s getting into his cranky state,” Remus said bemused and watched him wiggle in Logan’s lap.

“What am I supposed to do now?” Logan asked panicking.

“I don’t know! I’m here for the chaos and you for the brains! Think of something!”

Vollständigen Eintrag ansehen

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Idea for an angsty Roman AU

Roman wants to disappear but doesn't want to influence Thomas badly. So he takes the most important functions out of him one night and distributes them to the other sides one night before he disappears into the Imagination. Janus, Logan and Virgil receive them, with a note on their door (he doesn't want to overwhelm Patton even more and Remus already has enough as the sole Creativity from now on).

Janus gets the "Ego" and his note says: You always wanted Thomas to thrive. I wasn't brave enough to stand up for him while you were. I trust you to get him farther than I ever could.

Logan gets the "Hopes" and his note says: Maybe you are a robot but you always had a figuratively big heart. I know that with your mind Thomas will be able to find a way to make his hopes come true.

Virgil gets the "Wants" and his note says: You already have proven to be braver and more determined than I back then with Nico, even though you didn't want it as badly as I did. With them, you will make Thomas unstoppable.

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That's the concept and then I have also this idea for what might happen later:

The others have found Roman in the Imagination. He's no longer Roman though; he's the Hero, the Prince, the Knight who is saving the people in a small valley at the border of the Imagination. They try to talk with him, convince him to come back. Janus explains that he is not meant to hold the ego and protect it. Virgil says his focus is getting even worse with the additional desires, Roman has handed over to him. The Hero deflects, even tells them how to deal with it better, how Roman dealt with it and both have to admit that his solutions weren't that bad. Still, they tried to insist for Roman to come back. The Hero ignores it.

Logan takes his turn to talk with him. Speaks of all these hopes Thomas has, all the plans and ideas and the Hero smiles fondly as Logan tells him as much.

L: Now you must see that you need to take them back, correct?

H: I do not, no. I'm no longer the Roman you are talking off, and you of all of them must know.

L: Nonsense. Roman is the Hero and Prince you are. He and you are one side.

H: Roman was more than I am. And you know it. You know that what I am now is flat and simple. I am the things, which made Roman fallible. I am the Hero who saved the people he threw into danger. I am the Prince with no kingdom to inherit. I am the knight with the will to fight and no monster to slay.

L: No-

H: Yes. (He says kindly but with no space to disagree) And Thomas doesn't need a Hero, a Prince, or a Knight. He needs his Ego in the hands of the guardian of beginnings and ends, always able to find a way to hide and protect it if needed. He needs his Wants represented by the fiercest fighter, always willing to push further and knowing his own limits all the same. He needs his Hopes collected by-

L: -a realist? A teacher? I don't see how I am the best fit for this.

The Hero smiles.

H: He needs his Hopes collected by a scientist with the wondrous mind of a child. You spoke and tried to persuade me with the words of an excited elementary schooler. Roman had hoped (ha) that his facet would bring that wonder back to you. He had missed it in you.

Logan is taken aback. He didn't expect this.

L: What are you insinuating?

H: When you were children, you would help him with his ideas. When you were studying you would help form his ideals and hopes over the years, through the topics you read and learnt about. Roman's domain isn't simple and clear cut. The contents of what he controls are highly influenced by all of you. Thomas's beliefs will shape his Wants, as well as his self-preservation, does. The Ego is a reflection of what we think other people see in us. It's an interpretation. His Hopes are connected deeply with his fears and his knowledge of what is possible and what is not. These important parts of Roman, you all made.

Logan shakes his head. The Hero steps up to him and squeezes his shoulder.

H: The Hero is the one thing that is uniquely Roman. It's what wasn't influenced by any of you but by Thomas. The Hero, the Prince, and the Knight. That's unique about Roman.

Logan's breath hitches.

H: And that's not something Thomas needs anymore.

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Our Prince❤️

184 Anmerkungen – Gepostet 16. April 2022

Meine #1 des Jahres 2022

I couldn't resist.

Logan put snakenip in his wine as revenge for stealing his Crofters. Remus is filming, Virgil is hollering in the corner, Patton is very concerned and Roman has yet to correct Remus that this isn't a ostrich egg.

Inspiration for the pic is from this post.

206 Anmerkungen – Gepostet 30. Januar 2022

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#tumblr2022 #Jahresrückblick #Mein Tumblr-Jahresrückblick 2022 #Dein Tumblr-Jahresrückblick #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review

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lananiscorner · 2 years

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You don't need to include screen caps for this ask but I was wondering about your views on the Hopes designs for each character who got a new outfit (aka the students plus Ashen Wolves). Which units do you think got an upgrade vs a downgrade? Obviously, I mean as a comparison to their 3H time skip designs. You can talk about hair and clothing as for your explanation. For example, I think 3H time skip Sylvain has great hair, but I prefer his Hopes outfit with the scarf. Mix and match if needed!

Thanks for your ask, anon.

I am planning to make detailed overall character review posts for each character that will go into more detail (thought most of these will come out after August because August is insanely busy for me). I already gave my quick opinions on the Eagles and Deer earlier here:

Black Eagles

Golden Deer

I thought I had made one for the Lions as well, but if I did, I can't find it anymore. So, here are my quick thoughts on the Ashen Wolves and Blue Lions 3 Hopes designs:

Dimitri: not really a fan. I like the tiny pony tail, but aside from that, it pales in comparison to his High Lord design.

Dedue: Love his hair. Armor is imo on par with his post time skip look.

Mercedes: her best design, imo.

Ashe: not a fan of the hair and somehow the outfit makes him look bulkier than he is. Not a fan.

Felix: Love it the outfit. His hair cut finally stands out from his pre time skip design, but it always looks kind of.... weird in his portrait.

Annette: she looks like a milk maid. Not a fan.

Sylvain: I find all of his designs pretty underwhelming tbh, and this one's no exception. Doesn't mean he looks bad--there's just nothing there that stands out or impresses me.

Ingrid: Love the outfit, hate the hair cut. I wish they had given her a long, braided cut (not a sloppy braid like her pre skip design, but something more secure and neat).

Yuri: much improved from his post TS design, which is honestly not surprising, because the post TS designs for the wolves are all ugly, imo. Still has the ridiculous shoe shape.

Constance: love it. I can't decide whether I prefer this or her pre TS look, but it's definitely 100x better than her post TS look.

Balthus: has something very retro about it. It's probably the hair + bandana (kinda reminds me of the Rambo movies). Better than his post skip look. On par with his pre skip look I guess (it's really hard to find a good angle on this one in the trailer).

Hapi: love it. Best design she has.

#asks #anon #Fire Emblem Warriors: Three Hopes #FE WTH #FE WTH character designs #tumblr formatting is being a bitch again

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esperanzagalaxy · 3 years

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an artificial family 💉 💀

i had doodled this idea in a corner of a notebook months ago and was very happy to finally work on it for real, i adore working on more minimalistic styles! plus i really wanted to make a loving homage to the mechs, i came late to the party but they’ve offered so much solace in the last year. and the character designs they built for themselves are irresistible, so of course i’d want to try my hand at some sort of lineup or group picture, and i’m very happy with the result 💙 i went through a lot of ideas for a more colorful background but in the end nearly white really was what looked best... i guess the figures work well by themselves.

i’d say raph was the one i was most excited to draw, i saved her for last and to me, her and carmilla are like the stars of the composition! i’m also REALLY happy with how nastya, marius and ts came out and i want to kiss them a lot. hope you like it as much as i enjoyed making it! :33 i like these enough to post them individually too and am possibly going to print them as stickers for myself at some point -that got me thinking that if anyone wanted to do the same or use these as icons or blog stuff, i’d be happy to share the hi-res files, so let me know what you think n.n

edit: you got it, friends! here’s the post with each mech individually as well as the info and link to download the files and get your own mechs thingies!

[ID: a digital illustration of doctor carmilla and the mechanisms, donde in a flat-colored, sharp, minimalistic style. the background is a light cream color a few lines of light coming from behind the group. on the bottom of the image, below the figures, is written ‘’dr. carmilla & the mechanisms’’. the group is arranged in a triangle, with carmilla sitting at the front and center. brian and jonny come from behind her seat to her right, while tim and ashes do the same to her left. behind her nastya and ivy stand nearly back to back. the cusp of the triangle is made up from marius and the toy soldier to the left and right, and raphaella in the center a ways above. carmilla looks to us, everyone else save for marius and the toy soldier, who have their eyes closed, look at her. everyone’s faces save for raph’s are in a sharp profile, and the only features drawn are eyes and noses.

carmilla is sitting on a small throne with her legs to the right, not quite crossed, her left hand on her lap and her right on top of her ukelele, which she holds upright against the floor. brian is to her right coming from behind the chair, standing very hunched over, holding a drumstick in each hand. behind him, jonny stands leaning towards his front, with his gun pointing up. on the other side, tim comes from behind carmilla, also hunched over, holding his guitar pointing diagonally downwards. behind him, ashes stands upright with a hand on their pocket and the other holding a lit lighter up. their expression is less wary than that of brian, tim or jonny. behind carmilla and between jonny and ashes are nastya to our left, and ivy to our right. nastya stands with her back to us, looking over her shoulder with narrowed eyes at carmilla. ivy is also with her back to us, holding a book over her hip with her left hand, and with her right in a shushing motion near her face. next are marius and the toy soldier behind them, marius to our left and ts to our right, both posing similarly: they stand on one leg, like in a happy jump, and have their outer arm lifted high and their inner arm near their faces. their eyes are happily closed, marius’s left arm is adjustingthe monocle on the non-visible side of his face, and the toy soldier’s right hand goes to their forehead in a salute. lastly is raphaella behind and slightly above them, her wings splayed wide. her hair is floating wildly to the sides, she’s standing upright with her hands behind her back, looking straight down at carmilla. she’s the only figure shown fully frontal. end ID]

#the mechanisms #doctor carmilla #raphaella la cognizi #marius von raum #the toy soldier #nastya rasputina #ivy alexandria #jonny d'ville #ashes o'reilly #drumbot brian #gunpowder tim #finished works #digital painting #fanart #2021 #let me know if the ID is enough i was doubtful about whether to describe their outfits or not since i didn't really change them #this was finished yesterday but well. yesterday was a day. if you can afford to donate to syrian relief funds please do!!#thought a little happier content for a second might help get through this week

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kaizokuou-ni-naru · 3 years

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The Voyage So Far: Punk Hazard

east blue (1 | 2) || alabasta (1 | 2) || skypiea || water 7 || enies lobby || thriller bark || paramount war (1 | 2) || fishman island || punk hazard || dressrosa (1 | 2) || whole cake island || wano (1 | 2)

nami i love you

i reread nami’s backstory for the east blue post shortly before sitting down to write this one up, and it made her insistence on helping the punk hazard children hit a little different for me. they’re victimized and exploited kids, just like she was.

law’s devil fruit is genuinely one of my favorites, as well as, in my opinion, one of the visually coolest by far, and i love all the cool displays of it we get both in this arc and the next one

i know law gets clowned on a lot this arc, and that’s fantastic too, but he also has a lot of genuinely cool panels, especially early on

characters that remind me how gay i am

relatedly, i do think monet has one of the best visual designs introduced in the new world, especially for a character who, ultimately, is a minor antagonist. i’m not just saying that because she’s hot, either- her wings and talons flow so well with the rest of her design while giving her a monstery look that will later come out FULL force when she turns into a full-on snow monster.

law saying he’s free to go wherever he wants, and his chopping up anyone who even dares to question that right, hits a lot harder knowing his backstory and cora’s final words and thoughts

alliance time!! this was eight and a half years ago in real time, and these two are still working together. i kind of like thinking about this from law’s point of view, because he allied with the strawhats solely to have a few more hands on deck for his dressrosa suicide plot and definitely never assumed he would be around to actually go through with the ‘fighting kaidou’ part of the plan.

joke’s on him. he allied with the strawhats.

luffy’s smile here makes me very happy

kinda like thriller bark, punk hazard is another pretty teamwork-based arc, which is something i really love. it’s particularly fun in this case because there’re a bunch of vastly different people and groups thrown together (the strawhats; smoker, tashigi and the g-5 guys; law; kin’emon (and momo)) who are all very different and yet can work very well together when needs must.

smoker and tashigi get a downgrade in prominence post-timeskip, mostly because the introduction of armament haki means smoker just can’t be the threat he used to be anymore, and i have particular problems with tashigi’s treatment in this arc that i’ve written about before, but- all that said, smoker is still really, really good character in punk hazard, especially in his interactions with vergo and law.

i really love when little, forgettable details come up in ways you might not expect- of course nami’s heat ball hard counters monet’s powers, at least momentarily. she’s made of snow. oda is really incredible of keeping track of little things like this.

i may have issues with the monet fight but god if this isn’t sexy as hell

of the strawhats, i think chopper is actually one of the ones who shines the most in punk hazard. chopper has some of his best moments when faced with so-called ‘doctors’ who use science to hurt and dehumanize others, directly spitting on everything chopper values and believes in and everything hiriluk died for. he’s really good in thriller bark for the same reason.

this is one of my very favorite luffy panels.

law defeating (and ultimately killing) vergo is highly satisfying just on a first read with only context from this arc, given vergo’s earlier torture of law and his betrayal of the g-5 men’s trust in him, but it takes on an entire new dimension with the knowledge of law’s backstory and just what vergo did to him and cora.

fishman island might be the first major arc after the timeskip, but punk hazard, specifically law’s new era speech at the end of it, strike me as much more emblematic and a much better introduction of what the entire post-ts era of the story is about. it’s not just about survival anymore- it’s about directly, proactively confronting the old, entrenched systems of power that rule the world and then tearing them down to make room for a new world and a new age.

i’ve written... a lot of meta about the donquixote family, their strange, abusive cultishness and the obsessive love and loyalty they hold for doflamingo and how he doesn’t value them in nearly the same way, but this panel in particular is one that sticks with me.

i think this is the only time anyone other than luffy is described as “the man who will become the pirate king” (海賊王になる男/kaizoku-ou ni naru otoko). monet is ready to die for doflamingo, and this is her last thought. it ties very effectively into the twisted parallels between the donquixote pirates and the strawhats.

it might be obvious by now, but i’m a huge sucker for group shots

i couldn’t find a good place to mention it earlier, but i really love how kin’emon and momonosuke are introduced in this arc. they’re introduced as fairly inconsequential characters with no real indication that they’ll be anywhere near as important as they will be in the future.

and yet at the same time, there are a lot of details from this arc that make a lot more sense having read wano- momo’s fear of heights, kin’emon’s dislike of dragons, momo’s unwillingness to eat food given to him that hasn’t been taste-tested (definitely something he learned as a shogun’s son, and also probably what saved him from suffering the same fate as the other kids). oda is on a storytelling level i can’t even conceive.

doflamingo has already been pretty thoroughly established as a very dangerous person ever since his introduction back in jaya, but his absolutely destroying smoker and nearly killing him just for not telling him what wants to know really drives the point home, just in time for him to come to the fore as main antagonist of the next arc.

#the voyage so far #long post #one piece #opmeta #arc: punk hazard #not japanese

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A comprehensive list of all my Ghost au's

this post will be talking about all of the ghost au's ive created or co-created including talking about ghost au's from old fandom's that i am no longer in. if you want to ask about any of my au's my ask box and dm's are always open this includes the hermitcraft au but keep it to a minimum please also if any of the creator's of the characters have said that they arent comfortable with what im making ( with proof ofc) i will edit or delete what is needed to fit in the boundaries also another thing this is a long post if you just want the art go under the cut! this post will discuss how each au works and basic plot stuff about them the fandoms in this post are hermitcraft, epithet erased, and dsmp okay first things first-

my hermitcraft au (what a pity)-

On my old tumblr account I made a few posts about it along with a fanfic which never got finished due to me not wanting to interact with the fandom any more due to personal reasons and also I'm not very good at writing imo but I think I'm ready to talk about it again. Just keep in mind i will most likely not talk about this fandom ever again at least not on here again for personal preference : -) it was about season 6 Grian since he was who i was hyperfixating on at the time, being haunted by the ghosts of Sam and Taurtis, both of them from the old roleplay series' Yandere High School, and Tokyo Soul, and taurtis from Grians old-ish smp Evo. Since I never finished the fanfiction nobody but me and close friends ever got to hear the full story i had planned but now you will i guess. It was mainly just grian stressing about Sam and Taurtis being ghosts and him worrying about being crazy, though he would still join the hippies during the area 77 war he would be significantly more stressed especially when finding out that Sam and Taurtis have been possessing his body during the night, he’s more worried about Sam though because of his track record back in the other servers( yhs and ts) it was going to be that Sam (although death isn't permanent) would go on a killing spree in Grians body which would cause the area 77 guys to put him in the facility to see what's going on with him, and it didn't get further then that. My favorite part of this au much like all of my au’s were the design elements i had for it which i'll have under the cut with the other designs. Now for a rundown of how the ghost physics work in this world, in typical ghost fashion Sam and Taurtis were not able to touch or move anything, but they were able to interact with Grian, him being the only person who could see/hear/or touch them. Their only super natural abilities is being able to possess Grian.

Okay! Time for my Epithet Erased au!: Unlike what a pity this one doesn't have a name or a fanfic to go with it as said before i'm not exactly a writer but i have talked about it a bit before on this account along with posting the designs and general concept but i'll go more in depth here! As said in my original post this au was a co-creation with my best friend and sibling @brocolibean so go check bun out ^^ Unlike ‘What a Pity’ it was more lighthearted and comedy centric because it dealt with a bit more and also the original show is a comedy. This au didn't include the character’s epithets so they are all humans. This will also include talking about house each ghost died so if your uncomfortable hearing about that you might want to skip the ghosts portion Just like the original post I'll separate the story summary into 3 parts with intervals in between to talk about the ghosts. First we have the Banzai boys part of the story. Giovanni, Spike, Dark Star, Crusher, Flame Thrower, Car Crash, and Ben all decide to move into a house together so they could all easily split the rent since its close to their collage, the house, which they get for cheap, is aa very old house with sketchy history. But it's a huge house for cheap so they don't complain they encounter the ghosts very early on living in the house and they swear to figure out how they died so they can get their memory back! The ghosts, Molly, Sylvie, Trixie, and Pheonica have no memory! All they know is that there are ghosts! They are connected to the property of this house but if you where to get something- like perhaps a stone from the property the ghost is still technically attached to it therefore the ghost can go with you anywhere Speaking of- -Phoenicia Fleecity is one of the last ghosts to show herself, her body is found in the overgrown garden flowers growing over her skeleton, she is from the victorian era making her the oldest out of the ghosts though he death is the most mysterious -Molly Blindeff is the first ghost the group meets her decomposed body is found buried in the floorboards of the living room, found when gio decided that the house needed renovation and taking matters into his own hands, she died via blunt force trauma i will not be going into detail here because i'm still thinking of doing something with this au she died in the early 2000’s -Sylvester Ashling is the second ghost to show himself though he didn't want to, his body was found in the bottom of the pond in the backyard of the house in the garden. His body while it was decomposing and falling apart was still intact, bloated from drowning. Again i wont go into detail but this wasn't an accident time of death is unknown -Trixie Roughhouse is the third person to show themselves to the Banzai Blasters she is found in the bushes in the backyard her face disfigured from some sort of explosion unlike the others it seems like it was purely an accident, like sylvie their time of death is unknown Mera Salamin is the collages part time librarian nicknamed “the library witch” she started seeing her ghost after obtaining a neck bow with a blue pendant from a pawnshop she got it cause it was pretty and didn't expect a himbo to come along with it -Indus Tarbella is a ghost who is attached to the pendant and bow Mera wear it used to be his own until he was decapitated wearing it through he was properly buried he has no troublesome memories about what happened even after seeing his body he’s just happy to be with Mera Percival King is a security guard at the college and one of the best at that, she wields a story she got from a pawn shop as its her preferred weapon she takes her job very seriously -Ramsey and Zora both died by the same sword while fighting neither remember who wielded the sword, even after death they hate each other and hate being bound together even more Everyone ends up meeting and finding out they all have ghost hijinks ensue. The way ghosts work in this world is a bit strange I'll admit but it's one of my favorites. The ghosts can interact with the human world(menma style) but

they can only talk to the others who can see them (the Banzai Blasters, mera and percy) and the ghosts can interact with each other ghosts in this au attach themselves to an item or property that has someway to do with their death, the kids in the property, Indus it's the bow, and the sword duo is well, the sword Percy carries. As alluded to from before Gio and the rest of the boys end up carrying a bit of the property with them in the form of friendship bracelets four for each of them which makes 28 different bracelets so the kids can decide who to follow around for the day.i talked about how percy and Mera’s items work enough but i would like to mention that Indus does most of the heavy lifting around the library but becaus enoone else can see indus they assume she’s magical, the glowing pendant doesn't help.

The last two au’s i want to talk about are both dream smp au’s

though i've never talked about them online until now, again thanks to @brocolibean for letting me brain vomit my way through these au’s and helping me out with things i love them please check him out I'll be honest i'm so scared of this fandom so i'm afraid to talk about my au’s please be nice to me Also this is all roleplay and fiction!<3 The first one i'll talking about is the dsmp ghost hunters au Sam runs a company where groups of people hunt ghosts for money! Those groups being Phil, Technoblade, Wilbur,Tommy, Tubbo, and Ranboo Dream, George, Sapnap, Quackity, Karl Bad, ant, Skeppy, and Puffy There’s most likely more but there the only people i can think of at this moment The only canonical ghost being Schlatt This au doesn't have a proper story perse it's more about gags and stuff about the different character fighting over ghosts for money but the story stuff i do have- Sbi family dynamic is real here you can rejoice, Phil adopts Tubbo after his dad (Schlatt) kicks the bucket and fucking dies , Tubbo befriend’s Ranboo some mysterious teen who just desperately needs a job so he- and the rest of the Minecraft family help him get one- though they find out Ranboo isnt as human as he was made out to be and he finds out he’s this worlds version of angels called ender’s and he’s there to protect Tubbo and Tommy which explains why the more violent ghosts start being less violent at the arrival of Ranboo joining their team. Bad isn't human either being a demon his entire group know’s plus quackity. Quackity found out but squirting him with holy water through a water gun but don't worry he promised not to tell anyone; -) Bad and Ranboo know about each other because they see each other as their true forms The minecraft fam found out about Schlatt being a ghost through Tommy- despite Tubbo telling him not to- telling them from calling up and paying for them to investigate their own house saying “technically i didn't tell them” they ended up not getting rid of Schlatt though I'm not going to talk about how the ghosts here work because it's not super important to the plot

The second au is another ghost au where the main characters are ghosts themselves,

like the others its mainly lighthearted and comedic with dark attributes The plot surrounds the sbi family moving into a new house and Tommy finding out it's being haunted by two ghost’s. Those ghosts being Tubbo and Ranboo This au isn't fully figured out but I know that he found out he was haunted by sending a selfie to someone(possibly Drista and Purpled? Since there are only other minors who were part of the dsmp lore? But ultimately idk) and them being like “yo i didn't know you had friends” and him being like “?????” Tubbo died from a boiler exploding and Ranboo died from drowning (which are apparently my two favorite deaths) this also doesn't have an official story? It was just an excuse to make ghost designs with a bit of a story without the commitment As said before it's a sbi au but also a Dadschlatt au cuz I like Dadschlatt au’s. The main story bits i have are background stuff for Tubbo and Ranboo which ill elaborate now The house was originally meant to be just a summer home because it had a large lake in the backyard Ranboo’s family would go there often but that doesn't mean his family liked him very much because of his heterochromia, Vitiligo, and his height his family thought he was strayed from god and drowned him Tubbo died during sleep while Schlatt wasn't home either out drinking or just at work he came home to the house being partially blown up and his son nowhere to be seen he calls Puffy out of fear and she calls the cops. He moves away and most likely starts drinking a bit more. The house gets rebuilt and now the sbi live there hijinks ensue! The ghosts in this au work in a simpler manor only Tommy can see them unless a photo is taken but even then they are blurred, they can float and go through walls and their ability to touch things is limited Ranboo’s memory is worse then Tubbo’s but Tubbo’s isn’t much better.

below the cut will be designs and stuff be safe pal's- there will be minor/cartoony blood-

rip me exposing my old art on this account also i'm ripping these from my fucking amino account that i don't use but still have the password too

gonna do the original what a pity drawins first them ill show a more recent rendition because i hate the old drawings

these are the old drawins i hate them

then,,, i just drew them,,,,, fuck these guys/j

thses are the old sprite edits of these four! trixies design is the only one that really changed

the ded;-; i couldnt fit him on the page

there he is! ft indus and very much alive mera(who i cant figure out how to FUCKING DRAW-)

gay's get wilbur'd/j

they lookin for ghosts

the whole fmaily is here but its quality is shit

these bitches dead! good for them,,, good for them,,,,,,/j/rp

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mrs-nate-humphrey · 3 years

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ok so we have seen over and over again people's assumptions about how gg main characters's instagrams would look like but how do you think their secret tumblr blogs would be? 👀

hmm! i just went over tumblr in general, because i don’t think all of them would have ‘secret’ tumblrs per say? everyone’s thing under the cut, cause it got SO long. i did not mention chuck because i don’t rlly see chuck as having a tumblr in any universe tbh - i feel like he would think it takes away from his businessy vibe or something.

dan's main would be something with a ts eliot url, like, a snippet from one of his poems, or it would be a whitman url, a snippet from a poem again (i see him with a whitman url of some kind & maybe his blog title is an eliot reference.) dan would 100% have the whole dark academia thing going in some ways, i think his blog would be organised as a grid, and he would reblog pictures of libraries, museums, occasionally of art, and also, quotes. so many quotes. so much literature. if you've been on tumblr long enough you know exactly the kind of blog i'm talking about.

dan's tumblr sideblog, on the contrary, would have nothing to link it to him. it'd probably be the tumblr default theme, pastel colours or something... i feel like dan is the specific genre of trans kid who uses a different set of pronouns online for anonymity purposes and then goes "wait a minute i like these pronouns BETTER". his url would be something extremely mundane and random like coffeeaddict779 or something, and it would be all #vent and #dont reblog. nobody who's following his sideblog knows what his main is, and vice versa.

serena would i think have one of those "be kind, do no harm :)" kind of hipster tumblr blogs, except she's incredibly sincere. she wouldn't have a sideblog, i don't think? and i don't think she'd attach her name to it in any way, probably just pronouns in bio and maybe a 'call me S'. she and dan would be mutuals on dan's main! her blog will be very, uh. aesthetic pictures, reblogs of dolphin videos and music and WIP art videos and anything else that'll catch her eye. she'll tag blair in fashion vids, nate in sailing posts, dan in literary stuff, and vanessa in film related/photography related things. she's having fun! every now and then she'll post a vent post but it's extremely vague and it's either something everyone who knows her irl already knows about her ('i hate my mom so much') or something that says practically nothing ('i am so worried about my brother and wish i could do more to help him.')

jenny's fashion inspo blog!!!! what more do you want me to say. she'd make it big in the fashion community and get anons all the time and she'd probably also have an etsy where she sells things she's sewn and made. everyone sort of knows she's an up and coming designer and she'd find a good community online hopefully!!! her blog would be something simple, with a url like jennydesigns or something (i bet that's taken rn, i havent checked) and her theme would be one of those themes that allows for u to have big images. she would probably post vents in the same way serena does, tag them #personal or #rambles, and have that neat code that allows for the tag to be filtered out whenever anyone views her page on desktop, you know?

i think eric would not have anything specific that he posts. he would just reblog random things - memes, things he finds interesting, jenny's original posts, stuff serena tags him in, cat videos, lgbtq+ positivity, etc. he'd try and stay out of drama (i think he'd turn anon off eventually.) he’d also post a lot of music reblogs or links, i feel?

vanessa's main blog would be one where she posts her own photos and films. because she's professional about it, it'd probably just be @ vanessaabrams. she'd have a sideblog specifically for reblogging other people’s work because she wants to support other artists, and it would be vanessareblogs or something like that, and her bio would mention “main tumblr @ vanessaabrams”. she’d be much adored in the photo/film community and just in general, because she’s one of the few people who hypes up other creators all the time and leaves nice comments in tags and all that. every now and then serena reblogs vanessa’s photography onto her blog and it almost always blows up, but vanessa doesn’t mind. i don’t think vanessa would have a vent blog or even a personal tag, she gives me big ‘i wanna keep my business totally off the net’ kind of vibes.

nate’s blog would be a lot like serena’s except, uh, more openly wanderlusty i think. a LOT of ocean reblogs. every now and then he reblogs keroauc quotes from dan which the girls find extremely hilarious. he talks a lot about sailing and gets a lot of sailing anons. he’d reblog a lot of positivity (mostly because he knows his friends are following him and he wants to brighten up their dash.) dan and vanessa jokingly dm him weed aesthetic posts all the time, but every time they do he reblogs and tags it ‘sent to me’ or somehting like that, and they cant decide whether to be flattered or embarrased. i think nate would also attract a lot of anons who ask for advice and it is something he never expected people coming to him for, but he definitely listens and shares whatever he’s got to say all the same. he’s this blog who should be weirdly niche but everyone sort of knows him and likes him.

saving the best for the last, lol. i have SO many thoughts about blair’s tumblrs.

i think she’d have a main tumblr that’s solely for classic film stuff (audrey! and more) and that’d be @ blairwaldorf, because, well, duh. i think she’d pay for a tumblr theme and get one of those really fancy and cute ones, like a floralcodes ms paint theme. i think she’d also have a sideblog that’s less serious, where she’d reblog things from tv shows, reblog things serena or nate have tagged her in, write her own meta for fandoms she’s in, just generally be a multifandom mess with a #personal tag but nothing too personal. it would still be classy, because she’s blair, but on this blog, she’s just a girl having fun.

and then she’d have a THIRD blog, a sideblog that doubles up as a vent blog. and this one isn’t linked to her other two in an obvious way, nobody knows it’s her, etc. on here she’d probably post a lot about her ed (but i think in a ‘i am struggling and i want to bitch’ way, not in a thinspo way - that’s a whole conversation i have no spoons for, so let’s not go there), she’d post about her insecurities and worries but it would be extremely untraceable. she’d have a fancy theme on this one too, despite it being a vent blog.

hm. now im thinking of the potential of like. dan and blair interacting super frequently on their vent blogs and neither of them knowing it’s the other person!

#meta #this was fun! thanks for the ask #i was initally gonna edit graphics #who knows i still may #but i realised that would take WAYYY too long #so have my words instead #anon #tumblr au #so i can find later if i need it

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OK SO !! my friend, logan (soybean-foster) wrote keefex angst and asked me to post it here ! full credit to him, hes amazing, and this h u r ts !!

tw : the ability circlet, the council bein shit as always

Keefe’s terrified, you know.

He asked for this himself, he asked for an ability restrictor like Sophie’s, didn’t he?

So why does he feel so terrified of the circlet in Councillor Alina’s hands?

The councillors apparently had a separate Technopath, someone who wasn’t Dex but kept a mystery identity, because this is /not/ one of Dex’s projects - Keefe can tell simply by looking at it.

It’s a coppery shade, the circlet, and he knows that Dex hates and has a weird vendetta against copper. Something about he hates how it looks. He’ll use anything else he can get his hands on, no matter whether he’s been told to use the specific metal or not.

He /also/ wouldn’t embellish a project with pointless decorations, because “that takes time that we don’t have”.

And the final thing? Dex was obviously asked to stand in to make sure nothing went wrong, and although claiming it’s his circlet, he won’t look at it with anything other than a withering glare.Councillor Alina gives Keefe a sickeningly sweet smile. “This’ll be over in a minute, I assure you. Dexter?”

Dex gives her a careful glance before taking the restrictor, turning it around to examine it and perhaps giving another clue that it’s not his project.

He steps in front of where Keefe’s sitting on one of the Healing Center cots. “Now, Mr. Sencen, I’m sure you’re aware that our clasp can only be opened by our Technopath. It’s a unique design, preventing any of your... /friends/,” Alina sneers, “from opening it.”

“Yeah.”

He’s been determined to not give more than one word answers until he’s finally wearing the circlet, until he knows he can’t hurt anyone with his abilities anymore.

Alina smiles again. “Good. Dexter, if you would do the honours?”Dex swallows, turning back to face Keefe and letting his hands drop slightly. “I have no idea what this is going to do, Keefe,” he whispers. “I don’t know if it’s going to hurt you or if it’s going to permanently damage your abilities or anything like that, they wouldn’t let me see it before now.”

“I know.”

“Come on, you can still refuse! Say you don’t want it, this was your original choice and they can’t force you to do anythi-“

“Actually, we can. So you’d best hurry up, we haven’t got all day.”

Dex ignores her. “Keefe, you-“

“I’ll be okay. I promise,” he mumbles, the longest thing he’s said so far today.Dex sighs, gently brushing Keefe’s hair back from his forehead and pausing before he closes the circlet clasp.

“Are you sure? I can’t do anything else for you after this.”

“I’m sure.”

A metallic /clack/ echoes through the room, and Dex steps away, his hand moving to fiddle with the bracelet on his wrist - the one that Keefe had given him. Alina claps her hands, walking forwards. “Alright then! We simply need to press this lovely jewel here, and...”

As soon as her finger touches it, Keefe’s whole world seems to set itself alight with a brand new strength and kind of /pain/.As in, the world literally set itself alight - there’s fire, metaphorical fire, covering every inch of his body and making his eyes burn with tears that he tries to hold, tears that only succeed in trailing white-hot streaks down his cheeks.

And it’s simultaneously underwater - he can’t see or hear or feel or breathe or do /anything/ he should be able to do.

He bites his lip hard to stop himself crying or shouting out - he’ll stay here if it kills him, it’ll eventually go away.

He deserves this. He deserves the pain that soaks him, he deserves everything he feels because it’s his fault in the first place. He shouldn’t still be in the Lost Cities, but he is and he should’ve left - he did leave, and he can’t remember why he even came back.Why did he..?

Oh. Dex.

Dex should be here. Is Dex still there? Keefe can’t tell, he barely remembers if Dex was actually there in the first place, it might as easily have been a hallucination.

Someone touches his arm and the contact burns brighter. A scream rips from his throat before he can stop it and he lets go of the frozen way he’s been sitting, kicking out at whoever it was that’s standing in front of him.

He doesn’t know who, he only knows that they’re shouting something at him and he’s shouting out for Dex, because /where did he go/?! He should be here, he should’ve been somewhere in the room but he’s not answering.

Maybe he left.

Oh, God, maybe he /left/.Maybe he’s stopped denying it - maybe he’s seen that Keefe’s always been the one in the wrong and maybe he’s seen that Keefe is right, that he doesn’t deserve anyone’s love, much less someone like Dex’s.

He screams again as this time someone pins his knees down, sending fresh pain over his legs, and shouts something that he can’t hear. He’s not strong enough to push them off.

What’s his first instinct while in extreme pain, pinned by someone and unable to move?

He thinks they’ve come to kill him.

That would’ve been really welcome at that moment, if it weren’t for his firm belief that he deserved to suffer for as long as possible.

He reached to hit at them blindly and they catch both his wrists in one hand, twisting his arm in the process and only earning another agonised shriek.The static buzzing gets louder and the fire glows ever brighter and then...

There’s silence.

Well, relative silence. He stills as the world comes crashing back into focus, leaving him with only the sound of heavy breathing and otherwise darkness. He glances up, finding Dex standing next to him with lightly flushed cheeks, wide eyes, and...

A copper circlet in his hands.

“Oh, thank the stars,” Dex whispers, setting the restrictor aside and sinking down next to him on the mattress.

The world spins and Keefe’s lost the energy to keep himself upright anymore - his head falls against Dex’s shoulder, and he’s quickly pulled into an embrace that he physically can’t return.

“/Fuck/...” Dex whispers, running a hand through Keefe’s hair. “I’ve got you. I’ve got you.”Keefe chokes a sob and attempts to grab the back of Dex’s cape, his hands shaking and too weak to keep his grip.

“Hurt...” he mumbles. Dex’s arms tighten around him.

“I know. It’s stopped now, hasn’t it?”

“Yeah.”

Dex throws every Councillor in the room a glare, and oh, if looks could kill! “Why the /hell/ did you think that was a good idea?! You could have seriously hurt him - I can’t even count on two hands how many issues you have with that... /thing/!” he spits, pointing at the circlet glinting in the afternoon sunlight. “There’s so much faulty tech, it’s ridiculous! Whoever built that was not anything close to a Technopath.”

Alina folds her arms. “Dexter, as I’m sure you’re aware, you’ve interfered with a /Council/ matter.”

“I don’t care, to be honest.”Alina blinks as, presumably for effect, Dex leans over to snap the circlet and tear part of the wiring inside.

“I’ll make you another one, I’ll make you as many ability restrictors as you like - I’ll make ones that /don’t hurt people/.”

Alina scowls at him before turning sharply on her heel. “Fine! Zarina, would you tell our lovely Technopath that his invention was ruined, please?”

Zarina nods, following the Councillors as they file out of the room. Bronte and Oralie glance apologetically back to the boys before letting the door click shut.

Keefe takes a shuddering breath and Dex leans back to look at him.

“You’re okay, aren’t you? You’re not hurt?”

“No...”

He frowns. “No, you’re not okay, or no you’re not hurt?”

“No, I’m not hurt. I’m okay.”

“Good,” he says, kissing the crown of Keefe’s head. “I’m so sorry, I didn’t... I didn’t think it was going to do that, there wasn’t anything obvious in the tech that should’ve caused that amount of pain...”

“Maybe it’s my mom’s freaky experiments again. Maybe you can’t restrict my abilities.”

“If you want me to, I’ll find a way that won’t hurt you. I promise.”

Keefe sighs, relaxing slightly as Dex runs a hand down his back. “Yeah. Please.”

#logan #kotlc #fanfic #keefex #angst #keefex angst #yall read this this is amazing

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yomiurinikei · 3 years

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i haven't posted hcs on here in forever (no inspo for rqs + seasonal depression) and talentswaps seem to be having a revival so. :) from my thh/dra talentswap! (old followers may remember it, it was probably 2019)

~*~ Idol! Tsurugi!

•Much less aware of corruption and stuff in the world, he has a more optimistic take on things

•however, his ruthlessness has still been ingrained into him by his father here- he has a tendency of hearing someone singing to themselves and just going

•"hm! that's out of your range, and you're kinda pitchy. 5/10 (๑･̑◡･̑๑)" because. ahaha maybe singing isn't cut out for u! he can tell based off of the way u sing with a sore throat /s

• someone (probably heir!haru because this was a tsuhiko au) sits him down to try and explain that you can't do that

•"but it is just constructive criticism! i'm helping :)" -tsu, right before getting smacked

•he rlly likes things like milkshakes, coffee that's been hella sweetened with cream, etc,,, which sucks because dairy is one of the big "don't haves" before singing

•oh he also rlly likes spicy food? heirhiko goes "hey babe look at this new friend i'm trying do u want some?" and idolrugi cries because it's like. cheese + jalapeño/habanero pepper and it looks good but he knows it'll fuck him over to have

•!!! mr rugi is vv flexible because his dad was. strict on him becoming the best of the best with everything

•one time heirhiko went in for a kiss, and tsurugi, who wanted to see his reaction, re-enacted that one video of a girl just. sliding into the splits to avoid kissing a guy

•heirhiko is distressed and asks if he did smthn wrong and tsu just laughs and shows him the video then gives him kis!

•if any song he knows choreo to comes on, he'll probably go through the motions a bit - moving his hands/shifting his feet in the direction he'd be moving

•depending on how comfortable he is with the people he knows, he may start lip syncing/actually moving in his seat

•his class has a game called "play songs tsurugi has sang and see what he'll sing along to subconsciously/songs he knows the choreo for and see how much he moves"

•they have to be careful tho because if anyone gives the slightest snicker, he'll realize what's happening and freeze up + may get angy

•has 100 spotify playlists organized on like. how his voice is at the moment

•so if his throat is fucked? things like sweet hibiscus tea (by penelope scott) because even if it's more raspy, it sounds nice, and it's not stressful range wise!

•can you tell that's the song i sing when my throat is fucked- anyways! he uploaded a short video of him singing some of candystore from heathers by himself and his fans lost it

•omg i wanna write ts!tsuhiko so bad now- growing up he was totally a paegent kid, and judges always rolled their eyes when he was another kid who's talent was "song and dance"

•however. after he performed? he was always at least a shoe-in for first, if not guaranteed winner

•someone has a "haha funny joke imma send tsurugi some gross fanfic to react to" but just gets hell from class 79 for it (tsurugi is the one from their class most likely to have to deal with this kinda shit)

•he's always been a fan of old detective/police shows for. some reason (;D) so he uses his slight bits of free time to watch those

•he generally tries to stay more reserved (think tsurugi pre-deadly life 1 personality) but if a recording of him singing comes on? he loses it, and if he's in a situation where he can, he'll ask if everyone would like to hear him sing along-

•in a similar vein, his design i had was based off of my idea for his workout/practice outfit? so during killing game (if this is despairverse) his classmates will ask him to do leedle performances for them

•so he'll do a song + its choreo, usually doing ~5+ per day, that number increasing as people get more comfortable around him/need cheering up

#dra #sdra2 #tsurugi kinjo #haruhiko kobashikawa #tsuhiko #dra/thh swap #was that my tag for it?#dra/thh talentswap #headcanons #idolrugi #idol tsurugi #heirhiko #heir haruhiko #ill boost this tomorrow morning

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Harry Styles Sparked a DIY Trend With a JW Anderson Sweater

TikTok exploded this year as we spent more time at home, glued to our iPhones. (In case you missed it, Vogue also launched its own TikTok, and the #MakeItVogue hashtag has 2.2 billion views so far.) When Harry Styles, arguably the most influential person of 2020, wore a loopy patchwork cardigan by JW Anderson during a rehearsal, crochet enthusiasts jumped at the chance to make their own. The #HarryStylesCardigan hashtag has 40.8 million views on the social media platform—but what makes the story extra sweet is that Anderson encouraged it by sharing the cardigan’s pattern on his website. “I quite like that we designed something that has taken on a new type of meaning, a new life,” he said. “And I think that’s important for fashion today; to be about inclusion, not exclusion.”

Harry Styles Became the First Man to Appear on Vogue Solo—and His Look Sparked a “Controversy”

We knew Harry Styles’s Vogue cover would start a conversation on the internet. We just didn’t think it would be quite so… “controversial.” In a shoot photographed by Tyler Mitchell and styled by Camilla Nickerson, Styles wears a ruffled Gucci gown, a carabiner-linked skirt by Chopova Lowena, and a hoop skirt by Harris Reed, among other looks. “There’s so much joy to be had in playing with clothes,” he told Vogue’s Hamish Bowles. “I’ve never thought too much about what it means—it just becomes this extended part of creating something.” What’s gender got to do with it? Disappointingly, the internet had different ideas, the loudest voice being Candace Owens’s. In one tweet, she called the “feminization” of men allegedly suggested by the story “an outright attack,” ending with a comically outdated statement: “Bring back manly men.” Weeks later, Styles clapped back by posting a photo of himself eating a banana in a powder blue suit and ruffly blouse, adding an identical caption: “Bring back manly men.” We have a feeling his 34.7 million followers agree it’s time to tear down the oppressive gender binary for good.

- Harry’s JW Anderson cardigan and his Vogue cover dress have been named in Vogue’s 29 Moments We’ll Remember Most From 2020 list. (29 December 2020)

#harry styles #harry update #vogue #article #hldaily #december 2020

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goingsunnies-moved · 3 years

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hi! can you do a post with all your favorite outfits of the strawhats + maybe a few other characters like Law, etc :D

ooh, this is such an interesting ask!!

-starting with luffy, i'm going to go pretty basic with his current onigashima raid look, tbh! it's the classic outfit which i really do think 'suits' (haha) luffy really well, but with the small twist of the captain's coat, which in my opinion really symbolizes just how much he's grown into being the strawhat's leader!! (and also looks,, really cool)

-for zoro, (can i go with the best pirates disguise? no?) i just think his skypiea fit is Real Neat. i mean, that little blue tank and the matching goggles? HIMBO SUPREME

-now, nami is a hard one because she's just such a fashion icon ALL THE TIME. i'm gonna have to go with the red cocktail dress from late wci!! it's classy, simple, and gorgeous. consider my wlw ass dead

-usopp! i'd have to say his fit from thriller bark. fits the vibe of the arc perfectly, and that hat is just,,, An Inspired Choice

-okay, sanji is another one who has a lot of really good options to pick from (and a lot of really bad ones, but that's for another day). i think my fav would be his sea train / enies lobby suit! once again like nami, this one is simple and classy. it's quintessential sanji. i also really love his early wci or onigashima raid outfits, though!

-chopper, my son!! i think that would be his very first little ensemble - love the old red hat and i think this one is just a little nostalgic and really cute :)

-robin, too, is a difficult one! maybe a little less so post-ts but all of her outfits are just so Good. i'd have to go with a tie between her very first look back in alabasta (aka the HIGHLY iconic purple cowgirl and white coat), and her edgier enies lobby fit (because she looks gorgeous in it and i'm bisexual,,,,,)

-hmmm. for franky, it's a little hard to decide because i really do love his original hawaiin shirt look (it's just... so classically franky) but in the end, i think i have to hand it to his design later on in dressrosa. damn if that canoneer hairstyle and tuxedo doesn't make him look badass

-brook! haha, gonna have to go with his initial introduction attire. it's just such a nice addition to his character dynamic as a whole, really exemplifying the whole 'estranged eighteenth century aristocrat' aspect of his nature

-okay for jimbei, i think it's an easy win with his onigashima raid look. what can i say, i'm a big fan of the cape :)

-and finally, law: his outfit from dressrosa!! i mean first of all, it just plain looks cool, and that sort of cape part of his coat is really good for the typical law dramatics. second of all though, the tributes to rosinante are just a really nice touch when it comes to detangling the emotional mess that is his relationship with the donquixote family, especially how he left the coat open to show off the corazon tattoo on his chest! he may have effectively planned a death mission, but at least he can declare his profound gratitude for rosinante's actions as he dies..?

this post is getting pretty long so i won't go on but i honestly loved this ask! character designs themselves aside, you have to admit oda's pretty good at creating all the outfits :)

#one piece #strawhat pirates #monkey d. luffy #roronoa zoro #nami #usopp #vinsmoke sanji #tony tony chopper #nico robin #franky #brook #jimbei #trafalgar d. water law #mugiwara kaizoku #wow that is a lOt of character tags #anyways thank for sending in the ask! have a nice day <3 #asks #mn

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hi ngoc! how do you make your wonderful gifs? i wanna learn from my favorite gif blog owo

hi hi! sorry this is late but thank you so much ;-; idk how you want me to answer this but i’ll try to make this detailed as possible and try to explain what my thought process is!

programs/sites that i use:

photoshop cc 2020: i have a mac and this is how i dl’ed ps. this is essential and you can make gifs with just ps but i use other programs it easier for me and to make the process faster

vapoursynth: this is what i use to cut, resize, denoise, and sharpen. i rely on vps heavily

4k video downloader: used to dl youtube videos (i use the free version

twitter video download: to dl twitter videos

naver vlive: to dl vlives

kpop24hrs, 4sashi, twitter and more for .ts files

process:

i’m going to assume you know how to make gifs? so i will just explain what it is that i do, if not, follow this tutorial if you are a beginner :D

i find the video that i want then dl it before finding the timestamp that i want and entering that into vps; these are my usual settings

i prefer my gifs to have a nice balance of sharpness and smoothness. i dont like oversharpened or overly smooth gifs where lines aren’t defined so my finesharp is always half the amount of my knlm filter. this is for regular high definition youtube videos tho! for performance gifs, i use a different setting

as you can see the knlm filter is much higher and this is bc most performance stages are filled with so many colors and that’s a nightmare for ps and denoising it much further will help the quality of your gifs. another thing is the addition of the first line which is used for .ts files which are interlaced

although i said these are my usual settings, every video is different with lighting and quality so i always play it by ear. i tweak my settings to what fits the video best

next step is to run it through the vps editor and import it into ps

as soon as i have it in ps, i change the frame delay either from 0.03 to 0.04 or from 0.4 to 0.5. for performance gifs, i go from 0.02 to 0.3 most of the time

it’s up to your preference but i think 0.3 is too fast. more often than not, i just increase the frame delay by 0.01 and it makes it look so much better! timing also plays a huge part in improving your gif quality

next thing is to color! everyone’s coloring is different and catered to their own preferences but for me, i prefer warm tones with magentas, reds, and yellows. i also add a lot more contrast (this makes your gif much more hd), darken the lighting, and make it more vibrant

i won’t go into detail about how i color (then this would be too long) but i can definitely make another post about coloring if you would like!) i think we can both agree the second gif looks a LOT better

these are the layers i use every single time; you can say this is my base psd but i dont save psds because i use the same layers but with different settings each time. i prefer to color every set than have a designated psd bc every video is different and psds usually work for one video only

last but not least, time to export the gif. export settings can also help improve the quality of your gifs. when i first started, i researched a lot on what export settings were the best. i have tried pattern before but im not a big fan of it. i use selective + diffusion. if you want more info on export settings, i suggest this post (this is what i used when i started)

after all that is done, upload to tumblr dot com and hope for the best

i hope this helped you out in some way 💖

#asks #anon #ps help

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sanderssidesfanfiction · 4 years

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Road To Recovery

A/N: Hey hey, here it is! Another year has come and gone, and @ts-storytime says it’s my posting date! Hope you all enjoy!

Warnings: Religious extremism/religious imagery, conservative political views, exorcisms, arguing, PTSD/trauma, homophobia, blood/violence, major character death, ableism, unsympathetic Patton, potential unsympathetic Roman (with redemption), sympathetic Deceit, sympathetic Remus, child abuse

Ethan sat at the table quietly. Eerily still. Observing the puzzle on it but not daring to touch the pieces. No one had told him it was okay, so he wasn’t going to touch it. He didn’t want to get in trouble ever again. Last time he got in trouble...well. There was a reason he never planned on being honest to anyone besides maybe his brothers ever again. And that was a strong maybe.

His hands jerked suddenly and his eyes squeezed shut tightly as his mind involuntarily went back to that day. The screams, the crying, the red hot blood and the ice cold fury. The—

Ethan shook his head, forced those thoughts out of his mind. No. Those were bad thoughts. God didn’t like bad thoughts, God punished bad thoughts, and he didn’t want to end up in Hell. He didn’t want to be...be with him ever again.

Above him, Remus and Roman were arguing with each other again and tears sprang to Ethan’s eyes. Sure, the twins had argued before, but never this much, never this vehemently, never with this much cruelty in their words. A lot had changed on That Day.

He stood suddenly, causing the boys to stop their arguing. Ethan made eye contact with the therapist who had been writing things down and asked, “May I please go to the bathroom?”

“Yeah, it’s just down the hall,” the therapist said, pointing with his pencil to the door.

Ethan murmured a quiet, “Thank you,” and left the room as fast as he could without running. Once no one could see him, he ran all the way to the bathroom and puked into the toilet. He started reciting his prayers as he shuddered on the tile, forcing the bad thoughts out of his mind the best he could. “Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy name...”

He muttered his prayers three times, one for each of the Trinity, before he stood and flushed, washing his hands and unlocking the bathroom door to find the therapist on the other side. “Oh, sorry, was I gone long?” Ethan asked, each word stabbing him like knives in the throat.

“No, Ethan, you weren’t, but I thought I heard retching,” the therapist said. “Are you feeling well?”

“Fine,” Ethan lied.

The therapist’s face formed a worried frown but Ethan kept that fake smile on his face. “Ethan, I know you’re lying. I just need to know if it’s a stomach bug or something else that made you sick, because I don’t want any of the sick kids to get what you have.”

“I’m fine, Doctor Picani,” Ethan said. “Just a bad memory. It’s gone now.”

Doctor Picani sighed. “And I don’t suppose you’d be willing to tell me what that bad memory was?”

“No, sir. It’s the Devil’s thoughts. And I don’t want to give the Devil any more power than he already has,” Ethan said simply.

Doctor Picani sighed again. “All right. Well, your brothers are with your foster dads, about ready to go home. You ought to join them.”

Ethan nodded and walked out of the office, forcing himself to keep that smile on his face even as his facial muscles grew strained. He had kept his coat on, so he didn’t have to worry about fumbling with it as they left the office. He followed Logan and Virgil out, just a step in front of Roman and Remus, who were resolutely not talking to each other. Virgil and Logan tried to lift the mood by talking about what they might do that night, but Ethan just nodded, politely adding a, “That’s nice,” or “Sounds fun,” where appropriate. Roman just stared at the ground, and Remus’ arms were shaking as he kept them crossed, fingers digging into the fabric of his jacket.

As they got into the car and drove to Virgil and Logan’s house, Ethan watched out the window. He tried not to visibly wiggle. After all, Dad said that all it would ever do was make others laugh at him, and he didn’t want to be laughed at. But he couldn’t deny how nice it was to zone out and watch the scenery fly by. No bad thoughts in his head. No listening to the incessant arguing around him. Just him and the zooming colors as they went down the road.

When they got home, before the boys could head to their rooms, Logan cleared his throat. “Boys, I think we need to have a family meeting, if that’s all right? Can we meet in the living room in five minutes?”

Ethan’s blood turned to ice, but he nodded and his brothers did the same. Ethan went to the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water, before walking into the living room and sitting in the bean bag chair that had been designated “his” by Roman. After all, Roman was the good child, and what he said, went. The chair was comfortable enough, so Ethan never complained.

Roman came in and sat on one end of the couch, while Remus sat on the other. Virgil sat down on the brick in front of the fireplace, and Logan leaned against the wall. “Boys, you’ve been going to therapy for a month now, and the Doctor says you’ve been hardly making any progress. Do you not like Doctor Picani?”

“Doctor Picani’s fine,” Roman said. “But Remus is always lying about what Dad did to him and Ethan, and I have to tell him that he’s wrong, but he never admits it!”

Remus turned red in half an instant. “Dad never let you see what he did to me and Ethan! You can’t say it never happened when you were never there!” Remus spat back.

Ethan watched the argument silently. It was the same argument they always had at Doctor Picani’s. Remus would try to open up, just a little. Talk about how Dad was always going on about fire and brimstone, or saying that demons had possessed Ethan and Remus, or how Ethan and Remus were defective. And since Roman was never there to see it, he claimed it had never happened, and that Remus was just trying to get Dad in trouble. But did that even matter? After all, none of them were ever going to see Dad again. Remus had already made sure of that.

Logan and Virgil let the boys argue for a minute before Logan cleared his throat. “Enough,” he said. “Roman, Remus is right. You weren’t there when your father did what he did to Remus and Ethan. They deserve a chance to speak without fear of being told they’re wrong, or that what they went through wasn’t that bad.”

“But he’s lying!” Roman insisted. “Dad would never do those things, not without a good reason!”

“He thought we were possessed! That was reason enough for him!” Remus spat. “You don’t know how many ‘exorcisms’ he performed on me and Ethan! How many times he smacked us with that damned crucifix when we did something he didn’t want! You were the ‘good’ child, you never got to see his bad side! You never saw what he did!” Remus started to cry. “You never heard my screams! How I begged for help, to be let go, that I couldn’t help the bad thoughts in my head!”

Ethan swallowed and closed his eyes to focus on his breathing. He was getting bad memories, but he had to keep them out. Only if he kept them out would he be able to go to Heaven, and he so desperately wanted to go. Because then he would never have to see Dad again.

“You never heard me calling your name! Begging for you to come downstairs! You never saw Ethan silently crying because Dad did that to him, too!” Remus exclaimed.

Breathe in. Breathe out. It was okay. He was okay. He wasn’t going to be hurt. No one here was going to hurt him.

“Is this true, Ethan?!” Roman spat. “Is Remus telling the truth?!”

“Hey, Roman, don’t yell at Ethan, please,” Logan said softly.

Ethan blinked. “Dad did exorcisms all the time,” he said. “He said that the demons had taken deep root and that we needed to be healed if we ever wanted a chance at going to Heaven. He said it was out of a place of love.”

“Ha! Out of a place of love, see?!” Roman exclaimed.

“But. That’s not what it was,” Ethan continued softly.

Roman’s ire turned towards Ethan, but he kept talking. “He hit us. He burned incense that hurt my head and made me cry. Once he nearly set the house on fire and he burned Remus. He burned me.”

“Well then you must have done something to deserve it! Because the Dad I know would never do something like that without very good reason!” Roman declared.

Ethan’s chest seized up. His breath stopped, dying in his throat, along with all his words. Logan and Virgil were both talking to Roman, Virgil with an angry scowl and Logan with a disapproving look, but Roman was steadfast in his opinion. And why wouldn’t he be? He was right. Ethan and Remus had deserved everything they had gone through, hadn’t they? They were the ones who had let the demons inside. Ethan still struggled to talk and to look people in the eyes. He still fumbled with basic things that Remus and Roman could do when they were barely four, and Ethan was almost six. He still had those demons inside him, no matter what he tried.

Remus tapped Ethan’s shoulder and said, “Hey, Roman’s wrong, Ethan. Doctor Picani said so. We didn’t deserve what Dad put us through.”

But Doctor Picani wasn’t a pastor. Dad was a pastor, and he knew best when it came to the soul. Clearly, Dad must have known something that Doctor Picani didn’t. Ethan’s eyes welled up with tears and he vehemently shook his head.

“We didn’t,” Remus insisted softly. “You know that, I know you do. I know it’s hard, but you didn’t deserve it, and neither did I. You don’t have to force yourself to talk. You don’t have to force yourself to sit still. You don’t have to hold back tears and frustration and emotions that you feel strongly about. We’re never going back to Dad, Ethan, you’re safe to be yourself.”

Ethan just shook his head, but even as Logan and Roman continued to argue, Virgil was watching Remus and Ethan closely. “Remus, what do you mean by that?” Virgil asked.

The room went quiet. Roman was silently fuming and Logan had turned his attention to Remus, while Virgil was looking Ethan over.

“Ethan is different,” Remus said. “I don’t know what the actual word for it is, but Roman always called him a moron because that’s what Dad called him. But Ethan wouldn’t talk at Dad’s. He would use sign language. And Dad never understood it, so he never got anything like food or water unless he could get it himself or Dad wasn’t around so I could get it for him. And he’d like...rock sometimes when he’d sit. Like, it wasn’t when he was upset, not usually. Usually he was just bored so he’d swing his feet and rock from side to side with a little smile if Dad wasn’t around. And he’d emote a lot more. Like, if he was upset he’d cry, if he was happy he would smile. And now he just...doesn’t do any of that. He forces himself to talk, and to sit still, and to not show any emotion. He wants to be good. He wants you two to like him. So he’s forcing himself to be someone he’s not. But it’s hurting him. You’ve seen how tired he is all the time. You’ve seen how he has to force the words out of his throat when that exhaustion gets to be too much. That’s what happens when he forces himself to act ‘normal.’ But it hurts him.”

By this time Virgil and Logan were both looking Ethan over. Ethan tried to meet their gaze, tried to force that polite smile on his face, but he knew he was close to crying. To breaking down. To being forced into his room, because he was a bad child, and they were going to send him somewhere else. They just needed him exhausted and quiet first.

“Ethan, we’ve told you from day one that you don’t have to pretend to be anything you’re not in this house, right?” Virgil asked.

“Yes, sir,” Ethan replied.

Logan, to Ethan’s surprise, signed his response. “Then why do you pretend?”

Ethan swallowed. Forced that smile to stay. “I...I don’t know what you mean, sir. I’m just trying to listen to what Dad wanted from me. I’m just trying to be a good kid.”

“You’re a good kid when you’re yourself, Ethan,” Remus said. “Dad was wrong. You’re not bad when you’re acting like yourself.”

Ethan could feel the tears building, but he still forced himself to smile. “I’m proving I’m not a moron,” Ethan said. “I’m just trying to be good.”

It was Roman’s words that broke the dam. “No matter what, you’ll always be a moron, Ethan. You’ll always be the defective kid that Dad hated.”

Ethan’s carefully placed ruse shattered. His smile vanished and he brought his hands to his chest in what Remus had called the “raptor pose” and he made a high whine in the back of his throat. The tears started falling, and Ethan wailed. “Roman!” Logan snapped. “That’s not okay!”

“It’s true!” Roman snapped back.

“Go to your room, Roman. Now,” Virgil said, leaving no room for argument.

Roman stormed out of the room in a huff and slammed the door to his room upstairs. Ethan continued to wail. He was trying to be good, couldn’t Roman see that? He was trying! He wanted to go to Heaven, not Hell! He didn’t want to see Dad ever, ever again and he knew that Dad was going to Hell. He was doing his absolute best to follow the rules, so God could be happy with him, and he could maybe, just maybe, be redeemed.

Ethan threw his hands around, angrily flapping them as hard as he could. Stupid Roman! Roman was going to make sure that Ethan went to Hell, and Ethan was going to be heartbroken for eternity because of it. He continued to cry. To his mild surprise, no one was telling him to shut up, no one was doing anything. Virgil had given Remus something to work on so that other than the occasional glance, Remus left Ethan alone. Virgil had left the room. Logan just sat down next to Ethan, patiently waiting until Ethan ran out of tears, before he spoke. “Ethan, you’re not a moron,” Logan said. “And you’re most certainly not defective.”

Ethan took a deep breath, tried to speak, but the words wouldn’t come, no matter how much he tried to force them. With great reluctance, he started to sign. “How do you know?” he asked.

“Because you’re, from what I’ve seen, quite clearly autistic,” Logan said. “And I’m autistic too. Would you call me defective?”

Ethan vehemently shook his head. Logan looked like he had everything together.

“Then neither are you. Being autistic doesn’t mean you’re defective. It means your brain is wired a little bit differently. But that’s not a bad thing.”

“Does that mean...I’m not going to Hell if I don’t talk?” Ethan asked.

Logan nodded. “I firmly believe that if there is a god, They would not send someone to Hell for something They designed that person to be.”

Ethan cried again, but this time, it was tears of relief. “I don’t want to talk,” Ethan signed. “It hurts me. I prefer to sign.”

“That’s fine,” Logan said. “One of the reasons we picked Doctor Picani was because he knows sign language. He can talk to you in your preferred language, if you want, and you don’t have to worry about anyone here forcing you to talk. If Roman tries, we will tell him why that is very much not okay, and you’ll be free to communicate however you prefer.”

“Thank you,” Ethan signed, the last of his tears falling.

“Of course,” Logan said. “It’s only fair that we let you communicate how you think is best. It’s not fair to force you to talk if it hurts you.”

Ethan stared at the floor as Virgil walked into the room, taking deep breaths. “Roman isn’t listening to me,” he said. “I think you need to talk to him, Logan. He’ll probably listen to you better, if only because you’re also autistic and Roman can see that way he’s clearly in the wrong.”

“All right. You can work with the boys on the biggest hurdle of their trauma, I know you wanted to go over it with them anyway,” Logan said, standing up. He kissed Virgil on the cheek. “If it gets to be overwhelming, come get me.”

“Of course,” Virgil said.

Ethan risked a glance at Virgil and was surprised to find him looking close to tears. “Do you boys know why we specifically took you in? Obviously, we’re foster parents, but do you know why we chose you?”

Remus shook his head, and Ethan shrugged.

Virgil took a deep breath. “The answer is because I used to be a part of your dad’s church. I used to attend with my parents, until I was old enough to move out on my own, and I never looked back. I knew Patton when he was just starting out as a pastor. I didn’t like his teachings. Matter of fact, I hated them. I hated them more than the other pastors. And they weren’t quiet about their homophobia, and ableism, and general prejudice, but Patton was painfully vocal about his views, to the point where even some of the conservative members were uncomfortable. I saw you three, and saw what happened, and I knew that you three would need a gentle touch. That no one had given you a gentle touch and it was high time someone did. So I talked with Logan, and we agreed to take you three in.

“Your dad was wrong, boys, in so many ways. Roman doesn’t understand because he hasn’t had to deal with the prejudice except for one time. But you boys dealt with it every day, didn’t you?” At twin nods from Ethan and Remus, Virgil continued, “That’s why Logan and I are here. We want to teach you that love is out there, and it should be freely given, not earned. We want you to feel comfortable to be yourself, so long as yourself isn’t hurting anyone. And yes, that includes Roman. He’ll take more time to come around, but I don’t doubt he will. It will take time, and therapy, but we’ll be here every step of the way for you boys. Understand?”

Ethan and Remus nodded again. Virgil smiled, but he looked tired. “Good. Now, do either of you want to help me with dinner?”

Remus shrugged. “I’d rather read,” he admitted softly.

“Okay, you can read,” Virgil said. “Ethan?”

“I’d like to help,” Ethan signed.

“Sounds perfect, come with me,” Virgil said.

Ethan followed him to the kitchen, and Virgil brought out the stepping stool that Ethan used to actually reach the counter. Ethan, without putting much thought into it, started signing to Virgil. “I like getting to help,” he explained. “Even if I have problems with the little movements, I like getting to measure and pour stuff.”

“I’m glad,” Virgil said. “But you should know that if you ever don’t want to help? That’s okay too. You’re free to do what you want in this house, so long as it doesn’t hurt yourself or others.”

Ethan started signing, before stopping. Virgil looked at him expectantly. “Something on your mind?” Virgil asked.

“Could I...” Ethan paused. “I want to grow my hair out. Not, like, as long as some of the girls at school, because their hair can be really long, but long enough that I can run my fingers through it and feel actual hair, not the spiky stuff the buzzcut I have feels like.”

“Okay,” Virgil said with a nod. “We can grow your hair out, that’s fine.”

Ethan was surprised. He grinned. “You really mean that?”

“I really mean that,” Virgil agreed.

Without thinking much about it, Ethan admitted, “The only reason I had my hair short before was because Dad always shaved it...”

~~~

Ethan shook his head as he stared at Dad in the bathroom, razor in hand.

“This isn’t up for debate, Ethan, we need to shave your hair. You’re going to get lice if you don’t keep it short, because you never wash your hair right. It’s time to shave it again,” Dad explained.

“I don’t want to,” Ethan signed, backing away.

Dad put the razor down and forcibly grabbed Ethan’s arm, dragging him into the bathroom. “Use your words, Ethan. If you need to wait five minutes then you need to say so. But no matter what, we’re shaving your head.”

Ethan didn’t whine, but he thrashed around, making it very clear to Dad that he didn’t want to do any of this. Dad growled and warned, “Demon, do you want to go through another round of exorcisms?”

That got Ethan to still. Dad grinned maliciously and got to work shaving Ethan’s head back down to the buzzcut that Ethan hated. When Dad was done, he unplugged the electric razor and locked it away in the medicine cabinet again. “I need to make dinner,” he said to no one in particular, leaving the room.

When Ethan was sure he was gone, he let out a little whimper, and poked at the hair that was sitting in the sink that hadn’t been washed down the drain. He felt at his head and winced. It was too spiky, and he knew he’d have a hard time sleeping tonight with his hair too short to flatten against the pillow.

Not for the first time, Ethan wished that he could be out of this house, away from this place. He knew it was wrong, but he hated the way he was treated here. He wanted to go someplace that he would be respected.

~~~

Remus bounded into the house excitedly, immediately running up to Ethan, who was working on summer homework for school. “Ethan!” Remus exclaimed. “Ethan, Ethan, guess what!”

Ethan arched an eyebrow as he looked at Remus.

“I was at the library looking at books with Logan, and there was this one! With a guy as an author! But in his picture, his hair was long! Like, long enough to put in a ponytail! Can you believe that?!” Remus asked. “I want my hair like that! And Logan said I could grow it out!”

Ethan blinked in shock. He hadn’t realized that guys might be able to have long hair. The closest he had ever seen was Virgil, and he had his hair just a little bit lower than his ears. He had never, ever seen a man with long hair, not for as long as he could remember. “Really?!” Ethan asked. “And you want your hair like that?”

“Yeah!” Remus exclaimed. “It’s gonna be so, so, so cool! And Logan said it was okay! And he won’t take us to the barber’s if we don’t wanna go! He said that’s true even if I weren’t growing out my hair, too! We don’t have to go anywhere we don’t want to! For any reason!”

“Anywhere?” Ethan asked skeptically. “Even school?”

Remus turned thoughtful. “I don’t know,” he eventually admitted. “That you might have to ask Logan and Virgil about. But if you don’t want to go to school, they can probably figure something out.”

“I like learning, I just don’t like school,” Ethan signed, wrinkling his nose. “You know what they used to call me in class.”

“Yeah, I do,” Remus said, smile dimming some. “Do you want to tell Logan and Virgil about that and see what they say?”

Ethan shrugged. Sure, it would be nice if he didn’t have to go to school in the fall, where it was loud, and bright, and unbearable. But what alternative did he have? They would probably just call him silly and have him go to school anyway, with extra work for punishment.

“Do you want to use me as the guinea pig? Say that I’m the one who doesn’t want to go to school?” Remus asked.

Ethan paled. “Remus!” he signed sharply. “I don’t want you getting in trouble for me. If I don’t want to go, that’s my problem, not yours.”

“Yeah, but if Logan and Virgil are gonna punish anyone, it shouldn’t be you,” Remus said, sitting in a chair next to Ethan. “You have every reason to hate school. They treat you weird at best and mean at worst. And I know you hate the lights and all the kids who shout just to watch you flinch. I know why you wouldn’t want to go back there when summer ends. We can ask them about school in general, if you think that would be better? Not saying anyone doesn’t want to go?”

“Or we could just find a homeschooling program you like,” Logan said from the entrance to the room.

Ethan and Remus’ heads snapped over to him, Remus in shock and Ethan in fear. “I’m sorry!” Ethan quickly signed.

“Why? You’re being honest,” Logan said. “I appreciate that you’re being honest. What about school specifically don’t you like? The lights, the kids, anything else?”

“The sounds are overwhelming,” Ethan signed hesitantly. “Because everything echoes. And when I look around, there’s so many bright colors. I know that’s just for the littler kids, but it still hurts my eyes. And I understand a lot of what the teacher says with a little time. But she goes over the same things every day for weeks and it’s boring.”

Logan nodded. “Okay, Virgil and I can work with that. We can look for homeschooling or tutoring programs to ensure you continue your studies in an environment that works for you.”

Ethan thought that he might cry when he heard that. “You would do that...for me?” he asked.

“Of course,” Logan said. “We want all of you boys to be comfortable. And if that means Remus grows his hair out, and you don’t go to public school, well, we signed up to raise you boys right, not to make you factory cut-outs. It’s all part of the job.”

Ethan covered his mouth with his hands, but he couldn’t hide the tears shining in his eyes. “Thank you,” he signed after taking a deep, steadying breath. “Thank you, thank you, thank you!”

“Of course, Ethan,” Logan said with a small smile. “We want to make sure that you’re comfortable. I’ll talk with Virgil and we can do research into homeschooling programs. We’ll make sure they’re not religious, too, so you don’t have to worry about accidentally being triggered. I know that organized religion makes you uncomfortable.”

Ethan was vaguely surprised that Logan had remembered that. He, Remus, and Roman had all been taken to church at first, in an attempt to have them feel normal. But Ethan had dissolved into panic attacks, and Remus had started sobbing the second the pastor came over after the service to greet them, and Roman was the only one who didn’t betray a single thought in his head after the service. And while Logan and Virgil knew the pastor personally, they made sure that he never said anything super religious in the house when he came over. Ethan hadn’t realized it might be for his and Remus’ comfort.

Remus looked shocked as well. “You remembered?” he asked.

“It was hard to forget,” Logan said wryly. “But all jokes aside, it’s something that hurts you. Of course I’m going to remember to avoid it.”

Ethan shakily smiled and Remus grinned after a second of hesitation. “I like you a lot, Logan,” he decided. “You and Virgil are cool.”

“I’ll let Virgil know, I’m sure he’ll appreciate it,” Logan said with a small, but genuine, smile on his face. “Do you mind if I go tell him now?”

Ethan shook his head and Logan left the room. He turned to Remus in shock. “This is crazy,” he signed. “This is completely crazy.”

“This is how life is supposed to be,” Remus said with certainty. “This is how parents are supposed to act. Dad was never acting like a dad.”

“You take that back!” Roman exclaimed from the doorway.

“Why should I? It’s true!” Remus shot back.

The twins started bickering and Ethan sighed, putting all his summer work in its designated folder and he walked away from the two arguing, up to his room to find a book to read. He couldn’t read as fast as some of the other kids, but that didn’t matter when he was just reading to himself.

He pulled out one of the story books he had gotten from Virgil, a shortening of The Nightmare Before Christmas that Ethan adored. He curled up in a corner and started reading.

After some time, Virgil walked in. “Hey Ethan, if you’re hiding from the twins, Logan has them calm. Roman’s started working on his summer work so he won’t be bothering anyone.”

Ethan nodded idly and turned back to the book.

“Logan said you didn’t like public school and that you might be interested in homeschooling. That true?”

Ethan nodded. “School is overwhelming and the kids are mean,” he signed. “I don’t want to go back.”

“That’s fair,” Virgil agreed, sitting next to Ethan. “I completely understand why you’d not want to go back.

Ethan offered Virgil a bittersweet smile and Virgil offered one back. “Your old man didn’t understand that, I take it?”

“He said I deserved all of it,” Ethan signed. “That every mean word they tossed my way would stop if I just behaved ‘normal.’”

“That’s not very fair of him,” Virgil said with a frown.

“It’s not,” Ethan agreed.

~~~

“I don’t care what you were doing, Ethan, if they were bugging you, it was your fault. I know you’ve always been a little strange, but you have to act normal at school, understand?”

Ethan nodded along to Dad’s lecture. It was hardly the first time he had heard it. He had heard it coming home a thousand times. But this was the first time he had to go home early over it. The first time he had stood up for himself and the other kids had retaliated with force. He knew that this was the calm before the storm. Dad wasn’t yelling because the people in other cars could see him. But he would pay when they got home. This would just cement Dad’s conviction that Ethan had the demons in him.

Sure enough, when they got home, Dad took Ethan to the chair he always sat in for exorcisms. Ethan mostly tuned him out as much as he could. The incense made his head hurt and his eyes water, and if he cried Dad would hit him with the crucifix, but for the most part Ethan just forced himself to check out of it. The sooner this was over, the sooner he could retreat to his room and hide until Roman and Remus came home. His fingers trembled. He hated this, and hated school. He wouldn’t even be in trouble if the other kids just took the time out of their day to respect him. But apparently, that was too hard. Too bad. And Ethan got saddled with the blame yet again.

~~~

Virgil and Ethan had been signing with each other for the past half an hour. School was about to start in two weeks, and Virgil had been working with Ethan to ensure that he was comfortable, and not nervous going back. Virgil had asked him what he thought about introducing himself to all the new kids he would meet in the homeschooling program they had chosen. And Ethan knew how he wanted to respond, but he wasn’t sure how to say it.

Ethan played with his hands, before haltingly signing, “Dad’s not coming back for us, right?”

“He’s never going to bother you boys again,” Virgil said solemnly. “I promise.”

“Then...I hate my name. I want to change it,” Ethan signed. “I never liked it. I want to go by something else.”

“Yeah, okay. Ethan is a kinda biblical name, I get why you might not like it,” Virgil said. “What do you want to be called?”

He shrugged. “Janus?” he asked. “Remus has been reading and talking a lot about mythology lately, and I like the name.”

“Yeah, okay. I can call you Janus. Do you want to tell the others, or do you want me to tell them?”

“Can you?” Janus asked. “I know Roman won’t like it, and I don’t want him yelling over me.”

“Yeah, of course,” Virgil said, smiling. “Let’s tell Logan and your brothers.”

Janus happy-flapped his hands, beaming ear-to-ear. Virgil gently herded him into the living room, where Remus was reading, Roman was writing for summer homework, and Logan was watching over Roman’s shoulder. Virgil cleared his throat. “We have an announcement,” he said.

The three of them looked up and Janus flapped his hands as Virgil put a hand between his shoulder blades. “Ethan is changing his name. We’re calling him Janus, now, all right?”

Remus cheered. “Heck yeah! Love the name, Janus!”

Logan smiled, pleased. “I’m glad you finally feel comfortable enough with us to express yourself properly, Janus.”

Roman was staring at the ground, forehead creased. Janus watched him uncomfortably, knowing that he was going to have an adverse reaction, but still surprised when Roman looked up and just said, “No.”

“This isn’t optional, Roman,” Virgil said sternly. “This is Janus’ choice, to make him feel more comfortable. If you have a problem with that, then you need to get over it.”

“I have a problem with all of this!” Roman said, throwing his hands in the air. “Men aren’t supposed to get married to each other like you two, and they’re not supposed to grow their hair out into a ponytail like Remus is doing, and no one is supposed to change their name! Dad gave you the name Ethan! You can’t use anything else! To do that would be disrespecting him!”

“Dad’s dead!” Janus screamed.

“All the more reason to keep your name! Honor thy father and mother! Even in death you have to respect him, Ethan!” Roman hollered back.

“Fuck you!” Janus exclaimed, tears falling down his cheeks. “Dad called me a moron, and stupid, and a burden, an abomination, a demon! I don’t want anything to do with him! I always hated my name and I’m trying to be who I want to be! Same as Remus, same as anyone! Why do you get to be whatever you want but we can’t?! Dad tortured you too, you know!”

Roman shook his head. “No. He didn’t.”

“He did! You told him you were gay and he hurt you! He hurt all of us beyond words, and Remus made him hurt back! Dad’s dead, Roman! He can’t hurt us anymore! And yet you’re making me and Remus hurt worse than he ever did!” Janus exclaimed.

~~~

Roman cleared his throat softly at the edge of the kitchen. “Hey, Dad, can I tell you something?” he asked.

“Of course, kiddo, you can tell me anything!” Dad chirped.

“Okay,” Roman said. “I was talking to my teacher today, and I realized I don’t really...like girls? Like. I’ve never had a crush on a girl. And I don’t want one. Girls are okay, but like...I like boys. Like. Romantically, I mean.”

Dad stilled from where he had been working on dinner. Ethan swallowed from where he was watching by the closet. This was about to get ugly. “No,” he said.

“No?” Roman asked. “Dad, I talked to the teacher, and he said—”

“I said no!” Patton exclaimed. “Being gay is a sin! Two of my boys are already defective, I don’t need a third!”

Roman recoiled backwards as Dad slammed the spoon he had been using onto the counter and he roughly grabbed Roman’s arm. “Ow!” Roman yelped. “Dad, that hurts!”

Dad wasn’t listening, not that he ever did. He already had two sons with “stubborn demons” in them, and he wasn’t about to let a third take hold in his final “good” child. Ethan knew that was the only way Dad would ever see it. Dad tied Roman to one of the dining room chairs, despite Roman’s protests. “Dad, what did I do wrong?! I just said that I liked—”

A hand came into contact with Roman’s cheek before he could continue. He stared up at Dad with wide, fearful eyes. “You. Will not. Say that. In my house!” Dad roared.

Roman’s eyes filled with tears, but Dad would not be swayed. After all, the demons had to leave. He went to the basement and grabbed the incense, the matches, and the crucifix. He came back upstairs, where Roman struggled in his bindings. Dad rapped Roman on the knuckles with the crucifix. “Stop that!” he instructed in a voice just this side of deadly. He struck a match and lit the incense, placing it around Roman, starting to chant.

As he chanted and Roman sobbed, Ethan approached, slowly. Roman mouthed, “Help me!”

Ethan hesitated. Roman never helped him or Remus, so why should Ethan do anything different? But Roman didn’t know that Dad did this. His fear told Ethan that much. After a moment, he retreated quickly, grabbing Remus and tugging on his sleeve urgently, pointing towards the kitchen. Remus understood instantly, jumping off the bed and rushing downstairs. Ethan followed at a slower pace.

Roman refused to stop wailing, and he hadn’t cried this much since Mom had died. Dad whacked his knuckles with the crucifix again, which caused Roman to yelp. “Stay still, demon! I won’t let you possess my son any longer!” Dad exclaimed.

“D-demon?! Dad, it’s me! It’s Roman!” Roman wailed. “I’m not possessed! Please!”

There was a crash further in the kitchen and Dad whirled around, snarling, only to find Remus weilding a meat cleaver. “Get the fuck away from my brother!” Remus hollered.

At the edge of the hallway, Ethan gasped. Dad growled. “Remus, put that down!” he exclaimed.

“I don’t think you heard me!” Remus shouted back. “Get the fuck away from my brother! Now!”

Dad snarled. “Haven’t you learned not to interrupt an exorcism?!” he asked. “I’m trying to help you wretched children and all you ever do is whine and cry that I’m hurting you! Well, I’m sick of it! Drop the meat cleaver!”

“Not until you get away from Roman! He’s not possessed! He’s gay! And there’s nothing wrong with that! The only wrong one here is you!” Remus exclaimed.

“Drop the meat cleaver! Now!” Dad hollered.

Remus only held it higher. Dad snarled and moved forward, crucifix held high over his head as a weapon to scare Remus into dropping the knife.

But Remus didn’t drop the knife. Remus charged forward, an unspeakable angry fire in his eyes, and he drove the meat cleaver deep into Patton’s abdomen.

Ethan screamed, an ear-piercing shriek unlike anything any of them had ever heard before. Roman was shouting something incoherently. Remus stared dead into Dad’s eyes as he pulled out the meat cleaver and hissed, “See you in Hell, Satan.”

Dad collapsed onto the floor, blood pooling around him. “You little shits think you’ve gotten away with this?” he hissed, voice raspy as he coughed up blood, “This is only just the beginning. God could never love rejects like you. I certainly won’t miss you when you go to Hell.”

~~~

Roman had curled up into a fetal position, screaming his throat raw to try and silence Janus, even though he had said everything he wanted to long ago. When Roman finally stopped screaming, Janus and Remus quietly explained the full story of what had happened that day. When Dad died. When Remus lost it. When Ethan first spoke, telling the paramedics where to find Dad. Where Dad bled out on the floor, and the police called it a tragedy, interrogating Remus. Where they couldn’t press charges because Remus was defending Roman, even though all the police officers sent the boys dirty looks when they came in and out of the house.

But much to Janus and Remus’ surprise, Logan and Virgil didn’t turn away in disgust. They listened attentively, and when the story was done they hugged Janus and Remus and promised them that this didn’t change anything. That they were still part of the family if they wanted to be. Roman was still curled up in a ball. Janus and Remus slowly approached him. “Roman?” Janus prompted softly.

His only response was a sniffle, and Janus and Remus shared a look. “Roman, Dad was wrong. About so many things. It’s not wrong to change your name, or grow your hair out, or even to be gay. I know you’re trying hard to emulate Dad so that you can go to Heaven, but you don’t have to. You’re not going to Hell for being gay. You’re not going to Hell for any reason,” Remus said.

Roman wiped at his eyes. “Dad wanted what was best for us...”

“He wanted what he thought was best, not what was actually best for us. And following down his path is only going to lead to pain for you,” Remus said. “I know it won’t be easy, but please try and keep an open mind? I know it’s going to be hard, and there’s going to be hiccups on the way, but Janus and I can help you. I promise. Everything will be okay.”

Roman looked between Janus and Remus, and Janus silently nodded. “We’ll help you with this,” Janus signed. “We want to be your family. We love you. You know that, right?”

“Yeah,” Roman mumbled. “Okay. It won’t be easy, but I’ll try.”

Remus and Janus smiled. “That’s all we ask,” Remus said. “Thank you.”

~~~

Janus was running around the playground with a couple kids from the homeschooling group, playing around and joking and laughing. He had started to feel comfortable enough to speak a little bit, but even if he didn’t want to do that, he could always sign. The kids were incredibly quick, picking up sign language like it was no big deal. Janus had never known acceptance quite like this before, and he loved it.

“Hey, Janus!” Ben called from the top of the slide.

Janus looked up and waved with a grin. “What’s up?” he signed.

“Why don’t you ask Roman to play? I know Remus is over with my sister, but Roman’s just kinda by himself.”

Janus nodded and dashed over to Roman. “Wanna play with me and Ben?” he asked Roman.

Roman was poking the holes in the metal bench he was sitting on with a woodchip. “Not really,” Roman said flatly.

Janus bit his lip. It was still so soon after Janus had changed his name, after Roman had said he would try and go easy on himself. But he seemed to only be beating himself up more than ever. “Come on, Roman. Just one trip down the slide wouldn’t hurt!”

“I don’t want to,” Roman said.

“Roman, what’s wrong?” Janus asked.

“You know what’s wrong,” Roman sighed.

Janus looked down. “Come on, please? I want to help you feel better.”

“I was fine before,” Roman growled.

“I don’t think you were,” Janus said. “No one does. Not even Doctor Picani. He’s the one who always insisted that you were repressing your feelings even worse than me and Remus.”

Roman growled. “I don’t want to play with you, Ethan.”

“It’s Janus,” Janus said softly.

“Right. Janus. Sorry,” Roman said, voice flat and not sounding very sorry at all.

Janus sighed and grabbed Roman’s hands, pulling him to his feet. “Come on,” he grunted. “You don’t have to play with me and Ben, but you deserve to play.”

“I don’t want to,” Roman insisted flatly.

Janus rolled his eyes. “Sure you don’t.”

Roman protested as Janus dragged him all the way over to Ben. “Hey, Roman!” Ben chirped. “You always seem like you’d rather be doing anything else when you come with Logan and Virgil to pick Janus up from the PE part of the program, what gives?”

Roman sullenly shrugged.

“Come on! There has to be something that you’d want to play, right?” Ben asked. “There’s so many things we can do, you just need to use a little imagination. Janus has fun playing with me, even if he doesn’t come up with a lot of games on his own.”

“Yeah, Ethan isn’t much of a...creative type, I guess,” Roman said.

“I’m plenty creative,” Janus signed. “Just not in ways you two recognize. And it’s Janus, Roman.”

“Say, that’s a question!” Ben said. “Why do you call Janus ‘Ethan,’ Roman?”

“Because that’s his name,” Roman said. “That’s the name our Dad gave him.”

“Your dads named him Ethan?” Ben asked in confusion. “They always call him Janus.”

“No! Our Dad. Logan and Virgil aren’t our dads.”

Ben looked to Janus, and Janus sighed. “They’re our foster dads. Roman doesn’t like that they’re together.”

“What?” Ben asked. “But being gay is just a part of life, isn’t it? Some guys like guys. That’s fine.”

“That’s not what Dad said,” Roman said sullenly.

“Are...you gay?” Ben asked Roman.

“No!” Roman exclaimed. “I thought I was, but I was wrong.”

Janus rolled his eyes, signing the short version of the story to Ben. Dad said Roman couldn’t be gay, but Dad wasn’t around anymore, and Roman was having problems understanding that.

Ben nodded at the end of it, like he knew all the secrets of the universe. “It’s okay, Roman,” Ben said sagely. “Whenever you can accept yourself is fine. That’s what my mom said about my sister.”

“Your sister?” Roman asked.

“Yeah. She’s transgender,” Ben said. “I don’t understand all of it, ‘cause I’m only six, y’know? But she has a girl brain in a boy body. And Mom said she could be a girl if that made her happier.”

“But?!” Roman asked in confusion. “That’s a sin!”

“No it’s not!” Ben said, laughing. “Mom says that a lot of people think that, but she says that’s just ‘cause they’re afraid of what they don’t understand. And Jesus blessed eunuchs in the Bible, didn’t you know? They weren’t boys or girls, and Jesus still loved them! It’s not a sin to be who you are!”

Roman looked like he might cry. Janus softly asked, “You okay, Roman?”

“But...Jesus...loved them?” he asked, voice soft and small and afraid.

“Yeah!” Ben exclaimed. “I asked my pastor about that once, and that’s what he said! Without even stopping to think about it! He just knew!”

Roman looked at the ground. “So...if it’s okay to do that...it’s okay to be gay? Maybe?”

“Definitely!” Ben exclaimed. “There’s nothing wrong with being gay! The knight in shining armor can get the prince, rather than the princess!”

Roman hugged his arms around his stomach and asked, “Can we play a game where I’m the knight trying to get the prince, then? I’m tired of trying to save princesses and pretending I like them.”

“Yeah, of course we can! If that’s okay with you, Janus?”

“Fine by me,” Janus signed. “Hey, Roman?”

Roman made a questioning noise.

“I’m proud of you,” Janus said with a wide grin. Then, he shouted, “Last one to the swingset has to lick it and be the evil dragon!”

And Janus and Ben took off, leaving a stunned Roman behind.

~~~

Janus walked into Roman’s room, to see Roman kneeling on the ground by his bed and mumbling. Janus paused to give Roman some privacy, and when Roman stopped mumbling, he looked over at Janus and smiled. “Hey, Jan,” he said softly.

“You still pray?” Janus asked in shock.

“Yeah, I do,” Roman said, turning pink. “I had a talk with Logan and Virgil’s pastor friend. He said that it was okay to pray, and it was okay if praying made you and Remus uncomfortable, too. There’s no right or wrong way to worship God.”

Janus nodded, rubbing one arm with the other. “I don’t think I’m religious,” he admitted.

Roman nodded. “I figured. I asked Pastor Sanders about that too. And he said that lots of people who’ve been hurt by the church leave it. And he doesn’t blame them, and neither does God.”

Janus blinked. “You mean...I wouldn’t go to Hell for not believing in God, or being too hurt to pray to Him anymore?”

“That’s what Pastor Sanders says,” Roman said. “And he’s so much nicer than Dad ever was. He loves getting to hear questions. It means people are trying to grow in their faith, according to him.”

“Really?” Janus asked, the word flying out of his mouth in shock. Dad had never, ever wanted them to question what was said in the Bible. According to him, it was a sign of disrespect.

“Yeah,” Roman said, sitting on his bed. “I really like Pastor Sanders. I know it’s okay to be gay, now. Um...I had a long talk with him about that recently. Because...I mean...I kinda like this boy...”

Janus’ eyebrows rose. “Who?!” he asked excitedly.

“You don’t know him,” Roman said with a little laugh. “But he works with the community theater with his parents, and he says it's a lot of fun. I was hoping to ask Logan and Virgil if we could go to see some of the plays sometime, because I really want to get to know him better, and see the work he does.”

“That’s cool,” Janus signed.

“Was there a reason you came looking for me?” Roman asked.

“Not really,” Janus signed with a shrug. “I just wanted to hang out.”

“You just...you never wanted to hang out with me before,” Roman said, thoroughly mystified.

“You were always a giant ass before,” Janus signed with a little grin.

“Don’t let Logan and Virgil catch you signing things like that,” Roman warned.

Janus shrugged. “They don’t care if I curse if it’s not at authority figures.”

“What, I’m not an authority figure?” Roman asked, placing a hand on his chest.

“Duh. You’re my brother,” Janus signed, rolling his eyes. “We’re more equals.”

“Huh,” Roman said. “Another thing Dad was wrong about. We should make a list.”

“Long list,” Janus warned.

“But an interesting one, I would think,” Roman mused. “I dunno, it might just be me, but I definitely want to see how much Dad was wrong about. Might give me a little reminder on the bad days that I don’t have to listen to everything he said.”

“Good idea,” Janus signed. “Want me to grab some paper and we can work on it together?”

“Sounds like a plan,” Roman agreed.

Janus grabbed a couple sheets of loose-leaf paper from Roman’s desk and brought them over to Roman’s bed, where he had grabbed a hardcover book to write on and a pencil. Janus sat down next to Roman on the bed, and was surprised when Roman wrote down the first item on the list without even a second of hesitation: Janus is not a moron.

He thought he might cry at that. He hugged Roman tight, a few tears slipping down his cheeks as he blinked. “It’s true, you know,” Roman said. “You’re really, really smart, Jan.”

Janus laughed. “The first time you’ve told me that,” Janus said.

“I know, and I’m sorry it took me this long to figure that out,” Roman said. “You’re wicked smart. I’m honestly surprised that you didn’t slug me every time I called you a moron.”

“I was too scared to,” Janus admitted with a shrug. “But that doesn’t mean I didn’t really, really want to.”

“I don’t blame you,” Roman sighed.

Janus put a hand on Roman’s shoulder. “Hey,” he signed. “You’re better than that now. You’ve learned. That’s the important thing.”

“Yeah?” Roman asked.

“Yeah,” Janus agreed. “I think if you ask Pastor Sanders he would agree. It’s important to learn and grow from our mistakes. And if we do learn and grow, I don’t think God would hold it against us.”

“Yeah,” Roman agreed. “I hope so.”

“I know so,” Janus said. “I may have a tough relationship with God, but it’s good you have a good one. And if you ever doubt that you’ve learned, look at this list. It’s proof that you’ve gotten better.”

Roman nodded. “You’re right,” he agreed. “I have come a long way from where we started.”

Remus burst into the room, yelling, “Guys! Leslie is outside with her dog and she said that we could pet her!”

Janus immediately leapt off the bed, and Roman wasn’t far behind, as they ran outside to pet the chocolate lab that had been the source of their fascination for the last week. Leslie was their neighbor, and she had recently gotten Hershey as a service dog. They hadn’t been allowed to pet her before, but if Leslie said it was okay right now, they were absolutely going to make the most of that. As they cooed over and pet Hershey, Janus grinned. One day, he wanted a dog. Maybe he’d ask Logan and Virgil. He had problems in loud and bright places still, and having a dog to support him could be really useful.

Right now, though, he just wanted to make the most of being able to pet Hershey. He cooed over her and her tail was wagging at light speed, and when she licked him, he laughed. Dogs were super cool and friendly, as long as you knew how to treat them right. Kinda like people. And Janus always hoped to have people who treated each other right.

~~~

Janus and Remus were just hanging out together, Janus reading a book while Remus drew, when suddenly Janus’ stomach lurched. “Remus,” he said.

“Yeah?”

“Halloween is coming up.”

Remus paled. “Oh. Oh. You’re...you’re right.”

Janus could feel himself on the brink of panicking. He knew Logan and Virgil weren’t going to try anything, but the memories of what Dad would do, and how they weren’t allowed to go trick-or-treating and had to hide in the basement with the crucifix and exorcism supplies were not exactly the happiest.

Remus swallowed and came over to Janus, sitting next to him. “Chin up, Jan, that can’t happen anymore, right?”

“Still scary,” Janus mumbled.

“I know,” Remus agreed. “But we don’t have any worries about new memories joining that particular collection.”

Janus nodded. He couldn’t stop thinking about the exorcism supplies, though. It wouldn’t get out of his head, and he thought that he might get sick. Before he knew what he was doing, he had jumped off the chair he had been sitting on and rushed to the bathroom, stomach upheaving everything. Remus came up to him slowly and rubbed circles on his back. “It’s okay, Jan, I promise. Everything’s gonna be okay.”

Roman knocked on the still-open door and asked, “Everything okay?”

Remus looked up and shook his head. “Nuh-uh.”

“What’s wrong?” Roman asked.

“Halloween’s soon,” Janus gasped before promptly sticking his head back in the toilet, the declaration making him sick again.

Roman didn’t move for a minute, before he whispered, “Shit!” and dashed away.

He was barely gone a minute before he was back in earshot, chattering away to who could only be Virgil and Logan. Virgil said, “Thanks for keeping us in the loop, Roman. Remus, do you want to come with me and Roman to the living room? Give Logan and Janus a little privacy.”

Remus hesitated, patting Janus’ shoulder twice before standing up and retreating with his twin behind Virgil. Logan came over and sat against the wall, observing Janus. “So, Roman told us what happened on Halloween,” he said, forced casualness in his voice, but Janus could hear the fury underneath.

“Yeah,” Janus gasped. “Not fun.”

“No,” Logan agreed. “Even Virgil looked horrified at that, and his parents were almost as bad as Patton was.”

Janus shuddered. He had heard little bits about Virgil’s parents before, but Virgil didn’t like talking to them or about them, even though they were still in the area. They could have passed each other in the church and Janus would never have known, because Virgil didn’t have a single picture of them anywhere in the house.

“Virgil and I were just discussing the merits of letting you three go out and buy costumes to go trick-or-treating when Roman found us. Would you be interested in that at all?”

Janus shrugged. “Maybe,” he said softly. “Dunno.”

Logan nodded sympathetically. “I can’t imagine what you must have gone through,” he said honestly. “And it’s okay if you don’t want to go to the costume shop or go trick-or-treating. But Virgil and I wanted to give you boys the option.”

“I just—” Janus cut himself off. “I want—” Again.

Logan tilted his head to the side. “What do you want?”

“I want to have never have met Dad,” Janus said, tears in his eyes as he looked at Logan. “I want to have always been with you and Virgil, and to not have to remember that day. I don’t want to have to go to therapy because I’m so mucked up in the head. And I know I can’t have that. But I want it. And it hurts to know that I can’t have it.”

Logan nodded. “There’s another question that Virgil and I have been wanting to ask you boys, but Virgil’s been scared to ask it. Personally, I think you boys are ready to hear it, and he’s been biding his time, but I think now is as good a time as any to talk to you three about it. Put Halloween thoughts on hold for a minute.”

Janus made an inquisitive noise.

Logan stood and offered a hand. Janus took it to stand up and then Logan walked out of the room, to where Virgil was sitting with Roman and Remus. “Virgil, I think it’s high time we asked the boys the question.”

Virgil looked up, slightly alarmed. “Are you sure?” he asked.

Logan just nodded. “Based on what I was talking about with Janus, they won’t say no.”

“What’s the question?” Remus asked.

“Would you boys like us to adopt you? Officially?” Logan asked.

Janus felt his entire body jolt. He couldn’t believe what he was hearing. Roman and Remus looked at each other in shock. “You...want to? Adopt us?” Roman asked, his voice sounding thick to Janus’ ears.

“We have since we met you, but we wanted to make sure you three were ready for it as well,” Virgil said. “You’d be part of the Storm-Holloway family. No more ties to your former father. I know that would have been hard on you at first, but if Logan thinks you’re ready, then I trust his judgement. But we want your approval first.”

Tears were forming in Janus’ eyes as he exclaimed, “Yes, please!”

“Of course!” Remus shouted barely a second after Janus. “I’d love to be adopted!”

Everyone looked to Roman, who was just sitting there, beaming even as he cried. “That would be...amazing,” he admitted softly.

“Then it’s settled!” Logan said, and the way he was smiling must have meant he was pleased. “You boys will be adopted before November.”

“Could we do it on Halloween?” Remus asked. “I want something good to happen on that day to remember.”

“Virgil?” Logan asked.

“I’ll see what I can do,” Virgil agreed. “Set an appointment for October thirty first.”

Remus cheered, Roman laughed, and Janus just stood there, beaming. They had a long, long way to go in their recovery. But they had made those first few dangerous and heart-stopping steps. And Janus, for one, couldn’t wait to see where this road took them.

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