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blackstarchanx3new · 4 months

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FSR Rambles 16

Dark spiraling into an episode is halted by a "Distraction" aka a flower.

Shadow being disturbed at Dark's response to eat it, just goofy shit.

Dark doing horrible to thinks he supposedly "Likes" is a trend with him. I discussed the "dark eating flowers" symbolism awhile back.

Dark just settles into being kinda forlorn again.

"I like Vio the most" pisses off Shadow. Obviously.

Dark's reasoning for liking vio is just "Everyone else does".

Which. Is just an implication he is feeling the vibes of everyone else and how they feel towards Vio. Thus. Dark likes Vio.

Lore about Dark Link's creation:

Vio's panicking was a caducous in a way to why Dark appeared in the form he did.

Dark Link wasn't entirely aware of his own presence at this time until Vio noticed him.

Dark continues to just point out Shadow's past wrongdoings lol.

I don't think many people noticed the shift in Dark's hair here to match Shadow's hair and not Vio's becoming a warmer shade of purple.

I ALSO don't think people noticed what Dark said here wasn't his own opinion. At least the 4th panel.

His immediate "hm?" as if he had no clue what the hell Shadow's reacting too made that more obvious.

Dark quickly gets mad at the notion he'd think something like that when that was smth he was just parroting from Shadow's internal thoughts.

Repeating what Dark actually thinks of Shadow and himself: He thinks Shadow Link is an outright monster and he himself a hero.

Dark being high key delusional about his standing in the world is just par for the course.

He keeps pissing shadow off and gets angry about that himself. Really in darks mind he isn't doing anything wrong so everyone else is just being unreasonable. 🫠

Shadow tries to deliver the same sentiment that Green gave him earlier to...different results.

Darks lovely thought process:

Family. Link had a father. His father was his family. Thus, if shadow is his family, Shadow is his dad.

He even elaborates that him having a father is a lot like link lol.

Shadow, is reasonably confused as hell at this response.

Shadow tries and fails to explain they're just friends not THAT kind of family. But Dark is stubborn and insists shadow is his dad now.

Repeating that shadow would drag his "son" to be an accomplice in lying to the others about being a part of Gannon.

Shadow tries to justify, and is worried about how dark even got this info to begin with.

Memory shinanigans.

Shadow cant deny cool powers when he sees em but darks lil internal monolog (a first with him having a thought bubble if I remember correctly) he expresses confusion at Shadow not being able to see into others memories too.

Dark just assumes everyone else can do what he can haha.

Shadow pushes for dark to do the right thing. But dishonesty isn't smth dark likes to do so, dude just roasts Shadow again for his lies.

His word choice of "I don't like lying" not that he DOESN'T lie is pretty accurate as to get shadow to accept him he lied XD he just didn't like doing it.

Well. Someone sleeps like a rock.

Dark just wants to kiss people lmfao. A weirdly sweet and creepy gesture from him towards vio.

Asking his dad if he can sleep, obviously that's just how that works hah.

Dark's wings haven't made an appearance in a long time lol.

Dark is now a key item. Lmfao. My way of putting off dark and vio talking rn hahahaha. Not yet...we're not there quite yet. 😈

Shadows inventory being call backs is just funny to me personally.

Obviously the triforce of power, the cups he used to drink with vio and his sword.

Shadow continues to admit he doesn't like dark what so ever lmfao.

Poor vio fell asleep while reading again lol.

... Someone's not talking...how suspicious.

Hahahahahaha. Not responding to your "name" is kinda odd.

WELL OKAY THEN.

Vio thinks he's Link lmfao. No wonder dude wasn't speaking.

Smth to consider...

If everyone is talking and speaking normally, but Link himself was silent.

Who was causing link to be mute?

A horrifying thought:

What DOES happen if a Four Sword user pulls the sword twice?

There's no true guarantee that it'd split them the exact same way as it did previously.

Especially after 7 years...

Who's to say this is "Vio" and not, a part of Link who thinks they're Vio? How would they KNOW for sure they are 1 to 1 with the Vio that was created all those years ago?

Even if the sword COULD do that...it's been 7 years. Link is a VERY DIFFRENT person since he first pulled the sword.

Whatever made up the previous four Links, could just NOT exist or be different now.

After all, they all LOOK different now. They don't even have the same face as Link.

How much is THIS Vio the Vio from back then?

Hey Vio's using his big boy words again.

Shadow references when Vio was talking about his home back in the flashback chapters.

So we FINALLY get an answer as to what freaked Blue and Green out back in page 108.

The presence of Mr. Demon king.

That was a LONG time for pay off lol had to do other stuff. XD

...Green. Your eyes are green. :)

Leave Vio alone Blue he's exhausted and his brain is working at 5% capacity atm.

Shadow and Green having a fun ol convo about how Green lowkey doesn't trust Vio right now hah.

He did catch Vio staring at the sword pedestal after Link ripped that thing out like a bayblade.

Shadow gets pissy about the implications.

"you trust me don't you green?" he asked in a very untrustworthy way.

I get it Green this dude spent your entire mission being an enemy and tried to kill Vio, trusting him is going to be difficult. Even if they spent 7 years together.

Shadow trying to urge Green away so he can talk to him in private. Perhaps share a smooch-

Anyway, I love this moment between Vio and Blue in the background of these pages. XDDD 💙💜

Blue willing to beat Shadow's ass at the drop of a hat lmfao.

Considering how Vio and Shadow's "Friendship" ended up last time...I'll let you decide if Blue's being over protective or not.

Blue points smth out that's been a visual thing for awhile: Vio's the most covered up one out of all of them.

He has gloves + arm guards, chainmail under his tunic, and is the only one with his sword visible at ALL TIMES.

Vio from a visual standpoint is always ready for a battle/on the defensive.

Huh. Okay. Vio's arm is scarred to hell. Wonder what that's about...

Blue's concern continues to be cute to me.

Haha it moves. It moves when you feel bad about it.

Vio's dismissive about it though.

Oh hey! It's our bestie Dark! Doing his job still hahaha.

The transition to real world to the headspace is one of my faves just because it's so quick.

Whipped his head around to see who was talking and bam. Dark Link.

Visual notes for the headspace: it's visually COLD here.

People didn't get Dark's cruel reference to it "being cold in the house' as him messing with Blue over the fact he was frozen. 😭

Unlike Vio, he doesn't get a real response out of Blue....So he baits again to no avail.

Dark's hair shifts to being blue, a clear sign he's mimicking someone directly and acts. well a lot LIKE Blue. Getting angry Blue is "Staring at" him, proclaiming Blue is "Boring" for not responding to him.

Dark's form starts to melt away as he promises they'll have fun "Later" whatever that means.

Vio: The master of tugging on people if he wants their attention.

Blue's helpful. Even if he's a dick about it.

HAHA WHAT DOES GREEN'S STOMACH LOOK LIKE AFTER VIO WHACKED HIM?

I'm not tellin'. Just alluding to it's existence.

Dark being cute as hell and for what.

Shadow deciding it's "Safe" to confide in Green about Dark is an interesting choice.

Hiding it would have meant issues and Green IS mr. Leader so. It makes sense.

Of course...Shadow ya don't need to shake Dark around and grip him so hard. Really makes you no different than vaati in that sense.

In the final panel you can see Dark's hair is just...Vio's hair. And he's in a very bad mood.

For whatever reason he doesn't want to come out even on Shadow's command.

Cut off time! Bleh.

#fsr rambles #four swords returns #four swords adventures #four swords manga #four swords returns au #four swords #loz fsr au #loz

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beautifulphilosopherbird · 20 days

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Dungeon Meshi rewatch ep 10 notes

so I always play the intro and outro because I love them so much and another thing caught my eye that might be nothing but is there a reason the women and men are reaching up, with Falin and Laios the ones in the center, and then them grasping hands? it feels meaningful anyway

ah it's the frog costumes ep hahahaha

they've reached the stairs they have to take to reach the 5th basement floor, near the orc's settlement (where the orc leader told them the red dragon was seen, hanging out and causing problems)

but the staircase is filled with tentacles so they can't just stroll down lol

Chilchuck is upset bc the tentacles mess with traps making it even harder to disarm them

KENSUKE SHOOK ALERTING THEM AGAIN but Laios didn't react fast enough and poor Kensuke got SNATCHED by froggy bad froggy let Kensuke go!

LOTS of notes for ep 10 so imma cut it off here

aw bye bye Kensuke (and Marcille's staff is called Ambrosia bye bye Ambrosia)

lol Senshi calling Chilchuck a kid again

he saves the day by using frog skin to wrap his hands so that tentacles don't hurt him smart kid hehe (sorry Chilchuck)

Marcille's weakness as a fashion girlie exposed lol

THEY'VE REACHED THE 5TH FLOOR castle town

lol the frog skin is stuck to them hahaha

(Chilchuck and Senshi's faces tho akjfiashioaghoa they look like Russian dolls help)

Namari gets motion sickness from the return spell portal thingie (bitch, same, that would totally be me, I get motion sickness from walking a little faster lol)

ahhh right right grumpy mcpants works for the "lord of the island" (ig the dungeon is on "his land"?)

hmmmmmmmmmm dwarf mines you say 👀 is that how Senshi got into the dungeon before it officially got discovered?

anyways, he's suggesting to the haughty looking dude to deploy troops in order to take care of the orc "problem"

hm lord haughtypants calls dwarfs "abominable" and says they're like moles

OH LORE ok let's see

so the dwarfs and elves were at war (no reason stated) and

not sure what that means exactly but I'm guessing the elves went to the west and the dwarfs to the east?

the dwarfs hid in the lands (where haughtypants is a lord now ig) and waited for the elves, and even after the war they continued to dig tunnels WHICH ALLEGEDLY SWALLOWED THE GOLDEN CITY AND TURNED IT INTO A DUNGEON wait wasn't that the dark evil crazy magician's work (allegedly)? hmmmmm interesting

he also says that the surviving dwarfs are responsible for the dungeon's continued expansion

grumpy mcpants says (his name is Mr Tansu just in case you think I am using the dumb nickname bc I don't remember) that rumor can't be trusted

ok so he copied a magical circle, I'm guessing before they met Senshi & friends bc afterwards they just bailed right? and it's in elvish, the same individual as before

AHA so his theory is that the crazy evil magician is an elf and these magical circles are his work, interesting (he says the work is beyond the abilities of dwarfs and tall-men)

OH EVEN MORE STUFF wow how did I manage to miss all this I'm such a clown

anyway, the western elves are sending letters now being like "the dungeon is ours we want it back" (well, our "heritage" is what they said, which is interesting bc weren't the king and Delgal tall-men?)

oh EVEN MORE INFO so they won the war with the dwarfs? bc they took the land from them and gave it to humans bc they apparently "didn't know what to do with it" (their king granted it himself even)

this evil magician, if it is an elf the only one I can think of is the crazy eyes elf from the living paintings, so I wonder if it has something to do with him

lordy mcislandpants doesn't want to give them back the island bc he wants the treasure that must still be in the depths of the dungeon lol

MAN we're getting so much lore and theories and everything now, the hamster in my brain is being pushed to his limits

grumpy mcpants says that the elves aren't after the treasure but the immortality spelll that's been cast on the dungeon (that does seem more valuable lol)

he tells mr lord to get his hands on the blueprint of the spell before they do and then he'll finally be treated as an equal, or even their superior

he says the lord of the dungeon possesses it (is that the evil magician or does he mean whoever "beats" the dungeon?), and tells him to keep supporting adventurers and not to cut down prices for hunting monsters etc

oh he'll issue a reward for taking down the orcs (that does not sound good)

ah yeahh I remember, Namari goes to the resurrection office and she asks about Falin (no luck of course)

on the 5th floor, outside the golden castle is the castle town (now abandoned and in ruins)

right, so Laios did mention that the red dragon is supposed to hunt once a month and then sleep until the next hunt but this red dragon has been active nonstop, even going as far as getting the orcs to flee their settlement which Marcille finds odd (but it's also no good for Falin bc she's getting digested faster)

aw cute detail look at Shuro all blushy as he's looking at Falin here hahaha

fun fact: the weak spot of a dragon is the underside of his neck

there she goes again saying her protective magic isn't as powerful as Falin's. She was the best in school, right? It's making it seem like something either happened to her or the school didn't have any good students in it hahaha I mean, I don't really have anyone else to compare her to (besides Falin who is apparently better than her in everything magic related) so I can't tell if it's just normal for her not to be able to do this stuff or what.

ALSO not me just realising Falin is a tall-(wo)man and aren't tall-men supposed to be weaker in magic than elves by default? hm

listening to their plan of trapping the dragon now after I know what happens makes me think that they should have known this wouldn't work out. they're all humanfailures

hmmmm I don't think anyone has mentioned this before but where are dragons normally bc apparently not on the 5th floor lol my guess is lower? hm does that mean something chased it up, like the orcs were chased up by the dragon WAIT IS WHAT SENSHI WAS TALKING ABOUT ACTUALLY HAPPENING????? Did something fuck up the ecosystem? 👀

Senshi guarding his special knife hehehe

and oop the red dragon is here

random screengrabs:

them in Mr Tansu's imagination tho LOL

Idk about you but I ship Senshi x bread 100%

same Chilchuck, same

paused and laughed

his timing is impeccable truly I love him

#dunmesh #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dunmeshi ep 10 #so many juicy tidbits in this ep had my hamster wheel spinning mad #love it #but also so many notes and ss

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cupidjyu · 9 months

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when we sway, i go weak

hyunjae x reader

genre: hyunjae teaches you how to dance!!!!! spy au, slow dancing, this takes place in the olden times with those fancy ball dance parties, friends to lovers, flirting, first kiss, few suggestive jokes because that's my immature humor, tension, i purposely made them talk fancier because i think it’s fun to write LOL, prince hyunjae??? notes: i got this idea from a movie i watched (enola holmes 2) that scene got me giggling like omg you guys should totally search up the dance scene hahahaha word count: 2.5k

Your mission was simply impossible.

“Dance with a man, they said?” You scoffed, leaning over the railing as you peered over the dance floor below you. You could see a few couples, dressed in their most fancy and expensive clothing, gracefully weaving in and out as if they were professionals. “Dance with a man to get the information that I need? This is… absurd.”

As a spy, you often needed to disguise in order to get what you wanted. You were used to it anyway. You’ve done tons of them and the roles you had to act out were fairly easy. A servant? All you had to do was listen to what the others needed. An elderly person? Just walk really slowly.

But to act like a rich, well-dressed magnate is where you crossed the line. Acting elegant and proper wasn’t your forte and you didn’t quite enjoy it. At all. But, you had a target and the only way to talk to him was by… asking him for a dance.

“Ridiculous,” You mumbled to yourself, collapsing against the railing.

A shuffle of footsteps next to you.

“What is ridiculous?”

You raised an eyebrow and turned. That was when you came face-to-face with Hyunjae. Hyunjae, Jaehyun, he went by many formal names.

He himself was actually a rich, well-dressed magnate.

“You.” You narrowed your eyes.

“Me?” His shoulders raised and his eyes widened.

“Yes, you!”

“Okay, so I’m ridiculous.” He goofily smiled. You groaned in frustration. Hyunjae, an affluent person, a man who knew much about business and money, was frankly a doofus. You had worked with him a few times and you had found that he was much, much different from how he looked. Despite his tall build, broad shoulders, and objectively… handsome face, he was a complete fool. And he accepted that. Because he was a fool.

He liked to joke and he would always point out when your lips curled up into a smile. He also liked to hug. A lot. Even when you insisted that he didn’t need to, he would only hug tighter.

Putting it simply, Hyunjae is a friend. A slow, slightly dense, friend who you could rely on. No matter how many times you complained about him, you always found him right by your side.

“I only worry for you.”

Hyunjae had once replied this when you asked him why he continued to help you, even during the more hazardous tasks. He couldn’t even fight.

He could probably dance though, right? You sucked up all of your dignity and you reached forward, grabbing his firm arm in yours.

“I need you for something,” You stated, leading him off into a room, any room that would be empty.

“Oh, you need me?” He purred with a cheeky smile. You clicked your tongue and ignored his words.

Finally, you pushed open a door and it seemed to be a library. Bookshelves covered the walls and the floors were empty except for a single desk with ancient-looking books stacked on top. Hurriedly, you closed the door and you pressed him up against it, leaning forward. You were so close that you could feel his breathing against your lips.

“Are we about to kiss, sweetheart?” He smiled.

You jabbed him in the stomach with the blunt side of the pocket knife that you tend to carry around in case someone attempted to stab—no pun intended—you in the back. He hissed in response.

“That hurt,” He grumbled.

“I hope it did.” You scowled. “And no, I don’t want a kiss. Especially from you. I need to learn how to dance.”

“For what exactly?”

You stuttered, “…nothing.”

“Another one of your missions isn’t it?” He tucked a stray strand of hair away from your face. You swallowed, your mouth going dry.

“Maybe,” You shakily sighed. With his incredibly annoying personality, for some weird reason, you couldn’t help but feel a bit nervous around him.

It’s definitely because of his obnoxiously charming face.

“You won’t get hurt from this will you?” He gazed at you worriedly.

You recalled the time when you had gotten injured and Hyunjae had brought you into his lap so that he could tend to the cuts. You never mentioned how your heartbeat had stuttered that day.

“I cannot guarantee you anything.”

He sighed. “Okay.”

“Okay?” You looked at him expectantly.

“I’ll teach you how to dance, but not because I want to help you complete your dangerous mission.” You could see the way his smile lilted up mischievously.

“Then what for, Jaehyun?” Hyunjae, Jaehyun. the formal names never mattered to you. In fact, he often smiled dearly when you used his real name.

“Well…” He started with a glint in his eyes. “Simply because I would quite enjoy this opportunity to hold your waist.” And then his hand rested there. His warmth almost pierced your body, making you inhale sharply.

“What are you—“

“I’m teaching you, am I not?” He spoke softly. “First step is to get into position. My hand on your waist.” His thumb stroked your side softly, making you squirm. He gently led you into the center of the room, his hand never leaving its position.

“That’s it?” You blurted out.

“Of course not,” He laughed. His other hand took yours and he brought it up to his shoulder. “Your left hand stays here, on my shoulder. And the other…” He intertwined your fingers with his, holding firmly. You suppressed the shaky sigh that threatened to leave your parched throat.

Hyunjae easily noticed your silence and he bent closer to study your face.

“Everything alright there, sweetheart?”

Your hand, still resting on his shoulder, slapped it briefly.

“Refrain from calling me sweetheart, sir.” You whispered. “I’m simply a spy for a good cause.”

“Spy or not, you’re still a sweetheart,” He replied.

You couldn’t help yourself from blushing slightly. Immediately you were conscious of him noticing and so you began to ramble. “You’re obnoxious. If we weren’t friends, I would be taking my knife and—”

“And…” He grinned, cutting you off. “We should start dancing.”

“Yes.” Your eyes widened. “Right, that was what we were doing.”

Hyunjae smirked. “Don’t get too distracted.”

“You underestimate me. I’m a very focused person.”

“It doesn’t seem like that around me.” He hummed.

You grew quiet at that, knowing very well that he was correct.

“I will take the lead. If I step forward,” He proceeded to do so. “You step backward.”

You held your breath. unable to ignore his sweet cologne anymore.

“I step to the side, then you do the same,” He muttered.

His hand was warm too, holding you securely.

He looked up briefly and he smiled back down at you. You could only stare, doe-eyed.

“It looks like the music has started.” He grinned. “My instructions might not help. Sometimes you just need to follow the rhythm. It is, what really should lead us.”

“Poetic,” You remarked, trying to ignore the way your heartbeat fastened at the way he gazed at you so tenderly.

“Focus.” He raised an eyebrow with a small smile. With a shaky breath, you began to dance. Stepping forward, right, backwards, and left. His eye contact was almost luring you in, shifting your body impossibly close, right up to his chest.

“This is easy,” You breathed out.

“You did step on my foot three times,” He pointed out.

“I’m still learning,” You snapped.

“I can say that you’re doing really well.” Hyunjae smiled softly.

“Am I really?” You couldn’t help but smile back.

“Certainly. We can try the twirl now.”

“The what?”

But he didn’t respond. Instead, he led your hand up and over your head, forcing you to twirl. Then, he brought you right back to his chest.

“Like this.” He gazed down at you, his eyes lingering on your lips for a brief second.

“A warning next time would be pleasant.”

“Simply follow the rhythm.”

Your breath hitched when just at that moment, the music had picked up. And so, your steps became faster, that one twirl move coming more frequently. The music was soft really, since it was in the background, playing in the actual ballroom and not in a mere library. Your footsteps and his breathing was much more evident.

After another twirl, you rested your forehead against his chest, taking in a deep breath.

“This is nervewracking,” You spoke with honesty, still following his steps. But there was something else distracting you from the calming music. His pounding heartbeat.

“Is it me who makes you nervous? Or the dancing?” He said, his voice vibrating against his chest.

“I cannot guarantee you an answer to that,” You whispered.

“It’s me, isn’t it?”

You abruptly pulled back, only to meet his knowing smile. “Oh, shut up.”

Hyunjae soon introduced another move. One where you both pull away, drifting off to opposite directions with only his hand grasping yours, and then you gravitate back to the same position, his other hand returning to rest at your waist.

“You look annoyingly good in that suit, you know,” You muttered. And again, he pulled away so you at least had a chance to hide your burning face. But you heard his laugh as he dragged you right back against his body,

“If I’m not mistaken,” He breathed out, searching your face with affection. “You just called me handsome.”

You shut your eyes in embarrassment. “And what about it?”

“Well you…” He brought your intertwined hands up to his chest, right where his heart was. “You have quite the effect on me.” You inhaled sharply when you realized just how fast it was beating. It was beating so fast, that it felt almost like it was on fire.

A moment of silence. The two of you had never once stopped dancing, constantly stepping side to side. But neither of you were focused on the music anymore, instead more on gazing into each other’s eyes, trying to find a non-verbal answer behind them.

Finally, you spoke quietly, breathlessly. “Why?”

Hyunjae stilled for a second, causing you to almost trip on his feet.

“Why is my heart beating so fast?” He chuckled. “I’d figure that as a spy, with your wits, you might have an idea.”

“No, I–” You bit your lip. “I know about that. I’m asking… why do you feel this way?”

He blinked and he gave you a tender smile, before twirling you around again. “Why wouldn’t I?”

You shook your head, frowning. “You don’t understand.” You stumbled against his chest. “I am a spy, Jaehyun. You don’t know what you’re getting into.”

“You are not just a spy,” The man whispered. “You are more than that. Should that stop me from falling in love with you, is out of the question. You are… beautiful and you make me smile in so many ways possible. There’s so much more to you that I see, and I would be honored to learn more.”

Your eyes fell down to where his hand had slightly tightened at your waist, your cheeks flaming red.

“Focus.” His voice was low. You looked back up.

“If you are really so certain about your feelings for me, Hyunjae,” You uttered. “Let us continue to dance.”

“What will that resolve, sweetheart?” Another twirl, another step forward and right.

“You must trust me.”

His gaze fell and he nodded. The two of you tuned back into the music. It was different now, you had realized. Slower and more… romantic. Your hand was still resting on his shoulder and his hand was still on your waist. Your other hand continued to be encased in his.

At the change of note, he twirled you around. You began to lose your breath and it wasn’t because of physical exertion. It was something beating in your chest, so strong that you could barely focus anymore. Hyunjae seemed to be the same, his grip on your hand and waist tightening, his eyes searching you with so much endearment that it left you even more breathless.

Another step. Forward, right, backwards, and left.

Another twirl.

And with a deep breath, as you were being pulled back, instead of returning to position, you leaned up and pressed your lips against him. Alarms were going off in your brain but you simply ignored them, shutting your eyes and falling into his arms.

Hyunjae didn’t even hesitate to kiss you back, his lips parting and his head tilting. He gave a satisfied hum as both of his hands fell to your waist, pulling you closer. Your hands wrapped around his neck, deepening it in which he happily responded.

Your lips moved in unison and you could feel his pulse right against you, beating erratically. Just like your own.

You pulled away first, resting your forehead against his, giving him a shy smile.

“How would you rate my performance today?” You whispered.

Hyunjae smiled widely and pressed another kiss to your lips. “Outstanding. We shall do this another time… when you aren’t busy.”

You widened your eyes, pulling away abruptly. “My mission.”

“You must go,” He spoke, urging you on. But his hand on your hip said otherwise. You gulped. He wanted you to stay for the rest of the night. You could see the plea in his eyes.

“I must go, yes,” You agreed, nodding. “But, I assure you I will return. You can hold me and… kiss me, all you want.”

Hyunjae smiled, bring his hand up to your cheek and caressing slowly. “Excited?”

“What, for my mission or for your affections?” You raised an eyebrow.

“My affections.”

“Indeed, that I am.” You shied away from his touch, your ears burning. “But do not get so full of yourself, Jaehyun. I have many things to do tonight.”

“Oh, I’m sure,” A corner of his lips raised. “Me being one of those things.”

You gulped and pushed him away. “Desist. You are to be wealthy and unaware. Not lewd.” You then turned on your heel, walking to the door to return to the ballroom. But, you turned back longingly. Oh, how you wanted to just be with him.

“I cannot believe that you’re going to dance with another man right after kissing me.” He shook his head playfully.

“I have a task to complete.” And then you smiled to yourself. “I never took you as the jealous type, Hyunjae.”

“I have a right.” He frowned in response. “I can’t afford to lose someone so pretty, can I?”

You rolled your eyes fondly before opening the door, the bustling of the crowd and the instrumentals of the music interrupting the previous silence.

“You are insufferable, Jaehyun.”

He once again smiled at your use of his real name.

“I can assure that you love my affections. That in which you will be experiencing more later on tonight.” He winked and tilted his head.

You winced and stepped through the entrance. “I will see you later. And… thank you for teaching me how to dance.”

#deoboyznet #drabbles 💞#the boyz imagines #the boyz reactions #the boyz fluff #tbz fluff #tbz imagines #the boyz x reader #tbz x reader #the boyz scenarios #hyunjae fluff #hyunjae x reader

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rozaceous · 10 months

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mariko, violence, and the meta of violence in fanfiction

ok so it’s apparently not enough that i write the most indulgent kind of fic, but now i’m writing an essay about my fic. this got so long, abt 2k total. if i said sorry, it’d be insincere, but at least no one is making you read it?

i want to piggy-back off the post i made earlier this week where i was talking about how mariko was not well-adjusted, and was, in fact, doing extremely poorly. what this post turns into, however, is an analysis not only of mariko’s relationship to violence and her subsequent trauma, but a meta-analysis of how violence is treated in canon more broadly, and how that ends up translating into fic. because, and i mean this in a way that is distinctly not about tooting my own horn, i’m approaching violence with a different lens than what i've found in a majority of fic, but also in a way that is unique to SI fic.

‘to continue being alive is also an art’ starts in medias res ch 1 with mariko haring off to the confrontation at the bridge in wave. we find out later, she’s fresh from just having killed people for the first time. kakashi and mariko have their little chat abt it in ch 2, but it’s treated as done and resolved afterwards. it was self-defense, she was protecting others, she was justified and shouldn’t lose sleep over it.

mariko also kills during the chuunin exams itself (members of the sound team) and during the finals (she on-screen beheads a foreign ninja). there’s a sort-of killing w the itachi puppet in ch 15, and a mention of sasori, but otherwise we don’t get any particular details of her killing people until the events of ch 17, where she kills danzo and the rest of the elder council, as well as whoever was caught in the bombings. (i’m going to word-of-god this for everyone right now and tell you that there were people caught in the bombings, just like i will confirm that she’s killed other people in the interim of the time skip.)

from a writing-level, i approached violence in a very specific way. most of the violence is off-screen and mentioned as a retrospective; what occurs on-screen i tried to keep brief and matter-of-fact. graphic, maybe, but not gory. i also try not to play violence as something that’s done for laughs, like how sakura will beat naruto up in canon when he annoys her. (we’ll come back to this.) and a lot of this has to do with how mariko herself deals with violence.

i mentioned in that previous post, that mariko grows up in a militaristic culture where violence is a norm and acceptable, as someone who is not actually a kid who can be acculturated into that thinking in the same way. mariko comes from a culture and personal history where interpersonal violence is abhorrent. she tries to duck out of canon events and any requirement of violence on her own part by being a medic, but the team assignments (the narrative/me, if we’re wanting to get meta abt it lol) prevent her from achieving this relatively more peaceful role.

when mariko gets assigned to team seven, she has to get real comfortable with violence real fast. she’s already befriended naruto (and hahahaha you may remember that she does so by punching a guy 🙂) and she cares about kakashi and sasuke. she’s come to the realization that this is her lot, these are her people, they are her responsibility. as she notes in ch 2, she’s not good enough to solve her problems without killing. this is also to say, she’s not good enough to problem-solve without violence. it’s beyond her capacity and skill when the stakes are as high as they are. let’s also consider that caring about everyone is a luxury that mariko cannot afford, widespread mercy is potentially a death sentence, and so she narrows that care down to a handful of people. and so if she’s taking the well-being of her teammates as her ultimate good, she will absolutely let the ends justify the means.

added onto any personal sentiment is that, as far as mariko knows, if anyone on team seven dies, the entire world is fucked.

mariko one hundred percent and sincerely believes that violence is wrong. even when it’s justified, self-defense, etc., mariko views it as ugly. there may be situations where she assigns herself less blame, but she is always blaming herself for being too weak to find another way, because her (somewhat unrealistic) view is that violence is the sign that you’ve run out of other options to get your way.

however, with the stakes being as they are, and with the world she’s in treating violence as a form of currency, mariko sees violence as a necessity.

so we can see the dissonance, right? she has to use violence to protect not only herself, but the people she loves, and the entire world. and mariko’s fundamental optimism is that people are worth helping and that the world is worth saving, because if she doesn’t believe in that with her whole heart, she’d literally just curl up and die. she wants to be kind and to help and nurture and build, but her most effective tools—once again, she views using violence as a failure—are the ones she hates the most. but she has to use them. more, she has to be very, very good with them.

this isn’t a small-level dissonance, it’s a diametric opposition. so in terms of narration, mariko can’t think too much about the violence she’s enacted because it would destroy her. she knows this about herself. she hates it. but it’s necessary. and so she doesn’t think about it. and if she does think about it, she’s very clinical and writes it off as unfortunate and necessary and—well, it’s done, no use crying over it now. she’s disassociated herself from it. and i wanted that perspective reflected in the way i wrote about violence.

the other aspect of how i wanted to handle violence is from how i approach the canon. we’ve all read the fics where konoha is a grimdark dictatorship, with death and torture around every corner. and, uh, it is? it’s a fascist war machine, plainly. it’s child soldiers and state-sanctioned assassination baked into the world economy? there’re multiple instances of genocide? it’s a fucking nightmare.

i, personally, am not able to brush aside those things. i like the meta and the reading-into-things and the what-if’s that happen when you don’t take things at face value. so for me, the writer, i can’t glorify violence. there’s a reason i wrote mariko walking through the uchiha compound in the way that i did. so i’m not going to write like killing a thousand people in one go is anything but horrifying (staring at you, minato), even if i’m not interested in directly interrogating every particular instance of violence within the narrative.

but canon doesn’t approach it from this angle. for canon, this is all the quirky backdrop, and violence and killing are bad, but very few people tend to die in a meaningful sense. violence doesn’t often have lasting consequences. (this is, also, the evolution that Naruto goes through as a series, where it starts off as a critique of the state and then turns into bootlicking, but that’s another meta that plenty of others have written better than i can.) in canon, the ability to do high-damage moves is considered a cool power-up. in fact, your power level is directly correlated with your physical danger level—ie, your ability to do violence.

moreover, casual violence is funny in canon. (we’re back to sakura beating up naruto and it being treated as a joke.) these things are entirely the conceit of reading/watching canon, and it’s what we do with every piece of media. this isn’t a judgment! we are suspending our disbelief and buying into the premise of the story that gets told. and i would hardly have written over 50k of naruto fanfic if i didn’t find it innately compelling and, yes, fun.

so this is where the presentation of violence in fanfiction can get dicey, because not every author is approaching canon with the same spirit that canon itself has. i also want to make the blanket statement that i don’t think any one interpretation is right or wrong, it’s that they’re all interpretations. i’ve read and liked fics of all varieties; i’m not morality policing, i’m trying to place myself and my own fic within a broader phenomenon of how fics present the morality of violence. i don’t personally care what one fic thinks is morally good, nor do i think that a particular presentation necessarily corresponds with what the author thinks in real life, or even that a presentation has to be consistent from fic to fic. these are all lenses/perspectives, and fanfic is inherently about playing with the little details of canon and going, “And?”

so on one end, you’ll have some fics that 100% correspond with the attitude towards violence that canon has and aren’t too interested into getting into the grittier moral quandaries of the canon past what canon presents as good or bad. on the other, you’ll have other fics that will rip the morals of canon to shreds. again, i like both! it always depends what the focus of your story is!

i feel like i’m somewhere in the middle. i feel like a lot of naruto fics commit hard to either of the above scenarios from the start and i...don't (as one commenter pointed out). there's a level of progression I'm trying to portray. and, i have to say, part of the comment that @vermillioncrown left on ch 17 really resonated: “She's sunk as low as them, she's just as fucked up in this second life despite knowing another moral framework and society. And she's mud-wrestling them down at ground level lol.”

mariko ‘knows better’ but isn’t better. she doesn’t feel like she’s a good person. arguably, she isn’t a good person. she has enough of an outsider perspective to see the system for what it is, but she is still inherently within the system. she is absolutely playing the game, and doesn’t have any moral high ground. she kills, she lies, she deceives, she betrays. she harms people. her intentions might be noble, but as tumblr loves to say abt causing others harm: intention isn’t magic. mariko wants better and is trying to achieve it, but she’s in the system and can’t get out of it because we all inherently live in a society, and removing yourself from society isn’t exactly as feasible as our ideals might like.

and because tcba is, mostly, from mariko’s perspective, her understanding of violence colors the narrative. because mariko is an SI/OC, her perspective is one that is ALWAYS going to be a negotiation of ‘canon at face value’ and ‘me personally doing an analysis.’ and i think that’s really cool and interesting, which is why i’m doing it!

but—and this is not me throwing shade or getting mad or singling anyone out—this is also a take that is a little counter to broader fandom habit that aligns with ‘omg she was so badass when she killed that guy!’ or ‘yes! fuck it up!’

reiterating that i’m not trying to scold or slight anyone, bc this is the ‘canon at face value’ take, where we are supposed to see these things as badass and praise-worthy, and often these are climactic scenes where mariko is ostensibly cast as the righteous victor! and if people don’t see what i’m trying to do as different to that take, that’s also on me as the writer, especially bc, as i already said, this is a story that is trying to negotiate those different perspectives on violence. but i also want to point out that there’s more than just ‘violence as badassery’ happening. this is also ‘violence as tragedy.’

and since the meaning and role of violence isn’t a theme that’s going to go anywhere any time soon, i thought it was worth discussing.

#this is not to say that i think the narrative doesn't reward mariko for mercy or generosity. zabuza and haku as the prime examples ofc #and i hope i made this clear? it got so long.#kudos also must go to verm bc it's our discussions that always filter through to everything and some of this was probably their words #but i so would love to talk more abt this if anyone is so inclined #tcba #tcba meta #rozisms

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❤️‍🔥☮️ Practicing a delicate Yoga ☮️❤️‍🔥

Dolph Laserhawk x Male Reader! (Yaoi)

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WARNING (+18 / EXPLICT): Sexual mentions and actions! There are swear words

Dolph Laserhawk and you, after talking, arranged a private place to practice Yoga together

You and Dolph know each other well and seem to have a crush on each other

There are no missions or concerns regarding EDEN at this time, everything is good

You is the Seme and Dolph is the Uke

I was dying while writing certain parts of this lol 😭😳

I hope this was longer than the last fic :V After voting, this was the winner and well, enjoy reading and sorry for any spelling mistakes if there are any

(Y/N) and Dolph Laserhawk were old acquaintances, they lived close to each other for much of their childhood and even became military members of EDEN at a certain time

After (Y/N) moved away from military life upon discovering the truth and rot of EDEN, Dolph Laserhawk and they stayed away for a long time...even though Dolph was also a traitor to the dictatorship government

Years later, after his frustrated relationship with Alex Taylor and the loss of certain friends...Dolph helped in the overthrow of the dictatorship of EDEN and those responsible

That's because he not only worked with Bullfrog, Ramon and other "terrorists", but also with (Y/N) after they met again...

Now, living in a non-dystopian setting and what we may know as the old country of the USA, both Dolph Laserhawk and (Y/N) seem to feel freer and more secure in living their lives...pursuing their own certain purposes...

Inside a coffee shop, sitting and blowing his coffee with soft breaths, Dolph had his usual neutral expression as he took in the tranquility of the place

He didn't even seem to believe that one day after becoming an terrorist, he could normally be on the streets and establishments without worries and alert

A few minutes later, Dolph only heard the coffe shop door open and the small bell ring: "Good morning..."

He said...he was tall, wearing a dark leather jacket, holding a motorcycle helmet in his hands...(Y/N) was coincidentally looking for tranquility in that establishment, where Dolph was...

Raising his head and looking at (Y/N) in surprise, Dolph's expression couldn't hide curiosity and even a slight excitement when he saw him

Dolph held the coffee cup tighter in his hands, he put his legs together and squeezed them as if he was shrinking or getting excited

Before Dolph could wave or do anything, (Y/N) after talking to one of the waitresses noticed Dolph sitting and gave him a big, beautiful smile

Dolph was a little embarrassed, his face flushed slightly and he closed his legs even more...he could feel a heat in his blood rising through his body and his intimate member becoming excited

(Y/N) calmly walked towards the table and seats where Dolph was sitting, remaining standing and placing the motorcycle helmet on the table

(Y/N): Excuse me, can I sit here? Despite having asked Dolph for permission to sit in front of him, (Y/N) calmly sat down before Dolph could answer him

Dolph: Well...you've already sat down then... Dolph said after a few seconds of silence, his expression was neutral, but inside he seemed to have butterflies in his stomach...

(Y/N): hahahaha, sorry, my bad... well, then can I ask permission to talk to you and find out why you're here? conscience we are here...maybe?

(Y/N)'s laugh and voice were soft and polite, he removed his dark jacket and placed it next to his helmet on the table, his tight shirt outlined his muscular chest well, his silver chain around his neck was also visible...

Dolph: I'm here relaxing... Dolph took a sip of coffee

Dolph: Or at least trying to relax, even though EDEN's fall has been 2 years...there's still a lot of shit in my head...

(Y/N): I don't judge you, and don't judge yourself...a lot of things happened, not to mention that it left us with consequences...It's normal to remember this shit... feel the vibrations and maybe even have nightmares, but what matters is that it's over...

(Y/N) said calmly to Dolph, understanding the fact that he might not have forgotten the past and its events yet

(Y/N): Thank you dear~ (Y/N) quickly thanked the waitress who brought his coffee, he quickly drank it

Dolph: Humph...it seems like it's easy for you to deal with these things...it doesn't even seem like you've also been through so many complicated things and torture sessions, could it be that EDEN "damaged" your mind?

Dolph watched (Y/N) drink the coffee and spoke to him calmly, he knew that (Y/N) had gone through dangerous and painful situations during the dictatorship, and unlike him...(Y/N) seemed to cope easily with the past and forget everything

(Y/N): Oh no...no, I'm not crazy haha, I just...I feel a stronger sense of relief and pleasure in the situation I'm in now, than feeling the chaotic sensation of what happened to me back then...

(Y/N) spoke with an air of peace, he seemed to be a man more strengthened than shaken by the past and situations he faced

While (Y/N) spoke openly about her current emotions and habits, Dolph couldn't help but look at him with a twinkle in his eyes and a shy, attentive silence

Dolph liked (Y/N) since the time they were in the military together, so long away from each other... after the fall of EDEN where they worked side by side, Dolph had his old friend back...

(Y/N): So I'm fine, but like I said...don't judge yourself, it's not easy to deal with these things...especially when you finally have time to actually deal with them

Dolph just remained silent, giving (Y/N) a calm look and then looking away

(Y/N): You know... if you want to talk or... go out more, who knows... (Y/N) seemed to want to spend more time with Dolph, they were friends and now they had free time and security to do whatever they wanted, since they didn't were more in a dystopian country

Dolph: Okay, so what do you propose we do?... Dolph gave a slight smile and a slight look at (Y/N)

(Y/N): ...Oh...well, there are so many things... (Y/N) was thoughtful about what to do with Dolph, while also being excited and a little anxious inside, he calmly responded to Dolph with a proposal:

(Y/N): Well... I don't know if you would like it, it might seem a little silly haha, but have you ever thought about Yoga?

Dolph: Yoga? you're talking about... Dolph's eyes were surprised, (Y/N) interrupted Dolph saying:

(Y/N): Yes, that practice of working the body and mind to control anxiety, body aches, stress...I'm not going to lie, I practice sometimes haha

(Y/N) still sitting in front of Dolph, seemed to lift herself closer to his face, calmly inviting him:

(Y/N): If you're a little stressed and trying to relax, you could try...do you know how to do this?

Dolph despite noticing (Y/N) get up on the table and get a little closer to him, didn't question his action and just stayed quiet for a few seconds thinking about what he would say

Dolph: Well...I've never practiced or been interested in Yoga, to tell the truth I've only heard the name, I have no idea how to do it...

(Y/N): Okay, what if I teach you? It might be nice for both of us...meditate, relax, talk a little... (Y/N) was excited, he was seeing the opportunity to not only spend time with Dolph, but also to help him with his stresses

(Y/N): I'm not a professional or a trainer haha, but...I think I can help you, for sure... (Y/N) was still close to Dolph, his air became slightly seductive in Dolph's eyes

(Y/N) wasn't flirting, he was just being friendly and affectionate with Dolph...but his chest pressed into his shirt and his smiles seemed to excite Dolph more and more

Dolph stopped for a few seconds, he didn't seem to mind the idea and he also had the same desire to spend time with his old friend, in fact, (Y/N) was proposing a relaxation practice...and Dolph also seemed to feel certain feelings...

Dolph: Okay, I'll stay with you for a while, but will you teach me yoga?

(Y/N): Of course! Ah Dolph...let's stop being "shy", we work together! We had a childhood together! We just need to rekindle that custom and our little outings like the old, old days...

(Y/N)'s expression and tone became even more excited, Dolph was calm and could sense (Y/N)'s certain longing to have fun with him like in the old days

The truth is that Dolph had forgotten how to have relaxed moments like he used to, especially with (Y/N), but now that everything was apparently fine, it was obvious that he wasn't going to miss any opportunities

Dolph sighed lightly and then calmly answered (Y/N) with a slight smile:

Dolph: Okay...so let's "lose this shyness", let's do something together and yes...I want to practice this Yoga thing

(Y/N): Yeah my old friend! let's practice Yoga and many other things together from now on... I want you to have fun, we deserve it (Y/N) leaned in front of Dolph again, and lightly patted the shoulder of his metallic arm

(Y/N): I just recommend that you look for and choose comfortable clothes for Yoga, Yoga is for comfort, right?

Dolph: Yes, just comfort...

After a few more minutes of conversation, Dolph and (Y/N) left the coffee maker, still standing in front of the coffee maker...Dolph observed the great height and masculinity of (Y/N) wearing his dark jacket

Dolph felt a little confused and shy about his emotions, (Y/N)'s presence made him feel these emotions, perhaps because they had been apart for a long time and Dolph now saw him as a certain stranger

But deep down he knew it wasn't a "strangeness", it was something more,...his eyes fixed on (Y/N)'s chest and his masculine features...Dolph seemed to feel really horny with that

Dolph saw (Y/N) several times in these times of peace and without EDEN, he seemed to dive into thoughts and possibilities...one of them was to have his life full of peace and happiness...and the other was to have the friendship again from the past with (Y/N), and his presence next to you...in your bed

(Y/N): Well, I'm going... I already have a great place for us to practice Yoga, do you want to practice this afternoon or early tomorrow? (Y/N) said, going to put on the motorcycle helmet

Dolph: Ah- no, no...early tomorrow is better, is it in your apartment?

(Y/N): Yes, it's in my apartment, don't worry, there will only be the two of us there... I'll see if I can make you a snack

(Y/N) approached Dolph and touched his shoulder, looking him in the eyes: Ok? ~...

Dolph looked up, feeling (Y/N)'s hand and her gaze, Dolph's blood heated again and he felt a little silly for a quick second, he interpreted (Y/N)'s tone as seduction

Dolph: Yes- Yes, see you later Dolph quickly replied and looked at the street and the cars on the side

(Y/N): Humm ok...bye Dolph! (Y/N) noticed Dolph's reaction, but just put on his helmet and then got on and left on his motorcycle, and he seemed to be smiling inside...

Standing silently watching (Y/N) ride away on the motorcycle, Dolph only felt the heat inside his body, having a neutral expression on his face...but the sparkle in his eyes made him seem to express something...

Many hours later, probably at 5:30 pm: Dolph was in his small and somewhat cozy house...his room was small and there was a single bed next to a tube TV, including other objects, decorations and a door that led to a balcony

After lying down on his bed, wearing a shorts and a confortable shirt, Dolph began stroking his own hair and trying to fall asleep; The beautiful sky afternoon 's and windy entered his room through the door...that peaceful atmosphere awakened Dolph's good thoughts and memories, including desires...

As his eyes shone and closed slightly, the sounds and images of (Y/N)'s laughter echoed in his thoughts...his height, his eyes, his chest...he was a beautiful and strong man, not to mention that he had a kind heart

Dolph began to blush and remember more and more about (Y/N), his face heated up and his legs pressed against each other, Dolph curled up on the bed

Dolph had a peaceful and seduced expression on his face, his eyes drooping and almost biting his lips, Dolph's thoughts triggered in him a lust and desire to be possessed

This wasn't the first time, much less the last time...that Dolph delved into his imaginations and desires for (Y/N), he actually had a crush on his old friend...he sometimes seemed to need (Y/N)'s beautiful, toned body on top of him, with her hands on his waist, feel his sweat and moans...and his wet penis inside him...

Falling into desire and heat, Dolph just softened her own body on the bed, lifting her own blouse and holding it with his mouth, he could see her breasts and erect nipples...

With his eyes still drooping and his expression seduced and flushed, he delicately placed his hand inside his comfortable shorts, before removing his penis and masturbating...

Dolph: Oww shit... ♡♡

The next morning: Dolph wore a shirt and pants, including a small backpack, (Y/N) had insisted on picking him up from the house and with the motorcycle, but Dolph refused every time and went to (Y/N)'s apartment on his own; He could see how big and charming the apartment was, the old EDEN terrorist apparently was now a millionaire who knows...

Dolph while walking, he could see in the distance (Y/N) sitting on the sidewalk of the apartment and waiting, he was neutral...but when he noticed Dolph's arrival he smiled gently...Dolph felt that feeling, again...

(Y/N): Dolph! You came! It would have been faster if you had let me pick you up... (Y/N) stood up and approached Dolph, putting her hands on her hips and watching Dolph in a friendly way

Dolph: I know, but I thought it was better this way, so is this where you live?... Dolph said neutrally, observing (Y/N) and the front of the apartment

(Y/N): Oh yeah! It's here, so... I'll show you my little corner, it has a very quiet part for us to do Yoga, this idea is still valid, right?

Dolph: Yes, I still accept the idea, but should I have brought anything? I didn't ask before and I just brought a few things...

(Y/N): It's good Dolph! Don't worry, I'll take care of the rest and there's no need to be ashamed...mi casa es tu casa!

(Y/N)'s tone and expressions were cheerful while Dolph's were pure tranquility and neutral, (Y/N) didn't stop making movements with his hands...he seemed to lower himself a little to have the same Dolph's height and best view of Dolph's face

That friendly manner of (Y/N) left Dolph embarrassed despite his neutral face on the outside, but you could feel his body wanting to burn and his heart beating quickly... (Y/N)'s chest, appearance, smiles were fixed on Dolph's vision...reminding him of the fact that yesterday afternoon, he masturbated again thinking and desiring his old friend

(Y/N) just put her hand on Dolph's shoulder and then guided him into the apartment while spoke, going up stairs and passing through some corridors, thanks to the windows they could have a view of the city

The floor was wooden, the walls were white and the smell of the place was new to Dolph, he felt the presence of (Y/N) walking beside him calmly... the desire to have (Y/N) holding his waist, Dolph looked like he was about to grab him at any moment...

The silence was very present, Dolph discreetly watched (Y/N) walking beside him and thought about several things; (Y/N) obviously noticed Dolph's behavior, he was going to stay quiet but he couldn't contain a smile and curiosity:

(Y/N): What was Dolph? what are you thinking?

Dolph: No-nothing, what happened? Dolph was taken aback, his eyes opened and he quickly looked away at the walls and windows

(Y/N): Are you thinking a lot...did you forget or...do you want something?... (Y/N) suddenly stopped walking and calmly held Dolph's arm, they stopped in the hallway and Dolph looked at (Y/N) confused

Many times (Y/N) acted seductively in Dolph's eyes, but that was because of her imaginations and feelings...but that action, what (Y/N) did now seemed to have a seductive air...but this time for real; (Y/N)'s eyes were a little seduced, he was simply standing there docilely holding Dolph's arm and waiting for a response

Dolph was confused and his heart was racing...Was this being real? What was going on?...It was as if for a brief moment, an opportunity for Dolph to express his feelings had appeared...it was as if Dolph was a boy secretly in love with (Y/N), and now (Y/N) unexpectedly seemed to show that had a certain crush on he

Dolph: It's no big deal...and no, I don't want something, thanks for asking... Dolph still looking surprised and confused, managed to maintain a calm pose and replied (Y/N), that still look at him and holding his arm

(Y/N): ...Ok... (Y/N) calmly let go of Dolph's arm and walked with him again...That event had been sudden and strange...but it was just the beginning...because there would still be the Yoga

Forgetting what had happened minutes ago: (Y/N) after showing Dolph the inside of her apartment and talking about things with him, took him to a huge space...with carpets, bookshelves, plant pots and windows with curtains...that was the place where (Y/N) probably practiced her physical exercises and meditations

The place was very clean and fragrant, as if (Y/N) had cleaned and perfumed it very early before Dolph arrived, he had in fact left everything ready for him...a dedicated friend; Dolph had a sparkle in his eyes and a slight smile, (Y/N) noticed Dolph's smile and found it adorable

(Y/N): Is ready? (Y/N) asked Dolph, a little anxious and happy to notice his friend's reaction

Dolph: Yes, I just need to go change my clothes, where is the bathroom?

(Y/N) pointed to the bathroom: It's right there, if you want to take a shower you can take one if you want, to feel more refreshed from the trip...

Dolph: Thanks, I think it's a good idea Dolph walked towards the bathroom calmly, (Y/N) looked happy for Dolph's visit, he watched him with affection while noticing his friend's beauty, including his beautiful ass...

(Y/N): Godness ~... Your mind said...

Minutes later, (Y/N) was sitting on a sofa, he had changed clothes...wearing a shirt and leggings, that seemed to draw a lot his intimate member and volume

Impatient and with a bored expression, (Y/N) while drinking water from her bottle almost spat it out after widening her eyes and getting scared

Dolph had left the bathroom without warning, he was drying his hair with an expression of peace and relief on his face, but his look had changed...he was now wearing a short shirt that showed off his beautiful stomach, including shorts that be comfortable...and it was short and seductive

(Y/N)'s mind: HOLY SHIT! (Y/N)'s heart raced and he got nervous

He didn't expect to see Dolph wear that, his ass and legs squeezed into the shorts, his beautiful belly and navel on display, not to mention Dolph's expression and how he dried his hair and it seemed to smell like soap...

(Y/N)'s penis suffocated in his leggings, he saw Dolph in this type of look for the first time and personally, it was exciting and beautiful for him; Trying to calm down and hide his hard penis, (Y/N) smiled and broke into a cold sweat as Dolph approached and then stopped in front of him

Dolph: Okay, we're ready, hum... Dolph was calm, observing (Y/N)'s new look

(Y/N): Yes! a-ah...so I'll show you how to start, come! (Y/N) quickly got up and walked away from Dolph...he looked nervous and Dolph noticed that, even though he was also distracted by his appearance

After preparing everything, (Y/N) gently called Dolph, who soon got up and walked towards him; (Y/N) asked Dolph to stand on the carpet, getting closer to his body and ear, he said instructively:

(Y/N): I just need you to stand and close your eyes, relax... try to empty your mind, think about some place or thing you like... a beach, a sound, a smell... just think and feel...

(Y/N)'s tone and gaze were completely peaceful and even affectionate, Dolph felt the softness of him voice...he closed his eyes and took a deep breath, putting on a calm expression and thinking of something that would relax him; As he closed his eyes, Dolph could feel (Y/N)'s soft, masculine hands guide his body, making him stand in the Tadasana pose

(Y/N)'s hands lifting Dolph's arms and going down to his waist and bringing his legs together...Dolph couldn't tell if his friend was guiding him in Yoga or caressing him

(Y/N): Think about good things Dolph...imagine a future, smiles, conversations, everything being fine...because it's fine...

After a few seconds, (Y/N) moved away from Dolph and just left him in the Yoga pose, watching Dolph...the seduction was in (Y/N)'s eyes, the Dolph's calm and manner...he was doing well, and very tasty...

After Dolph did other poses like Vriksasana, Kapalabhati and Paschimottanasana with (Y/N)'s help, he could smell the scent of the scented candle mixing with (Y/N)'s smell...Dolph was enjoying it, both his mind and body seemed to relax, (Y/N)'s careful manner seemed to help even more

On the one hand, Dolph saw (Y/N) at that moment as a crush, he liked him inside and loved his appearance and personality...her body and touches during Yoga gave Dolph goosebumps and made him smile inside

While Dolph relaxed and enjoyed (Y/N)'s assistance during that delicate Yoga...(Y/N) inside was bursting with excitement even though he was calm on the outside, his cock was still hard and he couldn't resist Dolph's soft expressions and looks...his body, including that delicious ass and thighs that looked be great at being brutally squeezed by your hands

Dolph: I'm enjoying this...you were right (Y/N)...it's worth practicing Dolph said, with his eyes closed, his hands on the floor and with his ass tilted upwards, in the Adho Mukha Svanasana pose

(Y/N): Haha i know, it really feels good, your nerves relax and your mind learns to focus a little, you are a great beginner... (Y/N) was a little away, with her eyes seduced and covering Dolph's body...especially the beautiful ass he had

Dolph: Well, I thought we would do this together... you've just been my guide and just watches me haha Dolph finally gave a small laugh, he was finally losing his shyness, becoming more open with (Y/N) since the beginning of his "guide" in the Yoga class

(Y/N): You're right, it's time for me to practice too...humph, let's go! (Y/N) got up and walked over to a pilates ball, he picked it up and took it to Dolph

Dolph noticed that (Y/N) stood up and then opened his eyes and came out of the Yoga pose, then sat down on the mat

Dolph: What is this for? Dolph got a little curious look

(Y/N): For Yoga...just stay on top of it in some pose, it's the same thing but with the help of this...

Dolph: And what does this have to do with you practicing Yoga with me?

(Y/N) stopped and laughed slightly, her eyes drooped a little...her look was a bit...malicious: You'll understand...

Without questioning and just getting up, Dolph with the help of (Y/N) just lay down in the pilates ball and tried to keep himself balanced; Dolph was slightly confused and thinking about what (Y/N) had in mind...he was lying down and clutching the big ball while his legs were spread and held on the ground

Dolph: Ok, I didn't know I could use this in Yoga... now what? Dolph remained calm and in the open-legged pose, closing his eyes and taking deep breaths

(Y/N): You said we were supposed to practice together, so let's go... (Y/N) quickly take Dolph's waist with his hands, he leaned his body against Dolph

Dolph was lying on top of the pilates ball with his legs open, and was obviously get scared by (Y/N)'s hands in your waist...too feeling a huge penis in her ass

Dolph: What the hell-

(Y/N): Hey, hey, relax...it's okay, look Dolph...I know this might seem a little intimate but...We both want that, don't we?

(Y/N)'s calm and friendly tone changed to a bolder and more provocative tone, Dolph could feel (Y/N)'s big hardened cock against his ass through his tight shorts

Dolph blushed and had a nervous and scared expression, he tried to look back and continued to balance himself on the pilates ball, while (Y/N) said:

(Y/N): You've been distracted when you're with me, I seem to cause something in you...do you think me don't notice? It's strange how different it is, how you can't hide the fact that you like me...and how I can hide and control how much I want to fuck you...

Dolph: Hu-hu???? What? Dolph was even more surprised after (Y/N)'s words

(Y/N): Let me make you understand better... (Y/N) was right on top of Dolph, he held his waist tighter and pressed his hard dick inside his leggings against Dolph's ass

Dolph: HUMPH!? Dolph could feel tension building in his body, (Y/N)'s tabby body on top of him...her ass perfectly feeling a big penis, as Dolph wasn't wearing anything below those tight shorts

That one emotion also arose again in Dolph, at that moment he was very confused and perplexed by (Y/N)'s sudden action

Dolph's mind: What is (Y/N) doing!? he wants to fuck me!? he likes me!?...

(Y/N): Let's just practice yoga together ok?...just relax your body, close your eyes and think about what you like...while I'll be right here

Dolph: (Y/N)...I don't understand...ARGH! (Y/N) interrupted Dolph, scaring him after pressing her penis harder against him

Dolph could stop that situation, but he simply couldn't react, it was as if the inside of his body and mind were telling him to let it happen... at that moment (Y/N) seemed to show that she liked Dolph and he was so hot that he could no longer control his attraction to him...but what about Dolph?...Could he continue to control the feeling? even more so at this moment?...

Dolph's dick also seemed to harden under his shorts, his open eyes seemed to soften and his body became hot, Dolph's expression of astonishment was almost replaced by drooping eyes and a much more flushed and hot face

Dolph could feel (Y/N)'s big cock under his leggings, already throbbing and hungry for him...(Y/N) continued to say things to calm him down and get him to practice Yoga on top of the ball pilates...(Y/N) wanted Dolph to close his eyes and relax, but he was obviously going to fuck him...

Despite being hesitant, Dolph leaned on the pilates ball and still lying down softened his body, (Y/N) was surprised and smiled excitedly...Dolph was giving himself away, before saying anything...(Y/N) with their male hands just take Dolph's ass with very hard... satisfying his desires

Dolph, with his eyes slightly closed, his face flushed and hot, could let out low moans as his cock and nipples hardened more; (Y/N), already impatient, without worries and with calm on her face, caressed Dolph's thighs and waist, before pulling down his short shorts

Dolph's beautiful ass, so hard and defined...(Y/N) couldn't help but blush and her face heat up, he was almost licking his own lips as his eyes and heart were filled with attraction for Dolph and his body

(Y/N): Ah Dolph...forgive me... (Y/N) was almost running out of breath, he took his big, thick penis out of his leggings and quickly tried to penetrate Dolph

Dolph could feel (Y/N)'s difficulty entering him, and the pressure of his hard cock against him ass; When (Y/N)'s penis finally entered with certain force, Dolph felt a slight pain and instant pleasure...he opened his eyes wide and let out a loud moan, almost losing his balance on the pilates ball as his dick lightly ejaculated

Dolph: AH! DO NOT! WAIT!! Dolph was very nervous and seduced now...(Y/N) obviously wasn't going to stop now, and Dolph deep down wanted that...

(Y/N) ignored Dolph's words, he just started moving inside Dolph and with force, you could hear the noise of their pelvises hitting against Dolph's defined thighs and ass as he moaned desperately and getting more seduced

Dolph tried to keep his balance on the pilates ball while (Y/N) came in and fucked him...(Y/N)'s gentle way during the Yoga guide was very different compared to the way (Y/N) fucked him and made Dolph's body shake and moan; A thousand things were going through Dolph's head, he cursed inside asking (Y/N) to stop this, and at the same time asking him to continue...Dolph was going crazy...

(Y/N): Oh Dolph! I love you! I can no longer hide the fact that I simply want you... I know you like me... don't you? (Y/N) said in a bold and passionate tone, as she sweated and entered Dolph

(Y/N): We are old friends! Don't be shy...ah! I called you here so we could spend a little time together and Yoga would take away your stress...why did you have to wear this hot outfit?

Dolph: Oh...oh...why...I wanted to oh...be comfortable with you...OH!

(Y/N): Comfortable with me? and that means you have to seduce me? it would be a shame for you to come here...and I have to ignore my desires again...

Dolph: Oh! oh! Why are you doing this to me!? why?...~~

(Y/N): Well Dolph...you know why... (Y/N) stopped his movements on Dolph and still holding him around his waist, he quickly lifted Dolph from the pilates ball and kept him standing...hugging him from behind

Dolph's legs were wobbly and still open, (Y/N)'s penis was still inside him and along with his body was hot

(Y/N): You know I like you, maybe just as a friend, but no... I love you Dolph, don't you think it's strange that I'm so caring and helpful to you?...I'm in love...

Dolph was sweating and still out of breath, he felts (Y/N)'s penis inside him and his body was getting tired, Dolph looked at (Y/N)... who then gently grabbed his chin

(Y/N): Please Dolph say you love me, I want you...we've been apart for so long...I was always here just wanting you, please dear...I know and I can do many other things besides having sex with you...

Dolph: Oh...(Y/N)?... Dolph could relax for a moment, he looked deeply into the eyes of (Y/N) who was holding his chin, Dolph's heart was beating fast and his blood was getting much warmer

Dolph was also in love, his emotions made him feel strange around (Y/N)...but it seemed to be because of the time they hadn't had contact with each other....and it was actually the attraction of a by the other

(Y/N) was looking passionate and waiting for some response from Dolph... Dolph's legs were still wobbly and open while he was standing and being hugged from behind

Dolph's drooping eyes, his flushed face and charming lips... (Y/N)'s completely sweaty chest and shirt enchanted Dolph... and his still penetrated cock excited him and tied him to his arms

Dolph could quickly feel (Y/N)'s warm air, Dolph calmly approached his face, tilting his head up more and then kissed him...Dolph closed his legs, and still being hugged from behind and standing...allowed (Y/N) to taste his lips and tongue in a peaceful and loving tone

(Y/N) took his big dick out of Dolph and affectionately grabbed him by the waist and pinned him against a wall, he took off his short shirt and pulled down the rest of his shorts...leaving him completely naked

(Y/N) bent down and licked Dolph's belly, looking at him in a provocative and seductive tone, Dolph had nervousness and lust in his eyes...being immediately enchanted when (Y/N) stood up again and took off his leggings and shirt...to being naked with him

The tall, spotted (Y/N) glued himself to Dolph who was against the wall, standing in front of Dolph and looking at him enchanted; Dolph gave in to his feelings and attraction...he couldn't resist and put his hands and face on (Y/N's) chest, smelling him and one of his hands caressing and smelling him hair

After exchanging caresses such as touches on the waist, touches on the back, touches and licks on the pectorals and hickeys and kisses on each other's necks...(Y/N) made Dolph face the wall and made him put his face against it, Dolph had one of his hands on the wall while his other arm was pulled back by (Y/N), who with her other free hand was holding Dolph's waist and thrust his penis with all his might into Dolph...

Dolph's expression was tough this time, but he was still flushed and obviously seduced...he felt the pressure of (Y/N)'s penis inside him...including great pleasure

(Y/N) moaned seductively while Dolph moaned in a lower tone, Dolph could divert his mind to other situations at that moment...like his moments with (Y/N) in the past, the times he masturbated thinking about (Y/N) and what his relationship with (Y/N) would be like from now on...

Dolph's thoughts were then interrupted when (Y/N)'s movements began to intensify...he was going very fast now...Dolph became nervous and felt much more pleasure, he could feel his mouth watering and his lungs filling with breath

Starting to moan uncontrollably with (Y/N) who soon grabbed his waist with both hands, Dolph just moaned loudly and felt a wonderful orgasm as his penis ejaculated... also feeling (Y/N)'s semen inside him

Dolph and (Y/N) were exhausted, Dolph's legs were wobbly and (Y/N) had to hold him so he wouldn't fall...they both slowly lay down on the wooden floor, with their nerves on edge. ..sweating all over his body and breathing and expressions of tiredness, Dolph just hugged (Y/N)'s arm, who then smiled and kissed him on the head

After recovering a little: (Y/N) and Dolph were still naked and lying on the sofa in that huge space where the Yoga took place, (Y/N) hugged Dolph very tightly and kissed him on the head and necks...in a tone calm and affectionate, Dolph loved those kisses...he felt comfortable and relieved, giving light smiles with a sweet and carefree look

(Y/N): Hmmm you smell good...what soft hair my love...♡ (Y/N) began to caress and smell Dolph's hair, he said softly and with a playful tone

Dolph: Stop it...you're making me silly~... Dolph smiled and gave slight goosebumps

(Y/N): Leaving you silly, hmm? I'm the one who's getting silly...it's addictive to touch that beautiful hair, your whole body is perfect...It's so good to have you... It's so lucky that my dreams come true...baby...come here ♡!!

(Y/N) lying on the sofa, quickly put Dolph on top of his chest...Dolph was surprised and laughed with (Y/N), Dolph soon relaxed and lay down...and (Y/N) again began to touching and smelling his hair, he felt and appreciated the presence and contact with Dolph...it was a dream for both of them

Dolph: Yoga was good, really, but I think you're my best tranquilizer...

(Y/N): Oh yes...you too, I love you, you know?

Dolph: I know...now I know~... Dolph said to (Y/N), they just relaxed on the couch and conveyed affection to each other

Before they spending much more time together that day...after wonderful sex, and a delicate yoga...

Written by murasakinocatt

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forgottenarthur · 2 months

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OOC | Arthur & Marian

MOOOOOOMMMM!!! eeeee! so happy to have her here heehee ok so!! arthur and marian! as we both already know all too well arthur's got some issues but one thing he's really got down pat is that he loves his family v much and would do literally anything for them!!!! and marian is the stars in the sky as far as he's concerned!!! she deserves the whole world and he hates watching her miss out and honestly just wants to fix it for her!!!!! she just has to say 'i want--' and he's already out there tryna make it happen!!!

ok so im abt to crash so imma copy & paste some stuff from a [ comment i did recently to ciara ] bc i ended up talking a lot abt my hc's re: arthur and marian and, obv, this was all before you were talking abt taking her so obv this is all 100% just hc's and id be delighted to change any and everything around now that you're here, but i figured it might be a good jumping off point!! ok so:

DIATRIBE TIME: arthur def sees himself as the head of the ~marian branch~ of the varmont household if you will – the mini household within roderick’s household in a way…idk how to describe it hahah but he’s the eldest son in a profoundly patriarchal/primogeniture setting, and so they’re ~all his responsibility to look after, including his mother in a way since she’s a woman!!!

honestly idk if arthur can really even articulate how grateful he is to ciara for ~being there honestly!!! i think marian probs tries but ultimately its different like they’re both responsible for e/o and she’s not a varmont by birth and, even growing up as bart’s kid rather than roderick’s, ciara at least knows the burden of #growingupvarmont arthur, offhandedly: wow, i bet its nice to be bart’s kid me: *winks*

[re: the revelation of arthur's potential true parentage:]

and also itd def reshape his views of his own mother, who he’s always i think been super protective of, and always felt kinda brokenhearted for bc he felt it i was sooooo obv that she loves roderick sooo much and frankly waY more than roderick loves her, but then it turns out she was sleeping around w someone else??!!??! (nm that roderick was too alkjsdfakljsdf) and even the rationale would feel sordid and materialistic to him, like just an excuse or at worst, a grasping powerhunger grab for the throne etc so yeah!! his notions of both his ~biological parents will be shattered akjadsfkljdsfsd just a generally fun time for everyone honestly!!

so yeah like i said these were musings from before and are totally flexible and all of them represent only arthur's ~impressions which may or may not be correct at all anyway (we already know his impressions re: his dad DEF aren't right hahahaha) so yeah obv lots of stuff we can do but these were some notions i already had locked and loaded so, since im abt to crash (hopefully anyway! i have an early morn tmrw hahaha), i thought id share 'em! <3

#ooc #marian varmont

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earlgreytea68 · 1 year

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Very excited to see you excited, don't worry! A lot of FOB fans are very DL about liking particularly those two in a shippy way because we're all older and trying to be normal and people haven't always been normal about it, but my inner 14 year old still lives and she needs to see people like yourself lose their minds over these small gestures that mean the world to me. Shipping aside, because this whole band means the world to me and I'm a little anxious, I'm always secretly worried they're more colleagues than friends, so Patrick mentioning in that interview how they've learned and internalized how important it is to stay *friends* and not just be [voice full of disdain, the way Patrick says it] business associates, is so important to me. Sorry for the little ramble! In short, I'm so happy about it all.

Buckle in, this gets rambly and is probably completely unnecessary for the response you were looking for OH, WELL, THAT'S ME RIGHT NOW.

I am also always very worried that they might not actually like each other and it's all for show, and then I think: Why should I care? You know? Like, I write a lot of fiction about these two that I know is fiction, so why should THAT be the fiction that bothers me, that they don't actually like each other at all and it's one big massive performance?

And I think partly it's because what we want from bands is some little reflection of the joy that they give to *us,* you know? Like, you want the people in your band to love the band as much as you do. And sometimes it just doesn't feel that way. But you cling to the hope that no, no, they love hanging out at concerts as much as you love going to them. Think of that gifset where Pete says something like, "When people tell me my band saved their life, I get it, because my band kind of saved my life, too." That's such a compelling thing to say because that's an acknowledgment, like, I get why you think this band is important. It's important to me, too. And it's important for fans to feel like their band members find the band important. Our relationship with music is always an intimate relationship, and so it heightens how we view the bands we follow. They're with us at the most intense moments of our lives, and we want it to be mutual. You know? And this is why we want so badly for these people to really like each other, because we really like them, and isn't it so great when everybody is happy together?????

All of that wishful thinking established, I do think Pete and Patrick are genuinely friends. I think friendship looks different in your late 30s and early 40s than it does in your 20s, especially once you have kids. You talk to your friends less and you see them less but you still consider them friends, even if you only get to have dinner twice a year, even if you only text every so often. Pete clearly has a lot of friends he hangs out with a lot, golfing and playing tennis and going to theme parks and whatever else he's always running around doing. None of these friends ever seem to be Patrick. Patrick...doesn't seem to ever leave his house hahahaha. Or at least is very private about doing so. And so it's always hard to know how much hanging out they're ever actually doing, because it tends to seem to happen in secret, and we only ever see the end result of it.

But over the years I've gleaned a lot of stuff about how they interact to make me realize that Patrick just isn't that guy who does a lot of the random hanging out that Pete seems to thrive on. Like, Pete has a line in an interview somewhere where he says something like, "I figured out if I wanted to see Patrick we had to get together and write, because he doesn't just hang out." But it wasn't said like Patrick doesn't hang out because Patrick doesn't like Pete, just that that's not who Patrick is. And Patrick also says something in an interview at some point where he's like, "I will never go to anything but Pete always invites me and I always appreciate that." Idk, they feel like two people who each understand how the other operates and it works for them. Like, that's what makes it feel less performative to me. They aren't out for the cameras a whole lot. But they write a bunch of music and they kid around on stage.

Pete's clearly a savvy guy who figured out a long time ago that he could play up the relationship between him and Patrick and it would be A Thing, and he could still be doing that. When he posts sentimental little pictures of the two of them, when he wishes him happy birthday, when he talks about destiny because his grandfather was stationed on the U.S.S. Stump, like, this could all be performative stuff to keep that fanbase going, and that's all fine.

But I also think that's just because it's performative doesn't mean it's not true. You know when you're young and you have a close friend and you think that the two of you are just the best, cleverest, funniest people in the entire universe? And then you *perform* that for everyone to see? That feels like Pete and Patrick when they were young. And I bet you no longer perform that with your person. But that doesn't necessarily mean you stopped being friends with them. You just grew up a little bit and stopped performing as much. Or, if you're Pete Wentz, you never outgrew performing and just do it in a different way.

Someone said to me at one point that people have been saying Pete and Patrick secretly hate each other for as long as there has been a Fall Out Boy (in the same way that Fall Out Boy has been sellouts for as long as there has been a Fall Out Boy). If they hate each other, they have put up with that hate for a looooong time at this point. They had zero reason to put out another album right now, after this long break. They might be desperate for money but they shouldn't be, given all their side gigs. It's a lot of effort to keep pretending to like someone you don't like. Or at least don't like all that much. I doubt either of them feels like doing it at this point in their lives.

Idk that they loom as large in each other's imaginations as I think they probably used to, but that's just growing up. I think they *do* appreciate each other in different ways, and that is *also* growing up. But yeah, all the same, it's always nice to see them really look like they like each other. I could actually go on and on with the evidence I have gathered of instances where they act like people that are friends because it's so important to me, but this is already way too long, but anyway, yeah, I think they're friends, not just colleagues, and that's nice because it's always nice to think your band likes itself as much as you do.

(Also, like, the shippy thing, I have a whole ~~thing about how our society's emphasis on romantic love being The One True Value devalues all other relationships in our lives and that's why when we see people have important relationships we kneejerk ship them because we've been trained by society to think that's the only way people can value each other and I do think that's an important thing that is definitely at play in shipping but I write so many shipping stories that I don't feel I have a leg to stand on to actually interrogate that hahahaha I can just say, "Yes, society has done this to me, I am just perpetuating the problem, oops")

#long post #peterick #fall out boy #fob #bandom

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irregularcollapse · 9 months

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sdff OK OK. What's the deal with Auguste?? Sry I let a lot of things pass by through head lol, I'm really loving all these in depth explanations bc then things make much more sense.

Big fan!! I got into CP late last year and I've been reading a lot of FF but I have a tab open to constantly refresh so I can see what has updated. Really loving your story and I'm so exited to keep reading!!!

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Thank you! So much!! For this excitement and interest, and ESPECIALLY for going back and reading for details 😂😂😂 You've got me feeling like I've put my teacher hat on and have given you a further reading assignment hahahaha

I've said a lot about Auguste here, but there is always more to say.

First of all, "Was Auguste keeping Laurent from really healing by keeping him so close?" Yes! Big yes! You hit the nail right on the head. And as has also been hinted, Auguste absolutely does not realise this - although Laurent does. This is part of the resentment he has for Auguste, but also part of his insecurity. You will have seen Laurent actively question his own aptitude when he makes a mistake - in Chapter VIII, he says "the egregiousness of his mistakes so far are proof enough of that. Auguste has not been wrong, really, to keep him in check and under a watchful eye all these years. He isn’t ready to take control, to be in charge. Left to his own devices, he only ever invites trouble."

In continuing to treat Laurent like a helpless victim, Auguste is a factor in that notion enduring in Laurent's psyche. Not the only factor, but a significant one.

(CW for discussion under the cut of Laurent’s trauma and Auguste’s reaction to it)

Hopefully what comes through clearly as well is that for Laurent, there is real tension in laying some of the blame for his trauma on Auguste, while also having the levelheadedness of adulthood to tell him that Auguste was doing his best at the time. Laurent is now 21, the same age that Auguste was when their father died; he is now, more than ever, positioned to understand both how young and how old that is. In his younger years he completely resented Auguste for the way his grief took him away, but as he says in Chapter XIII, "with the clarity of hindsight and adulthood" he is able to see Auguste for what he is and properly empathise with him. The empathy and understanding don't completely absolve Auguste, and he still bears responsibility for the consequences of his emotional and physical absence. But he is a victim too, in a sense, and Laurent is rational enough (and loves his brother enough) to be able to see that.

The way Laurent blames himself for the abuse is also a factor in his thinking around the need to return to Auguste: he has, once again, done something that will cause Auguste emotional injury. But that's all I'll say about that, because it will be unpacked properly in upcoming chapters 😂

I feel like I've always got more to say about Auguste hahahaha I'm totally like "oh AND ANOTHER THING" every time I think I've finished a thought. I'm seriously so excited for you all to see how Auguste continues to haunt the narrative as things progress - he is such a spectral presence in the books, and I wanted him to essentially play the same role here. Every time Laurent has an Auguste-related memory, that is his love and grief shining through. That is him showing you exactly how much his brother has impacted his life, and how much Auguste means to him in spite of all the hurt between them.

Thanks again!! Ahhhh I'm having so much fun lmao

#asks #my writing #even in another time fic #captive prince

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moongeonight · 1 year

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the mysterious creature

Summary: Hagrid brings a new magical creature to his class and asks Harry to volunteer to show off his... curious ability.

A/N: Sorry if it's a bit short I wrote This at 2 a.m 💀

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They were going to start a new class with Hagrid, everyone was talking about what animal he could bring this time.

Instead, Harry despite the fact that he really likes Hagrid he was no un the mood to deal with dangerous creatures.

"mm I hope that is not like the last time..." Hermione said a bit nervous.

"heh yeah, I hope this time he shows us unicorns or something like that" ron said trying to stay positive.

"As long as it doesn't devour us that would be great..." Harry said in a bad mood.

At that moment Hagrid arrived with a box that clearly contained something inside.

"Well I think you're all here, So today I'm going to introduce an animal that I'm not supposed to show until sixth year but I wanted to make this class special, so I brought it for this class".

Hagrid said excited thinking that the others shared his emotion but the truth is that they looked more worried than excited.

"So... Are you going to show us now?" It wasn't Harry's intention to be rude but he clearly wanted the class end.

"Oh right... I present to you this magnificent creature!" Hagrid said taking the animal that was inside the box.

And it looked like a fox but smaller and more fluffy, also instead of having only one tail it had many.

"wooow!" "How cute!" "We can pet it" "is it dangerous?" the class said in delighted with the creature.

"oh nono he is not dangerous at all and about if you can pet him.. For that I need a volunteer" Hagrid said making an amused expression.

Sudently all the students backed off leaving Harry with his own thoughts in front of everyone, and when he realized it was already too late.

"Eh-? But I don't want to..." They didn't let him finish when Hagrid grabbed his arm to lead him to where the creature was.

"Very good Harry! Thanks for offering, now listen this may seem like a strange question to you but... Are you ticklish?" Hagrid asked quite normally.

"Eh?! Well I'm not sure..." Again Harry couldn't finish his sentence because Hagrid was already speaking to the class.

"Listen everyone, this creature is harmless but it has a particular characteristic, with his tails it tickles people when they gain their trust or in other cases when they feel threatened" Hagrid said placing the creature in Harry's arms.

"Wait! Hagrid don't-" Harry had to shut his mouth as the creature began to gently tickle his ear with its furry tail.

"AaH! Waihit- nohoho hagrid- take it away from me!" Harry squealed, trying to take it off himself but the creature was stubborn and clung to him more which tickled him more.

"ooh excellent Harry! You can tell that she already have confidence with you!" Hagrid said ignoring Harry's giggles.

"i dohohon't cahahare- just take it out!" Harry start to desperated when the creature began to tickle his armpits.

"hahaHAHA NOHOHO!" Harry could only say in response.

"aahh don't worry Harry this is normal though... Normally people don't laugh a lot, you must be very ticklish right?"

Hagrid asked innocently, not knowing that when he said that Harry's face heated up and he blushed more than he already was.

"DAMIHIHIT! HAHAHAHAHAHA NOHOHOHO!STOHOHOP IT PLEHEHEHEASE" Harry swear he felt more ticklish with this tickling creature.

To his bad luck, the creature also started tickling his neck and right there he broke completely.

"AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA NOHOHOHO!HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!" Harry laughed like a crazy, he wondered how long it had been since he'd laughed like that.

He tried to remove the creature again but it kept clinging tighter to him, he reached a point where he fell to the ground laughing with the creature on the top of him.

"oh! ok I guess that was a enough of demonstration" Hagrid said finally taking the creature from him.

"ahaha...ah." Harry didn't know what to say, now he had his classmates and his friends laughing quietly at him, though… he wasn't going to lie, it felt good to laugh after all this time.

#tickling #harry potter #hagrid #tickle fic #harry potter tickle #harry potter tickling #lee! harry #sfw tickling community

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you and a lot of other people write multiple orgasms as part of your fics, and i get that they're hot and the idea in itself is hot but is it realistic? because i've never experienced multiple orgasms with a partner or with myself and i don't know if i'm doing sex wrong or if there's something wrong with me?

hey bb x

yes, it's true that we do write that, and exactly like you said, it is bc the idea in itself i'm sure is hot for a lot of people (including myself).

now, is it realistic? i'm sure to a certain extent it isn't, but smut, like with any erotica/porn/etc should always be taken w a grain of salt, and it is amplified/exaggerated a bit because i think at the end of the day it's supposed to be your ideal fantasy, right? like sex in itself is not nearly as glamorous/hot/streamlined as you read/see it, which is why i recommend always being careful with what you consume, and that's also why i don't like minors reading my stuff, because they would get maybe unrealistic expectations of sex, which is not my intention (which is also why i'm so honest/open in my asks about sex and ii'm more than happy to debunk/explain things further)

multiple orgasms are very much possible, although not everyone has them and there's absolutely nothing wrong with you if you don't get them. i didn't have them for a long time. but now that i know a few tricks, i do have them quite often, although not all the time. the most i've ever gotten was seven in one night, although that only happened once hahahaha. i think the trick with them is know what to do, not to do, so here's some tips that helped me.

know your body. know what you like/don't like, what makes you tick, what makes you cum - what pressure you like, what position you prefer, whether you prefer clitoral/penetrative stimulation etc.

make sure your partner knows your body/is willing to listen/is responsive to you and what you want/say

after your first orgasm, don't expect to be able to orgasm right away, it doesn't work like that (or at least for me it doesn't, and that's where i went wrong for a long time). take time, where you build back the anticipation with light touches, focusing on smth else (breasts/neck/belly/face/jaw, whatever floats your boat) - we're usually very sensitive after an orgasm (especially clitorally), and so trying to get back in there is not going to feel good, don't force it.

after a while of more foreplay, after things get steamy again, try and see what happens ;) you might be surprised.

basically just take your time, that's the most important!

hope this helps and good luck x

smooches x

#my asks 💕#𖨆♡𖨆 andra's anonnies #🍒 andra's asks: sex ed

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poochiray · 1 year

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an extended authors note

this is my first time sharing my thoughts on my blog about a completed work, but I feel it’s needed. i don’t want to take away from my story with my salty/snarky comments. so i’ll talk about it here.

the title for my fic Kill Your Darlings comes from three inspirations. the first of which from Tay himself. for those that are unaware, earlier this week Tay & Gun were photographed. Gun was standing close to Tay, his face hovering near Tay’s neck. he wasn’t kissing him. his face was just there.

& apparently this was too much skinship for some of tay’s “fans.” people actually started tagging tay on twitter voicing their displeasure of taygun and how “hurt” they were about the photograph. and tay, in kind, replied to one such person calling them darling and basically asked what happened. why were they so upset. ya’ll...these fucking haters actually starting saying so much shit and being rude and entitled over tay’s own personal life. and then the other half were upset that tay had called this hater darling and not them. in which tay, cheeky lovely tay, said no trust me. you don’t want to be called darling in this context.

this all happened a couple days ago. then it kinda blew up on twitter. there are shitty hashtags of antis and haters and some of the comments about taygun in general. it’s been brewing for days and i felt the need to do something. what, i don’t know. but ya’ll...i love tay. i love tay with gun. i love tay with off. i love the three of them so fucking much.

and it got me thinking. deep in my delulu brain. imagine a world where tay actually is in a relationship with gun. imagine having to keep his affection to a minimum because they are both in the spot light. imagine people that are your fans just completely shitting on the idea of your actual secret romantic relationship.

i’m not claiming that this is what has happened. only tay, off, and gun know the true nature of their relationship. but either way, it’s just made me really think about things. it’s made me more aware of my comments about ships i don’t like and all that. i don’t tag actors anyway, but now i’m just gonna refrain. if i don’t like an irl ship, i’m just gonna walk away. or not comment. we just don’t know what’s real and what’s not and we don’t know the extent of how much we’re hurting people.

so anyway. these thoughts were on my mind for the past few days. my heart was with offguntay. i knew i wanted to write something in response to what has happened. it’s how i can express and organize my thoughts. and this story just spilled out of me one afternoon as a result of what all transpired.

the title came first. i knew i wanted to use the word darling. and then kill your darlings just cropped in randomly. there’s a film starring daniel radcliffe with the same title. ya’ll should watch it. it’s a good story and is the footage for a lot of drarry fanvids lol. but anyway. tay used the word darling as a kind of “kill them with kindness” approach, so it just made sense to me. kill your darlings.

it’s also a phrase used in writing. which is the opening quote. so there ya have it. the three inspirations to the title. and why i even wrote this to begin with.

i had wanted to write a sexy kinky story...and instead the characters just broke through and wanted to show me this instead. so if you have gone this far and read through my lengthy note, thanks. if you read my fanfic, double thanks. it’s a short story but i’m pleased with how it turned out.

it’s just a shame because the ones that should read this story (the antis) would never. they’re happy being hateful little assholes.

ah well. i’m sure somewhere in the world, offtaygun are fucking the shit out of each other in a silent protest. (hahahaha maybe. 👀) till next time folks.

💚👶💙

#my writing #authors note #offgun #offguntay #tayoff #taygun #tayoffgun #offtaygun #fanfic

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builtlikeastickofcelery · 1 year

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I BROKE. TIME TO INFODUMP

FIRSTLY: this is mostly based off of 2012 with some rise influence.

In this au splinter is absent for most of their early lives due to him believing his kids would be safer without the foot targeting him (i promise there’s a plot to this but for now its gonna be silly). And since theres gonna be a plot thats about it ! Oh also they met april at 11 yrs old I think and Casey just a little bit before the story starts

ANWAY HAVE SOME BULLET POINTS

Casey tries to do their own facial piercings

The piercings almost always get infected

They have to go to donnie for help

April wears her iconic hat to hide her dark roots (shes not a real ginger!!)

Leo is technically the second-oldest they just have a complex

the turtles steal most of their food

April goes to a bouldering gym and can scale buildings

Casey plays roller derby

donnie is the oldest despite the fact that they’re all 15

None of them could cook until the age of 12

They all play dnd passionately

donnie is the oldest because he said he scientifically proved (lied) it and everyone else called dibs on who would be next oldest (raph and Leo agreed to tie)

now take some character blurb thingies that go by age

April: april is 16 and has a driver’s license (could technically be a junior in hs but she’s not), shes very cool and accidentally went ginger at some point then just decided she liked it?? No one knows. They go to a lot LOT of concerts and also rock climbs and she loves women. Also a drummer in a band called smth that i will figure out later. Definitely takes a lot of responsibility for the wellbeing of the turtles due to their situation but like subtly. they for sure got their own issues but chooses to ignore em a lot of the time. Only child (lameee)

Donnie: hes 15 and pretends hes biologically the oldest (he is not they’re all the same age). he made all the blueprints for the lair once it was decided it was too small. hes very good at stealing stuff which is how he gets most of his materials, learned how to hack into ATMS a while ago but thinks it’s morally wrong (only used in desperate measures). Doesn’t mind not being the leader since he knows his claims of being the oldest are total bs but definitely adopted an oldest child mentality. Keeps a lot of problems a secret from his “younger” brothers and mostly talks to april about it. Extremely silly. Main doctor but also very squeamish specifically about bones (not broken bones, just the concept). Purple everything. He has access to every one of his sibling’s internet accounts he just doesn’t tell them about it. Also the main cook, since he would try and read whatever books they could find in dumpsters, especially when they were kids. Shares leo’s space interests less because of a show and more because of science stuff. Didn’t like Casey at first but they got close super fast later on. He is the best thief out of all of them (shhhh).

Casey: also 15, in april’s grade. Knows april from Spanish tutoring despite the fact they’re latine (haha if im violently whiteified my little guys have to be too) very into punk subculture and roller derby and also engineering/mechanics (I’m very excited to show off his vigilante equipment). Constantly does dumb shit for no apparent reason. Very much similar to 2012 casey (says “thats so metal dudes” anytime anything horrifying/dangerous happens). They also have had weird unspoken tension with everyone completely by accident and cant stop falling off of buildings. They have zero fighting skills or training but somehow haven’t died yet. Missing one tooth, top of the mouth next to his right canine (replaced with a glow-in-the-dark plastic one don’t ask them how it stays in).

Leo: 15, self-proclaimed second oldest and leader. (they have a complex probably) they’re only the leader because [HAHAHAHA PLOT AND BACKSTORY] and everyone else just stuck with it. They try very very hard to be silly and goofy but are also constantly anxious, not specifically about their siblings but like in general. Very very hesitant, prefers stealth (and stupid jokes) to direct confrontation. very close with raph since they’re “twins” (all of them are the same age). Intense sci-fi/space obsession, they’ve watched every single episode of their world’s equivalent to Star Trek (and all the movies) and also had a huge nonfiction phase which is still ongoing, fueled by stolen textbooks and endless internet videos . They also write fanfiction (secretly and make fun of other people who do to throw off their siblings it doesn’t work at all). They are so so lame and i love them so much.

Raph: 15, also second oldest, very very overprotective but like low-key about it. Super close with april and leo. Does all the confrontation and has accidentally been confused to be the leader of the team (CONSTANTLY ends up in hostage situations to the point it’s almost funny). ALLERGIC to Feelings he will Die if he has to talk about things so he mostly vents by tearing up his room and then feeling bad abt it. Made donnie help him find leo’s fanfics and then swore him to secrecy forever. Very distrustful, secretly super artsy, weirdly obsessed with messing with ppls hair (probably because he is surrounded by bald ppl). Also secretly a fashion icon, he has a disguise specifically so he can go to the mall with april and look at clothes for fun. He is physically the strongest out of everyone and has a really bad habit of using himself as their meat shield. Accidentally very very silly dude.

Mikey: 15 the Absolute Youngest by request. He is objectively the best fighter but is constantly being sidetracked by his siblings taking hits/taking out enemies for him (look theyre all just Like That). Really really smart when in a crisis, but for some reason not in a low pressure situation. She tries to cook but ultimately prefers baking. He’s also good at building things, so he usually hangs out with donnie in his workshop and made a lot of the lair’s furniture though he somehow can’t build anything from ikea. Also knows about leo’s fanfic career and accepted a bribe of a hubcap chandelier (?) to not tell anyone. Leo never made him a chandelier but at this point she has completely forgotten about it. Is secretly a beta reader for the fics and pretends she doesn’t know leo, except for when he describes very very distinct details of their home as suggestions for a room or something. Will continue to do this until leo either has a nervous breakdown or realizes it’s him.

PLEASE ASK ME MORE ABOUT HTESE GUYS IM BEGGING YOU AUGHGHGGH

#tmnt #tmnt au #casey vs. gravity #duskys au #duskys evening post #THEY ARE SO MY LITTLE GUYS #theyre mostly based off of 2012 #with a little tiny bit of rise mixed it #so I will tag this as 2012 just so that ppl who are interested in their dynamic shifted a bit to the left will see it #tmnt 2012 #i think I can also call this #casey jones infinite rizz au #<- im so sorry #night Night now babygirls!!!

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