#i needed to get it out of my system and to give jesse some much needed love
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"She's my wife."
Summary: Miguel thought you and his daughter died and you thought the same about him but when the truth comes out it makes for an emotional reunion of a small family (I changed Gabriella's age so the story would flow better)
Word count: 1.2K
Warnings: grief, kissing
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Miguel’s eyes focus on the familiar group in front of him on his screen, a video he’s watched only too many times, so many that he can recite the words you say. He counts down the seconds until you walk onto screen watching your reaction to him and Gabriella wearing the matching outfits you bought for them, Gabriella only being about one at the time.
You walk in the room, your hands over your eyes before dropping them and cooing at the adorable scene ahead of you: Gabriella hugging Miguel as he’s wearing a begrudging smile.
When you and Gabriella first died he would re-watch the videos with tears in his eyes, angry tears but now he just watches them with longing in his eyes.
You, however, did not die nor Gabriella but you were accidentally sent to a different reality, leaving Miguel behind, except you thought he died just like he thought you died. In the other reality you had obtained “Spiderman” powers (through the usual way) and made sure that you protected Gabriella with your life for a few years before you’re recruited by some other Spider people who say they’re from another reality.
The concept of different realities is not a foreign one to you but you didn’t realise that there was a whole organisation called the Spider Society set up.
“Can you go over it again?” You ask, resting your head in your palm, all the science talking making your head hurt.
The Spiderwoman in front of you who you now know as Jessica explains the whole thing to you again, but leaves out the science making it easier to understand and conceptualise.
“And you want me to join?” You ask.
“Yeah, I’ve been monitoring you for a while now and I checked with a couple of colleagues and we decided to invite you. We’ll still have to introduce you to the boss though because we didn’t check with him before talking to you.” She says.
“Okay, I’ll check it out if you can take me wherever it is but I’m not making any promises. And I need to take my daughter with me.” You say, bargaining with the small group.
“That’s totally fine.” She says with a smile, handing me a couple of watches.
“Now?” You ask, surprised about the efficiency.
“Are you busy?” She asks.
“No but I’ll have to get my daughter…” You trail off, moving through the apartment to Gabriella’s room. “Hola, ‘Riella.” You say, using the nickname that Miguel gave her. You give her a brief explanation basically that you had to go somewhere for work and that she had to come as well.
A few minutes later, you emerge from the room holding a young sleepy girl ready to go. It takes another few minutes to fully explain the portal system and eventually you’re flying through the multiverse staring at all the bright colours, careful to hold on to Gabriella.
Later, you step out of the portal next to Jess, opening your eyes to reveal countless Spidermen and Spiderwomen including animals like a Spider Cat? You question, unsure you’re seeing everything correctly.
You’re quickly led through the building by Jess, clearing used to the craziness of this place as she navigates easily. The people here are friendly enough though as the amount of smiles and “hello”s you receive is incredible.
“So, I’m gonna introduce you to my boss, he runs pretty much everything here and he can be a little scary sometimes but don’t worry about it, okay?” You nod, more scared than you were before her reassurance.
She pushes open the door to reveal a slowly lowering platform, a man sat in a chair on the platform. Jess stands in front of mm and it almost seems as though she’s trying to protect you from him which only worries me more.
The platform reaches the floor and the man stands up from the chair not having yet turned around and you can feel my nerves peaking, until he turns around.
Instantly, my eyes widen and I don’t believe I can be seeing things correctly and my reaction is mirrored on his face. I stand frozen to the ground, shocked to my core as I stare at him scanning over his features making sure I’m correct. That’s my husband. My husband who is supposed to be dead.
“So, (y/n), this is-” You interrupt her staring at the man in front of you who’s staring back at you.
“Miguel?” You question quietly causing confusion to arise on Jess’ face.
“Oh, you guys know each other?” Jess asks as you begin to move towards Miguel.
Holding on to Gabriella gently, you walk towards the man who stands frozen. After he registers your movement he mimics it, walking towards you until you meet in the middle him immediately wrapping his arms around you. You never realised how much you missed the feeling of his arms around you until you feel the warmth and safety he provides you with.
“(y/n)?” He says, questioning you with an unstable voice.
“Yeah.” You say, tears gathering and leaving your eyes as you cling onto his large body.
It stays silent for moments although to you it feels like years, thankfully. After these moments you slowly pull myself away from him,
“I don’t understand how you’re alive but I don’t care right now.” You say raising your hand to his face, stroking over the rough “stubble”, but it’s more like he just forgot to shave for a few days.
You smile through teary eyes, looking up at your husband who towers over you. You get on your tip toes but you’re still not tall enough to reach his lips so you wrap your free hand around the collar of his Spiderman suit, tugging him down to your level and smashing your lips against his. He used to chuckle when you had to pull him down to your level but now he’s just happy to be with you in the moment. The videos combined could never live up to the reality of him having you here with him.
His lips are rough and chapped, not how you remembered and his hands are coarse, the time spent without you had clearly not been a good time. It wasn’t for you, desperately trying to protect and provide for Gabriella without Miguel by your side - it certainly wasn’t easy but it doesn’t matter now because you’re together and now no one will be able to change that ever again.
“So, you do know each other?” Jess says and honestly you forgot she was there but you turn to look at her with a small smile.
“She’s my wife.” Miguel says looking up at her and Jess just looks very confused, previously thinking his wife was dead.
You quickly interrupt, moving Gabriella into his arms watching as she slowly wakes up.
“I’m sure she’s missed you.” You say, quietly watching as his eyes seem to shimmer looking at his daughter for the first time in years.
“I missed you two so much, you have no idea.” He says and you can hear the tears in his wavering voice. “I’m never letting you two go ever again.” He says wrapping his arms around the both of you.
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AN: I hope you enjoyed reading!
I thought I'd try writing in 2nd person, which do you prefer, 1st person or 2nd person?
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hockey!Abby x dancer!reader pt8 (end)
pt 1 pt 7.75
Abby gets injured during practice.
Tags: modern au, fluff, fem!reader, shy reader, reader is into sexy/girly dances, Abby is a sweetheart, switching pov. Swearing (a lot of), kissing.
Notes: inaccurate display of: hockey player's injuries (it's not the most common one, but I'm not hurting Abby's pretty face); american health system - i just decided if it's so expensive they probably give you everything at the hospital? google didn't really help here, so sorry if it offends anyone.
A/N: that's all, folks! This is the last part of this story. Thank you all so much for reading it and enjoying it with me! The story was pretty fluffy and I wanted to give it some balance, so this part happened. I hope you'll like it as well.
But as I said before, I'm going to write some blurbs about them, so this is not their last appearance. (currently I have like 5-6 ideas for them, and half of them are requests that I really liked but didn't have time/mental space to write).
Thank you again! <3
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"You know what, Abs?" Manny asked while they were changing for the practice. "I could really use some love advice."
Abby scoffed and raised her eyebrows at him, not really sure what the fuck he meant by it and why he even needed it.
"Love advice? Do I look like the Elle girl advice column to you?"
"You got your chick somehow, yeah? So you probably did something right."
"Do you want to ask your weather girl out?" Abby finally put two and two together. She knew they were friends with benefits, but she didn't expect Manny, of all people, to catch feelings. "Man, you fucked up."
"Come on, share your lady loving wisdom."
"Just be honest with her. It will only get worse if you keep it bottled up." Abby shrugged and put her helmet on, eager to escape Manny and his strange love problems.
"That's how you got (y/n) to date you?" Manny asked with suspicion while they were going on the ice for the warmup.
"I asked her on a date. Do the same." Abby said sharply and skated away. She wasn't going to deal with Manny's uncertainties when everything was resolvable if he'd decide not to be a coward.
Something was…not right with the way Abby's right skate slid on ice, but Abby couldn't really understand what and didn't pay any mind to it, thinking she was just imagining things and getting paranoid. She thought if she just willed her mind to think her skate was fine, it'd actually become fine.
And it was fine during the first half of the warmup, so Abby decided she was just overthinking and seeing things that were not there. Eric instructed them on the group warmup and Abby gladly got into the position, ready to kick her teammates' asses. Everything was just the same, she skated as fast as she could, getting past her pretend opponents and scored a few times.
And then everything wasn't just the same.
Abby was doing a hockey stop when something happened and suddenly she was falling on the ice with the speed of a fast hockey player, her head, shoulder and knee hit the floor so hard and painful she didn't even notice the real problem yet. She groaned and sat up immediately, while Manny skated to her, worried.
"Abs, are you okay?"
"Shit." Abby groaned as her head spun a little. She moved her shoulder to check if anything serious happened, but it was mostly fine. She started to stand up, but when she put weight on her right foot the pain shot through her body and she actually let out a short cry as she fell on her ass. "My ankle, fuck, I can't stand on it." Abby said, panting from sudden pain that wasn't going away.
Everyone was coming to them to check if everything was alright, and Abby hated it, hated having attention in a moment of weakness, hated that people got worried.
"You need a doctor." Manny said and motioned to their teammates to help him get Abby up.
Him and Jesse pulled Abby up and let her put her weight on them as they skated her back to benches. Abby tried to close off from everyone emotionally, but Eric's disgruntled face made her irrationally upset. Boys helped her sit on a bench and Abby started untying her skate on the right ankle with a rush, hoping to prove she was fine and she just twisted it and everything was going to be fine.
"What happened?" Eric asked in a tense voice.
"I have no fucking idea." Abby growled and took her skate off, examining it.
The fucking screw. The fucking screw fell off and her blade was unstable and that was why she felt off on the ice the whole practice. Abby wanted to smack herself in the face - she always checked her skates, she knew it could happen, it was a fucking rookie mistake.
"The blade got unscrewed." Abby said way too neutral.
"You didn't check your skates before you went on ice?!" Eric erupted, annoyed and angry. "Anderson, are you five?"
Abby didn't say anything, because she didn't have an explanation why she forgot to check, she couldn't even understand it herself.
"Amazing." Eric huffed. "Abby, the next game is in a week, what the fuck are we supposed to do now?"
"I just twisted my ankle." Abby bit back. "I'll be fine in three days."
Abby took the second skate off and stood up to prove her point, but she immediately sat back down as she felt her ankle just sinking down to her foot as if nothing was keeping it in place.
"Yeah no shit you twisted it." Eric rolled his eyes. "Fucking hell, Abby, the whole fucking season will go to shit now because you didn't fucking check your skates."
"Don't be dramatic." Abby rolled her eyes, but his words were getting to her. She knew her ankle wasn't twisted - it was more serious, and she wouldn't be on ice for god knows how long, and she was one of the best in their team, people were relying on her, and now she let them down.
"Come on Abs, you need to go to the hospital, it doesn't look good." Jesse pointed at her already swollen ankle.
"Yeah I know." Abby bit back and Jesse just rolled his eyes in return, refusing to deal with her shit.
"I'll drive you. Come on, let's go pack your bag." Manny said too cheerfully, knowing what a bitch Abby could be when something was out of her life order. Eric just huffed and went out of Manny's way.
Abby didn't say anything and let Manny support her as she hopped all the way to the lockers on one leg. They didn't talk and Abby was glad - she really didn't want to discuss the whole situation. She clumsily changed her clothes while Manny waited and chuckled when Abby swore in irritation.
"Ready?"
Abby glared at him and Manny just laughed, taking her bag in one hand and supporting Abby with the other as they slowly made their way to Abby's car.
Fuck, she couldn't drive anymore. Abby felt her chest tighten from her frustration, but she kept it to herself. Manny took her driving seat and started the car.
"Maybe call (y/n), let her know what happened?" Manny suggested carefully.
The thought of worrying you almost made Abby cry from anger - not only she let her team down, but now she couldn't take care of you the way she wanted, and even more, you'd be the one to worry about her and take care of her, because she knew you wouldn't leave her alone and let her lick her wounds in peace, you were just as caring as she was.
Abby opened your chat, going for an easy option - she couldn't handle hearing your concerned voice and managing her emotions at the same time right now.
to: dancing queen
I hurt my ankle during practice
Manny is taking me to the hospital
Abby sent her messages and locked her phone, not sure now if she'd be able to handle your concerned texts. She tapped her fingers nervously and Manny looked at her, curious.
"You texted her?"
"Yes."
"Good." Manny turned the wheel. "You know Eric is an asshole, right? He talks shit all the time."
"But he is right, if I'm not on the ice the whole team is fucked."
"Fuck you, we can play just fine." Manny laughed. "If we always relied on you then what's the whole point of the team? I promise you, I'll personally put these pucks for you while you're home. Each one of them is going to be for you, Anderson."
"Yeah, I don't think there's going to be a lot." Abby snorted, getting some sense of normality back with the way they bantered. Manny hit her shoulder playfully and she laughed a little.
Her phone buzzed with the notification.
from: dancing queen
r you okay?
I mean
Obviously not
But how bad is it?
Abby felt her heart clench in her chest with how typically you your texts were.
to: dancing queen
Can't step on my foot, i need to get an x-ray
from: dancing queen
this sucks :(
I'll come to your place tonight
If it's okay
?
to: dancing queen
Ofc
Abby typed it, but she wasn't sure if it was a good idea: she wanted you to comfort her, but the thought of you seeing her being weak made her feel ashamed. She couldn't say anything else to you now, her head was not in the right space anymore, so she locked her phone until she got a new notification.
from: dancing queen
Text me when you get your results, ok?
to: dancing queen
Yes ma'am
from: dancing queen
Love you ❤️
we'll figure it out
to: dancing queen
Love you too
Abby took a sharp breath to keep her tears at bay, trying to ignore your last message: she was supposed to say these things to you, she was supposed to take care of you, to soothe you and fix your problems, not the other way around, and if she just fucking checked her fucking skates nothing of this would have to happen.
Manny didn't try to talk to Abby anymore until they came to the hospital.
The whole ordeal didn't take a long time: they quickly got Abby's information, the doctor looked her ankle over and sent her for an x-ray, all professionally uncaring, just like all doctors were. It kept Abby grounded, the familiar place and familiar attitude of her father, all calm and all-knowing, like everything was manageable and fixable and nothing was truly a disaster.
Manny helped Abby to get to the x-ray room and after that they just stayed and waited for a doctor to come and tell what was wrong with her ankle. Abby already knew he'd say it sprained, and she knew it meant 3 weeks of not leaving home and not stepping on her foot, a few days of RICE, and a bunch of fucking problems and a nasty recovery.
Fuck she felt awful.
The doctor came and said the same thing - she sprained her ankle, no movements, put the ice on, wear compressions and keep the foot on something higher than her body position. Abby knew all of it.
The doctor gave her two options for her ankle: either a cast or a heavy duty ankle brace, which was a much better option, so Abby got her brace and a pair of crutches.
Abby looked at them with a heavy heart: she knew how useful they were and how much her life would be better with them, but for some reason she felt like they were the last thing that just cemented the thought that this was it. She was going to be dependent on other people, and she would be taken care of, not the other way around. And it made her feel weak, and she hated it. Her independence and self-reliance was something she just couldn't let go of, and this situation was forcing her to let go, and it was making her angry.
Abby accepted the crutches and it took her a few minutes to get the hang of it, but it was so much easier to move now and Abby felt relieved - at least she didn't need Manny to help her walk now. She was wrong - the crutches were not the last nail in the coffin with her independence, they were the thread that kept her independence alive.
from: Abby
My ankle is sprained, but it's not too serious
Manny is driving me home rn
You looked at your phone and sighed from relief: you were worried Abby's ankle might be broken, or worse, her ligaments fully torn. The sprains were nasty and annoying, you knew it from experience, but it was manageable and it didn't leave you fully immobile, which was a plus you get to appreciate after you get immobile.
to: Abby
I'm relieved it's not broken
I'm on my way
You already packed your bag with everything Abby'd need for her injury, including some snacks that could lift her mood up. You suspected she was upset but didn't want to show it or even talk about it - in these months you've been together sometimes it was a struggle to support Abby emotionally because she wouldn't share what was bothering her. Not every time, but she had some touchy topics and she'd be grumpy for a few days, processing it by herself, but trying her best not to be a bitch to you because of it. You appreciated that and didn't pressure her to talk to you, but sometimes you just felt like you didn't give Abby enough support.
It was cold outside, but Abby's hoodie kept you warm under your coat as you waited on the stairs of Abby's apartment building for her to come home. You put your cold hands into your pocket and waited until you saw the familiar car pulling over.
Manny was driving, and you felt like it was wrong, but you were really thankful Abby had someone to take care of her and help her when you weren't around. You came closer to the car while Manny helped Abby get out of it, handing her her crutches.
"Hi." You said gently and hugged Abby as carefully as possible. She couldn't return your hug, her arms supporting her weight, but you didn't expect her to. "How are you?"
"Fine." Abby said in a blank voice, but you didn't comment on it - she was definitely not in the mood and it was justified.
You looked at Manny and he just rolled his eyes, definitely telling how much not in the mood Abby was.
You decided not to ask any questions until you got Abby comfortable and safe, so you made some small talk with both of them, trying to bring Abby back from her head. She was keeping up with the conversation, but you saw how slowly but surely she was getting pissed off because it took her so long to climb the stairs. After a flight she just handed her crutches to Manny and started jumping over the stairs, holding to the railings as she went. It was indeed faster, and after ten minutes you were finally home.
"Thanks man." Abby said when Manny put her bag down on the floor.
"That's nice to hear." Manny smirked and patted her shoulder. "Get better, Abs. Make your ankle your bitch and heal it."
Abby chuckled and you hugged Manny goodbye.
"Thank you for taking care of her." You said quietly.
"That's what friends are for. She gave me love advice, I gave her a ride to the hospital. Good night, ladies."
Abby let out a long sigh and started taking her coat off. You did the same, and when all street clothes were taken off, you followed Abby to the hall, patiently waiting for her to move. Abby sat down on the sofa and you sat beside her, taking her hand in yours.
"What did the doctor say?"
"The ligament isn't torn fully, but it won't heal fast." Abby said, her voice just a little tense. "Three weeks at home."
You opened your bag and took a bottle of chocolate milk you bought for her.
"That's to cheer you up a little." You smiled and got a small, faint smile in return, but it was more than enough for you. "Okay. I've been through this shit before, so I bought some things that can make it easier and faster."
You took a few tubes and showed them to Abby, who was still grumpy and tense.
"This is from the bruises, because they're going to be big, this is a painkiller but actually has some repair effect, and these are vitamins that can help with healing."
You laid it all on the sofa and Abby looked it over with the most blank face you saw in all this time you knew her, and it was making you anxious.
"You also need to put something cold on it right now, it'll help with the swelling."
"Yeah, I fucking know, I'm a fucking med student." Abby rolled her eyes and you froze, immediately shutting up.
That hurt. You swallowed the lump that suddenly got stuck in your throat, wounded by Abby's tone and her irritation with you when all you wanted was to help her and take care of her.
There was a tense silence and Abby shut her eyes in guilt as the situation dawned on her, but before she could say anything you started talking despite the lump in your throat and pain in your chest and shaking hands.
"Abby, don't talk to me like that. I know you're upset, but please don't take your frustrations on me." You said in a surprisingly steady and strict voice. You didn't deserve to be treated like this, especially by your girlfriend, especially when you were trying to take care of her.
Abby looked guilty, but her face got closed off for a moment as if she considered shutting you out, and you felt like something was dying inside of you because of it.
"Fuck, sorry." Abby sighed with guilt, not looking at you, clearly too vulnerable for her liking. Something eased up in you after you heard her voice: she was trying to resolve this, and this what actually mattered. Abby looked at you, finally, with guilty puppy eyes and it calmed you down a little, knowing she wasn't turning it into a fight. "I just- fuck."
You got closer to her, taking her hand in yours again. You put your feelings away for now, fully concentrating on making Abby feel safe to open up.
"Hey, I understand." You said in a gentle soft voice. "Been there. We can talk about it if you want, or you can vent. It's fucking annoying, isn't it?"
Abby shut her eyes tightly, her jaw tense - she was trying so hard to keep calm and not cry. She even turned away from you, embarrassed of her weakness, but you were patient.
"Yeah." She said in a strained voice, her crying bubbling up in her throat.
You hugged Abby carefully and the dam broke. Abby sniffled and silently cried in your arms, all frustration and guilt from the day getting out as you caressed her head and shoulders, soothing her. Abby relaxed against you, fully leaning on you not physically, but emotionally.
"It's so fucking annoying, the stupid screw fucked everything up." Abby said in a hoarse voice somewhere in your neck, her tears hot on your collarbones. "And fucking Eric just kept saying shit how we'll lose now because I'm not going to play."
"Asshole." You huffed. "Fuck him."
Abby chuckled halfheartedly and stayed in your arms for a few minutes, calming down, her head getting clearer.
"I'm sorry I snapped at you." Abby said in a small voice. "This whole thing sucks."
"It does." You kissed the top of her head. "Abby, I'm not scared of your anger or any negative emotions, okay? You can fuck this whole room up and I'll cheer you on, but don't fuck me up because of it."
You were shaking but your voice was steady. You knew Abby needed to hear that, and you needed to show her your limits, so even if your anxiety was going through the roof as you were saying these words, they needed to be said.
"'m sorry." She said again, now even more guilty.
"Thank you." You kissed her forehead. "It wasn't okay, but we're okay." You said just as gently as before and Abby hugged you tighter.
You were still a little shaky, your heart still ached, but you weren't mad anymore. You kissed her forehead again, the desire to soothe her growing by the second.
"What happened?"
"My blade got unscrewed. I felt that something was wrong, but ignored it. So I went for a stop and my skate broke down."
"Oh god." You imagined Abby falling on the ice and you felt awful. "Does anything else hurt?"
"Shoulder's bruised I think."
"Okay. What if I run you a bath, then we will sort out all the medicine and then you'll rest? I'll order some food if you want."
Abby suddenly got very aware of how hungry she was.
"Yeah."
"Cool." You kissed Abby quickly, happy she was letting you take care of her.
Abby felt shy for some reason, waiting for you to run her a bath. She wasn't used to anyone taking care of her, so it made her feel useless and confused, but in a good way. Abby felt awkward just waiting, she wanted to do something, so she started stripping while you fixed the water temperature. Her right shoulder was bruised, but it didn't really hurt to move it.
"Okay. So, as a sprained ankle veteran, I have some tips." You said comically and Abby smiled. "I know you're tough and strong, but don't try to get inside in one go. Sit on the edge and then slowly turn around."
Abby huffed - that should have been obvious, but she also wanted to get in the bath in one go because she was not a little bitch, so you caught her there. The pants were tricky to take off, but you helped Abby with it, sitting her down on the edge as you tugged them all the way down. The brace was lying on top of Abby's clothes and you looked over her swollen ankle.
"My poor baby." You cooed and kissed Abby's cheek. Abby huffed, embarrassed, but deep down she enjoyed you babying her like this. "I can tell you something that I'm not supposed to tell you."
Abby got in the bath carefully, relaxing and letting the long sigh out.
"Yeah?"
"Yeah. I usually get so fed up with hopping, I start putting my weight on my ankle after a week. It's a bad idea, so don't do it."
"I think you told me that so I could do it." Abby chuckled.
"Well, I know you'll get fed up with it, so I thought I could get you to not stand on your foot for at least a week." You smiled bashfully.
Abby's mood was going up a little as you talked to her. It felt almost normal, as if you were just hanging out.
"Can I wash your hair?" You asked, shy, and Abby felt her chest bubbling up with affection. She squeezed your hand and nodded.
You moved behind her and started massaging her scalp tenderly, and Abby relaxed, enjoying your fingers in her hair. Abby always got sleepy when someone was playing with her hair, and after this awful day your hands felt like a blessing, lulling her worries and anger away. You were so careful and gentle, so fucking loving Abby wanted to cry and to pray to whatever deity that made her stay at the dance studio that day.
"Close your eyes, baby." You said quietly and Abby obeyed, letting you wash the shampoo away. She felt like with this shampoo something nasty went away, something that made her want to tell you to fuck off a half an hour ago when you were so kind to her. Abby couldn't deal with kindness very well, especially when she felt weak. Abby always reacted to people caring about her with anger, like a wounded animal that attacks a helping hand thinking it’s there to kill it. Abby hated pity, and kindness tore her apart and made her achingly vulnerable, but she was safe with you. You were handling her shit with care and love and she snapped at you in return and she wanted to cry again now.
"I'll never be mean to you again." Abby said nearly choked up by her shame, but she wanted to say it out loud, to promise this to you.
"Baby." You said in a fond voice and Abby felt like she was on fucking fire from you being so gentle when she was vulnerable. She couldn’t actually say anything in return, her emotions, positive and negative, were making a molotov cocktail in her chest, burning through her as your fingers tenderly went over her body.
After bath you helped Abby dry her hair and change, and then you were both back on the couch while you explained some things to Abby about living with a sprained ankle that she probably didn't know, like wearing high socks with a brace because it would hurt otherwise. Abby put some ointments on while you went to get her high socks, and then you ordered some food while Abby put the brace on. Abby sipped her chocolate milk, so pleased with having something sweet to boost her mood. You really knew her, didn't you?
"I'm going to be super unpleasant, but you need to email your professors." You said, and Abby groaned. She forgot about her classes, and now it would be such a pain in the ass to keep her grades in check while she would be at home.
“Oh yeah, my profs are going to kill me.”
“Not if I kill them first.” You said, completely serious, and Abby laughed. You looked like you were ready to kick her professors’ asses if they’d even think about not accommodating Abby now. “I’m serious, I’ll hunt them down if they give you a hard time.”
“Doll, you won’t hurt a fly.” Abby cooed at you and enjoyed your stern expression that made you even more cute.
“I usually don’t have a good enough reason.” You shrugged. “I could be downright nasty if I wanted to.”
Abby, who's seen you telling people off, decided not to argue with that.
“Do you want me to stay the night? Or would you prefer to have some space?” You asked carefully, and Abby got upset like a baby from the thought that you might leave, so she grabbed your hand and pulled you closer.
“Please stay.”
This night Abby fell asleep in your arms as you hugged her from behind, her head tucked under your chin. Your breathing was deep and steady and Abby felt like your little form was protecting her from every worry, every self-deprecating thought, soothing her desperate anger, calming her sea storm like some kind of ancient goddess, turning her violent waves into a quiet tide as your gentle hands caressed her skin.
Abby was safe with you in a way she wasn't safe with anyone since she was a small baby, and she seared this feeling on her heart, not letting herself ever forget how you made her feel.
"Hey, (y/n)." Abby called quietly, not sure if you were awake.
"Mhm?"
"I'm going to marry you."
You laughed quietly and kissed the top of her head, and Abby let you think she was just joking, but she knew that one day she'd buy a ring and get on one knee in front of you and make you hers for the rest of your lives, because you were the one for her.
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WIP Poll Results
Thank you to all who voted! Tagging those of you who reacted in case you're interested:
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Here's the results of my hard work, admittedly some fics got more than what they should have but too bad (also there is smut at the end so minors DNI):
THE WINNER: The Animal in Me (fc5 werewolf au) - 13 sentences
The liquor coursed through her system making her head spin and legs feel like jelly that moved at the speed of thick molasses. Light-headed, she stumbled through the door of Jacob’s cabin and made her way to the living room, narrowly missing Princess before flopping down onto the nearby couch.
The white wolf, having once been laying curled up, happily dozing on the rug on the floor, lifted her head and tipped it, trying to get a better sense of why this woman had invaded her territory.
Jacob made his way towards the couch, stalking towards her in the dark room. His sharp, pointed canine slipping out from below his upper lip as he smirked. “Whiskey sure did a number on ya, didn’t it?”
Kit’s legs hung draped over the armrest as she scooped her hair out from behind her head, stretching her arms out above her. “I never could have had this much before." Looking up at him with a grin as he untied and removed the boots from her feet. "I still have enough sense of myself even if my legs would like to tell you differently.”
“Guess you’re happy that I turned you now, huh?”
Kit rolled her eyes and rubbed at her forehead, trying to fight off the cascading waves that hit the inside of her skull. “I wouldn’t say that.”
American Beasts (kit's fc5 canon timeline) - 9 sentences
“She’s like the Predator, man. Comes in all stealthy like, so we gotta fight her the same way Dutch did.”
“Wait, when did her and Dutch fight?”
“No man, not that Dutch, you know, Arnold Schwarzenegger. The fuckin’ terminator. We gotta trap her and then instead of her tryin’ to blow us up we do that to her.”
“You wanna blow her up?”
“She’s a fuckin’ freak, my dude. You heard about what she did in that video. She’s with them, man. She’s with the cult, she killed Jess and she killed Eli and the other Whitetails. You think she gives a shit about any of us? I severely fuckin’ doubt it.”
Only you (fc5 soulmate au) - 6 sentences
"You know them best, what's their next move?"
"That doesn't matter. They need to be taken out of their element. Joey is strong, she needs someone who can break her. Staci's willing to do whatever's asked of him as long as there's good reason for it, he's got no backbone -- he's weak. And as for Whitehorse, he's complacent, does only what is needed to keep the county afloat."
Jacob stood hunched over his map looking at her, "Go on."
"Joey goes to John, Staci with us and Whitehorse goes to Faith."
"Works for me, angel."
Kakia (Kit's Herald/Role Swap AU) - 5 sentences
(apparently I'm writing this one in present tense, not sure why, but going with it for now)
Jacob knocks, heavy strikes with the side of his fist against thick wooden doors. It takes some time but the doors finally open, revealing a redheaded woman with the coolest blue eyes he’d ever seen besides his own, wearing little more than a silk robe the color of ivy. He’s meant to be there for business not pleasure, but he can’t help when his eyes travel over her form hungrily, barely able to hide the attraction he’s feeling for this strange woman in his midst.
“Good morning…” Her eyes scan over the height and width of him, until they land on his badge and a smile creeps across her lips. “...Sheriff.”
He clears his throat, trying so hard to remember why he came here in the first place. “Ms. Cross.”
Arcadia & Empyrean (New Dawn AU) - 6 sentences
Her eyes widened, pupils made into pin pricks at the realization of what he meant. It was a death sentence without calling it that. She had no allies, no safe haven, she’d be fodder for the Highwaymen and the creatures outside their walls all the same. "Exile. You're banishing me?"
"Like Adam and Eve."
Kit's lip trembled, her hands falling to her sides in tightly clenched fists as her nails carved crescents into her palm, fighting the seething rage inside her. "You will bring nothing but death upon our people, Joseph. Do you hear me? I upheld the peace. I played my part. I did what you asked of me."
"The Lion is no longer needed." Joseph turned to the Judge, nodding for him to complete the sentencing.
Even with the mask on she could tell the man underneath was hesitating. Trapped between his loyalty to the Father and to the woman who saved his life all those years ago, the woman who he joined the cult for. He stared at her for a moment, head tipping slightly and she could picture the brown eyes behind the dark holes trying to beg her for forgiveness for what he was about to do. Slamming his fist down on the table like a gavel her sentencing was complete. She was Persona Non Grata once more.
Pred/Prey Smut (MINORS DNI)- 9 sentences
“You like being treated like an animal, don’t ya? Not enough I put a collar on you, is it angel?”
Kit couldn’t speak as he ravaged her with his hands, a tear rolling down her cheek as her thighs clenched together and her walls clamped down around him. She was so goddamn close, he was going to make her cum any second.
Coiling her hair around his fist like the leather of a leash, he dragged her back to rest against his shoulder and he kissed her deep. Muffling her noises with his tongue, biting down on her lower lip when she cried out, his hand snaked between her thighs from the front, focused entirely on her clit.
She became a sobbing mess under his touch, panting and moaning at his rough touch against her.
Music Box Smut (Minors DNI) - 5 Sentences
As the music dug into her brain, seeping into her every synapse, rewiring her mind, her thoughts were in a state of war. One half controlled, ready to kill and destroy, the other desperate to please, filtered down to her base desires, animalistic and wild. He’d tested and proven his theory on so many unwilling subjects and now to have her at his fingertips fully accepting of whatever happened while she was under the effects of the conditioning, he’d be lying if he said he wasn’t at least a little excited at the prospect.
Her eyes snapped open, and the deep recesses of her mind could be seen in her eyes. Icy, cavernous and dark, no light could be seen in them at all. She pushed him off of her, her strength channeled into enough force to send him to the floor. Pulling away from the bed, shoulders and back rising up from it first, her feet landed on the wooden floorboards. Eyes kept focused entirely on him, stepping towards him with long strides as he backed up trying to regain his footing.
Grabbing the rough camo of his jacket in her fist she dragged him up to stand and face her. Clawing at him once he was in her clutches, her nails ripped at his shirt as she dragged him down into her embrace and then forced him further down onto his knees. Kit’s fingers ran through his hair, nails scratching against his scalp as she gripped his ginger tresses tight in her fist and forced his head back, exposing his jugular. That cold, dead stare of hers traced down the length of his throat, over the bobbing of his adam’s apple and landed on where his arteries kept his blood flowing.
“You gonna hurt me, angel?” Jacob asked, testing the waters, checking to see if any part of her might still be in there at all or if she was all machine.
Her face remained placid, as static and unchanging as marble. “Only if you tell me to.”
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I'm thinking about my 7 year old oc again
My "little" rant is below the read more so I don't clog up your feed and there's descriptions for the art with a bit more information in the alt text thingy. I add alt text with personal comments to most of my posts but I saw a post somewhere saying most people don't even realize the feature exists, so I'm just. I'm stating it here it exists I use it
While Jessica was experimented on by an entire institute, there was one main person overseeing the experiment, and that was the guy up there. The original experiment was to see what happened when you combined animal DNA with human DNA, since in this fake world genetic science is a bit farther than ours today, and this particular facility had successfully given animals different attributes, such as a rat gills and and chicken a tail like that of a cat. Despite both those creatures dying within hours, this corrupt motherfucker decided to try and get a human subject, and Jessica's family needed the money. Thankfully, not only did the test of giving her dog dna [idfk I'm a cat person give me a break on the breeds] worked, it turned out she was much harder to kill, and had not grown as expected from a 14 year old girl who's going through puberty and in turn growth spurts.
Anyway yada yada she broke out find out she's immortal whatever. Other notes :
She has a brother. I forgot his name but he did have a name, and was later submitted to the facility before her family found out she was missing at the age of 19 and survived, but he gained a compromised immune system and I might give him mobility aids. His color scheme is mainly green and yellow and I always think of those aesthetic pictures of the shoreline when I think of him. Jessica meeting her brother [now technically 23] is a very big help to her recovery, and while her brother is accepted and loved in their home town, Jessica can't bring herself to come back and usually asks him to visit her on the edge of town or at her house, usually bringing along friends. Eventually the main scientist dies by her hands and she covers it up ["cmon gromit, we have to hide the body! There's not cheese and crackers in hell, gromit!" /ref], and a few years later the facility is shut down due to malpractice and Jessica slowly starts to actually visit the town and her parents. They never have the same relationship they used to, but her parents are just happy she's safe and sound and being taken care of.
Jessica will eventually outlive Flora and inherit her belongings, as Flora lived alone her entire life, her photography career and later Jessica being more than enough to make her happy. Jess would start managing her social media when she got older, and never had the heart to delete anything, inviting her distant family to the funeral and arranging for her to be buried in the woods near her home. She's still visibly 14, and would simply live later with her brother in Floras old home and take care of it the best she could. Her story is about moving forward, and as such, you could say she has an infinite epilogue, rather than my other ocs who never get an ending, and the ones that do are frozen at the very end of it, not meant to go any further.
Jessica isnt meant to be aroace, but I heavily imply it because her never aging causes complications, and this isn't really a vampire example. She and her brother are the only one of their kind, and her brother is still destined to fall at some point, aging slowed dramatically rather than completely stopped. I used to consider giving her a love interest for hours on end, but eventually her being 14 would interrupt it and I just gave up. Flora however, is aroace, sex adverse and is the reason she chose the lifestyle she did.
Speaking of Flora, dispite living in the middle of nowhere in the woods, she's quite the extrovert. She loves nature, and used to be a wildlife ranger before her photography career took off, and often travels around the world to capture wildlife. When she found Jessica and found out she had run away from home, and didn't ask any questions after until they had more trust built up between them, simply providing shelter and care that eventually became a permanent roommate situation. She slowly worked up to taking jobs around the world again, but now that Flora had someone to come back home to, she booked her flights to make sure she could be home as much as possible. I think if Jessica was a normal girl and somehow found her way to Flora, they would spend weeks in Paris and Britain together, Flora never leaving Jessica behind on her trips. Unfortunately, werewolf science experiments would never get past TSA.
I don't know if I've ever said this but hey I'll say it again she used to have actual wolf dna, hence werewolf, hence Jessica Winterwolf, but I learned to draw wolf ears from gacha life and I genuinely didn't know what to do about it and couldn't think of another way of drawing them without them looking like cat ears, so I just made them floppy like a pug. Also Winterwolf is because winter is Jessica's favorite season.
Similarly with Jessica's ears originally being gacha life, I actually conceptualized her fully for the first time with a designed I liked in there, and one of the bits that stuck was the fact that she has crescent shaped pupils that are a lavender shade.
Her existence was heavily inspired by a series named "Harrowed Past" which has now been taken down by the creator, but the characters still live on, you can probably find it if you search up "pip and twitch thedragonhat" which I think is who made it?? Oh well I'll edit the post later if I'm wrong. Twitch was actually the first piece of art/fanart I ever made with the purpose of getting better at art, and I really wish i still had it, but I can't even find a picture i took of it or anything. Unfortunately, the character is really hard to find since his name is shared with the giant streaming site Twitch. I haven't watched the guys stuff in a long while but I think he uses twitch as his main vtuber for streaming nowadays which is cool.
#auegh i forgot the tags i use for jessica#oc art#original ranch dip#art#talk talks#im aware the alt text is for screenreaders but i find it useful to add extra notes in there#its like a little extra secret that not everyone will care to look at but the ones that do get a little reward#and all of my art posts would be like 100 words longer if i didnt use it#i know most people literally do not care and that im actively discouraging people from caring about my oc my making such long posts but#i dont care i love her and i need to talk about her#the tips of jessicas ears as well as her tail used to be purple too but i scrapped it when i changed them from wolf to pug#also i forgot her tail in the bottom image in arguably. the one angle that you could actually see it but im not retaking that picture#that took so long to get correct i dont want to do it again. her tail is also like a pugs though it used to be super long and fluffy and now#its usually curled up against her back or hidden in her skirt which makes it easier to hide#her lab coat in her alt design was how she used to hide it though
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can we have a rundown of readers relationships with all the characters as of chapter 11? :P like what she thinks of them and where she stands with all of em individually?
I wanted to reply to this sooner but I'm in the middle of editing and both this ask and part 11 turned out longer than intended (someone needs to take my laptop away from me, especially after part 11 😭) but here it is! I hope it gives you a clear picture, though some friendships I haven't really thought of as much as others (sorry). I also want to clear up that part 11 takes place a few months before the Thanksgiving drabble. Part 11 takes place sometime in May, early June, two months after Miguel's near death experience.
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Just to get it out of the way, reader loves everyone in the friend group! They're her found family and she's grateful that they've welcomed and taken her in as part of the friend/family group! She wouldn't be where she is now mentally if it wasn't for them! And without Miguel, too since she tells him things she doesn't share with others. The Spider Society has changed her and given her a support system! 🥺
Individual Characters
★Peter B.: She sees Peter as a kind of friend/father ish figure? You can tell from their interactions from when Miguel was in the infirmary, the way he comforts her is kind of father ish but there's still the friend element. Lots of respect for him. She loves that Peter got a second chance with MJ and now he has his little family.
★Jess: Reader sees her as a mentor and friend. Reader has a lot of respect for her! She's grateful to Jess for recruiting her into the Spider Society and not giving up after reader rejected the invitation the first few times. She wouldn't have her found family if Jess hadn't insisted.
★Miles: Out of all the other teenagers, reader has the strongest sibling sense with him in my head. It's supported by the way Miles's parents have taken her in by inviting her into their home and their family gatherings. They show her parent love sometimes, even though she's an adult and Miles also treats her like an older sibling, so he's truly like her little brother!
★Gwen: She's like reader's teenage sister. She can tell when Gwen is down, especially when Gwen thinks back to when she lost her version of Peter and what happened with her dad, so reader gets her to talk and cheers her up with something she baked.
★Pav: I love Pav and Hobie as new additions to the cast (obviously Miguel is included in this....), so I always have reader interacting with the two of them somehow. Pav is like a little brother, too! She hears him out whenever he needs to talk about Gayatri (both good and bad, though Pav and Gayatri never have bad moments, I don't think?), which reader also loves! She visits Pav's universe a lot and sometimes asks for hair advice from him. Reader usually sits with him and Hobie above the cafeteria watching other spider members. She just listens and watches as Pav mentions how "the chemistry is palpable" between certain spider members. He's always right...
★HoBiE!: Same as Pav but with Hobie there's a little difference because of Hobie's slightly older age. He seems like the type of person who can read people very well and reader is no exception. When she tries to play off something, he pushes her to be honest (same way he did with Gwen when she didn't tell Miles everything regarding the Spider Society and all of that). There was actually a deleted scene in part 9 when everyone shows up at the infirmary at the end (that made the cut) and he asks her if Miguel knows how he was found yet (reader's spidey senses going off and her actually finding him). She gets a little defensive and tells Hobie that she'll tell Miguel if he asks her, saying it's not important now that Miguel is safe. Pav is there, too and at reader's defensiveness, him and Hobie share a knowing look. Hobie's like the one that knows something is going on underneath the surface between reader and Miguel, at this point lowkey, and he gets worried that Miguel will end up hurting reader by pushing her away. Reader loves Hobie even if sometimes he pushes her out of her comfort zone by making her speak up or so, when she usually wouldn't.
★Margo: Same as Gwen, she's like a sister to reader. Reader always tries to cheer Margo up because she knows about her family life (I hope it gets better in the future). She offers her apartment as a place to stay if Margo needs to get away for a bit. It was mentioned in part 8 that Margo goes to sleep very late (I don't know why but Margo struck me as a night owl lol) and reader respectfully tells her to get proper rest because she gets worried about her. Reader wishes she could do more for Margo.
★Porker: Good friends with him. He let's her borrow some of his weapons he carries around because of his hammerspace, which reader finds fascinating (also the fact he can float in midair when he smells food?). Finds his universe interesting. One of his counterparts has beef with her. No, I won't elaborate right now.
★Noir: Sometimes the other spider members (not in the friend group) tease him about not being able to see colors or by the way he talks because of his time period, and reader defends him (this is when reader stands up). When they play board games on Friday nights and the colors matter she helps him! He really likes her apartment and loves her baking, which she's always happy to bake for (Noir gives me sweet tooth vibes). Also, he loves the fact that reader has her Peter's record player because, you know of his time period, so she loves telling him about her own Peter's music collection.
★Peni: She's also like a sister to reader. She noticed Peni likes to eat sweets when she works, so she always takes her little snacks. She's one of the youngest in the friend group so reader sees her as a little sister. Reader also loves Peni's robot and she admires Peni's abilities (girl literally made/fixed, I can't remember, a goober in ITSV so reader is always impressed.)
★Ben Reilly: I'm including him because I love him, too!! There's not many interactions with him and reader in the story but in the background they talk. They go on missions and work together. She has learned about his past and is more understanding towards him than other members are and because of that he really likes her...
★Lyla: She pushes reader's buttons sometimes but is that surprising? She still asks questions to reader when she's organizing the lab or working on the reports. Reader does love her though! She knows Lyla has kept Miguel company on days when he had no one else so for that, reader is very thankful. They have a little banter that sometimes makes Miguel wonder if Lyla would happily ditch him to work with reader 100% but he's not bothered by it though because it's reader and well...
★Miguel: He's her friend and confidant. She shares things with him she hasn't shared with the others. Her friend group is her found family, and Miguel is her best friend, though neither have said it yet but like, they keep referring to each other as "close friends" so... Loves spending time with him, especially outside of HQ! Still goes on missions with him and they sneak to the tallest building when they're done collecting anomaly matter. They eat paletas payaso and other Mexican candy that Miguel keeps hidden in his lab just for them just for her. 🤭She's very grateful that Miguel has opened up to her and trusts her with things he, too, has never shared with anyone else. She wishes she could comfort him in more ways but she's patient with him and respects his boundaries. She knows one day she might be able to but for now she comforts him however she can. They spend more time together now that they work on the reports and have dinners at each other's places. Finds his presence comforting. Loves his cooking! She'd do anything to see him happy again and for him to have his old life back.🥺 Wishes she could've met him when he had Gabriella and his wife. Wants to see him smile and laugh, like his true smile and laugh because she knows what she sees and hears is still somewhat reserved but she loves what she gets already because she knows no one else gets to see/hear him like this. She loves him as a close friend/best friend... for now.
I think that's everyone? Let me know if I missed someone! And I'm sorry for just replying! I didn't think it was going to take this long to write lol!
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I keep regurgitating my OC in your askbox but you must know that Ansi is a liar, a swindler, and a thief (because it's fun pulling on over on the rich). She is actively swindling all of her coworkers out of their money via phishing emails or just giving a sob story to those who are particularly generous with their funds. (Don't feel bad they're all selfish, entitled, and egotistical. The Alchemax of her world is mostly just rich people who think that they understand science kinda like someone we know irl cougheloncough. They have too much time on their hands and too many friends in power. Ethics laws are pretty much meaningless. They only give her money to make themselves look better. They make a big stink about how they're making a change for their community and blah blah blah. Anyways.) If she doesn't need the cash she'll most likely donate it.
What's really funny is that she attempted to do the same as soon as she arrived at HQ. Much to Miguel's dismay. She got some of the spiders who live in an older dimension. Unfortunately after a while Lyla had to teach them about internet safety.
Ansi ended up scoping the place out to see what she could steal to sell for parts back in her home world since her scams were no longer effective. However she was so mesmerized by all of the tech there that she ended up keeping most of her stolen goods for herself to tinker with. Her and Hobie usually find themselves in the same areas snatching stuff and exchanging potential ideas for what to do with the parts. Disco has caught them a number of times with their pockets stuffed to the brim sounding like they got pockets full of loose change before they just pop back into their respective dimensions.
(Who am I kidding Hobie probably stays and denies everything when asked. Ansi is too tired to lie from lugging her loot around so she just goes straight home.)
I LOVE THIS SO MUCH
It would turn into like a whole operation cause game recognize game!!!! Disco would respect Ansi so much cause black spider-women gotta stick together and she lets Ansi get away with anything, sets aside parts for her cause she's like 'hell yeah fuck miguel he doesn't need it'
but with Hobie she's the OPPOSITE.
Ansi's like 'yeah Discos cool with it ur fine' then one day she catches him and he's thinking 'oh it's the groupie girl i wink and im outta here'
until Disco is like
"Is that Hobie Brown??? Is HOBIE BROWN over here STEALING???? That's crazy!"
Because Disco runs game in her own way and up until that very moment she was playing the airhead groupie card
Hobies like "????Surely ur taking the piss"
And she's like "You know what'd be crazy?? Me not having to pay cover at your show this weekend, rightttt? You know what'd be even crazier..me being VIP, rigghhttt?
cause for the first couple weeks of knowing her she let him get away with the wink and flirt thing cause she thought it was funny. but she works in a nightclub back home and she's NOT about to play that
Disco was raised by the Panthers so she knows how to collect and trade information like an informat. So she trades info and other stuff around HQ ALL the time.
She's the plug for anything - if you wanna hack ur watch she dont know how to do it but she knows someone he does, if u need to get into lylas systems for any reason she wont do that but she knows someone who will
but she doesnt accept cash cause she doesn't need it and she doesn't 'get into no mess'
(And this may sound unhinged but this is my favorite one jgkbdknbg)
My main HC is that the first time she does it to get into a show free but the next time she asks for his guitar pick cause she just wants it
she starts wearing it (which Jess HATES) but suddenly she realizes theres a couple girlies on campus telling her they'd do anything for one of Hobie's picks and then suddenly she's asking him for more
She starts giving groupies picks and getting information from every department and then like two weeks later the hobie brown fanclub is just a full on info network
Working with Jess and the club she collects all the underground info and shares the information with Hobie ON THE CONDITION that the club gets free entry into shows and he keeps giving her goddamn guitar picks
He'd try to get around it and be like "Diane, love - you're looking fit today :)) about that meeting with Jess and Miguel you were in-"
and she's just like "uh-huh-
"Where's the pick? And don't say you ain't got it on you, I know you do."
Cause one thing about Diane is you ain't playing her. And Hobie goes along with it because 1) Disco is actually really trustworthy, 2) it's damn good info about the society, and 3) he thinks it REALLY funny to see people walking around campus trading and collecting his picks for the sole fact it pisses Miguel off SO MUCH.
Suddenly people are talking in meetings and whispering about guitar picks and trying to get their hands on rare, unique ones cause Hobie etches his logo into every one
and one day Ansi's hanging with Hobie and Disco comes up to him and is like 'Pick, please'. And Ansi watches as he hands it over and she's like "?????? What's happening here"
I have to PHYSICALLY STOP MYSELF HERE I CAN GO ON AND ON IM SORRY THIS IS SOOOOO LONG
BUT PLEASE!!! I love this please send more!! I love hearing about Ansi and Hobie and causing havok and an underground rebellion in the Society!!! And sorry I got so carried away I just love this idea, you can send any you have, I'm down! They would all get along so well lol
#spidersona stuff#And IM ABOUT TO SEND U OC QUESTIONS IF THATS OKAY#spidersonas#spidersona#hobie brown x oc#spider-man#spiderman#spiderpunk#oc stuff#atsv#hobie brown
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okay alright. onto uhhHHHH. DO i have thoughts about it. AM i coherent. here for now until my brain reboots (i was looking up paper girls trailers like WAS this show actually good for like ten minutes and it threw me off)--this shall be an all over the place ask by the way--: jorat is SO INTERESTING i am FOAMING AT THE MOUTH. CHOMPING AT THE BIT TO GET ENOUGH DETAILS ABOUT THIS COUNTRY TO ANALYZE THE EVERYTHING. the respect for the horses!!! FIREBLOODS!!!! their honor code (and all the ways that the antagonists continue to perform offenses against it)!!!! the environment!!! the SKIN MARKINGS!!!! just GRAHHHHH. AND THEY HAVE AN ENTIRE TRANS FESTIVAL. obviously the country is not w/o its prejudices (read: the giant ass xenophobia signs and also the assholes that are oreth's family regardless of who owns who) but it is so interesting to just!!! just the everything it's just everything. the things of idorra and thorra and mares and stallions and the respect you give to people and how everything is based on the herd mindset: what you protect, you own, and all that.
ALSO- STAR! OF CO U R S E HE'S DORNA'S CHILD LMAO. oh man. sad i don't get to see him as a main character taking up more space right now but also yk janel very much takes up the role of that specific kind of character... OH AND! kihrin understanding the gender thing, associating it back with his own culture, when janel finds out who father zajhera was.... What a Scene. i find myself comparing it to jess and morgan sometimes and then other times not... very similar character shapes, but the dynamic is shifted to the left.
Literally! I heard about Jorat and immediately went I need to know everything ever about this country. I love that it's not perfect. It both has these lovely beliefs about gender and has questionable practices alongside that. I made a shitpost about the inclusive misogyny--because it's still a divided country based on gender, it's your internal gender identity that matters, not your physical sex. Which!! Is a fascinating idea!
There is a place in fiction for idyllic, escapist places, but sometimes you want to explore something imperfect but different. To have something interesting and new to question and think through and explore. Jorat wasn't made to be a fantasy it was made to be a place in a fantasy, you know? And places aren't perfect. Jorat is both victim of being misunderstood and disrespected and perpetrator of strict rules and xenophobia against the other countries' ways of life.
and the festival of turning leaves!! in exchange for some community service for a while Galava will literally change your physical sex for you, and not only does this exist but it's cherished. It is a valued and beloved festival amongst the joratese. Jorat I love you. Not in spite of your imperfections, but because of them. Because you are not a perfect place you are a real place with real problems and complexity. Even though I don't want to participate in the idorra/thudaje system it's so fun to ponder
Also shout out to Star! what a fun character even if he's not around very much. Janel does absolutely take up the genderqueer character mantel valiantly, but I wouldn't have complained about having another. Though their are some discussions of gender to do with other characters (specifically Tereath).
it's hard to conceptualize that Father Zajhera scene at first (at least for me) because like...we've just met Janel fully, but thinking back. Holy FUCK. Imagine. The man who saved you and personally attended to you for YEARS after a horribly traumatic incident. a kindly mentor who literally treated your MIND. and he turns out to be RELOS VAR??? that is fucked beyond belief my god...would be very curious to hear more about this jess/morgan comparison though!
#a chorus of dragons#quil's queries#soryasongsaa#if I am not addressing even single comment in these it is because. you sent many asks#i hope you do not mind#i'm not competitive enough to be joratese but if I could be joratese just for the horse genders....
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You are genuinely so kind and responsible, I really appreciate you. I dont like to talk much but your way of navigating this situation made me need to speak out in appreciation. You are helping so many people in ways you dont know. I leaned on poppy/jess and Zena for support, and I knew before these blogs had come out that they werent who they said they were when I got up close to them. I always assumed I was the problem. You have validated my experiences with them in a way that is unbiased and kind. I dont wish ill on them, but i am hurt by the way they treated others. I love that I can count on you not to be vindictive and malicious toward them while also highlighting the issues.
There are some people who are capitalizing on this moment to hurt a trans creator. But that shouldn't be a reason to ignore their very real harm. You specifically are giving a space we can talk about it in that is moderated, and I appreciate you for it. I will defend Poppys trans identity and plural identity to my grave, but it doesnt erase the real harm shes done. I dont want to see her suffer or get hurt, I want her to see where she is hurting others, and stop this destructive path so she and others affected by her recent actions can be happy.
It's a continuous effort. The Spawn situation very deeply hurt me and I wanted to externalize it, let people know how angry I was. But I can't let that get the best of me. There are also things I draw the line on, even if I really, really, really detest PZ. Anyone's transness is not up for debate.
I actually do believe in plurality, and I'm not going to foster a debate here on whether or nor certain people have it or don't. If I did we'd be talking in circles. I ALSO believe in System Responsibility. Alters do not exempt anyone from taking accountability for the things they say. An alter does a crime, the body goes to jail. An alter says/does terrible shit, I'm not going to enable it because "only x said it."
I don't want anyone to die. Ideally I want those involved to reflect and step away to do regular people things like... jobs that don't involve vulnerable people... having healthy hobbies... having fun that isn't at the expense of others.
It takes a lot of restraint sometimes to not throw away my sympathy or compassion. I didn't plan it when I made my blog, but I've become a representative of something bigger than my opinions. Thank you, Anon, for being very sweet. It really helps me focus on what is important.
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Guys, she's so . . . you know, I'm not going to insult someone just because I disagree with them but my problem has always been how Jess is extremely pedantic about things that amount to nothing but radio silent on the actual issue(s).
For example, she's having a convo where she's criticizing Harry for speaking out about the Commonwealth and colonization and whatnot. She says that, in her view, what bothers her is that Harry is a private citizen and "he has the power to actually do what the royals can't do - apologise and give reparations - and is choosing not to".
On its face, this seems like a good argument. Harry likes to talk the talk but doesn't want to put his money where his mouth is. That's a valid critique, sure, but once you think about it for 0.5 seconds you begin to realize that she isn't critiquing Harry as much as she's defending the British Royal Family at his expense.
I don't know if Jessica just doesn't know this, but reparations are not given out on behalf of private citizens. That is not how they work. If America decided to give reparations to African Americans, it wouldn't come out of the pocket of the descendants of slave owners. It would come from the state. A reparation is understood to be compensation, usually monetary, for a previous historical injustice or wrong against a marginalized population. When people say that the British Empire owes reparations to its former colonies, it is because the British State (including the royal family) has built its wealth from the exploitation and enslavement of other now independent countries. Therefore reparations cannot be given by just Harry, even if he does benefit from that exploitation as a royal, it needs to come specifically and directly from the institutions that benefited from it. Furthermore, the goal of reparations is also rehabilitation and restitution, restoring the marginalized community to its previous state before it was exploited and insuring something similar will never happen again. I'm sorry, but that isn't something Harry can do on his own. Stuff like that requires direct action from the state and, dare I say it, The Head of State.
I don't know where it is written that the British Royal Family ~can't~ give reparations. Or where it's said that only private citizens can apologize. That's fucking bullshit. The Pope has recently apologized to Indigenous people for the genocide committed by Catholic Residental schools. So, why can't the Queen? Head of the Anglican Church. What is stopping royals from owning up and taking accountability and helping other members of the Commonwealth get the justice they need to be productive and prospering members of society? That's an interesting conversation to be had, but instead, Jess talks about systemic issues as if they are personal, which is just wrong and misses the point.
She would rather talk about how Harry still wants to benefit from his royal status and wealth while wanting praise for doing the bare minimum. And even then she's giving a shallow analysis of Harry's work at best. She ignores his work with The Queen's Commonwealth Trust and the platforms he and Meghan have given to marginalized people because it fits her narrative. She's basically just lying by omission.
Honestly, It's just frustrating because on top of this she frames her arguments as some sort of objective middle ground thus making it hard to critique her without coming off as biased. Well, I don't think it's biased to say that she has consistently defended the British Royal Family by making these pedantic-ass excuses for why things need to stay the same. It's a total joke.
#royal fandom#idk if she gets mad if she sees this tf she gonna do block me harder?#british royal family#harry#text#long post
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OC Masterlist
(Will be updated if I come up with more OCs and/or as needed for lore purposes…though no major spoilers for my AUs are included in these blurbs!)
I make edits for them here (just Morgan and Lucy at the moment, mainly Morgan)
[Main OCs]
Name: Lucy (Skywalker) Kenobi
Fandom: Star Wars
FC: Claudia Jesse
AO3 Link
Tumblr tags = oc: lucy kenobi, lucy kenobi au
Born as the third Skywalker triplet, Lucy is raised by Obi-Wan on Tatooine, and thus, pre-ANH, she's shielded heavily on the Force due to her proximity to Luke Skywalker. Despite Obi-Wan’s misgivings, she befriends Luke and they become like siblings to each other…and thus, in the Rebellion, they always have each other. She also befriends Leia when they briefly meet as children, and Lucy considers Leia her first friend in the Rebellion.
Name: Morgan Wells (birth/legal name: Jessica "Jesse" Morgan Wells)
Fandom: The Flash
FC: Violett Beane
AO3 Link
Tumblr tags = oc: morgan wells, morgan wells au
Born to Harrison Wells and Tess Morgan, Jesse Morgan Wells is "adopted" by Eobard Thawne after he kills her parents and takes on her father’s identity (which is when she starts going by Morgan), with Tina McGee as her godmother who coparents her (and, arguably, has a bigger role in her upbringing than Eowells does). When she's 15, she's struck by the particle accelerator and gets forcefield powers, and at the urging of her then-boyfriend, James, she becomes Central City's first superhero (and later, after the formation of Team Flash, she joins the team). Later in season 1, she realizes she's aroace, though it takes her some time to come to terms with it.
Name: Amelia Rose Parker (later: Amelia Parker Octavius)
Fandom: MCU
FC: Millie Bobby Brown
Tumblr tags: oc: amelia parker
Born 5 years after Peter Parker, Amelia is his beloved little sister for many years, kept intentionally in the dark by Peter, and then also by May, Ned, and MJ. Amelia survives the Snap and bounces around in the foster care system for a while before ending up with Otto and Rosalie Octavius, who foster and later adopt her. After the second Snap brings back her aunt and brother, long believed to be dead, they all struggle to readjust…especially after Amelia finds out that Peter is Spider-Man. Reconciliation, for them, comes too late—moments before a spell that erases Peter from everyone’s memory indefinitely.
Name: Reyna “Rey” Cynthia Ramon
Fandom: The Flash
FC: Nicole Muñoz
Love Interest: Nora West-Allen
Tumblr tags: oc: reyna ramon
The daughter of Cisco Ramon and Cynthia “Charmer” Reynolds, Reyna’s life was anything but normal from the moment she was born, though she was no less loved throughout it. Even after Crisis took the Flash from them and kickstarted rampant anti-meta prejudice, her parents (including her now-stepmother, Kamilla Hwang) were committed to protecting Reyna however they could…which meant training her and giving her Caitlin’s old necklace to wear in case she lost control. Meeting Nora helped, though—only a year younger, Nora was a welcome addition to her life, and the two quickly became inseparable. And of course, neither of them expected to fall in love either 💞
[Side OCs]
Name: Astra Kadar
Fandom: Star Wars (Lucy Kenobi AU)
FC: Emily Carey
Tumblr tags = oc: astra kadar
A skilled Rebel pilot, and Lucy's second friend in the Rebellion. Astra fosters Lucy’s love for flying and matches her wit easily, much to their mutual delight. Having never known her birth parents, Astra grew up with a guardian who cared more for her usefulness than her emotional wellbeing, and who didn’t truly love her. Thus, Lucy’s kindness is a surprise to Astra, especially when directed at people who, in Astra’s view, haven’t earned it.
Name: James Bennet-Evans
Fandom: The Flash (Morgan Wells AU)
FC: Xolo Maridueña
Tumblr tags = oc: james bennet evans
Morgan’s boyfriend during s1, and then her close friend after their reunion in s2. James has a big family full of love (two parents, an aunt and two uncles biologically, 5 cousins). He also befriends Wally West during season 2 when they're roommates at CCU, which is how he's brought back into Morgan's life.
Name: Aminah Hasan
Fandom: The Flash (Morgan Wells AU)
FC: Iman Vellani
Tumblr tags = oc: aminah hasan
Jesse's friend from childhood, who gets roped into the Team Flash stuff after Jesse is kidnapped by Zoom. She later helps form Jesse's superhero team post-s2, after Jesse becomes a speedster (the Flash on E2, Jesse Quick on other Earths). *Aminah hasn’t been introduced in the series yet, but we’ll get there!
Name: Eleanor “Ella” McGee
Fandom: The Flash (Morgan Wells AU, tho undecided if she’ll ever appear)
FC: Gillian Anderson
Tumblr tags: oc: eleanor mcgee
The younger sister of Tina McGee, Ella was often the golden child in their family, a role she resented. She loved Tina incredibly and stood up for her against their parents numerous times…but after her sister left for America and fell out of touch with her not long after, Ella began to resent her more and more for it. At times, she even believed their parents’ words about Tina being the one to drive the division between them—though she was never more than cordial with her parents, in any case. Years later, she’s made a name for herself as a novelist, under the pseudonym Ella Watson.
#lavi’s ocs#lucy kenobi au#morgan wells au#oc: lucy kenobi#oc: morgan wells#oc: amelia parker#oc: reyna ramon#oc: astra kadar#oc: james bennet evans#oc: aminah hasan#oc: eleanor mcgee
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Team Jess Mariano? Why? I mean I get it, but........ why?
Jess is a fuckboy. I don't expect teenager girls(When I was one I didn't) to understand this, but I do expect grown woman to so it's disturbing to watch grown woman completely play selective memory when it comes to Jess.
Let's start with this disclaimer. Jess has had a tough life. Depending on whether or not we're going with the original story or the rewrite, he had a father who bailed on him regardless and a mother who was hopelessly irresponsible. Having met his parents it's herculean miracle he isn't an alcoholic or a drug addict. He's dumped on an uncle he barely knows and while Luke is caring, responsible and genuine he isn't nurturing. Jess desperately needs nurturing, acceptance and people fighting for him. He finds that in Rory and Luke. Good for him! He just doesn't appreciate either of them for years. He mistreats both of them. Plain and simple. He's isn't just a teenager, he's a teenage dude which means between the sex hormones, the slow-to-develop maturity and the whiplash emotions he's hard to handle. We all are. I understand this as well, but how exactly does that translate into, "Rory, this is the man for you for the rest of your life?"
Initially, I loved Jess for Rory - for an affair over the love of life. He was a much needed shock to the system. In a healthy way. He challenged her intellectually. He legitimately cares for her, loves her, wants her and even idealizes her. He doesn't give me he's gonna cheat on her vibes because he seems like a genuine romantic. He activates her sexually and even I root for them to have sex. She begins to embrace her individual identity separate from her mother, her grandparents, Stars Hallow and Dean. That's where my good list ends though. Oh yeah, one scene in later years when he snaps some sense into her.
As soon and Rory and Jess get together she quickly comes to regret the decision. Frankly they should've had sex. All that heat building up over like a 1.5 years and they just passionately make out?! Even for Jess, he's finally got the girl he's been waiting for and he's got about three episodes to enjoy it before he begins to self sabotage. Lame.
Jess is a horrible boyfriend. Based on his previous experiences he's non-communicative, irresponsible, self-centered and moody. He treats the people Rory loves horribly. Lorelai, Emily, Luke.... Stars Hallow. The one person he seemed to get along fine with is Paris which makes sense because Jess likes intelligent women with a quick wit. Plus, do you really want Paris to unleash on you?
Jess is a great character especially when you take into account his overall character development. We've all known a Jess. The kid with the tough background that just can't get it together. You're scared for them but we sometimes forget they are scared for themselves. It's actually sad we don't see more of his development. Jess had to pick himself by his boot straps with self-help, maturity and pure will. That's a lot harder than doing it with a supportive family, safety net and cognitive advantages. That would've made a great SL.
However, his development aside, he's not a great guy for the majority of the time we see him. The worse? You leave your girl hanging when it comes to her prom because you find out your not graduating with your class, you jump town without saying goodbye or giving an explanation therefor missing her graduation. You bounce back in her life long enough to say ILY and then leave AGAIN. You come back once more asking her to once again disrupt her life to be with you without taking offering her a plan.
By "AYitL," Jess is a dream especially for those of us who know him in his This Is Us glory. He's maintained his healthy relationships with Luke, his mom, Rory AND he gives Rory the idea to write her book apparently this makes him "too good for Rory" how exactly?! Yes, he has his life together, but what the hell did Rory do to him that deserves the level of spite people have for her? He put her through hell despite that she always maintained a good will towards him, even friendship. The reality is "ATILY," does Rory dirty and there is literally no reason why someone seems to be struggling to this level. Literally none. Yes, Jess was redeemed and will always love Rory, but he's not better than Rory by any measure. I wish him happiness genuinely as well as I wish Rory. Whether than means together or not.
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🎉, 🛀, 🎠, and 🎡 with eric! 💚💜
🎉 Tell us some fun facts about your newest selfship!
Eric was definitely slow burn for me to self ship. Year ago when I got hyperfocused on HOA, I thought he was neat & unpopular and had tiny soft spot for him, but nothing beyond that. But the more and more I played the game, I became so much fond of him. I've played Eric's game at least 10+ times now. know the theatrical version inside out, some he died in, some he survived. It always hurt to see him die, like it does in these types of games personally. He just swayed on the edge of not being f/o and being f/o for so long I just thought fuck it and added him.
That said, I don't have much in terms of self shipping lore nor ideas. I have no s/i, like I don't have with Jesse either, no idea how we'd meet, what he likes, what are his hobbies.. He's blank slate now, there's nothing in the game, beyond his disability, his insecure nature, his army status & Rachel, we know nothing of Eric King. While that does give me free reign it also makes it hard for me to headcanon anything for him. What he likes as beverage? Tea or coffee? What his hobbies are?
I need a grip on him game! His personality being so much on player's shoulders makes it hard for me to do my job as self shipper! He's either absolute dick or absolute sweetheart or weird combo!
🛀 What’s your favorite mundane thing to do with your F/O?
Existing safe & happy and far away from Rachel and Nick.
But for real, maybe cooking, I've been hyperfixated on veganism for a while, so Eric would be my test subject (affectionate). I doubt he'd have anything to complain since he has steady, happy relationship and getting ton of reassurance and affection (the things I don't think he ever got with Rachel). I can't see Rachel as much of cook either.
I think Eric would like reading books, maybe books on science since he's smart & created entire satellite system named Caelus but maybe he likes other books as well? Like romance perhaps?
Another is just us chatting & Eric getting to vent about Rachel and how everyone else treated him like trash in Iraq.
🎠 What’s your favorite thing about your F/O’s personality?
How romantic he is! "There hasn't been a day you haven't been in my mind" & the whole wedding ring in chain! I just melt! Eric is definitely the sappy romantic type with red roses and violin music on restaurant type, just full on out on the romance when he means to court. Even little dates like getting milkshake together would turn romantic thanks to him.
🎡 What’s your dream date to go on with your F/O?
Going to beauty salon. Let me explain. Eric clearly cares how he looks, have you seen him?
This is a man who spend a long time making himself look good alright. His hair can't curl that cute without some help. So as perfect date we are getting pampered by others.
Of course, he'd be considerate and notify the staff about not using anything scented while we are there because he's sweetheart who makes sure to remember stuff like that. I bet he'd even remind the staff about the lights and the noise and I'd melt.
We'd get anything we would want & spent hours there, get our nails manicured and painted and he'd reflect how Rachel found this whole idea stupid and never tried it even for his sake in their marriage. He gets surprised how supportive & reassuring I am for him, as he didn't get that with his ex-wife & he needs it.
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Your ramblings about final fusion are so so so SO welcomed. We aren't aiming for that ourselves, but seeing how you talk about it makes it seem so much less scary.
-Erytheia (they/it) 🧪
God I just got done watching that video and the amount of which Jess explained about approaching life and shit and getting away from being as trauma driven is such a fucking mood. It's rich and beautiful shit and she touched on a lot of the reasons we kinda decided that probably final fusion is going to be out piece of cake.
It's also why we've decently moved this blog less to be explicitly trauma focused and have openly just kinda shitposted and media-ed up and rambled about whatever the fuck we want cause honestly, the more we go towards final fusion and integrating our system in general, the signficantly less we really feel the need or importance to really think and worry about our trauma as much or as chronically.
Honestly I think a large part of it is that as a system we've really strongly found healing within one another and while we are definitely not anywhere near final fusion - just the steps we make towards it is beautiful as fuck honestly.
Like I like to joke that I 100% know my destiny is to be "eaten by XIV" cause the meme is that XIV only talks about fusion in terms of eating parts and we have both agreed to fuse whenever we get to the point that we are both managed and healthy enough to not fuse into a really toxic and unhealthy middle ground of our worst traits but rather our best and honestly, the day I can healthily be both me AND XIV is the day the world is fucking ours.
I'm currently slotted to eventually probably fuse with Lucille, and XIV with Aderis in the future when the time comes, and as it is, we are both vaguely learning our respective roles and dynamics as the two of us sort out our subsystem shit and honestly like
I've been heavily learning a lot from Lucille more than ever since working with the subsystem because whether I liked it or not I was very much put in a Lucille position within the subsystem and MAN did it give me perspective. Honestly at some point when I actually master this role, I'll probably fuse with him cause the two of us have been a duo for at least 8 years and arguably split off as two halves of a whole itself and honestly
If I could have 2% the serenity, intelligence, and emotional intelligence Lucille has, I have no fucking clue how much easier, happier and more enjoyable my life would be. I respect Lucille so fucking much. I always have and only increased from there. He is great, I am great. Combine two great things and good gosh whatever comes out the other end of that is going to be something far better than either of us could imagine seperately and I am SO fucking excited to become that when the time comes.
XIV jokes about it as "being a warlock; you absorb other parts and obtain their power as you ascend to a higher truer and more final form" but it REALLY do be like that in vibes.
XIV is like... three parts fused together I think. Maybe four I forget, but like fusions a great and wonderful feeling and its such an exciting and welcome unknown.
I have no fucking clue what I would be like if I fused with any of these parts (well I do with XIV cause we temporarily fuse occasionally and its always not the best as a long term thing XD) but I do know we will have better perspective, better engagement, and more access to our individual skills and I think thats so fucking cool.
Like do you know how much of a fucking god tier caretaker I could be if I fused with Lucille (main caretaker, ex primary protector, biggest emotional intelligence and therapist in the system) while also still being the ever passionate bubbly monologuing shounen protagonist energy I have that lets me have the special ability to make any part in the system work with us using the power of FRIENDSHIP? Like bro, I would LOVE to be Lucille AND me. That sounds so great the power would be immeasurable >:o
Like look fuse Anime Glasses Boy Who Actually Has Empathy with Shounen Main Character Protagonist Friendship Man and bitch is OP as fuck man.
Also like, we used to joke about the real reason me and Lucille with fuse is when we properly get into research and need to both have the interest and passion on topics AS WELL as coding skills cause Lucille is MUCH better at coding than me but I'm much more passionate than him
ANYWAYS rambling aside, fusion is beautiful and if someday our system and fuse into one mega Feather with all our powers combined, then good god do I think we'd be unstoppable and sexy af /lh /j
-Riku
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it's almost as if everyone involved in the production of better call saul inherently understands that jimmy getting life in federal prison is a shitty ending that should not have happened, otherwise they wouldn't be engaged in willful denial of it. i've been thinking more and more that the finale is not going to age well once enough time passes for people to think about it objectively. it's sad because this was my favorite show but it is what it is
this has been in my inbox since august 22, and i think i've answered it in my head a hundred times, and every time the response is inadequate. that said, i get where you're coming from and think you're entitled to it.
the post i wrote a little while ago about kim exemplifies my biggest issue with the show's final episodes, but i've also been clear on my very real issues with the prison ending and the lack of middle ground (ie: did it have to be seven years or LIFE? why did they feel the need to use adx, which is hell on earth, and not the place someone like jimmy deserves to be incarcerated? the fact that jimmy only got all or nothing testimony, rather than a nuanced examination of both his trauma and his culpability, etc) - i understand why they felt prison was necessary, but i disagree with the way it was presented. i also still get stuck on the fact that it doesn't feel like a proper ending to THIS story. it feels like an epilogue to breaking bad, and maybe that's by design, but it was jarring for me to be taken out of bcs the way we were, to have so little of our protagonists in those final episodes.
i'll reiterate that i wish so much that peter had given kim a flashback, i feel like there is such a dearth of her in those last episodes, and there's this sense i have of mourning her terribly despite her appearances onscreen, most of which are nearly silent. and i'm never going to be comfortable with framing prison as a happy ending. the american prison complex is inhumane and corrupt, and they did a 180 of sorts on its thematic impact from what it meant in this universe previously. the mutual i was discussing kim with brought this up - how exactly does jimmy heal and reclaim his identity in a situation where he has no free will? where every choice is made for him, and he is sentenced to the punishment of the system for the rest of his life? i know every single person involved keeps saying he'll get out, but that's an intentional misunderstanding of what they themselves constructed, because that's not how the federal system works. we have to suspend disbelief so far - which i support! give them any hope we can - but on some level, we know that's not going to happen. if they'd emphasized what a tragedy the ending is, i'd have less cognitive dissonance about it, but the idea of prison ever being "happy" has driven me further from it. they earn their love back and yet can never truly have that. the cost is immense.
since a little over a month has passed now, i will admit that as time has passed, i myself have become less okay with it the more i've ruminated over it. it was my favorite show too, which is saying a LOT. i have unending love and respect for this show's actors and writers and directors, and i am so grateful to have had it and experienced it. my respect for them is not undermined by critically disagreeing with some key points about the last run of episodes, but it does carry a particular sadness. it shadows a lot of the story in a way that, for me, is much less fulfilling than the romanticism of, say, jesse's escape and walt's blaze of glory death. it feels like they were trying to get some element of that, but swung too far in the direction of punishment, which is not the same as atonement. there is romanticism in the last moments with kim, but the grief is profound.
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We accomplished so much today. It feels really good. Somehow I am still fighting feeling like I didn't do enough. But we did enough. We see on a great track. And I have to keep reminding myself of that.
I slept s lot better last night. I stayed up talking at James once they got home from the game. The ravens won and they were able to get home right before midnight. We talked about a lot of the stuff that's been giving me stress. And it let me sleep easier.
I woke up and was feeling alright. Me and James laid together in bed for a long while. And we weren't in a rush to get up. But eventually we did. There were things to do.
James would handle a lot of stuff. I would be a little cold and would have trouble getting going.
I got dressed though and just felt so cute. I had a little snack breakfast. And we started knocking stuff off the to do list.
In the end we got about 11 things off the list. Some more solidifying if jobs. Final packing of decorations. Alcohol ordered. Final paperwork for the caterer. It was just one after the other.
Eventually I wanted to go get lunch. I also wanted to get dried plants for bouquets. So we looked to see what Aldi's were close to lunch places.
We ended up at IHOP. And while our lunch was really nice, the Aldi was a bust. It was kind of a shitty one. So I asked James if we could go to Lidel instead because those are all know. And James said of course.
And it worked out really well. We did get a little turned around because Google thought a street existed that didn't (because there was new construction on the college). But we figured it out. And it was a brand knew store. Almost all the Lidels are really nice and this one was extra nice in my opinion. They didn't have dried lavender, but they did have grains! And so I would mix that with the lavender I already had at home and just made some great seasonal bouquets for my bridesmaids. And I'm super excited for how they will look.
When we got home I made a huge less putting those together. I used a rubber band to secure each bundle and then wrapped them in a nice twine I had. I like that wheat and lavender have symbolic meaning. And I am just very proud of them.
James helped me vacuum up all the plant bits. It made the living room smell nice.
James wanted to go for a little bike ride. So after they left to get some sun, I finished the packing up organizing totebag system for decorations I have come up with. And then it was time to catch up on my knitting.
I had been very bad about it the last couple days. And so I had 6 rows to do. But I did them all. And I enjoyed laying under my blanket. I think I will do one again next year. I think I want to do a grey scale one though. I think that would be really cool.
James got back here and once they cleaned up we laid in bed and watched tiktoks for a long time.
Eventually we ordered pizza for dinner. And James walked to pick it up. And also picked up our friend Lane! She needed to print some stuff because she has to fly to Canada in the morning. She will be back for the wedding. But work is work.
It was so nice seeing her. She had to work on those documents and James was finishing laundry and I was eating pizza. I was just really happy to have someone over. I miss when we had people over all the time.
She did have to leave eventually though. And me and James had a phone call with our dj, Yonah, and he was so sweet. I was a little less prepared then I expected. A little nervous about my music tastes. But also he was so warm and nice that it didn't feel to horrible. There is some timeline stuff I'm not sure about. We have our first dance at the end of cocktail and right before dinner. Do we also have father daughter dance then? I have no idea?? I think that should happen after dinner or like a toast from my dad and then dinner. Or maybe dad does toast before dinner. Then Jess does her speech and one of the groomsmen does theirs and then after dinner maybe my mom says something and introduces me and dads dance and then Yonah invites everyone else to dance too?? I have no idea. It will be fun but I am just not sure.
I am still worried about the timeline. I am worried the whole thing is to short and that it's not enough time but I know it will be okay. I am excited. More then I was before. It's hard to let myself be really excited because I'm scared something will be completely wrong and then I'll be so disappointed. But I am like. Quietly excited with a vibration under the surface.
Now though I feel exhausted. After our call we finished framing our last thing. Which was our seating chart. I got a shower. James packed their overnight bag. I did some fussing around the apartment. Took a shower. And now we are in bed. I am like. Bone tired.
Tomorrow James is doing a lot of running around. Picking up alcohol. Dropping off all our decorations. I am not exactly sure what my day will look like. But I am feeling happy.
Goodnight everyone. Sweet dreams.
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Anyways uh. There's probably a bunch of endgame shit I've missed and. The Alan Wake part of the game that i guess i have to go play. So i wouldn't considered it "over" but the main story is uh. A little lacking tbh. It's very straightforward despite how much they invest on it being a mystery/horror/thriller and doesn't particularly care to invest in any character? I guess Jesse is there but she's so Nothing despite them constantly trying to tell you she's weird and Dylan. But the story doesn't rly do much for their relationship at All and overall the character writing is just not there. And the themes it has going on are really lacking or rarely end up anywhere interesting. I feel if you're gonna make a game about how the one thought you think is interesting is about how little we actually know of the world then like. I don't know do something with that? The "life is a prison with a poster on it" is more about how in the universe there's so much Shit that you just never know and people are just content with their poster and not just that life sucks but at least make Jesse an actively interested person in the supernatural then??? Instead of being annoyed every time she learns something new.
The combat has a lot of variation depending on which skills you find and level but i honestly just leveled upmy hp and telekinesis and had almost no trouble finishing the game right up to the end game. It's a shame how many weapon variations they give you only to let you just gloss over them, but i don't particularly cry over it because I hate shooters.
The ambience is very impecable and really like how scared i am of every new area despite never having struggled with fights particularly. Also an addendum to my complains about the combat is that the AI is particularly bad at doing its job and you rarely get hit if you just run in one straight direction. The only enemies i struggled much against where those floaty guys with shields bc i couldn't spam telekinesis but then I found out you actually CAN but you just gotta repeatedly throw things until they can't dodge them. So there's that.
I liked a lot the things you find around the place i think it's really funny seeing the daily complaints between departments and how toxic of a work environment it is, but after a certain point i was just inundated with the content and it felt like a chore rather than fun addendums to read. Specially the board/landline calls where i just had to watch the whole thing and couldn't just skip through some of the dialogue -_-
The level up system is just kind of bad for a lot of reasons, mainly that i just think it's stupid that i could do what i did and simply level HP and telekinesis and skip through most of the game without much struggling, and the fact the items you get are rarely relevant unless you want to level up the guns much and the in game money system is just. Ever used and there's not much punishment for dying and losing 10% of your whatever the hell if you have more than you can spend at any point in the game
The graphics are both really good in the building portion and the monsters have fun designs. However the animations leave a lot to be desired and wanting to go for an impressive realism always carries the cost that it might look stupid. Also Jesus Christ they need help from a cinema guy the shots in this game are fucking awful every cinematic where they focus on anything makes me feel crazy. The overdone close shots every time Jesse has an inner thought or the shot to shot back and forth between Jesse and whoever she's talking to is so bad i feel like if you want it to be ~cinematic~ you actually have to know about movies. At all. Literally just hire an annoying film guy to ask him what he thinks of the talking portions. Anything.
All of this to say that it's a bit of a lackluster game that tried to do a very big concept and to be fair. They did a lot of justice to it and it was fun to play despite all of this I'm complaining about. I still think that it's not a very good game for a lot lot lot of reasons but i would be lying if i didn't see the amount of effort put into it and how much i enjoyed the things it did well so i have a hard time writing it off as subpar or anything like that
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