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silverbladexyz · 3 months

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TW: Mentions of death, injuries, self-loathing. Part 2 to this. Part 3 is here.

"I can't believe you sometimes. What if you had actually been killed because of your recklessness?!"

"But I wasn't! Even if combat isn't my strong suit, I had it all under control; and besides, these wounds are nothing compared to what we've faced before!"

In the normally tranquil environment of the Port Mafia's infirmary, two voices argued back and forth. One laced with worry and anger, the other laced with guilty adamance. A pair of best friends seemed to be the reason behind this noise; with their stubbornness a guise of the true feelings that they harboured for each other.

"Are you seriously kidding me right now? Even if you had it all under control, that doesn't mean you can gamble your life away like it's nothing! How do you think everyone would feel if you died? Do you want to put them through more pain and suffering that could've been prevented if you were more cautious? Do you even care?!"

"..."

Instead of replying, you turned away, suddenly finding the window to be more interesting than whatever was going on right now.

He was right. You didn't think properly about the consequences before you jumped straight in to engage with the enemy, even if you may have had a backup plan.

"... I'm sorry."

It was soft, but Chuuya managed to catch it.

He gave a small sigh, his shoulders dropping as the tension in them wore out. You fiddled with your bandages, not having the courage to look at him in the eyes. Did you even deserve to, afterall? When you worried him sick after he learnt that he almost lost you?

You heard his footsteps approaching you, and mentally prepared for the next thing that he was going to say.

Only for him to somewhat tug you into his arms.

Your eyes widened, and you blinked several times before realising that Chuuya Nakahara, your best friend, was hugging you.

His breath fanned against your collarbone as he buried his face into your shoulder. Strong arms held you close to him, being mindful of the injuries that you sustained on your body- yet the grip they held you in was tight but secure.

"... You idiot. Don't you dare do that again."

It was the most vulnerable you had ever seen him.

You hugged him back, inhaling his rich scent as an unknown heat bloomed in your chest.

"I won't. I promise, Chuuya."

His warmth never left your memories.

Now, you watched as he stood with her, holding her hand. They were too far away for you to make out their words, but whatever she said made Chuuya laugh. A genuine, happy laugh that seemed so much more different from the short chuckles he normally gave you.

He put his arm around her shoulder, and you unconsciously hugged your body as you felt yourself getting colder. It was the third of December- the start of another winter in Yokohama. Marking the six month anniversary of their relationship.

A wry smile made it's way on your face as Chuuya pulled Yasuko in for a kiss. Even though it was a short peck, it was enough to make your heart twist in longing that exemplified whenever you were around him. It was stupid; you knew that your best friend deserved to have someone much better than the monster you were, but it didn't stop you from wishing that you were her. Someone that was a sight for sore eyes, with an aura brighter than the blue skies- someone that could get Chuuya mesmerised.

You even noticed how he became slightly more distant in the friendship. You knew that he wasn't doing it on purpose; he was still the great best friend that he always was, but the little signs were there. Holding your hand so that you wouldn't get lost in the crowd had diminished to just staying close to you. Whenever you called him on a free day to ask if he wanted to hang out with you, he would apologise, saying 'I have a date with Yasuko later'. And the fact that you had the same free days really said something about how much they meant to him.

You walked away, the sight getting too much to handle. Once you were at a safe distance, you crumpled against a wall, biting down on the inside of your mouth to stop the tears from leaking out. A higher-ranking mafioso like you, crying over some crush? Pathetic. An unfitting model for your subordinates who looked up to you as a great unflinching leader.

"Why would you ever kiss me? I'm not even half as pretty." You chuckled bitterly, digging your nails into your palms. You hated it- the soft gaze in Chuuya's eyes whenever Yasuko was mentioned, the way that he gently held her hand, the way he became much more sweet and patient with her that was almost nothing like how he acted around you- you hated it all. You regretted not confessing to him sooner all those years ago.

But you were only the side character in their romance; forever doomed to support them while you suffered in silence.

Was there something or somebody that you could blame for this agony that you were currently in? Destiny, perhaps? Or even Cupid? Those names only made you scoff as you stuffed your hands into your pockets.

There was nobody you could blame except for yourself.

Perhaps it would have been better if you were the one who saved Yasuko, not Chuuya. They would have never spent as much time with each other, and you'd still have a chance at romancing him. None of this would have happened if the roles were reversed at that time.

But who were you kidding? One way or another, they’d end up together by the red string of fate. The most perfect match in all of Yokohama that could put every other couple to shame. And you'd always be the third wheel- the 'best friend' whose sacrifices went unseen just so that they could be happy.

Or maybe it would have been better if Yasuko didn't exist in the first place.

"-Y/N? Y/N?"

A voice broke you out of your thoughts, and you blinked a bit before refocusing onto the girl in front of you.

"Is everything okay? N-not that you have to tell me what's wrong, but if you ever need someone to talk to, I'll always be here for you."

Yasuko looked at you with a concerned expression, her eyes searching your face for any sign of discomfort.

Those innocent, beautiful eyes of hers that had held Chuuya captive in their gaze.

Ah, right. You were currently in the shopping mall with her, because her boyfriend had asked you to accompany her like some sort of bodyguard. And who were you to refuse, as his best friend who was always there for him? Well, you were grateful that Chuuya trusted you enough to let you near Yasuko. You had seen how protective he was of her.

"... Nothing. I'm alright."

You smiled at her, all traces of your previous emotions now gone. How could you have let your composure slip so easily? This hangout was so that you could 'get closer' with her, not reminiscing about the pathetic past that held you captive in this agonising love.

She frowned a little, but before she could say anything else, you jumped at the opportunity to distract her. Anything that could make you temporarily forget your pain for one moment was what you desperately needed now.

"Oh, looks like they're selling discounted jewellery! Let's take a look! You might find something that you like."

Grabbing her wrist, you dragged her towards the jewellery store despite having no intentions to buy anything. You simply wanted her to be distracted by the precious stones, so meticulously cut and fit into fine metal that it was laughable how they were mostly for show. A valuable trinket only made to be admired and forgotten at the end of the day, even when so much blood had been spilled over them. Blood that would forever stain the hands of a sinner such as you.

"Oh! I remember Chuuya taking me to a similiar store! He bought me a ring; I said that there was no need, but he insisted." Yasuko glanced down at the gold-and-red circlet that lay snugly around her index finger, her gaze becoming shyer as she profoundly remembered the day that her beloved boyfriend had bought it for her.

Your own silver ring that he gifted to you on your 18th birthday paled in comparison to the 5-carat Burmese ruby that sat atop her finger. It was a harsh reminder of who the buyer really preferred from between the two of you. That twisted feeling in your gut resurfaced, but you pushed it back down. You had no more frivolous hopes that he would one day realise you were the one whom he truly belonged with.

"Haha... did he now? I didn't know Chuuya was such a romantic. Did you know that rubies symbolise passionate and undying love?" You smiled as she blushed; the redness on her cheeks rivaling the shade of the precious gemstone that was proof of his commitment to her.

People were right when they said love hurts, but they never mentioned that it was the most painful sensation in the world. All the stab wounds and burns and whatnot that you had experienced from your enemies were nothing compared to a broken heart. A heart that was made to be torn apart to pieces as it weeps for the love it would never get.

Something cold brushed against your wrist, and you looked down to see a bracelet made up of the most exquisite yellow topaz. Yasuko held an identical one in her hand, her expression almost bashful as she faced you.

"I... I wanted to get matching bracelets for the two of us. I know it's only been a few months since we became friends, but being around you has really brightened up my life. I'm glad that we got to meet each other, and I hope that our friendship continues to grow and strengthen!"

She smiled at you; a smile so full of purity and beauty that it would've made many men fall onto her knees in front of her. It was a smile that didn't belong in the dark depths of Yokohama- instead, it belonged to a goddess that was too good for this world. A goddess that clearly deserved to call Nakahara Chuuya hers. Just seeing that smile made you feel infinitely more guilty about the nasty thoughts you had about her each night.

Yasuko's smile faded, worried that she might have overstepped your boundaries due to your silence.

"S-sorry... I should've asked you beforehand if you wanted to buy matching bracelets. Please don't force yourself to buy it just to make me happy-"

You shut her up by slipping it onto your right wrist, the topaz seeming to reflect the sun's golden rays back at you. Shooting her a smile, you grasped Yasuko's hand and put the other bracelet onto her left wrist joint. It fit nicely; just like anything else that she wore.

"May our friendship last until death do us part." It was a pact that you had sworn with Chuuya before. And you always kept your word, never breaking a promise to someone no matter how bizarre or extreme it was.

How unfortunate, really, that death did you apart too early.

@circinuus @riiwrites @ruanais @justcallmesakira @yasu-masashige @oldworldpoolhall @heartsfourdazai @ashthemadwriter-uwu @sariel626 @yuugen-benni @chocsra @iridescentdove

#silverbladexyz #no way did I just pull a Heather in my fic #it's a good song though #i hope this was okay #bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #chuuya x reader #chuuya nakahara x reader #bsd x gender neutral reader #bsd x female reader #chuuya x gn reader #chuuya x fem!reader #part 2 of unrequited love fic #yellow topaz symbolises friendship btw #unrequited love

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krotiation · 1 year

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imagine scara eventually getting a crush on aether and aether being like “oh god no, anyone but him”

#i love unrequited scaraether its so funny to me #proceeds to doodle them making out #it is what it is #genshin impact #aether #scaramouche #wanderer #scaraether #aescara #fanart #comic #ignore the inconsistencies in scaras design okay i did the three first panels over a week ago and i cant be bothered to correct it #gamesfashionarchive my beloved scaras design cant be added quickly enough

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butterflysonnets · 3 months

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yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.

to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!

i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.

also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.

they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.

they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.

i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.

#eve text #elmike #stranger things #byler #only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol #tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS #god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear #i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable #i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts #elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about #even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike #i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up #the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much “he was a boy she was a girl” to me #and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing...#the fact that lumax exists — a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy — makes that clear to me #and the “love confession” in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin #also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choice…#fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK #so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows #i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too???#love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk #tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO...#like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their “golden couple” LMAO #stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest #anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul #i need frivolity #ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show

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vethbrenatto · 2 years

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Wuvvy, I love him. I know.

#dimension 20 #a court of fey and flowers #acofaf spoilers #creations #I HELD OUT BUT THE UNREQUITED GAY LOVE STORY GOT ME OKAY #MISS AABRIA UR A CRIMINAL FOR THIS #THE ACTING????? AHHH #wuvvy #delloso de la rue

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the-woild-is-y-erster · 5 months

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MAJOR TBOSAS SPOILERS you have been warned babes but i simply will actually perish if i can't talk about this movie

listen to me. i am taking you by the shoulders.

i have thought about this movie every five minutes since i have seen it. no, i am not okay right now that is not the point.

sejanus plinth. *distant sobbing*

there is no way that he truly thought of coriolanus as a brother like he said.

he told snow that there wasn't going to be a prize, and no one else. he followed snow's lead and tried to take food to the tributes. he came out of the frickin arena at snow's call after giving marcus the burial rites. he VOLUNTEERED to become a peacekeeper to go with snow, and after that followed him almost blindly before he found the rebels.

sounds like love, but is it really brotherly?

#okay maybe this one is a little far fetched but i just fking love sejanus. so much. i want to hold him gently in my hands like a bird.#sejanus plinth #tbosas spoilers #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #coriolanus snow #the hunger games #he's also so fking katniss coded??? like i could go on an entire rant about how he's katniss and lucy gray is peeta but i'll spare ya'll #oh and also i don't think the love was unrequited but ya'll aren't ready for that chat xx

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straykidsholicleigh · 4 months

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“Think you'll marry her?” You asked, a hint of sadness in your voice, to which he probably didn't notice. He slowly brought his head up to look at you, his eyes trailing to the ice blue haired girl behind the counter.

“Definitely.” He said, his voice filled with happiness and adoration. You looked away in embarrassment, looking up as your eyes landed on a girl in the tiny coffee shop you went to occasionally.

The girls name was Destiny. Her hair shone like ice in winter when it's in liquid form, her light makeup suited her face as she smiled warmly at customers who walked in. Her floral dress was covered by a light turquoise apron, a few coffee and tea stains on it as she wiped the counter with a wet rag.

She was Hyunjin's lover, which made you hate her instantly. She was so pretty and you always thought you weren't. Your hair wasn't shiny like hers, her face wasnt stained with acne like yours were. She was just... perfect. She was made for Hyunjin in every way possible. She and Hyunjin were both like two peas in a pod, always doing things they like together and she seemed to be interested in almost everything he liked.

She recently started working here in the cafè, to which she was surprised to see you. She was never rude to you, in fact she was so sweet to you. Always offering you coffee on the house whenever you were stressed with university, always trying to include you into group activities, always inviting you to house parties, she even invited you to a sleepover once to her house.

I guess that's why you hate her; because she's so nice to people and was so sweet to you, she treated you like a sister. But i think the real reason you hate her is because she stole Hyunjin from you.

Okay, maybe not stealing but you did fall in love with Hyunjin first, and it was his fault that the catterpillars in your stomach turned into butterflies, not yours. But it is partly your fault for letting him go so easily.

“Hyun, I have a party tonight to celebrate my mums 58th birthday, wanna come? She really misses you.” She said, sitting down next to Hyunjin on the seat next to him as you quietly watched them from behind your coffee cup. He smiled, nodding his head. “I'll bring cupcakes!” He cheerfully said to which she giggled, kissing his cheek before looking at you. “Would you like to come to? I'm sure my mom would love to see you again!” She excitedly said, her white teeth showing as she smiled wide.

You shook your head, shooting her a weak smile. “Thanks but I'll pass, finals are getting rough ha. You two go and have fun.” She nodded her head. “Alright. Hyun I gotta lock up, you coming with?” Hyunjin hastily nodded his head, grabbing his books and placing them in his bag as Destiny got up to lock the doors for the night.

“Should we walk you home?” Hyunjin offered, his arm draped around Destiny's shoulder as she blew into her hands, rubbing them together as she looked at you. You were now outside, the chilly wind of October in Seoul really showing off as white snowflakes fell from the sky. You shook your head. “Nah, you guys go ahead, I'll see you tomorrow at uni.” Hyunjin eyed you suspiciously. “You sure?” He checked. You nodded your head, trying to put on your best smile as the tip of your nose became red.

“Go ahead guys, I'll be fine.” You said, to which Hyunjin nodded. “Alright.” He answered back. “You have a good night sis. Bye!” Destiny said with much enthusiasm, making you wanna punch her in her beautiful face. “Bye.” You answered back.

Hyunjin and Destiny left as they walked in the opposite direction, smiling and laughing about something as hot tears streamed down your cheeks.

Hyunjin was in love. He found real love that he can cherish and enjoy, love that has his heart swooning, love that treats him well. He finally found a love that he deserved but it just wasn't you. And you have to accept that.

You must accept that.

#stray kids #hyunjin #hyunjin angst #unrequited love #this is fucking sad #someone shoot me #love hurts sometimes #but its okay #your crush doesn't always like you back #but fuck did I cry-

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rrr333sstuff · 18 days

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“Wanting to feel wanted is the loneliest feeling ever.”

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itsjaywalkers · 5 months

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if i end up liking bartylus i'm going to be SO MAD

#and i mean liking it as in . outside of a friends with benefits/unrequited love/toxic relationship that ends in shambles context #it's okay when my friends ship it and post about it #i support it from my little corner bc it comes from my friends you know #but this is just outrageous

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reineyday · 1 year

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alex is so real for not realizing he was bi despite the amount of times he was clearly checking out and appreciating other men. it really do be like that.

#rwrb #rwrb spoilers #rei rambles #red white and royal blue #red white and royal blue spoilers #alex claremont diaz #bi tag #it's totally not gay if we both say it's not gay! okay but luna is *objectively* hot everyone says so.#ive been strangely drawn to the tern mag photo of henry throughout my formative years but like. totally in an envy sort of way.#same vibe as that time my cousin said she had a 'girl crush' on amber from fx and i was like 'oh so it IS normal #like. no rei. no it's not.#i feel like a lot of bi awakenings hapoen after hs cuz it's so easy to acknowledge ur straight crushes & explain away ur not-straight ones #but i love how it makes liam make perfect sense lol #alex is like 'liam used to be my best friend but we havent talked in a year' and ur like ??? drama???#turns out he's an ex-not-ex and alex was an extremely dumb boy about what they were doing lmao #poor liam man. unrequited crush on his best friend who thought it was totally straight to canoodle. smh. 😔😔#im glad he has a boyfriend now

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stars4sole · 11 days

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soooooo prongstail…..am i right??

#Laugh #PLS #i love them #marauders era #marauders fandom #the marauders era #dorcas meadowes #harry potter marauders #james fleamont potter #james potter #james potter x peter pettigrew #prongstail #prongstail IS CANON OKAY #unrequited feelings

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bylertruther-moved · 2 years

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is it just me or does anyone else think it would be more interesting if instead of following the same old tired and sad trope of “small town gay youth falls in love with his seemingly straight best friend during the eighties and ends up dejected and all alone” they flipped the script and gave them a win?

wouldn’t it be more interesting to take the audience’s tired expectations and flip them on their head?

wouldn’t it be more interesting to follow up on the fact that the only person that loves this “straight best friend” the way he needs and wants to be loved is indeed his gay best friend that’s conveniently been in love with him since the very beginning?

wouldn’t it be more interesting to show that the special relationship this “straight best friend” has with his gay best friend was special not only because they were besties but because his feelings were there, too, he just didn’t realize their nature?

wouldn’t it be more interesting to show that there’s a reason why the “straight best friend” effortlessly and naturally treats his best friend the exact way that his girlfriend begs him to treat her?

wouldn’t it be more interesting to finally face and name the reason why this “straight best friend” can maintain his friendships with everyone else while in a relationship except for his gay best friend who has had parallels with his girlfriend from the very beginning?

wouldn’t that be more interesting than ignoring all of the previous seasons and making milkyway, the one dysfunctional and dishonest ship on the show, endgame?

wouldn’t it be more in line with the stranger things shtick to continue to subvert these tropes as they’ve done from the very beginning?

why do people want this to be the one time that they actually fail to do that? like, i know why, but i want to hear them say it.

#byler #like obviously i know my byler brigade agrees. but it's like. the unrequited route would be so boring and expected and sad.#both in the vein of will not ever being allowed to win or be happy AND in the vein of that being hailed as #Super Realistic despite this being a sci-fi show about otherworldly monsters and children with powers.#so it's okay to have powered children and monsters in your show #but when it comes to fantasy you draw the line at gay people being loved and happy? 🤨#IF they give a shit about a coherent story then they would follow up on it. there has to be a reason why they present all these problems for #milkvan and then in the next scene they show you that mike is perfectly capable of doing what eleven needs him to do he just would rather do #that with will than with her. there has to be a reason why byler don't and have never had the issues that milkvan does.#there has to be a reason why milkvan have been on different pages and lying to each other and so insecure abt themselves with relation #to the other while byler are literally confirming on screen that they feel like equals and are a team and honest to e #ach other always [disregarding the car confession which is... a truth/lie]#like. unless they're baiting or being awful they have to be pointing to one thing here...

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