friend: you made a whole new tumblr to post and you haven’t posted in months, what happened?
me: I got sad D:
friend: i’m not surprised, your top kins are dazai, scaramouche and saiki kusuo
me: well now im just offended
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serious question, are there ANY (wired) headsets made today anymore that have seperated plugs for audio and microphone??
usb ones always cause trouble and the only other ones i can find are those with combined audio+mic into one plug, which i dont have the ports on my PC for.............
i tried looking through adapters but the only ones i can find are those that combine seperate ones, id need the reverse (if thats even possible)
(visualization bc i feel like i am losing my sanity trying to explain what i mean, am i stupid? did i halluzinate the two jack/plug thing???? do only cheap garbage ones have this??? is that one of the gaming chair things??? like oh you want a GAMING headset- that means either combined or usb haHA???)
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i fucking hate biomedicalizing anything about being trans because as much as i love understanding the world through a biological science perspective, the last thing that anyone needs is for there to be this quantifiable measurement on 'transness' out there for transphobes to get a hold of but at the same time. sometimes i look at myself- at how fucking sick i got when i was on estrogen and all the physical health problems i had before i went on testosterone and how they all seemed to have magically dissapeared as soon as i got on t- and i can't help but wonder if there's some genuine physical disconnect going on there. like i was physically wired to have a specifically masculine hormone balance and not having it once i hit puberty is why i was so physically fucked up even before i realized i was trans
idk, physiology is a complex mess of things and sex is a multi-tiered system affecting all parts of the body and multiple organ systems so its likely different for everyone bc of that (not even getting into social dynamics) but. the fact that i havent felt crushing fatigue and muscle weakness and unexplained bouts of nausea/gi issues and random bouts of muscle aching or sudden weight gain despite varying my diet and havent had the irregular debilitatingly painful periods or periods that literally never stopped once they started ever since i went on t is something that i cant help but think about
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i feel like tumblr is a good place to call out to autistic bitches so. does anyone happen to know how i could find a waterproof light that isn't flashy or multicoloured or horrifically bright for showering purposes. dim-ish warm light is all i can really tolerate but idk if there's a version of that that'd survive in a small bathroom with dodgy ventilation that gets very wet
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new update also eradicating all icons alongside posts on my dash. also seems that they update how the dashboard url works for if you have infinite scroll off, which is BAD bc non-unique urls == more easy to lose your place (this is a problem if you are me specifically bc sometimes a bitch needs to reset the cache with a hard reload and if the url isn't unique I'm going to lose my place !! this is a problem for no one who isn't me (using a version of chrome (dont @ me) that is from 2021 (DON'T @ ME) (I KNOW)) but hrrmf rude.)
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tbh I have been doing really well all things considered but when I hit a low now it's extremely lower than low. anyway I'm fucked up tonight. it feels like I'm invisible even to my favorite people and the only thing I'm good for is whatever I can do to quietly support others while they all largely go on without me. living their lives and acting their age and falling in love and being real human people while I'm doing uhh. whatever the fuck my whole deal is.
I have done such a good job self isolating in these situations over the past few years I no longer know how or where to reach out for the same comfort I readily give my friends in this situation. it feels like every friendship I've ever had was something I was more invested in and like it's not right for me to ask them to hold my hand back.
I don't like where my head is rn but. I took my pill already and I'm falling asleep and I'm gonna have such fucked up dreams. I feel so profoundly empty right now. I just wish someone cared enough to text me goodnight and good morning anymore. every time I felt that way about someone it was either not reciprocated or, *checks notes* not reciprocated. like even platonically I usually feel like I'm way more invested.
It has to be me right I mean. I'm the common denominator here. it has to be something I do wrong. I just keep trying harder to take care of everyone else around me like that's gonna make me more lovable somehow, and not just. in the same one sided situation I'm always in.
Sorry for the big sads but as mentioned I don't reach out much anymore when I should and I think admitting I'm crying myself to sleep on main is the closest I can get rn so. here we are
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