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starsxblazing · 4 months

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Im so happy your requests are open. Could i request azriel x reader where they're already in a relationship and reader overhears azriel mention hed like to add a 3rd person in the bedroom. Reader just shuts down and cant believe hed even think of such a thing. Shes so hurt and distant even his touch makes her wanna vomit. Maybe she breaks up with up with him while hes thinking of marrying her. And then he finds out why shes so distant and it was just a huuge huuuge misunderstanding (idk maybe she walked in at the wrong time and overheard cassian talkin about how hes gonna get azriel in a 3 way for azriels bachelor party once he asks reader to marry him.) And now hes gotta win the girl back and grovel on behalf of his stupid brother lol. angst with a happy ending.

I just want to say just how much I appreciate all of the requests with the amazing ideas that I get. I enjoy writing each one so very much!

Misunderstandings

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You padded silently through the river house in search of your boyfriend, being sure to use every lesson of stealth that Azriel had taught you to surprise him. It had been three days since you had seen him due to Rhysand sending you out to speak with other courts. You had been told that he was here with Cassian but the bottom floor was empty so you continued on. A smile formed on your face as it usually did when you thought of him and all of the amazing years that you had been together.

It was as perfect as you thought that a relationship could be and you were happier than you ever were in your entire existence. He was the only person that you could ever imagine spending the rest of your life with. There was no way that any other male could compare to him and how well that he treated you because not a day went by that he never failed in making you feel like a queen.

After listening through every closed door, you still came up empty handed until you were outside of Cassian’s door. His laugh could be heard, clear delight and mischief in it. Even though it was unlike you, you lingered outside of the door to listen in on the conversation that was apparently amusing.

“A threesome,” Azriel stated.

“It will be the best time of your life,” Cassian laughed. “Y/N and another girl? Can’t tell me it doesn’t sound like a blessing from the Mother.”

“I think bringing another female into our bed is exactly-”

You darted from the home as your heart dropped at what you heard. The thought of sharing your boyfriend with anyone had your stomach turning as the betrayal hit you in full force. Returning to the home that you shared with Azriel only made you feel worse and you found yourself in front of the toilet, releasing everything that was in your stomach.

Once you could muster up just enough strength, you made your way to your bed on shaky legs. Mental images of the love of your life so much as touching another female had you feeling sick again and the tears came in full force. You couldn’t stand the thought that he was still there more than likely discussing which female he should pick to present to you.

It made you feel like you were nothing and your entire relationship had been a lie. Had he had these thoughts often? Did he lust after other females and you never noticed? Had you failed to please him in bed? Had everything been for nothing? The more that you thought, the more that you cried until you were finally taken by sleep.

“Absolutely not.”

Azriel stared at Cassian, his arms crossed and jaw clenched. The last thing that he would ever want was someone else in his bed. The thought of touching another female much less anyone else touching you had his anger spiking along with his stomach twisting.

“You really don’t want to accept my bachelor party gift?” Cassian asked, a hand on his heart as if he was offended.

“How would you feel if it was Nesta?”

“Sounds fun.”

He could only glare at his brother, unable to comprehend how the male could stand such a thing. Azriel’s jealous territorial streak shot through him that was followed by his own pain of seeing you broken hearted for simply suggesting such a thing. Even if it was something that he truly did want, he knew you wouldn’t want another female touching him and rightfully so.

“I haven’t even asked her to marry me yet,” Azriel scoffed. “She might not even say yes.”

“Are you kidding me!?” Cassian exclaimed, sitting up in his seat in disbelief. “She’s crazy about you just as much as you are with her! You’ve had that ring for weeks now. What’s up with that?”

“I don’t know,” he muttered but he knew full well that it was his own insecurities. “I need to get home. She should be home by now and it’s already getting late.”

“Yea, yea.” His brother waved a hand in dismissal as Azriel stood. “Even though I think you should stay and have more wine with me. It’s one of Rhys’s good bottles.”

“Of course it is.” Azriel rolled his eyes, making his way to the door before glancing at Cassian again. “You better not ever mention this conversation. To me or anyone else.”

With that, he left and rushed home. If there was nothing else that he loved, it was falling asleep beside you at night. The way that you always moved as close as you could get made it all the more special. He had finally gotten the one thing that he had always wanted most in life and he knew that he was blessed and he would never do anything to jeopardize it.

When he arrived home, there wasn’t a light on in the entire house which only made him frown. You usually waited for him to get home no matter how late it was and the fact that the sun had just gone down had him worried. The lightest scent of your tears hit him just as he made it to the bedroom floor, causing his stomach to drop.

He found you already in a deep sleep and his frown deepened on his face as his eyebrows furrowed when he noticed that your eyes were indeed swollen from crying. As he silently changed his clothes, his shadows became as restless as his thoughts, wondering what could have caused you such distress.

He eased as gently as he could into the bed so that he didn’t wake you but when he went to pull you into him, you flinched and jerked upright. Even in the darkness, he could see your hateful glare before you moved as far away from him as you could get. He knew then that something was seriously wrong.

“What’s wrong, love?” he asked gently, a hint of panic starting to rise in him.

You didn’t respond so he tried touching your arm and you simply jerked it out of his grasp. His heart dropped into his stomach and panic continued to rise to the point that he wanted to drop to his knees and beg you if it was needed to get answers. Instead of doing so, he let you sleep in hopes that you had simply had pent up frustrations from your mission that you weren’t ready to talk about.

You awoke early the next morning since you had gone to bed so early and was relieved that Azriel was already gone. His side of the bed was cold as it was most days of the week. Your relief soon faded when your thoughts nagged at you, making you wonder if he was out scouting the city or maybe another court for another female.

All of the trust that you had in him was completely shattered as you wondered if he had been cheating on all of the late nights that he alleged that he was on missions for Rhys. If he had a secret mistress, you thought that may be an option for him if the other female could keep it a secret. Unable to handle the disgust rolling through like a storm, you packed what you could into a bag and left the one place that had been your safe haven.

It wasn’t hard to find an empty apartment in the city and even though it was unfurnished, you didn’t care. It would be just as easy to have a mattress placed in a bedroom. Paired with enough food to get you by, it would be enough. Your only intention was to hide away from the people that you had seen as your family. It wasn’t just the betrayal of your boyfriend but also with Cassian who saw you as a brother. He was wholeheartedly encouraging Azriel to basically cheat on you. You had thought that Azriel felt the same way as you did and wouldn’t want anyone else touching you but it appeared as if you were wrong.

After two weeks of being alone in your bare apartment, the depression had completely taken over. You missed him more than you ever thought that you would but your thoughts were always on repeat of mental images of him putting his hands on another female how he had always done you now that you were no longer his problem to deal with.

It was late in the night and since you hardly slept anymore, you instantly noticed the piece of paper and pen that landed on the floor beside your poor excuse of a bed. You blew out a sigh of relief when you instantly noticed that it was Rhysand’s handwriting but that feeling quickly disappeared as you read the message.

“You are needed at the river house tomorrow afternoon to discuss an issue that we are having with the court.”

Having to leave the safety of your apartment would mean that you would risk seeing Azriel. What was more, going to a meeting with the Inner Circle meant that you would have to see your boyfriend. Or maybe your ex boyfriend now. It was something that you weren’t ready to face. Not ready to face the possibility that there may be a new female by his side.

Sleep never did find you that night, your anxiety too high to do anything but sob as your body shook uncontrollably while your heart pounded wildly in your chest.

Azriel came home that night to find you gone, your scent barely noticeable. It was enough to tell him that you had been gone for a while. Hoping to find some form of answers, he took two steps at the time to the bedroom only to find it vacant. Your drawers to your armoire were open and empty, the sight paired with how you had acted the night before sending his heart racing in true and utter panic.

He instantly took to the skies, hoping to find you anywhere. Unfortunately, it was later in the night so there weren’t many people that he could inquire to about your whereabouts. He came up empty handed so before the sun could fully rise in the sky, he was at the river house in hopes that you were there. He felt as if someone would have told you if you were but there was also the chance that Rhysand could find you.

“Please tell me you have seen her,” he begged as soon as his sleepy eyed brother opened the door.

“Who?” Rhys asked, his voice still full of sleep as he rubbed his eyes.

“Y/N!” he snapped. “I haven’t seen her since last night!”

That was enough to get the High Lord’s attention and bring him fully to the present. There was a gentle caress on his mental shield so he dropped the barrier to let the male see his memories. Rhys flinched as he pulled away but there was sympathy that he didn’t want on his friend’s face.

“Don’t panic,” the High Lord ordered in a gentle tone. “We will find her.”

“How are we going to find her when we don’t know anything!?” Azriel snapped, worry, panic, and pain lacing into every word.

“It didn’t appear as if there was a struggle and there were no unusual scents to indicate that she may have been abducted,” Rhysand mused. “Even if it was the case, she is trained well enough to handle whoever could have managed to come in.”

“But-”

“Has there been any disagreements as of late?”

“No-”

“Has she been expressing any discomfort with either of you being gone too long on missions?”

“No!” he exclaimed, frustrated because he had already come up empty handed on those thoughts as well. “Everything has been as perfect and happy as it could be!”

“We will find her,” his brother repeated gently.

Azriel’s chest began to heave at all of the horribly possible scenarios that could have happened to you. The thought of you being taken and injured hurt but what hurt him the most was the nagging suspicion that you had left him. Not only had you left him but done so when he wasn’t present and hadn’t communicated anything which was unlike you. Communication was a strong principle of a relationship for you so he must have done something irreparably wrong for you to leave him without a trace.

Unable to sit idly by and wait for Rhysand to search for you, he returned to the city. Despite the fact that he had searched all day and asked everyone he came across, it was as futile as the night before on any information about you. The pain felt as if it was eating him from the inside out while suffocating him in the process.

There were so many things that made him feel unworthy of anything but you had come along and changed that. There had been so many things that had hurt him in his life. If he lost you, it would be the one pain that he wouldn’t be capable of enduring.

A week passed and each day was a repeat of the one before. He was sure that the citizens of Velaris were sick of him asking about you, especially when he was doing his best to be discreet. At the end of each day, he found himself curled up in the bed that he used to share with you to release the tears that he did his best to keep locked away until he was alone. His appetite had completely disappeared and he was unable to even force himself to eat.

By the end of the second week, Rhysand had formed a plan. He watched as the High Lord wrote a note to you requesting your presence. The letter disappeared and he was reassured that if nothing else, you would come when the court needed you. His shadows had been restless the entirety of the two weeks of you being gone and tonight was no different. He was just as restless as they were with anticipated hope.

The entire day was spent pacing in different rooms to pass the time while thinking of any and every speech for whatever he had unknowingly done wrong. Feyre had done her best to calm and reassure him but nothing would soothe him until he saw you. It was what he had thought until you strode through the door of the river house.

Your scent hit him so hard that it made him stumble when he went to take a step towards you. He froze on his second step when you didn’t look at him but instead opted to watch your High Lord with anger in your eyes. It was at that time that he took a moment to do a full assessment of you only to find that you appeared to be in the same emotional state that he was in. You had lost weight and the dark circles were a harsh contrast to your unusually pale skin.

“I’m here,” you snapped, causing Rhysand to frown. “I’ve got things to be doing.”

“Care to fill us in on what ‘things’ you are busy with?” the High Lord countered.

“It’s not your business what I do with my personal time.”

“The personal time that a member of my court has used to stay hidden for two weeks.”

“I may be a part of your court, Rhysand but I do not have to report all of my movements.”

“No,” Rhys agreed. “But as a member of my Inner Circle, I would like the courtesy of knowing that you are safe when you decide to disappear without a trace. Maybe I should make you a spy as well since you do such a good job of it.”

“I don’t have time for this.” You bared your teeth at the High Lord who only smiled in return, the action causing you to huff. “Call me if there is actual business.”

“Y/N,” Azriel started when you glared at him once you began to make your way to the door.

“Don’t fucking touch me,” you growled.

The four words had him recoiling his hand from where he tried to stop you. There was a hatefulness in your eyes that had never been laid upon him before and he could feel the burning beginning in his eyes. He loved you more than words could ever explain but yet here you were, staring at him with so much disgust. It made him feel lower than he had ever felt in his life. Lower than how he had felt as a child locked in a lightless cell.

“Please, please tell me what’s wrong,” he begged, blocking out everyone else in the room around them. “Please.”

“I really can’t believe you Azriel.” Tears filled your eyes and the pain in them had his knees buckling. “You can’t have your cake and eat it too.”

“Y/N, please-”

He tried once again to grasp your arm to stop you but your face paled as if the simple thought of him touching you made you sick. Every insecurity that he ever had began to resurface, every insecurity that had been healed simply because of your support. His worst fear had been confirmed but he refused to give up until he knew what had gone so horribly wrong.

“Please tell me what I did,” he begged again once the both of you were outside. “How can I make it right?”

“You can make it right by going back to whatever bitch you wanted.” You swirled on him so quickly that he hardly had time to register that you did so, leaving nothing a handful of inches between the two of you. “I wasn’t enough so go find better!”

“Y/N, what are you talking about?” he asked in astonishment. “You are all that I’ve ever wanted. You are everything that I have been searching for my entire life.”

“I’m all you want but yet you have no problem with wanting a threesome?” His heart dropped as he realized what had happened. “Did you really think I would go along with that? Or were you planning it with someone else?”

“I wasn’t-”

Azriel took a deep breath and dropped down onto one knee while pulling the small box out of his pocket. He had kept it with him every single day and he was thankful that he did even if he was silently cursing his brother for ruining the proposal. Before opening it, he wrapped his arms around your middle and pulled you into him before burying his face into your stomach.

“Cassian,” he mumbled with a defeated sigh. “Is a fucking idiot.”

“Oh, I know all about him encouraging such an idiotic thing!” you exclaimed while halfheartedly trying to wiggle free from him.

“He was trying to talk me into accepting a gift from him for..”

“For what?”

He took a deep breath, savoring the contact, before he pulled away and looked up to you. A small gasp escaped your lips when he opened the box that held the blue sapphire engagement ring.

“For a bachelor party if you said yes when I proposed.”

Hope was the only thing that he could cling to when tears formed in your eyes as they darted between him and the ring. He took note that your body began to shake just as the smallest smile formed on your face.

“You- You were..”

“This isn’t exactly the way that I had planned it out,” he chuckled, feeling relieved to see some light back in your eyes. “My life has been nothing but darkness until you came into it and lit it up as if you were the brightest sun that could ever exist. A sun that made all of the dark disappear and made me feel truly seen for the first time in my life. I have never known true love and happiness until I was able to call you mine and it would be the greatest honor that I could ever receive to be able to call you my wife.”

Tears were falling freely down your face but your eyes never left his. The love and adoration had returned and it took everything in him to stay on one knee until he received a reply of some sort.

“Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes!” you exclaimed.

He was barely able to stand in time to catch you before you launched yourself onto him, throwing your arms around his neck and squeezing tightly. It bordered on pain but he didn’t dare complain now that you were back in his arms.

“Thank the Mother.”

You giggled at his words and then gave him the brightest smile when he slid the ring on your finger. He crashed his lips to yours, appreciating every single thing about you in a way that he hadn’t before. When he pulled away, there was a mischievous grin adorning your face.

“I think me and Cassian need to have a nice long chat.”

He laughed, a genuine true laugh, before following you inside and enjoying the scolding that his brother earned.

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babyyweebbitch · 1 year

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take care of your wounds…

more price and adopted daughter 💃🏾🕺🏾

content warning : female reader , wounds , blood , partial nudity (???)

it’s been about four years since Price adopted you, you joined the military shortly after what happened and you became the youngest person but more specifically — the youngest girl to become Lieutenant in the amount of time you were in the military. but being lieutenant means more responsibility and more missions.

you and john just got back to your base after a long five (5) day mission. you got shot three (3) times, all three bullets were still in your body. you never told John or Kyle about the bullets or the fact that you were shot in the first place, you were pretty good at acting not in pain when you actually were.

while you were alone at the base you decided to try and get the bullets out yourself, the only problem was one was in your back just beside your shoulder blade and away from your spine, the other was in the back of your thigh and the last one was in your arm. thankfully none hit anything important but you worried that if they healed inside you they would move and press against something.

you sat on the floor with a hand mirror underneath you, sitting in only bra and underwear. you had music on to distract you. john kinda demand you both shared a room and wouldn’t stop asking until they gave him what he wanted.

you were biting down on the t shirt you were just wearing as you dug in the back of your thigh with surgical tweezers. you tried your hardest to not cry out in pain… you took a break and leaned your head on your knee, silently crying to yourself

“jesus fucking christ….” you whispered to yourself before starting again. you felt the bullet in your thigh, all you had to do was grab it and pull it out. it took a while but you did it and once it was out you let out a whimper of pain, using your free hand to place the bullet on a napkin.

you sat there catching your breath as you watched blood trickle down your leg and some of it dripping on the floor. you gave an exhausted sigh and went to work on the one in your arm, that one was easier to get out but still very painful. once you got it out you placed it on the napkin next to the first one. you kinda wiggled your way towards the body mirror with all the medical supplies, blood was being dragged against the floor.. there was blood going down your arm and leg, some of the blood from your arm was spreading to other places on your body as you kept moving.

the playlist you had on stopped since it had played every song on it already and you couldn’t go and change it so you continued in silence — after a while you heard footsteps outside the door as you tried getting to the opening of your wound. you then heard speaking

“i don’t know… i haven’t heard from her either” soap said from down the hall, you recognised his thick scottish accent anywhere

“she’s probably sleeping or with Kyle… you go get some rest though, soap”

“will do, once you see her can you tell her i wanna talk to her. it doesn’t have to be right away but whenever she gets the chance”

“sure thing” you heard the two walk away from each other, soap going to his and ghosts shared room and john walking towards the door. you felt your heart sink as you heard the door open, john walking in and then stopping quickly after seeing the blood on the floor

“what the—“ he looked up and saw you by the mirror, trying to get a bullet out “y/n?! what the hell happened?!” john shut the door and ran over towards you, he saw the bullets on the napkin and the blood all over you

“i cant get it out….” you said through a cry, still trying to get the bullet but john stopped you before you could try anymore. john turned you so your back was facing him and he started to get it out. it was silent between you two for a while before john finally spoke

“what happened, Y/N…. and don’t lie to me” john very rarely spoke with a stern voice towards you but he did this time “who did this to you? hmm?”

“it was on the mission….”

“during what time?”

“about three days ago…. i was shot three times and they never came out like i thought so i decided to take them out today”

john gave a disappointed sigh while shaking his head “bullets don’t just come out like that, Y/N. why didn’t you tell me?”

“because you would be pissed off at me…”

“i’m more pissed off at the fact you left them in there for three goddamn days without saying anything about it — they could’ve killed you if you didn’t tell somebody or seek medical attention once we got here!”

you stayed silent because you knew he was right… he was 100% correct that it could’ve killed you but you hated telling him he was right. john finally got ahold of the bullet and pulled it out. you cried out in pain and covered your mouth to keep you from being louder. you rested you head on your good legs knee and cried into it as john started to clean up your wounds. after john bandaged them up he looked at you and saw you were still crying — but silently. he grabbed you and hugged you, placing your head on his chest and he placed his chin on the top of your head

“y/n…. please — you need to stop doing this to yourself… you are going to die if you let any more wounds go unattended, sweetheart… the next one could kill you” he said, you wiped your eyes as you looked around the room. you saw the blood on the floor, the bloody tissues and even the blood on johns hands and shirt

“i know….”

“you say you know but you keep doing it…. you need to take care of your wounds”

“i don’t like bothering you….”

“y/n, it bothers me more if you don’t ask me for help — it doesn’t even have to be me, ask anyone for help especially with an injury

“you’re acting like i haven’t left injury’s go and heal on their own”

“you’re not that little girl anymore who couldn’t ask for help, you can ask for help now.” john said, he looked at you and he gave you a few pats on the head “if you do this again i’m making you go on mandatory leave for a few weeks” he jokingly said and he helped you stand up. he helped you to your bed and he got you some clean clothes “i want you to go clean up and Johnny wants to talk to you about something. i dunno what about”

you nodded as you got up and went to the bathroom inside your room, you went and showered for a while and once you were done you came out from drying off and getting dressed to the blood and stuff cleaned up off the floor and john laying on his bed reading a book. you went to sit on your bed and did so carefully as to not disturb your leg injury. you looked at the floor for a second before you sighed and got up to put your shoes back on and left to see what soap wanted

john watched as you left and he sighed to himself. he loves you — a lot really…. but boy do you stress him out

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soo0mi · 11 months

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🫂 ｡ﾟ⊹ you’ve built a home in my heart — 10. drunk confessions

:: u got up at 2 am to get some snacks at the convenience store down the street. for your inconvenience, you quietly opened the door to meet a peculiar sight, someone trying to sleep on the floor across the hallway because their roommate has their gf over .. ?

warnings ⚠️ none

word count ‼️1,043 / 1k wrds !!

yunjins apartment, 09:47 pm

the rest of the day was boring. from seven am till now, nothing eventful as happened, hyunjin wasnt even home so you decided to visit yunjin. honestly, you forgot about drinking till you saw rikis twt

“oh” how thoughtful it was for him to remind you,

10:06 pm — drinking w yunjin

“yunjiiinnnn, this isnt faiirr!!” you sulk, face is hot and sweaty from the soju. “that shouldve been meeee..”

“ynnn, what if shes his sister or something??” yunjin pats your hair, “its okay baby, we’ll ask him tomorrow”

“but i wanna talk to him now, we havent talked since yesterday” you can’t believe youre acting so soft for a Man..

“no ml, uve already had too much to drink” she snatched your phone out of your hands, and damn you wish you hadnt been so stubborn that night

quickly, you took your phone back from her grasps and opened imessage,,

🔍 search : my loser baby 🙈🙈 🎙️

riki didnt even realize he dropped everything he was doing just to come and take care of you,

“im so doomed..”

1:38 am

ding dong, the doorbell rang and yunjin went running to it

“thank god youre here, just go straight n take a right and she should be over there”

“alright, thank you.” he bowed as a sign of respect, “im riki, btw” reaching his hand out to the brown haired girl in front of him

“yunjin” they shake hands

whys he so sweaty… - yunjin

“ugh hes so pretty its so annoying.” you yelled from the room you were in, not realizing you were shouting “i cant keep pretending like i dont wanna kiss his plump ass lips when i see him..” you cried out, tears falling down your cheeks

“youre so dramatic, yn!” yunjin made sure u heard her, “why are you crying!?”

whos she talking abt ..? — riki

suddenly, you felt a hand lift your chin up, forcing you look up to riki with teary eyes. the sight tugged his heart strings, he cant bear to look at you like this. he took a seat beside u, and with a gentle touch, he reached out and wiped away the tears from your cheeks, his fingers lingering for a moment longer than usual, a flicker of romantic tension between you two

“stop crying, u look so ugly”

“…”

“why were u crying anyways”

“cause i fuckign hate you”

“wtf did i do”

“i hate you so much, u do all of this just to get my hopes up” you punch his chest

“what..?” rikis heart skipped a beat

“i dont even know how i liked you in the first place, youre such an ass to me.” what a blatant lie you just told, even he treated you better than most of your exes

“…”

“you make me jealous even though you arent mine,,”

“yn, youre drunk go home” yunjin cuts you off but was too late to save you from the embarrassment in the morning.

rikis car, 2:22 am

riki watched as you stumbled out of yunjins apartment, steps unsteady and words slurred. concerned, he approached you with caution

“yn, are you alright?” riki asked

you looked up at him, eyes glassy and cheeks flushed. you giggled, swaying slightly as you tried to maintain your balance

“riki!” you exclaimed, voice overly enthusiastic. “i have something important to tell you!” the anger from earlier left your body

“yn, maybe its best if we wait until youre sober,” riki suggested gently, his voice filled with concern and nervousness

you pouted, your expression morphing from excitement to disappointment. you leaned closer to him, he can smell the alcohol from your breath

“why do u have to be so cute..” — riki

he sighed as his heartbeat raised, “lets get you home, and we can talk about this when you’re feeling better, alr?”

you nodded, eyes still filled with a mix of nothing and everything at the same time. riki guided you gently, supporting you as you walked into his car. the silence between you two felt heavy with tension, both aware of the awkwardness that hung in the air

your apartment, 2:48am

upon reaching your doorstep, riki helped u unlock the door. you stepped inside, and flopped down on the couch, head spinning from the alcohol

“hyunjin??” riki looked around the apartment for him, looking for someone to take care of you when he leaves, but he wasnt there “ig ill do it..” his ears turned red

riki gently led u to the bathroom to help u freshen up. with a warm washcloth, he began wiping away the remnants of the night, gently dabbing at your flushed cheeks and smoothing ur disheveled hair (niki husband material era😍)

with u cleaned up, he led u to the bedroom. he helped you settle under the covers, making sure you were comfortable. as he turned to leave, your hand shot out, gripping his tightly

“dont go,” you pleaded, voice vulnerable. “stay..”

riki paused, his heart fluttered at your touch and your words. he could sense the sincerity in your plea but he also knew you were drunk. like yunjin said, u werent able to think on your own yet

“i dont want to take advantage of you, yn” riki replied, his voice filled w concern. “youve had a lot to drink, ill be back in the morning dw”

your grip on his hand tightened, your eyes pleading him not to leave

“i know im drunk, riki,” she admitted, her voice tinged with vulnerability. “i have known ever since you washed my face. i dont want you to go, i need you here with me, please”

riki looked into your eyes, searching for sincerity and clarity amidst the haze of alcohol. in exchange, he saw the raw honesty and the fear of losing his presence.

“alr then,” riki conceded softly. “ill stay with you but we need to promise each other that we’ll talk abt this conversation when ure fully sober”

you nodded, relief washing over your features

as your breathing steadied, riki stayed by your side, hands intertwined. he watched over you, his presence offering solace in the midst of your vulnerability

“goodnight, yn” he whispered gently as he thought about everything

did u guys miss me 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🩷🤍🩷

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akari-saka13 · 1 year

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“sick days<3” - boyfriend soobin x reader

summary : soobin your boyfriend finds out your sick and takes care of you.

soobin x reader genre : fluff, warrning : common sickness (non-capitals on purpose)

early morning as the sun beams through your window blinds you roll in your sleep distraught due to the scratching in your throat and the heat rising to your head. as you slowly raise yourself upward waking yourself from your sleep you feel a heavy weight from your head pull you back down to your laying position. just then you recieve a phone call, as you wonder who it is you pick up your phone slowly as your head is pounding. you read the caller ID and it reads “soob<3” you clear your throat before you answer the call.

“goodmorning!” your voice sounds rough and strained as you say your light hearted greeting.

“woah- good morning! are you okay?” soobin responds to your greeting but also notices your strained and distraught voice. “your voice sound scratchy, are you sick?” per regular soobin, he gets worried easily. as he talks with worry filling his voice you cant help but feel guilt building up in your mind, you decide it’s best to try not to worry your poor boyfriend.

“i’m okay soobin! my throat is just a bit rough this morning.. i feel great!” as you tell your boyfriend this he cant shake that he feels something is wrong with your health.

“y/n dont lie to me.. i can tell when your not feeling okay. im coming over right now, ill bring you soup!” and just like that he ends the call. you lay there in awe thinking abput how he could tell you lied and how he’s going out of his way to come over and bring you soup. you cant help but feel lucky and happy he’d do such a thing for you without you asking, you cant help but smile to yourself.

as about thirty minutes pass by as you mindlessly scroll on your phone you finally hear some russling at your door. as you go to get up once again the pressure in your head stops you and you fall back onto your comforter. suddenly your door opens and you see your boyfriend soobin standing in the doorway, he has a big smile on his face before he comes running towards you.

“y/n! are you okay? are you sick?” he questions as he hugs you tightly as you slowly melt into the happy boy’s embrace.

“i told you not to worry soob! im doing just fine just a bit out of it..” you say then start to lose breath and cough. clearly you weren’t in your best health at the moment.

after you say that the boy gets up out of your embrace and runs out of the room, as you lay there confused about his sudden leaving after a couple minutes he comes back with a bowl of your favorite soup. as he sits next to you he helps you try to sit up and places his hand on your forehead.

“aigoo y/n! your burning up! please sit and eat your soup.. i want you to get better quickly!” as he says that he takes his hand off your forehead and places the bowl of soup on your lap and starts to spoon feed you your soup. you cant help but quietly appreciate his kindness and think about how lucky you are to have someone like him to rely on.

after finishing your soup he stands up and exits the room once again, he returns later with now a wet wash cloth and gently places it on your forehead moving away the hair in your face. he reaches over to your nightstand and grabs your TV remote and turns to you.

“would you like to watch a movie? i can cuddle with you!” the happy boy says excitedly anticipating your answer.

“soobin.. if we cuddle you might get sick.” you say in disappointment but as you finish your sentence he wraps his hands around your waist and pulls you closer to him.

“that’s okay! dont worry.. i’d be okay getting sick if i means i get to be sick with you!” he says with a bright smile on his face. you stare at him with admiration before hugging back being content with his answer and accepting thats what you both would like. “what movie do you wanna watch?” he questions as he opens netflix.

the rest of that day was filled with cuddles and soobin taking care of you with his caring acts and bright smiles. he really shows how much he loves you with his actions and wants you to feel loved and taken care of. as you guys watch movies the happiness in your heart takes your mind off the pain in your head and throat.

fin.

thank you so much for reading it means a lot if you made it to the end! to be honest this is my first fanfic and i hope it was tolerable to you reader.. this is supposed to be a light hearted one shot/short story so i hope you enjoyed! If you have any recommendations, request, or even advice feel free to tell me! ill gladly take any of you feedback or criticism<3

have a good day/night! <3 ( this fanfic was inspired by @yvjin’s fan fic “ YOU’RE SICK? “ ) so make sure to send them lots of love and i send my thanks and hope they dont mind i tool inspiration!

#kpop #kpop boys #soobin #fanfic #soobin fanfic #tomorrow x together #beomgyu #soobin x y/n #soobin x you #soobin x reader #kpop aesthetic #kpopidol #txt #boy group #wattapad #x reader #one shot #short story #Spotify

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rogertaylorshbb · 1 year

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"friends" roger Taylor fanfic {part 2}

I'm gonna be doing 4 parts to this story, part 3 will be posted soon, enjoy!!

the next day you contemplated whether you should actually help roger or not. as much as you would love to go out with Daniel, ava was your best friend and you wouldn't want her to get her heart broken by roger who you knew had girls jumping at him left and right.

At break you sat on a bench outside reading your favorite book when you were disturbed by roger again. "hey so have you talked to ava yet?" he sat down beside you putting his arm spread out across the bench.

"no, because I'm not going to, I take back the deal" you said.

"why, you shook on it!" he responded.

"look, why do you need my help, I've seen how you are with the girls why cant you pick her up yourself if you want her so bad, and in the end I know your probably gonna break her heart anyway, roger, get another one night stand" you explained shutting your book.

"I'm not gonna break her heart, and so what if I just want a one night stand, please y/n, I promise. I- I've tried to talk to her but she's always busy, and this seems more easier, just chat her up about how amazing I am and ill do the rest" he begged.

"its gonna be a bit hard to say your amazing, guess ill have to lie, and if you hurt her I swear to god you will never see the light of day" you harshly smiled.

"I will not hurt her, I swear on it, and trust me ill get you and Daniel a date" he smiled crossing his legs.

you rolled your eyes and waved goodbye walking back to your dorm room. once you entered your dorm room ava was there. she was sitting on your bed reading a music magazine. "oh y/n, so glad to see you!" she jumped up hugging you. "hey, same here, what you doing" you asked making small conversation. "oh just some reading" she said sitting back down.

"ugh y/n, I am so bored, there's nothing to do, all I do is read and read, why don't we ever go out to parties and stuff like we used to!!" she complained with a smile. this was your chance to bring up roger.

"well why don't you find a date...hm that could be nice maybe, find a nice guy, one night stand?" you said.

"a date? I mean that could work, there's no cute guys though" she sighed.

"why-" ah fuck this was gonna be hard to say "why don't you go out with roger"

"roger?" ava laughed "your talking about the stupid and rude roger taylor, are you trying to kill me"

"I'm being serious, he- he's actually not bad, he- uh- he actually apologized for giving me a hard time and you know if you have a one night stand with him you wont get attached" you shrugged.

"huh....I guess he's not bad looking with those blue eyes and all, maybe eh, he always sleeping with girls" she said thinking hard about if it was a good idea or not.

"I mean, what's there to lose, a-" this was also gonna be incredibly hard to say "cute, experienced guy for one night" you spoke.

"well" ava laughed "some girls have told me some pretty cool stuff about him in bed-"

"ew, shut up" you laughed throwing a pillow at her before she could finish. "well you have convinced me y/n!" she got up from your bed "I need to go now, my mum wants to have a 'family meeting' ugh, but ill come back later, bye" she hugged you and made her way out.

*rogers pov*

y/n walked away from me I had finally convinced her to talk to ava about her going out with me, but now I had to keep up my end of the deal, talking to Daniel.

I walked into Daniels dorm room. "hey thought you had band practice?" Daniel questioned. :"nah, I canceled on Brian" I responded.

"then why aren't you bothering some chick" Daniel laughed.

"eh not in the mood, why aren't you?" I questioned.

"ha ha roger, you know I'm not looking too date right now, I have to focus on my studying" Daniel said.

"ugh what a bore! c'mon, why wont you find a girlfriend, do you wanna be alone forever?" I put my hands on my hips.

"alone? I have friends, you for example" Daniel smiled.

"like why don't you go out with someone nice...y/n for a uh- random example" I suggested.

"y/n, huh? why would you say that, thought you didn't like her?" Daniel raised and eyebrow at me.

"so what if I don't like her, saw you too talking today, you guys could make a cute couple" I shrugged.

"c'mon there's a party at bens house on Saturday, why don't you ask her?" I continued.

"fine ill ask her just get off my back about it, jeez" Daniel chuckled.

"well, wanna go out to the movies, I have tickets?" I questioned.

"yeah, wait ill get my shoes" Daniel said picking up his worn out runners.

@sarcastic-sourwolf

#roger taylor imagine #roger taylor fan fic #x reader #roger taylor #roger taylor x reader #roger taylor smut #fan fic #queen fanfiction #fanfic queen #queen band #queen smut

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surprisebitch · 1 year

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sent my dr's note to work that advises me to rest til wednesday, and they were very understanding bout my situation and said i wont have to come to the office this week and can work from home 🥹 honestly i'd love to work as well but i my symptoms feel like covid even tho it isnt

like i have the worst sore throat, some coughing, fever and runny nose. its so bad i cant even play games cause i just wanna lie down and sleep. then i just drink hot water and ginger tea with turmeric

i also gargle warm water with salt and take this chinese syrup medicine.. i just wanna recover asap and be fit to work again (i actually love my job lol)

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duckymcdoorknob · 2 years

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Heyo! I hope it’s okay I order another confection! If it’s okay, I would like a box decorated with wrapping paper. Dark chocolate (Sugawara), all square shaped with half nougat and half liquor please! :) This event is so freaking cute! Take your time and have an amazing day friend! 🥰

I come bringing a baby goose in a box as payment :)

HI HI HELLO SQUIGGLY MY BELOVED!!!!!

HAPPY AUGUST LMFAO

IMMA GET ALL THESE VALENTINES PROMPTS OUT I PROMISE IM GETITNG CLOSER!!!

I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS!!!

TY FOR BABY GOOSE

College AU College AU

Pretty boy Sugawara 😭💕

𝑇ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑏𝑜𝑥 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑙𝑦 𝑐𝑟𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑏𝑦 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠 𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑙𝑦 ❤︎

CW BELOW THE CUT: None!

You had always thought that people lied about rain lulling people to sleep. That is… until it happened to you. You were trying your best to stay up to study for your test the next afternoon, so you were currently locked in a study room in the library. The lights were on, your shoes were off, phone was playing gentle tunes, whiteboard was dirty from overuse, and you were seated on a soft couch.

You couldn’t explain the sudden switch. But as soon as you heard rain, five minutes passed and your eyes were extremely heavy. Nope, not now. You had so much work to do. You took your phone from the table and texted your best friend.

“Hey. Big test tomorrow, starting to be tired. Can you buy me an energy drink from the market? I’ll pay you back.”

“You mean the big test you’ve been studying for since last Tuesday?”

“Precisely, Suga. I need to pass.”

“You irk me. Just go to bed! Thats what your body is telling you!”

You sighed; Suga was right after all. You pondered packing up and calling it a night. You wondered if you would pass at this point. You had been studying for a while and-

“What flavor?”

You giggled quietly to yourself as you texted back your answer. Looks like you’d be continuing your studying after all.

After about fifteen minutes, your best friend knocked on your study door. “Dewey, Cheatem and Howe” he chirped from outside the door, gently rapping on it.

As you opened the door, you giggled. “You know I don’t understand your references, Suga.”

“And I cant understand how you’ve never seen the three stooges.” He replied, handing you the drink.

“Ah you’re the best!” You cooed as you cracked open the can and took a sip. “Mmm liquid gold.”

“More like liquid poison.” Koushi quipped as he flopped on the couch in the study room. “Are you sure you can’t?”

“Can’t what, Suga?” You asked, eyebrows knit together.

“Can’t sleep?”

You sighed as you sat down next to the silver-haired male. “I already told you that this is the biggest test aside from our final. I assure you that once I finish that test im going back to my dorm and conking out.”

“You lie like a rug. (Y/N).” Koushi replied as he took one of your hands in both of his, “You poor thing, your hands are shaking!”

You shrugged it off and went to take a sip of the energy drink. Sugawara cocked an eyebrow at you and plucked the vibrantly colored can from your hands, resulting in your whining.

“I don’t wanna hear it. You’re gonna end up falling asleep during your test tomorrow. You have to go to sleep!” Sugawara demanded in a low voice. “I will personally Drag you to either of our dorm rooms if I have to.”

You glared at him with a pouting face, “You know how important my studies are to me.”

“And you know how important your well-being is to me.”

Sugawara sighed, lifted his arm, and wrapped it around your shoulders. He pulled you into his side to let your head rest on his chest. “Go. To. Sleep.” He accentuated.

“You’re comfy…” you murmured, trying to grab your textbook. Instead your hand was gently held by Sugawara’s, his fingers lacing into your own. “Suga-“

“No buts. Go to bed. Don’t make me start singing.” The silver-haired male replied.

You chuckled at the thought, slowly relaxing as Suga softly rubbed his thumb on your upper arm. Against your proper judgement, you allowed yourself to slump down onto him as your eyelids began to feel heavier and heavier.

After five more shirt minutes, Koushi felt your heartbeat slow down, and your breathing quieting. He smiled down at you, placing a gentle kiss on the crown of your head. “You have a big day tomorrow. I believe in you.”

The male took out his phone and set an alarm for the next morning. Sliding his leg upward, he used the toe of his shoe to turn off the lights, making a mental note to wipe off the switch with a towelette in the morning. He locked the door, also making a note to wipe that, and held you closer to him, resting his head atop of yours.

—

Koushi waited impatiently outside of the large building your class was in. He knew that he was correct in making you go to sleep, he just hoped that you were as prepared for the test as he deduced.

As he tapped against his forearm anxiously, his thoughts were broken by your ecstatic yelling.

“SUGA!!” You cried from inside of the building, having just met his eye, “SUGA, SUGA, SUGA, GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT!?”

You pushed the door open harshly, jumping off of the three steps underneath it. You bounded up to Sugawara and wore a huge smile. “Guess what!!?”

“What? What!?” He asked excitedly.

You beamed the biggest smile that he had ever seen as you held up your exam paper. Written in the top right corner was your grade…

100%

❣︎𝑉𝑎𝑙𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑒’𝑠 𝐶ℎ𝑜𝑐𝑜𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑛𝑡❣︎

—————♡︎✞♡︎✞♡︎✞♡︎✞♡︎✞♡︎✞♡︎✞♡︎✞♡︎✞♡︎—————

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sushiosims · 10 months

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Kurtis and Chaya

CHAPTER TWO

He lifts her up off the ground and sits her on the counter, the kisses getting deeper and more frantic 'Not here' he whispers hoarsely, grabbing her hand and pulling her through to the bedroom

Shedding the rest of their clothes on the way to the bedroom, Kurtis is surprised to see a tattoo, he smiles 'You have kept that one hidden' She laughs, 'Not many people get to see that one' he drops a kiss on it and starts kissing her all over until she cant take anymore

She urges him on to his back and straddles him 'I like being in control' He grins, 'Whatever you like' relieved for once, he won't be doing all the work, the tequilas have hit him heavy, and he is quite happy to just lie there and take it Venessa looks down at him in wonder

They move together, a tangle of limbs and mouths Kurtis is enjoying it, I mean, Its Venessa Jeong, but it is not hitting the spot like it usually does, everyone's words are ringing in his head...'Am I really such a dick?' he is thinking, but knowing he won't see Venessa again

Suddenly impatient Kurtis manoeuvres Venessa round and starts to work his magic on her...she may rule the silver screen, but he knows where his own talents lie. She is shaking, begging him to stop and to keep going simultaneously, he smiles and slows down, bringing her to ecstasy

Straight away Kurtis groans with satisfaction, with a smile on his face, he falls asleep without another word Venessa pulls on her underwear and lies there watching him sleep 'Not a hugger then' she thinks She wonders what to do, should she stay? Should she go? What was this?

About 10 minutes later Kurtis stirs, and gets up yawning 'Sorry, the tequila, the day drinking...the sex. I just crashed' 'No worries' Kurtis makes a big show of yawning again 'Damn, I am working in an hour' he looks at her and smiles 'It's been great'

She sits up 'Yeah it has, say...I have an award thing at the weekend, you, er wanna come? Be my plus one?' she looks almost shy 'Can't, sorry, I was sent to speak to you tonight by my boss, if she finds out not only did I not sign you, I slept with you, I would lose my job'

'Come through and I will make you a cuppa' he says walking through to the living area. She follows behind, getting more pissed off with every step They sit down and she bites out with 'So I'm pretty sure you could have told me at any point last night this was a one time thing?'

He looks at her helplessly, 'I didn't know what was going to happen, that we would connect like we did! I didn't plan this, I got lost in the moment...but I need this job...my sister, she's sick...' She falters, her rage easing at the sadness on his face

'Look, I'm sorry, but this would just end up really complicated...' Kurtis reiterates. 'Of course I would see you again, if I could' He picks up his phone 'Here, let me call you a taxi, make sure you get home safe, I really need to get to work'

Venessa is now pissed, she cannot believe she has been dismissed so easily. She was Venessa Yeong! Next big thing! And she could tell that Kurtis really liked her too. No uppity press agent was going to dictate who she could date! It was time to take matters into her own hands

After an awkward silence, a horn beeps outside 'There's your ride!' Kurtis jumps up, ushering Vanessa to the door 'Thanks for tonight, it was so special, I will never forget it' Kurtis says, smiling regretfully at her 'I am just sorry it has to end, before it can even begin'

'You never know, we may meet again' Vanessa says, looking at him in a way that made him a bit nervous. 'I believe in fate, and we were meant to meet, I know it...and so do you'

'Er, yeah. Fate! Destiny! All in the stars! What's for you will not go by you, and if it's meant to be, it's meant to be! All that! 100%' he replies. The horn beeps again 'Thanks Vanessa, I hope we meet again, good luck at the awards!' he kisses her cheek and ushers her out...

As soon as Vanessa's taxi pulls away, Kurtis gets changed into his joggies and flops down on the couch. He isn't working today. He just didn't feel like having her linger. He checks his phone and swipes away messages from several girls, feeling a little more guilty than usual

He sends a text to Nate 'Bud, you workin? Want to hit gym?' He needs to get out the house, he is used to getting a ribbing from his friends about his amount of conquests, but last night, hearing from practical strangers that they think he is a complete dick has hit him hard

Truthfully, he does not know why he does what he does, its just so easy for him to take what or who he wants...he has never had a relationship, he has never loved. He sees what Rez has, and he was right, he is jealous. But he wouldn't even know where to start

He gets a text back, 'Sure bud, head over to mine when you are ready' Kurtis smiles and gets up and gets ready to leave. A good workout always makes him feel better

He gets to Nates house, and knocks. No answer. He heads round to the side of the house and sees Kara by the pool. He gulps thickly at the sight of her, she is actually beautiful...if only it wasn't Nate's sister 'Kara?' he calls, she turns round and faces him

'Its you' she says, rolling her eyes 'Nate got called out for emergency cover at the hospital, he said he could be an hour or so, you can wait if you want, but don't expect me to entertain you'

He laughs despite himself 'What a welcome, yeah I will hang around if you don't mind, I don't feel like going home' he looks at the pool 'Mind if I join you for a swim?'

'If you like, you can grab a pair of Nate's trunks from his room' 'No need' Kurtis grins, stripping down to his boxer shorts and diving right in. The warm pool was heaven against the winter chill in the air 'You comin in?' he shouts

They swim around and chat 'Why are you so mean to me then?' Kurtis laughs 'Cos you are a fuck boy, and you know it' she answers deadpan 'I don't like boys like you' she smirks at him 'But you are very, very attractive, and truth be known...we are more alike than I care to admit'

He bursts out laughing and splashes her 'Aha! So you are a fuck-girl?' 'I didn't say that, but well, I tend not to get tied down until I find the right one' Kurtis looks at her 'Don't get your hopes up...its not you' She hops out the pool and beckons him to follow her

'Look, you're hot. I'm hot. Nate won't be back for an hour at least...you want to come inside?' she says, without missing a beat 'We can dry off your underwear and get cleaned off' the way she is looking at him...he struggles with his conscience...but not for long 'Sure'

They get into the bathroom without another word spoken...he slides up behind her and wraps his still damp arms around her, both shivering from the cold and something else...'Are you sure about this?' he says 'If Nate finds out...'

Click below for Chapter 3

#Kurtis and Chaya #sims 4 #sims #the sims 4 #sims 4 screenshots #sims4 #showusyoursims #show us your story #love story #wicked whims

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notquiteapex · 1 year

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happy new years!

its nearly 3am for me, im having to stay up through the night because im stuck at an airport in new jersey and everything is just too loud for me to sleep.

there are no long benches for me to lie down on, all of them have arm rest dividers you cant quite fit under to lie down. all the lamps are a harsh white, on at all times, stabbing my eyes open. every hour, when the minute hand hits 15, there is a loud bell bang, and a really really annoying announcement about some broadway show. none of this is helped by the fact that im sick with a headache and sore throat (not with covid, thank god, but im still keeping my facemask on).

but hey, at least theres birds

i wont lie, 2022 was a really bad year for me. my depression had me at an all time low. it was a very scary year, emotionally speaking. that being said, it was also a really fun year. i got to play outer wilds for the first time, and i will treasure those streams forever. i also did the pc cleaning stream, and i was really happy with how poorly it went! all that in addition to really bonding with some people in the past year, be it through streams or table top games, it helped a lot during my low points.

i think 2023 is gonna be a year of experimentation for me. ive been getting into writing and world building, for a secret project. hopefully itll be ready for when the time comes, but we'll see. i definitely want to get back to map making for source games. i did a lot of it this past year but never had anything solid enough to really release. i also wanna get back into 3d modeling, because making those gmod playermodels for the desert bus stream was the best part of that stream for me.

anyway. heres to a better year. for no one but ourselves.

#apex barks

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iexistfor1post · 11 days

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This is a different post cause I need to leave the kinda... heaviness of the previous post

Something I miss and I can maybe do again

I can sit in the rain or in the car while it rains

That brings happy memories

Like just listen to the rain, watch the rain, idk just rest

I could also go outside and look at the night sky and just rest

Maybe - even if I know it wouldn't happen - I could just wish on stars, talk to the sky idk

It could make me cry but that could help me feel better

Just lie in the grass idk

I can't wait till I can swim cuz I hope that helps me relax

Drawing has been a hit or miss haha

Should just draw with 0 thoughts

I should get back into reading actual books

(I like fanfics but you know what I mean)

Like I am still doing things I like just sometimes my mood kills it and I just cant

Which js why I should do some low thoughts stuff

... I also need more sleep or something idk

Getting up at 9 and getting tired at 3 is a thing

(Some of that is probably boredom)

I just wish and pray for some sort of peace

I am tired :[

Also, while daytime is pretty, Nighttime is prettier

Society has work and jobs for a reason, but man sometimes I just wanna lie down and stare at the ceiling

Yes I am one of those people who don't wanna work

I also do wanna work... kinda

I wish work was better but there are things I like about it

And if the pay was better and if things never change (not happening ever) then I would never want to leave

I just don't want to deal with money ha ha

#vent #I definitely need some sort of professional help #but many reasons why I dont want too :D and only a tiny bit of reasons are reasonable... maybe

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holylacydoll · 3 years

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hhhgbg what is wrong with me why do i do this to myself

#i just . dont sleep at night anymore #like i cant #but then i also choose not to take my sleeping pills #and now i took my adderall and drank coffee so im shaking #but this is just a regular occjrance i suppose #it feels better than sleeping for 15 hours straight #so id rather stay up for days in a row than sleep and sleep and sleep forever #and i cant just lie down in bed to rest bc then im alone with my thoughts and they never let me sleep #so i just play video games and watch anime or youtube all night or draw or idk anything to distract myself that i can hyperfixate on #but this is. very unhealthy.#alex begs me to sleep at night while he goes to work (time zones) & whenever i do i sleep for so long that by the time i wake up he's sleep #so id rather stay up all night and not miss him. when hes off. and he always notices how tirwd i look but i dont wanna sleep #the most peaceful I've sleep in a while is when i fell asleep at after being up all night but we were on a video call and we slept together #but really he just watched me rest for a while because i was the most tired and. it sounds weird to say he watched me sleep but it was so.#just. loving and trusting and ahh. i didnt even need pills to rest. and he told me i look like such a peaceful angel when i sleep.#and that he said he loved me while and i smiled in my sleep #ive just never been this intimate before. like not sexually. he just loves me so much and takes such good care of me. like #he puts me to bed. kind of like a child. which is a bit frustrating for me bc i can go for days at a time without needing rest but he cares #& it sometimes annoys me but i usually listen because it makes him happy when i get enough rest bc he's right that staying up so long is bad #i like it more than i rlly tell him. like. im used to just going until i crash or taking sleeping pills but he makes me so calm and when im #with him i just try to think of him instead of my intrusive thoughts about trauma or whatever #it doesnt always work of course but when it does its always so nice. i cant wait to marry and actually be able to sleep with him #i think he'll make sure i get more sleep. which is weird to say like im making him parent me but really he does it on his own #and its good for me to have someone just there for me like that. who cares about my health even if im very apathetic when it comes to my own #but i just want to stop taking pills forever i hate them all. they make me not me. but being me isnt good either so idk which is worse.

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chrisbangs · 5 years

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i’m sending out all my “i love chan” vibes into the universe tonight 🕊💞🌧🌷 !!!

#dont rb !!!#i hope they reach him 💞#anyway gn!#my head hurts so i wanna lie down #even if i cant sleep i wanna rest my eyes a lil #so gn!#:^) sleep well 💞 hope you have a nice day/night #li.txt #dear chan #edit: you can send more of the name asks !! ill answer them all tomorrow 🥰🏹🌧💛#just need some rest rn !! heh #chan thoughts

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soniclovesyou · 5 years

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Yawns

#sonic.txt #i cant stay at my computer for more than like #30 minutes before i need to lie down #for another 30 minutes #and it is heck #it prolly just cause i lve had about 6 hours sleep total in the past 3 days #so tomorrow i hope i can draw for longer #tho ill have my sister for a few hours #but yea #im need sleep #but its only 730 #so ill prolly rest for some more minutes n then draw some more #i really wanna finish this infidget ref tonight-#and now one of my cats has decided that i am her bed

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strawberry-writings · 2 years

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Whimpers ❦ Victor Grantz x Fem!reader

Pairings ❦ Victor Grantz x Fem!reader

Fandom ❦ Identity V

Genre ❦ Smut

Warnings ❦ Overstimulation, smut, NSFW

Lady Author’s note: Hey sorry for not being active for a while school has been way too stressful i’m currently on easter break so i’ll try to post some more! ❦

❦ You went up and down on his dick, you enjoyed the sounds of his whimpers and cries as he begged you to stop. He came so much already, “Y/N p-p-please s- AH!” he tried to ask you to stop but you didn’t. Seeing the sweet blonde haired male you love so much like this felt so good. He came once again, this is the 5th time already.

❦ “Victor my love, are you ready for a round 6?” the female asked, Victor was about to say something but you began doing it again. His cock throbbed each time your hand went up to his tip. Victor was too shy to say it out loud but he actually enjoyed having your delicate hands touching his cock. The tears rolling down his eyes just made you wanna continue but you had to stop at some point.

❦ “You cant cum yet if you are thinking about doing that~” the beautiful female told Victor, “P-please Y-Y/N..” Victor replied while sobbing. He begged and begged for you to let him cum, “Ok i’ll let you cum just let me do something first.” Y/N inserted herself into Victor and said “Now.” Victor released his hot sticky cum inside of you, Victor whimpered softly as you wiped his tears away.

❦ You chuckled as Victor was a blushing mess, you gave him a hug and a kiss on the forehead. “You’re such a good boy~” the female said. Victor pulled Y/N close and kissed her softly and pulled away after 5 seconds. He pushed Y/N onto the bed and hugged her tightly and wouldn’t let her go. “What’s this?” Y/N asked her beloved Victor, “Don’t leave please..i wanna do this again someday…and you owe me a thousand cuddles.” Y/N replied with “Ok ok!” the female hugged her love back Victor covered both of you with a blanket and fell asleep together.

❦ A lot of survivors in the manor ended up hearing Victor moaning out Y/N’s name and got concerned about what was going on in there, their sleep got disturbed and in the morning they wanted to ask what Y/N and Victor was doing. The painter Edgar Valden was quite upset about it. “So what the hell was those sounds? I was sleeping so be quiet.” Edgar asked Y/N and Victor, they didn’t know how to explain it since the little girl was beside Edgar and they didn’t wanna ruin her pureness.

❦ Y/N hesitated and said “Well! We were in the garden and Victor got stinged by a few rose thorns and it hurt a lot!”, Victor also said “I cried out for Y/N since i had nothing else to do…” he said in the softest voice ever and was really quiet most of the time. “I suppose that you should be quiet next time. Tch.” Edgar replied and left. Of course he didn’t buy that stupid little lie. Who would get stinged by a rose thorn and moan out their significant other’s name super loudly?

❦ Valden didn’t wanna deal with the rest of it so he let it go, he told everyone else and the problem was solved.

Lady author’s note ❦ Hello thanks for reading this oneshot!

#identityv #identity v #edgar valden #idv #idv smut #identity v smut #victor grantz #victor grantz smut #victor grantz x reader #idv x reader #identity v x reader #idv postman #smut #minors dni #no minors please #minors do not interact

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hakkais-hoe · 3 years

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Love your aggressive s/o x Bonten headcanons lol

If possible can we get a version where they find out the only freaking reason she's so aggressive is because she's literally hungry and sleepy... Like all the time? Like she'd need food in her hand 24/7 and constantly eating something (or napping) in order to not go off on someone for breathing wrong for more than an hour lol (you can ignore this if you'd like idc I just think it's hilarious to see them with what's essentially the equivalent to a pissed and grouchy cat lol)

Bonten x reader with hanger issues n a food complex.

'm glad ya liked em :)

love this idea too

Warnings: swearing, blood, fighting, gun references, drug reference (sanzu ofc).

Bonten: Mikey, Sanzu, Koko, Ran, Rindo, Kaku.

Mikey-

finds you rummaging through your bag after a fight

after you come back with nothing from it and a sour look on your face he cant help but ask

"What's up with you now?"

notices your similar to him after he hasn't had a snack for a while

if you ignore he'll leave you to your little tantrum as usual

after a long bonten meeting you're sat drifting off in your chair when someone bursts through the door

you do one of those freaky slow look ups a glare as cold as ice on your face

"You're really gonna come shouting in here n wake me up you fucker?! I'm fucking tired and hungry af n you have the balls to do this shit. I'm gonna cave ya head in dickhead."

'oh' Mikey knows exactly what the problem is now

he grabs a dorayaki out of his stash n throws it to you

you grumble a bit before going silent and munching on the treat

promptly moving to a couch and taking a nap

from then on Mikey keeps extra snacks for the both of you and you take regular naps in his office, sometimes with him.

your aggressive little attitude seems to get a lot better which keeps the rest of the executives calm.

Sanzu-

tbh i don't think he'll realise, he likes it when you're a bit psycho n that

takes Takeomi or Mochi telling him that you seem calmer when you have snacks for him to realise

straight up asks you

"Soooo you got like a food complex or something babe? Cos I get it I get antsy when I don't have a pill for a while, I can get those food supplement drugs if ya want love."

like boy no who tf wants ur shitty drugs

"I want snacks motherfucker not some boring ass supplements, actual food n several naps a day."

our boy only gets it when you spell it out n will buy you all the snacks n food you want

also keeps a blanket n pillow in his office so you can take a nap with him

watches you sleep like a creep can't lie

whips random snacks out when you get n attitude during meetings

loves it when you have a little anger tantrum cos you wanna nap n lets you drag him down onto the couch to use him as a pillow

probably can't sleep cos of the drugs but good effort

"Think you should take a chill pill on the drugs, love."

"Which one's that is it in my bottle? Is it a downer? They're boring baby."

sir you have a problem >_>

Kakucho-

chances are he already clocked it after the first few times he saw you beat a bitch then walk straight into a shop n buy snacks

wont actually mention it he just makes you take scheduled naps under the pretence that he needs one

will gently massage your kneecaps during meetings when you start to get grumpy

pulls random snacks and drinks out of his pockets

tries to keep you calm all the time

practically throws a blanket at you when you get ratty

will bundle you up even in meetings n make you take a nap on his lap

human burrito

very devoted to looking after you

will let you fight when you're really angry but prefers to keep you as docile as he can

"Love, enough. C'mon come sit down wit me and have a snack leave that piece of shit there."

ur surprisingly obedient when he's waving your favourite snack at you

Kokonoi

honestly he just thinks you're a bit nuts plus you spend too much time with sanzu according to him

most of the time he just lets you do your thing n he doesn't get involved

only realises that there's something odd when the Bonten executives plus the boss go out for a meal after a meeting

you're silent for once n you even seem calm as you practically bounce in your seat with all the food in front of you

once he realises that you're a lot calmer with food he offers you his

will send someone to buy snacks as soon as he sees a hit of aggression coming from you

you fall asleep on his shoulder later in the evening

Koko adjusts you slightly to keep you comfortable

hears your light muttering about nonsense

he ignores the conversation that all the executives are having in favour of listening to you sleep talk

he can make out your quiet words at some points which cause him to chuckle

until you mutter about how much you love him

an unusually soft smile on the both of your faces is there until late into the night

tries to make you take naps often after that just so he can listen to you sleep talk

feeds your grumpy self often he orders some expensive snacks just to see your reaction.

Rindo-

if you think this cocky shit would ever question your angry self you have another thing coming

he enjoys watching you beat the living daylight out of anyone

coincidentally brings you some snacks during a meeting one day

usually you'd be snapping and threatening to fight sanzu by now but you're silent for once

he stops listening to Kaku's report to observe you n notices that you're only silent cos ur stuffing snacks in you mouth

"Uh babe? Did you actually just calm down cos I brought you food? If I'd known it was that easy I woulda brought you a whole ass shop."

"Mhm buy me a whole convenience shop n I'll marry you."

the boy definitely does a Koko n buys you way too much to keep in his office and your apartment

please let him pamper you

he realises that he enjoys your happy food enjoying self more than the little psycho you usually are

comes into every meeting with food

when you sleep on his office couch n wake up even calmer than with food he encourages you to sleep more

buys an expensive ass weighted blanket for his office

bless him he heard that they keep people calm from Ran

sometimes sits at the couch reading paperwork with your head on his lap

strokes your hair to help you sleep better

"Love ya Rin..."

your sleep talk is his favourite thing

Ran-

already knew

this man is very aware of everything you do

he may seem lackadaisical but he knows everything that you like and everything that keeps you calm

he plays it off as a coincidence that he started bringing snacks 3 weeks after you started

when he figures out your favourite he keeps them in his office 24/7

also like Rin he has a giant weighted blanket in a cabinet for you

has it out as soon as you come into his office

leaves it so that you can wrap yourself up in it when you're both going through paperwork

you ofc inevitably fall asleep in it

your boyfriend gets you all comfy and lays down with you for a quick nap

he wakes up wot you gently brushing his now messed up hair away from his face

you seem gentle and calm for once as you smile down at him

"Hi handsome. Did you have a nice nap?"

he's shocked ngl

falls in love with you all over again

"You look like an angel my love."

pampers you and makes you sleep a lot in his office just so you can wake up and be calm with him

he wants all your calm attention

will still cheer you on when you have a "tantrum" as Rin calls them

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