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hazelhearts · 2 years

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We Were Happy

Emily Prentiss x BAU!Reader

summary: sometimes love fades, even when you want it to last a lifetime.

content: Fluff, Angst, Emily being an absolute angel, family issues, no happy ending

word count: 3.1k

A/N: this is heavily inspired by We Were Happy by Taylor Swift. i got the idea and i swear i just couldn't stop writing. this is my first EVER fanfiction so please don't be surprised if it's rough! also i HAVE to dt @tommymcartney since i probably wouldn't have finished it without their need for Emily. enjoy!

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You and Emily had always been happy. You couldn't deny that. Everyone saw it. Your friends see how you can't go five minutes without touching each other, how you see Sergio as your child just as much as Emily does, how you need each other in order to breathe, and it all goes to show just how amazing your relationship really is. No one ever hesitates to tell you both how lucky you are.

After hearing the heart-wrenching stories from your friend Tsia about her revolving door of a relationship with her current ex, you couldn't help but be extremely grateful for what you and Emily have.

You and Emily had never really been the type of people to think about the future. It was the here and now that meant the most. That's probably part of the reason you were in this situation in the first place.

The heartbreak started like any other day. You woke up next to Emily, curled into her chest and happier than ever. You both got out of bed and headed towards the kitchen to get coffee. Emily had to run to work early because her supervisor needed her to attend a meeting about one of her latest cases. She kissed you on the cheek as she hastily grabbed her belongings and got dressed as she was walking out the door. The chorus of I love yous falling not far behind.

You headed back to the couch to watch a few episodes of Grey's Anatomy before you had to start getting ready for work. A few episodes then turned in to a whole season. Before you knew it, you had to be at work in five minutes and you were nowhere near ready. You ran back to the bedroom, grabbed your clothes, grabbed your coffee, and then walked out the door. You could get dressed in the car.

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When you got to work, you were greeted with a coffee from your favorite café and a blueberry croissant. You didn't even have to question who it could be from. You felt loved, but then you were hit with a twinge of annoyance. You contributed it to your long morning and got out of your head.

"Oooh princess is getting started early today, huh?" Derek asks as he walks towards his desk. There was a post-it under the croissant that had the words 'I love you' scrawled in her gorgeous yet messy handwriting. You stuck it in your bag to add to your box of notes she has written for you that's under your bed at home.

"Oh we've been going since before you even woke up this morning, Der." Derek simply smirked and started getting settled to get started on the long paperwork day ahead. You snuck a glimpse at Emily over your shoulder and found her already looking at you. You sent her the sweetest smile you could muster and started on your croissant.

"Did you know that croissants actually originated in Vienna? They just happen to be associated with French culture because they quickly adopted the pastry as it came to them." Spencer always seemed to have a daily piece of information for you to learn and you couldn't be happier for yet another reason to delay getting started on your work.

"No Spence, I didn't. What other fun facts do you have for me?" This opening is what Spencer had been waiting for.

"Well, did you know that..." His voice simply fades into the background. You're always grateful for the random knowledge Spencer is willing to give and you usually engage as much as humanly possible. Today, however, you just needed the distraction.

Your mother had called you the day before. Every day following a conversation with her seemed like your own personal hell. She always has the same things to say. You never come around, you don't love her and the rest of your family enough to come visit every time they ask, you're always to busy for anyone but your girlfriend, and then come the comments about Emily herself. You never quite knew how to deal with her. She's your mother and you love her, but sometimes you wish she would just give you a break.

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Later that night, you're sitting at home with Emily. You both had a long day so you were quietly watching Grey's Anatomy as you did every night. The show was pretty much always on, no matter the day or time. It was a comforting aspect for them both. Something they had done for years and probably would do for years to come.

"Hey, I think I'm gonna head to bed. Rough day." you mumbled as you got off the couch. Emily held out her arms for a hug and you were surprised when you felt yourself hesitating. She just wanted a hug. You quickly leaned down and gave her a brief hug and headed towards the room, closing the door. That's new. You never closed the door when you and Emily were both home. You assumed your day was just weighing on you and quickly got dressed for bed.

You got all ready for bed and quickly laid down. You didn't expect to fall asleep for a while. You never really could unless Emily was right next to you. So when you felt yourself falling asleep not even moments later, you were extremely confused. You decided to just let it go and get some sleep. Everything would be better in the morning.

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Everything was not, in fact, better in the morning. It actually seemed worse.

You had woken up with Emily curled into your chest. Your first thought was to get up and get out as quickly as possible without waking her up. What has gotten into you?

You gently remove Emily from your torso and quickly start getting dressed, your first cup of coffee for the morning brewing in the kitchen. You had already done your morning routine and were still walking as quietly as possible hoping to let Emily sleep until you leave.

You had a missed call from your mom. That made your mood even worse. You would have to call her back at some point today and the thought alone made you sick. You assumed that she was the root of your weird mood the past couple of days and quickly ran to grab the rest of your belongings. Just as you were heading out the door, you felt a hand on your arm.

"Do I not even get a kiss goodbye?" Emily looked like she had just rolled out of bed, which she probably had. Her hair was sticking out in all sorts of odd angles and she was wrapped in your robe. Usually the sight would bring you the most comforting, unfiltered happiness. Today it was just another tick on the ticking time bomb that you felt you were.

" Sorry, I didn't want to wake you. Is that my robe?"

"Yeah. Where are you headed so early?" You were getting more annoyed by the minute. You felt like she was just trying to push your buttons at this point. A part of you knew she was just trying to be a good partner but you did not feel like doing this right now.

"I'm just hoping to get an early start on work today. Is that a problem?" Now Emily was concerned. You never acted like this. There had to be something going on. She knew she had to pry, she just had to do it subtly.

"I'm sorry honey. I didn't mean to bother you. I'm just worried, that's all. I never got the chance to ask you how your day was yesterday. You were asleep when I made it to bed." Was she really doing this right now? You needed to get to work, to get away from the subject of this terrible attitude you have had. You didn't want to say something you would regret.

"It was fine. I talked with my mom and worked. Can I go now?" There it is. Your mom called. She always knew how to get under your skin. Usually you opened up to her when something like this happened. Whatever she said must have really messed with your head.

"How did that go?" You couldn't do this much longer. You had to get out.

"Yet again, it was fine. Same old same old. I've gotta go. Bye Emily." As you reached for the door handle yet again, she flipped you around and kissed you nearly breathless.

"Okay you can go. Have a good day my love. See you soon"

"I'll try. Bye Em. See you." You were so relieved to finally have gotten out of there. It seemed as if simply being in her presence was painful at this point. What was happening to you?

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When you finally made it to work, you were beyond pissed. Traffic had been terrible, so you had tried to pass the time by calling your mom back. That was a mistake.

Today her words were 'Y/N, you and Emily do not have to spend every moment together. If she's keeping you from your family, maybe she isn't someone you should have around.' You were in no way okay with her micromanaging your life. However, her words about Emily made you question the relationship. It shocked you that it meant anything to you. It seemed like your brain was looking for any excuse to be mad at Emily.

The team saw your mood as you entered the bullpen and distanced themselves without a word. They did not want to be on the receiving end of your explosion. Garcia excluded, of course.

"Hello my precious angel. What is going on in the world of Y/N?" You love Penelope. She was one of the most welcoming members of the BAU when you first joined and she has become somewhat of a sister to you. If anyone could help, it's her.

"Hey Pen. Can we actually talk for a minute? I need your help." Internally, you were begging her for a yes.

"Of course. Always. Follow me to my humble abode." You couldn't be more grateful for her.

As you reached Pen's office, you could already feel tears brimming in your eyes. Something was wrong. Penelope would help. She has to.

"Ok lovely, spill."

You quickly began to fill her in on everything. Everything from issues with your mother to possible issues with Emily.

"And then this morning I felt like I couldn't even be around her. I was practically rushing out the door. When she stopped to check on me I couldn't stand being within a foot of her." As you wrapped up the story, you could see the pain Penelope felt for you. She could see the confusion you felt and wished she could take away all your pain.

"What is wrong with me Pen? Emily is amazing. She's everything I could ever ask for. What is happening?" Pen reached up to wipe away a tear you hadn't even noticed had begun to fall down your face.

"Y/N, I'm gonna tell you something that I can nearly promise you that you don't want to hear. Don't hate me." Now you were scared. What was she thinking?

"I could never hate you Pen. What is the matter with me?" You took a deep breath. No matter what she said, you knew it was gonna hurt.

"It seems like you're falling out of love with her sweetheart."

You could physically feel your heart shatter at her words. Falling out of love? With the only woman that has ever loved you the way you deserved? That can't be right.

You don't know when you got up, but you suddenly felt yourself walking towards your desk. You got all your stuff together, muttered some sort of apology to Penelope, and then you were in your car. Heading anywhere but there.

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You quickly found yourself laying in bed at home. You were still trying to process Penelope's words. Falling out of love. A part of you knew that it made sense. The annoyance couldn't be coming from nowhere. But the other part of you didn't want to believe it. You got so lucky with Emily. Why would you sabotage it?

You can still remember the first time you both said I love you. You had been dating for around 6 months at that point and you were getting pretty serious. You were sitting at Emily's house, watching Grey's Anatomy. This is when the show had really become yours and Emily's show.

You were cuddling, watching the show very intently. All of a sudden, Emily put her hand on your face and turned it towards her. She simply said "I love you." Without even thinking you had said the words back. You both felt the sincerity and meaning behind the words. The moment was more than perfect.

You were snapped out of your memory when the door to your room opened. Emily walked in and was by your side in seconds. She had her arms around you and was whispering sweet nothings into your ear. You wish more than anything that it calmed you. If anything, it upset you more.

Slowly you began to calm down, regaining your breathing and wiping away imaginary tears. Emily was looking at you hopefully, begging you with her eyes to tell her what was wrong.

But you couldn't. How could you? She was being so amazing and you were just supposed to break her heart right here right now?

"Darling, what's wrong?" Those three words flipped a switch inside of you. You had to tell her. You couldn't keep leading her on like this. Not only was it unfair to you, it was unfair to her.

"Emily, I don't think this is working out." Within moments, her face has fallen and tears have gathered in her eyes. You immediately regret your words but you know there's no taking them back.

"What? Why? Did I do something? Did someone say something?" Emily was hurt to say the least. You both have been magical together. Until recently, you had never had a single problem in your relationship. You were happy.

"No no Em, it's not you. It's me." You felt so cliché. It's not you it's me? That's the best you could come up with?

"Emily, do you remember the first time we said I love you?" The thought was the only thing getting you through this right now. She quickly nodded. Smiling at the memory, yet the smile didn't quite reach her eyes.

"We were so happy. It was perfect. But Emily, it's not there anymore. You didn't do anything. I just, I'm not in love with you anymore. I'm sorry Em. I wish I had a choice. If I did, I would stay with you forever." At this point, Emily was sobbing. She had begun to feel it too, no matter how much she wanted to deny it. Things aren't the same as they were. And this change was not a good one.

"It's okay baby. If I'm being honest with you, I've started to feel it too. I've been trying to do more things for you and be there as much as I can because I thought that could fix it. But there is no fixing it, is there?" You could see the question in her eyes. The silent plea for there to be a magic word that she could say to fix everything. The silent plea for everything to be okay.

"No, I don't think there is." One sentence. One sentence solidified the end of the only relationship where you had felt happy and loved. You knew it had to happen, but that didn't make it hurt any less.

"Um, I'll grab a couple things and go stay with Pen for a while. I'll pick up more of my things as soon as I can. You can keep everything. I don't want to fight with you." You offered. You did not want the end to be a messy one.

"Oh, yeah okay. Are you sure you have to go tonight? You could just take off a few days and stay tonight."

"You know I can't do that Em. If I do, I'll never be able to leave." You knew that without a doubt. You had to do this now.

"Okay. Well, take whatever you need. I'm assuming I won't see you tomorrow." She was stalling.

"No, I'll come get everything else tomorrow and find somewhere for it. I really am sorry Em."

"I know. So am I." She shifted in the bed and got comfortable as you began to get everything you would need for the night. No words were spoken. None had to be.

Soon you had gathered all your belongings and you were ready. As you put on your shoes and texted Pen to let her know you were coming, Emily watched you. She wanted to memorize every part of you before she never got to see you in this way again.

"Well, this is it. Goodbye Em." You were still holding back tears. You refused to break down. If you did and Emily tried to comfort you, you would probably never walk out the door.

"Goodbye Y/N. I love you."

"I love you too Emily. Always." You finally made your way out the door.

When you finally got to your car, you broke down. You started to relive every single moment of yours and Emily's relationship. Your first date, your first kiss, when you finally told the team about your relationship that they somehow already knew about, and every other magical moment. You knew this was the right thing, but why did it have to hurt so much?

You knew the words you had said to Emily were true. You really would love her forever. Years from now, you would probably tell your kids about her and still feel this extreme adoration for her in your heart. You were happy. Now you just have to go out and find that happiness again. It was going to take a while and it was going to be painful, but you would do it. Because you deserved to be happy, to follow the voices that lead you towards your fairytale.

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tagging some mutuals: @benedictsmuse @deadravenclaw @goldensonlyangel @hotchgan @just-an-enby-in-a-trench-coat

#emily prentiss #emily prentiss x reader #emily prentiss fanfiction #tw family issues #as i said this is my first time experimenting with fanfiction #i have such mixed feelings #honestly might delete this #criminal minds x reader #emily prentiss oneshot

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bet-on-me-13 · 7 months

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Unknown, the Wandering Hero

So! We all know the typical Vivisection AU, right? Danny is revealed to his parents and they take it in all the wrong ways. They capture him, Vivisect him, and eventually he manages to escape with the help of his friends.

But what about his Rouges?

Sure, we all like to think of some of the more friendly ones like Ember, or Sydney, or Johnny 13 and Kitty, but he has WAY more Evil Rouges than good ones.

Without Danny there to reign them in, the Rouges spread out across the world to fulfill their obsessions, unhampered by the Heroes and Villains of the world that have no means to fight them.

And Danny? He feels responsible. He was the one to open the Gate, he was the Sacrifice, the one to let them through. And when the going got tough he just up and left? No, that won't do.

His Obsession is Protection for a reason, and nothing has changed. All he needs to do is expand his area of focus a little.

Danny, after healing up, starts wandering the world in search of the Ghosts who have escaped into the Mortal Realm. He battles all of his old foes, as well as many new ones who he hadn't met before.

His travels take him far and wide.

He defeats Skulker in Metropolis, as he is trying to hunt down the Super Family for their pelts. They are the last of their race after all, so he is inclined to try and hunt them. Honestly dealing with Skulker was easy, dealing with the Rich Asshole who was funding him was a nightmare.

He chases down Spectra in Gotham as she tries to feed on the misery of an entire City. (Thanks to @impyssadobsessions for the idea, this Prompt specifically). She is actually a very tough fight, especially powered by both the Misery of an Entire City as well as his Own Misery, but he manages.

He defeats Technus is Central City, as he tries to Raid Star Labs for their advanced Tech. It actually took a while to beat him after he amped himself with all that Power, and he did need help from the Local Hero to deal with him. He's just thankful Technus is one of the more "Harmless" ones.

After every Victory, he sends them back to the Realms using the Banishing Spell that Sam taught him a while back (the only bit of magic he ever really managed to master).

He knows they'll eventually find their way back out, but it's all he can do anymore. It's his eternal Punishment for unleashing them out into the World in the first place. He was the Catalyst for this Situation, now he was tasked with Fixing it, no matter how long it took.

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The Justice League is caught in a tricky situation a the moment.

In the past few months, they have been encountering more and more of these Extra Dimensional Beings known as Realms Ghosts across the World.

Justice League Dark has had some success in battling them, but even they are getting tired of having to deal with every single incident alone.

They did get approached by a Government Agency known as the Ghostly Investigation Ward that seemed to want to help, but it didn't take long to realize that their main Aim was to Genocide the entire Race. The JLA had quickly cut ties after realizing that, and took what little Tech and Information they had been able to gather.

Still, it wasn't easy to deal with these Entities.

Thankfully, they have had some outside help. An Unknown Being has been routinely showing up whenever a Realms Ghost appears and defeating them, before using a (as described by Constantine) "Rudimentary Banishing Spell held together by willpower and luck" to send them back to their home Dimension. There's honestly no way it should be functional, but he did make it work either way.

They don't know much about this Unknown, aside from the fact that he seems to be the only one able to consistently damage the Realms Ghosts. His Powerset leads them to belive he may be from the same Dimension, or at least drawing his power from the same Source, but as he actively avoids the League and takes every opportunity to not talk to them, they know they aren't getting any answers any time soon.

Over the past few months, they had affectionately started referring to him as Unknown, creative they know, because they could never get his Real Name. Sure, some of the Realms Ghosts seemed to recognize him, but they always called him stuff like "Whelp" and "Punk" and "Usurper", which were not very good names to use when referring to him. Although the last one was a bit concerning.

They had only managed to trade a few quick words with Unknown in the past few months, but it was enough to get the Gist of it. He was just doing his job, sending the Realms Ghosts back where they belonged. There was apparently a Tear in Reality letting them through, but he seemed hesitant to reveal what he knew about it.

After a few months of sparse interactions, they eventually managed to convince him to at least take an Emergency Communicator. Just in case. They even let him take it apart to look for any Tracking Devices, which earned them a small bit of trust. They took whatever wins they could.

Fortunately, it seemed he never did need it. In fact he was getting more and more efficient with every battle, defeating his foes in half the time it would have taken before.

Unfortunately, it didn't last forever. One day, the Communicator went off, a distorted voice quickly saying, "Need backup, some of them decide to Team Up" before cutting out.

They quickly rushed to his location, finding an active battlefield with no less that a dozen Ghosts battling Unknown. And he seemed to be on the ropes.

With their arrival, the combined force of the Justice League and Unknown eventually managed to defeat the Group of Ghosts. Justice League Dark volunteered to work on the Banishing Spells while the others cleaned up the damage from the Battle.

One of them approached Unknown to make sure he was ok, and froze.

During the battle, Unknown's Mask had been Torn off, and they could finally see the face of the Hero they had been working with for the past few months.

And he was a Child.

#Dp x dc #Dpxdc #Dc x dp #Dcxdp #Danny Phantom #Dc #Dcu #Vivisection AU #Wandering Hero AU #Danny's Hero name is Unknown #Danny isn't in a good place right now #He has an unhealthy mix of a Savior Complex and Survivors Guilt #He believes that this is all his fault and none of this would have ever happened if he hadn't been stupid enough to step in the Portal #Danny is of course Wrong since he parents would have eventually made the Portal work whether he stepped in it or not #And in that scenario there would have been nobody who could stop the Ghosts at all and they would have run rampant #The JLA is horrified that they let a child fight their battles for this long #Of course they understand him since they are the exact same but they still feel bad for not supporting him more #(As if Danny would have let them)#Whether Danny let's himself be taken in by the League or runs away from his problems again is up to whoever picks up this post #I leave it humbly in your hands

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