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mlmxreader · 13 days

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latest prompts (20/05), 250

please do NOT use for your own writing/inspiration, this list is specifically for requests to be sent to @mlmxreader.

rules & guidelines

song fics (ongoing)

aid for Palestine

prompt list rules: rules: you can send more than one prompt per request and mix and match them as much as you like! prompts can be used until (basically) i get bored of them!

Various Dialogue (50)

"Did you actually think that would work?"

"Come here"

"When I tell you to run, you fuckin' run!"

"This is important"

"What happened?"

"Easy, easy, it's only me"

"Can you not climb in through my window? You have a key for a reason"

"Sit down, we're taking it easy today"

"Yeah, motherfucker"

"Hurt him, you'll wish you were having a nightmare"

"Must we do this every time?"

"Quit it!"

"Just... stay there a second"

"You're bleeding, for fuck's sake!"

"I will fuck you up"

"Please, I don't wanna fight"

"Say it with me"

"You look really good, what else can I say?"

"What's the matter? You jealous?"

"It's just a little fun"

"I never meant no harm"

"We're gonna die here!"

"Can I come in?"

"Did you ever think we'd end up here? With all this?"

"I will always protect you"

"You're all I want"

"I think I've waited long enough to say it"

"You're gonna get us both into shit"

"I can tell you like me because you keep staring"

"I could use someone like you"

"Here, take my jacket before you freeze to death"

"What? He had it coming!"

"Don't go starting fights you can't finish"

"I didn't kill him! Gravity did that for me"

"I'm going with you"

"Wherever you go, just be sure it's somewhere I can, too"

"You fishing for compliments?"

"You weren't there, you would've done the same!"

"You're such a cunt... I love you"

"Cigarette?"

"Get down! You'll get shot!"

"Where is it?"

"Close your eyes and hold out your hands"

"Lie down for a bit, get some rest"

"Don't worry, I'll still be here"

"Please don't leave me alone tonight"

"You're back!"

"I should, but I can't stay away." "I don't want you to"

"Here, I'll get your coat"

"Take it you had a shit day"

Heavy Metal Lyrics (50)

bands used (10 each): Slipknot, Judas Priest, Iron Maiden, Warrant, Amon Amarth

"I can handle anything, even if I can't handle you"

"Don't you fuckin' pity me"

"What the hell am I sayin'?"

"Fuck this shit, I'm sick of it"

"Something about this, so very wrong"

"Did you never give a damn in the first place?"

"Are you scared of me now? Then you're dumber than I thought"

"Lot of bullshit, not a lotta the truth"

"I can't see from here, but I can smell your fear"

"I don't need this"

"You gotta learn your lesson"

"'Cause there ain't nobody here to defend your heart"

"I'm in love, so in love"

"Now give them back, boys"

"I can't believe that you need my love so bad"

"You come sneaking around"

"They pay me the money and I do the job, I got a contract on you"

"A gun, lump sum and then I move on"

"I do what I do 'cos I can't do nothing better"

"I'm the best that there is"

"Do what I want and do as I please"

"You'll be afraid of when I call out your name"

"Everybody's got their vice"

"You can take my honest word for it"

"You're packing your bags, you're coming with me"

"If you're gonna die, die with your boots on"

"But on this battlefield no one wins"

"We get so near yet so far away"

"We won't live to fight another day"

"You don't say but it's in your eyes instead"

"Keep your mouth shut, that's what we're going to do"

"I don't think I'm gonna love you anymore"

"I'm not sure that I'll be fine, I never thought it would end this way"

"But at least I'm someone to lean on"

"Darlin' I know you're sleepin', but there's something I've just got to say"

"Thanks to you now I know, all my dreams can come true"

"Sometimes I hear your voice, calls out to me makes my heart bleed"

"Smokes and spits and drinks and fights, and his friends all look like trouble"

"Inside your arms I found a place that's warm and dry"

"Lick it off my fingers, taste it on my tongue"

"Ride to meet your fate"

"Your destiny awaits"

"As long as one of us remains here, none of them will ever pass"

"We're outnumbered ten to one here, still, I love the odds"

"Hold the line don't let it break"

"There's no time to run or hide"

"Draw the weapon from your side"

"It feels like spikes with every step I take"

"I don't fear the setting sun or the twilight that it brings"

"I've missed the breeze of my home shores"

AUs (50)

Werewolf!reader

Werewolf!character

WW1

Pre-ww1

Post-war

Love Affair

Bounty Hunter!reader

1940s Noir

Private Detective!reader

Bodyguard!character

Journalist!reader

Childhood Friends to Lovers

Bank Robber!reader

Shape Shifter!reader

Ghost!reader

Ghost!character

Con Artist!reader

Criminal!reader

Vigilante!reader

Soulmates

Famous!reader

Medieval

Wild West

19th Century

Gangster!character

Gangster!reader

Domestic

University

Roommates

Rugby Player!reader

Arranged Marriage

Assassin!reader

Character Lives/Doesn't Die (eg Arthur Morgan)

Scream (1996)

Sellsword!reader

Hired Gun!reader

Mercenary!reader

Spy!reader

Farmhand!reader

Cowboy!reader

Gunslinger!reader

Rodeo Cowboy!reader

Sheriff!reader (Wild West only)

Medic!reader

Fighter Pilot!reader

Submariner!reader

Navy!reader

Fisherman!reader

Dragon Tamer!reader

Royal Guard!reader (only for medieval AUs or fantasy settings, eg LOTR)

Scenarios (50)

Only One Bed

Fake Relationship

Snowed Inside

Locked Inside Until Morning

Person A getting jealous over someone flirting with Person B

Person A getting into a fight to protect Person B

Person B stealing Person A's clothes

Person A getting injured and Person B panicking and confessing how they feel

Camping Together Somewhere Isolated

Roadtrip

Spending The Night Watching Horror Films

Hunting Trips

Person A realising they love Person B over something small

Hurt/Comfort

Person A helping Person B after a bad breakup

Person A showing up at Person B's place in the middle of the night

First Kiss

First Confession

Waking Up Together For The First Time

Person A getting possessive when someone gets too friendly with Person B

Playing Seven Minutes In Heaven

Going To A Party Together

Hidden Relationship

Relationship Leaked On Social Media/News

Date Night

Museum Trips

Staying Up All Night Together

Waiting For Them To Come Home

Person A seeing Person B in a suit for the first time

Patching Them Up After A Fight

Marriage Proposal

Person A gets sick so Person B takes care of them

Spending The Night In An Abandoned House

Getting Lost On The Way Somewhere

Playing Twister

Playing Strip Poker

Lost A Bet

Person A drags Person B along to meet their family

Person A's enemy turns out to be Person B's best friend

Smoking Cigarettes On A Rooftop At Night

Person A asks Person B to move in

Person A collects little things to give to Person B as gifts

Best Friends Realising They Love Each Other Romantically

Person A worrying when they can't find Person B

Person A standing up for Person B

Lazy Mornings In Bed Together

Person A stealing Person B's hat/coat when they aren't looking

Their Friends Have To Tell Them That They Have Feelings For Each Other

Unreciprocated Reciprocated Love

Having To Pretend They Aren't A Couple

NSFW below the cut, minors do NOT interact

NSFW (50)

Biting kink

Choking

Spanking

Hair pulling

Free use

Thigh riding

Dry humping

Breath play

Knife play

Anal fingering

Daddy kink

Sir kink

Bondage

Whipping

Chained up

Blindfolded

Temperature play

Hot wax

Sparring turns to sex

Oral sex

Hand jobs

Roleplay

Making a sex tape

"Punishment"

Handcuffing

Collars & leads

Spit as lube

Marking the other with bite marks/hand prints/etc

Outdoors sex

Sex on the floor

Shower sex/bath sex

Car sex

Gagging

Morning sex

Fully clothed dom & completely naked sub

Dom/sub

Uniform kink

Rough sex

Vanilla sex

Doggy style

Riding

Sofa sex

Sex against a window

Sex in public toilets (cottaging)

Public sex in a secluded field (dogging)

Crying during sex because they've missed each other so much

Overstimulation

Edging

Jealous/possessive sex

Threesomes

rules & guidelines

Palestinian aid

song fics (ongoing)

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imzsuzsis-blog · 2 months

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I saw a blurry picture on the net of Lando and a strange man in his forties talking in front of the hotel, then kissing. It blew my fuse quite a bit. "If I meet him, I'll be sure to follow Lando Norris" I got out of the taxi in a rage. I almost didn't pay the groundhog, my mind was so different that I shouldn't miss the fucking train, I managed again last year, I hope I won't make it this year... "Ohhh fuck it, I'll kill you!!!!" He takes a picture in front of my eyes and lets the guy hug him from behind. "Fuck this is disgusting." I even covered my eyes so that I wouldn't even see this shit... "Baby, how are the Twins?" I was so shocked by the news that I accidentally pressed Siri on my phone and instead of Zac, I called Pato'o, who was shocked by the news because his ex Lando had been together for a good two years.

"Oh, Osc, come on, take it easy, he's here, my friend Loki, we've just met." I gave Osc a friendly handshake but he pulled away terrified, as if I was terrorizing him. Hello, I'm Oscar, Lando's teammate since last year. He's a cute boy if you warm up like that." ,, Osc???? Did you take a homophobic pill again? we go together, he's my boyfriend." "Not only did you shock me again, you know, I called Pato' O instead of Zak, this is the news of the twins." "Did you hear the bass? I'm sorry, it wasn't intentional, I've only known since yesterday, believe me. I that I was shocked at first by the fact that I am not five weeks old, but seven, then that I have twins, double the joy, but double everything and fucking chaos." "When will you tell me at home?" I shook my head, I didn't realize this either, maybe there are Carlos, Daniel and Max among the four godfather signs, my rivals are all bigger names with one exception, Max Fewtrell is no longer a bigger name than me, but he can easily beat me in this.

"Oh calm down Oscar, yes I am Loki and yes Lando also took his name, that's my name, I have nothing to do with the god of mythology, I'm Loki Jonosoh." "How old are you, because in the picture you looked rather young, even though you were washed." "One week ago, I was forty-one, we just celebrated that on the date and it was said that he wanted to build this piece by piece after the previous one." I started stroking Lando's back with my beautiful but already worn black nails, who vomited again, this usual breakfast was bad for him. He can't stand it, he said yesterday when he was about to leave crying, he's out of it, it's like he's settled in well, and then everything would come out, he hates it all in the morning, I comforted him. In the brain, he was lying there crouched down and crying constantly, I am worried about him, in fact, he doesn't eat anything, he is just nauseous or dizzy, even now when we get there, this is not a condition for him. ,,Do you know of another hospital in Suzuka besides the emergency hospital? Oscar is urgent please!!!!” "I'm here Loki, I'm looking at the map, I've already found one, I hope it won't end badly. Come on Lando you need to eat for a little bit.” "No, I can't even look at the food, I feel nauseous and have to throw up again." "We really need a hospital where we can be told what to do, it's not fun to watch." ,,Jesus!!!" "We don't know what's wrong with me either, Charles. We know he can't eat, if he eats everything right away, then his appetite is completely gone, we are worried and he can't handle vomiting in the morning. Loki said that he was curled up crying on the bed and didn't want to leave until he couldn't stop crying." "We are hoping that he will sleep a little on the train."

The thought came to my mind, I'm going to die right here and get the fuck out, "Water, Loki, thanks, I'm not hungry, I'm just fucking thirsty and I'm parched." "Well, at least you're taking your vitamins, aren't you?" ,,Of course, are you fooling around with chocolate milk Charles? For what?” "This or the B12, you decide, Lando." Give me the chocolate milk, is it a joke, is it also B12? Get it!!!! I don't." I watched him while he was throwing a tantrum, it's only natural that he has no appetite and that he's constantly vomiting and gnawing on certain foods like that, what's wrong with him now?" "Paprika, but I could also say radishes and vegetables like this, he can smell it and is starting to feel nauseous, but he is constantly vomiting or has nausea, I can't do anything about him, even now he is sensitive, he saw a dead cat on the street and started to cry and he would have loved it At the cemetery, when I and a couple of passers-by prevented this, he started to get hysterical and threw his shoes, because I wanted to calm him down, he started to cry again because he doesn't understand what he's doing and he's had enough of it, he wanted to fool around with me, and finally he fell down. " "This vitamin shit and this chocolate milk look like they're being drunk by school kids." I went to Loki, who kissed me and ruffled my hair, I leaned on his shoulder, tired as hell, I didn't sleep in the middle of the night, I sat on the edge of the bed and waited for the new pussy to come out of my stomach, and I cried, then I vomited, I didn't sleep at all, when I slept, I tossed and turned, it was a nightmare.

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grahambaham · 4 months

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I just found out that there are people out there who believe Jason Todd beats Cassandra Cain in a fight... What??? I am aware that there was a comic where he got good hits in but it was very obvious and even outright said that Cass wasn't even trying to win, let alone hurt him, by Dick. Also, if they're thinking about that one time Jason fought Bruce, Dick and Cass all at once and won, you have got to be aware of how ridiculous that was. Like, Jason, as much as I love him, is the worst fighter out of them. Still a damn good one, but compared to them, just no.

Like, Dick, the weakest fighter out of that trio has more than fifteen years of experience of vigilantism. AT LEAST, the timeline's weird so I don't know exactly how much. He's trained with Batman for around a decade, was such a good fighter that he caught Deathstroke's eye and has trained with him for a bit and many more dangerous people.

Bruce, depending on how old he is and when exactly he started training idk but I assume it was late teens or early adulthood, has AT THE VERY LEAST twenty years of training and experience, most probably more. Has trained with people all over the world, INCLUDING the League and has beat Jason without THAT much difficulty before. Post mortem Jason I mean.

Cass, if we count her as around eighteen, has fucking eighteen years of training, with David Cain and many other people he brought in for her to fight against, grown trained killers. Her training was the most brutal out of all three of them. Cain has literally shot her out of nowhere and then forced her to fight him right after to, and I quote, "keep her on her toes". It's been said by Batman, Deathstroke and probably other people that she could beat Batman in a fight. And people like to say that Bruce only said that cause he's self deprecating and that's honestly so insulting to him. He's hard on himself and has shit self worth over things like his parenting, failing to save people etc, but he is an intelligent man who knows his strength and his weaknesses very well and over OR under estimating himself would've gotten him killed years ago. CASSANDRA CAIN'S ABILITY TO READ PEOPLE'S BODY LANGUAGE IS SO INSANE THAT SHE'S BEEN ASSUMED TO BE META HUMAN BECAUSE HER SPEED WAS SO FUCKING INSANE IT WAS DEEMED IMPOSSIBLE FOR HER TO BE HUMAN. This one guy said and I quote, "Her individual moves are borderline human. It is her aggregate speed that's metahuman. Humans can throw a 100 miles per-hour fastball, smash concrete with their heads, and run 4.2 forties. What they can't do is all of that at once. It's not so much physical as... as mentally impossible. Too much to coordinate." Her ability, trained into her not just gained, is so fucking op these people have no idea how it's humanly possible. The only advantage my boy Jason's got are his guns and the fact Cass can't physically stomach killing people. Cass without that hatred of killing dog walks Jason, even without it actually. In the Batgirl volume 1, after she loses her ability to read body language (she gets it back later ofc) she gets hit and is then in shock because no one has managed to land a single fucking hit on her since she was six. She proceeds to beat the shit out of people easily and thinks to herself "I'm fighting like a child. Pathetic", as she barely holds herself back from accidentally crushing skulls.

Cass has been very much nerfed in the newer comics for plot's sake or because the writer doesn't know her character well, or most probably because they want to put a certain character on a pedestal. They've done it all the time and you can't honestly call yourself a fan if you actually think Jason, even with the pit rage and the guns and hatred that makes him willing to kill, would be capable of even beating Nightwing unless he's having a really bad day, let alone all three of them.

Point of this all is: Cass rocks and DC sucks ass at being consistent and actually paying attention to the characters they write. They actually made Cass a villain in one. She found out she had a sister, murdered her and a bunch of other people for no reason, found out Deathstroke had brainwashed her or something and then killed him. Which btw, she killed Deathstroke. Bro's a hell of a challenge for the Bat and she killed him. Still think Jason, or Dick or Bruce could beat her? An argument could be made for Bruce but even then they're AT LEAST on equal footing, though I think Cass would still win. Would be a hell of a fight and Cass would get some nasty ass possibly fatal injuries but she'd still beat him in my humble and accurate opinion.

Okay I'm done now. Longest rant yet. Had a lot of feelings about this particular topic, sorry.

#dc comics #cassandra cain #bruce wayne #dick grayson #jason todd #rant #ramblings #deathstroke #david cain #red hood #nightwing #batman #batgirl #orphan #black bat #dcu

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bryverros · 5 months

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okay, i've watched the episode 3 for the first time, and i'm going to piece all of my thoughts on it into one post because i need to get it out of my system (i wont, but i can certainly try)!!! :D spoilers for ep3 (and the books? ish? ) ofc, but here goes

positive things:

baby percabeth <333 the dynamics was AMAZING; walker and leahs chemistry is so brilliant, the constant bickering absolutely had me wheezing the entire episode. also, some things they bickered about were actually like, meaningful (the conversation in the new jersey woods)

medusa. 1) mother!!!? 2) i absolutely loved what they did to her, this actually tragic perspective on her character was so refreshing. fpr a moment there, i actually believed they would let her live in peace. because her opinions were kind of very real up to the point where she tried to murder them all, but ig i can support women's wrongs. also, her outfit was like real cool, i absolutely could end up drawing her.

GROVER!!!!! i actually love him so so much, and aryan's portrayal is so precious to me. i really can relate to grover's character to an extent and i felt a huge connection to the scene where he found his uncle. i also actually almost cried there when he asked annabeth and percy to stop arguing and they just continued. felt very validated when he actually spoke up and got his point across!!

the attic scene was hilarious as hell. 10/10

a LOT of percy lines that were like absolutely hilarious. "the most powerful being's in the universe best idea to save his daughter's life was to…. turn her into a.... tree? :/" "she met a pine cone's fate" "i'd call my father but we aren't exactly on speaking terms. yk, bc the life long neglect and all" and the absolutely iconic let's send medusa's head to the gods, it's like reused batteries!!! let's return this shit, they should be honored!!!! walker's portrayal of percy is so spot on

annabeth was really going through it in this episode. she was so "i am right you are wrong" (and she IS right) in this episode, and her fatal flaw is really showing. really liked the comparison between her & medusa

positive things in a bigger picture that i am personally hurt by, so i'm going to complain:

percy & luke's relationship. GOODBYE. they really don't have to do this to me, their bond is so precious, i am going to be so heartbroken :/

sorry:

hermes. lin manuel miranda. i can't believe i'm saying this, but what a good cast for hermes. like, makes you REALLY hate the guy. he's so punchable. i want to punch him SO bad. you go luke, show your father (lin manuel miranda) what he gets for not paying child support. also, that delivery service outfit was the uugliest shit i've encountered, is bro a god even. he also found a way to sing.....

#i'd keep going but im really sleepy to review this post and see if i missed anything #so there goes #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo series #pjo spoilers #walker scobell #leah sava jeffries #aryan simhadri #annabeth chase #grover underwood

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crazy-random-bookworm-17 · 10 months

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I JUST FINISHED RWRB AND IM SOBBING SO HERE ARE SOME OF MY THOUGHTS I GUESS

HENRY IS SUCH A POOR LITTLE MEOW MEOW WHAT

The way Alex and Henry look at each other. I can't. Especially Henry, with the slight disbelief/tears in his eyes???? Heartbreaking.

"I read the emails. All of them." SORRY IF MY GRANDPA READ MY SMUTTY EMAILS TO MY BOYFRIEND I WOULD GET A HEART ATTACK HOW DID THEY LOOK LIKE THEY DIDN'T CARE AT ALL

Once Henry said the word "history" I FUCKING PICKED UP MY COLLECTORS EDITION AND GOT READY TO TAKE SOME PHOTOS BECAUSE I FELT THE QUOTE COMING

The delivery of the "History, huh? Bet we could make some." was EXACTLY what I needed, wanted, expected, etc. It was so perfect!!

I took soo many photos of the screen my phone storage is seriously suffering. Better 15 photos than 1 video though 💀

NO BUT SERIOUSLY HENRY'S SUCH A LITTLE SAD WET CAT AND IM HERE FOR IT

When Alex and Henry were shoved into the little closet I found it very ironic that Henry apologised for his whole assholery because it was so obviously the first step in their relationship. And it happened in a closet. Right

Henry awkwardly waving on the stage after Ellen got reelected awww. Lil boy doesn't really know how to act

Let's just say I am now decidedly much more Henry biased than I was previously. And it's a close race between the two now.

This was worth the trouble of my brother getting Amazon Prime two days ago (I think he told my mom she didn't have to pay??? What a lie, she did, but she doesn't know/believed him. But I'm not complaining here)

“And I thought Alexander Gabriel Claremont Diaz was a mouthfull.” “He is.” I SCREECHED THAT IS SO UN-HENRY-LIKE OF HIM I LOVE IT

THEIR FIRST KISS WAS EXACTLY LIKE IN THE BOOK?????? I SWEAR THAT SHIT WAS NEARLY WORD FOR WORD AND I LOVED EVERY SECOND OF IT

They changed Henry's name (:<) but they made it longer (:>) but if I hear anyone calling Henry his movie name I don't know what I will do (>:<)

I feel like I have so much more to say but also I don't know what it is so. Imma go reblog a bunch of gifsets now. Overall 10/10. Amazing movie, I laughed, cried, and screeched (as one does).

#rwrb #rwrb movie #red white and royal blue #red white and royal blue movie #alex claremont diaz #henry fox mountchristen windsor #firstprince

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athousandmorningss · 4 months

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I'm a free man/freer than I've ever been.

It's January, & I'm not tired I'd written.

Google photos shows me a picture from a year ago and I'm moved to marvel at then to now.

I'm trying to find new ways to move my body. C. and I fumble and laugh through a barre class that leaves me sore for two days afterwards. I try a spin class that leaves me wobbly-legged and grinning on the walk home in the fog. I lob a ten pound ball at pins for five hours straight and improve my game. J and I hole up in a dive bar with a ping pong ball table between us, my smile wide and eager from a well-earned win. I bike for miles, hike, stretch, lift.

Feb. 1 is the one year anniversary of asking for a divorce. I'm thinking about forgiveness. I'm thinking about the eight hour conversation with Y in which he finally owned the abuse. I presented you with a version of myself that I never fully realized, he'd said. I'm thinking about the specificity of the apologies-how they hinted at genuine self-reflection, but how this seemed to fall apart when he learned I'm going on dates with someone. How the anger and passive aggressiveness and meanness came out again. His I have concerns about what you're doing indicating a still present desire to control. The audacity.

And yet: I want to believe in forgiveness. Maybe I need to forgive him in order to forgive myself. I unintentionally found Myisha Cherry's Failures of Forgiveness at the library, and am moved when I read "forgiveness also aims at release, relief, and reconciliation for the victim. why should victims abandon these goals in order to focus on what the offender learns or doesn't learn? why must forgivers be both survivors and teachers?" (p. 37). I shuffle through anger and forgiveness in equal measures, I cannot land on one. I'm not supposed to.

Lover calls at two AM post concert and bar crawl. Later I tell him I don't want him to do that: that I want our time together to be deliberate and sober. Choose me when you're not drunk is what I'm trying to say. When together, we kiss for hours: our mouths eating and eating at each other, spit combined and shared, hands all over. It's so easy, even boring, to be desired and yet: he's healing that hurting part of me that wants to be kissed over and over and over 'til dizzy. To be taken slowly, in a way my ex-husband never did.

Over dinner with j, i ask for her take on what my next move should be. should i be paying my loans off? should i be saving a shit ton of money? and oh, this city's alright, but i want to get the fuck out of here. I can't do all three at once. She reminds me that the cheap living affords me the upcoming trip and concert to Austin, the loosely planned road-trip to California, the xyz.

I feel a stirring kind of restlessness, but can't help but wonder if this is a callback to y's claim that my life won't be adventurous without him. Or that my life is smooth and steady for the first time in decades, and maybe I attribute this smoothness to boredom.

I learn that my drug-addicted sister is homeless. I almost empty my saving's account to get her into rehab. She enters rehab and leaves two days later. On the phone, she ends the five? ten? year silence between us and says I love you. I delete the threads and block my eldest sister, again. You have to act like your sister's don't exist my hairdresser, whom I hug and talk with for hours while in the chair, says. And yeah. I do.

My hair's red now. That feels right. Do you want to go hiking in the morning C asks. I want to have a galentine's day dinner at my place, when are you free I send to the group chat. I'm turning 38 this year. I'm plagued by survivor's guilt. I'm thinking about the ocean. I'm trying, I'm trying, I swear to god I'm trying.

#love ethics #writing

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taikk0 · 1 year

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i dont think anon was referring to sps simple style, sp is a pretty controversial show. from what i've seen, it seems pretty bigoted? i could be wrong. sorry if this ask is rude, i don't mean to be rude, but yeah i think that's what anon meant

Oh no, not rude at all!! Sorry you have to apologize my response to that anon was a lot more srs than I intended I just wanted to get my point across, I'm all for open discussions :] to answer the bigoted question, I wouldn't entirely say no. but I can say that South Park was not made to make fun of minorities and spread harmful messages. The show presents bigoted behavior from the antagonists who are too stupid to realize they're wrong, it's up to you as the audience to realize that what they are the antagonists and that their actions should not be justified and supported. And even then, there are characters who outwardly speak out and work to fight against said bigots in the episodes they're in. However, the show also relies on shock humor. And this is a criticism on the fans part, but they really gotta stop saying "why are you surprised? It's South Park" as if being surprised over something gross or offensive wasn't the point in the first place. The ridiculous shit in the show isn't supposed to be normalized!! It's supposed to be absolutely ridiculous to the audience and catch them off guard!! You're not supposed to get used to it!! You're not supposed to like it, but you're not supposed to read too deep in it either, breaking down why it's wrong and why you found it shocking and why this is SUPER PROBLEMATIC!! Isn't the point. You just gotta acknowledge that "oh that's fucked up I cant believe they did that, that is so wrong" and just sit in shock for a bit and move on. Like, you can't tear the show apart for one joke when its purpose was for you to realize it's supposed to be ridiculous and wrong at the same time, and the show itself being aware of that fact. A lot of the offensive material circulating around on why South Park is bad lacks context. Cartman and Butters dressing up as chinese stereotypes? They are at a normal Chinese restaurant, harassing a Chinese family because they're idiots who believe that china will overthrow the world, they are asked to leave. Ike in a relationship with his teacher? Ike is a victim of a grooming that is not taken seriously by the police because the predator was a woman, portraying how male victims situations are overlooked in real life, the teacher dies in the end. Randy saying the N-word on live television? He is ridiculed and seen as a total asshole, he gets called "N-word guy" by the people around him and retaliates by making it illegal to call him that name, a satirical role reversal portraying the hypocrisy and sensitivity of white people (oppressors) where they make the "slur" against them illegal but not the slurs against the people they have oppressed for years.

But even after all this, I can see that there are other examples that I can't, and I am not willing to justify. At the end of the day, we all have to acknowledge that South Park was made by two cishet white men. (this was why I said I can't entirely say no) Their opinions will not always be right, and I'm sick of fans trying to justify some of their episodes and jokes just because they like South Park, South Park is not one of those shows you want to ride or die on. I personally have a few jokes and episodes I dislike and will absolutely never watch again, but that is not my main focus. Discrimination is not my draw, and I don't think that's the show's either. Now we're going out to discussion territory and more of personal opinion. I personally enjoy South Park because I feel very drawn to the characters and I find their character driven adventures and antics to be really entertaining. I don't care much for the social commentary. Not that I completely ignore it, it's just something I acknowledge is important in some episode's narratives, but not something I pay too close attention to.

I don't think I watch South Park for the intended reasons, and I don't think most of the fans over here on Tumblr do either. I can admit that I enjoy a version of South Park that isn't technically South Park entirely. I enjoy South Park for what it isn't, and that is a situational comedy with four little guys getting into all sorts of trouble <3

And the funny thing about this whole post is that I used to be a South Park hater.

I thought it was just a bigoted show where the only jokes it had were slurs and children saying fuck, right before I actually gave it a chance and was surprised to find out that it was more than I thought it was, and that I actually somehow enjoyed it.

It's kinda crazy to me that I'm technically defending SOUTH PARK of all things right now.

But uh yeah, I like South Park, it wasn't as bad as I thought it was, and I ended up hyperfixating on it. I'm not here to change anyone's mind and make them watch South Park because "it's ACTUALLY spotless and politically correct all the time, you're just sensitive ☝🤓" People are right to label South Park as controversial, and people are right to be offended by it when it's making fun of something it doesn't understand or without the proper nuance, and people are allowed to discuss and criticize the show for it. With all that said, The show is not emblematic of its own fans, and some of its own fans need to stop looking up to it like it's the bible.

Matt and Trey can be wrong, and even fans like me who enjoy it aren't too dumb and ignorant to recognize and rightfully not be in support of certain aspects of it when a line is being crossed.

This whole thing was supposed to end right after I attached the photo of the characters, but then I just decided to write more and so I puked this extra fluff out, sorry about that lol

#taikko asks #me and my homies hate matt and trey meatriders sorry 👎#<- the meatriders who defend them at every turn and justify everything they do. theyre grown ass cishet white men dude #meatriders who just have a crush on them.....you do you idc its none of my business LOL #SORRY YALL THIS IS LONG #do not ask me about my opinions (walls of text that is too long)#im new to the fandom/south park in general but i watched the whole series already so sorry if this screams 'NEW FAN!!'#be GLAD im a new fan i was too young and impressionable to watch it before #do NOT let 13 year old mikyomix near south park EVER #i dont usually write essays or stuff this long idk if i did good or not lol #south park

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gay-dorito-dust · 1 year

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I am soo sorry for the late reply. I've been going through some things, and I went back into my shell . Your message has been on my mind and literally been my own motivation to reply.

Also I re-read what I sent and I apologize for any mistakes. My mind will delete words while I'm reading. I'm sorry..again. 😞

~~~~ back to leooon ~~~

Games like that show that they believe their audience have cognitive thought and... fucking thank you 🥺. I wanna come back to a game or spend more time playing it because I can't get over whatever vague/mysterious element. You need a game to come back to, and if i found out about everything, I'm not coming back. Let me stop before I go on a rant about the lack of critical thinking nowadays.

Lol it's almost like Leon's bad lines are a virus too😏😌 aahh I just read your message of calling it a disease so I'm not erasing my previous statement. Great minds think alike.

One of the PRETTIEST BOOOYSSS!!! Plus the depression and a bored expression are what keep me coming back to that buffet of a man. Hooo-Weee! 👅 Keep em coming! Speaking of list...who's your top 6?

Ofc! You know he'll have a shit eating smirk when he says the line too. Oop- cuz he never gets taken by surprise? Hmm. How do you think Leon would react to his s.o trying to sneak up on him?

🥺🥺🥺 he really does need a hug (😙 maybe a kees)!! AND A DAMN DAY OFF!! Yoo Leon is not a fool! He will not turn into a top heavy bitch. Like you said you KNOW he doesn't skip leg day. 😈 honestly if I could get a lil gross, his arms and thighs!! Nah I'm dying because I was drooling over them and not paying attention.

Long time no see my friend, Its great to hear from you again and I hope that you’re alright during theses times and know you’ve got someone to talk to if needs be. ❤️🦦

My top 6 pretty boys? Ur asking the real brain ticklers but I shall give it a try. Though keep in mind this list is subject to change.

1. Leon S. Kennedy

2. Chishiya Shuntaro from AIB

3. Jamie Reyes from blue beetle

4. Jason Todd aka Red Hood

5. Sam Alexander aka nova from The Ultimate Spider-Man animated show

6. Vergil/Dante/Nero from dmc (yes all three of them)

(Bonus: Loki, Link, Dick Grayson)

How would lean take his s.o trying to take him by surprise?

He’d probably heard their breathing or footsteps or something but plays pretend because he loves how happy they get when they achieved in ‘taking him by surprise.’

Or he’d be a little shit and ruin their little plan by taking them off guard first. He’s a smug prick afterwards bc it proves that his training had paid off whilst holding his s.I in his arms as they pout, do they care? No they’re in Leon’s arms and staring at his veins.

Petition to kiss and cuddle Leon whilst giving him words of comfort but also listening to him when he talks about his terrors and traumas.

Leon’s thighs are firm as fuck, so I bet sitting on them would be like sitting on a plush armchair or swim thing along those lines. His arms aren’t anything to scoff at either bc we’ve seen those sexy things! I just wanna trace those veins whilst also caressing the moles he has there.

Be as filthy/gross as you want, there ain’t no judgment here!

(I remember making a fic about tracing the moles on his necks and now wanna do one for his arms cuz I might be asexual but god those arms are making me think things.)

#re4 remake #re4 x reader #re4 leon #re4 #Leon imagines #Leon kennedy imagines #leon kennedy imagine #resident evil 4 remake #resident evil imagines #resident evil fluff #resident evil imagine #leon kennedy fluff #leon kennedy fanfiction #resident evil x you

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Yandere! PhayaTharn x Male Oc headcannon

Synopsis: You probably shouldn't have been introduced to these two...yeah.

Warnings: Violence, mature elements, a lot of inaccuracies (due to my dumbass not actually watching the show since I'm a pussy)

Note: if you pay close attention to my description of M/n, then you may recognise him...

(if not, here's a visual representation)

(I'll give him a proper name later)

Note 2: This is probably my longest story yet, and no, I don't count words bc I'm a lazy dick.

How you would meet

It would be completely by mistake. You were just a normal businessman, a CEO of a company that your father had taken over back in the 90s.

What you did not know was that the company had been taken over ILLEGALLY. You only found out when a bunch of police officers stormed the building when you had finished your shift.

"What's going on?!" You would yell, clearly not knowing what was going on. "It's nothing that you need to worry about," one cop had jumped in. "Well then, did someone get hurt?" You asked, now a little bit more calm.

"I'm sorry, we can't discuss it."

What did they mean by that?! You needed answers. Did someone get hurt? Did you do something you shouldn't have? Is this your father's ploy to kick you out of the company?

Soon, you felt a hand on your shoulder. You turned around, and you saw one of the most handsome man you ever laid your eyes on.

"Sorry, Sir, but it is best if we talk in a place more private," he sighed, taking you to a car, where another man was sitting.

"Sorry we had to drag you into this," the other man told you sympathetically. "But...your father has got some dodgy dealings with a certain group of people."

"What certain people, exactly?" You asked, believing then, but not knowing if they got the full story.

"The Medri's. They are a mafia group from Spain who have come on our radar when your father, (D/N) Saelim, began his dodgy dealings with them." The first guy said.

You began laughing, not like a crazy laugh, but more like a sarcastic laugh. You were not surprised about this.

"I knew my daddy was a fucking prick," You sneered, unintentionally sounding rude. You quickly apologised. "No, no don't apologise. Its fine, we get it, you're still taking this in..." The other guy chuckled a bit.

"Yeah...thanks I guess. My name's (M/N). Just call me (Other Name). But I guess you already knew about that," you sighed.

"I'm Phaya, this is my partner, Tharn", the man in the white shirt introduced. "You can call us if you want to talk," Tharn replied.

How you would find out about them

For the next few weeks, you had been running the Saelim family by yourself. It was stressful as fuck, and you even considered giving the company to someone else.

But you persevered, against the odds. It was mostly thanks to your new friends, Phaya and Tharn, who often came over to your place to give you a hand with things. Often helping you destress with cinnamon buns and other sweet treats.

But, there was something not right about them...

There was a gut feeling in your stomach that was telling you that you should keep an eye out on them. It was not that you shouldn't trust them, but it was that you should trust them, but they are hiding something, personal.

You were feeling tired one night, Tharn was in the living room whilst Phaya is asleep in the guest room. Tharn was trying to feed you chicken nuggets to avoid you falling asleep.

"Please...don't sleep yet! We need to finish the film!" Tharn whined. You accidentally bite his finger. His eyes soon turned green, and he suddenly snapped.

"Ow, that hurt!" Tharn pouted, his eyes still green. But then he saw that you noticed that his eyes were not brown anymore. You suddenly woke up, and you stared at him with...shock? Awe? You didn't know.

"Am I on drugs or something- HOLY SHIT WHAT THE FUCK?!" You suddenly yelled. Tharn had literally turned into a naga in-front of you. To say you were scared would be inaccurate, but you were not sure what to do.

"Phaya! There's something wrong with Tharn! He turned into a giant ass snake monster!" You cried out with annoyance. You hoped to god that he'd help you out, but instead, you saw another naga. "God dammit..." you exhaled.

But then, suddenly, you started to feel weird. Oh shit...please tell me that these idiots haven't infected you with the naga shit. Then you pieced it all together.

You were not (D/N) Saelim's real child.

"We went through your dad's files, and we found an adoption letter in them. We thought that he may have adopted a younger sibling of yours, but it had your name. And your real family were the Chaikhams." Tharn said, transforming back into his human form.

"They are a group of vampire-werewolf hybrids called "Nightwalkers". They are a force to be reckoned with..." Phaya sighed, also back in his human form. You took all this in, and nodded.

"But...what was your true intention? To take me to a research facility or something?" You ask, rather resigned to the fact that you may be killed. They shook their heads with shock.

"No! No no! We don't wanna hurt you, in fact..." Phaya crawls closer towards you. You blush a little, but you don't fight him. "We want to protect you. As our husband," Tharn jumps onto your lap.

This confused you. You were fine with 2 hot guys dating you, but HOW THE FUCK WOULD THAT WORK?!

Your First Date with them

The duo would try to take you out for dinner, but it's raining - and despite your vampire side liking the rain, your werewolf side hated it. So they would order takeout instead.

You would try to keep your animalistic side under control, to avoid not only you but your boyfriends getting killed by this monster in you.

"How did I get to date two lovely men like you..." You think to yourself, whilst eating your pineapple pizza with Tharn. Phaya just stared at you - judging. He hated pineapple on pizza, but he tried to pretend that it was jealousy.

You and Tharn couldn't help but laugh.

Would you become a Police Officer/Dectective yourself?

I'll leave that up to you...

Would you be possessive of them?

Yes, but it's mostly your werewolf side that's possessive of Tharn and Phaya. You would be playing a game with them plus some friends, and one of them would make a very rude advance on Phaya, not knowing that he was talking about YOU and THARN'S boyfriend.

It would take a while to knock you out to avoid a crime-scene...

Your vampire side is a lot more chill, although it is a bit of an asshole. Your vampire side is basically Joji before his music phase.

(Help)

#phayatharn #the sign the series #the sign #phaya #tharn #male oc #gay oc #stylish oc #ceo oc #phaya x male reader #tharn x male reader #phayatharn x male reader

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rogue-bard · 7 months

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I am so fucking angry. I sent a package with Deutsche Post, explicitly asked for it to be insured, and they said "for insurance you have to pay X", I gave them the money, ASKED AGAIN if this is now insured, the guy took my package and said yes.

Then, after the package inevitably went missing, they refused to help me, because "you can only report a package missing after 7 days" at which point it had been 14 days, which I reminded them of, and then suddenly it was "no, not 7 days, but you cannot report it missing this week".

Their online form for reporting stuff missing btw doesn't send, and if you click on the link "Are you having problems with this form", then you get a 404 "Page not found" error.

After another week, they finally let me report the damn thing missing but told me "oh no, it's not insured, what a pity". Excuse me???

And then, I didn't get any answers for another 2 weeks, so I kept pestering them once a week with a phone call, and got the same reply each time: "It will take 25 days after it has been reported missing - if it's that urgent (which it was), you should have reported it missing earlier."

At which point I'm now already boiling with rage. Now I got an email that they absolutely can't find it, and since it's not insured, I'm shit outta luck. So I called the complaint hotline and told them the whole story about how I explicitly asked if it was insured TWICE, and they were like "oh! Then we will tell the postal worker who wrongly told you it was insured, that he was wrong. That is all we can do for you."

I can't fucking believe it. It's not about the money, I just REALLY need the goddamn package to get there NOW.

#deutsche post #deutschland

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golbrocklovely · 1 year

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i love snc which is why i follow this blog but there is a lot of negativity going around about people they were once close friends with. i think it's worth reminding everyone that we don't know any story 100% and it isn't our place to judge. the negativity only hurts yourself, too. take care of yourselves and let it go! 🫶🏻

i getchu anon. however… if i can speak my mind for just a moment.

i agree with the sentiment that we don't know the full story behind really anything snc related. i say that all the time and constantly remind everyone on here when things seem to be getting too heated. however, i also don't think we have to be positive all the time. of course, outright hating on someone isn't great or really necessary to get your point across. and especially sending hate is never the right thing to do, regardless of what that person has done. it's always best that if someone pisses you off deeply to just block them and move on bc it's not worth the energy it takes to pay attention to them.

that being said, ppl come on here to vent bc no one we vent about is on here. snc don't have an account on here, and neither does any of the other ppl we talk about. if i talk about sam, for instance, there's a 99.9% chance he's not gonna see it. but if he decides to come on here and search his tag, then he is actively wanting to see what ppl are saying. on other sites where he has a platform, he's getting opinions regardless of if he wants to see them or not. this place is just basically a space for us to scream into the void without the possibility of being seen, which is needed sometimes.

and with other sites, i can't exactly go on them and complain about a video or something dumb that happened or literally anything without someone being upset. that still happens on here too sometimes but i've also found a lot more ppl will agree with me bc they can be anonymous and not face backlash for having an unpopular opinion. that's why i allowed ppl to go anonymous and vent to me, bc literally no other platform with the snc fandom attached allows that. obviously, some ppl take it too far. i don't answer asks actually berating or calling someone names for the most part. there are constructive ways for us to say how we feel without getting mean.

but i will add that there are some ppl snc are or were friends with in the past that i personally believe have done some questionable shit, if not way worse. prime examples being brennen and elton. for those reasons alone, i'm not gonna talk highly of them ever. i will not be positive about them. some of their ex friends, i try my best to find the positives or not be so hard on, but if i feel like what they did is wrong, i'm not gonna be positive. granted, i could be completely wrong about the situation. and i'll admit that if i ever find out i am. but until then, i'm gonna have my opinion. and if you don't agree, totally understandable.

#ask #personal

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i-used-to-wear-the-fedora · 2 years

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You've Got to Pick Up Every Stitch (Whumptober Day 25)

We refuse to allow this witch to continue and infect our community! We must save the souls of our town!"

The sounds of the small mob agreeing enthusiastically were audible to Eddie's ears but he was more focused on the noose pulled tightly around his neck. The man stood next to him glared down at the younger boy as Eddie tried pulling at the ropes binding his wrists behind his back.

"And we refuse to allow this son of Satan continue his rampage!" The man continued as he yanked on the noose. Eddie choking for air through his nose, the rag stuffed in his mouth obstructing his ability to breath. Despite having only the moonlight and scattered flashlights to light the crowd, Eddie grimly recognized some of the people in the mob that gathered to watch his death. Closing his eyes, Eddie's mind wandered to how the fuck after everything he went through, it was a crowd of angry humans that were going to kill him.

It had been a nice day. Relatively speaking. After he'd finally been discharged from the hospital to come home to Wayne and their new apartment a few weeks ago, Eddie found himself adjusting to life post upside down. Post Chrissy. After signing dozens and dozens of NDA papers, they'd announced his innocence on national TV. The blame was pinned on Jason Carver, saying he and Max had been the only survivors in the basketball player's rampage. Eddie might have felt if this was anyone except Jason Carver. The guy who made his life a living hell and tried to kill him. The guy who hurt anyone to get what he wanted, for fuck's sake he attacked an eleven year old. He'd seen Erica's bruised face when they were waiting in the hospital together. But the worst part was he was the reason Max was still in the hospital in a coma. Any empathy he might have had flew out the window every time he thought about Max.

Hawkins was still Hawkins though. And shit hole that it was, people were still unsurprisingly shitty. Nobody wanted to believe that their golden boy was a murderer. Most people usually keeping their disdain for the goth to a side eye in or a muttered insult but others were a lout louder. Name calling, small vandalism, or if he was really unlucky he'd run into Reverend Carver. Jason's dad. Seemed batshit crazy ran in the family, the man accosting him in the streets and calling him a son of Satan. Accusing him of corrupting the town's youth with his devilish wiles or whatever.

It was exhausting. Being bombarded on every side by these assholes but he had a few safe spaces. His current favorite of which was the local Family Video. Mr. Holier than thou and people like him refused to go in and he got to spend time bothering his two favorite people in the world.

"Are you going to actually buy something today Munson, or are you just going to stand around and loiter?"

"I am shocked you would accuse me of such a thing Harrington." Eddie grinned as he leaned across the return desk where Steve "the hair" Harrington stood with a disdainful look on his face as Eddie popped another Raisinet out of the box in his hands. "I am a paying customer who's come to spend my hard earned dollars on some family friendly entertainment."

"You didn't even pay for those." Steve gestured to the box of theater candy in Eddie's hands. In response, Eddie brought out a crumpled one from his back pocket and slid it across the counter with a smirk.

"Keep the change." He patted Steve on side of his face to which the younger man slapped his hand away.

"God, would you two stop flirting? I'm trying to alphabetize over here." Robin called from the other side of the nearly empty store. "Some jackass came through and decided to rip out the styrofoam inserts and didn't bother to put them back."

"Ah yes, the joys of retail work." Eddie remarked as he and Steve etched her grab a broom to sweep up the broken white plastic mess that covered the carpet.

"Well we can't all get lucky and sell drugs for a living." Steve replied before calling out to his coworker. "And it's not flirting!"

"Yeah Buckley, I like to think I have standards." Eddie added on with a look from Steve that said 'Really dude?'. Eddie had found out a lot about Steve when the guy decided to keep visiting him in the hospital. Like the fact he wasn't a total douche. And with the help of Buckley, that he didn't mind that Eddie liked dudes.

"Speak for yourself Munson, I am a catch." Steve said with a flip of his signature hair.

"The scoreboard would say otherwise." Robin countered from where she was sweeping up a styrofoam mess. The telltale small whiteboard was laid on the register counter. The current tally on You Suck almost filled the white slate. You Rule had a single stroke.

"Ugh, what would you know?" Steve huffed as Eddie laughed at the face Steve was making. Robin side eyeing him. She never said it but he knew that she knew about his not so minor crush on the former jock. He wasn't subtle about it but Steve was Steve and somehow remained oblivious to most things. Eddie's watch alarm going off made him look down to see it was almost four o'clock.

"Shit, got band practice." Eddie glanced back at Steve as he made his way to the door. "You know, if you ever want to, you could come watch me perform."

"I'm good." Steve replied. Maybe a little too quickly than Eddie would've hoped for.

Eddie didn't have his minivan anymore. One of the many things confiscated by the government along with their trailer, his guitar and everything that vaguely anything to do with the upside down. Plus side, he got the walking in his physical therapist recommended. Down side, his body despised every other step he took. Wishing he remembered to grab the cane the hospital gave him.

'Come on Eddie. Jeff's house is just a few blocks away.' He told himself. Walking along the sidewalk and humming the INXS song they'd been working on when he noticed a car coming down the road. It slowed down until it was right next to the metalhead.

'Shit.' Eddie tried to turn around as the car parked on the road next to him.

"You look like you could use some help." The window rolled down to reveal Mr. Carver. Because of course it was him, life seemed to have it out for him sometimes.

"I'm fine Mr. Carver. Thanks." It was worse when the people who hated him tried to act nice. It always meant that something bad was about to happen.

"It's Reverend." He corrected Eddie. Him getting out of the car made the metalhead look around nervously. Almost no one was out and he was out of view of the movie store.

'Fuck.'

"Come on, I'll give you a ride to wherever you're going." The man grabbed Eddie's elbow, practically stopping him in his tracks.

"Listen. I know you're trying to be a good Christian or whatever but-" Eddie was cut off by the man shoving something over his face.

"That wasn't a suggestion."

The sweet smell made his brain go fuzzy and the next time he was lucid, or at least aware of his surroundings, he was in the back of a moving car. Trying to breath was difficult, becoming aware of something (his bandana?) shoved in his mouth. His body was unusually heavy as words were spoken at him through the drugged fog.

"-sinner-"

"-Satan's grasp-"

"-witch. My son saw it himself."

Son? Oh right. Jason. Eddie wanted to laugh. Even in death he had it out for the goth.

Hands grasped at his body as Eddie felt his feet moving under him. Now completely awake for the first time. They were in the woods. It was dark out now as he was led through a small group of people gathered around a large white tree. A step stool was sat under it with a noose dangling from the branch. The murmured pieces coming into place as he realized what they were going to do. Hang him like a witch. He might've been able to outrun them before but his barely healed injuries, the grip on his shoulder and the brain fog he was still experiencing made any plan of escape impossible.

Now here he was, in the middle of what he'd hoped was a horrible nightmare, watching a crowd of people egging on his execution. Reverend Carver turning to him and whispering so only Eddie could hear him.

"This is for my son."

With that the stepstool Eddie was stood on was kicked out from under him.

He'd read about the Salem witch trials before. If they were lucky, the height they dropped from would cause their neck to snap so they wouldn't have to die a prolonged and agonizing death by strangulation. But again, the Munson luck was at work and he was left dangling from a tree branch, just barely clinging to life. Maybe it had been one minute, maybe five. His vision was blurred over now as his mind raced. The darkness slowly creeping in from the edges as he wondered if this was what Chrissy felt like that night in his trailer.

Eddie's mind was starting to drift off when he heard yelling. Maybe it was him? Or maybe hell was real and he was hearing the tormented screaming of what awaited him. The answer was apparently neither as he felt the weight of the rope around his neck disappear and his body fell to the ground hard. He let out a muffled cry and brought his knees up in an attempt to lessen the pain.

"No, no, no. Come on, Hey." It might have been the delirium from almost dying but Eddie could've sworn he was hearing Steve's voice. Eyes coming back into focus as a hand yanked the bandana out of his mouth to see his brown haired angel stooped over him. His usually perfect hair was messy as he helped Eddie sit up.

"Nngh...Steve? Is that you?" He asked, a smile crossing his face despite everything.

"Yeah, it's me." Steve took out a knife to hack the rope around Eddie's neck off before working at the ones on his wrists.

"How'd y...How'd you find me?"

"One of the kids saw when you were grabbed. We've been looking for you all day."

"Huh." Even when it seemed like the whole world was against him, it was nice to know there was still people who looked out for him. The darkness was still creeping into vision as he leaned into Steve's shoulder. "Hey Stevie? I'm tired.''

"I know Eddie, but I need you to stay awake until we get you to the hospital. Okay?"

"Yeah....thanks Stevie..." The young man still smiling as Steve helped him up and over to a waiting car in the distance. Eddie was vaguely aware of Steve taking his jacket off and wrapping it around the other boy's shoulders. "My knight in shining armor."

#stranger things #fanfiction #stranger things au #eddie munson #steve harrington #steddie #robin buckley #whumptober2022 #whump #whumptober day 25

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dredshirtroberts · 1 year

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I get it. I get why my aunt wanted to push back against the negative view I have of my parents and the family most closely associated with them. I understand why she wanted me to consider their side of things - she's a parent too, after all. And it's hard, it really is, to see a child disown their parents instead of the other way around. It's hard to see it the other way around too, don't get me wrong, but like. Kids aren't "supposed" to disown their parents.

I don't doubt that my parents believe with their whole chests that they love me and have done their very best with me - in fact i agree that they did their very best with me that they possibly could have.

Their best was just bad. Because I was self-sufficient it makes sense that they assumed i didn't need their help - wrong though that assumption may be. They were young, they were figuring out what to do next now that they both had a kid and a spouse they weren't super sure they were ready for. I get it.

Also that's her older brother i'm shit talking, and I do acknowledge the things they have done for me that were good. Because even a stopped clock is right twice a day.

But they ignored me, intentionally or not. They dismissed my interests or made fun of them so hard that I not only stopped bringing them up on my own, but I have a hard time engaging with some of them to this day because i was shamed out of enjoying it. They do not ask about what else I do because they do not care to learn if they have anything in common with me anymore.

Dad was passive aggressive as fuck about me setting a reasonable boundary. My aunt was immediately just "Sounds good, I can do that, I wanna hear about your personal life more anyway."

And you know what? I've literally never had any single person in my family do that for me and actually pay attention as I talked and asked me questions about things. And that's what she can't see, when I say that my parents see me only as a status symbol. That's why she pushes back and says that of course it's different - they wouldn't say horrible negative things about me being a leftist/"liberal", queer, Weirdo because I'm their kid.

Except i heard what they said about *her* and she's closer to center than I am. I heard what they said about anyone who was left of where they were. It...was not kind.

at best, they called people stupid for thinking the way they did. Brainwashed. I won't repeat at worst, for my own sake.

Anyone who falls away from their path is unintelligent or gullible or easily swayed and manipulated. Anyone who does not think the way they do after being presented with their facts is an idiot. I am likely labeled both, whether they say the words or not. I have received the patronizing smiles and the polite capitulations that say very clearly that i just don't know what i'm talking about, even if—especially if—i know more on the subject than they do.

I don't blame her, though. And it...didn't hurt as much to have her push back on it. I get it. I didn't want to know these things about my parents either. I didn't want to see it happen at me. I didn't want to realize how things were going.

My parents are not good people. At best they are polite. I will not say what they are at worst. Not tonight.

But tonight I will say that I had one of the most fulfilling conversations with a family member I've ever had. I will say that I felt loved and respected the whole meal. I am looking forward to getting to know her—and everyone else my parents spoke poorly of behind their backs—and have a relationship with her. I'm finally looking forward to the future and it...it looks safe. And filled with family—found and otherwise—who love me.

Tonight I had a good time.

Plus also we looked hella good for being out in a proper sitdown restaurant for the first time since moving up here lol.

#just rambling to re-process everything #I'm...at peace with things for now #i know they're not going to come around easily if at all it's not their way #and that's okay #i'm at peace with that right now #does it suck? absolutely #but like...i'm tired of trying to fix it #i'm not sure it could be called broken in the first place #unfortunately i'm pretty sure the underlying structure of my relationship with them is the way they want #i'm just not playing by their rules anymore and i'm showing off the structural issues in the familial bonds #but i'm tired of navigating the bullshit and playing their stupid games #intentional or not they've been terrible to me for a very long time #and it's not my fault nor is it my responsibility to do anything about it

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Alpha's Temptation - Chapter 39 - Part 3

*Warning Adult Content*

When I wake up my knees and shoulders are throbbing.

I'm kneeling against hard, cement ground and feel the sensation of cold metal around both of my wrists.

I blink a few times, my eyes adjusting to the dim light of my surroundings.

"Finally awake, dear brother?" Theo's snobby voice infiltrates my eardrums.

I try to yank my arms free only to realize they're chained to the wall.

I growl as I realize what's happened.

We're in some type of bunker-like room with no windows and only a dim, flickering light on the ceiling. We must be underground.

Probably connected to one of the catacomb passageways.

Theo stands before me with about fifteen Alphas behind him, all of them with the same, glazed over look in their eyes.

They're drugged up.

They look abnormal.

I recognize a few of them, absolutely deformed by steroids.

They're not the men they once were.

My brother ruined them.

All for this sick plan of his, whatever it is.

"Why am I here?" I ask lowly.

"You snooped and got caught, don't act surprised."

Shit. So he found out what Tristan and I were up to.

"You don't have anything to say for yourself?" Theo prods.

Theo steps aside to reveal my friend and the sight of him fills me with relief.

Until I realize he's avoiding eye contact with me.

Wait... he should be in chains like I am, if he got caught too.

"You're on your own now Daemon. And you alone will pay for your crimes," Theo's words seal the betrayal and I can't believe it.

I'm not even phased by Theo doing this.

He's always has it out for me.

But Tristan?

The man I have never once doubted my trust in?

This is unbelievable.

I send him an icy glare but bite my tongue.

Theo is the biggest problem at the moment.

"My crimes? Look what you've done to these men. They're not even human anymore," I say.

"Who cares what they are? They depend on me and do what I say," he shrugs.

"Only because you have them drugged and addicted."

"And so what? It turns out when you take advantage of things like drugs it reaps you a lot of rewards," he adds, grinning cruelly at me.

And then it clicks into place.

What the reward he's gotten is.

The role of Head Alpha.

Wolfsbane...

He said something about growing it.

A werewolf sedative.

The realization comes crashing down on me all at once, along with anger. Hot, boiling anger.

"It was you. You're the one who did this to Lucien. You poisoned him," I growl in distaste.

He starts clapping his hands like the madman he is.

Does he think he's some type of mastermind villain?

God, he's so pathetic.

"Congratulations on figuring that out, you dunce. But what are you going to do? Tell the council? I don't think you want to try that."

"What does that mean?" I glare at him.

"Because then I'd tell them about your little mate. You know, the Omega from the enemy pack that Lucien has been secretly keeping."

My blood runs cold.

Because by council ordinances, the punishment for an enemy infiltrating the pack is execution.

Theo laughs at the look on my face.

"Not so tough now, are you?"

"Fuck. You," I growl, trying not to lose it at him calling my mate a runt.

"Curse at me all you want. It's not going to get you anywhere. I'm in charge here. I have the power to do whatever I want with your mate."

My eyes widen, my heart seizing in alarm.

"No. Don't bring him into this. I will take the blame for everything," I quickly try to change the course of the conversation back to me instead of my mate.

"Do you mean that?"

"Yes. Just don't touch him. Don't touch him. Please," I beg, a desperate tone coming to my voice.

Not Ash.

Anything but that.

"Don't try to act like you're some valiant hero saving your mate. You're rogue scum. Remember that."

I bite back any retaliation.

Let him say what he wants.

What I can't afford is making this situation worse and putting my mate at risk.

"Alright. Here's how this will go. You're going to summon your mate. Sever any bond with him. Make him hurt. And then this guy here," he taps Tristan on the shoulder. "Is gonna take you out to the pack boundary and shoot you through the skull. How's that for an end to your undeserved life?"

I've only felt fear like this twice in my life.

The first was the night of my mother's murder.

The second was when I got the call that Ash had gone missing after the football game.

And the third time is now.

Cold, harrowing fear that spreads throughout my body because no matter how strong or capable I am, I cannot beat my brother in this moment.

Every single odd is against me.

I used to want to die.

I thought about ending it all a couple of times.

But not anymore.

Not after finding the light of my life, my beautiful, loving mate that's become my entire world.

I can't die.

I can't leave him alone in this cruel place.

I can't lose his warm touches and pretty smiles and the way he makes me feel more alive than I've ever been in all my twenty two years of life.

I can't.

I need to make Theo see reason.

"Look, I get you're mad that I snooped and shit... But why all this, Theo? We're brothers."

"Shut your trap. We're not brothers," he spits. "And you're asking why? You know why. My mother died and it was your fault. You ruined our family. You deserve this."

"I know I messed our family up. I know. But I have repented for years. Do you really think Rose would have wanted this?"

"Don't say her name. You don't deserve to," he shouts.

"Theo..."

"We had everything. Everything."

Theo grabs at the air, as if trying to catch something that isn't there.

"I had such a bright future. Then you come along. I lose my mother and the father I once knew and suddenly I have nothing. You don't like the drugs? They were the only thing that kept me sane."

He pulls down his shirt, showing me his wrists littered with self-inflicted scars and needle marks.

"This is the future you replaced that bright one with."

"I tried to help you."

"Don't you get it? None of it matters now. She's gone. And soon you will be too."

"Can you... can you at least think this through? Do you realize what you're doing?"

He whips around, face red with anger.

"NO. WHY DO YOU GET TO BE HAPPY? WHY, WHEN YOU MADE US SUFFER SO MUCH! WHY DO YOU GET TO FALL IN LOVE AND HAVE A MATE AFTER YOU TOOK MY FATHER'S AWAY?"

Tears have built up in his eyes but I don't feel sympathy for him.

I suffered too.

But did I become like this, ruining others lives because I hate my own?

Did Ash? Did Lucien? No.

I grit my teeth, not wanting to further his hysteria.

Theo recovers from his outburst, adjusting his glasses with a cough.

"Well, if you don't like that plan, how about a new one? There are many ways I can make you suffer. Like... Oh. Why don't I bring your Omega here? And you can watch, bound by silver chains impossible to break, as every Alpha in here takes turns raping him. I'll even get Henry out of his cell and let him have his long awaited fuck."

That's when I lose it.

I wrench violently against the chains, my eyes going red.

"I'LL KILL YOU. I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU," I roar, feeling my wolf simmering to the surface.

How dare he?

How fucking dare he?

NO ONE TOUCHES MY MATE.

"He's shifting."

"Quick, boys. The tranquilizer," I hear Theo say through my blurry, rage-filled haze.

I feel a prick in my neck and start feeling drowsy.

But that doesn't stop me from jerking against the chains again, having the prominent urge to kill every single person in here for threatening my mate.

"Another, like last time. He's too damn big."

I feel a second prick in my back and unwillingly succumbing to the darkness.

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Organized Crime Ring in Astoria, NY, in a neighborhood under the jurisdiction of 114th PRECINCT and in apartment buildings managed by CENTRAL ASTORIA, LLC. I have been the victim of TARGETED COMMUNITY HARASSMENT SINCE SUMMER 2016 because of my race and gender, I am an African American woman (because of a rumor / gossip mill started by staff at NYC DEPARTMENT OF EDUCATION while I was employed there from 2014 to 2016 I was made the victim of TARGETED PSYCHOLOGICAL HARASSMENT). Due to the illegal access and leaking of private, personal, confidential information by wiretapping / cloning / hacking of personal devices and illegal surveillance in my residence. This includes leaking of confidential medical information (HPV, strains that can cause cervical cancer and an Abortion) - Blackberry Messenger (BBM) between DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON and myself in MARCH 2011 - I ENDED OUR CASUAL DATING RELATIONSHIP that began in the BRONX, NY in MAY 2010 (per a blind date hook up by mutual acquaintance SHO CLARK) - POST 2 of 3 - BBM Exchange with DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON MARCH 2011 pages 1 through 2)

DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON'S Blackberry Messenger (BBM) Pin # is 3232520E.

This conversation started out with DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON reaching out to me to get $$ to repair the brand new SONY PLAYSTATION game console I bought him for his birthday in NOVEMBER 2010 and then turned into him asking me for $$ to pay his rent because apparently he had just decided while we were in this conversation to pay to repair the PLAYSTATION with his rent money, which was $140, with the assumption that I would just give him the $$ because I have taken care of him in the past when he needed things.

I did not give him too much $$ maybe $50 on a couple of occassions, but I did send hella care packages of toiletries and basic needs as well as personal items he left in US, paid a speeding ticket he had in NYS, and used calling cards to call him before he had access to Internet.

Based on this history, I guess he felt I would just give him the money but I did not and I ended things with him after this exchange. I believe DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON thought I was his personal ATM after awhile.

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3232520E: "I got it repaired but I used my rent money to do it"

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ME: "Ok so wtf is all this about?"

3232520E: "So if I can't my money from denver tomorrow I will have an issue" (denver is the basketball team DEVIN played for in EL SALVADOR, CENTRAL AMERICA)

3232520E: "Hate your shakiness that is what this is all about"

ME: "U making shit up ME: " Now" ME: "U being shakey"

3232520E: "If u can help me please do" 3232520E: "Ummmm no"

ME: "Yes u are" ME: "Wtf u telling me about some shit's that's already repaired"

3232520E: "I just took 140 dollars to fix it because it is cheaper than mailing it and getting it sent back…."

ME: "That's fine but its done already so y r we even talking about it?"

3232520E: "I just fixed it I'm not even powering it on till I get to the new house"

ME: "Ok"

3232520E: "Because I need help in paying for it"

ME: "I can't help u" ME: "Sorry" ME: "U prob won't get money from me until I feel we r in a different kind of place cause all I'm gonna think is ur going to use the money I give you on someother chick"

(At this point I knew about DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON and 19 year old gf, ELISA VELASQUEZ (he is 30 at this point, I think this is a little gross and borderline pee-dough, 19 is still a baby as far as I am concerned even though I know girls tend to mature faster than boys, but anywho)

I found out DEVIN was "in a relationship" by stumbling upon his relationship status accidentally on Facebook instead of him telling me.

DEVIN was up front about his polyamorous lifestyle before he moved which is why I never fully took things seriously especially since we were long distance as well, I was just having fun for these reasons and some others until I did not want to have fun anymore.

DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON stated he would tell me about such things, these were his words I expected him to stand on them but he didn't, I sat on this information for at least a month at this point.

I was waiting and giving him the chance to tell me like he claimed he would, but he never did so this is where my mind was at at this point and eventually at the end of this conversation, which is somewhere on a computer / usb drive, I basically told him, if you are claiming women on FB, ask them for money, don't call on me from another country when you have a gf right there. Don't try to play me because I thought he and I were better than that)

ME: "If you need something tangible"

3232520E: "Was hoping u would at least go half with me in fixing it since I'm not mailing it anymore…."

ME: "For urself" ME: "I can help but actual $" ME: "Feel funny about it" ………………….

3232520E: "Can u phathom all the negative things I want to say to u right now….."

ME: "I'm sure"

3232520E: "I have a contract to sign tomorrow so I can have a place to live since margarito asked me to move out"

3232520E: "And u have the nerve to downplay my needs to that of money going to some chick" 3232520E: "Right" 3232520E: "Thank u"

ME: "y would u use rent $ to repair ps3" ME: "?"

3232520E: "So much for" 3232520E: "Your understanding"

ME: "Because first of all u lied about the ps3" ME: "?" 3232520E: "I what" ME: "U made it seem like it still needed to be repaired"

3232520E: "I never lie" 3232520E: "I'm done" 3232520E: "Fuck u" ………………. 3232520E: "All u do is urk me"

ME: "Did u not just make it seem as if it still neede to b" ME: "Sent back here"

3232520E: "Every fucking time u bleed"

(So, I had to add some context to this just because I think it's utterly ridiculous and laughable and shows how deeply misogynistic DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON is.

This is a tired ass thing for a man to say to a woman; blame us having a disagreement because I have my period? This is like middle school / high school sh!t; most men don't seem to bypass this maturity level anyway so I suppose I should not have been surprised he would say such a stupid thing that is patently false.

First of all, this is a blanket misogynist statement, while I do acknowledge that as women we go through hormonal changes that can alter our moods in different degrees at any point during our menstrual cycle, not just when we are actually bleeding, but whatever that altered state is, if at all, it varies from woman to woman.

When you have been around me longer than a month then we can talk.

For DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON to put that out there as if its true and as if he knows anything about when I bleed is ridiculous.

I don't recall if I actually had my period during the time of this exchange, based on what I guesstimate to be the date of this exchange it's entirely possible I did have my period but DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON has literally only been around me possibly 1 time during my period if I had my period during the month we hung out in NYC before he moved and if I did I may or may not have hung out with him during this time or for at least part of this time.

If we did hangout, I don't recall him saying anything about "my bleeding" during that period of a little over a month that we physically spent together during SUMMER 2010 and we did not hang out everyday, maybe 2 - 4 days each week, after we met in person about a week or so after we started talking on the phone.

Most of the time we were "hanging out" was spent in 2 different countries.

I met DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON in late MAY 2010 in NYC, DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON moved to EL SALVADOR, CENTRAL AMERICA the first week of JULY 2010. I literally spent about 1 month in DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON'S physical presence, including the 3 day weekend I visited him in NOVEMBER 2010 to celebrate our birthdays together.

DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON has not been around me long enough to know how the hell I am when I bleed.

DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON was basically trying to deflect from his poor decision making and throwing a temper tantrum because I wouldn't give him money; antagonize me for no reason, that will certainly get you what you want, sure….lol.

Additionally, to further point out the obsurdity of DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON'S statement, the 2 actual relationships I have had in my life of which I spent more time with each of them than my hanging out with DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON, neither one of them has ever said anything about my period being a catalyst for an argument / disagreement.

Those men had been around me physically for more than 1 instance of my period. The first relationship was with a man I met shortly after graduating college whom I lost my virginity to, he was around me for at least 12 periods, not once did he ever say you know when you bleed you are this or that or you must have your period why are you are being a b…., etc. lol.

The other relationship lasted for 4 years with an additional year and a half of toxic uncoupling (for more details see any post about WILFRED SHAWN KIRKLADY) You will see the receipts of WILFRED SHAWN KIRKALDY saying some pretty sh!tty, disrespectful, emotionally / verbally abusive things to me and generally doing the most with his extreme and erratic thinking / behavior and the tendancy to attempt to tear down my self esteem with some of his comments, however you won't see him saying anything about everytime I bleed yadda yadda yadda.

I don't recall WILFRED SHAWN KIRKALDY stating that in any of those communications, additional communications that I have not posted, or any verbal argument we ever had.

WILFRED had been around me for at least 60 periods, where at least over a dozen were while we lived together under the same roof, so DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON was basically just pulling sh!t out of his ass because of his emotional immaturity and instability.

And for additional TMI, I can be irritable and more impatient than normal, but not angry irritable (and if I sense that because I have been with myself through many periods obviously, I am in my late 40s and hope to be in perimenopause cause I'm over this annoyance and don't want children so pointless, anywho, I will stay to myself, take some aspirin, if available a heating pad, watch youtube videos, and just lay down and rest especially for the first 2 to 3 days.

I literally don't have all the energy for the nonsense DEVIN ELTON THOMPSON is talking about, DEVIN just wanted to blame me for a problem he created.

I am a sleepy / sluggish / lethargic / bloated / sensitive (romantically and generally), withdrawn, quiet, and prone to shed some tears from watching a scene in a movie or some ish like that period girl, so all this "bleeding" agressive, vindictive bitch energy I was supposedly giving him isn't even my style, maybe its some other woman he was with in the past or present, maybe he got us confused since we all / most of us are interchageable and seem to just be a scapegoat, anatomy to achieve sexual pleasure and / or a money / resource tree for him, and not necessarily a fully fleshed out human being, lol)

3232520E: "No dick"

ME: "For"

3232520E: "I was at the place"

ME: "Me to send it back to sony?

3232520E: " Considering what was my best option" (DEVIN ELTON THOMPSPON'S best option would have been to pay his rent instead of using the money to repair a video game console and trying to get me to pay for it as if he is not a grown ass 30 yr old man with an actual girlfriend in EL SALVADOR, that should be able to help him out if being claimed on Facebook, BTW, a girlfriend that he still at this point had no clue that I knew about and had known about for like a month before this exchange. I was waiting to see if he would tell me outright without me having to prompt it out of him or having to spill the tea myself.

I didn't care about the girlfriend because we were not exclusive and because of the non negotiables he told me about before he moved I never took our situation that seriously, I liked him but not enough to overlook the red flags / dealbreakers; I was just there to have fun and have an experience until I felt it was time to move on.

I only cared that he did not tell me like he stated he would. I approach each person I meet as an individual, if the energy matches my energy and you are cool, easy going like myself, and the energy seems to be positive and not negative then I will rock with you until you show me different.

I was willing to help him out still if he needed help with actual things like toothpaste, socks, etc but no money (basically all the basic toiletries and other basic needs shit I sent to him when he first moved because he appeared to have moved to EL SALVADOR, CENTRAL AMERICA with a wing and a prayer, the clothes on his back and maybe a toothbrush, lol; based on all the stuff he asked for, I purchased and mailed him).

If I could help without putting myself out on some friendship sh!t, like I rock with you because you are a human being that I like and we vibe I was willing to do it but since he was not talking about the things he claimed he was going to be honest about then I can't rock with you no more because you just don't respect me on a basic human level and I have no choice but to think that you are just using me.

I just wanted him to stand by his word and he did not and then tried to turn this whole thing around on me as if I owed him anything in life. I was not his mom, family member, his girlfriend, just some chick he got hooked up with through a mutual acquaintaince less than a year ago.

There must have been a number of people of higher priority level above me that could have helped him out in his time of need)

3232520E: "U calling me a liar" 3232520E: "I just fixed it while I was writing u telling u the cost to send it"

ME: "Ok"

3232520E: "I shouldn't have to explain myself any fucking way"

(DEVIN is asking me for money and claims he does not need to explain himself/ I'm sorry but the audacity of some of these mofos, no shame. In general, not even on some man / woman -ish, if someone asks for money there should be some kind of explanation involved, especially with the information I have in my back pocket.

I'm thinking to myself ask your 19 year old gf, don't ask me. If you are claiming you are in a relationship with someone they should have your back and maybe you don't have to explain yourself to them, idk)

3232520E: "U want to doubt me" 3232520E: "And be a biutch saying money is going to some other bitch" 3232520E: "And u wonder why we ain't in a cool place" 3232520E: "Are you fucking kidding me" 3232520E: "U think this is what I want or expect from someone who loves me" 3232520E: "Can't stop thinking about me" 3232520E: "U r the fucking liar not me"

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