#i don’t wanna feel like that!?

[likelylarks]

xx

#there’s like suddenly so much maxiel angst/break up fic and also an acceptance that daniel won’t be on the grid next year #AND WHERE DID BOTH OF THESE THINGS COME FROM #why is the general vibe sad and angsty and resigned???? #when did we (the general you) all decide to feel like that?? #i don’t wanna feel like that!? #honestly!! i just #feel very lonely in my faith in daniel tbh #and feel very weird about wanting to write and read nice equally supportive maxiel #idk i’m just!! it’s very weird vibes to me rn/for the last little while and it feels like they came out of nowhere

[leo-bandito]

something something gman tommy something something gordon in stasis. you know how it is.

#GOD TUMBLR ATE THE FUCKING QUALITY. JESUS CHRIST. #This is a lil rough lookin cos it’s uhhhh . One it’s like a month old and 2 it took me like an hour w no real thought or effort #Anyway #I Feel Normal . Im normal. It’s whatever #THIS IS BASED ON NOTHING . other than this has been haunting me. The hypotheticaaaallllllsssssss aaauuughhhhhhbhhh #hl2vrai #hlvrai #tommy coolatta #should. I tag ol gordon here ? #I dont. Know. I don’t wanna Fuck up th hl tag #whatever. #hlvrai 2 #gordon freeman #gordon feetman #hlvrai gordon #hlvrai tommy #If they do do smth w stasis it’ll fuck me up so bad cos. ONE . #that means Gordon never got to go home. fucked up. Fucked up #TWO . It’s so. AUIUHGHH. It’s one thing w like. in the hl2 canon of Gman this like. Mysterious freak fuckin around w Gordon #Where it’s just an uncaring omnipotent Guy taking you in and out of limbo as he pleases #but with like. Dr coomer specifically tryna contact Gordon and TOMMY BEING GMAN. FUCK. it’s like. Now it’s your friends. #now it’s your friends who need you and are trying to help you along. putting you into place. THERES SO MUCH MORE WEIGHT THERE #this might be me reaching but it’s like. ohhhh my god #wgatever. What the fuck ever #EDIT: SOMEONE JST POINTED THIS OUT AND THIS WASNT ON PURPOSE I SWEAR TO GOD. HES KINDA IN TH FUCKED UP VR CROUCH POSE. FUCK . FUCK

[ursamajori]

god i love being SOOO obnoxious about my ocs everyone should be 50% more obnoxious about their ocs right neow

#starspeak #get obnoxious (oc tag) #ttrpgs #my campaigns #edit: everything after these tags are from the og post— they’re just kinda me ranting but i don’t wanna get rid of them #due to the fact that it adds how fucking funny it is that this post got popular and it was just. me rambeling #anyways. #-> #literally guy who gave their character a whole birthday week and is celebrating him that whole week #like girl he’s fake……..just kidding cas is real To Me #this is fully positive there is NO self deprecation here i’m being dead serious #also i’m celebrating all week to hide the fact that this is the busiest week of the year at my work #and i’m already sick so it’s gonna be downhill from here 🥲 #casboy’s gotta get me through it ok #not Sick sick i just don’t feel well. at least tmrw is my day off i probably need Rest #oops didn’t mean to rant a bit here but oh well. happy birthday week cas

[tedzyrotten]

you say you want me, but you know i’m not what you need, but i am.

#sleep token #sleep token posting #sleep token vessel #sleep token iv #i wanna post some faves from this set later #but i had a feeling tumblr would like this one especially so i’m posting it now :P #i don’t actually know what song this was during i just captioned it the song i was listening to lol

[fumifooms]

That. That screentone on Chilchuck’s chest in the low open collar. Is Chilchuck having chest hair canon Kui. Kui? Gripping my knee

#Need to make a post for this on its own actually #Chilchuck tims #Dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #‘She didn’t draw any in the sauna chapter’ She does the same with Senshi and we know that she thinks he actually has lots #It could also be finer/paler etc. This panel is a close up with a lot of details like seams #plus it’s one of the final chapters so Kui prob had more time and motivation to go all out #Bc like what. Is it blood from the intestines. If his forearms are fine I don’t see why his chest wouldn’t be #Never forget Chil canonically has gray hairs…… Just selectively #Edit: ok I now see that yeah prob a mistake. Still gonna run with it tho #Screentone struggle is so real I feel u Kui #The tags were me explaining why it’s plausible but still not the intent tho the result is the same either way. Don’t wanna spread misinfo

[cryptvokeeper]

Also idk maybe it was too subtle but. when oppenheimers wife takes him by the shoulders and says, “stop trying to make people pity you for the sins you committed” like. I just kind of figured that was a pretty explicit indictment of his actions and makes me struggle to take the “Oppenheimer is just a movie about a sad white mans feelings” arguments in good faith.

#oppenheimer #idk man I don’t wanna discount the feelings of Japanese people or native people on the whole thing #but I feel like this movies does it’s due diligence in reminding you Oppenheimer was in fact problematique #And a general moviegoing audience’s potential failure to think critically about the atomic bomb isn’t the fault of the movie

[angelforever]

from @abordeanbeautyqueen ౨ৎ

#girl blogger #coquette #lana del rey #girlblogger #girlblogging #pinterest #lizzy grant #dollette #this is what makes us girls #hell is a teenage girl #this is a girlblog #girl blogging #girlhood #girl hysteria #pink #the virgin suicides #cinnamon girl #im just a girl #girl interrupted #tumblr girls #black swan #omg I feel like I haven’t posted in ages #also trying to learn russian and im actually having so much fun so far #I don’t wanna go to school tomorrow #also ttpd out on friday I’m so excited!!!!!!!!

[elviraaxen]

pone pone pone pone pone picknick yeah!!!!!!

#welcome home #fanart #mlp #crossover #i dont feel like tagging each character so EH #in hindsight I should’ve put Home somewhere else bc he’s too similar in color to Eddies tail but I DON’T WANNA EDIT IT im done 😂 #my art #huh… the colors on the full screen version is desaturated 🤔 weird!

[adhd-languages]

When someone speaks a foreign language in public and I’m desperately trying not to stare like I’m sorry I’m not racist I just desperately want to hear the different vowel sounds you’re making. sorry.

#also every time I hear a language in public I wanna figure out what it is #and don’t even get me started on if it’s one I recognize #if it’s Japanese I’m like #if they say one of the few words I can understand I go insane #even if they just use particles. and I hear/recognize them. it’s so exciting for me #<-(I’m a nerd and this is what qualifies as fun for me) #but also it’s rude to stare and eavesdrop too much I’m sure #and I don’t want people to feel uncomfortable #Quinn posts #language #langblr #linguistics #language learning #languages #100 #500

[bpdohwhatajoy]

Being autistic is just people constantly violating your boundaries you already struggle to maintain

#ryan.txt #autism #actually autistic #no I don’t want to fucking call #I don’t like talking on the phone unless it’s my fp and you’re not that #so stop trying to pressure me I don’t wanna talk I just want to watch my movies that relate to my special interest in peace #people always getting mad at me when I don’t wanna talk on the phone like what the fuck #and they make me feel like the bad guy #I’m literally just chilling watching my damn movies bro pls I don’t wanna talk to people #bitches always act like it’s fine that ur autistic until ur actually autistic and it’s more than a label #it’s sad how many of you relate #this shouldn’t be the case #fuck people #you guys deserve so much better

[designernishiki]

#majima #goro majima #yakuza #this is from majima no majirock in case anyone was wondering #everytime i hear it it fucking Kills me #rambling #audio #the image I used there also kills me but for slightly different reasons #I’m convinced he’s pretty into choking now because of that image. but anyway #I have a couple more stupid audio things I wanna post but I don’t feel like dealing with more audio clipping/converting and whatnot today

[a-sketchy]

fine, i’ll will her into existence myself

psst, full version here

#hamuko arisato #kotone shiomi #wip #my art #uh. i guess? i’m painting directly over the p3r minato battle outfit art #so it feels weird taking credit for it #but on the other hand i’ve spent like 6 hours on this so far #rendering is soooo fucking hard. not having to vibe out the forms of an anime face is nice though #i should do paintovers more often they’re real fun #god i don’t wanna do her fucking bow and hands. and legs and skirt. and naginata #fuck. pray for me #p3r

[haunteddollgender]

Let’s hear some noise for femme lesbians who are kind of guys

For those of us who have short hair, facial hair, body hair, who use he/him pronouns, who want to be handsome more than beautiful, who are overtly gnc, pls affirm our masculinity too.

Just as some butches find their femininity in their masculinity, some femmes find our masculinity in our femininity. And we desire it.

Like I’m a femme dyke who often dates butch dykes. And I’m also a transmasc person who often dates other transmasc ppl, those being the butch dykes. The amount of lesbians who are just kind of gay boys is rly insane. Go to a lesbian bar and i promise you a bunch of those women are twinks and bears.

And don’t make assumptions about that either, because in basically all my past relationships, I’ve been the bear

Celebrating lesbian visibility week means acknowledging transmasc/multigendered lesbians. Even if we don’t fit your idea of what a transmasc/multigendered person looks like

#edit: a lottttt of ppl reblogging this without the additions and tbh. don’t #original tags: #like I’m honestly so fr abt this #it’s very difficult sometimes to wanna be seen as a femme lesbian but also wanna be seen as somewhat a dude #like it always feels like I have to choose and split myself up into pieces. like no matter what I can’t be both even tho I am #I’m so stoned rn I probably sound insane but like I know I can’t possibly be the only one feeling this #lesbian #wlw

[theghoulboysblog]

saw ryan bergara be interviewed tonight at a college and OMG. IT WAS AMAZING. SO ANYWAY, I THOUGHT I WOULD SHARE SOME VERY BRIEF HIGHLIGHTS FROM THAT NIGHT:

- he restated that he believes that shane is a robot in the way that he simply does not process emotion.

- according to ryan: “we [him and shane] actually are friends! … unfortunately! 😭”

- he said that he sees shane the most out of everyone else in his life. second only to maybe his wife.

- he told the story about how he and shane met and become friends! <3

- ryan wants his last words to be “keep rolling!” ? 😟

- ryan wants to be swallowed by aliens ??? 😟

- ryan wants to be killed by an alien in front of all his loved ones ????? 😟

- ryan brings up the fact that shane always says that if aliens exist, they should be smart enough not to let themselves be seen. to that, ryan asks the very awesome question of, “WHY CAN’T THERE BE DIPSHIT ALIENS?” 😭

- his favorite moment with shane is when they almost died! (as they were on a boat in an extremely dangerous situation, they watched a thunderstorm together while staring at the skyline and stars. shane said, “nice night.” and ryan said, “yeah.” and they stood in silence.)

- ryan was asked how shane convinced him to be a guest in puppet history, and ryan said that shane didn’t have to convince him at all. ryan said that he genuinely loves puppet history, even if he has to pretend that he doesn’t! :)

- apparently, shane never actually has the songs done during their recording, so most of the time he’s playing some voice memo rough draft (which is why ryan is so distressed every time a song is played in puppet history) and the actual finished song is added in post 😭

- ryan said that if anything happened to shane, he would probably be the one going to prison because of all the threatening jokes he’s made towards him 😭 he thinks people will just assume it’s him 💀 LMAOOO

anyway the show was great, ryan threw t-shirts into the crowd, was asked about his sneakers, and talked about his dog for a while!

very fun! AND i met a very kind girl who was nice enough to airdrop me some pictures of ryan because mine were trash! (the 2nd photo in this post was taken by her btw so full credit to her for that!) 💛

#watcher #watcher entertainment #we are watcher #ryan bergara #shane madej #besties fr #shane and ryan #thought everyone needed this info! #she took more photos but i don’t wanna post them #just because it feels kinda weird posting photos someone else took in a way??? 😭 #it feels like photo plagiarism somehow??? 😭 #i’m prolly being dramatic #especially because ppl told me it was fine but the photos she took are so GORG i don’t wanna take credit for them at all!!! 😭

[edenfenixblogs]

Well Drawfee is officially no longer safe media for me :(

Karina liked multiple tweets conflating a PSA for antisemitism with Israeli propaganda and claiming that Israel planned its assault to coincide with the superbowl…

Julia liked posts claiming that the war isn’t a war. Nobody has liked anything about antisemitism or even acknowledging Jews are in danger right now.

TBH I’m devastated.

I have Drawfee art all over my home. I was actually gonna become a patron this year. I’d literally been saving to make it feasible. This is crushing. I feel sick.

#leftist antisemitism #antisemitism #drawfee #heartbroken #debated putting this in the Drawfee tag or not #but ultimately I think it’s important #I don’t wanna start fandom drama or Discourse TM #I just want there to be a record of how their silence on antisemitism #and liking of conspiratorial tweets #is affecting a very fragile community #and Nathan being Jewish doesn’t change this for me #his Jewishness does not shield me from his coworkers antisemitism #even though I wanna believe that antisemitism is unintentional #and I’m so happy for Nathan if he feels supported by his friends and coworkers #he obviously knows them better than I ever will #and I’m not calling in Jews to take sides over this or anything #I’m happy that Nathan doesn’t seem to be affected by this #it must mean he has a wonderful support system and that his friends and coworkers are better #at showing their support irl than they are online #and that is important and valid #but it doesn’t change how it affects Jews like me who only experience them through a screen #and do not have a support system #they don’t owe me anything #I don’t expect anything from any of them #but I also cannot deny that I am harmed #by the fact that they didn’t acknowledge the conflict until it affected people who aren’t Jewish #and have still not acknowledged that it affects people who are Jewish #and I especially cannot handle Karina’s clear support for the idea that a Super Bowl PSA for antisemitism prevention #is somehow a sinister Israeli plot and not evidence of the terrible time that Jews like me are having rn #I feel like I lost a friend tbh

[pearlsdiamondsandvodka]

the sandra lynn / fig conversation is driving me Insane. fig saying that sometimes she doesn’t wanna exist as herself at all…not wanting to ask her friends how they see her (because she’s afraid to hear their response) saying that to someone she is a monster and she Cannot stop thinking about it. sandra lynn starting the conversation saying she needs to step up but is also simultaneously taken aback about what fig expresses and doesn’t know how to responds to it and suggests getting ice cream. sandra lynn saying “convincing people they deserve good things is really tough” talking about herself but how it also reflects fig. insane!!

#if that conversation had kept going I would have started bawling!! #fully believe brennan was like ‘well oh shit this is getting dark and heavy quick let’s uh get some snow cones’ #I will say I think Emily does a beautiful job here of showing teenage life #not a universal experience perhaps but definitely a common one #feeling so lost and insecure in who you are and under so much pressure to be a certain way #and her saying she doesn’t wanna exist #vs me resonating with ‘I don’t wanna die sometimes I wish I’d never been born at all’ lyrics #it was hard to watch ngl but it’s also bc Emily does Such a good job w emotional scenes!! #that woman is so emotionally invested you get emotional invested as well #if Emily axford cries I cry with her #and loved to see more of Sandra Lynn again <3 #damn good scene #dimension 20 #fantasy high #fantasy high spoilers #fantasy high junior year #fig faeth #sandra lynn faeth #emily axford #brennan lee mulligan